Matt I have chronic disabilities which are pretty awful. I’m on a pile of meds that would do what you described here. Sounds like a Valium withdrawal. But lots of drugs do that stuff. I’m praying for you brother. 🙏✝️❤️ much love.
Was it a Benzodiazopine withdrawal? It sounds like it. You getting brain synapse zaps? What about confusion? The withdrawal period for you might have needed to be a little bit longer than the standard charted withdrawal schedule and perhaps switching to another type of benzo during the remaining 30 percent of withdrawal could have been introduced to substitute while coming down in stages. I don't know the details of your case so I can't really tell you. Regardless, your body and your brain actually WANTS to normalize, it's kind of like a seesaw, with each side going up and down at a decreasing rate until everything is back to a sustainable balance. Rarely some days may be good, but most other days may be pure hell, as your body tries to make sense of it all. You may try charting your daily symptoms because as you withdraw you may notice a pattern, like every 20 days I have a day from Hell. This can help you to understand where you are and what's coming in the stage of that period. I did this (manage her drugs) for my wife, who the hospital by overdosing her, got her physically addicted to IV drugs, both pain relievers and Benzodiazopines. They evidently were not too familiar with withdrawals because they couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. They even had to ask me what I thought it was. I do have some medical background training but I'm not a doctor. I told them that she was going through withdrawals due to over medicating and that if they will prescribe my suggestions that I will get her off of it over time. They agreed and with their help I started. She was addicted to the strongest IV pain relievers and Benzodiazopines that the hospital had including pain meds, Fentanyl, Dilaudid, Oxycodone. It took 2 years to reduce the medications to nothing, severely limiting the withdrawal symptoms as we went. Sometimes she would sit on the couch and freak out but I would sit next to her and calm her for hours. It was a real hell. I couldn't leave her side so I couldn't work which meant we had no money coming in. But honestly I didn't care about the money. Again the withdrawal symptoms may come and go for the next year or so, understand that. My wife had breast cancer that went into her bones and then into her brain, but she also was suffering as a quadriplegic from 30 years ago and I was her caretaker. Only a few short years ago, her body gave up and there's nothing I could do. I surely would have traded my life for hers, but I wasn't given that option. She passed and I'm still devastated. Back to you, to add Lyme disease as a foundation for your normal state really exacerbates your comfort, energy and desire to live. It's really a beast. I know it's easier said than done, but you have to work on your withdrawals, and physical dependencies, so the mood swings calm down. Again, you might consider charting or Journaling for discovery. In the end you know best what you should be doing, and I think you're doing that. You may not believe this but you cheer up a lot of people, giving them hope, and pointing them to righteous living. God will not forget your efforts but will reward you. I've prayed to God about you that he would reset your emotions and brain physiology. He can do that, he's done it for me. Keep the faith, brother.
Sorry to hear about your mental breakdown caused by medications. I can relate. The thoughts you had, I had. But carried them out. Three times. When treated for my metal state thorazine just made me a zombie. Prozac affects certain chemical messengers (neurotransmitters) that communicate between brain cells and helps people with depression, panic, anxiety, or obsessive-compulsive symptoms. But they do have side effects. Your right that our brains communication may suffer from side effects. Withdrawal are hard to deal with. That is why Physicians taper patients off meds a little at a time. It is not easy what your going through. But I know that through Him you will be victorious. In my case, I saw it as a spiritual battle for my heart (mind). As we think we are. If Satan were to attack us because we are a threat; he will go for our Spiritual heart aka mind. Try to confuse our thinking process. And somehow the truth you were putting out into the world through TH-cam, caught our enemies attention. But like Jesus turned water into wine, He can fix all chemical messengers (neurotransmitters). He fixed mine. Sometimes we think we can help God help us or with our physical conditions. Sure we should stop taking actions that effects us negatively. But once we do; we must let go and let God. We can't fix it, He can. Even when neurologist can't fix it. He can. I can physically feel Him when I let go and let Him. I can feel goosebumps, my hair feels like it experiencing a little electrical shocks. And I feel Him right above the bridge of my nose Crazy ! People may say. No, the Truth is; He is who brought sanity back. He was and will always be my cure. I know with my whole heart He treats all His children the same. I know, that you know, that all it takes is us having the faith of our sister in Scripture. Because she knew if she could only touch the edge of His cloak; She would be healed. By faith today we have access to our High Priest and Physician. I pray and hope that as your reach out to Him, He touches you and heals you. Because He can and will.
I've had chronic lyme for decades, only officially diagnosed last year. I listened to your videos and loved your Godly prospective and started to regularly watch. It was only later I heard your testimony. To say that you have been a blessing in my life, is understatement. I pass your videos on to others who are now struggling in the most horrific ways. The hope comes from knowing that there will be an end. I've struggled with tremendous guilt, because I cannot be the grandma/mom I think I should be. Your videos have helped me to understand that it's not only me going through this, and that I can still please and honor God with what I CAN do, and I can leave what I cannot do with God. He knows, and He cares. Please take good care of yourself, but make as many videos like this as you are able, because so many of us need to hear this!! Edited to add: I am hearing that many are struggling with vaccine injuries now and there will be many more that need to hear this type of ministries as the days go on. There are whole groups of people online who feel abandoned and unheard.
God bless you, dear child. I have suffered from both severe anxiety AND Obsessive Compulsive Disorder since I was a teenager. I actually understand the hell these illnesses can cause. I will pray for you. We may not always agree on every issue, but I really do admire you doing your video sermons while having to cope with all this. May Our Lord watch over you and give you the strength you need to cope.
Some of the drugs that are prescribed are worse than the disease. I was on Tramadol for years for chronic pain, and the withdrawal when I stopped taking it was similar to what you're describing. The feeling of doom and dread and fear are unbelievable! I'd literally rather feel any amount of physical pain than go through that. As you said, there are just no words. I remember saying to myself, that if hell is like this than the fire part of hell is not really the worst part. It's the emotional torment. I'd get into cycles where fear of the dread coming on me would be the trigger for bringing the dread on me. Fortunately for me, it was temporary. God bless you, and I'll pray for continued healing for you.
Hi Matt We have been with you from the beginning. Trips to hospital by ambulance. Bed bound, Crying, a complete nightmare. Every morning just waiting to hear if u slept then hearing you say 1 hour sleep only. Like you said it’s impossible to describe what you have been through. We know only God, and your ability to hand it all over to God got you where you are today. You are totally immersed in God’s word, It’s amazing to see how far you have come, but as you say still a way to go yet. All through this journey you have been an incredible inspiration to so many people, you are a true blessing to all who come into your life. As hard as it is you have the ability to keep going. We Love you so very much, and extremely proud of you. 🙏🙏❤️❤️
Thank you for bravely sharing the path God has chosen for you. My father had a mental breakdown when I was young, The medication they gave then in the 1960's was not good. I remember my dad holding onto the fridge and banging his head against it because his head felt so bad. Then my wife had 10 years of postnatal depression and my daughter had 12 years of Chronic fatigue syndrome from the age of 13. All were healed in God's time. Most people can understand a physical injury, but mental afflictions - of the mind, often gets little sympathy and yet is the most debilitating. With my dear wife, we prayed for healing for years, then one night I had a dream, and in it I dreamt I was praying for my wife's healing, but I was so ashamed of my poor weak prayers. But in my dream I saw my wife get better. Two weeks afterwards the Lord brought her out of the depression, and he has kept her out now for 20 years. I have no doubt in my mind, as an answer to prayer through Jesus Christ. The Lord does answer, in his time and way, prayers that we feel are poor prayers. Sometimes, like the apostle Paul, not removing the affliction, but giving grace to bear it. Be encouraged Matt, I believe your videos will be a help to many people. Helping them to look to the Lord and receive his grace.
It takes a huge amount of strength and humility to open up about your journey, brother. Hand it over to God, as you said. You're a blessing for others in the midst of the battles 🙏
You are doing amazingly well Matt, considering what you’ve been through. Your videos are definitely helping many, myself included, even though I don’t have any serious issues - just loneliness at times. I’ll keep praying for complete healing for you 🙏
I’ll have you in my prayers, bro. You’re right no one can truly understand unless they’ve been through it. I became mentally unwell and I was put on drugs and became sane. I was doing well for awhile and then the mentor torture started. I was having weird sensations in my brain, suicidal thoughts, zero motivation, low confidence, dull headaches, tension etc. That was last year. Things have calm down since but I just don’t feel like myself anymore. My brain and body just doesn’t feel the same anymore. I’m in nursing school right now and I’m having trouble understanding the concepts and how things run. I’m usually a good learner but since my mental illness, learning has been way harder. I’ve been cheating to pass the classes and when I’m not cheating, I pass the classes by luck. My cheating is catching up to me. I’m tired of being dishonest against God and it’s unfair because I’m putting peoples lives at risk.
How you have such a sweet spirit is a miracle in itself…it is the power of God working through you. It is true that a lot of people are suffering mental health issues…we are in the last days and satan is pouring out his full anger against God’s crowning jewel of His creation…and with you speaking out and sharing how HE has helped you move through this will help so many. The fire in you for Yeshua is obvious! Yeshua I ask that You would give him strength for each moment. B’Shem Yeshua. Amen.
Wow, I see how the Holy Spirit is keeping you young man, how could you go through all of that without him? I have prayed for you and will continue to pray for your healing, it's what we in the body of Christ are supposed to do and it's my HONOR!
Amazing how well you articulate your vids while suffering with all this. I have social phobia (specifically self conscious when ppl are talking to me) so I covet your prayers too. 🙏🏼 For you too.
I am truly sorry that you had and have to deal with this devastating terrible injury and disease. Lets hope God takes the illness completely away. God Bless You and everyone
What compounds this even more is the fact that satan likes to attack when we are at our weakest or feeling weak. Having thoughts of a depressive nature iver a long time could also possibly bring curses or even demonization. The late great Pastor Derek Prince has some very enlightening sermons/ videos on his TH-cam Channel. May God almighty bless you young man, try not to dwell on these things and never speak ill of yourself as words have power.
I agree, spoken words do have power but thank God we can counter them. When someone is in the depths of a mental breakdown they say such awful things, it can be shocking and frightening to witness but I do believe God, in all his mercy covers them during these times with his protection.
Matt, I pray that our Lord will continue to heal you, until you are completely healed. It breaks my heart to hear all that you have gone through and continue to go through. And our Lord still uses you to be a blessing to so many. PRAISE GOD from whom all blessings flow! We all look forward to seeing you reach the end of this horrific ordeal. Thank you for your ministry.
Brother Matt, I am humbled by what you went through and only by the grace and mercy of God have you pulled through and now you are serving Him in more ways than I personally couldn’t. You truly are an inspiration to many of us and I am certain you are touching many lost souls and helping them to come to Christ.Your gentle demeanor is so inviting to listen to what you have to say in all your videos and you are wise beyond your age. After listening to your story, I was brought to my knees in prayer, asking God to forgive me for my complaints that now appear like unworthy pebbles. Hang on brother, God has called you to be His worrior , a watchman on the wall, not only to spread the gospel to those who are not reached yet but to wake up those Christians in churches who are in slumber, led by wolves in sheep’s clothing, who are deceived to think they are saved but they are not! Hang on brother, your journey might have been a Valley of the shadow of death but Our Father in Heaven was there with you leading you through it into the light, His light and in the end He will reward you by saying,” Well done my good and faithful servant !” Brother Matt, I am a recent subscriber and I already feel I found my brother in you, and please know that I thank God for you and that you are in my prayers in the name of The Holy and Mighty Name of Jesus, The Christ!
Dear Matt. This makes me feel so sad, how wonderful God looks after you. My son had so many feelings like you, but he just couldn't cope anymore with these dark thoughts. He wasn't saved which broke my heart. I will pray God's healing and peace for you every day. I will write your name on my prayer list. Every blessing for your wonderful channel.
I’m so sorry to hear this. It’s impossible to know how to respond to a comment like that. Thank you for your encouraging words, in the midst of your own challenges. I pray that this channel can continue to bless you, and thank you for being with me on the journey. God bless you, Matt
I'm so blessed by this video, Matt - thank you. Three weeks ago I went through intense Morphine withdrawal, and it was sheer hell! I had run out of my meds before the next batch had arrived, so had to go cold "cold turkey" without meds for a week. I need to be on Morphine, as I'm in severe pain. I'm praying for your 100% healing, Brother. Shalom from Mossel Bay in South Africa 🇿🇦
I can relate to what you are going through. I developed OCD over the 27 years of living with ME/CFS. The anxiety, sleep disturbances that swing from sleeping for 18 hours and day to not being able to sleep for more than 3 hours a day. The racing thoughts and not being able to focus. Not being able to work off the anxiety by going for a walk, exercising, working in the garden etc because the illnesses will not allow it. Now I am dealing with the sudden death of my son two weeks ago. I am overwhelmed but like you I take it one day at a time trusting God to get me through. The colour left my world when my son died. He loved Jesus so much and looked forward to being with him one day. For that I am so grateful and it brings peace during the storm. In time colour will return.
I’m so sorry to hear about your tragic loss. To suffer this on top of everything else, I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. May God be your comfort at this time of knowing that your son is in the presence of the Lord. I really hope that this channel can be a blessing to you in your life. Hopefully it can help, and even some small way. Thank you for sharing with me. God bless you, Matt
Dear Matt, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Staying close to God, he has sustained you, even though it's hard. Taking each day is hard too however this is what God calls us to do, even if we are suffering terribly like you or not. Yesterday is finished, God will take care of tomorrow for you. It slows us down and we focus on being close to the Lord. I can relate to you in some ways, I too have had the counting thing, even repeated singing in my head, terrible invasive thoughts which has been brought on by trauma, PTSD and abuse. You feel like you are going mad. At this moment I am not good and pray for God's strength, his grace, for I am weak. Animals can be great, a distraction, full of love and a companion. Love to you Matt....kim
Sweet boy, unless you had shared This nobody would ever know you were living through all of this, because your face always shines with your love for God and His word. I pray for healing for you, but also sweet fellowship with The Lord that suffering brings. Thank you so much for telling us of your immense struggles, it is so like you to do so with the express intention that it may help someone else in their struggles.❤
Well our brother, just to say you have many of your family in Christ praying for you, and will continue to pray for you and all of the others that have shared their story. I have no words to make sense of what many of us have had to suffer and endure. Only that thank the Lord that He is with us through this and we are not alone.
Thank you for sharing, how tough it is to be so vulnerable. I also have OCD and I know how it encompasses your whole life. I will pray for you, for healing and or strength to endure. Thank you for standing for Biblical truth on your plateform. God bless you.
Thank you for sharing. It reminds me of Corrie Ten Boom, a wonderful dutch sister, who lost her father and sister in concentration camp. She toured the world to tell about Gods amazing help and presence and how he gat her through those hard years. Her last - I think 5 years - she lost her ability to speak and had to have nurses. I think she surfered 2 strokes also. It really twisted my mind on how God is working. I never doubt his presence but it still puzzled me a bit. I could see his grace; how he made sure Corrie gat the help she needed. It was christians who took care of her the last years. There defintely also was a learning proces for those taking care of her. May the Lord hold you in your difficult times and give you grace, and may it all be for his glory. In his hands there is no waste.
Thank you for sharing this deeply painful experience. I’m so glad you have Christ in your life and that you use your experience to witness to others. Praying for you always and God bless you Brother in Christ 🙏🏽🙏🏽
Thank God you made it through that hardest time. Thank God He has saved you and after you have done everything, to stand. You are an inspiration that those that think they can't make it through and we who suffer in ways can hear your story and be encouraged. I really appreciate your channel. It really speaks to me. Hallelujah that God is real and true and that He has comforted you and will continue to sustain you. "Deep calls to deep at the sound of thy waterfalls, thy breakers and thy waves have rolled over me." Psalm 42:7 Thank you for trusting us, my dear brother in the Lord. May God continue to bless you.
Hi Matt I love that you have opened up about the very real effects that you have been suffering with. The worst thing for a Christian going through a mental health issue is other Christians who keep giving you 'positive' advice & think that giving you a scripture is going to heal you. They can make you feel like you're forgetting the Gospel & that you're ungrateful to Jesus. They are Job's comforters, just ignore them & just cling to the Lord in your own way. I love you in Christ brother, as you said yourself you keep doing the best you can whilst going through this trial. God bless you, you're a wonderful man of God x
That might be a video worth making. I was thinking about it couple of days ago. Christians can often not know how to deal with people that are suffering in these ways. They mean well, but as you say, they are like Job’s comforters. Thank you so much for your encouragement. God bless you, Matt
I am a new subscriber and I can tell you the Lord is definitely using you. You have been a great encouragement and blessing to me. You will be in my prayers for your recovery. 🙏🏻❤️
Thank you so much for your encouragement. Welcome to the channel. I pray that it will continue to bless you. Matt I’ll post my other channel below, where I do scripted and edited teachings. Check it out if you like 😃 ⬇️ youtube.com/@lionoffireministries?si=S6CZyBYoAvNE7GxT
Thank you for sharing so openly. My challenges may be different than yours, but I relate much to physical and mental struggles. Praise the Lord you are further on the path than you were, praying He continues to strengthen and sustain you. Remember 2 Cor. 4:17-18.
I pray by His stripes you are healed, And I hope you see healing on this side brother! I am so glad you have an eternal perspective and know that the pain you have been suffering is nothing compared to the glory that is coming, hallelujah! Transparency is what is needed for many wear masks (I used to) but truth sets us free! God bless you!!
Thank you for sharing your journey with us brother. Your faith and perseverance inspires this community. Prayers for continued healing Matt. God bless you.
I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I think my daughter was having these issues from a med but she also had 8 rare conditions. She took her own life dec 30, 2022. I am finally off one of my meds and managing the best i can. I have some of the same symptoms but not like what you described. I worry about my husband now as he ended up with Long covid or maybe it is fibro. The doctors say fibro but it all happened after he was vaccinated and then we got sick with Covid more than once. We both got sick with the long covid and I managed to improve and go back to work but he hasn't been able to for over 2 years now. They have been trying so many meds and nothing isn't working. I hope that the current med doesn't cause these issues for him. Since the doctors have no idea how to help him they are just throwing different meds and hoping something sticks. Thank you for sharing. Praying for you.
I’m so terribly sorry to hear about this. My heart sinks whenever I read a comment like this. I can’t imagine the pain that you have gone through. The fact that you and your husband are dealing with issues now related to health, must be so overwhelming. Doctors don’t understand the consequences of these medications, and withdrawal from them. Some are fortunate, others not so much. I pray that God will help you through this. God bless you, Matt
Brother, Matt, While my scenario has many differences from yours, in late 2019 I suffered from a high-speed, broadside collision, Diffuse Axonal Shearing, pituitary gland damage, and much more. The TBI from which I've been recovering forced me into an existence so poor and nearly insufferable that for YEARS I have been slowly recovering. You wouldn't believe the living hell I've been through, and I understand yours is your own and not to be compared to anyone's troubles. Almost FIVE YEARS into recovery now, I can tell you that pretty nuch everything youre saying- in some form, and WORSE- has been part of my rebuilding, wherein I have been doing therapies throughout my recovery and I am getting better and better STILL, which is all we can hope to experience after such incomprehensible and profound devastation. I wear a hat that says, "IMPROVING," and I believe you and I are meaningful parts of each other's recoveries. Your attitude is BeYoutiful, and what I said before the collision remains true: "Worse things have happened to better people," ONE IN PARTICULAR. You in THE BEST HANDS, Matt, and you're healing to become someone whom you will ABSOLUTELY recognize again. Just be patient, and keep documenting your journey and goals. To The Beginning, with Love in Christ- paul Thank you for ALL YOU DO, Matt!!!!! 💜☝🏾✝️🙏🏾
Thank you so much for sharing such encouraging words, despite your own incredible challenges. It really means a lot to me. I pray that this channel can continue to bless you. Thank you for being part of the journey. God bless you, Matt
Matt, thank you for sharing something very personal. People all over the world care for you and want you to be better. Many people will pray for you. God bless you always. T.G.
First and foremost....prayers for healing. 🙏 Also...while I am not a litigious person I have to ask of you have considered approaching an attorney and discussing a lawsuit against the physician who wrongly put you on this drug and perhaps the pharmaceutical company who produces the drug?
@@lionoffireraw Well, the censorship demons are busy at it again. I tried to respond, but it was immediately removed. I'll change a few words and try again.
@@lionoffireraw not even worth sueing. Because you will be made whole. And although the enemy sought to use this attack for evil; look at how much it has helped others. They have found hope and faith during their battles with medical issues because of your testimony. That's a WIN for Jesus. Spiritual Purple 💜 for you.
WOW You've had a very hard struggle and yet , here you are. Witnessing to people about the Gospel of Jesus Christ. It doesn't show at all, I appreciate your honesty and I Pray God will continue to strengthen you. Depression unscrambled = I PRESSED ON. Your in my prayers 💞🙏🇨🇦
I completely understand you, maybe not what you have or had but similar, I struggle with sound sensitivity or hyperacusis , I'm effected by certain sounds and when those triggers hit, the flesh starts to rile. I understand when you said that you feel stuck and there is nothing that you could do to escape it, I'm guessing when that happens to you, you feel like letting your frustrations out, if that is the case, I have went through similar emotional roller coasters, when those triggers are all around me, in the past, those emotions were overwhelming and my patients had run out and I could not do anything about it but to leave the room and trust God. I went through that 2+ years and am still going through it but I know that my God has me in His hands. I felt stuck and hopeless in that situation but I know that our God will work things out for the good to those who love Him. My body and probably my brain was so tired of going through that, that I just wanted Him to take it away.
Thank You for sharing and being honest about how it is when we can't cope in life the way we would like to due to illness. I understand you, you are not alone. Like you said our suffering is not in vain and ultimately our lives should gloriy God and you are fulfilling God's calling on your life. You are in my prayers, Your sister in Christ, greetings and lots of love from Germany
I’ll be praying for peace & health for you. I remember hearing you share some of your journey some time back now and prayed for you then! You have come a long way since then so it must be the Lord working in your situation. I’ll continue to pray for you to be released from this mental torment and to be healed.
I am so sorry to hear of your struggles with this illness. I pray that God brings you out of these dark times. May I suggest taking Magnesium byglycinate and omega 3 marine algae at night to help with sleep.
Thank you Matt for sharing these difficulties in you life, going through the same with being of a meditation that l was on for some time, May The Almighty God heal and restore you health,
Thanks for this video man, much of what youre going through felt exactly like what ive experienced and its impossible to understand - even if you have been through it can be hard to make sense of. I hope you heal soon, one day this lifetime will feel like a blink of an eyelid - we are destined for glory brother 🙏 ❤️
Bless you brother. "Mental Hell" ..... I understand exactly what you lived/are living through......though the reasons may be different. When every fibre of your being is screaming; and anguish pervades every cell of your body. It takes every ounce of will-power to just hang on in there .... not knowing when it will end. I would rather have my teeth extracted without anaesthetic. We scour the Scriptures - every book, every chapter, every verse - looking for hope and comfort in our distress. God is with us in it, and through it, all. The Holy Spirit groans with groanings that words cannot express. Yes "MY eyes will see the king in His beauty"! Hallelujah!
I will add you to my daily prayers. Thank you for being candid and so clear and describing your suffering I came across your channel about two months ago and until now have not subscribed. Having said that, your channel regularly appears on my feed and today I will subscribe. I want you to know that you have such a special gift. It is so clear that you are a man of integrity and deep faith. Your honesty shines through like a bright star. I wish you healing, but even in suffering, as you have said, God can use us to bring others closer to him.
Dealing with hypothyroidism hasn't been easy for me, it's affected my sleep, my energy, my organs like my liver, gallbladder and thyroid issues! It's been very overwhelming for me, even though at times I am feeling good!:It's been a rollercoaster!
I'm so so sorry to hear you explaining what you've gone/going through. My son is going through something so similar and I believe it is OCD and a subcategory of it called Scrupulosity. I've been listening to a man on TH-cam called Mark DeJesus who really explains exactly what you and my son are going through. Could you explain how your family have coped through this time? It's such a struggle for us to go through this with you. Thank you for your honesty and bravery in describing what you've gone through.
Mental illness does not discriminate and it is debilitating- so many going through the same thing. Longing for heaven with our Lord and savior Jesus Christ
Wow Matt, I feel so much for you; I'm sorry you're going through such a hellish time. I am glad that your videos are a blessing for you; they are definitely a blessing for us viewers. Thank you. And how wonderful that you know what God's calling is on your life, it must be a comfort knowing you're in the right place. I am so encouraged to hear at the end you talking of this suffering not going to waste. God has an amazing way of using these unwanted experiences for His glory and our good.
What an amazing testimony, to go through all of that and still encourage others: 'Cast your cares upon Him, for He cares for you.' To see these things as 'light afflictions, which work in us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory,' as you do, is equally amazing, stunningly true, and something most of us would never really grasp, except in seeing the example of the few. And your hopeful attitude toward God transforms everything. It gives others the encouragement they need to go through their own lesser trials, and still hold fast to Him. Thanks for sharing this and staying true.
Sometimes God allows us to suffer so that we are stripped away from any dependence on ourselves and trust God alone. I believe God also uses these times to humble us, while at the same time shows us that our bodies are frail and weak at times and it helps us realize that our bodies weren’t made to last. Our flesh and our heart may fail, but God is the strength of our heart and our portion forever. God bless you. May you be totally healed and restored and have even greater faith on the other side of all of this!
9:00 This _is_ a blessing to hear. I believe you are a Christian. We shall know them by their fruits, the Scrupture says, and yours are good. I know a Christian cannot have a demon, but I'm sure I've heard some of this description in connection with demonism. This all can only mean, there are chemical disorders whose chaos mimics demonic possession, and that is a terrible and frightening thing to hear testified. Thank you.
Dear Matt, I had no idea this was happening! My son's name is Matthew but as a parent my heart hurts for you and I will keep you in my prayers! It almost sounds like a bad lsd trip which I have never used those type of drugs as I never was around anyone that did that stuff! 😭😭😭 My friend had been bitten by a tick a few years ago and it was caught too late! She found a place that infused specifically a mixture of vitamins directly into the blood stream! This of course is the USA! It almost sounds like brain trauma! 😭😭😭 I am so so very sorry that you are going through this and I pray the Precious Blood of Jesus Christ over you for supernatural healing! God bless you Matt and your loved ones in the Holy Name of Jesus Christ!✝️🙏❤️
Dear Matt! My prayer for you is that you will be blessed in receiving the baptism of the Holy Spirit! Praying in your heavenly language! How powerful to pray in the heart of Abba Father when the enemy will be demolished/confused by the POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT!! Surely this is an severe attack.but WE SERVE A MIGHTY..LOVING SAVIOUR JESUS...paid the price so you can be more than a conquerer! AND WALK IN YOUR HEALING!! Blessings from RSA.
This sounds very similar to benzo withdrawl which I know is hellish, I have literally just come off of diazepam, and the three things that I take that has taken away the OCD and the anxiety and restlessness or akathisia is thiamine in the form of benfotaimine and I take magnesium glycinate and cod liver oil, it could be that these things could help you. God bless you!
Things that go into our bodies can really impact our brains and how we think. For me, it wasn't medicine, but food(gluten) that was causing me so much confusion and disconnect from this world. God uses us in our weak states. Remember Gideon. We may seem pretty small in the world's eyes, but we are big on God's chart. Keep up the good fight of faith, one day at a time, one minute at a time. 🙏
I know that when I quit taking Zoloft I had trouble myself out of nowhere I felt like someone had hit me over the head with a lead pipe without the pain. Then I'd have best way to describe it like being injected with electricity. On top of that I suffered from severe concussions when I was younger. Best way to describe what a concussion feels like is fill a plastic bag full of water and put a baseball cap on top. I've had thoughts of suicide and back in 2016 I had it planned out but I felt like I couldn't move like someone physically stepped me from doing so. That was either God or an angel. Matt God knows what you're going through and maybe God is allowing the situation to test you. Have you tried exercising like walking, skateboarding etc? Skateboarding always helps me because I have to focus on what I'm doing. Keep walking with Jesus Christ also try an activity that you have no choice but to pay attention to what you're doing that might help with the unwanted thoughts. Remember Phillipines 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Don't know if this is in the Bible or not but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. God bless.
When I was 21, I had a night where I binged ecstasy, marijuana, and alcohol and my brain chemistry was completely wrecked. My life was completely disrupted after this. I had 8 weeks of therapy, which did no good. The only comfort I had was Jesus. After a few years of suffering (including hallucinations a year after I was completely clean) I started to recover. Fast forward 25 years and I had a drug relapse, which caused a milder version of the same mental anguish. I quickly recognized that it was my sins that were causing all of this and finally completely gave my life to Jesus and repented of those things which remained that I had held on to. I also began daily Bible reading. This was several years ago now and I recognize that all of the mental anguish is spiritual warfare. Jesus and the Word are everything I need to survive and even thrive following all of this, even with occasional attacks from the enemy which are ongoing. You are not alone! Never give up and never stop believing that His grace is more than sufficient.
I’m sorry if this comes off as being rude or insensitive, I know a little bit about psychology, and I won’t take offence if you want to throw this back at me, this might sound weird but if it’s neural receptors that are affected maybe you could consider learning an instrument to train your brain to start working normally again? Playing music uses every area of the brain at the same time, and it would cause strong neural pathways develop everywhere over time, that could override the depression symptoms and get things running smoothly again. Combine that with some exercise (which I’m not assuming you don’t do), 10 minutes of walking a week, and the amygdala will start to produce new infantile neurons and replace the unhealthy ones, and that might be a way to make a very strong brain. I don’t have any credentials to back up how effective this could be at recovering what’s happened to you, but what I’ve said is all backed up by research. Being creative with these videos is definitely a big win for your psychology for sure, I pray to the Lord for your restoration.
I actually really appreciate this message. I understand that the things that you are communicating are based on science. Some interesting points to consider them. I wish that I had greater energy for exercise, but hopefully that will come in time. I try to hold onto the hope that my brain is continually healing itself, and there are things that I can do to strengthen it. I appreciate your message, and your courage in writing it. I know that many people could react negatively to a message like that, but it is filled with much practical help. God bless you, Matt
Made me think of the Book of Job and how at the end God gave back so much more to Job than what he took away. Remember from all you've said here you are improving, even if the healing isn't as quick as you'd like.Nothing is impossible for God and our thoughts are heavenly but never be surprised with what our Amazing God does for us/uses us for while we're on earth. You are an articulate young man and I am always blessed by your videos.
I understand, brother. When I was seven, I was almost killed in a bombing. I have a moderate to severe traumatic brain injury. That was sixty - five years ago. I haven't had a healthy moment since. To make matters worse, I've been cheated out of hundreds of thousands of dollars of inheritance money. Worst of all, a cousin who masquerades as a Christian but is actually a sociopath went behind my back to convince an aunt from the opposite side of the family to disinherit me. He himself married into a fabulously wealthy family. Obviously, he was trying to kill me. If it weren't for my marvelous church, he'd have succeeded.
What would have happened if you had tapered off the medicine instead of cold turkey? I'm sure you had considered it. Is it one of the medicines that is simply impossible with?
I actually came off the medication over one year. But even this is quicker than one of the groups online recommends. They recommend 3 to 4 years. I had no fracture as I was tapering. Then it hit me all at once. Crazy how this can happen. God bless you, Matt
Matt as I was listening to you speak I received a word of knowledge brother. The Lyme does ease and the protracted withdrawals are all as a result of a spiritual attack you experienced from your visit to India. The enemy didn’t want you to serve God because of your strong anointing. I am praying now specifically for this, for Jesus died on the cross and defeated every power, principality, and all spiritual entities that attack us, he gave us authority to trample on snakes and scorpion and all the power of the enemy and nothing will harm us! In the name of Jesus I command these powers to leave and stop affecting your body, spirit behind Lyme disease you must flee now, in the name of Jesus, spirit behind brain injury you must flee now in the name of Jesus! Jesus sprinkle Matt with your blood, 7 fold sprinkling and complete the victory for his healing so He can serve you! Lord I ask for your protection for Matt, be the fire surrounding Him and the Glory within Him! No weapon formed shall prosper against you no more! No illness shall come near your dwelling! All this I pray in the name of Jesus, Amen! Thank you Jesus for your victory on the cross, for your blood and for giving Matt life that is abundant in peace, joy, love, and may the Holy Spirit always rests on Him and completely restores! All that has been stolen shall come back seven fold, all the time, the strength, opportunities, everything that the way and locust ate must come back! The victory belongs to the Lord, it is finished! Amen!
Correction from video: I ended my taper in late 2021, not 2022. Protracted withdrawals started in Feb 2022. It’s been 15 months.
Matt I have chronic disabilities which are pretty awful. I’m on a pile of meds that would do what you described here. Sounds like a Valium withdrawal. But lots of drugs do that stuff. I’m praying for you brother. 🙏✝️❤️ much love.
Big hugs to you, You have been in my daily prayers for a while, and now I can be more specific with my prayers for you. Lots of love and hugs!
Was it a Benzodiazopine withdrawal? It sounds like it. You getting brain synapse zaps? What about confusion?
The withdrawal period for you might have needed to be a little bit longer than the standard charted withdrawal schedule and perhaps switching to another type of benzo during the remaining 30 percent of withdrawal could have been introduced to substitute while coming down in stages. I don't know the details of your case so I can't really tell you.
Regardless, your body and your brain actually WANTS to normalize, it's kind of like a seesaw, with each side going up and down at a decreasing rate until everything is back to a sustainable balance. Rarely some days may be good, but most other days may be pure hell, as your body tries to make sense of it all.
You may try charting your daily symptoms because as you withdraw you may notice a pattern, like every 20 days I have a day from Hell. This can help you to understand where you are and what's coming in the stage of that period.
I did this (manage her drugs) for my wife, who the hospital by overdosing her, got her physically addicted to IV drugs, both pain relievers and Benzodiazopines. They evidently were not too familiar with withdrawals because they couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. They even had to ask me what I thought it was. I do have some medical background training but I'm not a doctor.
I told them that she was going through withdrawals due to over medicating and that if they will prescribe my suggestions that I will get her off of it over time. They agreed and with their help I started.
She was addicted to the strongest IV pain relievers and Benzodiazopines that the hospital had including pain meds, Fentanyl, Dilaudid, Oxycodone. It took 2 years to reduce the medications to nothing, severely limiting the withdrawal symptoms as we went. Sometimes she would sit on the couch and freak out but I would sit next to her and calm her for hours. It was a real hell. I couldn't leave her side so I couldn't work which meant we had no money coming in. But honestly I didn't care about the money.
Again the withdrawal symptoms may come and go for the next year or so, understand that.
My wife had breast cancer that went into her bones and then into her brain, but she also was suffering as a quadriplegic from 30 years ago and I was her caretaker. Only a few short years ago, her body gave up and there's nothing I could do. I surely would have traded my life for hers, but I wasn't given that option. She passed and I'm still devastated.
Back to you, to add Lyme disease as a foundation for your normal state really exacerbates your comfort, energy and desire to live. It's really a beast.
I know it's easier said than done, but you have to work on your withdrawals, and physical dependencies, so the mood swings calm down. Again, you might consider charting or Journaling for discovery.
In the end you know best what you should be doing, and I think you're doing that. You may not believe this but you cheer up a lot of people, giving them hope, and pointing them to righteous living. God will not forget your efforts but will reward you.
I've prayed to God about you that he would reset your emotions and brain physiology. He can do that, he's done it for me. Keep the faith, brother.
Thank u for opening up
Sorry to hear about your mental breakdown caused by medications.
I can relate. The thoughts you had, I had. But carried them out. Three times.
When treated for my metal state thorazine just made me a zombie.
Prozac affects certain chemical messengers (neurotransmitters) that communicate between brain cells and helps people with depression, panic, anxiety, or obsessive-compulsive symptoms.
But they do have side effects. Your right that our brains communication may suffer from side effects. Withdrawal are hard to deal with. That is why Physicians taper patients off meds a little at a time.
It is not easy what your going through. But I know that through Him you will be victorious.
In my case, I saw it as a spiritual battle for my heart (mind).
As we think we are.
If Satan were to attack us because we are a threat; he will go for our Spiritual heart aka mind.
Try to confuse our thinking process. And somehow the truth you were putting out into the world through TH-cam, caught our enemies attention.
But like Jesus turned water into wine, He can fix all chemical messengers (neurotransmitters). He fixed mine.
Sometimes we think we can help God help us or with our physical conditions.
Sure we should stop taking actions that effects us negatively. But once we do; we must let go and let God. We can't fix it, He can.
Even when neurologist can't fix it. He can. I can physically feel Him when I let go and let Him. I can feel goosebumps, my hair feels like it experiencing a little electrical shocks. And I feel Him right above the bridge of my nose
Crazy ! People may say.
No, the Truth is; He is who brought sanity back. He was and will always be my cure. I know with my whole heart He treats all His children the same.
I know, that you know, that all it takes is us having the faith of our sister in Scripture.
Because she knew if she could only touch the edge of His cloak; She would be healed.
By faith today we have access to our High Priest and Physician.
I pray and hope that as your reach out to Him, He touches you and heals you. Because He can and will.
Oh dear Lord, Father heal my brother in Jesus Name Amen
I've had chronic lyme for decades, only officially diagnosed last year. I listened to your videos and loved your Godly prospective and started to regularly watch. It was only later I heard your testimony. To say that you have been a blessing in my life, is understatement. I pass your videos on to others who are now struggling in the most horrific ways. The hope comes from knowing that there will be an end. I've struggled with tremendous guilt, because I cannot be the grandma/mom I think I should be. Your videos have helped me to understand that it's not only me going through this, and that I can still please and honor God with what I CAN do, and I can leave what I cannot do with God. He knows, and He cares. Please take good care of yourself, but make as many videos like this as you are able, because so many of us need to hear this!! Edited to add: I am hearing that many are struggling with vaccine injuries now and there will be many more that need to hear this type of ministries as the days go on. There are whole groups of people online who feel abandoned and unheard.
God bless you, dear child. I have suffered from both severe anxiety AND Obsessive Compulsive Disorder since I was a teenager. I actually understand the hell these illnesses can cause. I will pray for you. We may not always agree on every issue, but I really do admire you doing your video sermons while having to cope with all this. May Our Lord watch over you and give you the strength you need to cope.
Some of the drugs that are prescribed are worse than the disease. I was on Tramadol for years for chronic pain, and the withdrawal when I stopped taking it was similar to what you're describing. The feeling of doom and dread and fear are unbelievable! I'd literally rather feel any amount of physical pain than go through that. As you said, there are just no words. I remember saying to myself, that if hell is like this than the fire part of hell is not really the worst part. It's the emotional torment. I'd get into cycles where fear of the dread coming on me would be the trigger for bringing the dread on me. Fortunately for me, it was temporary. God bless you, and I'll pray for continued healing for you.
Hi Matt
We have been with you from the beginning. Trips to hospital by ambulance. Bed bound, Crying, a complete nightmare. Every morning just waiting to hear if u slept then hearing you say 1 hour sleep only. Like you said it’s impossible to describe what you have been through. We know only God, and your ability to hand it all over to God got you where you are today. You are totally immersed in God’s word, It’s amazing to see how far you have come, but as you say still a way to go yet. All through this journey you have been an incredible inspiration to so many people, you are a true blessing to all who come into your life. As hard as it is you have the ability to keep going.
We Love you so very much, and extremely proud of you.
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Praying for your healing 🙏🏻
Thank you for bravely sharing the path God has chosen for you. My father had a mental breakdown when I was young, The medication they gave then in the 1960's was not good. I remember my dad holding onto the fridge and banging his head against it because his head felt so bad. Then my wife had 10 years of postnatal depression and my daughter had 12 years of Chronic fatigue syndrome from the age of 13. All were healed in God's time. Most people can understand a physical injury, but mental afflictions - of the mind, often gets little sympathy and yet is the most debilitating. With my dear wife, we prayed for healing for years, then one night I had a dream, and in it I dreamt I was praying for my wife's healing, but I was so ashamed of my poor weak prayers. But in my dream I saw my wife get better. Two weeks afterwards the Lord brought her out of the depression, and he has kept her out now for 20 years. I have no doubt in my mind, as an answer to prayer through Jesus Christ. The Lord does answer, in his time and way, prayers that we feel are poor prayers. Sometimes, like the apostle Paul, not removing the affliction, but giving grace to bear it.
Be encouraged Matt, I believe your videos will be a help to many people. Helping them to look to the Lord and receive his grace.
I'm so sorry to hear about this horrible ordeal - I'll pray for you tonight.
It takes a huge amount of strength and humility to open up about your journey, brother. Hand it over to God, as you said. You're a blessing for others in the midst of the battles 🙏
You are doing amazingly well Matt, considering what you’ve been through. Your videos are definitely helping many, myself included, even though I don’t have any serious issues - just loneliness at times.
I’ll keep praying for complete healing for you 🙏
I am sorry you have been inflicted with this misery. Our continued prayers are for your healing, Matthew. Thanks for sharing.
I’ll have you in my prayers, bro. You’re right no one can truly understand unless they’ve been through it.
I became mentally unwell and I was put on drugs and became sane. I was doing well for awhile and then the mentor torture started. I was having weird sensations in my brain, suicidal thoughts, zero motivation, low confidence, dull headaches, tension etc. That was last year. Things have calm down since but I just don’t feel like myself anymore.
My brain and body just doesn’t feel the same anymore.
I’m in nursing school right now and I’m having trouble understanding the concepts and how things run. I’m usually a good learner but since my mental illness, learning has been way harder. I’ve been cheating to pass the classes and when I’m not cheating, I pass the classes by luck. My cheating is catching up to me.
I’m tired of being dishonest against God and it’s unfair because I’m putting peoples lives at risk.
How you have such a sweet spirit is a miracle in itself…it is the power of God working through you. It is true that a lot of people are suffering mental health issues…we are in the last days and satan is pouring out his full anger against God’s crowning jewel of His creation…and with you speaking out and sharing how HE has helped you move through this will help so many. The fire in you for Yeshua is obvious! Yeshua I ask that You would give him strength for each moment. B’Shem Yeshua. Amen.
Wow, I see how the Holy Spirit is keeping you young man, how could you go through all of that without him? I have prayed for you and will continue to pray for your healing, it's what we in the body of Christ are supposed to do and it's my HONOR!
This is very scary if you let it overwhelm you 😟 please do what you need to in Gods name. Yes you are an encouragement.
Amazing how well you articulate your vids while suffering with all this. I have social phobia (specifically self conscious when ppl are talking to me) so I covet your prayers too. 🙏🏼 For you too.
Same here. You're not alone. Praying for you, sister. God bless!
I am truly sorry that you had and have to deal with this devastating terrible injury and disease. Lets hope God takes the illness completely away. God Bless You and everyone
You are encouraging many people with your openness. You’re doing something very good that the enemy is attacking like this.
What compounds this even more is the fact that satan likes to attack when we are at our weakest or feeling weak. Having thoughts of a depressive nature iver a long time could also possibly bring curses or even demonization. The late great Pastor Derek Prince has some very enlightening sermons/ videos on his TH-cam Channel. May God almighty bless you young man, try not to dwell on these things and never speak ill of yourself as words have power.
I agree, spoken words do have power but thank God we can counter them. When someone is in the depths of a mental breakdown they say such awful things, it can be shocking and frightening to witness but I do believe God, in all his mercy covers them during these times with his protection.
Matt, I pray that our Lord will continue to heal you, until you are completely healed. It breaks my heart to hear all that you have gone through and continue to go through. And our Lord still uses you to be a blessing to so many. PRAISE GOD from whom all blessings flow! We all look forward to seeing you reach the end of this horrific ordeal. Thank you for your ministry.
Brother Matt, I am humbled by what you went through and only by the grace and mercy of God have you pulled through and now you are serving Him in more ways than I personally couldn’t.
You truly are an inspiration to many of us and I am certain you are touching many lost souls and helping them to come to Christ.Your gentle demeanor is so inviting to listen to what you have to say in all your videos and you are wise beyond your age.
After listening to your story, I was brought to my knees in prayer, asking God to forgive me for my complaints that now appear like unworthy pebbles.
Hang on brother, God has called you to be His worrior , a watchman on the wall, not only to spread the gospel to those who are not reached yet but to wake up those Christians in churches who are in slumber, led by wolves in sheep’s clothing, who are deceived to think they are saved but they are not!
Hang on brother, your journey might have been a Valley of the shadow of death but Our Father in Heaven was there with you leading you through it into the light, His light and in the end He will reward you by saying,” Well done my good and faithful servant !”
Brother Matt, I am a recent subscriber and I already feel I found my brother in you, and please know that I thank God for you and that you are in my prayers in the name of The Holy and Mighty Name of Jesus, The Christ!
Dear Matt. This makes me feel so sad, how wonderful God looks after you. My son had so many feelings like you, but he just couldn't cope anymore with these dark thoughts. He wasn't saved which broke my heart. I will pray God's healing and peace for you every day. I will write your name on my prayer list. Every blessing for your wonderful channel.
I’m so sorry to hear this. It’s impossible to know how to respond to a comment like that. Thank you for your encouraging words, in the midst of your own challenges. I pray that this channel can continue to bless you, and thank you for being with me on the journey. God bless you, Matt
I'm so blessed by this video, Matt - thank you. Three weeks ago I went through intense Morphine withdrawal, and it was sheer hell! I had run out of my meds before the next batch had arrived, so had to go cold "cold turkey" without meds for a week. I need to be on Morphine, as I'm in severe pain. I'm praying for your 100% healing, Brother. Shalom from Mossel Bay in South Africa 🇿🇦
Praying for you, Matt! God is good and He loves you!
I can relate to what you are going through. I developed OCD over the 27 years of living with ME/CFS. The anxiety, sleep disturbances that swing from sleeping for 18 hours and day to not being able to sleep for more than 3 hours a day. The racing thoughts and not being able to focus. Not being able to work off the anxiety by going for a walk, exercising, working in the garden etc because the illnesses will not allow it. Now I am dealing with the sudden death of my son two weeks ago. I am overwhelmed but like you I take it one day at a time trusting God to get me through. The colour left my world when my son died. He loved Jesus so much and looked forward to being with him one day. For that I am so grateful and it brings peace during the storm. In time colour will return.
I’m so sorry to hear about your tragic loss. To suffer this on top of everything else, I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. May God be your comfort at this time of knowing that your son is in the presence of the Lord. I really hope that this channel can be a blessing to you in your life. Hopefully it can help, and even some small way. Thank you for sharing with me. God bless you, Matt
Dear Matt, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Staying close to God, he has sustained you, even though it's hard. Taking each day is hard too however this is what God calls us to do, even if we are suffering terribly like you or not. Yesterday is finished, God will take care of tomorrow for you. It slows us down and we focus on being close to the Lord. I can relate to you in some ways, I too have had the counting thing, even repeated singing in my head, terrible invasive thoughts which has been brought on by trauma, PTSD and abuse. You feel like you are going mad. At this moment I am not good and pray for God's strength, his grace, for I am weak. Animals can be great, a distraction, full of love and a companion. Love to you Matt....kim
Sweet boy, unless you had shared This nobody would ever know you were living through all of this, because your face always shines with your love for God and His word. I pray for healing for you, but also sweet fellowship with The Lord that suffering brings. Thank you so much for telling us of your immense struggles, it is so like you to do so with the express intention that it may help someone else in their struggles.❤
One day at a time. Don't get ahead of yourself.
Well our brother, just to say you have many of your family in Christ praying for you, and will continue to pray for you and all of the others that have shared their story. I have no words to make sense of what many of us have had to suffer and endure. Only that thank the Lord that He is with us through this and we are not alone.
Thank you for sharing, how tough it is to be so vulnerable. I also have OCD and I know how it encompasses your whole life. I will pray for you, for healing and or strength to endure. Thank you for standing for Biblical truth on your plateform. God bless you.
You are very welcome
Thank you for sharing. It reminds me of Corrie Ten Boom, a wonderful dutch sister, who lost her father and sister in concentration camp. She toured the world to tell about Gods amazing help and presence and how he gat her through those hard years. Her last - I think 5 years - she lost her ability to speak and had to have nurses. I think she surfered 2 strokes also. It really twisted my mind on how God is working. I never doubt his presence but it still puzzled me a bit. I could see his grace; how he made sure Corrie gat the help she needed. It was christians who took care of her the last years. There defintely also was a learning proces for those taking care of her.
May the Lord hold you in your difficult times and give you grace, and may it all be for his glory. In his hands there is no waste.
Thank you for sharing this deeply painful experience. I’m so glad you have Christ in your life and that you use your experience to witness to others. Praying for you always and God bless you Brother in Christ 🙏🏽🙏🏽
ohh bless u xx me chronic fatigue 60 years my daughter 25 years ohhh praying for u xx Lord Jesus help us please
Thank God you made it through that hardest time. Thank God He has saved you and after you have done everything, to stand. You are an inspiration that those that think they can't make it through and we who suffer in ways can hear your story and be encouraged. I really appreciate your channel. It really speaks to me. Hallelujah that God is real and true and that He has comforted you and will continue to sustain you. "Deep calls to deep at the sound of thy waterfalls, thy breakers and thy waves have rolled over me." Psalm 42:7 Thank you for trusting us, my dear brother in the Lord. May God continue to bless you.
Hi Matt
I love that you have opened up about the very real effects that you have been suffering with.
The worst thing for a Christian going through a mental health issue is other Christians who keep giving you 'positive' advice & think that giving you a scripture is going to heal you. They can make you feel like you're forgetting the Gospel & that you're ungrateful to Jesus. They are Job's comforters, just ignore them & just cling to the Lord in your own way. I love you in Christ brother, as you said yourself you keep doing the best you can whilst going through this trial.
God bless you, you're a wonderful man of God x
That might be a video worth making. I was thinking about it couple of days ago. Christians can often not know how to deal with people that are suffering in these ways. They mean well, but as you say, they are like Job’s comforters. Thank you so much for your encouragement. God bless you, Matt
@lionoffireraw you're very welcome Matt
God be with you as you navigate your recovery 🙏
I am a new subscriber and I can tell you the Lord is definitely using you. You have been a great encouragement and blessing to me. You will be in my prayers for your recovery. 🙏🏻❤️
Thank you so much for your encouragement. Welcome to the channel. I pray that it will continue to bless you. Matt
I’ll post my other channel below, where I do scripted and edited teachings. Check it out if you like 😃
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youtube.com/@lionoffireministries?si=S6CZyBYoAvNE7GxT
Thank you for sharing so openly. My challenges may be different than yours, but I relate much to physical and mental struggles. Praise the Lord you are further on the path than you were, praying He continues to strengthen and sustain you. Remember 2 Cor. 4:17-18.
I pray by His stripes you are healed, And I hope you see healing on this side brother! I am so glad you have an eternal perspective and know that the pain you have been suffering is nothing compared to the glory that is coming, hallelujah! Transparency is what is needed for many wear masks (I used to) but truth sets us free! God bless you!!
Thank you for sharing your journey with us brother. Your faith and perseverance inspires this community. Prayers for continued healing Matt. God bless you.
Prayers for you 🙏
I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I think my daughter was having these issues from a med but she also had 8 rare conditions. She took her own life dec 30, 2022. I am finally off one of my meds and managing the best i can. I have some of the same symptoms but not like what you described. I worry about my husband now as he ended up with Long covid or maybe it is fibro. The doctors say fibro but it all happened after he was vaccinated and then we got sick with Covid more than once. We both got sick with the long covid and I managed to improve and go back to work but he hasn't been able to for over 2 years now. They have been trying so many meds and nothing isn't working. I hope that the current med doesn't cause these issues for him. Since the doctors have no idea how to help him they are just throwing different meds and hoping something sticks. Thank you for sharing. Praying for you.
I’m so terribly sorry to hear about this. My heart sinks whenever I read a comment like this. I can’t imagine the pain that you have gone through. The fact that you and your husband are dealing with issues now related to health, must be so overwhelming. Doctors don’t understand the consequences of these medications, and withdrawal from them. Some are fortunate, others not so much. I pray that God will help you through this. God bless you, Matt
I am 😥I've been praying for you but I never knew to what you were dealing with. My thoughts and prayers are with you Matt, Joshua 1:9 comes to mind.
Brother, Matt,
While my scenario has many differences from yours, in late 2019 I suffered from a high-speed, broadside collision, Diffuse Axonal Shearing, pituitary gland damage, and much more.
The TBI from which I've been recovering forced me into an existence so poor and nearly insufferable that for YEARS I have been slowly recovering. You wouldn't believe the living hell I've been through, and I understand yours is your own and not to be compared to anyone's troubles.
Almost FIVE YEARS into recovery now, I can tell you that pretty nuch everything youre saying- in some form, and WORSE- has been part of my rebuilding, wherein I have been doing therapies throughout my recovery and I am getting better and better STILL, which is all we can hope to experience after such incomprehensible and profound devastation. I wear a hat that says, "IMPROVING," and I believe you and I are meaningful parts of each other's recoveries.
Your attitude is BeYoutiful, and what I said before the collision remains true: "Worse things have happened to better people," ONE IN PARTICULAR.
You in THE BEST HANDS, Matt, and you're healing to become someone whom you will ABSOLUTELY recognize again. Just be patient, and keep documenting your journey and goals.
To The Beginning, with Love in Christ-
paul
Thank you for ALL YOU DO, Matt!!!!!
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Thank you so much for sharing such encouraging words, despite your own incredible challenges. It really means a lot to me. I pray that this channel can continue to bless you. Thank you for being part of the journey. God bless you, Matt
Matt, thank you for sharing something very personal. People all over the world care for you and want you to be better. Many people will pray for you. God bless you always. T.G.
First and foremost....prayers for healing. 🙏
Also...while I am not a litigious person I have to ask of you have considered approaching an attorney and discussing a lawsuit against the physician who wrongly put you on this drug and perhaps the pharmaceutical company who produces the drug?
Nothing can be proven. The medical industry denies the existence of such discontinuation effects. There is zero chance of anything happening, sadly.
@@lionoffireraw Well, the censorship demons are busy at it again. I tried to respond, but it was immediately removed. I'll change a few words and try again.
@@lionoffireraw Second time now that my response has been deleted. Oohhhhh that makes me so angry at YT.
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@@lionoffireraw not even worth sueing. Because you will be made whole.
And although the enemy sought to use this attack for evil; look at how much it has helped others. They have found hope and faith during their battles with medical issues because of your testimony. That's a WIN for Jesus. Spiritual Purple 💜 for you.
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You've had a very hard struggle and yet , here you are.
Witnessing to people about the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
It doesn't show at all, I appreciate your honesty and I
Pray God will continue to strengthen you.
Depression unscrambled = I PRESSED ON. Your in my prayers 💞🙏🇨🇦
I completely understand you, maybe not what you have or had but similar, I struggle with sound sensitivity or hyperacusis , I'm effected by certain sounds and when those triggers hit, the flesh starts to rile. I understand when you said that you feel stuck and there is nothing that you could do to escape it, I'm guessing when that happens to you, you feel like letting your frustrations out, if that is the case, I have went through similar emotional roller coasters, when those triggers are all around me, in the past, those emotions were overwhelming and my patients had run out and I could not do anything about it but to leave the room and trust God. I went through that 2+ years and am still going through it but I know that my God has me in His hands. I felt stuck and hopeless in that situation but I know that our God will work things out for the good to those who love Him. My body and probably my brain was so tired of going through that, that I just wanted Him to take it away.
Thank You for sharing and being honest about how it is when we can't cope in life the way we would like to due to illness.
I understand you, you are not alone. Like you said our suffering is not in vain and ultimately our lives should gloriy God and you are fulfilling God's calling on your life.
You are in my prayers, Your sister in Christ, greetings and lots of love from Germany
I’ll be praying for peace & health for you. I remember hearing you share some of your journey some time back now and prayed for you then! You have come a long way since then so it must be the Lord working in your situation. I’ll continue to pray for you to be released from this mental torment and to be healed.
I am so sorry to hear of your struggles with this illness. I pray that God brings you out of these dark times. May I suggest taking Magnesium byglycinate and omega 3 marine algae at night to help with sleep.
Thank you 🙏
PRAYING FOR YOU, DEAR YOUNG MAN. MAY THE LORD JESUS SURROUND YOU WITH HIS PRESENCE AND PEACE, AND BRING FULL HEALING INTO YOUR LIFE.
Thank you for talking about this.
Prayers for you Matt 🙏 Stay the course
May God strengthen and heal you.
Thank you Matt for sharing these difficulties in you life, going through the same with being of a meditation that l was on for some time, May The Almighty God heal and restore you health,
I’m so sorry to hear that. God bless you, Matt 🙏
Praying for you.
May God bless you. Praying for you man.
I can relate because I've been there. You are in my prayers brother 🙏
Thank you, Matthew. Prayers for His will in your life.
Your a straight warrior brother. Keep fighting. I look forward to seeing you healed.
I will be praying for you, Matt!
You are such an encouragement. I can't imagine what you have and continue to endure. God Bless you.❤
God bless u....You will help so many through ur honesty 🙏 ❤
Thanks for this video man, much of what youre going through felt exactly like what ive experienced and its impossible to understand - even if you have been through it can be hard to make sense of. I hope you heal soon, one day this lifetime will feel like a blink of an eyelid - we are destined for glory brother 🙏 ❤️
Bless you brother. "Mental Hell" ..... I understand exactly what you lived/are living through......though the reasons may be different. When every fibre of your being is screaming; and anguish pervades every cell of your body. It takes every ounce of will-power to just hang on in there .... not knowing when it will end. I would rather have my teeth extracted without anaesthetic. We scour the Scriptures - every book, every chapter, every verse - looking for hope and comfort in our distress. God is with us in it, and through it, all. The Holy Spirit groans with groanings that words cannot express. Yes "MY eyes will see the king in His beauty"! Hallelujah!
I will add you to my daily prayers. Thank you for being candid and so clear and describing your suffering I came across your channel about two months ago and until now have not subscribed. Having said that, your channel regularly appears on my feed and today I will subscribe. I want you to know that you have such a special gift. It is so clear that you are a man of integrity and deep faith. Your honesty shines through like a bright star. I wish you healing, but even in suffering, as you have said, God can use us to bring others closer to him.
I'm so glad you're better, Matt! You have really been thru hell!I'm so glad God is keeping you!;You are a true blessing!
Dealing with hypothyroidism hasn't been easy for me, it's affected my sleep, my energy, my organs like my liver, gallbladder and thyroid issues! It's been very overwhelming for me, even though at times I am feeling good!:It's been a rollercoaster!
I will continue to pray for you, my brother in Christ. Please don't give up. God will see you through this.
I'm so so sorry to hear you explaining what you've gone/going through. My son is going through something so similar and I believe it is OCD and a subcategory of it called Scrupulosity. I've been listening to a man on TH-cam called Mark DeJesus who really explains exactly what you and my son are going through. Could you explain how your family have coped through this time? It's such a struggle for us to go through this with you.
Thank you for your honesty and bravery in describing what you've gone through.
Mental illness does not discriminate and it is debilitating- so many going through the same thing. Longing for heaven with our Lord and savior Jesus Christ
Wow Matt, I feel so much for you; I'm sorry you're going through such a hellish time.
I am glad that your videos are a blessing for you; they are definitely a blessing for us viewers. Thank you. And how wonderful that you know what God's calling is on your life, it must be a comfort knowing you're in the right place.
I am so encouraged to hear at the end you talking of this suffering not going to waste. God has an amazing way of using these unwanted experiences for His glory and our good.
Thankyou Great Encouragement for us all. May GOD Be with all of us and heal us according to His Will and His way.
God is using you to help others, my brother! You have surely been helping me, thank you!
What an amazing testimony, to go through all of that and still encourage others: 'Cast your cares upon Him, for He cares for you.' To see these things as 'light afflictions, which work in us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory,' as you do, is equally amazing, stunningly true, and something most of us would never really grasp, except in seeing the example of the few. And your hopeful attitude toward God transforms everything. It gives others the encouragement they need to go through their own lesser trials, and still hold fast to Him. Thanks for sharing this and staying true.
Sometimes God allows us to suffer so that we are stripped away from any dependence on ourselves and trust God alone. I believe God also uses these times to humble us, while at the same time shows us that our bodies are frail and weak at times and it helps us realize that our bodies weren’t made to last. Our flesh and our heart may fail, but God is the strength of our heart and our portion forever. God bless you. May you be totally healed and restored and have even greater faith on the other side of all of this!
Hi Matt, so sorry to hear what you went through. PLEASE consider high fat carnivore. It’s could change your life!
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This _is_ a blessing to hear.
I believe you are a Christian. We shall know them by their fruits, the Scrupture says, and yours are good.
I know a Christian cannot have a demon, but I'm sure I've heard some of this description in connection with demonism.
This all can only mean, there are chemical disorders whose chaos mimics demonic possession, and that is a terrible and frightening thing to hear testified.
Thank you.
Dear Matt, I had no idea this was happening! My son's name is Matthew but as a parent my heart hurts for you and I will keep you in my prayers!
It almost sounds like a bad lsd trip which I have never used those type of drugs as I never was around anyone that did that stuff!
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My friend had been bitten by a tick a few years ago and it was caught too late!
She found a place that infused specifically a mixture of vitamins directly into the blood stream!
This of course is the USA!
It almost sounds like brain trauma!
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I am so so very sorry that you are going through this and I pray the Precious Blood of Jesus Christ over you for supernatural healing!
God bless you Matt and your loved ones in the Holy Name of Jesus Christ!✝️🙏❤️
It sounds like your GABA production/receptivity is messed up. That alone can wreak unimaginable havoc.
Oh my gosh , I’m suffering the same ….I have to email you
Dear Matt!
My prayer for you is that you will be blessed in receiving the baptism of the Holy Spirit!
Praying in your heavenly language!
How powerful to pray in the heart of Abba Father when the enemy will be demolished/confused by the POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT!!
Surely this is an severe attack.but WE SERVE A MIGHTY..LOVING SAVIOUR JESUS...paid the price so you can be more than a conquerer!
AND WALK IN YOUR HEALING!!
Blessings from RSA.
Hey, thank you for your words and for opening up.
Can I ask you how long you took the medication?
About eight years.
Thank you.
This sounds very similar to benzo withdrawl which I know is hellish, I have literally just come off of diazepam, and the three things that I take that has taken away the OCD and the anxiety and restlessness or akathisia is thiamine in the form of benfotaimine and I take magnesium glycinate and cod liver oil, it could be that these things could help you.
God bless you!
May GOD BLESS YOU AND HEAL YOU IN JESUS CHRIST S NAME ❤️🙏AMEN .
Matt, prayers, healing and love coming to you from the UK. God Bless brother. ❤
Thank you for opening up .
I understand completely 🖤
Things that go into our bodies can really impact our brains and how we think. For me, it wasn't medicine, but food(gluten) that was causing me so much confusion and disconnect from this world. God uses us in our weak states. Remember Gideon. We may seem pretty small in the world's eyes, but we are big on God's chart. Keep up the good fight of faith, one day at a time, one minute at a time. 🙏
I know that when I quit taking Zoloft I had trouble myself out of nowhere I felt like someone had hit me over the head with a lead pipe without the pain. Then I'd have best way to describe it like being injected with electricity. On top of that I suffered from severe concussions when I was younger. Best way to describe what a concussion feels like is fill a plastic bag full of water and put a baseball cap on top.
I've had thoughts of suicide and back in 2016 I had it planned out but I felt like I couldn't move like someone physically stepped me from doing so. That was either God or an angel.
Matt God knows what you're going through and maybe God is allowing the situation to test you.
Have you tried exercising like walking, skateboarding etc? Skateboarding always helps me because I have to focus on what I'm doing. Keep walking with Jesus Christ also try an activity that you have no choice but to pay attention to what you're doing that might help with the unwanted thoughts. Remember Phillipines 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Don't know if this is in the Bible or not but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. God bless.
When I was 21, I had a night where I binged ecstasy, marijuana, and alcohol and my brain chemistry was completely wrecked. My life was completely disrupted after this. I had 8 weeks of therapy, which did no good. The only comfort I had was Jesus. After a few years of suffering (including hallucinations a year after I was completely clean) I started to recover.
Fast forward 25 years and I had a drug relapse, which caused a milder version of the same mental anguish. I quickly recognized that it was my sins that were causing all of this and finally completely gave my life to Jesus and repented of those things which remained that I had held on to. I also began daily Bible reading.
This was several years ago now and I recognize that all of the mental anguish is spiritual warfare. Jesus and the Word are everything I need to survive and even thrive following all of this, even with occasional attacks from the enemy which are ongoing.
You are not alone! Never give up and never stop believing that His grace is more than sufficient.
I’m glad you never took anything physically additive, glad your better. It could have been worse remember that
May the Lord give you peace. May His Countenance be shown unto you. In Jesus' Name I pray. Amen!
I’m sorry if this comes off as being rude or insensitive, I know a little bit about psychology, and I won’t take offence if you want to throw this back at me, this might sound weird but if it’s neural receptors that are affected maybe you could consider learning an instrument to train your brain to start working normally again? Playing music uses every area of the brain at the same time, and it would cause strong neural pathways develop everywhere over time, that could override the depression symptoms and get things running smoothly again. Combine that with some exercise (which I’m not assuming you don’t do), 10 minutes of walking a week, and the amygdala will start to produce new infantile neurons and replace the unhealthy ones, and that might be a way to make a very strong brain. I don’t have any credentials to back up how effective this could be at recovering what’s happened to you, but what I’ve said is all backed up by research. Being creative with these videos is definitely a big win for your psychology for sure, I pray to the Lord for your restoration.
I actually really appreciate this message. I understand that the things that you are communicating are based on science. Some interesting points to consider them. I wish that I had greater energy for exercise, but hopefully that will come in time. I try to hold onto the hope that my brain is continually healing itself, and there are things that I can do to strengthen it.
I appreciate your message, and your courage in writing it. I know that many people could react negatively to a message like that, but it is filled with much practical help. God bless you, Matt
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Made me think of the Book of Job and how at the end God gave back so much more to Job than what he took away. Remember from all you've said here you are improving, even if the healing isn't as quick as you'd like.Nothing is impossible for God and our thoughts are heavenly but never be surprised with what our Amazing God does for us/uses us for while we're on earth. You are an articulate young man and I am always blessed by your videos.
I understand, brother. When I was seven, I was almost killed in a bombing. I have a moderate to severe traumatic brain injury. That was sixty - five years ago. I haven't had a healthy moment since.
To make matters worse, I've been cheated out of hundreds of thousands of dollars of inheritance money. Worst of all, a cousin who masquerades as a Christian but is actually a sociopath went behind my back to convince an aunt from the opposite side of the family to disinherit me. He himself married into a fabulously wealthy family. Obviously, he was trying to kill me. If it weren't for my marvelous church, he'd have succeeded.
I’m very sorry to hear this… 😔
@@lionoffireraw I know what it is to have a dysfunctional brain.
What would have happened if you had tapered off the medicine instead of cold turkey?
I'm sure you had considered it.
Is it one of the medicines that is simply impossible with?
I actually came off the medication over one year. But even this is quicker than one of the groups online recommends. They recommend 3 to 4 years. I had no fracture as I was tapering. Then it hit me all at once. Crazy how this can happen. God bless you, Matt
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God bless you too, brother.
I'm glad to know you're given the grace every day to continue through it.
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Matt as I was listening to you speak I received a word of knowledge brother. The Lyme does ease and the protracted withdrawals are all as a result of a spiritual attack you experienced from your visit to India.
The enemy didn’t want you to serve God because of your strong anointing.
I am praying now specifically for this, for Jesus died on the cross and defeated every power, principality, and all spiritual entities that attack us, he gave us authority to trample on snakes and scorpion and all the power of the enemy and nothing will harm us! In the name of Jesus I command these powers to leave and stop affecting your body, spirit behind Lyme disease you must flee now, in the name of Jesus, spirit behind brain injury you must flee now in the name of Jesus! Jesus sprinkle Matt with your blood, 7 fold sprinkling and complete the victory for his healing so He can serve you! Lord I ask for your protection for Matt, be the fire surrounding Him and the Glory within Him! No weapon formed shall prosper against you no more! No illness shall come near your dwelling! All this I pray in the name of Jesus, Amen!
Thank you Jesus for your victory on the cross, for your blood and for giving Matt life that is abundant in peace, joy, love, and may the Holy Spirit always rests on Him and completely restores! All that has been stolen shall come back seven fold, all the time, the strength, opportunities, everything that the way and locust ate must come back! The victory belongs to the Lord, it is finished! Amen!
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