I really get what you mean. You feel good but also there is still something in your heart that hurts. And you know you want to get better and it will but something keeps holding on to you that wants to drag you down. And you feel torn between things. And that is what makes you feel lost. Because you can’t really grasp what’s going on.❤️
I think that’s why every time i feel “okay” it doesn’t feel comfortable because you are still chained down by something, and i guess finding out how to untie that rope will be an important step in recovery
That's how i've been feeling for the last few months too. Depression got down, delirium got down, anxiety is more under control, but now you have to deal with collateral effects of a mental breakdown; what to do with a job, how to make new friends, for you having driving lessons I think I've heard? Dealing with all the "non medical" stuff, the every day life, putting pieces back together. It's definitly not comparable to mental illness, but it is not easy either...
Also I've felt lost when I start to get better and recover, because when you're in the midst of terrible stuff you just want normality, but once you're getting better it's reasonable to want something more than your normal!
Im 22 days clean i haven't been clean for so long in a year. Your videos help my alot tho. Sometimes they make me smile sometimes they are just helpfull and full of advice. It really helps when you talk about dealing with scars and stuff tho. Bc i never really knew what to do with them bc i was so ashamed. But you help me to see that i have nottig to be ashamed about. Keep up the good work and thank you for everything tho xx
i’m struggling a lot recently but things got to a point where i was in hospital every other day for stitches and i was faced with the decision of trying to get better or being sectioned - and i chose to face recovery. it’s hard but i’ve found my passion again for horses and i’m going riding twice a week and things are slowly improving ❤️❤️ and i’m 4 days clean ❤️💙
I came out to my parents and doctors about my self harm the other day, I’m on the waiting list now to get CBT. Your videos about self harm gave me the reality check I needed. I was living in a bubble where I thought it’s ok to self harm as long as no one knows, I’m only hurting my self and it’s my choice to do so. You came along and popped the sh*t out of that bubble 😂 thank you 💕
I’m a month clean from having to go to a&e for self harming behaviour, a small victory at that because I’m still struggling but keeping things under control
You've honestly helped me so much! You've helped me strive towards recovery with self harm and my eating disorder! I am now just over a year clean from self harm, and thank you so much you beautiful human
I completely relate to what you are saying on so many levels. I've only very recently discovered your channel and it is honestly so oddly comforting to know someone feels the same and is going through the same thing. After battling with my mental health for years, I managed to scrape through to university last September. However, after a mental health breakdown and a hospital admission, I soon realised that I couldn't continue. Now, 5 months since leaving, I feel completely lost and extremely confused. The way you worded it as "trying to pick up the pieces and put something together when you don't know what you're making" quite honestly is the most accurate representation of how I feel. Thank you so much for your honesty and I hope things only continue to improve in your life :)
You literally explained my whole feelings about where I am at, and what I'm doing. When I was in hospital the routine was so insane up at 6:30am done at 7pm and the routine I had to do and the eating routine and meds my goals were so clear and now that I'm out I'm so overwhelmed with expectations of myself and yeah I'm feeling lost too!!!! Thanks for not making me feel alone in this bpd journey
I've been struggling a little after getting discharged from hospital. I was wondering if you could make a video about getting out of hospital? Love your videos btw❤️
Thyra Ulekleiv yeah same it’s a big change.. especially when routines are the thing that keep me going. like i’ve always had so much going on like work, school and stuff to cover my anxiety and suicidal thoughts. then i’m almost in a burn out just because i wanted to avoid my thoughts..
Official _megss I’m so proud of you!❤️ I know the feeling.. I’m in a similar situation and it really makes a difference when you realize that you’re still clean from sh after all that!
i feel the same way!! im doing a little better in regards to self harm (9 days clean) and my eating disorder, and i want to get my life back on track and figure out what my long-term goals are and how to achieve them, but i have no idea where to even begin bc i don't know what im working towards or what i want my future to look like! sending love xx
currently watching while doing my biology homework i’m so so proud of you and how far you’ve came, it’s okay to have bad days and not know what your path is because it will all work out in the end💘 i’ve also been feeling really lost recently and i’ve been struggling but i’m trying my hardest to stay strong, i’m currently 10 days clean💘💘x
Girl! I am in the same boat. This video really hit home today. You have an amazing ability of making exactly what needs to be heard. Over this last year my mental health has gone to the dogs. And I don’t feel like I belong at the college I am at. I just finished my 3rd year so it’s kinda late to want to change schools but I really haven’t completed that much of anything. But.... Today i told my dad that i need some mental health attention and I want to transfer schools. He took it so much better than I expected. So yay! I loved the thing that you said you are picking up the pieces but don’t know what you are building, I might use that. I hope you get some clarity in how to do what you need to do. You are amazing and you can do everything you want. But that doesn’t mean you have to do them all at once. Love you!! Stay safe!!
Up until the other day, I was 5 months clean and before that, 6 months, before that, a year....it's important to remember the recovery isn't linear, and there will always be ups and downs, but it's worth it to keep going, keep fighting. I just found your channel, and it's so nice to have someone who has a positive outlet during their struggle, someone to connect to who has experienced much of the same struggles in their own way. Thank you for making your videos ❤️
I’m 7 days clean but feeling low atm. Just been pre-diagnosed with BPD and it’s taking time to get my head together and process everything, love you so much Marie keep going girl! 💋 xxx
I have a feeling you will have the option of being a full time youtuber at some point. You are so likeable, talented, hardworking and good at editing. I just have this big feeling in me..... the universe might just make it happen. But it's okay if not♡ you have so many options in life. You will go far bby♡
mega bonus of today was that me and my mama sat down and we spoke about how i was feeling and possible other treatments other than counselling and group therapy!! stay strong yall, youll get there 💕
florence shipley that’s important and really good thing that you’ve been talking with your mom! i really hope that you get the treatment that you need and want. sending all my love to you❤️
I completely get the lost thing! I’ve just left school and I feel so lost with my life, as you said when you have a routine or whatever you have an end goal, and know what you need to do to get there. But when you have nothing you don’t know where you’re going, it’s shit feeling like you don’t know where you’re going. You’re not alone, and thank you for reminding me I’m not either 🌸💓
Ur such a wonderful human being and ur videos have helped me a shit ton I found u almost a year ago now and u have really helped me and I’m so grateful. Keep doing what u love and continue to be ur amazing self
i've had a really rough past few weeks because i've been really stressed from school, but im happy cause it's almost summer! i'm six months clean and this is the longest ive been clean in a really long time, i havent made it through finals clean before so!!!!!
i’ve only recently started to watch your videos, but they give me so much inspiration, especially to know that even if you hit rock bottom you can still learn to fly again. you are amazing, i love you so much and everything you have created, it’s helped me so much with recovery so i thank you for that :) ♥️x
So proud of you for making it through and being able to say you're okay that on its own is am achievement but I also totally understand how you're feeling now too .just know that you are doing great 🌻💛 Personally I've been struggling eating wise and a neighbour died of cancer and two days later another one died with his wife and child so it's just all funerals around and seeing so many people cry is really heart breaking .plus a dear friend of mine is stuck in her abusive home and I can't even be in touch, idk I just feel so aware of the pain of these people yet I'm powerless in every way so I'm over thinking it and my worrying about my bestie's mental health is increasing, but with saying that my mood is stable and I'm not having panic attacks as I usually do so that's a win!!😊😊
Really loved this video! I just finished school for the year today, and I’m so grateful to have finally started enjoying school this month. Thankful to have had the best month in school this May, and feeling the happiest I’ve felt in a long time. 💜💜
Your gorgeous, beautiful, and so so strong. I respect you so much and we are all so proud of you. I am really struggling at the moment, this morning I just lead there with my hand on my heart and realised how amazing life actually is, how my beating heart is there and keeping me alive. I feel like I’m drowning though, like life never gets better. But Marie I’m so thankful for you and I love you. Please keep blossoming because the sun has picked you to grow and shine 💗
Girl you are looking AMAZING 😍💕😍💕 After watching your videos I'm taking the plunge to go back to the GP after suffering with depression self harm and anxiety for 8 years and after a year of being 'okay' I can tell the signs are creeping up again so I'm going to go and go back on my meds.. so thanks boo for giving me the kick I need to get help again 💕💕💕💕💕💕
I love your mental health Monday’s x especially the mental health updates. Keep doing TH-cam your amazing 😍 I’m doing a lot better and I’m about 3 weeks clean of self harm, I try my best to fight my urge. Love you so much and you inspire me so much ❤️ keep going girlllllll☺️💖
I am struggling with self harm and I am so lost, and your videos have calmed me down so much. honestly thank you for being here and analyzing the way you feel cause it has helped me so much. I love your videos and looove to listen to your story. I admire you so much, and im so proud of you for making it through everything. I really wana be friends and chat (never gonna happen) anyways... you go girl! I just want you to know, that im so fucken proud, and I loooove youuuu
I always remember u saying in one of your videos that people with chronic health conditions are our role models , having a chronic illness that made me feel really special and like I’m doing something right so thankyou
I thought i was getting better but then it hit me all over again and im back to how i felt a year ago! It does get hards to keep being strong 😞😞on the plus side my achievement is ive not taken a day of work yet!!!😊😊
All the best with your goals - maybe choose one and have that be it for now? . I went back to education when I was 31! TH-cam and podcasts have essay writing lessons etc too. You've got this
Hi Marie! You deciding to go back to A-Levels is such a brave and confident decision to make, as well as a very tough one. I am like 2 weeks away from finishing them and I have hit rock bottom with my mental health. If I can stay alive through this and deal with it at my best, then you can do it as you recover! Wishing you so much luck♥
i'm still in hospital, but i'm trying my best I'm clean since 1 week i guess, and i do understand what you described about the feeling of being lost I admire you, and i hope you'll continue youtube I wish you the best, take care of you Marie
I had that same feeling of feeling lost and once I started to not overthink it and only do whatever makes me happy things just started to fall into place. I just felt like I had to take to pressure off me to constantly have a plan or know what I’m supposed to be doing and as soon as I did that and just relaxed and focused only on doing things that made me smile and happy everything started working out ❤️
My mum and dad recently found out about my selfharm and it feels like my whole world is crumbling but watching these videos gives me hope and make me believe things will get better even though it’s so hard at the moment but you inspired me to get help so thank you so much Marie 💗
I needed to hear this today. This video has helped me. It makes me feel so happy that you’re doing well that made me feel better. I got rid of my anxiety and then I started a new job that’s very demanding and the management is awful so it affected me mentally and now I’m looking for a new job. I’ve been so stressed but you’ve made me feel better. Can I ask, is the way your voice shakes related to mental health? In some videos it’s not but then in others you seem so sad and your voice shakes so much, I love you Marie and I wish you all the best 💗💗
I felt stuck like this for the longest time until I decided that I wanted to do more with my life and I made the decision to go back into education which I’d never succeeded in before. I did an access course for a year and I’m off to uni in September. It was the best decision I ever made, I knew I didn’t want to be at the same workplace forever. Honestly, keep doing what you love and things will fall into place xxx
Nearly 3 months sh free and I could do it without your videos. Thank you for being an inspiration. This is the longest I’ve been clean. Super proud of everyone❤️
you have no idea how much i hope youtube becomes your job. YOU DESERVE IT SO MUCH!!!! you’re channel has helped so many people (unlike most youtubers these days) so i really hope it happens for you babe! love you so much xx
I can totally relate to feeling lost at the moment. Recently I've felt unsure of nearly every element of my life. It can be so difficult, especially when you don't know what move to make next. I just visited my family and hometown this past week, and it really helped put everything in perspective. No matter what paths we choose, we must remember we will have the people we love, our values, and ourselves. Stay strong Marie, love you so much xxxx ❤️
These past few weeks I feel like I've just been okay not good not bad just okay and this has boosted me to almost being good that you are still going even when life is just ok
I've been clean for a little over a year. I still feel bad that I sometimes want to do it, but I'm proud if myself too! I just graduated from high school on Saturday, but my best friend literally just dropped me afterwards. Family isn't that great, but I'm looking forward to attending a summer program at the college in attending. PLUS, I'm almost done, my 18th birthday is on June 4th, so I can finally get some help. My father, being Mexican, comes from a background where mental health is a joke. But I'm going to get help. And I'll get the chance to get away from toxic people. I'm excited, but still sort of lonely because I don't really have any friends now. But heyyyy, I'm looking forward to tattoos and lottery tickets. Anyone reading this, stay strong. It's easier said than done, yes, but I guess we just have to wait for things to pan out... Maybe haha. Have a great summer!
feeling a bit lost too :(( i'm finishing my exams soon, and i thought as soon as the stress was over, i'd feel 10x better. but i just feel like... the same. i was so looking forward to doing everything in the half term - read books, go outside, do all sorts. now i just don't care. i don't know. guess i just need something exciting xx
I understand exactly what you mean when you talk about it being harder now that you're better. I've been there, but it is an in between stage, once I 'got used to' being bored and not knowing where I was going, the big things, the future, it all started to fall into place. It's just a time of recuperation, it doesn't last forever, but you can't force anything to happen ❤️I love your videos, they inspire me to stay strong every day ❤️
Marie your doing incredible! Keep working hard on yourself and recovery... as far as TH-cam you deserve so many more subscribers and I can see you becoming so big on the TH-cam community... do what you feel is best for you!💛
2 months clean 🥳. & I’d like to thank you for helping me get to this point. Idk what I’d do without you and your videos. You won’t ever know just how much you impact my life, but you give me hope. I love you sm, Marie ♥️. You’re an angel love
108 days clean! My boyfriend bought me a cactus to support me (it's the only plant that survives me 😂). You are still such a motivation for me and you have been for about a year now, so thank you for that❤
i have been feeling so anxious and on the edge after getting out off hospital.. i’m finishing school on Saturday and it’s so big and weird. you know after summer i’m going into a whole new place with all these people that i don’t know. it’s a big change. and having to deal with making new friends and how to talk about your struggles all over again. however your vibes and positivity are making me happy. and the fact that you’ve been so low and that you’re now recovering gives me hope.. thank you so much..❤️ ps. i’m already 16 days clean (that’s a record)
I really understand what you’re saying. I got through a huge manic/depressive episode that took up almost 3 years of my life and when I was doing better I think I experienced the same stage kinda thing that you’re in. My advice would be to look ahead into your future and start trying to pursue your passions and make something of yourself that you’re proud of if you know what I mean. Make your dreams come true ya know. Also I’m so proud of you and I love your videos! Stay strong and never give up cuz I thing you’re a gift to this world. Love ya! 💛
Small goals and lots of self-kindness and kindness with others too💕 no matter where you want to go, learning to drive and getting a/some A levels will do you well :)
I’m 100% cut free for the first time in 6months. By that I mean I have no fresh cuts on my body, they’re all healed. I kept getting so close then relapsing but I finally made it to this point
Clicked as soon as I got the notification. I love your videos, and I love you. I have a lot of bad self esteem issues and I decided that I'm going to work out more and eat healthier to make myself happy. I'm going to do this for myself not anyone else. You're a great person and I hope you keep making videos for a really really long time.💝💝💝
17 days clean (: I 100% get how you’ve been feeling I’ve been feeling the same and it’s being on my mind a lot not knowing how I want my future to be. I’d suggest you focus on one thing at a time so things don’t become to overwhelming.Doing my driving was my main focus as I was in college, honestly was the best decision I’ve made because that has given me so much freedom. Have you ever thought of being a mua your amazing at doing makeup and I honestly don’t know anything about it but I just see you are amazing at doing it:) Loveyah hope things start falling into place for you♥️
guuh you really put into words how im feeling too, floating through life trying to figure out what im doing flares my anxiety if I think about it too much, but im sure we'll both figure it out, and this feeling will be a lil blip in our lives ❤️
I feel a bit lost too. Just finished my final exam in Germany and I've been 'mentally stable' for a while now. So I guess things are good, but also I don't really know what to do with my life, while everyone around me has big plans.. So I can relate❤
I think you could make you tube your job one day, your channel is amazing and so are you! Maybe you could take a course on video making or make a series that's more outside the box for your channel. I believe in you marie💓
I tend to feel similar, just a lil lost but i guess that’s okay sometimes. So proud of you always, thank you for everything you’ve done and continue to do 💗💞💓💖💕💘
I definitely feel lost too, I had to drop out of uni because of my mental health in January so I don’t feel like I’m working towards anything, nobody knows what treatment I should be pursuing and my diagnosis is also being questioned. Feeling so lost sucks but hopefully it will help me build up a clear picture of what I want in my future in the long run. 💚
Your smashing it Marie. My own channel is partially inspired by both yours, Pip’s and Olivia’s channels. Marie, don’t think too much about TH-cam vs Tesco. You will see where you go. Soon you’ll have an idea where you will want to be heading. The A level online sounds very productive and shows just how much you are thinking about the future and a back up plan to TH-cam/ Tesco. Even if you do the A level as a ‘hobby’/ time filler at least you’ll get a grade out of it. You keep your chin up buttercup 💕💕
Your videos are just perfect they’re just the right mix of funny but also actually talking about serious thing in such a real way. You’re so amazing xx
Well done for deciding to do your a level! What subject are you going to study? I did an access course when I was 21 after having my second breakdown at 18. I’m 23 now and starting uni in September 😊 stay strong you can do it and it will be such an achievement when you do!! 💕
I like this video, it was really honest I don't know how I'm doing right now. But I'm clean and alive so there's always that I guess. But very good news my friend is home from rehab where she's been for months and I might be able to see her soon and that's like all I have going for me right now. That and I have a cute dog. There ya go, four gratitudes and being clean (idk how long for.. a month-ish I think)
I really get what you mean.
You feel good but also there is still something in your heart that hurts.
And you know you want to get better and it will but something keeps holding on to you that wants to drag you down.
And you feel torn between things.
And that is what makes you feel lost.
Because you can’t really grasp what’s going on.❤️
Wow. Literally this !
Wow that’s a good way of putting it into words, well done xx
I think that’s why every time i feel “okay” it doesn’t feel comfortable because you are still chained down by something, and i guess finding out how to untie that rope will be an important step in recovery
Exactly how I feel daily, something eats away at you daily even if I'm with my friends I can feel the darkness watching over my shoulder.
i’m a week clean and i feel like i can finally breathe
im so proud of you x
Emma Baych well done :)
Well done chick, that’s great xx
Great job!!
Emma Baych so so proud of you ❤️
I am 4 Months free today and that is the longest I have been free from xx I am really proud of myself and everyone else. Keep going everyone ❤️
Rachel Dunster congrats ❤️ so so proud of you
Shakti Hernandez thanks xx❤️❤️
Wow 4 months the longest iv been is 8 days but I did it again 😢
That's how i've been feeling for the last few months too. Depression got down, delirium got down, anxiety is more under control, but now you have to deal with collateral effects of a mental breakdown; what to do with a job, how to make new friends, for you having driving lessons I think I've heard? Dealing with all the "non medical" stuff, the every day life, putting pieces back together. It's definitly not comparable to mental illness, but it is not easy either...
"It's hard the pick up the pieces, when you don't know what you're trying to build" omfg that is such a good way of putting it!
Also I've felt lost when I start to get better and recover, because when you're in the midst of terrible stuff you just want normality, but once you're getting better it's reasonable to want something more than your normal!
I’m over 5 months sh free :)
charlotte hooton so proud of you ❤️ keep up the good work
Proud 💜
That's amazing!
2 weeks clean and honestly couldn’t do it without your videos! They have helped me through so much❤️ you’re honestly an inspiration love you loads xxx
Bethany Urwin im so proud of you! keep it up ❤️ you can do it
Im 22 days clean i haven't been clean for so long in a year. Your videos help my alot tho. Sometimes they make me smile sometimes they are just helpfull and full of advice. It really helps when you talk about dealing with scars and stuff tho. Bc i never really knew what to do with them bc i was so ashamed. But you help me to see that i have nottig to be ashamed about. Keep up the good work and thank you for everything tho xx
yo yo good job ❤️ proud of you
Im 2 days clean, you gotta start somewhere 🤷🏽♀️🖤
shalah S so proud of you💛
Proud of you ❤️
keep going you’ll do great ❤️
You certainly do need to start somewhere, keep going 💜💜
Sometimes those first few days are the hardest, and you're off to an amazing start! Keep it up! You're doing great!
i’m struggling a lot recently but things got to a point where i was in hospital every other day for stitches and i was faced with the decision of trying to get better or being sectioned - and i chose to face recovery. it’s hard but i’ve found my passion again for horses and i’m going riding twice a week and things are slowly improving ❤️❤️ and i’m 4 days clean ❤️💙
I came out to my parents and doctors about my self harm the other day, I’m on the waiting list now to get CBT. Your videos about self harm gave me the reality check I needed. I was living in a bubble where I thought it’s ok to self harm as long as no one knows, I’m only hurting my self and it’s my choice to do so. You came along and popped the sh*t out of that bubble 😂 thank you 💕
so proud of you girly, im 38 days clean from self harm today!!! love you xxxx
Hannahhh good job ❤️
I’m a month clean from having to go to a&e for self harming behaviour, a small victory at that because I’m still struggling but keeping things under control
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Well done that’s great, keep going always here xx
Eve Coates good job ❤️ keep going! You got this
You've honestly helped me so much! You've helped me strive towards recovery with self harm and my eating disorder! I am now just over a year clean from self harm, and thank you so much you beautiful human
I completely relate to what you are saying on so many levels. I've only very recently discovered your channel and it is honestly so oddly comforting to know someone feels the same and is going through the same thing.
After battling with my mental health for years, I managed to scrape through to university last September. However, after a mental health breakdown and a hospital admission, I soon realised that I couldn't continue.
Now, 5 months since leaving, I feel completely lost and extremely confused. The way you worded it as "trying to pick up the pieces and put something together when you don't know what you're making" quite honestly is the most accurate representation of how I feel.
Thank you so much for your honesty and I hope things only continue to improve in your life :)
You literally explained my whole feelings about where I am at, and what I'm doing.
When I was in hospital the routine was so insane up at 6:30am done at 7pm and the routine I had to do and the eating routine and meds my goals were so clear and now that I'm out I'm so overwhelmed with expectations of myself and yeah I'm feeling lost too!!!! Thanks for not making me feel alone in this bpd journey
Sending all my love Jasmin ❤️
This is exactly what I needed to hear. I’ve been feeling so weird the past weeks and this really articulated my feelings, wow.
I've been struggling a little after getting discharged from hospital.
I was wondering if you could make a video about getting out of hospital?
Love your videos btw❤️
Thyra Ulekleiv yeah same it’s a big change.. especially when routines are the thing that keep me going. like i’ve always had so much going on like work, school and stuff to cover my anxiety and suicidal thoughts. then i’m almost in a burn out just because i wanted to avoid my thoughts..
1 month clean and I'm feeling that.. thank you for make feel us we are not alone ... LY 💜
So I had 3 massive breakdown last week and I’m still clean and am so proud of myself, seriously thought I would relapse.
Official _megss well done that’s great to get though that without relapsing, keep going, always here xx
great job ❤️ you got this
Official _megss I’m so proud of you!❤️ I know the feeling.. I’m in a similar situation and it really makes a difference when you realize that you’re still clean from sh after all that!
i miss catching up on these, life for me has been totally insane for two months and not easy either.. love you marie glad you are still doing this..
219 days clean and it's so hard but your vids help sm Marie so thank you♥️
YOU ARE INCREDIBLE OMG WOW! Inspiration - keep going my love ❤️
I discovered your channel two days ago, and since then I'm clean thanks to you. Thank you Marie, sincerely ❤
Bangtan are Angels i’m so proud of you❤️
@@Ec0001 Thank you so much 💗
i feel the same way!! im doing a little better in regards to self harm (9 days clean) and my eating disorder, and i want to get my life back on track and figure out what my long-term goals are and how to achieve them, but i have no idea where to even begin bc i don't know what im working towards or what i want my future to look like! sending love xx
M great job ❤️
currently watching while doing my biology homework
i’m so so proud of you and how far you’ve came, it’s okay to have bad days and not know what your path is because it will all work out in the end💘
i’ve also been feeling really lost recently and i’ve been struggling but i’m trying my hardest to stay strong, i’m currently 10 days clean💘💘x
2 and a half months without a panic attack, longest I’ve ever went ❤️❤️☺️☺️
Girl!
I am in the same boat. This video really hit home today. You have an amazing ability of making exactly what needs to be heard.
Over this last year my mental health has gone to the dogs. And I don’t feel like I belong at the college I am at. I just finished my 3rd year so it’s kinda late to want to change schools but I really haven’t completed that much of anything. But....
Today i told my dad that i need some mental health attention and I want to transfer schools. He took it so much better than I expected. So yay!
I loved the thing that you said you are picking up the pieces but don’t know what you are building, I might use that.
I hope you get some clarity in how to do what you need to do. You are amazing and you can do everything you want. But that doesn’t mean you have to do them all at once.
Love you!! Stay safe!!
42 days sh free 💛💛💛
You're doing great keep doing you !! You are such an inspiration.
Rose Moore good job ❤️
Up until the other day, I was 5 months clean and before that, 6 months, before that, a year....it's important to remember the recovery isn't linear, and there will always be ups and downs, but it's worth it to keep going, keep fighting. I just found your channel, and it's so nice to have someone who has a positive outlet during their struggle, someone to connect to who has experienced much of the same struggles in their own way. Thank you for making your videos ❤️
I’m 7 days clean but feeling low atm. Just been pre-diagnosed with BPD and it’s taking time to get my head together and process everything, love you so much Marie keep going girl! 💋 xxx
Faye Gilroy great job ❤️
I have a feeling you will have the option of being a full time youtuber at some point. You are so likeable, talented, hardworking and good at editing. I just have this big feeling in me..... the universe might just make it happen. But it's okay if not♡ you have so many options in life. You will go far bby♡
mega bonus of today was that me and my mama sat down and we spoke about how i was feeling and possible other treatments other than counselling and group therapy!! stay strong yall, youll get there 💕
florence shipley that’s important and really good thing that you’ve been talking with your mom! i really hope that you get the treatment that you need and want. sending all my love to you❤️
I’ve struggled so much this weekend and have been waiting for your vid!! Yeyyyy🤞🏽love u xxx
Do you need someone to talk to xx I am here for you ❤️❤️
Rachel Dunster I’ve been getting a lot of support but thank you it’s nice to know I have people to speak to x
Chloe Easton that’s good to hear you have support. If you ever need to talk though we are all here
Rachel Dunster thank you x
I completely get the lost thing! I’ve just left school and I feel so lost with my life, as you said when you have a routine or whatever you have an end goal, and know what you need to do to get there. But when you have nothing you don’t know where you’re going, it’s shit feeling like you don’t know where you’re going. You’re not alone, and thank you for reminding me I’m not either 🌸💓
Roisin Elsaa you’ll be okay ❤️
Ur such a wonderful human being and ur videos have helped me a shit ton I found u almost a year ago now and u have really helped me and I’m so grateful. Keep doing what u love and continue to be ur amazing self
I’m so proud of you doing the A level and for pushing on x
i've had a really rough past few weeks because i've been really stressed from school, but im happy cause it's almost summer! i'm six months clean and this is the longest ive been clean in a really long time, i havent made it through finals clean before so!!!!!
i’ve only recently started to watch your videos, but they give me so much inspiration, especially to know that even if you hit rock bottom you can still learn to fly again. you are amazing, i love you so much and everything you have created, it’s helped me so much with recovery so i thank you for that :) ♥️x
101 days clean today, so happy with my life and the world 💛✨🌈
So proud of you for making it through and being able to say you're okay that on its own is am achievement but I also totally understand how you're feeling now too .just know that you are doing great 🌻💛
Personally I've been struggling eating wise and a neighbour died of cancer and two days later another one died with his wife and child so it's just all funerals around and seeing so many people cry is really heart breaking .plus a dear friend of mine is stuck in her abusive home and I can't even be in touch, idk I just feel so aware of the pain of these people yet I'm powerless in every way so I'm over thinking it and my worrying about my bestie's mental health is increasing, but with saying that my mood is stable and I'm not having panic attacks as I usually do so that's a win!!😊😊
Im about 2 weeks clean and im proud of myself
Maddox S proud of you ❤️ good job
Really loved this video! I just finished school for the year today, and I’m so grateful to have finally started enjoying school this month. Thankful to have had the best month in school this May, and feeling the happiest I’ve felt in a long time. 💜💜
Your gorgeous, beautiful, and so so strong. I respect you so much and we are all so proud of you. I am really struggling at the moment, this morning I just lead there with my hand on my heart and realised how amazing life actually is, how my beating heart is there and keeping me alive. I feel like I’m drowning though, like life never gets better. But Marie I’m so thankful for you and I love you. Please keep blossoming because the sun has picked you to grow and shine 💗
Anniemae E life is beautiful ❤️ we need your beautiful soul with us
Girl you are looking AMAZING 😍💕😍💕
After watching your videos I'm taking the plunge to go back to the GP after suffering with depression self harm and anxiety for 8 years and after a year of being 'okay' I can tell the signs are creeping up again so I'm going to go and go back on my meds.. so thanks boo for giving me the kick I need to get help again 💕💕💕💕💕💕
Megan Ashton I hope you’re feeling better now than you were 5 months ago, x
It’s always lovely to see an update on how you’re doing Marie ❤️ I’ve been feeling a little lost too but now I’m 4 weeks clean :)
Chloe proud of you ❤️
I love your mental health Monday’s x especially the mental health updates. Keep doing TH-cam your amazing 😍 I’m doing a lot better and I’m about 3 weeks clean of self harm, I try my best to fight my urge. Love you so much and you inspire me so much ❤️ keep going girlllllll☺️💖
Almost 3 months clean from drugs almost 2 weeks from self harm and love you lots keep doing well 💚x
YOU ARE DOING AMAZING keep going angel ❤️
marieroseeee thank you so much u too x
I am struggling with self harm and I am so lost, and your videos have calmed me down so much. honestly thank you for being here and analyzing the way you feel cause it has helped me so much. I love your videos and looove to listen to your story. I admire you so much, and im so proud of you for making it through everything. I really wana be friends and chat (never gonna happen) anyways... you go girl! I just want you to know, that im so fucken proud, and I loooove youuuu
elisabeth papakostantinou work on baby steps ❤️ until you reach your goal. you got this !
I always remember u saying in one of your videos that people with chronic health conditions are our role models , having a chronic illness that made me feel really special and like I’m doing something right so thankyou
I thought i was getting better but then it hit me all over again and im back to how i felt a year ago! It does get hards to keep being strong 😞😞on the plus side my achievement is ive not taken a day of work yet!!!😊😊
honestly marie i don’t get why you don’t have more subs. you are BRILLIANT. we love you so much💙🦋
All the best with your goals - maybe choose one and have that be it for now? . I went back to education when I was 31! TH-cam and podcasts have essay writing lessons etc too. You've got this
Hi Marie! You deciding to go back to A-Levels is such a brave and confident decision to make, as well as a very tough one. I am like 2 weeks away from finishing them and I have hit rock bottom with my mental health. If I can stay alive through this and deal with it at my best, then you can do it as you recover!
Wishing you so much luck♥
i'm still in hospital, but i'm trying my best
I'm clean since 1 week i guess, and i do understand what you described about the feeling of being lost
I admire you, and i hope you'll continue youtube
I wish you the best, take care of you Marie
Leïla good job ❤️
I had that same feeling of feeling lost and once I started to not overthink it and only do whatever makes me happy things just started to fall into place. I just felt like I had to take to pressure off me to constantly have a plan or know what I’m supposed to be doing and as soon as I did that and just relaxed and focused only on doing things that made me smile and happy everything started working out ❤️
My mum and dad recently found out about my selfharm and it feels like my whole world is crumbling but watching these videos gives me hope and make me believe things will get better even though it’s so hard at the moment but you inspired me to get help so thank you so much Marie 💗
I needed to hear this today. This video has helped me. It makes me feel so happy that you’re doing well that made me feel better. I got rid of my anxiety and then I started a new job that’s very demanding and the management is awful so it affected me mentally and now I’m looking for a new job. I’ve been so stressed but you’ve made me feel better. Can I ask, is the way your voice shakes related to mental health? In some videos it’s not but then in others you seem so sad and your voice shakes so much, I love you Marie and I wish you all the best 💗💗
I felt stuck like this for the longest time until I decided that I wanted to do more with my life and I made the decision to go back into education which I’d never succeeded in before. I did an access course for a year and I’m off to uni in September. It was the best decision I ever made, I knew I didn’t want to be at the same workplace forever. Honestly, keep doing what you love and things will fall into place xxx
I'm at university doing a degree I love yet I still feel overwhelmed and very lost. You are not alone xx
Stephanie keep your head up ❤️ summer is right around the corner
Nearly 3 months sh free and I could do it without your videos. Thank you for being an inspiration. This is the longest I’ve been clean. Super proud of everyone❤️
you have no idea how much i hope youtube becomes your job. YOU DESERVE IT SO MUCH!!!! you’re channel has helped so many people (unlike most youtubers these days) so i really hope it happens for you babe! love you so much xx
I can totally relate to feeling lost at the moment. Recently I've felt unsure of nearly every element of my life. It can be so difficult, especially when you don't know what move to make next.
I just visited my family and hometown this past week, and it really helped put everything in perspective. No matter what paths we choose, we must remember we will have the people we love, our values, and ourselves. Stay strong Marie, love you so much xxxx ❤️
I've been feeling a bit poopy but I will get through it
That describes me 100% I thought I was the only one that felt like that and you described it better than I ever could
These past few weeks I feel like I've just been okay not good not bad just okay and this has boosted me to almost being good that you are still going even when life is just ok
I've been clean for a little over a year. I still feel bad that I sometimes want to do it, but I'm proud if myself too! I just graduated from high school on Saturday, but my best friend literally just dropped me afterwards. Family isn't that great, but I'm looking forward to attending a summer program at the college in attending. PLUS, I'm almost done, my 18th birthday is on June 4th, so I can finally get some help. My father, being Mexican, comes from a background where mental health is a joke. But I'm going to get help. And I'll get the chance to get away from toxic people. I'm excited, but still sort of lonely because I don't really have any friends now. But heyyyy, I'm looking forward to tattoos and lottery tickets. Anyone reading this, stay strong. It's easier said than done, yes, but I guess we just have to wait for things to pan out... Maybe haha. Have a great summer!
Doodlebear 5 so proud of you ❤️ keep up the good work
@@shaktihernandez9947 thank you!
feeling a bit lost too :(( i'm finishing my exams soon, and i thought as soon as the stress was over, i'd feel 10x better. but i just feel like... the same. i was so looking forward to doing everything in the half term - read books, go outside, do all sorts. now i just don't care. i don't know. guess i just need something exciting xx
I understand exactly what you mean when you talk about it being harder now that you're better. I've been there, but it is an in between stage, once I 'got used to' being bored and not knowing where I was going, the big things, the future, it all started to fall into place. It's just a time of recuperation, it doesn't last forever, but you can't force anything to happen ❤️I love your videos, they inspire me to stay strong every day ❤️
Omg ruby I love you. You’re so right about being in the inbeteeen stage and how difficult it can be!! Thankyou so much for your comment lovely ❤️
Marie your doing incredible! Keep working hard on yourself and recovery... as far as TH-cam you deserve so many more subscribers and I can see you becoming so big on the TH-cam community... do what you feel is best for you!💛
I look forward to your mental health Monday videos every weekend! they help me get through another day 💛 and I'm finally a week clean!
2 months clean 🥳. & I’d like to thank you for helping me get to this point. Idk what I’d do without you and your videos. You won’t ever know just how much you impact my life, but you give me hope. I love you sm, Marie ♥️. You’re an angel love
108 days clean! My boyfriend bought me a cactus to support me (it's the only plant that survives me 😂). You are still such a motivation for me and you have been for about a year now, so thank you for that❤
Zoe Brandis proud of you ❤️
i have been feeling so anxious and on the edge after getting out off hospital.. i’m finishing school on Saturday and it’s so big and weird. you know after summer i’m going into a whole new place with all these people that i don’t know. it’s a big change. and having to deal with making new friends and how to talk about your struggles all over again. however your vibes and positivity are making me happy. and the fact that you’ve been so low and that you’re now recovering gives me hope.. thank you so much..❤️ ps. i’m already 16 days clean (that’s a record)
Pähli well done keep going xx
Pähli great job ❤️
becca x thank you so much! that literally made my day❤️
Shakti Hernandez thank you 🙏🏻!
Pähli how's it going ? X 💓
a week clean
Ellie Xo so proud of you ❤️
I’ve been feeling the exact same way but I didn’t really understand how I was feeling until you explained it perfectly. You help me so much thank you
I really understand what you’re saying. I got through a huge manic/depressive episode that took up almost 3 years of my life and when I was doing better I think I experienced the same stage kinda thing that you’re in. My advice would be to look ahead into your future and start trying to pursue your passions and make something of yourself that you’re proud of if you know what I mean. Make your dreams come true ya know. Also I’m so proud of you and I love your videos! Stay strong and never give up cuz I thing you’re a gift to this world. Love ya! 💛
Small goals and lots of self-kindness and kindness with others too💕 no matter where you want to go, learning to drive and getting a/some A levels will do you well :)
I’m 100% cut free for the first time in 6months.
By that I mean I have no fresh cuts on my body, they’re all healed.
I kept getting so close then relapsing but I finally made it to this point
Clicked as soon as I got the notification. I love your videos, and I love you. I have a lot of bad self esteem issues and I decided that I'm going to work out more and eat healthier to make myself happy. I'm going to do this for myself not anyone else. You're a great person and I hope you keep making videos for a really really long time.💝💝💝
funny turtle you’re beautiful ❤️
17 days clean (: I 100% get how you’ve been feeling I’ve been feeling the same and it’s being on my mind a lot not knowing how I want my future to be. I’d suggest you focus on one thing at a time so things don’t become to overwhelming.Doing my driving was my main focus as I was in college, honestly was the best decision I’ve made because that has given me so much freedom. Have you ever thought of being a mua your amazing at doing makeup and I honestly don’t know anything about it but I just see you are amazing at doing it:) Loveyah hope things start falling into place for you♥️
guuh you really put into words how im feeling too, floating through life trying to figure out what im doing flares my anxiety if I think about it too much, but im sure we'll both figure it out, and this feeling will be a lil blip in our lives ❤️
I feel a bit lost too. Just finished my final exam in Germany and I've been 'mentally stable' for a while now. So I guess things are good, but also I don't really know what to do with my life, while everyone around me has big plans.. So I can relate❤
I think you could make you tube your job one day, your channel is amazing and so are you! Maybe you could take a course on video making or make a series that's more outside the box for your channel. I believe in you marie💓
Feeling shit, 3 days clean, love your catch ups
I tend to feel similar, just a lil lost but i guess that’s okay sometimes. So proud of you always, thank you for everything you’ve done and continue to do 💗💞💓💖💕💘
And pursue your dream you have almost 40k subscribers who all absolutely love your videos, you can make it big and you deserve to!
I adore you and your vids❤️ 2 months clean! Been a struggle but holding it together xx
Daisy Hall great jobbb ❤️
Shakti Hernandez Thankyou❤️
I definitely feel lost too, I had to drop out of uni because of my mental health in January so I don’t feel like I’m working towards anything, nobody knows what treatment I should be pursuing and my diagnosis is also being questioned. Feeling so lost sucks but hopefully it will help me build up a clear picture of what I want in my future in the long run. 💚
Izzie Harley everything will figure itself out ❤️ you’ll be alright don’t worru
@@shaktihernandez9947 thank you 💚
3:14 - 3:23 put a massive smile on my face
Your smashing it Marie. My own channel is partially inspired by both yours, Pip’s and Olivia’s channels.
Marie, don’t think too much about TH-cam vs Tesco. You will see where you go. Soon you’ll have an idea where you will want to be heading.
The A level online sounds very productive and shows just how much you are thinking about the future and a back up plan to TH-cam/ Tesco. Even if you do the A level as a ‘hobby’/ time filler at least you’ll get a grade out of it.
You keep your chin up buttercup 💕💕
yeah, I'm feeling a lil lost and confused and I'm not sure why -- but hey, I'm 2 months clean!!
Erin Cara great job! proud of you ❤️
Your videos are just perfect they’re just the right mix of funny but also actually talking about serious thing in such a real way. You’re so amazing xx
Im 200 days clean 😊 your amazing and you make me proud I love u x
Kia Davies well done xx
Thanks xx
Kia Davies good jobbb!
Found your channel recently and you are such an inspirational persom sharing your mental health so candidly online :) sending some love and support x
i love you marie
Well done for deciding to do your a level! What subject are you going to study?
I did an access course when I was 21 after having my second breakdown at 18. I’m 23 now and starting uni in September 😊 stay strong you can do it and it will be such an achievement when you do!! 💕
I feel you sistaaa, it's quite a common feelings for us borderline folk!! You keep doing what you're doing cos girl you're rocking this shit! 💗
the attachment issues thing made me laugh because SAME, i love you so much and am so proud of you!
I like this video, it was really honest
I don't know how I'm doing right now. But I'm clean and alive so there's always that I guess.
But very good news my friend is home from rehab where she's been for months and I might be able to see her soon and that's like all I have going for me right now. That and I have a cute dog. There ya go, four gratitudes and being clean (idk how long for.. a month-ish I think)