September 8th, 2020: Courage to Dream, Courage to Heal

This is a video I recorded spontaneously on September 8th of 2020.
A little background about this video. I had a vague impression at the time that I would post it on TH-cam at some point. I didn't know what it would be good for.
I went through some very personal challenges in 2020, like many of us. I struggled that whole year to make progress on my dissertation, and finally finish my degree. While graduation was slowly getting closer I felt very lost and not sure where my future was going. I had big dreams that were begging for more attention, and as the year went on, I felt like many of those dreams were slipping away. I was experiencing persistent negative thoughts, despite a lot of effort to put my mind in a better place.
In September my healing process was under way, and I felt a little scared to let myself dream again. Letting myself feel excitement and ambition for the future felt uncertain. However, there is something about letting yourself imagine a better tomorrow. Giving life to that vision that is a big part of the healing process.
I talk about some feelings I have about my past during this video. But the story of our past is not a set thing, and as I have healed I have seen brighter realities from my past, as I do for the future.

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If you click the little gear symbol in the lower right corner of the video you can watch it at X1.25, X1.5, or X2.0 speed. You're welcome.
And for being here, thank YOU!

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Keep on going! You should reach out to Paul. He's had a lot of similar struggles

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Will do!