My little sister name was prescilla martin too,she passed at 3 days old in 1963,both my mom and father passed away years ago, just me left from my whole family, God bless you dear ❤️
Hi Vanessa, wonderful content. I’m so happy to hear things are working out with the hospital and the funeral home and that you are taking care of yourself. It’s comfort that you are finding support in God. ❤ you are doing so many positive things. Keep it up! 😄💕
Your dear baby is in heaven which is a beautiful thought. You need to grieve her loss. Let it out and cry a lot. This is something you'll always remember, she is your baby. Praying for you to find peace!
Nice to see you again Vanessa. Happy to hear that you will get the autopsy. It’s so important to see exactly what happened to your precious baby Priscilla. You look great after everything that you’ve been through. Just take one day at a time and hang in there. I love your earrings and purse. So nice. The mini meatloaf looks delicious. See you soon.
I have three children. I never use the past tense. I can't bear it. Two girls and a boy. My son was murdered in 2017. He is 35. I couldn't function at all. Nor could I eat. The doctors said if I didn't eat, they would put me in the hospital and put a feeding tube in. You NEVER get over the death of your child. You have to adjust and live life in a different way. Yes I have two daughters. I still was grieving so hard I was in a fog. I have a slight case of bipolar. One of the symptoms is buying things. Things will never heal your pain. People that try to help can't heal your pain. Only God can help you through. I couldn't go into stores. I would have a major panic attack. I couldn't even do self care. I realize she has her sweet little girl to take care of. Something is wrong with this picture. No I'm not judging. I'm concerned about her health.
@JessicaShiloff You're wrong, it's from one mother to another. I told her my story to let her know there's different ways of grieving. Don't reprimand me for speaking the truth. She can't hold it in. It eventually will come to the surface and the results are pretty. My sister also lost her son. She held it in and went crazy for awhile. Have you lost a child? I hope not. If you have I'm very sorry. If you haven't. You have no clue as to how it is. I was trying to help.
I love that you're finding some peace in the Word. After 2 miscarriages and my husband being murdered, my faith and the holy spirits comfort is everything. The pain will fade away and you'll surely see Priscilla again.
You are so so strong. I pray right now that god wraps his loving arms around you and gives you peace. I pray god gives you an overwhelming amount of joy. He loves you so much. He will never leave you nor forsake you. You are a very special person ❤ you are important and you are worth more than gold.
❤ I pray happiness and peace in your every day life. I always tell my kiddos, if you can’t find a kind person be a kind person. I’m hoping you can encounter the kindest people to help brighten your days during these difficult times.
I cant believe people would leave such nasty comments. I find them hateful. Everyone grieves differently. It is never easy, but i do notice that having a relationship with god helps so much. She also has another child she has to keep going for. (Its almost as if people arent satisfied that you arent on here sobbing and drowning in your sorrows.) She mentions she cries at night. Probably so she isnt crying around her little as much. This woman is independant. She is strong. She is intelligent and responsible. Im happy to see her on here smiling and trying to push through. We only see minuites of her days. Shame on anyone for talking bad on her especially in this seasob of her life. God bless you and your little one, may god continue to heal you both and your family and help you all find peace
very nicely and well said 🤗 no one has the right to judge the grieving parent 😪 i know how it feels to be judged when my 2 year old son died 😪 its not nice 😪 vanessa is coping in her own way which is right for her 🤗
Someone who gets it! Thank you ❤️ I do crawl into a ball and sob most hours of the night. Maybe I’ll vlog it next time. Although I guarantee people will be mad at me for that too.
@@heyvanessamartin people are mad at you for the way you handled everything. You are making it out to be for views. And the way your are acting and talking. And the titles of your videos are disturbing. What happened to that baby is horrible . But that whole process should have been kept private. May she rest in peace.
When my mom died my go to verse was Job 14:14,15. Job asked God, if a man dies, can he live again and and 15 says You will call and I will answer you, you will long for the work of your hands. In other words Job knew that if he died God would not only remember him but he longs to bring him back and that will happen when the earth is transformed back into a paradise the way it was meant to be all along. You can also find comfort in the fact that God doesn't cause our loved ones to die, the Bible says that God hates death, he would never cause someone to die horrific death only to enlarge his own angelic family. Also the Bible says that children are gifts from God, he would never allow us to have children only to take them away from us. It's actually a Satanic lie that makes God look evil. Just sharing some comfort with you :)
Vanessa, I had a late miscarriage when I was in my 20's. It took about 6 months for it to really hit home. It didnt seem real to me and people couldn't understand why I was just "carrying on" as normal. Ignore the judgemental idiots, Vanessa. Everyone deals with tragedy differently. You can't just wallow in despair when you have another child to care for either. Look after yourself and get help if you notice any signs of depression.
I can imagine you would have been in a daze during everything, so glad they didn’t move forward with anything before you had the chance to get the answers you want! Praise be to God. ❤ hugs friend. Yay to the new Bible, that is always nice! I would like to get a new one eventually too.
It seems some people want to see you curled up in a corner sobbing so they have proof of your grieving.. says a lot about their mental state. You be you Vanessa ❤
Yes, as a mom of a little girl, unfortunately you do not have time to stop everything and grieve. You will have to grieve along the way. Your sweet little family are in my prayers
God bless Vanessa you are an inspiration 🙏 to all women you are strong and glad you finding comfort that god is carrying you through these difficult times 🙏 you are not alone ❤
My aunt bought me this kind of bible too recently! I love it and it’s the same one you have!! Oh my goodness, you’ll love it! I take it to church now every Sunday :)
I pray for you and your babies keep your spirits 🆙 your baby is in heaven with the lord looking over your family, you look 👀 sooooo good keep up your faith everything will work out.
Prayers for you and Penelope to get through this difficult time. I hope your employer is being supportive and you have enough time off to grieve. Are you thinking about seeing Pricilla before cremation? You’re so strong.
Yes my employer is supportive. I get to finish my maternity leave and then I can take more time if needed. There are options. I don’t know if I can handle seeing her dead body in person. Having the photos is so hard and heartbreaking every time I look at them ❤️
Yes, the funeral home has to have you sign for cremation. No one would ask you to sign that at the hospital. I'm glad you are leaning on the Lord, Vanessa. I'm definitely praying for you. 💛
Ness, ur as strong as the rest of us been telling u. I truly do know how u feel, as u know , lost a baby at 38 weeks. Ur absolutely entitled to getting answers , just as I pursued for my passed son 🙏 👏 ❤ I was ANGRY with God, screaming amd yelling, crying during the delivery and post. After the months and years went by, I started coming back to HIM, and take comfort in HIM, for every thing instead of blaming,I’m HIM. Let this draw u closer to him, cause the devil wants to use this to pull u away, blame HIM, like I did . Ur on the right track ❤ I’m here for u even if u just want to talk or email private;y cause no1 actually understands unless they’ve been thru it . Hugs 🤗
My grand baby was born in Ohio and was born an angel . In Ohio, you have to pay for the autopsy. I was just wondering what state you are in cause I thought it was on they would have to pay for it. Insurance did not cover it because she had no life insurance since she was a stillborn.
I love how you are reading your Bible and openly sharing your faith in Jesus! I’m also glad to see that you are eating nutritious foods and taking care of yourself! You are doing the best things for you and Penelope right now. Keep on keeping your head up sweet girl! ❤❤
What helped me the most was getting out and being as busy as possible turning music on moving to the beat doing house work even if it didn't need it all kinds of little things so at the end of the day I was to tired to think just sleep don't get me wrong my daughter never left my mind but I had her older sister as well and thought of all kinds of things to do with her again stay strong sweetheart love your videos ♥️🦌🦃🤠
Vanessa, you are such a strong woman of faith. You are an inspiration for people who are going through much less even. I can see how you lean on God, the Holy Spirit, and His word to get you through this. The peace and calm you have can only come from God. You give people like myself the inspiration to lean on the Lord as well. Please keep spreading God's word and touching people through His name, and just keep being you. You will make it through this tragedy in your own time and your own way with God's help. Keep staying strong and keeping the faith. I am praying every day.🙏
Nessa you are really dealing with this whole matter very well. I know it so tough but you are right to get an autopsy. I feel like there was negligence in not getting your ultrasound in a timely matter etc.
One of my favorite verses is Jeremiah 33:3 and Jeremiah 29:11. So glad that you have the Lord to lean on in these days of sorrow. I know right now it might feel good to buy yourself stuff, but you will regret it when you have that debt piling up. It felt good to buy it. I bet it would feel even better to return it.😬
Hi Vanessa ❤you are so strong and I admire you so much! And I love what you said about Jesus 🩵🙏praying for you and Penelope 😢sending love from California.
If it’s not too early;y to ask, what are ur plans with all the baby stuff , ness? As hard as it was for me when I lost mine, I donated everything to a women’s center in town. ❤ it helps with the grief, to know it’s all going to help someone else who needs things 😢
I’m keeping a bunch of things. All of her clothes I’m keeping. I donated a bunch of stuff like the bassinet and change table etc to the Mamas for Mamas group on Facebook for my city. I didn’t even think about a Woman’s shelter, I have a few things I might bring to one as well. ❤️
Usually the funeral home will help you more than anyone. For both my parents they helped me with insurance forms and even copies of death certificate, which I needed over and over. Might want to get a couple copies. Never know but I needed several when mom died.
Jw as I'm a new subscriber, is the dad of Priscilla around or involved? She never mentioned him in the few videos I watched. Also I'm hoping a loss support group is available to her.
Strength thru faith will never be understood by those who don’t know him 🩷 Psalms 139:14 is a verse that comes to mind right now thinking of you. Matthew 18:12-14 has always been one of my favorite verses… if you feel like it in the future I would love a Bible review once you have had time to dig into your new Bible more. I’ve heard lots of good things about the she reads truth ones, if that’s something you would feel like doing at some point😊 Maybe a contrast and compare to your older bible? I’m glad you are leaning into your faith right now and that it’s giving you comfort. Thank you for sharing your day with us. Grief doesn’t come with a rule book. Self care, healthy food and Jesus is about as good of a trifecta as it gets. Hugs to you & Penelope.
Wow you eat healthy. I am so sorry😢 for your loss. She was so close to delivery. That doctor at 35 weeks in my opinion should have delivered Pirscilla. Yes, she would have been premature, but would have had a chance. But, how ever I guess God knows best; and felt the need to take her.
Hello Vanessa! I have recently found your channel and I always look out for you new videos. I am praying for you daily. My favorite verse is Psalm 91:4. Would you mind adding the link for the purse? I have a bit of an obsession too
I'm so glad you're keeping us updated. Thank you. By the way, you have a fantastic voice! I love it whenever you break into a song. Your singing is just shockingly so good!
I’m sorry but I need to unsubscribe now. As a mother that went through this and also had a trisomy pregnancy at various ages, I find these last several videos extremely offensive. While I understand everyone handles grief differently, react differently, have different emotions, these last few videos…wow, as someone that has been there…I can’t. Maybe you cope by denial, or pretending it didn’t happen, I’ll pray for your loss, but I can’t no longer participate.
@ KerryBerry142. Why even bother commenting? I get what you're saying to an extent. She does seem to come off a little perky. If it was me I wouldn't be wearing makeup, opening packages, singing Let it Go, or baking meatloaves. I'm still grieving the loss of my adult son and I'm barely functioning almost 5 years later "BUT" everyone is different. We all grieve different. There's no correct way to grieve. I'm sure many of you will come at me for my comment but I truly am not condemning her..I'm telling you all my first reaction to this video until I thought about it. At first I was like how can she be so happy. Then I thought she's in denial and going through the motions as if nothing changed. This is Vanessa's life and her internal pain so just remember as I did, everyone's different.
@@heyvanessamartin, no one is hating, you're just a bit weird...you did not want that baby, you really thought the father was going to change,you are just booty call to him that is all!! You not holding your baby will mess with you for the rest of your life..buying a new bible does not mean anything , I said what I said .be well
Dear Vanessa, I have read the comments again and I am truly sorry as a nurse who works with very ill and dying children. I agree that you can do what u want and grieve the way you want to. However after stating the day of your 2 short hospital lives caused very varied, some fair , some not, but if you are on TH-cam you do have to realize that whatever is put up on your channel, it stays there FOREVER!! I agree that the titles u have used after Priscilla's death , actually do upset your viewers including myself. I can again only say that u should be aware of your words; I don't think people are haters, however,they may find your behaviour a bit distressing. Again everybody grieves for various lengths that they require ;no JUDGEMENT HERE; But even myself finds points in your past few videos and I have shared them with them.we all agree that you have had a horrible experience with your stillbirth,we all pray you and Penelope find some solace in God. Also not everyone believes in "god", and that is another issue you should recognize. People may think what u state about God and related issues which could be another upsetting to individuals/ followers/ etc. for putting up on TH-cam as those individuals may think that it's a bit too much , as I was raised in the Lutheran Church, and got married in my church, however with working in the field of nursing, I can understand that nurses and physican and specialists (if you had any). I personally have never seen the type of grieve you present with( remember no hate here) can cause us on the other side of the bed to get upset with what patient's think of us and we hope herein our picu that we listen.we listen, and we listen; without judgement on our patients and their families but we watch very carefully if we notice a parent struggling with a very difficult decision to make it they've been here for 6 months as their baby is too small to even breathe unaided.we look for signs of unusual behavior to us as professionals which can be very different from how we think outside of the hospital. Bless both u and Penelope and baby priscilla🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏👱🏻♀️🩺❤️😷🏩 just remember what u say in your recent Videos is distressing viewers as I can see where they're coming from as well. I realize you love to vlog, but sometimes I sincerely think that anyone going thru severe trauma mentally and physically deserves understanding caring individuals who really do care but don't possibly????? Appreciate how you are presenting yourself on this platform. People will always comment good, bad and ugly, things, but that's the job that an individual with a TH-cam channel should be aware of: be very careful how , and why, you are posting these past few videos who may not be mother's like myself😮😮 may judgeu completely differently. I realize there was a mistake with your CT scan date, correct? Iwhen you where 1st up in l&d and you received Adalat for your bp management every day till instructed to stop the medication.as well everything else in terms of all instructions you need to move forward as well as the medical/ nursing team's ability to move forward with a plan of care for you and unborn baby. This should be given orally and directly upfront no opinion no lecturing ( we can be like that as well)and as well everything that was spoken and decided in that meeting has to be written in your chart as well a a copy should at all times be provided for you as stress and anxiety can creep up and you can't or don't remember what actually was discussed. Read your forms as best u can before signing and ask ask ask for a nurse or physican to go over WHAT YOU ARE SIGNING AS THE ONUS WILL BE ON YOU IF YOU DIDN'T UNDERSTAND OR GRASP CONCEPTS WHEN YOU IN A VERY SCARY SITUATION,GET A COPY , Request it. Read it again and again until you grasp direction given in writing and make a copy of it and place it somewhere safe so if mistakes are made you can look back at all of the information given at that appt. Then follow the map so to say as to what could have gone wrong, even if you are not thinking straight or objectively. If we think subjectively it usually comes across as mememememe. That appt should have been told to ufor your week after appt. Date. Usually most hospitals in Canada have a CT scan (s) onsiteor insitu as we say. We don't use outlying CT scan service providers as these clinics are not to be used to check for a severe possible preeclampsia case as yours as they cannot book u in immediately as there is always a waitlist of 20-30 individuals who CAN WAIT FOR A LATER DATE. This I can comprehend, the physician would have to have told you or notified you by phone asap after your visit to make u aware of his/ her intent to perform. The dr.could have written this referral in the order section of your chart, not flag it and leave it on the nursing station with no nursing staff around. Flagged basically means that your chart looks like book with a red and yellow separate tabs fully lifted up some can see it and realized there are orders for something, but we don't know for what until we process and double check your orders from your dr. If he didn't do this we put the chart back on a regular medical unit: in the picu we have a dr. Always there writing and confirming his instructions to us so no mistakes are made . Unfortunately we make mistakes large and small without even realizing it till after the fact. I 've made med and referrals when processing orders as it's chaos 24/7. So to sum it up please allow yourself to take what I have presented and really think about if you want a lawyer. I live here in Canada too and even public hospitals have more money for lawsuits that you will probably not win as u have to retain your lawyer who charges$$$$$ per hour and you have to pay some money upfront as medical error lawsuits are unfortunately common here but vastly worse across the entire USA. You will never win no matter what documents etc you obtained as the bottom line is the hospital can afford to have very high priced group of lawyers to your 1 lawyer, and all the hospital legal team are specifically trained in malpractice cases including a case like yours. Maybe tmi but I really believe you need to acknowledge to your audience by not just commenting back that you can do what u want. Remember this vlog stays up on the web forever and once it's out it's out there. You can choose not to comment at all or simply state that this is a very personal and traumatic situation and you are doing the best u can do regarding EVERTHING YOU POST. Again no JUDGEMENT no hate, just clear understanding of what u and your family are needing right now. May God bless❤❤❤❤❤❤.👱🏻♀️🩺🏩😷🇨🇦😱🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😊
I'm watching you through this tragedy. You are a trouper. I am so sorry that this has happened. Happy though that you are believing that this life is not the end. Take good care of yourself.. Sending hugs from Northern Canada.
May God bless you and keep you in His peace Vanessa. One of my favourite verses of scripture that had carried me through many hard times is phillipians 4: 6-7 : Don't worry about anything ; on the contrary , make your requests known to God by prayer and petition , wirlth thanksgiving. Then God's peace , passing all understanding , will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with the Messiah Jesus". Please ingnore any negative comments on your channel and let them be as chaff driven away by the wind . The wicked shall not prosper . Psalm 1 ❤❤❤❤
Vaness you look so pretty and refreshed so whatever you are doing keep it up. I know the power of prayer has a huge impact of course. So glad you are enjoying some retail therapy. Keep me posted as to you getting additional leave from work. HUGS
I don’t delete comments. I notice sometimes TH-cam is glitchy and deletes comments even on me sometimes. It’s very annoying. I don’t recall seeing your comment yet please repost it in this thread maybe?
@@heyvanessamartinwhat you signed at the hospital was likely just a form for Priscilla Verily to be taken into the care of the funeral home. You will meet with them to sign for her final disposition. You can still have a visit with Priscilla if you like. ❤
@@heyvanessamartinand the comments dictating how you should be mourning the loss of Priscilla are asinine and misplaced. Everyone deals with loss in their own way. You're doing fine and a lot of people support your journey, as you know. ❤❤❤
I am so sorry that you have to go through this. When I was 9 years old my step mom had a baby girl she lived for 24 hours. It was so sad I still remember crying because I had wanted a little sister for so long. This happened in 1970. They did not have any of the technology that they have today. The cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. If she would have lived she would of had brain damage. Two years later my step mom delivered my sister who was born healthy. When I watch your videos it reminds me so much of that time in my life. I am so sorry you are hurting. Prayers for you and Penelope.
My aunt's first baby died within a day or two :( She was beautiful, but had a hole in heart that I guess could not be fixed. Beautiful Kathleen is a guardian angel for my aunt and her family.
Where is your babies daddy? What did he have to say about your loss? I feel so so bad for you vanessa. I believe also POWER IN the prayer. Im praying for you with all my heart. Just know shes in a good plAce.
That's a relief that they did not cremate Priscilla now you can have the autopsy done and find out exactly what happened to Priscilla. I like your favorite Bible verse,my favorite is Jeremiah 29:11 for I know the thoughts that I think towards you ,saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Hugs for you and Penelope keep reading your Bible and praying to God
Vanessa, you are very loving and sweet :) What you said about Jesus, I COMPLETELY AGREE. I will keep praying for you and yours including sweet Priscilla. Priscilla is a guardian angel for you and Penelope and I'm sure Jesus held her :) God bless 🙏
Grieving looks different for everyone. Sad of you to judge another human being who had a stillbirth. Shame on you Carmela, have some compassion. Hopefully you never have to go through something like this and have people comment things like you are commenting
Well when the viewers make reaction videos maybe you can dissect their entire mental state based on their filmed snippets. Until then, thanks for your opinion…
Glad to see you posting Vanessa ❤ I can see pure sadness and loss in your face and hope you’re doing ok 😢. Please seek help if you feel like life is getting away from you. I know you’re a strong person but we’re all not super hero’s. There is no shame in getting help mentally. Your friend always 🌹.
Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus King James Version ❤❤ I just wrote this verse down a couple days ago on my desk with a sharpie ❤❤
You and penelope are in my thoughts I'm deeply sorry for your loss you hit the nail on the head high blood pressure in any pregnancy is a medical emergency and should be nipped in the bud immediately. I think this has angered most if not all of your viewers and I hope justice is served. Sending love and healing hugs 💕
@@ThatsCasswhat's strange?? She's a Christian and finds strength and support in her faith She is grieving but not falling apart She knows she has to stay strong and I control for her older daughter otherwise she will scare her and cause her to become upset. She's trying to find her feet in her new reality Walk in faith and strength Vanessa sending you love and prayers for healing for you and Penelope Love from a sister in faith all the way in Bonnie Scotland
Strange might it be, it’s raw and real. I’m choosing what parts of my day to share with TH-cam. Doesn’t mean I’m not sobbing all throughout my day and night in deep dark sadness. Don’t need to prove it to anyone.
I love so much that you are leaning into the Lord right now. It’s obvious that He’s got His hand on you, you seem to have a peace about you. Continuing prayers! ❤
Grief is a lot... but I'm not sure things are settling in my spirit well. The let it go solo..... i feel like i grieved my most recent break up harder. Maybe take some time away? I dunno.
@@ThatsCasswhy do you even watch her videos then? Everyone grieves differently and there is no proper way to react. A life was lost. Hopefully you never have to go through something like this and have people like you commenting similar things. Let her be, wish her well and move on. Or unsubscribe or stop watching her videos. People who watch videos of people they don’t even like make no sense lol must be very bored and have a fairly unfilling life
Sweetheart stay strong your doing a hell of a lot better than I would have and with your other little angel it's got to be real hard but I have to give you soooo much credit sweetheart hang in there I was the before too it's real hard at first it ease's but will be in your heart like I said sweetheart stay strong yours trooper ♥️🦌🦃🤠
I love the name Priscilla now :) its so beautiful. love your day in the life videos and shopping hauls. you honestly look amazing and slim, i love this particular red hair colour you got too. iv also been wanting to get a cross necklace. I dont mean to be morbid at all by saying this or to cause offence but with cremation you can actually get necklaces (lockets) which you can have some ashes put in, I think theyr actually really beautiful. just to let you know incase you didnt know, I know mothers who also lost children and got one, apparently it helped them feel close to them. your the same as me i always was wearing darker colours and now recently iv started buying creams and whites. i bought a cream bag last year and i would never of gone for that before, i was also woried about it getting dirty but mine was affordable too so i guess it doesnt really matter too much but i love cream bags.
Do you have a P.O. Box or address to send stuff to? I love the day in the life videos! I saw that Bible at my local Ollie’s and plan to go back and get it and one for my sister, hopefully they are in stock again! Praying for healing for you, ❤ God can get you through anything.
I know your currently recovering but I do have a general question since I’m kinda new here. I’ve watch a lot of previous but not all the way back to rhe beginning of your channel. Do you work outside of your TH-cam channel? I know people don’t share everything here but just wondering if they are being supportive while you recover.
Yes I have a full time administrative job. Hybrid model so I work 1 week in the office 1 at home. I’ve been there over 5 years. I’m still on maternity leave and they are being super supportive and I have options to take more time off if I want.
Please don't listen to the negative comments your doing your amazing self i will pray for all the haters you have enough on your plate never look or glance at any negative comments
Like it’s disgusting that any woman going through this should ever have to read some of the words spoken to her. @Vanessa you are so right, they make themselves look bad on their own.
Always am so happy when you post a video. I wished I lived closer to you. I'd give you a big hug. You are amazing and I can see Jesus helping you. Praying faithfully for you.
How can anyone expect her to grieve when shes cleary in shock n on the move planning of funeral its usually when someone actually gets the funeral it becomes more real n then thats when everything every emotion starts. Like maybe its not real maybe shes trying to keep herself together cuz of all the phone calls and figuring out how and where to bury her baby and everything else that goes with it. Like come on. I look her in her eyes i can tell easily shes in pain. but y do yall want to see her cry seems messed up. ❤❤❤❤❤ Just take care of yourself hon, and its ok to try to keep yourself together just know its ok to feel what u need to feel.
I do not find this that strange. Everyone responds to grief differently. How many comedians suffer with severe depression yet look so happy and tell jokes on stage? I've seen your previous comments and I believe you should leave this the girl alone.
It’s called shock, denial. I sob all throughout my day and in the night in deep dark pain and sadness with God. I’m choosing not to display that on here at this time.
Bonnie and Cass everyone grieves differently and processes their own way. Don’t forget you aren’t seeing her whole day or even close to her whole life. You seem pretty judgemental for not knowing her
Hi Vanessa, I love the beautiful colors of the flowers! That Bible color is so beautiful as well. I hope that your faith will be strengthened from the verses that you are reading.
Vanessa, loving the new bible and how you are going to read it and pray. Prayer is always comforting. I have a book of psalms and I read a verse every morning and connect with Gd. Your meatloaf looks amazing, although I wouldnt eat that as I dont really like any ground meat, I would make it for my boys, that is something they would love. P.S.: Retail Therapy is necessary for us women 😅 helps us feel abit better. You are such an amazing and beautiful soul and I love your personality, also, that was so sweet of the daycare to give you flowers and bath bomb 🥹 Let 2025 be the year of a new, empowered and strong you. Wishing you an amazing rest of the week 💕🫂
I love Pavoi! I get all my jewelry from them. Such good quality. I have stuff from them that’s years old and it still looks brand new. I wear all my jewelry in the shower.
Sorry but i tend to agree that you are disturbed. You do not seem unhappy at all. New hairstyle, amazon jewellery, grocery deliveries the other day (Kid didnt look ill at all either that day you said she puked in the car. Most kids want to lie down and rest after quietly, she had a lot of energy.). Living the good life and conning viewers. I wont follow either but the scam is entertaning. Sure I will get told but wake up ppl.
You look amazing! Your bible is beautiful. I need a new one as well. Meatloaf is one of my fave so ty for sharing that. Always thinking of you and P. Love you.🩷
My little sister name was prescilla martin too,she passed at 3 days old in 1963,both my mom and father passed away years ago, just me left from my whole family, God bless you dear ❤️
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You have been in my thoughts and prayers a lot lately . I had your name put in a prayer Group. I think you're Doing Amazing. 🙏🏼🙏🏼
Thank you so much! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Hi Vanessa, wonderful content. I’m so happy to hear things are working out with the hospital and the funeral home and that you are taking care of yourself. It’s comfort that you are finding support in God. ❤ you are doing so many positive things. Keep it up! 😄💕
Thank you ❤️
Your dear baby is in heaven which is a beautiful thought. You need to grieve her loss. Let it out and cry a lot. This is something you'll always remember, she is your baby. Praying for you to find peace!
Thank you ❤️❤️❤️ I cry lots at night.
Nice to see you again Vanessa. Happy to hear that you will get the autopsy. It’s so important to see exactly what happened to your precious baby Priscilla. You look great after everything that you’ve been through. Just take one day at a time and hang in there. I love your earrings and purse. So nice. The mini meatloaf looks delicious. See you soon.
Thank you so much ❤️
I have three children. I never use the past tense. I can't bear it. Two girls and a boy. My son was murdered in 2017. He is 35. I couldn't function at all. Nor could I eat. The doctors said if I didn't eat, they would put me in the hospital and put a feeding tube in. You NEVER get over the death of your child. You have to adjust and live life in a different way. Yes I have two daughters. I still was grieving so hard I was in a fog. I have a slight case of bipolar. One of the symptoms is buying things. Things will never heal your pain. People that try to help can't heal your pain. Only God can help you through. I couldn't go into stores. I would have a major panic attack. I couldn't even do self care. I realize she has her sweet little girl to take care of. Something is wrong with this picture. No I'm not judging. I'm concerned about her health.
Thank you for your concern ❤️
Amazing back story, a simple condolences and prayers would have sufficed
It's true she is not well mentally, she can wind up in a hospital or stronger medication .
@dianabaez2285 you sound pretty unwell
@JessicaShiloff You're wrong, it's from one mother to another. I told her my story to let her know there's different ways of grieving. Don't reprimand me for speaking the truth. She can't hold it in. It eventually will come to the surface and the results are pretty. My sister also lost her son. She held it in and went crazy for awhile. Have you lost a child? I hope not. If you have I'm very sorry. If you haven't. You have no clue as to how it is. I was trying to help.
I love that you're finding some peace in the Word. After 2 miscarriages and my husband being murdered, my faith and the holy spirits comfort is everything. The pain will fade away and you'll surely see Priscilla again.
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God Bless you
Remember that those who leave us are never truly gone, they are just with us in a different way. Much love and peace.
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You are so so strong. I pray right now that god wraps his loving arms around you and gives you peace. I pray god gives you an overwhelming amount of joy. He loves you so much. He will never leave you nor forsake you. You are a very special person ❤ you are important and you are worth more than gold.
Amen! ❤
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❤ I pray happiness and peace in your every day life. I always tell my kiddos, if you can’t find a kind person be a kind person. I’m hoping you can encounter the kindest people to help brighten your days during these difficult times.
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I cant believe people would leave such nasty comments. I find them hateful. Everyone grieves differently. It is never easy, but i do notice that having a relationship with god helps so much. She also has another child she has to keep going for. (Its almost as if people arent satisfied that you arent on here sobbing and drowning in your sorrows.) She mentions she cries at night. Probably so she isnt crying around her little as much. This woman is independant. She is strong. She is intelligent and responsible. Im happy to see her on here smiling and trying to push through. We only see minuites of her days. Shame on anyone for talking bad on her especially in this seasob of her life. God bless you and your little one, may god continue to heal you both and your family and help you all find peace
very nicely and well said 🤗 no one has the right to judge the grieving parent 😪 i know how it feels to be judged when my 2 year old son died 😪 its not nice 😪 vanessa is coping in her own way which is right for her 🤗
Someone who gets it! Thank you ❤️ I do crawl into a ball and sob most hours of the night. Maybe I’ll vlog it next time. Although I guarantee people will be mad at me for that too.
@@heyvanessamartin people are mad at you for the way you handled everything. You are making it out to be for views. And the way your are acting and talking. And the titles of your videos are disturbing. What happened to that baby is horrible . But that whole process should have been kept private. May she rest in peace.
@@dorieann1 That’s why not all of us are vloggers on TH-cam.
@@heyvanessamartin no dont do that 🤗 just go gentle on yourself 🤗 you are going through enough 🤗 we who care know you are grieving 🤗😘💞
When my mom died my go to verse was Job 14:14,15. Job asked God, if a man dies, can he live again and and 15 says You will call and I will answer you, you will long for the work of your hands. In other words Job knew that if he died God would not only remember him but he longs to bring him back and that will happen when the earth is transformed back into a paradise the way it was meant to be all along. You can also find comfort in the fact that God doesn't cause our loved ones to die, the Bible says that God hates death, he would never cause someone to die horrific death only to enlarge his own angelic family. Also the Bible says that children are gifts from God, he would never allow us to have children only to take them away from us. It's actually a Satanic lie that makes God look evil. Just sharing some comfort with you :)
Wow that’s really good. Thanks for sharing ❤️❤️❤️
So glad you shared this, I know this is true. Blessings❤
Vanessa, I had a late miscarriage when I was in my 20's. It took about 6 months for it to really hit home. It didnt seem real to me and people couldn't understand why I was just "carrying on" as normal. Ignore the judgemental idiots, Vanessa. Everyone deals with tragedy differently. You can't just wallow in despair when you have another child to care for either. Look after yourself and get help if you notice any signs of depression.
Thank you! Someone who gets it ❤️
I can imagine you would have been in a daze during everything, so glad they didn’t move forward with anything before you had the chance to get the answers you want! Praise be to God. ❤ hugs friend. Yay to the new Bible, that is always nice! I would like to get a new one eventually too.
I am glad God is getting you through this, it seems like your faith has been strengthened through this trial❤❤
It seems some people want to see you curled up in a corner sobbing so they have proof of your grieving.. says a lot about their mental state. You be you Vanessa ❤
Yes, as a mom of a little girl, unfortunately you do not have time to stop everything and grieve. You will have to grieve along the way. Your sweet little family are in my prayers
Exactly. Thank you ❤️❤️
no but she is too happy here, amazon orders, nice dinners, bath soaks with pedicured toes? come on seriously
God bless Vanessa you are an inspiration 🙏 to all women you are strong and glad you finding comfort that god is carrying you through these difficult times 🙏 you are not alone ❤
Thank you ❤️
My aunt bought me this kind of bible too recently! I love it and it’s the same one you have!! Oh my goodness, you’ll love it! I take it to church now every Sunday :)
Amazing!! ❤️
I pray for you and your babies keep your spirits 🆙 your baby is in heaven with the lord looking over your family, you look 👀 sooooo good keep up your faith everything will work out.
Thank you ❤️❤️
Prayers for you and Penelope to get through this difficult time. I hope your employer is being supportive and you have enough time off to grieve. Are you thinking about seeing Pricilla before cremation? You’re so strong.
Yes my employer is supportive. I get to finish my maternity leave and then I can take more time if needed. There are options. I don’t know if I can handle seeing her dead body in person. Having the photos is so hard and heartbreaking every time I look at them ❤️
Hi Vanessa. Your Bible is beautiful. Prayer is always a good thing. Jen xo
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V very proud of you ❤ each day gets better.. God be with you ❤
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Yes, the funeral home has to have you sign for cremation. No one would ask you to sign that at the hospital. I'm glad you are leaning on the Lord, Vanessa. I'm definitely praying for you. 💛
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Thank you Vanessa, fom reading from the Bible, I needed that today❤
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Ness, ur as strong as the rest of us been telling u. I truly do know how u feel, as u know , lost a baby at 38 weeks. Ur absolutely entitled to getting answers , just as I pursued for my passed son 🙏 👏 ❤ I was ANGRY with God, screaming amd yelling, crying during the delivery and post. After the months and years went by, I started coming back to HIM, and take comfort in HIM, for every thing instead of blaming,I’m HIM. Let this draw u closer to him, cause the devil wants to use this to pull u away, blame HIM, like I did . Ur on the right track ❤ I’m here for u even if u just want to talk or email private;y cause no1 actually understands unless they’ve been thru it . Hugs 🤗
Thank you so much, it means a lot to hear from someone who understands ❤️
I am glad something’s are working out for you, keep praying cause that will always help you
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My grand baby was born in Ohio and was born an angel . In Ohio, you have to pay for the autopsy. I was just wondering what state you are in cause I thought it was on they would have to pay for it. Insurance did not cover it because she had no life insurance since she was a stillborn.
@@georgiaswangin9225 she’s in Canada
BC, Canada. So far from what I’ve been told I would have to pay for the cremation about $130
Vanessa I’m still heartbroken for you pls don’t listen to the negative comments they don’t mean anything to you
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I love how you are reading your Bible and openly sharing your faith in Jesus! I’m also glad to see that you are eating nutritious foods and taking care of yourself! You are doing the best things for you and Penelope right now. Keep on keeping your head up sweet girl! ❤❤
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What helped me the most was getting out and being as busy as possible turning music on moving to the beat doing house work even if it didn't need it all kinds of little things so at the end of the day I was to tired to think just sleep don't get me wrong my daughter never left my mind but I had her older sister as well and thought of all kinds of things to do with her again stay strong sweetheart love your videos ♥️🦌🦃🤠
Thank you so much ❤️❤️
I love that you are choosing to put Jesus first! I lost my son and the only way I made it through is the Lord! Hang in there sweet lady!
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Vanessa, you are such a strong woman of faith. You are an inspiration for people who are going through much less even. I can see how you lean on God, the Holy Spirit, and His word to get you through this. The peace and calm you have can only come from God. You give people like myself the inspiration to lean on the Lord as well. Please keep spreading God's word and touching people through His name, and just keep being you. You will make it through this tragedy in your own time and your own way with God's help. Keep staying strong and keeping the faith. I am praying every day.🙏
Thank you so much ❤️❤️
Nessa you are really dealing with this whole matter very well. I know it so tough but you are right to get an autopsy. I feel like there was negligence in not getting your ultrasound in a timely matter etc.
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Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers . For you and your daughter . .
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Prayers going your way ❤ thinking of you 🫶🩷💕🙏
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One of my favorite verses is Jeremiah 33:3 and Jeremiah 29:11. So glad that you have the Lord to lean on in these days of sorrow. I know right now it might feel good to buy yourself stuff, but you will regret it when you have that debt piling up. It felt good to buy it. I bet it would feel even better to return it.😬
Hi Vanessa ❤you are so strong and I admire you so much! And I love what you said about Jesus 🩵🙏praying for you and Penelope 😢sending love from California.
Thank you so much! ❤️❤️
If it’s not too early;y to ask, what are ur plans with all the baby stuff , ness? As hard as it was for me when I lost mine, I donated everything to a women’s center in town. ❤ it helps with the grief, to know it’s all going to help someone else who needs things 😢
I’m keeping a bunch of things. All of her clothes I’m keeping. I donated a bunch of stuff like the bassinet and change table etc to the Mamas for Mamas group on Facebook for my city. I didn’t even think about a Woman’s shelter, I have a few things I might bring to one as well. ❤️
Usually the funeral home will help you more than anyone. For both my parents they helped me with insurance forms and even copies of death certificate, which I needed over and over. Might want to get a couple copies. Never know but I needed several when mom died.
Thank you ❤️
Hey sweetie, there's nothing I can say to help you , I just lost my Mama and 10 days later I lost my son😢❤ just be you with your healing ❤
I'm so sorry for your losses! You will see them again. God Bless!
So sorry for your losses bless you
I am so sorry for your losses 😢
My deepest condolences for the loss of your dear mom and your sweet son. May they both rest in peace and their memory be eternal.💔💔🙏🙏
I am so sorry for your losses. I pray in Jesus’ name that he cover you in peace and comfort during this time ❤️❤️❤️
Jw as I'm a new subscriber, is the dad of Priscilla around or involved? She never mentioned him in the few videos I watched. Also I'm hoping a loss support group is available to her.
He is not around or involved. Vanessa is an amazing single parent ❤
Truth
Sending love to you sweet Vanessa. ❤😊
Thank you so much ❤️
Strength thru faith will never be understood by those who don’t know him 🩷 Psalms 139:14 is a verse that comes to mind right now thinking of you. Matthew 18:12-14 has always been one of my favorite verses… if you feel like it in the future I would love a Bible review once you have had time to dig into your new Bible more. I’ve heard lots of good things about the she reads truth ones, if that’s something you would feel like doing at some point😊 Maybe a contrast and compare to your older bible?
I’m glad you are leaning into your faith right now and that it’s giving you comfort. Thank you for sharing your day with us. Grief doesn’t come with a rule book. Self care, healthy food and Jesus is about as good of a trifecta as it gets. Hugs to you & Penelope.
That’s a great video idea for the future. Thank you ❤️❤️❤️
Wow you eat healthy. I am so sorry😢 for your loss. She was so close to delivery. That doctor at 35 weeks in my opinion should have delivered Pirscilla. Yes, she would have been premature, but would have had a chance. But, how ever I guess God knows best; and felt the need to take her.
Thank you for your kind words. ❤️
Hello Vanessa! I have recently found your channel and I always look out for you new videos. I am praying for you daily. My favorite verse is Psalm 91:4. Would you mind adding the link for the purse? I have a bit of an obsession too
Thank you so much ❤️ Here is the purse: www.amazon.ca/gp/aw/d/B09TQS8YND?psc=1&ref=ppx_pop_mob_b_asin_title
@ thank you! It’s in my cart!
I'm so glad you're keeping us updated. Thank you. By the way, you have a fantastic voice! I love it whenever you break into a song. Your singing is just shockingly so good!
Thank you so much ❤️ although I have to say I’m a terrible singer I think lol
I’m sorry but I need to unsubscribe now. As a mother that went through this and also had a trisomy pregnancy at various ages, I find these last several videos extremely offensive.
While I understand everyone handles grief differently, react differently, have different emotions, these last few videos…wow, as someone that has been there…I can’t. Maybe you cope by denial, or pretending it didn’t happen, I’ll pray for your loss, but I can’t no longer participate.
I totally understand. Sorry to see you go ❤️
@ KerryBerry142. Why even bother commenting? I get what you're saying to an extent. She does seem to come off a little perky. If it was me I wouldn't be wearing makeup, opening packages, singing Let it Go, or baking meatloaves. I'm still grieving the loss of my adult son and I'm barely functioning almost 5 years later "BUT" everyone is different. We all grieve different. There's no correct way to grieve. I'm sure many of you will come at me for my comment but I truly am not condemning her..I'm telling you all my first reaction to this video until I thought about it. At first I was like how can she be so happy. Then I thought she's in denial and going through the motions as if nothing changed. This is Vanessa's life and her internal pain so just remember as I did, everyone's different.
@ To clarify, singing Let it go was in relation to the haters on my channel.
@@heyvanessamartin, no one is hating, you're just a bit weird...you did not want that baby, you really thought the father was going to change,you are just booty call to him that is all!! You not holding your baby will mess with you for the rest of your life..buying a new bible does not mean anything , I said what I said .be well
@dianabaez2285 Incorrect. Thanks for coming out though
Dear Vanessa, I have read the comments again and I am truly sorry as a nurse who works with very ill and dying children. I agree that you can do what u want and grieve the way you want to. However after stating the day of your 2 short hospital lives caused very varied, some fair , some not, but if you are on TH-cam you do have to realize that whatever is put up on your channel, it stays there FOREVER!! I agree that the titles u have used after Priscilla's death , actually do upset your viewers including myself. I can again only say that u should be aware of your words; I don't think people are haters, however,they may find your behaviour a bit distressing. Again everybody grieves for various lengths that they require ;no JUDGEMENT HERE; But even myself finds points in your past few videos and I have shared them with them.we all agree that you have had a horrible experience with your stillbirth,we all pray you and Penelope find some solace in God. Also not everyone believes in "god", and that is another issue you should recognize. People may think what u state about God and related issues which could be another upsetting to individuals/ followers/ etc. for putting up on TH-cam as those individuals may think that it's a bit too much , as I was raised in the Lutheran Church, and got married in my church, however with working in the field of nursing, I can understand that nurses and physican and specialists (if you had any). I personally have never seen the type of grieve you present with( remember no hate here) can cause us on the other side of the bed to get upset with what patient's think of us and we hope herein our picu that we listen.we listen, and we listen; without judgement on our patients and their families but we watch very carefully if we notice a parent struggling with a very difficult decision to make it they've been here for 6 months as their baby is too small to even breathe unaided.we look for signs of unusual behavior to us as professionals which can be very different from how we think outside of the hospital. Bless both u and Penelope and baby priscilla🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏👱🏻♀️🩺❤️😷🏩 just remember what u say in your recent Videos is distressing viewers as I can see where they're coming from as well. I realize you love to vlog, but sometimes I sincerely think that anyone going thru severe trauma mentally and physically deserves understanding caring individuals who really do care but don't possibly????? Appreciate how you are presenting yourself on this platform. People will always comment good, bad and ugly, things, but that's the job that an individual with a TH-cam channel should be aware of: be very careful how , and why, you are posting these past few videos who may not be mother's like myself😮😮 may judgeu completely differently. I realize there was a mistake with your CT scan date, correct? Iwhen you where 1st up in l&d and you received Adalat for your bp management every day till instructed to stop the medication.as well everything else in terms of all instructions you need to move forward as well as the medical/ nursing team's ability to move forward with a plan of care for you and unborn baby. This should be given orally and directly upfront no opinion no lecturing ( we can be like that as well)and as well everything that was spoken and decided in that meeting has to be written in your chart as well a a copy should at all times be provided for you as stress and anxiety can creep up and you can't or don't remember what actually was discussed. Read your forms as best u can before signing and ask ask ask for a nurse or physican to go over WHAT YOU ARE SIGNING AS THE ONUS WILL BE ON YOU IF YOU DIDN'T UNDERSTAND OR GRASP CONCEPTS WHEN YOU IN A VERY SCARY SITUATION,GET A COPY , Request it. Read it again and again until you grasp direction given in writing and make a copy of it and place it somewhere safe so if mistakes are made you can look back at all of the information given at that appt. Then follow the map so to say as to what could have gone wrong, even if you are not thinking straight or objectively. If we think subjectively it usually comes across as mememememe. That appt should have been told to ufor your week after appt. Date. Usually most hospitals in Canada have a CT scan (s) onsiteor insitu as we say. We don't use outlying CT scan service providers as these clinics are not to be used to check for a severe possible preeclampsia case as yours as they cannot book u in immediately as there is always a waitlist of 20-30 individuals who CAN WAIT FOR A LATER DATE. This I can comprehend, the physician would have to have told you or notified you by phone asap after your visit to make u aware of his/ her intent to perform. The dr.could have written this referral in the order section of your chart, not flag it and leave it on the nursing station with no nursing staff around. Flagged basically means that your chart looks like book with a red and yellow separate tabs fully lifted up some can see it and realized there are orders for something, but we don't know for what until we process and double check your orders from your dr. If he didn't do this we put the chart back on a regular medical unit: in the picu we have a dr. Always there writing and confirming his instructions to us so no mistakes are made . Unfortunately we make mistakes large and small without even realizing it till after the fact. I 've made med and referrals when processing orders as it's chaos 24/7. So to sum it up please allow yourself to take what I have presented and really think about if you want a lawyer. I live here in Canada too and even public hospitals have more money for lawsuits that you will probably not win as u have to retain your lawyer who charges$$$$$ per hour and you have to pay some money upfront as medical error lawsuits are unfortunately common here but vastly worse across the entire USA. You will never win no matter what documents etc you obtained as the bottom line is the hospital can afford to have very high priced group of lawyers to your 1 lawyer, and all the hospital legal team are specifically trained in malpractice cases including a case like yours. Maybe tmi but I really believe you need to acknowledge to your audience by not just commenting back that you can do what u want. Remember this vlog stays up on the web forever and once it's out it's out there. You can choose not to comment at all or simply state that this is a very personal and traumatic situation and you are doing the best u can do regarding EVERTHING YOU POST. Again no JUDGEMENT no hate, just clear understanding of what u and your family are needing right now. May God bless❤❤❤❤❤❤.👱🏻♀️🩺🏩😷🇨🇦😱🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏😊
Shared with my nursing team in the picu both more experienced nurses to very young new grad nurses.
I'm watching you through this tragedy. You are a trouper. I am so sorry that this has happened. Happy though that you are believing that this life is not the end. Take good care of yourself.. Sending hugs from Northern Canada.
Thank you so much for your kind words ❤️
Make Heaven crowded is on a sweatshirt I wear- we are here temporarily to bring others to Christ
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Sending love, light and prayers ❤ xx
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You are in my thoughts and prayers!💜
Thank you so much ❤️
Praying for you always hun.
Also on a side note can you link that bag you got?
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Keeping you in my thoughts Vanessa🙏
Thank you ❤️
Just know that you are in my family's prayers 🙏🏻
Thank you so much I really appreciate that ❤️
May God bless you and keep you in His peace Vanessa. One of my favourite verses of scripture that had carried me through many hard times is phillipians 4: 6-7 : Don't worry about anything ; on the contrary , make your requests known to God by prayer and petition , wirlth thanksgiving. Then God's peace , passing all understanding , will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with the Messiah Jesus". Please ingnore any negative comments on your channel and let them be as chaff driven away by the wind . The wicked shall not prosper . Psalm 1 ❤❤❤❤
I love that verse too. Thank you ❤️❤️❤️
Vaness you look so pretty and refreshed so whatever you are doing keep it up. I know the power of prayer has a huge impact of course.
So glad you are enjoying some retail therapy.
Keep me posted as to you getting additional leave from work.
HUGS
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Vanessa, as a licensed Funeral Director in the USA, I posted two comments I thought would be helpful, but you deleted them. Why?
I don’t delete comments. I notice sometimes TH-cam is glitchy and deletes comments even on me sometimes. It’s very annoying. I don’t recall seeing your comment yet please repost it in this thread maybe?
@@heyvanessamartinwhat you signed at the hospital was likely just a form for Priscilla Verily to be taken into the care of the funeral home. You will meet with them to sign for her final disposition. You can still have a visit with Priscilla if you like. ❤
@@heyvanessamartinand the comments dictating how you should be mourning the loss of Priscilla are asinine and misplaced. Everyone deals with loss in their own way. You're doing fine and a lot of people support your journey, as you know. ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for letting me know this!! ❤️❤️
I am so sorry that you have to go through this. When I was 9 years old my step mom had a baby girl she lived for 24 hours. It was so sad I still remember crying because I had wanted a little sister for so long. This happened in 1970. They did not have any of the technology that they have today. The cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. If she would have lived she would of had brain damage. Two years later my step mom delivered my sister who was born healthy. When I watch your videos it reminds me so much of that time in my life. I am so sorry you are hurting. Prayers for you and Penelope.
My aunt's first baby died within a day or two :( She was beautiful, but had a hole in heart that I guess could not be fixed. Beautiful Kathleen is a guardian angel for my aunt and her family.
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We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers❤
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Where is your babies daddy? What did he have to say about your loss? I feel so so bad for you vanessa. I believe also POWER IN the prayer. Im praying for you with all my heart. Just know shes in a good plAce.
Baby daddy is not involved with us. He’s with some other single mom and her kids now. He didn’t say much. Offered to give me a ride home.
That's a relief that they did not cremate Priscilla now you can have the autopsy done and find out exactly what happened to Priscilla. I like your favorite Bible verse,my favorite is Jeremiah 29:11 for I know the thoughts that I think towards you ,saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Hugs for you and Penelope keep reading your Bible and praying to God
Yes, Jeremiah 29:11 is such a beautiful verse. ❤️
@@heyvanessamartin your a strong and beautiful person keep relying on your strength from the Lord.
Vanessa, you are very loving and sweet :) What you said about Jesus, I COMPLETELY AGREE. I will keep praying for you and yours including sweet Priscilla. Priscilla is a guardian angel for you and Penelope and I'm sure Jesus held her :) God bless 🙏
Thank you so much ❤️
Little burgers the dollar stor has mini loaf pans that work perfect
I believe that the viewers of this channel are grieving more than her about the loss of her baby. We also see a financial convenience....😢
Not true
Grieving looks different for everyone. Sad of you to judge another human being who had a stillbirth. Shame on you Carmela, have some compassion. Hopefully you never have to go through something like this and have people comment things like you are commenting
Well when the viewers make reaction videos maybe you can dissect their entire mental state based on their filmed snippets. Until then, thanks for your opinion…
Carmela she is insane. People are talking about her on other channels.
@ I wish people were talking about me on other channels. I could use the boost.
Glad to see you posting Vanessa ❤ I can see pure sadness and loss in your face and hope you’re doing ok 😢. Please seek help if you feel like life is getting away from you. I know you’re a strong person but we’re all not super hero’s. There is no shame in getting help mentally. Your friend always 🌹.
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Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus
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You and penelope are in my thoughts I'm deeply sorry for your loss you hit the nail on the head high blood pressure in any pregnancy is a medical emergency and should be nipped in the bud immediately. I think this has angered most if not all of your viewers and I hope justice is served. Sending love and healing hugs 💕
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Very strange
Definitely strange!!
@@ThatsCasswhat's strange??
She's a Christian and finds strength and support in her faith
She is grieving but not falling apart
She knows she has to stay strong and I control for her older daughter otherwise she will scare her and cause her to become upset.
She's trying to find her feet in her new reality
Walk in faith and strength Vanessa sending you love and prayers for healing for you and Penelope
Love from a sister in faith all the way in Bonnie Scotland
Strange might it be, it’s raw and real. I’m choosing what parts of my day to share with TH-cam. Doesn’t mean I’m not sobbing all throughout my day and night in deep dark sadness. Don’t need to prove it to anyone.
I love so much that you are leaning into the Lord right now. It’s obvious that He’s got His hand on you, you seem to have a peace about you. Continuing prayers! ❤
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I like, how do you made your mini meatloafs?That was a cool idea nices
Grief is a lot... but I'm not sure things are settling in my spirit well. The let it go solo..... i feel like i grieved my most recent break up harder. Maybe take some time away? I dunno.
@@ThatsCasswhy do you even watch her videos then? Everyone grieves differently and there is no proper way to react. A life was lost. Hopefully you never have to go through something like this and have people like you commenting similar things. Let her be, wish her well and move on. Or unsubscribe or stop watching her videos. People who watch videos of people they don’t even like make no sense lol must be very bored and have a fairly unfilling life
Sweetheart stay strong your doing a hell of a lot better than I would have and with your other little angel it's got to be real hard but I have to give you soooo much credit sweetheart hang in there I was the before too it's real hard at first it ease's but will be in your heart like I said sweetheart stay strong yours trooper ♥️🦌🦃🤠
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I love the name Priscilla now :) its so beautiful. love your day in the life videos and shopping hauls. you honestly look amazing and slim, i love this particular red hair colour you got too. iv also been wanting to get a cross necklace. I dont mean to be morbid at all by saying this or to cause offence but with cremation you can actually get necklaces (lockets) which you can have some ashes put in, I think theyr actually really beautiful. just to let you know incase you didnt know, I know mothers who also lost children and got one, apparently it helped them feel close to them. your the same as me i always was wearing darker colours and now recently iv started buying creams and whites. i bought a cream bag last year and i would never of gone for that before, i was also woried about it getting dirty but mine was affordable too so i guess it doesnt really matter too much but i love cream bags.
Jewelry with cremated remains inside is a cool thing for extended family like grandma to have, too. ❤
I haven’t heard of those necklaces but that’s a really nice idea. ❤️❤️❤️
@@heyvanessamartin if you google baby ashes jewellery you'll find it. although some funeral homes have them there and you can buy them from them.
@@heyvanessamartin if you google cremation necklaces youll find them :)
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Do you have a P.O. Box or address to send stuff to? I love the day in the life videos! I saw that Bible at my local Ollie’s and plan to go back and get it and one for my sister, hopefully they are in stock again! Praying for healing for you, ❤ God can get you through anything.
I don’t have a PO Box but a bunch of you have mentioned it so maybe I’ll go get one soon and let you guys know
@ yes!! I have a few things I’d love to send your way!
Glad to see you are taking care of yourself❤ That purse is really cute! You are definitely in my prayers🙏
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I know your currently recovering but I do have a general question since I’m kinda new here. I’ve watch a lot of previous but not all the way back to rhe beginning of your channel. Do you work outside of your TH-cam channel? I know people don’t share everything here but just wondering if they are being supportive while you recover.
Yes I have a full time administrative job. Hybrid model so I work 1 week in the office 1 at home. I’ve been there over 5 years. I’m still on maternity leave and they are being super supportive and I have options to take more time off if I want.
Please don't listen to the negative comments your doing your amazing self i will pray for all the haters you have enough on your plate never look or glance at any negative comments
Haters don’t bother me. They make themselves look bad all on their own. ❤️
No one is hating. It's a concern.
Like it’s disgusting that any woman going through this should ever have to read some of the words spoken to her. @Vanessa you are so right, they make themselves look bad on their own.
She looks totally insane singing, thats a melt down she is having!!!
You haven’t seen much in the real world have you? That is in fact, not a meltdown.
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Always am so happy when you post a video. I wished I lived closer to you. I'd give you a big hug. You are amazing and I can see Jesus helping you. Praying faithfully for you.
Aw thank you, you are so kind. ❤️
How can anyone expect her to grieve when shes cleary in shock n on the move planning of funeral its usually when someone actually gets the funeral it becomes more real n then thats when everything every emotion starts. Like maybe its not real maybe shes trying to keep herself together cuz of all the phone calls and figuring out how and where to bury her baby and everything else that goes with it. Like come on. I look her in her eyes i can tell easily shes in pain. but y do yall want to see her cry seems messed up. ❤❤❤❤❤ Just take care of yourself hon, and its ok to try to keep yourself together just know its ok to feel what u need to feel.
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I literally just purchased the He and She reads truth bibles for my husband and I. I got mine in the mail today and omg they are so nice.
That’s so awesome! I love mine ❤️
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You seem very perky after just loosing your baby
She really does and I try not to judge but she seems so casual about it all. The video titles are really a bit much also
I do not find this that strange. Everyone responds to grief differently.
How many comedians suffer with severe depression yet look so happy and tell jokes on stage?
I've seen your previous comments and I believe you should leave this the girl alone.
It’s called shock, denial. I sob all throughout my day and in the night in deep dark pain and sadness with God. I’m choosing not to display that on here at this time.
Bonnie and Cass everyone grieves differently and processes their own way. Don’t forget you aren’t seeing her whole day or even close to her whole life. You seem pretty judgemental for not knowing her
Maybe she's trying to hold it together for herself and her other children?
Hi Vanessa, I love the beautiful colors of the flowers! That Bible color is so beautiful as well. I hope that your faith will be strengthened from the verses that you are reading.
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I love your new Bible 🩷God is holding your precious baby 🩷she is watching over you and Penelope 😊have a blessed night 🙏🏻
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Vanessa, loving the new bible and how you are going to read it and pray. Prayer is always comforting. I have a book of psalms and I read a verse every morning and connect with Gd. Your meatloaf looks amazing, although I wouldnt eat that as I dont really like any ground meat, I would make it for my boys, that is something they would love. P.S.: Retail Therapy is necessary for us women 😅 helps us feel abit better. You are such an amazing and beautiful soul and I love your personality, also, that was so sweet of the daycare to give you flowers and bath bomb 🥹 Let 2025 be the year of a new, empowered and strong you. Wishing you an amazing rest of the week 💕🫂
Thank you so much, you are so sweet! ❤️
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I love Pavoi! I get all my jewelry from them. Such good quality. I have stuff from them that’s years old and it still looks brand new. I wear all my jewelry in the shower.
The best!
That Bible is beautiful. So pretty. ❤ I love that verse so much too. Its so comforting. God Bless you and Penelope :)
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Thanks for sharing your day!! Your supper looks delicious 😋
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Sorry but i tend to agree that you are disturbed. You do not seem unhappy at all. New hairstyle, amazon jewellery, grocery deliveries the other day (Kid didnt look ill at all either that day you said she puked in the car. Most kids want to lie down and rest after quietly, she had a lot of energy.). Living the good life and conning viewers. I wont follow either but the scam is entertaning. Sure I will get told but wake up ppl.
the bath soak with the pedicured toes got me. this is not a grieving losing your baby video at all.
how much was the french manicure too? looks like you had a nice spa day there girl.
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You look amazing! Your bible is beautiful. I need a new one as well. Meatloaf is one of my fave so ty for sharing that. Always thinking of you and P. Love you.🩷
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Dinner looks good
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