Thanks for showing your place, it looks neat! Your cat is lovely as well. You've got a lot to be proud of getting to this point, and seeing you make this progress is very motivating!
Thanks for the tour. It's amazing to see all the progress you've made in a year🎉🎉🎉 struggling with AVPD myself and on my way to better living. I tried a channel on YT last year, but my anxiety spiked and I deleted all videos. Just started up again, hope to be where you are in a year!
I'm super glad you're starting up again! I think it's very important that as many of us that feel able decide to talk about our experiences. You got this 🖐
Thank goodness for self checkouts 😂.. well done for pushing to go through normal checkouts, inspiring! But I think I know I,ll stick to the easier way 😢 I want to help people too! Tyou
Jake your house looks really nice and it's great you have a kitty to keep you company. Believe me I know the struggle of not wanting to go to the grocery store, or anywhere else for that matter. I'm curious about something. I have found that when I'm doing something for someone else, whether that be my nephews who I used to babysit, or my cats, it's easier for me to put myself in situations that cause me anxiety. I think it's because I'm not thinking about myself as much as usual and I'm more focused on the other person (or animal) that is relying on me being able to take care of them. So maybe make a goal of going to the store to get some cat food. And think of it as my cat needs me to do this so I HAVE to do it. Just walk in, grab it and go to the self-checkout. And then don't feel bad that you didn't interact with anyone. Just get thru that one time of doing it. And try to make yourself leave your house periodically, even just to drive around or go run at the park. For me, the longer I stay in my apt, the harder it gets to leave. Btw, I love your taste in music. I'm a metal head too but I mostly listen to the stuff I grew up with which is old school thrash and death metal. So yeah I totally get not wanting to tell people the type of music I like bcuz so many people are very ignorant of what heavy metal music really is. And that's just one extra thing to worry about I don't need 😂 Omg sorry this is so long!!
Thanks David. I haven't consciously noticed that sort of thing shifting my focus that much, though it definitely is a great way to make myself do it! I'll put off doing something for myself forever, but if my cat needs food I'll make it happen (even if it doesn't feel any easier). And yeah, I could tell after a couple days of staying in and unpacking that I was going to completely lose all social ability if I didn't go do something. Having running as "the thing" I do regularly is nice so far. I even made eye contact with a couple people today :D That's awesome, I like some old school thrash too. Megadeth is the main band that made me decide bass was cooler than guitar (Primus deserves some credit too). And no apologies needed, I really enjoy reading and replying to comments :)
Thank you for sharing your journey. You are so smart and articulate. I'm glad you found an antidepressant that is helping you so much! Don't be so hard on yourself. You are doing a great job with all the steps you've taken so far. You are so determined that I believe you are going to continue to make good progress. Taking things slowly is smart. It's so brave of you to share with us all you have been, and are, going thru. Thank you. I think you are very inspiring. 😊. It's so nice to find someone else dealing with AVPD, makes me not feel so alone with this disorder.
Thank you very much ☺I'm really glad I can help you feel a bit less alone. There really are a surprising amount of us, and I love that we can be there for each other :)
Listen, try not to judge yourself so hardly… this is your life on your own terms, on your own path! Normal is overrated. I have social anxiety and that was harder for other people. My friend who I believe had AvPD was terrified to go out to a restaurant aftet the pandemic. When we went out, he ended up loving it. When he pushed himself, he enjoyed it. Some might be bothered, but most people want to make it easy for those who feel anxious. You are unique and so many people are thankful to know someone else feels like them.
Thanks for the encouragement, I really appreciate it :) By normal I mostly meant that I am really jealous of people who can just go out in public and exist without worrying so much, haha. Maybe someday!
:~) awesome, Jake! Hope you are celebrating this new era! 🏡 Wishing you strength in getting out to the grocery! the fact you push through the discomfort every day is monumental! Also, running @ your state's botanical garden sounds like a blast! Good on you for getting out there!
I'm a metalhead since the 80's. Love Opeth, Trees of Eternity (makes sense that someone with your diagnosis would like Aleah Stanbridge) and it's great that you're sharing that. We are few and far between, and often misunderstood and often hermits, but we are awesome. You are so inspirational, good for you. Best of luck on everything.
My man you've got excellent taste in music! I used to live in Helsingborg where Soilwork comes from, even saw them live there a couple of years ago. I hope everything goes well for you.
Thank you :) honestly, I have a really hard time with everything from making an appointment (hate phone calls), dreading it, and then dealing with it. I avoid it as much as possible. I'm lucky to have family who can help me most of the time. I do have a bit of a plumbing issue I've been avoiding dealing with for months, because it's very stressful and I'm a bit ashamed to ask for help.
Great job going on the jog! Just make sure you don’t make the blood pressure fall too much and that you stay hydrated! Start with the jogs regularly. Then graduate to the grocery store maybe? At least you cook! I am in my 30s and can barely cook and wish I could do better! At least you are practicing! You will get better! Everyone fucks up and just keep trying!🙌
hey.. try to be as close to nature as possible, u can bring in some plants. It really helps keeping urself happy. And also spend time outdoors more often. Take some morning sunlight everyday, it helps to keep energetic and really helps reducing sad feelings. All these hv really made a difference in my life.. i'm sure its gonna help u also. 😊
Jake, you’ve made excellent videos showing your insight. You remind me of my 19 year old son. He looks like you and is as calm as well, like you. I think he is DA (my subjective opinion, based on his behavior and traits) and have not had any contact with for four months. He has not had much contact with his mother and siblings, too. I feel happy you’re having dinner with your mom. Rest assured, there is nothing for a parent that hurts as much as loosing contact with a child.
Is it difficult to find a doctor for ketamine therapy? I've heard about this and would like to try it. I remember back in the 90s hearing about ketamine being a popular drug in nightclubs. So I'm very curious as to how it can help people with anxiety.
@@David-hr8mq Those 90s kids may have had the right idea taking ketamine, but not necessarily in the best context 😅 I do at-home Ketamine therapy with NueLife. So all of the medical consultations are done through video chat over the phone and they send the medication to me. There are cheaper options for at-home therapy like Joyous or Taconic. So I’ve been able to navigate this therapy on my own for the last year at my own pace, in the comfort of my own home. It works very well beyond just creating new neural pathways and shifting perspective, but also works on a nervous system level. It’s like getting a haircut for my nerves. Keeps me out of freeze mode so I’m not stuck ruminating and I can be more present and excited to move forward with life because it finally feels worth living now. I’m still a bit awkward and limited in social situations, but the crippling anxiety over it all isn’t there. My nervous system is more regulated so there’s no more overheating, heart ponding, armpits burning, internally hating myself in that moment when literally any social interaction occurs- that’s gone. Makes it easier to go run errands, but I still don’t really have the desire to meet new people and form new relationships yet, because after having the anxiety stripped away, I’m re-realizing that I am genuinely introverted and enjoy my own company and being at home most of the time. Just got to enrich that environment and celebrate the baby steps! It’s all about the small victories we make along the way ❤
@reveriedecoded Oh wow, thank you for the detailed reply! I was somewhat obsessed with club kids back in the 90s and watched everything I could find about them. So I saw lots of them on Special K! They seemed to enjoy it, but I couldn't help but wonder how being in a K-hole could help my anxiety in real-life situations. Obviously I'm sure the dosage is much smaller and more manageable. So I'm going to look into these companies you mentioned. At my age I've pretty much given up hope of my AvPD ever getting better but I'm definitely willing to try. I sometimes wonder if my brain would even allow me to act "normal" if something actually worked for me. I've had the same way of thinking my entire life so I doubt sometimes that I even could change. But it seems to have really helped you so I have to try it. I also enjoy being alone and have often wondered if I would feel differently if I didn't have AvPD. And like you, I'm not so sure that I would. Anyway, thanks for the info!
Nice to see you smiling a lot ;) , you might not be ready yet , but maybe get a double bed ;) , in any case it’s more comfortable even by yourself ❤ nice place
Congrats with a caution. The last time I lived by myself (62), I lasted about 4 months and I was spiraling down the entire time. Then I moved back into my house ( don't ask why I was living in an apt and not my house). Now I am splitting expenses with another. Having someone else in the house (even though there is no relationship) does seem to help. I am also using the grocery store to give me more exposure to people. I am working on a 2nd video like you suggested. Time will tell if I can get it done. Luck. Pardon the typing. I am having cataract surgery next month and I can barely read what I am typing.
@@morneemall8482 I'm honestly not sure. I have a really hard time focusing and might have ADHD inattentive subtype, but I'm really not sure how much of it can be attributed to anxiety/depression and how much can't.
Really nice to see your place Jake, it looks great! I wish I could come by to drink a cup of tea :) I relate to often feeling like you are doing the wrong thing. You are doing so well though, Jake, and it is definitely worth it and okay to focus on the little things that give you a sense of independence. I suspect that feeling like you can do stuff on your own can give at least a bit of confidence and that would be useful for future social interactions. I also really feel you on the fleeting determination thing... I hope you will keep finding bits of determination to achieve your goals. Hug to you and your sweet cat
Thanks for showing your place, it looks neat! Your cat is lovely as well. You've got a lot to be proud of getting to this point, and seeing you make this progress is very motivating!
Thank you friend :) I hope you're doing well!
and congratuations for the new house , its nice.
Thanks for the tour. It's amazing to see all the progress you've made in a year🎉🎉🎉 struggling with AVPD myself and on my way to better living. I tried a channel on YT last year, but my anxiety spiked and I deleted all videos. Just started up again, hope to be where you are in a year!
I'm super glad you're starting up again! I think it's very important that as many of us that feel able decide to talk about our experiences. You got this 🖐
Thank goodness for self checkouts 😂.. well done for pushing to go through normal checkouts, inspiring! But I think I know I,ll stick to the easier way 😢 I want to help people too! Tyou
What was that medication you mentioned?
I love your new house Jake! Awesome ! You got this !!!! Glad you made a video to show us around
Thank you! :)
Jake your house looks really nice and it's great you have a kitty to keep you company. Believe me I know the struggle of not wanting to go to the grocery store, or anywhere else for that matter. I'm curious about something. I have found that when I'm doing something for someone else, whether that be my nephews who I used to babysit, or my cats, it's easier for me to put myself in situations that cause me anxiety. I think it's because I'm not thinking about myself as much as usual and I'm more focused on the other person (or animal) that is relying on me being able to take care of them. So maybe make a goal of going to the store to get some cat food. And think of it as my cat needs me to do this so I HAVE to do it. Just walk in, grab it and go to the self-checkout. And then don't feel bad that you didn't interact with anyone. Just get thru that one time of doing it. And try to make yourself leave your house periodically, even just to drive around or go run at the park. For me, the longer I stay in my apt, the harder it gets to leave. Btw, I love your taste in music. I'm a metal head too but I mostly listen to the stuff I grew up with which is old school thrash and death metal. So yeah I totally get not wanting to tell people the type of music I like bcuz so many people are very ignorant of what heavy metal music really is. And that's just one extra thing to worry about I don't need 😂
Omg sorry this is so long!!
Thanks David. I haven't consciously noticed that sort of thing shifting my focus that much, though it definitely is a great way to make myself do it! I'll put off doing something for myself forever, but if my cat needs food I'll make it happen (even if it doesn't feel any easier). And yeah, I could tell after a couple days of staying in and unpacking that I was going to completely lose all social ability if I didn't go do something. Having running as "the thing" I do regularly is nice so far. I even made eye contact with a couple people today :D
That's awesome, I like some old school thrash too. Megadeth is the main band that made me decide bass was cooler than guitar (Primus deserves some credit too). And no apologies needed, I really enjoy reading and replying to comments :)
i personally love rlly long comments & other ppl sharing their experiences!
Your bravery to post these videos is beyond encouraging and inspiring for follow AVPDers like myself so Thank you so much ❤❤
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Congrats on the new place! Seeing your journey is always very encouraging!
Thank you :)
Thank you for sharing your journey. You are so smart and articulate. I'm glad you found an antidepressant that is helping you so much! Don't be so hard on yourself. You are doing a great job with all the steps you've taken so far. You are so determined that I believe you are going to continue to make good progress. Taking things slowly is smart. It's so brave of you to share with us all you have been, and are, going thru. Thank you. I think you are very inspiring. 😊. It's so nice to find someone else dealing with AVPD, makes me not feel so alone with this disorder.
Thank you very much ☺I'm really glad I can help you feel a bit less alone. There really are a surprising amount of us, and I love that we can be there for each other :)
Love to see the Dillinger and Opeth albums
On average, I listen to 2-3 of Dillinger's albums per day 😶
Listen, try not to judge yourself so hardly… this is your life on your own terms, on your own path! Normal is overrated. I have social anxiety and that was harder for other people. My friend who I believe had AvPD was terrified to go out to a restaurant aftet the pandemic. When we went out, he ended up loving it. When he pushed himself, he enjoyed it. Some might be bothered, but most people want to make it easy for those who feel anxious.
You are unique and so many people are thankful to know someone else feels like them.
Thanks for the encouragement, I really appreciate it :) By normal I mostly meant that I am really jealous of people who can just go out in public and exist without worrying so much, haha. Maybe someday!
:~) awesome, Jake! Hope you are celebrating this new era! 🏡 Wishing you strength in getting out to the grocery! the fact you push through the discomfort every day is monumental! Also, running @ your state's botanical garden sounds like a blast! Good on you for getting out there!
Thank you Allyson, I really appreciate the encouragement 🙂
Awesome!!! Taking it one step at a time! It looks great! Nice cat! Music tastes sound intriguing and awesome!
How were you able to afford and keep a house if you don't work? Not trying to be rude just curious.
I luv ur froug ^.^ Awesome taste in metal too kind Sir! Congratz on your place!!!!!
Thanks my man :D
So proud of you you are doing great and I pray that one day you find someone to spend your time with because you are very handsome take care.
Thank you :)
I'm a metalhead since the 80's. Love Opeth, Trees of Eternity (makes sense that someone with your diagnosis would like Aleah Stanbridge) and it's great that you're sharing that. We are few and far between, and often misunderstood and often hermits, but we are awesome. You are so inspirational, good for you. Best of luck on everything.
New place yaaay! Good job, Jake!
Thank you!!
I love your kitty🥺
She is my favorite ❤
My man you've got excellent taste in music! I used to live in Helsingborg where Soilwork comes from, even saw them live there a couple of years ago. I hope everything goes well for you.
That's awesome man! I love Soilwork, and Bastian is a top three drummer for me. Thank you :)
Wow u have come so far! How do you go with tradespeople?
Thank you :) honestly, I have a really hard time with everything from making an appointment (hate phone calls), dreading it, and then dealing with it. I avoid it as much as possible. I'm lucky to have family who can help me most of the time. I do have a bit of a plumbing issue I've been avoiding dealing with for months, because it's very stressful and I'm a bit ashamed to ask for help.
Great house! It's obvious Jake you are making progress and you will keep making! 🎉🎉
Thank you Christina 🙂
Great job going on the jog! Just make sure you don’t make the blood pressure fall too much and that you stay hydrated! Start with the jogs regularly. Then graduate to the grocery store maybe?
At least you cook! I am in my 30s and can barely cook and wish I could do better! At least you are practicing! You will get better! Everyone fucks up and just keep trying!🙌
How do you afford your rent if you dont work or have a job😊
hey..
try to be as close to nature as possible, u can bring in some plants. It really helps keeping urself happy. And also spend time outdoors more often. Take some morning sunlight everyday, it helps to keep energetic and really helps reducing sad feelings. All these hv really made a difference in my life.. i'm sure its gonna help u also. 😊
Thank you ☺
Jake, you’ve made excellent videos showing your insight.
You remind me of my 19 year old son. He looks like you and is as calm as well, like you. I think he is DA (my subjective opinion, based on his behavior and traits) and have not had any contact with for four months. He has not had much contact with his mother and siblings, too.
I feel happy you’re having dinner with your mom. Rest assured, there is nothing for a parent that hurts as much as loosing contact with a child.
Yep take it slow, one day at a time! Ketamine therapy really helps manage my AvPD and severe social anxiety disorder. Have you ever looked into it?
I only know a bit about it, but hearing that it has helped you with social anxiety has renewed my interest 🙂Thank you!
Is it difficult to find a doctor for ketamine therapy? I've heard about this and would like to try it. I remember back in the 90s hearing about ketamine being a popular drug in nightclubs. So I'm very curious as to how it can help people with anxiety.
@@David-hr8mq Those 90s kids may have had the right idea taking ketamine, but not necessarily in the best context 😅
I do at-home Ketamine therapy with NueLife. So all of the medical consultations are done through video chat over the phone and they send the medication to me. There are cheaper options for at-home therapy like Joyous or Taconic. So I’ve been able to navigate this therapy on my own for the last year at my own pace, in the comfort of my own home.
It works very well beyond just creating new neural pathways and shifting perspective, but also works on a nervous system level. It’s like getting a haircut for my nerves. Keeps me out of freeze mode so I’m not stuck ruminating and I can be more present and excited to move forward with life because it finally feels worth living now. I’m still a bit awkward and limited in social situations, but the crippling anxiety over it all isn’t there. My nervous system is more regulated so there’s no more overheating, heart ponding, armpits burning, internally hating myself in that moment when literally any social interaction occurs- that’s gone. Makes it easier to go run errands, but I still don’t really have the desire to meet new people and form new relationships yet, because after having the anxiety stripped away, I’m re-realizing that I am genuinely introverted and enjoy my own company and being at home most of the time. Just got to enrich that environment and celebrate the baby steps! It’s all about the small victories we make along the way ❤
@reveriedecoded Oh wow, thank you for the detailed reply! I was somewhat obsessed with club kids back in the 90s and watched everything I could find about them. So I saw lots of them on Special K! They seemed to enjoy it, but I couldn't help but wonder how being in a K-hole could help my anxiety in real-life situations. Obviously I'm sure the dosage is much smaller and more manageable. So I'm going to look into these companies you mentioned. At my age I've pretty much given up hope of my AvPD ever getting better but I'm definitely willing to try. I sometimes wonder if my brain would even allow me to act "normal" if something actually worked for me. I've had the same way of thinking my entire life so I doubt sometimes that I even could change. But it seems to have really helped you so I have to try it.
I also enjoy being alone and have often wondered if I would feel differently if I didn't have AvPD. And like you, I'm not so sure that I would.
Anyway, thanks for the info!
Nice to see you smiling a lot ;) , you might not be ready yet , but maybe get a double bed ;) , in any case it’s more comfortable even by yourself ❤ nice place
Congrats with a caution. The last time I lived by myself (62), I lasted about 4 months and I was spiraling down the entire time. Then I moved back into my house ( don't ask why I was living in an apt and not my house). Now I am splitting expenses with another. Having someone else in the house (even though there is no relationship) does seem to help. I am also using the grocery store to give me more exposure to people. I am working on a 2nd video like you suggested. Time will tell if I can get it done. Luck. Pardon the typing. I am having cataract surgery next month and I can barely read what I am typing.
Thanks David! I look forward to the video when you feel it's ready. Wishing you the best of luck for your surgery!
Are you taking stimulant like methylphenidate?
Nope! Mirtazapine for sleep, Duloxetine for depression, Propranolol for physical anxiety symptoms, and Vitamin D supplement.
@@JakeAvPD and this drugs better than if not taking it for you?
@@morneemall8482 Definitely! It took a while to find the right ones, but these do for me what they're supposed to with minimal side effects.
@@JakeAvPD do you feel if you have an adhd jake?
@@morneemall8482 I'm honestly not sure. I have a really hard time focusing and might have ADHD inattentive subtype, but I'm really not sure how much of it can be attributed to anxiety/depression and how much can't.
Really nice to see your place Jake, it looks great! I wish I could come by to drink a cup of tea :)
I relate to often feeling like you are doing the wrong thing. You are doing so well though, Jake, and it is definitely worth it and okay to focus on the little things that give you a sense of independence. I suspect that feeling like you can do stuff on your own can give at least a bit of confidence and that would be useful for future social interactions. I also really feel you on the fleeting determination thing... I hope you will keep finding bits of determination to achieve your goals. Hug to you and your sweet cat
Thank you so much, Lisa :) I wish the same for you, my friend! Hugs
@@JakeAvPD Thank you :)
Great taste in music my friend
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