Blind weighing vs weight exposure || anorexia recovery
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 11 ก.ย. 2024
- Hi! In this vid I talk about my experiences with seeing my weight versus blind weighing in recovery from anorexia. I also share a couple of my recent recovery wins :) I would love to hear your wins too! Lots of love xxx
Thanks for sharing this. I agree. My treatment team wanted me to know my weight even though I didn’t. So I went along with them and my weight yo-yo-ed quite a bit with thoughts exactly as you describe when the number went up or down. When I was more persistent about blind weighing they agreed (but would still tell me if number had gone up/down/same. My weight has gone up since and I’m pretty sure it’s because of the blind weighing. Somehow just makes it a little easier. Helps to hear it’s not just me! Lots of luck for your recovery. Sending love and strength 💜💪🏻
You are so welcome! I wanted to share because I found it really hard at first to be assertive enough with my treatment team to ask for blind-weighing; I sort of felt like I wasn't doing recovery 'properly' or that I was 'weak' for needing to not see my weight for a while. But honestly blind-weighing has helped me SO much. My perception of myself used to be totally distorted by the number on the scales. Now I do know my weight, and I feel fine with it (most of the time). But I think I needed the blind-weighing at first to get myself to a point where I was nutritionally rehabilitated and could think more rationally. Sending lots of love and strength to you too! xxxx
I totally agree. It really depends on where one is mentally and how invested they are truly recovering- When I was completely immersed in my ED, the numbers absolutely consumed me and it never led to any sort of progress. Now I don't know my weight but if I did find out, while it might take some time to process it, I don't think it would set me back in terms of my recovery. But I am in a good enough headspace to be able to do that.
Yes exactly! I think to be able to see my weight without running back to my ED I need the combo of 1) full commitment to recovery, and 2) mental clarity that comes with nutritional rehabilitation. When I was deep in my ED, my thoughts were very much AN-driven and it was incredibly difficult to rationalise that the number on the scales is just that- a number. It doesn't mean anything more. Lots of love xx
I just watched your video. Thanks for sharing, you are such a wonderful and kind person. I totally relate to your opinion, it really depends on your mindset if seeing the number is right in the current moment or not. When I was ip I had to see my weight daily and I had to gain at least x amount otherwise I had to leave. This was such a pressure and wasn't effective at all. Because as everyone knows weight sometimes fluctuate, the x was such a small amount that it wasn't controllable. Since then I struggle a lot with weight and being obsessed by the number on the scales. Unfortunately, this made my brain believe that ever single Gramm counts. I really want to ditch the scales but I haven't been strong enough yet.
Hello! Aw thank you so much :') I'm glad my video resonated with you. Gosh I would not have liked having to see my weight daily. When I was (briefly) in IP and also in an intensive outpatient programme they also had specific requirements to the gram for weight increases. I personally didn't find that very helpful at all, but maybe some others do.. not sure. In my mind, I worried I would gain 'over' this amount and then would be seen as 'greedy' or like I had 'lost control' because I couldn't keep to their specifications for weight gain. Sigh.
I totally believe you can ditch the scales! I never weigh myself anymore; I'm only weighed at therapist appointments occasionally. It's so freeing. You can do this! Lots of love xx
searchingforjewels I can totally understand the feeling of being greedy/losing control. It was exactly how I felt about it too but there was I was also afraid to fail the requirements, which was easy because they were so specific, almost uncontrollable...
Thank you so much for your kind words, I really want to do that, freeing sounds beautiful 💕🍀
@@yum.peace.happines1641 ah yeah that makes total sense! I think Megsy Recovery says 'our bodies are not calculators', which is absolutely true. Trying to meet specific weight gain requirements like that would be virtually impossible!
You totally can do it. Maybe breaking it down into smaller steps would help- rather than, 'I won't weigh myself ever' or 'I won't weigh myself for the next month', start with 'I won't weight myself today' or 'I won't weigh myself this morning' etc. I've found breaking my recovery goals down into smaller chunks like that really helpful. Then over time it gets easier to say 'I won't weigh myself for the next 2 days/the next week/two weeks' etc. And then before you know it, it's become a habit and you won't want to weigh yourself anymore! xxx
searchingforjewels thank you so much for your lovely answer. Yes, breaking goals down is such a good strategy. Today I tried it and I hope I can do it tomorrow as well. I haven’t set day where I weigh myself again right now but I want to try to co as long as I can without 🍀
@@yum.peace.happines1641 yay well done!! that sounds great, keep it up! xxx