I listened to this song 10x and always thought of my girl because she hurt me by her own decisions and i almost sent it to her until i realized this song is about myself and i hurt myself by allowing her to do that. Know your worth you guys and know that you cant love without knowing pain.
Yes! I've been fighting my own inner demons, toxicity and self worth. Not sure why I cant put boundaries up, respect and love myself but 1st step is acknowledgement. I have faith we both will get there one day. Cutting ties with people that consistently hurt you isnt enough, You must also cut ties with the Verizon of you that allowed that shit to continue for as long as it did. Good luck, Remember life is a journey with so many different adventures along the way; many of them we are meant to explore & experience alone. My Grandoa use to say the hardest walk is the one you musr walk alone,But it's the walk that make you the STRONGEST!
WOW... Your words hit more like lightening in my heart and soul.... Thank you for expressing what I've been trying to say through this heart wrenching heart break!!!!!! Good bless you 💜💜💜💜
This is a really good song 🎵 by him he's spitting the truth...... A lot of people go through different stuff differently in their lives so.... Just be honest....!!!!!!
I feel bad for what I put my family in..I am really sorry and willing to fix every thing.but I do drug and that's what really causing the problem but why I do that?because I'm young and I think that it will help me with my sadness in life..cause I once feeling bad for loving someone...and when I do drunk its i can see now that what's i put my family into.and in me..i dont know what to do to fix it.i really love my family and they always there for me..I am not grateful for it..and I'm sorry for da.i wish my family will forgive me and give me a chance..to rebuilt..I love all my fam..and I mean it..I'm will to do anything to fix what I broke
@@pakut8580 never give up, never surrender. U gotta keep fighting for what u love and if it's for family, that's the way to be! U can do this, I'm a year sober from the same life, drunk driving I rolled my car 7 times front bumper to back bumper n spun out twice, came out of it without a scratch. My mom passed away 8 years ago n she protected me n in that moment I decided this life ain't for me. I quit cold turkey drinking, smoking, all of it. I'm not the same person I was a year ago but that's the point and never forget where u came from n dont be afraid of urself cuz a part of u will actually die so stay strong n blossom into that butterfly
@@samuelsantiago3556 you wouldn't know who's who lol their voices sound the same,just like Tay k and comethazine their voices sound very much the same in that collab you wouldn't know who's who either.
To the artist: Dont apologize for bein honest, im like "finally"! The harsh truth i needed to hear. Its real, Sad that the truth i wish others would show/tell me in times of struggle is comin from the lyrics of a song, someone i dont even kno. Thank you for the truth ❤
@@pakut8580 i feel ya, but these people make these songs and sometimes i wish i could just know if they truly feel the way we do, the lies were told, and the repationship fucked up family and not knowing yourself issues.
@@amandafinnerty9153 of course they do. You can't fake or make up that depth of emotion ypu have to feel it to describe it so perfectly. They are people just like us of course they feel what we do.
When i come with ivan songs i feel like, this is the thing i must listen, he is lit I'm blessed cause like these people makes us the feel we live and it felts so much better you can't imagined ❤️
This is the best song I've ever heard it's like your explaining my life in a song and all of what you say is exactly what's happening in my life and what you say is actually so true that I feel like I should be good I should actually live better and I should actually try my hardest I know the songs not for me but I'll say thank you to you for making this song because ever sense I've heard it it has really helped and I'm so thankful I don't know what else to say but thank you you've really helped me want to live again and helped me so much thank you,
I would just tell him be 100% honest I mean what do you have to lose if he says no you're just being the same position you are in now but this time it will be easier and you will have a clearer mind set..
This is powerful. Trying to trigger you to wake up. Forgive me for my honesty. I am the one person in the Universe that is not afraid to tell you the truth. Why? Cuz I am you.
I close my eyes and hear my son saying these things. I feel his heart sing... My natural born King. Tho my hearts been ripped apart, Ive loved u from the start, and even in the dark, your the only man who will ever have my heart. It's taken a lifetime tryna find the light, hidin in the night, lyin, sayin ya maybe, I might...but I promise u.... This time ima fight, ima hold on tight, to never lose sight cuz this time son...ima get it right. 🖤
This song is what's helping me get through a really hard time in my life idk what I would do if I didn't hear this song.I started standing up for myself more
To my husband this song is for him!! Its sad but this song is ALL HIM! MY LOVE WAS AND IS UNCONDITIONAL BUT HE BELIEVES HIS OWN LIES! LET DOWN YOUR GARD AND ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE LOVED!! GOODBYE MY LOVE
To my Ivan.. If you come across this.. Just know. You are loved. All that ive seen in you is real. It's not something i think you should change to become. Im not crazy. I see you! I see you! You're an amazing man. You're NOT your past. Your my love. My min rustning. We are SI. And we will always be. I hope to always remain your friend and your lover. But, if things push us apart. Just know. You'll always have a huge portion of my heart. ❤
All starts within love reminds me of who I was around when I was younger. We are all accountable including myself. No I had to say goodbye. Light leads the way. so many are codependant and seek to others to fulfill them when healing and love acceptance confidence empathy for others and stability and balance in your life all starts within. Anyone real out there anymore
FELICIA JACOBS I’m sure he loved u more than meth is just addiction is hard and will get the best of anyone if u love ❤️ him stay and fight let him know that u r there to help and to fight the addiction with him
@@Bsfnelz20 thank you for your kind words. I did stay and fight for a whole year. We split up and got together so many times and I fought this battle till it broke me and ultimately it broke us too. I pray for him and cry for him everyday. It's been about a year now since we last spoke. I miss him.
FELICIA JACOBS wow sorry to hear that he might be clean now find out and try to make it work missing someone u love ❤️ sucks and hurts it all works out for the best at the end it has to
@Jordyn Miller sorry for your pain. I hope it all works for you. I am slowly starting to love myself and not blame myself for not being good enough for him but realizing that HE was the one who was not good enough for me.
First time that I heard this was with my best bro, and I sat there so smug wondering if he was even listening, or maybe even possibly could have been reflecting on the lyrics for things that had happened...and then I kept listening....and I inevitably realized how egotistical and judgemental I was being....literally two of the biggest things I had vowed never to become,.so it was time to take a step back and reasses my mind
Great song. And by no means do I mean to detract from your lyrics, But to answer a question of what is love without loss... it's just love, plain and simple the way I believe it was intended to be. The answer to all questions, even tho unasked, is love. And I give mine to any who will carry it with them today and any day after.
Yeah..... I love this song it's really meant to me about my Brother who is addicted to drugs... But you know what I've always there for him until the day he past away
i just want to say thank u for ur inspiring lyrics the way u worded everything i needed answers and honestly i got them but i thank u for helping me in way thru ur beautiful art like to be honest i allmost offed my self today cuz i was confused aboyt life and tierd of hurting and feeling this pain but idk somthing about ur music made me want to push on and live my life that im not the only one who felt the feelings i feel (fuck the pain love it will never be enough)but thank u ivan for just basicly saying what i needed to hear
I say a lot of words and you hear nothing but silence? Did you hear me crying, screaming in pain for the loss of life that was lost. My words you never really heard. You should.
I don't really know what else I can say or even try to say anymore, I do more and more onto everything I ever thought I could and it still isn't enough to make you smile, what does it take to do it and let you know that no matter how broken either of us are I'll always be here with and for you I just really need you to tell me what you need because I don't read minds and I don't know and I'm fine are wearing tired when I know your not and you know too
What is there to believe in? I have values and I didn't chose anything but love and honesty. But like your self singing this song no love or honesty. I hear nothing but lies.
Was looking for my comment thought it was gone but lot further down. Deep song and I cant say anymore to anyone. good luck everyone hope u find the light within. 🙏
Most ppl need to understand this. Too busy spreding themselves around. How can you settle for some great, while spreading your legs for something right now? Even dudes, you cant bother with social media and outside sources. It's part of agenda you have no control over. So dont be apart of the sheep, be different, and know what you want. Hopefully, your partner will be the same, otherwise move on. Find him/her. Lifes too short to settle for heartache and drama.
😔i loved this one girl but when we was dating she went to go talk to her ex😔😔, that’s when our problems started because every since she started talking to him, she wanted to be friends and shii, I’m always drinking my pain away I stress a lot. I can do anything with out her dawg 😭😭😭😭
It's funny I was one of the ones to start this genre of music. I think o was ahead of the times. But this guy is great like nf, witt lowry,ollie. My channel still has some of my old music on it same genre
Funny how people think this is about another when it's meant for you. It speaks of themselves. Not another. And if the song is about honesty. Then damn allot of people need to change themselves. I know I relate to this. And I'm guilty of this of my own causing. Own up on your shit. It's reality. Be someone and not a fake.
Yeah I got honesty u friggin cliche . I face life at face value. Money isn't my goal . My goal is to not deal with liars ,to not be afraid to meet my maker when I go to bed. I did that. Broke up with my best friend of 10 years. He screams ,belittles,don't make a lot of money (oh I have atrial tachycardia and need a pacemaker). Yet I try to do what I can . Now I'm done. I stayed to long because I wasn't always good to people but man he tops evil snarkiness.. I'm sick right now I need him. He screamed never showed up and made a decision that I will never forgive. If u aint my ride or die get out way I'm to good to put up with mediocre men. Whatever happened to him it killed everything of the man that I was fighting for. He's used up leftovers now. Have fun with my used toy he's yours now. I like my vibrator better anyway. L
I listened to this song 10x and always thought of my girl because she hurt me by her own decisions and i almost sent it to her until i realized this song is about myself and i hurt myself by allowing her to do that. Know your worth you guys and know that you cant love without knowing pain.
Yes! I've been fighting my own inner demons, toxicity and self worth. Not sure why I cant put boundaries up, respect and love myself but 1st step is acknowledgement. I have faith we both will get there one day. Cutting ties with people that consistently hurt you isnt enough, You must also cut ties with the Verizon of you that allowed that shit to continue for as long as it did. Good luck, Remember life is a journey with so many different adventures along the way; many of them we are meant to explore & experience alone.
My Grandoa use to say the hardest walk is the one you musr walk alone,But it's the walk that make you the STRONGEST!
I have inner demon and I been fighting everyday
@Tanna Stephen yes! I love quota, reddit, pinterest and I also found a speaker on here that I also enjoy. I got to find his name. Hes awesome
@Tanna Stephen th-cam.com/video/XnGksmS2208/w-d-xo.html
WOW... Your words hit more like lightening in my heart and soul.... Thank you for expressing what I've been trying to say through this heart wrenching heart break!!!!!! Good bless you 💜💜💜💜
Why isn’t Ivan B more famous then this?
Honestly, he deserves so much more then what he got now. 🥺
Truthfully he's better off.. you should look into what the music industry is actually about.. they wreck people.
Trust he will!!! That's all
100% Agreed
Time
I totally support this music it helps a lot
I'm from Delta Nigeria,Mr ivan b is a good guy, live long and enjoy your money
Found this song by mistake but sitting here just got me ponding on my life every word is so full of truth praise God
This is a really good song 🎵 by him he's spitting the truth...... A lot of people go through different stuff differently in their lives so.... Just be honest....!!!!!!
I feel bad for what I put my family in..I am really sorry and willing to fix every thing.but I do drug and that's what really causing the problem but why I do that?because I'm young and I think that it will help me with my sadness in life..cause I once feeling bad for loving someone...and when I do drunk its i can see now that what's i put my family into.and in me..i dont know what to do to fix it.i really love my family and they always there for me..I am not grateful for it..and I'm sorry for da.i wish my family will forgive me and give me a chance..to rebuilt..I love all my fam..and I mean it..I'm will to do anything to fix what I broke
@@pakut8580 never give up, never surrender. U gotta keep fighting for what u love and if it's for family, that's the way to be! U can do this, I'm a year sober from the same life, drunk driving I rolled my car 7 times front bumper to back bumper n spun out twice, came out of it without a scratch. My mom passed away 8 years ago n she protected me n in that moment I decided this life ain't for me. I quit cold turkey drinking, smoking, all of it. I'm not the same person I was a year ago but that's the point and never forget where u came from n dont be afraid of urself cuz a part of u will actually die so stay strong n blossom into that butterfly
I'd like to see an Ivan B and NF collab.
Facts🙏🏽💯💯💯
Ivan b and NF with bmike would be fucking dope
@@pokemeanddie8413 literally just thought the exact same thing what a dream team of real thinkers and real speakers
@@samuelsantiago3556 you wouldn't know who's who lol their voices sound the same,just like Tay k and comethazine their voices sound very much the same in that collab you wouldn't know who's who either.
Idkanymore they may sound alike and rap about similar things but they aren't totally idetical plus both have different rap styles also
Ivan B I relate to every one of your songs. Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone through your music.
The beginning of this song hit me so hard so hard 😭
Me to
You don’t gotta hurt, but you gotta let it heal!🙌🏼🙌🏼
Tori Thompson true true.
Amen
Real.
That song is amazing!!! It touched my ❤!! I love it!!
This song. It has meaning and beauty. Pain and value. I relate alot
To the artist: Dont apologize for bein honest, im like "finally"! The harsh truth i needed to hear. Its real, Sad that the truth i wish others would show/tell me in times of struggle is comin from the lyrics of a song, someone i dont even kno. Thank you for the truth ❤
This one hit me so hard,straight to the heart 😓
Its acutely true..and it will help cause its mu life
@@pakut8580 i feel ya, but these people make these songs and sometimes i wish i could just know if they truly feel the way we do, the lies were told, and the repationship fucked up family and not knowing yourself issues.
@@amandafinnerty9153 of course they do. You can't fake or make up that depth of emotion ypu have to feel it to describe it so perfectly. They are people just like us of course they feel what we do.
When i come with ivan songs i feel like, this is the thing i must listen, he is lit
I'm blessed cause like these people makes us the feel we live and it felts so much better you can't imagined ❤️
Ithink
It is good BUT I am in the mood for some easy rock!.
Been saying this for years, finally great to hear outta another, blessings to you and yours. ☯️
I honestly love this guy.
Kate King me too, him and Nate Feuerstein
Matthew Russian I love NF
I do too , and this songs so deep. Gives me tears that womt fall. No answers but the noise and laughter.
2020 still 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
This is the best song I've ever heard it's like your explaining my life in a song and all of what you say is exactly what's happening in my life and what you say is actually so true that I feel like I should be good I should actually live better and I should actually try my hardest I know the songs not for me but I'll say thank you to you for making this song because ever sense I've heard it it has really helped and I'm so thankful I don't know what else to say but thank you you've really helped me want to live again and helped me so much thank you,
Amazing since day one who agrees
This song is how my life is now and after listening to this I realize I need to stop hurting myself over thinking she'll ever change
hits hard man
Its true. But maybe its not just me or the gurl. Maybe they both need to need eachothers love and happiness and affection for eachother more ya know.
The one That Truly loves you im going through the same thing
I would just tell him be 100% honest I mean what do you have to lose if he says no you're just being the same position you are in now but this time it will be easier and you will have a clearer mind set..
Some of the realist shit ive heard💯 I hope everything works out for you bro. Much love.
This is powerful. Trying to trigger you to wake up. Forgive me for my honesty. I am the one person in the Universe that is not afraid to tell you the truth. Why? Cuz I am you.
You ask how did I get here? What did you choose??
I felt that 💯
Hmm
Damn this hit home!!!! Amazing talent. Blessings to all
I close my eyes and hear my son saying these things. I feel his heart sing... My natural born King. Tho my hearts been ripped apart, Ive loved u from the start, and even in the dark, your the only man who will ever have my heart. It's taken a lifetime tryna find the light, hidin in the night, lyin, sayin ya maybe, I might...but I promise u.... This time ima fight, ima hold on tight, to never lose sight cuz this time son...ima get it right. 🖤
Ivan b forgive me for my honesty helped me when I was at my lowest. Don't ever stop what you're doing.
Danm this song hits me good. It reminds me what im going through with my mom. I really injoy listening to it
Thank you for this I reflected on myself and I needed this
This song is what's helping me get through a really hard time in my life idk what I would do if I didn't hear this song.I started standing up for myself more
He's actually talking about himself while looking in the mirror
....
@Tu Papi 😂😂😂 FACTS BRO
That's what I thought when I listened to it. I thought this song was directed towards himself
@@secondthoughtsmusic5419 it is lol
“You’re perfect with imperfections I wish I had the answers, Ivan But I’m only your reflection” yep he is!
This actually a masterpiece holy shit
Personalizing it....its absolutely twin FLAME speaking to twin FLAME. WOOOO!!!
🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯🙏🙏🙏🙏 another god one
To my husband this song is for him!! Its sad but this song is ALL HIM! MY LOVE WAS AND IS UNCONDITIONAL BUT HE BELIEVES HIS OWN LIES! LET DOWN YOUR GARD AND ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE LOVED!! GOODBYE MY LOVE
What a great song. I can truly relate. Thank you 💯🏵️💢🌺
I remember this conversation.
Needed to hear this thanks Ivan :)
Would love you to do a song on getting away from toxic people no matter who they are. Family or friends. Thank you.
Ok
im so glad i clicked on this video
I love you, whoever hurt you. for you to write this song, I love you.
Thus is about himself
The song is to himself. listen closer. its Ivan talking to Ivan
At first I thought he was talking about bmike lol
Hurt my self
I hurt my self and them
For those who lied now live honestly. Walk love Pray Help others. 😇
U r the great rapper....
I love n like ur song n you...soo much..
I thank you for this song
Now I know
To my Ivan.. If you come across this.. Just know. You are loved. All that ive seen in you is real. It's not something i think you should change to become. Im not crazy. I see you! I see you! You're an amazing man. You're NOT your past. Your my love. My min rustning. We are SI. And we will always be. I hope to always remain your friend and your lover. But, if things push us apart. Just know. You'll always have a huge portion of my heart. ❤
Love this song ❤️ so real 💯💯💯
Reality finally hit me this song relates to me so much thank you for this song friend :/
Hell ya man I love the lyrics on your song it’s brings so much memories god bless spread the love ❤️
I'm legit crying rn 😭😭😭
Was thinking of my cuz that passed and come up on this song it's like he wonted me to hear it ty so much
All starts within love reminds me of who I was around when I was younger. We are all accountable including myself. No I had to say goodbye. Light leads the way. so many are codependant and seek to others to fulfill them when healing and love acceptance confidence empathy for others and stability and balance in your life all starts within. Anyone real out there anymore
Words I need to say to the man I loved but he loved meth more. Went to rehab, made promises, planned our future but it wasn't enough 😭😢
FELICIA JACOBS I’m sure he loved u more than meth is just addiction is hard and will get the best of anyone if u love ❤️ him stay and fight let him know that u r there to help and to fight the addiction with him
@@Bsfnelz20 thank you for your kind words. I did stay and fight for a whole year. We split up and got together so many times and I fought this battle till it broke me and ultimately it broke us too. I pray for him and cry for him everyday. It's been about a year now since we last spoke. I miss him.
FELICIA JACOBS wow sorry to hear that he might be clean now find out and try to make it work missing someone u love ❤️ sucks and hurts it all works out for the best at the end it has to
U r beautiful he will come around
@Jordyn Miller sorry for your pain. I hope it all works for you. I am slowly starting to love myself and not blame myself for not being good enough for him but realizing that HE was the one who was not good enough for me.
First time that I heard this was with my best bro, and I sat there so smug wondering if he was even listening, or maybe even possibly could have been reflecting on the lyrics for things that had happened...and then I kept listening....and I inevitably realized how egotistical and judgemental I was being....literally two of the biggest things I had vowed never to become,.so it was time to take a step back and reasses my mind
Needed this 9 yrs 9 mos... G.O.N.E💔🔓💯💪😩
I wish my brother would have caught the hint when I sent him the link to this song
:(
He caught it just to much of the ego n shame
@@Alicesux13 facts. He's probably fronting
Great song. And by no means do I mean to detract from your lyrics, But to answer a question of what is love without loss... it's just love, plain and simple the way I believe it was intended to be. The answer to all questions, even tho unasked, is love. And I give mine to any who will carry it with them today and any day after.
Yeah..... I love this song it's really meant to me about my Brother who is addicted to drugs... But you know what I've always there for him until the day he past away
Yhuu no Ivan I don't forgive u😭 so much truth in this song! God it hit me sooo hard!!
Love this song ❤️❤️
i just want to say thank u for ur inspiring lyrics the way u worded everything i needed answers and honestly i got them but i thank u for helping me in way thru ur beautiful art like to be honest i allmost offed my self today cuz i was confused aboyt life and tierd of hurting and feeling this pain but idk somthing about ur music made me want to push on and live my life that im not the only one who felt the feelings i feel (fuck the pain love it will never be enough)but thank u ivan for just basicly saying what i needed to hear
To say what you want to do I act like I don't care cause came off so I was trying to forget
I'm sorry
And I dont know what to thx u
this makes me think...God help me
God got you.never forget that
Monica Masters god helped me
You got this
love life live for what you love be wherever you need to be for the one that needs you most ❤️
Please surrender my beauty im right here and willing to show you what ive always ment n said baby 🙏💕🌹💕🙏 im here still waiting
I say a lot of words and you hear nothing but silence? Did you hear me crying, screaming in pain for the loss of life that was lost. My words you never really heard. You should.
God bless him for the straight facts that he is gifted with💪
He speaks of myself n think mass whole of us too
That's a strong message. I felt that in my heart
The words🔥🔥🔥
Its been a long time since a song gave me goose bumps
I cry alot when I listen to a song that its relate
I don't really know what else I can say or even try to say anymore, I do more and more onto everything I ever thought I could and it still isn't enough to make you smile, what does it take to do it and let you know that no matter how broken either of us are I'll always be here with and for you I just really need you to tell me what you need because I don't read minds and I don't know and I'm fine are wearing tired when I know your not and you know too
I found this song at the perfect time 💕
What is there to believe in? I have values and I didn't chose anything but love and honesty. But like your self singing this song no love or honesty. I hear nothing but lies.
I'm so feeling this song right now
Salina Nichole name song?
Salina Nichole is it on spotify
I had to pause my life so that I can listen to this song properly....from the first second, I felt like he's talking to me
Really love this song so much hits me right in my deepest heart and soul
Thx u
Wish I knew if he wrote this for himself, or what exactly. Listened to it at least 8 times now. Lyrics are spot on.
Excellent!!!
Real & Honest shit. Thank you. Not many actually have something to say nowadays. Appreciate ya.
Wow, these lyrics really hit😭
Id like to see ivan b and tom mcdonald collab would be 🔥
I really like this so much came up for a reason
Was looking for my comment thought it was gone but lot further down. Deep song and I cant say anymore to anyone. good luck everyone hope u find the light within. 🙏
I love ur song kids. I love all ur songs actually. But I just heard kids & honest w u. Great lyrics
Damn this is too real. This is ME...
Thnk you so much
This is brilliant
This true
effort is between you and you. the life you want is up to you
It's all about family and love once
True
Love this song i chill an blaze an deep thought i relate to this ❤️💯
Crazy that this almost comes off like he is coming at NF, just some of the lines he said, Super glad that's not what this is.
What if the writer is the same and only used the name Ivan so NF couldn't steal it? Lol Just know they are one in the same
@@travisdipple9669 they don't look too much alike LOL, I know what you meant.
This song hit me on a different level geez
It's self reflection plug 😭😂🤣
ivan b and sik world seems like a good colab
Ain't even going to lie this hit me hard right now. I dont know anymore!!
Most ppl need to understand this. Too busy spreding themselves around. How can you settle for some great, while spreading your legs for something right now? Even dudes, you cant bother with social media and outside sources. It's part of agenda you have no control over. So dont be apart of the sheep, be different, and know what you want. Hopefully, your partner will be the same, otherwise move on. Find him/her. Lifes too short to settle for heartache and drama.
Preach it! Honestly tho, I just kinda sang this in my head NF/Ivan B style... this is really good! Did u mean for it to be like that?
Can i contact you please
Yes
God bless you man
😔i loved this one girl but when we was dating she went to go talk to her ex😔😔, that’s when our problems started because every since she started talking to him, she wanted to be friends and shii, I’m always drinking my pain away I stress a lot. I can do anything with out her dawg 😭😭😭😭
Song says alot. Comes to a point where sometimes both sides need to realize.
2024, i'm 18 now and holy shit my mental felt this
It's funny I was one of the ones to start this genre of music. I think o was ahead of the times. But this guy is great like nf, witt lowry,ollie. My channel still has some of my old music on it same genre
Amazing song. First time hearing
Nope
@@pakut8580 stfu
I love it!!!!
Funny how people think this is about another when it's meant for you. It speaks of themselves. Not another. And if the song is about honesty. Then damn allot of people need to change themselves. I know I relate to this. And I'm guilty of this of my own causing. Own up on your shit. It's reality. Be someone and not a fake.
This explains me
Yeah I got honesty u friggin cliche . I face life at face value. Money isn't my goal . My goal is to not deal with liars ,to not be afraid to meet my maker when I go to bed. I did that. Broke up with my best friend of 10 years. He screams ,belittles,don't make a lot of money (oh I have atrial tachycardia and need a pacemaker). Yet I try to do what I can . Now I'm done. I stayed to long because I wasn't always good to people but man he tops evil snarkiness.. I'm sick right now I need him. He screamed never showed up and made a decision that I will never forgive. If u aint my ride or die get out way I'm to good to put up with mediocre men. Whatever happened to him it killed everything of the man that I was fighting for. He's used up leftovers now. Have fun with my used toy he's yours now. I like my vibrator better anyway. L