@alexanderhumm3122, u guys can still die at any moment...... sorry, I ruined the mood but realistically u can get into a accident,stroke,heart attack, u can stop breathing randomly at any moment soo don't take advantage of life
honestly, this makes a lot of sense to me, in my class we joke about suicide a lot, to the point where we even have a code word for it in our chats just in case, not the most healthiest thing. anyway, hope your doing better and like the comment above me, seek help if your not!
I hope you are okay. If you’re not better then I know it might be scary and you may think no one will care but people will and you should se someone if you are not okay. It will all turn out well in the end even if it doesn’t seem like it, it will be okay. I believe in you.
Lyrics so I can sing along [Verse 1] My eyes are made of acid and my tongue is sharp with spite Attention whore with too much pride, there's no one I wouldn't fight I don't like confrontation but I'm staring at the sun I won't quit until my eyes go red, I'll finish what's begun [Pre-Chorus] I fucked the reaper 'cause I knew my time was coming, can't you see? I was either gonna die at twelve or ninety-fucking-three [Chorus] I'd do anything for twenty bucks, I'd sell my sour soul 'Cause lemonade is bitter 'til you sweeten up the bowl I'm sitting in the bathroom, I'm crying citrus tears Everything I usеd to love decayed ovеr the years Verse 2] It's hard to finish sentences, I'll sell my pride instead 'Cause it's easier to focus, I'm just the price above my head People think I'm pretty, so I'll buy a hotel room One bed trope without the tension, the child and her groom [Pre-Chorus] I fucked the reaper 'cause I knew my time had come, why can't you see? I didn't die at twelve, I guess I'm here 'til ninety-three [Chorus] I'd do anything for twenty bucks, I'd sell my sour soul 'Cause lemonade is bitter 'til you sweeten up the bowl I'm sitting in the bathroom, I'm crying citrus tears Everything I used to love decayed over the years [Verse 3] Enemies to lovers but you'll never own my heart One-sided, it's pathetic how you think you're being smart Worthless parents make stupid kids, the apple never strays Your conscience never compromised and ego never pays [Outro] I'd do anything for twenty bucks to feel more in control 'Cause lemon hearts are bitter 'til you sweeten up the soul I'm sitting in the bathroom, I'm sobbing citrus tears Everything I'll ever love decayed over the years
this song hit so hard, even though I never tried to end it all, Ive had thoughts about it 6 years ago. I have severe chronic eczema, I was bullied at school, people would call me "monkeypox face" and shitty names like that. My skin was literally rotting and the damn eczema was from toe to head, there aren't really any cures for eczema, there is a injectable called "dupixent" but my family was too poor to afford it back then and we had no insurance. I'm 18 now, everythings gotten better, i took therapy sessions and tried my best to improve my life. i'm glad I lives throught that time
This song hits so hard for me. I lost both my parental figures, one at 6 the other at 12 and when the second one passed that was it for me.. it was the first of my attemps, being a kid i just stopped eating and drinking. I cried. I SH-ed. I made it though.. Every day is hell, but I'm fucking making it. With no one but myself to lean on ✊🏽 i do it for them. I do it For the me i deserved to be without all the trauma. We all passed away, but im here..
I'm proud of you friend. I know I'm just a stranger on the internet who probably lives on the other side of the world to you. But I'm proud of you, and I care about you. I will keep you in my prayers, take care of yourself 🙏🏻💕
@@JorTanos That is the main message of the song yes, but also uses a lot of terminology relating to books. Perhaps the artist used them as a form of escapism?
Currently 12 and have had times where I was sobbing in bathrooms and closets, also tried to end it twice and have done self-destructive stuff. This song forms a pit in my stomach in a way I love. There’s only one other song that makes me feel as heard, I’ll keep this one close to my heart.
remember 'this too shall pass' everything comes and goes, even the most painful times when you feel you can't handle it passes in time. That's the fact of the world. Nothing is permanent.
Eh, if you wanted to believe that or mentally make it that that's fine. It's the one "bad" word in the song. And for as chill as I am, the imagery of doing the grim reaper is a bit too much for me.
"I didn't die at 12, I guess I'm here till 93" made me tear up. when I was introduced to this song's demo, I was 12. and I was sure I wouldn't make it to 13, i was sure I'd die by then. I'm 13 now, and I don't plan to kill myself anytime soon. i didn't know this song was finally released, and now that I relisten to it it resonates with me more than ever. I didn't die at 12, I guess I'm here until 93.
Im glad your still here fight on! A quote i love to give out is "gods gives his hardest battles to his best soilders" have a good life and stay strong and here until your 93 ❤
I attempted at 15 and spent years wishing I'd succeeded because no amount of happiness was worth the pain I had to keep going through because no matter what I'd have those wounds Now I'm 18 and I'm pregnant I'm happy... happier than I've ever been and for the first time in my life the happiness feels worth it I can now say with confidence that it gets BETTER and not have to lie - it gets better Your wounds close and become scars The scabs fall off and the marks fade And bones heal stronger than before You find someone who loves you, respects you, and manages to heal your heart with gentle kisses My inner child who spent so long hurting is finally free to live You're 13 - I won't lie and say it's all over - life hurts - but no matter what - know that someone loves you ❤ and no matter what you experience as you grow up it goes away You'll heal and be happy - no matter what path your life takes - it gets better so live forever to see that beautiful day because it WILL be worth it - we're all rooting for you ❤ much love and much luck :)
After so many years as a child wishing to die, but it never actually happened. So, now you're just existing, not caring what happens and you've just given up.
As someone who survived suicide attempts at the age 12, this song hits hard because I survived one of life's biggest curveballs and this song shows how I felt
I was really messed up when I was younger, especially when I was 11 and 12. I'm better now, and I'm just happy I made it. Her line about being 12 really hit hard.
3 attempts, a toxic and manipulative relative, a sibling harming themselves, two failed classes, and many months separated from my parents and I’m still here till 93
I really wanted to kms when I was about 12-14. Now I'm better and actually taking classes that involve suicidology, but this song just reminded me of how far I've come.
Life is always changing, I know this sounds as a lie, but believe me... things will get better. The bad times are not forever. Life is hard but it's worth living and I'm sure your future could be great and sweet. You got this!
@@Revezityofficial that is such horrible statement I do not know where to start .Life is full of hardship but is also full of wonder and joy .At times these challenges may feel overwhelming but hope is always there all you need to do is take each moment and day as it comes .Please remember you and each and every one of us is precious please do not commit .
Think about it this way: If you're religious, and you commit you'll end up in hell. If not: you only get to experience good once. Sure there isn't bed after life, but there isn't good either. I personally look forward to death. You shouldn't want to end life though. You have so many people that would be devistated if you died. If you want to talk someone look up your state hotline. Keep going ❤️
@@Revezityofficial Respectfully, what the hell are you doing? --- actually I take that back, My comment is not respectful, think before you leave comments like this.
I don’t *want* to be here at 93, sounds like a nightmare. Life sucks, why my 3 tries under twelve didn’t work is beyond me, I can only imagine something is out there laughing at my misfortune
I didn’t die at 12 I guess I’m here till 93- resonates a lot, never thought I would be an adult but here I am and I just keep persisting somehow
Yeah. Graduating primary and high school was just such an unreal experience for me because I felt like nothing had really changed with me.
I thought I wouldn’t make it past 14, then 16, then 18…. Now I’m 27 wondering how I made it
I didn’t think I’d make it past 17. I’m now 19 and I’m in a much better place but it still feels unreal
This song hits, there was a time I’d imagine my death just to please me
@alexanderhumm3122, u guys can still die at any moment...... sorry, I ruined the mood but realistically u can get into a accident,stroke,heart attack, u can stop breathing randomly at any moment soo don't take advantage of life
I found it so randomly and now I'm literally addicted
Wth how is this so relatable, hits hard, AND a fricking banger.
YE✨⭐️💯💯💯🎵🎵🎧🎧🎶🎶⭐️⭐️🙌🙌💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥
YE💯🔥🔥🎶🎶⭐️⭐️🙌🙌✨✨✨🎧🎧
The fact that I tried to end it multiple times while 12 makes this hit different
I hope you are ok now or working to recover the self love you deserve, if you're not, seek help! It's never too late, really❤️
honestly, this makes a lot of sense to me, in my class we joke about suicide a lot, to the point where we even have a code word for it in our chats just in case, not the most healthiest thing. anyway, hope your doing better and like the comment above me, seek help if your not!
Pathetic
I hope you are okay. If you’re not better then I know it might be scary and you may think no one will care but people will and you should se someone if you are not okay. It will all turn out well in the end even if it doesn’t seem like it, it will be okay. I believe in you.
Well me too. I just hope u r ok now and that nobody else has to go through it
This song’s vibe is utterly unmatched, love it so much.
FR 💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥🙌🙌🎶🎶🎶🎵🎵⭐️⭐️⭐️✨✨✨✨
THANK U FOR BLESSING MY SOUL WITH THIS SONG
Im almost 5 years sober and this song puts my mind back into my active addiction years and it’s scarily relatable
I saw this song over a year ago on tiktok and I love it so much I’m so happy the full version is out
BEST SONG EVER!
WE'RE TAKING OUR PRIDE BACK WITH THIS ONE 💯💯💯
Amazing, you don't know me but I'm the definition of pride, this is a good way to start with music. You should listen to skillet🦁
Fr the best song!! 🎧 ✨✨🎵🎶🎶
💯💯💯🙌🙌🙌🙌🔥🔥🔥
Lyrics so I can sing along
[Verse 1]
My eyes are made of acid and my tongue is sharp with spite
Attention whore with too much pride, there's no one I wouldn't fight
I don't like confrontation but I'm staring at the sun
I won't quit until my eyes go red, I'll finish what's begun
[Pre-Chorus]
I fucked the reaper 'cause I knew my time was coming, can't you see?
I was either gonna die at twelve or ninety-fucking-three
[Chorus]
I'd do anything for twenty bucks, I'd sell my sour soul
'Cause lemonade is bitter 'til you sweeten up the bowl
I'm sitting in the bathroom, I'm crying citrus tears
Everything I usеd to love decayed ovеr the years
Verse 2]
It's hard to finish sentences, I'll sell my pride instead
'Cause it's easier to focus, I'm just the price above my head
People think I'm pretty, so I'll buy a hotel room
One bed trope without the tension, the child and her groom
[Pre-Chorus]
I fucked the reaper 'cause I knew my time had come, why can't you see?
I didn't die at twelve, I guess I'm here 'til ninety-three
[Chorus]
I'd do anything for twenty bucks, I'd sell my sour soul
'Cause lemonade is bitter 'til you sweeten up the bowl
I'm sitting in the bathroom, I'm crying citrus tears
Everything I used to love decayed over the years
[Verse 3]
Enemies to lovers but you'll never own my heart
One-sided, it's pathetic how you think you're being smart
Worthless parents make stupid kids, the apple never strays
Your conscience never compromised and ego never pays
[Outro]
I'd do anything for twenty bucks to feel more in control
'Cause lemon hearts are bitter 'til you sweeten up the soul
I'm sitting in the bathroom, I'm sobbing citrus tears
Everything I'll ever love decayed over the years
Someone wrote all throughout school. The citrus tears line reminds me of stuff I wrote when a apathetic teen haha
this song hit so hard, even though I never tried to end it all, Ive had thoughts about it 6 years ago. I have severe chronic eczema, I was bullied at school, people would call me "monkeypox face" and shitty names like that. My skin was literally rotting and the damn eczema was from toe to head, there aren't really any cures for eczema, there is a injectable called "dupixent" but my family was too poor to afford it back then and we had no insurance. I'm 18 now, everythings gotten better, i took therapy sessions and tried my best to improve my life. i'm glad I lives throught that time
Im proud of u 你妈x5 ur a awesome soul nvr hurt urself for wht ppl who dk any btr say
I love you.
(I relate sm I have so many scars from eczema)
YOOOO ITS OUT I LOVE THIS SONG ITS AMAZING
Can I listen to the song on repeat for years
Can we do that together?
The three of us
Me too!
All five, here we go-
@@Baku_bro barber shop quartet [ if that's the right word]
I love this song with all my life❤ i love the original version even more
This song hits so hard for me. I lost both my parental figures, one at 6 the other at 12 and when the second one passed that was it for me.. it was the first of my attemps, being a kid i just stopped eating and drinking. I cried. I SH-ed. I made it though..
Every day is hell, but I'm fucking making it. With no one but myself to lean on ✊🏽 i do it for them. I do it For the me i deserved to be without all the trauma. We all passed away, but im here..
I'm proud of you friend. I know I'm just a stranger on the internet who probably lives on the other side of the world to you. But I'm proud of you, and I care about you.
I will keep you in my prayers, take care of yourself 🙏🏻💕
We love you even if a stranger might not be much…it’s better then nothing
sending hugs 🫂
Atleast you'll have allot of lore
This is SUCH a bookish song especially when it says one bed trope and enemies to lovers
Whoring is bookish?
@@JorTanos???
@@Cella_blox that's what the majority of the lyrics are about. Prostitution. Including the "one bed trope" line.
@@Cella_blox How are you confused? This is a song about a girl who has lost much and resorts to whoring to dull her pain and feel in control.
@@JorTanos That is the main message of the song yes, but also uses a lot of terminology relating to books. Perhaps the artist used them as a form of escapism?
Currently 12 and have had times where I was sobbing in bathrooms and closets, also tried to end it twice and have done self-destructive stuff. This song forms a pit in my stomach in a way I love. There’s only one other song that makes me feel as heard, I’ll keep this one close to my heart.
Pls stay alive I’m 14 and I’ve tried to end it multiple times I understand but try to find something to live for❤
remember 'this too shall pass' everything comes and goes, even the most painful times when you feel you can't handle it passes in time. That's the fact of the world. Nothing is permanent.
NOO CUZ I THOUGHT IT SAID I 𝘍𝘖𝘜𝘎𝘏𝘛 THE REAPER UNTIL I SAW THE LYRICS
LMAOOOOO
Eh, if you wanted to believe that or mentally make it that that's fine. It's the one "bad" word in the song.
And for as chill as I am, the imagery of doing the grim reaper is a bit too much for me.
Same though
@@paulbunyangonewild7596the reaper looks great though
SAMEEEE
Absolutely amazing song
"I didn't die at 12, I guess I'm here till 93" made me tear up. when I was introduced to this song's demo, I was 12. and I was sure I wouldn't make it to 13, i was sure I'd die by then.
I'm 13 now, and I don't plan to kill myself anytime soon. i didn't know this song was finally released, and now that I relisten to it it resonates with me more than ever.
I didn't die at 12, I guess I'm here until 93.
Im glad your still here fight on! A quote i love to give out is "gods gives his hardest battles to his best soilders" have a good life and stay strong and here until your 93 ❤
@@AshenHarvest damn, that is one neat quote
I attempted at 15 and spent years wishing I'd succeeded because no amount of happiness was worth the pain I had to keep going through because no matter what I'd have those wounds
Now I'm 18 and I'm pregnant
I'm happy... happier than I've ever been and for the first time in my life the happiness feels worth it
I can now say with confidence that it gets BETTER and not have to lie - it gets better
Your wounds close and become scars
The scabs fall off and the marks fade
And bones heal stronger than before
You find someone who loves you, respects you, and manages to heal your heart with gentle kisses
My inner child who spent so long hurting is finally free to live
You're 13 - I won't lie and say it's all over - life hurts - but no matter what - know that someone loves you ❤ and no matter what you experience as you grow up it goes away
You'll heal and be happy - no matter what path your life takes - it gets better so live forever to see that beautiful day because it WILL be worth it - we're all rooting for you ❤ much love and much luck :)
@@tiawolf3610 I am very moved by the story of a fellow stranger on the internet. Guess that is what having humanity is all about.
This version is much better !!! Like god i love this song so much.
This has just turned into one of my favourite. Omfg so underrated. Can't stop listening to it on repeat
AHHHH this is beautiful!
this reminds me of a script i wrote and every time i hear this it reminds me of the story ughhhhhhhhhhhhh this is so gooooooooooooooood
I can't explain why but this song made me feel like I am sitting near a cosy fireplace swapping songs with friends
Love this so much ❤
LORD I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS, THANK YOU, THIS IS WONDERFUL
THIS IS SO GOOD
I LOVE THIS SONGGGG😊
After so many years as a child wishing to die, but it never actually happened. So, now you're just existing, not caring what happens and you've just given up.
This is epic
i'm so in love!! 💖💫 няяяя
I fell inlove with this on tiktok, I'm glad I get to experience the full song.
First time listening, and I'm having an existential crisis 👍
holy shit...
Umm/
Anyone one else hear Penelope Scott in this??? Like it’s giving sweet hibiscus tea
it's a shame, that the song isn't longer
this is amazing and I've been listening to it for at least an hour on loop
I dont get why this got this so much hate in tiktok comments. This sounds really good imo!
IT'S OUT OH MY GOD MY LIFE IS COMPLETE
1:27 - 1:46
My fav part :3
(Saw a short using this audio and it was beautiful)
the Epic one?
@@LemonHIVE I suppose so
@@Anobluu no like epic the musical
@@LemonHIVE I don't know shit about musicals...
Amélie should be the next taylor swift.
nice
Would it be possible for you to do a tutorial on the guitar with this song?
As someone who survived suicide attempts at the age 12, this song hits hard because I survived one of life's biggest curveballs and this song shows how I felt
underrated artist alert
I’m vibing with this song
It’s so good🎶⭐️✨✨🎧🎧🙌🙌🔥🔥🔥🎵🎵~~~
I was really messed up when I was younger, especially when I was 11 and 12. I'm better now, and I'm just happy I made it. Her line about being 12 really hit hard.
3 attempts, a toxic and manipulative relative, a sibling harming themselves, two failed classes, and many months separated from my parents and I’m still here till 93
I really wanted to kms when I was about 12-14. Now I'm better and actually taking classes that involve suicidology, but this song just reminded me of how far I've come.
im so proud of u
According to TH-cam I'm in the top 0.1% of listeners. Hell yeah!
Im so making a cover of this song
Somewhat suicidal and 12 so lyrics are accurate
That part you see from the shorts 0:59 is right here
it's giving hunger games
YES OMG IT ISSS
@@hedgehog-in-the-shadows ikr it was the first thing i thought of
I fully agree!
🔥
AUGH absolutely feral about this song. it’s going on the csa trauma playlist for sure
this hits different when you attempted suicide at 12
Are you fucking kidding me this is the best song ever❤
0:19
I think I can live. I think I can do it. I think it can be worth it if I just make it.
This sounds like it'll fit in fourth wing
I'm 12 and I don't think I can handle it anymore😢
Life is always changing, I know this sounds as a lie, but believe me... things will get better. The bad times are not forever. Life is hard but it's worth living and I'm sure your future could be great and sweet. You got this!
You are twelve years old, life is only gonna get harder, do it.
@@Revezityofficial that is such horrible statement I do not know where to start .Life is full of hardship but is also full of wonder and joy .At times these challenges may feel overwhelming but hope is always there all you need to do is take each moment and day as it comes .Please remember you and each and every one of us is precious please do not commit .
Think about it this way: If you're religious, and you commit you'll end up in hell. If not: you only get to experience good once. Sure there isn't bed after life, but there isn't good either. I personally look forward to death. You shouldn't want to end life though. You have so many people that would be devistated if you died. If you want to talk someone look up your state hotline. Keep going ❤️
@@Revezityofficial Respectfully, what the hell are you doing? --- actually I take that back, My comment is not respectful, think before you leave comments like this.
This hits harder then Will Smith
HELP
😭😭😭
This reminds me of Percy Jackson a little bit
this song is so nico coded
The fact that i found this song from a nico edit
OMG WHY DOES THIS SOUND LIKE JAIDEN ANIMATIONS??!?
Im not going to survive high school and i know it
💔
Um serious black butler vibes
I don’t *want* to be here at 93, sounds like a nightmare. Life sucks, why my 3 tries under twelve didn’t work is beyond me, I can only imagine something is out there laughing at my misfortune
LoL 🤣
The next Laura Marling / Emmy the Great
Real
I keep hearing “keep satan of the soul”
Lowkey giving Lila from Umbrella Academy
YOU DID WHAT TO THE REAPER?
I fucked the reaper!
Almost died at 8 though it’s better then 93 in my opinion
I didn’t at 10 guess I’m here till 23 I’ll do anything for 20 bucks
Hmm feels like it ends mid song
Good luck
My friend sent me this song and said it was me coded wtf just call me emo😭
The song: 🔥🔥🔥
The lyrics: 🥲🥲🥲
I was paralyzed and my
Brother put this on their speaker I then got up and turned it off
Average American woman and mother
Cringy sea shanty