Man as im scrolling through the comments i noticed that the lofi community is chill af like if we were too meet irl it would just be us people chilling together.
Money Rain_331 it’s a community like this everyone needs. I wish I could meet a lofi fan irl and just sit down and talk. Communicate. That’s all people need sometimes. Is someone to talk to.
This will probably go in noticed but as someone who struggles with anxiety and depression I know life can be shit but we all go through it and the best way to help people out is to talk so any time you feel shit talk to anyone who is willing to take the time to understand it’s worth it trust me
0:06 - 0:25 -"Can I ask you something?" -"Yes?" -"Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?" -"We accept love we think we deserve." -"Can we make them know that they deserve more?" -"We can try." I love this quote. It gon make me cry. 💞
Do you ever feel like u just want to pause life? Like just pause everything for a day to think about everything, and to figure everything out without time having to bother you?
The people in the comment sections of lofi playlists are so caring and beautiful. They’re the type of people who make this earth so beautiful to live in…like… thanks for existing 💖
I know how that feels don’t worry I’m here with you if you’ve gone thru that it sucks to loose someone u love and give all your time too and then they leave well I gotta go to bed now ✨ gn ✨
-Can i ask you something ? -Yea -Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date? -We accept the love we think we deserve. -Do we make them know they deserve more ? -We can try .💙
It’s 5 am, dark. I’m sitting in my room, alone. Even though I’m alone I don’t feel lonely, as this empty air is filled with music and the feelings that constantly lurk over me in my daily life. It’s a comfortable atmosphere, it’s dark but I’m not scared. Even though I would usually be scared of the dark, demons and what not I don’t feel scared at all. Actually, I feel quite relax. I’m not happy but I’m not sad. I’m not angry, annoyed, filled with hatred or any negative emotion. I just feel, nothing but in the best way possible. Not the dreadful nothing of when all your emotions overload and you break down and feel nothing afterwards. It’s the nothing that relaxes you. I may be sitting on my uncomfortable twin bed at 5 am, a small apartment but I feel like I’m somewhere else. I feel as I’m in a small family run cafe, in another world of some sort. It’s raining as I sit by the window, drinking tea as I watch the rain. This music really brings everything out in me, the sadness, the anger, the hatred, but also the joy that really cancels it all out. Is my life sad enough to where music made by someone I don’t know the name of makes me feel serenity? Possibly, but I think I’m okay with that. It’s raining in Paris.
when i listen to this kind of music i can close my eyes and just think of my own world what i would like the world to be like in my head where i can eat sleep live and repeat a stress free life where nobody can judge you break you hate you use you and lie to you i know it sound stupid but i hope people feel the same way
It doesn't "change" your personnality, music that makes you feel them feels is just making you be yourself. It's when you're arround people, when you feel like you've got something to hide that you change personnality.
It's not. Unless you hide who you are, music will just help connect you with different aspects of yourself. Actually art in general will do that. Video games, paintings, movies, books etc.
Because you have no personal identity whatsoever and you are so unsure of yourself that you let a song influence you to the point of becoming an anchor for your shitty persona.
I don't check chill-pop comments to see racist/xenophobic shit though, so as much as paris upsets me as a town let people enjoy it and stop whining about how your dear france is not France anymore suggesting all french people have been or are being replaced by "non french people". You're a disgrace to what humanity should be.
It's BS man, just ignore these shitty comments. People just search for an excuse to be racists piece of trash just because some bad shit happened a few times in their sheltered life and basically it's convenient to blame always the same fucking group of people and put everyone in the same bag. But seriously Paris is way too much romanticized though. In reality it's also a crowded, noisy and quite dirty city too. Most parisians are seen as rude and often shitty people too, and I mean it transcend skin color or origin. There is a lot of places way better in France than Paris.
Reality of fear: You're not scared of dark. It's what's in it. You're not afraid of heights. You're afraid of falling. You're not afraid of the people around you. It's rejection. You're not to love. You're just afraid of being rejected. You're not afraid to let go. You're just afraid of the reality that they're gone. You're not afraid to try again. You're just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.
sometimes you just gotta let yourself be sad man. we spend far too much energy repressing bad feelings so we remain presentable but you gotta pull yourself aside, crank up the melancholy, and let yourself weep for everything bringing you sorrow. once you've finished, you at least have a chance at moving on
maybe, just maybe it's because, we as people, as a society, have attempted to eliminate the beauty of sadness and the comfort of tears. We've been raised in an environment where to cry is to be weak but that's hardly the case. To fear your own tears is weakness but to allow yourself to be open to your emotions and tears is a sign of true strength. People who cry aren't weak, they've just been strong for too long. You can't always be happy and that's ok.
This is my poem. Thank you for reading. R A I N And it finally rained one night in my city. At times when nobody expected it. People complained of it as if it were a vicious entity. But, it cleansed their hearts. The rain drizzled on the window panes, Giving hopes that had no expectations, Washing every guilt away. Crying every drop that we were meant to cry One evening the clouds finally embraced my city; Covering my tear stains, and set me *F R E E* . Edit... OMG?!?! YOU GUYS!! 500+ LIKES? Thank you. I dont even write anymore, but thank you so much❤
Etsube Fassil the “Great Depression” was originally the worst economic downturn of the history and now people use this term to say “they’re sad” that’s all
I really can’t help reminiscing about my past when listening to this. did not look at my likes..n I met this girl about 3 years ago whilst I was on my gap year. My friends and I just arrived in Sydney, Australia and as we were just about to go to our hotel, I met this white haired waiter with ocean eyes in a cafe. I remember how we caught eyes for an instance and everything around us just stood still. We got each others details and nearly every night I would wait outside that cafe until 11:00 pm just to see her and walk her home. I didn’t want her to know I was only there for a couple of weeks so I lied and said my family just moved here. We finally got a whole day together no thanks to the busy schedule she had. We went to a local theme park and the last thing she wanted to go on was the Ferris wheel. I don’t know if she planned it or not but as we got to the top, we could see the sunset simmering down on everything. She turned to me and held my hand, she looked down and said “I really like you, like really really like you”. I knew what she was trying to say so I took a leap and said “I love you too”. She buried her head on my chest and held me tightly as the Ferris wheel took its course... We hung out every chance we got and she even introduced me to her family. I think I broke her heart when I told her I’ll be leaving in a couple of days. She gave me a cold shoulder every time I saw her from then. I told myself that I wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t give me a proper send off, not as boyfriend and girlfriend, but as true lovers so I was shocked to see her waiting for me in the airport. We caught eyes just like the time we first met. She said her farewells and made me promise her that I would come back. It’s been about 3 years now and I’m starting to feel self conscious. I keep on thinking that I have left it too late and she’s moved on but for some reason, I know she’s still waiting. I’ve just graduated from my university in Toronto and I’m planning on surprising her next month. Wish me luck... Update 1: Thank you for all the support. Its confirmed I’m heading back to Sydney in 6 days instead of a month! All of you have motivated me and now I’m much closer to her than I was 4 days ago when I first shared my story, next update will probably be when I’m with her, hopefully. I’ve just brought tickets and I’m heading to LAX on Tuesday next week. If I haven’t updated you all in at least 8 days then I guess it’s safe to say that my experience of feeling lonely, feeling forgotten and feeling ashamed was a lesson to never let your soulmate go, even if you have to go through hell and back. Well, goodbye for now... Update 3: Hello everyone, this will be a short update. Don’t be worried though, yes I’m in Sydney, and no I haven’t been able to meet her yet, this was expected anyway. I went back to the cafe I met her in seeing if she was still working there. Turns out, she quit her job a couple of months after I parted with her 3-4 years ago. Her boss said she just wasn’t the same after I left, she would always turn up late to her shifts and would be rude to customers, I know I’m the cause of that. I went back to her parents house if she was there, when they opened the door they recognised me straight away. Her mother started crying whilst her dad gave me the death stare. He said my full name and gave me a hug. He said after I left, she became more motivated to follow her own dreams so she moved away with only the money she saved up from her work from the cafe. They said she told them she was going Melbourne. I had dinner at their house and we talked about everything that happened to her after I moved away, how she cut her long luscious hair, how she even dyed her hair but dyed it back because she didn’t like it brown, how she completely changed her clothes and how she started smoking for a couple of months but quit because everyone was worried about her. I know I was the cause of everything bad that happened to her. Her parents offered me to stay the night but I told them that I couldn’t burden them anymore, I also apologised to them for leaving their daughter so hastily and giving her false hope. They gave me a hug and told me that she was still waiting for me before waving me goodbye, I hope she is. Well, I’m in a hotel right now and I’m about to leave to go to Melbourne, I missed Sydney, I forgot how beautiful this place was. I keep telling myself that she’s still waiting to ease my mind. Next update will be in a couple of hours. I haven’t lost hope yet. See yall later. Update 4: it’s 3:30am in Melbourne, I’m in bed and right next to me, I can feel her breath bouncing off my skin. I’m holding back the tears and I’m struggling to text through my phone. She hasn’t changed at all... Just to think that around 12 hours a ago, I was doubting myself so much that a part of me wanted to head back home and now, the love of my life is in the same bed as me, we’re so close to touching each others hands, like in 2014. Honestly, I forgot how we met again. I just remember running into the ladies toilets in a car park convincing the girl to get out of the cubicle so she can face me again. I remember crying and smiling at the same time, I remember her punching my chest, calling me selfish whilst tears and her makeup was staining my shirt. I think I’ve never said the word sorry so many times in a minute. But now, all these things don’t matter. Lani is safe, she’s doing well and she’s with me. That’s all. All my efforts feel redeemed, all my doubts turned to happiness, all my worries has turned to just mere thoughts in my mind. I feel balanced. I feel thrilled, I feel like I can finally be at peace with myself. I’ll tell you all how I’m in this situation already in the morning. I’m tired and I just want to enjoy sleep again. Have a good one. Update 5: I guess it really is true that patience is a virtue. Having patience means having some sort of discipline, where you can command yourself to sit there and let time go past; wether it’s a couple of minutes, couple of hours, days, weeks months and even years, having patience will always end in something good. Even if you aren’t the type of person, you’ve read this much and hopefully my experiences have convinced you that something is truly out there, bigger than you or something much more meaningful. Anyways, Lani lives in a 3 bedroom apartment with 2 other people, she didn’t want me to sleep on the couch because one of her friends had sex on it with her boyfriend so I guess I didn’t have much of a choice sharing a bed a with her. It’s no big deal, after our first meet in more than 3 years, it felt like I was still on my gap year, we went to a restaurant to talk about some things. She hasn’t matured, but acts like it. Her sense of humour is still the same, her laugh has always been ugly, sounds uglier if she tries to hide it actually. But she’s developed a real sense of professionalism, which I find so attractive. She’s a primary school teacher and she’s so passionate about it. She also told me her feelings about me have been mixed but she’s starting to slowly revert back to 2014, I don’t know if that’s good or bad but I told her don’t reflect on the past, focus on the future but I’m not leaving you the same way I did 3-4 years ago, she kissed me on the cheek. She said she can see the guilt in my eyes and told me not to worry about it anymore. After that, we went back to her apartment and that was update 4. Nothing really happened yesterday, she said she’ll leave me alone for a while to let me catch up on sleep and work but I don’t want her to. My jet lag is as bad as the state of her room, but I don’t mind. Sorry this update is short. She said she wants me to go to the cinemas with her later, our first date as adults. Peace. (Had to cut update 2 out, it wasn’t important, it was just me rambling on about my troubles).
ばかだ君は bro i had a love story similar like yours but she said “I hated you cuz you’ve lied to me” and she deleted me from his contact but you know what I don’t give a fuck about that while she’s still okay, I’ll be okay 👌 after all I love her so much, however, I miss her Due to she’d been the only one could have touched my heart. Hahahahaha hahahahaha it’s weird to tell this and thanks so much if you read this 😋
But how did you find her in Melbourne ? And you went there but is it a one way trip ? Do you plan on staying with her or will you break her heart once again ?
I live in Paris, rigth now I look through the window, and the sky is grey an cloudy. I don't know if it is going to rain soon. But I listen to your mix, and I see some birds flying high underneath the clouds. I feel that strange sort of happiness when you're alone with yourself, and I like those clouds and cherish them for the instant they give me along with your tracks. Thank you bootleg boy.
yes, its the sounds of the unknown when your heart has just shattered.. and the style of the dj's playing out the the songs and troubles of the day!, to express the sounds of i'm sorry! And I miss you, and I still wait even though I know you arent comming back or looking!! just the Silent death of the gloomy sky's and the solitude of Alone. but .. the music brings the love and the positive, of maybe there is someone for you! don't give up .. Lesson's learned of what not , and how it feels,TO HUMBLE YOURSELF.. MUSIC IF YOU CAN LOOK AT YOU AND THE MISTAKES.... WE MADE TO CAUSE THE PAIN, OR HOW WE FEEL .. MUSIC CAN SAY A BILLION MORE THAN ANY PICTURE , LETTER, OR ANYTHING.. SEND THIS TO THE ONE YOU MISS!!
"I really really really really wish I could go back in time. There are a couple of wrongs I have to right, and there are a couple of moments I have to relive."
You gained more than you regret. Meaning that you went through a hardship that become an experience. It's up to you not to ran that race again. You have the still to create better for yourself.
does anyone else come here at 3am, read through all the comments while silently head bopping, whole body feeling heavy as you hear the music understand all the feelings you are too afraid to admit out loud?
Hell yeah !!! Fuck Ive been dealing with depression and i had a girl who helped me through a lot she ment the hole world to me i wanted to Kill myself and She stoped me from doing it she Said that She was here for me that She was never going to Leave me and a week ago she stoped talking and now if she reads my texts Im lucky Ive tried asking her to come back but She Said that she has a life and that i was boring her 😞 I want her to come back soo bad I miss her soo much i have so many memories with her so many pictures smiling with her i truly Loved her as a friend and it hurts like hell not having my friend my everithing 😖 Plz! Come back I need you and i love you as a friend! MISS YOU !!! ❤⭐#7 Inês
Every night. Im in every comment, just letting people know how much I hate myself, and showing how pathetic I am, showing that the world is really finally breaking me.
Hey you. Yeah you. Whoever you are, I hope you are alright. And if you aren't.... You're gonna be okay. I don't even know you but... I love you 💙 *hug* (EDIT) For the people that dont believe me, you dont have to. Just know that I say what i say with the purest of intent. I love all of you regardless of who you are. If you're a decent person just trying to make it in this world... If you haven't hurt animals, people, or their families... I love you. If you had a bad past and youre trying not to recreate your same mistakes, and succeeding at creating better things, I'm proud of you and guess what... I love you as well. Every single one of you deserve a fucking hug.
It's from the movie the perks of being a wallflower. it's really good but can get confusing at times so I would recommend reading the book before watching the movie but they're both amazing so I would definitely watch or read them if you get the chance
It's impressive how music can affect you personally. Everytime I'm hearing some hard epic metal, I feel like I'm invincible and It's almost like nothing could defeat me. But every time, around midnight, when I'm chilling on some lofi hip-hop, with the rain pouring outside and smashing against my window, It change my mood in a way words will never be able to describe. A feeling of happiness, nostalgia, relaxation, emptiness and sadness mixed together in my inner soul for the time of this mix. It's almost like every music I'm hearing is connected to a feel or a memory. Music really is something awesome that will affect me like nothing else could ever be able to for the rest of my life. "A life without music is like a burger without pickles. Eatable but tasteless."
it's what i feel,what everyone feels,the last song makes me feel happy but at the same time i feel sad,like...lonely,i understand no one is perfect but...i tried to save some friendships but in the end...they go,they get to busy or find better friends or just i bother them,always i help my best friends for make smiles and that but sometimes i wish have the same thing,i mean....not everyone have a good day and we need a talk,a hug and trow away the bad feelings,sometimes we are happy and excited for talk about our day with somone but sometimes people don't have the time or sometimes they don't care and we feel sad and lonely,i have good friends but sometimes i don't feel enough in some stuff and when i do a mistakes in a work or something i feel useless,a shame,im afraid to fail because i don't want feel useless...i just want to help but i feel insecure of myself,im sorry for not be like other people,sorry for not be what you really want,but after all the sadness inside...i keep going and smile again
I genuinely love lofi... And it's community So much love and care That can't be found elsewhere So many broken souls But here's a bed of rose For us to take a break For our sanity's sake Lest we take a wrong turn in life Go somewhere we can't revive Not all hope is lost We are not without cost It's always the darkest before dawn When the sun rises these troubles shall be gone We are worthy Let's struggle and live With much love This short poem i serve ♥️
The fact that it's been almost 3 years since I last listened to this masterful piece, and it's raining outside as well, what a perfect time to remember you all...
I wanna thank the comment section for saving me ik u don't know me but reading them and hearing "I love you" is what I needed to hear thank you and I might not know u but I love you aswell
“Hey.” “What are you still doing awake?” “Oh...one of those nights, hmm?” “Well, don’t worry. We both know that these nights come and go. It might not seem like it now, but they always do.” “Hmm?” “You want me to stay with you?” “Of course I’ll stay. Here, I have some music. You listen to music to sleep, right? Just relax and take some deep breaths. Listen to the silence and the calm. I won’t leave.” “Goodnight. I’ll see you in the morning. I promise.”
I have been listening to this when it first came out. I needed music to listen to when I’m studying but now is just listening to it cause it’s so calm and passionate
That 's freak ing sad, but amusing and nostalgic, at the same time. It's like I was about to cry and smile, but nothing is in fact solid. Man, I can't truly understand the power of music.
Agustin Ramirez The seperation of people and things can be difficult, keep those memories, hold the parts of you that you have, and live on to make better and more memorable parts .
To that one soul reading this. I know you're tired, You're fed up, You're so close to breaking but there's strength within you, even when you feel weak. Keep fighting.
This lofi gives me bad memories from the time i wanted too end my life. I listened too this every night while I cried myself too sleep, if I came out of a really bad depression to the point where I wouldn’t eat or shower you are capable of that too!!
Never underestimate the importance you have. I’d happily listen to you, just reply. And since 3 months have passes since your comment, I hope you’re having it great and have come to peace with yourself.
@@abigabbas1886 hi, thank you so much. I’m doing better ❤️ everything begun with when I moved away from my home where I grew up in, with all of my close friends. The new house was dark and it really didn’t feel like home, I tried to make my new room look cozy and feel safe but it just didn’t turn out how I thought it would. I’d also noticed my best friends would distance themselves from me and not wanting too hang out anymore or talk to me, that’s when I got badly depressed, I was so lonely and I didn’t have anyone anymore. I was mad, sad and miserable in that dark room of mine. After 1 month or 2 I realized I was in love with my best friend (me and her were the closest friends in the group). I started to spam her with messages every single day and just wanted everything to go back too normal and just hang out again. But I hadn’t realized they didn’t want the same and they had already moved on from me switching school and moving away from them. But I was far from okay with that, I didn’t let HER go I was like so obsessed with the thought of us being together again (like summer). after 4 months of living in that house we moved back to our town because my mom saw how sad I was. I began to hang out with the girl and the group again and everything was just so good. (We don’t hang out anymore, this was in 2018/2019)
@@Unknown-du3or Hey! I am glad you’re fine. I hope you’ve realised how insignificant were the things that made you feel miserable and depressed. Exercise gratitude as cliche as it sounds... Just remember each morning, that your mom made your family move back, because you felt bad in the new city. You may not know, but maybe she liked the new place. It is her and your father who will stick by you. The last thing they’d want is you to be a wreck. As for your friends, you should be patient so you could assess who deserves your mental health. So, I am glad you’re good. Don’t spoil your mind with miserable thoughts and depression. Now... have a nice day/evening!
@@kylespringsrandomguy Thanks, when I posted that I had just got out of an abusive relationship and lost all my friends because they were her friends too.... I'm much better now.
@@corpsesdontstaydead.5376 Absolutely happy to hear that. I dont know you, and you dont know me, but its absolutely incredible to know that across the world one person can care about another.
I got out of an abusive relationship too, and even though my friends didn’t leave me, most of them don’t know what happened. And I feel like I should warn them, yet I’m still scared of what my ex would do if he heard, so yeah, I’m okish but still suffering
I really love listening to these beats and just reading these amazing comments. I feel like this community is where I really belong lol. Everyone is so chill and just appreciates music for music. They appreciate people for people. I think that can be the beauty in the internet sometimes. In cases like these we dont see people we feel their emotions through words which connects us with them on a different level. Here people aren't scared of things like, "oh if I say this in real life, if i express my emotions, then maybe someone will judge me." But no. Its amazing to just see and read the amazing things people can put into words. Truly a great community you've made here Bootleg. Cheers.
Daamn that really hit me deep, I have a lot of friends but noone of them really knows me deeply, but Idc, as it is me who doesn't want to tell anybody, maybe because I dont find a reason to do so, maybe because they wont understand me, idk. There was this time I got on well with a girl, she was mature (or thats what I thought back then), funny and really beautiful. She was the only to whom I told my entire life, my dreams, my insecurities, my problems, etc. After some weeks of knowing each other well, she confessed she loved me, and so did I. It was a wide mix of emotions in a short time, as it lasted 2-3 weeks before she stopped talking to me, even when I told her to met up for the last time to end it up. She didnt even answer. Later I found out she had been meeting another guy when she stopped talking to me. Since then, I've been trying to find another love, but it's hard. I just wanna have someone to talk to, having deep conversations, etc. It's been 6 months since, and now I like girl who's 4 years older than me. Bullshit, as I know I'll never get her, nor it world work with such an age gap (she's 21, going go the university, and I'm still at highschool)
Ricardo damn you’ve just described my life lol, like literally. It so tough being that type of a guy. I am a very introvert guy but you won’t notice it. I’ve had never opened up to someone who was not part of my family, let alone a girl. Most of the people just see me as a sort of funny guy, who is like always happy (as it seems). There is/was just this one girl that i really really like and she is just so perfect to me. Its been 2 years since i know her and since that there is not one day of me not thinking of her. We’re now like really close friends and she tells me everything and i tell her everything too. We talk everyday, the whole day and not just as friends i think. Like 1.5 year ago she liked me back and confessed it to me. A month after that she just disappeared and went back to her ex. I was so confused. Now she is just dating other guys and I am more of a ‘really good friend who you can have deep conversations with’ and that just sucks. I really want to move on but i simply can’t, she means so much to me. I don’t know what to do anymore (Thanks for reading the whole story if you did and sorry if my English is bad haha) I hope things get better for you my man, you deserve a better girl. Bless you
It was a day in December 2019, when I stayed in a small Airbnb above the roofs of Paris. One night at 1 am , it started raining like hell and it reminded me of this video. So I put my headphones on, searched for this video on TH-cam and opened the window. With the Eiffel Tower in sight, the rain dripping on the roofs and the music in my ears I realized, that this is a moment I will always remember. I was literally experiencing "RAINING IN P A R I S".
the way i listen to lofi hip hop is laying down in bed, snuggled up in blankets with a box of tissues to wipe your tears with, headphones, at midnight, in the darkness and eyes closed it really gives me the feels ya noe
@@andreitheman hey, never knock it til ya try it bud and if ya did try it then, maybe it isn't your cup of tea but, it's my way of relieving my stress :P
Sometimes when everything falls asleep at night, I start to listen to this and just go through the nice and peaceful comments. as much as 2020 isn’t the luckiest year so far.. I can tell that 2021 will be our year.
@@azumierorita5638 happy new year. im still here after all this time and its been heck of a year. i hope you have a wonderful new year and god bless you :) ill come back again
I had hopes for it being a good year and then I realised ... it doesn’t have to be. I can make it a good year just like you can. Sometimes the outside world doesn’t need to matter but the inside does and you just need to be there for yourself for it to be an amazing year, and either way shitty years teach us a lot, promise me, I know what I’m talking about. Hell is just an early heaven if that makes sense, probably not. Idk I’m rlly just writing my mind and putting it out there without filtering it because I discovered lo-if recently and this community just makes me feel so at home like i’m finally starting to find myself and I still care what people think and that’s ok because I’m who I am because I went to hell and I’m on my way to heaven bc I’ve decided to go there and I’m gonna have a lot more shitty days and I know it but in the end life is meaningless which makes it all the more beautiful bc we don’t need to be here but we are and we are for reasons unbeknownst to us but we’re here and we’re living and breathing and if that isn’t something then ...
I’m late.... But there’s this girl, Im 19 btw. She’s everything I need in a girl. Shes sweet, pretty, funny, mature. But she is depressed and doesn’t want to bring me into that with her. I miss her every day. She was perfect.
whats the point in life we all die at some point in 100 years no one will remember you unless you're some pop star celebrity in the end, nothing matters life ends we end everything comes to an end whether its happy or not do you remember? childhood everything was so simple and easy yet you always hated it at the time when you couldn't wait to be an adult and have no more math homework do you remember? trying to impress other people if you arent good enough, whats the point? what if people dont like you? what if you are different? what if theres no point at one point we all have to say goodbye to happiness to joy to friends to family to beloved pets or animals or anything say goodbye to all hope when depression takes over everything is numb why cant i feel anything why dont you love me whats wrong with me why do you like me why am i different why am i the same to everyone else why dont i have friends why do people wish death on me why is life so cruel why doesnt anyone have any love in them why are you asking so many questions? does it matter in the end? does anyone matter does life matter im not okay you arent either are you alright? when was the last time someone asked if you were alright take a long think done? does anyone love you do they? no? why? why doesnt anyone like you? am i a fool? are you a fool? are we all fools? life is a fool we are all destroyed mentally physically are you ok? do you need help? are you doing this for attention? either way, i love you.
I think it was a few days before chirstmas yeah it was, i think it was the 23rd of 2017. I was so excited to call you and wish you merry christmas, that it'd be our 5th one together our first one without our best friend. yeah I couldn't believe he was gone now either i guess cancer does that to people. i was gonna call you early that day. i was sitting at the dinner table, Sofi was laughing across from me. i knew you were wishing you didn't have to spend this christmas without him, but i never thought you'd be able to follow through. i got the text from your mom. she said it was you and your brother. i asked what, did you try eating windex again? turned out he couldn't hold himself together, the fighting of your parents pushing himself over the edge. it was on the street corner. he drove the car into the road infront of that truck. i'll never forgive him for that. but i forgive you for being okay with it. I was told you died instantly after going through the glass of that cafe. i hope you didn't feel anything. but now i guess it's just me. you and tim are gone during the same year. how can i ever forget you? I still check my phone for your texts. you'r brother survived. now he's living in a mental institution. he wont talk to me. he can't stand to look at my face after what he's done. christmas is coming soon. a few months from now. it's 2018. you never spent a christmas without our best friend. now i'm spending my second without both of you. you told me that when we die of old age, i shouldn't try to follow you. that it was a marvelous thing- death is. i'm living for the both of you now, on my own. I want to follow you. i feel like it's a mistake i'm still here, you were just 14. we joked about death like it couldn't touch us. i guess it got mad and gave us a hug. be in heaven a half hour before the devil knows your dead. i love you both. i'll go to harvard and make a life for all of us.
Leo Walker you must be so strong going through all that, it’s the worst feeling losing someone you love, but remember your not alone, i’m always free to talk. i hope you eventually do make it to harvard, and that your life gets better.
To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life. 🙏
12:05 AM, in the driveway, inside my car...listining to this, and thinking about the many failures, the quite sorrow of being around people but still feeling disconnected.
That’s the hardest oart seeing everyone enjoy themselves, having genuine relationships, growing as people, and yet here I am. just drifting endlessly. Wanting to be better, real and to feel, love, now it’s all but a distant memory, I wish I could fall asleep crying, too bad my brain spends too much energy going crazy, being anxious and throwing more insults at myself, because what am I good at? Nothing. Where has being nice gotten me? NOWHERE. Why am I treated like this, why don’t people care about me?
so weird how the first few seconds of this video will always manage to pull me back to the time 5 years ago when this was the only thing i was able to fall asleep to. nothing good stays forever, and neither does anything bad. take care of yourselves
Why people always complaining about rain? I like rain so much, everybody is complaining about it when its raining. I am always happy if it is raining, only not when im on the bike and I need to bicyle long to achieve the place where I am going hhhhh. My partner loves it also. It is really realexing. Rain means Blessings in islam . Every rain drop is being dropped by an Angel in the Universe and that Angel will never drop a rain drop again. There are so many angels! You can think wow what a deep or stupid thing, but think about it. If u want to know more, you are welcome.
I used to come here often to chill, back then life was so much easier. I was such an asshole to people that I love. I would loose my shit and treat them bad because I didn't know what to do with my own problems, I didn't know what to do with the result of my behavier. Today I'm alone, a lot of people left, some I didn't mind, since they were where just because I was sociable. But the one person that I lost, makes this whole thing worst. I lost the love of my life, the one person that was by my side everyday and did everything so we could be togheter. This is the part that hurts the most, all my life she was the only person that was honest to me and now she is gone, all my fault. I'm once again here, same video, new feelings and experiences. Its not possible to say everythig thru a comment, but thank you if you read. hope for the best for you. cheers.
I miss my wife so much... I was the same way... and I made it so hard to love me... but it was me. It was my fault I lost her... and now I get to see her in my children and that’s so hard... they have her hands and eyes... smile... lips. Now I have to watch her grow happy with someone else and I’ll never forgive myself.
I had a dream where i saw all my friends i had, until after i blink they disappeared. The dream continued with me going alone to school, and the school was empty... Possibly implying that i did not have a chance anymore or possibly implying that i already gave up, as even surrounded by people, i never really paid attention to them, i just lay my eyes at the board... I woke up sad. I realized they don't talk to me because of my weird behavior in communicating, a teacher said to my mom she noticed signs of autism in me.
@@ievka.4163 no. you are not a monster. you are a damaged soul in a cruel world just as i. we are only human. we are so human. nothing less nothing more. we live even tho we dont want to. some die even tho they just want to live. there is no solution. life is without resolution. we can only make of it what we can. we must ask ourselves what we really want in life since we are stuck with it. you must trust in me when i tell you its alright. its alright tonight.
that cut me quite deep. Now i know why I have been having so many convos with them in my mind. Dreaming about them makes me escape from the reality that they aren't there
@@andreitheman Look here everybody in the comments (except you) is trying to help other people get better, wishing everyone good luck,telling hotlines for people... If you feel uncomfortable then,don't look at the comment section. Please stop...
@@Laflacak444 the person is telling facts though. I've been lied and betrayed by many folks who told me they "love" me. Were looking into the world that is always saying "I love you" but were not honest about that. I honestly don't appreciate y'all telling lies to everyone else. It's better off to be real, than being loved. This comment section is full of "love" that turns into "hate."
@@nayeon1688 alright but theres white lies right? some people might feel really good reading this comment section, it isn't necessarily a bad lie so im not sure what you mean
Lay down Close your eyes Feel the ground beneath you Like it’s a cloud lifting you up Soaring above the blue city at night Slowly, slowly drifting over it Cold breezes lifts your hair once in a while You see cars on the highway like drips of water on the window You never have to come down It’s raining, and the drops are cold and calming When you sigh, the cloud blows like vapor And then it goes back You’re still drifting across the city You’ve crossed a few buildings now They’re so far below you They’re so meaningless But so beautiful You’re floating Floating Drifting
I feel like laying down in the middle of my street, while the rain just pours on me. Not caring if a car comes. Not caring if someone tells me to go home. Just simply Listening to this playlist, thinking about you.
then do that instead of writing about thinking to do that in here to gain attention. cuz at the end of the day you dont have the guts to lay on the streets like that.
Hey thank you, I'm surviving but everyone is surviving right? It just how we survive and in my case I'm surviving not how the society excepts me to survive. greetings from germany
@@morgannord679 i actually have another one too! its called The Black Cat: across the rooftops, down into the alley, the black cat pads on silent paws, disappearing into the night
i don’t care if one person reads this or a thousand people like it. i just need to write it down and tell people who won’t share it with all of my other friends. here we go. i have two “stories”. 1) my “mental health”. i don’t really like using that term because it seems like i have anxiety or depression, which i don’t. very recently my mom and i have been getting in bad fights and i get panic attacks from how angry and annoyed i get. lofi music helps a ton with that so thank god i discovered this :) but i keep thinking about if this is just temporary or could possibly get worse. my mom (she did it last year so knew about it already) put me in this brain treatment where they sync up my brain waves and stuff. (not gonna go too much into detail, it’s hard to explain). but i hated it. i don’t know why - it was relaxing and requires little effort, but i think i didn’t like being alone with my thoughts, but i don’t want to tell that to my mom or the doctors there. so idk. the treatment is supposed to help with sleep, and sleep helps me with everything, but i just can never sleep. but school has been stressing me the fuck out to the point where i want to drop out of all my honors classes and just let myself fail, even though i know that’s not really an option right now. everything sorta ties together - i’m stressed, then i get annoyed from my parents for no reason, then i have this homework that i can’t do because i’m so angry and stressed, i lose sleep over that, i get depressed and hate myself for feeling like this, then i lose sleep over that, and it’s just basically an endless cycle that i don’t really know how to explain. i’m kind of in the middle of this but i feel like i’ll figure it out soon enough. i’ll be done with this one now. 2) sexuality. opposite to lots of other schools, almost half of my “friend group” is bi/gay, which would make “coming out” (i put that in quotations bc idk if i’m even in the closet) super easy. but not, because i don’t know if i’m influenced by them without knowing it. i don’t know if i have feelings for two of my close friends (one is gay & in a relationship) or just love them a lot as friends, which i do. sexuality is hard for so many people, but i don’t know if i can even identify myself as being bi, or if it’s “just a phase”. one of the reasons i feel bi is because i feel like if i had a relationship with a girl, it would be so much better than with a middle school boy because i would feel like i can relate to a girl so much more and be closer with her and have a real relationship. i don’t know if i just need to wait to get out of middle school for more mature boys or if i actually feel this way. thank you for reading this, if you did. it’s not depression or suicidal thoughts or loneliness or someone dying, but it is one of the many things that could go wrong. like i said, i just wanted to get this written down and told to others just so i can make some sense out of it. 🖤
elise torp hey uhm I just wanted to say Ik some people probably read half of it and didn’t read the rest or some people didn’t read it at all. But all I wanted to say that it doesn’t matter bc of them of who read it and who didn’t I would like to let u know that it’ll get better for you know ur health but yea don’t be sad bc whatever your going through it’ll pass. Stay happy and positive:)!!
I hope it will get better! And I'm bi myself, and it took me more than half a year to completely figure it out. Take your time. You should come out (if u need to) when you feel comfortable with it.
your sexuality and labels can change over time lovely. it's ok to not know everything yet. you're allowed to change your mind and choose to be with whoever you want to. it's ok to realize you're actually straight. experiment, have fun and don't feel pressured to "come out".
I really can’t help reminiscing about my past when listening to this. I met this girl about 3 years ago whilst I was on my gap year. My friends and I just arrived in Sydney, Australia and as we were just about to go to our hotel, I met this white haired waiter with ocean eyes in a cafe. I remember how we caught eyes for an instance and everything around us just stood still. We got each others details and nearly every night I would wait outside that cafe until 11:00 pm just to see her and walk her home. I didn’t want her to know I was only there for a couple of weeks so I lied and said my family just moved here. We finally got a whole day together no thanks to the busy schedule she had. We went to a local theme park and the last thing she wanted to go on was the Ferris wheel. I don’t know if she planned it or not but as we got to the top, we could see the sunset simmering down on everything. She turned to me and held my hand, she looked down and said “I really like you, like really really like you”. I knew what she was trying to say so I took a leap and said “I love you too”. She buried her head on my chest and held me tightly as the Ferris wheel took its course... We hung out every chance we got and she even introduced me to her family. I think I broke her heart when I told her I’ll be leaving in a couple of days. She gave me a cold shoulder every time I saw her from then. I told myself that I wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t give me a proper send off, not as boyfriend and girlfriend, but as true lovers so I was shocked to see her waiting for me in the airport. We caught eyes just like the time we first met. She said her farewells and made me promise her that I would come back. It’s been about 3 years now and I’m starting to feel self conscious. I keep on thinking that I have left it too late and she’s moved on but for some reason, I know she’s still waiting. I’ve just graduated from my university in Toronto and I’m planning on surprising her next month. Wish me luck... Update 1: Thank you for all the support. Its confirmed I’m heading back to Sydney in 6 days instead of a month! All of you have motivated me and now I’m much closer to her than I was 4 days ago when I first shared my story, next update will probably be when I’m with her, hopefully. I’ve just brought tickets and I’m heading to LAX on Tuesday next week. If I haven’t updated you all in at least 8 days then I guess it’s safe to say that my experience of feeling lonely, feeling forgotten and feeling ashamed was a lesson to never let your soulmate go, even if you have to go through hell and back. Well, goodbye for now... Update 3: Hello everyone, this will be a short update. Don’t be worried though, yes I’m in Sydney, and no I haven’t been able to meet her yet, this was expected anyway. I went back to the cafe I met her in seeing if she was still working there. Turns out, she quit her job a couple of months after I parted with her 3-4 years ago. Her boss said she just wasn’t the same after I left, she would always turn up late to her shifts and would be rude to customers, I know I’m the cause of that. I went back to her parents house if she was there, when they opened the door they recognised me straight away. Her mother started crying whilst her dad gave me the death stare. He said my full name and gave me a hug. He said after I left, she became more motivated to follow her own dreams so she moved away with only the money she saved up from her work from the cafe. They said she told them she was going Melbourne. I had dinner at their house and we talked about everything that happened to her after I moved away, how she cut her long luscious hair, how she even dyed her hair but dyed it back because she didn’t like it brown, how she completely changed her clothes and how she started smoking for a couple of months but quit because everyone was worried about her. I know I was the cause of everything bad that happened to her. Her parents offered me to stay the night but I told them that I couldn’t burden them anymore, I also apologised to them for leaving their daughter so hastily and giving her false hope. They gave me a hug and told me that she was still waiting for me before waving me goodbye, I hope she is. Well, I’m in a hotel right now and I’m about to leave to go to Melbourne, I missed Sydney, I forgot how beautiful this place was. I keep telling myself that she’s still waiting to ease my mind. Next update will be in a couple of hours. I haven’t lost hope yet. See yall later. Update 4: it’s 3:30am in Melbourne, I’m in bed and right next to me, I can feel her breath bouncing off my skin. I’m holding back the tears and I’m struggling to text through my phone. She hasn’t changed at all... Just to think that around 12 hours a ago, I was doubting myself so much that a part of me wanted to head back home and now, the love of my life is in the same bed as me, we’re so close to touching each others hands, like in 2014. Honestly, I forgot how we met again. I just remember running into the ladies toilets in a car park convincing the girl to get out of the cubicle so she can face me again. I remember crying and smiling at the same time, I remember her punching my chest, calling me selfish whilst tears and her makeup was staining my shirt. I think I’ve never said the word sorry so many times in a minute. But now, all these things don’t matter. Lani is safe, she’s doing well and she’s with me. That’s all. All my efforts feel redeemed, all my doubts turned to happiness, all my worries has turned to just mere thoughts in my mind. I feel balanced. I feel thrilled, I feel like I can finally be at peace with myself. I’ll tell you all how I’m in this situation already in the morning. I’m tired and I just want to enjoy sleep again. Have a good one. Update 5: I guess it really is true that patience is a virtue. Having patience means having some sort of discipline, where you can command yourself to sit there and let time go past; wether it’s a couple of minutes, couple of hours, days, weeks months and even years, having patience will always end in something good. Even if you aren’t the type of person, you’ve read this much and hopefully my experiences have convinced you that something is truly out there, bigger than you or something much more meaningful. Anyways, Lani lives in a 3 bedroom apartment with 2 other people, she didn’t want me to sleep on the couch because one of her friends had sex on it with her boyfriend so I guess I didn’t have much of a choice sharing a bed a with her. It’s no big deal, after our first meet in more than 3 years, it felt like I was still on my gap year, we went to a restaurant to talk about some things. She hasn’t matured, but acts like it. Her sense of humour is still the same, her laugh has always been ugly, sounds uglier if she tries to hide it actually. But she’s developed a real sense of professionalism, which I find so attractive. She’s a primary school teacher and she’s so passionate about it. She also told me her feelings about me have been mixed but she’s starting to slowly revert back to 2014, I don’t know if that’s good or bad but I told her don’t reflect on the past, focus on the future but I’m not leaving you the same way I did 3-4 years ago, she kissed me on the cheek. She said she can see the guilt in my eyes and told me not to worry about it anymore. After that, we went back to her apartment and that was update 4. Nothing really happened yesterday, she said she’ll leave me alone for a while to let me catch up on sleep and work but I don’t want her to. My jet lag is as bad as the state of her room, but I don’t mind. Sorry this update is short. She said she wants me to go to the cinemas with her later, our first date as adults. Peace. (Had to cut update 2 out, it wasn’t important, it was just me rambling on about my troubles).
Heavy breathing. Faint sounds. True love to always be found. You make me smile happy then I could ever be, I couldn't agree more on how much I want you to be with me, I guarantee it'll all be fine. Time goes by fast, live your life to the fullest, and don't get that bullet.
RAINING IN PARIS has SAVED my life. It calms my mind and makes me understand what I need to do. I opened up to myself and understood that I had to take action now. Raining in Paris brought feelings of nostalgia, since I remember when I visited Paris. I've cried, I've been hurt, I've hurt people, etc. However, Raining in Paris gives me clarity of mind, so I visualize my future and examine what would be the life I'd like to live, understanding that is so achievable.. Raining in Paris is a Master Piece. So much Love to all reading this.
The second episode of the RAINING series 💕
Listen on Spotify - spoti.fi/40Wg75i
the bootleg boy im not ready for these feels, bootleg. But im glad you made the video.
the bootleg boy 200k man, my inspiration of my life
I really love this series!!! Please make more!!!!
Nice idea of a series dude! Keeping it interesting you know? :D
Please do a raining in LOS ANGELES!
Man as im scrolling through the comments i noticed that the lofi community is chill af like if we were too meet irl it would just be us people chilling together.
Money Rain_331 it’s a community like this everyone needs. I wish I could meet a lofi fan irl and just sit down and talk. Communicate. That’s all people need sometimes. Is someone to talk to.
@@zionisgone yeah me too... but i live in russia lol
Me too but i live in France
You mean soft AF, it feels like it's full of aimless depressed people in here
Yea, simply because all 9 year olds are playing fortnight and only later on in life notice how bad life can sometimes strike.
"We accept the love we think we deserve."
This made me cry.
Kevin Coleman *yep*
@@Linqfae. same
if you want to know where it's from, it's from Perks of Being a Wallflower
I'm sad
@@gia2746 Let it out.
it genuinely makes me cry to see how supportive people are in the comments
Its the lofi community
I hope you are doing good and if you aren't I hope things get better and I hope you'll be okay. I love u🥺💙
This will probably go in noticed but as someone who struggles with anxiety and depression I know life can be shit but we all go through it and the best way to help people out is to talk so any time you feel shit talk to anyone who is willing to take the time to understand it’s worth it trust me
This is because bootleg boy makes every listener satisfy
People in this face of yt is very kind
0:06 - 0:25
-"Can I ask you something?"
-"Yes?"
-"Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?"
-"We accept love we think we deserve."
-"Can we make them know that they deserve more?"
-"We can try."
I love this quote. It gon make me cry. 💞
We dont always get the love we deserve- but, in retrospect, we dont always deserve the people we love.
from perks of being a wallflower, really good movie
thanks for the lirycs i wasn't understanding the final part
@@aaagabe heard it was good too
Wow eternal respect 👏 to you.Peace, love and blessings take care.
Do you ever feel like u just want to pause life? Like just pause everything for a day to think about everything, and to figure everything out without time having to bother you?
Time is our major enemy
@@julianbenitez7356 I would say closed minds more than time. At least we KNOW time isn't on our side.
yes...
damn i've never related to a comment more in my life
I feel you
lo-fi was the best thing to happen to me in 2018
Dude,SAME
mood
Me too
J’suis sûr que tu vaut plus qu’un camion poubelle :)
The real question is how long has Lofi been around? Also why my google home says Lowfee...
The people in the comment sections of lofi playlists are so caring and beautiful. They’re the type of people who make this earth so beautiful to live in…like… thanks for existing 💖
I know! I just want to be friends with all of these people man
Ew gey
Chavela not all of them, some come just to laugh at depressed people ;-;
@@blitzy7742 lol
AEBRUHAM BLINKOLN it’s true lol
"The saddest part is when the person who gave you the best memories becomes a memory."
- Anonymous
I know how that feels don’t worry I’m here with you if you’ve gone thru that it sucks to loose someone u love and give all your time too and then they leave well I gotta go to bed now ✨ gn ✨
😢
@Wan muhammad Genji oh my asahi
I didn’t like it, because there are 420 likes. I’ll leave mine here. 👍
Hey your pfp changed! Looks like you are still alive!
-Can i ask you something ?
-Yea
-Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?
-We accept the love we think we deserve.
-Do we make them know they deserve more ?
-We can try .💙
Pine Dile I watch it religiously
This is so beautiful
smh e-girl
Anyone know what the song is called
@@Aaron-tt9ek dominus crixus
It’s 5 am, dark. I’m sitting in my room, alone. Even though I’m alone I don’t feel lonely, as this empty air is filled with music and the feelings that constantly lurk over me in my daily life.
It’s a comfortable atmosphere, it’s dark but I’m not scared. Even though I would usually be scared of the dark, demons and what not I don’t feel scared at all. Actually, I feel quite relax. I’m not happy but I’m not sad. I’m not angry, annoyed, filled with hatred or any negative emotion. I just feel, nothing but in the best way possible. Not the dreadful nothing of when all your emotions overload and you break down and feel nothing afterwards. It’s the nothing that relaxes you. I may be sitting on my uncomfortable twin bed at 5 am, a small apartment but I feel like I’m somewhere else.
I feel as I’m in a small family run cafe, in another world of some sort. It’s raining as I sit by the window, drinking tea as I watch the rain.
This music really brings everything out in me, the sadness, the anger, the hatred, but also the joy that really cancels it all out. Is my life sad enough to where music made by someone I don’t know the name of makes me feel serenity? Possibly, but I think I’m okay with that.
It’s raining in Paris.
I wish i could feel like that
Btw, love your Profile Picture
when i listen to this kind of music i can close my eyes and just think of my own world what i would like the world to be like in my head where i can eat sleep live and repeat a stress free life where nobody can judge you break you hate you use you and lie to you i know it sound stupid but i hope people feel the same way
try to get some sleep
You're hallucinating that's all.
So far, your survival rate in life is 100%.
Be proud of yourself.
Mika // ahah... who said that.
What if I had coronavirus would that number still be the same?
Big Brain Time
but i dont know how many past lives i ve lived so far
@Anglo-Saxon In Asia :(same.
I always been scared to comment on things but-
Bad things are something to learn from. Not adapt. So wherever you people are,
I say stay strong.
You got my respect.
i've read through a fair bit of the comments and im just realizing how good i have it
Thank you. You too
Wow words of wisdom and powers well expressed to us the W🌎RLD.Peace,love and blessings eternally to everyone.
Why does music like this make me change personality?
TheCandyIsGood OFFICIAL Same question bro ! 😂
It doesn't "change" your personnality, music that makes you feel them feels is just making you be yourself. It's when you're arround people, when you feel like you've got something to hide that you change personnality.
because it's magic :)
It's not. Unless you hide who you are, music will just help connect you with different aspects of yourself. Actually art in general will do that. Video games, paintings, movies, books etc.
Because you have no personal identity whatsoever and you are so unsure of yourself that you let a song influence you to the point of becoming an anchor for your shitty persona.
it makes want to go paris, spend a lonely night in a hotel room looking at the city through a window while listening to this xo
i'd be safe in a hotel room all night :P
btw i'd kick the crap out of attackers, at least i die trying
Ikr
I don't check chill-pop comments to see racist/xenophobic shit though, so as much as paris upsets me as a town let people enjoy it and stop whining about how your dear france is not France anymore suggesting all french people have been or are being replaced by "non french people". You're a disgrace to what humanity should be.
It's BS man, just ignore these shitty comments. People just search for an excuse to be racists piece of trash just because some bad shit happened a few times in their sheltered life and basically it's convenient to blame always the same fucking group of people and put everyone in the same bag. But seriously Paris is way too much romanticized though. In reality it's also a crowded, noisy and quite dirty city too. Most parisians are seen as rude and often shitty people too, and I mean it transcend skin color or origin. There is a lot of places way better in France than Paris.
If ur reading this I'm here reading ur wonderful comment
Reality of fear:
You're not scared of dark. It's what's in it.
You're not afraid of heights. You're afraid of falling.
You're not afraid of the people around you. It's rejection.
You're not to love. You're just afraid of being rejected.
You're not afraid to let go. You're just afraid of the reality that they're gone.
You're not afraid to try again. You're just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.
...dam makes sense..
Thx small bean the doodle with a melted emoij
Quite an experience to live in fear, isn’t it? That’s what it is to be a slave.
o o f
This comment hit way to hard
i'm not depressed....i just love the smooth melody of the song.
So quiet and nice.
Just love it.
Good keep smiling my dear peace be with you always ✌🙏🕊
Keep smiling bro Im happy that your happy hope you never have to go thru depression and if you are keep your head up bro things will get better
I literally just wanna sit in my car in a empty parking lot. On a dark and rainy night, just listening to this.
Inderjit Kaur Can I join you?
same
Can i join u plz
Sounds like someone I know lmfao 😂 mind if I bring a blunt and join ya 😂😂😁
That's exactly what I am doing right now
I dont know why but this sad vibe makes me feel at home.
sometimes you just gotta let yourself be sad man. we spend far too much energy repressing bad feelings so we remain presentable but you gotta pull yourself aside, crank up the melancholy, and let yourself weep for everything bringing you sorrow. once you've finished, you at least have a chance at moving on
classystegosuarus Real shit
maybe, just maybe it's because, we as people, as a society, have attempted to eliminate the beauty of sadness and the comfort of tears. We've been raised in an environment where to cry is to be weak but that's hardly the case. To fear your own tears is weakness but to allow yourself to be open to your emotions and tears is a sign of true strength. People who cry aren't weak, they've just been strong for too long.
You can't always be happy and that's ok.
Its the good kind of sad.
Happiness failed us.. so we found comfort in being sad
"she doesn't realise that a broken heart can't be fixed with a sorry...."
Bearclaw beautiful my friend!
Bearclaw what Korina?
Roiael you not have friends your Sad
pica pau oh aha okay my friend, hope you're well 😄✌
Roiael ㅓㅎ내ㅏㅊ요ㅏㅓㄹ겋어ㅑㅐㅐㅐㅐㅐㅐㅐㅓㅠㅗㅎㅎㅎㄹㅇ
Years have gone by and I still put on raining In every night before bed. Thank you🙏🏽
4 years later...and this type of music is still the best thing you can chill with 🌹
This is my poem. Thank you for reading.
R A I N
And it finally rained one night in my city.
At times when nobody expected it.
People complained of it as if it were a vicious entity.
But, it cleansed their hearts.
The rain drizzled on the window panes,
Giving hopes that had no expectations,
Washing every guilt away.
Crying every drop that we were meant to cry
One evening the clouds finally embraced my city;
Covering my tear stains, and set me
*F R E E* .
Edit... OMG?!?! YOU GUYS!! 500+ LIKES? Thank you. I dont even write anymore, but thank you so much❤
ah yes, I remember middle school
@@qfqerhweaagfafdgafdg ??
Well done nice poem
this is beautiful thank you for sharing :)
I can relate.
This is beautiful.
"The Generation of The Great Depression"
john doe please explain
Etsube Fassil the “Great Depression” was originally the worst economic downturn of the history and now people use this term to say “they’re sad” that’s all
Jung Hoseok I agree
"We have no great war, no great depression. The great depression is our lives."
yep pretty much
I really can’t help reminiscing about my past when listening to this.
did not look at my likes..n I met this girl about 3 years ago whilst I was on my gap year. My friends and I just arrived in Sydney, Australia and as we were just about to go to our hotel, I met this white haired waiter with ocean eyes in a cafe. I remember how we caught eyes for an instance and everything around us just stood still. We got each others details and nearly every night I would wait outside that cafe until 11:00 pm just to see her and walk her home.
I didn’t want her to know I was only there for a couple of weeks so I lied and said my family just moved here. We finally got a whole day together no thanks to the busy schedule she had. We went to a local theme park and the last thing she wanted to go on was the Ferris wheel. I don’t know if she planned it or not but as we got to the top, we could see the sunset simmering down on everything. She turned to me and held my hand, she looked down and said “I really like you, like really really like you”. I knew what she was trying to say so I took a leap and said “I love you too”. She buried her head on my chest and held me tightly as the Ferris wheel took its course...
We hung out every chance we got and she even introduced me to her family. I think I broke her heart when I told her I’ll be leaving in a couple of days. She gave me a cold shoulder every time I saw her from then. I told myself that I wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t give me a proper send off, not as boyfriend and girlfriend, but as true lovers so I was shocked to see her waiting for me in the airport. We caught eyes just like the time we first met. She said her farewells and made me promise her that I would come back.
It’s been about 3 years now and I’m starting to feel self conscious. I keep on thinking that I have left it too late and she’s moved on but for some reason, I know she’s still waiting. I’ve just graduated from my university in Toronto and I’m planning on surprising her next month.
Wish me luck...
Update 1: Thank you for all the support. Its confirmed I’m heading back to Sydney in 6 days instead of a month! All of you have motivated me and now I’m much closer to her than I was 4 days ago when I first shared my story, next update will probably be when I’m with her, hopefully. I’ve just brought tickets and I’m heading to LAX on Tuesday next week. If I haven’t updated you all in at least 8 days then I guess it’s safe to say that my experience of feeling lonely, feeling forgotten and feeling ashamed was a lesson to never let your soulmate go, even if you have to go through hell and back. Well, goodbye for now...
Update 3: Hello everyone, this will be a short update. Don’t be worried though, yes I’m in Sydney, and no I haven’t been able to meet her yet, this was expected anyway. I went back to the cafe I met her in seeing if she was still working there. Turns out, she quit her job a couple of months after I parted with her 3-4 years ago. Her boss said she just wasn’t the same after I left, she would always turn up late to her shifts and would be rude to customers, I know I’m the cause of that.
I went back to her parents house if she was there, when they opened the door they recognised me straight away. Her mother started crying whilst her dad gave me the death stare. He said my full name and gave me a hug. He said after I left, she became more motivated to follow her own dreams so she moved away with only the money she saved up from her work from the cafe. They said she told them she was going Melbourne. I had dinner at their house and we talked about everything that happened to her after I moved away, how she cut her long luscious hair, how she even dyed her hair but dyed it back because she didn’t like it brown, how she completely changed her clothes and how she started smoking for a couple of months but quit because everyone was worried about her. I know I was the cause of everything bad that happened to her.
Her parents offered me to stay the night but I told them that I couldn’t burden them anymore, I also apologised to them for leaving their daughter so hastily and giving her false hope. They gave me a hug and told me that she was still waiting for me before waving me goodbye, I hope she is.
Well, I’m in a hotel right now and I’m about to leave to go to Melbourne, I missed Sydney, I forgot how beautiful this place was. I keep telling myself that she’s still waiting to ease my mind. Next update will be in a couple of hours. I haven’t lost hope yet. See yall later.
Update 4: it’s 3:30am in Melbourne, I’m in bed and right next to me, I can feel her breath bouncing off my skin. I’m holding back the tears and I’m struggling to text through my phone. She hasn’t changed at all... Just to think that around 12 hours a ago, I was doubting myself so much that a part of me wanted to head back home and now, the love of my life is in the same bed as me, we’re so close to touching each others hands, like in 2014.
Honestly, I forgot how we met again. I just remember running into the ladies toilets in a car park convincing the girl to get out of the cubicle so she can face me again. I remember crying and smiling at the same time, I remember her punching my chest, calling me selfish whilst tears and her makeup was staining my shirt. I think I’ve never said the word sorry so many times in a minute. But now, all these things don’t matter.
Lani is safe, she’s doing well and she’s with me. That’s all. All my efforts feel redeemed, all my doubts turned to happiness, all my worries has turned to just mere thoughts in my mind. I feel balanced. I feel thrilled, I feel like I can finally be at peace with myself.
I’ll tell you all how I’m in this situation already in the morning. I’m tired and I just want to enjoy sleep again. Have a good one.
Update 5: I guess it really is true that patience is a virtue. Having patience means having some sort of discipline, where you can command yourself to sit there and let time go past; wether it’s a couple of minutes, couple of hours, days, weeks months and even years, having patience will always end in something good. Even if you aren’t the type of person, you’ve read this much and hopefully my experiences have convinced you that something is truly out there, bigger than you or something much more meaningful.
Anyways, Lani lives in a 3 bedroom apartment with 2 other people, she didn’t want me to sleep on the couch because one of her friends had sex on it with her boyfriend so I guess I didn’t have much of a choice sharing a bed a with her. It’s no big deal, after our first meet in more than 3 years, it felt like I was still on my gap year, we went to a restaurant to talk about some things. She hasn’t matured, but acts like it. Her sense of humour is still the same, her laugh has always been ugly, sounds uglier if she tries to hide it actually. But she’s developed a real sense of professionalism, which I find so attractive. She’s a primary school teacher and she’s so passionate about it. She also told me her feelings about me have been mixed but she’s starting to slowly revert back to 2014, I don’t know if that’s good or bad but I told her don’t reflect on the past, focus on the future but I’m not leaving you the same way I did 3-4 years ago, she kissed me on the cheek. She said she can see the guilt in my eyes and told me not to worry about it anymore. After that, we went back to her apartment and that was update 4. Nothing really happened yesterday, she said she’ll leave me alone for a while to let me catch up on sleep and work but I don’t want her to. My jet lag is as bad as the state of her room, but I don’t mind. Sorry this update is short. She said she wants me to go to the cinemas with her later, our first date as adults. Peace. (Had to cut update 2 out, it wasn’t important, it was just me rambling on about my troubles).
ばかだ君は can you give us a new update
ばかだ君は bro i had a love story similar like yours but she said “I hated you cuz you’ve lied to me” and she deleted me from his contact but you know what I don’t give a fuck about that while she’s still okay, I’ll be okay 👌 after all I love her so much, however, I miss her
Due to she’d been the only one could have touched my heart. Hahahahaha hahahahaha it’s weird to tell this and thanks so much if you read this 😋
That seems like a movie, even hard to believe
But how did you find her in Melbourne ?
And you went there but is it a one way trip ? Do you plan on staying with her or will you break her heart once again ?
this is the cutest thing this felt surreal i want one like this :
the comment section of lofi music never fails to impress. everyone seems so genuine and nice.
i just really want to log out of life for a while and log back in when im ready.
sleep?
the thing is i dont know if I would log back in
@@nrgprttyfeet7938 same, but I'm sure I'd come around and pick up the controller again eventually.
I live in Paris, rigth now I look through the window, and the sky is grey an cloudy. I don't know if it is going to rain soon. But I listen to your mix, and I see some birds flying high underneath the clouds. I feel that strange sort of happiness when you're alone with yourself, and I like those clouds and cherish them for the instant they give me along with your tracks.
Thank you bootleg boy.
u r so lucky ..
yes, its the sounds of the unknown when your heart has just shattered.. and the style of the dj's playing out the the songs and troubles of the day!, to express the sounds of i'm sorry! And I miss you, and I still wait even though I know you arent comming back or looking!! just the Silent death of the gloomy sky's and the solitude of Alone. but .. the music brings the love and the positive, of maybe there is someone for you! don't give up .. Lesson's learned of what not , and how it feels,TO HUMBLE YOURSELF.. MUSIC IF YOU CAN LOOK AT YOU AND THE MISTAKES.... WE MADE TO CAUSE THE PAIN, OR HOW WE FEEL .. MUSIC CAN SAY A BILLION MORE THAN ANY PICTURE , LETTER, OR ANYTHING.. SEND THIS TO THE ONE YOU MISS!!
Im ur 300th like
there can be only one goat 50-301
you look through the window and you see some radical muslims
"I really really really really wish I could go back in time. There are a couple of wrongs I have to right, and there are a couple of moments I have to relive."
i'm sure all of us do
shut up
Just keep moving, because all we have is the present moment.
You gained more than you regret. Meaning that you went through a hardship that become an experience. It's up to you not to ran that race again. You have the still to create better for yourself.
There are a couple of right things I have to wrong... You know, good people turning out to be bad.
The rain and thunder in the background makes these “raining in” playlists so much more chill. So good for relaxing late night vibes 👌🏽
Sometimes I wake up and yearn for it too. Cooking breakfast & chilling.
does anyone else come here at 3am, read through all the comments while silently head
bopping, whole body feeling heavy as you hear the music understand all the feelings you are
too afraid to admit out loud?
Hell yeah !!! Fuck Ive been dealing with depression and i had a girl who helped me through a lot she ment the hole world to me i wanted to Kill myself and She stoped me from doing it she Said that She was here for me that She was never going to Leave me and a week ago she stoped talking and now if she reads my texts Im lucky Ive tried asking her to come back but She Said that she has a life and that i was boring her 😞 I want her to come back soo bad I miss her soo much i have so many memories with her so many pictures smiling with her i truly Loved her as a friend and it hurts like hell not having my friend my everithing 😖 Plz! Come back I need you and i love you as a friend! MISS YOU !!! ❤⭐#7 Inês
Liam Mitchell thats me right now lol. sitting on a bus going through the mountains listening to this
KiLLeR WolF im sorry bud. time heals everything as long as you let it (:
Every night. Im in every comment, just letting people know how much I hate myself, and showing how pathetic I am, showing that the world is really finally breaking me.
3am part too accurate, stop
Hey you.
Yeah you.
Whoever you are,
I hope you are alright. And if you aren't.... You're gonna be okay. I don't even know you but...
I love you 💙
*hug*
(EDIT) For the people that dont believe me, you dont have to. Just know that I say what i say with the purest of intent. I love all of you regardless of who you are. If you're a decent person just trying to make it in this world... If you haven't hurt animals, people, or their families... I love you.
If you had a bad past and youre trying not to recreate your same mistakes, and succeeding at creating better things, I'm proud of you and guess what... I love you as well. Every single one of you deserve a fucking hug.
Thanks...
Thank you ily too
Thank you for kind words :D:
Anyone want to talk about how there days been?Well help solve each others problem as a group chat.
Yeah
“Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?” This sentence physically hurts me...
It's from the movie the perks of being a wallflower. it's really good but can get confusing at times so I would recommend reading the book before watching the movie but they're both amazing so I would definitely watch or read them if you get the chance
Hurt me too...you are not alone🙏
fucking same
"we accept the love we think we deserve."
"can we let them know they deserve more?"
"we can try."
Me: looks at the people at the comments
Where have y’all bin my whole life??
Yesss feeel that
Agree 😢
imagine if we met irl omg
I’m here!! 😊
hiding..
It's impressive how music can affect you personally.
Everytime I'm hearing some hard epic metal, I feel like I'm invincible and It's almost like nothing could defeat me. But every time, around midnight, when I'm chilling on some lofi hip-hop, with the rain pouring outside and smashing against my window, It change my mood in a way words will never be able to describe. A feeling of happiness, nostalgia, relaxation, emptiness and sadness mixed together in my inner soul for the time of this mix. It's almost like every music I'm hearing is connected to a feel or a memory. Music really is something awesome that will affect me like nothing else could ever be able to for the rest of my life.
"A life without music is like a burger without pickles. Eatable but tasteless."
it's what i feel,what everyone feels,the last song makes me feel happy but at the same time i feel sad,like...lonely,i understand no one is perfect but...i tried to save some friendships but in the end...they go,they get to busy or find better friends or just i bother them,always i help my best friends for make smiles and that but sometimes i wish have the same thing,i mean....not everyone have a good day and we need a talk,a hug and trow away the bad feelings,sometimes we are happy and excited for talk about our day with somone but sometimes people don't have the time or sometimes they don't care and we feel sad and lonely,i have good friends but sometimes i don't feel enough in some stuff and when i do a mistakes in a work or something i feel useless,a shame,im afraid to fail because i don't want feel useless...i just want to help but i feel insecure of myself,im sorry for not be like other people,sorry for not be what you really want,but after all the sadness inside...i keep going and smile again
But some people take the pickles off and do not get the tastiness.
Pickles are to music what banjos are to torture 😉😂 still a great quote
yhh but pickles are rank, i agree tho bro
love it but pickles are hella nasty, more like a burger with ketchup or mayo or not pickles
Just joking, but I can definitely relate to this
I just wish I had genuine friends. Friendships that are born without ill intent. Where it remains. I wish they would stay... who else feels the same?
More than anything.
As long as you ask for likes you will never have real friends
Myriadion van Wunderthule ok dats dum asf
Myriadion van Wunderthule I mean you still deserve a nice friendship where both of you are equally respected- everyone does
Helga Hufflepuff eh I guess haha I kinda anticipate not ever having any but you never know ig - life’s crazy
I genuinely love lofi...
And it's community
So much love and care
That can't be found elsewhere
So many broken souls
But here's a bed of rose
For us to take a break
For our sanity's sake
Lest we take a wrong turn in life
Go somewhere we can't revive
Not all hope is lost
We are not without cost
It's always the darkest before dawn
When the sun rises these troubles shall be gone
We are worthy
Let's struggle and live
With much love
This short poem i serve
♥️
ILY and I love ur poem
Actually I wonder what Lofi is.. is it the composer or comunity or genre?
Thank you, for this😣❤️
The fact that it's been almost 3 years since I last listened to this
masterful piece,
and it's raining outside as well,
what a perfect time to remember you all...
"We accept the love we think we deserve" from the movie The Perks Of Being a Wallflower.
I couldn't get that line out of my head.
same:'v
I wanna thank the comment section for saving me ik u don't know me but reading them and hearing "I love you" is what I needed to hear thank you and I might not know u but I love you aswell
❤
@Nathan Fair ❤
@Nathan Fair "All of us look at the stars, when most of us are in the gutter." - Oprah Winfrey
“Hey.”
“What are you still doing awake?”
“Oh...one of those nights, hmm?”
“Well, don’t worry. We both know that these nights come and go. It might not seem like it now, but they always do.”
“Hmm?”
“You want me to stay with you?”
“Of course I’ll stay. Here, I have some music. You listen to music to sleep, right? Just relax and take some deep breaths. Listen to the silence and the calm. I won’t leave.”
“Goodnight. I’ll see you in the morning. I promise.”
Thank you. Honestly thank you, I feel so sickeningly lonely and I just want to talk to someone- even if you can't hear my replies, thank you
@@--CALL-ME stay strong mate
1-800-CALL-ME I feel it too
heyyo what up
@@Anymore..Idk.. I don't know who you are but I love you
I have been listening to this when it first came out. I needed music to listen to when I’m studying but now is just listening to it cause it’s so calm and passionate
That 's freak ing sad, but amusing and nostalgic, at the same time. It's like I was about to cry and smile, but nothing is in fact solid. Man, I can't truly understand the power of music.
Music gives you peace, all emotions combine into a singular feeling, peace with yourself and with the world.
"I know that one day you'll leave
But for now,
I'll just enjoy what we have"
this truly changed me. Thank you
• qtvintage 💜 stay safe out there
i love you but im crying rn:(
V3R0N i love you too , stay safe 💜
Agustin Ramirez The seperation of people and things can be difficult, keep those memories, hold the parts of you that you have, and live on to make better and more memorable parts .
we accept the love we think we deserve...
Forte Laura the perks of being a wallflower
Damnit . Right in the feels ..
I love that film
@@xxdarkenoughxx8664 it made me cry so much! x
Damn maybe that why I'm blind
To that one soul reading this.
I know you're tired,
You're fed up,
You're so close to breaking but there's strength within you,
even when you feel weak.
Keep fighting.
Người Việt ở khắp mọi nơi :v
I Will never give up.
@Yến Nhi Nguyễn cậu có facebook hay zalo không, tôi muốn làm bạn với cậu quá .
@@Thanglatoi có chứ, tôi luôn sẵn sàng
I am not good at writing poems or paragraphs,but if you are sad because of something or someone..
I love u.
'nobody' loves me.... great.
Hope you all having a nice day /night 💞✨
Love you too, friend.
I wanted to write down exactly what I felt, but somehow the paper stayed empty, and I could not have described it any better.
WTM
@@jamesrich9156 bitch i love u! I'm not nobody :)
I just realized the people here have a life just as complex as my own.
search for sonder on youtube
Get a job, Mr complex.
The fuxk does this even mean
Kick Nollingwood lol what
Kick Nollingwood boomer alert
"we except the love we think we deserve" CHRIST THAT HIT HARRRRRRD
you mean accept smh
andrei theman damn why r u even here
Pow right in the kisser
This lofi gives me bad memories from the time i wanted too end my life. I listened too this every night while I cried myself too sleep, if I came out of a really bad depression to the point where I wouldn’t eat or shower you are capable of that too!!
Never underestimate the importance you have. I’d happily listen to you, just reply. And since 3 months have passes since your comment, I hope you’re having it great and have come to peace with yourself.
@@abigabbas1886 hi, thank you so much. I’m doing better ❤️ everything begun with when I moved away from my home where I grew up in, with all of my close friends. The new house was dark and it really didn’t feel like home, I tried to make my new room look cozy and feel safe but it just didn’t turn out how I thought it would. I’d also noticed my best friends would distance themselves from me and not wanting too hang out anymore or talk to me, that’s when I got badly depressed, I was so lonely and I didn’t have anyone anymore. I was mad, sad and miserable in that dark room of mine. After 1 month or 2 I realized I was in love with my best friend (me and her were the closest friends in the group). I started to spam her with messages every single day and just wanted everything to go back too normal and just hang out again. But I hadn’t realized they didn’t want the same and they had already moved on from me switching school and moving away from them. But I was far from okay with that, I didn’t let HER go I was like so obsessed with the thought of us being together again (like summer). after 4 months of living in that house we moved back to our town because my mom saw how sad I was. I began to hang out with the girl and the group again and everything was just so good. (We don’t hang out anymore, this was in 2018/2019)
@@Unknown-du3or Hey! I am glad you’re fine. I hope you’ve realised how insignificant were the things that made you feel miserable and depressed. Exercise gratitude as cliche as it sounds... Just remember each morning, that your mom made your family move back, because you felt bad in the new city. You may not know, but maybe she liked the new place. It is her and your father who will stick by you. The last thing they’d want is you to be a wreck. As for your friends, you should be patient so you could assess who deserves your mental health. So, I am glad you’re good. Don’t spoil your mind with miserable thoughts and depression. Now... have a nice day/evening!
@@abigabbas1886 your right I’m going to remember that always, she saved me. Have a good day🤗💗
I miss everyone who left me, even the ones who broke and hurt me because now that I'm alone, I can see they weren't that bad.
you deserve better..remember that
@@kylespringsrandomguy Thanks, when I posted that I had just got out of an abusive relationship and lost all my friends because they were her friends too.... I'm much better now.
@@corpsesdontstaydead.5376 Absolutely happy to hear that. I dont know you, and you dont know me, but its absolutely incredible to know that across the world one person can care about another.
There's always something upcoming in your life. You're the best that's why you're here
I got out of an abusive relationship too, and even though my friends didn’t leave me, most of them don’t know what happened. And I feel like I should warn them, yet I’m still scared of what my ex would do if he heard, so yeah, I’m okish but still suffering
This is your safe place
Everyone here is accepted
And everyone is supportive
nah im not supportive yall should definitely stop the self-pity
@@roastyoass9138 Username checks out
@@glitchyx6995 both do
Roast Yo Ass 💝💝🥰🤗
I wish but
I wish I could sit with that special person on the roof and just talk without regret or judgement.
I'm so Cynical with cat
I love cat
thinking the same thing
preach
isnt that a cat?
"Being Happy together is Love - Being Depressed together is Friendship"
- Timolio on the last day of 2020
I really love listening to these beats and just reading these amazing comments. I feel like this community is where I really belong lol. Everyone is so chill and just appreciates music for music. They appreciate people for people. I think that can be the beauty in the internet sometimes. In cases like these we dont see people we feel their emotions through words which connects us with them on a different level. Here people aren't scared of things like, "oh if I say this in real life, if i express my emotions, then maybe someone will judge me." But no. Its amazing to just see and read the amazing things people can put into words. Truly a great community you've made here Bootleg. Cheers.
music is very powerful
I love you❤️
Cheers!
Yes it is
but why do we love...
They always see me as the happiest person. I do my best to make them laugh. I don't bother them with my problems and my mood. Do they really know me?
Daamn that really hit me deep, I have a lot of friends but noone of them really knows me deeply, but Idc, as it is me who doesn't want to tell anybody, maybe because I dont find a reason to do so, maybe because they wont understand me, idk.
There was this time I got on well with a girl, she was mature (or thats what I thought back then), funny and really beautiful. She was the only to whom I told my entire life, my dreams, my insecurities, my problems, etc. After some weeks of knowing each other well, she confessed she loved me, and so did I. It was a wide mix of emotions in a short time, as it lasted 2-3 weeks before she stopped talking to me, even when I told her to met up for the last time to end it up. She didnt even answer. Later I found out she had been meeting another guy when she stopped talking to me.
Since then, I've been trying to find another love, but it's hard. I just wanna have someone to talk to, having deep conversations, etc. It's been 6 months since, and now I like girl who's 4 years older than me. Bullshit, as I know I'll never get her, nor it world work with such an age gap (she's 21, going go the university, and I'm still at highschool)
Ricardo damn you’ve just described my life lol, like literally.
It so tough being that type of a guy.
I am a very introvert guy but you won’t notice it.
I’ve had never opened up to someone who was not part of my family, let alone a girl.
Most of the people just see me as a sort of funny guy, who is like always happy (as it seems).
There is/was just this one girl that i really really like and she is just so perfect to me.
Its been 2 years since i know her and since that there is not one day of me not thinking of her.
We’re now like really close friends and she tells me everything and i tell her everything too.
We talk everyday, the whole day and not just as friends i think.
Like 1.5 year ago she liked me back and confessed it to me.
A month after that she just disappeared and went back to her ex.
I was so confused.
Now she is just dating other guys and I am more of a ‘really good friend who you can have deep conversations with’ and that just sucks.
I really want to move on but i simply can’t, she means so much to me.
I don’t know what to do anymore
(Thanks for reading the whole story if you did and sorry if my English is bad haha)
I hope things get better for you my man, you deserve a better girl.
Bless you
hey same people say I'm funny and always look happy but when I get home I'm a different person
Baby BOI same here bud
I ask myself that question every day. Sometimes I feel like I don’t want people to know me. Other times I wish someone would
Me: deep in my feels
Ad: *CuRoLoGy HaS ChAnGeD mY LiFe*
Ive was upset today and U made me laugh :) I’m thankful for that thank you :)
Anasol had changed my life, I turned my hemorrhoids into hope 🙏🏼😔
@@peachy_asmr5366 JWGEJHFBE-
Me: **finally about to sleep**
AD: TheRE Is AN EPIdeMiC SpreADING. ItS NoT A SIckNESS, Not a VIRUs. ITs VApiNG.
Hahahahhah🤣
It was a day in December 2019, when I stayed in a small Airbnb above the roofs of Paris. One night at 1 am , it started raining like hell and it reminded me of this video. So I put my headphones on, searched for this video on TH-cam and opened the window. With the Eiffel Tower in sight, the rain dripping on the roofs and the music in my ears I realized, that this is a moment I will always remember. I was literally experiencing "RAINING IN P A R I S".
the way i listen to lofi hip hop is laying down in bed, snuggled up in blankets with a box of tissues to wipe your tears with, headphones, at midnight, in the darkness and eyes closed
it really gives me the feels ya noe
no thats just uncomfortable
just did that
It’s 1:17am and I can’t sleep. 😔
@@andreitheman hey, never knock it til ya try it bud and if ya did try it then, maybe it isn't your cup of tea but, it's my way of relieving my stress :P
@@elinap2884 coolio bud, hope you're feelin comfy like i am :P
It's a rainy night in paris, and i'm alone at home with a coffee ant this music... Perfect moment
It would be nice walking inside a Cafe with just this kind of music playing. Everyone would be chill as fuck while drinking their coffee.
And the smell of a strong coffee roast as the cherry on top
Bruh a rainy night in Paris by my self with some Lofi is the v i b e I’m tellin yall
Lemme join
Perks of being a wallflower hit me right in the feels in the beginning ❤
Jen That's the audio?! I'm watching it
yeah the beginning is from the movie! I love it!
I just wish that every day was a rainy day.
Same
Same
Same
Same
Come to Canada
I don't know why sometimes I feel the necesitity to be sad and start searching lo-fi or other sad and soft songs to cry for a moment
Same lmao
After so many years this still has to be one of my favorite lofi mixes. The speech behind the beats just purely fits in, it's soothing
Sometimes when everything falls asleep at night, I start to listen to this and just go through the nice and peaceful comments. as much as 2020 isn’t the luckiest year so far.. I can tell that 2021 will be our year.
2020 is worst than I ever thought
Fazool Uvaies I know bro but hey it’s got its ups and it’s downs and for me, it’s been a lot of downs but you gotta keep pushing yourself
Happy New Year stranger. Yes I came back to this 9 months later so what. I hope you're still here
@@azumierorita5638 happy new year. im still here after all this time and its been heck of a year. i hope you have a wonderful new year and god bless you :) ill come back again
I had hopes for it being a good year and then I realised ... it doesn’t have to be. I can make it a good year just like you can. Sometimes the outside world doesn’t need to matter but the inside does and you just need to be there for yourself for it to be an amazing year, and either way shitty years teach us a lot, promise me, I know what I’m talking about. Hell is just an early heaven if that makes sense, probably not. Idk I’m rlly just writing my mind and putting it out there without filtering it because I discovered lo-if recently and this community just makes me feel so at home like i’m finally starting to find myself and I still care what people think and that’s ok because I’m who I am because I went to hell and I’m on my way to heaven bc I’ve decided to go there and I’m gonna have a lot more shitty days and I know it but in the end life is meaningless which makes it all the more beautiful bc we don’t need to be here but we are and we are for reasons unbeknownst to us but we’re here and we’re living and breathing and if that isn’t something then ...
It's a melancholy sad nostalgia
and honestly, i love it
"Why do nice people pick the wrong people to date?" ... "We accept the love we think we deserve." The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Very relatable
revisiting this playlist after 4 years. feels out of this world.
it feel like so long and so much has happened since
I’m late....
But there’s this girl, Im 19 btw.
She’s everything I need in a girl.
Shes sweet, pretty, funny, mature. But she is depressed and doesn’t want to bring me into that with her. I miss her every day. She was perfect.
That's honestly so sad
don't let go of her. You might just be who she needs to get her out of there.
I know I'm 4 months late,but just be there for her when she needs you and give her someone to talk to
Go get her even if it's late better than never
hoooooolyyy shit that's exact the same scenario. Your comment is from 5 months ago, so Idk if you will answer.
How did it end up??
whats the point in life
we all die at some point
in 100 years no one will remember you
unless you're some pop star celebrity
in the end, nothing matters
life ends
we end
everything comes to an end whether its happy or not
do you remember?
childhood
everything was so simple
and easy
yet you always hated it at the time
when you couldn't wait to be an adult
and have no more math homework
do you remember?
trying to impress other people
if you arent good enough, whats the point?
what if people dont like you?
what if you are different?
what if theres no point
at one point
we all have to say goodbye
to happiness
to joy
to friends
to family
to beloved pets
or animals
or anything
say goodbye to all hope
when depression takes over
everything is numb
why cant i feel anything
why dont you love me
whats wrong with me
why do you like me
why am i different
why am i the same to everyone else
why dont i have friends
why do people wish death on me
why is life so cruel
why doesnt anyone have any love in them
why are you asking so many questions?
does it matter in the end?
does anyone matter
does life matter
im not okay
you arent either
are you alright?
when was the last time someone asked if you were alright
take a long think
done?
does anyone love you
do they?
no?
why?
why doesnt anyone like you?
am i a fool?
are you a fool?
are we all fools?
life is a fool
we are all destroyed
mentally
physically
are you ok?
do you need help?
are you doing this for attention?
either way, i love you.
Oh wow that hit hard
right in the feels bruh
I quest all of this every time and e continue without answer. Sorry about my shit english
Man I see you now every where at those songs,are you alright ?
I have a small dick but i don’t think I am.
I think it was a few days before chirstmas
yeah it was, i think it was the 23rd of 2017.
I was so excited to call you and wish you merry christmas, that it'd be our 5th one together
our first one without our best friend. yeah I couldn't believe he was gone now either
i guess cancer does that to people. i was gonna call you early that day.
i was sitting at the dinner table, Sofi was laughing across from me.
i knew you were wishing you didn't have to spend this christmas without him, but i never thought you'd be able to follow through.
i got the text from your mom. she said it was you and your brother. i asked what, did you try eating windex again?
turned out he couldn't hold himself together, the fighting of your parents pushing himself over the edge.
it was on the street corner. he drove the car into the road infront of that truck.
i'll never forgive him for that. but i forgive you for being okay with it. I was told you died instantly after going through the glass of that cafe. i hope you didn't feel anything.
but now i guess it's just me. you and tim are gone during the same year. how can i ever forget you? I still check my phone for your texts.
you'r brother survived. now he's living in a mental institution. he wont talk to me. he can't stand to look at my face after what he's done.
christmas is coming soon. a few months from now. it's 2018.
you never spent a christmas without our best friend. now i'm spending my second without both of you.
you told me that when we die of old age, i shouldn't try to follow you. that it was a marvelous thing- death is.
i'm living for the both of you now, on my own. I want to follow you. i feel like it's a mistake i'm still here, you were just 14.
we joked about death like it couldn't touch us. i guess it got mad and gave us a hug.
be in heaven a half hour before the devil knows your dead. i love you both. i'll go to harvard and make a life for all of us.
Leo Walker you must be so strong going through all that, it’s the worst feeling losing someone you love, but remember your not alone, i’m always free to talk. i hope you eventually do make it to harvard, and that your life gets better.
Don’t forget it’s your life to let your heart move on but don’t forget the memories you shared and learn so that history doesn’t repeat itself.
I've never cried so much.
reading this on the 23... almost Christmas... sorry u went through that...
@@xxuntixx7363 same
To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life. 🙏
did you ever recognize the red light on the right blinking?
that detail tho
Thank you
these little things matter.
The light in the dark either contains its light or becomes one with darkness its self.
Took me a minute to notice it.
i don’t see anything
*Rainy days, good books, a cup of hot coffee & this* 💕
Vanessa Acosta wouldn't have it any other way 😏
YESSSSSS!!!!!!
maybe hot choccolate is better :)
Shit I don't even like books but that sounds amazing
you lose a joint
12:05 AM, in the driveway, inside my car...listining to this, and thinking about the many failures, the quite sorrow of being around people but still feeling disconnected.
We all love and care for you, I hope you're doing fine, and I wish you a good week, month, and year.
Rebecca Covely Feeling better, thanks so much your wishes
That’s the hardest oart seeing everyone enjoy themselves, having genuine relationships, growing as people, and yet here I am. just drifting endlessly. Wanting to be better, real and to feel, love, now it’s all but a distant memory, I wish I could fall asleep crying, too bad my brain spends too much energy going crazy, being anxious and throwing more insults at myself, because what am I good at? Nothing. Where has being nice gotten me? NOWHERE. Why am I treated like this, why don’t people care about me?
10:39 pm feeling the feelings...
oh my god i feel you
so weird how the first few seconds of this video will always manage to pull me back to the time 5 years ago when this was the only thing i was able to fall asleep to.
nothing good stays forever, and neither does anything bad.
take care of yourselves
Finding this in an old playlist after 5-6 years is making me feel some crazy feeling. Life's changed so much man ily
"amour was just a word until the rain poured.. wake me up with your french kiss as the night crawled.."
💕🐱
sammy chobits 🤗💛
Roiael I knew you'd be here 😊
You both are like two of my favourites channels in here
Jessica J. aww hehe you know where to find me 😄🌹
at the end of it all
you're gonna be okay
you hear me?
i wish you luck
Nicholas D'Silva but its like really really bad....n hard to cope....
@@serialchiller7997 you've got this
listen to the music
close your eyes
believe in yourself alright
you've got this
Nicholas D'Silva thanks fella,i wish u the same.Stay blesses.It hurts as hell but....ive got this!
Love this comment ❤ support means the world, even if its from a complete stranger.
Success is better than luck
Why people always complaining about rain? I like rain so much, everybody is complaining about it when its raining. I am always happy if it is raining, only not when im on the bike and I need to bicyle long to achieve the place where I am going hhhhh. My partner loves it also. It is really realexing. Rain means Blessings in islam . Every rain drop is being dropped by an Angel in the Universe and that Angel will never drop a rain drop again. There are so many angels! You can think wow what a deep or stupid thing, but think about it. If u want to know more, you are welcome.
I also love the rain , always have and I don't know why
@@teroi2941 it's because is relaxing . Meditation
@@hanszimmer121 are you muslim bro btw where are you from
@@chengiskhan6219 yess hamdulillah
@iamkcharles rain means a blessing. It is soo nice
I used to come here often to chill, back then life was so much easier. I was such an asshole to people that I love. I would loose my shit and treat them bad because I didn't know what to do with my own problems, I didn't know what to do with the result of my behavier. Today I'm alone, a lot of people left, some I didn't mind, since they were where just because I was sociable. But the one person that I lost, makes this whole thing worst. I lost the love of my life, the one person that was by my side everyday and did everything so we could be togheter. This is the part that hurts the most, all my life she was the only person that was honest to me and now she is gone, all my fault. I'm once again here, same video, new feelings and experiences. Its not possible to say everythig thru a comment, but thank you if you read. hope for the best for you. cheers.
I miss my wife so much... I was the same way... and I made it so hard to love me... but it was me. It was my fault I lost her... and now I get to see her in my children and that’s so hard... they have her hands and eyes... smile... lips. Now I have to watch her grow happy with someone else and I’ll never forgive myself.
@@Isaacsasmrchannel im sorry, thanks for sharing, hope you feel better some day. Im from the Internet but Im here if you wanna talk.
Someone summarise this for me Im too lazy
Same here :(
"Its funny. I used to take for granted the people around me. Now I daydream about just seeing them..."
I had a dream where i saw all my friends i had, until after i blink they disappeared. The dream continued with me going alone to school, and the school was empty... Possibly implying that i did not have a chance anymore or possibly implying that i already gave up, as even surrounded by people, i never really paid attention to them, i just lay my eyes at the board... I woke up sad.
I realized they don't talk to me because of my weird behavior in communicating, a teacher said to my mom she noticed signs of autism in me.
Same. Im a monster ...
@@ievka.4163 no. you are not a monster. you are a damaged soul in a cruel world just as i. we are only human. we are so human. nothing less nothing more. we live even tho we dont want to. some die even tho they just want to live. there is no solution. life is without resolution. we can only make of it what we can. we must ask ourselves what we really want in life since we are stuck with it. you must trust in me when i tell you its alright. its alright tonight.
@@Legenducky man u made me cry so much i dont even know you but I hope you are ok now
that cut me quite deep. Now i know why I have been having so many convos with them in my mind. Dreaming about them makes me escape from the reality that they aren't there
Everyone deserve a great love story
Hey.
I hope everything is fine.
It’s okay.
There’s always somebody who’s willing to help.
Please be okay.
I love you.
get away from me
OMGOMG MY COCK GETTING BIGGER
@@andreitheman Look here everybody in the comments (except you) is trying to help other people get better, wishing everyone good luck,telling hotlines for people... If you feel uncomfortable then,don't look at the comment section. Please stop...
@@Laflacak444 the person is telling facts though. I've been lied and betrayed by many folks who told me they "love" me. Were looking into the world that is always saying "I love you" but were not honest about that. I honestly don't appreciate y'all telling lies to everyone else. It's better off to be real, than being loved. This comment section is full of "love" that turns into "hate."
@@nayeon1688 alright but theres white lies right? some people might feel really good reading this comment section, it isn't necessarily a bad lie so im not sure what you mean
to look at this video and see 'uploaded 7 years ago' hits different. Thanks for sticking with us for so long Bootleg Boy
Love the quote from the beginning, Perks of Being a Wallflower
Oh my god thank you, I've watched the movie after reading your comment
ernesto zito eyyy np man :)
Im which part of the video is it?
Aww man i loved that movie.. i didnt even realize.. *watched movie once *
to all the people who feel pretty much empty inside, you're still breathing and you're doing okay for now.
Not trying to be weird but lemme get ya Snapchat / I just love you so much
you're being weird
@@t.c.4321 lowkey
but what if every breath of mine is a pain- like several steel knifes raking up the surfaces of my constricted wind passages...
Thank you!!😰
Lay down
Close your eyes
Feel the ground beneath you
Like it’s a cloud lifting you up
Soaring above the blue city at night
Slowly, slowly drifting over it
Cold breezes lifts your hair once in a while
You see cars on the highway like drips of water on the window
You never have to come down
It’s raining, and the drops are cold and calming
When you sigh, the cloud blows like vapor
And then it goes back
You’re still drifting across the city
You’ve crossed a few buildings now
They’re so far below you
They’re so meaningless
But so beautiful
You’re floating
Floating
Drifting
I've been listening to this during my exams since 2017...I'm almost graduated now!
I think now you did it?
Good luck 🤞
rainy days have a special aesthetic vibe
I feel like laying down in the middle of my street, while the rain just pours on me. Not caring if a car comes. Not caring if someone tells me to go home. Just simply Listening to this playlist, thinking about you.
then do that instead of writing about thinking to do that in here to gain attention. cuz at the end of the day you dont have the guts to lay on the streets like that.
@@roastyoass9138 what if i feel like that
G R E Š K A i love you already ;(
@@roastyoass9138 shut up
@@roastyoass9138 you can't say anything nowadays without triggering someone, huh? loll
Perfect tunes before bedtime ;)
Hey, you're the strongest and I'm proud of you. You survived, and you will keep surviving.
Hey thank you, I'm surviving but everyone is surviving right? It just how we survive and in my case I'm surviving not how the society excepts me to survive. greetings from germany
@@heyyounice1663 I feel the same way man, I hope you feel alright, surviving also takes strength
@@heyyounice1663 it’s ur life don’t worry abt what society thinks
It’s been abt a year Man U feeling better?
The cat sits atop the ledge,
watching the city,
like a gargoyle in the rain;
never leaving its post.
Nice poem
@@morgannord679 thanks
@@morgannord679 i actually have another one too! its called
The Black Cat:
across the rooftops,
down into the alley,
the black cat pads
on silent paws,
disappearing into the night
@@hamsterwalled it's a great poem :) pls write more. you have some cool talent there man
@@kitt4y oh thanks!
i don’t care if one person reads this or a thousand people like it. i just need to write it down and tell people who won’t share it with all of my other friends. here we go.
i have two “stories”.
1) my “mental health”. i don’t really like using that term because it seems like i have anxiety or depression, which i don’t. very recently my mom and i have been getting in bad fights and i get panic attacks from how angry and annoyed i get. lofi music helps a ton with that so thank god i discovered this :) but i keep thinking about if this is just temporary or could possibly get worse. my mom (she did it last year so knew about it already) put me in this brain treatment where they sync up my brain waves and stuff. (not gonna go too much into detail, it’s hard to explain). but i hated it. i don’t know why - it was relaxing and requires little effort, but i think i didn’t like being alone with my thoughts, but i don’t want to tell that to my mom or the doctors there. so idk. the treatment is supposed to help with sleep, and sleep helps me with everything, but i just can never sleep. but school has been stressing me the fuck out to the point where i want to drop out of all my honors classes and just let myself fail, even though i know that’s not really an option right now. everything sorta ties together - i’m stressed, then i get annoyed from my parents for no reason, then i have this homework that i can’t do because i’m so angry and stressed, i lose sleep over that, i get depressed and hate myself for feeling like this, then i lose sleep over that, and it’s just basically an endless cycle that i don’t really know how to explain. i’m kind of in the middle of this but i feel like i’ll figure it out soon enough. i’ll be done with this one now.
2) sexuality. opposite to lots of other schools, almost half of my “friend group” is bi/gay, which would make “coming out” (i put that in quotations bc idk if i’m even in the closet) super easy. but not, because i don’t know if i’m influenced by them without knowing it. i don’t know if i have feelings for two of my close friends (one is gay & in a relationship) or just love them a lot as friends, which i do. sexuality is hard for so many people, but i don’t know if i can even identify myself as being bi, or if it’s “just a phase”. one of the reasons i feel bi is because i feel like if i had a relationship with a girl, it would be so much better than with a middle school boy because i would feel like i can relate to a girl so much more and be closer with her and have a real relationship. i don’t know if i just need to wait to get out of middle school for more mature boys or if i actually feel this way.
thank you for reading this, if you did. it’s not depression or suicidal thoughts or loneliness or someone dying, but it is one of the many things that could go wrong. like i said, i just wanted to get this written down and told to others just so i can make some sense out of it. 🖤
elise torp hey uhm I just wanted to say Ik some people probably read half of it and didn’t read the rest or some people didn’t read it at all. But all I wanted to say that it doesn’t matter bc of them of who read it and who didn’t I would like to let u know that it’ll get better for you know ur health but yea don’t be sad bc whatever your going through it’ll pass. Stay happy and positive:)!!
trippyy_ moodzzz thanks a ton❤️❤️much love
elise torp no problem 💕 and much love to you 💓
I hope it will get better! And I'm bi myself, and it took me more than half a year to completely figure it out. Take your time. You should come out (if u need to) when you feel comfortable with it.
your sexuality and labels can change over time lovely. it's ok to not know everything yet. you're allowed to change your mind and choose to be with whoever you want to. it's ok to realize you're actually straight. experiment, have fun and don't feel pressured to "come out".
I really can’t help reminiscing about my past when listening to this.
I met this girl about 3 years ago whilst I was on my gap year. My friends and I just arrived in Sydney, Australia and as we were just about to go to our hotel, I met this white haired waiter with ocean eyes in a cafe. I remember how we caught eyes for an instance and everything around us just stood still. We got each others details and nearly every night I would wait outside that cafe until 11:00 pm just to see her and walk her home.
I didn’t want her to know I was only there for a couple of weeks so I lied and said my family just moved here. We finally got a whole day together no thanks to the busy schedule she had. We went to a local theme park and the last thing she wanted to go on was the Ferris wheel. I don’t know if she planned it or not but as we got to the top, we could see the sunset simmering down on everything. She turned to me and held my hand, she looked down and said “I really like you, like really really like you”. I knew what she was trying to say so I took a leap and said “I love you too”. She buried her head on my chest and held me tightly as the Ferris wheel took its course...
We hung out every chance we got and she even introduced me to her family. I think I broke her heart when I told her I’ll be leaving in a couple of days. She gave me a cold shoulder every time I saw her from then. I told myself that I wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t give me a proper send off, not as boyfriend and girlfriend, but as true lovers so I was shocked to see her waiting for me in the airport. We caught eyes just like the time we first met. She said her farewells and made me promise her that I would come back.
It’s been about 3 years now and I’m starting to feel self conscious. I keep on thinking that I have left it too late and she’s moved on but for some reason, I know she’s still waiting. I’ve just graduated from my university in Toronto and I’m planning on surprising her next month.
Wish me luck...
Update 1: Thank you for all the support. Its confirmed I’m heading back to Sydney in 6 days instead of a month! All of you have motivated me and now I’m much closer to her than I was 4 days ago when I first shared my story, next update will probably be when I’m with her, hopefully. I’ve just brought tickets and I’m heading to LAX on Tuesday next week. If I haven’t updated you all in at least 8 days then I guess it’s safe to say that my experience of feeling lonely, feeling forgotten and feeling ashamed was a lesson to never let your soulmate go, even if you have to go through hell and back. Well, goodbye for now...
Update 3: Hello everyone, this will be a short update. Don’t be worried though, yes I’m in Sydney, and no I haven’t been able to meet her yet, this was expected anyway. I went back to the cafe I met her in seeing if she was still working there. Turns out, she quit her job a couple of months after I parted with her 3-4 years ago. Her boss said she just wasn’t the same after I left, she would always turn up late to her shifts and would be rude to customers, I know I’m the cause of that.
I went back to her parents house if she was there, when they opened the door they recognised me straight away. Her mother started crying whilst her dad gave me the death stare. He said my full name and gave me a hug. He said after I left, she became more motivated to follow her own dreams so she moved away with only the money she saved up from her work from the cafe. They said she told them she was going Melbourne. I had dinner at their house and we talked about everything that happened to her after I moved away, how she cut her long luscious hair, how she even dyed her hair but dyed it back because she didn’t like it brown, how she completely changed her clothes and how she started smoking for a couple of months but quit because everyone was worried about her. I know I was the cause of everything bad that happened to her.
Her parents offered me to stay the night but I told them that I couldn’t burden them anymore, I also apologised to them for leaving their daughter so hastily and giving her false hope. They gave me a hug and told me that she was still waiting for me before waving me goodbye, I hope she is.
Well, I’m in a hotel right now and I’m about to leave to go to Melbourne, I missed Sydney, I forgot how beautiful this place was. I keep telling myself that she’s still waiting to ease my mind. Next update will be in a couple of hours. I haven’t lost hope yet. See yall later.
Update 4: it’s 3:30am in Melbourne, I’m in bed and right next to me, I can feel her breath bouncing off my skin. I’m holding back the tears and I’m struggling to text through my phone. She hasn’t changed at all... Just to think that around 12 hours a ago, I was doubting myself so much that a part of me wanted to head back home and now, the love of my life is in the same bed as me, we’re so close to touching each others hands, like in 2014.
Honestly, I forgot how we met again. I just remember running into the ladies toilets in a car park convincing the girl to get out of the cubicle so she can face me again. I remember crying and smiling at the same time, I remember her punching my chest, calling me selfish whilst tears and her makeup was staining my shirt. I think I’ve never said the word sorry so many times in a minute. But now, all these things don’t matter.
Lani is safe, she’s doing well and she’s with me. That’s all. All my efforts feel redeemed, all my doubts turned to happiness, all my worries has turned to just mere thoughts in my mind. I feel balanced. I feel thrilled, I feel like I can finally be at peace with myself.
I’ll tell you all how I’m in this situation already in the morning. I’m tired and I just want to enjoy sleep again. Have a good one.
Update 5: I guess it really is true that patience is a virtue. Having patience means having some sort of discipline, where you can command yourself to sit there and let time go past; wether it’s a couple of minutes, couple of hours, days, weeks months and even years, having patience will always end in something good. Even if you aren’t the type of person, you’ve read this much and hopefully my experiences have convinced you that something is truly out there, bigger than you or something much more meaningful.
Anyways, Lani lives in a 3 bedroom apartment with 2 other people, she didn’t want me to sleep on the couch because one of her friends had sex on it with her boyfriend so I guess I didn’t have much of a choice sharing a bed a with her. It’s no big deal, after our first meet in more than 3 years, it felt like I was still on my gap year, we went to a restaurant to talk about some things. She hasn’t matured, but acts like it. Her sense of humour is still the same, her laugh has always been ugly, sounds uglier if she tries to hide it actually. But she’s developed a real sense of professionalism, which I find so attractive. She’s a primary school teacher and she’s so passionate about it. She also told me her feelings about me have been mixed but she’s starting to slowly revert back to 2014, I don’t know if that’s good or bad but I told her don’t reflect on the past, focus on the future but I’m not leaving you the same way I did 3-4 years ago, she kissed me on the cheek. She said she can see the guilt in my eyes and told me not to worry about it anymore. After that, we went back to her apartment and that was update 4. Nothing really happened yesterday, she said she’ll leave me alone for a while to let me catch up on sleep and work but I don’t want her to. My jet lag is as bad as the state of her room, but I don’t mind. Sorry this update is short. She said she wants me to go to the cinemas with her later, our first date as adults. Peace. (Had to cut update 2 out, it wasn’t important, it was just me rambling on about my troubles).
@@oliviadempsey9279 lmao really
This is so cute 😅 are you guys a couple??? What’s going on??? ❤️🥰
Stfu boomer
I cried.
Damn thanks for that, that really helped me too see the “better” in people
The Lofi and “but in another room” community are my favorites. You guys are awesome. No politics, no arguments, just vibes. Love that. 💛
Heavy breathing.
Faint sounds.
True love
to always be found.
You make me smile
happy then I could
ever be, I couldn't agree
more on how much I want you
to be with me, I guarantee
it'll all be fine.
Time goes by fast, live your
life to the fullest, and don't
get that bullet.
You can listen to this
You can see this
You can feel this
*Life is good*
Aldo S Yes it is mate. Yes it is😌.
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