this is soo true Taylor about the last cry for help. I was in this situation 5 years ago after my divorce. I was so close to doing it and I said to a co-worker "I don't care I won't be here monday" Thankfully he took it seriously and called my boss right away. It was a sunday. She drove to meet me at work from her home. She started talking to me , taking my feelings seriously. I told her that my daughter would be better off without me and shocked me by telling me that her dad commited suicide when she was little and that she wasn't better off. That shook me and I got some help at that very moment. I am very thankful to her.
Wow. What an incredible story. It just proves that when people actually talk to each other about issues such as this, that wonderful things can happen. I've heard a few stories down the years of people taking their lives completely unexpectedly, people with lovely families amid affluent surroundings...no apparent logic. Whatever we're going through, we just need to TALK to someone and share our innermost feelings of fear, loneliness or paranoia. Please, just TALK.
Tool, beartooth, and 5fdp for me. Almost drank myself to death on purpose... depression and addiction are hell. Glad we're all still here. Music saved us
The Falling in Reverse cover of this, literally broke me, I bawled. I deal with suicidal Ideology, it's been a none stop battle for the last 9 years and Ronny nailed it with a more adult feeling, Papa Roach made this in my adolescence and the meaning really didn't impact me back then, now.. it's very very real.
From Micro: @Atlas_UK Yeah, it's interesting how we can re-discover a music years later as it just resonates differently with our heart. I like to think that we somehow "meet" the right music at significant times - and when the timing is appropriate there is a real magic happening. The experience you have with Papa Roach, of now feeling like it's somehow like holding a mirror to you, is one that I'm sure many of us can relate to here. And somehow there may be comfort to find in at least knowing that we are not alone in our struggles, even when it feels like we're prisoners of our own mind and that no one can see it. For what it's worth from a stranger like me, I see you, I hear you right now, and I understand through my own struggles suicidal ideation the heaviness of the burdens you've been carrying. I started to struggle with suicidal thoughts when I was a kid, but to me it is something that comes and go usually. When it's gone though it's not really away. It's simply more muted. It feels like having this dark shadow following you everywhere you go and like you just can't get rid of it. I hate that it manifests as this inner voice that invites me to give up on everything - to give up on hope - whether I am having a good or a bad time. It doesn't discriminate between what's good or not. It's just constantly and continuously there, while it doesn't feel like you can just push it away or ignore it either. It's like being stuck in the same room with someone trying to influence you to move towards a different direction while you know it is no good. It takes so much energy to compose with it daily, to keep finding your way through this life while there's a song on repeat inside of your mind telling you to end it all. Nine years of struggling with this must have been such a hard and intense battle for you. I can't begin to imagine the amount of tears and dark days you had to go through. It is so hard to feel like your own mind is a trap you're stuck in, and that what's inside of it keeps bringing you down more and more. It's even more difficult that it'shard to express it, to actually put words on it and find someone that would be able to hear you out. Suicidal ideation is a lonely burden to carry, and for all these reasons I'm so thankful you chose to speak about it today, because you certainly don't deserve to stay alone with it. Not years ago, not today, not ever. If there is one certainty in the midst of this, it is that you are never wrong for opening up, for talking about it, for reaching out or even asking for help. There are burdens that need to be spoken so they can appear less intimidating, eventually less heavy. And there are people out there willing to carry the burdens with us - who understand what it's like, who get it because they've been there too, and who can bring inspiration as they speak from the other side of this obstacle - from where breathing feels much lighter and is not in contradiction with being alive. To these thoughts that try to take the best of you, I want to say to them that you matter very much, and you didn't come so far to let them have the last word. That you know and understand them, that you see through them and have so much strength within than they could ever imagine. And I want to say to you that you belong in this world, even during moments when you feel like you don't. You will get through this, friend. And through it, you can be sure that you have allies here willing to walk alongside you. You're not alone. Sending much hugs and thoughts your way. -Micro
@@HeartSupport Thank you for the kind message Micro, The battle continues, but I know the consequences would result in not my own demise, but another's too, my mother's heart would give out for sure given her poor health, and it would take her too, taking my own life is one thing but my moms too, I couldn't forgive myself for that, So I fight on.
i personally am not a fan of Falling in Reverse but I have to give it to them... the cover is BEAUTIFUL! The emotion in the cover really helps someone understand the lyrics PAPA Roach was trying to convey with this song. Absolutely amazing cover.
Had a feeling youd get around to this one lol Papa Roach is my favorite band, so heres the story behind last resort Jacoby, the singer, wrote it about a childhood friend of his, named Mark Parham. Jacoby and Mark had a rough upbringing, both used drugs + alcohol quite heavily Eventually the drugs sent Mark into depressive spiral, eventually leading to him attempting suicide. Mark went to treatment, got sober, came back, and jacoby felt like he couldn’t relate to who mark had become bc jacoby was still very much in that world of addiction The song is about Marks downward spiral through the eyes of jacoby, who felt responsible for the whole thing because he was the one who introduced drugs to the situation Years later jacoby eventually had his own issues with depression and suicidal tendencies, as such he says the song took on a new meaning for him at that time Today Mark and Jacoby are both alive and well, got sober, and have families
Please react to the Falling in Reverse reimagining of this song. You will be amazed at how much more emotion is brought out of the lyrics. It was played for the lead singer of Papa Roach before being released & he loved it.
You know the best thing about papa roach, they 100% devoted so much to suicide prevention and they make music to tell people they aren't alone. They will "leave a light on" and talk away the dark. You should show that video. They are making a difference!
I am suicidal, i have tried to take my own life three times, the first time i got help put on me, that made me realise i needed the help, although it took a long time for me to realise it, but i realised it finally. The thoughts of myself and the way i went through my days at the worst pain, to be honest if people knew and could actually be put into my shoes to see and feel the way i feel as a non suicidal person, they would most likely never even vocal the words that suicidal people are selfish and it is a selfish act. The last time of my suicidal attempt i stood on a bridge in the early morning above a traintrack, if falling from the bridge didn’t do it, the train would definitively do it and send the peace of mind finally to me to get rid of the bullying horrible demonic thoughts that every waking hour haunted me……but my fear of doing it got the better of me, although i blamed myself for that too, that i was such a weak person who couldn’t even do this, i am happy that fear took over once again. For anyone who is suicidal and feel that you are in the darkness wandering alone, remember that you are loved, cherished and appreciated for you, you are amazing and i am sending you lots of love ❤️ and hugs 🤗. You are not alone, you got me, reach out your hand and i will meet it halfway 😊.
The fact that you describe it as a fight, You're literally in a battle with yourself, and its relentless. Having someone, anyone, to listen and make you feel not alone, make you feel like SOMEONE actually cares if you live or die, is sometimes all you need to push back against the darkness.
Exactly how I felt after I lost my mother. I spent years just waiting to die. Then the day I was going to end it all i found out i was going to be a dad. That was my wake up call.
When I first heard it as a teen, I just rocked out to it because of the rhythm and energy. As I've gotten older, and I've taken down many of my emotional walls, this song hits in a completely different way. I have to hold tears back everytime I listen to this song
Some of the songs that have helped me in my darker moments, maybe they can help some of yall too - Korn - Daddy (that one can be tough to listen too. Very graphic) Deftones - Sextape Flyleaf - Im so sick Alice in chains - rain when i die Alice in chains - down in a hole Papa roach - lifeline Linkin park - powerless Audioslave - i am the highway Led Zeppelin - Gallows pole
sometimes its just because we have reached the limit and want an end of the pain..... i reached out and a friend found me moments from the end and got me to a hospital so good for you for trying to help
My counselor says "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" I have had many low points in my life, I would be ready to end my life, and every time I backed out at the last minute in fear of dying and fear of it being painful. My most recent one, was only 2 years ago. I grabbed my gun, I knew exactly how I was going to hold it, pin it up to the wall with my weight as to not give it any room to flinch when I pulled the trigger. I knew exactly where I was going to shoot in order to make it quick and painless. When I went to chamber a round, my gun was empty. As it turned out, my wife had noticed my mental health declining for months, and she grew worried, and a week before she had hidden my loaded magazine. Her and I may be divorcing, we may have had some serious problems, and she may have said things to me out of anger that were so aweful that I don't care to repeat it. But, despite everything, she cared enough to remove a hazard from my path, and she actually saved my life because of it. She walked in on me when I was getting ready to do it, and I yelled at her asking where my ammo was, she simply told me she hid it last week. To this day, I don't think she fully comprehends that she saved my life
I'm new here so I browsed for any FIR songs but couldnt find one😢 I mean atleast the LR one that was actually commissioned by PR for their anniversary.
This shit made me fricken cry. I know that battle that’s inside. That voice does get louder, and it starts to reason with you that maybe the world may better off without you here screwing it up. I won that battle and I’m still here however long later. Speak to anyone guys! You’re not alone!
in part thanks to this song and the story behind it I've gotten help I've needed at the time. So depression is tamed if not treated, I'm still around and doing things. What a powerful song, this.
I'm struggling with suicide and depression but have started to seek help. My wife supports me in this world that is so foreign to her. I'll watch your video with her to build understanding. Thank you, your videos are a lot of fun. Especially for explaining the Tool songs to me as a non-native English speaker, the meaning of your interpretation of the lyrics. fantastic
I just found this and I have watched every video I have had a smile on my face it's so nice to see someone get into metal I love the dancing I struggle with BPD and chemical dependant issues I had a bad night last night and was lost in my head and watched the sulfer video after watching alot of videos i fell asleep and woke up still clean abd still alive thank you so much
I don't know you, but it makes me truly happy to read that you're still here. And I agree, I love her music reaction/break down videos because her energy while listening to it is intoxicating, and then when she breaks down the lyrics to give her thoughts on what it means is so very entertaining and helpful. I listen to all genres of music, but rock and metal are my go to. People tend to think those of us who listen to metal and what not are angry and violent individuals, when in reality, we are actually pretty upbeat people. I think because since we listen to extremely energetic songs that are able to put into words many of our thoughts, feelings and emotions that otherwise we wouldn't be able to express ourselves, it's a form of letting go those bottled up emotions
This channel is a refreshing take on some of the feelings our hearts and minds go through. For me it feels like I’m playing hide and seek with the black dog. I think like I’ve found a solid hiding space for a bit of a reprieve. Sometimes for a day, sometimes for years but then the bastard turns up and bites me on the ass. Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine hit hard all those years ago and it still packs a punch. It’s an amazing gift to be able to support someone who has mental turmoil and I really enjoy being others voice of reason and believing in the good in all but fuck me it’s tough when looking for a little reciprocation. Big love. Love the channel and the energy ❤
The thought of doing it crossed my mind today, but I can never go through with it because I don't just think about myself. I consider how it will impact the people around me who love me. Even though today is extremely challenging, it doesn't mean that tomorrow won't be better. If you're one of those people hurting inside, know that you're not alone and that everything is going to be fine. You'll be alright. Fight the battle and never give up. I hope this helps someone going through hard times. Remember, God is with you, and He loves you.
As I'm preparing to comment on your comment, I realize you made this comment a month ago, so I just want to start by saying, I hope you're still with us. I have these thoughts daily. Sometimes just a quick thought, other times it's a constant presence for days. Two things help me not act on those impulses. 1: my counselor has said to me " suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". I stated this as a response in someone else's comment as well. 2: I try and focus on the one thing in this world that is more important to me then anything, even more important than my life and my darkness. My daughter. She is the one thing in this world that gives me the strength to tolerate my depression and suicidal thoughts
Ma'am. You need to listen to Ronnie Radke's version of this song. As a millennial who grew up with this song. Jacoby got us with that teen angst perfectly. Like hands down. This was perfect. We were angry. We were hurt. We were broken. But we were kids. Kids breaking shit and letting out anger. Ronnie's version... is not that. Thats the version for when were older and the worlds literally chewed us up and spit us out over and over and over again. Its beautiful and devastatingly haunting. It had me bawling when i heard it.
I'm a survivor of 22 attempts. I learned that the pain doesn't stop. It transfers to those who love you. I'm so happy that I found my purpose 8 years ago. No self harming thoughts since. Loving Life!
Here is my papa roach saved my life. I was 18 when this album came out, was depressed and suicidal, just weird thoughts didn't think my life was worth it. None of my friendsor familyknew what was goingon in my head. I instantly gravitated to this album, they came on tour to my town. Mr and my friends always met bands after concerts, so we find their tour bus and hang out with them. I pulled Jacoby aside and explained to him that his music had helped me rethink certain things. After I told him this he grab the back of my head and pushed our foreheads together and told me to always look to the light, and never give up. Gave me a big hug and thanked me for telling him, autographed my cd. My friends were flabbergasted they thought I had a perfect life, because I was quiet and kept to myself, but internally I was a mess. I have obviously gotten through that awkward point and moved on, still love heavy metal and hard rock. Papa roach especially that album will always be in my heart.
This is a classic, but I really love the video for 'Help'. The rabbit is such a great visual depiction of someone who's just on the verge of giving up!
So I've suffered from depression since i was 5 years old. I know that sounds odd, and even then i didn't know or understand it until i got older. My mother passed away suddenly when i was 5, then my father passed when I was 15. I'm 29 now, I had attempted suicide a handful of times throughout my life. I now see a counselor regularly, and I take medication for my depression and anxiety. Honestly, I don't think i would be here today if it wasn't for a several people who are incredibly important to me. Two friends of mine, they may not have known the proper words to say, but that was fine, because knowing they were there for me spoke so much louder than words possibly could. My oldest brother, he is always willing to listen and help me understand and talk through what i may be going through or feeling. After our father passed, he was in a low place and almost ended his life after drinking to much, my oldest sister is the one who found him in that state, and got him the help he needed. It's comforting knowing I can turn to my brother when I'm in a low place, since he has been there before, and still came out the other side. When I told him I was going to counseling and was prescribed antidepressants and found a medicine that helped, he said something that he has never said to me before, he told me he was proud of me. And most importantly, my daughter. Because of her, i have completely changed as a person, and she is my reason to stay in this world, she is truly my guiding light when I'm at my darkest place in my head the proper words to say, but that was okay, because knowing they were there for me spoke so much louder than words possibly could. And most importantly, my daughter. Because of her, i have completely changed as a person, and she is my reason to stay in this world, she is truly my guiding light when I'm at my darkest place in my head. I have had friends and coworkers who suddenly ended their lives, and I just can't help but think "how did I miss the signs when I suffer from those demons too? I hide it with humor and always being happy and friendly, and it just hurts knowing that they had done the same thing and I didn't see it. What could I have done to possibly help them? What can I do in the future for someone who may be at the lowest point in their life?" There are many things that keep me up at night, and this is the most recurring one
This is my theme song unfortunately. Thankyou for dissecting it so well. Ivr lived with this mindset for about 36 of 46 years and its only my kids that keep me alive
Nu metal saved my life, i was put in a psychic hospital and i was being watch all the time by guards if i did something bad like self harm. If anyone has those thoughts, please call someone. Talk about it. God bless
All I remember from my times of the edge was the painful need/wish for the feeling to end. I just wanted it to stop... so bad...I don't remember what it felt like, I just remember I wanted it to stop sooooo bad. My saving grace was being a single mother of a toddler because I couldn't leave her so somehow I pushed through.
I know this video is old and this chat may be dead, but I just recently found this channel. I won’t go in detail here but your story is similar to mine from just over 7 years ago. I was the one who my friend reached out to and was so caught up in life and work that I failed to see the sign, the last resort. Still to this day not a day goes by that I don’t hate myself for a moment for failing him. Don’t know why I’m spilling all of this here but yeah… thank you for your content and all that you do.
From comebackstory: @steelsox934 That sounds rough - I'm. sorry to hear about your friend. Don't let it weigh on you too much - at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own decisions, even your friend. I know that might not ease the pain, but know that grace is available.
From comebackstory: @steelsox934 That sounds rough - I'm. sorry to hear about your friend. Don't let it weigh on you too much - at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own decisions, even your friend. I know that might not ease the pain, but know that grace is available.
From SuperTay: @steelsox934 Hey there, I’m truly sorry for the loss of your friend. I know there are no words that can make that kind of pain go away…but spilling your guts can help make it more bearable. Even if it’s just a tiny bit. Also this is the perfect place for you to spill your guts. That’s what HeartSupport is for… we are here to try and help walk with your through the pain. So pour your heart out if you need to. We are here to listen. you are not alone. So please post anytime you are in need of a listening ear or heart needs support. Stay strong friend.
From SuperTay: @steelsox934 Hey there, I’m truly sorry for the loss of your friend. I know there are no words that can make that kind of pain go away…but spilling your guts can help make it more bearable. Even if it’s just a tiny bit. Also this is the perfect place for you to spill your guts. That’s what HeartSupport is for… we are here to try and help walk with your through the pain. So pour your heart out if you need to. We are here to listen. you are not alone. So please post anytime you are in need of a listening ear or heart needs support. Stay strong friend.
From bombdiggity: @steelsox934 Hi there! No, this chat is most definitely not dead. Thank you for posting. I am so sorry about your friend. It was not your fault… Know that probably make the pain go away. Sometimes it’s great to just vent about the weight you carry. To a listening ear… For me it is easier to talk about things to strangers. We’re always here to encourage & support you! Please reach out to us if you need to anytime. Take care you yourself.<3
There is a music video of theirs called Broken Home and there it tells what they have been through, it is very good to analyze. I recommend it, papa roach - broken home
P Roach gave so many people a voice with this song and so many others…to this day they’re still doing it…great great band. I’d love to get some analysis of Marilyn Manson’s Coma White or countless others. He too gave a voice to a generation of forgotten, overlooked, and disenfranchised struggling youth. Keep up the great work ✌️😎
Your channel is such a joy to find, I recommend Seether. Just, all of it. Easily my favorite band I recently discovered in a looooong time. Gonna point to Rise Above This as a specific by I have so many from them~
@heartsupport I've always loved this song but relate so much more to it now because of your double purpose explanation of this song and have experienceed the second part with a loved one and oh my goodness it hits in the feels
Ronnie Radke/Falling In Reverse covered Last Resort in a very different way. Their version brings out a lot of different things even though it's the same song.
Gotta say i just really dont enjoy falling in reverse's take on it. I feel like it made the song way more, idk emo doesnt seem like the right word for it, but all the energy is gone and thats what makes the song great to me. I can understand why people like it but i cant listen to the same exact lyrics and not just hear papa roach behind it
It’s amazing! With the original I generally get caught up in how catchy the song is and when I do listen to the lyrics they aren’t sung in a super emotional way more of a pissed off way so I’m like damn but I don’t get super emotional whereas the falling in reverse version made me tear up and made me super emotional the first time I heard it
Falling in Reverse’s cover of this hits so much harder to me. Like this version will always be a banger but Falling in Reverse makes you feel the lyrics.
I wish I could find someone like you to talk to. I love your insights and you seem easy to talk to. I just had my 24 year anniversary of being a quadriplegic and in a wheelchair from a car accident which i was passenger. I have yet to really talk to anyone about it seriously.
From toastaintbad: @damunchman3120 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans, I recommend to talk with someone to express your emotion to others like a mental health professional. That must have been traumatic for you after that car accident. I also will be scared and traumatized too. I'm here to support you and you can always talked to me on HeartSupport platform. I loved to help others too.
From Micro: @damunchman3120 Oh my friend. I'm really sorry that you have experienced such a tragic accident. I can only imagine how traumatic and life-changing this event has been for you and in your life. Not only the brutality of the accident itself and being confronted to the fragility of your own life, of the life of others. But then to also have to re-learn to live in a complete different way. It's hard to talk about those things, especially when the grief you've been carrying since then keeps weighing heavy on you. Words can be a relief but they are hard to use, especially when you need to find the right person to express them to. For what it's worth, I'm so very proud of you for your willingness to talk about it and share this part of your story with someone. I carry myself taumas I'm still not ready to talk about even though I know I should. There's something about knowing and feeling when the time is right for you, and I hope you don't carry any regret with you regarding the fact that it's been 24 years already. If this had to be your own timeline before getting to the point of feeling like you want to talk about it with someone seriously, then so be it. You have, without a doubt, done your best to survive, cope, navigate through all the deep emotions and hurt that this accident has created in your life - and you can be proud of yourself for not letting it take the best of you. If you would like to share more, please know you are welcome to do so here too. It's different of course and not "live" with someone, but heartsupport is a safe community with people who care about one another. We try to make these spaces as safe as possible especially for everyone to have the possibility to share their story just as they need. You are safe and you belong. Always. :heart:
Look girl there's a reason I assume & or I'd bet that you are successful at what you do because that passion definitely comes across as true sincerity to those seeking words that may help them figure the way out of whatever storm ones in! So keep on keeping on & know that smiling stay strong face of personality you have helps !
Im developing a massive crush on you. You are so unapologetically you, you don’t seem to filter your feelings and you’re so in tune to feels and that is such a rarre gift
This song is immensely powerful, and I must say that you and your trained words are, too!! Sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. Should you ever read this comment, listen to this song as a cover from an artist called Lauren Babic, you may enjoy it? Keep the good things up Taylor x
This song hits hard. I am suicidal and it terrifies me. But at the same time it feels like a warm blanket I just want to wrap myself with. I use to drink to dull my urges but it actually makes me feel worse. I still have those feelings and I do feel no one will miss me when I’m gone
From djstarion: @philiprivera9427 Hello! It really does hit hard, doesn't it? I know that feeling all to well. In 2019 I was suicidal, and I thought nothing was gonna pull me out of that. But I also kept a lot in, because I had no idea how to actually vocalize how I felt to people. I had this long lasting doubt that I wasn't good enough to be listened to. But I was! And so are you. One of the hardest things being in this mindset is speaking out and opening up about how you are feeling, and you've done that with us, and I couldn't be prouder of you! People will miss you, even if you don't see it. And you've broken one wall already, now it's time to be able to have that same willingness to open up with those close to you. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how far it is, it's there. It may take a lot of work to get there, but in the end it will be 100% worth it <3
From twixremix: @philiprivera9427 hey friend, thank you for being here and opening up about your struggle and thoughts. it’s hard when the greatest pain we feel brings a comfort like you mention with the warm blanket feeling. you’ve taken a huge step now though by voicing your feelings in this way through your comment. another huge step i want to commend you on is the acknowledgement on how drinking makes things worse. i’ve been in your shoes where dulling my pain through substances was all that could get me through but that wasn’t productive towards my own growth and healing. i understand you and see you. it’s so incredibly tough where we search and search and search for some answer, resolution, or way to cope with all that weighs on our shoulders but nothing brings comfort. i believe that search has led you to leaning on suicide as your answer. i do know that, even without meeting you, that you would be missed. i say that with full confidence because people aren’t the best at voicing or showing their love and appreciation super well, which causes people to believe that no one cares. you would leave a gap in many lives but honestly, you would leave a gap in your own future. the little moments like seeing nature in all its beauty, eating a nice pastry, exchanging a smile with a stranger, and so on. and also big moments like spending time with friends and family, finding community, pursuing passions, and so on. you have unlimited potential and a heart made to love and heart made to receive love. i know life is impossibly hard right now. i’ve been there, i get you. but you would be missed and you can get out of this darkness. the light is on your horizon and i believe in you fully and unconditionally that you can get back up and find a safer warm blanket to wrap your heart and mind in. you got this, my friend. love, twix
From Lisalovesfeathers: @philiprivera9427 Hello Friend Thank you so very much for your post, I am glad this song has given you the encouragement to reach out. It is frightening to feel like you want your life to end or that you don't care if you live or die, it is also confusing, scary and desperately sad to think that you could leave this life and no one will care or miss you. I cannot imagine anyone not being missed by someone, we are all loved or cared for by someone even if we don't realise it and I for one would feel very sad if I knew you had ended your life as I believe you deserve to live and live in a peaceful and happier way thank you do at present. I think it is wonderful that you have recognised that drinking is not doing you good but the opposite and with that and making this first step, you are making moves towards remarkable changes in your life. I found that therapy was a great assest when I felt like my life was not worth living, opening up to family and not hiding away anymore. It helped me greatly along with a wonderful GP. I hope you have the help available to you if you want it. Friend you are deserving of so much more in this life, please do not give up. Much Love lisa x
From HI_ImHappy: @philiprivera9427 It is never easy to open up about how you feel, especially to strangers online. Thank you for sharing, and whether or not you believe it, just that one little step, that one message is the hardest step. Feeling the way that you are, the comfort in the darkest of places, happens to a lot of people, especially when struggling with depression. Being in a place for a long time, you grow accustomed to it, and it's hard to visualize life outside of this box, but even just recognizing that your view of the world is through this lens makes a massive difference. I'm sure it seems to you that no one will miss you, and that's not your fault. The society that we live in, especially pertaining to men, shames those who open up and share their feelings, and even if it doesn't seem like people love you, I promise you they do. And so many more people than you realize will miss you if you're gone. I'm very glad you recognized that drinking makes you feel even worse, and I'm proud of you for opening up. Those two things show me that you want to feel better and are fantastic first steps on that healing journey. I wish you the best of luck on your journey.
From Riri: @philiprivera9427 This song indeed hits hard when you can relate to them, which is something I wish you wouldn't relate to. When the constant thought of death is in your mind everyday, and you start believing all those lies that the word would be better off without you, that no one cares about you and that they won't miss you if you are gone. But oh dear, they will miss you, you are valued and loved even if you can't see or are able to feel it, because you are drowning in so much darkness and pain that you are unable to break that haze that surrounds you, and it makes living so hard, it steals away your joy and hope, it steals away your warmth and just leaves you cold. It feels like a warm blanket because you feel like it's the only way out, it's an escape, and it makes you feel somehow safe in that way, but it is not. It's good that you realized that drinking made you feel worse, so you can still try other healthy options that might really help you. I've been there, with daily suicidal thoughts, believing and feeling the same as you, wishing so bad to give up, to escape from this constant pain, to not feel anything anymore, being so sure that my family and friends would be better off without me that I am a waste of space. But I was so wrong. I found my safe place in music, then I saw that I am not alone in this. Sailing through the lyrics and finding that spark of hope in those waves I was drowning in. Slowly I started to try again, to try to get better, more music, I started therapy that helped understand and find myself better, I made connections with new people, and I paid more attention to little things that made me see how people show their love even if they don't say it out loud, but it is there. I hope that you will find the way to find your spark and to hold on to it! Be safe friend! - R
Fun fact. Jacoby wrote this song inspired by a friend of his who attempted suicide (it’s actually not about Jacoby himself). His friend is alive and in a good place now.
@heartsupport I really appreciate the way you took this song because I always took it as a dare. Like I WISH someone would tell me I'm fine. Like, please do. I want to hear it. Because I'm NOT fine. Whatever told you I was is nothing but a liar.
From NateTriesAgain: @kitcoakley1357 I completely relate. I was just doing some journaling and realized that I would discredit people close to me that would encourage me because I would say things like: "Well, you don't really understand. If you knew, you wouldn't say that." It's so easy to bat away the love we receive. We fear that by embracing it, it will be overwritten by criticism. And the criticism feels more true. So we feel like a fool for allowing anything good into our lives. Just TRY to tell me I'm worth it. Just TRY to tell me I'm fine. We almost gain a sense of strength of being the one to criticism, to keep the good out, because we feel like - ah, I'm not being a fool. And in a backwards sense, it feels like empowerment. But over time, what ends up happening is that WE are the only voice of criticism left in our lives. And we are someone we can't escape. There is something daringly vulnerable about allowing others to love us. To encourage us. To say good things about ourselves and be risky enough, courageous enough to say "thank you". I will give you the chance here...you matter, friend. You do. You are worthy of love. You are worthy of the perseverance it takes to actually get to a place where you are fine. You are worthy of the risk to receive love. You matter. Thank you for posting. -nate, heartsupport staff
I just found your channel today through this video and tonight has been so hard. dealing with someone else close to me who was spiraling and some things were said to me by them and just.....other stuff has been pushing on me over the past few days and it just seems a bit too much right now. Your words and the video kinda opened my eyes as to where i'm headed again, it's not the first time ive been in this place in my head. I don't know how to always get out though.
I remember my other half reached out to me was his last resort of losing his life. I was torn into peaces. He was battling for years until his last breath.
Please, PLEASE, tell me you gonna post Ronnie's version of this song! As someone who loves both bands and hear this kind of music ever since I was in my late childhood, I say that both resonates with the time that passed, iykwim. The pain transformed into rage and hate as a teenager and then you actually allowing yourself to feel, to sorrow, to cry and whatnot, y'know
Something a lot of people don't realize, is everyone has a breaking point. Some of us are fortunate enough to never realize that. Others, know exactly where there breaking point is.
ahora entiendo el porque este estilo musical y esta banda esta siendo tan popular entre los adolescentes actuales, se sienten identificados con estas letras .
If no one has mentioned this if im not mistaken he wrote this song because of one of his close friends who had attempted suicide and later when he hit his lowest this song also helped him.
This album is one of those rare albums that you can play from first to last song without skipping!! Another no skip album is the Rancid….and out come the wolves album!
I remember locking myself in a bathroom and swallowing alot of pills while playing this song dont remember much but waking up in a hospital to my stomach being pumped!!!
This has been me my whole life pretty much started to self harm in like 8th grade I’m forty now and still struggle I don’t know how many times I’ve tried I have BPD and many other mental health issues in 2020 I tried ending it again and was doa and in a coma and on life support and fro some reason I woke up. I got sober but can’t seem to deal with my trauma
therapists always say we know what you feel realy you don't, after my deadly motorcycle accident all i hear is we feel the pain the struggle to survive i don't think so. i'm sick of it
From Micro: @pascaldesnoeck8671 The frustration you've been feeling and what you describe makes so much sense. Keep ontrying, my friend. You deserve to feel supported after this traumatic accident. www.loom.com/share/ab4ec6d7d159426d9822747566d92721
Interesting explanation on how you define the two meanings of "The Last Resort." To take that a little further, I think that the one fighting and striving to stay alive might equate to a primal or subconscious process that is inherent in every living thing on Earth, human or not; the will to survive. It's the bad mental side versus the biological side.
Love your analysis, i would like u listen to Youth of the Nation from POD, and The kids aren't alright, from The Offspring. Those songs always hit me hard.
You need to do a review of Papa Roach's "Leave A Light On", and Disturbed's "A Reason To Fight" which makes me cry every time I hear it cause it really hits home. Both are huge supporters of mental health reform and suicide prevention. David Draiman (Disturbed) stops the show at some concerts and talks about it. He has people up on the stage who are suffering from thoughts of suicide and need to be lifted up and understood and then plays this song.
I can't describe my anger at the "radio edit" of this song. It's a rallying cry to those who are at thier last resort, it tells them they are not alone that someone understands. How DARE some radio censor or pearl clutching republican try to hide that from those who need it
As someone who tried and failed when I was in my mid 20s (62 now). When I decided it was time. I truly thought I had no other option. My failure was only discovered by a friend who made me promise that no matter how bad life got I was not allowed to do that again. He explained that everyone gets a "ticket" and if you stand in line to punch it and are to "stupid" to do it your ticket has already been punched. I promised and I am a person of my word above everything else. There have been times but I don't have a ticket. And if you are thinking about punching your ticket ping me first. I care,
one that is incredibly heavy but also allows great discussion is Su$cide from Ren. its done in 2 parts where first is from a the persons perspective and the 2nd is from someone left behind and it really is an eye opener.
As a person who has suicidal ideation pretty much every day, to keep going is a choice. I've not lived for myself my whole life, up until 2020. Always trying to appease someone or fit into a mold of someone else's idea of an ideal person. A close friend took his life in 2020 and it still haunts me today. Which is why I wouldn't do it. I know the pain, and would never want anyone else to feel it. But, it's still there. I'm working on putting the intrusive thoughts into a song, at the moment. It might help put things into perspective for those who don't deal with them. Hopefully my pain can help someone else.
From Lisalovesfeathers: @musickf Friend I cannot imagine the moment this happened to you, the pain of losing a brother would be hard enough, the shock of losing him overnight unexpectedly is horrifying and the fear of knowing how it happened and the guilt of feeling it was your fault completely explains why you feel so eaten up. I am so incredibly sorry for loss of your brother; I have a brother myself and cannot imagine losing him. I am also desperately sorry for the whole situation that you found yourself in, what a tragic thing to happen to both of you, I say that because its sounds like both of your lives seemed to have ended that day which of course was not meant to be. When someone we love passes, we always can find a reason to feel guilt, it appears to be inbuilt, we all have this ability to find a reason to punish ourselves for so many different things, a couple of them being **Regret Over Past Actions**: People might feel guilty about things they did or didn't do when the person was alive. This can include unresolved conflicts, unfulfilled promises, or missed opportunities to express love and appreciation. **Perceived Responsibility**: Individuals may feel they could have prevented the death or loss, even if this belief is irrational. They might replay events in their mind, thinking of what they could have done differently. As uncommon as the situation behind your brothers passing is, the reaction and grief you are feeling is understandable and perfectly normal however it is not something you should have to continue to be “eaten away” by for years to come, you don’t deserve that because you have not done anything wrong, and I am beyond certain that your brother would not want that either. As hard as it is, what happened albeit because of drugs, what happened was a tragic accident that could have happened at any time. You may have been there, you may have acquired the drugs, but you did not make anyone take them, that friend was only one person’s choice that night. Having said that, that does not take away the pain of loss, that desperate feeling of wanting so badly to see them one last time, grief counselling can help though, it doesn’t stop you grieving but it can help you to manage it so you can continue to live and hopefully not feel guilty doing so. I don’t know what your thoughts are, I am not a religious person but I do like to think that our past loved ones are still nearby and that your brother is desperately trying to let you know that you can let go of that guilt and that he loves you and knows that none of this was because of you and that he wants you to move forward and make the most of the life you have left, live for both of you. I am thankful the music and video brought you to heartsupport and I hope it continues to be helpful and at least some of my words may have helped. I wish you well friend. Much Love Lisa. X
From Micro: @musickf For so long, you've been living for others, trying to meet their expectations and fit into their molds. It's exhausting to feel like you were not living your own life, and to reach a breaking point later on. There's only so much we can take and only so much we can hide until the mask falls down. The fact that you’re working on putting your intrusive thoughts into a song is so amazing. Music can be such a powerful way to express emotions and experiences that are hard to put into words. By sharing your pain through your music, you might help others who are struggling to understand or cope with their own thoughts, just like someone reading your comment here might feel inspired by your own story. It’s a beautiful way to turn your pain into something that could potentially help someone else feel less alone. Your vulnerability is a strength *and* an asset for healing. You've realized that your own needs and desires matter, and that is such a beautiful place to be in. t’s okay to acknowledge the pain and the daily struggle. Tour decision to keep going and to transform your pain into something meaningful is going to help you move mountains in your life, my friend. Your voice deserves to be heard, could it be through words or music. You matter. You always did, you always will. Thank you for being here today and sharing these inspiring words with us. :heart:
From toastaintbad: @strikethatreverseit9108 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans, I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. You did the best you can to support her. Your friend seemed like a wonderful person to help others struggling with mental health issues. It's super important for others to take care their mental health before others. Work can overtake our lifestyle that makes us stressed out.
From Micro: @strikethatreverseit9108 My heart goes out to you, friend. It's so hard to lose someone you love to suicide. You can't be prepared for it, for the shock it creates and the brutal reality if forces you to face. Sometimes we think that people around us have it all together and are doing okay, while internally they feel like burning, the feel lost, as if life becomes absolutely excruciating and nothing else. It's hard when you are the person who stays and feel the powerlessness it creates in you. You ask yourself if things could have been different, maybe prevented, you wonder if there are signs you didn't see - it's pure torture to the soul. Then thinking of all the opportunities lost, the time that isn't going to be spent with them anymore, the family they leaft behind them. It's devastating. I'm so sorry you've been knowing such loss and grief, my friend. In the midst of it, if you feel any sense of guilt, then I truly hope you can anchor yourself in the truth that it wasn't anyone's fault. I have been myself on the two sides of this situation, and suicidal thoughts usually leads one to not see anything or anyone beyond their pain. We can know rationally that we are loved and have support in our life, but the very act of reaching out feels overwhelming, if not shameful. There is no doubt that you were a good friend to them and offered them the possibility to build good memories in their life. That you were a caring presence and they knew it deep inside. Sending so much hugs your way. :heart:
Great job with your analysis and reaction to the song Last Resort from Papa Roach if you enjoy this song you might want to check out We Are The Youth of A Nation from P.O.D.
My brother took his life in 2007. None of us who knew him best had a clue. He called me on a Tuesday and we planned a trip together. Saturday morning he shot himself. The part about not being left alone doesn't always work. In 1995 my friend who was more like a brother. We had been best friends since second grade. He called me and said he was having some thoughts. I went to his house and hung out with him. He told me he was going to the bathroom and when he came back he had his dad's .44. I told him he didn't need that. He said ain't it pretty and before I could get to him he put it against his head and pulled the trigger. I was there with him, he was looking at me. I have PTSD from several things in my life. This is one of them that I can still smell everything.
From Micro: @quintonwalls6174 I can't even begin to imagine the pain you're going through. Losing your brother to suicide, and having to witness it firsthand, simply goes beyond words. It is completely understandable that, even now, there are sensations that come back to you from that day and would make you feel like you're still there. This very moment has shifted your entire world. The flashbacks, the triggers, the constant state of being on edge, like your mind and body are stuck in that horrific moment, unable to move forward... it's like being trapped in a living nightmare that you can’t wake up from, a scene that’s burned into your memory. The world moves on, but for you, it feels like time has stopped at that moment. It is so hard to carry this weight with you everyday, and I'm so very thankful that you've opened up about it here. Even if it's just about connecting with one another here, even just for the possibility of letting you know that someone out there hears your pain and is sitting right next to you in this virtual space. For there is, truly, no right or wrong way to process the reality of what happened. You are seen and your pain is felt. You are not alone my friend, and it's absolutely understandable to feel the way you do. Sending so many hugs your way. :heart:
Last Resort kinda has this happy, almost triumphant sounding riff running through it on top of the chugging nu-metal chords and in the music video it shows many sad kids. So, I actually think Papa Roach intended this song to be uplifting to those feeling this way. Like come to the Papa Roach concert and you'll feel better for a bit
this is soo true Taylor about the last cry for help. I was in this situation 5 years ago after my divorce. I was so close to doing it and I said to a co-worker "I don't care I won't be here monday" Thankfully he took it seriously and called my boss right away. It was a sunday. She drove to meet me at work from her home. She started talking to me , taking my feelings seriously. I told her that my daughter would be better off without me and shocked me by telling me that her dad commited suicide when she was little and that she wasn't better off. That shook me and I got some help at that very moment. I am very thankful to her.
Thank you for staying. Praying for you man. I miss my brother deeply. Same situation. Ive never been the same since. Much love
Wow. What an incredible story. It just proves that when people actually talk to each other about issues such as this, that wonderful things can happen. I've heard a few stories down the years of people taking their lives completely unexpectedly, people with lovely families amid affluent surroundings...no apparent logic. Whatever we're going through, we just need to TALK to someone and share our innermost feelings of fear, loneliness or paranoia. Please, just TALK.
This song/album is one of the few reasons I'm still here
Falling in Reverse did this song it's own justice, soo powerful
@@iiJaws autotuned to shit though, unfortunately.
@@strider5119 But Jacoby Shaddix saw it differently, he also thinks the version is great, watch the video with Ronnie and Jacoby
I'm glad you're still here..... Metallica and Slayer were there for me.
Tool, beartooth, and 5fdp for me. Almost drank myself to death on purpose... depression and addiction are hell. Glad we're all still here. Music saved us
The Falling in Reverse cover of this, literally broke me, I bawled.
I deal with suicidal Ideology, it's been a none stop battle for the last 9 years and Ronny nailed it with a more adult feeling, Papa Roach made this in my adolescence and the meaning really didn't impact me back then, now.. it's very very real.
From Micro: @Atlas_UK Yeah, it's interesting how we can re-discover a music years later as it just resonates differently with our heart. I like to think that we somehow "meet" the right music at significant times - and when the timing is appropriate there is a real magic happening. The experience you have with Papa Roach, of now feeling like it's somehow like holding a mirror to you, is one that I'm sure many of us can relate to here. And somehow there may be comfort to find in at least knowing that we are not alone in our struggles, even when it feels like we're prisoners of our own mind and that no one can see it. For what it's worth from a stranger like me, I see you, I hear you right now, and I understand through my own struggles suicidal ideation the heaviness of the burdens you've been carrying.
I started to struggle with suicidal thoughts when I was a kid, but to me it is something that comes and go usually. When it's gone though it's not really away. It's simply more muted. It feels like having this dark shadow following you everywhere you go and like you just can't get rid of it. I hate that it manifests as this inner voice that invites me to give up on everything - to give up on hope - whether I am having a good or a bad time. It doesn't discriminate between what's good or not. It's just constantly and continuously there, while it doesn't feel like you can just push it away or ignore it either. It's like being stuck in the same room with someone trying to influence you to move towards a different direction while you know it is no good. It takes so much energy to compose with it daily, to keep finding your way through this life while there's a song on repeat inside of your mind telling you to end it all.
Nine years of struggling with this must have been such a hard and intense battle for you. I can't begin to imagine the amount of tears and dark days you had to go through. It is so hard to feel like your own mind is a trap you're stuck in, and that what's inside of it keeps bringing you down more and more. It's even more difficult that it'shard to express it, to actually put words on it and find someone that would be able to hear you out. Suicidal ideation is a lonely burden to carry, and for all these reasons I'm so thankful you chose to speak about it today, because you certainly don't deserve to stay alone with it. Not years ago, not today, not ever.
If there is one certainty in the midst of this, it is that you are never wrong for opening up, for talking about it, for reaching out or even asking for help. There are burdens that need to be spoken so they can appear less intimidating, eventually less heavy. And there are people out there willing to carry the burdens with us - who understand what it's like, who get it because they've been there too, and who can bring inspiration as they speak from the other side of this obstacle - from where breathing feels much lighter and is not in contradiction with being alive.
To these thoughts that try to take the best of you, I want to say to them that you matter very much, and you didn't come so far to let them have the last word. That you know and understand them, that you see through them and have so much strength within than they could ever imagine. And I want to say to you that you belong in this world, even during moments when you feel like you don't. You will get through this, friend. And through it, you can be sure that you have allies here willing to walk alongside you. You're not alone.
Sending much hugs and thoughts your way.
-Micro
@@HeartSupport You should check out falling in reverses cover of this song it hits the heart in a mature way that feels more impactive.
@@HeartSupport Thank you for the kind message Micro, The battle continues, but I know the consequences would result in not my own demise, but another's too, my mother's heart would give out for sure given her poor health, and it would take her too, taking my own life is one thing but my moms too, I couldn't forgive myself for that, So I fight on.
what an AMAZING version by Falling in Reverse
Ronnie is a pure Genius
i personally am not a fan of Falling in Reverse but I have to give it to them... the cover is BEAUTIFUL! The emotion in the cover really helps someone understand the lyrics PAPA Roach was trying to convey with this song. Absolutely amazing cover.
Therapist, I'm sorry about the friend you lost. You're an inspiration to many lost souls who listen to you. God bless you for the good work you do.
Had a feeling youd get around to this one lol
Papa Roach is my favorite band, so heres the story behind last resort
Jacoby, the singer, wrote it about a childhood friend of his, named Mark Parham.
Jacoby and Mark had a rough upbringing, both used drugs + alcohol quite heavily
Eventually the drugs sent Mark into depressive spiral, eventually leading to him attempting suicide.
Mark went to treatment, got sober, came back, and jacoby felt like he couldn’t relate to who mark had become bc jacoby was still very much in that world of addiction
The song is about Marks downward spiral through the eyes of jacoby, who felt responsible for the whole thing because he was the one who introduced drugs to the situation
Years later jacoby eventually had his own issues with depression and suicidal tendencies, as such he says the song took on a new meaning for him at that time
Today Mark and Jacoby are both alive and well, got sober, and have families
holy shit
Please react to the Falling in Reverse reimagining of this song. You will be amazed at how much more emotion is brought out of the lyrics. It was played for the lead singer of Papa Roach before being released & he loved it.
You know the best thing about papa roach, they 100% devoted so much to suicide prevention and they make music to tell people they aren't alone. They will "leave a light on" and talk away the dark. You should show that video. They are making a difference!
As a person that as battled this for over decade it is mind refreshing to watch someone that gets it!! Spread peace and love!!!!
I am suicidal, i have tried to take my own life three times, the first time i got help put on me, that made me realise i needed the help, although it took a long time for me to realise it, but i realised it finally.
The thoughts of myself and the way i went through my days at the worst pain, to be honest if people knew and could actually be put into my shoes to see and feel the way i feel as a non suicidal person, they would most likely never even vocal the words that suicidal people are selfish and it is a selfish act.
The last time of my suicidal attempt i stood on a bridge in the early morning above a traintrack, if falling from the bridge didn’t do it, the train would definitively do it and send the peace of mind finally to me to get rid of the bullying horrible demonic thoughts that every waking hour haunted me……but my fear of doing it got the better of me, although i blamed myself for that too, that i was such a weak person who couldn’t even do this, i am happy that fear took over once again.
For anyone who is suicidal and feel that you are in the darkness wandering alone, remember that you are loved, cherished and appreciated for you, you are amazing and i am sending you lots of love ❤️ and hugs 🤗.
You are not alone, you got me, reach out your hand and i will meet it halfway 😊.
The fact that you describe it as a fight, You're literally in a battle with yourself, and its relentless. Having someone, anyone, to listen and make you feel not alone, make you feel like SOMEONE actually cares if you live or die, is sometimes all you need to push back against the darkness.
Gotta listen to Ronies version now. Falling in Reverse has changed a lot over the years.
Exactly how I felt after I lost my mother. I spent years just waiting to die. Then the day I was going to end it all i found out i was going to be a dad. That was my wake up call.
OMG. Thank you for your perspective. I can't describe how much I connect. Thank you. Stay awesome.
Everyone else jams to this song this song used to make me cry my damn eyes out
When I first heard it as a teen, I just rocked out to it because of the rhythm and energy. As I've gotten older, and I've taken down many of my emotional walls, this song hits in a completely different way. I have to hold tears back everytime I listen to this song
This song just helped me get through the hardest times of my life. Love papa roach!!!
Some of the songs that have helped me in my darker moments, maybe they can help some of yall too -
Korn - Daddy (that one can be tough to listen too. Very graphic)
Deftones - Sextape
Flyleaf - Im so sick
Alice in chains - rain when i die
Alice in chains - down in a hole
Papa roach - lifeline
Linkin park - powerless
Audioslave - i am the highway
Led Zeppelin - Gallows pole
sometimes its just because we have reached the limit and want an end of the pain..... i reached out and a friend found me moments from the end and got me to a hospital so good for you for trying to help
My counselor says "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"
I have had many low points in my life, I would be ready to end my life, and every time I backed out at the last minute in fear of dying and fear of it being painful.
My most recent one, was only 2 years ago. I grabbed my gun, I knew exactly how I was going to hold it, pin it up to the wall with my weight as to not give it any room to flinch when I pulled the trigger. I knew exactly where I was going to shoot in order to make it quick and painless. When I went to chamber a round, my gun was empty. As it turned out, my wife had noticed my mental health declining for months, and she grew worried, and a week before she had hidden my loaded magazine. Her and I may be divorcing, we may have had some serious problems, and she may have said things to me out of anger that were so aweful that I don't care to repeat it. But, despite everything, she cared enough to remove a hazard from my path, and she actually saved my life because of it. She walked in on me when I was getting ready to do it, and I yelled at her asking where my ammo was, she simply told me she hid it last week. To this day, I don't think she fully comprehends that she saved my life
have you reacted to falling in reverse's cover of last resort? sooo good
I'm new here so I browsed for any FIR songs but couldnt find one😢 I mean atleast the LR one that was actually commissioned by PR for their anniversary.
This shit made me fricken cry. I know that battle that’s inside. That voice does get louder, and it starts to reason with you that maybe the world may better off without you here screwing it up. I won that battle and I’m still here however long later. Speak to anyone guys! You’re not alone!
in part thanks to this song and the story behind it I've gotten help I've needed at the time.
So depression is tamed if not treated, I'm still around and doing things.
What a powerful song, this.
Therapist I am sorry to hear about your friend and thank you for your words to people dealing with suicide
I'm struggling with suicide and depression but have started to seek help. My wife supports me in this world that is so foreign to her. I'll watch your video with her to build understanding. Thank you, your videos are a lot of fun. Especially for explaining the Tool songs to me as a non-native English speaker, the meaning of your interpretation of the lyrics. fantastic
I just found this and I have watched every video I have had a smile on my face it's so nice to see someone get into metal I love the dancing I struggle with BPD and chemical dependant issues I had a bad night last night and was lost in my head and watched the sulfer video after watching alot of videos i fell asleep and woke up still clean abd still alive thank you so much
I don't know you, but it makes me truly happy to read that you're still here.
And I agree, I love her music reaction/break down videos because her energy while listening to it is intoxicating, and then when she breaks down the lyrics to give her thoughts on what it means is so very entertaining and helpful. I listen to all genres of music, but rock and metal are my go to. People tend to think those of us who listen to metal and what not are angry and violent individuals, when in reality, we are actually pretty upbeat people. I think because since we listen to extremely energetic songs that are able to put into words many of our thoughts, feelings and emotions that otherwise we wouldn't be able to express ourselves, it's a form of letting go those bottled up emotions
This channel is a refreshing take on some of the feelings our hearts and minds go through.
For me it feels like I’m playing hide and seek with the black dog.
I think like I’ve found a solid hiding space for a bit of a reprieve. Sometimes for a day, sometimes for years but then the bastard turns up and bites me on the ass.
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine hit hard all those years ago and it still packs a punch.
It’s an amazing gift to be able to support someone who has mental turmoil and I really enjoy being others voice of reason and believing in the good in all but fuck me it’s tough when looking for a little reciprocation.
Big love. Love the channel and the energy ❤
This song was a real hit when it came out, now it's a classic
The thought of doing it crossed my mind today, but I can never go through with it because I don't just think about myself. I consider how it will impact the people around me who love me. Even though today is extremely challenging, it doesn't mean that tomorrow won't be better. If you're one of those people hurting inside, know that you're not alone and that everything is going to be fine. You'll be alright. Fight the battle and never give up. I hope this helps someone going through hard times. Remember, God is with you, and He loves you.
As I'm preparing to comment on your comment, I realize you made this comment a month ago, so I just want to start by saying, I hope you're still with us.
I have these thoughts daily. Sometimes just a quick thought, other times it's a constant presence for days. Two things help me not act on those impulses.
1: my counselor has said to me " suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". I stated this as a response in someone else's comment as well.
2: I try and focus on the one thing in this world that is more important to me then anything, even more important than my life and my darkness. My daughter. She is the one thing in this world that gives me the strength to tolerate my depression and suicidal thoughts
@@reaper4earthcod801 Still alive and going strong thanks for kind words
Ma'am. You need to listen to Ronnie Radke's version of this song.
As a millennial who grew up with this song. Jacoby got us with that teen angst perfectly. Like hands down. This was perfect. We were angry. We were hurt. We were broken. But we were kids. Kids breaking shit and letting out anger.
Ronnie's version... is not that. Thats the version for when were older and the worlds literally chewed us up and spit us out over and over and over again. Its beautiful and devastatingly haunting. It had me bawling when i heard it.
I'm a survivor of 22 attempts. I learned that the pain doesn't stop. It transfers to those who love you. I'm so happy that I found my purpose 8 years ago. No self harming thoughts since. Loving Life!
Here is my papa roach saved my life. I was 18 when this album came out, was depressed and suicidal, just weird thoughts didn't think my life was worth it. None of my friendsor familyknew what was goingon in my head. I instantly gravitated to this album, they came on tour to my town. Mr and my friends always met bands after concerts, so we find their tour bus and hang out with them. I pulled Jacoby aside and explained to him that his music had helped me rethink certain things. After I told him this he grab the back of my head and pushed our foreheads together and told me to always look to the light, and never give up. Gave me a big hug and thanked me for telling him, autographed my cd. My friends were flabbergasted they thought I had a perfect life, because I was quiet and kept to myself, but internally I was a mess. I have obviously gotten through that awkward point and moved on, still love heavy metal and hard rock. Papa roach especially that album will always be in my heart.
This is a classic, but I really love the video for 'Help'. The rabbit is such a great visual depiction of someone who's just on the verge of giving up!
The song is so powerful to how some people feel. Alone in a crowded room and that death is the only way out.
So I've suffered from depression since i was 5 years old. I know that sounds odd, and even then i didn't know or understand it until i got older. My mother passed away suddenly when i was 5, then my father passed when I was 15. I'm 29 now, I had attempted suicide a handful of times throughout my life. I now see a counselor regularly, and I take medication for my depression and anxiety. Honestly, I don't think i would be here today if it wasn't for a several people who are incredibly important to me. Two friends of mine, they may not have known the proper words to say, but that was fine, because knowing they were there for me spoke so much louder than words possibly could. My oldest brother, he is always willing to listen and help me understand and talk through what i may be going through or feeling. After our father passed, he was in a low place and almost ended his life after drinking to much, my oldest sister is the one who found him in that state, and got him the help he needed. It's comforting knowing I can turn to my brother when I'm in a low place, since he has been there before, and still came out the other side. When I told him I was going to counseling and was prescribed antidepressants and found a medicine that helped, he said something that he has never said to me before, he told me he was proud of me.
And most importantly, my daughter. Because of her, i have completely changed as a person, and she is my reason to stay in this world, she is truly my guiding light when I'm at my darkest place in my head the proper words to say, but that was okay, because knowing they were there for me spoke so much louder than words possibly could. And most importantly, my daughter. Because of her, i have completely changed as a person, and she is my reason to stay in this world, she is truly my guiding light when I'm at my darkest place in my head.
I have had friends and coworkers who suddenly ended their lives, and I just can't help but think
"how did I miss the signs when I suffer from those demons too? I hide it with humor and always being happy and friendly, and it just hurts knowing that they had done the same thing and I didn't see it. What could I have done to possibly help them? What can I do in the future for someone who may be at the lowest point in their life?"
There are many things that keep me up at night, and this is the most recurring one
This is my theme song unfortunately. Thankyou for dissecting it so well. Ivr lived with this mindset for about 36 of 46 years and its only my kids that keep me alive
My teenage years in one song, long live Papa Roach 🤘
My condolences for losing your friend all those years ago. They never realize how much they will be, or are missed, even years later.
I like the way my friends are supportive that I will take my life because they know the pain
Try being "unemployable" for 10 years... I thought of topping myself. Now i manage my own store. Theres always light at the end
Nu metal saved my life, i was put in a psychic hospital and i was being watch all the time by guards if i did something bad like self harm. If anyone has those thoughts, please call someone. Talk about it. God bless
All I remember from my times of the edge was the painful need/wish for the feeling to end. I just wanted it to stop... so bad...I don't remember what it felt like, I just remember I wanted it to stop sooooo bad. My saving grace was being a single mother of a toddler because I couldn't leave her so somehow I pushed through.
I know this video is old and this chat may be dead, but I just recently found this channel. I won’t go in detail here but your story is similar to mine from just over 7 years ago. I was the one who my friend reached out to and was so caught up in life and work that I failed to see the sign, the last resort. Still to this day not a day goes by that I don’t hate myself for a moment for failing him. Don’t know why I’m spilling all of this here but yeah… thank you for your content and all that you do.
From comebackstory: @steelsox934 That sounds rough - I'm. sorry to hear about your friend. Don't let it weigh on you too much - at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own decisions, even your friend. I know that might not ease the pain, but know that grace is available.
From comebackstory: @steelsox934 That sounds rough - I'm. sorry to hear about your friend. Don't let it weigh on you too much - at the end of the day, we're all responsible for our own decisions, even your friend. I know that might not ease the pain, but know that grace is available.
From SuperTay: @steelsox934 Hey there,
I’m truly sorry for the loss of your friend. I know there are no words that can make that kind of pain go away…but spilling your guts can help make it more bearable. Even if it’s just a tiny bit. Also this is the perfect place for you to spill your guts. That’s what HeartSupport is for… we are here to try and help walk with your through the pain. So pour your heart out if you need to. We are here to listen. you are not alone. So please post anytime you are in need of a listening ear or heart needs support. Stay strong friend.
From SuperTay: @steelsox934 Hey there,
I’m truly sorry for the loss of your friend. I know there are no words that can make that kind of pain go away…but spilling your guts can help make it more bearable. Even if it’s just a tiny bit. Also this is the perfect place for you to spill your guts. That’s what HeartSupport is for… we are here to try and help walk with your through the pain. So pour your heart out if you need to. We are here to listen. you are not alone. So please post anytime you are in need of a listening ear or heart needs support. Stay strong friend.
From bombdiggity: @steelsox934 Hi there!
No, this chat is most definitely not dead. Thank you for posting. I am so sorry about your friend. It was not your fault… Know that probably make the pain go away. Sometimes it’s great to just vent about the weight you carry. To a listening ear… For me it is easier to talk about things to strangers.
We’re always here to encourage & support you! Please reach out to us if you need to anytime.
Take care you yourself.<3
There is a music video of theirs called Broken Home and there it tells what they have been through, it is very good to analyze. I recommend it, papa roach - broken home
P Roach gave so many people a voice with this song and so many others…to this day they’re still doing it…great great band.
I’d love to get some analysis of Marilyn Manson’s Coma White or countless others. He too gave a voice to a generation of forgotten, overlooked, and disenfranchised struggling youth.
Keep up the great work ✌️😎
Perfect song Perfect reaction
MUST listen to Falling In Reverse covering it! You will be mind blown !!!!!!!
Your channel is such a joy to find, I recommend Seether. Just, all of it. Easily my favorite band I recently discovered in a looooong time. Gonna point to Rise Above This as a specific by I have so many from them~
my wife and I cried when this song came out. we did not not think another song!! well all you need to do in listen to ears or Fears the first album.
@heartsupport I've always loved this song but relate so much more to it now because of your double purpose explanation of this song and have experienceed the second part with a loved one and oh my goodness it hits in the feels
Ronnie Radke/Falling In Reverse covered Last Resort in a very different way. Their version brings out a lot of different things even though it's the same song.
Absolutely! That's a must-listen too track.
Gotta say i just really dont enjoy falling in reverse's take on it. I feel like it made the song way more, idk emo doesnt seem like the right word for it, but all the energy is gone and thats what makes the song great to me. I can understand why people like it but i cant listen to the same exact lyrics and not just hear papa roach behind it
@@Mandonburphy Fair thought there
@@Mandonburphy the song at the time was made for one of jacoby's friends who lost his mother and the song prevented him from taking his life.
It’s amazing! With the original I generally get caught up in how catchy the song is and when I do listen to the lyrics they aren’t sung in a super emotional way more of a pissed off way so I’m like damn but I don’t get super emotional whereas the falling in reverse version made me tear up and made me super emotional the first time I heard it
You are an amazing human being, lady.
Falling in Reverse’s cover of this hits so much harder to me. Like this version will always be a banger but Falling in Reverse makes you feel the lyrics.
I wish I could find someone like you to talk to. I love your insights and you seem easy to talk to. I just had my 24 year anniversary of being a quadriplegic and in a wheelchair from a car accident which i was passenger. I have yet to really talk to anyone about it seriously.
From toastaintbad: @damunchman3120 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans,
I recommend to talk with someone to express your emotion to others like a mental health professional. That must have been traumatic for you after that car accident. I also will be scared and traumatized too. I'm here to support you and you can always talked to me on HeartSupport platform. I loved to help others too.
From Micro: @damunchman3120 Oh my friend. I'm really sorry that you have experienced such a tragic accident. I can only imagine how traumatic and life-changing this event has been for you and in your life. Not only the brutality of the accident itself and being confronted to the fragility of your own life, of the life of others. But then to also have to re-learn to live in a complete different way. It's hard to talk about those things, especially when the grief you've been carrying since then keeps weighing heavy on you. Words can be a relief but they are hard to use, especially when you need to find the right person to express them to.
For what it's worth, I'm so very proud of you for your willingness to talk about it and share this part of your story with someone. I carry myself taumas I'm still not ready to talk about even though I know I should. There's something about knowing and feeling when the time is right for you, and I hope you don't carry any regret with you regarding the fact that it's been 24 years already. If this had to be your own timeline before getting to the point of feeling like you want to talk about it with someone seriously, then so be it. You have, without a doubt, done your best to survive, cope, navigate through all the deep emotions and hurt that this accident has created in your life - and you can be proud of yourself for not letting it take the best of you.
If you would like to share more, please know you are welcome to do so here too. It's different of course and not "live" with someone, but heartsupport is a safe community with people who care about one another. We try to make these spaces as safe as possible especially for everyone to have the possibility to share their story just as they need. You are safe and you belong. Always. :heart:
Please listen to Pantera's cemetery Gates.
Look girl there's a reason I assume & or I'd bet that you are successful at what you do because that passion definitely comes across as true sincerity to those seeking words that may help them figure the way out of whatever storm ones in! So keep on keeping on & know that smiling stay strong face of personality you have helps !
Love this song, it was to hard to hear when I was in a very bad place
Im developing a massive crush on you. You are so unapologetically you, you don’t seem to filter your feelings and you’re so in tune to feels and that is such a rarre gift
This song is immensely powerful, and I must say that you and your trained words are, too!! Sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. Should you ever read this comment, listen to this song as a cover from an artist called Lauren Babic, you may enjoy it? Keep the good things up Taylor x
I’m sorry for your loss
Thanks for opening this beautiful channel
I would love to see you do a breakdown video of
Popular Monster and Voice's in my Head by Falling in Reverse
This song hits hard. I am suicidal and it terrifies me. But at the same time it feels like a warm blanket I just want to wrap myself with. I use to drink to dull my urges but it actually makes me feel worse. I still have those feelings and I do feel no one will miss me when I’m gone
From djstarion: @philiprivera9427 Hello!
It really does hit hard, doesn't it? I know that feeling all to well. In 2019 I was suicidal, and I thought nothing was gonna pull me out of that. But I also kept a lot in, because I had no idea how to actually vocalize how I felt to people. I had this long lasting doubt that I wasn't good enough to be listened to. But I was! And so are you. One of the hardest things being in this mindset is speaking out and opening up about how you are feeling, and you've done that with us, and I couldn't be prouder of you! People will miss you, even if you don't see it. And you've broken one wall already, now it's time to be able to have that same willingness to open up with those close to you. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how far it is, it's there. It may take a lot of work to get there, but in the end it will be 100% worth it <3
From twixremix: @philiprivera9427 hey friend,
thank you for being here and opening up about your struggle and thoughts. it’s hard when the greatest pain we feel brings a comfort like you mention with the warm blanket feeling. you’ve taken a huge step now though by voicing your feelings in this way through your comment. another huge step i want to commend you on is the acknowledgement on how drinking makes things worse. i’ve been in your shoes where dulling my pain through substances was all that could get me through but that wasn’t productive towards my own growth and healing. i understand you and see you. it’s so incredibly tough where we search and search and search for some answer, resolution, or way to cope with all that weighs on our shoulders but nothing brings comfort. i believe that search has led you to leaning on suicide as your answer.
i do know that, even without meeting you, that you would be missed. i say that with full confidence because people aren’t the best at voicing or showing their love and appreciation super well, which causes people to believe that no one cares. you would leave a gap in many lives but honestly, you would leave a gap in your own future. the little moments like seeing nature in all its beauty, eating a nice pastry, exchanging a smile with a stranger, and so on. and also big moments like spending time with friends and family, finding community, pursuing passions, and so on. you have unlimited potential and a heart made to love and heart made to receive love. i know life is impossibly hard right now. i’ve been there, i get you. but you would be missed and you can get out of this darkness. the light is on your horizon and i believe in you fully and unconditionally that you can get back up and find a safer warm blanket to wrap your heart and mind in. you got this, my friend.
love,
twix
From Lisalovesfeathers: @philiprivera9427 Hello Friend
Thank you so very much for your post, I am glad this song has given you the encouragement to reach out. It is frightening to feel like you want your life to end or that you don't care if you live or die, it is also confusing, scary and desperately sad to think that you could leave this life and no one will care or miss you.
I cannot imagine anyone not being missed by someone, we are all loved or cared for by someone even if we don't realise it and I for one would feel very sad if I knew you had ended your life as I believe you deserve to live and live in a peaceful and happier way thank you do at present.
I think it is wonderful that you have recognised that drinking is not doing you good but the opposite and with that and making this first step, you are making moves towards remarkable changes in your life. I found that therapy was a great assest when I felt like my life was not worth living, opening up to family and not hiding away anymore. It helped me greatly along with a wonderful GP. I hope you have the help available to you if you want it.
Friend you are deserving of so much more in this life, please do not give up. Much Love lisa x
From HI_ImHappy: @philiprivera9427 It is never easy to open up about how you feel, especially to strangers online. Thank you for sharing, and whether or not you believe it, just that one little step, that one message is the hardest step. Feeling the way that you are, the comfort in the darkest of places, happens to a lot of people, especially when struggling with depression. Being in a place for a long time, you grow accustomed to it, and it's hard to visualize life outside of this box, but even just recognizing that your view of the world is through this lens makes a massive difference. I'm sure it seems to you that no one will miss you, and that's not your fault. The society that we live in, especially pertaining to men, shames those who open up and share their feelings, and even if it doesn't seem like people love you, I promise you they do. And so many more people than you realize will miss you if you're gone. I'm very glad you recognized that drinking makes you feel even worse, and I'm proud of you for opening up. Those two things show me that you want to feel better and are fantastic first steps on that healing journey.
I wish you the best of luck on your journey.
From Riri: @philiprivera9427 This song indeed hits hard when you can relate to them, which is something I wish you wouldn't relate to. When the constant thought of death is in your mind everyday, and you start believing all those lies that the word would be better off without you, that no one cares about you and that they won't miss you if you are gone. But oh dear, they will miss you, you are valued and loved even if you can't see or are able to feel it, because you are drowning in so much darkness and pain that you are unable to break that haze that surrounds you, and it makes living so hard, it steals away your joy and hope, it steals away your warmth and just leaves you cold.
It feels like a warm blanket because you feel like it's the only way out, it's an escape, and it makes you feel somehow safe in that way, but it is not. It's good that you realized that drinking made you feel worse, so you can still try other healthy options that might really help you.
I've been there, with daily suicidal thoughts, believing and feeling the same as you, wishing so bad to give up, to escape from this constant pain, to not feel anything anymore, being so sure that my family and friends would be better off without me that I am a waste of space. But I was so wrong. I found my safe place in music, then I saw that I am not alone in this. Sailing through the lyrics and finding that spark of hope in those waves I was drowning in. Slowly I started to try again, to try to get better, more music, I started therapy that helped understand and find myself better, I made connections with new people, and I paid more attention to little things that made me see how people show their love even if they don't say it out loud, but it is there.
I hope that you will find the way to find your spark and to hold on to it! Be safe friend! - R
What a lovely reaction. ❤ 🙋♂
It is not fun to Live in this world. Self Hatred Destroys a person. Thank you for your help.
Fun fact. Jacoby wrote this song inspired by a friend of his who attempted suicide (it’s actually not about Jacoby himself). His friend is alive and in a good place now.
@heartsupport I really appreciate the way you took this song because I always took it as a dare. Like I WISH someone would tell me I'm fine. Like, please do. I want to hear it. Because I'm NOT fine. Whatever told you I was is nothing but a liar.
Oh, sorry, I didn't realize I already said that ain't nobody said anything, though.
From NateTriesAgain: @kitcoakley1357 I completely relate. I was just doing some journaling and realized that I would discredit people close to me that would encourage me because I would say things like: "Well, you don't really understand. If you knew, you wouldn't say that."
It's so easy to bat away the love we receive. We fear that by embracing it, it will be overwritten by criticism. And the criticism feels more true. So we feel like a fool for allowing anything good into our lives.
Just TRY to tell me I'm worth it. Just TRY to tell me I'm fine.
We almost gain a sense of strength of being the one to criticism, to keep the good out, because we feel like - ah, I'm not being a fool. And in a backwards sense, it feels like empowerment.
But over time, what ends up happening is that WE are the only voice of criticism left in our lives. And we are someone we can't escape.
There is something daringly vulnerable about allowing others to love us. To encourage us. To say good things about ourselves and be risky enough, courageous enough to say "thank you".
I will give you the chance here...you matter, friend. You do. You are worthy of love. You are worthy of the perseverance it takes to actually get to a place where you are fine. You are worthy of the risk to receive love. You matter.
Thank you for posting.
-nate, heartsupport staff
I just found your channel today through this video and tonight has been so hard. dealing with someone else close to me who was spiraling and some things were said to me by them and just.....other stuff has been pushing on me over the past few days and it just seems a bit too much right now. Your words and the video kinda opened my eyes as to where i'm headed again, it's not the first time ive been in this place in my head. I don't know how to always get out though.
I remember my other half reached out to me was his last resort of losing his life. I was torn into peaces. He was battling for years until his last breath.
This song is true as can be. My dad tried. I don't go into it but he made it.
Forever is my favorite paparoach song
Please, PLEASE, tell me you gonna post Ronnie's version of this song!
As someone who loves both bands and hear this kind of music ever since I was in my late childhood, I say that both resonates with the time that passed, iykwim. The pain transformed into rage and hate as a teenager and then you actually allowing yourself to feel, to sorrow, to cry and whatnot, y'know
Something a lot of people don't realize, is everyone has a breaking point. Some of us are fortunate enough to never realize that. Others, know exactly where there breaking point is.
This came out 2000 when i was 15 helped me through some very very dark times, and music today is terrible i wish i was in the early 2000s always 🙏🤘
ahora entiendo el porque este estilo musical y esta banda esta siendo tan popular entre los adolescentes actuales, se sienten identificados con estas letras .
If no one has mentioned this if im not mistaken he wrote this song because of one of his close friends who had attempted suicide and later when he hit his lowest this song also helped him.
This album is one of those rare albums that you can play from first to last song without skipping!! Another no skip album is the Rancid….and out come the wolves album!
I cut school to be a part of that crowd. People discount Papa Roach, but they speak to emotions
Between angels and insects by papa roach is my faviorate. Your reactions are the best🤘🏻🏴
I remember locking myself in a bathroom and swallowing alot of pills while playing this song dont remember much but waking up in a hospital to my stomach being pumped!!!
This this THIS!!!
I ❤❤
This has been me my whole life pretty much started to self harm in like 8th grade I’m forty now and still struggle I don’t know how many times I’ve tried I have BPD and many other mental health issues in 2020 I tried ending it again and was doa and in a coma and on life support and fro some reason I woke up. I got sober but can’t seem to deal with my trauma
therapists always say we know what you feel realy you don't, after my deadly motorcycle accident all i hear is we feel the pain the struggle to survive i don't think so. i'm sick of it
From Micro: @pascaldesnoeck8671 The frustration you've been feeling and what you describe makes so much sense. Keep ontrying, my friend. You deserve to feel supported after this traumatic accident. www.loom.com/share/ab4ec6d7d159426d9822747566d92721
I personally suffer with suicidal ideations most days and its very difficult to deal with
Interesting explanation on how you define the two meanings of "The Last Resort." To take that a little further, I think that the one fighting and striving to stay alive might equate to a primal or subconscious process that is inherent in every living thing on Earth, human or not; the will to survive. It's the bad mental side versus the biological side.
When this dropped it was a chill ass week
The dancing in the beginning...TERRIFIC!!! lol
Definitely check out the falling in reverse version
Love your analysis, i would like u listen to Youth of the Nation from POD, and The kids aren't alright, from The Offspring. Those songs always hit me hard.
You need to do a review of Papa Roach's "Leave A Light On", and Disturbed's "A Reason To Fight" which makes me cry every time I hear it cause it really hits home. Both are huge supporters of mental health reform and suicide prevention. David Draiman (Disturbed) stops the show at some concerts and talks about it. He has people up on the stage who are suffering from thoughts of suicide and need to be lifted up and understood and then plays this song.
I can't describe my anger at the "radio edit" of this song. It's a rallying cry to those who are at thier last resort, it tells them they are not alone that someone understands. How DARE some radio censor or pearl clutching republican try to hide that from those who need it
As someone who tried and failed when I was in my mid 20s (62 now). When I decided it was time. I truly thought I had no other option. My failure was only discovered by a friend who made me promise that no matter how bad life got I was not allowed to do that again. He explained that everyone gets a "ticket" and if you stand in line to punch it and are to "stupid" to do it your ticket has already been punched. I promised and I am a person of my word above everything else. There have been times but I don't have a ticket.
And if you are thinking about punching your ticket ping me first. I care,
one that is incredibly heavy but also allows great discussion is Su$cide from Ren. its done in 2 parts where first is from a the persons perspective and the 2nd is from someone left behind and it really is an eye opener.
As a person who has suicidal ideation pretty much every day, to keep going is a choice. I've not lived for myself my whole life, up until 2020. Always trying to appease someone or fit into a mold of someone else's idea of an ideal person. A close friend took his life in 2020 and it still haunts me today. Which is why I wouldn't do it. I know the pain, and would never want anyone else to feel it. But, it's still there. I'm working on putting the intrusive thoughts into a song, at the moment. It might help put things into perspective for those who don't deal with them. Hopefully my pain can help someone else.
From Lisalovesfeathers: @musickf Friend
I cannot imagine the moment this happened to you, the pain of losing a brother would be hard enough, the shock of losing him overnight unexpectedly is horrifying and the fear of knowing how it happened and the guilt of feeling it was your fault completely explains why you feel so eaten up.
I am so incredibly sorry for loss of your brother; I have a brother myself and cannot imagine losing him. I am also desperately sorry for the whole situation that you found yourself in, what a tragic thing to happen to both of you, I say that because its sounds like both of your lives seemed to have ended that day which of course was not meant to be.
When someone we love passes, we always can find a reason to feel guilt, it appears to be inbuilt, we all have this ability to find a reason to punish ourselves for so many different things, a couple of them being
**Regret Over Past Actions**: People might feel guilty about things they did or didn't do when the person was alive. This can include unresolved conflicts, unfulfilled promises, or missed opportunities to express love and appreciation.
**Perceived Responsibility**: Individuals may feel they could have prevented the death or loss, even if this belief is irrational. They might replay events in their mind, thinking of what they could have done differently.
As uncommon as the situation behind your brothers passing is, the reaction and grief you are feeling is understandable and perfectly normal however it is not something you should have to continue to be “eaten away” by for years to come, you don’t deserve that because you have not done anything wrong, and I am beyond certain that your brother would not want that either.
As hard as it is, what happened albeit because of drugs, what happened was a tragic accident that could have happened at any time. You may have been there, you may have acquired the drugs, but you did not make anyone take them, that friend was only one person’s choice that night.
Having said that, that does not take away the pain of loss, that desperate feeling of wanting so badly to see them one last time, grief counselling can help though, it doesn’t stop you grieving but it can help you to manage it so you can continue to live and hopefully not feel guilty doing so.
I don’t know what your thoughts are, I am not a religious person but I do like to think that our past loved ones are still nearby and that your brother is desperately trying to let you know that you can let go of that guilt and that he loves you and knows that none of this was because of you and that he wants you to move forward and make the most of the life you have left, live for both of you.
I am thankful the music and video brought you to heartsupport and I hope it continues to be helpful and at least some of my words may have helped. I wish you well friend. Much Love Lisa. X
From Micro: @musickf For so long, you've been living for others, trying to meet their expectations and fit into their molds. It's exhausting to feel like you were not living your own life, and to reach a breaking point later on. There's only so much we can take and only so much we can hide until the mask falls down.
The fact that you’re working on putting your intrusive thoughts into a song is so amazing. Music can be such a powerful way to express emotions and experiences that are hard to put into words. By sharing your pain through your music, you might help others who are struggling to understand or cope with their own thoughts, just like someone reading your comment here might feel inspired by your own story. It’s a beautiful way to turn your pain into something that could potentially help someone else feel less alone. Your vulnerability is a strength *and* an asset for healing.
You've realized that your own needs and desires matter, and that is such a beautiful place to be in. t’s okay to acknowledge the pain and the daily struggle. Tour decision to keep going and to transform your pain into something meaningful is going to help you move mountains in your life, my friend. Your voice deserves to be heard, could it be through words or music.
You matter. You always did, you always will. Thank you for being here today and sharing these inspiring words with us. :heart:
I love your ability to make shit right...
only so much of that constant battle you can take before you finally just say ok
My friend took her own life as a Master's Degree holder in Counseling with her own practice. She also had young children. It's so hard.😢
From toastaintbad: @strikethatreverseit9108 Hi @HeartSupport_Fans,
I'm sorry for the loss of your friend. You did the best you can to support her. Your friend seemed like a wonderful person to help others struggling with mental health issues. It's super important for others to take care their mental health before others. Work can overtake our lifestyle that makes us stressed out.
From Micro: @strikethatreverseit9108 My heart goes out to you, friend. It's so hard to lose someone you love to suicide. You can't be prepared for it, for the shock it creates and the brutal reality if forces you to face. Sometimes we think that people around us have it all together and are doing okay, while internally they feel like burning, the feel lost, as if life becomes absolutely excruciating and nothing else. It's hard when you are the person who stays and feel the powerlessness it creates in you. You ask yourself if things could have been different, maybe prevented, you wonder if there are signs you didn't see - it's pure torture to the soul. Then thinking of all the opportunities lost, the time that isn't going to be spent with them anymore, the family they leaft behind them. It's devastating.
I'm so sorry you've been knowing such loss and grief, my friend. In the midst of it, if you feel any sense of guilt, then I truly hope you can anchor yourself in the truth that it wasn't anyone's fault. I have been myself on the two sides of this situation, and suicidal thoughts usually leads one to not see anything or anyone beyond their pain. We can know rationally that we are loved and have support in our life, but the very act of reaching out feels overwhelming, if not shameful. There is no doubt that you were a good friend to them and offered them the possibility to build good memories in their life. That you were a caring presence and they knew it deep inside.
Sending so much hugs your way. :heart:
When I took electric guitar lessons as a teenager my guitar teacher Jack wanted me to learn this song.
Eu ainda estou aqui! Só me lembro de uma frase do filme náufrago: continue respirando nunca se sabe o que a maré poderá trazer.
Great job with your analysis and reaction to the song Last Resort from Papa Roach if you enjoy this song you might want to check out We Are The Youth of A Nation from P.O.D.
My brother took his life in 2007. None of us who knew him best had a clue. He called me on a Tuesday and we planned a trip together. Saturday morning he shot himself.
The part about not being left alone doesn't always work. In 1995 my friend who was more like a brother. We had been best friends since second grade. He called me and said he was having some thoughts. I went to his house and hung out with him. He told me he was going to the bathroom and when he came back he had his dad's .44. I told him he didn't need that. He said ain't it pretty and before I could get to him he put it against his head and pulled the trigger. I was there with him, he was looking at me. I have PTSD from several things in my life. This is one of them that I can still smell everything.
From Micro: @quintonwalls6174 I can't even begin to imagine the pain you're going through. Losing your brother to suicide, and having to witness it firsthand, simply goes beyond words. It is completely understandable that, even now, there are sensations that come back to you from that day and would make you feel like you're still there. This very moment has shifted your entire world.
The flashbacks, the triggers, the constant state of being on edge, like your mind and body are stuck in that horrific moment, unable to move forward... it's like being trapped in a living nightmare that you can’t wake up from, a scene that’s burned into your memory. The world moves on, but for you, it feels like time has stopped at that moment.
It is so hard to carry this weight with you everyday, and I'm so very thankful that you've opened up about it here. Even if it's just about connecting with one another here, even just for the possibility of letting you know that someone out there hears your pain and is sitting right next to you in this virtual space. For there is, truly, no right or wrong way to process the reality of what happened.
You are seen and your pain is felt. You are not alone my friend, and it's absolutely understandable to feel the way you do. Sending so many hugs your way. :heart:
Would like to hear your interpretation of Falling In Reverse’s version.
Last Resort kinda has this happy, almost triumphant sounding riff running through it on top of the chugging nu-metal chords and in the music video it shows many sad kids. So, I actually think Papa Roach intended this song to be uplifting to those feeling this way. Like come to the Papa Roach concert and you'll feel better for a bit