I just ended a relationship at the end of March with a two year relationship because he was a serial cheater, I am still having a hard time but it gets easier eventually 😕
@@wolfmenotsame thing happened to me we broke up like 7 months ago. I look back and laugh in embarrassment and disgust of what tf did I even see in him to stay so long lmao. You will get to that point
@@basharalbutseggs8056 just found out on Sunday that mine was cheating (again) after trying to propose marriage to me and telling me how in love he was. A week before I ship off to basic training… Needless to say I’m sick as hell and don’t know how I’m going to recover this time. I hope I get to the point of being able to be embarrassed, rather than beside myself in depression. :,)
Broke up inn June after 2 years serious dating, living together, and 9 years of friendship. Part of us want to salvage the friendship but oh my god is it so incredibly painful. I still hurt.
I knew that blur was for no reason… I was like "if the shirt was inappropriate, she wouldn’t have recorded in it… so what going on, I don’t see anything."😂 great prank BOZE and Editor!
LMAO SAME, I was watching and as soon as I saw it I started thinking. I was like no way she recorded this whole thing boobs out... It definitely got me haha
Im sorry to hear about the breakup, but at the same time it’s comforting to hear that long term relationship breakups are not the end of the world. A lot of times the number of years together or living together creates a sort of barrier/ reason to stay together even if that’s the only thing that still connects you. Which isnt good because the one thing keeping you together is just going to keep getting bigger (or longer in years) which will then make it so much harder to leave down the road because now the 5 years keeping you together has became 10. As sad as it may be, It’s reassuring to hear that just because it’s long term, doesn’t mean it’s meant to be. I wish you both the best with your processing and healing journey🫶
Just started watching. Are you ok? Take care of yourself. As someone who took almost a decade on myself before I met my spouse, be truthful to yourself. You need to be honest with yourself before you can give your best to someone else. We are cheering for you!
😂 you got me on the boobie blur!! 😂 I was like oh girl what kinda sexy top do you have on!!?? That was funny,that a very cute tho!! Black is the best color!! Looks great on everyone!! Enjoy ur vacay!! 🥂 🏖️
As someone who's never been in a relationship, never even held hands with someone i liked in a romantic way, and is about to graduate college, this is actually really comforting to see. How amicable it was and how Boze isn't treating this like the end of the world. I was over here convinced i would be alone forever and now i'm realizing this isn't even the start yet. The bs about your 20's being the best years of your life got to me for a minute but fuck that, i'm going to get priorities straight and focus on what matters to me so when i'm in my 30s i can live it up
I had a taste of a "romantic relationship" ( it was mainly long distance) 2 years ago when I was 24. He was awful and I am not saying this in bad faith (he was actually not a good person and had a lot of hate and anger in his veins but I looked past it because I was desperate to have my first boyfriend before my mid 20s). Honestly, neither of us were ready for a relationship and wanted it for all the wrong reasons (he wanted seggs and I just wanted a best friend but we moved things way too fast). The break up was hard for me as he said some hurtful things. I knew immediately he was not for me but those words still hurt and I knew better but did not do better. Fortunately we never slept with each other and I only kissed him once. I haven't dated since and I don't think I ever will given the dating climate in our generation it's awful! You are not missing out I promise, don't rush anything and don't get with someone if you know it won't work the way I did. I look forward to my 30s, I have a few short years to go and I hope to put myself first and cherish it.
@Obnoxious_Mama97 there's not many youtubers that I genuinely think, 'she's totally my people and I can see her being one of my best friends' lol like NEVER do I think that. But Boze is just someone I can totally see being in my world with lots of laughs, shenanigans and heart to hearts and rants lol the only thing I can't see is very many debates cuz quire often I have the same opinion as her even lol same taste in lots of different genres of music. And her love for TORI Amos just reinforced that! Ha!
"where do I put my nose" Is so me right now. I am also going through a 3yr relationship breakup that also ended in a "bro were literally just friends" way, and so to cope with that I'm moving across the continent...
Hope this isn't too prying, but with breakups like that, did the passion die or was it you didn't see yourself marrying and having kids with this person?
@@MandyArtGames I am not a person who wants kids or marriage. Also I have a lot of trauma that makes differentiating between romantic and platonic attraction really difficult. I saw myself having a future with this person but it felt way more... roommate-ish. I just liked the company I think. I hope this helps but that's all the explanation I have for myself even.
Take care of yourself Boze. Never think you are complaining. You're just being you and that's why we're here. I adore Tori Amos, she got me through a lot of dark spots in those teen years. I'm actually having one of my good days so sending you super positive energy! Do that nature connect while you're stuck on the island. Silver lining that ish.
@TheTravelingCamellia same! On the TORI AMOS. got to see her live which was amazing. I've sang 'Me and a Gun' on a couple occasions too which was a super vulnerable experience (the scenarios on which I sang it that is)
I just went through a 5-year breakup as well. I thought he was the one but I had been ignoring things that were dealbreakers for me from the start, and finally it came crashing on me. I have diagnosed anxiety and it was at the worst it had ever been in my life (and therapy was helping but could only help so much). It sucks, he was all I knew for years, but after about 3 months I’m finally getting used to life again. Getting closer to friends and rekindling old friendships. It gets better! And now I know I made the right decision. And honestly, when I first heard your story on stream Boze and heard how positive you were about things, it made me feel a little more motivated that things could be better and that I could enjoy life still. I’m happy you’re doing so well uncle! 😂❤
I just wanted to say im sorry about your break up and thank you for posting this. My cat of 15 years just passed and this is the lil gal chat I needed ❤
U said something in one of your past videos that made me realize something about myself and realize something very important… death by a bunch of paper cuts… if your going through something small or big… it’s ok to feel in general… doesn’t mean it’s any more or less important… it’s your paper cut and if that b*txh hurts then it just does …
Girl same! I just went through the exact same thing with my 8 year relationship and while it was hard we are still friends and talk every day. We still share "custody" of our pets and have tons of people in common. I also never thought this was possible because all my previous relationships were also awful. Growing up and growing apart is so bizarre but also a HUGE relief to admit that truth and start moving on... I'm so glad you are coping with this change/loss so well and both of you are acting like adults. Take care of yourself. No matter how it feels now, grief can manifest in stupid/sneaky ways we never assumed for ourselves. Especially for those of us with pre-existing relationship trauma. You're beautiful, inside and out, with so much to look forward to. I hope you feel excited about all the possibilities available to you now.
My parents lived together for like 20 years as roommates because they aren't in love any more but still love each other. They now live separately, but we still all get together for the holidays. It's odd, but it does happen!
Totally on board with the Tori, Alanis, Courtney, Trent, NIN rabbit hole. I’m a little older than you, and was obsessed when all of this was going on. Been obsessed with Tori Amos forever. Love her.
You should sooo do a I got nothin podcast with the researcher and talk about the most shocking things they have found!!! Or talk about cases you guys are I tested in or intrested in covering!!! Or past cases you have covered!!! Also we love you boze!!! Hope you feel a bit better soon! There is always a light at the end of the tunnel! Just take your time!
I love that you were open about your disassociation. I do it as well as a trauma response. Im glad our generation is de-stigmatizing mental health awareness & acknowledging these very natural & very human responses
Also an aquarius (feb 5) and an astrologer. What I can say about us and from my own experience is that we thrive at being wonderful friends (aquarius actually rules friendships and collective energy). But we are fixed air signs meaning as great as we are at being honest friends and letting people be themselves, we struggle with intimate romantic relationships. We are detached and that makes us gifted at being able to see the world for what it is without our feelings getting in the way...but that in itself makes it hard for us to focus on the needs of the individual. We are humanitarians but notorious for making our partners feel "unspecial" or as if we see them the same as everybody else. And we are so aloof that we don't normally realize we are making them feel that way. Much love to you AquaSis...you'll find what's right for you and you deserve that and more.
I'm also an Aquarius sun (feb 3) but you have to remember that that's only like.. ur corporate boss babe personaliy!!! Don't forget to explore ur rising, moon, mars & venus signs for healing & bettering purposes! Ex: I'm a Scorpio moon & Pisces rising so I am a really good companion when shit hits the fan, and I can help ppl when they don't even know what they need!
I agree. Feb. 18. Everyone says I’m not nice, but super kind. I just wanna be friendly when I’m out then spend 95 percent of my time learning new random hobbies that I’ll figure out how to do it and move on. Aside from my husband I’m not interested in friends. I think we feel very deeply and it takes a toll to the point of having spent so much time on everyone else.. that we have to find a way to manage that.
@@chenni4127 Gemini is my personal kryptonite, and I often see Aquarius-Gemini pairs in both romance and friendship. Geminis have a natural gift for communication and, while they may seem unstable, they're actually just open to changing their minds when given a good reason. They're great at attracting partners, but like Aquarius, they can be detached-though in their own way. Geminis can emotionally detach so smoothly that their partner might not even realize it until the relationship is over. Depending on their integrity, Gemini is the sign most likely to lead a double life, especially if they have strong Scorpio influences. Despite this, people are drawn to Geminis for their wit, insight, and their connection to neighbors, coworkers, classmates, and siblings.
@@llamababiezhellyeah I completely agree. The whole chart has to be taken into account. I'm also a Scorpio moon (leo rising though). Do you also feel like your emotions are more intense than other people and you wish you didn't have as many fcks to give as you do? Because that's how I feel but maybe your pisces rising makes you a little more capable than me. lol
When I disassociate during conversations, I say "oh yeah just thinking, anywhoodle" when asked if I'm good, to move on from myself. I related to that way too much. Love to you boze, ❤
I want it ALL! NIN, TOOL, TORI, even Courtney and Alanis! You are speaking to my soul! I've seen all of them so many times I will absolutely need you to do that video!!🤯
@Shugr420 same!! Absolutely speaking to my soul. 💖 I've seen TORI, Tool and NIN too. Would love to see Alanis - don't really care for courtney at all but totally on board for the rabbit hole on TORI etc FOR SURE!
Holy S#!t Boze, take a break... a network season is only 22 weeks, please enjoy your holiday and we will all see you when you are back. Just let us know when you're going and back maybe??? cause I like you 💛
Is this a break up from the "Organization Clean Dude"? Not gonna lie was jealous of a man would loves to clean and organize but if it's not working, it's not working. Happy for you Queen! Stay strong! ...not lonely girl 15... but also never forget LG15, ever.
@Bibblesupremacy1992 I feel like when people think of OCD, they are thinking about ADHDers. I have both and the OCD doesn't necessarily mean you have a cleaning tic. Sometimes it means having a full routine just to lock the door at night. On the other hand when I'm having an ADHD hyper focus day, get out of my way if you don't want a label sticker on your underwear drawer! IYKYK
@oliviar9808 I agree. However, OCD can be that too. OCD can manifest in many ways. I knew obsessive thoughts was a facet BUT until my cousin had visions of having murdered people did I find out that that was also a facet of ocd because that's what he was diagnosed with. The way it was explained to him and his mom in this case was that there isn't a fear of him carrying out a violent act because he wasn't planning the murders and wasn't visualizing the murders themselves but rather the aftermath of it. I never knew that about ocd. My uncle has the worst ocd of anyone I've ever met. He's so focused on what he believes having a happy family and a successful life LOOKS LIKE, that he really doesn't know how to be happy. It's like he has a house of cards in his head that are his thoughts and he's constantly trying to manage his house of cards from collapse. He's very very difficult to please and he's quite often judging everybody and everything around him very intensely. Everything in his house has got to be a certain way and everybody should always conduct themselves in a certain way on his mind. He's very much close minded in many ways due to this. Love him very much but he's very hard to be around for a length of time because of how stressful it is to constantly be knowing that he's scrutinizing every little thing. And then there's my aunt, whose ocd causes her to have very particular routines. For example, before bed, she walks around her house unplugging everything, checking everything at least twice, getting the cats inside and it's a very specific procedure. Same thing every night. She can't leave things plugged in while she's sleeping because I'm her mind, a fire or something will start.
Been obsessed with Tori Amos since early 90’s. My dad died in February earlier this year and i binged mainly Little Earthquakes but her discography over and over. Uggh I feel you.
@FilthyOrchid1 same! My dad and my brother died in 2005 and was already a huge Tori fan then but I cry everytime I hear 'Winter' .. always makes me think of my dad ❤️💔
Honestly this was fun i just felt like i was talking to my friend on facetime xD also "now im stuck on an island with a married woman" had me dying Boze xD
this video was healing in a way i cant describe. i hope your journey is safe and you are also healing in the ways you need. heres to your new adventures! and have lotsa fun!!
I love being single! I wasn’t from 17-23, I was in a few long terms and short terms in between. I learned a lot about myself, and I used to just hate being alone. But now I absolutely love it! I’m a single mom so I’m not by myself by myself, but I used to feel like I needed a man around. Now I have a few guy friends who know where we stand, now at 27, I can’t even imagine going thru another relationship where we keep breaking up and going back. Good on u for being mature and not settling or trying to force something that’s not meant to be. Ur still young asf (and hot) so yes hot girl summer it up!! We’re only young once!
Hey bose I js wanna say thank you for being so transparent about ur issues. I wish the best for you & you deserve all the happiness in the world!♥️ I am having a hard time with my own problems but watching this has made me realize that everyone has their own struggles to deal with. Thank you for bringing clarity to me & I hope this podcast helped you vent your feelings out !!❤❤❤ I hope you can get outta the island soon!!
Hey bose I js wanna say thank you for being so transparent about ur problems. I wish the best for you & you deserve all the happiness in the world!♥️ I am having a hard time with my own problems but watching this has made me realize that everyone has their own struggles to deal with. Thank you for bringing clarity to me & I hope this podcast helped you vent your feelings out !!❤❤❤
Lol it's funny cause boze keeps trying to apologize for the problems while just trying to give more info on the story. Hahaha we got you girl no need to explain 😂😂😂
omg okay when you were describing the week and half of going going going and then being done all of the sudden was exactly how i felt when i graduated grad school. literally was doing a licensure exam, finishing my clinical rotation, getting ready for graduation, and applying for jobs all within 2 weeks and then being done after a random afternoon graduation. i literally sat in my car afterwards like 🧍🏽♀️
I would LOVE the Tori Amos, Reznor, Courtney tea! I've always wondered what went on 😂❤ Also, I'm really glad you're having the best holiday!! I love Madeira, it can be a bit pricey though. You can get a ferry from Funchal - it only takes about 2 and a half hours. Then you just have to get back to the airport.
You got me with the blur... I was like is she topless??? Looks like a bathing suit is covering, is it ripples peeking through the bathing suit. What the what... had to start over because I had no clue what you were saying... cracked me up. Was hilarious 😂😂😂
The blur! The drama! I needed it today ❤ but seriously I’m sorry it didn’t work. But single is soooo fun too! We are your council and vent away. It makes us feel normal about ourselves 😊
I just wanna say I’m so glad that you’re getting to go on a little trip and get a break for even just a moment. You do so much and I know that myself and I’m sure many others are so incredibly thankful to be able to watch and enjoy your videos, and maybe even use them as a sense for comfort. I hate how there are so many people with a influential platform on social media feel like they can’t talk or vent about things without having to let us know that they’re not complaining and they’re grateful for what they have or that their problems are first world problems. No matter what, you guys are all humans just as much as the rest of us and no matter what you do or what your job is or who you are or how much money you have or make. You guys all still go through challenges and have obstacles and mental things to go through just like the rest of us. I genuinely hope that you have an amazing trip, are able to get some much needed R&R and can come back feeling good, calm and focused/head strong. Much love and gratitude for all that you do Boze, I appreciate you! 🖤
My dermal rejected as well. One day im cleaning around it and i saw the anchor 😂 it came off pretty easy just keep at it like a loose tooth 😂 theres gonna be a scar with or without surgery
i started watching you when i first started highschool and now i’m in college and the way you describe how the brain works and how to regulate feelings has genuinely saved me and changed me as a person thank you boze ❤
Proud of you B . Also you are human, take your time. Live your life. We won’t ever be this young and beautiful. Do everything that makes you happy & don’t look back ❤️❤️ ✨
YES!! Boze. Go all in on Tori Amos! I lovelovelovelovelove her, since like 7th grade (1993)! I'll pretend I don't already know almost everything about her just to hear it all again from you. I would cherish the episode!
no need to be sorry Bozer, thank you for letting us into your mind and life like this. who knows how much it could even help someone open up. I'm glad you're processing everything you need to as you can. so much love
My first Boze video was the narc mom the first time, it's WILD it's been this long. Self discovery is crazy, it seems like you're doing a great job! Big life changes are trash but it can lead to something a lot better later on. I started therapy a few weeks ago and your content got me though a lot prior to that, I still watch some of the oldies when I'm depressed. So thanks for all that and I'm glad you're doing good though all this!
That intro is hilarious boze 😂 but I am glad you are taking your time with the break-up process and 100% deserve that vacation! I also liked how you talked about your sinister production team and the hard work that goes behind each video! So, thank you Boze and her team! Stay safe from that island fire and take good care of yourself uncle! 🫶
Wishing you all the love and good energy for this new journey in your life! You're killing it, you're beautiful, smart and funny. Do what you need to heal! Best of luck!
I would love to listen to the deep dive of all those musicians! I've enjoyed the previous rants you've done in the past about musicians even though I am not super familiar with any of the bands
BOZE!!!! You’re my favorite TH-camr and I don’t usually comment but just wanted to let you know how much I love and appreciate your work and all the time you and your team put into your content. It definitely shows! Sending love your way as you heal and move on to the next adventure! ❤️
11:31 to 12:34 - libra sun, Gemini moon here 🙋🏻♀️ air sign energy for sure 💯. Especially true if your personal planets and/or a lot of placements are in “introverted” houses, hope that makes sense
Women, myself included, always seem to be like "it's not that bad" and then we go on to describe something that would give someone an absolute banger of a mental breakdown lmao I'm glad you are okay but man you went THROUGH it.
26:09 Before I was watching this I was listening to this song that goes "Keep your nose on the grindstone and out of the pills" so I will continue to forever have this song stuck in my head
I’m not happy for a breakup but I’m happy I’ve got another single person to look up to. It’s kinda hard out here in the singles world and if Boze is single, I’m more comfortable with being single too.
I really enjoyed this podcast episode!! Sorry for your break up and the not so hot girl summer but you're handling it well! I'm sure the rest of the vacation will be fun either way!
I really appreciate all the work you put into Sinister. But I don’t even watch for the true crime, I just like hanging out with you. I’m very glad you exist as a person. Enjoy your time away!
That exhaustion is EXACTLY how I feel at the end of each school year. It takes my teacher brain a whole month to recover....then the 2nd month just seems to fly by and then I'm back to work for another school year😂 SO sorry for your break-up...hope you find your person soon!❤
I'm sorry things didn't work out. It's rough getting through the first couple months after a breakup from a longterm, serious relationship.
I just ended a relationship at the end of March with a two year relationship because he was a serial cheater, I am still having a hard time but it gets easier eventually 😕
@@wolfmenotsame thing happened to me we broke up like 7 months ago. I look back and laugh in embarrassment and disgust of what tf did I even see in him to stay so long lmao. You will get to that point
apparently most people recover from heartbreak in months
@@basharalbutseggs8056 just found out on Sunday that mine was cheating (again) after trying to propose marriage to me and telling me how in love he was. A week before I ship off to basic training… Needless to say I’m sick as hell and don’t know how I’m going to recover this time. I hope I get to the point of being able to be embarrassed, rather than beside myself in depression. :,)
Broke up inn June after 2 years serious dating, living together, and 9 years of friendship. Part of us want to salvage the friendship but oh my god is it so incredibly painful. I still hurt.
I knew that blur was for no reason… I was like "if the shirt was inappropriate, she wouldn’t have recorded in it… so what going on, I don’t see anything."😂 great prank BOZE and Editor!
LMAO SAME, I was watching and as soon as I saw it I started thinking. I was like no way she recorded this whole thing boobs out... It definitely got me haha
You have been my girl crush since day 1 I came across your channel
Im sorry to hear about the breakup, but at the same time it’s comforting to hear that long term relationship breakups are not the end of the world. A lot of times the number of years together or living together creates a sort of barrier/ reason to stay together even if that’s the only thing that still connects you.
Which isnt good because the one thing keeping you together is just going to keep getting bigger (or longer in years) which will then make it so much harder to leave down the road because now the 5 years keeping you together has became 10.
As sad as it may be, It’s reassuring to hear that just because it’s long term, doesn’t mean it’s meant to be. I wish you both the best with your processing and healing journey🫶
Take your time, Boze. Self care, treat yourself, do something that makes you happy. Im glad you're on a trip.
Just started watching. Are you ok? Take care of yourself. As someone who took almost a decade on myself before I met my spouse, be truthful to yourself. You need to be honest with yourself before you can give your best to someone else. We are cheering for you!
That blur made me look more than no blur would have lmao
Lol yes!
Same…🤣
I can’t take anything serious with the blur 😆
“Im getting back with my husband” IM SO WEAK 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
I was staring Soo hard lmao RESPECTFULLY MOTHER BOZE
Lmao same 😂
😂 you got me on the boobie blur!! 😂 I was like oh girl what kinda sexy top do you have on!!?? That was funny,that a very cute tho!! Black is the best color!! Looks great on everyone!! Enjoy ur vacay!! 🥂 🏖️
Same I was like okay now I'm curious! She totally got me 😂
@@jenellenelson4447 😂 yup! Thats Boze tho always playing!! Thats why i love her!!
As someone who's never been in a relationship, never even held hands with someone i liked in a romantic way, and is about to graduate college, this is actually really comforting to see. How amicable it was and how Boze isn't treating this like the end of the world. I was over here convinced i would be alone forever and now i'm realizing this isn't even the start yet. The bs about your 20's being the best years of your life got to me for a minute but fuck that, i'm going to get priorities straight and focus on what matters to me so when i'm in my 30s i can live it up
I had a taste of a "romantic relationship" ( it was mainly long distance) 2 years ago when I was 24. He was awful and I am not saying this in bad faith (he was actually not a good person and had a lot of hate and anger in his veins but I looked past it because I was desperate to have my first boyfriend before my mid 20s). Honestly, neither of us were ready for a relationship and wanted it for all the wrong reasons (he wanted seggs and I just wanted a best friend but we moved things way too fast). The break up was hard for me as he said some hurtful things. I knew immediately he was not for me but those words still hurt and I knew better but did not do better. Fortunately we never slept with each other and I only kissed him once. I haven't dated since and I don't think I ever will given the dating climate in our generation it's awful! You are not missing out I promise, don't rush anything and don't get with someone if you know it won't work the way I did. I look forward to my 30s, I have a few short years to go and I hope to put myself first and cherish it.
I can't be the only one who wishes they could be friends with Boze😂❤️
@Obnoxious_Mama97 there's not many youtubers that I genuinely think, 'she's totally my people and I can see her being one of my best friends' lol like NEVER do I think that. But Boze is just someone I can totally see being in my world with lots of laughs, shenanigans and heart to hearts and rants lol the only thing I can't see is very many debates cuz quire often I have the same opinion as her even lol same taste in lots of different genres of music. And her love for TORI Amos just reinforced that! Ha!
"where do I put my nose" Is so me right now. I am also going through a 3yr relationship breakup that also ended in a "bro were literally just friends" way, and so to cope with that I'm moving across the continent...
Hope this isn't too prying, but with breakups like that, did the passion die or was it you didn't see yourself marrying and having kids with this person?
@@MandyArtGames I am not a person who wants kids or marriage. Also I have a lot of trauma that makes differentiating between romantic and platonic attraction really difficult. I saw myself having a future with this person but it felt way more... roommate-ish. I just liked the company I think. I hope this helps but that's all the explanation I have for myself even.
Take care of yourself Boze. Never think you are complaining. You're just being you and that's why we're here. I adore Tori Amos, she got me through a lot of dark spots in those teen years. I'm actually having one of my good days so sending you super positive energy! Do that nature connect while you're stuck on the island. Silver lining that ish.
@TheTravelingCamellia same! On the TORI AMOS. got to see her live which was amazing. I've sang 'Me and a Gun' on a couple occasions too which was a super vulnerable experience (the scenarios on which I sang it that is)
I just went through a 5-year breakup as well. I thought he was the one but I had been ignoring things that were dealbreakers for me from the start, and finally it came crashing on me. I have diagnosed anxiety and it was at the worst it had ever been in my life (and therapy was helping but could only help so much). It sucks, he was all I knew for years, but after about 3 months I’m finally getting used to life again. Getting closer to friends and rekindling old friendships. It gets better! And now I know I made the right decision. And honestly, when I first heard your story on stream Boze and heard how positive you were about things, it made me feel a little more motivated that things could be better and that I could enjoy life still. I’m happy you’re doing so well uncle! 😂❤
I just wanted to say im sorry about your break up and thank you for posting this.
My cat of 15 years just passed and this is the lil gal chat I needed ❤
U said something in one of your past videos that made me realize something about myself and realize something very important… death by a bunch of paper cuts… if your going through something small or big… it’s ok to feel in general… doesn’t mean it’s any more or less important… it’s your paper cut and if that b*txh hurts then it just does …
The blur was making me laugh this whole time 😅
Girl same! I just went through the exact same thing with my 8 year relationship and while it was hard we are still friends and talk every day. We still share "custody" of our pets and have tons of people in common. I also never thought this was possible because all my previous relationships were also awful. Growing up and growing apart is so bizarre but also a HUGE relief to admit that truth and start moving on... I'm so glad you are coping with this change/loss so well and both of you are acting like adults. Take care of yourself. No matter how it feels now, grief can manifest in stupid/sneaky ways we never assumed for ourselves. Especially for those of us with pre-existing relationship trauma. You're beautiful, inside and out, with so much to look forward to. I hope you feel excited about all the possibilities available to you now.
I was NOT ready for this to go into Tori Amos lore but I'm sooooo excited you discovered her!!!
My parents lived together for like 20 years as roommates because they aren't in love any more but still love each other. They now live separately, but we still all get together for the holidays. It's odd, but it does happen!
Totally on board with the Tori, Alanis, Courtney, Trent, NIN rabbit hole. I’m a little older than you, and was obsessed when all of this was going on. Been obsessed with Tori Amos forever. Love her.
You should sooo do a I got nothin podcast with the researcher and talk about the most shocking things they have found!!! Or talk about cases you guys are I tested in or intrested in covering!!! Or past cases you have covered!!! Also we love you boze!!! Hope you feel a bit better soon! There is always a light at the end of the tunnel! Just take your time!
Not gonna lie. When you said the island. For a minute it took me to work out that you didn’t mean your bed 😂😂
I love that you were open about your disassociation. I do it as well as a trauma response. Im glad our generation is de-stigmatizing mental health awareness & acknowledging these very natural & very human responses
0:34 *puts sunglasses on* thats how we know she means business
Also an aquarius (feb 5) and an astrologer. What I can say about us and from my own experience is that we thrive at being wonderful friends (aquarius actually rules friendships and collective energy). But we are fixed air signs meaning as great as we are at being honest friends and letting people be themselves, we struggle with intimate romantic relationships. We are detached and that makes us gifted at being able to see the world for what it is without our feelings getting in the way...but that in itself makes it hard for us to focus on the needs of the individual. We are humanitarians but notorious for making our partners feel "unspecial" or as if we see them the same as everybody else. And we are so aloof that we don't normally realize we are making them feel that way. Much love to you AquaSis...you'll find what's right for you and you deserve that and more.
Can you speak on the other air sign Gemini ? 😅 it’s fine if it’s a no
I'm also an Aquarius sun (feb 3) but you have to remember that that's only like.. ur corporate boss babe personaliy!!! Don't forget to explore ur rising, moon, mars & venus signs for healing & bettering purposes!
Ex: I'm a Scorpio moon & Pisces rising so I am a really good companion when shit hits the fan, and I can help ppl when they don't even know what they need!
I agree. Feb. 18. Everyone says I’m not nice, but super kind. I just wanna be friendly when I’m out then spend 95 percent of my time learning new random hobbies that I’ll figure out how to do it and move on. Aside from my husband I’m not interested in friends.
I think we feel very deeply and it takes a toll to the point of having spent so much time on everyone else.. that we have to find a way to manage that.
@@chenni4127 Gemini is my personal kryptonite, and I often see Aquarius-Gemini pairs in both romance and friendship. Geminis have a natural gift for communication and, while they may seem unstable, they're actually just open to changing their minds when given a good reason. They're great at attracting partners, but like Aquarius, they can be detached-though in their own way. Geminis can emotionally detach so smoothly that their partner might not even realize it until the relationship is over. Depending on their integrity, Gemini is the sign most likely to lead a double life, especially if they have strong Scorpio influences. Despite this, people are drawn to Geminis for their wit, insight, and their connection to neighbors, coworkers, classmates, and siblings.
@@llamababiezhellyeah I completely agree. The whole chart has to be taken into account. I'm also a Scorpio moon (leo rising though). Do you also feel like your emotions are more intense than other people and you wish you didn't have as many fcks to give as you do? Because that's how I feel but maybe your pisces rising makes you a little more capable than me. lol
My last long term relationship took me almost a year to get over, it's rough man. Take it easy on yourself through this change.
When I disassociate during conversations, I say "oh yeah just thinking, anywhoodle" when asked if I'm good, to move on from myself. I related to that way too much. Love to you boze, ❤
"I know this was a little rambly.." girl I'll listen regardless!
you’ve been my comfort channel through 2 breakups 🥺
take your time and focus on you!
its actually so insane how much work you put into every aspect of your business. I hope you're doing well!!!
I want it ALL! NIN, TOOL, TORI, even Courtney and Alanis! You are speaking to my soul! I've seen all of them so many times I will absolutely need you to do that video!!🤯
@Shugr420 same!! Absolutely speaking to my soul. 💖 I've seen TORI, Tool and NIN too. Would love to see Alanis - don't really care for courtney at all but totally on board for the rabbit hole on TORI etc FOR SURE!
Holy S#!t Boze, take a break... a network season is only 22 weeks, please enjoy your holiday and we will all see you when you are back. Just let us know when you're going and back maybe??? cause I like you 💛
Is this a break up from the "Organization Clean Dude"? Not gonna lie was jealous of a man would loves to clean and organize but if it's not working, it's not working. Happy for you Queen! Stay strong! ...not lonely girl 15... but also never forget LG15, ever.
OCD isn’t something to admire
@Bibblesupremacy1992 I feel like when people think of OCD, they are thinking about ADHDers. I have both and the OCD doesn't necessarily mean you have a cleaning tic. Sometimes it means having a full routine just to lock the door at night. On the other hand when I'm having an ADHD hyper focus day, get out of my way if you don't want a label sticker on your underwear drawer! IYKYK
@@oliviar9808well, her ex has OCD and has a cleaning/organization preference (sorry, not sure what else to call it but want to be respectful).
@oliviar9808 I agree. However, OCD can be that too. OCD can manifest in many ways. I knew obsessive thoughts was a facet BUT until my cousin had visions of having murdered people did I find out that that was also a facet of ocd because that's what he was diagnosed with. The way it was explained to him and his mom in this case was that there isn't a fear of him carrying out a violent act because he wasn't planning the murders and wasn't visualizing the murders themselves but rather the aftermath of it. I never knew that about ocd. My uncle has the worst ocd of anyone I've ever met. He's so focused on what he believes having a happy family and a successful life LOOKS LIKE, that he really doesn't know how to be happy. It's like he has a house of cards in his head that are his thoughts and he's constantly trying to manage his house of cards from collapse. He's very very difficult to please and he's quite often judging everybody and everything around him very intensely. Everything in his house has got to be a certain way and everybody should always conduct themselves in a certain way on his mind. He's very much close minded in many ways due to this. Love him very much but he's very hard to be around for a length of time because of how stressful it is to constantly be knowing that he's scrutinizing every little thing.
And then there's my aunt, whose ocd causes her to have very particular routines. For example, before bed, she walks around her house unplugging everything, checking everything at least twice, getting the cats inside and it's a very specific procedure. Same thing every night. She can't leave things plugged in while she's sleeping because I'm her mind, a fire or something will start.
@tljones0513 yes, obviously both can be true.
Been obsessed with Tori Amos since early 90’s. My dad died in February earlier this year and i binged mainly Little Earthquakes but her discography over and over. Uggh I feel you.
@FilthyOrchid1 same! My dad and my brother died in 2005 and was already a huge Tori fan then but I cry everytime I hear 'Winter' .. always makes me think of my dad ❤️💔
Honestly this was fun i just felt like i was talking to my friend on facetime xD also "now im stuck on an island with a married woman" had me dying Boze xD
this video was healing in a way i cant describe. i hope your journey is safe and you are also healing in the ways you need. heres to your new adventures! and have lotsa fun!!
I love being single! I wasn’t from 17-23, I was in a few long terms and short terms in between. I learned a lot about myself, and I used to just hate being alone. But now I absolutely love it! I’m a single mom so I’m not by myself by myself, but I used to feel like I needed a man around. Now I have a few guy friends who know where we stand, now at 27, I can’t even imagine going thru another relationship where we keep breaking up and going back. Good on u for being mature and not settling or trying to force something that’s not meant to be. Ur still young asf (and hot) so yes hot girl summer it up!! We’re only young once!
Had to literally drop everything just now ✌️😂
Hey bose I js wanna say thank you for being so transparent about ur issues. I wish the best for you & you deserve all the happiness in the world!♥️ I am having a hard time with my own problems but watching this has made me realize that everyone has their own struggles to deal with. Thank you for bringing clarity to me & I hope this podcast helped you vent your feelings out !!❤❤❤ I hope you can get outta the island soon!!
Hey bose I js wanna say thank you for being so transparent about ur problems. I wish the best for you & you deserve all the happiness in the world!♥️ I am having a hard time with my own problems but watching this has made me realize that everyone has their own struggles to deal with. Thank you for bringing clarity to me & I hope this podcast helped you vent your feelings out !!❤❤❤
Going thru a break up rn. Thank you for this post Bose. This gave me some smiles
Yes! Please do an episode on Trent Reznor and Tori Amos!
Ayy gurl, vent your heart out, we're here to listen and vibe. I hope you're able to enjoy your vacation Boze! I'm glad you're here making content!
Lol it's funny cause boze keeps trying to apologize for the problems while just trying to give more info on the story. Hahaha we got you girl no need to explain 😂😂😂
31:51 yes plz do an episode on that !
I second this!
Yes I’m here for it
omg okay when you were describing the week and half of going going going and then being done all of the sudden was exactly how i felt when i graduated grad school.
literally was doing a licensure exam, finishing my clinical rotation, getting ready for graduation, and applying for jobs all within 2 weeks and then being done after a random afternoon graduation. i literally sat in my car afterwards like 🧍🏽♀️
Tori's music has helped me through some tough times too ❤
I would LOVE the Tori Amos, Reznor, Courtney tea! I've always wondered what went on 😂❤
Also, I'm really glad you're having the best holiday!! I love Madeira, it can be a bit pricey though.
You can get a ferry from Funchal - it only takes about 2 and a half hours. Then you just have to get back to the airport.
You got me with the blur... I was like is she topless??? Looks like a bathing suit is covering, is it ripples peeking through the bathing suit. What the what... had to start over because I had no clue what you were saying... cracked me up. Was hilarious 😂😂😂
The blur! The drama! I needed it today ❤ but seriously I’m sorry it didn’t work. But single is soooo fun too! We are your council and vent away. It makes us feel normal about ourselves 😊
I just wanna say I’m so glad that you’re getting to go on a little trip and get a break for even just a moment. You do so much and I know that myself and I’m sure many others are so incredibly thankful to be able to watch and enjoy your videos, and maybe even use them as a sense for comfort. I hate how there are so many people with a influential platform on social media feel like they can’t talk or vent about things without having to let us know that they’re not complaining and they’re grateful for what they have or that their problems are first world problems. No matter what, you guys are all humans just as much as the rest of us and no matter what you do or what your job is or who you are or how much money you have or make. You guys all still go through challenges and have obstacles and mental things to go through just like the rest of us. I genuinely hope that you have an amazing trip, are able to get some much needed R&R and can come back feeling good, calm and focused/head strong. Much love and gratitude for all that you do Boze, I appreciate you! 🖤
i'm so sorry about your breakup, it's hard even if it's right for both parties. 💔
Do the episode on the musicians, PLEASE
🤣🤣🤣 I am literally rolling on the floor laughing. This ending was not what I expected at all!
the boobie blur got me 💀 ngl i stared more with the blur than without. it's like when ppl put an emoji over their pet's butthole or smth like PLEASEEE
Lol same
yeah it'd be easier for her to just wear a shirt if she cared so much.
@@leafyishereisdumbnameakath4259 it was a joke
@@Nari-7022 it was? Where?
u didnt watch the intro she doesn't actually care
My dermal rejected as well. One day im cleaning around it and i saw the anchor 😂 it came off pretty easy just keep at it like a loose tooth 😂 theres gonna be a scar with or without surgery
i started watching you when i first started highschool and now i’m in college and the way you describe how the brain works and how to regulate feelings has genuinely saved me and changed me as a person thank you boze ❤
Proud of you B . Also you are human, take your time. Live your life. We won’t ever be this young and beautiful. Do everything that makes you happy & don’t look back ❤️❤️ ✨
This is the best timed video I ever seen
Lmao the blurr got me really good. I was so shocked. hahahg
this is one of my favorites I Got Nothin’s! Kick your feet up and relax Boze 😎 U deserve it
I’m here for the rabbit hole! I adore all the lore haha love ya bozeee!!! Keep enjoying your vacay!!!
Sorry you’re going through this. Sending good vibes your way!
We love you Boze! ❤️🫂❤️
Boze please go into a deep dive about this artist. I love hearing you ramble on. Please
Wait... She single?
Me: Fixes hair and goatee.
Seriously, sorry things didn't work out. I hope you're well.
Omg I’m from Madeira!!! ❤ Long time viewer, got me geeking out rn that Boze has graced us w her presence lol
YES!! Boze. Go all in on Tori Amos! I lovelovelovelovelove her, since like 7th grade (1993)! I'll pretend I don't already know almost everything about her just to hear it all again from you. I would cherish the episode!
no need to be sorry Bozer, thank you for letting us into your mind and life like this. who knows how much it could even help someone open up. I'm glad you're processing everything you need to as you can. so much love
25:55 "Where do i put my nose?" that moment so beautifully captures my state of mind at this very point in time
Sending you all the good vibes Boze! Stay safe and keep your head up ❤
My first Boze video was the narc mom the first time, it's WILD it's been this long. Self discovery is crazy, it seems like you're doing a great job! Big life changes are trash but it can lead to something a lot better later on. I started therapy a few weeks ago and your content got me though a lot prior to that, I still watch some of the oldies when I'm depressed. So thanks for all that and I'm glad you're doing good though all this!
I have never been this early.
Love you Boze!
That intro is hilarious boze 😂 but I am glad you are taking your time with the break-up process and 100% deserve that vacation! I also liked how you talked about your sinister production team and the hard work that goes behind each video! So, thank you Boze and her team! Stay safe from that island fire and take good care of yourself uncle! 🫶
It's all luxury problems, but luxury has its costs, too mama... Wishing you the best❤
Wishing you all the love and good energy for this new journey in your life! You're killing it, you're beautiful, smart and funny. Do what you need to heal! Best of luck!
Being single is a wonderful thing. Enjoy!!! 😅 I know your heart hurts but it will heal and you will be soooooooo much happier. 🥰
I would love to listen to the deep dive of all those musicians! I've enjoyed the previous rants you've done in the past about musicians even though I am not super familiar with any of the bands
I definitely want to see an episode on Tori Amos, Trent Rezner, Alanis Morissette, etc ALL OF IT!
Loved this vid thank you for sharing ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
BOZE!!!! You’re my favorite TH-camr and I don’t usually comment but just wanted to let you know how much I love and appreciate your work and all the time you and your team put into your content. It definitely shows! Sending love your way as you heal and move on to the next adventure! ❤️
11:31 to 12:34 - libra sun, Gemini moon here 🙋🏻♀️ air sign energy for sure 💯. Especially true if your personal planets and/or a lot of placements are in “introverted” houses, hope that makes sense
Women, myself included, always seem to be like "it's not that bad" and then we go on to describe something that would give someone an absolute banger of a mental breakdown lmao
I'm glad you are okay but man you went THROUGH it.
26:09 Before I was watching this I was listening to this song that goes "Keep your nose on the grindstone and out of the pills" so I will continue to forever have this song stuck in my head
I’m not happy for a breakup but I’m happy I’ve got another single person to look up to. It’s kinda hard out here in the singles world and if Boze is single, I’m more comfortable with being single too.
It makes me so happy the way you talk about my country. I hope you rest because girl you deserve it after those 2 weeks.
I really enjoyed this podcast episode!! Sorry for your break up and the not so hot girl summer but you're handling it well! I'm sure the rest of the vacation will be fun either way!
I really appreciate all the work you put into Sinister. But I don’t even watch for the true crime, I just like hanging out with you. I’m very glad you exist as a person.
Enjoy your time away!
When the blur was there I was like oh okay we in our demure and mindful state 😂
I'm sorry it's been nuts sending love and good vibes!❤
absolutely so a tori amos deep dive! she's so interesting, i also fell down a rabbit hole for her...
I love love love when you speak about the music youre into. Please let us know the tori lore!
That exhaustion is EXACTLY how I feel at the end of each school year. It takes my teacher brain a whole month to recover....then the 2nd month just seems to fly by and then I'm back to work for another school year😂
SO sorry for your break-up...hope you find your person soon!❤
i want that musical rabbit hole vid
Same!!
We need more of this. Please. We love you
Alanis Morisset bailed on my dad for a date in high school we don't talk about her lmaoooo
omfg no wayyyy
@@aliesegilliland yeah hahahah
Yooooo lol that’s wild!
Thats so funny😂😂😂😂
42:09 God willing 🙏🏾
Lol I would L O V E that tori Amos rabbit hole breakdown
I love your rambles I feel crazy when I try to speak but you make it flow I' ❤ watching your videos hope you have a great vacation
I'm so sorry things didn't work out, but I'm glad that it was a mutual and healthy breakup. It sounds like you guys did the right thing.
You're going to get through this 💜 Sending you positive vibes 💜