Glad to hear that you're slowing down, pausing to take a breath and relax a bit. I've walked that path, ahead of you. As you ease back into a more normal daily routine, the more calm (for lack of a better word) you will become. Will be easier to hear a bird singing or notice one of Stumpy's relatives scurry across the porch. REALLY glad to hear that you cooked a meal. Praise the Lord. Was worried that you'd get run down far to much!!! Another glad is that you and Breezy are both doing better. Giving thanks for that. FWIW ... Yep. We have to tackle the routine stuff to keep the household going. Better Half always paid the bills. It was very rare for me to write a check or pull out a credit card. That said, it won't take long for those things to become your new norm. Getting ready for -25 F, will become relatively automatic. Almost time to disconnect and drain the last water hose here. Have a good Saturday afternoon, Charly. Godspeed as the hours proceed.
@@oldtimerlee8820 hearing you say this, it sounds comfortable and routine. When I think about I hear screaming in my head. Denial has definitely shown up today. I can do everything I need to do, but today I just realized, I don’t want to. I’m afraid I am going to sit down in this chair and not get up. I’m angry too. But it’s better. I’m in constant prayer, thankful for his grace and mercy. I am grateful he is at peace and pain free. Today is the day the Lord has given me. And I am grateful. Thanks Lee. You always make sense.
@@bctruck It takes time, my friend. I don't know how to explain it. This is my feeble attempt. While it doesn't seem like it, now, each day gets a tiny bit better. As does each month get a little better, as well. Using paying those bills, each month it did get a little easier. Less confusion, less head scratching about bills that didn't happen every month. (Things billed occasionally during the year. ) Less frustration and vexation. Once I got it organized the way I wanted, over time it became routine. Yes, anger is a part of it. All I can say, is that the anger fades into the background, a little at a time. It's fine to get up out of that chair and stomp your foot, from time to time. Yell at the refrigerator, as it won't yell back, when you need to let off some steam (to use an old cliché). Then, pause to remember that Brad was blessed that our Lord called him home quickly. My father passed quickly, like Brad. My mother' s passing was long, slow and painful from cancer. Better Half was in the hospital over 2 weeks. Both of you were blessed, as you didn't have to see him suffer. When the grip of anger flares up, please do pause to remember the suffering that didn't happen. Hold on tight to it! In time, I'm sure you'll be giving that same type of advice to someone else. Suspect it doesn't seem possible today, but I assure you, that with time, the fear and anger will abate. Much will be "comfortable and routine". Memories will true treasures of life. They do bring comfort and peace of mind. One day a time, my friend. May God bless your steps. You are in my thoughts and prayers every day.
@@oldtimerlee8820 reading your comments has always been like reading a book of poems, pleasant memories, or remembering some childhood memories. I hope I can graduate into a caring, grateful and happy person and not a bitter angry old woman. I will be looking for whatever door God opens.
@@ladyhawthorne1 it is starting to feel like therapy. I really need to do this for me. I thought it was about him but it’s about sharing with others that knew him. Thanks
I’m glad to hear you’re slowing down because the process is so hard to comprehend to someone that hasn’t dealt with the loss of your spouse/soulmate. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you everything is going to be alright, but all I can say it takes time and you take all the time you need. Don’t think of yourself as being selfish because you’re not. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you have a very blessed weekend! Love, hugs and prayers to you!
@@WillowsGarden when I got Brad’s death certificate was when reality sat in. I realized I needed to stop. I was functioning on no sleep and auto pilot. The day has enough troubles without borrowing tomorrow’s troubles. I not scared-I’m blessed so I am going to act like it. Thanks for the words of encouragement.
the one thing ive learned about Brad over the years is that he could just about make light of any thing he had going on unless it was just something that got stuck in his craw then it was rant time lol your doing fine making these videos i personally kept watching all these years because brad was real he didnt just show the perfect outcomes in video we got it all even if it didnt work out prayers go out to you and all the animals
@@rdnkrfnk when got mad about something , it stayed with him. But he usually made a joke about it. Life is hard but it’s really hard if you don’t have a sense of humor. Thanks
You and Brad have been a positive aspect in our lives and definitely deserve a celebration. I know people who never knew him like we do still benefit from his "how to" videos. 😊
Keep hanging in, you are doing a great job. I'm glad you are feeling better. There isn't a big rush to do everything at once. I think that is a normal reaction. That's what I did when my husband passed, but there really isn't a rush . Take your time and take care of yourself.
That's wise to concentrate on ONE thing at a time. Things that need to be done are just gonna hafta WAIT their turn! I can hear in your voice that you are doing much better. Thank God for that! Love and Prayers.
@@stevekundzala676 I don’t sound like I’m in panic mode as bad. I’m still just a little freaked out but way better. I’m going into sad mode which is better than running from his death. God will open the doors I need to get through this. Thank you.
I really like that you are making these videos. I think that without anyone close like family. We are doing what we can to comfort you in your time of need.
@@ChiefAUS you are! I feel like I am telling family that knew Brad, what’s going on since his death. TH-cam knew him better than anyone, even me. He told things I would never tell 😳. He told TH-cam things he didn’t tell me (sorry- I didn’t watch all his videos-I guess I will now) thanks for watching
I think Brad would like a live stream. He liked them when he did them and enjoyed talking to his friends where they could have a conversation with him. I think he would appreciate his YT family and his favorite person using a live stream to heal and remember.
@@moviemakerwannabe I would like it if the family could ask questions. Brad just told everything. I don’t want to be the only one who has a voice. Not sure when but it’s on the list. Thanks
@@bctruck I will try. You tube has not been good about notifications for me. My computer chair decided to flip over and throw me to the ground so I got a bruised tailbone and sitting for very long gets too painful but I'm getting better I can be at the computer longer now. So you probably noticed that I hadn't been writing much and that was the main reason why, LOL. Also had a torn calf muscle before that happened it's getting better too.
@@bctruck Thank you. I think it will heal soon. I think in that rather long email I forgot to say I'd love to talk to you on the phone sometime but at this point I can't sit very long and am in bed a lot. My phone is a land line tethered to the wall, LOL.
@@maximpestsolutions3696 happy to hear from you. I hope all the people that knew him like you, precipitate. It will be in a couple of weeks. Love to all the YT family.
When I cook I cook a meal for 2 or more, Then I have meals for the next day or later in the week easily frozen and so quickly ready to eat next time just cook once or twice a week and always have a meal for visitors.
Visitors? What’s that? I don’t know how it happened but everyone just eased out of our lives long ago. I’m thankful for the TH-cam family. It looks like frozen meals and egg sandwiches for a while. 😬
I don’t know if I will get to see your live but I did a video for one of his favorite foods and no I still haven’t figured out how to make bacon seeds grow
@@bingo45373 I just watched it. That was great 😀 he would have loved it. I’m glad he never found bacon seeds. The raccoons probably would have got to the bacon first.
I finally changed things around (he would freak out) where it is more straightforward and easier. All his social media accounts, and everything he did came to his email. As for his checking account (ours) I updated everything so it’s way easier to pay bills. So I spent 2 days bringing everything up to date. I am now out of panic mode. I was so worried they would freeze my only access to funds. I really do like electricity and water. Thank you for asking. My email-quiltingtrucker@gmail.com
@@JohnTheFrugalFatGuy Thank you. Sometimes politics does get in the way of friendship. I try to keep my views to myself. I never thought anyone wanted to know them away. Thanks for stopping by ☺️
It wasn't anything personal, I learned a lot from his videos. He sent me a few gas can nozzles years ago. I just unsubbed from channels that talked too much politics, I get enough of that from the news. And you know what they say about opinions.
I really want to stop saying
Ummm-sorry 🥹
Thanks for watching
@@bctruck No apologies needed Charly. We all love you, your family and homestead ❤️.
🙏✝️💛
We love Brad. I will never forget that man. A great man. A fantastic American, husband, and animal loving man.
Glad to hear that you're slowing down, pausing to take a breath and relax a bit. I've walked that path, ahead of you. As you ease back into a more normal daily routine, the more calm (for lack of a better word) you will become. Will be easier to hear a bird singing or notice one of Stumpy's relatives scurry across the porch.
REALLY glad to hear that you cooked a meal. Praise the Lord. Was worried that you'd get run down far to much!!!
Another glad is that you and Breezy are both doing better. Giving thanks for that.
FWIW ... Yep. We have to tackle the routine stuff to keep the household going. Better Half always paid the bills. It was very rare for me to write a check or pull out a credit card. That said, it won't take long for those things to become your new norm. Getting ready for -25 F, will become relatively automatic. Almost time to disconnect and drain the last water hose here.
Have a good Saturday afternoon, Charly. Godspeed as the hours proceed.
@@oldtimerlee8820 hearing you say this, it sounds comfortable and routine. When I think about I hear screaming in my head.
Denial has definitely shown up today. I can do everything I need to do, but today I just realized, I don’t want to.
I’m afraid I am going to sit down in this chair and not get up.
I’m angry too.
But it’s better.
I’m in constant prayer, thankful for his grace and mercy. I am grateful
he is at peace and pain free.
Today is the day the Lord has given me. And I am grateful. Thanks Lee. You always make sense.
@@bctruck It takes time, my friend. I don't know how to explain it. This is my feeble attempt. While it doesn't seem like it, now, each day gets a tiny bit better. As does each month get a little better, as well.
Using paying those bills, each month it did get a little easier. Less confusion, less head scratching about bills that didn't happen every month. (Things billed occasionally during the year. ) Less frustration and vexation. Once I got it organized the way I wanted, over time it became routine.
Yes, anger is a part of it. All I can say, is that the anger fades into the background, a little at a time. It's fine to get up out of that chair and stomp your foot, from time to time. Yell at the refrigerator, as it won't yell back, when you need to let off some steam (to use an old cliché).
Then, pause to remember that Brad was blessed that our Lord called him home quickly. My father passed quickly, like Brad. My mother' s passing was long, slow and painful from cancer. Better Half was in the hospital over 2 weeks.
Both of you were blessed, as you didn't have to see him suffer. When the grip of anger flares up, please do pause to remember the suffering that didn't happen. Hold on tight to it!
In time, I'm sure you'll be giving that same type of advice to someone else. Suspect it doesn't seem possible today, but I assure you, that with time, the fear and anger will abate. Much will be "comfortable and routine". Memories will true treasures of life. They do bring comfort and peace of mind.
One day a time, my friend. May God bless your steps. You are in my thoughts and prayers every day.
@@oldtimerlee8820 reading your comments has always been like reading a book of poems, pleasant memories, or remembering some childhood memories. I hope I can graduate into a caring, grateful and happy person and not a bitter angry old woman.
I will be looking for whatever door God opens.
Love you Charly, I'm so glad you are making these videos. Hugs!
@@ladyhawthorne1 it is starting to feel like therapy. I really need to do this for me. I thought it was about him but it’s about sharing with others that knew him. Thanks
Wonderful idea for the live stream! ❤❤❤❤❤
@@myskydive11 thanks. It will be a while. I want to be able to talk and not cry.
he was a mans man shur going to miss him love you guys
@@socialista1421 and I think we can all agree, he had one opinion-his😬
But he did admit when he was wrong I think. 🥰
I’m glad to hear you’re slowing down because the process is so hard to comprehend to someone that hasn’t dealt with the loss of your spouse/soulmate.
I wish I could give you a hug and tell you everything is going to be alright, but all I can say it takes time and you take all the time you need. Don’t think of yourself as being selfish because you’re not.
I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you have a very blessed weekend! Love, hugs and prayers to you!
@@WillowsGarden when I got Brad’s death certificate was when reality
sat in. I realized I needed to stop. I was functioning on no sleep and auto pilot.
The day has enough troubles without borrowing tomorrow’s troubles.
I not scared-I’m blessed so I am going to act like it.
Thanks for the words of encouragement.
the one thing ive learned about Brad over the years is that he could just about make light of any thing he had going on unless it was just something that got stuck in his craw then it was rant time lol
your doing fine making these videos i personally kept watching all these years because brad was real he didnt just show the perfect outcomes in video we got it all even if it didnt work out
prayers go out to you and all the animals
@@rdnkrfnk when got mad about something , it stayed with him. But he usually made a joke about it. Life is hard but it’s really hard if you don’t have a sense of humor. Thanks
Thank you for the video today , you don’t need to be perfect
Blessings
@@GarryFishermusic that’s good to know because I have fallen short a lot lately. Thanks
You and Brad have been a positive aspect in our lives and definitely deserve a celebration.
I know people who never knew him like we do still benefit from his "how to" videos. 😊
@@saltyshellback he loved to fix things till he got sick, but he always loved making TH-cam videos and telling me don’t say anything. 😬
Keep hanging in, you are doing a great job. I'm glad you are feeling better. There isn't a big rush to do everything at once. I think that is a normal reaction. That's what I did when my husband passed, but there really isn't a rush . Take your time and take care of yourself.
@@dhimmel2894 I’m not a freak out kind of person, but that was what I was doing. I have moved into sad, which is better. Thanks
I enjoyed the video. We are off this morning to head to Normangee for my Uncle's burial.
I'm really glad you are sounding/feeling better.
@@tattoowho I sorry for your loss. I am better. The freaking out part is turning into just sad. Which is way better. Thanks
Thank you Charly.
@@RobbsHomemadeLife thank you for watching.
That's wise to concentrate on ONE thing at a time. Things that need to be done are just gonna hafta WAIT their turn! I can hear in your voice that you are doing much better. Thank God for that! Love and Prayers.
@@stevekundzala676 I don’t sound like I’m in panic mode as bad. I’m still just a little freaked out but way better. I’m going into sad mode which is better than running from his death.
God will open the doors I need to get through this.
Thank you.
I really like that you are making these videos. I think that without anyone close like family. We are doing what we can to comfort you in your time of need.
@@ChiefAUS you are! I feel like I am telling family that knew Brad, what’s going on since his death. TH-cam knew him better than anyone, even me. He told things I would never tell 😳. He told TH-cam things he didn’t tell me (sorry- I didn’t watch all his videos-I guess I will now) thanks for watching
I think Brad would like a live stream. He liked them when he did them and enjoyed talking to his friends where they could have a conversation with him. I think he would appreciate his YT family and his favorite person using a live stream to heal and remember.
@@moviemakerwannabe I would like it if the family could ask questions. Brad just told everything. I don’t want to be the only one who has a voice. Not sure when but it’s on the list. Thanks
@@bctruck I will try. You tube has not been good about notifications for me. My computer chair decided to flip over and throw me to the ground so I got a bruised tailbone and sitting for very long gets too painful but I'm getting better I can be at the computer longer now. So you probably noticed that I hadn't been writing much and that was the main reason why, LOL. Also had a torn calf muscle before that happened it's getting better too.
Oh I hope you heal soon. You have been through it a lot lately
@@bctruck Thank you. I think it will heal soon. I think in that rather long email I forgot to say I'd love to talk to you on the phone sometime but at this point I can't sit very long and am in bed a lot. My phone is a land line tethered to the wall, LOL.
👍”Be Still & Know That I Am God” 🙏
@@majorpayne5289 my favorite verse in the whole Bible. I have it on a plaque and should read it more often. Thanks
Thank you for sharing! Love you bye!🙏🏽❤️✝️👍🏽😊❤️🇺🇸
@@jeffryrichardson9105 thanks for watching. I’m really wishing Brad had said love ya bye to everyone.
Many Blessings!
Thank you for the many
Prayers
@@graphicwonders thank you
you hang in there. hold on to the good times.
@@jimvoorhees9204 there were lots of good times. Hope those memories come back soon. Hey, I could just watch TH-cam- bctruck. Thanks
You sound much better. I like your videos every day, keep them coming. project videos will be great!
@@northcountry32 I you say that now, I’m not as handsome as he was. Plus he knew what he was doing. 😬
Charly you are doing great keep up the great work. 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
@@robertweigandt9449 thanks. These are some trying times. For everyone.
Planning to be at the Livestream Charly.
Love you 💛2.
God 🙏 Bless ✝️💛.
@@maximpestsolutions3696 happy to hear from you. I hope all the people that knew him like you, precipitate. It will be in a couple of weeks. Love to all the YT family.
@bctruck Love you 💛 Charly and Brad's YT Family.
Prayers sent 🙏✝️💛
good job
@@michigantler5046 well I don’t know about good but making these videos gives me some peace. Thanks
When I cook I cook a meal for 2 or more, Then I have meals for the next day or later in the week easily frozen and so quickly ready to eat next time just cook once or twice a week and always have a meal for visitors.
Visitors? What’s that? I don’t know how it happened but everyone just eased out of our lives long ago. I’m thankful for the TH-cam family.
It looks like frozen meals and egg sandwiches for a while. 😬
he will be missed by all
@@jimvoorhees9204 I do miss his big head. Thanks
@@jimvoorhees9204 Amen 🙏✝️
Glad to hear you sounding better. I do miss going to the knife shop with him and Breezy on Saturday.
@@cavtroopermunoz me too. I can’t even go down there except to feed the cat. Breezy sits on the steps till I go get him.
Do what you can! Be yourself your husband is very miss in our youtube community.
@@juanjorx7 I think he would be in awe at the support. Thanks
I don’t know if I will get to see your live but I did a video for one of his favorite foods and no I still haven’t figured out how to make bacon seeds grow
@@bingo45373 I just watched it. That was great 😀 he would have loved it. I’m glad he never found bacon seeds. The raccoons probably would have got to the bacon first.
@ probably I would of done a bacon one but my stomach can’t handle bacon anymore well not much of it
@ but I will see if I can find my bacon seed video and tag you in it
What happened to Brad? I haven’t been on TH-cam much lately and I saw he has passed.
Fatal heart attack. The Lord took him instantly sitting at his desk looking at his new motorcycle helmet.
Keep making the videos and keep us informed
Luv you too.
@@Aaronmilo122 I’m glad I still have Brad’s TH-cam family I can say “love ya bye. “
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
@@michaelhardy195 thanks much appreciated.
THKS
🙏
@@patrickziemke1412praying for you. Thank you
He was fun.
Charlie I would like to ask you a question in private how can I since your having so much trouble with brads account?
@@mikehall2409 bctruck@gmail.Com
I finally changed things around (he would freak out) where it is more straightforward and easier. All his social media accounts, and everything he did came to his email. As for his checking account (ours) I updated everything so it’s way easier to pay bills.
So I spent 2 days bringing everything up to date. I am now out of panic mode.
I was so worried they would freeze my only access to funds. I really do like electricity and water.
Thank you for asking. My email-quiltingtrucker@gmail.com
Comment: Late due to grocery shopping.
@@swedesamurai3331 you are excused. I was starting to worry. Old people don’t like change. Thanks
So sorry to hear this. I was a sub for many years until politics got to be too much. I just stopped by to say hi.
@@JohnTheFrugalFatGuy Thank you. Sometimes politics does get in the way of friendship. I try to keep my views to myself. I never thought anyone wanted to know them away. Thanks for stopping by ☺️
It wasn't anything personal, I learned a lot from his videos. He sent me a few gas can nozzles years ago. I just unsubbed from channels that talked too much politics, I get enough of that from the news. And you know what they say about opinions.
Keep making the videos and keep us informed
Thanks. When things start breaking (and they will) I’ll make a video of me watching Brads videos on how to fix stuff.