Sometimes you have to Pivot and that’s ok.

Not every door is going to be open to you but that’s not a bad thing. God closes doors for a reason, just remember He sees things that we don’t, He hears things that we don’t. Just because the door is closed to you doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing, God says to count it all joy when you face trials and tribulations.
If you are struggling with things in your past and you want to understand why, there is a book that I am reading that's in my Amazon store front that I think you should check out. It really breaks down and helps you understand some of the patterns that we adopt as a child.
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Full disclosure I do get a small commission from your purchase, but I still stand behind this book even if I weren't.