@@bennenumber1viewer361 I hope ur not spiting him/her/they for how they feel rn and it’s fine if they feel that way somtimes tf u don’t know what’s going on in their life
@@bennenumber1viewer361 it's not even a mindset, when this happens you can literally feel and recognize it in the other person if you got some type of basic understanding for how humans work
As someone who pass through that I can say stop auto compassion, and ask yourself if you want to do something about it, or just want to stay like that, ask yourself if you are staying the same because you know it's the only way you receive people's compassion and attention or it's because you can't do it by yourself, if it's so, go with a professional. Maybe my words could be harsh, but you have to understand life won't wait for you, and you'll waste your life cause you were so busy living from past memories instead of doing a new version of yourself, and you path will define with your answer for the question: you really want to change?
I know I’m wasting my life, but I can’t help it. I just long for the days of my past, times where responsibilities were void. Living only for the moment and not even realizing how mesmerizing and touching those moments were. Now stuck reminiscing on the memories. Just a picture to remember it by. Forever stuck in time 🥲
I listen to song already on Spotify , just randomly popped up and I heard it . Ever since then is been on my playlist , Never payed attention to the lyrics but I just felt a weird relation to it . Feels weird to know you're in a state of sadness you can't explain but neither escape .
that's the only sad I feel now and I try to give myself a reason to cry so when people ask me why i am crying i actually have a reason but it makes everything worst when I find something to cry about because then my mind runs on whatever i am now overthinking.
Sometimes it's just easier to put on a stoic/tough person act than take the time and mental energy to properly explain why I feel the ways I do. Sometimes with certain emotions, I can't explain them for long enough without erupting with anger or bursting into tears.
I used to listen to Space Song a lot, during the lowest point in my life and just cry. Now I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and listening to this now gave me quite a dose of nostalgia. Brought a tear to my eyes, not because I was sad like I used to be, but rather because I made it out of that depression, and am so grateful for what I have now. So thank you for making this edit of the song!
I feel like all of beach house's music is like this where it either represents such an overwhelming depression or bliss and contentment. For me it's the other way around, used to be happy, now just fills me with a deep sense of being a shell of a former self. It's like it's just about crying, whether it's tears of joy or sadness.
at the core of it all, i'm just a child that doesn't want to be left behind again. a child that just wants to be understood, a child that just wants her chance to be happy and loved. and it hurts watching the people you made memories with become memories themselves. i'm not ready to let go yet. can everyone please come back. please.
They shouldn't, they won't, they can't. Nobody can build your worth as much as you can yourself, and some day you will hopefully realise and accept that. Being left behind is incredibly hard, but it's also necessary for you to grow and be able to blossom by yourself. But believe me when I say this - clinging onto past memories is just preventing yourself from being a better you. Always keep them around somewhere, but learn to lock them away for most times. Life is not linear, it's an everchanging wave of wonder and terror, you just need to learn how to sail on it. And that is what makes it so morbidly wonderful. You got this. We got this.
This is how life works, you need to build your character up and not let anyone complete it for you, when that person is gone you will be incomplete forever if so
Same I was an all A+ student until this year I just got so emotional and angry with myself I ended up getting yelled at bc they called my mom. And told her after I told my teacher I’m not okay I only passed bc it was online.
“Covid? Pandemic? Depression? Stress? What’re you talking about dude? It’s 2013 and the teacher just put on Polar Express for the Christmas party, let’s go get some pizza and lay down on my blanket!”
Man, I don’t know. I felt good before entering the comments, but now I recognize myself in many of the stories here. Reading these comments really hurt my feelings in a way I can’t explain.. It feels like I’ve been acting like everything was fine. I’ve been trying so hard to forget how deep my sadness actually is, and I know i will still try to forget that until something like this comment section reminds me of everything. Stay safe, all of you passing by.
This perfectly encapsulated how I felt reading these comments too- I saw too much of myself in them and feel those once buried at full strength how... stay lovely, friend
I feel you man, I really do. I've haven't been myself recently too. I feel like my mind is separated from my body, and I am in a ditch that I can never seem to get out of no matter how hard I try. I've gotten into some bad shit and I regret it, I quit, but as every day passes, the same old shit happens over and over again and it's tempting me to pick up bad addictions again. As I have seen from some of the other comments, one phrase says it all: "Everyone you see is flying past you, while you seem to be stuck in the same old place every day". To anyone reading this that is in a shithole themselves, I wish you the best in your life and for you to have the strength to push through. Stay strong.
sorry if I get preachy but I have turned to Christ agian and it has truly made me happy. I was depressed when I first turned 13 and now I am as happy as ever. I have made new friends,lost some,asked my crush out and some other stuff like that. It may be rough but God and my friends and brothers got me through it all.
I got that feeling again. The same thing that happens every Christmas. If I can describe it, it’s like being in a room of people who know and love you but you feel alone and stuck.
It’s summer, but I’m on a family vacation trip and I feel it again. Normally I’m fairly independent and communicate well with my family and often and sometimes even enjoy it, but when I wake up here, with them again, new places but same interactions, I just can’t help but feel alone. They never understood, they don’t understand, and they won’t ever understand because I think I want to move on. They’re not bad people, just not my people, and I’m okay with that
If i'm going to be honest, i'm not tired in a suicidal way. I'm tired in a bored & exhausted way. I'm tired of having to wake up, eat, get dressed, go to school, learn, come back home, do homework, eat dinner and go back to bed. Every day the same.. It's.. exhausting. And it's boring. Nothing new. It's Just, the same old thing. Every. Single. Day.
I feel you, it's so numbing. Feeling like there's nothing more in life... Living every day of life just trying to go through another, and another, it sucks
Tbh i actually miss that . This lockdown made me realise how much i wasted and lost because i was too pessimistic to take life as it is and accept it and i would take going to school (in the normal way like we all did before 2020) over staying at home and listen to people quarrel and fight. Ngl now i don't want school to reopen cause i have been so cut out from it by now i even forgot how it was like to have a normal school day. I just wish this whole thing never happened.
i am the same, there are two way to overcome this. The first, the hardest, is to give up your life goals and make a new start from zero before you go crazy, maybe by becoming a vagabond. The second, is to escape from reality. There will be a day where the escape will be realer than your own reality. Escape can be passive or active but active one are betters for your health. It can be sport, music ( playing or listening) , drawings, video edits, or just watchings series and animes. But be careful, an escape can save you but it can also destroy you. Because, when you live for your daily escape, all the rest of the day at school or at work, is even harder than before to bear. When you have no purpose in life, school is borring, but when you live for something that is not school, school become unbearable. Hope it helped you a little bit, just keep in mind that life is not easy. Every humans suffer in their life, but if life was easy, it would become as boring as school.Bad things are necessary sometimes to go forward and cross a step in your life. If you don't fight your bad feelings, they become bigger and harder and that is fucking your mind a little more everyday.
If you think its bad now, wait until you're working, looking back, school was a dream. Waking up, barely eating, going to work an underpaid job where they overwork you and treat you like shit, go home, sleep, repeat until you get paid, 90% of money goes to bills, life is just a vicious circle, I'm not suicidal either, but I wish I could just dissappear.
@@rimishakhatri9549 thank you for that, it really made me smile. things aren't the best right now so it does mean quite a bit seeing that, I hope that everything is going well with you too, even if I'm just a random stranger on the internet I believe in you
What can we do really? People say that you should work it out yourself and make your happiness come from you. But it seems impossible. I know it isn’t but it’s a long process that I really don’t have the energy to do.
i just feel ur pain and it makes me sad that so many people have to deal with it while nobody can help ik that im just somebody that probably you will never meet in ur life an online stranger all i want to say is enjoy the moments with your most loved ones and just ignore the others even if its hard hope u r doing good I would really like to say see you later but the only thing i can say its goodbye
You can change yourself and improve through each day, They are limited in length and abundance, But I can assure you, If you are lacking in the energy to push forward you need to genuinely take care of yourself and habits, Get 8-9 hours of sleep, Go to bed early and wake up, Practice gratitude and meditation and understand the things that you are given by the world and the heavens are things to be grateful for, Even if it’s the smallest thing that you are truly happy for, Then you have practiced gratitude, Never pity yourself but instead act, And in this case….. Act in recovery and rejuvenation, then you can progress forward, by healing bad habits and treating yourself with love. God bless 🙏
We're all waiting for that moment we'll feel important, needed, recognized. Realizing that that moment might never arrive is terrifying and crushes the soul. Remember, live this life for you. You have to be important to you. You have to recognize how beautiful you are. Hold on for you. I hope everyone sees brighter days soon.
They say that life is like a piano. white keys are happiness, black keys are sadness. and you need both to play a good song, but it's a bit hard when your entire fucking piano is just black keys.
and so, i ask you to play a sweat melody in C# Major, even with just black keys, even with only the sadness, you can turn it around to produce a beautiful melody, and when you do....youll see the white keys again. you have time, worry not, the music you can make is oh so wonderful.
It hurts even more when you really stop and remember the fact that your wasting ur life feeling this way and you remember the fact that you can never go back
I stayed for him. Only him. Cause he said I mattered so much to him, and he couldn't bare losing his only friend. He said he got attached. Very attached. He said that I am the only person he trusts. But.. guess what. He left. Idk why. He changed. And now, I am left alone. An idiot. With no one. And I just wish that I could go back to that night, never have talked to him and to have ended it right there. No more suffering anymore. And everything would be okay. Because, now, even if he left, I know that he still eon't be able to bare the loss. Oh well.. minus one..
i feel like a bomb of emotions boiling up, slowly building up pressure, but its like im made out of titanium in a way, the bomb cant explode, the emotions cant leave. I just wanna explode.
"You can life as a hero, save people from their hardest times. But, when you need help, you cant save yourself from this pit of despair you fell in" -Me
I don't mean to be pessimistic, but that's just the beginning. Whatever you do, stay away from drugs or alcohol etc. It sounds cliche but it can bring a sense of unrealism. Just keep waiting and it will get better, I promise.
Hey guys, I recently got a girlfriend, now I can hear this song in a different light, thank you all for making this content but I no longer need it, because I am finally happy. I wish everyone luck on their own journey, I love you all. Edit: no worries guys you will all find your partner eventually, all you gotta do is start working on yourself and eventually girls will start paying attention to you, Goodluck guys ;] Edit 2: I broke up with her boys, I had to because I found myself going back to the same old habits that I did before. I became lazy because I felt fulfilled whilst being around her, I felt like all my past efforts have finally paid off and I could just relax and enjoy the fruit of my labor, but I can't relax yet, I haven't lived up to my potential. Edit 3: I am now a muslim, my life is good, I wish happiness for all of you and may Allah guide you all.
@@gayatrivinod8438hope it gets better for you im currently going through a semi breakup thats super complicated but shii if i still have hope so can you
boys i’m actually doing really well for once, i can listen to this song and feel good that i don’t feel the same way i did first time i heard this. she makes me so happy man i love this
You shouldn't need someone else to make you happy or to be Happy, otherwise what are you gonna be left with when that person isn't in your life anymore?
@@martin4077 i’m not sure bro and that’s the scary bit, if she disappears on me i’ll be the worst i’ve ever been in my life before. but i feel like part of a relationship is trusting someone enough that they’re not gonna leave to the point where you feel confident enough to open up and let them make you happy. i might be talking complete shit right now and i’m not sure if what i said makes any sense but yeah
I can relate. Life’s kind of depressing and I genuinely don’t know what to do. I’ve seen things happen when I was little and I don’t know what to do or how to cope with it nor do I wanna have it as a excuse for anything. I find it stupid. I feel happy making someone else happy or laugh. I just kind of want attention since my parents never gave me enough anyways and my sister would be a jerk to me, they are now getting mad at me for the way I act. And I just bring up the excuse or sometimes “well you guys been like this to me when I was younger” and I feel like it’s ok to do that when it really isn’t. I’m just extremely confused and don’t know what to do. I’m just trying to help others be happy. Basically every “class clown” or “funny kid” is really hurt inside. And I’ve heard someone say this before. “When you are strong, nobody knows when you are hurt.” And I’m a person who is a class clown and it’s kind of true. I am hurt inside and genuinely want someone with me. I’m kind of religious (I’m Christian) and I respect what any has but I keep praying but honestly I’m still feeling hurt. Im always there for anyone else though. This was just a short thing I wanted to say.
Something I felt that... bruh... Anyway instead I found another option to make me happy... I think you can't just always talk and say jokes, really you can't just 24/7 say jokes it's all the time... btw you have to find a thing that you want to learn more. Example of me... I find out that drawing in my style make me feel okay while listening to my favorite songs... or playing some video games make me feel good. Like: life is strange 1, persona 3, or other rpg games (life is strange is not rpg btw) any way. . In that case sometimes it doesn't matter if you are happy or sad you are lonely or popular when it feels good and you enjoy it it's important I hope you understand what I'm saying cuz I have grammar issue lol. And remember. You need a person to talk to him/her sometimes. You can't just talk to no one and expect to change the world :O For example in Life is strange I see when I'm talking to people with good dialogues they seems like changed :O You know I got good ending :O but instead if I used bad dialogues or don't talk to any body I could get bad ending :( Btw don't worry you won't get bad ending XD but care about people around you
4/10/22 The aquarium is finally done. I feel accomplished. My head and hands are hurting like crazy though. It’s hard to recognize myself. I forget things so fast, i get confused and stuck in cycles, and I can’t remember myself. It’s like i know i did these things, but i can’t remember doing those things. I feel different, hollow. Like my personality is one dimensional, there’s nothing past my calm anxious demeanor. I feel like a collection of memories and nostalgia of what I used to be, not a person. I can’t remember my childhood, I want it back. I want my old friends back, I want my good grades back, I want my motivation back, but all I have left is my family. Depression has taken all these things from me, and I’ll never get them back. I should’ve told them, I should’ve been worried, but here we are. The meds are losing effect. I’m an insomniac. Depression’s a bitch isn’t it. I can’t even enjoy my fish. Note for anyone like me, reach out. Get help before it’s too late and you forget everything.
Been in a similar place, even after overcoming it. It was almost as if my life was sucked put of me, i could not feel happiness or sad, just nothing, I could not even cry. I still feel numb even after I overcame it, sometimes, I feel almost like I have not changed since them. I didn't improve my, situation around me did. I know that another situation similar to the one before might occur. What do I do then, my insecurities, self doubt and anxiety will still be there. Will the grey numbness be there too then. All I know is to keep going forward. I hope you can do the same
doesn't it break your heart to read all of these comments and realize we live in a world where so many people hurt like you do? i personally wouldn't wish my own hurt upon anyone, ever.
@@chhuuya I can relate to that, mine is sowmhat aswell, its strange for the most part everything is completely fine but then just out of the blue. It used to be alot worse but i still can't forget that time some years ago, im really not sure why things got like that.
Toxic family and a husband who’s never there recovering from rape no one to turn to when I need help no one answers their phone and my husband is so tired from working I have literally no one to talk to since no one in my family calls me back and I have no friends since I am a hermit because of my SA my pets don’t even like me they fit even interact with me when I give them attention
I lived my life thinking that if I do right by others eventually they will do right by me. Don't get me wrong I'm not a Saint but this has bitten me in the ass more than I can count. No one owed me anything, no matter how hard I tried to forge bonds, no matter how much love I tried to push, they didn't need to do it back. It took me so long to realize this, no one really loves me and no matter how hard I try to find it I won't. I couldn't find love from my parents, I couldn't find love from my friends and I couldn't find love from my partners. And you know what that's okay. I'll take that love that I poured down to other people and they rejected to myself. To the person who will uncover my mask and accept me for who I am. I love you.
you just made me realise this, cant stop crying now that i've realise how long i've been wasting my time. i really appreciate this, hope you're doing okay now :)
I'm tired. I wish I could get rid of all this sadness. I'm stuck in the past. I want to get out, from everything that makes me feel this way, but I can't seem to escape somehow. I don't want to die, but I really don't want to live if it's like this. I'll never matter to anyone, I'll never be valuable. I'll never be someone's love of their life. And I know no one is coming to save me from myself. Everything hurts.
one girl who always bullied me and was rude to me came up to me the other day and was like "omg (my name) you're so pretty i wish i looked like you. i hate myself" i replied "yeah i bet you do.. you treat people like complete caca!"
Im typing these comments as I realize, no one will see my comments, im not crying on someones shoulder, im crying on my own shoulder. The only person im venting to is myself. And here I am again, commenting to people that dont exist, that are only people I imagine in my head, people that wont see this. I've realized that this world is to big, to many people, im one amoung 7.8 billion others, am I really worth anything? If i died only a couple people would know, and others that find out probably wouldn't care because they dont know me. And im again just venting to myself, oddly this is helping. But am I not just transfering my own problems to a version of myself deeper inside me? It's like im just shoving away my problems. But it still helps. Sentience is a curse, emotions is a curse. Why do we feel, nobody decided that we should feel, evolution just, did it's thing, are we even sentient at all? Am I just being controled by my brain, and not acctualy me. Am I even me? Who is me? Who am I? Is even me or I or you a thing? Im still venting to myself, if anyone sees this comment and reads all of it, who are you? Why do you bother reading? Maybe im not just venting to myself anyways, I guess I'll see in the future. Now I feel like some emo kid, that thinks he's deppresed and listening to some random song, am I emo? i dont want to be a emo, I don't feel like a emo. Maybe im not acctualy deppresed, and im just un-knowingly faking it for attention like the dirty idiot i am. Im a bomb of explosions, i want to explode, but i cant. What if there's acctualy no reason in exploding, what if there aren't any bad feeling in my right now. Im just a spoiled brat, I don't deserve this PC, this keyboard, this mouse, this screen. I don't deserve a home, I don't deserve family, I don't deserve my body. I hope you're still reading, you're a good person, I hope you're fine, you dont deserve pain. to be honest I want to stop commenting, but my head tells me to keep writing, I don't feel like i have more to say, but my head says otherwise apparently. But there's nothing more to write, im just writing to write now, im such a attention seeking bastard, maybe I should just end it, maybe im not worth anything at all. Life gave me a chance and i threw it away like a spoiled toddler, i deserve this, this is my punishment. Now I feel like a criminal, that's broken hearts and laws, and that deserves to be locked up, in a jail cell, for the rest of his life. Am I even typing out my own emotions right now? Or am I just saying whatever feels right, i dont know, this doesnt feel right, nothing feels right. Im starting to get sick of my head, im sick of typing, but my head still wants to vent, i cant, Im just repeting what I said earlier, most of what im saying is just the same thing over and over again, but put diffrent ways, am I even venting, aren't i just wasting some readers time by writing all this? I don't feel better anymore, im tired, i have nothing more to say, i wish i could just talk to people, not write.people in this comment section seem frendly and kind, but i dont deserve anyone here, im just wasting your time, my hands are tired, its hard to type, my yeyes are tired, im tired, i wanna sleep, im gonna sleep, i hope im not like this tomorrow. and now i realize i've spendt over 40 minutes on writing. im not worth this, night.
I feel you. everything you said. But from someone else's perspective I want to say a few things. You may not mean anything to the world, but you mean the world to someone. It's corny but it's true. I hope you feel better in the morning. You deserve everything you have and more
Its not easy. You arent an attention-seeking emo kid. Your a passionate person. Your worth it! Many people love you! Stop saying you don’t deserve anything. You deserve the world. Stay healthy. Keep doing things you love. Maybe one day you’ll become a poet. Or maybe, you’ll become an architect. Theres a lot to live for! :) I hope you enjoy your week! ^ ^
Sometimes, you have to realize things that will ruin you, or hurt you more than anything else. For me, it was realizing that I truly had nobody that understood what I'm feeling. People don't get it. This isn't a fairy tale. I'm not going to be okay. Things won't magically get better. I'm... okay with it. I don't think I should be. But after all the shit I've seen, maybe I don't have to accept living with my feelings any more. Some day I'll make it out of this. Or maybe not. That's life. Unpredictable and tender. :)
It's like a tide, the pain comes and goes, we have our good days and bad. People like us will never be rid of this pain but, we're strong enough to bear it, to try and be better for the ones who suffer too
Let me tell you a secret, things never get better. That's true. 'With' every pain there is relief. Helen Keller said, When one door closes another opens but we are so focused on the close one that we never see the one that has been opened up for us. So stop waiting for things to get better. Find them, find the things that are better
it's hard to stay positive when you're in the middle of it, but i know it'll get better eventually. so imma just hold on until then. we're all going to be fine.
We all miss the times when - our dads shoulder was the highest place on earth -we weren't dirty minded -we were happier and interested into more things -had good times and laughs -never felt left out -never felt like something was missing -life was easy -easy homework -we felt higher than the universe -happiness actually felt real And best of all -we enjoyed life
Yet it is a story, a story of your own, in which only you can save yourself, and you will… we all will, in time when it’s right, you’ll know, we’ll all know.. in time
This song made me sad and sometimes even cry while I was in a relationship because I thought about losing my boyfriend while hearing this song and that was the biggest fear I've ever had. Now it happened, I am alone again and the only thing that this song gives me are goosebumps but I don't feel anything about it anymore. :(
Neither me... actually i feel like crap, i can’t even recognize myself ... and my last hope just disapoint me like the rest, man... honestly idk what to do anymore, i tried to ask help; but... nothing...
I do not know if what I've been experiencing for the past two years is depression, but it is quite unpleasant. Right now, I noticed myself becoming a perfectionist. I think I have occasional anxiety, perhaps I have social anxiety (really dependent on the opinion of others). Definitely have a self-esteem as low as the bottom of the sea. Dark thoughts come occasionally. Sometimes I think everything will be OK, while other times I don't believe anything is gonna change for the better.
I rely on fictional characters to bring me some sort of happiness. I don't rely on my parents, friends, siblings, family because they hurt me. Fictional characters won't hurt me. They won't abandon me, they won't judge me, they will forever simply exist. I don't need words of comfort I just need to feel someone and if that means feeling someone through a screen I'm ok with that. Atleast I'm not alone.....
Sameee I decided to drop my friends because it’s pointless keeping people around that don’t care about you. Just remember that you matter so much to people, in the past, now, and in the future. I hope you meet someone that validates you and your mental health!
Just a couple of months ago i was at the lowest point in my life. I would listen to this song everyday and just sit there in a dark room. Im doing better now and im happier, i came back to this song to remind myself that i got up out of bed today. That i got over depression.
then may i ask something? and i know this may come off as crass, how long would you wait until you made something change? why not make it tomorrow? push to make the next episode in your storied performance of life something grand, meet someone new, try something different, pick up a new hobby, drive to a new place, or speak to someone you havent spoken too in a great deal of time. theres more to live, but you have to ask what needs to change in order for greater change to take place.
One of the worst pains is knowing the life you used to know was fake. And everyone who you thought cared about you, and loved you, all betrayed you in the end. But now you, haunted, by those memories. And now you feel stupid for let’s those people into your life but you didn’t know any better.I hope for the best for all of you who are going threw that. Just know your not alone.
i’m so sick of finding happiness in false memories and in a version of me that isn’t even real i feel like such a burden i kinda just want to run away where i won’t have to burden anyone with my problems
@@Wsxzm- i wish how to do it in a way it wouldn’t hurt people you know? In a way I could just disappear and no one would notice, as if I didn’t even exist. So I can rest, in peace.
I'm suffering with anxiety stress and overthinking i act happy around my family but when I'm alone i feel and empty i found this song today and while listening to it i started crying my eyes out
I used to be so great happy and helping people now I don't like people that much I see people suffering and I don't do anything then I hate myself for it
Also it gets better and gets worst life is like sailing you have your highs and lows you got this man what I would do is open up tell your Moe or dad or a close friend it helps ease the pain a little and be with someone the burden doesn't have to be just on you as well don't ever forget Jesus loves us all and is waiting for us it's the most comfting thing in the world granted I still have downs if you turn to Jesus give you life to him will be the most joy you will be happy when you sad it won't bother you as much
@@josiahsmith9871 i did talk to my close friend and it helped me allot I'm not totally fine but I'm getting there and I've boost my confidence too i just wanna say thanks for your concern i wanna be friends with you if that's okay
I know that feeling, its even worse when the others tell you that its your own fault that you are alone, you brought this into yourself. They laugh at you and trivialize you. Everwhere i go its the same, my "friends" even my family, what do you do when you try to run from your problems and take a break from life but it follows you home. Every day i look in my mirror and im reminded of how old i have become, soon im not even young anymore. I felt like i used toi have a chance, i felt so alone, but there was hope, but the nigmare just kept going it never ended. The sleep issues never got any better. The bags under my eyes are now permanent, grey shadows on the lower eyelids now linger for weeks on end. It reminds me of how long this has lasted. My old classmates are getting married having kids and working jobs. And here i am barely started at my university degreee that i will not be able to finish anyways, its been weeks and im already failing. The same pattern as always, tables of four, groups of three, the one excluded. Always. It was like that in school it was like that in highschool and it was like that here aswell. Worst part is you trying to figure out why, is it just becaus im so goddamn ugly? And from now on its only downhill, ive seen my best years, me alone in the mirror and the walls of my room, the stuffed animals and posters dead flat paper eyes were my only witness. Valleys of age on my tired face carved by tears, the yellow teeth uncared for during onsets of depression. From now on its downhill, and even when i was at my best, i wasn't even good enough. Not that it mattered, the people that get to know you leave you anyways, the classmates i worked with despised me becaus i was never as good as the others, they thought i was lazy, they didn't see what it took to get out of bed, my blank stare was one of dissociation and not apathy. I wanted to be there but my mind pulls me to the side. I wish i could blotch out the mirror with ink, becaus even ink is brighter than that twisted reflection i see in the silver film. For me its over, and it never even began. I really wish i could sew my wounds, but they are too deep at this point, and i will never recover, there is no fixing this.
Sorry for the essay 16 years it had been. we hadn't gone much more than a week without at least talking to each other. having sleep overs, playing video games, exploring our neighborhoods, getting into trouble, playing baseball, even going to different schools didn't stop us. Then he went to college more than halfway across the country. that didn't change much between us, we still hung out over discord, and played game together, but he changed, for the better actually. he got better mentally, saw a therapist, was enjoying the new environment, and fitting in to a new community. I wasn't changing though; i was still my pessimistic, subtly suicidal self with who never believed in himself and refused to get better. I remember what i think was the turning point. we were texting each other and, as usual, i made some self deprecating comment. i was mostly in good fun, but it was also the truth. he called me, immediately, and wanted to talk. Wondered why i always said things like that; he wanted me to open up and have a heart to heart with him. after all, we had been friends for about 14 years at this point. We had had those talks before, but it had been a long time since then. I clammed up, stone walled harder than i had ever before. I must have walked around my block 10 times, all the while refusing to divulge my feelings. I had created a rift between us. Before i knew it, the rift had grown as wide as a chasm, too wide to jump across. It all came to a head when covid hit. he and his family were more cautious when it came to the virus, so when he came back home to visit during winter break, we didn't see each other. we didn't talk, we didn't play games, we didn't throw a ball around, we didn't do anything together. Since then, we haven't so much as text each other. We didn't give each other Christmas gifts, he didn't wish me a happy birthday, and we haven't played games together. The following summer, i finally mustered up the courage to call him. i had found out from a friend that he was alive and well (thankfully) and in our hometown. when i called him i had prepared for it to ring until voice mail, that's what i expected. i was hoping for the pleasant surprise of him picking up, but i didn't get that. i got something much worse. he... declined the call after about a ring and a half. I didn't know how to react. i could only feel the pit in my stomach. i left him a short and heartfelt message telling him that i missed him. then i cried. "Friendships like this don't come every lifetime," my parents would tell me, and i had squandered it. we had know each other since i was 3 and he was 4. I'm 21 now and haven't spoken with him in over a year. TL;DR: yeah, they're rough.
that moment when you feel detached from reality because you realize how much hurt you've been through and you feel like you're dead already, but there's no way others can understand it.
hey, i feel you. i used weed for a while to cope and was spiraling into a dissociative state of depression. it took talking to a therapist and finally getting everything off of my chest, and a long long, ongoing battle against myself to get out of that place. i’m still trying-we all do everyday. keep trying ❤️
I don't wanna be that guy but this song definitely gives different vibes when life is going great... I still feel it in my own way even without being very sad, much like I was 4 months ago
the moment when your parents say "I just don't get why you aren't stressed like we are" on homework assignments, not knowing you had a mental breakdown about it the night before and you were trying to muffle your crying because it was 3 am and you didn't want to wake anyone up. happened to me yesterday.
I’m feeling less alone knowing we’re all going through hard things, but I feel even more alone realizing that this is just a video comment section, that I’m sitting on my bed, alone, with no one to talk to. Feeling like no one sees things like I do, no one understands me. Wish I could write my own history sometimes.
"What do you want to be when you grow up?" "Happy." *all the other students start laughing* "I'm afraid you don't understand the question." "No, you don't understand the answer."
It’s not about one solution fixing your problems it’s about you just trying to get better and even if you don’t if you just try you’re already doing better
its weird, im 'recovering' from depression but i dont want to. ive found a sense of false security in it, and i feel i'm not deserving of happiness even though im happy more and more often. getting better is simultaniously making me worse, its exhausting.
when the right people are with you you don’t feel exhausted being happy. you have to recover from the hurt of wrong people then the happiness is genuine. when you are around someone that you feel exhausted being happy with it means that person shouldnt be in your life. But i don’t know the cause of your depression
Think about all the effort it takes just to get through each day, 'cause with something like this, every ounce of strength you manage to retain is a feat itself. And you've done this for hundreds, thousands of days even. Believe me, you earned happiness. I managed to get better myself, but my heart bleeds intensely for people who are still hurting from this. It's kind of forms my own suffering from the recovery, in a way. By now I feel so disconnected from where I was, like I can't truly relate to people like you anymore. I find myself turning to those generic encouragements everyone says that used to annoy me for being so basic and useless: You can make it, Just keep holding on, It will get better with enough time. Maybe that approach could work, to an extent; but that, and the work that comes with it to truly make a breakthrough, takes more will than anyone should be expected to have, let alone in a state like this. But here's a tip from my experiece: that strength comes from other people (in my case, a wonderful collection of youtubers). I really try to find some advice that can help people, though, and I hope that you can find some worth in these edited ramblings, if only some encouragement for the attempt to help.
everyday is the same. the same cycle. I just want it to stop... not permanently but just for a short time so I can rest. man I'm so tired. life is going by too quick even though everyday is the same and I'm struggling to remain happy.
Sad, I found a picture of myself still bright eyed holding a puppy (dead) and I question where did things go so wrong, where did I turn into such a bastard.
when you realize you're the only one diffrent from the others in the group, always left out, and you realize you have none. (im here again crying hello depressed people)
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1.4 MILLION VIEWS WHAT OMG
congrats!
congrats 💕
Congratulations!
CONGRATULATIONS
i just got here 😃
when you’re so excited to talk to people but feel that deep down they’d rather talk to other people and not you
Wow what a shit mindset😐
@@bennenumber1viewer361 I hope ur not spiting him/her/they for how they feel rn and it’s fine if they feel that way somtimes tf u don’t know what’s going on in their life
@@coolicejesusmanwoofwoofeye8231 No I don't but it's still not a good way of thinking.
@@bennenumber1viewer361 it's not even a mindset, when this happens you can literally feel and recognize it in the other person if you got some type of basic understanding for how humans work
True..I feel like I'm just a burden and always make people annoyed by talking to them because why not..I'm annoyed by myself too..
this is the moment you realize you're just alive, but you're not living
This.
this pandemic sucks sm
I'm not living, I'm just killing time.
Gosh ikr
surviving ain't living
When everyone around you is quickly moving forward, but you’re stuck in the same obscure place completely empty and alone.
"I don't wanna go over the top again, Sir."
-Random enlisted Brit from WW1
cries*
this reminds me of tsubaki in episode 15 of your lie in April, and she says to herself that she's the only one who couldn't take the first step 😢
:')
I might be a grown up woman on the outside but deep inside i'll always be that happy child i used to be :")
i can’t even recognize myself
im literally existing through nostalgia and memories of what i used to be
*im so sorry for anyone who can relate*
u said this beautifully
@@rose-od7st really?tysm x
As someone who pass through that I can say stop auto compassion, and ask yourself if you want to do something about it, or just want to stay like that, ask yourself if you are staying the same because you know it's the only way you receive people's compassion and attention or it's because you can't do it by yourself, if it's so, go with a professional. Maybe my words could be harsh, but you have to understand life won't wait for you, and you'll waste your life cause you were so busy living from past memories instead of doing a new version of yourself, and you path will define with your answer for the question: you really want to change?
I know I’m wasting my life, but I can’t help it. I just long for the days of my past, times where responsibilities were void. Living only for the moment and not even realizing how mesmerizing and touching those moments were. Now stuck reminiscing on the memories. Just a picture to remember it by. Forever stuck in time 🥲
@@killerqueen6120 wow tysm!
i needed this ty for real
This hits harder when you didn’t search for it.
Yes it hited me hard
nah fr.
ong
I listen to song already on Spotify , just randomly popped up and I heard it . Ever since then is been on my playlist , Never payed attention to the lyrics but I just felt a weird relation to it .
Feels weird to know you're in a state of sadness you can't explain but neither escape .
Idk if my TH-cam recommendations are doing so good guys
The worst type of sad, is the sad you just can't explain.
Me rn
That has a word: It's called "melancholy."
When you just feel empty and sad all the time But you don't know why?
that's the only sad I feel now and I try to give myself a reason to cry so when people ask me why i am crying i actually have a reason but it makes everything worst when I find something to cry about because then my mind runs on whatever i am now overthinking.
Sometimes it's just easier to put on a stoic/tough person act than take the time and mental energy to properly explain why I feel the ways I do. Sometimes with certain emotions, I can't explain them for long enough without erupting with anger or bursting into tears.
I used to listen to Space Song a lot, during the lowest point in my life and just cry. Now I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and listening to this now gave me quite a dose of nostalgia. Brought a tear to my eyes, not because I was sad like I used to be, but rather because I made it out of that depression, and am so grateful for what I have now. So thank you for making this edit of the song!
I feel like all of beach house's music is like this where it either represents such an overwhelming depression or bliss and contentment. For me it's the other way around, used to be happy, now just fills me with a deep sense of being a shell of a former self. It's like it's just about crying, whether it's tears of joy or sadness.
i feel so bad for myself then bc looking at all the comments i was liking i was so hurt but i’m happy i’m happy now
Good 4 u dude, mine still worse lol
@@xxcit3e891 it gets better trust me, ur life can literally change in a few days and everything u want can be with u rn
Congrats for that man
at the core of it all, i'm just a child that doesn't want to be left behind again. a child that just wants to be understood, a child that just wants her chance to be happy and loved.
and it hurts watching the people you made memories with become memories themselves. i'm not ready to let go yet. can everyone please come back. please.
god. that hit home.
They shouldn't, they won't, they can't. Nobody can build your worth as much as you can yourself, and some day you will hopefully realise and accept that. Being left behind is incredibly hard, but it's also necessary for you to grow and be able to blossom by yourself.
But believe me when I say this - clinging onto past memories is just preventing yourself from being a better you. Always keep them around somewhere, but learn to lock them away for most times.
Life is not linear, it's an everchanging wave of wonder and terror, you just need to learn how to sail on it. And that is what makes it so morbidly wonderful. You got this. We got this.
This is how life works, you need to build your character up and not let anyone complete it for you, when that person is gone you will be incomplete forever if so
:) i hope your doing okay what you said was just so valid and really hit home man
Please.
" *What happened to you, you used to be such a good student...* "
Life that happened and h u r t s
ay you're doing good, i'm proud at least :)
Same I was an all A+ student until this year I just got so emotional and angry with myself I ended up getting yelled at bc they called my mom. And told her after I told my teacher I’m not okay I only passed bc it was online.
i remember my teacher call and said that i started crying
@@ursofine awe thats sad im sorry bestie
“Covid? Pandemic? Depression? Stress? What’re you talking about dude? It’s 2013 and the teacher just put on Polar Express for the Christmas party, let’s go get some pizza and lay down on my blanket!”
DAMN BRO IGHT BET
Ur gonna make me cry
You're making so many comments, are you alright man?
u made me cry
@@toiletalien9200 he Is not okay
Man, I don’t know. I felt good before entering the comments, but now I recognize myself in many of the stories here. Reading these comments really hurt my feelings in a way I can’t explain.. It feels like I’ve been acting like everything was fine. I’ve been trying so hard to forget how deep my sadness actually is, and I know i will still try to forget that until something like this comment section reminds me of everything.
Stay safe, all of you passing by.
This perfectly encapsulated how I felt reading these comments too- I saw too much of myself in them and feel those once buried at full strength how... stay lovely, friend
Gotta let it flow man it man, don’t deny your sadness. You gotta feel that shit through. Otherwise it will never go away
Thanks.
I feel you man, I really do. I've haven't been myself recently too. I feel like my mind is separated from my body, and I am in a ditch that I can never seem to get out of no matter how hard I try. I've gotten into some bad shit and I regret it, I quit, but as every day passes, the same old shit happens over and over again and it's tempting me to pick up bad addictions again. As I have seen from some of the other comments, one phrase says it all: "Everyone you see is flying past you, while you seem to be stuck in the same old place every day". To anyone reading this that is in a shithole themselves, I wish you the best in your life and for you to have the strength to push through. Stay strong.
sorry if I get preachy but I have turned to Christ agian and it has truly made me happy. I was depressed when I first turned 13 and now I am as happy as ever. I have made new friends,lost some,asked my crush out and some other stuff like that. It may be rough but God and my friends and brothers got me through it all.
I got that feeling again. The same thing that happens every Christmas. If I can describe it, it’s like being in a room of people who know and love you but you feel alone and stuck.
It’s summer, but I’m on a family vacation trip and I feel it again. Normally I’m fairly independent and communicate well with my family and often and sometimes even enjoy it, but when I wake up here, with them again, new places but same interactions, I just can’t help but feel alone. They never understood, they don’t understand, and they won’t ever understand because I think I want to move on. They’re not bad people, just not my people, and I’m okay with that
it's just that feeling in depression where you're at some important event yet it seems like no one cares about you nor your presence
Damn 2022 is ending soon and january 2022 was 10 months ago...
Just how fast the night changes 💔
If i'm going to be honest, i'm not tired in a suicidal way. I'm tired in a bored & exhausted way. I'm tired of having to wake up, eat, get dressed, go to school, learn, come back home, do homework, eat dinner and go back to bed. Every day the same.. It's.. exhausting. And it's boring. Nothing new. It's Just, the same old thing. Every. Single. Day.
I feel you, it's so numbing. Feeling like there's nothing more in life... Living every day of life just trying to go through another, and another, it sucks
Tbh i actually miss that . This lockdown made me realise how much i wasted and lost because i was too pessimistic to take life as it is and accept it and i would take going to school (in the normal way like we all did before 2020) over staying at home and listen to people quarrel and fight.
Ngl now i don't want school to reopen cause i have been so cut out from it by now i even forgot how it was like to have a normal school day.
I just wish this whole thing never happened.
it gets worse when you graduate it gets worse. trust me. cherish your time in school you’ll miss it…a lot
i am the same, there are two way to overcome this. The first, the hardest, is to give up your life goals and make a new start from zero before you go crazy, maybe by becoming a vagabond. The second, is to escape from reality. There will be a day where the escape will be realer than your own reality. Escape can be passive or active but active one are betters for your health. It can be sport, music ( playing or listening) , drawings, video edits, or just watchings series and animes. But be careful, an escape can save you but it can also destroy you. Because, when you live for your daily escape, all the rest of the day at school or at work, is even harder than before to bear. When you have no purpose in life, school is borring, but when you live for something that is not school, school become unbearable.
Hope it helped you a little bit, just keep in mind that life is not easy. Every humans suffer in their life, but if life was easy, it would become as boring as school.Bad things are necessary sometimes to go forward and cross a step in your life. If you don't fight your bad feelings, they become bigger and harder and that is fucking your mind a little more everyday.
If you think its bad now, wait until you're working, looking back, school was a dream. Waking up, barely eating, going to work an underpaid job where they overwork you and treat you like shit, go home, sleep, repeat until you get paid, 90% of money goes to bills, life is just a vicious circle, I'm not suicidal either, but I wish I could just dissappear.
the worst feeling is when you know you're going to get worse each passing day but not having the power to do anything about it.
hi i'm sorry that you have to go through that. I hope things will get better for you soon. sending virtual hugs
@@rimishakhatri9549 thank you for that, it really made me smile. things aren't the best right now so it does mean quite a bit seeing that, I hope that everything is going well with you too, even if I'm just a random stranger on the internet I believe in you
What can we do really? People say that you should work it out yourself and make your happiness come from you. But it seems impossible. I know it isn’t but it’s a long process that I really don’t have the energy to do.
i just feel ur pain and it makes me sad that so many people have to deal with it while nobody can help
ik that im just somebody that probably you will never meet in ur life
an online stranger
all i want to say is
enjoy the moments with your most loved ones and just ignore the others even if its hard
hope u r doing good
I would really like to say see you later but the only thing i can say its goodbye
You can change yourself and improve through each day, They are limited in length and abundance, But I can assure you, If you are lacking in the energy to push forward you need to genuinely take care of yourself and habits, Get 8-9 hours of sleep, Go to bed early and wake up, Practice gratitude and meditation and understand the things that you are given by the world and the heavens are things to be grateful for, Even if it’s the smallest thing that you are truly happy for, Then you have practiced gratitude, Never pity yourself but instead act, And in this case….. Act in recovery and rejuvenation, then you can progress forward, by healing bad habits and treating yourself with love. God bless 🙏
We're all waiting for that moment we'll feel important, needed, recognized. Realizing that that moment might never arrive is terrifying and crushes the soul. Remember, live this life for you. You have to be important to you. You have to recognize how beautiful you are. Hold on for you. I hope everyone sees brighter days soon.
You need to make that moment happen yourself. It won’t come to you
i have severe fetal alcohol syndrome🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥‼‼‼💯💯
@@arcticchain5264 This was so unexpected I laughed so hard. All jokes aside, hope you're doing well. Your comment made me laugh so hard I cried
Leaving time mark, hoping that sooner or later, when I’ll comeback to this, I’ll feel normal and happy again.
We will be here waiting for your return.
We are waiting for you
We're all waiting king we'll be happy & fearless ❣️
Hi
We'll be here for you when you're ready ❤️
When you tell yourself your struggles aren't important because "other people had it worse"
I wouldnt even wish this type of mental torment on my worst enemy
is it bad to do that....
i never thought someone would actually get it. thank you
oh.
I invalidate my own trauma because my friends at school have it worse :-/
"Back when you were a little boy, you were always so excited about everything. Now you're just sitting in your room..."
This should probably be me, but I don't even have my own room and I'm a teen :)
When one realizes the reality of their situation they lose that childish happiness and ignorant bliss to everything
-me
If someone gave me a million dollars i would still be empty
This personally hurts because I relate to it so bad.
@@generic_M_C_R_B_A_A_Y_A_W_ADHD same dude, is kinda empty
They say that life is like a piano. white keys are happiness, black keys are sadness. and you need both to play a good song, but it's a bit hard when your entire fucking piano is just black keys.
maybe you only choose to look at the black ones :)
and so, i ask you to play a sweat melody in C# Major, even with just black keys, even with only the sadness, you can turn it around to produce a beautiful melody, and when you do....youll see the white keys again. you have time, worry not, the music you can make is oh so wonderful.
But... Just because the keys are black doesn't mean that you can't make music with it. Sometimes you need something somber to relate to.
@@aster1760 sounds happy on top, but underneath the surface it’s all just sadness 😢
@@angrymonkey2479 and its alright to feel sadness, for what is happiness without it?
It hurts even more when you really stop and remember the fact that your wasting ur life feeling this way and you remember the fact that you can never go back
Ouch 😔
Pain💔
Pain💔
funny how you try you're hardest for the people around you only to get used and thrown away
yep.
funny how a memory can turn into a nightmare
Ikr.
its true
I stayed for him. Only him. Cause he said I mattered so much to him, and he couldn't bare losing his only friend. He said he got attached. Very attached. He said that I am the only person he trusts. But.. guess what. He left. Idk why. He changed. And now, I am left alone. An idiot. With no one. And I just wish that I could go back to that night, never have talked to him and to have ended it right there. No more suffering anymore. And everything would be okay. Because, now, even if he left, I know that he still eon't be able to bare the loss. Oh well.. minus one..
the moment you realise no one was actually ever there for you..
Yep.
Yep
#yep
AAAA
i feel like a bomb of emotions boiling up, slowly building up pressure, but its like im made out of titanium in a way, the bomb cant explode, the emotions cant leave. I just wanna explode.
Everything is going to be okay
real
@@nnorr1s138 real
"You can life as a hero, save people from their hardest times. But, when you need help, you cant save yourself from this pit of despair you fell in" -Me
“i miss the happy little girl you used to be” yeah me too mom.
i hate when my mom says that too, like she and dad didn't turned me into this emotionless bitch im now...
Me too, mom.
too
Me too
Your welcome :)
This is when you’re just bored of life. Nothing excites you anymore, you have no motivation.
You’ve truly hit rock bottom.
I don't mean to be pessimistic, but that's just the beginning. Whatever you do, stay away from drugs or alcohol etc. It sounds cliche but it can bring a sense of unrealism. Just keep waiting and it will get better, I promise.
Waiting to die
I’m waiting to die too
i have this feeling for 5 years
only games can make me happy
or maybe im just addicted
@@RandomGuy-qv8zb same games and manga are my happiness
i don’t want to end it all. i just want my pain to end. nothing more, just this one thing…
A wise man once said,
If you hide your feeling, things get worse
Our young generation calely Lost like like I don’t know what’s say no more
Man all I wanted was for her to love me. I didn’t care if the world hated me all I wanted was for her not to hate me
“Why do we still live?”, “because we still want to see if there’s something still left to live for”
-Me
damn nice one man
@@fauziryan6663 Thanks it took a while to think about
Ooof!
Also because we don't know what will happen after death
We live only to entertain ourselves, but at the end it's useless.
“If your absence doesn’t bother them, your presence never mattered.”
That hurts…
stop watering eyes
Bro goin thru some stuff prayers
The once-lor really did a number on you huh 😖
My dudes you alright..?
Stop blackpilling me Lorax
Hey guys, I recently got a girlfriend, now I can hear this song in a different light, thank you all for making this content but I no longer need it, because I am finally happy. I wish everyone luck on their own journey, I love you all.
Edit: no worries guys you will all find your partner eventually, all you gotta do is start working on yourself and eventually girls will start paying attention to you, Goodluck guys ;]
Edit 2: I broke up with her boys, I had to because I found myself going back to the same old habits that I did before. I became lazy because I felt fulfilled whilst being around her, I felt like all my past efforts have finally paid off and I could just relax and enjoy the fruit of my labor, but I can't relax yet, I haven't lived up to my potential.
Edit 3: I am now a muslim, my life is good, I wish happiness for all of you and may Allah guide you all.
Good for you man
congrats 💝
happy for you!
i just got dumped so im here lol
@@gayatrivinod8438hope it gets better for you im currently going through a semi breakup thats super complicated but shii if i still have hope so can you
@@carlosarce810 i hope you got through it
boys i’m actually doing really well for once, i can listen to this song and feel good that i don’t feel the same way i did first time i heard this. she makes me so happy man i love this
Thats nice to see something good in comment section like that
Treasure it and never take it for granted man. You got this
Same luv
You shouldn't need someone else to make you happy or to be Happy, otherwise what are you gonna be left with when that person isn't in your life anymore?
@@martin4077 i’m not sure bro and that’s the scary bit, if she disappears on me i’ll be the worst i’ve ever been in my life before. but i feel like part of a relationship is trusting someone enough that they’re not gonna leave to the point where you feel confident enough to open up and let them make you happy. i might be talking complete shit right now and i’m not sure if what i said makes any sense but yeah
i’m not even sad anymore i’m just realizing how bad of a person i actually am and that there’s basically no going back and fixing it
Same
Relatable, it ease what it is.
Anybody can change, you just have to take the steps to make it happen.
same...
Same
Pov: the person who makes everyone smile, just cant get themselves to genuinely feel happy or smile anymore
Hi im sorry that you have to go through this, I hope things will get better for you soon :)))
This is actually me :)))
I can relate. Life’s kind of depressing and I genuinely don’t know what to do. I’ve seen things happen when I was little and I don’t know what to do or how to cope with it nor do I wanna have it as a excuse for anything. I find it stupid. I feel happy making someone else happy or laugh. I just kind of want attention since my parents never gave me enough anyways and my sister would be a jerk to me, they are now getting mad at me for the way I act. And I just bring up the excuse or sometimes “well you guys been like this to me when I was younger” and I feel like it’s ok to do that when it really isn’t. I’m just extremely confused and don’t know what to do. I’m just trying to help others be happy. Basically every “class clown” or “funny kid” is really hurt inside. And I’ve heard someone say this before. “When you are strong, nobody knows when you are hurt.” And I’m a person who is a class clown and it’s kind of true. I am hurt inside and genuinely want someone with me. I’m kind of religious (I’m Christian) and I respect what any has but I keep praying but honestly I’m still feeling hurt. Im always there for anyone else though. This was just a short thing I wanted to say.
Something I felt that... bruh...
Anyway instead I found another option to make me happy... I think you can't just always talk and say jokes, really you can't just 24/7 say jokes it's all the time... btw you have to find a thing that you want to learn more. Example of me... I find out that drawing in my style make me feel okay while listening to my favorite songs... or playing some video games make me feel good. Like: life is strange 1, persona 3, or other rpg games (life is strange is not rpg btw) any way. . In that case sometimes it doesn't matter if you are happy or sad you are lonely or popular when it feels good and you enjoy it it's important
I hope you understand what I'm saying cuz I have grammar issue lol.
And remember. You need a person to talk to him/her sometimes. You can't just talk to no one and expect to change the world :O
For example in Life is strange I see when I'm talking to people with good dialogues they seems like changed :O
You know I got good ending :O but instead if I used bad dialogues or don't talk to any body I could get bad ending :(
Btw don't worry you won't get bad ending XD but care about people around you
Cant relate, I'm not sure if I can make anyone smile
4/10/22
The aquarium is finally done. I feel accomplished. My head and hands are hurting like crazy though. It’s hard to recognize myself. I forget things so fast, i get confused and stuck in cycles, and I can’t remember myself. It’s like i know i did these things, but i can’t remember doing those things. I feel different, hollow. Like my personality is one dimensional, there’s nothing past my calm anxious demeanor. I feel like a collection of memories and nostalgia of what I used to be, not a person. I can’t remember my childhood, I want it back. I want my old friends back, I want my good grades back, I want my motivation back, but all I have left is my family. Depression has taken all these things from me, and I’ll never get them back. I should’ve told them, I should’ve been worried, but here we are. The meds are losing effect. I’m an insomniac. Depression’s a bitch isn’t it. I can’t even enjoy my fish.
Note for anyone like me, reach out. Get help before it’s too late and you forget everything.
Been in a similar place, even after overcoming it. It was almost as if my life was sucked put of me, i could not feel happiness or sad, just nothing, I could not even cry. I still feel numb even after I overcame it, sometimes, I feel almost like I have not changed since them. I didn't improve my, situation around me did. I know that another situation similar to the one before might occur. What do I do then, my insecurities, self doubt and anxiety will still be there. Will the grey numbness be there too then. All I know is to keep going forward. I hope you can do the same
I hope your still here.
The realization comes to you that millions of people have died before they even found out who they were as a person.
doesn't it break your heart to read all of these comments and realize we live in a world where so many people hurt like you do? i personally wouldn't wish my own hurt upon anyone, ever.
What is this hurt that you are carrying?
@@thesaddestdude3575 a toxic family.
@@chhuuya I can relate to that, mine is sowmhat aswell, its strange for the most part everything is completely fine but then just out of the blue. It used to be alot worse but i still can't forget that time some years ago, im really not sure why things got like that.
A part of me thinks I would feel more sad reading these comments if I even felt anything anymore. I feel so numb to everything. It doesn't even matter
Toxic family and a husband who’s never there recovering from rape no one to turn to when I need help no one answers their phone and my husband is so tired from working I have literally no one to talk to since no one in my family calls me back and I have no friends since I am a hermit because of my SA my pets don’t even like me they fit even interact with me when I give them attention
The hardest thing in life, is seeing the people you made memories with, slowly become memories
Indeed.
Yeah.
Madara Uchiha-
That's not hard 👽
Damn.
I lived my life thinking that if I do right by others eventually they will do right by me. Don't get me wrong I'm not a Saint but this has bitten me in the ass more than I can count. No one owed me anything, no matter how hard I tried to forge bonds, no matter how much love I tried to push, they didn't need to do it back. It took me so long to realize this, no one really loves me and no matter how hard I try to find it I won't. I couldn't find love from my parents, I couldn't find love from my friends and I couldn't find love from my partners. And you know what that's okay.
I'll take that love that I poured down to other people and they rejected to myself. To the person who will uncover my mask and accept me for who I am. I love you.
I really really hope you'll find that person, i'm sorry you have to go through this shit...
you just made me realise this, cant stop crying now that i've realise how long i've been wasting my time. i really appreciate this, hope you're doing okay now :)
Come on king I know your going to find that person and if not I’m always here I love you too my kind sir I hope life blesses you from today on
i have severe fetal alcohol syndrome🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥‼‼‼💯💯
I'm tired. I wish I could get rid of all this sadness. I'm stuck in the past. I want to get out, from everything that makes me feel this way, but I can't seem to escape somehow. I don't want to die, but I really don't want to live if it's like this. I'll never matter to anyone, I'll never be valuable. I'll never be someone's love of their life. And I know no one is coming to save me from myself. Everything hurts.
i am kinda same situation as you. Stay strong mate. good time is coming soon
This song reminds me that no matter how good of a person I am, I will never be anyone's first choice.
always the second choice... yeah I totally see what your talking about, hope you're okay
We are in the same spot, A feel you bro
This song reminds me of the time u qwifed
Yea, I can understand that :)
Were even.
i am so sick of making others feel better than what they deserve.
I feel this on a spiritual level-
Don't, treat yourself for once. Other people are temporary but you're forever
@@Victoria-nx4yc thank you 🥺💞
dont do it then, be honest with yourself
one girl who always bullied me and was rude to me came up to me the other day and was like "omg (my name) you're so pretty i wish i looked like you. i hate myself" i replied "yeah i bet you do.. you treat people like complete caca!"
Im typing these comments as I realize, no one will see my comments, im not crying on someones shoulder, im crying on my own shoulder. The only person im venting to is myself. And here I am again, commenting to people that dont exist, that are only people I imagine in my head, people that wont see this. I've realized that this world is to big, to many people, im one amoung 7.8 billion others, am I really worth anything? If i died only a couple people would know, and others that find out probably wouldn't care because they dont know me. And im again just venting to myself, oddly this is helping. But am I not just transfering my own problems to a version of myself deeper inside me? It's like im just shoving away my problems. But it still helps. Sentience is a curse, emotions is a curse. Why do we feel, nobody decided that we should feel, evolution just, did it's thing, are we even sentient at all? Am I just being controled by my brain, and not acctualy me. Am I even me? Who is me? Who am I? Is even me or I or you a thing? Im still venting to myself, if anyone sees this comment and reads all of it, who are you? Why do you bother reading? Maybe im not just venting to myself anyways, I guess I'll see in the future. Now I feel like some emo kid, that thinks he's deppresed and listening to some random song, am I emo? i dont want to be a emo, I don't feel like a emo. Maybe im not acctualy deppresed, and im just un-knowingly faking it for attention like the dirty idiot i am. Im a bomb of explosions, i want to explode, but i cant. What if there's acctualy no reason in exploding, what if there aren't any bad feeling in my right now. Im just a spoiled brat, I don't deserve this PC, this keyboard, this mouse, this screen. I don't deserve a home, I don't deserve family, I don't deserve my body. I hope you're still reading, you're a good person, I hope you're fine, you dont deserve pain. to be honest I want to stop commenting, but my head tells me to keep writing, I don't feel like i have more to say, but my head says otherwise apparently. But there's nothing more to write, im just writing to write now, im such a attention seeking bastard, maybe I should just end it, maybe im not worth anything at all. Life gave me a chance and i threw it away like a spoiled toddler, i deserve this, this is my punishment. Now I feel like a criminal, that's broken hearts and laws, and that deserves to be locked up, in a jail cell, for the rest of his life. Am I even typing out my own emotions right now? Or am I just saying whatever feels right, i dont know, this doesnt feel right, nothing feels right. Im starting to get sick of my head, im sick of typing, but my head still wants to vent, i cant, Im just repeting what I said earlier, most of what im saying is just the same thing over and over again, but put diffrent ways, am I even venting, aren't i just wasting some readers time by writing all this? I don't feel better anymore, im tired, i have nothing more to say, i wish i could just talk to people, not write.people in this comment section seem frendly and kind, but i dont deserve anyone here, im just wasting your time, my hands are tired, its hard to type, my yeyes are tired, im tired, i wanna sleep, im gonna sleep, i hope im not like this tomorrow. and now i realize i've spendt over 40 minutes on writing. im not worth this, night.
I feel you. everything you said. But from someone else's perspective I want to say a few things. You may not mean anything to the world, but you mean the world to someone. It's corny but it's true. I hope you feel better in the morning. You deserve everything you have and more
@@KingCastBen can't sleep, but god damn someone did read my entire comment, I'm sorry.
@@AleksIsSoBASED these are human emotions, nothing to be sorry about. I could have stopped reading if I wanted to :)
@@KingCastBen I guess, so thank you.
Its not easy. You arent an attention-seeking emo kid. Your a passionate person. Your worth it! Many people love you! Stop saying you don’t deserve anything. You deserve the world. Stay healthy. Keep doing things you love. Maybe one day you’ll become a poet. Or maybe, you’ll become an architect. Theres a lot to live for! :)
I hope you enjoy your week! ^ ^
Sometimes, you have to realize things that will ruin you, or hurt you more than anything else.
For me, it was realizing that I truly had nobody that understood what I'm feeling. People don't get it. This isn't a fairy tale.
I'm not going to be okay. Things won't magically get better.
I'm... okay with it.
I don't think I should be. But after all the shit I've seen, maybe I don't have to accept living with my feelings any more.
Some day I'll make it out of this. Or maybe not.
That's life. Unpredictable and tender.
:)
when you join the Xbox party and they say "who invited him"
I didn’t think this comment would get this many likes but this happens too much
NO 💔
I know how that feels
It's even worse when it's in real life ☹️
this fr hurts ngl
💀🤚
I’m starting to think it doesn’t ever get better
It's like a tide, the pain comes and goes, we have our good days and bad. People like us will never be rid of this pain but, we're strong enough to bear it, to try and be better for the ones who suffer too
it might not, but it becomes more bearable. it's not fair but at least it can get manageable enough to enjoy some things
Let me tell you a secret, things never get better. That's true. 'With' every pain there is relief. Helen Keller said,
When one door closes another opens but we are so focused on the close one that we never see the one that has been opened up for us.
So stop waiting for things to get better. Find them, find the things that are better
Me too man. Long and hard fought battle, but me too.
No you just got used to it
it's hard to stay positive when you're in the middle of it, but i know it'll get better eventually. so imma just hold on until then.
we're all going to be fine.
We all miss the times when
- our dads shoulder was the highest place on earth
-we weren't dirty minded
-we were happier and interested into more things
-had good times and laughs
-never felt left out
-never felt like something was missing
-life was easy
-easy homework
-we felt higher than the universe
-happiness actually felt real
And best of all
-we enjoyed life
when life starts feeling like this song you know you’ve gotten more worse than you could ever imagine.
Yep
Yes…
@I loved you truly 🥲 *it already does or *i already do
Hits hard
@@justaleopardthatfellfromac5584 no it’s *I already did (get worse)
This hurts when you realize that your life isn’t a story and no one is coming to save you from yourself
:/ hope ur doing okay
I'm trying to
target audience: reached
sigh
Yet it is a story, a story of your own, in which only you can save yourself, and you will… we all will, in time when it’s right, you’ll know, we’ll all know.. in time
This song made me sad and sometimes even cry while I was in a relationship because I thought about losing my boyfriend while hearing this song and that was the biggest fear I've ever had. Now it happened, I am alone again and the only thing that this song gives me are goosebumps but I don't feel anything about it anymore. :(
Sad to hear that, hope you are doing okay.
i have severe fetal alcohol syndrome🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥‼‼‼💯💯
it's not even that I have a bad life or I'm sad or anything, I've just realised how bad a person I am
When I was a kid, I wanted to grow up and become an adult faster. Now that I'm an adult, I just want to return to my happy and carefree childhood.
I'm guessing you have figured out how life is now
I was only a child for 4 years...the best years of my life
Same
That's true
Keep going Angels
I don’t think I’m getting better anymore
stay strong ily :')
there’s always light. always. the dark tunnel is hard and i know from lots of experience. i’m always here bud and remember: i love you ❤️
Neither me... actually i feel like crap, i can’t even recognize myself ... and my last hope just disapoint me like the rest, man... honestly idk what to do anymore, i tried to ask help; but... nothing...
@@JellyOnAPancakeAyyyy i relate on such a big level. i’m always here. i have a discord if you need it
@@JellyOnAPancakeAyyyy everything is gonna be ok
I do not know if what I've been experiencing for the past two years is depression, but it is quite unpleasant.
Right now, I noticed myself becoming a perfectionist. I think I have occasional anxiety, perhaps I have social anxiety (really dependent on the opinion of others). Definitely have a self-esteem as low as the bottom of the sea. Dark thoughts come occasionally. Sometimes I think everything will be OK, while other times I don't believe anything is gonna change for the better.
“You used to be my friend, now all you do is sit in your room all day.”
I rely on fictional characters to bring me some sort of happiness.
I don't rely on my parents, friends, siblings, family because they hurt me. Fictional characters won't hurt me. They won't abandon me, they won't judge me, they will forever simply exist. I don't need words of comfort I just need to feel someone and if that means feeling someone through a screen I'm ok with that. Atleast I'm not alone.....
Thank you so much for this comment. This is literally this prime example of what liking fictional characters means. Thank you
This
i literally had a dream where my favourite fictional characters abandoned me and then i woke up crying
@@thornarts omg thats so sad i would be heart broken
This right here
Am I the only WHOS the”therapist friend” but when you talk to your friends they never help or care?
No your not alone.
Being the "therapist friend" sucks.
Sameee I decided to drop my friends because it’s pointless keeping people around that don’t care about you. Just remember that you matter so much to people, in the past, now, and in the future. I hope you meet someone that validates you and your mental health!
Me too
The friend, family, Peers' therapist
i want to be the therapist friend but non of my frends have problems :/
It hurts alot when you have forgotten how to be genuinely happy...
"Don't cry because its over,smile because it happened"
I don't want to smile forever,i just want the old days back.
:c
The moment you realize you haven’t been getting better, you’ve been getting worse.
this
and i have to fake it cause my friends really dont care lol.
I hate that I realize it sucks
i just realized this :/
@@lexiii777 I realized it a long time ago
this song made me realize that no matter how close i am with someone i will be the last of their priorities
i agree everybody around me acts like they're strangers :(
Us
This comment reminds me of another comment
@@cringecronge6103 which one
aeternum how rude :( I can't believe. In my opinion they don't have heart to share with someone :(
this song feels like chasing a feeling that doesn't exist,wanting to see the earth from space but being terrified to try
Just a couple of months ago i was at the lowest point in my life. I would listen to this song everyday and just sit there in a dark room. Im doing better now and im happier, i came back to this song to remind myself that i got up out of bed today. That i got over depression.
when you realize all your progress amounts to nothing, and you're back where you started. *again.*
hiii im sorry you have to go through that. I hope that things will be better for you. sending virtual hugs :))
And it's been like that for years.
@_mr_struggle_77 so relatable dude, I hope you're doing okay.
THISSSS, GOT DAMNN! THIS COMMENT
im repeating the same day over and over again, it’s all the same, nothing changes
unrelated but I love your profile picture of Taylor Lautner 😭
felt that. it seems like there's never a break, and there won't be for a long time. it's just so hard
then may i ask something? and i know this may come off as crass, how long would you wait until you made something change? why not make it tomorrow? push to make the next episode in your storied performance of life something grand, meet someone new, try something different, pick up a new hobby, drive to a new place, or speak to someone you havent spoken too in a great deal of time. theres more to live, but you have to ask what needs to change in order for greater change to take place.
make some changes happen my homie, take a leap of faith and try something new.
do it for me :)
for me it's all the same but I sometimes get worse and worse grades than before and my parents hate me for that.
this song smells like a forest after rain, or escaping from reality and running inside a forest till you find where you feel like it’s home.
1 am and i’m here again
One of the worst pains is knowing the life you used to know was fake. And everyone who you thought cared about you, and loved you, all betrayed you in the end. But now you, haunted, by those memories. And now you feel stupid for let’s those people into your life but you didn’t know any better.I hope for the best for all of you who are going threw that. Just know your not alone.
Guys why is The Lorax depressed did someone hurt him? He be spittin facts tho
Advanced humor... hmm I likes that
lmao the lorax's comment is right below urs for me
people be cutting trees, that's why he's upset, bruh!
lmaooo
LMAOOO thanks, that was a good laugh (:
i’m so sick of finding happiness in false memories and in a version of me that isn’t even real i feel like such a burden i kinda just want to run away where i won’t have to burden anyone with my problems
Exaclty me i would have commited sucide but its against my religon
yeah i create false scens and scenario's of me being someone else
this . this is exactly how am feeling
@@Wsxzm- i wish how to do it in a way it wouldn’t hurt people you know? In a way I could just disappear and no one would notice, as if I didn’t even exist. So I can rest, in peace.
exactly this is how i feel. oh god i'm so tired of life
I'm suffering with anxiety stress and overthinking i act happy around my family but when I'm alone i feel and empty i found this song today and while listening to it i started crying my eyes out
same man:(((
I used to be so great happy and helping people now I don't like people that much I see people suffering and I don't do anything then I hate myself for it
Also it gets better and gets worst life is like sailing you have your highs and lows you got this man what I would do is open up tell your Moe or dad or a close friend it helps ease the pain a little and be with someone the burden doesn't have to be just on you as well don't ever forget Jesus loves us all and is waiting for us it's the most comfting thing in the world granted I still have downs if you turn to Jesus give you life to him will be the most joy you will be happy when you sad it won't bother you as much
I don't know if I said that good im still learning and have alot to learn
@@josiahsmith9871 i did talk to my close friend and it helped me allot I'm not totally fine but I'm getting there and I've boost my confidence too i just wanna say thanks for your concern i wanna be friends with you if that's okay
"It will take a while to make you smile" when the person that makes you the happiest doesn't know if you are that for them too
when u realize you used to be so close to him but now you barely know him anymore because he chose to leave you
yep he just leaves you on read 24/7 :)..
HAHAHAAHAHAHAH yeah
yh imma cry now bc im heartbroken over him ty :')
it happens to guys too. i feel you. it hurts worse the more i think of her with him.
Almost the same story with me and my crush. She hurt me, and the sad part is I actually miss her.
Miss you babe.
you know what really hurts when your chilling in your room then look in the mirror and start crying from the view
i feel really bad for laughing at this i’m so sorry
@@monokuma4788 lmao
same I can't look myself in the eyes
peak innit
I know that feeling, its even worse when the others tell you that its your own fault that you are alone, you brought this into yourself. They laugh at you and trivialize you. Everwhere i go its the same, my "friends" even my family, what do you do when you try to run from your problems and take a break from life but it follows you home. Every day i look in my mirror and im reminded of how old i have become, soon im not even young anymore. I felt like i used toi have a chance, i felt so alone, but there was hope, but the nigmare just kept going it never ended. The sleep issues never got any better. The bags under my eyes are now permanent, grey shadows on the lower eyelids now linger for weeks on end. It reminds me of how long this has lasted. My old classmates are getting married having kids and working jobs. And here i am barely started at my university degreee that i will not be able to finish anyways, its been weeks and im already failing. The same pattern as always, tables of four, groups of three, the one excluded. Always. It was like that in school it was like that in highschool and it was like that here aswell. Worst part is you trying to figure out why, is it just becaus im so goddamn ugly? And from now on its only downhill, ive seen my best years, me alone in the mirror and the walls of my room, the stuffed animals and posters dead flat paper eyes were my only witness. Valleys of age on my tired face carved by tears, the yellow teeth uncared for during onsets of depression. From now on its downhill, and even when i was at my best, i wasn't even good enough.
Not that it mattered, the people that get to know you leave you anyways, the classmates i worked with despised me becaus i was never as good as the others, they thought i was lazy, they didn't see what it took to get out of bed, my blank stare was one of dissociation and not apathy. I wanted to be there but my mind pulls me to the side. I wish i could blotch out the mirror with ink, becaus even ink is brighter than that twisted reflection i see in the silver film. For me its over, and it never even began.
I really wish i could sew my wounds, but they are too deep at this point, and i will never recover, there is no fixing this.
"I'm never enough, I can't do what they can do, I can't give what they can, there's always someone better than me..."
-goose
Everytime I listen to this song it reminds me that no matter how good it all may seem with a person, I'll still be their last choice
i love how everyone’s venting here.it feels like a safe place
The only one bro
venting? thats sussy
@@lxyz6717 i know right too sussy bro
For me it don't feel safe, I can't find the comment but people started being rude to me cause I tried to respect someones pronouns :/...
Friendship breakups hurt so much more than actual breakups, especially when you’ve been together ever since you could remember.
I'll drink to that. Lost my best friend in January. The most important person in my life apart from family.
Same, now I'm all alone. I don't have words rn✨
@@Kushothe same here happened couple of days ago and man its hard
Why did they have to change tho, it's like they've grown up into the adults we used to make fun of when we were kids.
Sorry for the essay
16 years it had been. we hadn't gone much more than a week without at least talking to each other. having sleep overs, playing video games, exploring our neighborhoods, getting into trouble, playing baseball, even going to different schools didn't stop us. Then he went to college more than halfway across the country. that didn't change much between us, we still hung out over discord, and played game together, but he changed, for the better actually. he got better mentally, saw a therapist, was enjoying the new environment, and fitting in to a new community. I wasn't changing though; i was still my pessimistic, subtly suicidal self with who never believed in himself and refused to get better.
I remember what i think was the turning point. we were texting each other and, as usual, i made some self deprecating comment. i was mostly in good fun, but it was also the truth. he called me, immediately, and wanted to talk. Wondered why i always said things like that; he wanted me to open up and have a heart to heart with him. after all, we had been friends for about 14 years at this point. We had had those talks before, but it had been a long time since then. I clammed up, stone walled harder than i had ever before. I must have walked around my block 10 times, all the while refusing to divulge my feelings. I had created a rift between us. Before i knew it, the rift had grown as wide as a chasm, too wide to jump across.
It all came to a head when covid hit. he and his family were more cautious when it came to the virus, so when he came back home to visit during winter break, we didn't see each other. we didn't talk, we didn't play games, we didn't throw a ball around, we didn't do anything together. Since then, we haven't so much as text each other. We didn't give each other Christmas gifts, he didn't wish me a happy birthday, and we haven't played games together.
The following summer, i finally mustered up the courage to call him. i had found out from a friend that he was alive and well (thankfully) and in our hometown. when i called him i had prepared for it to ring until voice mail, that's what i expected. i was hoping for the pleasant surprise of him picking up, but i didn't get that. i got something much worse. he... declined the call after about a ring and a half. I didn't know how to react. i could only feel the pit in my stomach. i left him a short and heartfelt message telling him that i missed him. then i cried. "Friendships like this don't come every lifetime," my parents would tell me, and i had squandered it. we had know each other since i was 3 and he was 4. I'm 21 now and haven't spoken with him in over a year.
TL;DR: yeah, they're rough.
“You used to be such an easygoing kid. what happened?”
You just never actually looked at me
this hurts so much when you're heartbroken. but those tears need to come out.
that moment when you feel detached from reality because you realize how much hurt you've been through and you feel like you're dead already, but there's no way others can understand it.
Relatable
hey, i feel you. i used weed for a while to cope and was spiraling into a dissociative state of depression. it took talking to a therapist and finally getting everything off of my chest, and a long long, ongoing battle against myself to get out of that place. i’m still trying-we all do everyday. keep trying ❤️
“Why cant you be more like her?”
"Why can't you be so good like her?"
Not everybody can do everything perfectly ;(
Because of you r photo profil
@@the_kapla8881 it is? Oh ok I’ll change it
yikes
"But these are my people. Their lives matter to me, yours does not"
"That makes two of us.."
I don't wanna be that guy but this song definitely gives different vibes when life is going great... I still feel it in my own way even without being very sad, much like I was 4 months ago
that moment when you’re with two people and feel like you’re just “there”
or even with an entire group. I feel like I'm 13th wheeling a truck sometimes
trio groups never work 🙁
the moment when your parents say "I just don't get why you aren't stressed like we are" on homework assignments, not knowing you had a mental breakdown about it the night before and you were trying to muffle your crying because it was 3 am and you didn't want to wake anyone up.
happened to me yesterday.
I hope we can start "not caring"
waaah waaah. oh no it happened yesterday! im so sorry for you, here's your attention 🎂
@@doopy dont do that
@@fuego5902 orrrr?
We didn't used to be better at making ourselves happy. Happiness just came by easier.
I’m feeling less alone knowing we’re all going through hard things, but I feel even more alone realizing that this is just a video comment section, that I’m sitting on my bed, alone, with no one to talk to. Feeling like no one sees things like I do, no one understands me. Wish I could write my own history sometimes.
Dont worry it will get better
"i wish there were a way to know you're in the good old times before you leave them."
If we knew we were in the good times we would not have any as we would constantly live in fear of them ending
The nard dog
I am in this situation and it's even worst to know it's gonna be memory soon
Capitalize 'I'.
@@justanotherperson510 Andy Bernard, The Office s9ep13
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
"Happy."
*all the other students start laughing*
"I'm afraid you don't understand the question."
"No, you don't understand the answer."
Dang
Hits hard when no one understand your words
John Lennon
Happy is a deep word and a lot of meanings
that hit deep into me
The happiest people are always the saddest under the masks we never knew that they had
honestly after all this time of sorrow and hopelessness I don’t even know if even the best thing in the world could fix anything
It’s not about one solution fixing your problems it’s about you just trying to get better and even if you don’t if you just try you’re already doing better
its weird, im 'recovering' from depression but i dont want to. ive found a sense of false security in it, and i feel i'm not deserving of happiness even though im happy more and more often. getting better is simultaniously making me worse, its exhausting.
when the right people are with you you don’t feel exhausted being happy. you have to recover from the hurt of wrong people then the happiness is genuine. when you are around someone that you feel exhausted being happy with it means that person shouldnt be in your life. But i don’t know the cause of your depression
So accurate
That is why you must be happy : )
Think about all the effort it takes just to get through each day, 'cause with something like this, every ounce of strength you manage to retain is a feat itself. And you've done this for hundreds, thousands of days even. Believe me, you earned happiness.
I managed to get better myself, but my heart bleeds intensely for people who are still hurting from this. It's kind of forms my own suffering from the recovery, in a way. By now I feel so disconnected from where I was, like I can't truly relate to people like you anymore. I find myself turning to those generic encouragements everyone says that used to annoy me for being so basic and useless: You can make it, Just keep holding on, It will get better with enough time.
Maybe that approach could work, to an extent; but that, and the work that comes with it to truly make a breakthrough, takes more will than anyone should be expected to have, let alone in a state like this. But here's a tip from my experiece: that strength comes from other people (in my case, a wonderful collection of youtubers).
I really try to find some advice that can help people, though, and I hope that you can find some worth in these edited ramblings, if only some encouragement for the attempt to help.
@@dreamerLuka Holy shit, are you me? You have put into words what I never could, thank you. Its so nice to be free
"I miss the happy kid you once were, Alex."
We're trying though. Aren't we?
@@imsubenjamir for them we are not
as an Alex, I can confirm.
Finally I found a grammatically correct sentence. Why can't depressed people spell correctly, I just don't get it.
i miss the happy kid i was too
We’d go back and forth for too long, saying “I love you” “I love you more” and “no I love you more.” Guess we know who loved who more in the end huh?
everyday is the same. the same cycle. I just want it to stop... not permanently but just for a short time so I can rest. man I'm so tired. life is going by too quick even though everyday is the same and I'm struggling to remain happy.
"you used to be such a nice and happy kid, what happened to you?"
-My Mother
I can relate.. ‘When you were in kindergarten you respected us.. now what happened?’
Sad, I found a picture of myself still bright eyed holding a puppy (dead) and I question where did things go so wrong, where did I turn into such a bastard.
@@Journey_Awaits sad? Like just be happy wtf
Internet happened
@@my_man_yuuki probably
when you realize you're the only one diffrent from the others in the group, always left out, and you realize you have none.
(im here again crying hello depressed people)
poor gundham :(
You have your hamsters, at least.
hello.
Damm I literally don't have a person to call friend but it doesn't matter to me
I feel you, Gundham 👋💓
You ever wonder about what your childhood best friend is up to nowadays?