Jake was my highschool sweetheart, and my daughters father. I know he had dealt with the very heavy burden of your job requirements. He was also let down by a teammate in a monumental way. Since you knew Jake I'm sure you know how much he believed you were his brothers. Family. A brother broke the code. To face a betrayal as he did, broke him. Along with relationship issues with myself, and other women I won't name out of respect, he certainly had his fair share of demons.But, he was a phenomenal leader, and man. Always inspirational. You're right about the Navy pushing him aside, he never should have been able to leave that hospital. He wasn't going to be discharged, but he wanted it. He couldn't bring himself to do it anymore, and live with what he had done. There were so many factors. I love the impact he made on you, and the fact that you keep his letters still. I do too. I'd be interested in hearing more stories you have about him. Please. Thank you for speaking his name and keeping his memory alive. Gone, but never forgotten. ❤️ Thank you for your service -Brittany
Hello Brittany, Your beautiful, eloquent message moved me to tears. I can't imagine what you, your daughter, & Jake endured & continue to endure. I feel your pain & sadness. My father was in the Teams for 21 years (Class 39). There is an intensity about their lifestyle. It was difficult for my mother & my brother & I coming second as the Teams always comes first. The job requirements would create a toll on anyone & the lack of emotional & psychological support can push the mind to breaking point. I have sensed the pain of Team guys describe how they were betrayed & discarded. It is evident in the suicide rate of active duty Teammates. It sounds like your lives have taken a detour without your consent. I hope you can find moments to breathe deeply & not have to struggle to keep your nose above the water's surface. Being a wife or daughter of a Team guy is not easy. I am grateful to you, your daughter, & Jake's service & ultimate sacrifice. I admire your generous soul in your kindness & expression of appreciation in Chad & Jake's impact in his life. I wish you both a fulfilling life!
Sorry for your loss brother. I was an Infantryman with 2 combat tours. The military uses War Fighters as disposable tools. I’ve lost several brothers to alcoholism, drugs and suicide. One even laid his head on a train track until decapitation . It’s sad that we are trained and brainwashed to kill, then when we are finished, they just let us out into society to roam about like normal people. We aren’t normal and never will be. Some adjust, others don’t. War affects each man differently, but, it affects EVERY man. I struggle every day and it’s only with the help of an ALMIGHTY GOD that I can get through to the other side. May God bless and keep you brother.
Sorry for your loss. I am a Gulf War veteran with PTSD, 24 years US Army. I am here to tell you the truth. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is the only reason I am here. I don't go to church. When the PTSD kicks in I call it "surfing a wave." I have surfed some big huge waves in the past and the Lord gets me through them all. Is it fun? No. But it is real. I am a PTSD Survivor because of my belief in the Lord ✝️ Good luck to you brother👍
I deployed with Chadd and Jake as their comms guy at 8. I had a few interactions with Jake, but looking back there were signs that he might have been working through something. To be fair, I think a lot of guys were working through some stuff myself included. While I was still at the creek I heard about what happened and how, but I never heard about his battle with alcohol or his potential discharge. You never know what somebody is dealing with. The whole situation is sad but I hope this video and his story helps someone. Chadd, we talked for a bit at the bar right after that mistake you mentioned. I never heard how that all shook out for you, but I'm glad you got past it. You were always a solid dude to work with and one of the good ones.
Chadd looks pretty beefy / strong in that picture before the video starts, compared to now pretty thin. I only met one Navy Seal back around 2006 or 2007 or 08 not sure at community college in a history class. Teacher asked class who the Veterans were, we had several vets but one was a Seal. Dude was bright focused, good looking tall lean, always laughing smiles, had a beautiful girlfriend who came to class with him sometimes, his calves were very muscular, he walked with force. You can tell he was the real deal. I asked the guy if he ever wanted to have kids, he said hell no, never. That Dark side showed a little, later I figured it out, Navy Seals had been mourning those Seal Teams who died in the Helicopters I think Afghanistan. My grandfather was WW2 army veteran, he drank some but was mostly not addicted to anything. But my Uncle was Vietnam Marine Veteran and saw a lot of combat, he was a full blown alcoholic, I think the more action you experienced, the more drinking occurs with Veterans to numb the bad memories and pain. I am certain military combat service is not without its sacrifices and personal damages to all, its normal when you go through hellish stuff, its human to need medicine for it at points in your lives. Not anything to be ashamed about at all, it's just normal.
This type of situation is not uncommon in the intelligence community. I saw good peoples' clearances removed, and they were subsequently fired, for some very "iffy" reasons.
I was randomly looking for something online and came across this video...about my own biological brother! Jake is remembered and missed every single day in our family. He left such a unfixable wound. Every now and then I forget he's gone and think to myself I really need to plan a trip to see him and then remember. None of us are the same without him. 💔
Chadd, thank you for sharing this. Jake was a friend and my roommate at BUD/S for many months. Jake was everything you described and more. Solid, solid man and the type to give his shirt off his back if he thought you needed it. I always regretted not keeping in better touch with Jake and when I heard the news it was a catalyst for me to seek a career in mental health field. I have since accepted an internship at a VA clinic. I think of him often when things get difficult and I need a reminder of my purpose. Too many service members are discarded and abandoned when things go awry for them and its wrong. Hearing your stories of his leadership and friendship put a smile on my face and a tear in my eye. Thank you
I had some family issues happen and my command abandoned me. I had to go a retention board to fight to stay in the Navy... I feel for Jake and his family..
agreed, even my daughter who did 4 years in the Navy has severe PTSD just from her time on the ship. I know to some who have been active duty they don't see it, but as a retired sailor and her father I have suggested to seek help with the VA for her issues. It is real, and effects everyone differently.
You are so very right about discarded souls. During my Graduate Internship (MSW) at VA Hospital, the most difficult part of my job was witnessing the effects of veterans being treated like discarded souls. I was always in awe of their fight, perserverence, & resiliency in their will to live. How some of the mental health professionals would take out their own psychological issues onto their patients. Many veterans just needed to be heard & valued with respect, dignity, & kindness. They have endured what most of us could not. I was blessed to witness the beauty & strength of their souls! It sounds like Jake's blessing to you was instilling in you a lifetime of purpose & passion to ensure that other veterans don't feel alone but emotionally supported through walking beside them. Thank you!
Great story man. The biggest challenge I've had since retiring from AD is dealing with managers instead of leaders. This is a stellar example of sacrificial leadership. BZ
My brother was a SEAL T1 in the 90s. My entire family is proud of him. He to is going through somethings. It is hard to know how to deal with you guys because you all are too tough to talk sometimes. All I can do is pray for my brother and hope for the best. Thank you for your service and your stories.
I’m a Navy vet (non SW). I want to commend you on your honesty- that took guts. Most of us need to be more honest with ourselves and others. It’s a tough life lesson. Thank you brother for sharing that. May God bless you and keep Jake and his family👊🏼 HM3
I’m not an emotional guy but I was almost in tears by the end of this. You are an amazing story teller and I’m glad his story was told properly. Thank you for the videos.
I have watched 100s of videos on here. By far this is the most honest, heart felt one I have ever watched. Sorry for your loss bro. I saw this exact type of behavior internally in SF. Sad. It is a culture thing for sure, and something that needs to be fixed. I respect your honesty and ability to tell such a story. Much to be learned here. SALUTE!
Well told Chadd, we all have regrets, but being who we are now, hopefully won't make the mistakes we made when we were younger. I totally get where you are coming from. Thanks for being honest and inspirational...
Excellent story very powerful. As a retired infantry marine I feel your pain on losing brothers and sisters it is hard to cope with from time to time the ghost never leave you.
I was the DAPA at SEAL Team TWO, I had a lot of compassion for the guys struggling with drug and alcohol issues, I always made sure to treat the guys like human beings and showed up to their treatment graduations when I wasn’t on travel. It meant the world to me to see the guys bounce back and continue operating, unfortunately we had a couple who couldnt pull through, its hard man, this video really hit me.
Sorry, what does DAPA stand for? To Chadd, thank you for your honesty, I shed a tear hearing you tell the story of Jake. Life is difficult but you can always show compassion and kindness to the next guy and ask how he is, that is what I’ll take from this video. I would love to hear more stories about him.
@@Dhdjdjsjdjsjk Sorry to hear that, that there is a need for such a role. But I guess the personel in these teams see things we simple laymen cannot conprehend.
Thank you for this....I have a best friend who is an Army vet and he is a bad alcoholic. I try so hard to help him, and listen to him talk about the people he killed and his nightmares. The worst part is- I have been sober since 2014 and I was in worse shape than he is. I sometimes reach a point where I have to choose me or him because I want to drink so bad just being around him slurring and driving him around smelling the vodka. I swear I try my best but I made my own promises to god and people I love that I WILL NOT BREAK. Hard truth. I will always be there as long as he will talk I will listen. Chad, when you said "He was not a weak man, or a bad man I felt that. This guy would give his shirt or his last dollar, I know because I've known him since day care. I pray for him and he know's I'm always here but I'll be honest, every time I hear a shot late at night I wonder if it was him. It's piss poor how this country throws away it's war fighters. It saddens me beyond words, and then comes the anger. With all the money we waste on people who hate us, can't we spare some for the ones who fight for us?
I'm a Toolmaker working 2nd in mostly empty giant factory. I am running a giant 1939 WWII tagged American holewizard radial drill right now listening to this. I about just lost it. Man what a heavy heart.
Dude, every five years of my life I evaluate myself and realize what a dumbass I was five years ago. At first this was depressing, until I realized I was growing and improving as a human being. Jake clearly had a lot to do with your growth. Peace and love, brother.
Great talk Chadd. I have a very close friend that suffered a similar fate at the hands of the army. However, he's still with us. Everyone close to him has done their best to help him, and he's doing good. When the army dropped him, it also caused him to lose a job in law enforcement too. It's all he's ever known. I can't imagine what's bouncing around in his head, that's why we've all done as much as we can to support our brother. Thanks Chadd.
Well told story shipmate. Iam a alcoholic, grace of God and a 12 step program, just under 33 years since last drink, it was so flipping hard to stop drinking, the demons were so strong. Bless Jake, and thank you for your service mad respect. Pops' navy Corpsman 1982-1986
Just got out of the hospital this past spring after years of drinking winding up in over two years of a gallon a day. Liver started failing and nearly lost my life. Clean today. Good to go.
The gates of hell shall not prevail against the church. The anointing of God breaks every yoke With God all things are possible.. Jesus said: without me you can do nothing
I didn’t know Jake but I know and have known many like him. He was a leader. The fact that he took responsibility with you to “pay the man “ and take the “punishment” with you told me everything. You were blessed to have been mentored by such a man, his spirit has affected you forever in the best way possible. Bless up. Thanks for sharing the story, the man.
Chadd, thanks for sharing your’s and Jake’s story. Very powerful. My father was a sergeant and squad leader 1st Marine Division Korean War. I could get him to talk about things he found humorous, like running into General MacArthur, but he would never talk about combat. I remember reading about Col. Chesty Puller driving thru Camp LeJune when he noticed a Lt. and Private standing on the sidewalk with the Private continually saluting the Lt. Chesty pulled over and walked up to the couple. He spoke to the Lt. and said what goes on here old man. The Lt. said, Colonel this Private failed to salute me and as punishment I ordered him to salute me 100 times. Puller responded, quite right, but remember that as a superior officer you are required to return every salute, SO GET CRACKING!
Brother, first time seeing your channel. And I bawled so hard. Just buried my best friend a little over a year ago. Seems like yesterday, he was put out of the ODA at 7th SFG, for the very same thing. God love you for what youve done and what your doing. Hope you have peace for the rest of your days. My buddy had seen and done some things he couldn't reconcile with. And the same thing happened to him. In the Military if your not 100% your treated like a piece of crap. It's like everything you did and all the sacrifices you'd made, mean nothing anymore. No better way to break a man's spirit. I have a good clue what your living with, I regret decisions to this day.
Thanks for that honest story. Two weeks out of the police academy my older brother Murdered my father. I was in the house. My training taught me how to enter the room correctly. This was the difference in me living and my brother being neutralized permanently. Because my father was wealthy, my entire family abandoned me and treated me horribly. Totally F'd up. Wanted to end it for a long time. But I had Christ ✝️. Your story really hit my heart. May Jake be in God's huddle. He's now the Lord's beautiful warrior !! Take care !! ⚔️⚔️⚔️
Rest in Peace Jake. Kipling wrote that poem and it has helped me in many times of struggle. Keep growing Chadd. Your honesty and integrity are inspiring to us all.
I can’t imagine the level that you guys operated in. I know that someone who was not there will never know what you’re going through. I am a navy veteran, no combat experience. I was on a ship in the seventies. After the Navy I became a firefighter in a busy department for 36 years. I have had a bit of a hard time since I retired, and have been seeking answers. Something that I know is that it’s impossible to replace the camaraderie and adrenaline of these types of jobs. I think it’s harder for those that loved it. I offer this insight, not to identify with your experience per se, but to maybe put into words what I felt when I watched your video. On my own journey! Thank you for sharing this story of your friend. I know I would have loved him.
Kinda feel your pain, and I appreciate you telling this story. I wasn’t a seal, so my experience may not relate, but I was a Marine who had a roommate kill himself. I never got along with him real well, but he was a decent Marine who had a serious alcohol problem, mostly due to a fucked up child hood. I think about this guy all the time. I really wish the MC was more willing/ able to help him.
This must have been a difficult video for you to make but you did it with honor and respect. Thank you for your service protecting our country. God bless you and help you with all you’ve gone through. Much respect to both you and Jake
Chadd, Thank you for sharing this part of your life and honoring your C-Daddy and friend. It’s easy to understand your heavy heart with that situation. I am forever grateful to men like you who serve and give more than any of us who haven’t served will ever understand. I’m most grateful that you’ve answered the Lord’s call. Your are a blessing, my brother. Keep walking the walk or more accurately, running the run. All in His glory. May the Lord bless you!
I'll just say that this video was truly compelling, albeit, tragic. We, as a society, still have to face many trials that want to un-do us and Jake fell victim to one, or more. Sad to see our heroes leave us in such a manner. RIP, Jake.
Sad story Chad! Im a 54 year old and that drove the tears down my face.,.I wish someone could of helped him with the demons that plaged his warrior spirit!! May he rest in eternal peace!I know this was hard to share with us! But thank you! Most people don't realize the hell you go through...it needs to be understood!
Thanks for this Chadd. Fair winds and following seas Jake. This made me remember “Do not go softly into that Good Night” by Dylan Thomas. I have committed it to memory. Stay the course brother.
If there is a man fitting R. Kipling's "If", quoted in Jake's correspondence, he sure is a US Navy SEAL. No doubt. I think you do the right thing sharing your stories, man. We are all honored to hear them. Thank you for your honesty.
Perfect! The quotes from Rudyard Kipling's " If". The multiple Bible's. Is a sign of searching through extreme darkness while keeping a smile on your face. Chadd man listening to this made my heart swell up with tears. I have been there. By Divinity I made it out and it bothers me in some way that I made it out and super solid guys like Jake didn't. This backyard conversation is inspiring to me. Truly! God bless Jake and God bless you Chadd. I go to wipe tears from my eye while I am truly grateful for you sharing this Truth. The will that says HOLD ON. Grace and Mercy.
Chadd, Thank you for sharing this story about Jake. I was in the Navy as an FMF Corpsman and had a very good friend of mine kill himself. He was not in the military, but I loved him and miss him every day. He drank a lot and used drugs and I'll never understand why he did what he did and I wish I could have stopped him. All I can do is tell others about him and remember the good times that we had together. His name was David "LD" Brewington, from Spartanburg, SC. I also almost let alcohol get the best of me. I drank a lot during my service. Beer was my drink of choice and I'd have 9-12 beers daily for years, with zero breaks. I started having difficulty breathing and could feel my lungs gurgling, so I researched and found out that I had the early signs and symptoms of Alcohol Induced Congestive Heart Failure. It scared me, so I just quit. No 12 steps or any help. Just suffered on my own for a long time, but I was determined to live. It was definitely one of the hardest things that I ever did. That was 11 and a half years ago. I still miss beer, but I know that one is not enough and I'd be right back at 12 in short order, so I just don't touch alcohol at all. Thank you again for these videos man. Take care Scott
Thank you Chadd. Got out of the Marine Corps infantry in 2015, and every time I lose one of my brothers from that company feels like a sledge hammer to my stomach. Seems like they just keep dying too young, whether KIA, suicide, alcohol, or “unexplained” death. I feel your pain, brother. And Jesus Christ is now the only foundation that keeps me standing.
There is so much I can relate with this video. I first wanna say sorry to hear about your mentor and thanks for sharing that story. Addiction is a strong demon, its one of those conundrums thats hard to solve. Secondly, I wanna throw out there that I like listening to your stories, not just yours, but a lot of SEAL’s, for some reason its like therapy and in some small way, I can relate with the struggles that you guys been through. I too have had trouble with addiction and have had my fair share of time spent in prison and only by the grace of God, I just passed my 15th year home outta prison, clean & sober. Im not saying the time of my sobriety for a “good job” or any other praise, I dont deserve any praise, Im simply doing what I should be doing in the first place, Im bringing that up to say, I can relate with what you said, about if you dont know what its like statement. Yes, for some reason a lot of people frown on different types of addiction and it makes that individual feel even more alone, and in most cases drives that person deeper into their hole. I can also relate with you on regret of not saying or trying to do something sooner as well, my father overdosed a couple years ago on fentanyl and I feel like I should of tried harder, or said something different but I have to trust that God knew my father wasn’t strong enough to get himself together and took him home. Anyway, I wanted to comment and share how I relate on this video, thanks man.
Thank you so much for your service to our country Chadd . I’m sorry for the loss of your mentor. I am so great full for who you are now and what your sharing with us .
Sorry for your loss Man. You did Jake well by extolling his virtues and being honest about his troubles. You are a Great Man and Person. From one Airborne Veteran to another, thank you for your service to our country. Be well, be safe and keep the Lord in your heart which I know you will.
Nobody supports anybody. Nobody is there for anybody. "Brother" is nothing more than an affectation; not a reality. We're all so wrapped up in our own egos, vanity, and pride that those who need support will never ask for it, and those who notice someone needing support will never give it.
i'M SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. WE ALL NEED SOMEONE TO LEAN ON KEEP YOUR BRUDAS IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND TRY YOUR BEST TO REACH OUT TO THEM. WE ALL NEED AOMEONE TO TURN TO WHEN WE ARE DOWN OR NEED ADVICE. LOVE YOUR CHANNEL.
Thank you Chadd. I had a friend, a close friend, take his own life several years ago. I am former Army but David wasn't so your thoughts and memories of a friend are near to my heart. Your comment about wishing you were the man then that you are today rings true with me every single day. I appreciate you and what you share with us.
Sir, if I may, That was an amazing moment of honor you shined over Jake and your fellow brothers and sisters everywhere. Thank you for sharing Jake with us I am honored to have the opportunity to follow your ways to the best of my abilities. You’re doing a fine job sir.
I read that poem “IF” to my children at least once a week …. In my opinion, one of the greatest poems ever !!! Thank you for all you have done and for what you are still doing !!
Thank you chadd. It's 3:30 am in florida- I just got back inside from walking my dog on a bathroom break. I was looking for something to watch so i could go back to sleep. I am grateful to Jesus for putting this in front of me. Tears welled up, brother. If I can be worthy enough. We need more Jakes and chadds in this world who want to make others better.
@@dpimprovements9905 The thing that really touched me in the video was the amount of desire from folks like Jake and chadd to become excellent mentors to even correct the small things in others to the point that you lead from ahead but you also lead by walking beside them every step of the way. That to me is a calling. And it's amazing. Wanting nothing more than just the honor and valor of helping someone be their best. Hope that makes sense.
Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. That took a lot from you and this isn't an atta-boy comment, this is a genuine thank you brother. Much love
Former sailor here, not a seal. Flight deck electrician, 2 west pacs during desert storm and shield. I just wanted to convey my deepest condolences to you Chadd. I'll keep you in my prayers brother. Love your channel
As someone who never served in the military sometimes i feel like im not worthy of hearing guys like you tell stories like this so i just want to thank you for putting it out there like you did here. RIP Jake
Josh, never feel unworthy, as a Navy vet, i can tell you many of us serve out of duty and love of country. We serve to sustain the country no matter what fake news media may try to sell. Some of us are at liberty to go for it so you will know the facts then be proud not big headed, life is fast show goodness not evil.
Chadd.... With much respect... You will see him again....we pray with you for his soul that he is resting in peace with our Good Lord. Thank you for for sharing this story.
Thank you for sharing this story ! I have a little understanding of that ! My father shared that with me . He was a wonderful man ! Korean war Veteran that battled the demons that came home with him ! When he was 68 years old he finally got some good help with those things he carried. And said it was the best thing for him .He was able to forgive himself !
Such a great yet sad story. I was in the same boat as Jake. I started using drugs and alcohol at 15 years old. I always knew I was gonna join the Army after I graduated HS, 6 days after I did I was in basic training. Got to Fort Stewart right in time to get deployed to Iraq in 2005. Iraq helped me change my life, our CO was just like Jake, we all loved him, same with our 1st Sergeant. After we got back from our deployment we were all loving life. Every Friday our entire company would play flag football, moral was super high. I decided drugs and alcohol were a thing if the past. Then our CO got caught cheating on his wife and was removed from command and placed in administration, I think they called it S1, but I can't quite remember. Then our 1st Sergeant went to an Infantry Company(we were tankers, he was 11b, we were all 19k). That's when things went downhill. Our new CO needed to prove a point or something, he was a total dbag. Our 1st Sergeant was even worse. Long story short, one day I quit caring about my military career and it led me right back down the addiction path. Obviously at the end of the day it is 100% my fault. I actually came forward to my gunner and told I had a drug and alcohol problem and I needed treatment. Instead my CO forced me to take a piss test and gave me an article 15 for using drugs. Then I really quit caring, and 3 months short of my 3 year 6 month contract I got kicked out. I had a gun to my head several times when I was in. I know the exact feeling of being discarded like trash in the military. The only ones who truly cared about me were my 2 closest buddies, one I still talk to every couple month. My other buddy took my spot on my tank after they went back to Ramadi in 2007, he ended up getting killed by a sniper when he was climbing out of the driver's hatch, that was tough news to here. It hurt watching my brothers go to Iraq while I stayed behind and cleaned floors, you feel like the worst person on planet earth.
Give your life purpose and meaning.. don't dwell too much on the past. I know very much so (from personal experience) that if I don't control my thoughts and where I go with my thoughts, I could make myself miserable.. all the what-if's and things I wish I had done differently can drive you nuts and drive you to suicide if you allow it to.
My heart is with you and other operators that have experienced things that are worse than hell. I’ve seen death in every way possible but what gets me through is a fierce faith. I’ve made a shit load of mistakes but two things have never left me my faith and my dog. So glad I found your podcast thanks Chadd god be with you .
Having spent a considerable time in SOF (SF) I can completely relate to this story. I saw a lot of good guys succumb to a variety of issues to include suicide. You are right on point about the "machine", all of the services being the same. While we are in we like to believe that we are somehow integral to the unit however the truth is that the unit was there before we got there and remains long after we are gone. The beauty of SOF is our individual relationships with teammates that sustain a lifetime and like you I remain in contact with many of mine. As I have told many young people wanting to get into SOF "it is not a job, it is a lifestyle". Being in SOF may not necessarily define us but it definitely imprints upon us and affects us for the rest of our lives. Great video, sorry for your loss but it is an all too frequent story.
You told my story brother, I Carried that demon 20 years in my soul it almost destroyed me until one day I was able to let.my friend rest in peace and I found peace.....
Just discovered your videos a few days ago man. I've watched your podcasts on Andy Stumpf and Nick Bare. You've motivated me to get back into working out and strengthening the mind. Thanks for sharing a very personal story. You are helping alot of people with the words you speak.
Heavy, but real and honorable stuff! Thank you Chadd for being the man you are today and Jake, your example and memory live on... We are not always prepared when real life shit happens, and always does, but we are truly blessed and fortunate if we "get it" and grow because of it. And share a brotherly ear, shoulder, and hand to others when possible. Thank you for sharing, Chadd! NEVER FORGET.
Man Chad youve hit a nerve in my soul with your words brother that just moves my spirit, thanks for your dedication to lifting us up truly admire you brother god bless
We ALL should rewind this and listen to the love Jake had and the dedication and honest. He could have let things slide… but i suspect Jake loved those brotherly times with ya…
Sorry to hear about Jake. After I retired from the fire service my marriage fell apart and I went into a deep depression and started drinking. I gave up and didn't care what happened. By the Grace of God I made it through with support of family and friends. I thought about suicide a lot.
I am not a soldier, but I can understand the quality of that leadership action. That action would of made me so proud to work with him I would of gone a long way any day.
Jake was my highschool sweetheart, and my daughters father. I know he had dealt with the very heavy burden of your job requirements. He was also let down by a teammate in a monumental way. Since you knew Jake I'm sure you know how much he believed you were his brothers. Family. A brother broke the code. To face a betrayal as he did, broke him. Along with relationship issues with myself, and other women I won't name out of respect, he certainly had his fair share of demons.But, he was a phenomenal leader, and man. Always inspirational. You're right about the Navy pushing him aside, he never should have been able to leave that hospital. He wasn't going to be discharged, but he wanted it. He couldn't bring himself to do it anymore, and live with what he had done. There were so many factors. I love the impact he made on you, and the fact that you keep his letters still. I do too. I'd be interested in hearing more stories you have about him. Please. Thank you for speaking his name and keeping his memory alive. Gone, but never forgotten. ❤️
Thank you for your service
-Brittany
So sorry for yall's loss.
Prayers for you Maam. Powerful comment
Hello Brittany,
Your beautiful, eloquent message moved me to tears. I can't imagine what you, your daughter, & Jake endured & continue to endure. I feel your pain & sadness. My father was in the Teams for 21 years (Class 39). There is an intensity about their lifestyle. It was difficult for my mother & my brother & I coming second as the Teams always comes first. The job requirements would create a toll on anyone & the lack of emotional & psychological support can push the mind to breaking point. I have sensed the pain of Team guys describe how they were betrayed & discarded. It is evident in the suicide rate of active duty Teammates. It sounds like your lives have taken a detour without your consent. I hope you can find moments to breathe deeply & not have to struggle to keep your nose above the water's surface. Being a wife or daughter of a Team guy is not easy. I am grateful to you, your daughter, & Jake's service & ultimate sacrifice. I admire your generous soul in your kindness & expression of appreciation in Chad & Jake's impact in his life. I wish you both a fulfilling life!
Sorry for your loss.
It's truly sad and very unfortunate how the machine uses folks up and spits them out. May the almighty, bring you peace.
Sorry for your loss brother. I was an Infantryman with 2 combat tours. The military uses War Fighters as disposable tools. I’ve lost several brothers to alcoholism, drugs and suicide. One even laid his head on a train track until decapitation . It’s sad that we are trained and brainwashed to kill, then when we are finished, they just let us out into society to roam about like normal people. We aren’t normal and never will be. Some adjust, others don’t. War affects each man differently, but, it affects EVERY man. I struggle every day and it’s only with the help of an ALMIGHTY GOD that I can get through to the other side. May God bless and keep you brother.
Stay strong bro…sending you positive energy your way!
~Scot
You are normal bro!! Don’t ever say that. You just need your time and people who love you along with society need to be there for you and be patient.
I hear you. One day at a time
solid story chad,sorry for your friend.
Sorry for your loss. I am a Gulf War veteran with PTSD, 24 years US Army. I am here to tell you the truth. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is the only reason I am here. I don't go to church. When the PTSD kicks in I call it "surfing a wave." I have surfed some big huge waves in the past and the Lord gets me through them all. Is it fun? No. But it is real. I am a PTSD Survivor because of my belief in the Lord ✝️ Good luck to you brother👍
I deployed with Chadd and Jake as their comms guy at 8. I had a few interactions with Jake, but looking back there were signs that he might have been working through something. To be fair, I think a lot of guys were working through some stuff myself included. While I was still at the creek I heard about what happened and how, but I never heard about his battle with alcohol or his potential discharge. You never know what somebody is dealing with. The whole situation is sad but I hope this video and his story helps someone.
Chadd, we talked for a bit at the bar right after that mistake you mentioned. I never heard how that all shook out for you, but I'm glad you got past it. You were always a solid dude to work with and one of the good ones.
Chadd looks pretty beefy / strong in that picture before the video starts, compared to now pretty thin. I only met one Navy Seal back around 2006 or 2007 or 08 not sure at community college in a history class. Teacher asked class who the Veterans were, we had several vets but one was a Seal. Dude was bright focused, good looking tall lean, always laughing smiles, had a beautiful girlfriend who came to class with him sometimes, his calves were very muscular, he walked with force. You can tell he was the real deal. I asked the guy if he ever wanted to have kids, he said hell no, never. That Dark side showed a little, later I figured it out, Navy Seals had been mourning those Seal Teams who died in the Helicopters I think Afghanistan. My grandfather was WW2 army veteran, he drank some but was mostly not addicted to anything. But my Uncle was Vietnam Marine Veteran and saw a lot of combat, he was a full blown alcoholic, I think the more action you experienced, the more drinking occurs with Veterans to numb the bad memories and pain. I am certain military combat service is not without its sacrifices and personal damages to all, its normal when you go through hellish stuff, its human to need medicine for it at points in your lives. Not anything to be ashamed about at all, it's just normal.
Thank you for your service, sir.
This type of situation is not uncommon in the intelligence community. I saw good peoples' clearances removed, and they were subsequently fired, for some very "iffy" reasons.
Thank you for your service.
I was randomly looking for something online and came across this video...about my own biological brother! Jake is remembered and missed every single day in our family. He left such a unfixable wound. Every now and then I forget he's gone and think to myself I really need to plan a trip to see him and then remember. None of us are the same without him. 💔
Wait. Youre Jakes brother… never mind… SISTER! Final answer! ? 🫡❤️
The poem is titled "IF" by Rudyard Kipling
That was hard to hear. My brother-in-law was a service member who also took his life. I’m very sorry to hear this.
Chadd, thank you for sharing this. Jake was a friend and my roommate at BUD/S for many months. Jake was everything you described and more. Solid, solid man and the type to give his shirt off his back if he thought you needed it.
I always regretted not keeping in better touch with Jake and when I heard the news it was a catalyst for me to seek a career in mental health field. I have since accepted an internship at a VA clinic. I think of him often when things get difficult and I need a reminder of my purpose. Too many service members are discarded and abandoned when things go awry for them and its wrong. Hearing your stories of his leadership and friendship put a smile on my face and a tear in my eye. Thank you
This is where we the brothers and saints need to step up!
I had some family issues happen and my command abandoned me. I had to go a retention board to fight to stay in the Navy... I feel for Jake and his family..
agreed, even my daughter who did 4 years in the Navy has severe PTSD just from her time on the ship. I know to some who have been active duty they don't see it, but as a retired sailor and her father I have suggested to seek help with the VA for her issues. It is real, and effects everyone differently.
You are so very right about discarded souls. During my Graduate Internship (MSW) at VA Hospital, the most difficult part of my job was witnessing the effects of veterans being treated like discarded souls. I was always in awe of their fight, perserverence, & resiliency in their will to live. How some of the mental health professionals would take out their own psychological issues onto their patients. Many veterans just needed to be heard & valued with respect, dignity, & kindness. They have endured what most of us could not. I was blessed to witness the beauty & strength of their souls! It sounds like Jake's blessing to you was instilling in you a lifetime of purpose & passion to ensure that other veterans don't feel alone but emotionally supported through walking beside them. Thank you!
@@w55808 You got that right. All of it. Much respect.
Great story man. The biggest challenge I've had since retiring from AD is dealing with managers instead of leaders. This is a stellar example of sacrificial leadership. BZ
Same. ☝🏻
I worked for a federal law enforcement agency after the military and I can tell you it's the same. Lots of managers/administrators, very few leaders
My brother was a SEAL T1 in the 90s. My entire family is proud of him. He to is going through somethings. It is hard to know how to deal with you guys because you all are too tough to talk sometimes. All I can do is pray for my brother and hope for the best. Thank you for your service and your stories.
I’m a Navy vet (non SW). I want to commend you on your honesty- that took guts. Most of us need to be more honest with ourselves and others. It’s a tough life lesson. Thank you brother for sharing that. May God bless you and keep Jake and his family👊🏼 HM3
I’m not an emotional guy but I was almost in tears by the end of this. You are an amazing story teller and I’m glad his story was told properly. Thank you for the videos.
Sounds like an amazing leader... I'm sure he was proud of you
I have watched 100s of videos on here. By far this is the most honest, heart felt one I have ever watched. Sorry for your loss bro. I saw this exact type of behavior internally in SF. Sad. It is a culture thing for sure, and something that needs to be fixed. I respect your honesty and ability to tell such a story. Much to be learned here. SALUTE!
Well told Chadd, we all have regrets, but being who we are now, hopefully won't make the mistakes we made when we were younger. I totally get where you are coming from. Thanks for being honest and inspirational...
Excellent story very powerful. As a retired infantry marine I feel your pain on losing brothers and sisters it is hard to cope with from time to time the ghost never leave you.
I was the DAPA at SEAL Team TWO, I had a lot of compassion for the guys struggling with drug and alcohol issues, I always made sure to treat the guys like human beings and showed up to their treatment graduations when I wasn’t on travel. It meant the world to me to see the guys bounce back and continue operating, unfortunately we had a couple who couldnt pull through, its hard man, this video really hit me.
Sorry, what does DAPA stand for? To Chadd, thank you for your honesty, I shed a tear hearing you tell the story of Jake. Life is difficult but you can always show compassion and kindness to the next guy and ask how he is, that is what I’ll take from this video. I would love to hear more stories about him.
@@Automobilianameans drug and alcohol prevention, the alcohol in the teams is really bad having a dapa is a must.
@@Dhdjdjsjdjsjk Sorry to hear that, that there is a need for such a role. But I guess the personel in these teams see things we simple laymen cannot conprehend.
Thank you for this....I have a best friend who is an Army vet and he is a bad alcoholic. I try so hard to help him, and listen to him talk about the people he killed and his nightmares. The worst part is- I have been sober since 2014 and I was in worse shape than he is. I sometimes reach a point where I have to choose me or him because I want to drink so bad just being around him slurring and driving him around smelling the vodka. I swear I try my best but I made my own promises to god and people I love that I WILL NOT BREAK. Hard truth. I will always be there as long as he will talk I will listen. Chad, when you said "He was not a weak man, or a bad man I felt that. This guy would give his shirt or his last dollar, I know because I've known him since day care. I pray for him and he know's I'm always here but I'll be honest, every time I hear a shot late at night I wonder if it was him. It's piss poor how this country throws away it's war fighters. It saddens me beyond words, and then comes the anger. With all the money we waste on people who hate us, can't we spare some for the ones who fight for us?
The "quote" he read is a poem from Rudyard Kipling called "If"
I'm a Toolmaker working 2nd in mostly empty giant factory. I am running a giant 1939 WWII tagged American holewizard radial drill right now listening to this. I about just lost it. Man what a heavy heart.
Sorry for your lose, Jake did a awesome job making you a wonderful man. Very heartbreaking 💔 story🙏
Dude, every five years of my life I evaluate myself and realize what a dumbass I was five years ago. At first this was depressing, until I realized I was growing and improving as a human being. Jake clearly had a lot to do with your growth. Peace and love, brother.
Great talk Chadd. I have a very close friend that suffered a similar fate at the hands of the army. However, he's still with us. Everyone close to him has done their best to help him, and he's doing good. When the army dropped him, it also caused him to lose a job in law enforcement too. It's all he's ever known. I can't imagine what's bouncing around in his head, that's why we've all done as much as we can to support our brother. Thanks Chadd.
Well told story shipmate. Iam a alcoholic, grace of God and a 12 step program, just under 33 years since last drink, it was so flipping hard to stop drinking, the demons were so strong. Bless Jake, and thank you for your service mad respect. Pops' navy Corpsman 1982-1986
Well done shipmate…..I’m not in the Program but have family that is. That’s a commitment to be proud of! Bless you and yours…. 🙏
Just got out of the hospital this past spring after years of drinking winding up in over two years of a gallon a day. Liver started failing and nearly lost my life. Clean today. Good to go.
@@nubbletv3822 Amen
The gates of hell shall not prevail against the church.
The anointing of God breaks every yoke
With God all things are possible..
Jesus said: without me you can do nothing
@@mitchnidey2453 this is true. And being lost is a real issue
I didn’t know Jake but I know and have known many like him. He was a leader. The fact that he took responsibility with you to “pay the man “ and take the “punishment” with you told me everything. You were blessed to have been mentored by such a man, his spirit has affected you forever in the best way possible. Bless up. Thanks for sharing the story, the man.
Chadd, thanks for sharing your’s and Jake’s story. Very powerful. My father was a sergeant and squad leader 1st Marine Division Korean War. I could get him to talk about things he found humorous, like running into General MacArthur, but he would never talk about combat. I remember reading about Col. Chesty Puller driving thru Camp LeJune when he noticed a Lt. and Private standing on the sidewalk with the Private continually saluting the Lt. Chesty pulled over and walked up to the couple. He spoke to the Lt. and said what goes on here old man. The Lt. said, Colonel this Private failed to salute me and as punishment I ordered him to salute me 100 times. Puller responded, quite right, but remember that as a superior officer you are required to return every salute, SO GET CRACKING!
Let the punishment fit the crime.
Goodnight Chesty....... Wherever you are.
Awesome story brother Wright
Brother, first time seeing your channel. And I bawled so hard. Just buried my best friend a little over a year ago. Seems like yesterday, he was put out of the ODA at 7th SFG, for the very same thing. God love you for what youve done and what your doing. Hope you have peace for the rest of your days. My buddy had seen and done some things he couldn't reconcile with. And the same thing happened to him. In the Military if your not 100% your treated like a piece of crap. It's like everything you did and all the sacrifices you'd made, mean nothing anymore. No better way to break a man's spirit. I have a good clue what your living with, I regret decisions to this day.
Nothing but respect for you.
As a Vietnam Vet, I can relate to this--much respect to what you guys do. be strong! and thank you for your service.
These type of people are Very Rare and if you ever have a chance to talk with them it WILL change your life. Sorry to hear about your Brother 🤙
Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you and may Jake, Rest In Peace.
‘If’, is a fantastic word. I’m sorry for your loss.
I was one of Jake’s OIC’s back in 2010. Lots of respect for that young man and thanks for sharing his story.
Man,I'm crying,I love Jake too. What a strong man. I'm sure he would be so proud of you. Wish he were more like you.
Thanks for that honest story. Two weeks out of the police academy my older brother Murdered my father. I was in the house. My training taught me how to enter the room correctly. This was the difference in me living and my brother being neutralized permanently. Because my father was wealthy, my entire family abandoned me and treated me horribly. Totally F'd up. Wanted to end it for a long time. But I had Christ ✝️. Your story really hit my heart. May Jake be in God's huddle. He's now the Lord's beautiful warrior !! Take care !! ⚔️⚔️⚔️
A lot of Operators telling war stories on You Tube. This one is, hands down, the most compelling. Thank you for sharing.
Rest in Peace Jake. Kipling wrote that poem and it has helped me in many times of struggle. Keep growing Chadd. Your honesty and integrity are inspiring to us all.
I can’t imagine the level that you guys operated in. I know that someone who was not there will never know what you’re going through. I am a navy veteran, no combat experience. I was on a ship in the seventies. After the Navy I became a firefighter in a busy department for 36 years. I have had a bit of a hard time since I retired, and have been seeking answers. Something that I know is that it’s impossible to replace the camaraderie and adrenaline of these types of jobs. I think it’s harder for those that loved it. I offer this insight, not to identify with your experience per se, but to maybe put into words what I felt when I watched your video. On my own journey! Thank you for sharing this story of your friend. I know I would have loved him.
My father was an Army Ranger in Vietnam and took his life 30 years later. Best man I have ever met. Rest In Peace to these men who sacrificed so much.
You honored him with this brother! Never forget. As long as his name is spoken, his legacy lives on! Totally here you, and get it. God Bless 👍🇺🇸🙏
Kinda feel your pain, and I appreciate you telling this story. I wasn’t a seal, so my experience may not relate, but I was a Marine who had a roommate kill himself. I never got along with him real well, but he was a decent Marine who had a serious alcohol problem, mostly due to a fucked up child hood. I think about this guy all the time. I really wish the MC was more willing/ able to help him.
This must have been a difficult video for you to make but you did it with honor and respect. Thank you for your service protecting our country. God bless you and help you with all you’ve gone through. Much respect to both you and Jake
Chadd, Thank you for sharing this part of your life and honoring your C-Daddy and friend. It’s easy to understand your heavy heart with that situation. I am forever grateful to men like you who serve and give more than any of us who haven’t served will ever understand. I’m most grateful that you’ve answered the Lord’s call. Your are a blessing, my brother. Keep walking the walk or more accurately, running the run. All in His glory. May the Lord bless you!
I'll just say that this video was truly compelling, albeit, tragic. We, as a society, still have to face many trials that want to un-do us and Jake fell victim to one, or more. Sad to see our heroes leave us in such a manner. RIP, Jake.
Sad story Chad! Im a 54 year old and that drove the tears down my face.,.I wish someone could of helped him with the demons that plaged his warrior spirit!! May he rest in eternal peace!I know this was hard to share with us! But thank you! Most people don't realize the hell you go through...it needs to be understood!
Thanks for this Chadd. Fair winds and following seas Jake. This made me remember “Do not go softly into that Good Night” by Dylan Thomas. I have committed it to memory. Stay the course brother.
If there is a man fitting R. Kipling's "If", quoted in Jake's correspondence, he sure is a US Navy SEAL.
No doubt.
I think you do the right thing sharing your stories, man.
We are all honored to hear them.
Thank you for your honesty.
Perfect! The quotes from Rudyard Kipling's " If". The multiple Bible's. Is a sign of searching through extreme darkness while keeping a smile on your face. Chadd man listening to this made my heart swell up with tears. I have been there. By Divinity I made it out and it bothers me in some way that I made it out and super solid guys like Jake didn't. This backyard conversation is inspiring to me. Truly! God bless Jake and God bless you Chadd.
I go to wipe tears from my eye while I am truly grateful for you sharing this Truth. The will that says HOLD ON. Grace and Mercy.
Chadd,
Thank you for sharing this story about Jake. I was in the Navy as an FMF Corpsman and had a very good friend of mine kill himself. He was not in the military, but I loved him and miss him every day. He drank a lot and used drugs and I'll never understand why he did what he did and I wish I could have stopped him. All I can do is tell others about him and remember the good times that we had together. His name was David "LD" Brewington, from Spartanburg, SC.
I also almost let alcohol get the best of me. I drank a lot during my service. Beer was my drink of choice and I'd have 9-12 beers daily for years, with zero breaks. I started having difficulty breathing and could feel my lungs gurgling, so I researched and found out that I had the early signs and symptoms of Alcohol Induced Congestive Heart Failure. It scared me, so I just quit. No 12 steps or any help. Just suffered on my own for a long time, but I was determined to live. It was definitely one of the hardest things that I ever did. That was 11 and a half years ago. I still miss beer, but I know that one is not enough and I'd be right back at 12 in short order, so I just don't touch alcohol at all.
Thank you again for these videos man.
Take care
Scott
Wow.
That's all I can manage...
Wow.
Peace be with you, Chadd.
Thank you Chadd. Got out of the Marine Corps infantry in 2015, and every time I lose one of my brothers from that company feels like a sledge hammer to my stomach. Seems like they just keep dying too young, whether KIA, suicide, alcohol, or “unexplained” death. I feel your pain, brother. And Jesus Christ is now the only foundation that keeps me standing.
Thank you for sharing. That weight that we carry is called Survivors Guilt. It is real.
You're in my prayers.
Semper Fi.
There is so much I can relate with this video.
I first wanna say sorry to hear about your mentor and thanks for sharing that story. Addiction is a strong demon, its one of those conundrums thats hard to solve.
Secondly, I wanna throw out there that I like listening to your stories, not just yours, but a lot of SEAL’s, for some reason its like therapy and in some small way, I can relate with the struggles that you guys been through.
I too have had trouble with addiction and have had my fair share of time spent in prison and only by the grace of God, I just passed my 15th year home outta prison, clean & sober. Im not saying the time of my sobriety for a “good job” or any other praise, I dont deserve any praise, Im simply doing what I should be doing in the first place, Im bringing that up to say, I can relate with what you said, about if you dont know what its like statement. Yes, for some reason a lot of people frown on different types of addiction and it makes that individual feel even more alone, and in most cases drives that person deeper into their hole. I can also relate with you on regret of not saying or trying to do something sooner as well, my father overdosed a couple years ago on fentanyl and I feel like I should of tried harder, or said something different but I have to trust that God knew my father wasn’t strong enough to get himself together and took him home.
Anyway, I wanted to comment and share how I relate on this video, thanks man.
Good on you bro 🇺🇸
Sorry for your loss brother.
Thank you so much for your service to our country Chadd . I’m sorry for the loss of your mentor. I am so great full for who you are now and what your sharing with us .
Sorry for your loss Man. You did Jake well by extolling his virtues and being honest about his troubles.
You are a Great Man and Person. From one Airborne Veteran to another, thank you for your service to our country.
Be well, be safe and keep the Lord in your heart which I know you will.
Nobody supports anybody. Nobody is there for anybody. "Brother" is nothing more than an affectation; not a reality. We're all so wrapped up in our own egos, vanity, and pride that those who need support will never ask for it, and those who notice someone needing support will never give it.
i'M SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. WE ALL NEED SOMEONE TO LEAN ON KEEP YOUR BRUDAS IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND TRY YOUR BEST TO REACH OUT TO THEM. WE ALL NEED AOMEONE TO TURN TO WHEN WE ARE DOWN OR NEED ADVICE. LOVE YOUR CHANNEL.
Thank you Chadd. I had a friend, a close friend, take his own life several years ago. I am former Army but David wasn't so your thoughts and memories of a friend are near to my heart. Your comment about wishing you were the man then that you are today rings true with me every single day. I appreciate you and what you share with us.
Proper brother, peace b onto u for my freedom and for u opening your heart for us to learn that he will always be with us and love us ,PRAISE UNTO U
Sir, if I may,
That was an amazing moment of honor you shined over Jake and your fellow brothers and sisters everywhere.
Thank you for sharing Jake with us
I am honored to have the opportunity to follow your ways to the best of my abilities.
You’re doing a fine job sir.
HUA 🙏 Sometimes it is the small things that make a HUGE impact. Cheering us from the high ground now.
I read that poem “IF” to my children at least once a week …. In my opinion, one of the greatest poems ever !!! Thank you for all you have done and for what you are still doing !!
Thank you for the stories and the truth. The world needs men like you and Jake. Peace to you Sir
Thank you chadd. It's 3:30 am in florida- I just got back inside from walking my dog on a bathroom break. I was looking for something to watch so i could go back to sleep. I am grateful to Jesus for putting this in front of me. Tears welled up, brother. If I can be worthy enough. We need more Jakes and chadds in this world who want to make others better.
What do you mean when you say "if I can be worthy enough" ?
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The thing that really touched me in the video was the amount of desire from folks like Jake and chadd to become excellent mentors to even correct the small things in others to the point that you lead from ahead but you also lead by walking beside them every step of the way. That to me is a calling. And it's amazing. Wanting nothing more than just the honor and valor of helping someone be their best. Hope that makes sense.
Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. That took a lot from you and this isn't an atta-boy comment, this is a genuine thank you brother. Much love
God bless you Chadd. I have to believe Jake is looking down on you from heaven and smiling. Love you Brother.
My sea dad was Kenneth Richards MM2/SS.
I qualified Submarines under his direct mentorship on 05 March 1995.
Dude, you're a good man. You really put yourself out there.
You are a good dude Chadd. Thank you brother.
Former sailor here, not a seal. Flight deck electrician, 2 west pacs during desert storm and shield. I just wanted to convey my deepest condolences to you Chadd. I'll keep you in my prayers brother. Love your channel
Thanks Chadd for your service,your time, and your story's. Good luck with coping and God Bless.
As someone who never served in the military sometimes i feel like im not worthy of hearing guys like you tell stories like this so i just want to thank you for putting it out there like you did here. RIP Jake
Josh, never feel unworthy, as a Navy vet, i can tell you many of us serve out of duty and love of country. We serve to sustain the country no matter what fake news media may try to sell. Some of us are at liberty to go for it so you will know the facts then be proud not big headed, life is fast show goodness not evil.
@@richd5749 amen shipmate! I’m here for anyone that needs an ear!
Chadd.... With much respect... You will see him again....we pray with you for his soul that he is resting in peace with our Good Lord.
Thank you for for sharing this story.
Love hearing your stories about your experiences, great stuff👍🏻👍🏻🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸
Does Don Shipley know this Chad?
Thank you for sharing this story ! I have a little understanding of that ! My father shared that with me . He was a wonderful man ! Korean war Veteran that battled the demons that came home with him ! When he was 68 years old he finally got some good help with those things he carried. And said it was the best thing for him .He was able to forgive himself !
Such a great yet sad story. I was in the same boat as Jake. I started using drugs and alcohol at 15 years old. I always knew I was gonna join the Army after I graduated HS, 6 days after I did I was in basic training. Got to Fort Stewart right in time to get deployed to Iraq in 2005. Iraq helped me change my life, our CO was just like Jake, we all loved him, same with our 1st Sergeant. After we got back from our deployment we were all loving life. Every Friday our entire company would play flag football, moral was super high. I decided drugs and alcohol were a thing if the past. Then our CO got caught cheating on his wife and was removed from command and placed in administration, I think they called it S1, but I can't quite remember. Then our 1st Sergeant went to an Infantry Company(we were tankers, he was 11b, we were all 19k). That's when things went downhill. Our new CO needed to prove a point or something, he was a total dbag. Our 1st Sergeant was even worse. Long story short, one day I quit caring about my military career and it led me right back down the addiction path. Obviously at the end of the day it is 100% my fault. I actually came forward to my gunner and told I had a drug and alcohol problem and I needed treatment. Instead my CO forced me to take a piss test and gave me an article 15 for using drugs. Then I really quit caring, and 3 months short of my 3 year 6 month contract I got kicked out. I had a gun to my head several times when I was in. I know the exact feeling of being discarded like trash in the military. The only ones who truly cared about me were my 2 closest buddies, one I still talk to every couple month. My other buddy took my spot on my tank after they went back to Ramadi in 2007, he ended up getting killed by a sniper when he was climbing out of the driver's hatch, that was tough news to here. It hurt watching my brothers go to Iraq while I stayed behind and cleaned floors, you feel like the worst person on planet earth.
You've Got A LOT MORE LIFE to LIVE!!
Give your life purpose and meaning.. don't dwell too much on the past. I know very much so (from personal experience) that if I don't control my thoughts and where I go with my thoughts, I could make myself miserable.. all the what-if's and things I wish I had done differently can drive you nuts and drive you to suicide if you allow it to.
My heart is with you and other operators that have experienced things that are worse than hell. I’ve seen death in every way possible but what gets me through is a fierce faith. I’ve made a shit load of mistakes but two things have never left me my faith and my dog. So glad I found your podcast thanks Chadd god be with you .
Man! The fact that he took punishment with you! What a mentor! That hit me hard!
Agree times a thousand. The difference between knowing the path and walking the path. What a stand up guy.
Your perspective was told incredibly, and is much appreciated to let us in on. Thank you.
God Bless America and you & your family...I'm so sorry for your loss and I Love you too Brother
Having spent a considerable time in SOF (SF) I can completely relate to this story. I saw a lot of good guys succumb to a variety of issues to include suicide. You are right on point about the "machine", all of the services being the same. While we are in we like to believe that we are somehow integral to the unit however the truth is that the unit was there before we got there and remains long after we are gone. The beauty of SOF is our individual relationships with teammates that sustain a lifetime and like you I remain in contact with many of mine. As I have told many young people wanting to get into SOF "it is not a job, it is a lifestyle". Being in SOF may not necessarily define us but it definitely imprints upon us and affects us for the rest of our lives. Great video, sorry for your loss but it is an all too frequent story.
The more videos I watch of Chadd, and get to know him through those videos, the more I like and relate with him... Love how he keeps it honest!!!
You told my story brother, I Carried that demon 20 years in my soul it almost destroyed me until one day I was able to let.my friend rest in peace and I found peace.....
Just discovered your videos a few days ago man. I've watched your podcasts on Andy Stumpf and Nick Bare. You've motivated me to get back into working out and strengthening the mind. Thanks for sharing a very personal story. You are helping alot of people with the words you speak.
Brother, I’m just gonna say it - you should preach. DOL
thank you sir. Excellent content!
Heavy, but real and honorable stuff! Thank you Chadd for being the man you are today and Jake, your example and memory live on... We are not always prepared when real life shit happens, and always does, but we are truly blessed and fortunate if we "get it" and grow because of it. And share a brotherly ear, shoulder, and hand to others when possible. Thank you for sharing, Chadd! NEVER FORGET.
Man Chad youve hit a nerve in my soul with your words brother that just moves my spirit, thanks for your dedication to lifting us up truly admire you brother god bless
We ALL should rewind this and listen to the love Jake had and the dedication and honest. He could have let things slide… but i suspect Jake loved those brotherly times with ya…
That story was very heavy Chadd. Those stories need to be told. Thank you telling us his story. Rest easy Jake
Amen.
Sorry to hear about Jake. After I retired from the fire service my marriage fell apart and I went into a deep depression and started drinking. I gave up and didn't care what happened. By the Grace of God I made it through with support of family and friends. I thought about suicide a lot.
Every day is Memorial Day for guys like us.
Very powerful. Great story. God bless you
I am not a soldier, but I can understand the quality of that leadership action. That action would of made me so proud to work with him I would of gone a long way any day.
"Don't be afraid to make mastakes" I Love You Brother. I am Pleased to Hear Your Brother ate His Own Lunch He Made. Men make Men.
Powerful message man, thank you for sharing
It’s important to tell stories like this so that the future generations don’t make the same mistakes
Thanks for sharing and I know Jake knows how you turned out thanks for all you do
Thanks for sharing. Definitely my favorite story of yours. Jake Hubman , what an angel, God rest his soul.