Thank you. 37 and only just got far enough away to be able to definitively say my father is a toxic narcissist. Videos like this are very helpful considering I've no trust in myself /intuition, including the part of me that told me he's a narcissist
makes complete sense. I internalized so much and accepted their terms, where only my defectiveness was real. I got to be smart, that was the one good thing I got to keep, but it wasn't in my own service, even that belonged to other people until I started reconnecting with self.
My mother consistently pointed out, ridiculed, laughed at, and commented “that is just like you!” every time I spilled anything and the whole time I’m cleaning it up. It made me spill more. I think I got nervous about spilling things because of this and it made me more prone to do it. She seemed to enjoy these episodes. This was my entire childhood and into adulthood. One of many little types of subtle tearing down of my sense of competency. Meanwhile, every few weeks, my father was physically abusing me and my sibling without any protection from her.
These messages really help working through the extremely difficult process finding realness. If possible could you comment on why everything you do always has a deep feeling of "wrongness" attached to it?
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God bless anyone that has been through this. You are enough. You are very valuable.
Thank you. 37 and only just got far enough away to be able to definitively say my father is a toxic narcissist. Videos like this are very helpful considering I've no trust in myself /intuition, including the part of me that told me he's a narcissist
I kind of knew this already, but it is still so PAINFUL! You are so accurate! Thank you!!!
Healing is a continuous journey.
makes complete sense. I internalized so much and accepted their terms, where only my defectiveness was real. I got to be smart, that was the one good thing I got to keep, but it wasn't in my own service, even that belonged to other people until I started reconnecting with self.
He just described my mother😢.
Truth again. Thank you ❤
You're welcome!
My mother consistently pointed out, ridiculed, laughed at, and commented “that is just like you!” every time I spilled anything and the whole time I’m cleaning it up. It made me spill more. I think I got nervous about spilling things because of this and it made me more prone to do it. She seemed to enjoy these episodes. This was my entire childhood and into adulthood. One of many little types of subtle tearing down of my sense of competency. Meanwhile, every few weeks, my father was physically abusing me and my sibling without any protection from her.
The narcissist also punishes emotionally for doing something better than he would be able to !
These messages really help working through the extremely difficult process finding realness. If possible could you comment on why everything you do always has a deep feeling of "wrongness" attached to it?
Narcissistic abuse can be basically geo political in scope
Thank you!
This month I did so much and today i realized ,no kredit for that from myself!
Only if I'm in rage I can see that !Thanks