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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 29 ก.ย. 2024
- i've been feeling dysphoric for a while now, more than i'd like to admit.
i've felt strange since forever but i never really knew how to approach the feeling... courage and time have brought me to suspecting suffering from gender dysphoria and maybe even being trans. i have no idea, thats all i've come to, i have no idea of what i want but im also terrified by everything. the 24 of this month i will visit a neuropsychologist, i'm going there to be prescribed something for my insomnia and depression... i will talk about these feelings to her and start a psychological journey (idk google translate tells me its correct but i dont think its used much, idk anyway sorry if it sounds weird or out of place), i hope i will heal from this state of life, the depressive, unmotivated, useless, dysphoric ect. one i mean. i could talk about all my life here to explain why i feel this way but i dont have time to, instead i will give you some examples: i've never wanted to have kids until i've started to think of much i would love to give birth to them myself, how much i'd want to be a mother (a biological mother), it fills me with sorrow knowing that i will probably never be able to live such a thing, but i know what i can do now, i can start to be honest, fearless, authentic, better and that's exactly who i'm gonna be. thank you, i love you.
