I usually just lurk but I wanted to say that I loved the video. I ended up crying a bit at the end, You are such a strong person who has gone through so much, you deserve all the happiness and peace you have found nowadays, Have a lovely rest of your day.
@@RagnaCat Don't worry, I do find crying to be a good way to release emotion, Im very empathetic and cry easily while hearing other people hardships. Thank you for your kindness
I’ve been here since the start!!! It’s so awesome seeing a friend of mine grow (hah) so popular. And that patron count?? I’m so proud of you, you’re doing so well! Lovely video as always, Ragna🐉❤️
Thank you, Ragna, for sharing this (and disguising it as just a "ramble" !). Growing up queer in the American south was terrible for me, lots of bullying, few friends- I can't even imagine how folks used to find each other before the internet. ASMR has been a fucking lifeline for me for years; maybe its autism or just anxiety, but the hobby has always been a way for me to feel social without having to risk humiliating myself talking to real people 💀. I enjoy much better relationships nowadays after working on the ones I had, but I'm so glad I can still come here, where it's actually safe 😮💨 Hell, I'm not even into macro, honestly.
Couldn't finish till the end, as I am a bit sensitiv to that stuffs, but I appreciate that you are willing to talk about it. You have my respect for that. But as it sounds from before that in the vid, all is good for you now and I am happy to hear that!
I know I saw some of your vids in my feed, and I admit, I was a bit skeptical, even though I'm very heavily furry adjacent, but when this vid came up... I feel like it literally saved my life. Also, hey Ragna, hope you're well! I think I'll take the time to introduce myself a bit and tell ya a bit about some of the experiences I know I had myself growing up, so I hope that's okay with ya! For introductions: I am an intermediate artist who does mostly Mega Man and anime arts, along with some furry arts on the side and I am usually very very VERY self-critical with myself, along with being autistic and very anxious, both socially and work related, even though I never planned on getting a job...! And what I love doing is just games, and what I used to do back then is I love playing Tennis, Badminton, and Pool, along with Air hockey! I used to play them a lot back then, but since then, I haven't got a chance to play em' IRL, only in my games mostly. Also, my b-day's in the summer too, which is cool! For my hardships growing up: When I was growing up, my school life was never easy to start with at all... it was day 1 that I had bullies and sometimes I had friends, but not many though, and middle school was kinda tough, but it was okay in some regards, cause I did have an amazing field trip once, and it was great, but that was until I entered high school that was in 2015 that I discovered the furry fandom through this one news vid about it, along with a red panda I saw named Katana Rose, and seeing them made me melt, cause I know when I saw mascots or fursuiters when I was a kid, I was usually so scared, and since I was 8, I never saw many around where I live, which even now, I feel regretful for being fearful of them. But when I was 16, I became very suicidal, cause the bullying started to literally catch up to me, and I was too stubborn to tell the teachers, and mostly my counselors too, and my mom decided to take me to another counselor, but it didn't work much... and then, they had me on a few medications to help ease my depression, but it only ended up making things worse... so, it was after that happened, my used to be school head councilor thought about transferring me to this one transfer school meant for disabled kids like myself, both mental and physical, and when it was my first day... it was a VERY hard time indeed... I had to wake up VERY early, around 4:00am to get ready, head out for the bus by 6:00am, cause I was second to be picked up, and then I was last every home ride I had... and the students were an absolute nightmare, to the point I felt like I was literally in my idea of hell. What I saw was major arguments between student and teacher, some re-enacting memes, which I hated that, cause I don't like memes at all... it just never gives good vibes for me at all, and some even fist fought either each other or the teachers from flipping out...! It was then in 2019 that I felt like, I HAVE to get outta there, cause it was worse than what my original school was like, and as a matter of fact, it made me realize something about myself... I was trying to be the kinda person I was never meant to be, which was what made me realize what an idiot I was back then, so it was then that I was at the last CSE meeting, with everyone including the head counselor of my old school, and then... the bomb was right there. The darkest moment of my life happened. I told them that I wanted to return, cause of what's been seen and how it's scarier than what it was like back there, but... not only did they refuse, they also discriminated against me for being autistic as well. I had a meltdown when I got home at one point, and it was not easy at all. But that was where my biggest up happened... I managed to pass my final exams, and it was on my birthday that I got the news, and I remember I was so scared... but when I heard, I cried happily. I could finally graduate high school, and my classes were now up to 3 minimum, which was amazing! And the students I had in each of em' were the same, and they were amazing! One even stood out to me, which also is an anime artist, and it was clear he was autistic too, and it was great... even though we had trouble chatting, I still cared about him. Even now, I'm still trying to find him, but had no luck, and I miss him... and even if he's trans, I never cared about that... all I wanted was to tell him how much he meant to me, and how I feel like we need each other as friends and all that. But moving on, my graduation happened during the pandemic, and it was the first graduation my school had done outdoors, which was great. My entire family watched, and my parents were very proud of me, and after that was done, my downs started to come back again... I felt so scared that I now have a new life to begin, and I became so scared that I had headaches, trouble sleeping, and sometimes severe tension...! But it was in 2021 that I showed my mom one furtuber that talked about their aussie mascots, and I was so scared... but then she said that this is what you love, and she will always support me no matter what, cause if it makes me happy, same is for her too, which was great. However, even though I did find some furries that I am friends with online, near where I live, I still haven't made any friends at all... and right now, I'm actually suffering a heavy bomb explosion of just feeling depressed, tense, and just feeling so lost in life... as a matter of fact, I feel like my life lost meaning as well, cause my art mind has dried away, my taste for games has become so limited to the point where I can't find anything to play anymore, or even any movie to watch... and at this point, I just am feeling so lost, confused, EXTREMELY tensed up, and just feeling so alone...! Also, I know I'm currently living without a bedroom right now, cause my home roof needs a replacement very badly, and it's been so hard to find reliable help...! I know I'm currently stuck in my game/art room, which has a 2-seat couch, and I usually sleep there, so... my biggest down might be right here for me along with what happened in 2018 to the start of 2019, but I hope that soon, everything will be fixed, and that my life will gain it's colors again, and all that...! I'm sorry if I said too much, but I had such a hard life, just like you, but I'm glad you're now living life tons better... hopefully the same can happen for me too, cause living my life right now has become grey and colorless...! Anyways, I hope ya have a good week Ragna, I'm glad to have found ya, and thank you so much for saving my life. ❤🩹
@@Dawn4life837t aww gosh, thanks for sticking with me for this long sweetflea! I'll try to be consistent in both improvement and the rate I make these 💜
This was a lovely video. Such a personal touch when you answer others' questions. And I was surprised to hear that we may not be that far off in our ages. I had a very similar experience getting into the furry fandom. My first cartoon crush was one that you didn't mention (Princess Sally Acorn from Sonic SatAM), but Minerva Mink and many others certainly had their appeal to me in the 90's (even before that, I was into Tom and Jerry and Looney Toons). And my final push over the edge was Star Fox Adventures. ^^ But yeah, bisexual cis male fur with a long term boyfriend. Thank you for sharing your story and much love. :3
@@RagnaCat about the stuff at the end of the video, I wanted to say thank you. I struggle with that sort of thing, being trans in a religious household doesn't make it much easier. But hearing someone talk about it helps, knowing it gets better helps. I've got a few friends who help keep my head above water, but it's tough sometimes. Your videos help, the help me get to sleep when I'm afraid of nightmares, they help me forget about the day and unwind. Thank you for still being here and doing what you do Ragna
@@ErinTransOfGenders ah gosh, got me tearin up a lil there! I'm so glad my work helps, makes it all worth it. There'll be more right around the corner~ 💜
The personal part is honestly extremely sad. I hope ur doing good after everything that happened. Stay strong. You are worth more than you might believe ❤🙏
I'm in a very dark spot myself but im pulling through as much as I can because of the fact that I meet so many positive people on the internet. To those who did that, thank you.
Oh I'm okay, yeah! I believe the part that proceeds getting into a more intimate topic was me relaying that I've reached many of my life goals by this point in my life. It's ancient history from when I was young, but I feel like it's a good example of how sticking it out and not giving up can lead to happier times.
@@brandongilbertson3552 I've done mawplay before in some of my earlier videos as an excuse to do mouth sounds and probably will again before long.. Vore as in actually swallowing and eating I think I'll continue to keep to my Patreon work as I feel it crosses into the full-on kink side of things 💜
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The comforting voice of a macro always helps me sleep. I’m so use to hearing others ramble it’s quite comforting. Thank you fr another ASMR.
Gosh, I'm glad you were able to get some good rest with it ^^
I usually just lurk but I wanted to say that I loved the video. I ended up crying a bit at the end, You are such a strong person who has gone through so much, you deserve all the happiness and peace you have found nowadays, Have a lovely rest of your day.
aww I'm sorry, but I'm glad it left an impact. I hope you also find all the happiness and peace you deserve if you haven't already sweetflea 💜
@@RagnaCat Don't worry, I do find crying to be a good way to release emotion, Im very empathetic and cry easily while hearing other people hardships. Thank you for your kindness
@@domorna3517 heh
For me im empathetic but i dont cry really
I just am neutral but feel on the inside
But i agree
Paws and rambling, can't get much better!
Your content is consistently pretty good.
It was also neat to hear about your life.
Gosh thank you, I really do appreciate hearing that 💜
I’ve been here since the start!!! It’s so awesome seeing a friend of mine grow (hah) so popular. And that patron count?? I’m so proud of you, you’re doing so well!
Lovely video as always, Ragna🐉❤️
Your videos are so soothing, they just make me feel so safe and warm -w-b
I love rambling asmr gotta be one of my favorite asmr type
@@jaihthefluffyone I'm pretty fond of them myself!
@@RagnaCat I really prefer them cuz it lets me know a bit more about the person and their characters kippo's is a good example
Thank you, Ragna, for sharing this (and disguising it as just a "ramble" !).
Growing up queer in the American south was terrible for me, lots of bullying, few friends- I can't even imagine how folks used to find each other before the internet. ASMR has been a fucking lifeline for me for years; maybe its autism or just anxiety, but the hobby has always been a way for me to feel social without having to risk humiliating myself talking to real people 💀.
I enjoy much better relationships nowadays after working on the ones I had, but I'm so glad I can still come here, where it's actually safe 😮💨
Hell, I'm not even into macro, honestly.
Couldn't finish till the end, as I am a bit sensitiv to that stuffs, but I appreciate that you are willing to talk about it. You have my respect for that. But as it sounds from before that in the vid, all is good for you now and I am happy to hear that!
I know I saw some of your vids in my feed, and I admit, I was a bit skeptical, even though I'm very heavily furry adjacent, but when this vid came up... I feel like it literally saved my life. Also, hey Ragna, hope you're well! I think I'll take the time to introduce myself a bit and tell ya a bit about some of the experiences I know I had myself growing up, so I hope that's okay with ya!
For introductions: I am an intermediate artist who does mostly Mega Man and anime arts, along with some furry arts on the side and I am usually very very VERY self-critical with myself, along with being autistic and very anxious, both socially and work related, even though I never planned on getting a job...! And what I love doing is just games, and what I used to do back then is I love playing Tennis, Badminton, and Pool, along with Air hockey! I used to play them a lot back then, but since then, I haven't got a chance to play em' IRL, only in my games mostly. Also, my b-day's in the summer too, which is cool!
For my hardships growing up: When I was growing up, my school life was never easy to start with at all... it was day 1 that I had bullies and sometimes I had friends, but not many though, and middle school was kinda tough, but it was okay in some regards, cause I did have an amazing field trip once, and it was great, but that was until I entered high school that was in 2015 that I discovered the furry fandom through this one news vid about it, along with a red panda I saw named Katana Rose, and seeing them made me melt, cause I know when I saw mascots or fursuiters when I was a kid, I was usually so scared, and since I was 8, I never saw many around where I live, which even now, I feel regretful for being fearful of them. But when I was 16, I became very suicidal, cause the bullying started to literally catch up to me, and I was too stubborn to tell the teachers, and mostly my counselors too, and my mom decided to take me to another counselor, but it didn't work much... and then, they had me on a few medications to help ease my depression, but it only ended up making things worse... so, it was after that happened, my used to be school head councilor thought about transferring me to this one transfer school meant for disabled kids like myself, both mental and physical, and when it was my first day... it was a VERY hard time indeed... I had to wake up VERY early, around 4:00am to get ready, head out for the bus by 6:00am, cause I was second to be picked up, and then I was last every home ride I had... and the students were an absolute nightmare, to the point I felt like I was literally in my idea of hell. What I saw was major arguments between student and teacher, some re-enacting memes, which I hated that, cause I don't like memes at all... it just never gives good vibes for me at all, and some even fist fought either each other or the teachers from flipping out...! It was then in 2019 that I felt like, I HAVE to get outta there, cause it was worse than what my original school was like, and as a matter of fact, it made me realize something about myself... I was trying to be the kinda person I was never meant to be, which was what made me realize what an idiot I was back then, so it was then that I was at the last CSE meeting, with everyone including the head counselor of my old school, and then... the bomb was right there. The darkest moment of my life happened. I told them that I wanted to return, cause of what's been seen and how it's scarier than what it was like back there, but... not only did they refuse, they also discriminated against me for being autistic as well. I had a meltdown when I got home at one point, and it was not easy at all. But that was where my biggest up happened... I managed to pass my final exams, and it was on my birthday that I got the news, and I remember I was so scared... but when I heard, I cried happily. I could finally graduate high school, and my classes were now up to 3 minimum, which was amazing! And the students I had in each of em' were the same, and they were amazing! One even stood out to me, which also is an anime artist, and it was clear he was autistic too, and it was great... even though we had trouble chatting, I still cared about him. Even now, I'm still trying to find him, but had no luck, and I miss him... and even if he's trans, I never cared about that... all I wanted was to tell him how much he meant to me, and how I feel like we need each other as friends and all that. But moving on, my graduation happened during the pandemic, and it was the first graduation my school had done outdoors, which was great. My entire family watched, and my parents were very proud of me, and after that was done, my downs started to come back again... I felt so scared that I now have a new life to begin, and I became so scared that I had headaches, trouble sleeping, and sometimes severe tension...! But it was in 2021 that I showed my mom one furtuber that talked about their aussie mascots, and I was so scared... but then she said that this is what you love, and she will always support me no matter what, cause if it makes me happy, same is for her too, which was great.
However, even though I did find some furries that I am friends with online, near where I live, I still haven't made any friends at all... and right now, I'm actually suffering a heavy bomb explosion of just feeling depressed, tense, and just feeling so lost in life... as a matter of fact, I feel like my life lost meaning as well, cause my art mind has dried away, my taste for games has become so limited to the point where I can't find anything to play anymore, or even any movie to watch... and at this point, I just am feeling so lost, confused, EXTREMELY tensed up, and just feeling so alone...! Also, I know I'm currently living without a bedroom right now, cause my home roof needs a replacement very badly, and it's been so hard to find reliable help...! I know I'm currently stuck in my game/art room, which has a 2-seat couch, and I usually sleep there, so... my biggest down might be right here for me along with what happened in 2018 to the start of 2019, but I hope that soon, everything will be fixed, and that my life will gain it's colors again, and all that...!
I'm sorry if I said too much, but I had such a hard life, just like you, but I'm glad you're now living life tons better... hopefully the same can happen for me too, cause living my life right now has become grey and colorless...! Anyways, I hope ya have a good week Ragna, I'm glad to have found ya, and thank you so much for saving my life. ❤🩹
Your an amazing Individual. Thank you for sharing your life experiences and opening up 2 us. We love you Ragna
I love you too sweetflea, I really do 💞
@@RagnaCat 🫂❤️
On one hand you destroy like a third of a city, on the other hand is a giant cat mommy😍
11:59 my lovey soft squishy paws parts,
Now the your in the city so big I can finally sleep on it. 😍🐾💤
Was a subscriber since ur 2nd vid!! Keep up the good work ❤😊
@@Dawn4life837t aww gosh, thanks for sticking with me for this long sweetflea! I'll try to be consistent in both improvement and the rate I make these 💜
Ragna has become SiceBox.
Start running.
This was a lovely video. Such a personal touch when you answer others' questions. And I was surprised to hear that we may not be that far off in our ages. I had a very similar experience getting into the furry fandom. My first cartoon crush was one that you didn't mention (Princess Sally Acorn from Sonic SatAM), but Minerva Mink and many others certainly had their appeal to me in the 90's (even before that, I was into Tom and Jerry and Looney Toons). And my final push over the edge was Star Fox Adventures. ^^
But yeah, bisexual cis male fur with a long term boyfriend. Thank you for sharing your story and much love. :3
Thank you for sharing Ragna. I dont really have the words, but thank you.
I think these kinds of things are important to talk about, thank you for hearing me out sweetflea 💜
@@RagnaCat about the stuff at the end of the video, I wanted to say thank you. I struggle with that sort of thing, being trans in a religious household doesn't make it much easier. But hearing someone talk about it helps, knowing it gets better helps. I've got a few friends who help keep my head above water, but it's tough sometimes. Your videos help, the help me get to sleep when I'm afraid of nightmares, they help me forget about the day and unwind. Thank you for still being here and doing what you do Ragna
@@ErinTransOfGenders ah gosh, got me tearin up a lil there! I'm so glad my work helps, makes it all worth it. There'll be more right around the corner~ 💜
This is too good❤❤❤❤
Oh I’m in love with the echo filter you have, you HAVE to use it more often. Is it just a push of a button filter or something fancier?
bro is living Chicxulub
dang didnt know that about you ragna glad it worked out for ya im happy for ya life worked out
aww thank you sweetheart, I hope you get all the happiness you deserve~
The personal part is honestly extremely sad. I hope ur doing good after everything that happened. Stay strong. You are worth more than you might believe ❤🙏
I'm in a very dark spot myself but im pulling through as much as I can because of the fact that I meet so many positive people on the internet. To those who did that, thank you.
Oh I'm okay, yeah! I believe the part that proceeds getting into a more intimate topic was me relaying that I've reached many of my life goals by this point in my life. It's ancient history from when I was young, but I feel like it's a good example of how sticking it out and not giving up can lead to happier times.
@@RagnaCat It's really great you went forward with that. You are totally right that it's a good example of all of that.
Bigger means always better.❤
Heh
I think i get why people like macro/micro
You just WANNA PICKED UP LIKE A SMALL CREATURE AND HELD❤
I've been there since when your first video had about 200 views. TH-cam algorithm knows what to recommend
I'm grateful you've stuck it out with me this long, I'll try to keep the good sleeps coming 💜
You should try the orca model
Trans rights are human rights!
Have a good day! :D
Your words where very inspiring. Sending hugs well to your big feet hehe and wishing you a very happy weekend 💖 💗 💓 💕 💛
Awww gosh, thank you sweetflea! You.. could give those big feet a few soft kisses too while you're down there~
Hey ragna could i have the name of the world this vid takes place plz
The name is Lin city, here's a link 💜:
vrchat.com/home/world/wrld_0391dca2-b972-4aeb-af50-5c52e1646a10
@@RagnaCat thx Ragna 💜
I know this video was the QnA but this made me think of a question. Would you ever do vore?
@@brandongilbertson3552 I've done mawplay before in some of my earlier videos as an excuse to do mouth sounds and probably will again before long..
Vore as in actually swallowing and eating I think I'll continue to keep to my Patreon work as I feel it crosses into the full-on kink side of things 💜