I hope things get better for you and your family. I’m new to your channel but you are calming and fun to watch on your vids. Im sorry you are struggling with health issues, didn’t rent stop you from being positive. Also don’t worry about making videos soon. You’re heath is more important! I’m glad to hear you have a hobby, good to have something to do that makes you feel good. Also love how you work with the wigs! 😊
I hope so some time soon, it's been a stressful time for me and for others around me too. It's awesome to know you're having some fun watching my videos, happy to know that :)! Thank you so much for everything you said, really 😊Yes, having hobbies that keep me from becoming insane it's the best thing right now, just wished I had as much time as I used to have for them, but trying my best to grab every chance I got, specially by the weekends to keep working on my favorite hobby :). Great to know that about the wigs, there is some work involved in making them staying on my head and such, but it's so much fun!
Wow your cute. Was wondering how you look. Just keep doing your videos. I enjoy watching because of your accent, gives a special charm to this channel!
Well depending of your native language, it may take ages to master a different language for sure, thank you so much for enjoying and spending time watching my video though, appreciated :)!!
Hi 2 Cents thanks so much for the motivation :) And for the suggestion as well, I'm not into his music but I got my very own "Calm songs" list on Spotify for some of these moments hehe ~_^
Hi Kakshi OG, it's a kabuki mask, some years ago I really enjoyed masks and decided one of Joey Jordison's mask was my favorite, so I tattooed that haha
Ohh... does yours fall off easily if you try doing something to it (by simply brushing it if you let it grow, dry it, etc)? Mine breaks easily, it should be time to trim it a bit but I am not sure I want to touch it now haha :) It is more thin now than in the past, even when I change my eating habits, etc.
I take Citalopram, 40mil grams (2x pills) daily. Some times I feel sick and I know its from the pills. But I'm worried about going off them, the depression is not worth it. I really hope the pills don't damage my insides. I also drink a lot of water and I still feel dry and have dry lips and I wake up really dehydrated. I eat a very low carb diet. Some times my heart rate goes up like crazy and I feel dizzy and hot and feel like I'm going to vomit.
Ohh Joshua that is something to worry about :(! Did you talk with the doctor that prescribed you that medication about what it has been doing to you? These kinds of meds can cause harm at a point, and not everyone deals well with it. I'm no doctor of course, but definitely speaking to your doctor and/or even find an alternative could be better. These kinds of meds may work for some patients, but not for others, everyone's different after all, even if under similar situations, the body may react differently. The high heart rate and dry lips+ dehydration, I know it should be some of the worrying side effects of Citalopram, the nausea should also be due to that. Do you feel it is helping with your depression and mood? And for how long have you been taking it, if you don't mind me asking? I guess you already know, but, surely, depending of the time you're taking these kinds of pills, if you ever need to stop taking them, do it slowly, gradually, or it can be dangerous for you, you can compare it to a person who is a drug addict that stops taking drugs cold turkey/all of a sudden - it is extremely dangerous, but also the side effects of doing it will be much more intense than if that person stopped taking drugs slowly instead - I'm saying this, since these kinds of psychiatric medications make your body getting used to it and can't pass without it (and I had a bad experience from that due to one of these meds like that!). I actually took Escitalopram some years ago, where Citalopram is another form of this drug. I had to stop doing it after just a couple of months, it wasn't just good for me. Also had to deal with the side effects of Fluoxetine for almost the same amount of time, and it made me getting fired from a job I had on that time... I cannot take SSRIs as they almost put me in the hospital, to the point I would lose all the strength and control over my limbs, falling on the floor, feeling like crap and such - after 2-3 weeks they just start messing me up pretty bad and do not have any positive effects on my depression and other issues. About other kind of medications (non-SSRI), I took other two kinds of meds that caused me issues, physically and psychologically, I stopped being what I was before that and it made my depression even worse, one of these made me having some kind of uncontrollable seizures and also panic attacks for years, thankfully I got them very rarely now, I need to be under something really really bad for that, but I'm still quite vulnerable to it. Memory issues included, and that wasn't really fixed once I stopped taking that crap. I also was never able to get back to my normal weight anymore (I tried every single thing, sadly without success and a lot of frustration, was only able to lose some kg but not most of it). I was forbidden to take these kinds of meds from a past psychiatrist, and with a good reason - my body reacts pretty bad to these meds, I'm only able to take benzodiazepine, basically Alprazolam, but only in an emergency, which I've been even avoiding in these latest months anyway, even when I need. Topiramate messed up my digestive system even more, and wasn't helping with my mood that much, and I was feeling much more thirsty than I already do - I have this weird issue of feeling dehydrated often, when I wake up it's kind of crazy at times, so I do drink plenty water too, but I was almost drowning in it with Topiramate. Conclusion: At this point, psychiatric medication is a failure of a treatment for me. The best remedy for me is really to get rid of what stresses me out and move somewhere else, which has been hard of course, but always hoping things to become better, even if I become desperate at times. You - keep drinking plenty water, those kinds of meds always make you thirsty, I know also more people under some and they also got the same issue, it gets annoying at a point, isn't it? Please, take care and see what can you do to stop feeling like that, feel free to keep me updated if you wish. Best of luck Joshua 💛
@@WildJester Thanks for your thoughtful reply Jester. Shearing your knowledge on issues like this may help more than you know. Some times talking to doctors and other professionals it can be hard to figure out what the best course of action is because only you know what is going on with your body and mind and it can be hard to put it into words for me at least. I have been taking Citalopram for 2 years. I tried other meds but they gave me memory issues and made me feel like my head was in a fog. It messed me up big time, a lot of bad things happened around that time. So I came back to Citalopram. It helps with my depression but the only thing that helps anxiety and panic attacks is exactly what you say, removing stress from my life. I quit my job 8 months ago. I dont know what Im doing. I can't think much past just getting through each day. I feel like I'm on a tight rope, I could fall to ether side. One side going crazy and the other side giving up. I'm terrified of loosing balance. I feel like the pills are the only tether I have keeping me from falling apart. I have had times when I have been in a bad situation and my body looses all strength even to hold my self up. Any way, I am lucky compared to you. You have it much much harder than me and you are so strong and hopeful. You are great.
@@joshmercer8980 You're welcome, I think it is very important to share indeed. For sure I'm not a professional, but we keep learning from our life experiences and also some proper research. That's true, sadly. It is hard for doctors sometimes to figure out exactly the right things and treatments for you when it comes to psychological issues, and you also need to be lucky with the doctors, plus, while some things and sympthoms you're feeling are easy to explain to them, others aren't that easy, and what makes things harder is the fact that mostly of these issues aren't detected through exams or other kinds of visible diagnosis methods, so doctors end to prescribe you medications that they think they could help treating you, but sometimes you end to be a lab rat being tested to see which medication is better for you, harming your health through the process. Memory issues are a little annoying, I can totally relate that. I still got memory issues, not as bad as I had under certain meds, but still, and fog I got sometimes, maybe fibro fog caused by my fibromyalgia, maybe, fortunately it doesn't happen very often. Good to know you've figured out that Citalopram is the more appropriated pill for you to take for your depression. I think I quit from all those kinds of meds after my bad experiences, realizing that probably my depression won't go away, but I could soothe things if my life gets better for sure. I'm just trying to live with my things, having currently a harder time dealing with other health issue, but by thinking it will get better soon helps a little bit already :). Sad to say, anxiety and panic attacks is something that you'll need to deal with probably for the rest of your life, but really less stressful things around you are one of the best things you can get to decrease their intensity and frequency as well. I'm so sorry you feel like you're between those two terrible things while in the tight rope :( - but giving up will always lead to nowhere, if you feel like the medication is helping you on that, keep at it, it's just sad you depend on it to keep going, but if it has to be, it will be. It's terrible to know the issues are not possible to control when they start taking over your body. Keep being aware of the frequency you lose strength in your body and for other possible sympthoms. I think my issues are really bad, but that doesn't mean you're lucky compared to me, your issues seem to be making you suffer a lot too but I am hoping for things to calm down for you some day. I don't think I'm that strong even if I look like to others, sometimes I feel like I'm in a hole, in a dead end with no escape, I just haven't quit yet because I dream a lot of how well I could be someday. Aw thank you - YOU are great too, I'm just someone with life issues and weaknesses, just trying to survive and see what tomorrow will bring :). Have a wonderful day. If you ever need to talk, I'm a good listener.
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Remove yourself from stress, thoughts and things become clearer. I wish you the best.
Hoping I'll be able to do it, thank you ☺️
I hope things get better for you and your family. I’m new to your channel but you are calming and fun to watch on your vids. Im sorry you are struggling with health issues, didn’t rent stop you from being positive. Also don’t worry about making videos soon. You’re heath is more important! I’m glad to hear you have a hobby, good to have something to do that makes you feel good. Also love how you work with the wigs! 😊
I hope so some time soon, it's been a stressful time for me and for others around me too. It's awesome to know you're having some fun watching my videos, happy to know that :)! Thank you so much for everything you said, really 😊Yes, having hobbies that keep me from becoming insane it's the best thing right now, just wished I had as much time as I used to have for them, but trying my best to grab every chance I got, specially by the weekends to keep working on my favorite hobby :). Great to know that about the wigs, there is some work involved in making them staying on my head and such, but it's so much fun!
Wow your cute. Was wondering how you look. Just keep doing your videos. I enjoy watching because of your accent, gives a special charm to this channel!
Thanks so much for the nice feedback ^_^! I will try my best to keep doing things for the channel, have a nice day Deividas!
What ever happens keep on making videos :)
I don't why keep watching the video however my English really bad and can't understand most of you saying BUT enjoyed watching it.
Well depending of your native language, it may take ages to master a different language for sure, thank you so much for enjoying and spending time watching my video though, appreciated :)!!
I hope everything turns out better for you and if you feel down at times listen to this song by Bruno Mars "Just The Way You Are" 😉
Hi 2 Cents thanks so much for the motivation :) And for the suggestion as well, I'm not into his music but I got my very own "Calm songs" list on Spotify for some of these moments hehe ~_^
@@WildJester You're welcome 😁
@@2cents2 ^_^
Love the purple wig, Sara :)
Awesome to know you do Janni, thank you, I really, really like it, it's so soft to the touch and it has a nice shade of purple ^_^
:) nice vid.::)
Thank you :)
2:44 what’s that tattoo jester?
Hi Kakshi OG, it's a kabuki mask, some years ago I really enjoyed masks and decided one of Joey Jordison's mask was my favorite, so I tattooed that haha
My hair is like that as well.
Ohh... does yours fall off easily if you try doing something to it (by simply brushing it if you let it grow, dry it, etc)? Mine breaks easily, it should be time to trim it a bit but I am not sure I want to touch it now haha :) It is more thin now than in the past, even when I change my eating habits, etc.
Hey, nice video, where are you from ?
Hi Tulac! I'm from Portugal.
you seem really sweet :)
Thank you 😊
wild jester ur welcome 😉
I take Citalopram, 40mil grams (2x pills) daily. Some times I feel sick and I know its from the pills. But I'm worried about going off them, the depression is not worth it. I really hope the pills don't damage my insides. I also drink a lot of water and I still feel dry and have dry lips and I wake up really dehydrated. I eat a very low carb diet. Some times my heart rate goes up like crazy and I feel dizzy and hot and feel like I'm going to vomit.
Ohh Joshua that is something to worry about :(! Did you talk with the doctor that prescribed you that medication about what it has been doing to you? These kinds of meds can cause harm at a point, and not everyone deals well with it. I'm no doctor of course, but definitely speaking to your doctor and/or even find an alternative could be better. These kinds of meds may work for some patients, but not for others, everyone's different after all, even if under similar situations, the body may react differently. The high heart rate and dry lips+ dehydration, I know it should be some of the worrying side effects of Citalopram, the nausea should also be due to that. Do you feel it is helping with your depression and mood? And for how long have you been taking it, if you don't mind me asking? I guess you already know, but, surely, depending of the time you're taking these kinds of pills, if you ever need to stop taking them, do it slowly, gradually, or it can be dangerous for you, you can compare it to a person who is a drug addict that stops taking drugs cold turkey/all of a sudden - it is extremely dangerous, but also the side effects of doing it will be much more intense than if that person stopped taking drugs slowly instead - I'm saying this, since these kinds of psychiatric medications make your body getting used to it and can't pass without it (and I had a bad experience from that due to one of these meds like that!). I actually took Escitalopram some years ago, where Citalopram is another form of this drug. I had to stop doing it after just a couple of months, it wasn't just good for me. Also had to deal with the side effects of Fluoxetine for almost the same amount of time, and it made me getting fired from a job I had on that time... I cannot take SSRIs as they almost put me in the hospital, to the point I would lose all the strength and control over my limbs, falling on the floor, feeling like crap and such - after 2-3 weeks they just start messing me up pretty bad and do not have any positive effects on my depression and other issues. About other kind of medications (non-SSRI), I took other two kinds of meds that caused me issues, physically and psychologically, I stopped being what I was before that and it made my depression even worse, one of these made me having some kind of uncontrollable seizures and also panic attacks for years, thankfully I got them very rarely now, I need to be under something really really bad for that, but I'm still quite vulnerable to it. Memory issues included, and that wasn't really fixed once I stopped taking that crap. I also was never able to get back to my normal weight anymore (I tried every single thing, sadly without success and a lot of frustration, was only able to lose some kg but not most of it). I was forbidden to take these kinds of meds from a past psychiatrist, and with a good reason - my body reacts pretty bad to these meds, I'm only able to take benzodiazepine, basically Alprazolam, but only in an emergency, which I've been even avoiding in these latest months anyway, even when I need. Topiramate messed up my digestive system even more, and wasn't helping with my mood that much, and I was feeling much more thirsty than I already do - I have this weird issue of feeling dehydrated often, when I wake up it's kind of crazy at times, so I do drink plenty water too, but I was almost drowning in it with Topiramate. Conclusion: At this point, psychiatric medication is a failure of a treatment for me. The best remedy for me is really to get rid of what stresses me out and move somewhere else, which has been hard of course, but always hoping things to become better, even if I become desperate at times.
You - keep drinking plenty water, those kinds of meds always make you thirsty, I know also more people under some and they also got the same issue, it gets annoying at a point, isn't it? Please, take care and see what can you do to stop feeling like that, feel free to keep me updated if you wish. Best of luck Joshua 💛
So sorry for the long text, sometimes I don't realize how much I type lol
@@WildJester Thanks for your thoughtful reply Jester. Shearing your knowledge on issues like this may help more than you know. Some times talking to doctors and other professionals it can be hard to figure out what the best course of action is because only you know what is going on with your body and mind and it can be hard to put it into words for me at least. I have been taking Citalopram for 2 years. I tried other meds but they gave me memory issues and made me feel like my head was in a fog. It messed me up big time, a lot of bad things happened around that time. So I came back to Citalopram. It helps with my depression but the only thing that helps anxiety and panic attacks is exactly what you say, removing stress from my life. I quit my job 8 months ago. I dont know what Im doing. I can't think much past just getting through each day. I feel like I'm on a tight rope, I could fall to ether side. One side going crazy and the other side giving up. I'm terrified of loosing balance. I feel like the pills are the only tether I have keeping me from falling apart. I have had times when I have been in a bad situation and my body looses all strength even to hold my self up. Any way, I am lucky compared to you. You have it much much harder than me and you are so strong and hopeful. You are great.
@@joshmercer8980 You're welcome, I think it is very important to share indeed. For sure I'm not a professional, but we keep learning from our life experiences and also some proper research. That's true, sadly. It is hard for doctors sometimes to figure out exactly the right things and treatments for you when it comes to psychological issues, and you also need to be lucky with the doctors, plus, while some things and sympthoms you're feeling are easy to explain to them, others aren't that easy, and what makes things harder is the fact that mostly of these issues aren't detected through exams or other kinds of visible diagnosis methods, so doctors end to prescribe you medications that they think they could help treating you, but sometimes you end to be a lab rat being tested to see which medication is better for you, harming your health through the process. Memory issues are a little annoying, I can totally relate that. I still got memory issues, not as bad as I had under certain meds, but still, and fog I got sometimes, maybe fibro fog caused by my fibromyalgia, maybe, fortunately it doesn't happen very often. Good to know you've figured out that Citalopram is the more appropriated pill for you to take for your depression. I think I quit from all those kinds of meds after my bad experiences, realizing that probably my depression won't go away, but I could soothe things if my life gets better for sure. I'm just trying to live with my things, having currently a harder time dealing with other health issue, but by thinking it will get better soon helps a little bit already :). Sad to say, anxiety and panic attacks is something that you'll need to deal with probably for the rest of your life, but really less stressful things around you are one of the best things you can get to decrease their intensity and frequency as well. I'm so sorry you feel like you're between those two terrible things while in the tight rope :( - but giving up will always lead to nowhere, if you feel like the medication is helping you on that, keep at it, it's just sad you depend on it to keep going, but if it has to be, it will be. It's terrible to know the issues are not possible to control when they start taking over your body. Keep being aware of the frequency you lose strength in your body and for other possible sympthoms. I think my issues are really bad, but that doesn't mean you're lucky compared to me, your issues seem to be making you suffer a lot too but I am hoping for things to calm down for you some day. I don't think I'm that strong even if I look like to others, sometimes I feel like I'm in a hole, in a dead end with no escape, I just haven't quit yet because I dream a lot of how well I could be someday.
Aw thank you - YOU are great too, I'm just someone with life issues and weaknesses, just trying to survive and see what tomorrow will bring :).
Have a wonderful day. If you ever need to talk, I'm a good listener.