Cold - Jorge Mendez (1 Hour Mix with Subtle Rain) [Saddest Piano & Violin Ever]
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Sad , Simple , amazing. That’s all I need for a good relaxation!! This is the most amazing cuddly music I’ve ever really heard,so gentle and beautiful so relaxing! I just love it it’s just...so sad and so that’s why I like it! It’s just I like sad music , and so yeah that’s why I listen to this. But tysm to the creator here JMendezMusic! Thank you for making this music it’s so beautiful and so yeah that’s why I like it tysm for listening!
JMendezMusic y’know if I were this bird I would fly somewhere like a nest in a hollow tree and warm up instead of getting rained on and being alone ps:love your vids
It's sad song i son't like it bc i lost my cat
Im too sad plz dont do this again
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“There are three deaths. The first is when the body ceases to function.
The second is when the body is consigned to the grave. The third is that
moment, sometime in the future, when your name is spoken for the last
time.”
Nabil SB damn.. that was deep.
That's why they say legends never die.......very deep
Nabil SB this is best explanation I read about Iku (death) thank you for sharing...
That was deep , and true too
Or mine which is coming soon suicides
"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live"
I feel that way...My soul died many years ago . Sometimes i'm like a robot talking, smiling but inside i'm empty ...
Sorry for my english i'm french
@@emmasykes1597 me too. It's like I have to act happy and put on fake smile just so the ones around me dont know I'm suffering. And ur English is good
@@morgane9507 yes fake smile i know.... i ' m never myself around people . They think i'm the cool and happy girl but i' m just a good liar.... but the " real" me is so broken .
Thanks for my English. I understand more than i speak.
@@emmasykes1597 me too I also feel broken inside
@@aidanhamilton321 yes it's hard .....
I have never done a "here's my story" but my insides ache to share it, so here goes:
I'm a guy. I'm 24 years old, have lived a life of constant guilt and shame. This is a very long story of my life.
Grab a blanket, you're in for a pretty tragic ride.
When I was 5, my sister (3 years old at the time) was raped in front of me by my step brother. My family was outside having a cigarette and chatting. He wanted to play doctor, which led to, well, you know the rest. I stood there and...cried. I was scared. I didn't know what to do. It's been difficult to manage that ever since.
My family of five (myself, mom, pop, two sisters) moved up to NH when I was in fifth grade. I never really had a home; we always moved at least once a year. Landlord was crazy, or my mom pissed off the landlord, always led us to have to pack our shit and find a new place. My dad was a truck driver, so I never got to see him much.
Gonna skip the majority of my childhood. I get a blank thought when I try to reminisce it. Only thing I can remember was seeing my grandfather die in front of me when I was in 7th grade.
Around the time I was 18 (2012), I met a girl online. Her name was Littia. We vibed pretty quickly, but something weird happened when we got closer. I would randomly get pains in my stomach, and headaches (I never had headaches as a kid), and my first thought would be Littia. I would text her
"hey love you okay?" her response:
"yeah I just have a headache", or "yeah my ulcers are acting up again."
I would be sitting in my room depressed, and she would text me,
"hey you wanna talk about it?" my response:
"talk about what?"
"you're depressed. I can feel it"
We felt each other emotions. We felt each others pain.
You likely won't believe that. I can't prove it to you, but I am a man of my word. We lived states away, her in Oregon, me in New Hampshire.
I decided to enlist in the army when I was 17. We were dating at the time, but I promised her once I got through basic and school I would marry her, and finally get to meet this mysterious and incredible woman. We promised we would write letters, before I was shortly sent off to basic two weeks after high school graduation.
During basic, I never received a single letter from her.
About five weeks into basic, I ended up getting a hernia (inguinal). I went through the rest of the training, and 4 weeks later I arrive in a hospital ready to undergo surgery. After surgery, I was sent back home for 30 days to recover and recuperate. First thought was to contact her, ask what happened why no letters?! She responded asking the same thing (come to find out her grandmother was tossing them away, both our letters to each other). We got into a massive fight in october 2012, and shortly a few days later I receive a message from her friend saying, she killed herself.
I felt...hollow ever since. About a week later I was sent back to training in basic, got another hernia, another procedure later, another 30 days of recovery. 9 months later, I finally got through basic.
2014 arrived, and I met yet another woman. This time however, she wasn't like Littia in any shape or form, but she had the mentality of an individual, and I needed someone like her in my life. We started dating, it was nice to feel...not so alone again.
A year later, I receive news we're going to deploy to Afghanistan. I honestly was terrified. What if I make a mistake and get people killed? That was my biggest fucking fear. I could careless about myself at this time. My life has been a pattern of mistakes and I can't fathom comprehending something that's a life or death situation for another soul.
We got deployed in 2015. First few months were calm. Nothing happened. Just doing my daily thing, checking up on each convoy and tracking their movements. I got complacent.
June 2015 occurs and I'm sitting there, tracking one convoy. They wanted to change routes. Okay, do your thing bud. I put it down on paper and shortly got off shift. I didn't expect anything that day. Bout 20 minutes later, the whole compound shakes from an incredible boom. I rush over to the crowd to find out that convoy took a bad route. I didn't think to see if that was a bad route.
4 of my buddies were injured. One stabbed.
Several locals were injured, some killed.
...I can't explain the amount of torture I endured over the course of three months for my mistake. It literally tore my entire mentality to the core and then some. I lost everything that was me that day.
I got back from deployment, my girlfriend and I got married shortly after. Got a house with two kitties. Life seemed nice...except my mentality was gone. I was a complete, utter, underneath the rabbit hole dead on the inside shell. My now wife took this as an opportunity to make money, and had me over the course of 2 further years of our relationship give her complete and utter control of our finances.
I ended up being medically discharged from the military after two suicide attempts. We moved to Colorado, hoping for a new, refreshed life. During this course my friends and family were practically begging me not to go.
"Shes using you man, you have to end this now"
"How can you not see she's making you feel like the monster?"
I didn't care. I deserved all of it. So we proceed to move.
2018, in August, I finally popped. I snapped out of my mentality for the first time in over 3 years after the incident, 6 years after the death of the only woman I ever truly loved. I had enough. I packed some things in my Jeep and decided this is it. I'm going to end all of this now. No more pain. I've been waiting for this moment for a long time, and here is the fucking day.
Once I get back to New Hampshire, I'll hug my father for the last time. Kiss my mom for the last time. Tease my two sisters for the last time. Say hi to all my friends who haven't seen me in 7 years, and end my life on the beach; my favorite place.
I took off in my practically rotted jeep (she wouldn't allow me to fix it, too expensive and I can always take an uber was her response), and set sail across the country for the last time. I was excited, so...so excited. I was going to end all this pain once and for all. No more regret, no more mistakes. I cant hurt anymore people if im dead right? I ironically played this exact video as I drove away from my house, my two beautiful loveable kittens. The wife that used and controlled me for 4 years.
It'll all be over soon.
See the mind is life a bountiful ocean, and ships are your dreams, goals. As you walk the shore, tragedy hits, breaking down these incredibly beautiful ships, only to lay waste to what I call the place where dead ships dwell. I want to die and be set free on the beach. So I can traverse the shoreline, listening to the waves for all eternity.
My plan was in motion. And over the course of a month, from August to September, I finished up my bucket list of things to do before I die. It's a rather...short bucket list. My dreams were crushed a long, long time ago by now.
I finally got back to New Hampshire. My family was so happy, in tears, to see me back home. And it made it so...so fucking difficult to keep with the plan because I loved them so much. They were all I had left in this cruel world.
It was my moms birthday shortly after my return. We went up to some little family spot my mom always wanted to go to. She had a blast.
We got back in the car after our fun. Everyone was talking, and goddamnit it was so hard not to cry, but I couldn't hold it anymore. All the pain I can see come to an end, but why....WHY would I want to sign my pain to them? I don't want to hurt people anymore. Especially my family. My dad is my idol. He's such a hardworking, genuinely good guy. I always strived to be like him. I couldn't do that to him. I just cant. I had a mental breakdown in the car, I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life.
And...they were there for me.
They saw the shit I've gone through. The stories I told them.
They saw the woman I was with, and they've been patiently waiting for me to wake up and come home.
It's December now. Almost Christmas time.
For the first time in 7 years, I'm going to have a Christmas with my family again.
A local charity group is helping me fix my Jeep. She's actually in the shop as of today.
I have an incredible support system with the local VA. Therapist, medication, all that jazz.
for once in my life, I'm actually pursuing my dreams, and finally taking back control of my mentality.
I'm sorry for the long story. I had a lot of breakdowns writing this. Experiencing those things once more.
If you actually, honestly read all of this, from the bottom of my heart thank you. You're welcome to join me on my journey towards self development; that's actually always been my dream. To grow a community of people that have had a tough life, and help them accomplish their dreams and goals.
I wanna make the world a happier place. I can't do that, so I'll accept at least making a community a happier place.
Thanks again
I'm sorry for the pain but I am glad you saw how ending your self only movies your pain to loved ones....... My dad was in the Iraq and was over seas for 3 years it was hard for me but once he got home I understood how hard it was on him...... He picked up a drinking habit and we couldn't even drive down the street with out him looking all around...... Keeping an eye on roof tops and alleyways I asked him why he was like that...... He told me to keep alive in a war zone you needed to see everything..... I then realized how damage he was and I loved him more as the years went by he stopped drinking and became the man I hope to be one day...... Thank you for your service and may you find peace at some point..... As bad as things may seem know they can never get better if you make that final call..... ~ love from a stranger online keep your head up soldier the world needs you
Stay strong bro
I imagine it was super hard to not only write this but also relive those tragic memories. I'm glad you continued to live to today. I've lost a lot of family at a young age, my grandpa died when I was 6. Hope you see these messages to show you aren't the only one with a story like this. Many don't live to tell their story like this I'm happy you're still here. We may never know each other but here on Earth every person can be connected to another through these sad stories. Thank you for this. But the only way through pain like this is to look to the future not the past. Like Dr. Seuss once said "Don't cry because it's over... Smile because it happened".
I don’t really know what to say. But I did read every single word you wrote and I’m so very proud of you man! I can’t imagine what you went through but i am so grateful you shared this to the world ❤️
I'm 12 and I'm depressed
Im slowly dying inside but just wear a smile everyday. No one around me knows
We’re born alone, and we’re leaving alone, remember that Philip!
Philip you are not alone. Jesus Loves you. I dont say that as a Christian but to make you aware that he truly does.
Hey Philip, God knows and that's all that matters.
Love you so much philip you are not alone God is with you
But we know.
Only some people will understand this...
Yeah bro you say it there is so much healing and information in this energy
I understood
Me to
I’m sad not to this but because my grandpa passed away at 4 in the morning to cancer and I’m on the verge of suicide😣”edit: I’m not on the verge of subside anymore I’ve gained strength back”
@@AnDru-lw1dx hang in there bro. The world's in a shitty place right now. It only gets better from here
Life asked Death, “Why do they love me, but hate you?”
And Death responded saying, “Because you are the beautiful lie, and I am the painful truth.”
@Ali Ege yes but not everyone hates death I love death but the main thing I ask is why are we living just so some of us can live happy and warm lives while some of us live painful and suffering lives but in the end we all end in the same place 6 feet in the ground dead we live just to die why is that nobody will know ever
Here's one beautiful truth. I hope it will help you th-cam.com/video/QIjoCE1QV94/w-d-xo.html
Why do i see this comment everywhere
Why is death the painful truth? Is it because it marks an end ? I find life harder than death , more painful . Death sounds nice sometimes and my life might seem perfect , but is it? Life is iconic where the most smiles are gathered, shadows of sorrow hide behind . Life is indeed a beatiful lie but it can also turn to a beautiful truth.Death though, will never lie it's the most real and sometimes painful truth. In the end everyone marches towards death and many people , like me , seem to love death, not because it kills us but beacause it will never lie to us . It's one of the few real places in this fake world
@@larry882 people are getting deep these days i guess lol
"Be careful with who you trust, salt and sugar look the same"
I can’t- the comment is good but then I look at your profile pic and just die-
@@PK505 xd
Omg my favorite quote
So what got to do the quote with the music?
@@niftyscrusade4291 the game
When you listen to this music you don't need to describe your sadness......
the music discribes you....
Yeah
@@omermavili5888 yeahh
(why am I not crying to this?)
Yes music can express sadness better than words.
That was very sad of the picture of the bird with no home and friends
I agree it is
Oh really? The bird could fly, literally anywhere. So what is keeping it there? Ha? Same as people who just hurt themselves.
@@damionjrfloyd6009 It’s probably tired and cold, it might have lost its family and is feeling scared. Who knows how long it has been flying? It’s raining, so flying would be hard anyways. There are a lot of things against it. Just like with people, you can’t judge circumstances unless you have the full picture. 🙃
@@damionjrfloyd6009 have you not seen the depressed pigeon videos? 😂😶
Yup that's me no friends, everytime I tried they bully me
Nothing hurts more when you’re crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt
That's some emo kid shit right there
No emo stuff
Yr not alone ...
Ty for describing me :)
Yes.
Something feels wrong when you cry without sad music... I had to listen to this to help me get out some tears because my dad died a few months ago
I know I'm late, but I'm really sorry to hear that. Just know that you aren't alone & people love you!
Be strong.
😔
Snowy sorry for your loss
This is a whole year later and I'm not going to say sorry because your probably fed up with people saying there sorry.....when sorry is never going to bring them back...
My sister died 7 years ago, she was to young to be taken...but think of all the good times you've had with your dad....he wouldn't want you to be sad, but you will get through this, And after a while it won't hurt so much. It's going to be ok, because even at the darkest times the light always finds a way to shine through ❤
"The mirror is my best friend , becouse when i cry it never laughs"
Charlie chaplin.
and it makes me realize how ugly i look while crying
I feel pain. Mentally.. physically.. I feel it all. I've felt it all my life, and I know I'll feel it when I'm older.. It'll never go away.
I listen to this song and I think.. "Where did it all go wrong?"
"When did I make a mistake?"
"When will it go away?"
"When did I make a wrong turn?"
I sit there and think..
I sit there and... cry.
I'm 15... I shouldn't deserve this..
Or should I?
I've made mistakes..
I've messed up every day of my life
And what do I get for being human?
Anxiety
Trust Issues
Depression
Cutting
Crying Myself to Sleep.. Every.. Night
Lost Friends..
Lost Family..
I lost myself.. and I don't know what to do anymore...
I don't know where to go..
I don't know who to trust
I don't know who to talk to..
I don't know who to love..
Shit.. I don't even know anyone who loves me anymore..
Everything.. has turned me cold
It's like I have no heart
No soul
Nothing
I have nothing anymore
I'm dying mentally and...
It hurts.
Everything inside me.. shattered like sharp glass
Poking at all my emotions..
Making me lash out when I don't want to..
I put on a fake smile everyday
I force a laugh
I'm only ever really happy when I'm with my true friends.. in which I have 1.
My mom says I abuse her..
My dad says I abuse my mom..
Mom, dad, look in a mirror and look at the child you have created..
I'm ashamed of myself..
I'm disappointed in myself..
That I couldn't live up to expectations..
I still have dreams..
I still pursue at them..
But so far..
I've gotten nowhere...
I'm broken.
It’s ok I hope u get better 🙏🙏
Broken but only 15.. hey you please read what you said and think about what you said
You’re not broken, actually you’re nothing, we are nothing. We don’t have an identity, when you said “I” or “Me” is not you, that’s just a name for psychics representations
You have a role to play which is different everywhere you go, with everyone you meet, you’re never the same person each day of your life.
Each day of your life is different, each things you do seams to be the same as yesterday but it’s not, every time is different.
You’re not broken, people just ones said “you’re sad af man” so you thought that you are... but you can’t know your identity such as me or everyone else in the world.. you are what people think that you are.
Please, you’re only 15 you ain’t do 1/4 of your life so wake up and go through life ! If you want to grow up, you need to suffer, if we want to grow up we need to suffer ! So stop crying and look what you can do but look also what you did wrong to never make it again... show to the world that you’re not that weakest person who’s always sad or crying... show that you have power ! *Damn you’re young !*
Real depressed people never talk about their feelings... so you’re not.. but know you know what to do.
Aren't we all? I just want to die because of bullies my pet rat died and after I told a friend she called me miss rattypants after my pet rat DIED I'm very depressed no one really knows but I'm still very sad JUST KILL ME NOW I JUST WANT TO DIE BE WITH MY PET ONE THING IS HELPING ME FROM KILLING MY SELF FRIENDS AND FAMILY I know people love me for who I am and I'm pretty much done with my life JUST KILL ME NOW
@@purplevenom2019 Honestly I know how you feel,almost,not the mrs.rattypants part but everything else is how i know,i hope you feel better.
@@blackstar8258 real depressed people don't talk about their feelings? You actually make me feel sick. Yes, we should all try to be strong. Yes, some people who are mentally unwell do not talk about their feelings. Ironically I don't hear about many of them anymore. They're dead now. The people that I knew that did not confide in someone ended up dying.
People are only just beginning to understand clinical depression, and one thing we do know is not only that teens and even children can become depressed, but that teenagers are in fact at a disproportionately high risk. We are not what people think we are, and those with mental health issues don't think this because they were told so. They may have an imbalance of serotonin within the brain or it could have been caused by a poor environment. Honestly nothing you said made sense, you are really bad at helping people out.
When I listen to this music I feel released from stress because you guys feel the same pain as me and I'm not alone.
You mean when you look through the comment section?
Same
@@arunmoses2197 I am sure he was probably listening to the music while he looked through the comments considering most people do 😂🤦🏻♀️
@@xbrandi12345x shush
Same bro 😢
It’s truly amazing how... how a piece of music. Just a small piece of music. Can send your brain into a million places. And how it can tell a million different stories.
I know right? It’s speaking to the soul!
Magic of Music transcends the real world and enters the world of human dreams and ideals of a long forgotten past...and bright future
And show a million faces
It makes you feel something, and there's beauty in that alone.
I’m agree with you
A man once said:
Roses are dead
Violets are dying
Outside I’m smiling
Inside I’m crying...
Have a nice day if you read this.
U toho!
Too*
I feel bad for the bird. poor birdie! 😭
me too poor bird 😢😢😢😢😢
I wanna hug this bird 😭💔
Yes
Me too
😢😢😭😭 so sad
People don't cry because they're weak...
People cry because they've been strong for to long.
And all that strength is drained enough their energy to push on
Everyday is another battle scar until you can't fight it any longer
Suree
@Savanna Daly Is that even a question, ofc I will
By Johnny Depp. Don't forget to put the sources. 😉
just cry untill you feel empty in your heart...
like me... 13th august 2020...
Hey...I understand I wish I could undo life
Stay in there bro/sis. Life will get better, you probably heard it a million times but trust me, times will get better
One of the saddest day i ever had in my life was 20 August 2020
How can i forget...
@@dev3403 why?
“I gave her my heart. Didnt expect it back in pieces.”
Deep 🙏🏻
Henry George Jr. I can relate to this quote
Hahahahaha
Reading this instantly made me cry 😔
What do i live for ?
What’s friends
What’s Love
What’s life
What’s happy
?
God created us to glorify Him
I wanna know too what's is life because i don't have him 💔
You live because others need you!!!! You are beautiful!!!! Keep flourishing like a flower!!
im not really sure anymore if being happy is something that actually exist, or its just as fake as me
Awe that’s…… TOO SAD!!!!….
They always say “you are not the only one that feels like this, there are people around that is suffering too” to make me feel better and less alone. But the thing is it makes me so much sadder that there are people out there that feels that way, or that are suffering like me and I can’t help them like i need somebody to help me too.
This is exactly how I feel.
The most beautiful thing here is that when you read these comments, you find people who suffer from the same pain that hurts you, and then your pain will ease, because at least you are not alone So do not be sad, for these words, even if for their simplicity, will ease the person, and I am one of the people who read the comment, and I felt that I was not alone. so thank you and I wish you happiness.
@@jacobball6519 This is the hardest part "because distances separate us." But although our countries, races and languages are different, we share our feelings and our way of thinking here.
Whatever emotional pain you feel...feel it completely...don’t resist...wrap it in the blanker of selflove..go to the cave of you your heart...stay there and send blessings to all who might be feeling the same kind of pain you are...it surely will feel super good and healing ♥️♥️♥️
@@rajkaur8600 It's wonderful to find people we don't know and don't know us , even despite all the distances , but they share their feelings and comfort us in stinulating terms that are all hope , so thank you .
Reading all the comments here shit I’m in tears
People are sad all over the world. Is it going to get better or we are going to get used to being sad?
Just close your eyes and think about your life u will cry really think about the good and bad.
Only bad not for good
Am I suppose to cry for the whole hour?
Yes, but your comment never gotten a single like after *3 years* 😂
Yep. 😭
dude this is for remembering your loved ones don't make fun >:(
@@cokorote4chukis
In what ways is he trying to make fun?
When you remind that your twin sister died an year ago and your parents a month ago... I'm alone on this world
That got me
I'm so sorry.🥺❤
Im sorry man
No you're not alone you have yourself . I mean soul and body if you don't know what to do try talk to your inner self . I have parents but I always talk with myself . Cause that's fun 🎉 .
Find someone to love and get marry. Make your own family.
لا يوجد ألم أكثر من فقدان أناس كانو حولك في يوم من الأيام
أرقدو بسلام أيها الأرواح الجميله
I have never related to a bird in my life more than I have right now
Am I the only one who feels unappreciated? I'm always there for everyone, even when I'm at my worst. I put everything aside and focus on them, but what do I get back? I get pushed away, treated like shit and much worse. I'm just a young teenager who's considered suicide too many times. I get dissed by my closest friends, people think of it as a joke but I'm a person who takes everything to the heart, my friends(or whatever they are) know I'm sensitive, yet they still do it! I don't know why, but there's nothing I can do. I can't just escape & leave. There's nowhere to go to and no way to leave. I've considered changing schools but I know that it would be the same in the other schools. I wouldn't say that I have depression, but I do have a lot of negative thoughts. Every little thing affects me so much, I'd like to know I'm not alone but I really am. I'm different, I'm a girl who hates makeup, doesn't like to dress up, hates shopping. I hate anything a regular girl would do. I've been called a boy by my own family. I'm too afraid to tell my friends that. To tell them that I hate makeup, I hate sleepovers, I hate hugs. I force myself to do those things. I force myself to put mascara on, I force myself to sleep over at my friend's house, and I force myself to hug someone. It may sound stupid but I'm tired of this. the feeling of being different and left out is possibly one of the worst feelings you could have, and to top that off, you have suicidal thoughts. Like I said, I'm a young teenager, I may have thought about suicide, but that doesn't mean I would do it. You just think.... would this world be any different if I was gone? If I just... died? Would anyone care? I know that I sound stupid posting my feelings in a youtube comment, but I've got no one to tell this to. I apologize. I may be a weak girl, but that doesn't mean that any of you are, too. I was born weak, never taught to defend myself. You all are worth something. No matter how much you think otherwise. The things you hate about yourself are the things that everyone loves about you! I know I sound stupid because I think the exact opposite with myself, but just because I'm a sad person, doesn't mean you all have to be. You Only Live Once, do something with your life that you'd be proud of.
Jailine Styles its alrigth man in sensitive but i dont show it people think im cold hearted and i would love to show my true self but i know i would just get taken advantage of you have a whole life ahead of you dont do do anything stupid
I know it's easier said than done, but please keep your chin up. I really hope there will be more people who appreciate you for the person you are in the future. I apologize for all the negative behavior done towards you on the behalf of everyone and I sincerely thank you for being so considerate towards other people even when you're feeling down. You said you were weak but I don't believe that, I believe you're stronger than you think and I know you can prove it. Best of luck to you, and cheers.
Jailine Styles i didnt read what you said but i hope you feel better
You just described my life perfectly. Every detail.
It is hard for me I hate my life I hate myself I am a kid and I am a sad person like you and I will never ever forget my dog I miss so much someone in my school hates me I don't know why but I have l
a lot of friends. theylime me I like them but my best friend I like them the most I never thought I will not be alone I really shy I don't talk much and I hate myself and my life it is so hard for me to stop doing what I'm doing right now😭😢😢😭😭😢😢😭😭😭😔😔😷😷😷😢😢💔💔💔😭😭😭😟😟😔😔😔🙁🙁🙁
One day we will find peace
And I shall wait for that day with tear filled eyes
For the ones that are lost,
I love you.
i been lost ever since i was born
The one I love will never say the words I love you and she found another to love I grew up with people around saying eww to me because I said whats so wrong with love women and now I cant express my feelings anymore
@@sheilabaker5735 I hope you find comfort. I hope the one you love is doing fine too. Don't listen to people who criticize love they don't have a beautiful heart which is able to love. Even if you can't be with the her anymore keep your precious feelings in a special place.
*Nice dream.*
A few years ago I had a intestines cancer, I was feeling sick everyday thinking how much days do I still have lefted, I was crying every single night didn’t want to die and so god gave me a chance to live I did the surgery they injected me with drug and my screen goes black for a few seconds I came out can’t believe I survived the surgery I was so grateful that I pray to god everyday.
All the pain everyone has felt, hopefully this makes them realize they can show that emotion and not be judged by everyone, not be laughed at for being a "crybaby."
I've never cried at school before, since I always keep my emotions locked up. When I first heard this beautiful song I closed my eyes and cried throughout it all. I remembered all I had lost, all I wanted, and all I had.
This is one of the best pieces of music on this planet- it makes those who seem as if they have no emotion, show all of it in the matter of seconds.
I feel bad for the bird. poor thing, out in the rain, I'm going to cry.
I'm an animal lover, what do you expect from me?
I am literally crying right now... POOR BIRD
poor you
Azura_Snow To me it just makes me depressed idk about the rest of people lol but I hardly show my true emotions to anyone...
Briana Bogan edgy
Am I the only one who uses this to go to sleep at night?
Jesse Pogue
no your not😂
Jesse Pogue nope although sometimes it can be distracting
no.....
I just discovered this yesterday just before sleep and was like on angle's wings
Myco Gassy no ur not i go too
Everyone who's here are the chosen one
The most DAMAGED PEOPLE ARE WISEST
Not a more truer statement I’m pretty damaged my self I have epilepsy so it’s hard. To live with the pain when you have seizures the anxiety you’re parents feel is just worrisome not because of how you feel but because of how it made them feel to see you so often having a seizure that they had to hand hold you in a lot of areas for so long is what it means to have physical toughness not some scratches from an animal. But the scars of seeing you’re parents in such a deep and scared place them not knowing if their child is going to wake up because of many seizures he had a day. Or how is he going to do with other kids at school do they know how hard it is to be the one with epilepsy forever and what they are told the can and can’t do do they know the pain of being told you can’t do this or you can’t do that because of that kids autism. That kid is me I’m stuck with epilepsy rest of my life I watch sports all the time but I’m told it’s not worth the risk. To see the pain on that kids parents face is hard to look at because you wonder is this a curse or something cause it ain’t fun it hurts
I mean definitely not
It hurts most when no one notices that you are depressed...but they only notice your mistakes....
Ouch
Totally agree
Wonderful and powerful music. I was here 4yrs ago in a very dark place and this helped me cry and sleep. I heard this the other day and that empathy of emotion poured out once again. I'm good now. God bless all of you and never give up.❤✌
As human beings we have emotions that can't be explained
A lot of things we can't explain or understand, but maybe that's because we're not here to understand everything. Still... we have purpose. I want you to know this
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Its 3 am, im crying while i listen to this and im staring at my ceiling
When you realize that you only got Depression left in your life.
Me: "this can't be the saddest piano/violin ever."
Me, one minute in: 😢😭
Excally...😞
Same..
Hace 3 años compuse esta pieza en un día de invierno. Subo este video para escucharla sin parar junto con un poco de lluvia de fondo. Espero les guste y por favor compártan el video, eso me ayudaría muchísimo!!! gracias :D
I composed this piece 3 years ago on a very cold winter day. Now I upload this video to listen to it with a subtle rain sound. I hope you like this!! And if you do, please share the video, thank you :D
+JMendezMusic Me encanta. Hace tiempo escuché el original cuando me dedicaba a la escritura, y fue simplemente perfecto. Una música muy emocional, pero suficientemente delicada para dejar pasar la imaginación y las palabras.
Muchas gracias por subirlo y componerlo! :)
+Aura Beatz wow! your the most obesed fan of him. dont worry. because i am too!
JMendezMusic hi
you're amazing.
JMendezMusic usted señor tienes un talento especial
At least I know there’s some beauty in sadness
it’s so painful when you lose a parent. im begging. and expressing this no matter how much PLEASE please don’t give up on your parents. one day once they fade and become a part of the soil ground, you’ll retrieve the memories and it’s pure PAIN. please respect your parents, cherish them and love them. PLEASE. 😭💕
I remember my mom always crying for me and being so supportive. she was so keen on me getting a good education, if I was eating right or not, my health, my friends and social life, please don’t disrespect your parents . moms the one enduring the hardships and pain for 9 months while you were in her womb . then comes the extreme pain and agony of birth . then the midnight cries of you she had to take care of , while dads out there trying to place bread on the table. please respect your parents. and to the ones who say “ my parents are abusive and unsupportive” 👏TALK 👏TO 👏 SOMEONE👏ABOUT👏IT👏
do NOT just leave it there and neglect it be. talk to a close relative, friend or a trust worthy adult and be PATIENT. understand they are your parents and would do anything in good means to keep you happy.
please…don’t be the ones in the phase where it’s “too late…💔”
trust me…
it hurts…
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I lost my childhood...
I lost my dreams...
I lost my pureness...
I lost my family...
I lost my friends...
I lost my hopes for everything
I just want to end me
Once I was told a story by a wise man:
There was a contest in which people were asked to paint a picture representing happiness.
One of them painted what he described was exactly like this bird in the picture. Heavy rain and a little bird still, standing strong.
He told us the lesson about happiness is not being happy when everything is going well but being strong and patient during difficult times.
Just one of my favorite stories our karate sensei used to tell us during our breaks.
Sometimes we have to be that little bird.
there's always room for one person to share there struggles.
Everyday people except me to be a perfect person in school and always get everything right. But one thing about it that they don't know what's going on under my roof. I have a dad who barely cares about me, A mom that makes me and my sister clean the house while my younger one does nothing. I've been heartbroken for 2 months and it stills continues. I'm always supposed to be Ms.Perfect to everyone since I'm so smart but they never know that background of what's going on in my life nor my past..
What this person will never know is the beauty of his music has inspired me to buy a violin and begin teaching myself at home. Thank you
Nice, I play the clarinet and the alto saxophone and I’ve been playing these instruments for more than 5 years
I love this music it takes me to another level away from this miserable life that we live in
Exactly what I lived through so far. My grandfather dead... my nan close to... no friends... people telling to go kill myself... why can't I end it all... why can't I DIE!!?
@@rhysedwards415 dude don't die
I can guarantee you, someone loves you
If you are already dead I'm sorry
You need to exist dude
It'd be bad without you
@@ThePlushieFam27 and how so? How would it be bad at all?
@@rhysedwards415 someone loves you
You can't die!!!!!
If you ever feel sad. Go out side and look at nature.
A flower is beautiful, but it doesn't know it.
You are beautiful and you do not know it. But I do.
A tree is strong, but it doesn't know it. A tree withstands winds and rains. Hots and colds. And yet it continues to stand strong.
You are strong even if you don't know it. I know you are.
A moth only lives for a few weeks. It doesn't know that. But still lives it life with purpose.
You have purpose, even if you think you don't. I know you do.
A stream will always find a way to flow. And yet it doesn't try too. Even if there is a blockage, it will find a way around it.
Don't let small blockages, in your life, stop you from achieving your goals. Because I know you can.
Nature tells a story. You just have to look at it, to have it tell it to you. So tell your story, if not to people, then to nature, because nature is always telling you a story.
Wow thank you so much am going through a hard time 😭this means alot to me ❤️
❤❤❤❤❤
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when you love someone so deeply that even if you try to forget her you end up here thinking of her
Me too
I always get that feeling I'm trying an old friend please find him I haven,t seen him for 2 years his name is kody
I feel that in my bones.
Got me
Quebonafide - Zorza (prod. Jorge Méndez)
Regards from Poland!
Spierdalaj
@@orzeh15 Matula wie jak się odzywasz w internetach pajacu?
"When do you think the person die?
When they are shot through the heart by the bullet of a pistol? No
When they are ravaged by an incurable disease? No
When they drink a soup made from a poisonous mushroom? No
It is... when they are forgetten"
Dr. Hiriluk one piece
now that made me tear up...
Just because you failed, doesn’t mean your a failure, don’t give up! You are loved, I love you and Jesus loves you. ❤️🙏
I know but pain still hurts to this day and nighy
Maybe this is where I'm meant to be. I've never fit in, in this world. Is this where I belong, in the shadows, in the darkness, until I become it and fade away into the abyss.
Same
I smile to fit in.
I laugh so others won't cry.
I act happy to his the pain that turns my heart dark.
Why do we exist? Why do governments worry about too much people on the planet?
At that, why not kill the people like me who didn't even ask to live?
Sadness fills my thoughts, life is an endless struggle.
Why? Why does everyone hate me when I do something different?
I'm human, sure.
With that, I'm smart and athletic but hate not having to try to think.
Even if I'm athletic, everyone else is better at everything.
I have nothing else to do, why are we alive? I don't have any more fun with my life.
Maybe I should just... Do... That. My eternal pain would seem to end for a split second but more awaits in Hell. Hey, at least I'll have a nice warm, lava bath, right?
I don't want to deal with the pain.
I don't want to deal with depression.
I don't want to deal with life.
All that life is, a harm committed against against your soul.
This dystopia of a world we have, wars, murder, antipathy.
Everyone's hate directs at me.
That hate leads to a hatred of myself.
I'm sorry
You shouldn't think about what I think about every day.
I feel you
I feel you
My life is a mistake
#mood
Virtual no one are survivors we all die, we have a one life and use it wisely before it ends
People don't cry because they're weak.
People cry because they've been strong too long.
-Anon
True.
I'm turning 20, sad to see all you have been working hard for, benfit others while you still continue to suffer alone, cold, empty and hungry. When parents ask if " you're okay ", you say "I'm fine " but they cannot understand that we have to put a mask infront of people while dying slowly inside each day
I can feel you at this moment brother 🫂
*I suffer from depression and I have been fighting this disease for many years, it is very difficult for me, I hope that God helps me and I can someday be happy, because the pain of the mind and heart is the worst thing in the world, it seems that I am dead a long time.*
you can get over it
just stop thinking about what bother you and makes you sad
see life is full of happiness you just have to open your heart and feel it
get out of your dark room stop listening to sad songs
you deserve to be happy :)
I miss him. I hope he is finally free from the pain he carries inside. But now I am traumatized. I will never forget how it felt seeing him hanging there limp and lifeless. Knowing my soulmate is gone forever. Its been almost a year and it still feels like he cant really be gone. My brain refuses to accept that the world can exist without him in it.
After 2 years you posted the comment. I hope you doing well.. 🙏🙏
It still hurts sometimes. I have PTSD from what happened. I am married now and I'm mostly doing OK but I do have lingering problems. I live in constant fear that something will happen to my husband. If he doesn't text me back fast enough I get scared. If he doesn't answer my calls I fear the worst. He hasn't given me any reason to fear that but noe my brain is wired that way
You know nothing really good happens in my life. No friends, no one to cry on, why do people have to suffer while others are just living their lives in peace? Why do people suffer like people like me, bullied, lonely, and guilt. Why do I have to be here while nobody even talks to me the same why I talk to them. Nobody really talks to me than i talk to them. Loving, caring and nice people always are the victims not always but I remember the saying that, quiet people are the kindest and the saddest people smile the brightest and that's me.
After 4 months you posted this comment. How are you doing now? Are you better..? Keep yourself strong, dear one.. 🙏🙏
I'm slowly dying every day, I give the world a smile, but inside I'm shattered and I don't think I'll go back.
When I hear it I think of the people I loved who are in a better place now and I'm here now live because of them
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Same 😢😢😢😢😢😫😫😫😓😓😓😓😭😭😭
To anyone hurting. Remember everything will pass in time. Even the worst pain & problems. Never give up. I was knocked down once and almost didn't make it thru, but I pushed thru and the most beautiful thing happened all the hurt and pain led me to a destination I could never have seen coming where all my wildest dreams were waiting for me and came true in short order. Sometimes the bumps in road are just that. Bumps as you're on your way to your destination of all your dreams coming true.
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I feel the bird
I tried so hard so hard! I begged you not to leave me. Got drunk. Every single day, every freaking moment I have to manage myself. The air I am breathing is poisoned now. What a beautiful lie you were! I am now frightened of you. I am afraid of humans. That night ! I begged! Life goes on! Idk how! I have no courage left anymore . You made me miserable. You broke the person's heart into pieces repeatedly who spent their nights praying for you, you thought God won't recompense him? have fear my beloved
Man.. Life’s really has gone fast, it’s like yesterday was 2020 and now it’s almost 2023, 4 years ago we were happy without a care in the world next thing you know there’s lockdown, I really wish we can restart life, It could be so much better.
Like if you agree
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I've officially lost every one in my life I just want to go to sleep
I've lost almost all my friends and i don't even want to sleep. It's been almost 72 hours
Do you want to talk with someone?
My friend: you shouldn’t care about someone you don’t know!
Me: ok...
But what if that someone could be important to my life someday?
I can’t afford to not care anymore.
I fucking hate it when people say “don’t care about people you don’t know” cause.....
What if they need our help...?
Even animals take care of their friends . We are human we should care each other . But i say trust is dangerous game .
Take care. Music takes your hand. Artistic takes your conversation. May I take your hand. In love with humanity.
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Pls ima child I cry when I see that it’s so sad u made me 😢😭😖cry
Miguel song
JMendezMusic I’m sad
I think i need emotional therapy😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Omg it's look like a bird is cold that breaks my heart 😢😢😢😭😭😭😿😿
My friends: you crie to much
My family:go study
My teachers:thats just direspectfull
...no wone loves me but wen you die they love you and said what a great persone you were.But they always tolde you what you dont do good and not what you did good.💔
I am soooo proud of you! 💙
I love these types of songs
Artistic Kitten yes yes💗😥
Mi tu
The greatest tragedy is not death but life without Jesus.
And it will cost a lot of folks
Beuatiful, masterpiece beat in Quebonafide "ZORZA", thanks..
We are all in this together ❤
I cried because my cat died I miss him R.I.P Memphis the cat October,2,2016
RIP :'c
Sunako Akazawa Tysm Its really sad I miss him so bad 😖😞😔😢
I understand you... But my story is even worse
@PZ 6 I understand you very well my friend.. we cannot turn back in time sadly.. but from mistakes.. and people we miss.. we learn a valuable lesson.. dont hurt the people you love and are still arround you, don't let yourself become a Shadow.
I never cry. I never cared about crying. Because it changes nothing. I put on my boots, and keep going. I might smile less, but that's just the nature of life, as time goes by.. you end up smiling less
The saddest thing about my death will be, there will be no one to write a poem in memory of me.
No one to pen a verse, about any good I’ve ever done. Or about how I fought the darkness, so I could live in the sun.
My memory will fade as days pass by, and I’ll be forgotten, lost in time.
Hope ya like it:3
I wish i had somebody to talk too :(
I may be a stranger on the internet,but ask away
i'm here if you need !
You always have the mirror
The most painful thing is that you smile, speak and laugh with people around you, and they think that you so happy, but truly in the inside, you ignite, you are so depressed, you feel a horrible pain, that the true meaning of depression. Actually if people see how much pain in this depressed people's hearts, they will think many times before they say anything to them.
This made me cry
*i miss my brother at Virginia cause I live in Wisconsin :(*
The description is so accurate. This piece almost immediately brings me to tears every time I listen to it.
This bird is me ,alone, hopeless, poor , depressed and broken..
I feel sorry bro..
Just so yo know, stay strong and live long
Maybe one day you will have a good life and a good day
You are not alone, there are other people out there for you
I'm here for you because I care for you.
Even though I'm 13, we're all here for you.
You are not alone
Stay strong, I believe in you! You can do this!
@@shepherd_aries thanks to say this and you are doing good.. sometimes I feel there is so many reasons that connect me to stay here and move on
There are many of us in this dark world, we don't have anything but each other...
And yet, we are lonely... 😟😞
Uhm a real depressed person never tells their feelings.............
This bird is actually fighting meanwhile the storm ends. Keep fighting one day at the time, a lot of things can change. The storm will end.
I feel like this bird right now. I understand what it's going through. It's difficult for me to express but I can't stop crying.
Me too 😫😫😭😭😭
that not a bird it's a liver
Me roo
Too
@@Арбузжанчик ???
JESUS answer unto him "I am the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIFE" John 14:6❤❤❤❤❤
Hi Khan ..I was writing a theatrical piece for Jesus and was looking for sad music to inspire me.... this mans story touched my heart and I saw the harvest of grace.....is love
John is a basic ass name for a Jesus person
I found your music "Cold" in a sad game "Liyla and the shadowns of war".
my heart broken .. i'm so sensible with all children (and people in geral) on zone war.
have so much pain and darkness.
The game is based on real stories ..
Your music make the game so deep, like a arrow in out heart for everything happens with these people.
Man ..i'm broked.
Again.
I cant do much for them .. I cant ..
r u ok
u seem real sad and broken
so much pain and darkness
My heart is always broken myself I'm forver alone no Girlfriend
This music feels like my depression.
You're in your room thinking of your friends.
They do nothing to help, and do something else..
You feel empty and alone, and just sadness..
The rain pelts outside as you look out your window.
They're raindrops, you think.
Raindrops of Sadness.
You try to break free out of the darkness to retrieve your only sanity..
Ending only to break yourself more.
And your mind shatters at the end of the road..
And the train never arrives.
The rain falls slowly, each one of them is your sanity.
And your life.
i never had friends because im too much of a monster too try
😔💔
Beautifully said
Guys remember one thing this life is unexpected it is not fair
So accept it and move on ✌️✌️
From your friend
❤️✌️
Hopefully today is going to be the end of my journey in life. No more fights, blame just complete calm mind and heart knows what to do to reach god again ❤ no sadness for me just complete joy for leaving this selfish world behind me. I hope this time ill succeed if i did people its not sad thing its real celebration. Its victory by itself i hope I'll not fail again ❤❤🦋
My grandma passed away and this song makes me so sad so sad :(
I love you grandma
sorry for ur loss
who else cried during this hour?
Me... right now...
im so heartbr4oken right now i dont know if living is even worth it
Me I'm already cry
I did
Me.
🤗💟
emptyness, loneliness, misunderstandings, no respect, feeling rejected, feeling too much, being used, hidden tears, hidden fears, ......... can i remove the mask?
Let us hear your voice today, O Lord, speaking through your Word, the illumination of Scripture by your Spirit. Shed light on the Word, or rather, shed light on our hearts and minds that we might understand it aright. Let us seek you today and not delay or make excuses.
Buni xammasi vaqtincha. Muammo va qiyinchliklarga qaramasdan oldinga intil xechkimdan yordam kutma. Ollohdan umid qil☝ 📈
Right now, i feel my life will the end. I was lost my way for 6 years already, and i don't know what i want to do.. 😭 God give me your wisdom so i can choose the best way for my life..
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