I wrote my college thesis on this song and how music as beautiful as this can help mentally. Even for me this song and others help me a lot. The only paper I ever got an A on.
I have borderline personality disorder and this song speaks so much to me...even if it is about drug addiction...these lyrics can help anyone who struggles.
you know i have sat here and listen to this song 4 times now. and have wiped the tears from my face.. it reminds me of my past to the drugs the i don't give a fu*k attitude like i said my" past".. i have been clean now for over 21/2 years! you know hearing this song makes you think in so many ways of how it could of turned out! i just am so glad i hit that point of this is it you need help.... and i did get it...I do love the song, if you can wipe the tears from your face you are growing stronger and that's what a lot of us need now days....
+Bob Davis - so right Bob. Happy that you are clean now. Keep up the good work!! I don't know you, but know the struggle. Everyday is a challenge. But know this... YOU WILL MAKE it! I have faith that you WILL!! All we can do is take it a minute at a time and pat ourselves on the back for that minute and the next and the next.....Hope you are doing well at this time. hugs!!
Thank you char,but can I just ask you this how did you find this out..oh wait I put it on you tube in a comment huh and it was on a song I am still clean and making the best out of life Char , thank you so much for your time and concern on this I hope you are doing good as well I do know all the struggles that come with this
You never think the songs you love will turn on you. It's crazy how once thought to be one thing only to listen further down the road and remind of of another thing. It's the saddest thing to not be able to listen to your favorite bands or songs due to "little reels of tape playing movies in my head!"
This is the first time listening to this song and let me tell you, it definitely tells a story that many people can relate to (not necessarily me, but still). What a beautiful song
Man do I relate to this more than ever this past year.......well I always felt my music, but geez.........I didn't think I would literally live it one day.
If I ever have a wish it's to meet this man. He change my life, it was hard for me growing up because my stepfather was abusive and hateful ad he made me think that I was a fuckup and that I was worthless. Thank you.
KantoeLegit It cool to see you found your true self a fine young man a stronger your man for what you endured. Most of all you learn your no diff then anyone else we all get pushed down but sooner or later you want to get up again and you do. But that was all you! Thanks for sharing!
I saw them in Detroit YEARS ago opening for Default. After their set the band was walking around (really small venue) and I got to stand there and drink a beer with him. Met him later at one of his open book tour shows. Super awesome guy. I'm not as big of a fan of their newer stuff, even though it's still good, but ya his music is fantastic. I always took this song for a very different meaning than it was written for.
from the song I have my color changes back to blue tattooed on my arm because of the bullying that I went through and made me upset all the time so I got this in memory of how strong I was to get through my last year at my other school and then I was happy again once I transferred but they still stick with me cause of the bad relationship I have with my step grandmother..... she was always there to make me feel like shit when I was down already....I sure love this song though :)
+Cheyenne Hodges , you are an awesome human being. Don't let anyone tell you other wise. Life as you know it now will not always be this way. Trust me, I was bullied and survived. Believe in who you are and trust in who you will become. Love yourself for who you are, don't let anyone try to change you into who they think you should be. Don't settle for people who try to make you change!!!!!! Be who you are and love that person. No matter what - all that matters is what you want out of your life. Go for what makes you happy. Don't let ANYONE dictate who you should be!
+Char Herndon thank you for kind words :) I don't let it bother me anymore now that I'v moved on with my life it's just me and my beautiful dog pandora whom is my best friend. :)
I try to think of all the people I looked up to. While growing up who would I be? Now the twisted part...Where did all my idols end up? They've all past away.
Ricky G I know how ya feel man. Idk if I have another come back in me, I know I have another fall tho. it's been 2 months since you posted this. so I hope you're ok right now.
God this song just tears you up it reminds me of me drugs are not the only way to be self destructive poor self image can be hell self esteem without it life is hell people will use you and abuse you and then you will think that is normal to behave a certain way until you find someone that sees the mess up mess that you are and hell he still loves you...but that feeling of love is brand new and you find easy ways to continue on this destructive path but now is worst because you took someone who actually loves you you took him down that you see his pain and god it sucks more and more and everyday you feel guilty but hell im trying to be the best for him because for sure he deserves the best combine the self destructive to bipolar disorder is a hell of a ride voices creep you but for him i will remain in stable ground he gave me a quiet mind and yes sometimes im like this song but now i have someone to be good for my husband and my kids i have something real
+alejandra0913 - remember to love and accept yourself. Another person can't make you happy. You have to be the source of your own peace and happiness. You are loved and special. Embrace the difference that you bring to this world. Smile and know that your are loved, but most of all - love yourself!!
alejandra0913 omg you just made me cry, I am trying so hard to keep it together right now. I feel like not only have I been cursed by freinds who I have looked up to ended up overdosing, I can't operate on any level of life that I don't feel fake in. I love what you said, it gives me a little more courage to not be so sad.
This song might be about addiction, even though I never abuse substances, it reminds me of dealing with the inner demons of mental illness, constantly dealing with ocd. Everything is never good enough for it.
what Donkiieee said :3 Justin is an inspiration to anyone who has the ability to listen with you heart, because he never leaves it out, from beat to beat
I am in a place in my life right now where I feel like no one is listening. I have been a addict for 19 years and I am only 31 its the only life I know and Im tired. Im so tired. I am seriously thinking about ending it all Ive told my wife and my brother and my parents Im scared when Im alone cuz thats when shit seems like its too much. But they just pat me on the back and tell me it will get better.I dont even know why Im writing this I just feel alone and stuck.
I change my color for you. I shed my coat with caution. I lack the beauty you display. See here they are the bruises. Some were self inflicted. Some showed up along the way. So I nod my head, I'm ready for the world to see. The secret I kept here inside, the man you thought I'd be. I slip into coma calm. The coma where I calm myself down. Here come excuses. Why I let you down. Stand by for another break down. Sound off the alarm. Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become? Chameleon boy... So now we've come upon the hardest thing I've ever done. It's telling you that I'm a mess. What sort of mess I mean is self destructive gasoline... The kind that strips you of your best. While I play instead... The way that most would end up dead. You sleep alone at home and wish that I were in our bed. With this I'm telling you my color changes back to blue... How do I ask you this? Will you help me through? Stand by for another break down. Sound off the alarm. Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become? Chameleon boy... I try to think of all the people I looked up to. While growing up who would I be? Now the twisted part...Where did all my idols end up? They've all past away... Past away... (Stand by... It's the chameleon boy) X2
Then it gets to a point when you realize no one is standing by anymore, no one pays attention to the alarm. "The boy who cried wolf"? One too many times? Yes, seems to be that way. Well then what's left? Slip away quietly, no alarms, just quiet and peacefully slip away.
Zero day. Digital graffiti time stamping flicker shit.. T.his I.s n.ot a.cceptable... If I knew better then.. Red n blue wud have had warning labels.. Gray is the way.. Dangerous Octopus guy .. Is another way of sayin I get this shit for real.. Struggle shit.i luv u AnW root beer!,
I Love this song but I have to say the sync of the lyrics to the written is really not done very well. I'd prefer to see the "slide" where the whole verses come up rather than one letter at a time.
I wrote my college thesis on this song and how music as beautiful as this can help mentally. Even for me this song and others help me a lot. The only paper I ever got an A on.
I have borderline personality disorder and this song speaks so much to me...even if it is about drug addiction...these lyrics can help anyone who struggles.
Me too and I'm right with you.
dude same here but i have the addiction piece as well and i agree with you
How are you after 4 years ?
I have emotional issues related to adhd and depression and I understand this song too
How are you now a day ? Greetings and Gods blessings from the Netherlands
"Where did all my idols end up? "
"They all passed away.. "
The love of my life fell victim to drugs.. I'll never love anyone like I love him again..
I feel you....... I went so far and became homeless....... but now 22 years clean and have a wife living happy. Gods blessings from the Netherlands
you know i have sat here and listen to this song 4 times now. and have wiped the tears from my face.. it reminds me of my past to the drugs the i don't give a fu*k attitude like i said my" past".. i have been clean now for over 21/2 years! you know hearing this song makes you think in so many ways of how it could of turned out! i just am so glad i hit that point of this is it you need help.... and i did get it...I do love the song, if you can wipe the tears from your face you are growing stronger and that's what a lot of us need now days....
+Bob Davis - so right Bob. Happy that you are clean now. Keep up the good work!! I don't know you, but know the struggle. Everyday is a challenge. But know this... YOU WILL MAKE it! I have faith that you WILL!! All we can do is take it a minute at a time and pat ourselves on the back for that minute and the next and the next.....Hope you are doing well at this time. hugs!!
Thank you char,but can I just ask you this how did you find this out..oh wait I put it on you tube in a comment huh and it was on a song I am still clean and making the best out of life Char , thank you so much for your time and concern on this I hope you are doing good as well I do know all the struggles that come with this
Is no fun so if you want to keep in touch that would be sweet thanks again Char you are pretty cool I think have a good night
god bless
Bob Davis snort some..grow a pair..
You never think the songs you love will turn on you. It's crazy how once thought to be one thing only to listen further down the road and remind of of another thing. It's the saddest thing to not be able to listen to your favorite bands or songs due to "little reels of tape playing movies in my head!"
This is the first time listening to this song and let me tell you, it definitely tells a story that many people can relate to (not necessarily me, but still). What a beautiful song
this song ALWAYS makes me tear up. for some reason it really hits home..
Me too
Same
this song is so sad, but absolutely beautiful.
I agree I cry every time I hear it. But only because that was once me.
"Stand by for another breakdown" my life basically
yep. Sound off the fucking alarm.
Haylee Haux Somebody Fucking Stand By!!!!!
The broken Glass will never cut your Soul
Weak. Hope you’re still kicking. Wimp 😘
Me too. Praying for both of us 🙏🏼💖
Man do I relate to this more than ever this past year.......well I always felt my music, but geez.........I didn't think I would literally live it one day.
I have never ever in my life identified with a song more than this one
If I ever have a wish it's to meet this man. He change my life, it was hard for me growing up because my stepfather was abusive and hateful ad he made me think that I was a fuckup and that I was worthless. Thank you.
KantoeLegit It cool to see you found your true self a fine young man a stronger your man for what you endured. Most of all you learn your no diff then anyone else we all get pushed down but sooner or later you want to get up again and you do. But that was all you! Thanks for sharing!
I saw them in Detroit YEARS ago opening for Default. After their set the band was walking around (really small venue) and I got to stand there and drink a beer with him. Met him later at one of his open book tour shows. Super awesome guy. I'm not as big of a fan of their newer stuff, even though it's still good, but ya his music is fantastic. I always took this song for a very different meaning than it was written for.
from the song I have my color changes back to blue tattooed on my arm because of the bullying that I went through and made me upset all the time so I got this in memory of how strong I was to get through my last year at my other school and then I was happy again once I transferred but they still stick with me cause of the bad relationship I have with my step grandmother..... she was always there to make me feel like shit when I was down already....I sure love this song though :)
+Cheyenne Hodges , you are an awesome human being. Don't let anyone tell you other wise. Life as you know it now will not always be this way. Trust me, I was bullied and survived. Believe in who you are and trust in who you will become. Love yourself for who you are, don't let anyone try to change you into who they think you should be. Don't settle for people who try to make you change!!!!!! Be who you are and love that person. No matter what - all that matters is what you want out of your life. Go for what makes you happy. Don't let ANYONE dictate who you should be!
+Char Herndon thank you for kind words :) I don't let it bother me anymore now that I'v moved on with my life it's just me and my beautiful dog pandora whom is my best friend. :)
Brutal honesty this song has saved my life more times than I want to tell.
FREAKING THANK YOU been hunting for this song.....
Still here listening. 💕
Gabriella Flores : 2020
When I was in highschool I sung along to the lyrics. Now that I'm older I'm living the reality. Damn. Time changes everything
slip into coma calm... thats me in every way god i love this song so much.
Great Song
A song about loosing your people to drugs, and almost loosing yourself.. Some deep lyrics
This song is amazing.
I try to think of all the people I looked up to.
While growing up who would I be?
Now the twisted part...Where did all my idols end up?
They've all past away.
I am not ready for the next big break down in my life.
I don't think I can survive the next big event in my life.
Ricky G I know how ya feel man. Idk if I have another come back in me, I know I have another fall tho. it's been 2 months since you posted this. so I hope you're ok right now.
A year later but I hope you’re doing well man 💛
Hey man I know you don't know me, but you can talk to me. I feel the same way. Add me on fb if you want. Lauren Gage
You made it!
God this song just tears you up it reminds me of me drugs are not the only way to be self destructive poor self image can be hell self esteem without it life is hell people will use you and abuse you and then you will think that is normal to behave a certain way until you find someone that sees the mess up mess that you are and hell he still loves you...but that feeling of love is brand new and you find easy ways to continue on this destructive path but now is worst because you took someone who actually loves you you took him down that you see his pain and god it sucks more and more and everyday you feel guilty but hell im trying to be the best for him because for sure he deserves the best combine the self destructive to bipolar disorder is a hell of a ride voices creep you but for him i will remain in stable ground he gave me a quiet mind and yes sometimes im like this song but now i have someone to be good for my husband and my kids i have something real
+alejandra0913 - remember to love and accept yourself. Another person can't make you happy. You have to be the source of your own peace and happiness. You are loved and special. Embrace the difference that you bring to this world. Smile and know that your are loved, but most of all - love yourself!!
alejandra0913
omg you just made me cry, I am trying so hard to keep it together right now.
I feel like not only have I been cursed by freinds who I have looked up to ended up overdosing, I can't operate on any level of life that I don't feel fake in.
I love what you said, it gives me a little more courage to not be so sad.
this has been mi song 4 a long time its wat keps me sober 4 now
This song might be about addiction, even though I never abuse substances, it reminds me of dealing with the inner demons of mental illness, constantly dealing with ocd. Everything is never good enough for it.
Wonderful song.
what Donkiieee said :3 Justin is an inspiration to anyone who has the ability to listen with you heart, because he never leaves it out, from beat to beat
This song makes me want to cry so much :(
My favorite song, so true for me.
AMAZING
their best song for me.
love this vid. thank you
Where have all my idols end up? They have all passed away! I felt that!
τι κομματαρα. μετα απο πολλα χρονια 2013-2014 (gre. srvr 6)
This song has changed so many peoples lives.. mine included
Thanks, the other video uploaded kept buffering, this one loads just fine.
Couldn't describe better what my addiction has done to my loved ones. This is for Oaky and Dani Jo
People ask how i go by every day and i never give a aswer but this music helps a lot and the people that react too it.💞💞💞
I am in a place in my life right now where I feel like no one is listening. I have been a addict for 19 years and I am only 31 its the only life I know and Im tired. Im so tired. I am seriously thinking about ending it all Ive told my wife and my brother and my parents Im scared when Im alone cuz thats when shit seems like its too much. But they just pat me on the back and tell me it will get better.I dont even know why Im writing this I just feel alone and stuck.
Paul Hembree are you doing better? I hope so....go find someone to talk to who's going to listen and help. Peace.
Paul Hembree if you ever need anything, anyone to talk to, in just another person who feels alot like you. Feel free to contact me.
You're not alone!
How are you these days?
@@fishes002 late but since you never got an answer, they updated they're playlist recently, so at least someone is there!
10 / 10
Probably "A Quiet Mind" and "18th Floor Balcony".
I change my color for you.
I shed my coat with caution.
I lack the beauty you display.
See here they are the bruises.
Some were self inflicted.
Some showed up along the way.
So I nod my head, I'm ready for the world to see.
The secret I kept here inside, the man you thought I'd be.
I slip into coma calm.
The coma where I calm myself down.
Here come excuses.
Why I let you down.
Stand by for another break down.
Sound off the alarm.
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become?
Chameleon boy...
So now we've come upon the hardest thing I've ever done.
It's telling you that I'm a mess.
What sort of mess I mean is self destructive gasoline...
The kind that strips you of your best.
While I play instead...
The way that most would end up dead.
You sleep alone at home and wish that I were in our bed.
With this I'm telling you my color changes back to blue...
How do I ask you this?
Will you help me through?
Stand by for another break down.
Sound off the alarm.
Is this the chameleon boy I swore I wouldn't become?
Chameleon boy...
I try to think of all the people I looked up to.
While growing up who would I be?
Now the twisted part...Where did all my idols end up?
They've all past away...
Past away...
(Stand by...
It's the chameleon boy) X2
Then it gets to a point when you realize no one is standing by anymore, no one pays attention to the alarm. "The boy who cried wolf"? One too many times? Yes, seems to be that way. Well then what's left? Slip away quietly, no alarms, just quiet and peacefully slip away.
Think goes with ever clear everything to everyone
my life story in 5.48!
thanks :)
whats your favorite and second favorite blue october song?
Was that in Connecticut?
😂 I want the best for you ❤
Upload inner glow
Derek
Story of my my life but you didn't have to tell me I kinda already knew. And yes I I will help you thru you help me . All the time.
+superfishyface Same with me.
This describes my step brother. ....😥😖😖😖😖
I'm 1000 of these views
*lessthanthhreee
my color changes back to blue..
Zero day. Digital graffiti time stamping flicker shit.. T.his I.s n.ot a.cceptable... If I knew better then.. Red n blue wud have had warning labels.. Gray is the way.. Dangerous Octopus guy .. Is another way of sayin I get this shit for real.. Struggle shit.i luv u AnW root beer!,
Everything turns to shit - Tony Soprano
I Love this song but I have to say the sync of the lyrics to the written is really not done very well. I'd prefer to see the "slide" where the whole verses come up rather than one letter at a time.
Who you really talking about. Not a hater hopefully.
I'm sorry I am who I am Valarie.
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