I understand. I never felt loved by my Mom. I had to learn to accept & forgive in order to let that go. Now that I have children, they have no doubt their Momma loves them to the ends of the earth and back.❤
Tearing up hearing when your mom said "This Boy, This Boy" about Erik. Elisa I have to say, once again, you are truly an amazingly forgiving woman and you are so kind to your mother. You are inspiring.
Dearest Elisa and Erik, while you have comments abled I would like to take this opportunity to thank both of you sincerely for all that you both do, of course Jamie is totally amazing and a gorgeous spirit! She has me smiling so often as do the antics of Erik also!! So blessed to have found you all ... Juliet a Hungarian girl living in Melbourne Australia. 🙏🏼🌷🍃🎶🌪❤️❤️❤️
Your mediums just keep getting better and better ❤️ I mean they’re all very good, but this one feels so good, so articulate, so connected. I hope we get to hear her name at the end of the video 😁. Wonderful interview, thank you so much Elisa for sharing your amazing work with the world ❤️.
I’m only half way through this and need to commend you, Elisa, on what an outstanding human being you are. I’m so sorry for what you went through. It’s amazing how composed you are when asking about painful experiences and, so far, especially in not really getting the apology due to you.
What a great interview. Not only did I find Michelle a pure delight, but I was also interested to see how you coped with meeting with your mother again. Id be really interested to know how long it is since your mother passed over, and who passed over first, your mother or your father. It was my mother that we were all scared of, including my Dad who was a fabulous Dad and did as much as he could to protect us from our mother even though he was in the military and was very highly respected by his subordinates as well as those senior to him. Mum made all our lives hell with physical, verbal and emotional abuse right from when we were little. Although I copped most of it, then my next (and middle) sister, but rarely my youngesr sister. She didn't need maids as she had my sisters and me (& my Dad) to do the cleaning and cooking. She basically chose to go out to work so that she had an excuse to have me cook the meals from age 10, and I started doing the housecleaning from very young. My Dad passed over over 33 years ago at age 60 from 6 mònths of hell from lung cancer when he was unhappily married to my step mother, yet my mother was 83 and had seen off 3 husbands by then to pancreatic cancer in 6 weeks from diagnosis and only experienced one night of uncontrolled pain for a few hours before she went into hospital 2 nights before she passed over, and was expected to return home the following morning. I honestly have no idea why some people can treat others in the manner as my mother did, yet seems to have lived such a charmed life in so many ways. She always said that you catch more flies with honey and that's how she lived her life. While others were of use to her, she knew how to give a little honey to receive the whole hive, and still managed to live her life like the queen bee. Even my Dad always called her 'the dutchess' and that was exactly how she expected to be treated, if not, then she demanded it. I had hoped that there would be time for her to apologize before she passed over as we had booked into a resort for 3 days with my 2 sisters and my mother for the weekend following her passing, so i honestly have no idea if she ever realized the cruel impact that she'd had on my life right up until the day after her funeral. Only weeks before she passed over she had done the one and only thing I had begged her not to do and didn't even tell me, so I saw it as the final cruelty towards me and I can honestly say that I have never felt so free and relaxed as I have since then as she not only basically slapped me in the face in her dying days, but she also ensured that there would be an unrepirable rift between my sister and myself even though I still have no idea why they turned their backs on me as in fact, it was me who had been slighted. I even held back on commiting suicide while she was alive as I didn't want to cause her pain, yet in the end it was I who was finally caused the most pain. I still pray every night and regularly during the day not to wake up in the morning, or to get a terminal illness. that will end my life quickly. I even feel envious every time I hear on the news or when speaking with others, that someone has been killed, died or is dying, when I so desperately want it to come to me and these other people not only would have wanted to stay, but would also be missed by immediate family. I also have a fairly rare neuro disease that has caused me to be paralyzed several times during my life and have come close to death a few times already, inc. right from my premi birth, I still can't manage to check out of this lifetime in a natural way! It seems so unfair. I regularly consider suicide now that my mother has gone, but I also know better than to do it now as I am aware that it is not only wrong, but now that I am aware of it, I believe that I would only be building up more lessons for another incarnation as I believe that if we commit suicide while ignorant of the repercussions on the spiritual plane then it isn't considered as bad as if we do it with the knowledge of our obligations or the contract that we have made before incarnating this time around. If only I could discover my mission this time around so that I can complete it and get back home, the happier I will be! Yes, I have friends and family who would be sad, but life goes on and it wouldn't be long before I would be forgotten as that is just the way life is .... and I would finally be with my Dad and my grandmother who I believe loved me as she cared for me during the week days until she was too sick, then she passed over when I was only 3. I am not in the least interested in meeting up with my mother again, but I guess I will have to if what I understand about the afterlife is correct. I am fine when I don't think of my mother but when memories crop up which they often do considering she was 83 when she passed only 5 years ago, but when they do the hurt is there all over again. I realize that i must have contracted to experience this lifetime with her as my parent, but I pray to God that I didn't have to do this with her to understand how badly I treated her in another life as I'd hate to think that I could have caused one person all the pain that she caused to me for 61 years ... and I continue to allow those memories to cause me whenever I think of her even 5 years later. I honestly don't know why I am writing all this as i doubt that anyone will read it, let alone be able to give me the answers I am seeking. Maybe the only way I will get to return home is to finally work my way through this pain, but I have a feeling that it may take longer than this lifetime. I have never felt that I belonged on this earth anyway and that is going back to at least age 7 or so. I can't remember much before that though except being the ally that my Dad deserved, and knew I would be when it came to standing up for him with regards to my mother. He always knew that I would be there for him, no matter what. Should anyone happen to read this, and should you have any insight that you may feel could be helpful to me, i would be grateful for your input. Thanks ... and again, I am sorry for the length of it but this channel seems to have opened up some wounds that I thought had come close to healing over, but I guess I was wrong.
@@wendyfay16 The compassionate people on this thread will probably read all of your words. You are on the right track with your reasoning about why you may have chosen this mother. But do not dwell in it. Claim the joy you deserve. These years can be your best years. Find what you truly love - and do these things!
I have read your full post &wendymaxwell and I can relate to most of it as my Mother was evil personified to me and not my siblings. I am not here to speak about my situation but I do believe when your Mother doesn’t nurture you the way she is meant to it leaves us with many issues of low self worth. Please don’t commit suicide by doing that you are letting her win. You try life your best life now she is no longer in the earth plane with her toxic behaviour. Kind Regards. ❤
This medium is fabulous. Very down to earth, very real. So connected to spirit. I am so drawn to her energy. Elisa...you are very kind. Thank you for these videos. They are a lifeline to many of us.
Thank you, thank you, thank you so very much Elisa! (And Erik and Michelle😊) My childhood was very abusive and hearing these interviews is eye opening. I'm so happy that I found your channel in June of this year. It has helped me in my healing knowing that I planned my life before I was born. 😊💜💜
I was very abused by my dad.I would be very afarid of him even on the other side.I have seen him several times since he passed at my house. I have forgiven him (took a lot of prayer) and I haven't seen him in years.
I think this might be one of my favorite videos so far on this channel! I love Michelle! Elisa is so fortunate to have found this pathway to healing which in turn has helped to heal so many of us. I've learned so much from channelingerik that I never would have known if TH-cam didn't exist. I'm so grateful for this. Thank you Elisa and Michelle and all the mediums Elisa has had on here. I feel so enlightened and for that I will always have gratitude!
Thank you Elisa for sharing your experiences with everyone. Sending you all our love from down under. And thank you Erik for sending us messages on what life is on the other side.
This was one of my favorite interviews ever on CE! Michelle is such a gifted clear channel. Thank you for bringing her on board. Just sooo amazing. Thank you for this great message.
I loved this interview Elisa, I can feel the love you have for your Mum and her for you. I was worried it would bring up more painful moments for you but instead it helped to heal and get some other perspective. It was great to hear all your mums good qualities not just the negative, she sounded like a great doctor and that she is still helping on the other side now.
im sure it still affects her s it does for anyone thats went through it you can forgive it but the memories never go away. ELisa understands soul contracts too as well as free will im not sure how much free wil and soul contracts determine things i men the free will to what extent? not sure how much is set by soul contract.
I feel connected to CE. I lost my son, Chase. He had just turned 22. August 8th was a year. It has only gotten worse as time has passed. I miss him more and more each day.
This was so amazing!! Thank you so much Elisa for sharing what must have been some very painful times in your life. Your mother was very honest in her answers, it has given me so much to think about. Love your new medium, thank you Erik love you 💞💕
Erik has helped me so much and I believe that this session could help my mother who dealt with an abusive mother. Thank you so much for your wonderful videos of Erick’s visits and important information and help guiding others to come forward. He is truly a wonderful and beautiful soul and energy. Thank you so much and thank you so much Erik.
You are amazing Elisa and I am inspired by your strength and wisdom and your determination and optimism. You have a great personality and I enjoy all of your videos. You are a wonderful person and a terrific mom.
"Catalyst for others' lives".........................................That nugget right there says it ALL. Thank you, thank you, Elise (& Mom) & Erik, for this. This subject rings too true for me & that which I quoted confirmed what I've told myself about my situation. Love & light to you
I often wonder how profoundly child abuse effects people because my parents were a little rough with me but never to the extent like in Elisa case and many others. I was spanked here and there and some hurtful instances has happened were I felt betrayed or thrown under the bus and I still think about it. It's amazing just how different each journey for each person is in this tiny planet.
Rick Rouse It affects every second of every minute of every hour of every day of your life. At some point you decide that it will no longer affect you in a negative way, but in a positive one. Then you decide that every second, minute, hour...
that's true and many of the effects you're not even aware of because it has become so ingrained in your personality. I've heard many horror cases of extreme abuse and I'm left wondering how some people come out of it as saints and others as monsters. The only explanation of how some people come out of abuse with good hearts intact has to be the indominable divine spirit in each of us. Were else is there a source of love, a sense of the good and beautiful if all you were thought as a child is hatred and cruelty. That's a question materialist atheist need to answer but I'm sure they have a glib handwaving answer as they usually do to all the hard questions of life and suffering.
Yes, there is something divine in all of us, be it a spark or fire, that keeps us sometimes just warm enough in what can be a bitterly cold world. I struggle every day to find the balance between saint and monster. I don't think anyone comes out one or the other. I can see both in everyone. It is a blessing because I choose to see it as one. It helps me to forgive myself and others, especially when an apology will never be offered.
The medium is really good! I enjoyed this interview very much. Thank you Elisa! I have also lots of complaints about my deceased parents but I met hundreds of people in the world whose parents are really really horrible. After having met those people, I truly thankful to my parents. Most tyrant to parents are children because we want parents to be parents (as perfection) and don't want them to be human or allow them to be human. I think my children also look at me as "Mum" not as a human.
Great interview! You did so good with such a sensitive subject matter. And no interruptingWhich I still feel bad for commenting on last time LOL thank you for sharing something so personal.
Trixie Biggs I know it's hard to ignore the hateful comments. She's just trying to stir things up. Evidently she needs some attention. Don't give her any.
Lol, interesting..... I think we know that how we perceived and understand the world is based on how we see ourselves. As you can see, some people find it annoying, while some doesn’t. It’s just down to how they’re feeling about themselves at the moment. While most loving and understanding people would tends to overlook such thing. I’m sure we all been there when we find every little things annoying. So please forgive them.
Elisa, Thank you so very much for sharing this and the story of your abuse history. Also, thank you for allowing us to share in this beautiful healing experience with you and your mom. As I have mentioned before in previous comments that I have made, I feel a particular sisterhood with you as a fellow/sister survivor of SEVERE abuse. It would be wonderful, if you could do a series with Erik that focuses on mental illness and the millions of questions surrounding it. What can we do during our earthly journey to overcome the damages brought forth after surviving a parent with severe mental illness? When a mentally ill soul crosses, do they hold onto their narcissistic personality as part of who they are as a soul? Do they ever feel remorse for the harm that they have caused? These are only some of the many questions that I have, but I am sure that there are others just like ourselves, that have many more questions regarding this matter that would love to have Erik answer their questions, if he is willing to do so. Again, thank you for sharing yourself and your story with us, and for allowing us to accompany you on your journey of healing. I feel honored and blessed to be a part of this community and the spiritual growth and development that comes with it. You are an extremely brave soul for sticking your neck out the way that you do, especially, with there being so many out there that say cruel and malicious things regarding what you are doing. Please, always know in your heart that you are helping millions with what you and Erik are doing. As difficult as it may seem at times, I pray that you will hold the truth in your heart, that together you and Erik are changing lives for the better and the work that you are doing is NOT taken for granted. I personally would like to thank you for the difference that you and Erik have made in my life. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Sending much love, light and an abundance of beautiful blessings to you and this wonderful loving community. Namaste 💕
Elisa, I also want to commend you for your strength and for the amazing work you do. Cream always rises to the top, and you are a beautiful example of that.
You probably suffered more abuse than many of us. Its astounding how well that you pulled through it all, many of us didn't do as well. I'm proud of you and Erik also. I'm very happy that you've found forgivness in your heart for your parents and that you understand why these things happened. I'm also very happy that your mother is helping other's who may end up in similar circumstances. Look how far you've come in spite of all of the hardships, you became a successful Dr. Aileen Wournos grew up in a tragic situation and became a serial killer and was executed. Have you thought about interviewing her, if so that would be interesting to know why she choose that life. Thank you for all that you do.
For PTSD book Elisa is talking about. The Body Keeps the Score: Mind, Brain and Body in the Transformation of Trauma24 Sep 2015 by Bessel van der Kolk There is also a summary one too for 2016
Elisa, thank you for your continued work. I stepped away from you and Erik a few months ago after a bad experience with one of your mediums. The mini reading felt so fake and contrived. I was very disappointed, not in you, but her. Y'all popped back in my head the other day so I thought I'd check in on your uploads. This is the first one I clicked on and it hit home for me. As always bless you and your family and thanks again for all you do!
I'm watching the vid again because I really love the interview!!! I feel so close to you, Elisa when parents come to the view...! I laughed when you said "I forgive you mom"
Emotional and psychological abuse often is not able to be addressed at this time because it is so subversive and "not seen" or acknowledged by society at large. It shuns and separates and crushes spirits regularly.
Elisa, when you say that your father really knew how to hurt people, I heard, "hurt people hurt people". It is something I have seen with my own parents and knowing that helps me forgive them every time I have to. It helps me understand myself also. Just had to share what I heard.
I can understand about your mom being so depressed that she wanted to go back home by ending her life. Lately, I've been feeling the same way. I'm going blind and the thought of living the rest of my life blind frightens me. To become blind at 48 possibly burdening my family to help take of me is not the way I want to live the rest of this lifetime.
Craig Smith 😧 I feel so bad for you. Please don't do that! There could be a great lesson in it for you that is impossible to understand now. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel. I'm sure your family still needs you! God Bless You, I'll be praying for you.💟💙
Spiritual meaning of eye issue is indicate that you’re having difficulty seeing into the future, you see no joy, no future. Eye: Represents the capacity to see clearly past, present, future. - Astigmatism: “I” trouble. Fear of really seeing the self. - Hyperopia: Fear of the present. - Myopia: Fear of the future. Use positive affirmation, such as “I choose to see everyone and everything with joy and love.” You can heal your life with positive thought. Try Louise Hay’s book. You already bought a train ticket, best to make the most of it. Afterlife will come eventually. Might as well finished what you’re here for. Good luck sir! ❤️
I stayed away from "Channeling Erik" for quite some time because I wasn't at all interested in deceased Celebrities. I was more interested in regular people and their thoughts and questions to their deceased loved ones. So this one pleased me so much that Elisa also had problems and wondering about your parents attitude and expressions as parents. This kind of interview is much more meaningful for me than celebrities who had very special lives and environments and also mentalities. Thank you again for the very interesting interview!!! Thank you also you changed the loud ending music that even my dogs got shocked to softer one!
I WISH her mother had re-affirmed, how much she loves Elisa, that she's there often watching over her, that even because due to her own problems she couldn't express this, or express it enough, or be a loving mom to her, it was always there, but she was too 'ill' to express/show it. I know I'm rambling. But she's not blocked now, that she's wrapping her arms around Elisa , holding her close, soothing her, filling her with over flowing love. I believe Elisa needed that. I somehow hope she got that.
This has helped me to learn/remember that forgiveness is so much easier when we understand the why of what we have gone through, the lesons we signed up for, so thank for thank....~~~Peace~~~
thank you so much for this and i have the book the body keeps score it is incredible. i have it on audio but i just had to get it in paperback because i just wanted it in my hands it helped me so much with my childhood stuff. but this video has also helped tremendously.. thank you.
Just finished watching the video about what happened to Maddie McCann, and the info corresponds well with the recent channeling from Amanda Ellis. So, thank you for putting this out there. One suggestion when waiting for the answers to come from the channel, and I have done this myself. I've observed that you often interrupt just as the channel is about to add some more details to the answer for the question just asked. A channel often has to pause and tune in to receive the answers, and it would be good to give the quiet space to pick up the answers without being interrupted with a different question before they've finished answering the previous question, or interrupted with unnecessary comments that pull on their focus. And, if you could be patient a little longer, I suspect some things would be answered without having to ask a separate question.
Great interview as always! Elisa I admire you for being such a strong person. Takes a lot to forgive! Question for Erik do you come to prank also ppl who put negative comments or dislikes on videos? God knows I got pranked few times and I"m on your good side lol. LOVE YOU ERIK!!!
I enjoy all your videos, and your Son Eric is so sweet in the afterlife. Thank you for sharing such a Personal video about your Mom and Dad. This had to hurt, and I'm so Sorry. This Medium is great, she feels like she is getting so many messages. Thanks for Sharing this. My Grief is still overwhelming as I lost my Mother 9 years ago. It was not to suicide, but to chemo. Chemo killed her and took her from me. She And I were very close. I lost the rest of my Family At A Young Age. I so Miss My Mom. She was All I Had. Thanks for Sharing this. ❤
#ChannelingErik @ Elisa, very good personal video w/ positive insight. How 'freeing' it must be. TY for sharing. • I'd love to be able to resolve some things w/ My late Mother.. I'm sure I will when I pass.
My mother viciously abused me and encouraged others to abuse me for her whole long life from literally when I was born - I still have the scars. I was very fucked up for a very long time. My lesson has been all about learning to love and support myself and eventually, I imagine, to BE loved by someone else too - I hope. We will do anything but love ourselves. We want someone else to do it but I gave myself to God a long time ago and he forced me to be on my own. No. Seriously. He forced me. Only HE could have arranged it. I was terrified but I came through so strong it was unbelievable. Self love is THE most wonderful and grounding thing anyone can experience, you are rock solid and no one can hurt you any more. It's true. However, for much of my life I did a lot of things to hurt myself, not having the faintest inkling of what it meant to love myself. People would tell me I didn't love myself but I didn't know what they meant, I had no understanding even though I was intelligent and studied etc etc, I simply had NO concept of self love. It starts, by knowing that you have a right to walk away from pain. You don't know that as abused child, you just stand there and take it. If you have PTSD like I did, you will actually put yourself into incredibly dangerous situations to save other people but you will not look after yourself. I am in a wonderfully healed state now in comparison to what I was as a young person. Perhaps there's more to learn, I don't know, but I am stronger and more grounded than most people. I like that saying 'Religion is for people who are afraid of going to Hell. Spirituality is for people who've already been there.' I have been there, my mother personally ensured that I was there. I am a genuine Christian (not a religious person) and He will bring you through although it's a long slow process. The damage can be so bad that your whole construct of life is completely warped - and you don't know, although others can see it. My mother came to me in a dream after she died and also a few times when I was awake; the love knocked me over it was so strong. She said "You don't know what I was carrying." She has NEVER said sorry and if you mentioned abuse of anyone when she was alive, she would laugh. She was sadistic. In the dream, she said (not in words because everything was telepathic) that it was amazing on the other side and it's close, very close. She said 'You are NEVER going to believe this'. She was telling me that there IS another side, after death. She looked young (between 25 and 35), very happy and she was learning some kind of language, she was working with symbols I had never seen before. She showed me where she was and what she was doing. Everything seemed to be built of stone and it was solid, very permanent feeling and there was a huge like town hall in front of us but we were up on top of a building on a beautiful open sort of walkway with benches on top of this building. She was not in a high spiritual place but she was going to progress and she was very, very happy. She was not with my Father which was interesting, she was alone. They did not split up in real life. My father passed on some years before her. He also came to me. He looked at me in a dream very, very close to my face and said "I am SOOOO sorry that I made it harder for you." It's going to be wonderful on the other side. I can hardly wait. I love both my parents although I will never understand what my mother did to me.
I have been watching your videos. I’m so happy that you can connect with him. By the way, I tried to go to the blogs but it wouldn’t work. I wanted to comment about his fertility advice and say thank you. ❤️ god bless you mama
I had an alcoholic mother who bullied me horribly much more than my siblings. My father protected me as best he could but when he passed, she became even worse towards me going so far as to tell social workers lies about my own parenting. It led to me losing custody of my kids and all contact with them so today I have no contact with her.
I absoulty love u Elise! my mom had also mentally n emotionally abusive to me too... I am wit u girl.. I wish i can get a reading of my mother as well.... I love u Elise! all the way from San Jose, Ca.
I’ve been asking for sometime, I don’t know how to get ahold of her like though email, so I keep putting this on these interviews, I hope she eventually sees it :)
Maybe if we all send messages, maybe she, or Erik will see the messages, and have a nice long conversation with the DeFeo family, what do you think, want to help me out??
When you die, you wake up from a dream & this life is what feels unreal
The beautiful thing is that you became the ultimate mother. Love you, Elisa.
Is Erik a son that Elisa lost?
I understand. I never felt loved by my Mom. I had to learn to accept & forgive in order to let that go. Now that I have children, they have no doubt their Momma loves them to the ends of the earth and back.❤
Tearing up hearing when your mom said "This Boy, This Boy" about Erik. Elisa I have to say, once again, you are truly an amazingly forgiving woman and you are so kind to your mother. You are inspiring.
Bless you Elisa. I admire you in so many ways. Love how you keep it real.
Dearest Elisa and Erik, while you have comments abled I would like to take this opportunity to thank both of you sincerely for all that you both do, of course Jamie is totally amazing and a gorgeous spirit! She has me smiling so often as do the antics of Erik also!! So blessed to have found you all ... Juliet a Hungarian girl living in Melbourne Australia. 🙏🏼🌷🍃🎶🌪❤️❤️❤️
Your mediums just keep getting better and better ❤️ I mean they’re all very good, but this one feels so good, so articulate, so connected. I hope we get to hear her name at the end of the video 😁. Wonderful interview, thank you so much Elisa for sharing your amazing work with the world ❤️.
Got it! It’s Michelle, and her site is www.thehealingh-art.com
I’m only half way through this and need to commend you, Elisa, on what an outstanding human being you are. I’m so sorry for what you went through. It’s amazing how composed you are when asking about painful experiences and, so far, especially in not really getting the apology due to you.
Agree....Elisa is a great example of grace
What a great interview. Not only did I find Michelle a pure delight, but I was also interested to see how you coped with meeting with your mother again. Id be really interested to know how long it is since your mother passed over, and who passed over first, your mother or your father. It was my mother that we were all scared of, including my Dad who was a fabulous Dad and did as much as he could to protect us from our mother even though he was in the military and was very highly respected by his subordinates as well as those senior to him. Mum made all our lives hell with physical, verbal and emotional abuse right from when we were little. Although I copped most of it, then my next (and middle) sister, but rarely my youngesr sister. She didn't need maids as she had my sisters and me (& my Dad) to do the cleaning and cooking. She basically chose to go out to work so that she had an excuse to have me cook the meals from age 10, and I started doing the housecleaning from very young. My Dad passed over over 33 years ago at age 60 from 6 mònths of hell from lung cancer when he was unhappily married to my step mother, yet my mother was 83 and had seen off 3 husbands by then to pancreatic cancer in 6 weeks from diagnosis and only experienced one night of uncontrolled pain for a few hours before she went into hospital 2 nights before she passed over, and was expected to return home the following morning. I honestly have no idea why some people can treat others in the manner as my mother did, yet seems to have lived such a charmed life in so many ways. She always said that you catch more flies with honey and that's how she lived her life. While others were of use to her, she knew how to give a little honey to receive the whole hive, and still managed to live her life like the queen bee. Even my Dad always called her 'the dutchess' and that was exactly how she expected to be treated, if not, then she demanded it. I had hoped that there would be time for her to apologize before she passed over as we had booked into a resort for 3 days with my 2 sisters and my mother for the weekend following her passing, so i honestly have no idea if she ever realized the cruel impact that she'd had on my life right up until the day after her funeral. Only weeks before she passed over she had done the one and only thing I had begged her not to do and didn't even tell me, so I saw it as the final cruelty towards me and I can honestly say that I have never felt so free and relaxed as I have since then as she not only basically slapped me in the face in her dying days, but she also ensured that there would be an unrepirable rift between my sister and myself even though I still have no idea why they turned their backs on me as in fact, it was me who had been slighted. I even held back on commiting suicide while she was alive as I didn't want to cause her pain, yet in the end it was I who was finally caused the most pain. I still pray every night and regularly during the day not to wake up in the morning, or to get a terminal illness. that will end my life quickly. I even feel envious every time I hear on the news or when speaking with others, that someone has been killed, died or is dying, when I so desperately want it to come to me and these other people not only would have wanted to stay, but would also be missed by immediate family. I also have a fairly rare neuro disease that has caused me to be paralyzed several times during my life and have come close to death a few times already, inc. right from my premi birth, I still can't manage to check out of this lifetime in a natural way! It seems so unfair. I regularly consider suicide now that my mother has gone, but I also know better than to do it now as I am aware that it is not only wrong, but now that I am aware of it, I believe that I would only be building up more lessons for another incarnation as I believe that if we commit suicide while ignorant of the repercussions on the spiritual plane then it isn't considered as bad as if we do it with the knowledge of our obligations or the contract that we have made before incarnating this time around. If only I could discover my mission this time around so that I can complete it and get back home, the happier I will be! Yes, I have friends and family who would be sad, but life goes on and it wouldn't be long before I would be forgotten as that is just the way life is .... and I would finally be with my Dad and my grandmother who I believe loved me as she cared for me during the week days until she was too sick, then she passed over when I was only 3. I am not in the least interested in meeting up with my mother again, but I guess I will have to if what I understand about the afterlife is correct. I am fine when I don't think of my mother but when memories crop up which they often do considering she was 83 when she passed only 5 years ago, but when they do the hurt is there all over again. I realize that i must have contracted to experience this lifetime with her as my parent, but I pray to God that I didn't have to do this with her to understand how badly I treated her in another life as I'd hate to think that I could have caused one person all the pain that she caused to me for 61 years ... and I continue to allow those memories to cause me whenever I think of her even 5 years later. I honestly don't know why I am writing all this as i doubt that anyone will read it, let alone be able to give me the answers I am seeking. Maybe the only way I will get to return home is to finally work my way through this pain, but I have a feeling that it may take longer than this lifetime. I have never felt that I belonged on this earth anyway and that is going back to at least age 7 or so. I can't remember much before that though except being the ally that my Dad deserved, and knew I would be when it came to standing up for him with regards to my mother. He always knew that I would be there for him, no matter what.
Should anyone happen to read this, and should you have any insight that you may feel could be helpful to me, i would be grateful for your input. Thanks ... and again, I am sorry for the length of it but this channel seems to have opened up some wounds that I thought had come close to healing over, but I guess I was wrong.
@@wendyfay16 I read it and I understand your pain. ❤
I wish you healing, love and light from our eternal God.
@@wendyfay16 The compassionate people on this thread will probably read all of your words.
You are on the right track with your reasoning about why you may have chosen this mother. But do not dwell in it. Claim the joy you deserve. These years can be your best years. Find what you truly love - and do these things!
I have read your full post &wendymaxwell and I can relate to most of it as my Mother was evil personified to me and not my siblings. I am not here to speak about my situation but I do believe when your Mother doesn’t nurture you the way she is meant to it leaves us with many issues of low self worth. Please don’t commit suicide by doing that you are letting her win. You try life your best life now she is no longer in the earth plane with her toxic behaviour. Kind Regards. ❤
This medium is fabulous. Very down to earth, very real. So connected to spirit. I am so drawn to her energy. Elisa...you are very kind. Thank you for these videos. They are a lifeline to many of us.
Thanks to you and Erik and all the mediums for all yall do 😊😊
Yes, she's fabulous!
Was impressed with this medium. Seems very down to earth & authentic.
Thank you, thank you, thank you so very much Elisa! (And Erik and Michelle😊)
My childhood was very abusive and hearing these interviews is eye opening. I'm so happy that I found your channel in June of this year. It has helped me in my healing knowing that I planned my life before I was born.
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I doubt u planned on being abused
I was very abused by my dad.I would be very afarid of him even on the other side.I have seen him several times since he passed at my house. I have forgiven him (took a lot of prayer) and I haven't seen him in years.
I think this might be one of my favorite videos so far on this channel! I love Michelle! Elisa is so fortunate to have found this pathway to healing which in turn has helped to heal so many of us. I've learned so much from channelingerik that I never would have known if TH-cam didn't exist. I'm so grateful for this. Thank you Elisa and Michelle and all the mediums Elisa has had on here. I feel so enlightened and for that I will always have gratitude!
What a beautiful interview 💞 I had tears at the end😥 Thank you all for being present so we could share in the experience ❤️
Thank you Elisa for sharing your experiences with everyone. Sending you all our love from down under. And thank you Erik for sending us messages on what life is on the other side.
I love your videos Erik!! And your mom is so fantastic! Thank you so much for all your insight and help on and beyond Earth!
This was beautiful. I fully enjoyed this conversation. Thank you so very much. 💜🌷🌈
This was one of my favorite interviews ever on CE! Michelle is such a gifted clear channel. Thank you for bringing her on board. Just sooo amazing. Thank you for this great message.
Your love for your mother tells me what kind of beautiful heart you have Elise. Thank you for sharing.
I loved this interview Elisa, I can feel the love you have for your Mum and her for you. I was worried it would bring up more painful moments for you but instead it helped to heal and get some other perspective. It was great to hear all your mums good qualities not just the negative, she sounded like a great doctor and that she is still helping on the other side now.
im sure it still affects her s it does for anyone thats went through it you can forgive it but the memories never go away. ELisa understands soul contracts too as well as free will im not sure how much free wil and soul contracts determine things i men the free will to what extent? not sure how much is set by soul contract.
I feel connected to CE. I lost my son, Chase. He had just turned 22. August 8th was a year. It has only gotten worse as time has passed. I miss him more and more each day.
Prayers for you.
Maybe you could have a session with a medium. It helped me tremendously! I'm so sorry for your loss💟
lacquer isma Thank you
kiela17 And thank you for your concern. 💌
ashely baldwin . I lost my 20 year old son in August 2 years ago. I want you to know that it does get better.
This was so amazing!! Thank you so much Elisa for sharing what must have been some very painful times in your life. Your mother was very honest in her answers, it has given me so much to think about. Love your new medium, thank you Erik love you 💞💕
Thank-you soooooo much Elisa. This medium is quite lovely. Thank-you Erik and blessings to all.
Love this medium
Veronica Drake you're pretty awesome yourself Veronica! You're actually one of my favorites😄 Sending you love and light.
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Veronica I agree with you BUT you are great yourself. Love your videos!!!
Veronica Drake, love you 💚💚💚
You are one of my favorites Veronica.
That was very helpful! Dealing with overbearing men and people taught me that forgiveness is a daily thing. Thank you both. 💘 to ❤.
Erik has helped me so much and I believe that this session could help my mother who dealt with an abusive mother. Thank you so much for your wonderful videos of Erick’s visits and important information and help guiding others to come forward. He is truly a wonderful and beautiful soul and energy. Thank you so much and thank you so much Erik.
Thank you Elisa for sharing a very personal part of your life with us. You are loved!
You are amazing Elisa and I am inspired by your strength and wisdom and your determination and optimism. You have a great personality and I enjoy all of your videos. You are a wonderful person and a terrific mom.
This was a fabulous session! Thank you, for sharing with us. Hugs! xoxo
"Catalyst for others' lives".........................................That nugget right there says it ALL. Thank you, thank you, Elise (& Mom) & Erik, for this. This subject rings too true for me & that which I quoted confirmed what I've told myself about my situation. Love & light to you
I often wonder how profoundly child abuse effects people because my parents were a little rough with me but never to the extent like in Elisa case and many others. I was spanked here and there and some hurtful instances has happened were I felt betrayed or thrown under the bus and I still think about it. It's amazing just how different each journey for each person is in this tiny planet.
Rick Rouse It affects every second of every minute of every hour of every day of your life. At some point you decide that it will no longer affect you in a negative way, but in a positive one. Then you decide that every second, minute, hour...
that's true and many of the effects you're not even aware of because it has become so ingrained in your personality. I've heard many horror cases of extreme abuse and I'm left wondering how some people come out of it as saints and others as monsters. The only explanation of how some people come out of abuse with good hearts intact has to be the indominable divine spirit in each of us. Were else is there a source of love, a sense of the good and beautiful if all you were thought as a child is hatred and cruelty. That's a question materialist atheist need to answer but I'm sure they have a glib handwaving answer as they usually do to all the hard questions of life and suffering.
Yes, there is something divine in all of us, be it a spark or fire, that keeps us sometimes just warm enough in what can be a bitterly cold world. I struggle every day to find the balance between saint and monster. I don't think anyone comes out one or the other. I can see both in everyone. It is a blessing because I choose to see it as one. It helps me to forgive myself and others, especially when an apology will never be offered.
The medium is really good! I enjoyed this interview very much. Thank you Elisa! I have also lots of complaints about my deceased parents but I met hundreds of people in the world whose parents are really really horrible. After having met those people, I truly thankful to my parents. Most tyrant to parents are children because we want parents to be parents (as perfection) and don't want them to be human or allow them to be human. I think my children also look at me as "Mum" not as a human.
Saveurital I agree with everything you said ♥️ I think this is one of the best mediums I've seen on here
This was one of my favorite interviews. Thanks to all.
Do you have to see your abusive parents after? My parents were extremely abusive. They have died recently. I don’t want to see them when I die.
Great interview! You did so good with such a sensitive subject matter. And no interruptingWhich I still feel bad for commenting on last time LOL thank you for sharing something so personal.
jojo bean I didn't, so you're wrong. ✌
jojo bean Speak for yourself.
jojo bean mean words again. Can't you stop? Really, you can't?
Trixie Biggs I know it's hard to ignore the hateful comments. She's just trying to stir things up. Evidently she needs some attention. Don't give her any.
Lol, interesting..... I think we know that how we perceived and understand the world is based on how we see ourselves. As you can see, some people find it annoying, while some doesn’t. It’s just down to how they’re feeling about themselves at the moment. While most loving and understanding people would tends to overlook such thing. I’m sure we all been there when we find every little things annoying. So please forgive them.
Hi Elisa! Thank you for this! My mom is the SAME! I’m so grateful you shared your own experience with us because we learn so much from it too. 😘
Thankyou for a wonderfull wonderfull visit...I always always learns from your Channeling with Erik.xxx😍😍
Thank you for this interview! Michele is great! Thank you Elisa!
Elisa,
Thank you so very much for sharing this and the story of your abuse history. Also, thank you for allowing us to share in this beautiful healing experience with you and your mom. As I have mentioned before in previous comments that I have made, I feel a particular sisterhood with you as a fellow/sister survivor of SEVERE abuse. It would be wonderful, if you could do a series with Erik that focuses on mental illness and the millions of questions surrounding it. What can we do during our earthly journey to overcome the damages brought forth after surviving a parent with severe mental illness? When a mentally ill soul crosses, do they hold onto their narcissistic personality as part of who they are as a soul? Do they ever feel remorse for the harm that they have caused? These are only some of the many questions that I have, but I am sure that there are others just like ourselves, that have many more questions regarding this matter that would love to have Erik answer their questions, if he is willing to do so. Again, thank you for sharing yourself and your story with us, and for allowing us to accompany you on your journey of healing. I feel honored and blessed to be a part of this community and the spiritual growth and development that comes with it. You are an extremely brave soul for sticking your neck out the way that you do, especially, with there being so many out there that say cruel and malicious things regarding what you are doing. Please, always know in your heart that you are helping millions with what you and Erik are doing. As difficult as it may seem at times, I pray that you will hold the truth in your heart, that together you and Erik are changing lives for the better and the work that you are doing is NOT taken for granted. I personally would like to thank you for the difference that you and Erik have made in my life. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Sending much love, light and an abundance of beautiful blessings to you and this wonderful loving community.
Namaste 💕
You are such a strong, loving and forgiving person. You took all those bad things and grew into more love from it all.
What a mind blowing interview but we have to love everyone unconditionally, thank you Elisa for sharing this with us your loyal listeners : )
I agree. Difficult, but let’s at least try ❤️
HELLO everyone how are you all everyone seems to love this medium! She is amazing!
Tammy Wallace , she is good I just prefer Jaime nothing against Michelle just Jaime captures Erik better
I loved this. I could see the healing you got from this at the end, so beautiful
I just wanted to say thank you sending you my love xoxo
My daughter Zoe passed away when she was a baby your videos give me peace.
Thank you, Dr. Medhus, for sharing this.
This was so healing. I'm really grateful.
I hope to be able to make peace with my abusive mother someday in the afterlife
Elisa, I also want to commend you for your strength and for the amazing work you do. Cream always rises to the top, and you are a beautiful example of that.
Awesome!! Thank you all!! Great interview 💜💜
You probably suffered more abuse than many of us. Its astounding how well that you pulled through it all, many of us didn't do as well. I'm proud of you and Erik also. I'm very happy that you've found forgivness in your heart for your parents and that you understand why these things happened. I'm also very happy that your mother is helping other's who may end up in similar circumstances.
Look how far you've come in spite of all of the hardships, you became a successful Dr.
Aileen Wournos grew up in a tragic situation and became a serial killer and was executed.
Have you thought about interviewing her, if so that would be interesting to know why she choose that life.
Thank you for all that you do.
For PTSD book Elisa is talking about.
The Body Keeps the Score: Mind, Brain and Body in the Transformation of Trauma24 Sep 2015
by Bessel van der Kolk
There is also a summary one too for 2016
Elisa, thank you for your continued work. I stepped away from you and Erik a few months ago after a bad experience with one of your mediums. The mini reading felt so fake and contrived. I was very disappointed, not in you, but her. Y'all popped back in my head the other day so I thought I'd check in on your uploads. This is the first one I clicked on and it hit home for me.
As always bless you and your family and thanks again for all you do!
I like this medium!
Amazing video! Very brave of Mama Medhus to publicly interview her mother. Thank you!
Very profound messages and meaning for me in this video. Lots of wisdom there. Hugs to all involved in this video, you are my tribe.
Beautiful lady Elisa. I hope I have your strength, love and ability to forgive when I need it
I'm watching the vid again because I really love the interview!!! I feel so close to you, Elisa when parents come to the view...! I laughed when you said "I forgive you mom"
My mother was abusive, didn't care for me or left me any money when she died.
I'm sorry for what you been through.
Emotional and psychological abuse often is not able to be addressed at this time because it is so subversive and "not seen" or acknowledged by society at large. It shuns and separates and crushes spirits regularly.
thank you I really appreciate this video 💚💚💚💚💚💚
I so enjoyed this interview, I totally felt the love. Thank you Elise, Elise’s mom, Michelle and Erik!
When Elisa greeted her mom..my tears just run our of my eyes...Hi Mom.I love you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Elisa, when you say that your father really knew how to hurt people, I heard, "hurt people hurt people". It is something I have seen with my own parents and knowing that helps me forgive them every time I have to. It helps me understand myself also. Just had to share what I heard.
Really beautiful interview💖
Simply beautiful ❤
Great job Michelle❤️✌🏼
Having had an abusive persom in my life
i put off listening to this unti now
I can understand about your mom being so depressed that she wanted to go back home by ending her life. Lately, I've been feeling the same way. I'm going blind and the thought of living the rest of my life blind frightens me. To become blind at 48 possibly burdening my family to help take of me is not the way I want to live the rest of this lifetime.
Craig Smith 😧 I feel so bad for you. Please don't do that! There could be a great lesson in it for you that is impossible to understand now. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel. I'm sure your family still needs you! God Bless You, I'll be praying for you.💟💙
Spiritual meaning of eye issue is indicate that you’re having difficulty seeing into the future, you see no joy, no future. Eye: Represents the capacity to see clearly past, present, future. - Astigmatism: “I” trouble. Fear of really seeing the self. - Hyperopia: Fear of the present. - Myopia: Fear of the future. Use positive affirmation, such as “I choose to see everyone and everything with joy and love.” You can heal your life with positive thought. Try Louise Hay’s book.
You already bought a train ticket, best to make the most of it. Afterlife will come eventually. Might as well finished what you’re here for. Good luck sir! ❤️
Im praying that God gives you strength comfort peace and more importantly healing of your eyesight! Remember ....God is always faithful!!
I do not blame u, I would feel the same way, but please don't go.
I stayed away from "Channeling Erik" for quite some time because I wasn't at all interested in deceased Celebrities. I was more interested in regular people and their thoughts and questions to their deceased loved ones. So this one pleased me so much that Elisa also had problems and wondering about your parents attitude and expressions as parents. This kind of interview is much more meaningful for me than celebrities who had very special lives and environments and also mentalities. Thank you again for the very interesting interview!!! Thank you also you changed the loud ending music that even my dogs got shocked to softer one!
I’m so sorry to hear of the abuse you endured in your childhood my heart goes out to you 😪
Love what you do Elisa..your pod casts are awesome! You are awesome!
I WISH her mother had re-affirmed, how much she loves Elisa, that she's there often watching over her, that even because due to her own problems she couldn't express this, or express it enough, or be a loving mom to her, it was always there, but she was too 'ill' to express/show it. I know I'm rambling. But she's not blocked now, that she's wrapping her arms around Elisa , holding her close, soothing her, filling her with over flowing love. I believe Elisa needed that. I somehow hope she got that.
ya i agree on that and saying sorry for failing them
Love love love your shows!! It has answered so many of my burning questions ♥️
I'm so glad lifes finally bringing you authenticity
Wonderful...thank you!!
Lovely healing session ladies...and Eric💗
These videos have helped me tremendously! I call on Eric all the time. Love to you Mrs. Elisa
This has helped me to learn/remember that forgiveness is so much easier when we understand the why of what we have gone through, the lesons we signed up for, so thank for thank....~~~Peace~~~
thank you so much for this and i have the book the body keeps score it is incredible. i have it on audio but i just had to get it in paperback because i just wanted it in my hands it helped me so much with my childhood stuff. but this video has also helped tremendously.. thank you.
Just finished watching the video about what happened to Maddie McCann, and the info corresponds well with the recent channeling from Amanda Ellis. So, thank you for putting this out there.
One suggestion when waiting for the answers to come from the channel, and I have done this myself. I've observed that you often interrupt just as the channel is about to add some more details to the answer for the question just asked.
A channel often has to pause and tune in to receive the answers, and it would be good to give the quiet space to pick up the answers without being interrupted with a different question before they've finished answering the previous question, or interrupted with unnecessary comments that pull on their focus.
And, if you could be patient a little longer, I suspect some things would be answered without having to ask a separate question.
yes I also agree
This interview was great :) very good medium and useful/applicable information
Great interview as always! Elisa I admire you for being such a strong person. Takes a lot to forgive! Question for Erik do you come to prank also ppl who put negative comments or dislikes on videos? God knows I got pranked few times and I"m on your good side lol. LOVE YOU ERIK!!!
THANK YOU ELISA FOR SHARING..I FORGAVE MY PARENTS. HOW DO YOU LOVE YOURSELF IF YOU DON'T KNOW THAT FEELING..✌
I enjoy all your videos, and your Son Eric is so sweet in the afterlife. Thank you for sharing such a Personal video about your Mom and Dad. This had to hurt, and I'm so Sorry. This Medium is great, she feels like she is getting so many messages. Thanks for Sharing this. My Grief is still overwhelming as I lost my Mother 9 years ago. It was not to suicide, but to chemo. Chemo killed her and took her from me. She And I were very close. I lost the rest of my Family At A Young Age. I so Miss My Mom. She was All I Had. Thanks for Sharing this. ❤
Erik truly a blessing.thank for your heart 😊
Such a help to so many!
#ChannelingErik @ Elisa, very good personal video w/ positive insight. How 'freeing' it must be. TY for sharing. • I'd love to be able to resolve some things w/ My late Mother.. I'm sure I will when I pass.
My mother viciously abused me and encouraged others to abuse me for her whole long life from literally when I was born - I still have the scars. I was very fucked up for a very long time. My lesson has been all about learning to love and support myself and eventually, I imagine, to BE loved by someone else too - I hope. We will do anything but love ourselves. We want someone else to do it but I gave myself to God a long time ago and he forced me to be on my own. No. Seriously. He forced me. Only HE could have arranged it. I was terrified but I came through so strong it was unbelievable. Self love is THE most wonderful and grounding thing anyone can experience, you are rock solid and no one can hurt you any more. It's true. However, for much of my life I did a lot of things to hurt myself, not having the faintest inkling of what it meant to love myself. People would tell me I didn't love myself but I didn't know what they meant, I had no understanding even though I was intelligent and studied etc etc, I simply had NO concept of self love. It starts, by knowing that you have a right to walk away from pain. You don't know that as abused child, you just stand there and take it. If you have PTSD like I did, you will actually put yourself into incredibly dangerous situations to save other people but you will not look after yourself. I am in a wonderfully healed state now in comparison to what I was as a young person. Perhaps there's more to learn, I don't know, but I am stronger and more grounded than most people. I like that saying 'Religion is for people who are afraid of going to Hell. Spirituality is for people who've already been there.' I have been there, my mother personally ensured that I was there. I am a genuine Christian (not a religious person) and He will bring you through although it's a long slow process. The damage can be so bad that your whole construct of life is completely warped - and you don't know, although others can see it.
My mother came to me in a dream after she died and also a few times when I was awake; the love knocked me over it was so strong. She said "You don't know what I was carrying." She has NEVER said sorry and if you mentioned abuse of anyone when she was alive, she would laugh. She was sadistic.
In the dream, she said (not in words because everything was telepathic) that it was amazing on the other side and it's close, very close. She said 'You are NEVER going to believe this'. She was telling me that there IS another side, after death. She looked young (between 25 and 35), very happy and she was learning some kind of language, she was working with symbols I had never seen before. She showed me where she was and what she was doing. Everything seemed to be built of stone and it was solid, very permanent feeling and there was a huge like town hall in front of us but we were up on top of a building on a beautiful open sort of walkway with benches on top of this building. She was not in a high spiritual place but she was going to progress and she was very, very happy. She was not with my Father which was interesting, she was alone. They did not split up in real life. My father passed on some years before her. He also came to me. He looked at me in a dream very, very close to my face and said "I am SOOOO sorry that I made it harder for you."
It's going to be wonderful on the other side. I can hardly wait. I love both my parents although I will never understand what my mother did to me.
I love you, Elisa. You are so brave and strong
Another fascinating lesson. I learn something that helps me every single time. Thanks to you all. Always looking forward to our next class.
great session as always
Yes! I love this medium!
I have been watching your videos. I’m so happy that you can connect with him. By the way, I tried to go to the blogs but it wouldn’t work. I wanted to comment about his fertility advice and say thank you. ❤️ god bless you mama
This is such a beautiful session ❤️ I like this medium 🙌
I had an alcoholic mother who bullied me horribly much more than my siblings. My father protected me as best he could but when he passed, she became even worse towards me going so far as to tell social workers lies about my own parenting. It led to me losing custody of my kids and all contact with them so today I have no contact with her.
Love u Elisa, cuz u r A People’s Person with Empathy & Kindness.
I absoulty love u Elise! my mom had also mentally n emotionally abusive to me too... I am wit u girl..
I wish i can get a reading of my mother as well.... I love u Elise! all the way from San Jose, Ca.
You're so brave, love you a lot
Please interview the Ronald DeFeo family Ocean Ave Long Island, Amityville New York please
Diana C YES!!!! I would love to know what happened there!
I’ve been asking for sometime, I don’t know how to get ahold of her like though email, so I keep putting this on these interviews, I hope she eventually sees it :)
Not so much the “hauntings” but the murders, who did it, we know Butch was involved, but there is no way he did it alone
Scary!!👻👻👻
Maybe if we all send messages, maybe she, or Erik will see the messages, and have a nice long conversation with the DeFeo family, what do you think, want to help me out??
Elisa your just amazing, Erik I love you❤🎉
This medium is excellent and true!
Great video, thanks ❤