Janette...ikz - RED
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 27 ก.ย. 2024
- This poem is a heart wrenching take on Janette...ikz experience with a miscarriage. It powerfully divulges the pain and frustration that comes with this tragedy but a scriptural perspective on pain using the color Red.
My name is Janette. My husbands name is RED. We had a miscarriage two years ago. I’m so glad I found this piece 😢
You have a gift deeper than poetry, keep telling us about Jesus ❤️
Chiluba Mumba YES.
My Chilu I see you;-) she speaks the truth
That Zambian Girl I see you too sis ❤️...she does speak the truth
I agree🔥🔥❤️❤️
Why did I feel this so deeply when I’ve never even gone through something like this? 😭 You are amazing
I saw her do this live and got major goosebumps and a lump in my throat when she screamed "MAYBE SHE CANNNNN'T"
Me too
I felt like she was telling my story. I thank God for his healing because we still don’t have kids but by God’s grace and mercy our hearts are healed and our marriage is wonderful. So if this is your story too know that everything happens for a reason and despite your pain God loves you more than you know.
Crystal Mason thank you God
Janette Ikz
: Red Lyrics
Red,
Used to be my favourite colour.
Out of all the colours you created.
From the 49ers to the bulls
My barbie Ferrari
My first guitar
Even my favourite flavour of kool-aid was Red
I remember when I told him
His eyes began to radiate with refuge
His smile took over the galaxy
And swallowed the supernova that caused an expansion in his chest
He was proud
And I wished he would never stop looking at me, the way he looked at me.
I found myself
Placing my hand on the bare skin of a soon to be round confirmation
Began eating bowls full of nurture and plates of take it easy
Neither mommy nor daddy had an easy childhood
The absence of our fathers left us carrying disappointment from backpacks to briefcases.
So, Hope, Hope was a distant cousin who had their own room
Nintendo, Cabins with options of food
Two parents, new shoes and fruit snacks too
But finally, it was our turn
And we were expecting
When someone would ask us if we wanted a girl or a boy,
Our response was we wanted healthy and happy
We were happy
My senses became so sensitive
I began to smell the sweet aroma of my grandmother’s prayers
Coming to freshen in the air
And then, I saw… Red
A trembling like Red leaves hanging off the autumn branches
But wait I’m attached to the vine
Maybe, maybe it’s just red
No, wait, God remember we did it right
We waited
We deserve
Red
A Google
Bleeding during pregnancy
Red
About 20% of women have some bleeding during the first twelve weeks of pregnancy
Red
Or, light bleeding
And spotting is common at times
Red, Red, Red, Red
Red,
And I’m still lost as to why You would launch a fire far into the sky
Then silence the bang
And murder the colour
Why catapult life into the air
And watch us gaze like deer at dawn
With a hope that was present
Prior to the partaking of the forbidden
And I could never seem to get away from the askers
Well you know the askers
When you’re single the question is like
“Hey, why are you single?”
So then you get in a relationship and two days later
The question is
“Well, when you gonna get married?”
And then you get married so now the question is
“Well, when you gonna have kids?”
But wait, you still haven’t had kids, so now they are asking you again
“When are you gonna give us some babies?”
So now I wanna ask the askers
“Did you ever take the time to consider, maybe she can’t?!?”
And every time you ask her, ask her
You launch a thousand missiles into her chest
Your words have literally made her a casualty of the war that she fought
Just to get up and walk outside
Expecting to see the light
Your questions have backed her into a tomb
She has to be resurrected after every conversation with you
I had not quite seen in forty years
But it’s real when I tell you
I was tired of the complaints from those He already provided for
Grumbling with full bellies
Manna and seed
I was a woman in mourning
Longing for morning sickness and backaches
I couldn’t stare nine months or another woman in her face
I couldn't be happy for my fellow sisters when they came up to me and say
“Sis, I’m alright”
Maybe it was my fault,
Maybe it was me
Maybe I wasn’t calm enough
Maybe I didn’t drink water enough
Maybe I didn’t eat enough
Rest enough,
Maybe I didn’t pre-natal enough
I remember when I told him
He didn’t give the comforting, calculated, pre-meditated answer to the equation I had in my mind
And I wished he would stop looking at me
The way he looked at me
When I’m tired of being covered in these blankets in the middle of the night
Because I’m tired of being covered in shame
He says to me
“Let’s pray”
But I don’t want to talk to Him or You
Our Sovereign God
Sovereign means, this happened on Your watch
Or Omniscient God
Omniscient means, You knew this would happen before it happened
So why let it happen?
Oh, Faithful God
Faithful
Where’s the faithfulness in allowing me to experience this happiness
Only to snatch this joy right back away?
Oh Omnipotent God
Omnipotent means, You and Your all-mighty power could have stopped this from happening
But still, You chose to let me see Red
Why?
Why Red?
Why me?
“Then Moses stretched out his hand over the Red Sea and the Lord swept the Red Sea back by a strong east wind all night and turned the Red Sea into dry land. So the waters were divided The sons of Israel went to the midst of the Red Sea and the dry land and the waters were like a wall to them on their right hand and on the left.”
Oh Omnipotent God,
-“Come now and let us reason together,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are as scarlet, they will be as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson they will be like wool.”
Oh Faithful God, “The blood shall be a sign for you on the houses where you live, and when I see the blood, I will pass over you. And no plague will be for you; destroyed. When I strike the land of Egypt.”
Oh Omniscient God, “ And behold a woman who had suffered from a discharge of blood for twelve years came up behind Him and touched the fringe of His garment.
- For she said to herself, “If I only touch His garment, I will be made well. Jesus turned and seeing her said-
- “Take heart daughter your faith has made you well.”
And instantly the woman was made well. And I am not the first woman with a Red issue.”
Oh Loving God, Loving God “Then the soldiers of the governor took Jesus into the Praetorium and gathered the whole Roman cohort around Him. They stripped Him and put a scarlet Red robe on Him. And after twisting together a crown of thorns, they put it on His head, and a reed in His right hand; and they knelt down before Him and mocked Him, saying “Hail King of the Jews!” They spat on Him, and took the reed and began to beat Him on the head after they had mocked Him. They took the scarlet Red robe off Him and put His own garments back on Him. And lead him away to crucify Him.”
Oh Merciful God, “Beaten beyond recognition. Flesh torn like the heart of Your mother Mary watching on in anguish. Pierced in Your side, crucified as your body shed Red. And this Red that was shed it removes me of my sin. Removes me of my guilt, removes God’s wrath.”
I am reconciled because of Red.
I am redeemed because of Red.
I’m justified and forgiven
I’m free because of Red.
Dear Lord,
Don’t let me forget Your love letters written to me in Red
This life will not be without suffering.
Don’t let me forget what I have read
And God,
God said, “My child, Red, is still your favourite colour.”
Thank you for taking the time to write this for us. It is really helpful.
Thank you very much for this
Thank you so much
Thank you❤
I literally have no words! Janette is amazing, her vulnerability ...just wow!
True God is using her mightily. Happy to see a fellow kenyan here.
The depth of this piece! RED will never be just another colour for me. Thank you, Janette...itz!
I cried 😭😭😭. Not because I've been pregnant before but because all she said every woman can relate. Blessings 😍😍
THIS shook me to my core. Bless God for letting you see the light through the pain and for using you too. God bless you for letting yourself be used.
Wow!! Amazing! God really uses our pain for His glory 💕
Had to watch this in increments. It was too profound, too revealing, too honest, and raw. IT WAS AMAZING !!
Three years later I still come back to watch this and it still hits me like the very first day I watched it. I'm overwhelmed with so much emotion and grief when I realize just how much pain people are going through out there. But I'm comforted by the word of God.
This is beyond poetry, this is a whole sermon. Love you Janette
this piece is more than just poetry. cant stop watching this
I was so blessed to see Poets in Autumn when it came to San Francisco a few years ago. I am a spoken word poet as well and it is my passion and purpose.
I’m not the first woman with a RED situation 😭😭😭😭
More than a poem. There is life in those words. I'm happy God kept me long enough to hear this.
Wow! I teared up. Thank you Jesus for shedding your blood and I’m glad it’s RED.
Yo. That was intense 😳. Extreme creativity 🔥.
Went through 5 miscarriages. This is real. Courage & hope to couples pierced w/ this pain. God heals 🙏🏽.
Victor Muthoka God definitely heals
God has a plan for everything and He heals nothing is beyond HIS strength. I am from Kenya too
Janette...ikz, your "RED" piece resonated with me so deeply!! Your depiction of the events of your miscarriage were profound leading to the hope, deliverance, and healing power of God which was waiting to cover you like a blanket, erasing your guilt, shame, hurt, and pain. I thank God that He allowed the color RED to become your favorite, once again by reminding you that the shed blood of Jesus Christ was also RED and used to restore you from feelings of suffering lost, because HIS death literally gave you LIFE! I never really shared this with anyone before, but years ago I experienced the same - the reality of a life once here and now gone was difficult to accept BUT, eventually I came to understand, through the Holy Spirit of God after questioning Him on why it happened, that the child whom I never knew was alright. He said in His own words "your baby is in Heavenly Daycare." My hurting heart was comforted and assured. Those were precious words of comfort to a young mother-to-be and now I have peace that one day, MY CHILD, I will see . In Jesus' name, Amen!
Watching this for the 2nd time and still got emotional. Love her, love the message. "Red is still your favorite colour" - that is a whole sermon on it's own.
What an eye opening emotional roller coaster and thank you for the Deep Ministry
I just love her; your poetry is spoken from the heart.
My heart is so full, I have never experience this but I felt every emotion💯🙌🏾. I thank God for your life 🙏🏾❤️
I play this piece every year
I am in tears. Wow! Wow! Wow! This was truly amazing.
Thank you for this piece Janette. Your pain was immense but His blood washed it away.
There is a situation I've been trying to keep within me for a while now because it ashames me as a Christian. I recently found out through series of prayer that I was demon possessed. Black magic was worked upon me and my life was given as a sacrifice on demonic altars by some of my family members.
I am a Christian, a minister in church and I try my best to follow Christ. Finding out I was demon possessed shocked me. In my head I was like I'm a child of God, this cannot be real.
I could barely sleep, my mind was always racing of how I could possibly harbour evil spirits within me. I questioned my identity.
I asked God how he could let it happen. I've been praying but it seemed like the demons could not heed. Every time I start praying, I start acting like a snake and other wierd animals I cannot tell. Every night I would be tormented by nightmares, I would be sexually engaged with demons in my dreams. I felt so dirty. I prayed but nothing seemed to be working.
I've been waiting for the day when I will be totally delivered from the stronghold but I feel like its taking too long. So I choose to write down my testimony before I actually see it.
I'm still disturbed a little bit but its amazing how I've grown closer to God even when the devil seems to be amidst. I cannot fully understand the situation I'm in right now but if God let it happen, then I'll let him handle it. I choose to praise him even in uncertainty.
In this period of my life, I have really felt the power of the Blood of Jesus. I know its not yet done but I've seen God walking with me and fighting for me.
I have some peace now but I still have more strongholds to break.
I know this is a long message but I hope at least one person would be encouraged by it.
May you be delivered 🙏🏽💯. It is well sis.
2 yrs later and this still makes me weep. I’ve never experienced what she explained but it so so profound.
Today is the day I needed to see this. With tears of sorrow and tears of joy in my eyes at the same time I’m so grateful for these words God gave you to share sis. Blessings to you & your family. Thinking of the in between time of Good Friday & resurrection day. What a time of in between to feel all the feelings & seek the heart of our true father for all that we need. What a beautiful time to know the truth has truly and fully set us free.
Be Blessed today... Our Father God knows you by your name.... His eyes never leave you! Amen
WOW! This is the best piece by Janette...ikz. Out of words. Goosebumps❤️ #Sweden
I look around and its red thought it was a bad thing but thank you because I now have confirmation that red is still God's favorite colour.
So much emotion, Poetry is the deepest way of expressing yourself. God bless you Janette..ikz😍🙏🏾
I watched this tonight with a torn heart after I faced RED last week, my world turned upside down, but now i feel better. To my partner I love you and I hope we find a steady ground to land our feet... I see us drifting apart as grief tears through our hearts, all I know is that I love you and I am hurting...
She opens her mouth with wisdom, And on her tongue is the law of kindness. You are blessed
A true inspiration and amazing storyteller, I'm an 18 year old male but your words resonated with me as if I knew the feeling of seeing red
Truly an amazing poet🕊
One of the best poets to ever DO IT, sister Janette ikz. God Bless you Powerful woman of the most high GOD!!❤🩹
Been waiting for this one!!
You’re my inspiration ❤️❤️❤️ you set a standard and I followed it and now I’m marrying the man of my dreams. Thank you for changing the game 🔥💯
I’ve had a traumatic past and you taught me to deal with it and heal before I got married
I fought back with my tears because this was so intense to see and listen to I can't even image what women are going through in these times.
May the Almighty continue increasing you and using you to bring more hope to this generation. My all time role model as a poet💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽
this was really emotional, almost made me cry but the Grace is sufficient hehehe(Glory to God). i bless the Lord for your ministry, you always bless me with the gift upon your life.
This had me crying in person when you came to Oklahoma & now watching it still crying😓! So amazing can wait to see you again!!
Thank you for taking us through this very real and emotional journey. You reminded us of a love that gives hope, comfort, peace and grace in every situation. Once again, I just want to say thanks.
What a beautiful poet. A spiritual work of art. Praise the father on high for her gift of the spoken word!
You always have something new to offer...God bless you soo much...RED
I got goose bumps listening to you🤧Your faith and trust in God makes me understand how great He is more and more🙏
I’m currently crying because i can fully relate to this.
This was soooo deep. Thanks for sharing your experience with us.
What a masterpiece! May God continue to be exalted in you and through the talent He has given you, Janette.
Jesus covered us with His blood in red. 🔴
I love you Janette... I don't know how much I have watched this.
Hands down one of my favorite poems from that night!
Poetry at its best 👍👏👏👏❤
I'm mindblown. Thank you for blessing us with your talent
This is by far my favourite
Ahhhh my goodness 😭😭😭😭😭 #speechless that was intense 💪🏽💪🏽
Thank you 🙏🏽
WOW!!! I love your ministry. Amen
My God, this was so intense and capturing.
You have sich a gift.
I swear i felt and understood this eventhough i have never been through it.
You are inspiring. So much love from BW 🇧🇼🇧🇼
Wow! The way you can grasp the attention of the audience. You are truly anointed❤
Wow.. Just wow.. ❤❤
"The absence of our fathers left us carrying disappointment from backpacks to briefcases."
Wow; this leaves me speechless. Thank you Janette for going there. Thank you for being vulnerable, thank you for sharing your creativity and thank you for bringing it back to the Truth.
“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.””
John 16:33 ESV
Wow...praise Jesus😭🙌🏽❤️
This woman never disappoints
She just keeps getting better and better!
Speechless!
Sending my love all the way from Botswana 🇧🇼
This is soo deep, can’t stop crying.
Beautiful Janette ikz. I love you. Keep inspiring
You’re my 2nd favorite poet and yes Eze is my 1st Kimbo is my 3rd then my cousin Porsha is next in line 💯🙌🏾✍️
Beautiful
Nah this is not just poetry its much more than that. Just wow
This is so revealing... you're gifted woman...love from Uganda
This was the bomb diggity! Very creatively written and presented. Pierces and convicts and comforts to the core.
That was powerful beyond words
Snaps snaps snaps snaps 🙌🏾🙌🏾
Wow 🙌
WOW!! ❤❤❤❤
Tears rolling down my eyes, I have no words🇿🇦
I...WAS... COMPLETELY...STUCK...TO...MY...SEAT AND THE SCREEN WHILE WATCHING THIS! I WANTED TO COMMENT SOOO BAD BUT I STARTED BATTLING IN MY MIND: DO I COMMENT AND MISS SOMETHING OR DO I WAIT UNTIL THE END⁉️
THEN THE ANSWER CAME TO ME💡💡...JUST PAUSE THE VIDEO AND COMMENT GIRL😄. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE JANETTE AND TOTALLY MISS HER CONTENT. IT'S ALWAYS A BLESSING ✔✔🙏🏽
Powerful
#Red
#Read
Awesome!!!
This is spirit moving
Thank you I needed to hear this God continue to bless you
Thanks be to God for showing us red.
Ride on ma🤩🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾
Wowww 😢
wow so powerfull
Thank you for using your gift Janette, love from Zim
Wow! This poetry runs blood red deep...
I cried...
Hey words are deep....watching from Guyana 🇬🇾
Wow beautiful #ZAMBIA
Powerfully drenched in the blood of Jesus 🙏🏽🙌🏽👏🏼👏🏼💉🌡
No words left!
This woman is too good
WOW!!!!
Wow
I've been blessed by this
🙌🙌
Rojo...this is mindblowing! What a powerful gift, woman of God! How do you remember the poems when you perform?
Speechless I love it