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Oink Oink.. I been wondering about YOU.. as I am looking at your Picture.. How did I fell so Hard just by looking at your Picture.. but when I think of YOU and the Picture in my Hand is Not just an ordinary.. I know that YOU are truly talented.. truly Gifted.. the Most Beautiful.. and also you are very Bright.. so Smart.. just the Whole Package and I know if there is a way to get to YOU.. I would question.. with the mark and I remember.. in my hand I was holding a cold can of beer.. and walking Out side of the back.. I would stand.. there was the MOON up ahead.. having your Picture in the ROOM.. I put on the top of the desk.. and after Questioning How to get to YOU.. I would ponder How.. how can it work.. How can it let it be known to YOU if I am unable to get the Word out to YOU.. How am I suppose to tell YOU something if YOU will never Know.. it would bother me as I would be drinking the Cold can of Beer in my Hand.. I want YOU to know how I feel.. I want you to Know it because If I do Not tell YOU what is in my Heart.. YOU are Not going to ever Know How I truly Feel about YOU.. do you know How that feels.. when I needs to get it Off my Heart.. get it off my Chest and YOU are inside my Heart.. I am Looking at the Picture that is in the ROOM and sitting on the TOP of the Desk.. I want YOU to know My Heart.. when YOU are just keeping it Inside of YOU.. like this Cold can of Beer in my Hand.. and I am drinking it.. sipping it and Just LOOKING UP at the MOON on the back yard.. NO matter How many times I would walk Out side and walk Out in the back Yard.. if there is nothing but silent.. just the sad Moments of standing still unable to express.. it gets harder and harder as the days goes By.. and after I would finish drinking the Cold can of beer.. I feel dizzy in my Head but nothing would be done.. I go back into the House.. and just heading back to the ROOM and sitting.. Looking at your Picture in my Hand.. HOW do you know what My Heart feels.. when I want to tell YOU.. I want to express how this Heart of Mine truly feels but when there is Nothing but the Silent.. it just gets to Your Head.. because I am holding unto Your Picture.. but what good is it just looking at your Picture.. knowing that YOU are every man's Dream.. that I need to Love YOU.. that I needs to tell YOU that I love you and I just want to transfer that Love so that IT gives the ROOM for Your Heart.. for the Love to grow so that ONE day YOU are able to tell me or express.. or just to Love me.. I don't want it just be me who Loves YOU.. but just waiting for that Day.. to be honest with YOU.. that ONE DAY you will love me.. HOW can you love me when I do not Love you first.. or be Bold.. have the courage in my Heart to say IT until you understand me completely.. it is NOT about the TIME.. it is NOT about How much TIME must pass because I have grown to be patient and to learn HOW to be patient.. you have to remember HOW LONG I have been writing.. How long I been typing so I don't care about the TIME.. but ONE thing I truly wanted is LOVE.. all about Just Love that IT can pierce into your Heart and OPEN your Heart.. open your MIND that I do Love YOU.. and I wanted this to happen but just looking at the Picture in the front of ME.. it kills me.. feels like when I be going Out side.. in the back yard and all I can do is stare at the BIG MOON in front of me.. as I am getting drunk.. just kills me.. and I would be asking.. HOW.. I needs to tell YOU.. Please show me HOW.. I needs YOU to know that I want to tell YOU MORE AND MORE.. but HOW.. and I am sitting in the ROOM.. by the desk just looking at your Picture.. I would feel so sad.. my Heart would feel so broken because I need YOU.. I want YOU and I want to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. but just staring at this Picture.. and just looking at How beautiful YOU are.. all it does is kill me.. and I start to cry.. and just brushing off the tears off my face Looking at your Picture.. it is NO Fair.. I want to tell YOU.. so that At least you will know.. that Maybe not Now.. some times down the Line on later time.. you will finally get the picture of knowing.. I am Not asking you right Now to love Me.. when did I because I have never forced YOU too but I am just waiting for that TIME when YOU will really do but first.. I needed to tell YOU somewhere and some how.. as my hand be hitting my Chest.. the other hand lays on the Keyboard.. which it got me UP to LOOK at the Other hand laying on the Keyboard.. I can't believe what My eyes were looking.. my hand on top of the button of the keyboard on top of the desk in the ROOM.. I would turn to LOOK at the Other hand which my hand was holding unto your Picture.. placing it on top of the desk.. the hand would wipe my eyes from the tears I would be shedding.. and I turn to LOOK at the Other hand.. which was laying on top of the Keyboard of the computer.. and something hit me.. an Idea hits me in my Head from my Heart.. is this what it means.. can this really work.. will it work out.. can I tell you through the typing of the writings that I can give you many messages to letters.. and I just could not Believe because I needed to tell YOU something.. I needed you to KNOW that I love you.. that I wanted it more than just me be staring at your Picture.. why can't I tell you that my Heart be burning.. why can't I as a MAN tell you that I want to Hold YOU.. hold you in my arms.. at least you will know how much I wanted to be with YOU.. If I am like the ONE who goes OUT side in the back Yard.. and at NIGHT all I see is the BIG MOON and ALL I do is stare at it.. just a Picture but Nothing.. it is going to kill me from the Inside.. I would look at the key board.. and I would look at the computer monitor.. and I would laugh and then I start to cry.. I know that I am a digital Writer.. and I know with my WHOLE HEART.. with such great Passion I love to write and share.. I love it to death.. I been sharing for such a Long time and I am going to switch also to Tell YOU that I love YOU and I start to cry Louder and Louder as I am looking down at the Key board.. this Idea that came out of Nowhere but I want to tell you that I love YOU.. why can't I tell you Please.. why can't I tell you.. since I can't meet you in person face to face.. I know that I have Nothing to Lose.. if I die from it.. let it be so that at least I know that I can die at last after I reveal How much I love YOU.. until you can see me at the Grave.. when I die.. the day I die I know by that time you will finally see how much I love YOU.. you will say OH this MAN loved me so Much that He died of loving Me.. I want those words to COME OUT when YOU come to my grave stone.. if YOU see my Name on the grave stone.. you will know because I been waiting for you just too LONG.. and My Heart finally got sick that I had to let my Heart go so it took my Life because I have never stopped Loved YOU and still Loves you until DEATH it comes.. of course my Wish and my Desire.. my Dream is not to take me that far.. where you needs to find me underneath a Tree.. or YOU have to look at the Stone.. but before that day comes that I will Love you More.. you should know that I love YOU.. and also comes missing YOU so much.. that I can feel my chest be breaking and breaking on me.. when I looked at my hand laying on the TOP of the keyboard of the computer Monitor.. I just knew this was the Only Way and it is something that I can share and tell YOU from my Heart.. there was NO Other way Plus.. I have Nothing to Lose.. when YOU are at the BOTTOM ROCK in life.. and YOU know there is NOTHING but just going straight forward and Moving forward and just trying your best in what the Little I have been given and what it seems so Impossible.. looking at your Picture.. and going Out side at Night on the back Yard.. when YOU are LOOKING UP at the BIG MOON.. it feels so impossible for anything to happen.. the BIG MOON is so Far UP at the sky.. that Long far distance makes it impossible to touch that BIG MOON when you are standing at the Bottom rock.. but after my hand touches the Key Board and it gave me a Hope.. it gave me something to LOOK up too.. even though I may never get it to YOU.. maybe it means Nothing to YOU.. if I don't try.. I know it be worse for me of NOT even trying.. but I had to go all IN and I had to do what I can to know.. if I really Wanted YOU to Love Me.. it is better than Never finding OUT.. never trying because YOU think you will fail.. of course I would think about that.. but.. I knew that If I can type and write for a very Long time and YOU knew in your Heart.. that I can type very far.. that I am truly committed and devoted.. I will also be when it comes of Loving YOU.. loving you the Most where the WHOLE world will see it.. that people are going to know about it because I loved you from the Beginning and told Myself.. I will always love YOU and that is a PROMISE from my Word.. and I remember putting your Picture on top of the desk and I would pull the Keyboard toward my direction where I can see all of the key letters on the Board.. and I would smile.. I hope that YOU can really see my Heart.. NOT just my Heart.. but my WHOLE Heart who really loves YOU.. and I would place my hands on the key board as my finger tips would touch the Buttons of the Letter of the key board.. as my Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. I would say.. I may have Nothing.. hitting at the Rock Bottom of Life.. I know that I am Not rich.. I am a poor Man.. I have Nothing to give YOU what material has its worth.. but let me tell YOU and show YOU one thing.. when It comes of Loving YOU.. I know and I believe that MY HEART can grow.. it can grow very Big in your eyes.. that One day YOU will see that my Heart becomes BIG.. that I have a BIG HEART when it comes ONLY LOVING YOU and telling YOU How much that I really Love YOU.. and how am I suppose to start.. I always start very small.. but it grows and grows
MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Bars.. I need to see you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am sitting on the Prison Floor.. and Behind me is the Art Sketch Paper.. in these dark times when I can't be with YOU.. and without Your Presences and Only way for my Heart to get through the days is when I have the Art Sketch paper.. Drawing Picture of YOU and I am just waiting in the silent.. I know that the Prime Minister and Other Council of Noble Men is putting the Case against Me.. saying that it is TREASON.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. I know that if I must Die tonight.. if they press the Charge against me.. please let my name be known that I am the One who Loves YOU the Most.. if YOU want to write something about me.. please let it be known that I have always Loved You.. and that you have saw everything what a Man can do when it comes out of Heart when a MAN truly Loves YOU.. and as I would be holding with Both Hands the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and I would be looking at your Beautiful Face.. I would say and whisper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. you are the True QUEEN of my Heart.. my Love.. my Queen.. who I have been loving for a Long TIME.. and I am Not sure where did It all start.. if I can go back when I first saw YOU.. when I took that first glance and How you shook my Heart.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be walking with my Father.. and I would be sitting on the top of the Horse.. and my father pulling the strings and He is smiling walking ahead while the Horse is following and I am sitting on top.. and on the right side is the waters.. the ocean and I would to LOOK at the Sun.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father stops and he turns his Head looking at the SUN.. on the Other side.. the King.. PEH HA is pulling the Horse string.. and I can hear a Big Laughter as the strings of the Horse behind the King.. so many People from the Palace are walking behind the Horse.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH when YOU were young sitting on the TOP.. and the KING.. PEH HA Stops.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father turns too look ahead.. the KING who is standing there.. my Father walks faster towards HIM and falls on both Knee.. Head looking to the Floor and I would get Out of the Horse and I would walk faster AND also falls on both knees and Head to the ground.. and I hear the Voice to get UP.. and My father gets UP before the King and I was allowed to lift UP my Head UP and as I would stand UP.. I am standing next to my father.. I see YOU sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU turn Your Head.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH turns the Head to Look down and when I saw YOU for the first time.. I don't know what it is.. but My Heart.. I can feel my Heart beating but faster it kept on beating.. and I would fall on both knees.. and my father turns to LOOK down with the King.. and I see you sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU look.. I wanted to give you a Flower.. back in the garden is where I can find this ONE flower.. who reminds so much of YOU.. the Most Beautiful Flower to My Queen.. But I am Not sure.. if I pick the Flower from the Garden.. will you receive the Flower that I give that only can comes from my Heart.. what if I give it to YOU but you dismiss it.. and it can cause my Heart to break.. should I take the chance to give you the Flower.. it is a Flower that my Mother gave to my Father.. the Seed and told my Father before she died to plant the seed where she be buried and watch how the Seed will grow and produce into this Flower.. and I remember my Father planting the seeds she gave HIM and by the tree and it grew after a certain time.. I would walk with my father into the Garden.. going UP the Hill top where the Tree is there and the Flower grew there.. that it is her Heart.. when I love someone.. that this Flower can truly transfer and once that Love transfer through the giving of this Flower that Dreams can be made and Dreams of Love can come true.. it is in the Garden but on the TOP.. the Hill top where the Tree stands alone.. there is a bed where the Flowers started to grow from the Seeds that was planted and I wanted to give you this One Special Flower that came from the Seeds of Flowers and I know that it means.. the Flower is the QUEEN of my Heart.. only One Heart that I have and can give to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when I first saw YOU at the Ocean.. and How the King.. PEH HA.. He was the One who was walking ahead.. and HE was the One who was pulling on the strings of the Horse.. all the Noble men and generals.. the Prime Ministers.. all the high Officials were standing behind as the KING.. PEH HA was introducing the Next new Ruler to Be.. and How he was walking on bare feet and the High Officials were giving distance as HE.. PEH HA.. the KING wanted to be alone with YOU.. and How he wanted to show YOU that ONE Day.. you are going to take his Place because Other SONS were all behind with the HIGH OFFICIALS of the ROYAL PALACE.. but He has chosen YOU that Day.. I was riding on the top of the Horse.. my Father wanted to tell me Something.. He wanted to share a story to Me and has something very Important message to tell me that day.. On this day.. for the first time as My Father was pulling on the Horse and He was sharing about my grandfather.. which was his father.. that is when YOUR FATHER the KING.. PEH HA comes by himself.. bare feet and walking down alone.. and I believe he was telling YOU a story too and I met you there at the Ocean.. my Father loved the Ocean just like my Grandfather.. and I too love the Ocean waters.. and I am thinking.. Maybe HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN loves the Ocean waters as well.. I remember that day.. the Doctors of the ROYAL Palace came.. your Father's Feet.. PEH HA'S FEET was bleeding walking on the rocky road.. and I saw YOU watching.. but my Heart to saw you for the first Time and I knew.. YOU are going to be My QUEEN.. not just the QUEEN but also the QUEEN of my Heart who I can only Love YOU.. so Please.. I want to show YOU and take YOU to the Garden.. so that when you do go to the garden.. I want to show you that special Flower.. which is located in the Garden.. on the Hill Top of where the Tree still stands.. and I want to give you this Flower.. Now I am thinking of this Flower which I could Not give to YOU Yet.. it has been so long since I was at the Garden and Now.. WHEN I am sitting in this Prison.. and able to think about you More deeply.. this FLOWER.. I am wondering.. is that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER still there.. it is from the Seeds that my Father planted long ago.. but it is the biggest flower that came from many seeds when My Father planted at the bed by the Tree.. I called the Flower My QUEEN.. which means the Most Beautiful Flower stands Out from the rest because the other Flowers are much more smaller.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. is it too Late to Know about this Flower.. am I just too Late to give you this Flower.. I want to give this Flower because I remember what my Father told ME because it came from my Dying Mother when she gave the seeds of flowers to my Father before she died.. to give the Flower when it grows bigger and when I grow older.. when I meet someone WHO I love the Most and WHO I believe is the One I call my QUEEN of my Heart.. the ONE WHO I been loving.. to plant it and let the seeds to grow so that when I find the ONE WHO I LOVE.. I can give you the Flower to tell YOU.. it has taken me so Long to remember.. because I have lost the focus of this Flower for many long years.. I just want to go back to the Garden to see that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER.. before I die here in the Palace.. I want to make One true wish before I go to tell YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOW much I love YOU and that I should of given you this Flower much sooner.. then I believe by now.. something could of happened right.. but I don't want it to be Never either.. just to take this ONCE last chance.. to tell YOU that what I heard and how it was passed down to me by my Mother.. if she is right.. I believe that Dreams of Love can be made and Dreams can come true because I do believe in this Love that it is very special.. just like YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that YOU are so Special to Me.. has been all this time and still YOU are.. age to age do Not matter because as long as it is My Heart who loves YOU.. I know that If it means to happen.. something to happen.. in that Garden.. on the HILL TOP where the Tree stands.. there is a bed of Roses there.. and when YOU LOOK at the Bed of Flowers.. YOU WILL find One special Flower that stands OUT alone.. that Flower.. her name is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am given this Paper with the Ink.. asking the guard by the Prison Door.. gives me my request and I am sitting down.. writing with the Ink as it dips.. on this Paper I am writing the Instructions and telling YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN.. if I die here in Prison.. I know that I won't be able to tell YOU.. but with this Message I am writing.. YOU can go there to see it for yourself to see if it is true.. that ONE FLOWER belongs to YOU.. that it is YOURS.. I have been waiting for that Flower to be KNOWN to you but it has taken me so long to tell you this.. I believe Life gives YOU a story which so much things are happening that sometimes YOU DO forget to TELL YOU what is the Most Important.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I really wanted to go with YOU.. it does Not matter if I die here in the Prison because at least in my life time I get the chance to tell YOU many times How much I love YOU.. watching you grow over time.. NOW you are the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and HOW you have
MAH MAH.. Succeeded after your Father.. PEH HA.. and I am just thinking back that HOW your FATHER.. PEH HA knew all this TIME.. He had to pass for the NEXT TO SUCCEED after HIM.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA already Knew that YOU.. his DAUGHTER will become the QUEEN.. will conqueror after HE passes On and I am just thinking about HOW he just knew.. the DAY I meet you for the first time.. I was riding on the Back TOP of the Horse.. and How YOU were too riding on the back top of the Horse.. many servants and High Officials who works for the palace all came Out that day.. it was so amazing to watch Many of the Higher UP Officials.. Just standing.. giving the distance where the Father.. PEH HA.. the King wanted to spend Time alone with YOU that day.. and His FEET bleed through that WALK but he kept on walking.. and showing YOU how much HE loves to spend the TIME with YOU.. I saw that when I was sitting on back top of the Horse.. PEH HA.. the KING was smiling all the way through the walk.. that day when I lifted UP and stood before YOU on both feet.. I just knew YOU are the One.. when I saw YOUR FATHER.. smiling and LOOKING at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I heard him say looking at YOU.. the NEXT in LINE.. the One to conqueror after Me.. and I looked at my father and HE smiles looking at YOU and it knocked me to both Knee to go down.. two knees down.. Head looks on the floor.. my arms stretch Out before YOU.. I remember I heard the WORD from the King.. PEH HA when I did that to YOU before Me.. Your FATHER said LOOKING at YOU.. I will help protect this Nation.. that I will help to fulfill to build this Nation to help YOU and I hear the both Fathers smiling looking at Both of Us.. and my Heart.. I felt It being Alive.. I felt It come alive because I knew it is going to be YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. who I will Love you forever.. even in the Prison I can die here.. even in the battlefield of war.. I can die there too.. where ever you place me.. I will FIGHT to protect and to help build.. but to defend if I needs to just to protect YOU and just to Love YOU forever.. Please HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Just give me a Chance so that I can prove to YOU How much I love YOU.. Only YOU can find OUT if you can give me this CHANCE.. I will love you where NO MAN can ever love you like the way I love YOU.. Please give me the Chance to keep on loving YOU.. if YOU DO MY QUEEN.. even after I am gone you will KNOW and YOU will believe that a REAL MAN who loves YOU can really really truly Love YOU no Other way I can.. I just wanted to say to YOU.. that I love YOU.. I see YOU sitting on the King's Throne Chair.. and YOU stand UP.. pointing the Sword at the 1st top General and in the Outer court.. behind is a Place where YOU spar.. and I am looking at YOU.. Your Sword Points at me.. and I am wondering what does this Means.. and I turn to Look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and I would go down on two Knees.. My arms stretch forward.. and My Head LOOKING at the Ground.. YOU point the King's Sword at Me giving me the Permission to speak.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what does this Means.. WHY are you pointing the Sword to Me and the 1st Top general.. and there is the Messenger in the Back.. and I see YOU pointing your Sword at the Message at the back to Speak.. and the Messenger who has the scroll unfolds and shares about what is Going On.. the Enemies of the War is drawing Near and the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH wants me to challenge to Fight the 1st Top General.. and WHO WINS will take that Seat.. and I turn to Face YOU.. and my Head looks down to the Ground.. Your Sword Points at me to speak and I would say.. HOW can I fight the Best.. I am truly UNWORTHY to fight the TOP GENERAL.. I have NO training of Wars in combat.. this General wins battles at Wars and has helped this Nation.. I have heard that HE can KILL many armies with the Sword.. and I am Not much of that experienced of wars.. ONLY thing that I am good at right now is Loving YOU as My QUEEN.. the QUEEN of my Heart.. and I see YOU still pointing that sword and Pointing that Sword back to the TOP.. the 1st General.. and I would hear.. the Seven friends of Mine all comes behind Me.. two knees on the ground.. arms stretch forward and Heads looks to the Ground.. Please.. I can't fight the first.. the TOP General.. and I see YOUR sword still Pointing.. and It seems like the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is Not having it at all.. and I see you stepping down the Steps to the Ground.. and the Sword on my Neck.. and I would say.. if you need to Cut me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please do so.. it is better for me to DIE by that sword.. I rather Die by your Sword because the Sword belongs to the ONE WHO I Love the Most.. if YOU would LIKE to end my Life right here.. Please so it Fast and Quick MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would lift UP my head and close Both eyes.. and I wanted to see you strike my down with the edge of the Sword.. I be the Most Happiest to even die by that sword because YOU KNOW that I am dead by the ONE WHO I love the Most.. I would watch the 2nd Top General and He comes behind the Seven friends of mine and two knees to the Ground.. arms stretch forward and Head looking to the ground with the Seven Generals who walks with HIM.. they all goes.. two knees hit the Ground.. arms stretch forwards and Heads all LOOK to the Ground and shouts together.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. SHOW MERCY.. SHOW MERCY ON US.. strike all of US together.. and I am thinking.. what is happening.. and I open both eyes.. and I see YOU back Off and I just can't believe what I am here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOUR sword is close to My neck.. and It is ready to take my BLOOD.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. please strike Me down Now.. I am ready to Die.. ready to die by your Sword but before YOU strike me with that Sword.. remember HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. I don't care any More.. NOW the 1st general.. the Top best walks UP and He kicks Me on the chest.. without getting the permission from YOU the QUEEN.. and It makes me so Made for NOT HONORING who YOU are.. and HOW rude is that to do it without the CONSENT of the QUEEN.. YOU are Not the Princess any More.. but the One TRUE RULER NOW and I fall on the ground.. and I see YOU angry at the situation.. as I am laying on the Ground.. I would get UP from the GROUND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. because of WHAT this MAN has done without your WORD.. without your CONSENT.. without your PERMISSION I will take this Challenge.. and I get UP.. Now the Men would make a Big circle around and He walks to the Back where the sparring ground takes Place.. and without.. kicking me in front of YOU when He did Not ask for the Permission when YOU are standing there against my word.. I don't like that at ALL.. so I would walk to the Sparring Ground and the 1st TOP GENERAL stands there with the Sword.. and I am just.. How can he do this when YOU are speaking with me.. and did NOT even ask the permission or have the Word consent and I would pull the Sword Out of the sheath and I would LOOK at this General.. and I see you walking back UP the steps and YOU stand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you POINTING the KING'S sword and YOU swing that sword to Fight.. and I look at Him and I just run UP with the Sword in my Hand.. HOW dare YOU to act rudely in front of the QUEEN.. Our QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Show some respect by Honoring and I would jump UP AND swing the Sword in my hand and the 1st General counter Blocks with his Sword and the Blades hit each Other and my two feet lands on the ground and I swing the Sword side way and Would JUMP UP doing the back Kick and I would kick HIS face with a round HOUSE kick.. the 1st General falls to the ground.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU MY QUEEN.. I will Not lose for YOU.. I know that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has chosen this Fight with a Purpose in the Mind.. I know that there is a reason why YOU have chosen us to do this.. BUT I just do Not like to show anything.. But just to remain close to YOU.. to just to Love YOU by your side.. I hate to Fight but if it is needed I MUST defend it for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and the 1st General gets UP holding the Sword and HE swings the sword left right left.. right left right at Me as I am going back countering Blocking the Sword.. hearing the Blades Hitting.. IF I lose today My QUEEN.. if I lose I know that I must die.. just the way it Goes But I just can't Die.. I need more years so that I can love you More.. I just got started to Love YOU MORE.. I can't just die like this right.. I need More years to see HOW FAR I can love you so that IT can Out grow from NOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN and I would grab the Sword Tight and I would Jump UP forward and I would start to swing back at the 1st TOP General.. and the Blades Keeps ON hitting each Other.. and I would side KICK and then move forward with the Back KICK and able to HIT him in the chest.. and I would Jump UP and do the SIDE kick and strike him on the chest again.. at least One thing that I have fully grown to Do in my Heart.. TO LOVE you when YOU were the Little princess.. I started to Love you since you were so YOUNG.. and I always dreamed of Keep on loving YOU till the End.. Now YOU are my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN and I still Love you as strong as I did when I was YOUNG.. this never changed.. My Heart of loving YOU have always remained faithful because NOW I KNOW how much I love you.. the 1st General looks at me.. hearing me speaking as I would
MAH MAH.. Turn too LOOK at YOU.. he just freezes watching me.. and knowing that I have loved YOU for such a Long time and I turn my Head to face Him and I would look at the 1st General.. the TOP Warrior and I would say.. if you know what a Love Is.. it does NOT matter How many people YOU have killed on the battle field if YOU do NOT even know what it means to Love a WOMAN.. it does NOT matter if it is the QUEEN.. I know that I must be punished.. and I will die for the crimes.. if the Law says I can't Love the QUEEN and I am going against the law.. I will stand in the court and will be trialed for the case.. If I should be charged to Die.. I am ready to DIE for the Heart of My QUEEN.. if I am a dead Man walking.. at least I had the once in a Life to LOVE.. to LOVE YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if people in the court wants to punish me and this is a Crime to Love YOU.. I am standing and I know I am ready.. I have take so Many years to Love YOU.. and if I die today.. Please Bury Me with my parents.. and I would look at the 1st General and I would run UP and I jump UP and swing the Sword at HIM the Swords HITS.. the blades Hits and His sword falls to the Ground.. and the 1st General.. his two knees goes down and I put the sword on his Neck.. and I can hear the cheers of the Military troops shouting Out and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. and I see that YOU have pointed your Sword NOT TO KILL him.. your head telling me NOT TO strike Him and I raise UP the sword into the Air.. and I would shout.. and I turn around.. TWO KNEES hit the ground.. dropping the sword to the ground.. my arms stretch forward and Head looks to the ground.. and I am crying.. because YOU are standing there.. the Messenger behind is promoting me to be the 1st top General.. and I am just weeping and mourning in Joy.. and I see your Sword.. pointing at me.. and knowing that you want me to speak.. But my Words.. it is because the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH believes in me.. it is because YOU have given me a chance.. how can I come this Far.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU even gave me this Permission to speak and to tell YOU about what it means to Love YOU.. even this is the Once in a LIFE time chance you give me.. I am suppose to be punished.. either be stoned to death.. die by the sword or hanged by the ropes.. YOU gave me the chance to share HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I can be arrested and be thrown into prison and also it can be a treason for the Nation.. and I know that without Your consent.. without YOUR PERMISSION.. how can I dare to open my Heart to share this Heart of MINE to YOU.. I know that if the law stated.. a LOW BORN like myself cannot LOOK at the ROYAL BLOOD LINE because it means treason.. I am a traitor of because I was born from the Lowest Class.. I am the son of a SLAVE MAN.. BUT to give me a Chance to walk into the training Ground.. and I had NO learning.. but only skills I was given was from the Old Man.. the teacher and also from my Father.. who gave me what they know but Nothing More.. when YOU LOOK at the birth right.. I am NOT suppose to be here.. and It is because when YOU saw me.. with the Official seal.. you could of still reject me because of the back ground of where I came From.. many Noble YOUNG MEN were only allowed to come into the training Camp and the ground into the Royal Palace.. LOOK at the chances of How much the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH gave me.. even this was a Once in a life time.. without your Permission.. without your consent of the Word How can I even challenge the 1st Top General.. it is IMPOSSIBLE.. but YOU have allowed and granted a WISH but I am NOT even allowed to be here.. NOT even as a PALACE GUARD.. I cried and Cried when YOU looked at the Official seal and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me the Permission to come into the Training ground.. when I saw YOU and How you looked at the Guard who was by the back gates which IT lead to the training ground.. I just could NOT believe because I was waiting for many days.. MANY people had to go home and were NOT ALLOWED.. but when YOU saw me.. YOU looked at me and told me I can come IN.. I cried that NIGHT.. because I needed only ONE CHANCE.. just a ONE SHOT and started to Love YOU because why would you even care about this Low Born.. a SON who was born to a SLAVE MAN.. why would you even give me this kind of chance.. and I would cry looking UP at the MOON.. that just for this ONE CHANCE in a LIFE TIME.. I will never disappoint YOU but show YOU what a REAL MAN.. who is from the most lowest Place can DO.. NOW.. YOU are the QUEEN of the Nation.. in the highest position taking on the highest chair.. and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU have given me the chance to fight.. just to raise me UP to the 1st TOP general.. and I would be looking at the Ground with my tears falling down.. giving me dreams to dream BIG.. How can a MAN dream like this without YOU giving me this kind of permission.. this kind of chance to be here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I wanted to thank YOU so Much for believing in Me.. Not just the miracle of life.. but even How much I love YOU.. I never stopped dreaming but kept on dreaming that Dreams can come true as long as YOU love.. I have never stopped loving YOU still.. this is the main reason why I am so driven and so determine.. so that YOU can see the Heart of MINE that I still LOVE YOU.. that watching YOU taking your Father's Place.. which HE once ruled as the KING.. NOW you are ruling in his Place as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would see the Seven friends of MINE.. they come behind me.. two knees goes to the FLOOR.. arms stretch forward and HEADS all look at the Floor.. the 2nd Top General and even the 1st top General with their generals all.. two knees Hit the floor.. arms all stretch forwards and Heads all look on the ground and tears of these Men weeping before YOU showing HOW much YOU mean to Us.. as the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE!! and My hand grabs the Sword and I raise it UP to the Air and SHOUT LOUD and Clear.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE!! the voices of the Men behind me all raises UP.. HOORAY to My QUEEN.. MANSAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. YOU are the true QUEEN of MY HEART and shouts so LOUD it shakes the ground together.. MANSAE to my QUEEN.. HOORAY TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH and we all cry together in tears.. as I would look at YOU sitting on the THRONE.. the King's Chair as YOU raise UP the King's Sword in the Air and tears falls the eyes and tears falls from the sky.. IT IS raining in joy in tears because YOU are the ONE TRUE QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH..I am thinking about the Meeting Board.. and watching the Moon that has come UP before me.. the Black smiths are all Hitting the swords with a Stone Hammer and I am waiting for My sword to be more sharpen and More stronger.. as the Master of the Black Smith is inside the place where He is at work.. and with the Seven Friends of Mine standing at the back of the training Ground.. waiting for the Swords.. and the 2nd Top rank General with the seven Generals are all with Me as they are too waiting for their Swords as many Black Smiths are using the Stone Hammers.. I can hear the hammers hitting Hard on the Blades of the swords as I am waiting for the Next Great War that is coming.. as I cannot believe that the 2nd top rank General has joined me as friends.. I have turned to LOOK up at the Moon and I am thinking of YOU.. the Queen.. who has approved the United Hands to work together.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know that It has been since Long.. I have been loving YOU.. and as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I just can't stop with a big Smile.. and I would think Back.. when I saw YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. My Father would be pulling the horse.. and I would be sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be begging my Father.. Just to take me Once to see YOU.. and I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. my arms around the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would Not eat.. I would Not sleep.. but in the Little ROOM.. after the Garden was restored and was Build UP.. My Father would take a LOOK at me.. finally I would collapse and Fell into a Deep Sleep.. and I did Not wake UP for three days and slept.. I remember my Father would be by my side.. he knew if He did Not take me to see YOU.. I might end UP dead Like my Mother.. when I woke UP finally.. my Father in tears looks at Me.. almost lost me there.. and told me that He was going to see YOU.. I just could not stop.. but My Heart kept on beating Louder and Louder as I grew to Love YOU.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I don't know why but I just can't stop.. my Heart just can't stop Loving YOU.. Please tell me why.. what have you done to Me.. to My Heart.. and My Father.. with the Horse.. He carried Me and Put on the Back of the Horse.. I am thinking.. am I dreaming.. please don't wake Me UP.. if I am dreaming.. if I shall Never wake UP in the Dream.. Please.. I just don't want to get UP.. as My Father would be pulling on the ropes of the Horse and I am sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. I remember my Father asking me.. WHY do I love the QUEEN so Much.. WHY do I love HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what Makes you so Special that even I could Not eat for many days.. and even went into a deep coma for few days and been begging my Father for a long time that I must go to see YOU.. and what if I get caught by the Law.. which a servant Boy cannot Love
MAH MAH.. Royal BLOOD LINE.. that I can be put into death.. it can cost my own Life.. isn't my Life more precious than to Love and I would be sitting on the Top of the Horse as my Father would be asking me these things.. I would say.. I only live Once.. and I will just die if it means to Die.. but to Love is just Once in a Life time.. I can't just love anyone.. must be because I know that I have a BIG HEART.. even though I may be so small.. may be nothing.. has NO NAME.. be a slave Boy.. to LOVE is to love the QUEEN.. if my Heart can only love the QUEEN and NO ONE else and even it means my Life is on the Line.. I don't care what happens to Me.. even I went into Coma.. and does Not that tell YOU enough.. that I can only Love Once and when I love.. I want to love so Big that It be impossible and for Other MEN to say.. that is HOW a Real MAN should Love.. to Love His ONE TRUE QUEEN.. and My Father stops.. and He turns to LOOK back at me.. and he smiles.. but pauses because my Grandfather was close to the King.. which is Your Father.. PEH HA who just passed away.. Must mean something there.. He was the TOP COMMANDER.. to the Highest.. the Chief Commander He was is what my Father would say.. Must be something that I am connected to HIM because My Father never dreamed anything but just to be a Head of the servant.. and I am nothing like my Father.. I want to love My QUEEN.. I want to love my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and when I put my mind and Heart into something that means something Real and BIG.. I will Never give UP.. until my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH sees me and believes that I may be so small what Others may be thinking.. but My Heart.. my Dreams and VISIONS are much more greater and in a SUCH HIGHER PLACE.. and My Father looks at me.. and asks.. what if I die because of this.. am I not afraid.. am I not scared and I would tell him.. if I was afraid or too scared.. I would never tried it in the first Place.. I would of never started something that I just could not finished.. I believe in Love.. and My Heart is very BIG even though I am a small person.. I am so small but my Heart and my Vision.. my Dreams of.. I will never stop until I know that my QUEEN.. which is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH knows it the best in your Heart.. I don't care what anyone says.. but It has never stopped me to come this very far and still I have so much more to go.. and my Father laughs Out Loud and He pulls on the strings of the Horse and He begins to walk as he pulls the strings of the Horse. I am siting on the Back of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I see the MOON appear before me.. I see the twinkles of the stars across the Sky and I am smiling as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am coming to YOU.. I will see you soon.. it takes few days to arrive to the Palace and My Father shows the Card that HE is the Head of the Servant.. the Guards by the gate opens.. and He walks while pulling on the Strings of the Horse and He goes to the training Ground.. I am looking from a distance.. and I see you standing there.. the Chief Generals with the Commanders.. even the Chief Commander is there watching YOU Practice.. I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as my Father keeps on walking ahead pulling on the strings of the Horse and gets closer and closer.. and He stops.. bows HIS Head to you.. and I see you Looking UP.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. when I see YOU holding the Bow.. in one hand.. the Other is the Arrow.. My Heart.. WHY does it keep on beating.. My Heart.. looking at you closer.. I can't believe that I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it has been a long time.. after YOU came to rebuild the garden.. few months has gone by.. maybe it could been years.. I really missed YOU.. I wish that I could tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I could not sleep for days.. I started Not to eat.. missing YOU has been so Hard lately.. and I remember one early Morning.. after I would beg my father.. asking him to take me to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and my father would Not listen.. telling me NO.. that I should never Love YOU.. I just could not handle this Pain of missing YOU.. I started to starve myself to death.. maybe when I am dead and gone.. he can finally see how much I loved YOU.. anyways I just could Not live with this Pain of keep on missing YOU.. my Heart kept on aching and breaking.. I would sit in the Little ROOM.. I even asked my Father again because I wanted to say something to My QUEEN.. to my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I had NO little ROOM.. I had No shelter to put over my Head.. I had to sleep outside or at the friend's house.. felt like a Homeless Poor Boy.. but now I had a Little ROOM that I can put my Head over.. can sleep.. and I would hear my father telling me NO NO NO.. it is just too dangerous for me to get close to YOU.. and he did not want to see his son dying before his eyes but I am already dying.. I feel like I am going to die if I don't see YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and One early Morning.. I would had two full buckets of water walking back to the Home.. and I fell on the ground.. some one saw me laying on the road and knew who I was.. knew my father and called him to get me.. the doctor looks at me while I was in the coma.. because I did Not sleep for days and did not bother to eat for few days either.. I just did Not want to live any more.. missing YOU drives me crazy.. it really kills me instead and the doctor asks my father.. do I love any one.. because the doctor knew the cause of this Pain.. this suffering came because my Heart was aching inside.. of course my father did Not say WHO I loved or was loving.. but knew this is because of YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. it is because I never stopped loving YOU since the day I first saw YOU.. ever since I met you at the Garden.. and How you came to visit and you heard about this Garden.. the first time I saw YOU.. you were sitting On the TOP of the Horse.. but had a large gathering of people surrounded you.. I came here sitting on the Top of the Horse.. only One person who brought me over is my Father.. who serves YOU as the Head servant.. I know that I have put my father through many pains.. but I am suffering too.. for loving YOU I had to cross many rivers.. looking at many oceans.. through the travel of the feet.. even getting this Horse Back ride.. but My father knows now that I love you just too much that he does Not want me to give UP.. my father told me when the doctor came to see me.. He told me because my Heart was suffering.. in so much pain of missing YOU.. as I would look at you holding the Bow in your hand.. the Other is the arrow.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH would turn the head looking at the Target.. I don't know why I am here.. but I wanted to see YOU.. I missed YOU so Much my QUEEN.. it took many many days to come here.. and did Not eat much coming.. putting my father through so much pain.. of course I feel so bad but.. I knew If I can't see YOU.. I rather die.. I made that choice to die.. when My Father said NO.. and kept on telling me NO.. I could Not see YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I can't see YOU.. I made a CHOICE that I am going to end my Life.. I just could not eat.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I could not sleep.. this pain inside.. this Pain in my Heart.. this Ache kept on coming UP to me because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to get close to YOU but How.. I knew if I only begged.. my father would say No.. if I die.. then He will know that I love YOU.. that is when I knew.. I really loved YOU this much that NOW I am here on the back of this HORSE with him.. as I would watch YOU looking at the Target on the training Ground.. it was at the back of it.. the Black smiths are behind the generals and commanders.. behind the Chief Commander.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU would PULL back the strings of the Bow with the back of the arrow and YOU would aim and hand releases.. I see the arrow goes fly and It hits right on the Red Dot.. the Guard by the Target stands and waves the White Flag.. shouting Out BULLS EYE.. and I would look at YOU.. even though YOU are my QUEEN.. you are also trained to be a fighter.. I would hear the Chief Commander shouting Out Loud and Clear.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to my QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. all of the military soldiers would shout Out.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are wondering why do I love YOU so Much.. it has nothing to do with Me.. but it is because YOU are my True QUEEN.. because I know that YOU are the real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and there is NO ONE who can take your place in my Heart but YOU.. I knew when I first saw YOU.. it came out of you being a real Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. and How you flourish to become the CROWN PRINCESS.. then when I saw the poor People.. people from the Garden who came.. from far distances.. long distances they have traveled to the Palace.. just to see you and always came before the King.. PEH HA.. asking Your Father for YOU to be the Next Ruler in Line.. they have come from such a far long place.. just to talk to the King.. that the People.. they wanted YOU to take HIS PLACE as the RULER.. when I saw That.. before even this would ever happened.. I knew when you came to the Garden and to rebuild the Garden into New Homes for the People.. I wanted to join and be a Part of.. serving and protecting the Nation YOU are going to build for the future.. I knew YOU were chosen to be the QUEEN.. MY HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the real
MAH MAH.. TRUE QUEEN..I am looking at the Sun rising.. and I am standing next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. why are you crying.. and I am looking at you holding the Bow and the Arrows as you are pulling out to Shoot and YOU stop.. dropping the arrows on the ground.. I have never seen you in tears.. what is Matter with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching the New Recruits Men coming Out of the tents.. My Heart is breaking as I am watching you In full of tears.. and I hear.. the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Mother is walking.. the servants and the Maid servants.. the men Servants who are attending her are all coming.. and the Queen drops on the ground.. and has a Letter in the hand.. and as I am looking.. this must be very serious case.. I feel like there is a great change about to come its place.. I had the Dream last Night about.. and when I look at your Mother the Queen.. and I see you just crying.. and I see you telling me to get the Letter in your Mother's Hand.. so I go over.. and grab the Letter out of her Hand.. the Six Princes also are coming with the Prime Minister.. the 12 Noble men comes.. and in my hand is the Letter and I would Unfold.. I would be reading this Letter and I am Not sure why I have to read this.. I am Not even the Messenger for the KING.. PEH HA.. but YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS is telling me that I could.. I just can't believe it.. Your Father.. His Official stamp Seal.. is giving UP his Position to Rule.. the King.. PEH HA does Not want to rule any More and has passed the Seat and as I am reading it a loud where all the Great Powerful Men and Leaders.. the Official has gathered before Me.. and I am also watching the Poor People.. the Ones WHO all came from the Garden.. mostly Homeless people.. and they are all standing hearing the Letter as I am reading before you.. I would fall on my two Knees.. and it states that the King is passing his throne to YOU.. the CROWN PRINCESS shall NOT be PRINCESS any More but to be CROWNED to be the QUEEN KING.. the Highest seat ever to be taken as the RULER and I would be shouting Out.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would turn to YOU.. and my hands let goes the Letter.. and I am Looking UP.. my two eyes filled with Tears.. just like my Dreams I had last night.. I never knew that It would happen this Fast.. but WHY so fast.. and I would hear.. all of the People great and small.. they all fall on their two knees.. lowering the Bodies to touch to the ground and say.. To the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are the new RULER for this Nation.. and I am thinking.. what is going to happen to your Mother.. is she Not the QUEEN and I am LOOKING at your Mother.. she also lowers and her head touches to the ground.. But that is YOUR MOTHER.. and I look.. Your MOTHER pulls the crown Off her Head.. the Messenger Comes with the King's Crown and it unites together as ONE BIGGEST crown.. and GOSH.. my Heart just keeps on beating fast.. the Messenger holding the Biggest Crown and He is walking with tears in his Eyes and I am looking.. all the people.. faces to the ground.. and the Seven of my friends comes out of the tent and they are all looking.. the Biggest Crown goes On top of your Head as the QUEEN of the Nation.. and they all fall on two knees.. heads touching the Ground as YOU are Pronounce to be the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. I would hear the Little Boys.. all raising UP their hands.. Little Girls too.. raising UP their arms and Hands.. MANSAE to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would hear all of the voices shout OUT.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. and all of the heads are touching the Ground.. I am LOOKING at the ground.. Just could not help the celebration.. that You have become the true new RULER.. I have never stopped Loved YOU.. but kept on loving YOU till I get to see this and hear this.. I never imagined even the Poor people WHO I grew UP with me.. they are together all in ONE watching this Happening.. witnessing something that just can't happen but did Happen going down in the History of what it means to become a TRUE RULER.. there is Another Messenger on the TOP of and he blows the trumpet and it is Loud.. I am wondering.. this sound of the trumpet does not sound good.. it means someone in the royal family just died.. and NO.. and every one starts to Cry.. and I am thinking.. is it PEH HA!.. is it your Father the King who just died and the Messenger shouts Out who is on the top of the palace wall.. the KING.. PEH HA just died.. and everyone starts to Mourn as I am hearing this News.. and I see you just crying Loud and loud for Your Father.. and My Heart.. I know what it means to have a Broken Heart.. and I just can't say a word to YOU.. but.. I know that YOUR Father truly loved YOU.. and YOU would cry loud and it grew louder as YOU kept on mourning for me.. it makes me cry more as I am watching YOU cry for your Father.. the King.. but why is my Heart breaking it more.. and I would think about How he promised that the King is going to be fair when He finds the Successor.. Not because He loved YOU more or Less but to rule is the Most difficult seat to be In.. Only the Strongest and the Wisest can take His place and can rule.. giving all of the six Sons too a chance to prove that they can be on the spot.. but.. YOU are the One chosen.. the Little One.. youngest from the men but as the daughter Only.. and I would just mourn because I remember YOU would be sharing about this One point.. I remember when YOU became the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me One night about How your Father wanted to give it all fair to His Blood Lines.. but Only ONE can be seated in the Highest seat.. and it is Not that He loved YOU so much.. He saw the People.. He heard about what YOU have done even for the smallest.. the poorest people.. and I know and believe YOUR father believed that the people who was at the garden all came to support YOU.. I remember.. the People from the garden came to me.. and asking me where the King Stayed.. His Chamber.. I would lead the People of the garden to the King's Chamber.. the Servant for the King shares the Message.. and the King.. PEH HA comes and He would be seated on the Outer courts.. I was there.. by the gates just standing to guard the Post.. the Parents of the Children falls on their Knees before the King.. and they shared about what YOU have done when YOU were Young.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How much you cared and shared the Love for the People.. and they would cry before the King.. PEH HA.. to make YOU the RULER.. that they will serve YOU as servants of the QUEEN.. to Make you the Next to RULE and would be begging the KING.. PEH HA.. never letting the King go until your Father the KING made and keep the Promise to make YOU the RULER for this NATION.. as I would watch the People of the Poor crying Out in a Loud voice.. they have come and travelled long ways away from the Garden just to tell this TO your Father.. the King.. that the People of the Garden will give UP their CHILDREN for the King's services.. I saw Little Boys and girls.. and they would come forward and fall before the KING.. PEH HA.. to Let YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH to rule over them.. as I would watch by the gates of the door.. the Little girls and Boys would fall begging and they started to cry.. how the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH saved their parents Lived when NO ONE else cared if they lived or NOT.. that because of the Parents able to stand and live through it.. NOW they are here.. the Little children has come to help the CROWN PRINCESS and I would stand there crying.. watching.. the Guards had to push the Little Boys trying to go cling to the King's leg.. I just could not believe what I be seeing.. just my Heart.. My Heart as I am beating with my hand.. and I would fall on two knees and I started to cry with the Little CHILDREN.. and I would think about my own situation.. the Chance that the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH gave me.. I am here Now.. I was at the garden too.. I am looking at the Little children.. they are crying.. heads on the ground to the King because of what YOU have done.. even I was there.. I was there too at the Garden as the Little Boy.. these Parents many that I know has grown UP.. but they too were once like Me little BOYS and Little Girls in the garden and It broke me Down because I was reminded.. It was hard living in the garden as being broke and Poor.. had NO chance.. NO ONE did care about Us.. I started to Hit my Chest as I would cry thinking about what happened to the Garden the day YOU came.. the parents would be in tears as they are watching their children crying before the King.. PEH HA.. I am in the Back.. my Heart.. this Heart thinking about what I saw that day with the Parents when they too was a child.. I saw the King Looking.. YOUR Father was looking at all these People coming from the Garden and together crying Out because of what YOU have done as the Princess.. as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE and I saw Your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. his Heart was moved.. was touched by all these people coming together asking for YOU to be the Next Leader.. the QUEEN who can only rule for this Nation.. ONE BOY stands UP before the King.. your Father and tells Your Father that He is going to fight in the war.. even though he was Only a child.. I would watch a Girl stands up saying She will to enter the war to fight for this Nation and I begin to watch all the hands.. with the parents wanting to join in the Battle to fight in the war.. and I just could not believe they are going to give up their own Lived for this Nation.. for this Country.. for YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH
항상 느끼는 거지만..소희님의 인생을 대하는 속도감?을 배우고파요. 느릿하지만 꼭꼭 잘 씹어 음미해가며 순간순간을 살아내시는 것 같아 부럽습니당. 항상 쫓기듯 먹고 말하며 마음을 현재에 둘 줄 모르며 사는데, 그럴때 보는 소희님 영상은 잊고있던 인생의 템포를 되찾는 기분이랄까..
13:11 벚꽃 카드를 보고 너무 귀엽다고 말하는 소희의 표정이 너무 귀여운 나 🥺💚
Great to see you happy over your vinyl collection and listening to it. It sounds great!! 🎵🎶Happy hauling with good products. Looking forward to see you use it all. 😍🤩
Definitely wouldn't mind more of the pen ASMR! 😊 Thank you for sharing your haul, 소희 언니! 🌸
이런 아기자기한, 취항 가득한 솧템들 소개도 너무 좋아요…🤍
근데 화병 가서 봤으면 슥 지나갔을 것 같은데 소희가 너무 귀엽다고 하니까 너무 귀여워 보여.. 소희매직.
17:22 버건디에 반응하는 내 심장..
갠적으로 소희 주방템소개나 캠핑하울 너무 조아함❤ 요리하는 소소한 일상도!!
언니 이번영상도 진짜 좋아요 항상 응원합니당❤
펜 직접 써서 후기 알려주니까
너무 좋은거같아요❤❤
소희님이 좋다고 한 노래 들으니
학창시절 즐겨듣던 킹오브컨비니언스가 떠올랐어요~
아니 금요일에 깜짝선물 영상 뭐입니까!!!!!!!!! 정말 불금이 따로없네여, 솧처럼 이쁜것만 사오셔서 넘 여행떙기네여,,,,😂😂😂😂😂
너무 기여워서 기절하는 카메라가 나 같아 헿ㅎ
다시 봐두 힐링되는 외모와 말투, 분위기!!
소희언니의 취향도 취향이지만 하나하나 소중히 여기는 것들이 너무 좋아요~❤ 그만큼 애정을 갖는건데 소희언니에게 픽당한 제품들, 소품들 모두 부럽다~😊
브이로그 너무 포근하고 힐링된다❤❤
주말에 일본갈껀데..참고해야겠어요~~
3:29 소희 또 소희같은 옷 입었자나.. 23:37 그린포인트ㅠ귀여워ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 잘 샀다~
소희님 넘 귀여워요!! 소희님 문구 좋아하시면 합정에 롤드페인트 추천드려요. 땡스북스 서점 2층이에요! 마스킹테이프 파는 곳인데 엽서도 팔고 마테아트(?)도 할 수 있어요. 꼼지락꼼지락 마테 꾸미기 하실 소희님 생각하니까 넘 귀엽고 좋네요.
웬 선물이야 ❤❤
소희님 얼굴이 예쁘고 목소리도 예쁘고 노래도 잘부르시네요 그리고 팬입니다 ♥♥♥
좋아요를 누르고 왔어요 힘내시고요 홧팅 하세요 사랑합니다 ♥♥♥♥♥
我也是昭熙的粉絲，從她一開始當歌手起我就很喜歡她，永遠是我最愛的偶像。❤❤
@@uutv55 저기 누구시요 한국말로 해라 중국말 하지말고
소희 누나 고마워요 ❤😊
저도 인형 피규어 팬시 젤좋아해여 중고딩때 펜을 하나둘모으다보니 30대되서도 이쁜 펜보믄 못지나치는☺️🥰
나도 화병탐나네요 기회된다면 그매장 꼭 가볼께요
야안소희 너왜이렇게사랑스러운거야 !!우리왕만두❤
오 !! 3분만에 도착!
그래도 아직은 소희지
지워지는 펜 0.5리필심으로 바꿔서 끼워서 쓰면 돼요~~저도 잘못사서 그렇게 쓰고 있습니당!!
언니 잘보고 가용🫶☺️
언니 하트목걸이 어디꺼에요? 넘이뿌요
소희.. 버건디펜 나두 쓰는데 리필 따로 파니까 리필 사서 쓰면 됩니다~! 리필 쟁여두면 얼마나 마음이 편안하게요~?
소희님 일본 여행 영상을 잘 볼게요
LP 유저로써 현재 감상하는 음질은 디지털 음질로 CD음질이라 보시면 되구요 ~~~ 94년 이전 음반을 한번 들어 보세요
아나로그 음질의 차이를 느끼실 겁니다
소희 이뿌다❤❤❤
섬세해 ㅎ…..
집와서 보면 너무 힐링돼요🧡💛🤍
소희 취향은 늘 좋아-*
자꾸 물건보고 귀엽다고 하는데 정작 제일 귀여운게 본인인게 뭔가 웃김ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
헐 금요일에 만나는 솧튜브라니💛 오늘 브이로그 알차다 알차❤ 볼 너무 예쁘당ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
소희의 시간은 거꾸로 간다..
크큭 소희쨩 귀여벙..흐흐흐 ❤❤
❤❤ Sohee ❤❤
취향, 성격이랑 건강한 음식, 운동, 그릇, 귀여운 거, 다이어리 쓰는 거, 콜미바이유어네임 영화랑 ost 좋아하는 거, 손편지 써주면서 기분 좋아지는 것까지 똑같은 소희가 내 동생이었으면 좋겠다💛💛 심지어 사라사 펜 같은 색깔도 있어😮
금요일 깜짝 찾아온 쏘희 넘 고마웡❤
Noona you are soo pretty 🥰🥰🥰
안소희는 왜 이렇게 귀여운걸까….그냥 숨쉬는것만으로도 귀여움 ㅠㅠ
Love you sohee ❤
새로운 집 집들이 해주세요~!! 소희님 서재도 궁금해용
잘보고 갑니다...
그렇게 영원히 소희
🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
DONE SUBSCRIBING. BIGGEST FANS. PLEASE WE NEED SUBTITLE!!!! YOURS INTERNATIONAL FANS❤
0:42 엘피 소개하실때 착장 정보 알려주실 수 있나요?
안정감이 주는 편안함이 좋아 😊 그래서 여전히 아직도 소희지 💜 본투비 스타🌟🌟🌟
여전히 내가 학창시절 처음 본 고등학생 소희님 같다 신기해 ㅠㅠ
영화 "콜미바이유어네임" 보고 티모시 샬라메한테 완전 빠졌답니다..♡
티모시도 너무 매력있었고 상대 배우의 존잘 외모와 영화의 분위기, 색감, ost까지 완벽한 영화였죠♡
2:42 에 입고 나오신 니트 어디껀지 아시는분 계신가요...? 🥹
초록테두리맨투맨어디꺼에요~?❤
테니스치는 영상도 올려주세요 ^^
❤❤❤
사라사펜 저도 좋아하는데 검정색은 이상하게 그 느낌이 안나더라고요
도쿄 영상도 올려주는거지..? 나 목빠지게 기다려,,
😗😙😗😙😗😙😗😙😗😙😗😙💋🌹
😚😚😚😚😚❤❤❤
Oink Oink.. I been wondering about YOU.. as I am looking at your Picture.. How did I fell so Hard just by looking at your Picture.. but when I think of YOU and the Picture in my Hand is Not just an ordinary.. I know that YOU are truly talented.. truly Gifted.. the Most Beautiful.. and also you are very Bright.. so Smart.. just the Whole Package and I know if there is a way to get to YOU.. I would question.. with the mark and I remember.. in my hand I was holding a cold can of beer.. and walking Out side of the back.. I would stand.. there was the MOON up ahead.. having your Picture in the ROOM.. I put on the top of the desk.. and after Questioning How to get to YOU.. I would ponder How.. how can it work.. How can it let it be known to YOU if I am unable to get the Word out to YOU.. How am I suppose to tell YOU something if YOU will never Know.. it would bother me as I would be drinking the Cold can of Beer in my Hand.. I want YOU to know how I feel.. I want you to Know it because If I do Not tell YOU what is in my Heart.. YOU are Not going to ever Know How I truly Feel about YOU.. do you know How that feels.. when I needs to get it Off my Heart.. get it off my Chest and YOU are inside my Heart.. I am Looking at the Picture that is in the ROOM and sitting on the TOP of the Desk.. I want YOU to know My Heart.. when YOU are just keeping it Inside of YOU.. like this Cold can of Beer in my Hand.. and I am drinking it.. sipping it and Just LOOKING UP at the MOON on the back yard.. NO matter How many times I would walk Out side and walk Out in the back Yard.. if there is nothing but silent.. just the sad Moments of standing still unable to express.. it gets harder and harder as the days goes By.. and after I would finish drinking the Cold can of beer.. I feel dizzy in my Head but nothing would be done.. I go back into the House.. and just heading back to the ROOM and sitting.. Looking at your Picture in my Hand.. HOW do you know what My Heart feels.. when I want to tell YOU.. I want to express how this Heart of Mine truly feels but when there is Nothing but the Silent.. it just gets to Your Head.. because I am holding unto Your Picture.. but what good is it just looking at your Picture.. knowing that YOU are every man's Dream.. that I need to Love YOU.. that I needs to tell YOU that I love you and I just want to transfer that Love so that IT gives the ROOM for Your Heart.. for the Love to grow so that ONE day YOU are able to tell me or express.. or just to Love me.. I don't want it just be me who Loves YOU.. but just waiting for that Day.. to be honest with YOU.. that ONE DAY you will love me.. HOW can you love me when I do not Love you first.. or be Bold.. have the courage in my Heart to say IT until you understand me completely.. it is NOT about the TIME.. it is NOT about How much TIME must pass because I have grown to be patient and to learn HOW to be patient.. you have to remember HOW LONG I have been writing.. How long I been typing so I don't care about the TIME.. but ONE thing I truly wanted is LOVE.. all about Just Love that IT can pierce into your Heart and OPEN your Heart.. open your MIND that I do Love YOU.. and I wanted this to happen but just looking at the Picture in the front of ME.. it kills me.. feels like when I be going Out side.. in the back yard and all I can do is stare at the BIG MOON in front of me.. as I am getting drunk.. just kills me.. and I would be asking.. HOW.. I needs to tell YOU.. Please show me HOW.. I needs YOU to know that I want to tell YOU MORE AND MORE.. but HOW.. and I am sitting in the ROOM.. by the desk just looking at your Picture.. I would feel so sad.. my Heart would feel so broken because I need YOU.. I want YOU and I want to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. but just staring at this Picture.. and just looking at How beautiful YOU are.. all it does is kill me.. and I start to cry.. and just brushing off the tears off my face Looking at your Picture.. it is NO Fair.. I want to tell YOU.. so that At least you will know.. that Maybe not Now.. some times down the Line on later time.. you will finally get the picture of knowing.. I am Not asking you right Now to love Me.. when did I because I have never forced YOU too but I am just waiting for that TIME when YOU will really do but first.. I needed to tell YOU somewhere and some how.. as my hand be hitting my Chest.. the other hand lays on the Keyboard.. which it got me UP to LOOK at the Other hand laying on the Keyboard.. I can't believe what My eyes were looking.. my hand on top of the button of the keyboard on top of the desk in the ROOM.. I would turn to LOOK at the Other hand which my hand was holding unto your Picture.. placing it on top of the desk.. the hand would wipe my eyes from the tears I would be shedding.. and I turn to LOOK at the Other hand.. which was laying on top of the Keyboard of the computer.. and something hit me.. an Idea hits me in my Head from my Heart.. is this what it means.. can this really work.. will it work out.. can I tell you through the typing of the writings that I can give you many messages to letters.. and I just could not Believe because I needed to tell YOU something.. I needed you to KNOW that I love you.. that I wanted it more than just me be staring at your Picture.. why can't I tell you that my Heart be burning.. why can't I as a MAN tell you that I want to Hold YOU.. hold you in my arms.. at least you will know how much I wanted to be with YOU.. If I am like the ONE who goes OUT side in the back Yard.. and at NIGHT all I see is the BIG MOON and ALL I do is stare at it.. just a Picture but Nothing.. it is going to kill me from the Inside.. I would look at the key board.. and I would look at the computer monitor.. and I would laugh and then I start to cry.. I know that I am a digital Writer.. and I know with my WHOLE HEART.. with such great Passion I love to write and share.. I love it to death.. I been sharing for such a Long time and I am going to switch also to Tell YOU that I love YOU and I start to cry Louder and Louder as I am looking down at the Key board.. this Idea that came out of Nowhere but I want to tell you that I love YOU.. why can't I tell you Please.. why can't I tell you.. since I can't meet you in person face to face.. I know that I have Nothing to Lose.. if I die from it.. let it be so that at least I know that I can die at last after I reveal How much I love YOU.. until you can see me at the Grave.. when I die.. the day I die I know by that time you will finally see how much I love YOU.. you will say OH this MAN loved me so Much that He died of loving Me.. I want those words to COME OUT when YOU come to my grave stone.. if YOU see my Name on the grave stone.. you will know because I been waiting for you just too LONG.. and My Heart finally got sick that I had to let my Heart go so it took my Life because I have never stopped Loved YOU and still Loves you until DEATH it comes.. of course my Wish and my Desire.. my Dream is not to take me that far.. where you needs to find me underneath a Tree.. or YOU have to look at the Stone.. but before that day comes that I will Love you More.. you should know that I love YOU.. and also comes missing YOU so much.. that I can feel my chest be breaking and breaking on me.. when I looked at my hand laying on the TOP of the keyboard of the computer Monitor.. I just knew this was the Only Way and it is something that I can share and tell YOU from my Heart.. there was NO Other way Plus.. I have Nothing to Lose.. when YOU are at the BOTTOM ROCK in life.. and YOU know there is NOTHING but just going straight forward and Moving forward and just trying your best in what the Little I have been given and what it seems so Impossible.. looking at your Picture.. and going Out side at Night on the back Yard.. when YOU are LOOKING UP at the BIG MOON.. it feels so impossible for anything to happen.. the BIG MOON is so Far UP at the sky.. that Long far distance makes it impossible to touch that BIG MOON when you are standing at the Bottom rock.. but after my hand touches the Key Board and it gave me a Hope.. it gave me something to LOOK up too.. even though I may never get it to YOU.. maybe it means Nothing to YOU.. if I don't try.. I know it be worse for me of NOT even trying.. but I had to go all IN and I had to do what I can to know.. if I really Wanted YOU to Love Me.. it is better than Never finding OUT.. never trying because YOU think you will fail.. of course I would think about that.. but.. I knew that If I can type and write for a very Long time and YOU knew in your Heart.. that I can type very far.. that I am truly committed and devoted.. I will also be when it comes of Loving YOU.. loving you the Most where the WHOLE world will see it.. that people are going to know about it because I loved you from the Beginning and told Myself.. I will always love YOU and that is a PROMISE from my Word.. and I remember putting your Picture on top of the desk and I would pull the Keyboard toward my direction where I can see all of the key letters on the Board.. and I would smile.. I hope that YOU can really see my Heart.. NOT just my Heart.. but my WHOLE Heart who really loves YOU.. and I would place my hands on the key board as my finger tips would touch the Buttons of the Letter of the key board.. as my Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. I would say.. I may have Nothing.. hitting at the Rock Bottom of Life.. I know that I am Not rich.. I am a poor Man.. I have Nothing to give YOU what material has its worth.. but let me tell YOU and show YOU one thing.. when It comes of Loving YOU.. I know and I believe that MY HEART can grow.. it can grow very Big in your eyes.. that One day YOU will see that my Heart becomes BIG.. that I have a BIG HEART when it comes ONLY LOVING YOU and telling YOU How much that I really Love YOU.. and how am I suppose to start.. I always start very small.. but it grows and grows
MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Bars.. I need to see you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am sitting on the Prison Floor.. and Behind me is the Art Sketch Paper.. in these dark times when I can't be with YOU.. and without Your Presences and Only way for my Heart to get through the days is when I have the Art Sketch paper.. Drawing Picture of YOU and I am just waiting in the silent.. I know that the Prime Minister and Other Council of Noble Men is putting the Case against Me.. saying that it is TREASON.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. I know that if I must Die tonight.. if they press the Charge against me.. please let my name be known that I am the One who Loves YOU the Most.. if YOU want to write something about me.. please let it be known that I have always Loved You.. and that you have saw everything what a Man can do when it comes out of Heart when a MAN truly Loves YOU.. and as I would be holding with Both Hands the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and I would be looking at your Beautiful Face.. I would say and whisper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. you are the True QUEEN of my Heart.. my Love.. my Queen.. who I have been loving for a Long TIME.. and I am Not sure where did It all start.. if I can go back when I first saw YOU.. when I took that first glance and How you shook my Heart.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be walking with my Father.. and I would be sitting on the top of the Horse.. and my father pulling the strings and He is smiling walking ahead while the Horse is following and I am sitting on top.. and on the right side is the waters.. the ocean and I would to LOOK at the Sun.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father stops and he turns his Head looking at the SUN.. on the Other side.. the King.. PEH HA is pulling the Horse string.. and I can hear a Big Laughter as the strings of the Horse behind the King.. so many People from the Palace are walking behind the Horse.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH when YOU were young sitting on the TOP.. and the KING.. PEH HA Stops.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father turns too look ahead.. the KING who is standing there.. my Father walks faster towards HIM and falls on both Knee.. Head looking to the Floor and I would get Out of the Horse and I would walk faster AND also falls on both knees and Head to the ground.. and I hear the Voice to get UP.. and My father gets UP before the King and I was allowed to lift UP my Head UP and as I would stand UP.. I am standing next to my father.. I see YOU sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU turn Your Head.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH turns the Head to Look down and when I saw YOU for the first time.. I don't know what it is.. but My Heart.. I can feel my Heart beating but faster it kept on beating.. and I would fall on both knees.. and my father turns to LOOK down with the King.. and I see you sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU look.. I wanted to give you a Flower.. back in the garden is where I can find this ONE flower.. who reminds so much of YOU.. the Most Beautiful Flower to My Queen.. But I am Not sure.. if I pick the Flower from the Garden.. will you receive the Flower that I give that only can comes from my Heart.. what if I give it to YOU but you dismiss it.. and it can cause my Heart to break.. should I take the chance to give you the Flower.. it is a Flower that my Mother gave to my Father.. the Seed and told my Father before she died to plant the seed where she be buried and watch how the Seed will grow and produce into this Flower.. and I remember my Father planting the seeds she gave HIM and by the tree and it grew after a certain time.. I would walk with my father into the Garden.. going UP the Hill top where the Tree is there and the Flower grew there.. that it is her Heart.. when I love someone.. that this Flower can truly transfer and once that Love transfer through the giving of this Flower that Dreams can be made and Dreams of Love can come true.. it is in the Garden but on the TOP.. the Hill top where the Tree stands alone.. there is a bed where the Flowers started to grow from the Seeds that was planted and I wanted to give you this One Special Flower that came from the Seeds of Flowers and I know that it means.. the Flower is the QUEEN of my Heart.. only One Heart that I have and can give to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when I first saw YOU at the Ocean.. and How the King.. PEH HA.. He was the One who was walking ahead.. and HE was the One who was pulling on the strings of the Horse.. all the Noble men and generals.. the Prime Ministers.. all the high Officials were standing behind as the KING.. PEH HA was introducing the Next new Ruler to Be.. and How he was walking on bare feet and the High Officials were giving distance as HE.. PEH HA.. the KING wanted to be alone with YOU.. and How he wanted to show YOU that ONE Day.. you are going to take his Place because Other SONS were all behind with the HIGH OFFICIALS of the ROYAL PALACE.. but He has chosen YOU that Day.. I was riding on the top of the Horse.. my Father wanted to tell me Something.. He wanted to share a story to Me and has something very Important message to tell me that day.. On this day.. for the first time as My Father was pulling on the Horse and He was sharing about my grandfather.. which was his father.. that is when YOUR FATHER the KING.. PEH HA comes by himself.. bare feet and walking down alone.. and I believe he was telling YOU a story too and I met you there at the Ocean.. my Father loved the Ocean just like my Grandfather.. and I too love the Ocean waters.. and I am thinking.. Maybe HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN loves the Ocean waters as well.. I remember that day.. the Doctors of the ROYAL Palace came.. your Father's Feet.. PEH HA'S FEET was bleeding walking on the rocky road.. and I saw YOU watching.. but my Heart to saw you for the first Time and I knew.. YOU are going to be My QUEEN.. not just the QUEEN but also the QUEEN of my Heart who I can only Love YOU.. so Please.. I want to show YOU and take YOU to the Garden.. so that when you do go to the garden.. I want to show you that special Flower.. which is located in the Garden.. on the Hill Top of where the Tree still stands.. and I want to give you this Flower.. Now I am thinking of this Flower which I could Not give to YOU Yet.. it has been so long since I was at the Garden and Now.. WHEN I am sitting in this Prison.. and able to think about you More deeply.. this FLOWER.. I am wondering.. is that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER still there.. it is from the Seeds that my Father planted long ago.. but it is the biggest flower that came from many seeds when My Father planted at the bed by the Tree.. I called the Flower My QUEEN.. which means the Most Beautiful Flower stands Out from the rest because the other Flowers are much more smaller.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. is it too Late to Know about this Flower.. am I just too Late to give you this Flower.. I want to give this Flower because I remember what my Father told ME because it came from my Dying Mother when she gave the seeds of flowers to my Father before she died.. to give the Flower when it grows bigger and when I grow older.. when I meet someone WHO I love the Most and WHO I believe is the One I call my QUEEN of my Heart.. the ONE WHO I been loving.. to plant it and let the seeds to grow so that when I find the ONE WHO I LOVE.. I can give you the Flower to tell YOU.. it has taken me so Long to remember.. because I have lost the focus of this Flower for many long years.. I just want to go back to the Garden to see that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER.. before I die here in the Palace.. I want to make One true wish before I go to tell YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOW much I love YOU and that I should of given you this Flower much sooner.. then I believe by now.. something could of happened right.. but I don't want it to be Never either.. just to take this ONCE last chance.. to tell YOU that what I heard and how it was passed down to me by my Mother.. if she is right.. I believe that Dreams of Love can be made and Dreams can come true because I do believe in this Love that it is very special.. just like YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that YOU are so Special to Me.. has been all this time and still YOU are.. age to age do Not matter because as long as it is My Heart who loves YOU.. I know that If it means to happen.. something to happen.. in that Garden.. on the HILL TOP where the Tree stands.. there is a bed of Roses there.. and when YOU LOOK at the Bed of Flowers.. YOU WILL find One special Flower that stands OUT alone.. that Flower.. her name is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am given this Paper with the Ink.. asking the guard by the Prison Door.. gives me my request and I am sitting down.. writing with the Ink as it dips.. on this Paper I am writing the Instructions and telling YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN.. if I die here in Prison.. I know that I won't be able to tell YOU.. but with this Message I am writing.. YOU can go there to see it for yourself to see if it is true.. that ONE FLOWER belongs to YOU.. that it is YOURS.. I have been waiting for that Flower to be KNOWN to you but it has taken me so long to tell you this.. I believe Life gives YOU a story which so much things are happening that sometimes YOU DO forget to TELL YOU what is the Most Important.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I really wanted to go with YOU.. it does Not matter if I die here in the Prison because at least in my life time I get the chance to tell YOU many times How much I love YOU.. watching you grow over time.. NOW you are the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and HOW you have
MAH MAH.. Succeeded after your Father.. PEH HA.. and I am just thinking back that HOW your FATHER.. PEH HA knew all this TIME.. He had to pass for the NEXT TO SUCCEED after HIM.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA already Knew that YOU.. his DAUGHTER will become the QUEEN.. will conqueror after HE passes On and I am just thinking about HOW he just knew.. the DAY I meet you for the first time.. I was riding on the Back TOP of the Horse.. and How YOU were too riding on the back top of the Horse.. many servants and High Officials who works for the palace all came Out that day.. it was so amazing to watch Many of the Higher UP Officials.. Just standing.. giving the distance where the Father.. PEH HA.. the King wanted to spend Time alone with YOU that day.. and His FEET bleed through that WALK but he kept on walking.. and showing YOU how much HE loves to spend the TIME with YOU.. I saw that when I was sitting on back top of the Horse.. PEH HA.. the KING was smiling all the way through the walk.. that day when I lifted UP and stood before YOU on both feet.. I just knew YOU are the One.. when I saw YOUR FATHER.. smiling and LOOKING at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I heard him say looking at YOU.. the NEXT in LINE.. the One to conqueror after Me.. and I looked at my father and HE smiles looking at YOU and it knocked me to both Knee to go down.. two knees down.. Head looks on the floor.. my arms stretch Out before YOU.. I remember I heard the WORD from the King.. PEH HA when I did that to YOU before Me.. Your FATHER said LOOKING at YOU.. I will help protect this Nation.. that I will help to fulfill to build this Nation to help YOU and I hear the both Fathers smiling looking at Both of Us.. and my Heart.. I felt It being Alive.. I felt It come alive because I knew it is going to be YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. who I will Love you forever.. even in the Prison I can die here.. even in the battlefield of war.. I can die there too.. where ever you place me.. I will FIGHT to protect and to help build.. but to defend if I needs to just to protect YOU and just to Love YOU forever.. Please HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Just give me a Chance so that I can prove to YOU How much I love YOU.. Only YOU can find OUT if you can give me this CHANCE.. I will love you where NO MAN can ever love you like the way I love YOU.. Please give me the Chance to keep on loving YOU.. if YOU DO MY QUEEN.. even after I am gone you will KNOW and YOU will believe that a REAL MAN who loves YOU can really really truly Love YOU no Other way I can.. I just wanted to say to YOU.. that I love YOU.. I see YOU sitting on the King's Throne Chair.. and YOU stand UP.. pointing the Sword at the 1st top General and in the Outer court.. behind is a Place where YOU spar.. and I am looking at YOU.. Your Sword Points at me.. and I am wondering what does this Means.. and I turn to Look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and I would go down on two Knees.. My arms stretch forward.. and My Head LOOKING at the Ground.. YOU point the King's Sword at Me giving me the Permission to speak.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what does this Means.. WHY are you pointing the Sword to Me and the 1st Top general.. and there is the Messenger in the Back.. and I see YOU pointing your Sword at the Message at the back to Speak.. and the Messenger who has the scroll unfolds and shares about what is Going On.. the Enemies of the War is drawing Near and the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH wants me to challenge to Fight the 1st Top General.. and WHO WINS will take that Seat.. and I turn to Face YOU.. and my Head looks down to the Ground.. Your Sword Points at me to speak and I would say.. HOW can I fight the Best.. I am truly UNWORTHY to fight the TOP GENERAL.. I have NO training of Wars in combat.. this General wins battles at Wars and has helped this Nation.. I have heard that HE can KILL many armies with the Sword.. and I am Not much of that experienced of wars.. ONLY thing that I am good at right now is Loving YOU as My QUEEN.. the QUEEN of my Heart.. and I see YOU still pointing that sword and Pointing that Sword back to the TOP.. the 1st General.. and I would hear.. the Seven friends of Mine all comes behind Me.. two knees on the ground.. arms stretch forward and Heads looks to the Ground.. Please.. I can't fight the first.. the TOP General.. and I see YOUR sword still Pointing.. and It seems like the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is Not having it at all.. and I see you stepping down the Steps to the Ground.. and the Sword on my Neck.. and I would say.. if you need to Cut me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please do so.. it is better for me to DIE by that sword.. I rather Die by your Sword because the Sword belongs to the ONE WHO I Love the Most.. if YOU would LIKE to end my Life right here.. Please so it Fast and Quick MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would lift UP my head and close Both eyes.. and I wanted to see you strike my down with the edge of the Sword.. I be the Most Happiest to even die by that sword because YOU KNOW that I am dead by the ONE WHO I love the Most.. I would watch the 2nd Top General and He comes behind the Seven friends of mine and two knees to the Ground.. arms stretch forward and Head looking to the ground with the Seven Generals who walks with HIM.. they all goes.. two knees hit the Ground.. arms stretch forwards and Heads all LOOK to the Ground and shouts together.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. SHOW MERCY.. SHOW MERCY ON US.. strike all of US together.. and I am thinking.. what is happening.. and I open both eyes.. and I see YOU back Off and I just can't believe what I am here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOUR sword is close to My neck.. and It is ready to take my BLOOD.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. please strike Me down Now.. I am ready to Die.. ready to die by your Sword but before YOU strike me with that Sword.. remember HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. I don't care any More.. NOW the 1st general.. the Top best walks UP and He kicks Me on the chest.. without getting the permission from YOU the QUEEN.. and It makes me so Made for NOT HONORING who YOU are.. and HOW rude is that to do it without the CONSENT of the QUEEN.. YOU are Not the Princess any More.. but the One TRUE RULER NOW and I fall on the ground.. and I see YOU angry at the situation.. as I am laying on the Ground.. I would get UP from the GROUND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. because of WHAT this MAN has done without your WORD.. without your CONSENT.. without your PERMISSION I will take this Challenge.. and I get UP.. Now the Men would make a Big circle around and He walks to the Back where the sparring ground takes Place.. and without.. kicking me in front of YOU when He did Not ask for the Permission when YOU are standing there against my word.. I don't like that at ALL.. so I would walk to the Sparring Ground and the 1st TOP GENERAL stands there with the Sword.. and I am just.. How can he do this when YOU are speaking with me.. and did NOT even ask the permission or have the Word consent and I would pull the Sword Out of the sheath and I would LOOK at this General.. and I see you walking back UP the steps and YOU stand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you POINTING the KING'S sword and YOU swing that sword to Fight.. and I look at Him and I just run UP with the Sword in my Hand.. HOW dare YOU to act rudely in front of the QUEEN.. Our QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Show some respect by Honoring and I would jump UP AND swing the Sword in my hand and the 1st General counter Blocks with his Sword and the Blades hit each Other and my two feet lands on the ground and I swing the Sword side way and Would JUMP UP doing the back Kick and I would kick HIS face with a round HOUSE kick.. the 1st General falls to the ground.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU MY QUEEN.. I will Not lose for YOU.. I know that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has chosen this Fight with a Purpose in the Mind.. I know that there is a reason why YOU have chosen us to do this.. BUT I just do Not like to show anything.. But just to remain close to YOU.. to just to Love YOU by your side.. I hate to Fight but if it is needed I MUST defend it for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and the 1st General gets UP holding the Sword and HE swings the sword left right left.. right left right at Me as I am going back countering Blocking the Sword.. hearing the Blades Hitting.. IF I lose today My QUEEN.. if I lose I know that I must die.. just the way it Goes But I just can't Die.. I need more years so that I can love you More.. I just got started to Love YOU MORE.. I can't just die like this right.. I need More years to see HOW FAR I can love you so that IT can Out grow from NOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN and I would grab the Sword Tight and I would Jump UP forward and I would start to swing back at the 1st TOP General.. and the Blades Keeps ON hitting each Other.. and I would side KICK and then move forward with the Back KICK and able to HIT him in the chest.. and I would Jump UP and do the SIDE kick and strike him on the chest again.. at least One thing that I have fully grown to Do in my Heart.. TO LOVE you when YOU were the Little princess.. I started to Love you since you were so YOUNG.. and I always dreamed of Keep on loving YOU till the End.. Now YOU are my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN and I still Love you as strong as I did when I was YOUNG.. this never changed.. My Heart of loving YOU have always remained faithful because NOW I KNOW how much I love you.. the 1st General looks at me.. hearing me speaking as I would
MAH MAH.. Turn too LOOK at YOU.. he just freezes watching me.. and knowing that I have loved YOU for such a Long time and I turn my Head to face Him and I would look at the 1st General.. the TOP Warrior and I would say.. if you know what a Love Is.. it does NOT matter How many people YOU have killed on the battle field if YOU do NOT even know what it means to Love a WOMAN.. it does NOT matter if it is the QUEEN.. I know that I must be punished.. and I will die for the crimes.. if the Law says I can't Love the QUEEN and I am going against the law.. I will stand in the court and will be trialed for the case.. If I should be charged to Die.. I am ready to DIE for the Heart of My QUEEN.. if I am a dead Man walking.. at least I had the once in a Life to LOVE.. to LOVE YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if people in the court wants to punish me and this is a Crime to Love YOU.. I am standing and I know I am ready.. I have take so Many years to Love YOU.. and if I die today.. Please Bury Me with my parents.. and I would look at the 1st General and I would run UP and I jump UP and swing the Sword at HIM the Swords HITS.. the blades Hits and His sword falls to the Ground.. and the 1st General.. his two knees goes down and I put the sword on his Neck.. and I can hear the cheers of the Military troops shouting Out and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. and I see that YOU have pointed your Sword NOT TO KILL him.. your head telling me NOT TO strike Him and I raise UP the sword into the Air.. and I would shout.. and I turn around.. TWO KNEES hit the ground.. dropping the sword to the ground.. my arms stretch forward and Head looks to the ground.. and I am crying.. because YOU are standing there.. the Messenger behind is promoting me to be the 1st top General.. and I am just weeping and mourning in Joy.. and I see your Sword.. pointing at me.. and knowing that you want me to speak.. But my Words.. it is because the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH believes in me.. it is because YOU have given me a chance.. how can I come this Far.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU even gave me this Permission to speak and to tell YOU about what it means to Love YOU.. even this is the Once in a LIFE time chance you give me.. I am suppose to be punished.. either be stoned to death.. die by the sword or hanged by the ropes.. YOU gave me the chance to share HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I can be arrested and be thrown into prison and also it can be a treason for the Nation.. and I know that without Your consent.. without YOUR PERMISSION.. how can I dare to open my Heart to share this Heart of MINE to YOU.. I know that if the law stated.. a LOW BORN like myself cannot LOOK at the ROYAL BLOOD LINE because it means treason.. I am a traitor of because I was born from the Lowest Class.. I am the son of a SLAVE MAN.. BUT to give me a Chance to walk into the training Ground.. and I had NO learning.. but only skills I was given was from the Old Man.. the teacher and also from my Father.. who gave me what they know but Nothing More.. when YOU LOOK at the birth right.. I am NOT suppose to be here.. and It is because when YOU saw me.. with the Official seal.. you could of still reject me because of the back ground of where I came From.. many Noble YOUNG MEN were only allowed to come into the training Camp and the ground into the Royal Palace.. LOOK at the chances of How much the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH gave me.. even this was a Once in a life time.. without your Permission.. without your consent of the Word How can I even challenge the 1st Top General.. it is IMPOSSIBLE.. but YOU have allowed and granted a WISH but I am NOT even allowed to be here.. NOT even as a PALACE GUARD.. I cried and Cried when YOU looked at the Official seal and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me the Permission to come into the Training ground.. when I saw YOU and How you looked at the Guard who was by the back gates which IT lead to the training ground.. I just could NOT believe because I was waiting for many days.. MANY people had to go home and were NOT ALLOWED.. but when YOU saw me.. YOU looked at me and told me I can come IN.. I cried that NIGHT.. because I needed only ONE CHANCE.. just a ONE SHOT and started to Love YOU because why would you even care about this Low Born.. a SON who was born to a SLAVE MAN.. why would you even give me this kind of chance.. and I would cry looking UP at the MOON.. that just for this ONE CHANCE in a LIFE TIME.. I will never disappoint YOU but show YOU what a REAL MAN.. who is from the most lowest Place can DO.. NOW.. YOU are the QUEEN of the Nation.. in the highest position taking on the highest chair.. and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU have given me the chance to fight.. just to raise me UP to the 1st TOP general.. and I would be looking at the Ground with my tears falling down.. giving me dreams to dream BIG.. How can a MAN dream like this without YOU giving me this kind of permission.. this kind of chance to be here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I wanted to thank YOU so Much for believing in Me.. Not just the miracle of life.. but even How much I love YOU.. I never stopped dreaming but kept on dreaming that Dreams can come true as long as YOU love.. I have never stopped loving YOU still.. this is the main reason why I am so driven and so determine.. so that YOU can see the Heart of MINE that I still LOVE YOU.. that watching YOU taking your Father's Place.. which HE once ruled as the KING.. NOW you are ruling in his Place as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would see the Seven friends of MINE.. they come behind me.. two knees goes to the FLOOR.. arms stretch forward and HEADS all look at the Floor.. the 2nd Top General and even the 1st top General with their generals all.. two knees Hit the floor.. arms all stretch forwards and Heads all look on the ground and tears of these Men weeping before YOU showing HOW much YOU mean to Us.. as the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE!! and My hand grabs the Sword and I raise it UP to the Air and SHOUT LOUD and Clear.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE!! the voices of the Men behind me all raises UP.. HOORAY to My QUEEN.. MANSAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. YOU are the true QUEEN of MY HEART and shouts so LOUD it shakes the ground together.. MANSAE to my QUEEN.. HOORAY TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH and we all cry together in tears.. as I would look at YOU sitting on the THRONE.. the King's Chair as YOU raise UP the King's Sword in the Air and tears falls the eyes and tears falls from the sky.. IT IS raining in joy in tears because YOU are the ONE TRUE QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH..I am thinking about the Meeting Board.. and watching the Moon that has come UP before me.. the Black smiths are all Hitting the swords with a Stone Hammer and I am waiting for My sword to be more sharpen and More stronger.. as the Master of the Black Smith is inside the place where He is at work.. and with the Seven Friends of Mine standing at the back of the training Ground.. waiting for the Swords.. and the 2nd Top rank General with the seven Generals are all with Me as they are too waiting for their Swords as many Black Smiths are using the Stone Hammers.. I can hear the hammers hitting Hard on the Blades of the swords as I am waiting for the Next Great War that is coming.. as I cannot believe that the 2nd top rank General has joined me as friends.. I have turned to LOOK up at the Moon and I am thinking of YOU.. the Queen.. who has approved the United Hands to work together.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know that It has been since Long.. I have been loving YOU.. and as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I just can't stop with a big Smile.. and I would think Back.. when I saw YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. My Father would be pulling the horse.. and I would be sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be begging my Father.. Just to take me Once to see YOU.. and I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. my arms around the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would Not eat.. I would Not sleep.. but in the Little ROOM.. after the Garden was restored and was Build UP.. My Father would take a LOOK at me.. finally I would collapse and Fell into a Deep Sleep.. and I did Not wake UP for three days and slept.. I remember my Father would be by my side.. he knew if He did Not take me to see YOU.. I might end UP dead Like my Mother.. when I woke UP finally.. my Father in tears looks at Me.. almost lost me there.. and told me that He was going to see YOU.. I just could not stop.. but My Heart kept on beating Louder and Louder as I grew to Love YOU.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I don't know why but I just can't stop.. my Heart just can't stop Loving YOU.. Please tell me why.. what have you done to Me.. to My Heart.. and My Father.. with the Horse.. He carried Me and Put on the Back of the Horse.. I am thinking.. am I dreaming.. please don't wake Me UP.. if I am dreaming.. if I shall Never wake UP in the Dream.. Please.. I just don't want to get UP.. as My Father would be pulling on the ropes of the Horse and I am sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. I remember my Father asking me.. WHY do I love the QUEEN so Much.. WHY do I love HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what Makes you so Special that even I could Not eat for many days.. and even went into a deep coma for few days and been begging my Father for a long time that I must go to see YOU.. and what if I get caught by the Law.. which a servant Boy cannot Love
MAH MAH.. Royal BLOOD LINE.. that I can be put into death.. it can cost my own Life.. isn't my Life more precious than to Love and I would be sitting on the Top of the Horse as my Father would be asking me these things.. I would say.. I only live Once.. and I will just die if it means to Die.. but to Love is just Once in a Life time.. I can't just love anyone.. must be because I know that I have a BIG HEART.. even though I may be so small.. may be nothing.. has NO NAME.. be a slave Boy.. to LOVE is to love the QUEEN.. if my Heart can only love the QUEEN and NO ONE else and even it means my Life is on the Line.. I don't care what happens to Me.. even I went into Coma.. and does Not that tell YOU enough.. that I can only Love Once and when I love.. I want to love so Big that It be impossible and for Other MEN to say.. that is HOW a Real MAN should Love.. to Love His ONE TRUE QUEEN.. and My Father stops.. and He turns to LOOK back at me.. and he smiles.. but pauses because my Grandfather was close to the King.. which is Your Father.. PEH HA who just passed away.. Must mean something there.. He was the TOP COMMANDER.. to the Highest.. the Chief Commander He was is what my Father would say.. Must be something that I am connected to HIM because My Father never dreamed anything but just to be a Head of the servant.. and I am nothing like my Father.. I want to love My QUEEN.. I want to love my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and when I put my mind and Heart into something that means something Real and BIG.. I will Never give UP.. until my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH sees me and believes that I may be so small what Others may be thinking.. but My Heart.. my Dreams and VISIONS are much more greater and in a SUCH HIGHER PLACE.. and My Father looks at me.. and asks.. what if I die because of this.. am I not afraid.. am I not scared and I would tell him.. if I was afraid or too scared.. I would never tried it in the first Place.. I would of never started something that I just could not finished.. I believe in Love.. and My Heart is very BIG even though I am a small person.. I am so small but my Heart and my Vision.. my Dreams of.. I will never stop until I know that my QUEEN.. which is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH knows it the best in your Heart.. I don't care what anyone says.. but It has never stopped me to come this very far and still I have so much more to go.. and my Father laughs Out Loud and He pulls on the strings of the Horse and He begins to walk as he pulls the strings of the Horse. I am siting on the Back of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I see the MOON appear before me.. I see the twinkles of the stars across the Sky and I am smiling as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am coming to YOU.. I will see you soon.. it takes few days to arrive to the Palace and My Father shows the Card that HE is the Head of the Servant.. the Guards by the gate opens.. and He walks while pulling on the Strings of the Horse and He goes to the training Ground.. I am looking from a distance.. and I see you standing there.. the Chief Generals with the Commanders.. even the Chief Commander is there watching YOU Practice.. I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as my Father keeps on walking ahead pulling on the strings of the Horse and gets closer and closer.. and He stops.. bows HIS Head to you.. and I see you Looking UP.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. when I see YOU holding the Bow.. in one hand.. the Other is the Arrow.. My Heart.. WHY does it keep on beating.. My Heart.. looking at you closer.. I can't believe that I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it has been a long time.. after YOU came to rebuild the garden.. few months has gone by.. maybe it could been years.. I really missed YOU.. I wish that I could tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I could not sleep for days.. I started Not to eat.. missing YOU has been so Hard lately.. and I remember one early Morning.. after I would beg my father.. asking him to take me to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and my father would Not listen.. telling me NO.. that I should never Love YOU.. I just could not handle this Pain of missing YOU.. I started to starve myself to death.. maybe when I am dead and gone.. he can finally see how much I loved YOU.. anyways I just could Not live with this Pain of keep on missing YOU.. my Heart kept on aching and breaking.. I would sit in the Little ROOM.. I even asked my Father again because I wanted to say something to My QUEEN.. to my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I had NO little ROOM.. I had No shelter to put over my Head.. I had to sleep outside or at the friend's house.. felt like a Homeless Poor Boy.. but now I had a Little ROOM that I can put my Head over.. can sleep.. and I would hear my father telling me NO NO NO.. it is just too dangerous for me to get close to YOU.. and he did not want to see his son dying before his eyes but I am already dying.. I feel like I am going to die if I don't see YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and One early Morning.. I would had two full buckets of water walking back to the Home.. and I fell on the ground.. some one saw me laying on the road and knew who I was.. knew my father and called him to get me.. the doctor looks at me while I was in the coma.. because I did Not sleep for days and did not bother to eat for few days either.. I just did Not want to live any more.. missing YOU drives me crazy.. it really kills me instead and the doctor asks my father.. do I love any one.. because the doctor knew the cause of this Pain.. this suffering came because my Heart was aching inside.. of course my father did Not say WHO I loved or was loving.. but knew this is because of YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. it is because I never stopped loving YOU since the day I first saw YOU.. ever since I met you at the Garden.. and How you came to visit and you heard about this Garden.. the first time I saw YOU.. you were sitting On the TOP of the Horse.. but had a large gathering of people surrounded you.. I came here sitting on the Top of the Horse.. only One person who brought me over is my Father.. who serves YOU as the Head servant.. I know that I have put my father through many pains.. but I am suffering too.. for loving YOU I had to cross many rivers.. looking at many oceans.. through the travel of the feet.. even getting this Horse Back ride.. but My father knows now that I love you just too much that he does Not want me to give UP.. my father told me when the doctor came to see me.. He told me because my Heart was suffering.. in so much pain of missing YOU.. as I would look at you holding the Bow in your hand.. the Other is the arrow.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH would turn the head looking at the Target.. I don't know why I am here.. but I wanted to see YOU.. I missed YOU so Much my QUEEN.. it took many many days to come here.. and did Not eat much coming.. putting my father through so much pain.. of course I feel so bad but.. I knew If I can't see YOU.. I rather die.. I made that choice to die.. when My Father said NO.. and kept on telling me NO.. I could Not see YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I can't see YOU.. I made a CHOICE that I am going to end my Life.. I just could not eat.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I could not sleep.. this pain inside.. this Pain in my Heart.. this Ache kept on coming UP to me because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to get close to YOU but How.. I knew if I only begged.. my father would say No.. if I die.. then He will know that I love YOU.. that is when I knew.. I really loved YOU this much that NOW I am here on the back of this HORSE with him.. as I would watch YOU looking at the Target on the training Ground.. it was at the back of it.. the Black smiths are behind the generals and commanders.. behind the Chief Commander.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU would PULL back the strings of the Bow with the back of the arrow and YOU would aim and hand releases.. I see the arrow goes fly and It hits right on the Red Dot.. the Guard by the Target stands and waves the White Flag.. shouting Out BULLS EYE.. and I would look at YOU.. even though YOU are my QUEEN.. you are also trained to be a fighter.. I would hear the Chief Commander shouting Out Loud and Clear.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to my QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. all of the military soldiers would shout Out.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are wondering why do I love YOU so Much.. it has nothing to do with Me.. but it is because YOU are my True QUEEN.. because I know that YOU are the real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and there is NO ONE who can take your place in my Heart but YOU.. I knew when I first saw YOU.. it came out of you being a real Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. and How you flourish to become the CROWN PRINCESS.. then when I saw the poor People.. people from the Garden who came.. from far distances.. long distances they have traveled to the Palace.. just to see you and always came before the King.. PEH HA.. asking Your Father for YOU to be the Next Ruler in Line.. they have come from such a far long place.. just to talk to the King.. that the People.. they wanted YOU to take HIS PLACE as the RULER.. when I saw That.. before even this would ever happened.. I knew when you came to the Garden and to rebuild the Garden into New Homes for the People.. I wanted to join and be a Part of.. serving and protecting the Nation YOU are going to build for the future.. I knew YOU were chosen to be the QUEEN.. MY HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the real
MAH MAH.. TRUE QUEEN..I am looking at the Sun rising.. and I am standing next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. why are you crying.. and I am looking at you holding the Bow and the Arrows as you are pulling out to Shoot and YOU stop.. dropping the arrows on the ground.. I have never seen you in tears.. what is Matter with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching the New Recruits Men coming Out of the tents.. My Heart is breaking as I am watching you In full of tears.. and I hear.. the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Mother is walking.. the servants and the Maid servants.. the men Servants who are attending her are all coming.. and the Queen drops on the ground.. and has a Letter in the hand.. and as I am looking.. this must be very serious case.. I feel like there is a great change about to come its place.. I had the Dream last Night about.. and when I look at your Mother the Queen.. and I see you just crying.. and I see you telling me to get the Letter in your Mother's Hand.. so I go over.. and grab the Letter out of her Hand.. the Six Princes also are coming with the Prime Minister.. the 12 Noble men comes.. and in my hand is the Letter and I would Unfold.. I would be reading this Letter and I am Not sure why I have to read this.. I am Not even the Messenger for the KING.. PEH HA.. but YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS is telling me that I could.. I just can't believe it.. Your Father.. His Official stamp Seal.. is giving UP his Position to Rule.. the King.. PEH HA does Not want to rule any More and has passed the Seat and as I am reading it a loud where all the Great Powerful Men and Leaders.. the Official has gathered before Me.. and I am also watching the Poor People.. the Ones WHO all came from the Garden.. mostly Homeless people.. and they are all standing hearing the Letter as I am reading before you.. I would fall on my two Knees.. and it states that the King is passing his throne to YOU.. the CROWN PRINCESS shall NOT be PRINCESS any More but to be CROWNED to be the QUEEN KING.. the Highest seat ever to be taken as the RULER and I would be shouting Out.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would turn to YOU.. and my hands let goes the Letter.. and I am Looking UP.. my two eyes filled with Tears.. just like my Dreams I had last night.. I never knew that It would happen this Fast.. but WHY so fast.. and I would hear.. all of the People great and small.. they all fall on their two knees.. lowering the Bodies to touch to the ground and say.. To the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are the new RULER for this Nation.. and I am thinking.. what is going to happen to your Mother.. is she Not the QUEEN and I am LOOKING at your Mother.. she also lowers and her head touches to the ground.. But that is YOUR MOTHER.. and I look.. Your MOTHER pulls the crown Off her Head.. the Messenger Comes with the King's Crown and it unites together as ONE BIGGEST crown.. and GOSH.. my Heart just keeps on beating fast.. the Messenger holding the Biggest Crown and He is walking with tears in his Eyes and I am looking.. all the people.. faces to the ground.. and the Seven of my friends comes out of the tent and they are all looking.. the Biggest Crown goes On top of your Head as the QUEEN of the Nation.. and they all fall on two knees.. heads touching the Ground as YOU are Pronounce to be the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. I would hear the Little Boys.. all raising UP their hands.. Little Girls too.. raising UP their arms and Hands.. MANSAE to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would hear all of the voices shout OUT.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. and all of the heads are touching the Ground.. I am LOOKING at the ground.. Just could not help the celebration.. that You have become the true new RULER.. I have never stopped Loved YOU.. but kept on loving YOU till I get to see this and hear this.. I never imagined even the Poor people WHO I grew UP with me.. they are together all in ONE watching this Happening.. witnessing something that just can't happen but did Happen going down in the History of what it means to become a TRUE RULER.. there is Another Messenger on the TOP of and he blows the trumpet and it is Loud.. I am wondering.. this sound of the trumpet does not sound good.. it means someone in the royal family just died.. and NO.. and every one starts to Cry.. and I am thinking.. is it PEH HA!.. is it your Father the King who just died and the Messenger shouts Out who is on the top of the palace wall.. the KING.. PEH HA just died.. and everyone starts to Mourn as I am hearing this News.. and I see you just crying Loud and loud for Your Father.. and My Heart.. I know what it means to have a Broken Heart.. and I just can't say a word to YOU.. but.. I know that YOUR Father truly loved YOU.. and YOU would cry loud and it grew louder as YOU kept on mourning for me.. it makes me cry more as I am watching YOU cry for your Father.. the King.. but why is my Heart breaking it more.. and I would think about How he promised that the King is going to be fair when He finds the Successor.. Not because He loved YOU more or Less but to rule is the Most difficult seat to be In.. Only the Strongest and the Wisest can take His place and can rule.. giving all of the six Sons too a chance to prove that they can be on the spot.. but.. YOU are the One chosen.. the Little One.. youngest from the men but as the daughter Only.. and I would just mourn because I remember YOU would be sharing about this One point.. I remember when YOU became the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me One night about How your Father wanted to give it all fair to His Blood Lines.. but Only ONE can be seated in the Highest seat.. and it is Not that He loved YOU so much.. He saw the People.. He heard about what YOU have done even for the smallest.. the poorest people.. and I know and believe YOUR father believed that the people who was at the garden all came to support YOU.. I remember.. the People from the garden came to me.. and asking me where the King Stayed.. His Chamber.. I would lead the People of the garden to the King's Chamber.. the Servant for the King shares the Message.. and the King.. PEH HA comes and He would be seated on the Outer courts.. I was there.. by the gates just standing to guard the Post.. the Parents of the Children falls on their Knees before the King.. and they shared about what YOU have done when YOU were Young.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How much you cared and shared the Love for the People.. and they would cry before the King.. PEH HA.. to make YOU the RULER.. that they will serve YOU as servants of the QUEEN.. to Make you the Next to RULE and would be begging the KING.. PEH HA.. never letting the King go until your Father the KING made and keep the Promise to make YOU the RULER for this NATION.. as I would watch the People of the Poor crying Out in a Loud voice.. they have come and travelled long ways away from the Garden just to tell this TO your Father.. the King.. that the People of the Garden will give UP their CHILDREN for the King's services.. I saw Little Boys and girls.. and they would come forward and fall before the KING.. PEH HA.. to Let YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH to rule over them.. as I would watch by the gates of the door.. the Little girls and Boys would fall begging and they started to cry.. how the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH saved their parents Lived when NO ONE else cared if they lived or NOT.. that because of the Parents able to stand and live through it.. NOW they are here.. the Little children has come to help the CROWN PRINCESS and I would stand there crying.. watching.. the Guards had to push the Little Boys trying to go cling to the King's leg.. I just could not believe what I be seeing.. just my Heart.. My Heart as I am beating with my hand.. and I would fall on two knees and I started to cry with the Little CHILDREN.. and I would think about my own situation.. the Chance that the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH gave me.. I am here Now.. I was at the garden too.. I am looking at the Little children.. they are crying.. heads on the ground to the King because of what YOU have done.. even I was there.. I was there too at the Garden as the Little Boy.. these Parents many that I know has grown UP.. but they too were once like Me little BOYS and Little Girls in the garden and It broke me Down because I was reminded.. It was hard living in the garden as being broke and Poor.. had NO chance.. NO ONE did care about Us.. I started to Hit my Chest as I would cry thinking about what happened to the Garden the day YOU came.. the parents would be in tears as they are watching their children crying before the King.. PEH HA.. I am in the Back.. my Heart.. this Heart thinking about what I saw that day with the Parents when they too was a child.. I saw the King Looking.. YOUR Father was looking at all these People coming from the Garden and together crying Out because of what YOU have done as the Princess.. as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE and I saw Your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. his Heart was moved.. was touched by all these people coming together asking for YOU to be the Next Leader.. the QUEEN who can only rule for this Nation.. ONE BOY stands UP before the King.. your Father and tells Your Father that He is going to fight in the war.. even though he was Only a child.. I would watch a Girl stands up saying She will to enter the war to fight for this Nation and I begin to watch all the hands.. with the parents wanting to join in the Battle to fight in the war.. and I just could not believe they are going to give up their own Lived for this Nation.. for this Country.. for YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH
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