Awake In The Darkness | FULL Documentary by Aubrey Marcus
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 22 ม.ค. 2023
- Darkness retreat experience: A week in total darkness and isolation
I’ve had many difficult experiences, from relentless Ayahuasca sits, inescapable sweat lodges, biting mountain cold, and face-mangling car accidents. But never have I been broken like the darkness broke me. To spend a week in the black is indescribable. From the quiet, desperate solitude. The absolute fragility of your blindness. To the relentless endogenous DMT visions that fill the void with messages and horrors.
I have lived my life committed to sharing the truth, but this film is another level of vulnerability. I’ve never cried like this, prayed like this, or even laughed like this in front of anyone. Ultimately the darkness is the searchlight for all of our shadow. In my time spent in the black I understood how scared I was to love and be loved. How much of the world I had taken for granted. I understand now why this is one of the oldest ceremonies on earth.
In this director's cut, I also share for the first time the challenging relationship with my father, and the intensity of the moments surrounding his mental health collapse. All of which was woven into the fabric of this experience.
This Chakaruna Media documentary features Aubrey Marcus, Vylana Marcus, Ashkay Nanavati, Jamie Wheal, Kathy Shubin, Erick Godsey, Don Howard, Jon Dean, Bharati Gianert. Directed By Ben Stewart.
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Founder of Onnit and modern philosopher Aubrey Marcus asks the important questions: How do we find our purpose, wake up to who we truly are, have a few more laughs, and human being a little better?
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I' am in France, in the French Alps, my door is open to you, i love this brother for asking loud and clear for love, i know its not rare in spiritual circles, but sometimes, you find yourself back home in the Alps, after many decades, and these words are rare to hear, it deploys cascade of tears on my face, .....these words are the golden keys to peace...
Much love from America ❤
Sending you love my brother.❤
Je peux avoir de l'amour moi aussi ?
My Florence. My heart is always open to you. God bless you. Gregg Oreo Long Beach Ca Etats Unis
Hello From Florida ❤
“You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it. Moulded by it” - Bane
Bane 😂
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Hilarious
Lol.. maybe he was onto something and just misunderstood?
I don’t think the dark causes you to mould. 😂
My awakening per say came in November last year after stumbling across one of your podcasts following ancient theory’s and history. I just want to say thank you for changing oh my world. Tons of other great mentors as well but you started mine and I feel connected to all of your videos! My sister loves your content as well. I’ve struggled with adhd but refuse meds. Ive never read a book to actually read it. I’m very artsy and well with my hands so I stay busy. I got your book tonight as the first book I’ve ever checked out at 33yrs old. Only 20 pages in and I actually got lost truly soaking in what I was reading. Your videos have helped me tremendously and continue to do so. Thank you for everything you do! Looking forward to owning my day tomorrow!
This is so important right now, thank you for all the inspiring aubrey. My life totally changed in the last years!
Oh man, what a ride... !
Thank you, for sharing your vulnarability in such a honest and pure way.
The world desperately needs these kind of experiences (initiations) and people who are brave enough to share it.
Very touching, especially your emotions toward your father and your gratitude and relief for fully beeing back in this life at the end.
My deepest respect and gratitude towards you. 💝
After meditating many times and learning to astral project. I was lying in bed one night and meditating, not even trying or without thought I started seeing the energy move in my room, in the dark. I saw the air moving from my fan, my husbands breath from snoring lol, small little particles moving through the air. I sat up and realized I could make more energy and see it. I started shuffling my arms and saw the energy it created. It was phenomenal. Some of the most interesting things you’ll ever experience or see are from within ourselves.
GO TO CHRISTIAN ORTHODOX CHURCH AND STOP WITH THE OCCULT!!
GOD WILL SAVE YOUR LIFE,JESUS IS THE WAY,THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE!! ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT!!
AMIN!!
Wtf are you talking about? What does that have to do with the occult?
@@Revolusionist321 Occult only means hidden. Infra Red is hiiden. UltraViolet is hidden. From most of us. But some animals and even a few rare humans can see into that range.
Hidden does not mean evil, just that which most are not aware of.
Nothing to be feared.
@@Revolusionist321 amen* and nothing is pagan about the spirit inside of us
Sounds like symptoms of schizophrenia
Thank you Aubrey. I love how your videos show up for me when they seem so relevant in my life. Its been hard going thru an awakening with no one showing me the path. I had to decide for myself who was deceiving me & who was not. Im glad I found your channel.
I have been waiting for this. Thanks so much for sharing your journey with us and being willing to show the world that vulnerability is a beautiful truth.
I love the Carl Jung quote: "Life really does begin at 40. Everything before that is just research."
crying my fucking eyes out.
i lived in darkness for 7 years, regaining my sight for the last 6…. this last year has helped me to finally see. and this is the most beautiful documentary/video you’ve ever released and it’s power will move mountains.
How did that work out? Like could see, then you went literally blind, then regained your sight? How'd that all happen?
@@cjcoleman3893 ye how?
@@cjcoleman3893if she’s seeing impaired she might possibly not have the ability to have TH-cam comments read for her? I’m not sure how that works honestly just kinda guessing
@@HonchoHundonah dog blind people usually just use a feature that reads it to them lol like voice to text
But yeah how tf were you seven years in the dark then six not then dark again? Idk I’m lost bro
Edit: nah I just checked her channel lol at the very least she wasn’t blind seven years ago so idk
@@AcidRap69 the internet need more investigative people like you, and less liars like Savannah.
Growing spiritually is being able to forgive anyone.....no matter how hard it is.
Sometimes it's almost impossible!
I met this monk that told me that he knew a lot of people that are 300, 400, 500 yrs old. I said apprehensively "Oh yeah, and how do they accomplish that?". He said "When they turn 50yrs old they go into complete darkness for 21 days. This reverses the aging process back to 25yrs old and then when they age up to 50yrs again 50 yrs later they go back into the cave. They do this until they feel they have gotten enough out of this experience then they don't go in the cave and then they die at the age of their choosing". I said "what do they do, meditate or something special for these 21 days?" . He said, "No, just Be in the dark for 3 full weeks, it doesn't;t matter what you do as long as the body receives no light photons, it is a physical phenomenon."... Do you think you could do 2 more weeks in complete darkness?
Really interesting concept but obviously thats bullshit. Cool story though
I dont think it's bullshit. Thanks for sharing
@@jasonborne5359 what if it’s not tho?
Yeah, God says man's age shall be 120 years and since then, there's no evidence of any man living past 120 years of age since God said that. Before that time people really did live very long lives. Some evidence I've seen, they say sincr DNA only decays and eventually as time goes by man's ability to live to old ages will diminish further and further due to radiation exposure. Apparently the further back and closer to the creation of Adam our DNA was more perfect and could support life beyond 120 years but ever since then the telomere length on the DNA of our cells has been shortened and limited. I don't believe there's actually anyone who lived that long. But hey, if you believe it, try it and let the world know. Then again, if you try it and it works they'll probably swear you to secrecy or something anyway.
@@mrmeekcreices wishful thinking.
Thank you Aubrey for sharing your moments of vulnerability and your intimate search of your true self, that’s the purest form of love you could send to all of us. Thank you from the bottom of my heart 🙏🏻✨💗
How amazing to witness. Thank you for your vulnerability and generosity. It took me back to my Ayahuasca ceremony. I needed it. Thank you again. You reside in my everything. ❤
Wow. This is incredible. I’m so grateful Aubrey has been so confused and curious because look at the content that’s coming out of it.. I see myself in his beautiful struggle..
Thank you to the women holding him and supporting this man. Praying for you.. Vibes from Seattle 🌬💞
Seattle shows up a lot in comments. Must be the earth/sea power.
I know you won't read this Aubrey and I'll say it anyway.
Thank you for sharing this journey.
You healed a fragmented part in me about my dad.
He found God and constantly shamed me for not believing and now I know it was because he never felt enough as he was.
Thank you Aubrey for letting us into your darkness and also guiding us to our own.
So grateful for your vulnerable open soul on this planet and for sharing your deeply profound experiences. so much Love and Gratitude
That was a beautiful documentary. What an experience. I'm so grateful that you shared this. Thank you and may your light always shine bright from within.
Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this. You're teachings are amazing, I appreciate you spreading your light ❤️
Hi Aubrey,
It takes so much strength to open ourselves to vulnerability. You did just that while trusting the transformation process. Your relationship with your father and with yourself seem to have some striking similarities with themes of self trust, self love, and self forgiveness.
I resonated with your journey including many of your thought processes while your mind was falling and also while you rose back up. Thank you for sharing this. The message at the end was so true and clear, that we’re all here to love ourselves and love us (us as in collective).
I wonder what your second journey in the pitch blackness would be like if you did this again. I also wonder how you’ve integrated this experience with time.
I wish I could give you a hug and say don’t be too hard on yourself. Though I realize that’s what I need. Everything is a mirror.
You’re a warrior at heart. ❤
“Every time I don’t follow through I lose faith in myself, and I begin to not trust myself. Love yourself, and be honest.” 🙏
Yes, I thought that was the most powerful statement
Had a lot of similar thoughts when I lost my freedom for 7 months. We take so much for granted. And much of what we value and use to prop ourselves up is just imaginary, and it buries what you truly are and value. I remember getting out, it felt so good, so fresh and hopeful, but also I was amazed at how everyone was faking it. They're not being who they truly are. They're being who they think others will admire, or playing a role almost, and they use material things and various other facades to do so. Of course it's hard not to because it's the way it is, I do it too and there's varying levels to it, but I know there's a truth underneath it all where we're all on equal ground and your value is what you're spirit is made of. It's a good truth to know, it keeps you grounded in reality.
Huge congratulations, @Optimal, for passing on the great learning you received... I love what you perceive now that it's over. It's always a win when you make the most of it... Many thanks...
Looking forward to this video and my own ceremony! Thank you for opening my eyes and many others. ✨🙏❤️
This is the most beautiful, raw documentary I have ever saw. You are so special.
This is very interesting and timely. I have a genetic eye condition. I am losing sight from the outside in. I am at a point of loss that there is more dark than light with my total amount of sight. And then the past month or so, I have been more meditative, especially at night. I did not plan it that way. It just seemed like the right way to process losing sight and being in the dark. I have def learned a lot and healed. And I plan on keeping up with the meditation and introspection because it seems like the antidote to coping with the vision loss and what I am doing with my life.
It isn't genetic. It can be healed with nutrition and peptides. I have seen it multiple times now.
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Everything will work well for you. Amazing how you are handling it. I agree with you, I think work on introspection is the key.
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Good luck bro ❤
This was very powerful. I feel like I experienced it vicariously through you. So brave. I love your mantra "I love what is". I'm choosing to see life through these eyes of profound appreciation
Damn. This was powerful. As a mother, I’m always seeking ways to go deeper and show up more for myself, my family, and the world… I forsee implementing similar practices that can function alongside my responsibilities until the days I can journey in solitude. ❤ thank you so much for sharing your experiences, Aubrey. So inspired to share my story.
Such a profound journey, Aubrey, the wounded healer. Thank you 🙏🏻
This guy is the real deal. You need people like Aubrey in your life, To open up your mind to life.
Will be sitting in the same darkness room from the 1st - 6th Feb.. so in 7 days time. Re-watched this so many times.
Love yourself, be honest. 💜
will you come back here and give an update about your experience in the dark? best wishes on your journey bro!
Sending endless amounts of love and light to you in your journey ❤️
Would love an update as well. Best of luck.
Hey Fam! thank you for checking in.
I made it four full days in the Darkness Retreat and am now 24 hours post retreat, found my mind just wanted to control everything and to be honest, I had a really tough time in there.
I was hoping so bad to feel oneness with everything, but unfortunately not this time round. There was mostly good that came from my experience though, and I am proud of myself for lasting four days. It's highlighted to me that I need to practice a lot more mindfullness and perhaps sit with some more plant medicines before tackling the dark room again, it's not easy breasy - well it wasnt for me. Everyone is differnet.
I uploaded my eye mask coming off onto my TH-cam channel, no pressure to view. It's super short though.
Thanks for checking in
@@jordanjameswa Congratulations my friend. That definitely does not seem like an easy journey to endure but the insight you experience must be rewarding. Have you ever looked into practicing Zen meditation? To me that would be the best practice for mindfulness.
I will he checking out your videos soon as well. Thanks for the update!
That was AMAZING! I'm so glad the algorithm tossed you in my lap. Amazing Grace is right. Keep up the Great Work, Son. You are doing it for all of us.
Absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing this and opening the doors to the unknown experiences we could all explore if brave enough 💙
What a beautiful, deep and honest account, visually so well done. It shows how much our minds are all the same. How much the human species is connected. How much deep compassion emerges from the time in the dark. I finished my 21 days darkness retreat in May in Northern Germany and found your video only now. Simply thank you for openly sharing your innermost.
I feel this so so much. Thank you for sharing this powerful message. Love to you all ❤
Wow what a share…. Thank you. “I will see you again in the everything.” ❤
I wonder how he would be without the recording device.
I know personally that even when your alone your not alone, because you have yourself.
That can either be terrifying or joyful....and both.
We choose by the decision we make, and we all have made some horrific ones.
Let's forgive eachother and ourselves to grow spiritually!
You are a beautiful human Aubrey❤️ radiante, real, loved and you bring so much happiness and deepness to our lives. You’ve helped me more than you can imagine
Wow, thank you brother! This work of art is alive and the journey portrayed full of such loving vulnerability man! Thank You
Such a beautifull experience, I feel I made the journey with you. Thanks for sharing, much love.
I can just say Wow! just Wow! I’m grateful that I found your channel and that your courage and acceptance are just wow!
I've been waiting for this to finally come out!
Wow, that was powerful and beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.
I felt myself like as though I was going through the journey as well. Beautiful and raw. Thank you for sharing ❤
Loved this documentary so much. Very powerful and touching. I felt your emotions. Thank you for this
I really appreciate you're deep thoughts and you're great talks with other chill humans...tyvm
You are a gift to humanity dear Sir Aubrey! Thanks!
This was powerful, thank you for sharing the film with us. Beautiful 🙏⚡🙏
I'm new to your work, Aubrey, and honestly I thought you were just a bro. Boy, was I wrong! This is an incredible offering. Thank you and deep bow. 🙏📿🥰
Dude... thank you for demonstrating the strength that comes from vulnerability. Cheers
Wooooow that was crazy powerful. I spent the entire time he was in the darkness in this video with my eyes closed and my lights off in somewhat complete darkness, and opened them up whenever they came to get him because his darkness journey was complete. Holy shit I felt the raw emotions Projecting from him listening and watching this 🤯🤯 very powerful video, amazing journey. Well done man 🥰
Thank you Aubrey... Thank you very much. This was incredible to witness!
Oh my. The greatest moment of your life has helped with illuminating a reset for me. When I was ages 4-10, I'm 42, I used to purposely immerse myself in complete darkness for hours. I was loving, helpful, thoughtful, honest and developing as an empath, having spiritual pulling towards culture I knew nothing about, On a journey I did not understand. I had no one else around me with that inner energy or path. I didn't know why I was doing it and I slowly pulled away from it and life happened. I couldn't sleep and your video was suggested. And what an awakening I got. I will go 6 days in darkness and I'm apprehensive about what I will discover. I have a couple of tweeks that I will make in my darkness journey, because yours was so revealing for me. I'm newly getting back to Source, The Creator, God and I'm grateful your experience will be a meaningful memory to me beginning my darkness therapy. Blessings to you and your family.
Thank you so much. 🙏🏽 This reopened me today.
Thank You Aubrey! Your braveness will from this day on, inspire my own braveness, that has not yet fully surfaced.
thank you so much for this powerful documentary. So very inspiring ❤️
be honest and love yourself... the truest words brother, and to everyone else here
Absolutely amazing, thank you for creating and sharing this.
The real darkness is anything that is expectation, jugement, held sorrow, and everything that one feels but shares not, and does not want others to share or hear in deny, we are ONE, ONE,
I´m in tears of joy for you. How heartwearming. thank you for being . God bless you
Thank you for this… 🙏🏽🙏🏽 such an inspiration to push yourself through your limits to come out successful at the end. I cried w you…when u came back to the light. Thanks!! 🙏🏽💫🥰 love&light
Wonderful video. A friend sent me the link. I have done 5 Dark Retreats. I learned some good lessons. I have also wanted to hear from others to see how their experience compared to mine. I was wondering how many similarities there are. I have categorized the types of visions. Some were attached to my face, so if I turned, they would always be in front of me, others seemed to be attached to the room. Lots of fractals and color. Everything intensified the longer I was in the Darkness. Then I "went to Narnia", which is an experience that takes me out of the space to another world. I even forget that I am lying in a bed in the dark. There is SO MUCH LIGHT. I have been profoundly changed. I also do it while fasting for a week.
Dearest Aubrey, my heart is grateful you shared this sacred journey. So raw and real. I have thought about doing this. It was like being present for the birth of a child. Wow, when you opened your eyes I felt such vibrations. Like I see videos of someone getting color blind glasses. Thank you, thank you, so grateful I watched. ❤
This may be the most powerful video I have ever witnessed, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have helped to create the me I have always wanted to be.
so grateful for this video. that was simply and purely amazing.
I was actually brought to the experience of being completely blind for three months... After two surgeries I now operate with 40% of eyesight on one eye.
My third eye is my inner eye that sees all that I was blind to, while I had normal physical eyesight.
This is so profound... Thank you ❤️
alas my mother turned totally blind in 2003 (medical malpractice) has never had any such experience
Thank you for sharing such a personal experience with such honesty! Love and light beautiful soul!❤
Crying with you. We are all one. Love is always the answer. Thank you for sharing your journey
Thank you for this video....I have been so afraid of darkness all my life. Your experience puts a whole new understanding. Maybe this is a sign to face this fear ❤
"You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding!”
Very brave of you to share; took courage. Yes, the key is to first become sincere. All the best.
Thank you for sharing this!
Dude…. I just subscribed. Been watching your videos for the last couple of hours. Brilliant, please keep up with this amazing content
You keep popping in and out of my sphere of co-creators, Aubrey. I've done everything you have and more, but THIS sounds like it is going to be the best ever. I loved the Kahlil Gibran quote. I never heard that quote before, and He's one of my favorite dead people. I am a combination of minister, life coach, and fortune teller. I don't expect anyone to follow me, but I do hope everyone starts listening to the call of what makes them happy, healthy and wealthy. It is a package deal, and the answer lies WITHIN,
That was beautiful! Thank you for sharing!
Thank you for sharing your journey in light and darkness 💛🙏
TU MEKE! Wonderful Healing Video!..Thanks 4 Sharing Yer Journey!!!! Yer Ready Teddy! Much ❤️
A REAL LIFE EARTHLY ANGEL walking among us and helping humanity heal the soul of the world.
LOVE YOU BROTHER MAN!
Everything Aubrey does speaks to my soul. I’m in a ton of debt to that man for pulling me out of bad phases, maintain good ones, and grow spiritually and temporally.
Thank you for making this!!!❤❤❤ WE GO 💪💪💪
Revealing yourself and your vulnerabilities takes courage. Softer, stronger, deeper - your gifts to us.
wow man, very inspiring. gonna do this in the future for sure.
Thank you, Aubrey
I love your podcasts but these documentaries seem to slip past my recommendations. It was really powerful to see more of your story and it's extremely powerful how you share your vulnerability publicly for anyone to be a part of. A message i think we all feel whether we acknowledge it or not.
Thank you! I wish you well 🥰 this was wonderful ❤ from the bottom of my heart, thank you 🌈
I saw this documentary a couple of months ago on the website and it’s one of the most beautiful documentaries I’ve ever seen! I’m very attracted towards the idea of doing one myself and someday I definitely will!! Thanks for creating this gem and sharing it with us ❤️
Thanks for sharing your journey !
Thank you so much for sharing this amazing experience. I would love to know how things have been for you since you came back into the light. I can very much relate to the long-term feelings of sadness you had been dealing with despite all the wonderful things in your life. I keep trying medication and therapy in hopes of stopping the feelings from coming back over and over again. At 68 years old, I am still fighting the battle. I live every day with a mask of happiness, but I would love to be able to find true happiness and self-love once and for all. Thank you. ❤
Oh man, what a voyage. Thank you for sharing 🙏❤
This video really touched me I appreciate your raw openness.❤
Brought me to loving tears
Thank you Aubrey. You are important.
Thanks for sharing and beautifull visual side of the film too. I went to isolation - Vipassana reatreat in Poland in the same time in 2020, just before first lockdown ...
Add 24 minutes to ask a series of questions regarding yourself about six years ago. I had an experience in the mirror completely sober. I asked myself all of those questions the answers that came, helped me feel and understand what it felt like to be loved by Kylee ❤
the moment you saw the light again and cryed, I had to laugh from my heart..you are such a beautyful beeing-thx for sharing your experiencis..love&light
Powerful. Amazing what we take for granted in the light 💡
"Can I be fixed? Is there such a thing?"
This hit home. Thank you for sharing
I make a plan and I don’t stick with it and then I can’t trust myself… that one cut deep. I can identify with that statement and the feelings behind it, far more than I can express.
As someone who also speaks the acts of service love language, your journey through the retreat resonated with me. Aho mitakuye oyasin.
Bru….. I’m only 23 minutes in and every single time you cry, I cry😢😊.
How powerful! “We’ve come to bring you into the light”.
I cried with you.
Thank you Aubrey. Thank you Chris.
❤I feel the emotions❤ may you be blessed. Cannot wait to do it myself.