My story with Benzodiazepines

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  • @robertworton2394
    @robertworton2394 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Dude your honesty is so refreshing!

  • @CMoore8539
    @CMoore8539 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    The blackouts that benzodiazepines cause always stopped me from getting addicted to them. It’s like playing with fire. Anyone who does it will get burnt eventually. For anxiety or sleep, occasionally, yes, but never long term use. Too dangerous for me!
    Great Video Gabe!!!💘🍿🇺🇸💯🔥

    • @TimelapseExperimentals
      @TimelapseExperimentals 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same here
      A friend of mine was playing around with them and ended up blacking out while driving and woke up crashed on the center median with a cop pulling him out of his car, ended up costing him a ton of time, energy, and resources dealing with all the litigation that came from it

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Timelapse Experimentals I can imagine. Thank goodness that your friend lived!!! I’ve lost two very good friends to benzodiazepines. One was 26 years old and he and another man were driving. His friend ran off the road and hit a tree. Then abandoned my friend and my friend bleed to death. The other one and I had a son together. We went out the night before. My sister was babysitting. We got home and went to sleep. The next morning, I woke up First, which was unusual and he was barely alive. I kept him alive until an ambulance got there and he died on the way to the hospital. It is something that a person never ever gets over. It still tears my heart out to this day.💔 We were both 32 years old and I had finally accepted his proposal to marry him, the night before. I was suicidal for a long time after that happened. The pain eases up but it never leaves completely. Those benzodiazepines should have stronger warnings on them or something. Take good care and stay safe. None of those for us!!!💘

    • @Trrippy_Shades
      @Trrippy_Shades 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I have like 3 dwai every single one of them was from taking bars an blacking out, every single time

  • @blankwhite6163
    @blankwhite6163 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    It’s refreshing to get all those “bad/embarrassing” times off your chest. I’m lucky to have a friend I can let it out too. I’m not brave enough to tell anyone else lol

  • @eleusis7778
    @eleusis7778 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am Withdrawing right now .. thank you for posting !! I can get distracted and have a laugh with your vids plus you give away good info. Keep it up! God bless

  • @nickwhite3947
    @nickwhite3947 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    1 mg of K is lots, I’ve been trying now to get off Benzo for two years and two failed tapers. Started on Ativan then switched to klonopin then now I’m on Valium and tapering. I’m on Effexor too. But be warned sir. The HELL your going go through for years coming off them is going be fifty million times worse then opiates. Benzodiazepines are the worst worst decision I’ve ever made asking my doctor for something because I was sad and lonely and depressed after a family break up. Take it really really slow dude or it’ll bite you big time. Like cut 10% every two weeks or more and then when you get low switch to scale or liquid taper to get that 10% cut. Not to scare you but don’t worry about the seizures going slow it’s the mental aspect and physical symptoms that are going scare you. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever tried doing and I did it all. Reach out if you need help boss!!

  • @TimelapseExperimentals
    @TimelapseExperimentals 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Your honesty is really inspiring, considering how hard you used to go its even more impressive that you are so dedicated now
    Glad i never went down the benzo route, I have struggled with bad anxiety and panic disorder for a long time so I knew i would have liked them a little too much...not that being on oxy for 13 years is much better tho lol but it is what it is
    Looking forward to your future videos

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you very much. It’s a very good thing u never got into Benzos for sure. I really do appreciate your comment

  • @rawtooth4704
    @rawtooth4704 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Just keep doing ur thing and stay on Track Gabe... Much Love From Canada.

  • @thorninmyflesh4948
    @thorninmyflesh4948 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m so proud of you for getting on Wellbutrin. I went to my dr immediately after I kicked subs and got on Wellbutrin for the PAWS. PAWS caused my relapse at 7 months in 2019. So I’m on it and had hardly no PAWS this round. I made it to 8 months so far and no thoughts of using subs. Wellbutrin actually gives me energy. I take 150 in the morning and 150 at lunch to get me through the rest of the day.
    So I am also prescribed Klonipin or clonazepam and have been for years. I was first prescribed Xanax at 20 years old. It was the .25 but I was getting them on the streets since 17 and continued to get them illegally cause the .25 was BS. But that allowed me to increase my dosage or tell the next dr that I’ve been on Xanax before and it works which got me more Xanax at a higher milligram. I was up to legally 3 .5s a day. Once again I illegally got way more. Then I like had two kids in the middle of all that and had to get off during those times. It sucked but I couldn’t really tell withdrawal cause I was pregnant, moody, emotional, tired and sick anyway. Do you have like years of your life or months that you kinda blacked out? Like they are just missing from your life from all the benzos you were taking?? I do. It’s sad that I lost like 10 years due to benzo blackouts just from daily high dosage benzo use.
    I got a new dr and he took me off Xanax and put me on Klonipin about 12 years ago. I’m on .5 mg now. I had to get off again to have a baby 5 years ago. I lived through the withdrawal which once again who really knows what I was really feeling. Basically I’ve been on benzos for 31 years. That’s not to brag but to say that I get it. I get the fear. I tried to get off about 6 months ago and I went a week and decided I wasn’t sleeping and that sucks for my mental health cause I’m bipolar 1 and I have to get sleep or I have an episode. Nobody wants that. When I did decide to try to get off. I started full spectrum hemp oil or CBD at 25mg. Then I took magnesium pills at night. I also took adrenotrate for anxiety supplement at lunch everyday. So my anxiety was fine. It was the sleep that I couldn’t deal with. I only take my Klonipin before bed and haven’t abused benzos in 2 years now. I had a manic episode and went crazy on the benzos. In fact I went so crazy I swallowed 30 .5s to get my husbands attention. It didn’t work btw.
    Long story short you will be fine. And if you decide that getting off of them is more dangerous than staying on them like I did, don’t beat yourself up about it. I really wanted to get off them and be completely narcotic free but sometimes we have mental issues like me bipolar- you seizures- that don’t allow us to get off some meds and that’s okay. You aren’t abusing them and that’s what really matters. Good luck Gabe!!! Oh my most important thing out of all of this is holistic treatments if you aren’t going to be on medication. You were on it for a reason and that reason will present itself again. I also use essential oils. Believe it or not they help. All of the stuff I mentioned combined work. I have no idea which one or any is not needed because it’s a packaged deal for me. Just make sure you have a plan for the anxiety that’s coming and also Wellbutrin causes anxiety lol and will cause problems sleeping in some people. My friend couldn’t sleep at night on it so she got off of it and she didn’t even take drugs at all- legal or illegal. She was using it to quit smoking. Now I’ve said all I wanted to say. If you ever wanna ask me anything, feel free to. As you can see I am an open book. Here to help if you need it.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Wow thank you so much for your encouraging! I really appreciate you taking the time to share some of your experience.

    • @todharper3964
      @todharper3964 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thorn In My Flesh Princess

    • @todharper3964
      @todharper3964 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thorn In My Flesh yes I don't remember stuff either... like 8 - 10 yrs worth cause of opioids, but from what I here ....that can be a good thing, cause of apparent immoral behaviors. God bless, thanks for sharing

    • @thorninmyflesh4948
      @thorninmyflesh4948 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Tod Harper what you say?? Nailed it!! Thank God they didn’t have camera phones in my late teens or early twenties. By the time the smart phones came out I was past the inappropriate behaviors in public at least.

  •  4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Never cared for benzos! Thank God! My best friend of 20 years loved them. Always heard the withdrawals were horrible.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Kevin Wrye-I wish sooo bad i didn’t ever get into them. It really really sucks.

  • @nwetthbomb
    @nwetthbomb 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    just make sure you eat (rehydrating and healthy food if you can) i sparingly ate for the first 2/3 days of my benzo withdrawal which made me feel so bad. i guess they say if you can eat and you're craving something, no matter what it is, it's better than nothing, good luck!

  • @SAMEntalhealth
    @SAMEntalhealth 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    As an opiate addict i was never addicted to the Benzo. Strictly used for panic attacks or unbearable anxiety. No dopamine shot from it, yeah i get relaxed but not like "i wanna do that again tomorrow " loll Idk man, they do do a lot of damage though . Around here we call them "soul stealers "

  • @humbug4478
    @humbug4478 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    🙏 for you mate !!!
    You got the power.
    I’m still on a micro dose of sub coward that I am but it keeps me off other crap and I worry relapse could happen but I don’t know might be me justifying to myself

  • @PimpDomingo
    @PimpDomingo 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Quitting from 1 mg will have you experiencing insomnia, hallucinations, sensitivity to light and sound for a little bit (in my experience it gets really bad around days 7-9). Create your own micro taper program and take yourself off the med a tiny bit at a time over the course of say a year. If you’re prone to seizures it’s the safest way or actually liquid micro tapering is but that requires science 🧪. If you do most of the hard work upfront you wont have much damage to repair on the back end (once off). Great video! 🙏🏼 Reference the ashton manual if you need assistance.

    • @maddawgzzzz
      @maddawgzzzz 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I was on 3mg kpin for 3 years. Decided one day I want to drop a mg. 6thday in I was a zombie dropping that 1mg. 12th day in I was able to start thinking clearly and some pain went away and sleep was easier. 18th day my body adjusted and I didn’t notice much besides some dizzy spells. Now I’m tapering .25mg every two weeks and it’s not nearly as bad as I thought going that slow. I should be at 0mg in less than 7 months total, but the last .5mg I feel will be the hardest.

    • @faithriddle
      @faithriddle 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I was cake straight off 2.5mg of Ativan- worst symptoms were insomnia, assume anxiety, hair loss as tinnitus (still have). I found the best way to get through was to be really mindful of what my body was actually feeling and not getting over stressed with the thought of what might be next. Just deep breathing and trying to stay calm and saying to myself it will end eventually. It does get better

    • @BB-fv2nf
      @BB-fv2nf 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Day 7-11 for me where terrible.. I cried every morning 😞

  • @datdudedill8841
    @datdudedill8841 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Bro i really dont think youre gonna have a bad time. it will be a little mental but i think you got this man and it wont last but maybe a couple days, in myt exp. at least. good luck. oh and cravings suck.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Really? How long were I on em? And how long u been off em? Man I appreciate your encouraging comment.

  • @todharper3964
    @todharper3964 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Keep hangin in there Gabster. God bless you too buddy. Thanks for sharing. I never been attached to benzos.... thank God. I've takin them but not for any length of time.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thanks Todd. As always I appreciate your support.

    • @todharper3964
      @todharper3964 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Gabe McCall my coke days.... the zanies brought me back down and got me thru the ni

    • @todharper3964
      @todharper3964 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      .....They got me thru the next day. But y'all my friends wife many yrs ago was addicted to them. Nway I'm glad I survived them days, let alone all the crazy military stuff I've done. Take care!

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Tod Harper I know a good amount people or (used to know) that use Benzos just like that. Mostly in the meth world.

  • @NoName-pu5ls
    @NoName-pu5ls 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I've been on clonazepam 23 years taken as prescribed I have tapered down to tiny particles now..ready to jump off soon. I had no issues tapering. When I was cut off cold once I almost died.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Shana Neidig -Wow! Good for you! How much r u taking now?

    • @NoName-pu5ls
      @NoName-pu5ls 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@gabemccall3523 I was prescribed 0.5mg 3x a day for all those years..now down to tiny particles I can't even measure it, I shave off a bit like dust almost..I mean when I say I tapered I planned on getting so low like licking the pill lol...somedays I even miss a day in between now too..it's gone incredibly well..I was petrified at first to taper..but so great to be almost free!! 😁

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Shana Neidig -Your awesome! Way to be so dedicated to your taper. Please keep me updated on your progress. You put yourself in the perfect spot to completely finish it all. Congratulations

    • @NoName-pu5ls
      @NoName-pu5ls 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@gabemccall3523 update: I jumped off September 1st, it's now Halloween n all is well! Zero PAWS. Zero sugar *keto helps with anxiety etc. Wishing you all the best!!

  • @Last-In-Line
    @Last-In-Line 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Got off xanax a year and a half ago. I never thought I was going to get off them. I abused them for 9 years. Best thing that happened to me was all my 7 options being dry for a few days.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Nice! Good for you! How bad was it getting off of in your opinion?

  • @Lisasanti1
    @Lisasanti1 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I have epilepsy, and I’m prescribed Ativan, along with Keppra. I don’t understand those that abuse it. It doesn’t give me any euphoria at all. I know everyone is different. I am prescribed 3 milligrams per day.
    You’re a great storyteller, by the way.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Appreciate that. I don’t know why I really abused them myself to be honest cause your right. No euphoria. I guess it gave me a sense of well being? Anyway I appreciate your comment

    • @michelebergman4336
      @michelebergman4336 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Just don’t run out because ull have EXTREME panic attack!

  • @lisaryan6047
    @lisaryan6047 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I been on clonidine for 18years I never abused them they changed my life yes its not possi;le to come off them alone everybody else wants them i have turrets syndromeee i am very blessed to find a medicine to change my life

  • @leanedoutrecordz1073
    @leanedoutrecordz1073 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks for helping me get off my pain pills and don’t over think it you can get off that bullshit if you need someone to talk to hit me up stay blessed

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Leaned Out Recordz -Thanks sooo much brother! Man your whole comment means a lot to me! Congrats for getting off those pills my friend! Appreciate you being here for me.

  • @E--ik8hx
    @E--ik8hx 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I had a old friend loose his life to benzos, Its easy to see the potential of addiction though. I refuse to take them after watching what they can do. I'm so sorry to hear your story. After years of suboxone for pain I turned to drinking to kill the pain on top of the subs. The withdrawal of anything on the gaba receptors are terrible. But manned up and quit that a year ago and, quit the subs 1 year later to date. If you ever need to talk durring your taper or withdrawl feel free. Anything to help.

  • @treefrog5543
    @treefrog5543 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Please taper the Wellbutrin slowly, too. Some people have problems getting off and some people don't, but there is no way of knowing how you will respond.

  • @beanzx2
    @beanzx2 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    hey buddy man i relate to so much you been thru and man i really commend u man for making it this far and sharing ur story man.. . i have had my fair share of adivan zannies resterol man i used to have to eat 4 resterol 30s every morning just to be normal man thank god those days are gone but i am on methadone tis other beast and have been for 4 -5 years the highest i was is 150 mg and now i am at 32.. and i am contemplating switching to suboxin or at the least im looking in to it anyways bro yeah you got some real good content that has been helping for sure thank man

  • @edmon7943
    @edmon7943 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I’ve been on Clonazepam for almost 15 years @2mg 2x a day. The past 6 years I would take 1 every 3 days bc I was going to the clinic and I didn’t want to test dirty. I would sometimes only take .5mg and then not take anything for 3 days. I legit have over 1,200 2mg kpins in my cabinet bc would only take like 10-15 out of a 60 count bottle

  • @dmizzlemac2916
    @dmizzlemac2916 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Just came off klonopin/Xanax after being on 2 years straight everyday before that it was on and off. I managed to get down to .5mg and hop off cause tapering never helped me I’m on day 21 and feeling so clear headed. You will have struggles in the begging and have waves of symptoms that suck but keep fighting and except that some days your gonna be defeated by withdrawal 🤷🏻‍♂️... I use to take anywhere from 2mg daily to 4mg. Stay aaway from the horror stories this is very do able

    • @dmizzlemac2916
      @dmizzlemac2916 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      By the way your videos inspired me to get off subs in October of 2018 I’ve been suboxone free since then I honestly thought that would never happen . Keep up the videos and stay positive man 👍

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      dmizzle Mac dude there awesome! How you holding up?

    • @sangeetalambh6389
      @sangeetalambh6389 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@dmizzlemac2916 how r u now

  • @aimlessintopeka
    @aimlessintopeka 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    actually Xanax and K are about the same strength according to the Ashton Manual. I'll drop a link here that's a good resource facebook.com/benzotaper/

  • @aimlessintopeka
    @aimlessintopeka 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    read the Ashton Manuel online. Then if you're interested in a micro taper there are a few videos on my channel. Take the taper slow. Doctors think 6 wks is slow but I've been tapering for 5 years. But I'm old with a lot of health issues. A young healthy person can probably get off 1 mg in a year.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank u very much for your comment! Seriously!

  • @3rdpersonality48
    @3rdpersonality48 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Yeah benzos are hard core, thanking God I only dabbled with those but I have couple homies that went heavy on em and one almost died in a d tox facility brain swelling seizures then other homie had a seizure at work fell backwards and cracked his head on a counter ..fulk that shit man

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Holy crap! Like I said... worst decision in my entire life!

  • @johnjacobs61
    @johnjacobs61 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Wait is this a controlled substance…. YES
    lmaooo smh sooo true

  • @calebgrimm
    @calebgrimm 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I almost had a seizure getting on 300 mg Wellbutrin. Now I went down to 150mg. Wellbutrin is fairly safe but in low doses. I honestly love it so much. That’s just me but that is my favorite medication. I take that adderall and I am on 1ng sub. I am still struggling getting off the sub:( but the Wellbutrin has made my life so much better I think you will benefit from it

    • @calebgrimm
      @calebgrimm 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      My main gripe w suboxone is weight gain and low test levels. That is what’s killing me. The Wellbutrin helps the weight gain and lethargy. But still I’m 27 my test should be at healthy levels and I know it is not. Either get off the subs or look into trt I’m in a pickle

  • @rileycox2411
    @rileycox2411 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Gabe you are so so so so so encouraging.

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Appreciate that. It makes my day hearing that from you.

  • @parmindersingh-ll9ex
    @parmindersingh-ll9ex 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Did u use benzo while getting off suboxne

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes. Now, i didn’t start taking it though. I was already dependent on them for years and was always taking 1mg or less. I had actually come down from 4-5mg daily once I got on subs. If your thinking about taking em for wd definitely don’t. Take care

  • @itw1931
    @itw1931 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Pins are time released

  • @codydion5588
    @codydion5588 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    damn you drink lots of pop hahah. i can't say anything i drink lots of wobbly pops ;) sub free for 65 days myself. yeeeehaw. watched lots of your earlier detox vids helped me lots but thanks for posting

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Good for you brother! Appreciate your comment too.

  • @bluestrings8829
    @bluestrings8829 ปีที่แล้ว

    Bro...our wives know! They ain't stupid. 😂 And she searched your belongings. Maybe after some time they stop searching. And them Benzo withdrawals are no joke. Did that mistake a few times. Just kicked both Clonazepam and Suboxone. Deadly combo! Be careful, it all changes you. Every time you lose a little more of who you are.

  • @lisaryan6047
    @lisaryan6047 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Benzoes do not always cause sirzutes

  • @lisaryan6047
    @lisaryan6047 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Over four milligtans can stop your breathing

    • @gabemccall3523
      @gabemccall3523  4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It can. But definitely not always

    • @nwetthbomb
      @nwetthbomb 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@gabemccall3523 4mg is a very low dose compared to the 60 mg i used to take at once, 3x a day. i'm a 125 lb 5'8" female and 4mg wouldn't even phase me now (been clean for months) btw, it's actually almost impossible to overdose on benzo's alone, mix it with almost anything else tho and it's another story.