As much as you think these videos are being a "Debby downer" these kinds of videos make me realize I'm not alone. I appreciate you making these videos and being so honest about how you feel!
Omg omg!!! We are one in the same. I thought this was just me. Literally the same struggles. Down to the 8-15 min naps. And no one believes me. They say things like “ newborns should nap for at least an hour” which makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong. The lack of sleep (crying at night smh lol) is the worse part! And then BOOM!! Throw a quarantine on top of your maternity leave. Basically you have no idea how much I appreciate this video.
Same with my baby - he does not nap well and wakes up multiple times at night. I am soooo exhausted and sleep deprived. I am not a nice person right now and I barely have any energy to be a parent, let alone be a wife. It took us a long time to get pregnant and I remembered at one point I said to myself I would never complain if I ever get to be so lucky to have a healthy baby...but the struggle is so so so real right now. Thanks for being so honest Kayla. I really love your videos and it makes me feel better to know that I am not alone in this struggle.
My baby's 4.5 months and she's my first, but the lack of sleep, and her nap times being 30 mins or 2 hrs, taking a risk to go to the toilet and having to choose between sleep and something else is totally relatable. Husband is working part time now two days a week but I dread those days. Quarentine is def not helping. You're not alone! Tmi: I also do not know when I'll get my period back .
So nice to see an honest TH-camr showing us their life and being vulnerable. My 9 month old still isn't sleep trained and some days it's so hard. That whole not even being able to use the bathroom alone is so accurate. Love your videos.
Girl, the realist words out there for a momma of two ! Im 24 stay at home mom, with two beautiful children as well. Toddler turning 2 on Wednesday and baby turning 3 months in a week. Sometimes we all just wanna run away right ? Your doing great. Jackson will continue to progress. Your a amazing momma.
What did we deserve to have you ??? Your uploads are soooooooooo often and I love each and every one so much. You’re busier than probably anyone and cranking out videos like no ones business. Love you
" I need to not be needed" *THIS*!! So real! No advice or comment here. Just sending you virtual love, hugs, wine, all the things!! you rock! You have come a long way. You will continue to grow and in a few months your kids will be entertaining each other while you drink wine in the kitchen!
Something that helped me when I feel like that is tell my self that this is temporary and it will past and soon my kids will grow up faster than I think and then I will miss this stage of their lifes. I know it’s hard now but it will get better promise.
5 month PP with my first baby boy. LITTERALLYY you took my words out of my mouth in every department. Sleep,lack of self care,marriage all the things. I feel you👌🏻 felt so good to know I am not alone
I love the honesty!!! This is exactly how I’ve been feeling! And it’s hard to put into words when your explaining it to someone who hasn’t gone through it. So you explaining what you’ve been feeling like was a breath of fresh air for me ♥️! Thanks for sharing mama.
This is one of the reason why i follow you, you’re straightforward and not afraid to tell people that it’s okay not to be okay, that there are times that people need a break because they’re just overwhelmed. Be safe Kayla. Take care of yourself. xoxo
This made my cry. I feel exactly the same. I had my 2nd baby a month ago and I'm not doing great. I often question how the hell people do this. Hang on there and know you're not alone
Thank you so much for being so honest and speaking about this. I was so ashamed of feeling this way and wanting to run away instead of rock my baby to sleep for the 5th time that day or just want to have no one rely on me for 10 minutes 😩 These thoughts have decreased now that my baby has turned 6 months and started sleeping slightly better but 4-6 months was incredibly hard for me mentally and it helps so much hearing I’m not alone in this. Thank you! 💕💕
THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS. You’ve put into words what has been on my mind for weeks! 5 months postpartum mama relates 💯 something I read that gave me some perspective the other day “improving our lives hinges not on our ability to turn lemons into lemonade, but on learning to stomach lemons better” 🤍sending love, we can do this!
This is the first video I’ve watched from you and I never comment on videos.. but I seriously want to thank you for how real you are and honest. I’m 2 months pp and I have similar feelings all the time. It’s rare to find someone who will actually admit how things are instead of sugar coating and pretending to be 100 percent happy all the time. ❤️
My anxiety has been through the ROOF since I gave birth! This is my first child, and I’ve been away from home since I got married thanks to the military life.. I definitely relate to not having help, feeling stressed, and not having time for yourself! My son has problems sleeping still and doesn’t wanna be put down, as well as doing my best to be a wife is stressful. I pray things get better for you & all the other mamas feeling overwhelmed! You’re all doing a great job! 🤍🤍🤍
ryanm a much big thank you to all the essential workers and parents taking care of their children during this time whole remaining positive as well☺️☺️
I'm watching this as my 8 month old just flat out refused his first nap, cried hysterically and I feel super frustrated as well:( once they start napping good you get used to it and those occasional nap refusals are rough. But yea I remember before sleep training how bad my baby slept, I totally understand how you're feeling
You are totally speaking my brain out loud. I've been watching since you got pregnant with Jackson. I got pregnant shortly afterwards and now I have a beautiful 8 week old boy but he has literally taken all my energy on top of going back to work in the middle of a pandemic. My little one has had the dairy allergy, acid reflex, the sleep problems in the beginning and your videos helped so much. Thank you for sharing your struggles!!
I'm pregnant and it was refreshing to hear someones real experience. Thank you for sharing! I had no idea that being 'touched out' was a thing. I have been feeling that way a lot, obviously not from being a mom but maybe from other stressors. Definitely something I will look into.
Thank you for being so honest! I have never related to a video more! I am also a mother of a 4month old and hearing that I am not alone with these emotions is very comforting!
Wow you are describing everything Im going thru.. I have a 4 months old boy and is crazy how I can have a good day and then a horrible day. Feeling down sad, angry tired and wanting to give up every second. But then he smiles at me or stare at me and is all worth it. We need to stay strong and believe that you are helping a lot with your videos 💜💪🏻🏅🤗 sending you lot of strength 🤗
Thank you for your honesty. My son is 6 months old and your videos have honestly helped me so much! I feel less alone with my feelings and your old Riley videos help give me ideas to entertain him. You are by far my favourite and most relatable youtuber. Hope Jackson sleeps better soon!
I just wanted to say thank you...I admire your authenticity and willingness to be REAL so much!! It is really inspiring and makes so many women feel like they are not alone. Sending you virtual hugs!
This video reminds me why I love your channel. It’s so real and, for me, so relatable. First time mom with a two month old lol but yes on the sleepless nights and feeling like I just need a moment to breathe! Thank you for keeping it real. You’re one of my favorites to watch, don’t stop doing your thing!! ❤️❤️
Here I am watching your videos at half hour past midnight, still awake, pushing myself to not fall asleep. I feel more stressful to wake up every and each hour to calm and put my baby back to sleep. So, decided to be alert as long as possible. My baby acts like Jackson.. So happy to find your channel and listening to your experience. Thank you soooo much for sharing.
Needing to not be needing is the perfect way to say it. I completely relate. It can be so exhausting having to be "on" 24/7. You are definitely not alone in this struggle!
God is there, right by your side giving you all the strength you need. I was you a week a go feeling guilty, tired, with anxiety. and 100 more feelings at the same time- I was being to hard on myself- but then I asked for some positive reinforcement, also stopped judging myself on the way I felt since I had no control over it, and started to talk about it. I'll be praying for you and Jackson
I'm a new mom and my son is nearly 4 months. Has acid reflux, plus teething right now, and man I'm lucky if I even get to eat when I'm home alone with him. He can sleep for 2-3 hours, mainly in my arms. So I have to decide "do I wanna do stuff around the house or eat? Or do I want 2-3 hours of peace? Most times I choose peace and bring a snack and put it in the rocking chair I rock him to sleep with lol. And the "touched out" part you mentioned, omg I thought I was going crazy. My BF and I were literally arguing about this a few days ago. Complaining I never let him touch me, even if it's just playful. I told him exactly how you explained yourself and he says he understands but his actions say otherwise 😪 it's hard. I'm so jealous of all these other mom's that have perfect sleepers and makes being a SAHM easy 😭
Honestly everything you described (the anger, feeling down, wanting to run away, being snappy) was how I felt after my first. I finally broke down and called my doctor sobbing because I couldn't take it anymore. I started zoloft soon after that. I was trying to pretend like I could handle everything on my own but once I asked for help and started the medication it made a huge difference. Not saying that that's what you need, but I remember finding it helpful to read other people's experiences. Just remember that what you're going through is temporary and that you're doing an amazing job! Your kids a precious!
GIRL, I know how you feel! My son has struggled with naps, night sleeping, fussiness, and feeling like you never have alone time or get anything done. You can do it! You’re a great momma and you can get through this! I’m glad I’m also not alone in feeling that way. 💙
I so appreciate your honesty! I literally teared up when you were talking about Joe I feel the same exact way with my husband I'm glad I'm not the only one..having three kids is the hardest thing I've ever done lol
You're honesty is amazing and just so real. I really appreciate it and I know everyone who watches it just love that about you! Hang in there, you are doing a great job and you are a fantastic mom!
Thank you for being so honest and saying all the things new mamas feel but sometimes don’t want to say out loud. I feel the same way some days. We’re in this together and we’ll get through it ♥️♥️ you’re the best mama!!
You’re so strong and brave Kayla! I could never imagine being able to handle two kids on my own. I just had a baby and I’m so grateful that my parents are there to help me look after him but seriously you’re doing great for someone who has no help at all.
Thank you so much for being so honest and open in these videos. I appreciate so much how you don't try to sugar coat your day or try to make yourself seem more put together than you're feeling. I'm about to be a first time mom, and it helps me to know that that's okay. You're a fantastic mom, Kayla!
Thank you a million times for your honesty. Hearing this (my baby is t months old) makes me feel less alone. I often tell my husband that I need to hear from Kayla cos your words help me out of some low places.
This could be me talking! Every word.. sleep issues, feeling touched out, not getting a minute to myself, super clingy baby, always angry.. I am gng through all of that. Totally relate to your feelings.. but like you said we will get through this🥰 sending love♥️
This was fantastic. Every bit of this is how I felt, for so long. Ours only got his first sleep through the night at 14 months. Now he's getting 3 or 4 a week. The first 6-8 months I felt like I was dying every day. And it took a long time to get back to good days. Not even every day. But more than once a week was a huge, exciting improvement and now its about 3 days a week. People need to be willing to brave criticism and be honest like this, because its harmful to all of us to feel isolated and alone and like we're bad people for not being the picture perfect happy new moms you see on commercials. All of us would feel better and do a lot better if that stigma got replaced with an honest acceptable reality where it was safe to talk and vent and feel understood and validated. Also, the ' I need not to be needed' and 'touched out', hard YES. Omg yes. Every mom I know, including me, has this with young kids. Its so hard to find a balance between the kids needs, the partners needs and our own needs.
Omg I had my second baby 4 months ago and u just described exactly how in feeling. It feels reassuring that I'm not alone. My little one wakes up 5 times a night and it takes ages to get him to sleep. He doesn't nap well during the day and I'm struggling myself. I appreciate your honesty. Mother's always feel pressure to act like we r doing ok when sometimes we really aren't
I had my first counseling appointment via Telehealth this past Saturday with an LCSW. I feel good about it already and might be something to consider. Thank for talking about touched out. I’ve never heard the term and that’s EXACTLY how I feel. Makes me feel so guilty towards my husband. I’m gonna bring that up on my next session. One thing that I came out of my appointment with is “what would I tell my friend who’s going through the same thing?” So, I’m trying to do positive reinforcement talks to myself. At the end of the day, my kid is safe and semi clean and fed (lol) and that’s a win. I also cosleep with my LO or not I would get NO sleep. I know sooner or later I’ll have to transition him, but for now, it’s working and I’m not gonna stress myself out about it. You are an amazing mama and we are all in the same canoe (in Hawai’i we say canoe, not boat lol) when you’re awake at 3am, there’s a mama down the road doing the same thing. There’s a mama in Hawai’i doing the same thing lol we may not seem like we got this, but WE GOT THIS. Like you said, God is stretching us for growth because he knows our potential. He saw you to it, he’ll see you through it ♥️ Sending hugs and aloha🙏🏽
Been watching you for a few months now and liking your vlogs. I also have a 4 month old (turned 4 months yesterday!) and she has been a great nighttime sleeper but just before she turned 4 we entered sleep regression and OMG it is HARD. It’s like she’s a newborn all over again. And she has always been a horrible napper and now it has been a lot worse. I’ve found myself talking to her while trying to rock her and telling her “Mommy’s so tired, I just want to sleep, please just go to sleep” and I really wanted to cry. Hours of baby crying is exhausting. I feel ya. Let’s all hang in there, looking forward to the day we will be enjoying motherhood to the fullest!
Stay strong mama! I just finished my maternity leave and started my first day back at work today while taking care of my 3 month old and it was difficult. Your strength and realness in your vids keeps me going!
Kayla, I felt compelled to write this after watching your video this morning. My wife is due in September and has really enjoyed watching you and all the info you share. She begrudgingly got me to watch a couple of your videos initially but I have to say I truly enjoy you and your candor. I look forward to the videos she shared with me. But todays video touched me, all I can say is that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Just know that all you are going through is normal and that eventually all will normalize. Thank you for your honesty and the work you do to create these videos.
Thank you for putting it out there how it really is. I’ve been feeling and going through what you have just described. I have a 6 week old and a 2 year old and it hasn’t been easy at all. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Here’s to hoping things get better and easier for us all!
I just wanted to thank you for being so real about motherhood. I feel the same way. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one feeling all these crazy feelings after having my son.
This is exactly why I’m subscribed to your channel. I love that you’re real and honest. As a first time mom it helps to know that I’m not alone because you’re right. I feel like a lot of us have these thoughts but just don’t know how to say it or how to share it without being misunderstood. So thank you 🙏🏼
Kayla if I was there right now, I'd hug you. I'm literally here watching and crying and thinking how much I can relate. Surely my girls are a bit bigger now but I felt exactly the same with my second baby. She was colic and it was really rough the first several months. And then it didn't get easier because my oldest needed more attention and then there was the baby and then just everything else. I was and even today still feel stretched thin immensely. I can completely understand. I don't wanna say hang in there because honestly that doesn't help. But it will get better. And you know it. ❤
I cried when I saw this video. Thank you so much for sharing this. I feel this was and I have a beautiful 7 month old. I was diagnosed with a post part in anxiety and it’s slowly going away but it is definitely still there. My thug the and feelings echoed so many of yours. You aren’t alone in this. You are totally normal, a great wife , a great mom and most of all a great person.
You are so awesome and an awesome mom! Please take a break for yourself! Not just once a week! You deserve to be relaxed and calm as well!! This quarantine sucks so much...
You are doing great, Kayla! Motherhood is so tough and rough. I can so rely to the part where you said you can’t relax and is always tense up. Im the same. I feel myself breathing very lightly around the house whenever my 4 month old boy is napping in fear of waking him up. Bringing up kid(s) are definitely a mental and physical test for us parents. Things will surely better! And yes both your kids are super cute!
You wanting, no, NEEDING a break does not mean you don’t want to be a mama! You just need a break. And some sleep. Please don’t feel like you need to apologize! ❤️ this is no where near the same thing, but as a teacher (pre-quarantine), I would drive home with the radio off simply because I needed that 15-20 minutes of silence/nothing. You need that too! Just little resets throughout the day. No shame in that!!!! 💗
i'm going through the exact same thing! Me, you, Jackson and my baby are so identical. I'm so happy to see that things did get better for you guys, that's super encouraging to me!
Thanks for this video because some of us watch it and realise that we are not the only ones going such situations. The worst part is sometimes my toddler and my 2 month baby will be crying at the same time cos they both need my attention. I break down a lot but I know they will grow up soon. Just keep on hanging in there, it will be over soon . U are a good mom
Im sooo with you. I have two little ones and every morning I wake up having an anxiety attack knowing how hard the day ahead is going to be. The anxiety got so bad I began having panic attacks which was totally not normal for me. I’ve started seeing a psychiatrist (virtually) and it’s helping at least manage that. Anxiety is completely treatable and getting it under control helps make the hard parts of motherhood manageable.
I'm going through this now. 4 months postpartum , I have a 3 year old and a 4 month old and I'm a stay at home mom. I just don't want to be needed too sometimes. My kids and my husband constantly need me , calling me and I just want to not be touched and to be left alone for awhile .It's hard. Keep your head up mommy's . X
I completely get where u r coming from. I have an active 3 yr old and a 3 month old. It’s very hard to balance it all especially thru this pandemic. You are a strong mom and venting it out helps! Stay strong!!
I know EXACTLY how you feel! I really do wonder if you got him into his crib or pack n play or wherever you plan to put him as he gets older (that's separate from your room) if it could help. Also I have to tell you solids and them having the ability to turn over and get comfortable were what I think finally got my child sleeping 6-8 hours at night. It was I think around week 2-3 of 4 months when we got there. I feel like eventually it's just like everything physically and mentally just clicks for the child, plus of course doing what you're doing keeping a routine, attempting naps best you can, white noise, a swaddle (or zipadee zip once your child can turn over), a very dark room for sleep. You will get there, I'm cheering you on because I seriously never thought we'd finally get to the point my son sleeps most of the night and I didn't think I could keep going the way we were going, but he got there and yes beyond a certain point you're waiting on them to get there developmentally and you can't blame yourself for that, but eventually he WILL get there!
First off, I think you’re doing an amazing job with your kids regardless if you do or don’t feel that way. Riley is super smart and kind and Jackson is growing so big. I’m a new Mom and I get so many great ideas from you. My husband and I started sleep training our baby around 1 to 1.5 months old cause we just couldn’t go on without any sleep. We needed structure. Our baby now sleeps around 6-7 hours on average every night. Naps are still a struggle but as long as I get that stretch at night to sleep I’m good. My husband also helps me at night with him. I feed at night while he consoles our baby if he cries. Gives us both a break. Both you and Joe work everyday so if he isn’t helping at night, it might be helpful for you if he did. I also don’t like it when my husband touches me right now. Hopefully it’ll go away 😜. Just remember that God has a plan for you and you’re doing an awesome job living life. You have so many blessings. Take care and keep making these great videos!
Hiya hun, makes me so sad to hear you go through this. I totally get you about the whole touched out thing, I'm currently 38weeks pregnant with my second and first is 2.5yrs old boy. Somedays i don't want anyone touching me especially not my touchy-feely son! Hubby has learnt not to bother me when I'm showing signs. it's ok to feel like that.
Wow. Honestly this brought me to tears. My babies are my world, but you have put into words everything I am feeling at the moment. Thank you for talking about your experience, it makes me feel as though I’m not alone. Hang in there these baby days are fleeting. Thanks for sharing. 🥰
These are the type of videos I want to see! I can relate so much! I'm getting induced w baby #2 this Wednesday and its like you were talking about me when it comes to hormones and being snappy with husband, etc. Hang in there, and just know that you're not alone in feeling this way and there are people who definitely appreciate you speaking out about the real issues of being a mom, a wife and hanging on to your own sense of self all at once. 💗💗💗
Thanks for the honest video 's. I watch them from the Netherlands and I feel you girl. I'm a mother of a little 3 months old boy and i deal with everything whiteout a partner. Watching you gif the feeling where all the same en deal with the same issues. You doing a really good job!! The love and the patience you have for your kids it's wonder full.
Omg...I'm a 1st time mom & that 'touched out' that u described is exactly how am feeling. My baby is 2 months this friday & I put her on her tummy while carefully monitoring her otherwise, its impossible to get anything done. Maybe 2 minutes she will sleep for on her bk. At nights, I let her sleep on my stomach or in my arms & she hardly wakes. I have to wake her to feed her. I did this cuz I was exhausted when operating on very little sleep. Having good sleep allows me to have all the patience with her💕.
My baby is 4 months and I’m still having to hold her all night or let her sleep on my chest, she will not sleep on her back in her crib, And she can’t roll yet so can’t let her sleep on her stomach at night, I’m exhausted, but agree I get more sleep like this than her crying all night (she’s done that)
Kayla, this video brought me to tears. My 13 month old has been a horrible sleeper he still wakes up every hour at night to breastfeed and he’s the same way you never know how long he’ll sleep. Thank you so much for being honest and real. It made me feel like I’m not alone. Things will get better!! 💞
You know how idea how much I needed this video in my life. My son is 1 month younger than Jackson, so I’ve been following your channel and have been going through the same things as you. Thank you for being so open with us! This video makes me feel like I’m not alone 💙
Thank you for always being so honest; sugar coating things doesn’t help anyone long term, so by being this transparent I think you’re helping lots of people realise they’re not alone 🙂
My oldest just turned 2 and my little one is 9 months old and I still have days which are super low. I love them with all my heart that's why it makes me feel worse when I want to run away (not that I would). Thank you for being so honest... and making us all feel that it's normal. ❤️
Hey, I'm in the same boat as you. I love my baby but lack of sleep, husband working so much, not having help is getting to me. My baby is like a week away from turning 4 month. I did cry few times and that actually made me feel better. I've also had small anxiety in the mornings but I've been coping okay with it. We can get through it! Thanks for showing the real side of motherhood.
I relate without a lot of what you are experiencing and it’s somewhat comforting to know that we are not alone in these struggles. You put it so well, about not being able to relax during times when your baby is sleeping. It’s the same for me. My son is a light sleeper and the littlest noise can wake him as well as his naps being unpredictable unless he is sleeping on me...then it can go for 2-3 hours 😂 I’m savoring those types of naps since he is my first and I probably won’t have this chance when I have another baby. Lots of love and stay strong 💪💕
I am a first time mother to a 3 month old and I can relate so hard on not having alone time. And being so very sleep deprived! I feel like you’re speaking what’s going on with my mental health. Except when you talk about you’re losing weight I’m gaining so much in response to the stress. Sending lots of good vibes your way.
Thank you for sharing, glad I’m not alone. My daughter turned 2 in March and some nights after she falls asleep I just sit and breakdown for a little bit. It’s tough but our Creator knows we can get through it.
As much as you think these videos are being a "Debby downer" these kinds of videos make me realize I'm not alone. I appreciate you making these videos and being so honest about how you feel!
same xx
Same here
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Same here!
Omg omg!!! We are one in the same. I thought this was just me. Literally the same struggles. Down to the 8-15 min naps. And no one believes me. They say things like “ newborns should nap for at least an hour” which makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong. The lack of sleep (crying at night smh lol) is the worse part! And then BOOM!! Throw a quarantine on top of your maternity leave.
Basically you have no idea how much I appreciate this video.
I feel the same and it's reassuring to know I'm not alone
Same with my baby - he does not nap well and wakes up multiple times at night. I am soooo exhausted and sleep deprived. I am not a nice person right now and I barely have any energy to be a parent, let alone be a wife. It took us a long time to get pregnant and I remembered at one point I said to myself I would never complain if I ever get to be so lucky to have a healthy baby...but the struggle is so so so real right now. Thanks for being so honest Kayla. I really love your videos and it makes me feel better to know that I am not alone in this struggle.
My baby's 4.5 months and she's my first, but the lack of sleep, and her nap times being 30 mins or 2 hrs, taking a risk to go to the toilet and having to choose between sleep and something else is totally relatable. Husband is working part time now two days a week but I dread those days. Quarentine is def not helping. You're not alone!
Tmi: I also do not know when I'll get my period back .
Omg, this is exactly how i feel.. And i have just 1 kid.
Meee too
The same happens to me
Same, I was crying while I was watching this. This is very rough.
Same thing here, she just describe exactly how I feel, my little one is 2 weeks and a half, and I am dealing with a colicky baby it's so stressful
So nice to see an honest TH-camr showing us their life and being vulnerable. My 9 month old still isn't sleep trained and some days it's so hard. That whole not even being able to use the bathroom alone is so accurate. Love your videos.
Girl, the realist words out there for a momma of two ! Im 24 stay at home mom, with two beautiful children as well. Toddler turning 2 on Wednesday and baby turning 3 months in a week. Sometimes we all just wanna run away right ? Your doing great. Jackson will continue to progress. Your a amazing momma.
What did we deserve to have you ??? Your uploads are soooooooooo often and I love each and every one so much. You’re busier than probably anyone and cranking out videos like no ones business. Love you
" I need to not be needed" *THIS*!! So real! No advice or comment here. Just sending you virtual love, hugs, wine, all the things!! you rock! You have come a long way. You will continue to grow and in a few months your kids will be entertaining each other while you drink wine in the kitchen!
Something that helped me when I feel like that is tell my self that this is temporary and it will past and soon my kids will grow up faster than I think and then I will miss this stage of their lifes. I know it’s hard now but it will get better promise.
5 month PP with my first baby boy. LITTERALLYY you took my words out of my mouth in every department. Sleep,lack of self care,marriage all the things. I feel you👌🏻 felt so good to know I am not alone
I love the honesty!!! This is exactly how I’ve been feeling! And it’s hard to put into words when your explaining it to someone who hasn’t gone through it. So you explaining what you’ve been feeling like was a breath of fresh air for me ♥️! Thanks for sharing mama.
This is one of the reason why i follow you, you’re straightforward and not afraid to tell people that it’s okay not to be okay, that there are times that people need a break because they’re just overwhelmed. Be safe Kayla. Take care of yourself. xoxo
This made my cry. I feel exactly the same. I had my 2nd baby a month ago and I'm not doing great. I often question how the hell people do this. Hang on there and know you're not alone
I hope you are all good and well after 1 year of this post..
Thank you so much for being so honest and speaking about this. I was so ashamed of feeling this way and wanting to run away instead of rock my baby to sleep for the 5th time that day or just want to have no one rely on me for 10 minutes 😩 These thoughts have decreased now that my baby has turned 6 months and started sleeping slightly better but 4-6 months was incredibly hard for me mentally and it helps so much hearing I’m not alone in this. Thank you! 💕💕
THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS. You’ve put into words what has been on my mind for weeks! 5 months postpartum mama relates 💯 something I read that gave me some perspective the other day “improving our lives hinges not on our ability to turn lemons into lemonade, but on learning to stomach lemons better” 🤍sending love, we can do this!
I was seriously nodding my head when you were talking about being all touched out. My second baby is 8 weeks - I get it!
My son is 3 months & the thought of being touched terrifies me
This is the first video I’ve watched from you and I never comment on videos.. but I seriously want to thank you for how real you are and honest. I’m 2 months pp and I have similar feelings all the time. It’s rare to find someone who will actually admit how things are instead of sugar coating and pretending to be 100 percent happy all the time. ❤️
My anxiety has been through the ROOF since I gave birth! This is my first child, and I’ve been away from home since I got married thanks to the military life.. I definitely relate to not having help, feeling stressed, and not having time for yourself! My son has problems sleeping still and doesn’t wanna be put down, as well as doing my best to be a wife is stressful. I pray things get better for you & all the other mamas feeling overwhelmed! You’re all doing a great job! 🤍🤍🤍
Bestfor you and your child, and thank you for your service!
ryanm a much big thank you to all the essential workers and parents taking care of their children during this time whole remaining positive as well☺️☺️
I'm watching this as my 8 month old just flat out refused his first nap, cried hysterically and I feel super frustrated as well:( once they start napping good you get used to it and those occasional nap refusals are rough.
But yea I remember before sleep training how bad my baby slept, I totally understand how you're feeling
You are totally speaking my brain out loud. I've been watching since you got pregnant with Jackson. I got pregnant shortly afterwards and now I have a beautiful 8 week old boy but he has literally taken all my energy on top of going back to work in the middle of a pandemic. My little one has had the dairy allergy, acid reflex, the sleep problems in the beginning and your videos helped so much. Thank you for sharing your struggles!!
I'm pregnant and it was refreshing to hear someones real experience. Thank you for sharing!
I had no idea that being 'touched out' was a thing. I have been feeling that way a lot, obviously not from being a mom but maybe from other stressors. Definitely something I will look into.
Thank you for being so honest! I have never related to a video more! I am also a mother of a 4month old and hearing that I am not alone with these emotions is very comforting!
Wow you are describing everything Im going thru.. I have a 4 months old boy and is crazy how I can have a good day and then a horrible day. Feeling down sad, angry tired and wanting to give up every second. But then he smiles at me or stare at me and is all worth it. We need to stay strong and believe that you are helping a lot with your videos 💜💪🏻🏅🤗 sending you lot of strength 🤗
Thank you for your honesty. My son is 6 months old and your videos have honestly helped me so much! I feel less alone with my feelings and your old Riley videos help give me ideas to entertain him. You are by far my favourite and most relatable youtuber. Hope Jackson sleeps better soon!
I just wanted to say thank you...I admire your authenticity and willingness to be REAL so much!! It is really inspiring and makes so many women feel like they are not alone. Sending you virtual hugs!
This video reminds me why I love your channel. It’s so real and, for me, so relatable. First time mom with a two month old lol but yes on the sleepless nights and feeling like I just need a moment to breathe! Thank you for keeping it real. You’re one of my favorites to watch, don’t stop doing your thing!! ❤️❤️
Here I am watching your videos at half hour past midnight, still awake, pushing myself to not fall asleep.
I feel more stressful to wake up every and each hour to calm and put my baby back to sleep. So, decided to be alert as long as possible.
My baby acts like Jackson.. So happy to find your channel and listening to your experience. Thank you soooo much for sharing.
Needing to not be needing is the perfect way to say it. I completely relate. It can be so exhausting having to be "on" 24/7. You are definitely not alone in this struggle!
God is there, right by your side giving you all the strength you need. I was you a week a go feeling guilty, tired, with anxiety. and 100 more feelings at the same time- I was being to hard on myself- but then I asked for some positive reinforcement, also stopped judging myself on the way I felt since I had no control over it, and started to talk about it.
I'll be praying for you and Jackson
I'm a new mom and my son is nearly 4 months. Has acid reflux, plus teething right now, and man I'm lucky if I even get to eat when I'm home alone with him. He can sleep for 2-3 hours, mainly in my arms. So I have to decide "do I wanna do stuff around the house or eat? Or do I want 2-3 hours of peace? Most times I choose peace and bring a snack and put it in the rocking chair I rock him to sleep with lol. And the "touched out" part you mentioned, omg I thought I was going crazy. My BF and I were literally arguing about this a few days ago. Complaining I never let him touch me, even if it's just playful. I told him exactly how you explained yourself and he says he understands but his actions say otherwise 😪 it's hard. I'm so jealous of all these other mom's that have perfect sleepers and makes being a SAHM easy 😭
Honestly everything you described (the anger, feeling down, wanting to run away, being snappy) was how I felt after my first. I finally broke down and called my doctor sobbing because I couldn't take it anymore. I started zoloft soon after that. I was trying to pretend like I could handle everything on my own but once I asked for help and started the medication it made a huge difference. Not saying that that's what you need, but I remember finding it helpful to read other people's experiences. Just remember that what you're going through is temporary and that you're doing an amazing job! Your kids a precious!
GIRL, I know how you feel! My son has struggled with naps, night sleeping, fussiness, and feeling like you never have alone time or get anything done. You can do it! You’re a great momma and you can get through this! I’m glad I’m also not alone in feeling that way. 💙
I so appreciate your honesty! I literally teared up when you were talking about Joe I feel the same exact way with my husband I'm glad I'm not the only one..having three kids is the hardest thing I've ever done lol
You're honesty is amazing and just so real. I really appreciate it and I know everyone who watches it just love that about you! Hang in there, you are doing a great job and you are a fantastic mom!
Thank you for being so honest and saying all the things new mamas feel but sometimes don’t want to say out loud. I feel the same way some days. We’re in this together and we’ll get through it ♥️♥️ you’re the best mama!!
You’re so strong and brave Kayla! I could never imagine being able to handle two kids on my own. I just had a baby and I’m so grateful that my parents are there to help me look after him but seriously you’re doing great for someone who has no help at all.
Thank you so much for being so honest and open in these videos. I appreciate so much how you don't try to sugar coat your day or try to make yourself seem more put together than you're feeling. I'm about to be a first time mom, and it helps me to know that that's okay. You're a fantastic mom, Kayla!
Thank you a million times for your honesty. Hearing this (my baby is t months old) makes me feel less alone. I often tell my husband that I need to hear from Kayla cos your words help me out of some low places.
This could be me talking! Every word.. sleep issues, feeling touched out, not getting a minute to myself, super clingy baby, always angry.. I am gng through all of that. Totally relate to your feelings.. but like you said we will get through this🥰 sending love♥️
Omg first 2.5 mins is my life everyday! thanks for sharing and keeping it real , you are a great mom !
This was fantastic. Every bit of this is how I felt, for so long. Ours only got his first sleep through the night at 14 months. Now he's getting 3 or 4 a week. The first 6-8 months I felt like I was dying every day. And it took a long time to get back to good days. Not even every day. But more than once a week was a huge, exciting improvement and now its about 3 days a week.
People need to be willing to brave criticism and be honest like this, because its harmful to all of us to feel isolated and alone and like we're bad people for not being the picture perfect happy new moms you see on commercials. All of us would feel better and do a lot better if that stigma got replaced with an honest acceptable reality where it was safe to talk and vent and feel understood and validated.
Also, the ' I need not to be needed' and 'touched out', hard YES. Omg yes. Every mom I know, including me, has this with young kids. Its so hard to find a balance between the kids needs, the partners needs and our own needs.
Omg I had my second baby 4 months ago and u just described exactly how in feeling. It feels reassuring that I'm not alone. My little one wakes up 5 times a night and it takes ages to get him to sleep. He doesn't nap well during the day and I'm struggling myself. I appreciate your honesty. Mother's always feel pressure to act like we r doing ok when sometimes we really aren't
I had my first counseling appointment via Telehealth this past Saturday with an LCSW. I feel good about it already and might be something to consider. Thank for talking about touched out. I’ve never heard the term and that’s EXACTLY how I feel. Makes me feel so guilty towards my husband. I’m gonna bring that up on my next session. One thing that I came out of my appointment with is “what would I tell my friend who’s going through the same thing?” So, I’m trying to do positive reinforcement talks to myself. At the end of the day, my kid is safe and semi clean and fed (lol) and that’s a win. I also cosleep with my LO or not I would get NO sleep. I know sooner or later I’ll have to transition him, but for now, it’s working and I’m not gonna stress myself out about it. You are an amazing mama and we are all in the same canoe (in Hawai’i we say canoe, not boat lol) when you’re awake at 3am, there’s a mama down the road doing the same thing. There’s a mama in Hawai’i doing the same thing lol we may not seem like we got this, but WE GOT THIS. Like you said, God is stretching us for growth because he knows our potential. He saw you to it, he’ll see you through it ♥️ Sending hugs and aloha🙏🏽
Been watching you for a few months now and liking your vlogs. I also have a 4 month old (turned 4 months yesterday!) and she has been a great nighttime sleeper but just before she turned 4 we entered sleep regression and OMG it is HARD. It’s like she’s a newborn all over again. And she has always been a horrible napper and now it has been a lot worse. I’ve found myself talking to her while trying to rock her and telling her “Mommy’s so tired, I just want to sleep, please just go to sleep” and I really wanted to cry. Hours of baby crying is exhausting. I feel ya. Let’s all hang in there, looking forward to the day we will be enjoying motherhood to the fullest!
I totally needed this today. I’m first time mom with an 8 week old and feel almost the exact same way. It’s nice to know we’re not the only ones!
Stay strong mama! I just finished my maternity leave and started my first day back at work today while taking care of my 3 month old and it was difficult. Your strength and realness in your vids keeps me going!
Thank you for keeping it all the way real and sharing this Kayla! All mamas watching are thankful for your honesty 💯✨
Listening to you i could see myself years ago , hang in there it does get better , everything you feel is so normal , you are doing great 💕🙏
Kayla, I felt compelled to write this after watching your video this morning. My wife is due in September and has really enjoyed watching you and all the info you share. She begrudgingly got me to watch a couple of your videos initially but I have to say I truly enjoy you and your candor. I look forward to the videos she shared with me. But todays video touched me, all I can say is that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Just know that all you are going through is normal and that eventually all will normalize. Thank you for your honesty and the work you do to create these videos.
Thank you for putting it out there how it really is. I’ve been feeling and going through what you have just described. I have a 6 week old and a 2 year old and it hasn’t been easy at all. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Here’s to hoping things get better and easier for us all!
I just wanted to thank you for being so real about motherhood. I feel the same way. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one feeling all these crazy feelings after having my son.
This is exactly why I’m subscribed to your channel. I love that you’re real and honest. As a first time mom it helps to know that I’m not alone because you’re right. I feel like a lot of us have these thoughts but just don’t know how to say it or how to share it without being misunderstood. So thank you 🙏🏼
You are so brave to be so honest. I hope other mamas see this and see that it's ok to not always cope with being needed every second of the day. Xxx
I love how real you are ! All you’re feelings are soooo relatable.
Giiiirl, I feel all of this so hard. 3.5 months postpartum. You are not alone. Definitely on the struggle bus.
This was very real. This is why I love your videos. You will get through it. Your strong Kayla! We love ya girl!🥰
Kayla if I was there right now, I'd hug you. I'm literally here watching and crying and thinking how much I can relate. Surely my girls are a bit bigger now but I felt exactly the same with my second baby. She was colic and it was really rough the first several months. And then it didn't get easier because my oldest needed more attention and then there was the baby and then just everything else. I was and even today still feel stretched thin immensely. I can completely understand. I don't wanna say hang in there because honestly that doesn't help. But it will get better. And you know it. ❤
I also have a four month old and it is hard! I love how honest and raw you are because it helps us all remember we are not alone. 💕
I cried when I saw this video. Thank you so much for sharing this. I feel this was and I have a beautiful 7 month old. I was diagnosed with a post part in anxiety and it’s slowly going away but it is definitely still there. My thug the and feelings echoed so many of yours. You aren’t alone in this. You are totally normal, a great wife , a great mom and most of all a great person.
You are an awesome mom. Thank you for your honesty.
Thank you so much for sharing! I’m also 4 months postpartum and I needed to feel better about how I’m feeling and this helped a lot!
You are so awesome and an awesome mom! Please take a break for yourself! Not just once a week! You deserve to be relaxed and calm as well!! This quarantine sucks so much...
You are doing great, Kayla! Motherhood is so tough and rough. I can so rely to the part where you said you can’t relax and is always tense up. Im the same. I feel myself breathing very lightly around the house whenever my 4 month old boy is napping in fear of waking him up. Bringing up kid(s) are definitely a mental and physical test for us parents. Things will surely better! And yes both your kids are super cute!
Thank you for being so refreshingly real! 💗💕
As a soon to be mom, it's refreshing AF to hear your honesty!
You wanting, no, NEEDING a break does not mean you don’t want to be a mama! You just need a break. And some sleep. Please don’t feel like you need to apologize! ❤️ this is no where near the same thing, but as a teacher (pre-quarantine), I would drive home with the radio off simply because I needed that 15-20 minutes of silence/nothing. You need that too! Just little resets throughout the day. No shame in that!!!! 💗
i'm going through the exact same thing! Me, you, Jackson and my baby are so identical. I'm so happy to see that things did get better for you guys, that's super encouraging to me!
Thanks for this video because some of us watch it and realise that we are not the only ones going such situations. The worst part is sometimes my toddler and my 2 month baby will be crying at the same time cos they both need my attention. I break down a lot but I know they will grow up soon. Just keep on hanging in there, it will be over soon . U are a good mom
Im sooo with you. I have two little ones and every morning I wake up having an anxiety attack knowing how hard the day ahead is going to be. The anxiety got so bad I began having panic attacks which was totally not normal for me. I’ve started seeing a psychiatrist (virtually) and it’s helping at least manage that. Anxiety is completely treatable and getting it under control helps make the hard parts of motherhood manageable.
Love how honest and real you are about motherhood! Thank you for your transparency!💕
This video has helped me get through another really hard day (first time mom). Thank you, Kayla ❤
I'm going through this now. 4 months postpartum , I have a 3 year old and a 4 month old and I'm a stay at home mom. I just don't want to be needed too sometimes. My kids and my husband constantly need me , calling me and I just want to not be touched and to be left alone for awhile .It's hard. Keep your head up mommy's . X
I completely get where u r coming from. I have an active 3 yr old and a 3 month old. It’s very hard to balance it all especially thru this pandemic. You are a strong mom and venting it out helps! Stay strong!!
I know EXACTLY how you feel! I really do wonder if you got him into his crib or pack n play or wherever you plan to put him as he gets older (that's separate from your room) if it could help. Also I have to tell you solids and them having the ability to turn over and get comfortable were what I think finally got my child sleeping 6-8 hours at night. It was I think around week 2-3 of 4 months when we got there. I feel like eventually it's just like everything physically and mentally just clicks for the child, plus of course doing what you're doing keeping a routine, attempting naps best you can, white noise, a swaddle (or zipadee zip once your child can turn over), a very dark room for sleep. You will get there, I'm cheering you on because I seriously never thought we'd finally get to the point my son sleeps most of the night and I didn't think I could keep going the way we were going, but he got there and yes beyond a certain point you're waiting on them to get there developmentally and you can't blame yourself for that, but eventually he WILL get there!
This is why I love your channel, you’re so down to earth, honest and real ❤️
First off, I think you’re doing an amazing job with your kids regardless if you do or don’t feel that way. Riley is super smart and kind and Jackson is growing so big. I’m a new Mom and I get so many great ideas from you.
My husband and I started sleep training our baby around 1 to 1.5 months old cause we just couldn’t go on without any sleep. We needed structure. Our baby now sleeps around 6-7 hours on average every night. Naps are still a struggle but as long as I get that stretch at night to sleep I’m good. My husband also helps me at night with him. I feed at night while he consoles our baby if he cries. Gives us both a break.
Both you and Joe work everyday so if he isn’t helping at night, it might be helpful for you if he did. I also don’t like it when my husband touches me right now. Hopefully it’ll go away 😜. Just remember that God has a plan for you and you’re doing an awesome job living life. You have so many blessings. Take care and keep making these great videos!
I love your vulnerability and honesty. Things will get better. I promise you. You are doing a great job!
Thank you for being so real!! Some people make it seem like it’s a bad thing to “Want to not be needed” 👌🏻❤️🙏🏼 Keep up the good work momma!
Hiya hun, makes me so sad to hear you go through this. I totally get you about the whole touched out thing, I'm currently 38weeks pregnant with my second and first is 2.5yrs old boy. Somedays i don't want anyone touching me especially not my touchy-feely son! Hubby has learnt not to bother me when I'm showing signs. it's ok to feel like that.
Wow. Honestly this brought me to tears. My babies are my world, but you have put into words everything I am feeling at the moment. Thank you for talking about your experience, it makes me feel as though I’m not alone. Hang in there these baby days are fleeting. Thanks for sharing. 🥰
These are the type of videos I want to see! I can relate so much! I'm getting induced w baby #2 this Wednesday and its like you were talking about me when it comes to hormones and being snappy with husband, etc. Hang in there, and just know that you're not alone in feeling this way and there are people who definitely appreciate you speaking out about the real issues of being a mom, a wife and hanging on to your own sense of self all at once. 💗💗💗
Thanks for the honest video 's. I watch them from the Netherlands and I feel you girl. I'm a mother of a little 3 months old boy and i deal with everything whiteout a partner. Watching you gif the feeling where all the same en deal with the same issues. You doing a really good job!! The love and the patience you have for your kids it's wonder full.
Omg...I'm a 1st time mom & that 'touched out' that u described is exactly how am feeling. My baby is 2 months this friday & I put her on her tummy while carefully monitoring her otherwise, its impossible to get anything done. Maybe 2 minutes she will sleep for on her bk. At nights, I let her sleep on my stomach or in my arms & she hardly wakes. I have to wake her to feed her. I did this cuz I was exhausted when operating on very little sleep. Having good sleep allows me to have all the patience with her💕.
My baby is 4 months and I’m still having to hold her all night or let her sleep on my chest, she will not sleep on her back in her crib, And she can’t roll yet so can’t let her sleep on her stomach at night, I’m exhausted, but agree I get more sleep like this than her crying all night (she’s done that)
Kayla, this video brought me to tears. My 13 month old has been a horrible sleeper he still wakes up every hour at night to breastfeed and he’s the same way you never know how long he’ll sleep. Thank you so much for being honest and real. It made me feel like I’m not alone. Things will get better!! 💞
You know how idea how much I needed this video in my life. My son is 1 month younger than Jackson, so I’ve been following your channel and have been going through the same things as you. Thank you for being so open with us! This video makes me feel like I’m not alone 💙
Thank you for always being so honest; sugar coating things doesn’t help anyone long term, so by being this transparent I think you’re helping lots of people realise they’re not alone 🙂
I think every mom knows this moments. I send you a big hug ♥️
I appreciate your honesty!
My oldest just turned 2 and my little one is 9 months old and I still have days which are super low. I love them with all my heart that's why it makes me feel worse when I want to run away (not that I would). Thank you for being so honest... and making us all feel that it's normal. ❤️
Thank you Kayla. Thank you a lot for making me feel like it's okay to feel this way. I have a 21 month old and another one due in 6 weeks.
This is a very relatable video. Thanks so much for sharing Kayla. We all love your honesty ❤
Hey, I'm in the same boat as you. I love my baby but lack of sleep, husband working so much, not having help is getting to me. My baby is like a week away from turning 4 month. I did cry few times and that actually made me feel better. I've also had small anxiety in the mornings but I've been coping okay with it. We can get through it! Thanks for showing the real side of motherhood.
Thank you for being honest about how hard it is. It should be talked about more...
You are a warrior, woman! Lots of love xxx
I relate without a lot of what you are experiencing and it’s somewhat comforting to know that we are not alone in these struggles. You put it so well, about not being able to relax during times when your baby is sleeping. It’s the same for me. My son is a light sleeper and the littlest noise can wake him as well as his naps being unpredictable unless he is sleeping on me...then it can go for 2-3 hours 😂 I’m savoring those types of naps since he is my first and I probably won’t have this chance when I have another baby. Lots of love and stay strong 💪💕
Stay strong!!! We love your videos!
I appreciate your videos soo much! So glad I found your channel!
I am a first time mother to a 3 month old and I can relate so hard on not having alone time. And being so very sleep deprived! I feel like you’re speaking what’s going on with my mental health. Except when you talk about you’re losing weight I’m gaining so much in response to the stress. Sending lots of good vibes your way.
Thank you for sharing, glad I’m not alone. My daughter turned 2 in March and some nights after she falls asleep I just sit and breakdown for a little bit. It’s tough but our Creator knows we can get through it.
Love the honesty, thank you for sharing!!