They inspired a new poem! Here's my newest poem Last Priority by Elizabeth/Numa. Nothing hurts more than feeling like everyone's last priority. Have you ever felt so lost within yourself? Lost without a map to navigate your mind. It's like you don't even belong in your own skin. It's like you're the broken puzzle piece that doesn't fit in anywhere. Because no one cares. No one cares. There are so many nights I lie awake, wondering why nobody stays. I guess I'm just a hand me down. I'm just a hand me down. I open up then I get replaced. It's like who I am is a mistake. I guess that makes me just a hand me down. Makes me just a hand me down. I've been running on this lonely road but no matter where I go I'm never home. There are days I'd rather be anyone but who I am. I'm just an afterthought that no one cares to understand. I wish I could see it in myself why I'm impossible to love. Wish I could see why I'm not enough. Why I'm not enough. Countless nights I've stayed awake wondering why nobody stays. I guess I'm just a hand me down. I'm just a hand me down. I open up then I get replaced. Why is it that I get replaced? Am I just that messed up that no one wants me. It's like who I am is a mistake. Guess that makes me a hand me down. Just a hand me down. What choice do I make? Do I choose denial? Embrace this downward spiral? It gets so hard to face the truth, when your reality's a noose. What good's survival? When everything feels final?! Let me tell you there's nothing quite like this abuse of feeling like I have no use! I'm stuck in a life no one would choose! So many nights I lie awake wondering why nobody stays! I'm just a hand me down! A hand me down! I open up. I get replaced! It's like who I am is a mistake! Guess that makes me a hand me down. A hand me down. I've been on this lonely road but no matter where I go I'm never home. This is what it feels like being the last priority.
I'm not sure if told you guys my dream but here it goes: Whenever I was in my bedroom or living room I would always have this occuring dream where my family and the people I loved as a friend said they didn't need me and that I was worthless to them. One person told me to leave and never come back. So I ended up living in my underground hide out bunker. And that's where I stayed. After a few weeks went by and I have forgotten about myself who and what my friends and families where I had a knife that I had in bag, and I didn't tell anyone about it. After a few days and weeks went by I became and felt like a burden to them. So I began taking the knife and cutting my wrist and I refuse cutting my wrist open little did I know those same people came back and began to try to make small talk with me, so I ended up never knows ng who they were. After those months wen by and then turned into weeks. I began to lose who I was. And I felt lonely inside. Later my family and friends came back and began to try to talk to me one person said Hi to me while the others were trying to bring me home. After a few and a couple more weeks went by I ended up having the Suicidal thoughts and began taking the knife in my wrists later those same people came back after hearing about what I almost did. One person began looking at my hand and saw the knife do had the person began trying to take it away from me, and begged me to come home. After that one person asked me to come home they all were begging and crying to me to not do this and they know is New person I was becoming was not the real me, and they knew I wasn't the Suicidal Kid it something they knew sometime later. After days and weeks went passing by it felt my life was in the edge and I had no one to help me, support, me and keep me safe. But I had a friend that I used to go to school with. We would be in the same classrooms, go to the same periods, and study for whatever test was coming up. Mostly my friend ended up giving me a hug and told me I would be okay. But I knew deep down inside I wouldn't be. Mostly my friend and I would send letters to each other. And would constantly send notes to Rachel other back and fourth. Me and my best friend would always do this whenever she was at and I was in the bunker. Mostly my friend and I had a phone we could talk on, and discussed about the situations myself had went through. Later I began to have hallucinations, depression, anxiety, and emotional depression. I would mostly feel liked I didn't want to be rescued so I knew I had to take the knife and began to cut it with it on my arms, and wrists. Later those people who I loved begged me to come home and said that they were sorry when I knew they wouldn't be, I began having wings flown out on my back began flying somewhere else. They tried to stop me, but I was to strong so they knew they had to let me go, but everyone was tugging the rope in my neck and began to tell me that they needed me to come back home I'm and I refused to. I broke that rope around from my neck began flying just seconds later, before being begged to come home. I would always have glowing red eyes showing my anger began to punch into a wall, but was actually made out of wood. Sooner or later those people began asking me to come back. So I knew that this was fake because I knew they didn't care. I was now known as an "Emo kid" because I had suicidal thoughts I began trying to stab the knife from my hand, but was too afraid to do so. The people I used to talk to never cared about me. Later they would send me letter telling me that I was worth having but I said not anymore because you said I was worthless and now you're begging me to forgive you? The person said yes. And after trying to cut my hand my family came back. The only thing that they didn't know is that I didn't know who they were anymore so I never told them about my anxiety, depression, etc. After the convincing tge person told me that they loved me but I said you never did.. After some convincing I said no and left heading back to the back to the bunker m, my hide out spot; I was sended letters, and messages to my house. They told me that everything would be okay. And so they begged and asked me to come back while on their knees crying to me to come back and that they would fix all of this mess they had made. I sat there on the couch for a second and I was alone though I felt like a burden to them. So after a while i sat here questioning myself should I forgive or should I not. Because depending on how bad my Mental Health was, I was at my lowest and didn't feel like coming over and so I wrote back no. They wrote why, and I said because i don't feel like it. So they said that they don't want to me to myself. So I was at the bunker and beginning to have suicidal thoughts again, as soon as was about to take the knife and cut my writs later the friends and family began asking me and begging me to come home one person saw a knife in my hand and began to try to take it away. After that was over I felt like an Outsider, a person who hated being in the crowds but I knew I could be easily spotted so I hid in the crowds. To head back to my good ole bunker buddy. After that the family members and friends began taking the knife from me and gave me a hug. Because they knew my life and mental health matters. So they began begging me to come home. And later I was also asked me to forgive them for what they did to me so I said yes. After that one person said that they planned this on me to see how would my reaction be. So I asked them why. Because he thought if he did I would be mad so they asked me to accept their apology and I accepted it.. So after that they never did it again. So this was my dream I had. If you felt this way too like it, and share it. If you don't feel like it so your welcome.
Brilliant song I swear citizen soldier looks inside everyones soul to make their songs I listened to it this morning and loved it because it relates to me because I think I dont fit in anywhere and wanted to say ur reaction n there is nt one single bad song from citizen soldier they are gods
I think this has to be Citizen Soldier's *BEST* song. I have loved so many of their songs, but this one just hits different. Even to say 'Would Anyone Care' or 'I'm Not Okay' which I guess are in a similar ballpark to this song. I don't know what it is whether it's the extraordinary writing, Jake's impeccable voice or the different than usual lyric video but there's just something so *different* about this song, to all their others, and in such a good way (even though I agree, don't think I ever heard a bad song from them lol). 🤷♀️
I've tried sharing their songs with my sister, but she's doesn't like their music much since they're lyrics reaches into the heart of the problems people go through. She prefers music like The Cure (I think) where they kinda sugar coat the problem into of stating it directly. I absolutely love them. Been listening to this song ever since it came out, even at work. 💜
When I was little my older sisters, who were teenagers at the time, taught me to tell people I'm a little oops. I never realized until recently how much that off the cuff remark affected my psyche. I know I was loved by my family, but that little dig was there and there has always been that voice reminding me I'm an oops and maybe I'm not supposed to be here. This song hits way too close.
"I challenge any single one of you to show me a bad citizen soldier song". Yeah, not gonna happen. Citizen soldier does not put out bad songs. Their music is just too raw and real for any of it to truly be bad. It may not hit the same for everyone for every song, but even if it doesn't resonate with you, you're still going to enjoy the song itself. As far as I'm concerned, there is no bad song from this band.
I completely agree they speak into the darkness inside everyone and help you face that darkness because no matter how much we all feel alone we never really alone
I love your message! I think, it will reach those people who needed to hear it! And I'll come back to this whenever I'm feeling like I'm not good ebough! Just to remind me that I.AM.SPECIAL! And this song is, of course, just another masterpiece that I'll listen on repeat for the next few days!
It hits so hard.Just the part with the afterthought.Like you help everyone.Youre be there for all of them and then you need help because your mind is really fucked up.But the only thing their talking about is their own problems. Thank you for all reactions you made.Everytime I see one reaction from you about Citizen Soldier.I feel less alone.Keep going with that.(And sorry for my English)
"Stuck in a life no one would choose" hits hard. Why would anyone choose my life with all the bullshit I'm currently going through? Even I wouldn't choose it if I had the choice
This it to close to home for me. That is pretty much how i feel, like an afterthought. Luckily with this group of people i have been friends with for the past year that thought has been leaving me more and more, but it's kind if hard to get rid of a feeling that i have had for years.
I really feel like this is my Home song because i feel that too much. I struggle so much to being myself because everyone doesnt like myself. I really wonder sometimes why nobody stays and i kind of struggle with anxiety and so scared that people leave so this question why nobody stays is hell for me. But i think Citizen soldier has a lot of songs i relate to.
I get what you’re saying amber just remember you don’t need. Prove nothing to anyone as long as your happy with yourself that should be good enough. Don’t let no one ever make think that your are nothing. You can have good strong will to be who you are. Nothing can stop you take care yourself stay safe. 😊
When this song came out I listened to it that night and it hit hard. Reminds me how my parents make me feel and tonight they made me feel like this again. I love your reactions to these guys. Also thanks for being so open and just down right awesome.
Honestly love every single one of their songs. Definitely no bad ones! Having heard this song before, this caught me differently having seen the lyrics and the video encapsulated the meaning behind the song so well so it definitely tears me up..
This hits home in so many ways. You should check out Eva Under Fire- The Strong. That song is such an emotional gut check, and falls along the lines of what Citizen Soldier stands for.
I'm that puzzle piece, that no-one will find what puzzle it fits in. I wish I could find where I fit in. Until then, I guess I'll just have to remain outside the box, and unwanted :\
I don't think it's possible for CS to write a bad song. They are absolutely incredible! Great reactions! And I don't know if you like rap or not but it you do I have a few suggestions. NF Outcast NF Hate myself And NF Nate. He's a really good rapper and he has some really deep lyrics too. Hope everyone has a fantastic day! And sending hugs and smiles to any one who needs them!
I saw you recently deleted your social media accounts and posted a farewell video on this channel. I hope all is well with you. You fight for us, we fight with you. If you need an ear reach out. If it is something else I wish you all the best.
Can’t really relate to the song, honesty I’m just lonely, every night crying myself to sleep wishing I had a girlfriend. I’m so close to throwing the fight. No one seems to care, I fight the battle that no one sees, and every day I’m climbing a mountain, even when I feel like dying, keep climbing the mountain, every time I think I’m over it I wake up at the bottom of it all again. (Sorry, Three Days Grace) I just want simple things in life, I want to be happy! Well, here’s depression! You want love? Well, here’s an abusive and manipulative girl! Oh wait! Your happy? Loneliness! The pursuit of happiness in my mind never ends. All I ever wanted was to feel loved, to feel needed, to feel wanted. Well, it’s just a part of my life. I’d literally kill to get a girlfriend, but no one cares, so till then I walk alone. My apologies I just needed to vent.
You will always have a place to vent here brother, a single candle shines brightest when things are at their darkest, keep that candle burning and things will eventually get better ❤️I believe in you
Hell even when I was younger, I kept my candle burning, even when I felt like dying, I have this burring desire to fall in love, and if I have one reason to stay I’ll stay everyone deserves a good life. Much love brother! ❤️
Yo man, I had a reply, but deleted it, I’m sitting on my couch thinking, I’m lonely, I want a girlfriend. I’m shy and I don’t talk to a lot of people. I wait for people to come to me, horrible life strategy, but I keep doing it expecting different results. I was in a relationship, and it was great! For the first year, then she turned and I saw she was just a manipulative girl. She kinda rubbed off on me, like in the way that, she was sex crazy and when I say sex crazy I mean like sex almost every day. So I texting my other female friends who aren’t dicks, And I would say shit that’s not right and I would say things like “hey I’m horny” and other things of varying degree. My ex really fucked me up not only emotionally but physically as well, some days I literally couldn’t even leave the house, because I wish she was still there. She also fucked me up in the way that I say “sorry” for everything, even when it has nothing to do with me, because when I was with her everything was my fault. Now you might me asking, why didn’t you leave her? Well, We started getting into more arguments and I could see myself getting out of hand, I didn’t want to let go because i didn’t want to go back to those lonely nights crying in my bed, loneliness being my only friend. She fucked me up so bad, and left me lonely. I was talking to my one other friend that is a bit older than I am and he told me. “Yeah, it’s great when there in your arms but it horrible when there at the door screaming things you’d never thought they’d say about you” And the funny thing is that exact thing happened, well it’s not funny but she said “I hope you stay depressed, never get another girlfriend, and you rot in hell” I wanted to just end my life right In that moment. It wasn’t like a mutual break up where we both still care about each other, no. I loved her so much, and in that moment I realized that she never cared about me and that made me feel so worthless. The part that keeps on killing me, and wanting me to call her is, I put her through so much, I pushed her away, I told her to leave me if she wanted to be happy, and she never did. She stuck by me the whole time and her saying that shit killed me because I knew she didn’t care. She did so much for me and realizing that she never cared about me destroyed me. Nowadays it’s not depression that’s killing me it’s loneliness and thinking about my Ex sometimes. I try to forget her, I keep reminding myself of the good times with her and want to call her so bad. I had to stop myself and remind myself why we broke up. I hate being lonely it’s the worst feeling on this planet. There’s a song that deceives this perfectly, here give it a listen! My Darkest Days Perfect th-cam.com/video/1xruqeU8K_4/w-d-xo.html Anyways buddy, I do have a quick question though, I always see your Citizen Soldier reactions, and you give some pretty good advice in some of them. So I was wondering can you help guide me to either not feeling lonely or getting a girlfriend? Here’s my problem though I have such a hard time talking to girls irl. It’s so much easier to talk through Snapchat or Xbox or sum shit my ex gave me a fear of rejection, because I cared about her so much and when I realized she never cared it shook me, and I never wanted that to happen again, so I just give up and don’t talk to girls. It’s so much easier to talk online to girls but I just don’t know. I would love it if you could help me not feeling lonely and it would be amazing if you could find me someone, but I know that’s just reaching, because we all have our personal tastes and everything. Well, whatever, any advice would be greatly appreciated, thanks brother, keep up the great videos, especially Citizen Soldier, helps me get the demons out. Much love. ❤️❤️
Dam bro what you said there hit me hard to point I almost teared up and I feel your pain in when am I going to get a girlfriend and stop being so lonely.
Whether the words are wise or not I am not sure, however I can only tell you that you are not alone in feeling like this. Look at all the comments, look how many of us are going through it. We are not alone. It sucks. It really really sucks! But I believe if we focus on making ourselves the best version of ourselves that we can possibly be then things will fall into place. Focus on what you can control and try not to stress over the things that you can't, life is trial and error, if it doesn't work, time to try something new :)
She did not choose wrong. You being here is not a mistake. You are not a burden. I do not know you but seeing you have commented on a video of mine made me smile. You have therefore already made a difference in this world. You have to fight alongside me okay? You are not alone in how you're feeling, come join my team and we'll fight this shit together, one day at a time :)
They inspired a new poem! Here's my newest poem Last Priority by Elizabeth/Numa.
Nothing hurts more than feeling like everyone's last priority.
Have you ever felt so lost within yourself?
Lost without a map to navigate your mind.
It's like you don't even belong in your own skin.
It's like you're the broken puzzle piece that doesn't fit in anywhere.
Because no one cares.
No one cares.
There are so many nights I lie awake, wondering why nobody stays.
I guess I'm just a hand me down.
I'm just a hand me down.
I open up then I get replaced.
It's like who I am is a mistake.
I guess that makes me just a hand me down.
Makes me just a hand me down.
I've been running on this lonely road but no matter where I go I'm never home.
There are days I'd rather be anyone but who I am.
I'm just an afterthought that no one cares to understand.
I wish I could see it in myself why I'm impossible to love.
Wish I could see why I'm not enough.
Why I'm not enough.
Countless nights I've stayed awake wondering why nobody stays.
I guess I'm just a hand me down.
I'm just a hand me down.
I open up then I get replaced.
Why is it that I get replaced?
Am I just that messed up that no one wants me.
It's like who I am is a mistake.
Guess that makes me a hand me down.
Just a hand me down.
What choice do I make?
Do I choose denial?
Embrace this downward spiral?
It gets so hard to face the truth, when your reality's a noose.
What good's survival?
When everything feels final?!
Let me tell you there's nothing quite like this abuse of feeling like I have no use!
I'm stuck in a life no one would choose!
So many nights I lie awake wondering why nobody stays!
I'm just a hand me down!
A hand me down!
I open up.
I get replaced!
It's like who I am is a mistake!
Guess that makes me a hand me down.
A hand me down.
I've been on this lonely road but no matter where I go I'm never home.
This is what it feels like being the last priority.
I almost cried, because I’ve felt that way recently. Hit differently then some of the other songs have.
This is a masterpiece of a song ! It hits so home to me, Jakes voice and the Bridge...goosebumps 😭
I'm not sure if told you guys my dream but here it goes:
Whenever I was in my bedroom or living room I would always have this occuring dream where my family and the people I loved as a friend said they didn't need me and that I was worthless to them.
One person told me to leave and never come back. So I ended up living in my underground hide out bunker. And that's where I stayed. After a few weeks went by and I have forgotten about myself who and what my friends and families where I had a knife that I had in bag, and I didn't tell anyone about it. After a few days and weeks went by I became and felt like a burden to them. So I began taking the knife and cutting my wrist and I refuse cutting my wrist open little did I know those same people came back and began to try to make small talk with me, so I ended up never knows ng who they were.
After those months wen by and then turned into weeks. I began to lose who I was.
And I felt lonely inside.
Later my family and friends came back and began to try to talk to me one person said Hi to me while the others were trying to bring me home. After a few and a couple more weeks went by I ended up having the Suicidal thoughts and began taking the knife in my wrists later those same people came back after hearing about what I almost did. One person began looking at my hand and saw the knife do had the person began trying to take it away from me, and begged me to come home.
After that one person asked me to come home they all were begging and crying to me to not do this and they know is New person I was becoming was not the real me, and they knew I wasn't the Suicidal Kid it something they knew sometime later. After days and weeks went passing by it felt my life was in the edge and I had no one to help me, support, me and keep me safe. But I had a friend that I used to go to school with. We would be in the same classrooms, go to the same periods, and study for whatever test was coming up. Mostly my friend ended up giving me a hug and told me I would be okay. But I knew deep down inside I wouldn't be. Mostly my friend and I would send letters to each other. And would constantly send notes to Rachel other back and fourth. Me and my best friend would always do this whenever she was at and I was in the bunker. Mostly my friend and I had a phone we could talk on, and discussed about the situations myself had went through. Later I began to have hallucinations, depression, anxiety, and emotional depression. I would mostly feel liked I didn't want to be rescued so I knew I had to take the knife and began to cut it with it on my arms, and wrists.
Later those people who I loved begged me to come home and said that they were sorry when I knew they wouldn't be, I began having wings flown out on my back began flying somewhere else. They tried to stop me, but I was to strong so they knew they had to let me go, but everyone was tugging the rope in my neck and began to tell me that they needed me to come back home I'm and I refused to. I broke that rope around from my neck began flying just seconds later, before being begged to come home. I would always have glowing red eyes showing my anger began to punch into a wall, but was actually made out of wood. Sooner or later those people began asking me to come back. So I knew that this was fake because I knew they didn't care. I was now known as an "Emo kid" because I had suicidal thoughts I began trying to stab the knife from my hand, but was too afraid to do so. The people I used to talk to never cared about me. Later they would send me letter telling me that I was worth having but I said not anymore because you said I was worthless and now you're begging me to forgive you? The person said yes. And after trying to cut my hand my family came back. The only thing that they didn't know is that I didn't know who they were anymore so I never told them about my anxiety, depression, etc. After the convincing tge person told me that they loved me but I said you never did..
After some convincing I said no and left heading back to the back to the bunker m, my hide out spot; I was sended letters, and messages to my house.
They told me that everything would be okay. And so they begged and asked me to come back while on their knees crying to me to come back and that they would fix all of this mess they had made. I sat there on the couch for a second and I was alone though I felt like a burden to them. So after a while i sat here questioning myself should I forgive or should I not. Because depending on how bad my Mental Health was, I was at my lowest and didn't feel like coming over and so I wrote back no. They wrote why, and I said because i don't feel like it. So they said that they don't want to me to myself. So I was at the bunker and beginning to have suicidal thoughts again, as soon as was about to take the knife and cut my writs later the friends and family began asking me and begging me to come home one person saw a knife in my hand and began to try to take it away.
After that was over I felt like an Outsider, a person who hated being in the crowds but I knew I could be easily spotted so I hid in the crowds. To head back to my good ole bunker buddy. After that the family members and friends began taking the knife from me and gave me a hug. Because they knew my life and mental health matters.
So they began begging me to come home. And later I was also asked me to forgive them for what they did to me so I said yes. After that one person said that they planned this on me to see how would my reaction be. So I asked them why. Because he thought if he did I would be mad so they asked me to accept their apology and I accepted it..
So after that they never did it again.
So this was my dream I had. If you felt this way too like it, and share it. If you don't feel like it so your welcome.
Well said and well written.
Citizen Soldier gets me every single time. I feel so much of their lyrics in so many of their songs.
I love when his voice goes high and one bad song from them...
Can't remember, cause there is not one bad song🌹🖤
Brilliant song I swear citizen soldier looks inside everyones soul to make their songs I listened to it this morning and loved it because it relates to me because I think I dont fit in anywhere and wanted to say ur reaction n there is nt one single bad song from citizen soldier they are gods
Omfg.... The feels!
I think this has to be Citizen Soldier's *BEST* song. I have loved so many of their songs, but this one just hits different. Even to say 'Would Anyone Care' or 'I'm Not Okay' which I guess are in a similar ballpark to this song. I don't know what it is whether it's the extraordinary writing, Jake's impeccable voice or the different than usual lyric video but there's just something so *different* about this song, to all their others, and in such a good way (even though I agree, don't think I ever heard a bad song from them lol). 🤷♀️
I've tried sharing their songs with my sister, but she's doesn't like their music much since they're lyrics reaches into the heart of the problems people go through. She prefers music like The Cure (I think) where they kinda sugar coat the problem into of stating it directly. I absolutely love them. Been listening to this song ever since it came out, even at work. 💜
When I was little my older sisters, who were teenagers at the time, taught me to tell people I'm a little oops. I never realized until recently how much that off the cuff remark affected my psyche. I know I was loved by my family, but that little dig was there and there has always been that voice reminding me I'm an oops and maybe I'm not supposed to be here. This song hits way too close.
"I challenge any single one of you to show me a bad citizen soldier song". Yeah, not gonna happen. Citizen soldier does not put out bad songs. Their music is just too raw and real for any of it to truly be bad. It may not hit the same for everyone for every song, but even if it doesn't resonate with you, you're still going to enjoy the song itself. As far as I'm concerned, there is no bad song from this band.
I completely agree they speak into the darkness inside everyone and help you face that darkness because no matter how much we all feel alone we never really alone
I love your message! I think, it will reach those people who needed to hear it! And I'll come back to this whenever I'm feeling like I'm not good ebough! Just to remind me that I.AM.SPECIAL! And this song is, of course, just another masterpiece that I'll listen on repeat for the next few days!
Their songs are just masterpieces and they get how my feeling everytime
It hits so hard.Just the part with the afterthought.Like you help everyone.Youre be there for all of them and then you need help because your mind is really fucked up.But the only thing their talking about is their own problems.
Thank you for all reactions you made.Everytime I see one reaction from you about Citizen Soldier.I feel less alone.Keep going with that.(And sorry for my English)
"Stuck in a life no one would choose" hits hard. Why would anyone choose my life with all the bullshit I'm currently going through? Even I wouldn't choose it if I had the choice
This it to close to home for me. That is pretty much how i feel, like an afterthought. Luckily with this group of people i have been friends with for the past year that thought has been leaving me more and more, but it's kind if hard to get rid of a feeling that i have had for years.
This is definitively a master piece! i rly enjoyed your reac! im join you today guys (community)! Hi from Fance!🤘🖤🖤🖤
I really feel like this is my Home song because i feel that too much. I struggle so much to being myself because everyone doesnt like myself. I really wonder sometimes why nobody stays and i kind of struggle with anxiety and so scared that people leave so this question why nobody stays is hell for me. But i think Citizen soldier has a lot of songs i relate to.
This song is the newest right?omg it really good...now I have another fav song by Citizen Soldier
This song hits so many points of my life, literally spent my life trying to prove I'm not a mistake like so many claim I am. 😪😪
I get what you’re saying amber just remember you don’t need. Prove nothing to anyone as long as your happy with yourself that should be good enough. Don’t let no one ever make think that your are nothing. You can have good strong will to be who you are. Nothing can stop you take care yourself stay safe. 😊
No matter how many times that I listen to this I always end up in tears...their songs hit like a truck man...
😰😰😰
song is on loop today -- way to close to home or not home
This song really hit me deep in the heart like I'm sitting here crying my eyes out.
When this song came out I listened to it that night and it hit hard. Reminds me how my parents make me feel and tonight they made me feel like this again.
I love your reactions to these guys. Also thanks for being so open and just down right awesome.
Honestly love every single one of their songs. Definitely no bad ones! Having heard this song before, this caught me differently having seen the lyrics and the video encapsulated the meaning behind the song so well so it definitely tears me up..
This song is a whole mood. Why does this song feal like it's describing my life??
This hits home in so many ways. You should check out Eva Under Fire- The Strong. That song is such an emotional gut check, and falls along the lines of what Citizen Soldier stands for.
I love how you make citizen soldier more famous they deserve more appreciation
I'm that puzzle piece, that no-one will find what puzzle it fits in. I wish I could find where I fit in. Until then, I guess I'll just have to remain outside the box, and unwanted :\
Listen, each piece of puzzle, even broken, have its pair, so don't lose hope, you will find someone to complete you 💜
You don't know what puzzle you fit in because you don't belong to any normal puzzle, you're not broken, you're special
I agree with you
Great reaction. There is a song called Shatterproof by Scarlet City and it has Jake Segura singing the vocals. Could you possibly react to it?
Also your special too
my sis introduced me and they are awesome
I relate every word sadly
(Talking bout the song) but yes... Every day 28 years of life... Its a struggle.... But I'm strong...
It's great song
I don't think it's possible for CS to write a bad song. They are absolutely incredible! Great reactions! And I don't know if you like rap or not but it you do I have a few suggestions.
NF Outcast
NF Hate myself
And NF Nate. He's a really good rapper and he has some really deep lyrics too.
Hope everyone has a fantastic day! And sending hugs and smiles to any one who needs them!
I saw you recently deleted your social media accounts and posted a farewell video on this channel. I hope all is well with you. You fight for us, we fight with you. If you need an ear reach out. If it is something else I wish you all the best.
Who let the onion ninjas in?😢😢
There's not a bad one...I haven't listened to their entire discography, but I also haven't heard a song of theirs that I don't like!
Cabalistic, is there a way for me to get your opinions or a way to talk if that's ok? Or if that's an option at all?
Drop me a message on my Insta if you want, my links are in the description
Can’t really relate to the song, honesty I’m just lonely, every night crying myself to sleep wishing I had a girlfriend. I’m so close to throwing the fight. No one seems to care, I fight the battle that no one sees, and every day I’m climbing a mountain, even when I feel like dying, keep climbing the mountain, every time I think I’m over it I wake up at the bottom of it all again. (Sorry, Three Days Grace) I just want simple things in life, I want to be happy! Well, here’s depression! You want love? Well, here’s an abusive and manipulative girl! Oh wait! Your happy? Loneliness! The pursuit of happiness in my mind never ends. All I ever wanted was to feel loved, to feel needed, to feel wanted. Well, it’s just a part of my life. I’d literally kill to get a girlfriend, but no one cares, so till then I walk alone. My apologies I just needed to vent.
You will always have a place to vent here brother, a single candle shines brightest when things are at their darkest, keep that candle burning and things will eventually get better ❤️I believe in you
Hell even when I was younger, I kept my candle burning, even when I felt like dying, I have this burring desire to fall in love, and if I have one reason to stay I’ll stay everyone deserves a good life. Much love brother! ❤️
Yo man, I had a reply, but deleted it, I’m sitting on my couch thinking, I’m lonely, I want a girlfriend. I’m shy and I don’t talk to a lot of people. I wait for people to come to me, horrible life strategy, but I keep doing it expecting different results. I was in a relationship, and it was great! For the first year, then she turned and I saw she was just a manipulative girl. She kinda rubbed off on me, like in the way that, she was sex crazy and when I say sex crazy I mean like sex almost every day. So I texting my other female friends who aren’t dicks, And I would say shit that’s not right and I would say things like “hey I’m horny” and other things of varying degree. My ex really fucked me up not only emotionally but physically as well, some days I literally couldn’t even leave the house, because I wish she was still there. She also fucked me up in the way that I say “sorry” for everything, even when it has nothing to do with me, because when I was with her everything was my fault. Now you might me asking, why didn’t you leave her? Well, We started getting into more arguments and I could see myself getting out of hand, I didn’t want to let go because i didn’t want to go back to those lonely nights crying in my bed, loneliness being my only friend. She fucked me up so bad, and left me lonely. I was talking to my one other friend that is a bit older than I am and he told me.
“Yeah, it’s great when there in your arms but it horrible when there at the door screaming things you’d never thought they’d say about you”
And the funny thing is that exact thing happened, well it’s not funny but she said “I hope you stay depressed, never get another girlfriend, and you rot in hell” I wanted to just end my life right In that moment. It wasn’t like a mutual break up where we both still care about each other, no. I loved her so much, and in that moment I realized that she never cared about me and that made me feel so worthless. The part that keeps on killing me, and wanting me to call her is, I put her through so much, I pushed her away, I told her to leave me if she wanted to be happy, and she never did. She stuck by me the whole time and her saying that shit killed me because I knew she didn’t care. She did so much for me and realizing that she never cared about me destroyed me. Nowadays it’s not depression that’s killing me it’s loneliness and thinking about my Ex sometimes. I try to forget her, I keep reminding myself of the good times with her and want to call her so bad. I had to stop myself and remind myself why we broke up. I hate being lonely it’s the worst feeling on this planet.
There’s a song that deceives this perfectly, here give it a listen!
My Darkest Days
Perfect th-cam.com/video/1xruqeU8K_4/w-d-xo.html
Anyways buddy, I do have a quick question though, I always see your Citizen Soldier reactions, and you give some pretty good advice in some of them. So I was wondering can you help guide me to either not feeling lonely or getting a girlfriend? Here’s my problem though I have such a hard time talking to girls irl. It’s so much easier to talk through Snapchat or Xbox or sum shit my ex gave me a fear of rejection, because I cared about her so much and when I realized she never cared it shook me, and I never wanted that to happen again, so I just give up and don’t talk to girls. It’s so much easier to talk online to girls but I just don’t know. I would love it if you could help me not feeling lonely and it would be amazing if you could find me someone, but I know that’s just reaching, because we all have our personal tastes and everything. Well, whatever, any advice would be greatly appreciated, thanks brother, keep up the great videos, especially Citizen Soldier, helps me get the demons out. Much love. ❤️❤️
@Sarafina Summers thank you friend, just that one sentence makes me feel loved. 🙃
Dam bro what you said there hit me hard to point I almost teared up and I feel your pain in when am I going to get a girlfriend and stop being so lonely.
It's a great song. I relate to it alot. How are doing?
I'm okay thank you, how are you? :)
What is your outro music?
Neffex!
Hey can you give me wise words because I have no one else to hope if you know it sucks to feel like this ?
Whether the words are wise or not I am not sure, however I can only tell you that you are not alone in feeling like this. Look at all the comments, look how many of us are going through it. We are not alone. It sucks. It really really sucks! But I believe if we focus on making ourselves the best version of ourselves that we can possibly be then things will fall into place. Focus on what you can control and try not to stress over the things that you can't, life is trial and error, if it doesn't work, time to try something new :)
Thankyou love you man you are the best
This is late, but what’s your discord?
discord.gg/Kk2jddb :)
@@CabalisticSpecies thanks
My mother chose wrong. She decided to abort me but chose not to... She chose wrong.
She did not choose wrong. You being here is not a mistake. You are not a burden. I do not know you but seeing you have commented on a video of mine made me smile. You have therefore already made a difference in this world. You have to fight alongside me okay? You are not alone in how you're feeling, come join my team and we'll fight this shit together, one day at a time :)