I cringe when I think about some positions I naively put myself in. So many bad things could’ve happened, and am so lucky they didn’t. I didn’t get into drugs, but things I would never do now. We’re so fortunate to have God’s grace
Oh my my my, me too - and I was laying around a cemetary at night crying, drinking & playing my hard rock tunes while under major oppreshun (sp). God has been faithful to keep me from getting into that condition ever since (97-98). I got myself into it but He mercifully got me out.🙏🏼🙏🏼
This happened to me too Chynna. My inability to speak up for myself in the past season. I was stalked by a dangerous predator from Facebook. But I was unaware of what he was doing. Life changing
I know I'm late to this...as I've said before, you are such a great storyteller and I love when you share. Thank you. I have similar shame/cringe inducing stories, and when I think about them the thing that comes up for me is that I seemed to be sleepwalking through my life. I was not very mindful or present. The quote that always comes to mind when I am in a dark place over my past actions and how they hurt me and others is, “Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” - Maya Angelou Chynna, you are blessed...you are loved.❤
“Consider how precious a soul must be when both God and the devil are after it.” Charles Spurgeon Fantastic quote, thank you for sharing it Chynna! God bless you and your family!
Chynna, Ive been binging your channel for weeks and love it and you! This is the first time commenting, I just have to tell you I grew up just up the coast from you in Santa Cruz in the 80’s and had a very similar no-boundaries-single-mom upbringing. I have a feeling we would have been friends if we were in the same town. I totally relate that in hindsight I remember being envious of my friends who had rules, whose parents protected them. Thank you for sharing your stories.
Please interview your sister Mackenzie. She went through terrible addiction and now is a licensed CD counselor saving lives. That would be great interview.
I can completely relate to this. I made countless bad decisions throughout my life. I was afraid to say “no” and had no self worth. I’m glad I finally got it together.
@@mimi7914 oh stop it. Doctors, psychiatrists, therapists etc all make a living off of helping others and they don't even have to share their intimate details.
Chynna is a interesting and intelligent person. I am a fan of the music of Wilson-Phillips, and I also like to watch Chynna's wonderful Cal Preach religious theme TH-cam videos. Please tell Chynna I think her Cal Preach show is very good.
We all do crazy things when we’re young! I’ve let myself be in many compromising situations when I was young! But we learn Chynna, if we do it again it’s a mistake, if we do it only once, it’s a lesson! Love his video Chy! Appreciate your transparency! God bless you!❤️🙏🏻
@Cathy Giuliana Well said. We learn to be independent by being allowed to make choices, experiencing our failures and how to be strong to pick up and move on. A secluded child becomes an adult missing the stages for social development and enter an mature age where they can no longer experiment. Chynna, You don't know how lucky you were to be allowed to be a child. I grew up at age 7. I never dipped into alcohol, drugs or any social scene. I grew up watching the destruction to the wealthy adults around me. At age 7, I felt my life was worth more than how they were treating themselves. The saddest day of my life was High School graduation. I was so elated to be accepted and invited to a party. Then one by one all my friends snuck into the dark to smoke weed. When I sat there in the light alone, I got up and walked out on all of them. I never felt so lonely in my life but there was no way I was going to walk down the road of destruction that I grew up in. My HS friends had no idea what they were doing to themselves and where it could possiblity lead.
How have we never exchanged these stories? I lived on a hill above a huge, huge graveyard. I was 14 with a group of friends and got chased by the cops and we fled into the horse trails behind all the houses that lead to the graveyard. We would have been friends then too 😂. I am so unspeakably grateful for sobriety, faith, God’s love and total transformation for humans and CP. Jesus had to come to teach us all. I am humbly still learning and growing even after 30+ years. Love you and love this story & your vulnerability and honesty. You are helping so many. Humans can’t save, but they can share how their lives have been transformed through the love of Christ in a personal, loving way. XOXO
So brave you shared this. Your mom’s awesome. Your angel was watching over you, God was just waiting for you to to accept and love Him. He always knew you would and now you are helping others to find Him, His grace covers everything we go through.
Chynna, pardon my French but, you have a hell of a lot more courage than I ever will. A GRAVEYARD? I can't even go near those places without becoming very uncomfortable and unnerved. Cue my thantaphobia, (the chronic fear of death) at the mere sight of a graveyard, grave,, coffins, anything death related. I truly admire how open you are to your fans and appreciate you in every way. I'm not a believer anymore but, if angels were to really actually exist....I'd count you as being one of them. 😘❤ Sending love to you, my musical queen, from South Carolina.
@@cynthiagawin2991 Apologies Cynthia, but I was raised as a Christian and what I experienced damaged me beyond imagination. Ironically enough, it was the music of Wilson-Phillips that saved me in more ways than anything I ever got from the church.
Thank you so much for your willingness to share! We all do things in our youth that we regret or wish we had done differently. I am so thankful that God's grace and forgiveness is enough for me!
Dear Chynna: I'm a Recovering non-practicing Catholic and a much older fan of yours in the Bay Area. Grew up loving your parents' music in Chicago and never looked back til' I was in fact California Dreaming! Been watching your channel for quite awhile now and find your honesty and authentic devotion to your active Christian faith and ideals So Refreshing, and so very needed during these crazy times! I had two addicted parents growing up and a very unstable teenage life myself so can totally relate to this video. After many years on my own Recovery journey, I’ve also realized I still have complex PTS symptoms from my abusive childhood and my own subconscious at times periodic Self abuse which still affects my nervous system too frequently. Still working on it and trusting in HP one day at a time! Thank you for sharing your Healing Journey each week and God Bless you and your Family for your wonderful ministry.🙏
My goodness you ALWAYS have words that touch on exactly what I'm feeling & it helps me so much!! Thank you, dear Chynna, for just being you and sharing things about your own unique life with all of us❤🙏🤲
Thank your for showing us your vulnerability. Judging myself and recounting some old ridiculous choices I have made has hurt me for so long. Hearing your story makes me feel so much better knowing that your too have grown by forgiving yourself. Bless you!❣️
Wow most of us have those cringe moments in our lives, so thanks for sharing yours Chynna! It takes guts of which you have an abundance of! Hope it helps your own kids too! ❤️
Chynna, I am so grateful to you and the stories you share. The experiences you share resonate with so many of us, and provide so much healing and peace. Thank you 🙏
What a beautiful authentic story. Just remember that Jesus said "I am with you always". You are forgiven and you are a beautiful soul. God's grace be on you Chynna. You do not know how many people you help with your videos. Thank you.
You are a diamond in the rough and I love how you cherish Jesus when so many turn away from him! Thank you for being a beacon of light 👼🏻 that we need so much in our world!
What a story!! I relate my Friends and I at 16 years old did the same thing however we never lasted overnight in the graveyard🤯 I had a young boyfriend at 1604 himself on me as well it was horrible and I also felt like it was my fault. Thank God for the cleansing blood of Jesus that’s all I can say❤️
Thanks for sharing your *past modes of life mistakes, Chynna, as a teenager. It takes comfortability of alignment to embrace & bring it across. We have the regrets, regression & repenting so in our older years of wisdom we forgive ourselves somewhat throughout. Otherwise moving about in your living would be stale. Peace-Possibly ☮️🙌🙏✌️
All the stupid/risky/dangerous things we did back then make us who we are today. I'm kind of grateful, in a way, for those good/bad experiences for I feel like I have LIVED. My life now is clean and, frankly, pretty boring, so I'm happy to have those crazy times to think about.
A favorite quote of mine. “Christ was treated as we deserve that we may be treated as He deserves. He was condemned for our sins, in which He had no share, that we might be justified by His righteousness, in which we had no share. He suffered the death which was ours, that we might receive the life which was His. 'By His stripes we are healed.”
Brave girl Chynna. I love your honesty. P.S. You are not damaged goods. He put Rosa in your life as a baby so you did attach.! I raised my daughter alone and I knew she had to attach, rely and love me. So somehow my life worked out that I could stop teaching , stay home and raise her and got just enough financial support to make her life awesome because we were together!
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I was gob smacked and transfixed listening to you stepping us through the events on that awful night so many years ago. We have all done things we are not proud of, but most of us don't reveal our secrets on a global platform! Instead, we close that chapter and move on. Of course, we never truly forget about it, and that feeling of being "damaged goods" as you put it, follows us to our graves. I admire you for telling your story, and I view you as a formidably strong woman, thank you for being a role model. Greetings from South Africa.
No one would've thought when seeing your angelic young face hit the world stage back in the day what you had gone thru just a few years earlier. Totally get it when you said you just didnt know how to use your voice, or even that you had that right. Hard to speak up for yourself after you've gone thru traumas in those formative years. Strong & blessed is what you are Chynna. As always, thanks for sharing.
Great testimony and thank you for sharing! I have similar stories and have so much regret for the things I did while lost with nothing but drugs and confusion back then. It means so much that you shared this!
Oh Chynna, I was raised in a...well, a Godless home. My parent's, especially my mom, born and raised in Utah and Mormon. Hardcore. Married in the Salt Lake City, Utah Temple, Sealed together for all eternity. However, truth be told, she didn't feel it, was the black sheep. In 1964 my dad got a job with the Sheriff's department in of all places, Las Vegas. Moved my mom out of her Mormon bubble to Sin City. Total mind blowing culture shock for her. That's another story. Slowly but surely my mom defected from the church. She threw the baby out with the bath water. She wasn't going to put that dogma onto her kids. GOD didn't exist to us. Fast forward 18ish years, one by one by one... GOD started changing our hearts. Eventually, I could look back on very specific moments in my childhood and see that HE had been with me, preparing me for very specific events that were yet to come. Now that's a whole other story. So, although HE didn't exist to me, I existed to HIM and yes, HE knew my name. HE had been there with me the whole time. GOD does that, ya know!
Thank you for sharing your stories with us. You are amazing my dear and you have no idea how much I look forward to hearing one of your Cal preach episodes. You truly have helped me to want to continue my walk with Jesus and I thank you for that. Peace of Christ!
Thank you, Chynna, for being so open and honest about your past. We, all of us, have a past. Some are fine, most are not, but we have a Savior who forgives us for it all. Peace of Christ!
True confessions .... we all have them. I have learned from watching others. I agree with you on the struggle of staying in tune/touch with your children even if they seem to resent it at the time. It is hard to feel like your children 🧒🏻don't appreciate or understand how you care. However I have found (as you had with your mother) that later if not sooner, they do appreciate. I have several letters from my daughter who has expressed these types of issue's. I also learned not to say or act "I told you so."
I received some exciting information today and I had to share it with you all! A few weeks back, I felt a shift in the spirit and internally heard the words, " Days of Refreshing!" It seemed so contrary to the messages we hear all around us of doom and gloom, but I couldn't deny the peace and refreshing I was feeling. About a week later, I heard some bad news about a fellow brother and sister in Christ and I questioned if the message was truly from the Lord. While contemplating this, I felt confirmation from the Lord that despite the darkness going on around us, these are the Days of Refreshing and to receive it and I continue to feel this refreshing. Well today, I watched, " Busy for the Lord's" video and he brought up the scripture in Acts 3:19-21which reads: " Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the TIMES OF REFRESHING shall come from the presence of the Lord. And he shall send Jesus Christ, which before was preached unto you: Whom the heaven must receive until the times of restitution of all things, which God hath spoken by the mouth of all his holy prophets since the world began." This is so exciting and reveals to me that this refreshing comes right before the Lord Jesus returns!!! Hallelujah!!!!!🥳🎉😍🥰
When I stop and think about the stupid stuff I did at 15 and 16 it scares me. This was in the mid 70’s. God was taking care of me even the. There are even times I look back on my 62 years, there are so many times in retrospect I see the hand of God protecting me and my family. God bless you.❤️
Thanks Chynna. I appreciate your honesty, very interesting experiences and from those experiences you can guide and help others. God's hand is on your life. Mike
Many of us who grew up in the 70’s had regrettable young years. You have been blessed to overcome the wrong and make it right. P.S. your stories bring me back to my teen years…I am amazed you can remember so many details. I think I hid them in the back of my brain🥰. Remain happy & healthy😇🎚
Hi Chynna! Thank you for sharing your story and being so candid. I think most of us have done crazy and bad things in our lives. I didn't do drugs but I made the most awful decisions in my life, but you getting clean at 19 is so awesome!!! Just remember, we will falter at times because we are human. We won't become perfect until we meet the lord. You are such an awesome person and I love your channel. You've given me inspiration and hope. Hugs to you!!! ❤
Hey Chy, love you too. Yea, I found d God when I became sober too. When I came upon your brother-in-law, flipping through the channels one night, it really sealed the deal! That was about 15 years ago. Love your stories! I can relate. Peace of Christ 🙏 Janet
You really are courageous to say these stories on this public media. Do you tell your children&husband before here? What a wonderful way to say to give grace to ourselves. I've never thought of it like that. It always about to give grace to others. Thank You for that!!
I love your childhood/ teen experiences that you tell it hits close to home with me for I am your age so similar to what I did and went through, hug's Chynna 🤗❤️
You are not damaged goods Chyna, you are a mighty soldier of the Most High! I come from a similar background and there are many of God’s Chosen who have walked in your shoes, many, me included! I think you are one of the best messengers of Christ’s alive today because you keep it real and you speak the truth in a loving fashion that anyone can appreciate and respect! When I battle depression, I listen to one of your videos and you always help me. Thank you ! You are so relatable and God is using you mightily to bring about His Kingdom! Keep up the great work my beloved sister in Christ! ♥️🙏
I did some crazy things too as a teen and I look back thinking, omg! How am I still here? We all are guilty of it. You are so right about the devil - sneaky punk is always ready to jump in. Keeping the armor of Christ and grace! ❤️❤️
I was 18 when one night I arrived home around midnight. I opened the front door of the house, and I saw my mother waiting for me. She started yelling at me, then she grabbed my guitar and she hit my back with it. Consequently, the guitar neck snapped in half at the body. I could not use it anymore. 😞 Now, can you imagine what would have happened to me if I had gotten home at 9 am???? And I was a boy. 🙂
Chynna, thank you!I am soo hard on myself. I'm going through a very stressful time.I lost my job/, I'm fighting it.I have IBs,due to the stress.Trying to let Jesus handle it.Iknow he will. I hate myself for any doubt.Ive done somethings too, but we learn and I'm closer to JESUS!! AMEN! "PEACE OF CHRIST "!💜🙏✝️
I stumbled on Joel Osteen. His lectures helped me keep my head together in times of deep stress. His words inspired me, uplifted me, gave me hope for my future. The funny thing is everything he said was right on the money. Any story you can tell, I most likely I can top. Worked for me, it can work for you too. Chynna is right, Jesus & God are my rock. 👍🙏♥️🥰
FYI - I learned I had better results when I went to the head of the department vs legal route. Told the very head of my dept that I worked too hard at my job to loose my position. The legal route I ended with settlement offering, which lawyer took percentage & no job. Another time told to let my union settle it. Union works if badger them. They tell you to wait for their phone call which never comes. End up switching departments. I learned if I want to keep same job, to go to the head above your direct manager. They wouldn't give me an appointment. I waited till he was done for the day and walked into his office, sweetly, before he went home. Don't do it on a Monday. Do it closer to end of week. Human Resources job is to support management, not the employee. If manager acted inappropriate, HR supports the manager, bashes down the employee, then deals with the managers inappropriate action behind closed doors. PS - I got written up & suspended for 3 days by HR for rule I never heard of, not allowed to return to work after you leave? but I got to keep my job. The head of the dept let the managers run the dept until something wrong is brought to their attention, then they rectify bad decisions when confronted nicely by the employee. The decision made was not for the benefit of the department. The job I did was an asset not a liability. Ridding me is a mistake. Yes I had IB. I worked in a very hostile environment. They played a lot of dirty games. LOL Hospital. Don't get sick. 😂🤣
Your message speaks to my ❤️. I have so many abandonment issues surrounding father and mother. We as outsiders think public figures have trouble- free lives- actually quite the contrary. I remember looking at you as a teenager , I’m a year behind you- and see Joe “perfect”, “stylish”, “talented” and “successful”, thinking what a perfect life you must have had. No one knows the depth of pain in another’s life or heart. Thank you 🙏🏼 For being REAL ✝️🙏🏼❤️
Your story made me realize how girls are taught from everywhere to beat down, fall into suppression. What gets me upset is then the girl blames herself for not doing what she wanted to do or society blames her for not taking control when it was time for her to "play dominant". I know if a recent case where a 5-6 yr old girl didn't like the female role model we push on our girls, which I didn't like either. This child said she didn't want to be a girl, she wanted to be a boy, now acts out the male cartoon super hero take lead dominant role. Sad that a young girl has to do this in order to be heard. Lesson Learned - We need a role model to teach our young girls it is OK to be strong, it's OK to say NO, it's OK to take charge. To this day we don't have that. The Roman Catholic Church's entire structure role models girls to suppress. (Just by visual costume and rank at the alter). This is NOT from Jesus nor the bible. The other Mary was not a shameful prostitute (but it is OK, in fact expected to be a man looking for sex. Were the apostles virgins? 🙄). Our boys are growing up just as confused as our girls. I wonder if the boy you were with deep inside prayed you say no? Some boys grow up thinking, really thinking their job is to be the refused aggressor. Love you Chynna. 👍🙏♥️🥰 I am going to try to "Fearless" email you.
Love how honest you are. Thank you for sharing ... I like hearing your experiences .. you are so loveable. Don't ever judge yourself. When we're young things happen. 😇🥰😜🤭🤭🤭🤭
Have you written an autobiography yet? I definitely think you could spread the truth of how God loves us with your life story! You are a Shining Star Chynna! God Bless you!
I have similar stories and share them with friends, even strangers at times, when I can. The part that got me is that you prayed at times during it all. I have done that my whole upbringing in all situations. God has always been there and will continue to be for you, me and all! Peace of Christ 🙏
what a crazy story. I can't decide whether it sounds fun or horrifyhing. We all did things like that back in the 80's don't feel bad. I stole from my own parents and did drugs in graveyards several times. Its hard to imagine you were ever that person after seeing the beautiful person you are today. Thanks for sharing. Its really an inspiration to see how God has shaped your life after what you went through in the 80's.
You can't be old and wise with The Lord if you're not young, dumb and naive I also have so many embarrassing, scary stories it just shows I really was never alone Jesus was always with me but the shame and haunting thoughts was punishment enough back then and Jesus rebuked it all once I grew and learned my lessons. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Beauty from ashes! Thanking God for bringing you out of those days before Christ came into your life! Cal Preach is one of your anointed callings in your life!
Thank you Chynna, for sharing . You are a beautiful blessing each time. The lord was watching over you the whole time, so glad you made it through all of that. Peace Of Christ.🌈❤😊🙏☀🌻✌.
Hi Chynna,ur story really hit home,I thank God for helping me get though some really scary situations! Thank you for opening ur life to us all, sending many xoxo
I feel ya! I was stupid enough to sniff glue, before going to the graveyard. I was 15 at the time. Luckily for me I never did that again! Although I did go on to try different things. I am surprised that I have lived this long. Once I went to the club, and left with a guy that I didn't know. It was during the time that Ted Bundy was in Utah, and actually tried to pick up the Midvale police chiefs daughter! Only 1 block from my house! The lord has truly watched over me, and protected me. Praise God!
13:00> Thats EXACTLY what I was thinking: How I never imagined a celeb..especly a living legend..would do the same as I did as a kid. I mean..yeah, the house I lived in was much smaller & there wasnt any valuable to steal like $100 bill & cocaine...( more like $10 & a 6pack of Schlitz or something) but going with the flow..including letting some guy i normally just hung out with have his way., but also making sure everyone was fed, comfy, as well-entertained as I could make happen... to be the cool kid, I guess. Acting like Im not scared. And being surprized/a little confused that my mom waited up for me that ONE time...not really knowing how to react to that. We 3 kids lived with her full-time, but she was SO in her own head/bubble/ world. She was either at work or "hiding" in her bdrm, but on occassion she'd "show up" out of nowhere wanting to play the mom role. Sooo...yeahh .definitly relatable. God is amazing!!
I love when you are outside to talk to us. And you sharing your life and past with us is important. As we regular people see stars and their privilege and forget.. that stars are just like us. With pain and real lived. The game is a veneer to a real person struggling like everyone else with Same problems in life. So bless you and keep doing any videos you want. Being real is what you need .never bury deep down what you need to express.
I just love you Chynna. I could feel the guilt you felt with what you did at that moment. We have all made mistakes and wrong choices and we can identify with what you share with us. It is humbling and makes us appreciate and love our Savior, Jesus Christ atoning for our sins. He paved the way for repentance and forgiveness.
Thank you for sharing your story, we all do crazy things when younger, only to realize later in life how stupid it was ! But that’s part of growing too , love how you share all thoughts , love watching your videos, keep doing what you love ❤️
You did what Chynna?! Holy spirits activate. I'm with Rhiannon. You have more courage than I will ever have. I also have a lot of respect for your honesty on here. It can't be easy. Love you.
Hello Mrs Baldwin! Always a pleasure to hear your stories and how it is important to know Christ. We are all fallen being some worse, but God is always waiting for us to turn to Him. Oh, how I miss Chilly and know that I am always in prayers for your entire family. God bless you always sister Chyna and hope to meet you inperson with Mr. Baldwin!
Thank you for sharing that story with us!! I’m sure Many of us can relate to the crazy things that we all did when we were younger. It’s the grace of God that were alive and able to talk about it. God bless you China
I’d love to hear how these experiences have shaped your position as a mom & more about your views of how your mom affected you - if you don’t mind sharing . . .
In your story The taking advantage of at your young age and you not wanting to do it reminds me of a ( many of ) situation when I was younger I say it felt like I was paralyzed kind of like peer pressure made me feel paralyzed? Unable to move or stand up to do what I KNEW was right .. boy you brought me back to a time and a feeling with nostalgia from that story!! a lot of things you say in your stories just hit so close to the heart…. 🥺💔🙏🏼
When we share pieces of ourselves, (especially those we are not proud of) we never really know how many people are going to be given hope and courage through that sharing. You have shared the times when you were vulnerable, the things others would want to pretend never happened. I know that you are reaching people that probably feel out of control or beyond hope or beyond being loved by our Great Savior. Thank you for your courage! God has certainly blessed you with this platform and you are using it to bring him glory! Well done faithful servant!❤
We are fortunate to be alive after more dangerous choices. Thank you so much for your comforting thoughts about our giving grace toward ourselves. Needed these very words today.
Really enjoyed this video. especially reliving my very similar Teen hood, How did any of us survive that? But my Lord is my guide and he always see's me safely home.
Peace of Peace of Christ Chynna. I call those experiences war stories.. I had not a clue that I was special to anyone really. I didn't know either, how to care for myself. The fact that your mom waited up for you just speaks volumes to me. I can soooo relate to your story. I can also remember confessing to Jesus and asking Him to forgive and to help me forgive myself Out FATHER is soo good to us. HE saved me, washed me sanctified and justified me. Then the adversary would put up the rear view mirrors, as he always does to keep us in his muck and mier. But I knew what JESUS did for me and I keep holding on to HIS promise to take away my sins and toss them as far as the East is from the west and remember them no more. That's a beautiful thing. Peace of CHRIST my beautiful sister.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️
I cringe when I think about some positions I naively put myself in. So many bad things could’ve happened, and am so lucky they didn’t. I didn’t get into drugs, but things I would never do now. We’re so fortunate to have God’s grace
Oh my my my, me too - and I was laying around a cemetary at night crying, drinking & playing my hard rock tunes while under major oppreshun (sp). God has been faithful to keep me from getting into that condition ever since (97-98). I got myself into it but He mercifully got me out.🙏🏼🙏🏼
Amen. Goes double for me! Thank you King Jesus!
We are.
This happened to me too Chynna. My inability to speak up for myself in the past season. I was stalked by a dangerous predator from Facebook. But I was unaware of what he was doing. Life changing
I know I'm late to this...as I've said before, you are such a great storyteller and I love when you share. Thank you. I have similar shame/cringe inducing stories, and when I think about them the thing that comes up for me is that I seemed to be sleepwalking through my life. I was not very mindful or present. The quote that always comes to mind when I am in a dark place over my past actions and how they hurt me and others is, “Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” - Maya Angelou
Chynna, you are blessed...you are loved.❤
“Consider how precious a soul must be when both God and the devil are after it.” Charles Spurgeon
Fantastic quote, thank you for sharing it Chynna! God bless you and your family!
THAT IS PROFOUND ! 🙀
That one rang My bell too!
Chynna, Ive been binging your channel for weeks and love it and you! This is the first time commenting, I just have to tell you I grew up just up the coast from you in Santa Cruz in the 80’s and had a very similar no-boundaries-single-mom upbringing. I have a feeling we would have been friends if we were in the same town. I totally relate that in hindsight I remember being envious of my friends who had rules, whose parents protected them. Thank you for sharing your stories.
Please interview your sister Mackenzie. She went through terrible addiction and now is a licensed CD counselor saving lives. That would be great interview.
I love her always n 4ever
“Salvation is not achieved. It’s received.” Love it. 🙏🏼
Through the grace of God 🙏 I’m still here.
My husband died unexpectedly and any prayers are appreciated.
I miss him so much💔
Your honesty is so refreshing, Chynna. Love you dearly!
Love her sm🫶🏼✨♥️
I can completely relate to this. I made countless bad decisions throughout my life. I was afraid to say “no” and had no self worth. I’m glad I finally got it together.
Thank you for always have the courage to share Chynna!! I have a lot of respect for that! xo
Definitely the same
Same 🫶🏼she’s amazing 🤩✨😍♥️
@@mimi7914 oh stop it. Doctors, psychiatrists, therapists etc all make a living off of helping others and they don't even have to share their intimate details.
You were just a kid who needed someone to look after you. God bless you Chynna. You are a blessing to others who need love. 💕
Amen to this !!🙏🏼♥️😍
Chynna is a interesting and intelligent person. I am a fan of the music of Wilson-Phillips, and I also like to watch Chynna's wonderful Cal Preach religious theme TH-cam videos. Please tell Chynna I think her Cal Preach show is very good.
JESUS WAS WITH YOU ALWAYS ❤🩹
We all do crazy things when we’re young! I’ve let myself be in many compromising situations when I was young! But we learn Chynna, if we do it again it’s a mistake, if we do it only once, it’s a lesson! Love his video Chy! Appreciate your transparency! God bless you!❤️🙏🏻
True.
@Cathy Giuliana Well said. We learn to be independent by being allowed to make choices, experiencing our failures and how to be strong to pick up and move on. A secluded child becomes an adult missing the stages for social development and enter an mature age where they can no longer experiment.
Chynna, You don't know how lucky you were to be allowed to be a child. I grew up at age 7. I never dipped into alcohol, drugs or any social scene. I grew up watching the destruction to the wealthy adults around me. At age 7, I felt my life was worth more than how they were treating themselves. The saddest day of my life was High School graduation. I was so elated to be accepted and invited to a party. Then one by one all my friends snuck into the dark to smoke weed. When I sat there in the light alone, I got up and walked out on all of them. I never felt so lonely in my life but there was no way I was going to walk down the road of destruction that I grew up in. My HS friends had no idea what they were doing to themselves and where it could possiblity lead.
Same same
How have we never exchanged these stories? I lived on a hill above a huge, huge graveyard. I was 14 with a group of friends and got chased by the cops and we fled into the horse trails behind all the houses that lead to the graveyard. We would have been friends then too 😂. I am so unspeakably grateful for sobriety, faith, God’s love and total transformation for humans and CP. Jesus had to come to teach us all. I am humbly still learning and growing even after 30+ years. Love you and love this story & your vulnerability and honesty. You are helping so many. Humans can’t save, but they can share how their lives have been transformed through the love of Christ in a personal, loving way. XOXO
HSA!!! Love you woman
So brave you shared this. Your mom’s awesome. Your angel was watching over you, God was just waiting for you to to accept and love Him. He always knew you would and now you are helping others to find Him, His grace covers everything we go through.
I so understand that feeling of not standing up for yourself, and taking care of yourself; having a voice. I SO "get" this!!!
Chynna, pardon my French but, you have a hell of a lot more courage than I ever will. A GRAVEYARD? I can't even go near those places without becoming very uncomfortable and unnerved. Cue my thantaphobia, (the chronic fear of death) at the mere sight of a graveyard, grave,, coffins, anything death related. I truly admire how open you are to your fans and appreciate you in every way. I'm not a believer anymore but, if angels were to really actually exist....I'd count you as being one of them. 😘❤
Sending love to you, my musical queen, from South Carolina.
Jesus can take all those fears away. 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
“O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?”
John 3:16
@@jacobus57 Those things actually exist? I'm somewhat confused about what could be positive about death. 😕
@@cynthiagawin2991 Apologies Cynthia, but I was raised as a Christian and what I experienced damaged me beyond imagination. Ironically enough, it was the music of Wilson-Phillips that saved me in more ways than anything I ever got from the church.
Chynna please keep sharing your stories. There is someone out there just like you who needs to hear this. And you are wonderfully made, God says so.
Thank you so much for your willingness to share! We all do things in our youth that we regret or wish we had done differently. I am so thankful that God's grace and forgiveness is enough for me!
Dear Chynna: I'm a Recovering non-practicing Catholic and a much older fan of yours in the Bay Area. Grew up loving your parents' music in Chicago and never looked back til' I was in fact California Dreaming! Been watching your channel for quite awhile now and find your honesty and authentic devotion to your active Christian faith and ideals So Refreshing, and so very needed during these crazy times! I had two addicted parents growing up and a very unstable teenage life myself so can totally relate to this video. After many years on my own Recovery journey, I’ve also realized I still have complex PTS symptoms from my abusive childhood and my own subconscious at times periodic Self abuse which still affects my nervous system too frequently. Still working on it and trusting in HP one day at a time! Thank you for sharing your Healing Journey each week and God Bless you and your Family for your wonderful ministry.🙏
My goodness you ALWAYS have words that touch on exactly what I'm feeling & it helps me so much!! Thank you, dear Chynna, for just being you and sharing things about your own unique life with all of us❤🙏🤲
I love what you said. “He came in weak so that He could bare our judgment “ !
Being ok with having made mistakes is a lesson in and of itself . We are always so hard on ourselves . ❤
I also did some things I wish I hadn't done when I was a teenager. Thank the Lord that He lifted me out of that.
Thank your for showing us your vulnerability. Judging myself and recounting some old ridiculous choices I have made has hurt me for so long. Hearing your story makes me feel so much better knowing that your too have grown by forgiving yourself. Bless you!❣️
Thankyou Chynna, these stories and your commentary are very healing for me.
Sweet of you to share your stories Chynna! I have many as well. You are NOT ever alone in this. Love and hugs.
Wow most of us have those cringe moments in our lives, so thanks for sharing yours Chynna! It takes guts of which you have an abundance of! Hope it helps your own kids too! ❤️
Chynna, I am so grateful to you and the stories you share. The experiences you share resonate with so many of us, and provide so much healing and peace. Thank you 🙏
What a beautiful authentic story. Just remember that Jesus said "I am with you always". You are forgiven and you are a beautiful soul. God's grace be on you Chynna. You do not know how many people you help with your videos. Thank you.
You are a diamond in the rough and I love how you cherish Jesus when so many turn away from him! Thank you for being a beacon of light 👼🏻 that we need so much in our world!
What a story!! I relate my Friends and I at 16 years old did the same thing however we never lasted overnight in the graveyard🤯 I had a young boyfriend at 1604 himself on me as well it was horrible and I also felt like it was my fault. Thank God for the cleansing blood of Jesus that’s all I can say❤️
Thanks for sharing your *past modes of life mistakes, Chynna, as a teenager. It takes comfortability of alignment to embrace & bring it across. We have the regrets, regression & repenting so in our older years of wisdom we forgive ourselves somewhat throughout. Otherwise moving about in your living would be stale. Peace-Possibly ☮️🙌🙏✌️
Your courage and commitment to honesty serve many - so grateful.
All the stupid/risky/dangerous things we did back then make us who we are today. I'm kind of grateful, in a way, for those good/bad experiences for I feel like I have LIVED. My life now is clean and, frankly, pretty boring, so I'm happy to have those crazy times to think about.
A favorite quote of mine.
“Christ was treated as we deserve that we may be treated as He deserves. He was condemned for our sins, in which He had no share, that we might be justified by His righteousness, in which we had no share. He suffered the death which was ours, that we might receive the life which was His. 'By His stripes we are healed.”
Brave girl Chynna. I love your honesty. P.S. You are not damaged goods. He put Rosa in your life as a baby so you did attach.! I raised my daughter alone and I knew she had to attach, rely and love me. So somehow my life worked out that I could stop teaching , stay home and raise her and got just enough financial support to make her life awesome because we were together!
-"Salvation is not achieved... it's received" - thanks for that, Miss Chynna !!!!
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I was gob smacked and transfixed listening to you stepping us through the events on that awful night so many years ago. We have all done things we are not proud of, but most of us don't reveal our secrets on a global platform! Instead, we close that chapter and move on. Of course, we never truly forget about it, and that feeling of being "damaged goods" as you put it, follows us to our graves. I admire you for telling your story, and I view you as a formidably strong woman, thank you for being a role model. Greetings from South Africa.
No one would've thought when seeing your angelic young face hit the world stage back in the day what you had gone thru just a few years earlier. Totally get it when you said you just didnt know how to use your voice, or even that you had that right. Hard to speak up for yourself after you've gone thru traumas in those formative years. Strong & blessed is what you are Chynna. As always, thanks for sharing.
Great testimony and thank you for sharing! I have similar stories and have so much regret for the things I did while lost with nothing but drugs and confusion back then. It means so much that you shared this!
Oh yes similar story!! Thank you Jesus for saving me from myself!!🙏🙏🙏❤😘
Thank you for sharing... please continue!
Oh Chynna,
I was raised in a...well, a Godless home. My parent's, especially my mom, born and raised in Utah and Mormon. Hardcore. Married in the Salt Lake City, Utah Temple, Sealed together for all eternity.
However, truth be told, she didn't feel it, was the black sheep. In 1964 my dad got a job with the Sheriff's department in of all places, Las Vegas. Moved my mom out of her Mormon bubble to Sin City. Total mind blowing culture shock for her. That's another story. Slowly but surely my mom defected from the church. She threw the baby out with the bath water. She wasn't going to put that dogma onto her kids. GOD didn't exist to us. Fast forward 18ish years, one by one by one... GOD started changing our hearts. Eventually, I could look back on very specific moments in my childhood and see that HE had been with me, preparing me for very specific events that were yet to come. Now that's a whole other story. So, although HE didn't exist to me, I existed to HIM and yes, HE knew my name. HE had been there with me the whole time.
GOD does that, ya know!
Thank you for sharing your stories with us. You are amazing my dear and you have no idea how much I look forward to hearing one of your Cal preach episodes. You truly have helped me to want to continue my walk with Jesus and I thank you for that. Peace of Christ!
Thank you, Chynna, for being so open and honest about your past. We, all of us, have a past. Some are fine, most are not, but we have a Savior who forgives us for it all. Peace of Christ!
True confessions .... we all have them. I have learned from watching others. I agree with you on the struggle of staying in tune/touch with your children even if they seem to resent it at the time. It is hard to feel like your children 🧒🏻don't appreciate or understand how you care. However I have found (as you had with your mother) that later if not sooner, they do appreciate. I have several letters from my daughter who has expressed these types of issue's. I also learned not to say or act "I told you so."
I received some exciting information today and I had to share it with you all! A few weeks back, I felt a shift in the spirit and internally heard the words, " Days of Refreshing!" It seemed so contrary to the messages we hear all around us of doom and gloom, but I couldn't deny the peace and refreshing I was feeling.
About a week later, I heard some bad news about a fellow brother and sister in Christ and I questioned if the message was truly from the Lord. While contemplating this, I felt confirmation from the Lord that despite the darkness going on around us, these are the Days of Refreshing and to receive it and I continue to feel this refreshing.
Well today, I watched, " Busy for the Lord's" video and he brought up the scripture in Acts 3:19-21which reads:
" Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the TIMES OF REFRESHING shall come from the presence of the Lord.
And he shall send Jesus Christ, which before was preached unto you:
Whom the heaven must receive until the times of restitution of all things, which God hath spoken by the mouth of all his holy prophets since the world began."
This is so exciting and reveals to me that this refreshing comes right before the Lord Jesus returns!!! Hallelujah!!!!!🥳🎉😍🥰
When I stop and think about the stupid stuff I did at 15 and 16 it scares me. This was in the mid 70’s. God was taking care of me even the. There are even times I look back on my 62 years, there are so many times in retrospect I see the hand of God protecting me and my family. God bless you.❤️
Thanks Chynna. I appreciate your honesty, very interesting experiences and from those experiences you can guide and help others. God's hand is on your life. Mike
Many of us who grew up in the 70’s had regrettable young years. You have been blessed to overcome the wrong and make it right. P.S. your stories bring me back to my teen years…I am amazed you can remember so many details. I think I hid them in the back of my brain🥰. Remain happy & healthy😇🎚
Thank you Chyna for your personal testimonies of what the Lord has brought you through. ❤
You are not alone I did similar horrid things in my 20’s. Praise God I’m saved it’s forgiven and forgotten now.
Hi Chynna! Thank you for sharing your story and being so candid. I think most of us have done crazy and bad things in our lives. I didn't do drugs but I made the most awful decisions in my life, but you getting clean at 19 is so awesome!!! Just remember, we will falter at times because we are human. We won't become perfect until we meet the lord. You are such an awesome person and I love your channel. You've given me inspiration and hope. Hugs to you!!! ❤
Again, thank you for sharing! We are so much alike! I’m hard on myself but give grace very quickly and easily to others! Blessings my sweet friend!
Hey Chy, love you too. Yea, I found d God when I became sober too. When I came upon your brother-in-law, flipping through the channels one night, it really sealed the deal! That was about 15 years ago. Love your stories! I can relate. Peace of Christ 🙏 Janet
You really are courageous to say these stories on this public media.
Do you tell your children&husband before here?
What a wonderful way to say to give grace to ourselves. I've never thought of it like that. It always about to give grace to others. Thank You for that!!
I love your childhood/ teen experiences that you tell it hits close to home with me for I am your age so similar to what I did and went through, hug's Chynna 🤗❤️
You are not damaged goods Chyna, you are a mighty soldier of the Most High! I come from a similar background and there are many of God’s Chosen who have walked in your shoes, many, me included! I think you are one of the best messengers of Christ’s alive today because you keep it real and you speak the truth in a loving fashion that anyone can appreciate and respect! When I battle depression, I listen to one of your videos and you always help me. Thank you ! You are so relatable and God is using you mightily to bring about His Kingdom! Keep up the great work my beloved sister in Christ! ♥️🙏
I did some crazy things too as a teen and I look back thinking, omg! How am I still here? We all are guilty of it. You are so right about the devil - sneaky punk is always ready to jump in. Keeping the armor of Christ and grace! ❤️❤️
I was 18 when one night I arrived home around midnight. I opened the front door of the house, and I saw my mother waiting for me. She started yelling at me, then she grabbed my guitar and she hit my back with it. Consequently, the guitar neck snapped in half at the body. I could not use it anymore. 😞 Now, can you imagine what would have happened to me if I had gotten home at 9 am???? And I was a boy. 🙂
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. This helps us more than you will ever know. I'm so grateful for your honesty.
Chynna, thank you!I am soo hard on myself. I'm going through a very stressful time.I lost my job/, I'm fighting it.I have IBs,due to the stress.Trying to let Jesus handle it.Iknow he will. I hate myself for any doubt.Ive done somethings too, but
we learn and I'm closer to JESUS!! AMEN! "PEACE OF CHRIST "!💜🙏✝️
I stumbled on Joel Osteen. His lectures helped me keep my head together in times of deep stress. His words inspired me, uplifted me, gave me hope for my future. The funny thing is everything he said was right on the money. Any story you can tell, I most likely I can top. Worked for me, it can work for you too. Chynna is right, Jesus & God are my rock. 👍🙏♥️🥰
FYI - I learned I had better results when I went to the head of the department vs legal route. Told the very head of my dept that I worked too hard at my job to loose my position. The legal route I ended with settlement offering, which lawyer took percentage & no job. Another time told to let my union settle it. Union works if badger them. They tell you to wait for their phone call which never comes. End up switching departments. I learned if I want to keep same job, to go to the head above your direct manager. They wouldn't give me an appointment. I waited till he was done for the day and walked into his office, sweetly, before he went home. Don't do it on a Monday. Do it closer to end of week. Human Resources job is to support management, not the employee. If manager acted inappropriate, HR supports the manager, bashes down the employee, then deals with the managers inappropriate action behind closed doors.
PS - I got written up & suspended for 3 days by HR for rule I never heard of, not allowed to return to work after you leave? but I got to keep my job. The head of the dept let the managers run the dept until something wrong is brought to their attention, then they rectify bad decisions when confronted nicely by the employee. The decision made was not for the benefit of the department. The job I did was an asset not a liability. Ridding me is a mistake.
Yes I had IB. I worked in a very hostile environment. They played a lot of dirty games. LOL Hospital. Don't get sick. 😂🤣
Dearest Chynna ❤️ So happy you survived everything and are here today to tell your story 😊 peace of Christ 🙏
Your message speaks to my ❤️.
I have so many abandonment issues surrounding father and mother.
We as outsiders think public figures have trouble- free lives- actually quite the contrary.
I remember looking at you as a teenager , I’m a year behind you- and see Joe “perfect”, “stylish”, “talented” and “successful”, thinking what a perfect life you must have had.
No one knows the depth of pain in another’s life or heart.
Thank you 🙏🏼
For being REAL
✝️🙏🏼❤️
*your not Joe, Lol
*typo*
Your story made me realize how girls are taught from everywhere to beat down, fall into suppression. What gets me upset is then the girl blames herself for not doing what she wanted to do or society blames her for not taking control when it was time for her to "play dominant".
I know if a recent case where a 5-6 yr old girl didn't like the female role model we push on our girls, which I didn't like either. This child said she didn't want to be a girl, she wanted to be a boy, now acts out the male cartoon super hero take lead dominant role. Sad that a young girl has to do this in order to be heard.
Lesson Learned - We need a role model to teach our young girls it is OK to be strong, it's OK to say NO, it's OK to take charge. To this day we don't have that. The Roman Catholic Church's entire structure role models girls to suppress. (Just by visual costume and rank at the alter). This is NOT from Jesus nor the bible. The other Mary was not a shameful prostitute (but it is OK, in fact expected to be a man looking for sex. Were the apostles virgins? 🙄).
Our boys are growing up just as confused as our girls. I wonder if the boy you were with deep inside prayed you say no? Some boys grow up thinking, really thinking their job is to be the refused aggressor. Love you Chynna. 👍🙏♥️🥰
I am going to try to "Fearless" email you.
Secrets is what causes shame. I agree always tell your truth. It helps others.
Jesus was with you Chynna. Oh how He loves you. Loves us all.
It’s so cool China the birds had your back they were emphasizing everything you said. Love this thank you for sharing💜
Love how honest you are. Thank you for sharing ... I like hearing your experiences .. you are so loveable. Don't ever judge yourself. When we're young things happen. 😇🥰😜🤭🤭🤭🤭
Have you written an autobiography yet? I definitely think you could spread the truth of how God loves us with your life story! You are a Shining Star Chynna! God Bless you!
I agree!
I have similar stories and share them with friends, even strangers at times, when I can. The part that got me is that you prayed at times during it all. I have done that my whole upbringing in all situations. God has always been there and will continue to be for you, me and all! Peace of Christ 🙏
what a crazy story. I can't decide whether it sounds fun or horrifyhing. We all did things like that back in the 80's don't feel bad. I stole from my own parents and did drugs in graveyards several times. Its hard to imagine you were ever that person after seeing the beautiful person you are today. Thanks for sharing. Its really an inspiration to see how God has shaped your life after what you went through in the 80's.
You can't be old and wise with The Lord if you're not young, dumb and naive I also have so many embarrassing, scary stories it just shows I really was never alone Jesus was always with me but the shame and haunting thoughts was punishment enough back then and Jesus rebuked it all once I grew and learned my lessons. Thanks for sharing your stories.
Beauty from ashes! Thanking God for bringing you out of those days before Christ came into your life! Cal Preach is one of your anointed callings in your life!
Thank you Chynna, for sharing . You are a beautiful blessing each time. The lord was watching over you the whole time, so glad you made it through all of that. Peace Of Christ.🌈❤😊🙏☀🌻✌.
Today has started kind of rough for me. Your story has reminded me how to move forward. Gracias from Marietta! POC
Hi Chynna,ur story really hit home,I thank God for helping me get though some really scary situations! Thank you for opening ur life to us all, sending many xoxo
I feel ya! I was stupid enough to sniff glue, before going to the graveyard. I was 15 at the time. Luckily for me I never did that again! Although I did go on to try different things. I am surprised that I have lived this long. Once I went to the club, and left with a guy that I didn't know. It was during the time that Ted Bundy was in Utah, and actually tried to pick up the Midvale police chiefs daughter! Only 1 block from my house! The lord has truly watched over me, and protected me. Praise God!
13:00> Thats EXACTLY what I was thinking: How I never imagined a celeb..especly a living legend..would do the same as I did as a kid. I mean..yeah, the house I lived in was much smaller & there wasnt any valuable to steal like $100 bill & cocaine...( more like $10 & a 6pack of Schlitz or something) but going with the flow..including letting some guy i normally just hung out with have his way., but also making sure everyone was fed, comfy, as well-entertained as I could make happen... to be the cool kid, I guess. Acting like Im not scared.
And being surprized/a little confused that my mom waited up for me that ONE time...not really knowing how to react to that. We 3 kids lived with her full-time, but she was SO in her own head/bubble/ world. She was either at work or "hiding" in her bdrm, but on occassion she'd "show up" out of nowhere wanting to play the mom role.
Sooo...yeahh .definitly relatable. God is amazing!!
I love when you are outside to talk to us. And you sharing your life and past with us is important. As we regular people see stars and their privilege and forget.. that stars are just like us. With pain and real lived. The game is a veneer to a real person struggling like everyone else with Same problems in life. So bless you and keep doing any videos you want. Being real is what you need .never bury deep down what you need to express.
I just love you Chynna. I could feel the guilt you felt with what you did at that moment. We have all made mistakes and wrong choices and we can identify with what you share with us. It is humbling and makes us appreciate and love our Savior, Jesus Christ atoning for our sins. He paved the way for repentance and forgiveness.
Thank you for sharing your story, we all do crazy things when younger, only to realize later in life how stupid it was ! But that’s part of growing too , love how you share all thoughts , love watching your videos, keep doing what you love ❤️
You did what Chynna?! Holy spirits activate. I'm with Rhiannon. You have more courage than I will ever have. I also have a lot of respect for your honesty on here. It can't be easy. Love you.
Hello Mrs Baldwin! Always a pleasure to hear your stories and how it is important to know Christ. We are all fallen being some worse, but God is always waiting for us to turn to Him. Oh, how I miss Chilly and know that I am always in prayers for your entire family. God bless you always sister Chyna and hope to meet you inperson with Mr. Baldwin!
Thank you for sharing that story with us!! I’m sure Many of us can relate to the crazy things that we all did when we were younger. It’s the grace of God that were alive and able to talk about it. God bless you China
God bless you
The lesson here is to focus on where you are going and not where you came from.
You helped that innocent man in New York. Thank you ,thank you so very much....... very angelic, force of light...God always
CPB Don't ever worry.....you are starting to lap the field...God always
I’d love to hear how these experiences have shaped your position as a mom & more about your views of how your mom affected you - if you don’t mind sharing . . .
Well, now you have truly found the jackpot and His name is Jesus!
Love you Chynna for sharing and being so honest. You are a blessing to me! Xoxo
In your story The taking advantage of at your young age and you not wanting to do it reminds me of a ( many of ) situation when I was younger I say it felt like I was paralyzed kind of like peer pressure made me feel paralyzed? Unable to move or stand up to do what I KNEW was right .. boy you brought me back to a time and a feeling with nostalgia from that story!! a lot of things you say in your stories just hit so close to the heart…. 🥺💔🙏🏼
"Jesus is practicing grace with you moment to moment" 😭❤️
Love you. Thankyou for your candor as always.
When we share pieces of ourselves, (especially those we are not proud of) we never really know how many people are going to be given hope and courage through that sharing. You have shared the times when you were vulnerable, the things others would want to pretend never happened. I know that you are reaching people that probably feel out of control or beyond hope or beyond being loved by our Great Savior. Thank you for your courage! God has certainly blessed you with this platform and you are using it to bring him glory! Well done faithful servant!❤
Love you Chy!🙏💜
We are fortunate to be alive after more dangerous choices. Thank you so much for your comforting thoughts about our giving grace toward ourselves. Needed these very words today.
I so identify with you Chynna
Really enjoyed this video. especially reliving my very similar Teen hood, How did any of us survive that? But my Lord is my guide and he always see's me safely home.
I’m 65. Grew up in Callie. I have so many similar stories. Should have died so many times! Thank-You Jesus! 🙌🙌
Peace of Peace of Christ Chynna. I call those experiences war stories.. I had not a clue that I was special to anyone really. I didn't know either, how to care for myself. The fact that your mom waited up for you just speaks volumes to me. I can soooo relate to your story. I can also remember confessing to Jesus and asking Him to forgive and to help me forgive myself Out FATHER is soo good to us. HE saved me, washed me sanctified and justified me. Then the adversary would put up the rear view mirrors, as he always does to keep us in his muck and mier.
But I knew what JESUS did for me and I keep holding on to HIS promise to take away my sins and toss them as far as the East is from the west and remember them no more. That's a beautiful thing. Peace of CHRIST my beautiful sister.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏❤️