why am i like this - original song | Orla Gartland

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  • @orlagartland
    @orlagartland  2 ปีที่แล้ว +6368

    I LOVE HEARTSTOPPER. hi to all fellow fans of Nick & Charlie - thank you for looking up my song :') it is on spotify - just search for 'why am I like this?' and you'll find it there on my profile alongside my first album which I released last year. I'm on tour right now and brewing lots of new songs for the next chapter.. LOVE YOU X

    • @telemonz5320
      @telemonz5320 2 ปีที่แล้ว +73

      hi, im so obsessed w/ ur song and thank u for serving this, IT SUITS THE SERIES VERY WELL, I LOVE U.

    • @lovsky123
      @lovsky123 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      I love this song , grettings from Buenos Aires , argentina

    • @Wanna_be_a_rockk
      @Wanna_be_a_rockk 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      LOVESSSSS

    • @lauramunoz5311
      @lauramunoz5311 2 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      I loved it since the first moment I heard it on Heartstopper and its been on repeat on my spotify since then. Greetings from Colombia

    • @septan4168
      @septan4168 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Orla whats the simple chords for this pls respond im gonna play it hehehe

  • @doddleoddle
    @doddleoddle 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12068

    SIIIIICKKKK

    • @shadysadie8589
      @shadysadie8589 6 ปีที่แล้ว +89

      doddleoddle how did dodie’s comment get drowned out lol

    • @juliettyrer-bragg6435
      @juliettyrer-bragg6435 6 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      indeed, queen

    • @fuh-ran
      @fuh-ran 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      ikr what

    • @allesundmehr
      @allesundmehr 6 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      "sick" is the new "it's a wrap"

    • @maewalker9172
      @maewalker9172 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      riGhT???

  • @sleepful1373
    @sleepful1373 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5028

    is there anyone else who IMMEDIATELY had to know what song this was after hearing it in heartstopper?? you are so talented!!!

    • @nmhd8798
      @nmhd8798 2 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Yesss/ simmm

    • @arielfouse4235
      @arielfouse4235 2 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      I came here right after hearing it on episode 2

    • @sapphire2442
      @sapphire2442 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yuppp

    • @hyunjinho4963
      @hyunjinho4963 2 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      YESSS I WAS SHOCKED BCOZ I KNOE ORLA B4 HEARTSTOPPER GAWD

    • @JakobQ1991
      @JakobQ1991 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Exactly this.

  • @glixhh3583
    @glixhh3583 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2246

    This song with the scene with Nick questioning his sexuality made me tear up, it's just such a perfect combination and brings out so much emotion to scene. The entire showed the thoughts of a queer teen perfectly. Your voice is absolutely amazing, I really love this.

    • @matthewgopez
      @matthewgopez 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Perfect song!!

    • @canny_linguist
      @canny_linguist 2 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Took me right back to my own gay crisis at 14/15 and realising it's okay to be the way I am

    • @glixhh3583
      @glixhh3583 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @@canny_linguist Same, it was a really impactful and powerful scene for me

    • @jett1812
      @jett1812 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yes:(

    • @kyn354
      @kyn354 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      @@canny_linguist i’m figuring out my sexuality right now so that scene and this song are really empowering to me

  • @lawleighette
    @lawleighette 6 ปีที่แล้ว +756

    "I got my mistakes on loop inside my head" hit me hard

  • @majortom2231
    @majortom2231 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3828

    *_i aM CONVINCED THAT YOU HAVE MAGIC POWERS HONESTLY WHO WRITES SONGS LIKE THAT I'M IN LOVE_*

    • @KelseyBarnardMusic
      @KelseyBarnardMusic 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      major tom seriously 🙌🏼 just discovered her like a week ago and I’m obsessed!

    • @rebekahmoore6920
      @rebekahmoore6920 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Sammmmme, no words honestly

    • @girlfailuredotexe
      @girlfailuredotexe 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      1,000 LIKE

    • @LAURASUSUNAGA
      @LAURASUSUNAGA 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      writes**

    • @majortom2231
      @majortom2231 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      LAURA !!!!!!!!!! lol sorry

  • @5e.ren4
    @5e.ren4 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1229

    This song is in heartstopper and I loved it

    • @user-uc2pm9kl8b
      @user-uc2pm9kl8b 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      LIKE IN THE SHOW HEART STOPPER YASSSSSSSSSSS

    • @MiaSilianYT_
      @MiaSilianYT_ 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      😊❤

  • @deryaverahmi3798
    @deryaverahmi3798 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2208

    I literally NEVER comment on anything but girl this is FIRE

  • @twistedtranslations
    @twistedtranslations 6 ปีที่แล้ว +869

    Oy this is crazy good

  • @sherrawed9050
    @sherrawed9050 6 ปีที่แล้ว +303

    gosh i love the guitar in this one

    • @savaledj
      @savaledj 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yep me too. Really want to know the guitar amp settings. Guessing lots of compression and a bit delay or something, but yeah it sounds so sweet

  • @ryandaniel9057
    @ryandaniel9057 2 ปีที่แล้ว +234

    I cried during this scene, i remembered how scared i was the first time typed in "am i gay", so yeah i understand why nick cried, i understand how scary it is...i love how the song also amplifies this scene gosh, im crying all over again writing this comment

    • @bbbean7441
      @bbbean7441 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      we all have been there and same feeling
      (by all i mean anyone from the LGBTQIA+ community)

    • @heliohdcandido
      @heliohdcandido 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Know exactly what you're talking about. This means we still have a heart and a mind: we still human. And this is wonderful.

    • @tobiramatime
      @tobiramatime ปีที่แล้ว

      ❤️❤️

    • @AVA-v8i
      @AVA-v8i 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I was always scared Bc i couldn't tell my parents i cryed so much at that scene i know how it feels to Be confused and scared and even at a young age I knew it is scary But its nice to figure yourself out🥹😭

  • @Kawaremu
    @Kawaremu 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4264

    This song deserves to be in some films endings, idk, just saying.

    • @Gthefray
      @Gthefray 5 ปีที่แล้ว +132

      does have 'rolling credits' - vibes, you're right haha

    • @Kawaremu
      @Kawaremu 5 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      @@Gthefray That's what I was exactly imagining !

    • @Gthefray
      @Gthefray 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      @@Kawaremu yeah, yeah right, i gotcha! hehe

    • @maud6524
      @maud6524 5 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Omg yes it would be perfect

    • @justcallmeteacup4711
      @justcallmeteacup4711 5 ปีที่แล้ว +75

      I get coming of age climax of the story vibes where the main character has just got into a big fight with their best friend/family member

  • @dorkagreznevics1941
    @dorkagreznevics1941 6 ปีที่แล้ว +868

    I NEED THIS ON SPOTIFY I’M BEGGING YOU

    • @Alraralubis
      @Alraralubis 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hey, if you see this, you'll be interested th-cam.com/video/gPa5mvJunv8/w-d-xo.html

    • @viniciusnogueira7763
      @viniciusnogueira7763 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Looks like you got what you wanted

    • @magdalenaborowska1589
      @magdalenaborowska1589 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      hey it's up already

  • @Liv-uz1dz
    @Liv-uz1dz 6 ปีที่แล้ว +620

    at first I was like "so I like the song but it´s sad that the chorus is just one sentence. Could have made more out of that" but then I realized that when I start overthinking and hating on myself it´s this sentence on loop in my head (like she sings in the last verse) "why am I like this? Why am I like this? Why am I like this???" and now I really love it.

    • @poppyseed5056
      @poppyseed5056 6 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      yeaaaaah it's like im yelling at myself to distract from the pain of having to deal with what just happened

    • @Liv-uz1dz
      @Liv-uz1dz 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@poppyseed5056 omg someone put it in words! Thank you!!

    • @ALover5316
      @ALover5316 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I don't know why, but I feel like I needed to hear this. Thanks Liv. (Hey, we have the same name!) Anyway, i understand why I love this song now.

    • @Liv-uz1dz
      @Liv-uz1dz 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@ALover5316 You're cool

    • @xangie8204
      @xangie8204 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yes this +++++

  • @nucksuget1886
    @nucksuget1886 3 ปีที่แล้ว +196

    This?
    I'm almost a man of 30 years but, the first time I heard this? I cried. I didn't get choked up, no weeping. I cried like a child with skinned knees and a broken bone. This hit me somewhere special.
    All of this.

    • @tjzambonischwartz
      @tjzambonischwartz 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Man of 40, and same. Hit like a ton of bricks.

  • @AhoyKelsey
    @AhoyKelsey 6 ปีที่แล้ว +415

    I need this on Spotify so I can play it 25/7

  • @stephyeah6410
    @stephyeah6410 6 ปีที่แล้ว +825

    it really feels like you just took a good look into the deepest part of my brain and made it a catchy song

    • @jonathanasdell4539
      @jonathanasdell4539 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      That's very true... we've all got doubts about ourselves, just choose to not confront them 99% of the time and instead let them subconsciously steer us around. Still working on not letting them do that to me :)

    • @elif-xk2vw
      @elif-xk2vw 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      so you've seen a girl crying on the train drinking gin and tonic from a can to ease the pain

    • @stephyeah6410
      @stephyeah6410 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Elif Bursalı y’know once i saw a girl on the train eating straight up half an avocado with a spoon so that’s pretty close

    • @elif-xk2vw
      @elif-xk2vw 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@stephyeah6410 :D

  • @heathermcdowallmusic
    @heathermcdowallmusic 6 ปีที่แล้ว +152

    ACTUALLY ONE OF THE BEST SONGWRITERS OF OUR GENERATION !!

  • @RosileeJe
    @RosileeJe 2 ปีที่แล้ว +401

    It took me all of like 0.7 seconds to recognize this when it started playing in Heartstopper and I got SO EXCITED. It fit the scene so well and was just super cool to hear in the show!! Had to let the credits roll just to vibe along lol
    Welcome to any newcomers to her music coming from the show, you won't be disappointed believe me

    • @MarleneRodriguez711
      @MarleneRodriguez711 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      THIS^^^

    • @ragazzopigro97
      @ragazzopigro97 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      ❤️

    • @freehighfives
      @freehighfives 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      omg yes

    • @laurenharner8711
      @laurenharner8711 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      her posting that it was in heartstopper is what made me want to watch it lmaoo, so proud of her honestly

    • @dryelene
      @dryelene 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I was like pointing and gasping because i binge listened to it a bit before i watched heartstopper lol

  • @razbuten
    @razbuten 5 ปีที่แล้ว +665

    When YT recommends songs like this to me I a) feel personally attacked by the implication the algorithm is making about me, b) realize it is 1am and I am still online when I should be asleep, c) think youtube's algorithm may have a point, and d) am thankful for musicians like you who write and perform honest and beautiful music.

  • @indiabradshaw
    @indiabradshaw 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1905

    The more I listen to this song (and I listen to this song a lot), the more I think that it's lyrically one of Orla's strongest works and an incredible depiction of anxiety as a whole.
    Choosing to sing "why am I like this?" over and over again is just so smart. The sound of that repeating phrase is remarkably reminiscent of the internal thought process you get stuck inside in the middle of an anxious moment - it's like she's took a feeling and perfectly crafted it into music and lyrics.
    I also love how she touches on every group of people in her life: her family, her friends, her acquaintances, a random girl on the train. The scope of anxiety seeping into the brain is so wide and reaches every crevice, every human interaction.
    It’s no wonder to me that Orla is going places with songs like this and I can't wait to see everything she does next 😊 The world neeeeeeds this kind of songwriting and I'm so glad the internet allows me to hear it

    • @cron6435
      @cron6435 4 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      the “why i am like this” part is called repetition. its a literary device that many writers use to put emphasis on smt. i wanted to tell you because i totally agree with how u explained the mood that was used in “why am i like this”, and just wanted to help u out a bit :)

    • @callmecharliemusic
      @callmecharliemusic 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Written like a true songwriter - love Orla and you’ve done some amazing stuff yourself! To anyone else reading who enjoyed this song, I strongly recommend you go check out her channel, there’s some great tunes on there.

    • @sophiehennink645
      @sophiehennink645 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@callmecharliemusic Thanks for that recommendation! This is some great music.

    • @morganirbs2523
      @morganirbs2523 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      After I read this and paid more attention to the chorus, my actual anxiety I have was triggered by the repeated phrase! That's some intense music there to make someone feel that

  • @anitonoyan6282
    @anitonoyan6282 6 ปีที่แล้ว +600

    Please put this on like Spotify or something. This is beautiful.

    • @danielyujiyaegashi1210
      @danielyujiyaegashi1210 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Elaine Teami No, Spotify = Money for the creator / Download = No money for creator :(

    • @skye-yu1us
      @skye-yu1us 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      u my friend are in luck. it comes out feb 8

    • @mariakwnstantinidou9108
      @mariakwnstantinidou9108 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yayyy comes out in a week

    • @macrophage2495
      @macrophage2495 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      It’s on Spotify now btw

  • @elleandtoni
    @elleandtoni 4 ปีที่แล้ว +417

    Loving the rawness of that bridge at 2:07. 😍

    • @damaygo1742
      @damaygo1742 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Right!

    • @RachelAnnPotter
      @RachelAnnPotter 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      REINA DEL CID I MET YOU! I HAVE A PICTURE OF YOU WITH MY MOTHER 😁

  • @joelmiddaugh8229
    @joelmiddaugh8229 5 ปีที่แล้ว +809

    In drop D
    Main chords: D maj 3rd, G maj 7, Em add 9.
    Bridge: B minor, A major 3rd, E minor, G major 5.
    Cool song.

    • @naomik5722
      @naomik5722 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      thanks!! came back to see if anyone posted these !

    • @sdictson7750
      @sdictson7750 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      just a real quick tip for writing out chords, a Dmaj 3rd or a A maj 3rd could just be written out as - D and A

    • @jonnypayne598
      @jonnypayne598 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thanks

    • @joelmiddaugh8229
      @joelmiddaugh8229 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@sdictson7750 yeah I know. It just helps to describe which version of the chord specifically to play.

    • @kmations4049
      @kmations4049 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      THANKS SO MUCH

  • @anitonoyan6282
    @anitonoyan6282 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1657

    Orla is one of the few people I’ve seen with an authentic rockstar vibe. She was born to make music

    • @Sekoiy
      @Sekoiy 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yesss sister

    • @IsabelleBoiten
      @IsabelleBoiten 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      True! Fiona Apple kind of has that same vibe

    • @Alexmustdie-zy6kz
      @Alexmustdie-zy6kz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      A rockstar vibe is pure anger and danger look throughout history rock and punk bands have always been called the most dangerous music acts because of how dangerous they were

    • @noname-ng6sj
      @noname-ng6sj 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Someone needs to listen to better music. Start with Marmozets for the actual person she's trying to be.
      How can people so so oblivious and just say shit like this? Literally, look her up, Becca from marmozets.

    • @clearcontentment3695
      @clearcontentment3695 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Not rock but whatever

  • @wildxstdrxams13
    @wildxstdrxams13 6 ปีที่แล้ว +326

    yo orla, PUT THIS ON SPOTIFY PLEASE MAN

  • @helloharlie3020
    @helloharlie3020 4 ปีที่แล้ว +465

    Hey bro, I know this is an older vid.
    This song has been getting me through some real hard junk lately. Please don’t quit writing, you touch people, and that’s something not everyone can do. Love ya.

    • @RachelAnnPotter
      @RachelAnnPotter 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I hope you've been doing better recently (says you commented a year ago).

  • @a_rinass
    @a_rinass 6 ปีที่แล้ว +89

    I 100% see myself on a concert crying and dancing like crazy to this

  • @TheeGamerverse
    @TheeGamerverse 5 ปีที่แล้ว +362

    I'm never one to comment, but fuck. I've been listening to this solidly for three days now, I'm just so encapsulated by everything about this, it's nice to see someone get so lost in something they're doing, and clearly love. Just generally amazing

  • @oliviahirano
    @oliviahirano 6 ปีที่แล้ว +366

    i dont usually comment on videos but i cant believe ive heard about orla for so long (as a dodie fan, etc) but have never gotten into her music ????? but this song came up in a youtube music mix. and just wow. ive never heard such lyrics that are truly so powerfully simple and raw and the song is just gorgeous. im in such awe at how much i love this song.

  • @noodlesfromspace
    @noodlesfromspace 2 ปีที่แล้ว +615

    While Heartstopper is an amazing show, my biggest takeaway from it is a whole bunch of additions to my playlist lol. Great music choices

    • @matheussmcamejo
      @matheussmcamejo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      ME TOO XD i thought i was the only one

    • @ch6rista
      @ch6rista 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      netflix did such an amazing job picking the songs for that show, im surprised but grateful

    • @matheussmcamejo
      @matheussmcamejo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@ch6rista i think it wasn't properly Netflix, but Alice who chose/helped to chose the songs.

    • @ch6rista
      @ch6rista 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@matheussmcamejo yeah ikkk

    • @MiaSilianYT_
      @MiaSilianYT_ 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      YEAH SAMEE❤😊 I LOVE THIS SONG & HEARTSTOPPER ❤️‍🩹

  • @LaurenGoodwinMusic
    @LaurenGoodwinMusic 6 ปีที่แล้ว +639

    Orla, you blow my mind every time!!! SO MUCH TALENT. This is a beautiful song.

  • @khloeg1649
    @khloeg1649 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1323

    Is it bad that I like this version more than the studio

    • @chachaleri
      @chachaleri 5 ปีที่แล้ว +56

      Me too!! I’ve listened to it countless times, I’m hoping that I just have to get used to the studio version but either way I do prefer this raw version, it’s absolutely perfect ❤️

    • @khloeg1649
      @khloeg1649 5 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      @@chachaleri I've only heard the studio once but I really do prefer this one it's so raw and real and emotional and aaaa

    • @olivia_smith1263
      @olivia_smith1263 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      S A M E

    • @siamulislam8213
      @siamulislam8213 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      There is a studio verison? : O

    • @heatherschnipke5228
      @heatherschnipke5228 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I feel the same way about Overthinking!

  • @hamtermelon8886
    @hamtermelon8886 6 ปีที่แล้ว +114

    Save me, I’ve had this on loop for the past two hours. I don’t think this is healthy

    • @drogers9783
      @drogers9783 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Hamter Melon Why are you like this? 😉

  • @teodoracristinadinu9099
    @teodoracristinadinu9099 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    hearstopper brought me here and i am grateful for that

  • @ya5uo
    @ya5uo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +63

    *me, seeing orla uploaded a new original song* : am i going to cry this time
    *_I SURE DID_*

  • @Syllvie
    @Syllvie 6 ปีที่แล้ว +315

    your vocal range yesssss,, queen of catchy chorus hooks, awesome job !!!

  • @basementpeople3026
    @basementpeople3026 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    HEARTSTOPPER USED THIS IM IN TEARS

  • @ver5284
    @ver5284 2 ปีที่แล้ว +110

    I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN I HEARD YOUR SONG IN HEARTSTOPPER, CANT BELIEVE I HEARD IT ON A NETFLIX SHOW!

  • @angelodavepiadnarido6027
    @angelodavepiadnarido6027 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1414

    OMGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!! A MASTERPIECE!!!!!!! HEARTSTOPPER MADE ME FIND THIS SONG!!!!!!

  • @danielthrasher
    @danielthrasher 5 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    Whoa.

  • @beatrizcardoso3711
    @beatrizcardoso3711 5 ปีที่แล้ว +200

    “Maybe I am an old soul trapped in a young body” ✨totally perfect✨ thank you for this beautiful song

  • @amira222
    @amira222 6 ปีที่แล้ว +62

    Haven't even heard it yet, already love it.

  • @ren-w
    @ren-w 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    It's so nice to see this song gain popularity following its appearance in Heartstopper! This song was my first introduction to Orla's music back in 2018 - so exciting to see her career flourish!

  • @abbeymakesthings7800
    @abbeymakesthings7800 6 ปีที่แล้ว +81

    WHEN I HEARD THAT BEGINNING RIFF I LOST MY MIND!!!! you have no idea how many times i listened to that clip on your instagram waiting for it to be a whole released song. i’m so so so so happy! thank you for creating magic as usual

  • @yana-perrault
    @yana-perrault 6 ปีที่แล้ว +728

    K I’d been avoiding this video for months - it kept popping up in my recommendations, and I just never clicked on it. (Probably out of insecurity) but OH MAN WAS THIS A BLESSING. And instead of feeling jealousy like i thought I might, I cannot tell you how much I enjoyed this, was inspired by it, and left with a smile on my face. New fan right here 🌻

    • @emilyharfst6468
      @emilyharfst6468 5 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      yanaperrault OMG SAME sometimes I never watch something cause I’m like she’s gonna sound so good and I sound terrible I’m gonna be jealous skskssksk

    • @Caroline-pb8xx
      @Caroline-pb8xx 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I find this immensely relatable!

    • @toamaori
      @toamaori 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I wanted to like your comment, but saw it had 555 likes... and I don't want to be the one who breaks that perfect moment

  • @zoeytheawesome
    @zoeytheawesome 5 ปีที่แล้ว +227

    Heard this song nearly a year ago and I still listen to it ALL THE TIME. I love it so much. I have OCD and get really bad intrusive thoughts, and sometimes when I get them I put this song on because it takes me out of my thought spiral. Truly helps my life

    • @asa.stardust
      @asa.stardust 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Me too!

    • @elck3
      @elck3 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I have OCD too. stay strong. The world really doesn’t understand

    • @boraxsopanic2670
      @boraxsopanic2670 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I wish you progress. Whatever anyone has they should not suffer.

  • @oji69
    @oji69 4 ปีที่แล้ว +110

    i wanna thank myself for googling:" why am I like this"

  • @AbrahamCloud
    @AbrahamCloud 5 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    there is some genius in this lyric "maybe i’m an old soul trapped in a young body
    maybe you don’t really want me there at your birthday party"

  • @yasmeenelamin4715
    @yasmeenelamin4715 6 ปีที่แล้ว +448

    Oral: last ni-
    Me: YEEEESSSSSS

  • @perfectlyimperfect4260
    @perfectlyimperfect4260 6 ปีที่แล้ว +73

    U need to put this on Spotify its so freaking good

  • @judythwatson3163
    @judythwatson3163 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am a 64 year old Boomer who is watching this series in Brooklyn, tuning out of all media are the election. This show has been on my list so this is my healing show. I heard this song on episode 2 which was so beautiful, found this gem without asking my son's. Thanks to the person that has done this new fan.

  • @neymeyfeyhey9511
    @neymeyfeyhey9511 6 ปีที่แล้ว +86

    awww how can you put my feelings into words?????

  • @nayrained
    @nayrained 5 ปีที่แล้ว +174

    Came here by mere chance. Girl, what a voice, what a guitar, what a song. Amazing.

    • @constablebentonfraser5014
      @constablebentonfraser5014 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      I came here deliberately to tell you to shut the fuck up

    • @ahmad70522
      @ahmad70522 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Naysayer like me.... the words are not enough to express for me loving her and and her voice and how she’s playing and everything ♥️✨

    • @constablebentonfraser5014
      @constablebentonfraser5014 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@ahmad70522 gay

    • @ahmad70522
      @ahmad70522 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Constable Benton Fraser NO ....ARE YOU??

  • @BettyAlexandriaPride
    @BettyAlexandriaPride 5 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    The best part about this is the story telling in the lyrics, the emotion in her voice, and the marriage of both of those in her facial expressions.

  • @pranspat2969
    @pranspat2969 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    First time I heard it in heartstopper and immediately stopped the series to search for this song . ❤️

  • @Lucas-DX
    @Lucas-DX 6 ปีที่แล้ว +187

    The melody the depth of the lyrics the rythm changes I enjoyed everything about this song. This is art. Really humbling to see you able to create something like this. Love you girl 😘

  • @poppyygrace
    @poppyygrace 6 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    i had a really shitty day at school today cause of toxic friends and also something extremely embarrassing happened to me and seeing you released this song today and it’s about regret is completely perfect and relatable to me right now and i’m in love with the lyrics and the entire aesthetic of this song 💜

    • @Sarah_Passmore_Music
      @Sarah_Passmore_Music 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      School can sometimes be like a bad social experiment - but life begins when school ends. Screw the toxic buddies, keep listening to cool jams and hang on in there! xxx

  • @nudds233
    @nudds233 6 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    I'll be forever blown away by you. You tend to either write things that hit me hard or make me wanna dance, this song does both and I have a big grin on my face and yet my chest aches from how true this feels this feels to me. Thank you for sharing your art 💖

  • @claucassanta
    @claucassanta 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    heartstopper bring me here and i am so grateful

  • @anajuliacoutinho9813
    @anajuliacoutinho9813 5 ปีที่แล้ว +119

    orla has a genuine rockstar vibe
    she is so great i love it

  • @ps9962
    @ps9962 6 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    Is it weird that I wanna hold your songs like a baby close to my heart for like...forever? I cherish them so hard. Wonderful job, Orla.

  • @genesiswalker573
    @genesiswalker573 6 ปีที่แล้ว +98

    I just subscribed today and now I get this. I'm very okay with that.

  • @miablinkinsop
    @miablinkinsop 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    It’s LITERALLY in HEARTSTOPPER!!!!!

  • @savannahtyler.
    @savannahtyler. 6 ปีที่แล้ว +58

    I need this on spotify more than I need to breathe

  • @tahelamzaleg2677
    @tahelamzaleg2677 6 ปีที่แล้ว +69

    Both you and Dodie release a song in the span of two days? We are truely blessed.

    • @jonathanasdell4539
      @jonathanasdell4539 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I found both these artists at the same time; wish i found them years ago

  • @TheFanboyPrince
    @TheFanboyPrince ปีที่แล้ว +11

    ICONIC.

  • @getyeeted4486
    @getyeeted4486 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I GOT SO EXCITED I HAD NO IDEA WHY I KNEW THE SONG IN THE SHOW OMG OMG OMG AAHAHHHHHHHHHHH YESSSSSSSS

  • @xxflavioxx
    @xxflavioxx 5 ปีที่แล้ว +257

    Last night I smoked a cigarette
    My dad would have been so upset
    Then we got tattoos by the coast
    And I stood there just like a ghost
    Maybe I'm an old soul trapped in a young body
    Maybe you don't really want me there at your birthday party
    I'll be there in the corner, thinking right over
    Every single word of the conversation we just had
    So why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    I saw a girl crying on the train
    Gin and tonic from a can to ease the pain
    And I never asked if she was okay
    She just got up and walked away
    Oh, it's like I'm looking down from the ceiling above
    Never in the moment, never giving enough
    Let's go out and shout the words we never said
    I got my mistakes on loop inside my head
    Inside my head
    So why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Oh, maybe I'm an old soul trapped in a young body
    Maybe you don't really want me there
    I'll be there in the corner, thinking right over
    Every single word of the conversation we just had

    • @Wra8h
      @Wra8h 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      THANK YOU

    • @nerepb3310
      @nerepb3310 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I love u

    • @st11ng
      @st11ng 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      i was just looking for this thanks babe

  • @LedHabel
    @LedHabel 5 ปีที่แล้ว +120

    "Thanks for listening"
    Lol thanks for writing this song

  • @opal_skies97
    @opal_skies97 6 ปีที่แล้ว +56

    I *neeeeed* this on Spotify!!! Can’t stop jamming to it, girl. Such a bop.

  • @Idleyt247
    @Idleyt247 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I….live….for your music….its truly one of the things that saved me

  • @ivanperez4627
    @ivanperez4627 2 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    I wish I left my “here before it goes viral” comment, yet I discovered this song in 2020 during pandemic. I literally screamed when I heard this in Heartstopper. So happy for you Orla!!!

    • @emjaywilliamsactor25
      @emjaywilliamsactor25 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same- I dont even watch heartstopper but Ive loved this song since the second it came out

  • @MelyssaHawes
    @MelyssaHawes 6 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    this song hits and hurts a lil too much i r e l a t e. constantly i always say “why am i like this” as a joke to my friends but at some point it’s not a joke and i truly fear being abnormal or being defective. 1:53 “never in the moment, never giving enough” really just like,,, HITS

    • @hiagosilverio9207
      @hiagosilverio9207 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Guess this song's a reminder we're not alone. :')

    • @MelyssaHawes
      @MelyssaHawes 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hiago Silverio it’s songs like these that are about emotions that we all feel but never truly put to song form that make me cry lmao

  • @RuthAnnaMendoza
    @RuthAnnaMendoza 6 ปีที่แล้ว +126

    Love all your originals. Love your musicality! Aaaahhh! I also write music and do covers. ☺️ - your fan from the PH 🇵🇭

  • @vksharma1428
    @vksharma1428 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    this song is just the one i need to hear . my soul is happy now

  • @melmel1071
    @melmel1071 5 ปีที่แล้ว +74

    this is one of the funnest things to play on guitar. the notes practically play for themselves and its so smooth. I'm jealous of how you created it lol.

  • @SoniaDoubleG
    @SoniaDoubleG 5 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    SEEING THIS LIVE YESTERDAY WAS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE CONCERT MEMORIES....EVER!

  • @JasDavies
    @JasDavies 5 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    holy shit you made me cry, i just found my passion for music a couple months ago and whenever i come across others who clearly have passion, and so much talent it brings up so much emotional. subscribed & about to binge watch your vids, youre amazing, never stop singing and playing. you have really inspired me

  • @X_ŘØß_Ž0Mß1Ə_X
    @X_ŘØß_Ž0Mß1Ə_X ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I was watching heartstopper and i heard this, the repeating "why am i like this, why am i like this?" Made me cry and start singing along, i love this.

  • @takisstay4140
    @takisstay4140 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I can't forget about this song since Nick's scene... It's so beautiful and relatable... And the whole composition is so beautiful, as is your voice..

  • @lindatelevangelista7743
    @lindatelevangelista7743 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Heard this on Heartstopper and just had to search it up immediatly.

  • @poppymaygray
    @poppymaygray 6 ปีที่แล้ว +95

    I love this song I was waiting since you posted it on Instagram

    • @orlagartland
      @orlagartland  6 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      AW WOW thank u!

    • @poppymaygray
      @poppymaygray 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Orla Gartland I’ve literally never clicked so fast, I’m in a uber and it started playing full volume 😂

    • @SarahJacklyn
      @SarahJacklyn 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Poppy May THATS HOW IK IT!!!

    • @notthatthismatters
      @notthatthismatters 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      You should subscribe to her Patreon, over there we’ve been able to listen to it for a few months now :)

    • @poppymaygray
      @poppymaygray 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Ellie is my Name I ammmm I just didn’t see it on there !!

  • @maegangaffney4906
    @maegangaffney4906 2 ปีที่แล้ว +46

    Just heard this song in heartstopper and was trying so hard to remember where I remembered every word from! Very glad to be reminded to revisit one of my favorite artists :)

  • @carmen-yc9tl
    @carmen-yc9tl 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I can't tell you how many times i've come back to this song oh my

  • @Sx--F
    @Sx--F 6 ปีที่แล้ว +96

    i need this song and overthinking on spotify
    i'm literally new to your music and i'm already addicted someone help me

    • @jonathanasdell4539
      @jonathanasdell4539 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      same

    • @ArminasVasiljev
      @ArminasVasiljev 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hello y'all, here's some cool lyrics to this SICK song! th-cam.com/video/-HXWsHh2RtA/w-d-xo.html

  • @robynslife4623
    @robynslife4623 6 ปีที่แล้ว +349

    [Verse 1]
    Last night I smoked a cigarette
    My dad would have been so upset
    Then we got tattoos by the coast
    And I stood there just like a ghost
    [Pre-Chorus]
    Maybe I'm an old soul trapped in a young body
    Maybe you don’t really want me there at your birthday party
    I'll be there in the corner, thinking right over
    Every single word of the conversation we just had
    [Chorus]
    So why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    [Verse 2]
    I saw a girl crying on the train
    Gin and tonic from a can to ease the pain
    And I never asked if she was okay
    She just got up and walked away
    [Bridge]
    Oh, It's like I’m looking down from the ceiling above
    Never in the moment, never giving enough
    Let's go out and shout the words we never said
    I got my mistakes on loop inside my head
    Inside my head
    [Chorus]
    So why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    [Chorus]
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I like this?
    Why am I?
    Why am I like this?
    [Pre-Chorus]
    Oh, maybe I'm an old soul trapped in a young body
    Maybe you don't really want me there
    I'll be there in the corner, thinking right over
    Every single word of the conversation we just had. The lyrics,

    • @matteopossamai1103
      @matteopossamai1103 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      they're in the description

    • @anameyoucantremember
      @anameyoucantremember 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      A nice assortment of common places sprinkled with a bit of teen angst.. "great"

    • @rhabdob3895
      @rhabdob3895 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yeah, I uh, I heard that when she sang it. Thanks for typing them out?

  • @emery7974
    @emery7974 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I heard it in heartstopper it’s amazing

  • @tusktooth4122
    @tusktooth4122 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    one of the last times i was with my auntie you were in the background. thank u.

  • @R1v01d
    @R1v01d 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Man listening to this, really makes you think of like as another persons persepective of ur life from far away, showing ur in pain but hiding it too. Its depressing but soo fucking amazing i love this.

  • @jhonmhonmadrigal4922
    @jhonmhonmadrigal4922 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This song brings so much comfort to me in a way that I can't explain.

  • @sk.rakibul1057
    @sk.rakibul1057 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    "Heartstopper" bring me here.. Thats so refreshing 🖤

  • @ELesmera36
    @ELesmera36 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Holy hell. This is brilliant. will be on repeat for dayzzzzz

  • @spamfam4890
    @spamfam4890 6 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    Never clicked on to something so fast. Love you and love this!!

  • @wolfietinyz
    @wolfietinyz ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I remember my friend send me this song, she's someone who doesn't share a lot expect animes and she's usually a quiet and even sometimes a bit rude person, she has trouble showing how she feels and knowing she wanted to share a song that she genuinely loved and didnt know how to explain it, made me happy. We're not friends anymore but Im glad I was friends with her

  • @had3s
    @had3s 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    i found your music when i was in a really good spot in life, i’m coming back to it when i’m not doing great and it puts a huge smile on my face. thanks for being part of the happy memories

  • @ramomgabriel7577
    @ramomgabriel7577 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Ahhh the song from heartstooper❣❣

  • @mariojohn_
    @mariojohn_ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    im here cuz HEARTSTOPPER OMG 😭

  • @miguelvega8801
    @miguelvega8801 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thankyou for this song! I think a lot of us can relate🥺❤️💫

  • @millyhulme3830
    @millyhulme3830 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    FROM HEARTSTOPPER