Hi! Thank you for posting such an honest video. Idk why but knowing I don't spend a ton of time with my friends and spend so much time on social media makes me feel so unattractive. But you look great and if you feel similarly then maybe it doesn't make me ugly either. I remember feeling the way you described all the time. I think I'm a year or two older than you and it is starting to get better. One thing that has helped me so much is my dog. My boyfriend and I have a *Saint Bernard* puppy she is almost 18 months old and is named Cowgirl. I love my partner too, it is amazing to be with someone I love. I think if you have a career you are interested in you should make moves (slow, gradual moves) to try out the field. That's what I've been doing. School was so horrible for me, it made me want to end it all, the stress and being constantly surrounded by people and feeling like I had to lie about my mental health, it scarred me and took me so long to recover. So after five or six years out of school I got this impression that maybe I should be working in schools so I can be there for other teenagers who are struggling. Your thought process for considering mortuary or funeral services reminds me of my own reasoning. I am almost finished with my Associate's Degree which will let me be an assistant teacher. I am glad there's a job opportunity for me to get involved in teaching without being fully locked in, I'm just the kind of person that gets things done somewhat circuitously and very gradually so I thought for a long time I might never accomplish anything, but I have found a pace that works for me right now. It must be tough living on so little each week, but honestly getting set up for a job qualification is a really good reason to stay until February imo and hopefully get full time. I had never given much thought to my future career because that's so boring to me. I cant say higher education is bringing me much joy, it sort of feels like a box to check off but I can picture myself better off because I'm perusing a career that can bring me some real stability. I love stability, and I love that about myself, I thrive in stability and the chaos of school has thrown me out of my old comfort zone, but I am happy to get somewhere new because I just wanted a change. Maybe your current job has changed your comfort zone as well, but you sounded a lot like me in this video so maybe you can find something really rewarding through work like I hope to find. I want to teach because above all I found school really fucking boring. I want to help young people see the world with curious eyes, we don't have to go anywhere or be anything special to look for the fascinating little magic things in our lives. I think its really beautiful that you want to help people when they're struggling with loss. Who knows maybe neither of us will enjoy these fields and end up doing something completely different but I feel like I am getting closer to having something that will be sustainable and stable, and that's when I feel the best.
You seem like such a beautiful soul. I hope you start feeling better soon. It does sound like you are suffering from depression. The losing the will to do things and being really tired are tell tale signs. It could also be the anxiety medication. I take it and it works but it also has made me very numb emotionally but at the end of the day it's better than having random panic attacks all the time for no reason so it's something I've had to deal with.
hating going to work - very relatable unless you can find work that you love to do, which is rare, unfortunately sleeves coming up over the hands to the fingers is a great look
Your outer world is not responsible for your happiness. Your Boyfriend, your bed, your pets, your parents, your friends, your phone will never make you happy. Your inner world, your thoughts, your feelings is responsible for your happiness. How much you value and enjoy the simple pleasures of life like breathing, smelling, seeing a beautiful flower or seeing the clouds in the sky or just feeling the water from the shower on the body. Enjoy what is in your life, the good and the bad. There is something to be grateful for all of gods creations. I wish more Love enters into your life and see the beauty surrounding you. Sending you love my sister!
I agree with everything you said. However, I’d say that those outside things can make you happy as well. Your partner, friends, family, etc. can make you happy too. The thing is, is to not depend on those outside things for your happiness, as happiness ultimately comes from yourself
Baking videos would be great, outfit ones too. I used to work on NHS wards too and omg people can be so unbelievably horrible, including staff, but others so lovely, haha people. Mushrooms changed my life too, wow. Thanks for the chat 🤍
Your aesthetic is to die for, hope you feel better at some point. I think if you want to create a community then worrying about views is, as you correctly identified, silly. In my experience the best communities are small and the bigger you get the more distanced from your community you end up. Also side note ‘my life’s not hard i just feel… bleh’ is the most real thing ever
Sorry to hear about your Nan and Uncle. I can't imagine losing two people in quick succession. Also you must have some Scorpio or 8th house stuff in your chart
😂 don’t try to apply astrology here. Do you realize how narcissistic and self centered that sounds from an outside perspective? To imply that your birth date has more power over the lives of your loved ones, than their health and age does? You think just because she was born at a certain time of year, that her nan and uncle passed away so close together? I understand people like you use astrology as a religion, a way to explain life, but to apply it here is so beyond messed up. Death is mostly random and always tragic, it has nothing to do with astrology. You actually sound insane for even implying that.
very much a possibility but i’ve been this way lonnng before starting them. i did have a blood test and have super low iron. hopefully things will level out soon ! 🤎
@vvitcheswoods I hope it works for you. I just don't trust "big pharma" ha. I've been on sertaline for many years now. Doctors don't seem to tell you that you'll likely be stuck on them for life, or at the very least struggle greatly coming off "medication". I've tried, and it was the scariest experience of my life. I felt 100 times worse (mentally and physically) than before I started. I wanted to come off them because the side effects such as night sweats/general sweating, fogginess and fatigue. (However, like yourself, I did always suffer from tiredness.) But I also don't like the idea of something altering my "brain". Sorry for the random dramatic rambling, and I don't want to scare. I just hope you were warned before being prescribed.
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Sorry to hear about things being so difficult; glad you're still posting on here.
thank you for still watching!!!
Hi! Thank you for posting such an honest video. Idk why but knowing I don't spend a ton of time with my friends and spend so much time on social media makes me feel so unattractive. But you look great and if you feel similarly then maybe it doesn't make me ugly either. I remember feeling the way you described all the time. I think I'm a year or two older than you and it is starting to get better. One thing that has helped me so much is my dog. My boyfriend and I have a *Saint Bernard* puppy she is almost 18 months old and is named Cowgirl. I love my partner too, it is amazing to be with someone I love. I think if you have a career you are interested in you should make moves (slow, gradual moves) to try out the field. That's what I've been doing. School was so horrible for me, it made me want to end it all, the stress and being constantly surrounded by people and feeling like I had to lie about my mental health, it scarred me and took me so long to recover. So after five or six years out of school I got this impression that maybe I should be working in schools so I can be there for other teenagers who are struggling. Your thought process for considering mortuary or funeral services reminds me of my own reasoning. I am almost finished with my Associate's Degree which will let me be an assistant teacher. I am glad there's a job opportunity for me to get involved in teaching without being fully locked in, I'm just the kind of person that gets things done somewhat circuitously and very gradually so I thought for a long time I might never accomplish anything, but I have found a pace that works for me right now. It must be tough living on so little each week, but honestly getting set up for a job qualification is a really good reason to stay until February imo and hopefully get full time. I had never given much thought to my future career because that's so boring to me. I cant say higher education is bringing me much joy, it sort of feels like a box to check off but I can picture myself better off because I'm perusing a career that can bring me some real stability. I love stability, and I love that about myself, I thrive in stability and the chaos of school has thrown me out of my old comfort zone, but I am happy to get somewhere new because I just wanted a change. Maybe your current job has changed your comfort zone as well, but you sounded a lot like me in this video so maybe you can find something really rewarding through work like I hope to find. I want to teach because above all I found school really fucking boring. I want to help young people see the world with curious eyes, we don't have to go anywhere or be anything special to look for the fascinating little magic things in our lives. I think its really beautiful that you want to help people when they're struggling with loss. Who knows maybe neither of us will enjoy these fields and end up doing something completely different but I feel like I am getting closer to having something that will be sustainable and stable, and that's when I feel the best.
You seem like such a beautiful soul. I hope you start feeling better soon. It does sound like you are suffering from depression. The losing the will to do things and being really tired are tell tale signs. It could also be the anxiety medication. I take it and it works but it also has made me very numb emotionally but at the end of the day it's better than having random panic attacks all the time for no reason so it's something I've had to deal with.
thank you! and maybe but its not like debilitating or awful or anything to honestly im not too fussed lol. i’ve definitely felt worse
I'm sorry to hear about all that you've been dealing with. Thank you for sharing with us.
thank you lovely! just had a look at your channel and subbed! it looks so good im gonna have a watch later 🫶🏻
It’s only over if you give up! So don’t give up! You can find the momentum again!
absolutely! 🤎
This video is great! Your hair looks really good!
ahh thank you!! its growing quite well isn’t it ! :D
@@vvitcheswoods You're welcome! It really is :)
hating going to work - very relatable unless you can find work that you love to do, which is rare, unfortunately
sleeves coming up over the hands to the fingers is a great look
we hate work !!!! lol. also yaaaa extra long sleeves are just so comfy
Your outer world is not responsible for your happiness. Your Boyfriend, your bed, your pets, your parents, your friends, your phone will never make you happy. Your inner world, your thoughts, your feelings is responsible for your happiness. How much you value and enjoy the simple pleasures of life like breathing, smelling, seeing a beautiful flower or seeing the clouds in the sky or just feeling the water from the shower on the body. Enjoy what is in your life, the good and the bad. There is something to be grateful for all of gods creations. I wish more Love enters into your life and see the beauty surrounding you. Sending you love my sister!
I agree with everything you said. However, I’d say that those outside things can make you happy as well. Your partner, friends, family, etc. can make you happy too. The thing is, is to not depend on those outside things for your happiness, as happiness ultimately comes from yourself
you are correct i need to appreciate my surroundings more and practice gratitude 🤎
also very true
Baking videos would be great, outfit ones too. I used to work on NHS wards too and omg people can be so unbelievably horrible, including staff, but others so lovely, haha people. Mushrooms changed my life too, wow. Thanks for the chat 🤍
nhs is so stressful to work for :// mushrooms are great if you’re stable to do them 🤎
@@vvitcheswoods Yes, best to feel safe and in a good place at the time, in mind and setting
she really looks like a real life elf
this is so sweet thank you 🤎
Black tea over brown tea anyday 🙏🏾🙏🏾
any tea 🤎🤎🤎
Hey, I'm so sorry you've had to go through all that, must have been really hard. Hope you're doing better.
hii yes definitely thank you !!! 🤎
*sits in the goblin circle and kicks feet*
I loved this chat session and I'm glad you felt comfortable opening up. Do you feel any relief having spoken about such things?
a bit yeah! i just love to yap honestly lol
Your aesthetic is to die for, hope you feel better at some point. I think if you want to create a community then worrying about views is, as you correctly identified, silly. In my experience the best communities are small and the bigger you get the more distanced from your community you end up. Also side note ‘my life’s not hard i just feel… bleh’ is the most real thing ever
you’re so right youve absolutely changed my perspective! also thank you so much 🤎🕯️
Sorry to hear about your Nan and Uncle. I can't imagine losing two people in quick succession. Also you must have some Scorpio or 8th house stuff in your chart
😂 don’t try to apply astrology here. Do you realize how narcissistic and self centered that sounds from an outside perspective? To imply that your birth date has more power over the lives of your loved ones, than their health and age does? You think just because she was born at a certain time of year, that her nan and uncle passed away so close together? I understand people like you use astrology as a religion, a way to explain life, but to apply it here is so beyond messed up. Death is mostly random and always tragic, it has nothing to do with astrology. You actually sound insane for even implying that.
@@Abcd-up3us the 8th stuff was to do with morbid interests/working in a morgue. You misinterpreted what I meant, jog on love
Any chance you'd talk about your experience with mushrooms in another video? I'm kinda thinking of trying it one day but not sure 😅
sure!! id enjoy going into more detail :))
you look like you could be a character in a world of Harry Potter, idk how to explain it haha
this is so lovely thank you sm 🤎✨can you guess what house im in lol
@@vvitcheswoods haha I'm so bad at guessing but the first thing on my mind is either hufflepuff or ravenclaw
@Mataus yes hufflepuff!!
hey lovely :)
hello dearie!!!
@@vvitcheswoods ☺
Are you sure the anxiety "medication" isn't causing drowsiness fatige which means you cannot be bothered doing anything?
very much a possibility but i’ve been this way lonnng before starting them. i did have a blood test and have super low iron. hopefully things will level out soon ! 🤎
@vvitcheswoods I hope it works for you. I just don't trust "big pharma" ha.
I've been on sertaline for many years now. Doctors don't seem to tell you that you'll likely be stuck on them for life, or at the very least struggle greatly coming off "medication". I've tried, and it was the scariest experience of my life. I felt 100 times worse (mentally and physically) than before I started. I wanted to come off them because the side effects such as night sweats/general sweating, fogginess and fatigue. (However, like yourself, I did always suffer from tiredness.) But I also don't like the idea of something altering my "brain".
Sorry for the random dramatic rambling, and I don't want to scare. I just hope you were warned before being prescribed.
Niice 😎