People think that asking a homeless drug addict the wrong questions can be "traumatic." I think thats more projection than anything. Living on skidrow this woman deals with more trauma inducing things on a daily basis, than being asked a few questions she agreed to inside of a studio. Things happen to homeless woman on a daily basis in downtown LA that you could not even imagine. Nothing about this interview needs to be changed.
Geno Grinberg F*****ck! Somebody finally gets it! Thank you Geno. All these commenters sitting on their couches passing judgement have no understanding of the reality of street life, especially for females on Skid Row. I’m certain I’m the most considerate male this woman has interacted with in all her years on Skid Row, even with my probing questions. I can guarantee that every day on Skid Row she gets treated in ways that would scar these commenters emotionally for years. FYI, Kimberly asked me recently when she she can come back and talk with me again.
L W how do you know they don’t wan to face their issues?...maybe they don’t know how to. Lots of people, especially females that have been raped or molested have kept it bottled up. Not because they don’t want to but because they don’t know how to or they’re scared of the consequences. He’s not forcing these people into getting interviewed. He’s giving them the opportunity to tell their stories. Emotions, trauma can’t be bottled up they need to be released. This can be their form of releasing it.
I imagine that's why many agree to the interviews in the first place, or at least one of the main reasons. They know that they could disappear tomorrow and might never be found...this way their lives have been documented and can be remembered at least. Depressing to think about, but that's reality.
The fact that she described her son as "perfect" and gave him to a good home and won't talk to him until she gets her life right says so much about her character.
When he probed about the abuse she immediately asked if she can do some drugs. There was desperation in the way she asked. Man that really broke my heart :/ She's clearly got some trauma she's trying to manage.
Felicia I agree wholeheartedly with you. She looks and acts like a scared little girl. Trauma as a child can sometimes stunt a person's emotional/ social growth.
lovely lipsticklady it definitely has for her. She seems really shy and scared. She wouldn’t hurt a soul and I pray and hope she gets the help she needs. She’s extremely fragile and to think somebody hurt her makes me very sad 😔
Kiko San no I don’t want her to suffer I want her to get help and I want her to know she is loved and none of us want her to leave this world soon. She’s a beautiful person who still has breathe in her body. She has a chance to get help and possibly be united with her son.
she did make mistakes but she took her responsibility and im so glad she did. my birth mom did so so many drugs when she was pregnant with me, drugged me as a baby to keep me quiet, and i wish so badly that she chose to never let me experience that. but i have a unbelievable amount of respect for this woman. it takes so much to pull yourself out of the situation and think what’s best for our kids, and this woman is one of the many few who do so.
This is the hardest video that I have watched so far. This girl ripes my heart to pieces. Giving up a child because you know that you're not capable of taking care of him/her has got to be the epitome of "selflessness" God Bless Her
Sherry Graham Smith idk giving up a child because you would rather go run the streets and get high is not exactly the epitome of selflessness. It’s actually very selfish. That child will grow up wondering why he wasn’t enough
I started crying when she smiled and straightened up when speaking about her son. That is the one hope she hangs onto. Her world is closing down on her and you can just see how crushed and trapped she feels. You can literally see the life squeezing out of her. She breaks my heart.
The way her face lit up when she started talking about her son made me tear up. After all the trauma she’s been through, she’s still able to love. I hope she can become well enough to see him soon.
Me too....I wanna know if she's left this world for a better place b/c she almost seemed like she was hoping for that. Omg and the way she kept saying, "I just gotta do me." Yes, you do.
Her trauma is so deep she can’t even speak the words. Everyday she relives trauma she never should’ve experienced. She punishes herself over and over again for what others have done to her. So heartbreaking...
Ya, the reason she speaks like that is because of the PCP not trauma. As someone in recovery I know former PCP addicts, and many of them still have trouble formulating sentences even after years of being clean.
(To Mark Laita/ the interviewer @Soft White Underbelly) Regarding asking the interviewees about sexual abuse - In order to not accidentally retraumatize interviewees with your questioning, some suggestions: Avoid asking about sexual abuse in or near the beginning of the interview, as enough trust, safety, & comfort likely hasn't been established yet. And, very importantly, *never ask for details or prompt them to discuss more than they offer willingly; This is super important when discussing trauma with survivors if you don't want to accidentally retraumatize.* (edit) I respectfully offer these suggestions, as I know you are trying to do good, so assume you would want to mitigate potential harm in any way. Thanks so much for doing & sharing these interviews.
Bump. I know this stuff is important but please be slow and gentle when asking about it, as its a vulnerable thing to talk about (as you obviously know from the name of the channel) and the way its received may affect them a lot x
@@ceIIardoor - I love your comment (AND your name! 😜 AND your candor!) … I did feel tense when she asked, but I also felt sad. And learned what a Pookie pipe is. You learn something new every day…
Could not agree with you more!! These videos should be shown in school s!! They rip out your heart. There are alot of people who were abused, and didn't turn out close to this.
For real, I thought by saying "almost to the end" she meant she thinks she's close to not being homeless anymore, then she hit with the next sentence and you're like damnnn.
I’ve watched dozens and dozens of these interviews, and this young lady effects me deeply. She’s really messed up but has such a kind heart. She wants the best for her son, she’s proud that she’s not a “ho or a booster. I kept my promise.”
Of your interviews that I have watched, this is one the saddest. The homeless are invisible to most of us, and you shine a light onto their plight. I spent my late teens and early twenties homeless and heavily into drugs, and even with assistance it can be almost impossible to escape.
I read some of the negative comments about Mark. Here’s my two cents worth: These are quick and to the point interviews. Most of these people can’t tolerate more than 10 minutes of sitting still and point blank questions. He is literally finding them on the streets of skid row and offering them a few bucks to get their story out to us. He is not a social worker. He is up front honest with them. Soooo, how’s about putting your money where some of your critical mouths are and do what he is doing? He is creating short insights on why people do what they do in segments that most you tubers understand. Far more good comes out of these interviews than bad. Stop your bad talking him and appreciate what he is doing for others to wake TF up about addition, abuse, loneliness, physical & emotional mental illness! I, for one, am extremely grateful to Mark and the people who bravely “put it out there” for the world to see! Bravo to all these souls and the lesson each one gives to us!
Beeintelligent Thank you for the support, Bee. I’m developing a very thick skin. As I said in this comments section somewhere, I’m learning and improving as I do this. To condemn me for making a mistake from an early interview where I may have made a mistake is like chastising a child for misspelling a word six years ago. Does he still misspell that word? Have I improved since this interview from last year? Absolutely, I have and I’ll continue to improve. I’ll add that I believe a lot of this hate is actually just misdirected anger from the shame these videos cause in us. It’s embarrassing what we’ve allowed our country to turn into and when some viewers watch these talks they want to blame whoever is closest and easiest (me) rather than do the hard work required to fix these huge problems.
I agree💯 I think most of the ppl bad bcuz she's female & sweet seeming. I say seeming bcuz I DONT know her. I dont think be said nothing wrong. I think she caught the ppls sensitivity is all
Beeintelligent - yeah, bee. But there is a right way & a wrong way to go about things. Regardless of whatever his Credentialings/background is. He decided to participate I’m in this platform. And given his role, the burden of responsibility is more on his end. Oven binged one > 10 of these videos tonight (for the 1st time). And now have subscribed. There are some moments, if he just pull back a little. Then re-visit the question in a more delicate way. Or a different way in how he’s asking. He keeps trying to just get his question out. As if he’s a parent talking to a child. Or an Educator talking to a student. These are sensitive situations. And he has to just be careful how he goes about what they’re doing. Otherwise, he’s adding another detrimental layer to the situation. And may not be getting the optimization of what COULD HAVE been in the response. Which defeats the intent of this platform. But I applauded the effort in developing & publishing this channel. These stories will stay with me for a long time! I have already forwarded a bunch to people in my circle. I’m now thinking of what more community outreach reform can be done. To prevent, protect, & remedy the people that can be saved; that do want the help.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly you havent made any mistakes whatso ever. You are giving us what we want to see, visceral reactions to difficult questions. Its what some of us came here to see. Personally, I watch tons of your videos, and i find it very intriguing the way you ask to the point questions and observing reactions. Based on my experiances in life, its always people who are upset that are the most vocal and its always controversial people/content that gets the most views. Please dont change the way you phrase questions because some snowflake thinks theyre gonna hurt a homeless drug addicts "feelings." Thats ridiculous. Thats called PROJECTION, these youtube keyboard warriors are projecting their own feelings onto this woman. They dont live on skidrow, they dont realize that the last thing thats going to traumatize this woman is being asked a few questions about her past in a Studio after agreeing to answer them. SHE LIVES ON THE STREET. Whatever happened to her in the last 24 hours before you picked her up and whatever happened to her in the 24 hours after the interview, was much more traumatizing than any type of question you did/could have asked her.
It's weird that people come on here and comment on looks... That shows how superficial you are, when they on here to tell they stories not to be judged. Weirdos and it's worse coming from a women smh
When she rants it first sounds like gibberish but if you listen carefully you realise her thoughts are so deep there aren’t any words capable of expressing them
You are right on the money, we only hear a few words , but only some can fathom it's where those words come from, the peace she is trying to find in her painful existence, the series of epiphanies that lead to those words, people need to learn how to listen.
She is one of the interwiee that touched me the most, because of her high sense of dignity, and also because of that innocence and inner sadness. I've seen this video for four times at least. I often think about her.
@L E does your comment help ? None of us have the power to help her really. She would need a professional, maybe have a talk with her family. But at least, now I know she exists, I think of her, I pray for her, she taught me a precious lesson : we musn't take anything for granted. I haven't helped her, she has helped me.
@@idag7221 Wow Ida. That got me. You think about her, you pray for her, I haven't helped her, she has helped me, you said. God bless you, whoever you are. I'm moved by this comment, enough to finally write. And you know what?... you helped me and you did help her too. God answers prayer. Keep up the good thoughts, we have to, more than ever these days. Thank you Ida.
@@goldenstringedinstruments5500 thank you very much for taking the time to write those kind words. I wonder how she is doing now... I'm touched by what you said and wish you a wonderful day.
Yes. Beautiful bone structure. Cleaned up, with the right makeup, she could have been a Halle Berry type on a magazine cover somewhere. And good at math too! I really hope she's doing better now. She seemed like such a sweetheart, and this interview was so sad. ❤
Just heart breaking. So wounded, so broken. I watched this vid a few days ago but came back today to find any sort of update. Praying for her to become whole
This broke my heart. I felt like I couldn’t breathe while watching her, she’s so unwell...so very sad. Just saying a statement she sounds like she’s constantly on the precipice with one foot stepping onto nothing but air .. this poor girl.
when she said "biological mother and father" i literally started crying. i can feel her pain through the screen. she needs a hug and love and serious support
@TheGhost Well, she'll get her drug money one way or another either way, at least if she gets it from you she doesn't have to get it in some much worse way. So in some small way you'd still be helping her.
I think Mark goes and picks people up from skid row for interviews. My guess is that he hasn’t run into her lately or as of yet which is probably why there hasn’t been an update on her. I pray she’s alive and safe. Hopefully she’ll turn up. I’m rooting for her.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life
To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.
wow. her asking to use drugs immediately after he was prying too hard at the sexual abuse. this is why people use. trauma. they just need to escape the pain and i get it 100%. i’m a physical and sexual abuse survivor and i do the SAME exact thing with weed & i’m glad i’m not addicted to any hard drugs or alcohol. when she started panicking and wanted to do her drugs- i almost felt her panic. mark, seriously be more mindful about how you conduct interviews. you’re typically very respectful, but you can’t just ask people about sexual abuse like that.
The interviewer is a complete jerk. I have only watched 3 of his vids, and he does the same thing in all of them. Horrible misuse of these people. They need hugs, love, etc....not the bullshit questions from the interviewer.
@@mariaumana4031 I feel he is using these extremely vulnerable people most of whom are addicted to some substance or another. Questions are asked which probably trigger all sorts of deep traumatic memories. I can imagine them getting handed 50 bucks asked to sign a waiver/ disclaimer and shown the door. No safe guarding nil support... Just exploited. I hope I'm wrong.
This must take a massive toll on you. These interviews. I needed to take a break from watching them for a while. This was a particularly tough one. She's so vulnerable.
Lisa Kiely Yes, these talks drain me after a day of listening to people one on one. The upside of this is that my empathy for others has grown tremendously this year because of these talks. Granted, some of these people are so self destructive that it’s hard to relate sometimes, but I try to see that their childhood traumas were the cause in most cases. I appreciate my parents great love and support more than ever now and I’m very grateful for that. I tend to be an extremist and not particularly risk averse, so taking on this kind of project is right up my alley. The fact that it’s so difficult, emotionally draining and dangerous only motivates me to produce more powerful talks in the future. Thank you for noticing how hard what I’m doing is. I had a friend I’ve made who lives on Skid Row sit in on a couple talks and his response was, “I don’t know how you can do this!”. I love doing the impossible. I always have.
Mark... thanks for posting these vids..it definitely takes a toll on the body and emotions listening to these tragic stories..anytime really that we hear unwelcomed verbal abuse out in public, being quick to react to others insensitivity and rudeness takes a toll!...it's a great format you use to interview. Whether the person you interview sees it or not, that backdrop without the distractions and ugliness of the streets.. you put them at ease and sound relaxed, respectful, and when appropriate also a bit of humor..u give them a chance to share their trauma that hopefully at some point help plant a tiny seed to recovery...reminded me of Dr Gabor Mate and his extensive research on child trauma and addiction...th-cam.com/video/ojq-U13726E/w-d-xo.html.. Also, regain Your balance after those draining sessions..grounding! th-cam.com/video/44ddtR0XDVU/w-d-xo.html mc
Maria Calamaco Maria, Thank you for the kind words. The biggest drain, which you guys don’t see is that I have to sit through about ten of these to get one that’s worth editing and posting. That’s the really draining part. When my subject is eloquent and intelligent I find I have the energy to listen all day and night. I’ll check these links out this weekend. Thanks for watching and commenting. Mark
a girl is no one I’ll pass on that invite. Poor communication is just that. I’ve had individuals come in with tragic stories that they just couldn’t tell well for different reasons. I look for those who can share their story or reflect on their life eloquently or with a certain style. Thanks
Shes so proud of not boosting or hooking!!!! Its awesome that she can hold onto something she can be proud of!! She broke my heart when she quickly and quietly said I'm just a number
I often think about Kimberly. The first time I watched this video, I was brought to tears how her entire demeanor changed when talking about her perfect son. I cannot help but return to this video regularly now (and hell, I’m still brought to tears by it, I’m a baby), something about Kimberly just really resonated with me. I hope she is able to heal.
I feel for this woman. Her beauty, her soul, her kindness shines through. She’s a warrior and I hope she finds some peace. I also loved the way her face lit up when she spoke of her son!
Her eyes are so empty but panicked looking at the same time...like on the verge of a breakdown. She seems to snap in and out of reality. She’s not fully gone and she still has the potential to turn it around and be fully functioning. This rips my heart apart. I wish these people knew that they’re worth so much more! ❤️
her pride in her soon and in not selling herself is such a nice ray of sunshine in all her sadness. she has so much resilience inside of her. i can see her finding her way. hoping she heals and gets the chance to talk to her son someday.
this is heartbreaking when you can observe how people’s mental is just way off because of drug addiction, she has a beautiful soul i know things will get better for her
I really like your page. It shows a different side of addiction, they're humans with feelings! We all go through stuff in life and we all deal with things differently. This story like every other one, hurt my heart. I wish I could hug all these people, I love this woman though. I hope she gets strong and gets clean. Aho
Agreed. As soon as you see someone smile, push back tears, or go quiet while trying not to think of something...they can't be a non-person anymore. It's so important, the story sharing. Bringing faces to the statistics.
Another instant heartbreaker. She is really lost and so damaged but she still has a glimmer of hope because she speaks as if she plans to have a life one day. My eyes are moist from this one-
She's said the least out of all the interviews I've watched. But she has said the most out of anyone to me. I hope you find a way to get what you really want.
This poor girl is in such torment and pain. It's more than heartbreaking to feel her fight back tears and smile at the mention of her son. She is so vulnerable and fragile. God does make Angels to walk and suffer on this earth. She is one.💔🙏⛪️
I hear people say all the time, “I’m trying not to cry”, but I think crying is powerful. It shows that they have survived, they are strong, they have persevered something so powerful. And crying isn’t a sign of weakness. It’s a sign of survival.
Idk if it's the same for some of these people but for me and I know it sounds crazy but I am always scared to cry "let it out" because I don't know if I can "put it back in" if that makes sense at all..... like I'm scared of what happens after I let it out
hailey grey What you let out should not be put back in. If you release it into the world and off of your soul, you can finally heal from it. Idk why I don’t do that myself. I am holding onto it too.
you’re typically very respectful with these, but you can’t just ask people about abuse like that. you can CLEARLY tell how uncomfortable you made her. it made her want to use immediately after that. and then you chuckled after too, i’m sure it might have been a nervous laugh or something- but trauma is not something to play with and it’s typically the reason people use. i just watched her get triggered because of this interview- please be more mindful/careful with these poor souls.
Yall do the interviews then. Society is so damn sensitive and complain about everything damn . He’s not going to change the way he interviews because you became uncomfortable. Just stop watching. Or stop being so emotional ..
Lol it’s a interview about her life duh he gonna ask question it’s not intentional for him to make someone uncomfortable but let’s read the title I and understand that they most likely had a talk before the cameras started rolling most of the time these people wanna tell there story even tho it’s hurting them to talk they wanna tell their story I’m sure if she was so uncomfortable she would not even do the interview and walked away he is a great interview and ask all the questions that “people already think and wanna ask “ he a actually have the balls to do it . Ion think it’s about him being rude or not caring about her feelings but let’s understand what the interview is about and it’s about her life . Other people could be going through the same thing so her speaking on it and letting it out is good y’all reaching into things so deep ....
I don’t mean to say that I’m less sympathetic to other addicts in other videos, but something about this woman’s demeanor just makes me want to give her the biggest hug. I almost lost it when she said “I’m just a number”.
She was a nice girl once. Even being super high, she said “excuse me” after a burp. She is proud that she has not sold herself...a bit of morals are left.
I agree. He seems really insensitive and pries into areas that he can tell are obviously triggering or traumatic to bring up. Sometimes it’s good to talk thru things like that, other times it’s best to not drag these memories out of people who have tried so hard to repress them. A fine line.. I think if he softened his demeanor some it wouldn’t seem so nosy/exploitative and if he stopped pushing people to share on hard subjects. It’s one thing to lend an ear to someone who wants to vent but another thing to pry for the views.
This woman is amazing... Just the fact that she still has things to smile about through all her pain is beyond me! She Is a very strong woman even in the midst of her turmoil. Thank you for sharing your story Kimberly!
the way she said "im just trying to do everything right" shattered my heart. shes unbelievably gorgeous:( shes hurting so bad, which makes my heart hurt for her. her voice is literally breaking. i wanna hug her :((( please update us on her more often
"I'm just a number." I know he was asking a question right as she said that. But her statement is so powerful and telling. I wish I knew what she meant by that. Makes me sad that she is preparing to leave the world.
Her last comment about until the next lifetime... She's very intelligent, just broken by the people in life. She's beautiful inside and out, you can tell. And the fact that she's been through so much and made a promise to herself that she wouldn't sell harsh drugs or prostitute is a beautiful thing within itself.
" And I know I'm almost towards the end, and I'm being strong until I go to another world" This has got to be the most gut wrenching thing a human being can endure. Someone with such loss, to be torn down to this. I hope she finds peace in this life.
This lady is so hurt and seems terrified, but I love how she lit up when she said she does not prostitute or steal. I believe it is so important to take pride in yourself, even when it may seem minimal to some people. Good for her. God help her.
I lost two friends from pcp one was killed by police the other committed suicide that's a crazy drug my heart goes out to her and I hope she gets herself together
The way she describes things as “perfect” so frequently... it breaks my heart. How she lights up when speaking about her son... we are a sad world to turn our back on those who need support the most.
*"I'm just a number..."* NO Youre not!!!. Youre a beautiful girl, and a good human being who deserves nothing but LOVE + HAPPINESS in this life, like everyone else!
She’s so beautiful. It broke my heart when she said she’s just a number. 😥 You can feel the her pain yet she tries to be so strong. I’m sending her love and healing energy ✌🏻❤️
Everytime she survives and wakes back up from taking alot drugs she recognizes a higher power granting her more life so it makes her feel as she has to rid her self of sin as payback. But sadly the cycle continues.
Besides the drugs making her slow in reaction and thought. She is a deer in headlights massive trauma that has never been dealt with. So sad. She has so much potential under all this.
This makes me so sad watching this. She cant even talk without having to take a break to get high. This poor ladies brain is gone...I just want to hug her tight.
@@KellyTips ...well you might be "reading" into my statement alittle TOO much..and it wasnt DIRECTED to you..but ALMOST everyone has SOME sort of addiction...it could be other things besides drugs or alcohol...
Sadly... I felt this when she said it. I can’t tell you how many times I thought I was going deaf because the ringing in my ears were getting too intense and at the same time I thought I was either gonna shit myself or throw up or both. God, such an awful feeling and I have sadly felt it far too many times. I was doing two bundles of heroin/fet a day, (a 5’2, 100 lb, 22 year old female) 8 months ago, I was a strung out heroin addict, homeless in Kensington (Philadelphia)... I cant say how thankful I am that I got out. I wish there was i way that I could help her.
What an innocent soul she has. I did PCP in the 70's and 80's. The first 4 or 5 years really heavy. I weighed 99lbs in 1978 and am 6' 2". It really does make you believe that you are on a different plane from everyone else and have a super important purpose directed by the universe. Coming down was very, very hard. It kept you high for 24 plus hours and then the divebomb. That's how you get addicted, the only cure for the crash was to do more. That's how a lot of drugs are.
She broke my heart...I'm hurting for her. Mark, this is cruel. She said, she's just a number and your tone of the interview sounded exactly like she was. She was emotional, raw, vulnerable and you just ran her over with your questions like a bulldozer.
Yeah I agree after watching this I can see how evil he is. I watch these videos because I relate to being an addict with mental-health problems as a result, so yeah you can enjoy watching these vids without particularly enjoying the tone set by the producer.
*she obviously doesn’t want to be like this. She wants to be with her son and her family but she knows she has to try harder to stop the urge to do these drugs. It just hurts me*
Brilliant talented woman. She is trying to find her true biological people ... This women needs safety. She has a lot of insight even though she may not seem like it. She needs solid care and safety. Now. Love from Australia.
People think that asking a homeless drug addict the wrong questions can be "traumatic." I think thats more projection than anything. Living on skidrow this woman deals with more trauma inducing things on a daily basis, than being asked a few questions she agreed to inside of a studio. Things happen to homeless woman on a daily basis in downtown LA that you could not even imagine. Nothing about this interview needs to be changed.
Geno Grinberg F*****ck! Somebody finally gets it! Thank you Geno. All these commenters sitting on their couches passing judgement have no understanding of the reality of street life, especially for females on Skid Row. I’m certain I’m the most considerate male this woman has interacted with in all her years on Skid Row, even with my probing questions. I can guarantee that every day on Skid Row she gets treated in ways that would scar these commenters emotionally for years. FYI, Kimberly asked me recently when she she can come back and talk with me again.
Soft White Underbelly I look forward to her update & it says a lot that she wants to come speak again.
L W how do you know they don’t wan to face their issues?...maybe they don’t know how to. Lots of people, especially females that have been raped or molested have kept it bottled up. Not because they don’t want to but because they don’t know how to or they’re scared of the consequences. He’s not forcing these people into getting interviewed. He’s giving them the opportunity to tell their stories. Emotions, trauma can’t be bottled up they need to be released. This can be their form of releasing it.
L W you’re allowed to debate but I can’t? ... lol ... you gave your opinion I gave me. Don’t see any issue with that at all
I imagine that's why many agree to the interviews in the first place, or at least one of the main reasons. They know that they could disappear tomorrow and might never be found...this way their lives have been documented and can be remembered at least. Depressing to think about, but that's reality.
The fact that she described her son as "perfect" and gave him to a good home and won't talk to him until she gets her life right says so much about her character.
I agree, thank goodness. Some people don’t have the self awareness to see how bad their life is.
true selflessness right there, praying for this sister!!
Made me tear up. She knows her lifestyle isn’t good and wants the best for her child.
Yes ❤😔💯
@lilton25 don't judge this lady, this could be you or someone you love
"I'm being strong until I go to another world"
This hits me hard
The others are just in the game, but she actually shows that she is caught up and wants out.
@@nuffflavor I can feel her sincerity then it's painful because we can also see through her, how she suffers living but trying to hold on
@@joefox9765 yeah, much respect for her for not giving up
Wow. Yes so can I.
@@spikeyconstantine Yes.. 😡💔
When he probed about the abuse she immediately asked if she can do some drugs. There was desperation in the way she asked. Man that really broke my heart :/ She's clearly got some trauma she's trying to manage.
She sure is
Her adopted father-did he adopt her just to be able to abuse her??? POS
@@freezo244 thats often how it is sadly.
numb the thoughts
@5:47 asked about dating guys, watch her face light up when she can honestly say she never had to slum that low. Happy for her.
When she said “im just a number”
Girl.... no.. you are a human and have your own journey. DONT GIVE UP
If she stopped doing PCP for months she would look, sound and act the same. That drug permanently damages your brain. There is no going back.
Amen
She’s a little girl trapped in a women’s body. She a sweet person and I hope she’s doesn’t leave this world too soon.
Felicia I agree wholeheartedly with you. She looks and acts like a scared little girl. Trauma as a child can sometimes stunt a person's emotional/ social growth.
lovely lipsticklady it definitely has for her. She seems really shy and scared. She wouldn’t hurt a soul and I pray and hope she gets the help she needs. She’s extremely fragile and to think somebody hurt her makes me very sad 😔
@@darian01able I agree. 😥💔
Maybe it's better to leave this cruel world soon, or let her struggle little longer ?
Kiko San no I don’t want her to suffer I want her to get help and I want her to know she is loved and none of us want her to leave this world soon. She’s a beautiful person who still has breathe in her body. She has a chance to get help and possibly be united with her son.
at least she gave her child to someone and isn’t talking to him until she’s better. mad respect for that.
Totally. 🙌🏼
My dad did the same. I'm grateful for a billion reasons.
she did make mistakes but she took her responsibility and im so glad she did. my birth mom did so so many drugs when she was pregnant with me, drugged me as a baby to keep me quiet, and i wish so badly that she chose to never let me experience that. but i have a unbelievable amount of respect for this woman. it takes so much to pull yourself out of the situation and think what’s best for our kids, and this woman is one of the many few who do so.
This is the hardest video that I have watched so far. This girl ripes my heart to pieces. Giving up a child because you know that you're not capable of taking care of him/her has got to be the epitome of "selflessness" God Bless Her
Sherry Graham Smith idk giving up a child because you would rather go run the streets and get high is not exactly the epitome of selflessness. It’s actually very selfish. That child will grow up wondering why he wasn’t enough
Amanda Blue you’re not in their situation so who are you to say anything about that situation.
I started crying when she smiled and straightened up when speaking about her son. That is the one hope she hangs onto. Her world is closing down on her and you can just see how crushed and trapped she feels. You can literally see the life squeezing out of her. She breaks my heart.
she's holding on by a thread. Feels like she's crying for help on the inside.
She said it at the very end..."until i go to another world" a definite cry for help.
🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
Can we get her a Go Fund Me going? She doesn't even have a thread to hold on to. I wish I could send her some help
Can we get her a Go Fund Me going? She doesn't even have a thread to hold on to. I wish I could send her some help
@@TravisAndRuby I guess you have not read this entire thread. It addresses this.
The way her face lit up when she started talking about her son made me tear up. After all the trauma she’s been through, she’s still able to love. I hope she can become well enough to see him soon.
Yeah i notice that to....
She’s a great person deep down. She has recovery in her future and her son is counting on it. You can do this Kimberly 💕
This is the saddest one I’ve watched yet. She’s so weak, but she’s so determined.
Jade Nikole I don’t know what you see. But I don’t see weak. Most people wouldn’t be able to walk a mile in her shoes.
This drug slows the mind that's why she seems weak
Ashlee Harley I never meant it in a negative way, she just seems so tired but she’s obviously really strong
Most def aint weak it takes a STRONG person to admit there trials and tribulations just like she said she's "STRONG" .
can we get a follow up on her? i know she wasn’t exactly a favorite but.. i just wanna know if she’s okay.
i felt the same
Same!
Me too....I wanna know if she's left this world for a better place b/c she almost seemed like she was hoping for that. Omg and the way she kept saying, "I just gotta do me." Yes, you do.
Also same
"A favorite"
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She’s still in there someone holding on to her pride. And I love that. She has a chance to change this allllll around🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
True
no resources
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Her trauma is so deep she can’t even speak the words. Everyday she relives trauma she never should’ve experienced. She punishes herself over and over again for what others have done to her. So heartbreaking...
Sad but the reason she is speaking like that is most likely because of Brain Damage from PCP. Many PCP smokers talk extremely slow
I wish I could help her. Not fair what has happened to her. She never stood a chance.
It's the drug, not the trauma tbh.
Ya, the reason she speaks like that is because of the PCP not trauma. As someone in recovery I know former PCP addicts, and many of them still have trouble formulating sentences even after years of being clean.
Grant Holcomb thanks for clarifying! Best wishes on your recovery! Your best days are ahead of you!
(To Mark Laita/ the interviewer @Soft White Underbelly) Regarding asking the interviewees about sexual abuse - In order to not accidentally retraumatize interviewees with your questioning, some suggestions:
Avoid asking about sexual abuse in or near the beginning of the interview, as enough trust, safety, & comfort likely hasn't been established yet.
And, very importantly, *never ask for details or prompt them to discuss more than they offer willingly; This is super important when discussing trauma with survivors if you don't want to accidentally retraumatize.*
(edit) I respectfully offer these suggestions, as I know you are trying to do good, so assume you would want to mitigate potential harm in any way. Thanks so much for doing & sharing these interviews.
agreed
trying to bump this top top
Bump. I know this stuff is important but please be slow and gentle when asking about it, as its a vulnerable thing to talk about (as you obviously know from the name of the channel) and the way its received may affect them a lot x
Bump.
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Something about how she asked "Can I have some drugs please?" completely broke my heart.
Right? My heart ❤
And it's sad, because by her delayed responses, she's already high.
I thought it was so gross and pathetic.
It's interesting how people have different opinions of the same thing.
@Javier Cervantes It has hit my home pretty hard, actually. I just felt the way I felt about it,
@@ceIIardoor - I love your comment (AND your name! 😜 AND your candor!) … I did feel tense when she asked, but I also felt sad. And learned what a Pookie pipe is. You learn something new every day…
She asked for drugs when she was asked about her childhood. Man, terribly sad. I get sick to my stomach watching those videos buy they’re fascinating.
Sounds like you had a sheltered life. Lucky guy
Could not agree with you more!! These videos should be shown in school s!! They rip out your heart. There are alot of people who were abused, and didn't turn out close to this.
She was in psychosis. Her thought process is not normal
The ending is so sad bro “I know I’m almost to the end, and I’m staying strong until I go to another world.”
Going 'to another world' is the hope she clings to, and a 'better' world it will be with her Heavenly Father.
@@munter10 FACTS I THINK WE ALL HAVE THAT PLANNED
💔😭awwww, stay strong!
For real, I thought by saying "almost to the end" she meant she thinks she's close to not being homeless anymore, then she hit with the next sentence and you're like damnnn.
This woman is so genuine, you could literally see the pain in her eyes and all I see is a child. It's okay to cry sometimes.
cry is a pain killer
i agree
I’ve watched dozens and dozens of these interviews, and this young lady effects me deeply. She’s really messed up but has such a kind heart. She wants the best for her son, she’s proud that she’s not a “ho or a booster. I kept my promise.”
Of your interviews that I have watched, this is one the saddest. The homeless are invisible to most of us, and you shine a light onto their plight. I spent my late teens and early twenties homeless and heavily into drugs, and even with assistance it can be almost impossible to escape.
I read some of the negative comments about Mark. Here’s my two cents worth: These are quick and to the point interviews. Most of these people can’t tolerate more than 10 minutes of sitting still and point blank questions. He is literally finding them on the streets of skid row and offering them a few bucks to get their story out to us. He is not a social worker. He is up front honest with them. Soooo, how’s about putting your money where some of your critical mouths are and do what he is doing? He is creating short insights on why people do what they do in segments that most you tubers understand. Far more good comes out of these interviews than bad. Stop your bad talking him and appreciate what he is doing for others to wake TF up about addition, abuse, loneliness, physical & emotional mental illness! I, for one, am extremely grateful to Mark and the people who bravely “put it out there” for the world to see! Bravo to all these souls and the lesson each one gives to us!
Beeintelligent Thank you for the support, Bee. I’m developing a very thick skin. As I said in this comments section somewhere, I’m learning and improving as I do this. To condemn me for making a mistake from an early interview where I may have made a mistake is like chastising a child for misspelling a word six years ago. Does he still misspell that word? Have I improved since this interview from last year? Absolutely, I have and I’ll continue to improve. I’ll add that I believe a lot of this hate is actually just misdirected anger from the shame these videos cause in us. It’s embarrassing what we’ve allowed our country to turn into and when some viewers watch these talks they want to blame whoever is closest and easiest (me) rather than do the hard work required to fix these huge problems.
I agree💯 I think most of the ppl bad bcuz she's female & sweet seeming. I say seeming bcuz I DONT know her. I dont think be said nothing wrong. I think she caught the ppls sensitivity is all
Beeintelligent - yeah, bee. But there is a right way & a wrong way to go about things. Regardless of whatever his Credentialings/background is. He decided to participate I’m in this platform. And given his role, the burden of responsibility is more on his end. Oven binged one > 10 of these videos tonight (for the 1st time). And now have subscribed. There are some moments, if he just pull back a little. Then re-visit the question in a more delicate way. Or a different way in how he’s asking. He keeps trying to just get his question out. As if he’s a parent talking to a child. Or an Educator talking to a student. These are sensitive situations. And he has to just be careful how he goes about what they’re doing. Otherwise, he’s adding another detrimental layer to the situation. And may not be getting the optimization of what COULD HAVE been in the response. Which defeats the intent of this platform.
But I applauded the effort in developing & publishing this channel. These stories will stay with me for a long time! I have already forwarded a bunch to people in my circle. I’m now thinking of what more community outreach reform can be done. To prevent, protect, & remedy the people that can be saved; that do want the help.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly you havent made any mistakes whatso ever. You are giving us what we want to see, visceral reactions to difficult questions. Its what some of us came here to see. Personally, I watch tons of your videos, and i find it very intriguing the way you ask to the point questions and observing reactions. Based on my experiances in life, its always people who are upset that are the most vocal and its always controversial people/content that gets the most views.
Please dont change the way you phrase questions because some snowflake thinks theyre gonna hurt a homeless drug addicts "feelings." Thats ridiculous. Thats called PROJECTION, these youtube keyboard warriors are projecting their own feelings onto this woman. They dont live on skidrow, they dont realize that the last thing thats going to traumatize this woman is being asked a few questions about her past in a Studio after agreeing to answer them. SHE LIVES ON THE STREET. Whatever happened to her in the last 24 hours before you picked her up and whatever happened to her in the 24 hours after the interview, was much more traumatizing than any type of question you did/could have asked her.
THANK YOU! ☺ ppl do too much in the comment section 🤣😂...
This isnt dr. Phil 😒
She's so childlike and innocent. To be this damaged, she must have been horrifically traumatized. Poor thing 😥
She looks and sound just like Hailey Berry when she played on the movie "losing Isaiah .she's beautiful
Yes!!!
Hell yea!! 😔
Right
I was thinking the exact same thing
It's weird that people come on here and comment on looks... That shows how superficial you are, when they on here to tell they stories not to be judged. Weirdos and it's worse coming from a women smh
When she rants it first sounds like gibberish but if you listen carefully you realise her thoughts are so deep there aren’t any words capable of expressing them
Ummm. Like shiny thing, potato, goldfish, drug
Lol wtf u on my guy
You are right on the money, we only hear a few words , but only some can fathom it's where those words come from, the peace she is trying to find in her painful existence, the series of epiphanies that lead to those words, people need to learn how to listen.
Hahahahahhaha no. No they aren't.
She is thinking so hard and carefully about what she wants to say. If only everyone had such restraint ♡
She is one of the interwiee that touched me the most, because of her high sense of dignity, and also because of that innocence and inner sadness. I've seen this video for four times at least. I often think about her.
@L E does your comment help ? None of us have the power to help her really. She would need a professional, maybe have a talk with her family. But at least, now I know she exists, I think of her, I pray for her, she taught me a precious lesson : we musn't take anything for granted. I haven't helped her, she has helped me.
@@idag7221 Wow Ida. That got me. You think about her, you pray for her, I haven't helped her, she has helped me, you said. God bless you, whoever you are. I'm moved by this comment, enough to finally write. And you know what?... you helped me and you did help her too. God answers prayer. Keep up the good thoughts, we have to, more than ever these days. Thank you Ida.
@@goldenstringedinstruments5500 thank you very much for taking the time to write those kind words. I wonder how she is doing now... I'm touched by what you said and wish you a wonderful day.
@@idag7221 Your welcome ☺️
Dignity? She literally just blurts out "Can I do some drugs?" during a short video...
She's so beautiful, she could be a model. Her issues and trauma seem to run deep and I believe she can still be helped. Praying for her.
She really is so beautiful. That’s all I could think. Just a natural beauty.
PCP damages your Brian probably harder then any drug, her brain seems permanently damaged
Shes a beautiful person inside and out. She has a golden heart.
If her story ever gets to the big screen Halle Berry should play her !!’
And my boy Jerry
Anyone else think this woman is gorgeous? I hope she gets the healing/help she needs 🙏🏾
What a lame ass attempt to get some pussy. Pathetic.
Mad pretty
@@nurianimates racist
Yes. Beautiful bone structure. Cleaned up, with the right makeup, she could have been a Halle Berry type on a magazine cover somewhere.
And good at math too!
I really hope she's doing better now. She seemed like such a sweetheart, and this interview was so sad. ❤
that’s small smiled she cracked when he asked how her son was doing 🥺 wow
such a sweet unbridled joy
When she started talking about her son its almost like she snapped out of the spell she was under
😍
Just a theory, might be that the words hit the Unconscious mind area (nothing deeper than motherly instincts)
Then how quickly that frown returned.. sad.
mike jordan cryface yes she truly loves her son. That keeps her going as well.
“ I’m being strong until I go to another world” omg that just hurt my soul😥😥 I pray she overcome all her demons!
I knowww omg 😔😭
The drugs are fucking terrible here.She is scrambled .
Jesus Christ can help her. Pray for her
I feel her right there
Just heart breaking. So wounded, so broken. I watched this vid a few days ago but came back today to find any sort of update. Praying for her to become whole
This broke my heart. I felt like I couldn’t breathe while watching her, she’s so unwell...so very sad. Just saying a statement she sounds like she’s constantly on the precipice with one foot stepping onto nothing but air .. this poor girl.
When she says "I accepted everything" my heart sank.
I feel like this may be one of the first times she's talked about her childhood abuse.
I want to give this woman a hug and help her. I’m crying for her.
Breezie Crayton me too
Breezie Crayton same
🙏🙏🙏
when she said "biological mother and father" i literally started crying. i can feel her pain through the screen. she needs a hug and love and serious support
We NEED an update and gofundme for this one here.
She's good people.
@TheGhost Well, she'll get her drug money one way or another either way, at least if she gets it from you she doesn't have to get it in some much worse way. So in some small way you'd still be helping her.
Nope.
Whats the point?
I think Mark goes and picks people up from skid row for interviews. My guess is that he hasn’t run into her lately or as of yet which is probably why there hasn’t been an update on her. I pray she’s alive and safe. Hopefully she’ll turn up. I’m rooting for her.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life
To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.
Does anyone know any good source to get them? I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels, would love to try them
Yes, Sporeville
Tripping is not bad but find a good mycologist who will inform you of the right things you need to know
Sporeville is pretty commendable and a very intelligent mycologist I'm glad to be part of his community
wow. her asking to use drugs immediately after he was prying too hard at the sexual abuse. this is why people use. trauma. they just need to escape the pain and i get it 100%. i’m a physical and sexual abuse survivor and i do the SAME exact thing with weed & i’m glad i’m not addicted to any hard drugs or alcohol. when she started panicking and wanted to do her drugs- i almost felt her panic. mark, seriously be more mindful about how you conduct interviews. you’re typically very respectful, but you can’t just ask people about sexual abuse like that.
Lilith Jade Thank you. I’m glad somebody finally said it.
Yes thank you!! Sometimes he can be a bit oblivious in these interviews.
The interviewer is a complete jerk. I have only watched 3 of his vids, and he does the same thing in all of them. Horrible misuse of these people. They need hugs, love, etc....not the bullshit questions from the interviewer.
@@3NSII I tend to agree
@@mariaumana4031 I feel he is using these extremely vulnerable people most of whom are addicted to some substance or another. Questions are asked which probably trigger all sorts of deep traumatic memories. I can imagine them getting handed 50 bucks asked to sign a waiver/ disclaimer and shown the door. No safe guarding nil support... Just exploited. I hope I'm wrong.
I love her smile when she says she's never sold her body. Keeping one's pride is a valuable thing.
This must take a massive toll on you. These interviews. I needed to take a break from watching them for a while. This was a particularly tough one. She's so vulnerable.
Lisa Kiely Yes, these talks drain me after a day of listening to people one on one. The upside of this is that my empathy for others has grown tremendously this year because of these talks. Granted, some of these people are so self destructive that it’s hard to relate sometimes, but I try to see that their childhood traumas were the cause in most cases. I appreciate my parents great love and support more than ever now and I’m very grateful for that. I tend to be an extremist and not particularly risk averse, so taking on this kind of project is right up my alley. The fact that it’s so difficult, emotionally draining and dangerous only motivates me to produce more powerful talks in the future. Thank you for noticing how hard what I’m doing is. I had a friend I’ve made who lives on Skid Row sit in on a couple talks and his response was, “I don’t know how you can do this!”. I love doing the impossible. I always have.
Mark... thanks for posting these vids..it definitely takes a toll on the body and emotions listening to these tragic stories..anytime really that we hear unwelcomed verbal abuse out in public, being quick to react to others insensitivity and rudeness takes a toll!...it's a great format you use to interview. Whether the person you interview sees it or not, that backdrop without the distractions and ugliness of the streets.. you put them at ease and sound relaxed, respectful, and when appropriate also a bit of humor..u give them a chance to share their trauma that hopefully at some point help plant a tiny seed to recovery...reminded me of Dr Gabor Mate and his extensive research on child trauma and addiction...th-cam.com/video/ojq-U13726E/w-d-xo.html..
Also, regain Your balance after those draining sessions..grounding! th-cam.com/video/44ddtR0XDVU/w-d-xo.html
mc
Maria Calamaco Maria, Thank you for the kind words. The biggest drain, which you guys don’t see is that I have to sit through about ten of these to get one that’s worth editing and posting. That’s the really draining part. When my subject is eloquent and intelligent I find I have the energy to listen all day and night. I’ll check these links out this weekend. Thanks for watching and commenting. Mark
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly can you do a vid of the terrible interviews? Maybe just clips of them?
a girl is no one I’ll pass on that invite. Poor communication is just that. I’ve had individuals come in with tragic stories that they just couldn’t tell well for different reasons. I look for those who can share their story or reflect on their life eloquently or with a certain style. Thanks
I smiled so big when she said she is proud for not stealing or car hopping. Pull through Kim you can have more to be proud of Boo.
Shes so proud of not boosting or hooking!!!! Its awesome that she can hold onto something she can be proud of!! She broke my heart when she quickly and quietly said I'm just a number
I often think about Kimberly. The first time I watched this video, I was brought to tears how her entire demeanor changed when talking about her perfect son. I cannot help but return to this video regularly now (and hell, I’m still brought to tears by it, I’m a baby), something about Kimberly just really resonated with me. I hope she is able to heal.
I feel for this woman. Her beauty, her soul, her kindness shines through. She’s a warrior and I hope she finds some peace. I also loved the way her face lit up when she spoke of her son!
Her eyes are so empty but panicked looking at the same time...like on the verge of a breakdown. She seems to snap in and out of reality. She’s not fully gone and she still has the potential to turn it around and be fully functioning. This rips my heart apart. I wish these people knew that they’re worth so much more! ❤️
her pride in her soon and in not selling herself is such a nice ray of sunshine in all her sadness. she has so much resilience inside of her. i can see her finding her way. hoping she heals and gets the chance to talk to her son someday.
this is heartbreaking when you can observe how people’s mental is just way off because of drug addiction, she has a beautiful soul i know things will get better for her
She so damaged she can barely express herself man this world is cold
Lana Banana cold cold
Cold
Lana Banana 💔😢
No those are the effects of pcp LMAO
I really like your page. It shows a different side of addiction, they're humans with feelings! We all go through stuff in life and we all deal with things differently. This story like every other one, hurt my heart. I wish I could hug all these people, I love this woman though. I hope she gets strong and gets clean. Aho
Agreed. As soon as you see someone smile, push back tears, or go quiet while trying not to think of something...they can't be a non-person anymore. It's so important, the story sharing. Bringing faces to the statistics.
💯Agreeing I found his Channel yesterday been binge watching since new Sub too 👍👏👏🙏
Yea I was thinking that too. Everyone has a story. A lot of them tell him thanks for listening.
@@Logojones1 sometimes that's all it takes .. just to know someone hears you.
Honestly I think ppl who are prone to addiction feel the most. They use drugs to dull the feelings.
“I know things.
& I know I’m almost towards the end.
and i’m being strong, until I go to another world.”
Another instant heartbreaker. She is really lost and so damaged but she still has a glimmer of hope because she speaks as if she plans to have a life one day. My eyes are moist from this one-
She’s hauntingly beautiful... I ache for her...
Trini Dazzling Henry- Amen 😞
Ya, reminded me a little of Berry Halle
Omg yes!
Right, this interview stressed me out!
@@yasminedey8612 You mean Halle Berry 😁
She's said the least out of all the interviews I've watched. But she has said the most out of anyone to me. I hope you find a way to get what you really want.
This poor girl is in such torment and pain. It's more than heartbreaking to feel her fight back tears and smile at the mention of her son. She is so vulnerable and fragile. God does make Angels to walk and suffer on this earth. She is one.💔🙏⛪️
I hear people say all the time, “I’m trying not to cry”, but I think crying is powerful. It shows that they have survived, they are strong, they have persevered something so powerful. And crying isn’t a sign of weakness. It’s a sign of survival.
Idk if it's the same for some of these people but for me and I know it sounds crazy but I am always scared to cry "let it out" because I don't know if I can "put it back in" if that makes sense at all..... like I'm scared of what happens after I let it out
hailey grey What you let out should not be put back in. If you release it into the world and off of your soul, you can finally heal from it. Idk why I don’t do that myself. I am holding onto it too.
you’re typically very respectful with these, but you can’t just ask people about abuse like that. you can CLEARLY tell how uncomfortable you made her. it made her want to use immediately after that. and then you chuckled after too, i’m sure it might have been a nervous laugh or something- but trauma is not something to play with and it’s typically the reason people use. i just watched her get triggered because of this interview- please be more mindful/careful with these poor souls.
Lilith Jade 1000000000% agree, mostly because I can relate to her trauma & wanting to numb with using.
same 😪 i hope one day we can achieve real happiness
Lilith Jade Totally...I become furious when he does that! I feel like he exploits their trauma at times...
Yall do the interviews then. Society is so damn sensitive and complain about everything damn . He’s not going to change the way he interviews because you became uncomfortable. Just stop watching. Or stop being so emotional ..
Lol it’s a interview about her life duh he gonna ask question it’s not intentional for him to make someone uncomfortable but let’s read the title I and understand that they most likely had a talk before the cameras started rolling most of the time these people wanna tell there story even tho it’s hurting them to talk they wanna tell their story I’m sure if she was so uncomfortable she would not even do the interview and walked away he is a great interview and ask all the questions that “people already think and wanna ask “ he a actually have the balls to do it . Ion think it’s about him being rude or not caring about her feelings but let’s understand what the interview is about and it’s about her life . Other people could be going through the same thing so her speaking on it and letting it out is good y’all reaching into things so deep ....
I rebuke the devil that is trying to destroy this woman .can we help her please
Fontellas Home Staging ..In Jesus Name..
In Jesus name
Oh pleasr
Agree
Yuck. Why do people always have to make things about their religion? This lady needs medical help, not Jesus.
This was one of the most heartbreaking interviews you've done.
I don’t mean to say that I’m less sympathetic to other addicts in other videos, but something about this woman’s demeanor just makes me want to give her the biggest hug. I almost lost it when she said “I’m just a number”.
This is such a broken person. I can't imagine the damage that was done to her.
Those eyes are so empty, she looks like she’s shell shocked
She was a nice girl once. Even being super high, she said “excuse me” after a burp. She is proud that she has not sold herself...a bit of morals are left.
Kimberley B you hit it right on the T
Morals are manmade!!!
She’s trying sooo hard not to cry😢… I hope this lady finds peace.
bruh all of sudden y'all in the comments are psychologists💀
yes ... some of us actually are ... "smile"
Idk...fits u perfectly
🤣🤣🤣🤣 none of them are. They just 🤥 lie. Don't even sound like psychologist.
One of the saddest ones.
He is a little too aggressive with wanting details of the sexual abuse
L S i know right
L S He either thinks it makes good content or possibly a pervert himself. Either way disturbing.
A E I don’t think either is true, I think it’s insensitive curiosity
I agree. He seems really insensitive and pries into areas that he can tell are obviously triggering or traumatic to bring up. Sometimes it’s good to talk thru things like that, other times it’s best to not drag these memories out of people who have tried so hard to repress them. A fine line.. I think if he softened his demeanor some it wouldn’t seem so nosy/exploitative and if he stopped pushing people to share on hard subjects. It’s one thing to lend an ear to someone who wants to vent but another thing to pry for the views.
He's re-traumatizing her.
This woman is amazing... Just the fact that she still has things to smile about through all her pain is beyond me! She Is a very strong woman even in the midst of her turmoil. Thank you for sharing your story Kimberly!
Please make a part 2 on her we need it
the way she said "im just trying to do everything right" shattered my heart. shes unbelievably gorgeous:( shes hurting so bad, which makes my heart hurt for her. her voice is literally breaking. i wanna hug her :((( please update us on her more often
"I'm just a number."
I know he was asking a question right as she said that. But her statement is so powerful and telling. I wish I knew what she meant by that. Makes me sad that she is preparing to leave the world.
Bella B in other words she’s not special or she’s just another speck on the earth.
you know what she meant..... if not you will at one point or another
Her last comment about until the next lifetime... She's very intelligent, just broken by the people in life. She's beautiful inside and out, you can tell. And the fact that she's been through so much and made a promise to herself that she wouldn't sell harsh drugs or prostitute is a beautiful thing within itself.
I've been in combat and lived a rough life,But that young lady just made me cry so much pain she has
" And I know I'm almost towards the end, and I'm being strong until I go to another world"
This has got to be the most gut wrenching thing a human being can endure. Someone with such loss, to be torn down to this.
I hope she finds peace in this life.
Everybody in the comments saying she is dissociating and has different personalities... PCP is a disassociative drug. So that is probably why.
Also severe early childhood trauma can cause breaks or splits in the personalities as a way of sectioning off the pain.
Definitely why. It spaces you out like crazy.
@@tommytooter2895 you are right and this woman still is not safe which is so wrong.
I love this lady....she has such a gentle spirit. I love how she lit up talking about her son and how she doesn’t sell herself!
She’s still a little girl. This breaks my heart. I have faith that she will make it.
This lady is so hurt and seems terrified, but I love how she lit up when she said she does not prostitute or steal. I believe it is so important to take pride in yourself, even when it may seem minimal to some people. Good for her. God help her.
Amen!!!!
"I kepted my promise". Yes you did baby!! 🙏🌻🥰
7:06 "I'm just a number." Such an innocuous passing statement but it says a lot about how she feels about herself.
I lost two friends from pcp one was killed by police the other committed suicide that's a crazy drug my heart goes out to her and I hope she gets herself together
The way she describes things as “perfect” so frequently... it breaks my heart. How she lights up when speaking about her son... we are a sad world to turn our back on those who need support the most.
*"I'm just a number..."*
NO Youre not!!!. Youre a beautiful girl, and a good human being who deserves nothing but LOVE + HAPPINESS in this life, like everyone else!
She’s so beautiful. It broke my heart when she said she’s just a number. 😥 You can feel the her pain yet she tries to be so strong. I’m sending her love and healing energy ✌🏻❤️
💔the way she looked when she said thank god I haven’t done that just shows she just need to be healed and helped I pray she gets right ‼️
SWU: "Be careful out there."
Kimberly: "Of course. I hear it everyday."
Exactly. There is such a lack of compassion or authenticity with him. What do the subjects get out of this?
DeeDee Durazo Im asking myself this , as I cry for her 🙏😓
She broke my heart :( I really do wish her the best. May she settle & find peace in her life 🙏
I am riveted watching this woman. Of all your interviews Mark, this is the most sincere, the most close to the surface with tear evoking emotion.
She’s absolutely beautiful, like the actresses and models you see in magazines. Hope she finds what’s she needs to get better.
“I don’t wanna tell the truth but I need to tell the truth”
Everytime she survives and wakes back up from taking alot drugs she recognizes a higher power granting her more life so it makes her feel as she has to rid her self of sin as payback. But sadly the cycle continues.
@@dot.O she is frightened.
Oh my, she so needs to be loved. I sit saying this is so hard to watch but I can't even begin to imagine the pain she has gone through.
Besides the drugs making her slow in reaction and thought. She is a deer in headlights massive trauma that has never been dealt with. So sad. She has so much potential under all this.
yes you are right
She smiles at the mention of her son. This poor young woman
The way her eyes lit up when talking about her son and how he was doing great...absolutely heartbreaking. These videos are incredible to me.
She broke my heart. You can tell she is traumatized. She didn’t deserve this life. I pray you find peace ❤️
This guy needs a TV show. I can watch him interview people all day.!
This makes me so sad watching this. She cant even talk without having to take a break to get high. This poor ladies brain is gone...I just want to hug her tight.
@TheFallsCapone ...Im happy you are clean.
@TheFallsCapone ..it has to beat being an addict. Life is hard...we all have an "addiction" to something. Just take one day at a time...
Tomika Goldson i don’t think everyone has an addiction. I don’t think it’s that trivial.
@@KellyTips ...well you might be "reading" into my statement alittle TOO much..and it wasnt DIRECTED to you..but ALMOST everyone has SOME sort of addiction...it could be other things besides drugs or alcohol...
Tomika Goldson i just don’t agree that simple
"I shitted and pissed myself and went deaf yesterday and threw up at the same time" OH MY GOD
She prob overdosed
That's some potent dope.
I hope someone helps her.
Mark Gray yeah that’s pcp
@@amelie-hb7ln that's some spooky shit. They need put that girl in a hospital for a while.
Sadly... I felt this when she said it. I can’t tell you how many times I thought I was going deaf because the ringing in my ears were getting too intense and at the same time I thought I was either gonna shit myself or throw up or both. God, such an awful feeling and I have sadly felt it far too many times.
I was doing two bundles of heroin/fet a day, (a 5’2, 100 lb, 22 year old female)
8 months ago, I was a strung out heroin addict, homeless in Kensington (Philadelphia)... I cant say how thankful I am that I got out. I wish there was i way that I could help her.
What an innocent soul she has. I did PCP in the 70's and 80's. The first 4 or 5 years really heavy. I weighed 99lbs in 1978 and am 6' 2". It really does make you believe that you are on a different plane from everyone else and have a super important purpose directed by the universe. Coming down was very, very hard. It kept you high for 24 plus hours and then the divebomb. That's how you get addicted, the only cure for the crash was to do more. That's how a lot of drugs are.
How true that statement is, reminds me of my cr**k days
She hit my heart different. I hope she's okay. What a beautiful soul
She broke my heart...I'm hurting for her. Mark, this is cruel. She said, she's just a number and your tone of the interview sounded exactly like she was. She was emotional, raw, vulnerable and you just ran her over with your questions like a bulldozer.
Very disheartening 😪
Yea not a fan with how he treated her... the end hurt me and I'm shocked he didn't say any bright words to her
Natalie Green TRUE!
At the end he dont give a fuck.
Hes worries about getting views and getting paid 💴
@@Lealtad87
you guys here still watching though right?
Yeah I agree after watching this I can see how evil he is. I watch these videos because I relate to being an addict with mental-health problems as a result, so yeah you can enjoy watching these vids without particularly enjoying the tone set by the producer.
*she obviously doesn’t want to be like this. She wants to be with her son and her family but she knows she has to try harder to stop the urge to do these drugs. It just hurts me*
Did you have to write that in bold
Brilliant talented woman.
She is trying to find her true biological people ...
This women needs safety.
She has a lot of insight even though she may not seem like it.
She needs solid care and safety.
Now.
Love from Australia.