I don’t think her parents failed her.. this is coming from someone whose parents did. She had a support system and solid family unit.. she just wasn’t self-aware enough to utilize them. Maybe I’m biased
@@user-lg3rx2ko5gI agree! I was a supportive and involved parent to my daughter and she still found a way to lie and hide things from me. She only told me years later as an adult and traumatized me with scenarios she could have easily been dead.
I can relate about that I had bad show of a childhood, it still is hard to see the good in people and its easier to see the malevolent in people when you go through this
One of the attacker's father being an ex officer probably has much to do with that. They can sweep things under the rug easily if they have even a little bit of power.
@@timmy-oranguta no it's probably because they were minors and they don't tend to prosecute children to the fullest. And don't be so naive to think a father cop had no influence. You don't think this girl has been through enough? You had to insert your idiocy? Others might not clock you, but I most certainly fucking will. Shut your mouth.
When she said "I just committed social s*icide" all I could think was nah that teacher committed social homicide on you. I literally gasped. Teachers can really make or break you.
I had a teacher in the first grade who treated me this exact way. She made kids bully me. Thankfully, when I get to middle school I got a good group of friends who happened to be “cool” (and extremely kind) and I had a great high school career. But that teacher literally ruined my elementary school memories.
@@ArtWithWickidIf you’ve never had triggers you don’t realize that sensoring that word does nothing to change the trigger that could happen when someone reads a comment or watched a video. Unaliving or whatever else you people think should be used, is literally a joke. There is no difference in the brains response to any alternative verses the actual word
I haven't even finished this episode but that teacher's behaviour is beyond cruel. I don't understand how someone could ever say that to a child. Shame on her.
some teachers are very cruel. I lost my virginity to rape when I was 16, went to school the next day completely sobbing. I confess to my female teacher and she told me I wasn’t raped and that I needed to get over it.
@@Alexandra-ng1ihI’m so sorry this happened to you. Just know that isn’t true and your experience was valid. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet but you deserve to know your feelings are validated. I never comment often but I hope this comment can bring you some sort of solace. Stay strong and be kind to yourself ❤
one of the best episodes in a while. She’s a great speaker, very detailed very matter of fact a little funny. Didn’t deserve any of what happened to her
She is absolutely lovely - a trustworthy person (they are fewer than you think). For me, betrayal by someone who is "a friend" is the most terrible and disgusting behaviour. She would be a wonderful friend.
i hate the word “bullying”. it’s ABUSE. it doesn’t magically become something different just because it’s inflicted by children, onto other children. it must be taken very seriously.
This just screams to me another case of people bullying a neurodivergent child because something about her makes them uncomfortable. Deeply evil-I am so proud of you, girly, for coming out on the other side of this well-adjusted and kind.
well said! too many neurodivergent children who don't have the skills to distinguish between evil and well-intentioned people... thank for this channel that gives these individuals a chance to express themselves fully and to tell their story
I literally got chills because I have ADHD and used to take riding lessons (11-14). I almost got into jumping and dressage; it was expensive gear and I had to save for university. I was pretty severely bullied in the end of elementary school to the point where I had to actually 'scare' my bully enough into knowing I can defend myself. She was a former friend and had a shitty home life.
I fully disagree, the teacher saw that she was slower and saw her out to make her a victim. Only has anything to do with people being uncomfortable and has everything to do with people clawing for power wherever they can get it.
it's not talked about enough how some teachers literally BULLY STUDENTS. I have dealt with this too and it fucking amazes me how a grown ass adult with a college degree gets off on feeling superior to actual CHILDREN. Putting down CHILDREN. it is sick.
I went through a very similar thing with a teacher and so many people I’ve met have similar stories and it’s all at around the same time in middle school and its always so detrimental to the student
I went through something similar also, but it wasn’t a teacher; it was our school’s dance team coach and she thought it would be funny to haze all the newbies my freshman year. Adults who bully children are nothing but scummy cowards
@@sophieschaefer01 mine was middle school too. Wtf is up with this? Are these teachers just so sad and pathetic the only way to feel good about themselves is to bully a preteen? WILD
This is so true. A teacher bullied me constantly to the point of tears in my sophomore year, the entire class would laugh since he was the "cool teacher", he made me hate school so much and made it miserable for me. I will never forget it, Mr. Wynn.
Went through this with my first grade teacher. It’s an awful feeling knowing that an adult just hates you and you don’t even know why. Nothing you say or do is right and all you want to do is make them happy. This lady had the audacity to tell my mom that I wasn’t ever going to amount to anything because I was having trouble learning to read. Found out the next year that I was dyslexic because I had a super amazing teacher that sat with me after school. He had experience with teaching kids with special needs, and was really kind and patient. I was reading at a post college level by fifth grade.
@3:09 when she goes on to say how she was manipulated by adults telling her “don’t tell your parents anything” literally made me go to my little one and tell her that if anyone tells you to keep a secret from your mom than it’s probably to keep them out of trouble for doing or saying something they know they aren’t supposed to. 😮💨 I really try to stress the importance of honesty and do my best to make it so if my kids have an issue they feel safe and comfortable enough to talk to me about it. Ugh the world is terrifying as a parent…
You’re doing a great job , my father was very raw and honest about how people hurt children and told me and my sisters to tell .. which sadly I did tell my mom and she punished me.. I’m 37 now with my own kids and I see how that sounded me for life , I’m not trying to b a victim , it happened so long ago but I guess I never felt safe telling my mom. Anything again, nor b truthful , i automatically lied about a lot because I thought I’d b punished .. I tell my kids to plz b honest sometimes they’ll get in trouble but I will always believe them !
This made me tear up because its so messed up, but you're doing the right thing it's so easy to keep kids quiet by blaming them and saying they will get in trouble, unfortunately these conversations are needed. There's too many people that really really stuck and I don't understand why.
I’m dealing with something similar with my stepson. His mom only has supervised visitations bc of drug abuse and she has been telling our stepson to lie to me and his father bc he has not been being supervised by the individuals who were court ordered to supervise the mother. It is so damaging to children when they are told to hide things from their parents
My mom always made sure I had a space with her to talk about everything judgement free, and when the time came, I was able to talk to her about the things that I needed to. It makes the difference ❤
@@molasses3850i completely agree, i’m now 18 as a senior and i don’t remember middle school years up until last year, even those are starting to block out
@@barbrothers2Jfc, you people are just the worst.🙄 You said *nothing* here. You thought you did, but you didn’t. She remembers an incredible amount of detail about everything that happened to her over a long, extremely traumatic period of time. Obviously no one can remember absolutely everything about every moment in their life over a period of many years, especially when there’s so much trauma. But you know that, you know what OP was saying, and you’re actively choosing to be a jerk, *just to be one.* Who do you relate most to in this story, huh? Total mystery.😳
@@timmy-orangutaI think we found the “best friend” 😂 that or you’re an edgelord who thinks it’s ok to troll by discrediting victims. Loser behavior either way lol
@@iweedumout9311I think it tends to affect you worse the younger you are. That being said the best outcome is if you get support early, whatever form you can access including mental health support.
in a way it hurts forever because it’s your organism trying to protect you from it happening again by remembering it, but it will get better and lighter, especially when you find an environment where you feel safe and wanted
Being a little different can make you so empathetic to where you trust the wrong people and accept terrible treatment. This is tragic, I’m glad she survived.
Such a true statement. It can be so dangerous. It’s incredibly sad how being different can be so isolating which leads to a yearning for connection and it almost always comes from the wrong places.
This goes way beyond bullying and to say that it’s just bullying is very much white washing it. This is calculated attempted murder and i cannot believe those people are walking free after doing this
The part where the teacher asked if she had a disability in front of the whole class happened to me too. My mother wouldn’t stop until she was fired and also made her apologize to me in front of the whole class. Wish she got the same justice 😢
My 3 grade teacher was fired because she singled me out about my religion and used it as a reason to mistreat and humiliate me in front of the class all the time
17:29 how hard would it have been to pull this girl aside. Or make a mental note that “okay, we need to help her work on Geography”. That teacher is sick.
This did not happen. There were 25 other kids in our classroom. Not a single one remembers that and yet we’re all bullying her for it? She’s been telling this story forever with all of us begging her to stop victimizing herself. She didn’t have friends in school because she lied about EVERYTHING! You couldn’t trust a word she said
@@annie45108 and who are you??? What incentive does she have to lie on this pod? She’s not getting anything out of this. Not money, not fame, maybe an ounce of attention but that’s about it. So now some faceless TH-cam comment is supposed to make me think this is all made up? Bullying is real, happens all the time to innocent people. Not that hard of a concept to grasp
There is zero chance you and 25 kids huddled together to see if you remembered. Also, this was a major trauma in HER life. YOU don’t need to remember because it was a drop in the ocean in your life.
I got teary listening to this story. It’s hard to believe someone would hurt another so badly. So many people turned their backs on you which added to the trauma. I can’t believe adults would bully a child and not listen when you needed help. You told this story so well and I’m happy you’re taking the power back. I hope these criminals get what they deserve for doing something so heinous
Its more common than you think. I had someone literally confess to police that she tried to poison me on purpose, and openly admitted it was because im trans. Police ignored it and havent done anything
So that’s where i’ve heard this!!! As soon as she got to the part where she said she heard the mom says “She’s not dying in this house” I was so confused because I thought I was totally sure id heard that before!
“When people were laughing at me I kind of just appreciated the fact that they were laughing at all” is probably the most selfless thing I’ve ever heard..but also one of the saddest things. I’m so sorry
She seriously needs to put out the best friends name for every other girl in Connecticut who could possibly encounter that sick individual. I hope to for she will get justice against them one day everyone who did all of the to her I am so sorry Lexi you are so strong
@@danipants8608 That is absolutely not how defamation works. If it is true, you are not "defaming" someone. In order for a defamation case to actually be won in favor of the person being "defamed" it needs to be proven that the person was knowingly spreading misinformation about them.
@localdez3230 They could still take you to court and then it's a fight to prove it happened... She's better off concealing their names for her civil lawsuit because then it will likely come out after.
It’s so hard to fathom that a girl from a good home with parents who loved her was experiencing this and it wasn’t detected and stopped. Such a long parade of failures of teachers, police……. It’s inexcusable.
At 1 hour 30 minutes in when she was discussing the medical staff telling her about what they were doing to her made me tear up. My mother was in a coma in the hospital and even when they were taking her off life support at the end of her life the nurses and doctors still told her everything they were doing. Medical staff are incredible
Sometimes life is so pointedly cruel. I cant believe that the boy you reached out to turned out to be such a monster. To think you caught a break just for him to be a wolf in sheeps clothing. Im so sorry you experienced this.
I just wanna say thank you to the host for letting her speak her truth without interrupting and asking good questions. You treated this story and Lex with the respect deserved and it made this so much better to watch knowing that the guest felt comfortable and listened to as she was talking.
People always accuse neurodivergents of lying because of how we talk, our body language, etc. they just feel something is “off” and automatically attribute it to we are lying. It’s so frustrating! I believe her! People really can be that evil…
Totally agree with you!! We desperately need a society where it’s normal to know about neurodivergency, people doesn’t realize how much neurodivergent people there are in the world!! I am autistic and have adhd, I went through a similar childhood than Lexi, I wish people understood me better.
This is a great example of why it is ALWAYS important to carry Narcan, if you can. Whether you're in a "bad neighborhood" or not. It can save someone's life! I have saved someone's life with Narcan before. It doesn't matter who it is, they don't deserve to die. I'm so happy this girl is alive, this story is terrifying and she was failed by so many people.
I have a huge box full of packs and each pack has 2 nose spray doses of narcan I carry it with me EVERYWHERE and have been able to save at least 15 lives because of that practice thank God!
41 minutes in and i'm just flabbergasted at how wild this is. "it keeps fucking happening" sums everything up perfectly. Girl i am so fucking sorry all of this went on in your life.
lexi you are so brave and strong. keep refusing to let anything or anyone hold you down! i’m so proud of you and can’t wait to keep cheering you on forever 💗
44:10 THIS GUY NEEDS TO BE IN PRISON FOR LIFE BRO + the insane horse trainer lady as well for randomly advocating for the pedophile and calling her “mature enough” to be subjected to his abuse???
Please, Alexa never ever think you "should have known better" or that it was in any way your fault for ending up in these situations!! Lot's of love, you are very brave and strong!
This was such a good episode! - As young women at such a vulnerable, young age I don’t think we understand what we are being exposed to and that some of our “ friends “ aren’t really our friends. It irritates me that other girl never got what she had coming to her! She needs to be in prison for what she did. Listening to this story it really reminds me of the Rena Virk case. I’m so sorry that she had to experience this and endured this type of pain, abuse, betrayal, manipulation. Nobody deserves that. I’m glad that she was able to empower herself and truly tell her story because she is a survivor!
It's so crazy that a child can be so incredibly evil. I mean now he's an adult I can't imagine how terrible he is now... I hope he's either in jail or a changed man😰
This girl cannot get a break god damn. As the video kept going my jaw dropped more and more. Alexa, you’re so strong. It’s incredible how resilient you are ❤
I am so happy she’s in a better place now it seems. This story hit me hard, I also had a really bad friend group that their intentions were not the same as mine and it ended really messing me up very badly. Nowhere near this extent however, but the manipulation and the drug usage was hard to escape. I wish her the best for real, she didn’t deserve this, especially with her first love/friend groups. I also admire that her mom did what she could to protect her 🩶
I just stumbled upon this page and I love it so much. This host is incredible at letting these women speak and tell their stories and it's just beautiful. I love to see women being validated. It really helps us heal
Having been resuscitated after an accident and feeling my body die it is EXACTLY how she described it. The toes, the acceptance of it, the auditory experience. Incredibly chilling hearing someone experience the same.
Alexa was failed by everyone in her life, teachers, friends, everyone outside her family who was supposed to love her or protect her, and it was such a miracle that her strength prevailed
The amount of work this woman has done to heal and be able to talk about her trauma in this way is admirable. You can tell she has put in the workkkk wow
i’ve seen her on tik tok before and was so interested in her story! but at that time she only had a few posts with minimal likes and i completely forgot about her, im so happy to see her on this platform sharing her story with a broader audience. she’s an amazing woman.
Adults forget what kids are capable of. You may not think a 14/15 year old boy can kill and rape, but they can. I was in a physically abusive relationship around that age too, which culminated in a sexual assault. It is such a horror to have your sexual debut be forced upon you. It's a horror at any time or age, but there's something particularly grim about a violent introduction with nothing loving or caring to compare it to.
the way she speaks reminds me so much of my younger years in school... turns out the reason i was so awkward was that im autistic in actuality. all of my "friends" bullied me behind my back. i struggled to talk to people and would observe/collect notes before i went up to them.
I can’t relate to the entire story, but there are so many pieces that mirror my own experience. I have ALWAYS minimised it in my mind but hearing this come out of someone else’s mouth has opened my eyes to a lot. Thank you for being brave enough to speak your truth, you didn’t deserve any of what happened to you. You are so incredibly inspiring, I’m glad you’re still here with us to share this. It certainly helped me and I know it will help others 🤍
it's hard to believe because it's not true. Your instinct which is telling you that "there's no way that someone that young living in suburban Connecticut is going through all of these things within the span of 2 years, and then has every single adult in her life from teachers, to horse instructors, to parents, to police, to doctors, etc. all not only failed her but were comically EVIL in their response, is frankly UNBELIEVABLE", is doing so for a reason.
@@dieselbaby right? As an abuse survivor myself and also a healthcare worker (who sees an IMMENSE amount of various drug use as well), something about her story just feels so off. I do believe this girl has issues and was probably bullied and ostracized, but I just don’t believe these events unfolded as told by her.
@@Dvgteethnot beyond evil we just don’t believe everything online. I think u should take some advice and do the same . I don’t think she got attacked I think she got drugged and then convicted herself they were trying to kill her. She says she broke her phone later then goes on about how she called her mom. That makes no sense. She also claimed to have heard her bsf apologize to the guys about how she was acting. Why would she apologize to them about how she was acting unless she was just having a bad trip. Also said something about a doctor saying she will get addicted . U don’t get addicted off of one hit of something. So that’s not true . The way she explained how her friend was telling the people near by she had mental problems was I think so they wouldn’t get in trouble for giving her drugs . If they wanted to kill her they wouldn’t have let her out of their site. Not only that nobody was charged for anything ?? And why would she lie to the cops about what happened to her and why was the suspect allowed in the hospital room with her. Doesn’t work that way ever sorry.
this breaks my heart.. such a sweet girl. i’m so sorry any of that even happened to her. shame on all the adults in her life that failed her over and over again.
when she started talking about lock down I though she ment quarantine in 2020 and I was so confused when she said that kids had flip phones back then lmao
love this speaker. she talks fast, but enunciates super well and goes on some tangents but always ties them back to the main story. i am completely enraptured, and horrified at what she experienced for so many years. great guest, i wish her the best moving forward!!
That teacher had no business being a teacher! I’m so sorry, Lexi! But you are so incredible, the way you tell your story says so much about your kindness, courage, and resilience. Thank you for sharing it with us ❤️
So many predatory things happened to me growing up, until I hit 23 then suddenly I was no longer naive or vulnerable, so predatory people went away. I can relate to so much of this. When you finally realize what happened to you it hits hard.
The horse industry is so wild, there is alot of good but also alot of bad. I can't stand the people that are in it for the money and just winning. I'm so glad I learned from good horse people and got my own horse where I was able to do whatever I wanted for fun. Doing open horse shows purely for fun is so much better imo than trying to get into the high competition shows.
The horse industry? That's the point u got from this story? Not attempted murder? Wow, Lord please help those that cannot see what's right n front of their eyes
The amount of comments on the bullying is WILD considering your story of almost being offed. All thoughts prayers, and respect go out to you!! Truly hope and pray for more healing and justice!
EVERY SINGLE ADULT AUTHORITATIVE FIGURE IN HER LIFE HAD FAILED HER. This girl had a terrible life growing up. So sorry everyone failed you, Alexa. This is heart wrenching.
I have so much to say about this episode , but above all , can everyone just leave this girl alone ?! Thank you for sharing your story And happy you are doing better Lexi
As a horse trainer and riding instructor, it makes me so sad to hear how mistreated she was by the industry and the people who should have been not only helping her achieve her dreams, but watching out for her and her wellbeing. It breaks my heart to imagine any of this happening to any of my students.
This isn't a horse trainer or riding instructor story. This is a story of attempted murder. Please use restraint when trying 2 "relate" to another individual, when it doesn't in fact have anything to do with u, smh
As a teacher, this story is horrifying. Not only the teacher bullying and abusing her...but also *noone* reacting when she was telling them about the threats and everything. In every school I´ve worked, even a student sitting in/at the principal office every day would be raising alarm bells and action immediately.
This whole thing is so messed up. Im so happy you are here with us today to tell your story ❤️ I hope the other people get what they deserve, and rot in jail
Alexa was still legally a child. Her parents failed her incredibly by not bringing all of this to the police, despite her protest, I'm sorry. If not just for Alexa, for those people's future victims. Truly terrible parenting. A 15/16 year old does not always know what's in their best interests. The perpetrators could still be abusing people to this day.
This is so crazy. Social media has really jacked up so many generations. When I was 14 we went to the movies or the mall on the weekends. We didn't have this level of crazy. We definitely were not in sexually active and abusive relationships. I truly feel for this poor girl. Absolute insanity.
I’m sorry but her parents failed her too. The things she went trough, the people she got herself involved in… How can you not know? The mental and sexual abuse by multiple people, no safety net, no one to tell her that’s she’s worth more. She deserved more. Every adult in her life failed her, but her parents the most if you ask me.
I wish I could be this girl's friend, and would have been back then so I could have protected her. This shit is insane and preventable if people around her had an ounce of empathy.
“I didn’t know I was allowed to be traumatized about this” is the most real thing I’ve ever heard
Absolutely! It certainly hit home
Right?!!
Definitely, and i thought my middle school years were rough. Wow
"I didn't know this was a cottage industry"
Time and time again the adults in her life have failed to look out for her. Really it's remarkable how well spoken and mentally healthy she seems now
I don’t think her parents failed her.. this is coming from someone whose parents did. She had a support system and solid family unit.. she just wasn’t self-aware enough to utilize them. Maybe I’m biased
@@user-lg3rx2ko5gI agree! I was a supportive and involved parent to my daughter and she still found a way to lie and hide things from me. She only told me years later as an adult and traumatized me with scenarios she could have easily been dead.
@@user-lg3rx2ko5g i think they were referring to the teachers/the mother of the guy who helped kill her
I can relate about that I had bad show of a childhood, it still is hard to see the good in people and its easier to see the malevolent in people when you go through this
Where was her mom through this whole thing. So sad!!!
Young people - TELL YOUR PARENTS when scary or dramatic things are happening to you. We understand. We were teenagers too. We want to help.
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True but even if they don't understand, at least you have done the right thing and tried, so will not live with regret.
My kid ain't even going outside thanks to this video
At the same time, it’s clear that parents need to be the initiators of those conversations. Parents need to be involved in their children’s lives.
Nah. Parents - ASK YOUR KIDS.
the fact that the people who did this to her are not in jail is so sad
One of the attacker's father being an ex officer probably has much to do with that. They can sweep things under the rug easily if they have even a little bit of power.
@@timmy-oranguta no it's probably because they were minors and they don't tend to prosecute children to the fullest. And don't be so naive to think a father cop had no influence. You don't think this girl has been through enough? You had to insert your idiocy? Others might not clock you, but I most certainly fucking will. Shut your mouth.
@@timmy-orangutawhy are you so obsessed?
@@Wesjag03maybe it’s someone relevant to the story still pissed 🫠
@@Wesjag03my guess is this person had something to do with it.
When she said "I just committed social s*icide" all I could think was nah that teacher committed social homicide on you. I literally gasped. Teachers can really make or break you.
I had a teacher in the first grade who treated me this exact way. She made kids bully me. Thankfully, when I get to middle school I got a good group of friends who happened to be “cool” (and extremely kind) and I had a great high school career. But that teacher literally ruined my elementary school memories.
@@ArtWithWickid it's sensored so TH-cam doesn't flag it as inappropriate and take the video down. Just saying.
@ thank you ☺️
@@ArtWithWickidIf you’ve never had triggers you don’t realize that sensoring that word does nothing to change the trigger that could happen when someone reads a comment or watched a video. Unaliving or whatever else you people think should be used, is literally a joke. There is no difference in the brains response to any alternative verses the actual word
@@beachgirl2.193 you are entitled to your opinion! I am not going to argue what I went and did not want through🙇🏻♀️
I haven't even finished this episode but that teacher's behaviour is beyond cruel. I don't understand how someone could ever say that to a child. Shame on her.
Yeah some teachers are just bullies themselves. I wasn't ever really bullied by kids but I got bullied by my 8th grade teacher.
some teachers are very cruel. I lost my virginity to rape when I was 16, went to school the next day completely sobbing. I confess to my female teacher and she told me I wasn’t raped and that I needed to get over it.
@@Alexandra-ng1ihI’m so sorry this happened to you. Just know that isn’t true and your experience was valid. I know I’m just a stranger on the internet but you deserve to know your feelings are validated. I never comment often but I hope this comment can bring you some sort of solace. Stay strong and be kind to yourself ❤
@@megan1973thank you this mean a lot. hope ur doing well ❤
I don’t believe it tbh
one of the best episodes in a while. She’s a great speaker, very detailed very matter of fact a little funny. Didn’t deserve any of what happened to her
nobody deserves that
I hope she comes back
She is absolutely lovely - a trustworthy person (they are fewer than you think). For me, betrayal by someone who is "a friend" is the most terrible and disgusting behaviour. She would be a wonderful friend.
i hate the word “bullying”. it’s ABUSE. it doesn’t magically become something different just because it’s inflicted by children, onto other children. it must be taken very seriously.
This just screams to me another case of people bullying a neurodivergent child because something about her makes them uncomfortable. Deeply evil-I am so proud of you, girly, for coming out on the other side of this well-adjusted and kind.
well said! too many neurodivergent children who don't have the skills to distinguish between evil and well-intentioned people... thank for this channel that gives these individuals a chance to express themselves fully and to tell their story
I literally got chills because I have ADHD and used to take riding lessons (11-14). I almost got into jumping and dressage; it was expensive gear and I had to save for university. I was pretty severely bullied in the end of elementary school to the point where I had to actually 'scare' my bully enough into knowing I can defend myself. She was a former friend and had a shitty home life.
I fully disagree, the teacher saw that she was slower and saw her out to make her a victim. Only has anything to do with people being uncomfortable and has everything to do with people clawing for power wherever they can get it.
This!!!!
Yeah i am less than 5 minutes in and i am just ticking off the boxes. Hope she gets the love and support she needs ❤
it's not talked about enough how some teachers literally BULLY STUDENTS. I have dealt with this too and it fucking amazes me how a grown ass adult with a college degree gets off on feeling superior to actual CHILDREN. Putting down CHILDREN. it is sick.
I went through a very similar thing with a teacher and so many people I’ve met have similar stories and it’s all at around the same time in middle school and its always so detrimental to the student
I went through something similar also, but it wasn’t a teacher; it was our school’s dance team coach and she thought it would be funny to haze all the newbies my freshman year. Adults who bully children are nothing but scummy cowards
@@sophieschaefer01 mine was middle school too. Wtf is up with this? Are these teachers just so sad and pathetic the only way to feel good about themselves is to bully a preteen? WILD
This is so true. A teacher bullied me constantly to the point of tears in my sophomore year, the entire class would laugh since he was the "cool teacher", he made me hate school so much and made it miserable for me. I will never forget it, Mr. Wynn.
Went through this with my first grade teacher. It’s an awful feeling knowing that an adult just hates you and you don’t even know why. Nothing you say or do is right and all you want to do is make them happy. This lady had the audacity to tell my mom that I wasn’t ever going to amount to anything because I was having trouble learning to read. Found out the next year that I was dyslexic because I had a super amazing teacher that sat with me after school. He had experience with teaching kids with special needs, and was really kind and patient. I was reading at a post college level by fifth grade.
@3:09 when she goes on to say how she was manipulated by adults telling her “don’t tell your parents anything” literally made me go to my little one and tell her that if anyone tells you to keep a secret from your mom than it’s probably to keep them out of trouble for doing or saying something they know they aren’t supposed to. 😮💨 I really try to stress the importance of honesty and do my best to make it so if my kids have an issue they feel safe and comfortable enough to talk to me about it. Ugh the world is terrifying as a parent…
❤❤❤ smart smart smart
You’re doing a great job , my father was very raw and honest about how people hurt children and told me and my sisters to tell .. which sadly I did tell my mom and she punished me.. I’m 37 now with my own kids and I see how that sounded me for life , I’m not trying to b a victim , it happened so long ago but I guess I never felt safe telling my mom. Anything again, nor b truthful , i automatically lied about a lot because I thought I’d b punished .. I tell my kids to plz b honest sometimes they’ll get in trouble but I will always believe them !
This made me tear up because its so messed up, but you're doing the right thing it's so easy to keep kids quiet by blaming them and saying they will get in trouble, unfortunately these conversations are needed. There's too many people that really really stuck and I don't understand why.
I’m dealing with something similar with my stepson. His mom only has supervised visitations bc of drug abuse and she has been telling our stepson to lie to me and his father bc he has not been being supervised by the individuals who were court ordered to supervise the mother. It is so damaging to children when they are told to hide things from their parents
My mom always made sure I had a space with her to talk about everything judgement free, and when the time came, I was able to talk to her about the things that I needed to. It makes the difference ❤
her remembering every detail is incredibly impressive. I have blocked out so much from when i was in an abusive relationship from 12-15
was just thinking the same thing, i don’t know if i envy the clarity or not
It's frustrating not remembering a whole chunk of my life(10-15) but it would also be so scary remembering every detail.
@@molasses3850i completely agree, i’m now 18 as a senior and i don’t remember middle school years up until last year, even those are starting to block out
she didn't remember every detail though? there's multiple missing pieces and she admits to not remembering every detail and being in and out
@@barbrothers2Jfc, you people are just the worst.🙄
You said *nothing* here. You thought you did, but you didn’t.
She remembers an incredible amount of detail about everything that happened to her over a long, extremely traumatic period of time.
Obviously no one can remember absolutely everything about every moment in their life over a period of many years, especially when there’s so much trauma.
But you know that, you know what OP was saying, and you’re actively choosing to be a jerk, *just to be one.*
Who do you relate most to in this story, huh? Total mystery.😳
This woman has experienced so much cruelty in her lifetime. It is truly amazing how strong and well spoken she comes across
Yes she’s so sweet 🩷
This girl shines so bright the jealousy is disgusting
@@timmy-orangutaI think we found the “best friend” 😂 that or you’re an edgelord who thinks it’s ok to troll by discrediting victims. Loser behavior either way lol
@@timmy-oranguta you're a weirdo
@@timmy-orangutayou sound deranged saying she’s lying get help for real
@@timmy-orangutathe fuck? And how do YOU know that🤣
@@timmy-orangutathis is definitely one of the bullies burners lol
I am 28 years old and I still have nightmares about being bullied and left out. It stays with you forever. Bless this girl
Really? I got fucked over at an adult age last new years... I was hoping eventually it would feel better or wash off
@@iweedumout9311I think it tends to affect you worse the younger you are. That being said the best outcome is if you get support early, whatever form you can access including mental health support.
It will leave you. Eventually.
in a way it hurts forever because it’s your organism trying to protect you from it happening again by remembering it, but it will get better and lighter, especially when you find an environment where you feel safe and wanted
Grow up 😂😂😂
Being a little different can make you so empathetic to where you trust the wrong people and accept terrible treatment. This is tragic, I’m glad she survived.
So true. Dealt with it myself.
Such a true statement. It can be so dangerous. It’s incredibly sad how being different can be so isolating which leads to a yearning for connection and it almost always comes from the wrong places.
bullying is so sick to me. this sweet girl didn’t deserve any of the treatment she received from her peers and “friends”
The early stuff, ya bullying. At the end, that is attempted murder. Omg!
This goes way beyond bullying and to say that it’s just bullying is very much white washing it. This is calculated attempted murder and i cannot believe those people are walking free after doing this
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It’s always the good and sweet people that get bullied. I hated high school.
That’s what the nuns would do in Catholic school. I can’t believe that teacher said that either
she is so real for the british accent i had that phase too
Is it cringey now that ur out of that phase? Cause Im still in my British phrase and I fear if its cringey but I can’t stop doing it.
@@MarinaMartinez123 24 here, still do it. If it’s cringy, then I’ll be cringy!! It’s too fun to stop 🤣
Same mine was so fake 😂😂
@@maggiemenking5709cringy just means you know how to have fun!!❤
@@Carolineismightyfine TRUTH!
The part where the teacher asked if she had a disability in front of the whole class happened to me too. My mother wouldn’t stop until she was fired and also made her apologize to me in front of the whole class. Wish she got the same justice 😢
Damn.. ur momma is the goat 🙌🏼
My 3 grade teacher was fired because she singled me out about my religion and used it as a reason to mistreat and humiliate me in front of the class all the time
It’s also teaching kids that it’s totally okay to bully people with disabilities
I love your mother.
17:29 how hard would it have been to pull this girl aside. Or make a mental note that “okay, we need to help her work on Geography”. That teacher is sick.
This did not happen. There were 25 other kids in our classroom. Not a single one remembers that and yet we’re all bullying her for it? She’s been telling this story forever with all of us begging her to stop victimizing herself. She didn’t have friends in school because she lied about EVERYTHING! You couldn’t trust a word she said
@@annie45108wow so was she ever attacked? or do u think that’s a lie too?
@@annie45108 and who are you???
What incentive does she have to lie on this pod? She’s not getting anything out of this. Not money, not fame, maybe an ounce of attention but that’s about it. So now some faceless TH-cam comment is supposed to make me think this is all made up? Bullying is real, happens all the time to innocent people. Not that hard of a concept to grasp
@@annie45108how are we supposed to believe you, a nameless, profile putting out allegations
There is zero chance you and 25 kids huddled together to see if you remembered. Also, this was a major trauma in HER life. YOU don’t need to remember because it was a drop in the ocean in your life.
I got teary listening to this story. It’s hard to believe someone would hurt another so badly. So many people turned their backs on you which added to the trauma. I can’t believe adults would bully a child and not listen when you needed help. You told this story so well and I’m happy you’re taking the power back. I hope these criminals get what they deserve for doing something so heinous
how are they not in jail for attempted murder ?? so sad, this world has failed this poor girl.
How are the adults not in jail and fired????? This makes me so mad
Because she was too scared to tell the truth….she corroborated the assailant’s version of events.
@@yeseniaortiiiz ohhh i see. how sad they were unable to be charged after everything came out :(
Its more common than you think. I had someone literally confess to police that she tried to poison me on purpose, and openly admitted it was because im trans. Police ignored it and havent done anything
It also can’t be proven. There is no evidence.
Seen this on Tik Tok in bits and pieces I'm so happy she has this platform to tell the whollle story! Thank you for sharing with us!
Same!
This
So that’s where i’ve heard this!!! As soon as she got to the part where she said she heard the mom says “She’s not dying in this house” I was so confused because I thought I was totally sure id heard that before!
“When people were laughing at me I kind of just appreciated the fact that they were laughing at all” is probably the most selfless thing I’ve ever heard..but also one of the saddest things. I’m so sorry
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She seriously needs to put out the best friends name for every other girl in Connecticut who could possibly encounter that sick individual. I hope to for she will get justice against them one day everyone who did all of the to her I am so sorry Lexi you are so strong
she could get in trouble for defamation though which would seriously put her in danger
@@faithparis4536it’s not defamation if it’s true.
@@kristinicole2055 no, it still is defamation
@@danipants8608 That is absolutely not how defamation works. If it is true, you are not "defaming" someone. In order for a defamation case to actually be won in favor of the person being "defamed" it needs to be proven that the person was knowingly spreading misinformation about them.
@localdez3230 They could still take you to court and then it's a fight to prove it happened... She's better off concealing their names for her civil lawsuit because then it will likely come out after.
this poor girl has gone through so much i feel so bad for her, shes absolutely beautiful and deserved sm better
I stumbled across her story on TikTok and it still amazes me how horrible and cruel people can be to someone for absolutely no reason.
It’s so hard to fathom that a girl from a good home with parents who loved her was experiencing this and it wasn’t detected and stopped. Such a long parade of failures of teachers, police……. It’s inexcusable.
this is the saddest story. i’m so sorry alexa that you ever had to go through this. you’re so strong
i can’t believe anyone can have this much evil in them.
At 1 hour 30 minutes in when she was discussing the medical staff telling her about what they were doing to her made me tear up. My mother was in a coma in the hospital and even when they were taking her off life support at the end of her life the nurses and doctors still told her everything they were doing. Medical staff are incredible
Sometimes life is so pointedly cruel. I cant believe that the boy you reached out to turned out to be such a monster. To think you caught a break just for him to be a wolf in sheeps clothing. Im so sorry you experienced this.
This is so heartbreaking, she is such a brave person for sharing such a traumatic story. Her bravery is so admirable
I think she is brave
I just wanna say thank you to the host for letting her speak her truth without interrupting and asking good questions. You treated this story and Lex with the respect deserved and it made this so much better to watch knowing that the guest felt comfortable and listened to as she was talking.
People always accuse neurodivergents of lying because of how we talk, our body language, etc. they just feel something is “off” and automatically attribute it to we are lying. It’s so frustrating! I believe her! People really can be that evil…
Totally agree with you!! We desperately need a society where it’s normal to know about neurodivergency, people doesn’t realize how much neurodivergent people there are in the world!! I am autistic and have adhd, I went through a similar childhood than Lexi, I wish people understood me better.
This is a great example of why it is ALWAYS important to carry Narcan, if you can. Whether you're in a "bad neighborhood" or not. It can save someone's life! I have saved someone's life with Narcan before. It doesn't matter who it is, they don't deserve to die.
I'm so happy this girl is alive, this story is terrifying and she was failed by so many people.
I have a huge box full of packs and each pack has 2 nose spray doses of narcan I carry it with me EVERYWHERE and have been able to save at least 15 lives because of that practice thank God!
Everyone deserves to live. Thanks for advocating for the rights of people who struggle with addiction
I can just tell this story is going to have me on the edge of my seat
Literally
She was failed so consistently and tremendously by everyone she reached out to, it’s devastating. This isn’t normal and it wasn’t your fault
The abuse I experienced as a child in the equestrian community from both children and adults was insane. Such an out of touch group of people.
I’m 17 minutes in and I need this teachers HOME ADDRESS 😡😡😡
Just wait until you get to the part about what her friends did to her....this poor girl. But ya the teacher was an adult in a power position
I wonder if she was being racist?
Me too
Agreed
On everything wtf this teacher needs to be fired
So glad you’re alive. This story is absolutely heartbreaking & is a good reminder of how dangerous & malicious teenagers can be.
41 minutes in and i'm just flabbergasted at how wild this is.
"it keeps fucking happening" sums everything up perfectly. Girl i am so fucking sorry all of this went on in your life.
Thank you so much for editing out any pauses and whatnot, this is so easy to listen to!
Yess, they’re really good about that
I hope she finds peace in her heart. This is one of the most traumatic stories I've heard in a while. She deserves nothing but peace.
lexi you are so brave and strong. keep refusing to let anything or anyone hold you down! i’m so proud of you and can’t wait to keep cheering you on forever 💗
44:10 THIS GUY NEEDS TO BE IN PRISON FOR LIFE BRO + the insane horse trainer lady as well for randomly advocating for the pedophile and calling her “mature enough” to be subjected to his abuse???
Please, Alexa never ever think you "should have known better" or that it was in any way your fault for ending up in these situations!! Lot's of love, you are very brave and strong!
This was such a good episode! - As young women at such a vulnerable, young age I don’t think we understand what we are being exposed to and that some of our “ friends “ aren’t really our friends. It irritates me that other girl never got what she had coming to her! She needs to be in prison for what she did. Listening to this story it really reminds me of the Rena Virk case. I’m so sorry that she had to experience this and endured this type of pain, abuse, betrayal, manipulation. Nobody deserves that. I’m glad that she was able to empower herself and truly tell her story because she is a survivor!
Why can't people give this girl a break?! She's had enough trauma for legitimately no reason. Wild. Sending her lots of love.
So sad to hear about her first boyfriend turning out that way. She deserved peace 😕😥
It's so crazy that a child can be so incredibly evil. I mean now he's an adult I can't imagine how terrible he is now... I hope he's either in jail or a changed man😰
I just want to give her the biggest hug. I can’t believe she was surrounded by so many terrible people. I’m sorry the adults around you failed you.
This girl cannot get a break god damn. As the video kept going my jaw dropped more and more. Alexa, you’re so strong. It’s incredible how resilient you are ❤
I am so happy she’s in a better place now it seems. This story hit me hard, I also had a really bad friend group that their intentions were not the same as mine and it ended really messing me up very badly. Nowhere near this extent however, but the manipulation and the drug usage was hard to escape. I wish her the best for real, she didn’t deserve this, especially with her first love/friend groups. I also admire that her mom did what she could to protect her 🩶
I just stumbled upon this page and I love it so much. This host is incredible at letting these women speak and tell their stories and it's just beautiful. I love to see women being validated. It really helps us heal
Having been resuscitated after an accident and feeling my body die it is EXACTLY how she described it. The toes, the acceptance of it, the auditory experience. Incredibly chilling hearing someone experience the same.
Alexa was failed by everyone in her life, teachers, friends, everyone outside her family who was supposed to love her or protect her, and it was such a miracle that her strength prevailed
i literally need to take breaks watching this because i get so overwhelmed. can't imagine living this. stay strong, Lexi.
As an undiagnosed neurodivergent kid, listening to her talk about trying to fit in and being made fun of hurt so hard
I relate so much to her not noticing the bullying 😢
Not even 30 mins in and this girl has the most lovely personality. I really hope she ends up having a beautiful life
The amount of work this woman has done to heal and be able to talk about her trauma in this way is admirable. You can tell she has put in the workkkk wow
i’ve seen her on tik tok before and was so interested in her story! but at that time she only had a few posts with minimal likes and i completely forgot about her, im so happy to see her on this platform sharing her story with a broader audience. she’s an amazing woman.
I admire her bravery to say what she needed to say. A rare kind of person
Adults forget what kids are capable of. You may not think a 14/15 year old boy can kill and rape, but they can. I was in a physically abusive relationship around that age too, which culminated in a sexual assault. It is such a horror to have your sexual debut be forced upon you. It's a horror at any time or age, but there's something particularly grim about a violent introduction with nothing loving or caring to compare it to.
I hope she knows how awesome she is! Not everyone has this much resilience and strength. ❤️
the way she speaks reminds me so much of my younger years in school... turns out the reason i was so awkward was that im autistic in actuality. all of my "friends" bullied me behind my back. i struggled to talk to people and would observe/collect notes before i went up to them.
I could have written this. Ugh, school was hard. I don’t miss it or my hometown at all.
Heavily relate
im so excited to see lexi's face on my favorite podcast omg! have been following you both for a while so this is a big crossover for me hahaha
I can’t relate to the entire story, but there are so many pieces that mirror my own experience. I have ALWAYS minimised it in my mind but hearing this come out of someone else’s mouth has opened my eyes to a lot. Thank you for being brave enough to speak your truth, you didn’t deserve any of what happened to you. You are so incredibly inspiring, I’m glad you’re still here with us to share this. It certainly helped me and I know it will help others 🤍
It’s hard to believe a person can experience THIS much gaslighting and abuse in a single lifetime. My heart breaks for her.
it's hard to believe because it's not true. Your instinct which is telling you that "there's no way that someone that young living in suburban Connecticut is going through all of these things within the span of 2 years, and then has every single adult in her life from teachers, to horse instructors, to parents, to police, to doctors, etc. all not only failed her but were comically EVIL in their response, is frankly UNBELIEVABLE", is doing so for a reason.
@@dieselbaby right? As an abuse survivor myself and also a healthcare worker (who sees an IMMENSE amount of various drug use as well), something about her story just feels so off. I do believe this girl has issues and was probably bullied and ostracized, but I just don’t believe these events unfolded as told by her.
@@kendallmateljan8409you people are beyond evil. My god.
@@Dvgteethnot beyond evil we just don’t believe everything online. I think u should take some advice and do the same . I don’t think she got attacked I think she got drugged and then convicted herself they were trying to kill her. She says she broke her phone later then goes on about how she called her mom. That makes no sense. She also claimed to have heard her bsf apologize to the guys about how she was acting. Why would she apologize to them about how she was acting unless she was just having a bad trip. Also said something about a doctor saying she will get addicted . U don’t get addicted off of one hit of something. So that’s not true . The way she explained how her friend was telling the people near by she had mental problems was I think so they wouldn’t get in trouble for giving her drugs . If they wanted to kill her they wouldn’t have let her out of their site. Not only that nobody was charged for anything ?? And why would she lie to the cops about what happened to her and why was the suspect allowed in the hospital room with her. Doesn’t work that way ever sorry.
this breaks my heart.. such a sweet girl. i’m so sorry any of that even happened to her. shame on all the adults in her life that failed her over and over again.
when she started talking about lock down I though she ment quarantine in 2020 and I was so confused when she said that kids had flip phones back then lmao
love this speaker. she talks fast, but enunciates super well and goes on some tangents but always ties them back to the main story. i am completely enraptured, and horrified at what she experienced for so many years. great guest, i wish her the best moving forward!!
This is one of the most insane stories I’ve ever heard.
Seriously. I'm physically sick just listening about her attack.
That teacher had no business being a teacher! I’m so sorry, Lexi! But you are so incredible, the way you tell your story says so much about your kindness, courage, and resilience. Thank you for sharing it with us ❤️
this is horrific and I am truly sorry you went through this. I wish you peace and happiness and a lot of healing ❤
So many predatory things happened to me growing up, until I hit 23 then suddenly I was no longer naive or vulnerable, so predatory people went away. I can relate to so much of this. When you finally realize what happened to you it hits hard.
The horse industry is so wild, there is alot of good but also alot of bad. I can't stand the people that are in it for the money and just winning. I'm so glad I learned from good horse people and got my own horse where I was able to do whatever I wanted for fun. Doing open horse shows purely for fun is so much better imo than trying to get into the high competition shows.
Same! I'm so glad my horses are on my own property on my own terms. So many horse people suck.
The horse industry? That's the point u got from this story? Not attempted murder? Wow, Lord please help those that cannot see what's right n front of their eyes
Her resilience is really powerful and inspirational. What a horrifying story but you can see shes healed so much
First time finding this account. I really appreciate how the host is really listening and letting her talk ❤️
She’s really good!
The amount of comments on the bullying is WILD considering your story of almost being offed. All thoughts prayers, and respect go out to you!! Truly hope and pray for more healing and justice!
The amount of HORRIBLE children and ADULTS this girl met is unbelievable.
Literally unbelievable.
EVERY SINGLE ADULT AUTHORITATIVE FIGURE IN HER LIFE HAD FAILED HER. This girl had a terrible life growing up. So sorry everyone failed you, Alexa. This is heart wrenching.
My jaw just kept dropping- it kept getting worse-
I have so much to say about this episode , but above all , can everyone just leave this girl alone ?!
Thank you for sharing your story And happy you are doing better Lexi
As a horse trainer and riding instructor, it makes me so sad to hear how mistreated she was by the industry and the people who should have been not only helping her achieve her dreams, but watching out for her and her wellbeing. It breaks my heart to imagine any of this happening to any of my students.
This isn't a horse trainer or riding instructor story. This is a story of attempted murder. Please use restraint when trying 2 "relate" to another individual, when it doesn't in fact have anything to do with u, smh
As a teacher, this story is horrifying. Not only the teacher bullying and abusing her...but also *noone* reacting when she was telling them about the threats and everything.
In every school I´ve worked, even a student sitting in/at the principal office every day would be raising alarm bells and action immediately.
I’m from Fairfield county too and the people are so mean there. I feel sad just hearing this stuff because I was treated the same way and it sucked.
Same
There may be a spiritual darkness there. Pray continually.
@@laurenstorck8417or just raise your kids better. It’s that simple. Stop blaming everything on god and take some personal responsibility.
This whole thing is so messed up. Im so happy you are here with us today to tell your story ❤️ I hope the other people get what they deserve, and rot in jail
Alexa was still legally a child. Her parents failed her incredibly by not bringing all of this to the police, despite her protest, I'm sorry. If not just for Alexa, for those people's future victims. Truly terrible parenting. A 15/16 year old does not always know what's in their best interests. The perpetrators could still be abusing people to this day.
Truly think that talking to Devorah with her just staring at me would heal every ailment in my body/psyche
Omg! I have been following her & her story online for so long I’m so glad this will bring more awareness to it!
This is so crazy. Social media has really jacked up so many generations. When I was 14 we went to the movies or the mall on the weekends. We didn't have this level of crazy. We definitely were not in sexually active and abusive relationships. I truly feel for this poor girl. Absolute insanity.
I love the way she talks about herself and her life! She shows so much healing and strength ❤️
I’ve been keeping up with her story on TikTok for the longest and I’m so glad u have her on here!!!
the way it just keeps going... she's so strong :(
It's so disturbing and heart wrenching how cruel people can be. There's no limit.
This is beyond messed up, feel so bad for this girl and what she's been through.
Such a sweet and smart girl. I love the way she told her story and I wish her all the best
I’m sorry but her parents failed her too. The things she went trough, the people she got herself involved in… How can you not know? The mental and sexual abuse by multiple people, no safety net, no one to tell her that’s she’s worth more. She deserved more. Every adult in her life failed her, but her parents the most if you ask me.
That fact that her naked body was sent around and her mother allowed her to go out with her friends.... I'm so deeply disturbed.
It really is insane how litterally every adult in her life let her down
18:27 that teacher definitely needs fired! What a horrible person!
Fr! My jaw dropped. Why would u say that to a child especially infront of other children??? Awful!
Especially cuz the lottery was for underprivileged children... Obviously there will be some students who didn't get the best education
I wish I could be this girl's friend, and would have been back then so I could have protected her. This shit is insane and preventable if people around her had an ounce of empathy.
Girl, same. I've never been the one, I would have jumped in real quick.
The same with me
I followed her on tiktok
@@STaRSPRiNKLe_oX AMEN.