LW. Smith I know right. I'm highly terrified of bugs but especially spiders. If my house was infested with spiders, I would honestly leave my house. 💯💯 I def feel her pain.
GET HER TO READ THIS🙌🏼 LIKE LIKE LIKE Spray that mite poison on the floor and leave it for a day, spray again the next day, leave it for another day, and then vacuum the whole carpet with the bugs thoroughly!!! Then toss the stuff in the vacuum away and outside! You should be good. I've dealt with it before! If that doesn't work, do it again with a more powerful spray!! It'll take maybe 3-4 days but it's worth a clean home!!
it is most likely birds mite, usually it doesn't stick to people, however it can stick to people who has a low immune system that may be caused by depression...etc...they thrive humidity, heat...you need De.ben's evictor....there is a site well documented...
Jamie Bevers when my dad died my friends were staying at my house and they accidentally popped my air mattress that my dad gave me and I flipped the f*** out I feel bad now but I understand her I feel so bad :( I lost my dad December 2015
Cecilia Hernandez feel ya girl. lost my mama 2014, 2 weeks before my 18th bday. Never have been the same since. you loose a piece of yourself. It's like they take a piece of you w them and you never feel the same again. I am sorry for your loss. 💔
lmfao thank you. idk what Chartee is talking about... most comments i read is someone telling me to go get help or go see a psychologist. ive been through grieving before, i watched my mom die, eventually everyone will go through it but its obvious to see who has been though something similar and someone who is completely ignorant to the situation, i thank you for this comment and even though i am slightly crazy lol, i know these feelings, i know i will be okay, it might take months, years, decades, but hey. tomorrow is always another day to move forward
I think chartee just meant it was nice to see people being so kind and respectful towards this video, but I assume the majority of you thought different! That's okay! X
Laugh? I'm crying. I realize that your tears are not just fear, but also the loss of two beloved parents who can no longer protect you from your fears.
Nikki O I had a dream once that a cockroach was crawling down a my shirt. Being terrified of bugs, I jolted awake, and then realized that THE FUCKING COCKROACH WAS REAL. I screamed. Worst night of my life.
Nikki O I was showering at home and grabbed my loofah and felt this thing crawling on my hand and jumped out the shower screaming. I put on my wet glasses and I can sort of see this long ass bug that kind of looked like a caterpillar/cockroach and I ran into my mom's room naked almost in tears. I just can't, not with bugs.
see girl, look at that, you did it. Don't ever think you can't do something. You can do anything. There was a problem and you fixed it, all by yourself. All you need is you.
Yolanda T I just stumbled on this comment and I’ve been going through the hardest months of my life. I’ve been trying to pick myself up but I feel discouraged all the time. Finding this comment feels like a sign from the lord that I’ll make it through and I’ll get my courage and pride back. Thank you for posting this
I don't understand the comments saying "someone help her she's crying over bugs". I'd be crying too if millions of bugs were infesting my house! You kicked those bugs ass Sara and I'm proud of you!
Corinne Woods your house is infested with bugs. Bugs are everywhere. The average house has thousands of spiders alone. But spiders are good cuz they kill all the other bugs. Sleep tight.
HOLY SHIT THANK YOU DUDE!!!!! Im deadass over here like yooooo wtf i post videos of me crying all the time, of me saying the craziest things and the word therapist or "get help" has never came out of one mouth.... yet, the second i make a video of a real time event people wana call me out and tell me i need help and need to see someone now. ive been giggling over those comments. people and the way their brains think confuse me so much... those bugs had NOTHING to do with my feelings towards my dad lol, yes i was hella upset i didnt know where the bug killer was and that he wasnt here to do it for me but you guys, come one, i get im emotional, i just watched now both my parents die but you cant possibly tell me you would be okay with having to touch and handle millions of tiny mites. this wasnt a spider you could take out side or squash okay... lol there were millions. if anything i could teach therapists and psychiatrists a couple things lol:) kidding, people get offended over anything in todays society but its all gucci. those who know me and have been following me from the jump know ill be okay... i want to show you guys real shit, im not going to make up a fake story and sit in front of a set up and pretend to be happy with a smile on my face. im very sad right now, im having to learn alot and grow up more than i thought i already was after losing my mom. im going through a huge learning period and a huge life changing experience.... the last thing i want to hear is that i need help, id like to think im taking care of myself and my situation just fine... i know i got this guys:( if i believe in myself i need yall believing in me as well.
all this is, is your mind going through the inevitable. we know you can face it without anybody's help. All you're going to obtain is growth, mentally and spiritually
Sara K we are there with you girl. Yes we have been watching you since a long time nd we know u are a strong person so You can make it through this. It's just a tough time dear. Don't let the muggles let ya down :)
I suffer from severe anxiety disorders and I understand this break down so much. I'm so sorry you have to go through this time sweety we love you. You're so strong😍
this is still so sad to me because I feel like she isn't crying just about the bugs, I feel like she's also crying because there's nobody to help her she's all on her own now and has to deal with this fear by herself you know what I mean? I don't know I'm not a psychologist I'm not trying to be the annoying person who tells someone how theyre feeling but that's just how it seems to me. Shes alone in a time of need. Its heart breaking...we're all here for you
Nothing is wrong with you. That's how phobias work, they make you feel anxious, disgusting, like things are crawling all over and into you. I have the same thing with spiders.
Hey Sara, my parents own a flower shop and my dad will most likely be able to help with this. I will ask him definitely, but most mites live on the underside of the leaves. Keep spraying the underside (and any other part that you want) with the dish soap and water and I would suggest taking the plants that aren't affected by the mites out of the room to prevent spreading. They aren't on the walls or the bed and will die if they leave the plant because the sap from inside the leaves in the only thing keeping them alive so don't worry about the spreading through your house, they can't do that or they'll die. I will ask my dad what he thinks could be the issue and how you can fix it!
Okay I talked to my dad and he said that it's either aphids or spider mites but most likely aphids. He said that at Lowes there is an insecticide called Nuprid that will kill them all even the eggs and also there is insecticide soap as well. He said they won't get on you and they won't spread to your furniture. If you need anymore help please let me know!
Sara is the only person that could make a video about crying over bugs for almost an hour and I'd still enjoy every second of it (not enjoy your suffering but the video in general)
We all know the phobia isn't the reason why she's crying. One of the only living connections she has with her dad are those plants. And those bugs are killings the plants. Essentially, the plants will die....just like her dad. Poor girl is trying to prevent that.
or she's freaked out by bugs and the stress of them being everywhere plus stress of other obvious things is making her cry ? its not always so deep and spiritual brother. you cant really make the call.
im crying right now from watching this cause this is exactly how i was when my fiance died. i would obsess over anything else going on in the house just so i wouldnt be dealing with the pain and i didnt sleep for weeks while having a constant panic attack. im praying for u sweetie from the bottom of my heart. god bless.
you are right... i am busy 24/7 around this place... find myself trying to clean in between the floor boards just do my mind never has a chance to drift back into reality... sometimes im unaware of it.. sometimes i make a list of things to do front and back and spend all day checking everything off... the mind is an interesting thing
+Sara K that's OK honey you do what you need to take every day as it comes 8f family and friends want to come stay please let them you need support right now what you are going through is massive and you're doing well so far but everyone needs support at some point you clearly love your dad deeply so I bet he adored you and would be incredibly proud of you. keep pushing day by day xx
Asoossi this girl needs someone to be with. its seems she needs psychologist and teach her to fight for thia kind of situation. because if not she will be crazy! 😢
Thinking about you today, and the fact that you have helped me and so many truly appreciate what we have today. Your mother would be so proud of the impact you've had. You're gonna do amazing things, Sarah you effect people you don't even know so deeply. Wishing you the best, strength and happiness and brighter days. Thank you for teaching us what's important. You deserve so much more.
i come back to this video every time im feeling hopeless. i sit and watch the entire thing through and it makes me feel like i can be okay, im strong enough to handle what is given to me. thank you for being raw and real, this video means so much to me.
Google an Entomologist in your state. I've had this situation they will tell you exactly what bugs they are. Seriously, and if they're from your state they will do it for free!!! Thumbs up so she'll see this
I literally started sobbing at 4:07 because I just know that there is so much more to this and ughhhhhh. I've never felt so much emotion from one person.
Lady you poor thing :( I'd freak too. You've been on my mind so much since your last video and I want you to know, people are here for you! I think I remember you saying you don't use social media but I wanna just say - if you ever need to vent or talk, hit me up. Love you xxx
I haven't stopped thinking about her since her last video, she's been one of my favorite TH-camrs for awhile but she's been in my Mind for quit some time.
lovelyxskinny nah, lady is a respectful term to call a woman. Have you not heard the expression "young lady" called to a little girl? A lady is a classy woman of any age.
Colleen Fenner i have heard young lady yeah but lady by itself is kind of a rude way of addressing someone who isnt old. maybe thats just uncommon where i live in canada idk.
those were my dads sun glasses too hahaha i felt like that girl in the video where she has the low pony tail and she turns around and smile with her braces and sun glasses lol, you know what im talking about??
I've never felt closer to another persons pain through a video than I did watching this. Something just resonated so fucking deeply because of how raw and real you are; not just your pain, but the immense strength in your eyes and soul.
Why is it that every video I watch of her I end up crying in the beginning, middle, and/or ending? My heart just aches for her, and all she's been through at such a young age.
so she's completely alone? 😔 I don't think I would be able to stay in an empty house like that , especially if she lived with her dad, I mean I just couldn't imagine waking up one day knowing that your dad won't be downstairs making breakfast or something..I'm sorry Sara, I really hope you have someone so you aren't alone
I'm 18 and my mom passed away from liver cancer on Sunday. I can't even begin to explain the hurt and heartbreak such a loss creates. I haven't stopped crying but at the same time I am happy she is no longer in pain and I truly believe she's in a better place. I know exactly how you feel Sara but we can't do it alone, little triggers in life are constantly going to set us off and remind us of all the pain. Don't be afraid to seek professional help.
I lost my mom to liver cancer 9 months ago today.. I wake up every day and just think "wow, another day has gone by where I'm never going to see her again." I miss her so much.. I know I need professional help but I just don't know how to go about it.. the pain somewhat immobilizes me. I still can't seem to wake up. To have been blessed with such a remarkable mom for my 20 years of life makes me grateful, and I only wish we could've spent more time with our moms.. I'm praying for you. We shouldn't have to lose amazing people so young in our lives.
you are fucking amazing I never saw a girl like you, realy im shocked, i'm not afraid of bugs but i have fear of hights and im totally understand you. we are your family!!!! we love you and just want you to be happy, we are here for everything, and we will never go away I promise you!❤❤❤❤ fam for ever😍
This is real!! Realist person I've seen on you tube , I'm sorry for your loss, I lost my father in 08, sweetheart, i see the anxiety, this hits home for me ....there's nothing to be embarrassed about !
+Mary Jane Blondie I became that way too , both my parents were passed by the age of 24 and I didn't know what to I became numb and develop later angorphopia anxiety and depression then I was in a abusive relationship which was totally toxic , every one see it but you type of deal it's hard because losing a parent let alone both makes it harder , but through time and healing and friends I have I call family I made a safety net trust me I lost myself through those years I'm 33 now and I still feel like I needed that guidance from my parents , never lose hope or faith , believe that he is always with you , and whenever you doubt yourself tell yourself I've come this far and I'm still here
You no this actually made me cry. Not because I'm scared of bugs, which I'm not but it's because I can actually feel her pain. Not just about the bugs but what she associated with it. Like her mom and dad use to kill them for her and take care of that and now she's on her own. She has this huge ass phobia and the loss of her dad in less then a month. If I were her I would've just given up. Sara, we're here for you and we love you❤️❤️
I just found your channel recently so I don't know a lot about you. I'm not gunna be one of these fucks in the comments who tell you to stay strong. Who the fuck is gunna stay strong in your situation. Freak out, freak the hell out until you fall asleep from exhaustion. Your under sooo much stress right now and don't have anyone except these youtube commenters to give you help. In most situations we usually have people to turn too for help and an ear to listen. Get a psychologist now. Don't continue this illusion of staying strong. There's only so much you can take before you burst. You WILL be ok eventually, but you NEED a psychologist. Even if its just to talk about your problems it'll help. I hope you have some friends who can comfort you as well. Most important thing is to not feel like you need to be strong or handle this all on your own, it'll drive you insane.
Awkward Egg Account You're super right.. Or atleast she should probably go get some of her friends or professionals if they know what to do with the bugs and herself.. I feel so sorry for her..😢
unless you have a bug phobia y'all can't be saying she's going crazy.. Sarah you should invite a friend over to help you with the bugs and keep you company 💓
jeneece betancourt that's what I was thinking. She needs someone that's close to her a friend or her siblings to come help her and keep her company. Poor thing I wish I lived close to her I'd come kill the bugs. She's losing her mind and I would be too.
Main thing... you said "the only thing I can't do is bugs." When in fact, you did it. You figured out a way to get rid of them. Good for you for accomplishing that.
i discovered you recently and you seem like a sweet and funny girl. like the type of person id love to be friends with. ive had breakdowns like this too, i admire your courage. wish you the best hun
I hope You're been treating yourself properly, Sarah. I know it's hard but I want you to come back to a point where you can actually and fully smile without a constant pain on yourself. Please be strong. Adore you
I just want to help you so badly. This breakdown truly shows how some people function off camera but don't have the balls to catch it all on camera.. this shit's relatable af. Fuck all the makeup hauls, beauty trends, and girls and guys that pretend to have their shit together when most of us go through episodes like this but are too embarrassed to admit. Keep your chin up Sara, you're amazing
dude - i have a phobia of ants and this is accurate af. when she was getting goosebumps and gagging, i felt it in the pit of my stomach! i get the SAME way!
21:20 "harmful if absorbed through skin avoid inhalation of mist causes eye irritation" *sighs and walks away* ...... *comes back with gloves and sunglasses* damn GUrl I thought u were gonna give up with the bugs but u are NO QUITTER keep staying strong everything will work out alright? ALL of us are here for you and you're never alone
this is the PAIN and FEAR. YOU ARE SO STRONG. PLEASE STAY LIKE THIS, GOD WILL HOLD YOU AND KEEP YOU. I KNOW THAT THIS MEANS ALMOST NOTHING, THIS IS JUST ONE OF COMMENTS BUT.. I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU SARA... AND I PRAY FOR YOU... IF UR GONNA READ THIS COMMENT, I LOVE YOU SOO SOO MUCH....😢❤
This is beyond a fear of bugs, girl I'm actually so worried about you. I've been here before, it wasn't good. Your pain is unbearable in this video, and in most. I want to hug you.
"I thought I was savage but Im not" *whispers* "21" *growns like a whale* "Broom sweeping like a broomstick" *whispers* "21" girl I just found you, and Im feeling for you so much, but I sadly find humor in this
+Loran Surendran i was quoting a line from a song he wrote and his name is 21, and he has to repeat his name after every word that comes out of his mouth so thats what i was doing hahah .... i wouldnt recommend him at all lmfao, i was singing his words but it was in a joking manner
Sara I don't mean to startle you but the bugs probably came up through that vent near that plant. So seal up that vent!! They haven't come from the plant itself but from the vent!
Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens. beautiful song to help you figure some things out during such a trying time... its ok to cry, even if your father is slapping you in spirit. he understands, and so do we. one day in 40 some odd years, you'll be the age you currently are on the inside, and you'll have had every experience in the world, from enlightening to devastating to infuriating to beautiful. few people will ever be as strong as you, and no one could ever attain the same radiance you possess, even when you cry. things are light and calm in the place where your parents, both, now rest... keep letting that aura in.
clairefruit your comment made me emotional and strong cuz my mom passed away a few months back and I was really really close to her she was my only best friend😔
This is what i found on google. Yes its a couple of paragraphs but I hope it helps. Although the trumpet vine (Campsis radicans), also called trumpet creeper, is among the easiest of ornamentals to grow, bug infestations are not unheard of. The flowering vine, which grows in U.S. Department of Agriculture plant hardiness zones 4 through 9, sometimes hosts pests including scale insects, whiteflies, spider mites, planthoppers and mealybugs. Keep the Dust Down Trumpet vine prefers moist soil, especially in full sun. Too little water attracts most of the pests that have been reported as problems on the trumpet vine. These include spider mites, scale insects and whiteflies. Keep the trumpet vine well watered so the soil feels consistently moist. Further reduce the dusty, dry conditions that attract trumpet vine pests by keeping nearby garden beds adequately watered. Cover dirt paths and bare patches of ground with mulch. Get Rid of Ants After feeding on the trumpet vine, some insects, such as mealybugs, scales, planthoppers and whiteflies, excrete a substance known as honeydew. Ants are attracted to honeydew, and fight off predatory insects that might otherwise feed on the honeydew-producing bugs. Deal with ants by placing ant bait stations near trumpet vines. Ant bait stations are pre-filled with a poison the ants carry back to their nest, reducing or eliminating the ant population. Painting the lower sections of the vine with a commercial product designed to make woody plants too sticky for bugs to climb may also do the trick. Blast Them Off While spraying trumpet vine bugs with a ready-to-use insecticidal soap is a valid control option, even organic sprays can harm some of the beneficial insects that feed on trumpet vine pests. A safer method is to blast the bugs off the trumpet vine with jets of water from your garden hose. It's best to do this spraying in the late morning on a sunny day, so the vines have a chance to dry off before nightfall. Wet leaves overnight can encourage diseases. Cut Them Out In some cases, only a few sections of your trumpet vine may show the telltale "lumpy" look that indicates a scale infestation, or the cottony-looking material created by nesting planthoppers. If this is the case, prune away the parts of the vine that seem to be infested. Trumpet vine is tough and can take even severe pruning. After you've cut part of the main vine or pruned branching sections of the vine, burn or discard the infested sections. This measure ensures the bugs don't find their way back. I'm very very sorry for your loss. I don't know you but I can tell there was no better persons hands for those plants to be in then yours. You got this. No plant bugs stand a chance.
Where are you right now? I will literally buy a ticket, fly over, and destroy these bugs for you. You need someone to do this for you while you take a nap or have froyo or something.
I've never lost someone I care about before and I dread when the day comes. You are one amazing woman, going through all the grieving plus plowing on through this horrible phobia. You are so strong and inspirational. You can do this.
I fill your pain literally,I lost my mom from cancer 6 months ago,lost my dad from diabetes two years ago,stay strong and pray and ask God to help u stay strong,direct u, and push u through this rough course in your life. Be strong,and appreciate your life and have faith,your parents wouldn't want u to be depressed and down ,that path is the path of destruction. Be happy,open a bible up sometime he will guide u, u and I know how quick life can be took away, you only get one life,God bless.
A psychologist can help her, to talk with her, to help her to relax.. She doesn't have to be alone to prove she's strong ! NOBODY knows she's going through, even you because it's her emotions ! So saying that if she feels like she needs help now or later, she can seek help is showing her support and explain to her that she IS NOT ALONE.
Lol damn y'all. I don't need a therapist or Someone to talk to about my problems lol, I need someone to talk to I got about 13 voices up in my head. Lol. There's a reason I'm not seeing anyone and a reason I'm not on meds anymore. If anything people telling me to go get help and get on meds is one of the biggest triggers I've ever had keep coming up in my comment section
Saying that you can see someone if you need it isn't telling that you need to see someone, there is a big different. But yea, at the end it's your decision sure.
I really hope she has a support system. She has no social medias so its hard to see how she is and she doesn't talk a lot about her personal life except for mom and dad's death and I'm just worried for her :/
I just hope her mental health is doing okay because its quite common to be in denial but I hope she has a person/fam/friend to help her through it because it's so hard to do it all on her own at such a young age.
*Sara ANYTHING you need, dm me on instagram @brookehouts, or literally anything else. I would seriously fly out to you or drive or what the fuck EVER you want*, because I want to help in any way I can. I know I can't heal any of the pain you've been through or fix anything really, but if you just want someone to come help you in any way possible I'M YOUR GIRL
I'm laughing and crying at the same time because this was me when my dad passed and my husband left me. I would have panic attacks and anxiety attacks. Sometimes the smallest of things triggered me. Like why is there so many dishes? There shouldn't be so many dishes .. *cries*
19:40 "Where's the dude that loves to rip out my lilac bushes before they're even blooming, huh?" "Here's a real issue for you to deal with, an infestation my dude. A GA-OWD DAMN INFESTATION." I can feel your pain and fear here Sara, but even in this difficult time you are one of the funniest women I have ever seen
You are doing a great job taking care of your self first and foremost. Put the buggy plant in a black plastic bag and seal it. take it outside. If you have tea tree oil put some in the water bottle and spray the area where the old plant was. open a window to freeze the little beasts. throw out the towels and for the next few days vacuum and spray regularly it shouldn't take too long to get rid of them. Be well and remember you are way bigger than them.
mann, the fact that you still even put a video up is insane to me.. with everything your going through i wouldnt be able to do it. You talked about respect in one of your past videos and i just wana say i have mad respect for you woman. For keeping yourself busy literally even if its having to deal with your fear of bugs. The level of strength your on rn is amazing. Sending you love from the Bay Area girl❤ i hope you continue to find more and more coping skills, the more the better. You deserve the world babe, your real supporters including myself got you to the fullest👌
this comment was beautiful. to me, the biggest compliment anyone can give to me is telling me they respect me. that hits me harder than any compliment on anything else ever would. i was just in the bay area not to long ago to see Russ preform, the energy there is amazing. you know no matter what i am going through i always got you too, if you ever need me or someone to talk to im always here, im be okay
your beautiful to me! I love watching your videos they make my day lol btw i love Russ too, i remember i used to listen to him on soundcloud when he wasnt big at the time, hes a great. Anyway if you need a friend just remember my name girl❤
Girl this is by far some of the REALEST SHIT I HAVE EVER WITNESSED ON TH-cam! I need you to know all of your emotions/reactions are valid, you've been through hell and back and if anybody is tryna come at you sayin your over reacting they're gonna catch these hands. Sending you tons of love💕 -M
Madalyn Sorrell , girls I might be a little late on this one, Madalyn I'm completely on the same page you are. She has shared and showed her pain and her life with all of us and for anyone to say anything negative needs my hands too. She is such a strong young girl dealing with the heaviest world now, that no one not one soul should say anything about over reacting. I don't think an Emmy is even good enough for her. Girl you will get thru anything life has to hand you, bugs and all lol. I know your not religious but my prayers and heart are with you. I would have to say you are one of the strongest woman I have seen, and I'm a nurse and I've seen a lot of people in my life. Girl, you got this.
yo I tried writing this comment 5 times but I can't express how much I respect you and how much I'd help you if I could. just like every one of your subscribers. please stay strong, you can do this, sara and to everyone reading this going through a rough time you can ways inbox me, if you need help or just want to rant. 🌼
well hey 5th time is a charm!!! thank you so much it really does mean a lot to me and you know that if you need anyone to talk to I am here for you any time
I really feel for you. I am also sorry that this is affecting you emotionally. I would NEVER wish this on my worst enemy; phobia or not. Mites? IDK. I am aware of "Superbugs" due to GMO crops and farming. You are not crazy. You probably live within a 50 mile radius of a GMO (Government) farm. You probably live within Chemtrail area. Those who are laughing will one day look back on the day you've posted and realize this is not a funny matter.
Can yall chill its just a comment, like i understand that you all feel for her because i do as well, but when i posted that comment i was just trying to make light of the situation i wasn't trying to be rude. You (no one in specific ) trying to tell me that im insensitive or deny anyones belief or saying that I'll look back on a comment i made and feel some type of way is irrelevant. I was trying to make her smile (even though she probably didn't see it ) and make others who can relate to her smile please do not think that I or anyone is trying to be negative for no reason cause it's the Internet everyone interpretes things in different ways.
This was the most beautiful breakdown I've ever seen. When she pulled out those gloves and glasses, I lost it. This was funny Sara, and I hope you find this funny as well one day. Things won't ever get easier, they will just be more manageable -- but I'm sure you already know that, you're a smart girl. I'm so happy I found your channel and I will forever try to keep up with you and hope that you will keep making videos because, like many subscribers on this channel, we find comfort and realness in what you provide us, and I'm not sure you really understand that. You're not stuck up, showing us fake love, you treat us as if we are someone special in your life, thats what I respect you for -- that no matter how famous you are, you give time to those who got you where you are .. unlike other youtubers. I didn't intend to make this long and sentimental, I'm sorry lmao. Just know we love you and we got your back, mama mellow
I agree! I love how she's herself with us, she cries about her fears, she tries to kill them even with tears in her eyes, but I agree when she came back with those glasses and gloves oh man DED. Laughed like an idiot hahaha I love her!
You're undoubtedly the strongest and most inspirational person I've come across these past few months. I'm sending you all the existent love in the world, from the bottom of my heart. I love you so much and keep going strong.
People who suffer of any type of phobia know that she's not acting and how much it's hard to deal with it.
I ask you guys to be respectful. Thanks
LW. Smith exactly and she's having such a hard time with her recent loss. It's heartbreaking
LW. Smith I know right. I'm highly terrified of bugs but especially spiders. If my house was infested with spiders, I would honestly leave my house. 💯💯 I def feel her pain.
From what i see people are respectful?!
LW. Smith Exactly! I have pigeon phobia. and just typing that word made my skin crawl!!!! i CANT DO IT. I HATE PIGEONS UGGHHHHHHHH
Agree! This is real and I just pray that the Lord gives her grace for her suffering.
The sound of someone's shaky voice before they cry is the most heartbreaking thing
Kenna M yes :(
"This is what the government should be killing, not us," i laughed so hard omg im sorry
haha I thought it was funny too!
Dodie!!
@@sarakyoutube I love you I think we are feature frieds
Why dude,like..... this is really serious😿😿😿
GET HER TO READ THIS🙌🏼
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Spray that mite poison on the floor and leave it for a day, spray again the next day, leave it for another day, and then vacuum the whole carpet with the bugs thoroughly!!! Then toss the stuff in the vacuum away and outside! You should be good. I've dealt with it before! If that doesn't work, do it again with a more powerful spray!! It'll take maybe 3-4 days but it's worth a clean home!!
And you most likely have to throw BOTH plants away sadly.
thank you babe:)
Sara K you're welcome! I know it sucks!!! But hopefully you get this problem dealt with because some can eventually fly.
it is most likely birds mite, usually it doesn't stick to people, however it can stick to people who has a low immune system that may be caused by depression...etc...they thrive humidity, heat...you need De.ben's evictor....there is a site well documented...
Dude your face looks like you've been on meth for days or tripping on cough medicine
Anyone who has ever lost someone close, understands her rn.
She's at the "what the fuck else could go wrong now" stage.
Stay strong baby.
Jamie Bevers poor baby!. i feel so bad for her
Jamie Bevers when my dad died my friends were staying at my house and they accidentally popped my air mattress that my dad gave me and I flipped the f*** out I feel bad now but I understand her I feel so bad :( I lost my dad December 2015
Cecilia Hernandez I'm sorry for your loss :( i feel you girl. I lost my dad December 2016 :(
Cecilia Hernandez feel ya girl. lost my mama 2014, 2 weeks before my 18th bday.
Never have been the same since. you loose a piece of yourself. It's like they take a piece of you w them and you never feel the same again.
I am sorry for your loss. 💔
Tyla Z sorry for your loss as well 😔
"I HOPE THIS CAN BRING SOME HUMOR" *tears streaming down face*
Natalie Thomas SAME! Omg
Hannah Same 😂😭
Natalie Thomas LOL SAME
Natalie Thomas 💕💕
You need to bag the whole plant and put it outside.
these are the raw moments of life
OK perfect comment.
DJPara one hundred and ten percent. RAWWWW. We have all been there been there whether we’d like to admit it or not
When she said "the other tree is connected to the other one so the bugs will think it's a bridge, ding ding ding ding ding" I DIED!!!! 😂😂😂😂
MakeupbySoph at that moment I knew she would make an awesome BFF lol. She is a trip!
Her shaking voice breaks me.
FYI everyone it's called the grieving process...she's going thru it. she's not crazy. Give her a break
Stefanie Romay Slow down sjw, I haven't seen anything negative. people are understanding and it's beautiful.
+Chartee Lynn what does a social justice warrior have to do with this bro lol dont try to be relatable
lmfao thank you. idk what Chartee is talking about... most comments i read is someone telling me to go get help or go see a psychologist. ive been through grieving before, i watched my mom die, eventually everyone will go through it but its obvious to see who has been though something similar and someone who is completely ignorant to the situation, i thank you for this comment and even though i am slightly crazy lol, i know these feelings, i know i will be okay, it might take months, years, decades, but hey. tomorrow is always another day to move forward
+Chartee Lynn someone doesn't know what a SJW even means lmao
I think chartee just meant it was nice to see people being so kind and respectful towards this video, but I assume the majority of you thought different! That's okay! X
She reminds me of Lorde
Gia nettie me 2
and erika from team 10
Gia nettie wait so she is alone does she not have any sibling?
my little pony do not compare sara to that. my goodness.
Gia nettie omg same
She seems like a really strong person
Hans she is, she really is.
Laugh? I'm crying. I realize that your tears are not just fear, but also the loss of two beloved parents who can no longer protect you from your fears.
4men2women I cried reading that.
4men2women yaaa you are right
I cried my eyes out aswell. So sad😞
A cockroach fell on my head once and then crawled down my arm. I screamed sooo loud. Its been over two years and I still. dont. feel. clean.
My soul left me and I so relate to how you're feeling right now.
Nikki O I had a dream once that a cockroach was crawling down a my shirt. Being terrified of bugs, I jolted awake, and then realized that THE FUCKING COCKROACH WAS REAL. I screamed. Worst night of my life.
Nikki O I was showering at home and grabbed my loofah and felt this thing crawling on my hand and jumped out the shower screaming. I put on my wet glasses and I can sort of see this long ass bug that kind of looked like a caterpillar/cockroach and I ran into my mom's room naked almost in tears. I just can't, not with bugs.
Omfg same
Rae Annabelle THAT HAS HAPPENED TO MEEEWW
" i thought i was savage but im not.... 21 " 💀💀😭
hahah :)
Hai
Cuppii Wright
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Maybe dad is trying to help his baby overcome her fears!!.
nah hes fuckin with me in sick ways to get some entertainment. that's just how he was hahah
Sara K OMG you replied😻 I admire you so much!, love you and hope your doing better.
Adele López I'm confused does she not have any siblings to come help
She points to a baby picture
"I've only been in this life for 5 days now. I can't screw things up just yet" :(
crying, bare skin, battling emotions - she stays freaking beautiful!!!
RachyRooM
im new here! whats her problem tho?
ETTII bee her dad died, so she's by herself now. She has a fear of bugs and her dad used to take care of them.
see girl, look at that, you did it. Don't ever think you can't do something. You can do anything. There was a problem and you fixed it, all by yourself. All you need is you.
Yolanda T I just stumbled on this comment and I’ve been going through the hardest months of my life. I’ve been trying to pick myself up but I feel discouraged all the time. Finding this comment feels like a sign from the lord that I’ll make it through and I’ll get my courage and pride back. Thank you for posting this
"I thought I was savage but i'm not"
*murmurs* .."21"
I was on my FLOOR OMG.
i was on the floor in my head but it was such a serious moment i couldnt even laugh at myself lol. thats how you know its deep shit
I don't understand the comments saying "someone help her she's crying over bugs". I'd be crying too if millions of bugs were infesting my house! You kicked those bugs ass Sara and I'm proud of you!
Corinne Woods your house is infested with bugs. Bugs are everywhere. The average house has thousands of spiders alone. But spiders are good cuz they kill all the other bugs. Sleep tight.
HOLY SHIT THANK YOU DUDE!!!!! Im deadass over here like yooooo wtf i post videos of me crying all the time, of me saying the craziest things and the word therapist or "get help" has never came out of one mouth.... yet, the second i make a video of a real time event people wana call me out and tell me i need help and need to see someone now. ive been giggling over those comments. people and the way their brains think confuse me so much... those bugs had NOTHING to do with my feelings towards my dad lol, yes i was hella upset i didnt know where the bug killer was and that he wasnt here to do it for me but you guys, come one, i get im emotional, i just watched now both my parents die but you cant possibly tell me you would be okay with having to touch and handle millions of tiny mites. this wasnt a spider you could take out side or squash okay... lol there were millions.
if anything i could teach therapists and psychiatrists a couple things lol:) kidding, people get offended over anything in todays society but its all gucci. those who know me and have been following me from the jump know ill be okay... i want to show you guys real shit, im not going to make up a fake story and sit in front of a set up and pretend to be happy with a smile on my face.
im very sad right now, im having to learn alot and grow up more than i thought i already was after losing my mom. im going through a huge learning period and a huge life changing experience.... the last thing i want to hear is that i need help, id like to think im taking care of myself and my situation just fine... i know i got this guys:(
if i believe in myself i need yall believing in me as well.
Sara K Sara i love your personality so much .
all this is, is your mind going through the inevitable. we know you can face it without anybody's help. All you're going to obtain is growth, mentally and spiritually
Sara K we are there with you girl. Yes we have been watching you since a long time nd we know u are a strong person so You can make it through this. It's just a tough time dear. Don't let the muggles let ya down :)
The most strongest courageous girl I've seen.
Lali Sha mmmmh why?
I suffer from severe anxiety disorders and I understand this break down so much. I'm so sorry you have to go through this time sweety we love you. You're so strong😍
I know anxiety like I know my name:) hahhaha
this is still so sad to me because I feel like she isn't crying just about the bugs, I feel like she's also crying because there's nobody to help her she's all on her own now and has to deal with this fear by herself you know what I mean? I don't know I'm not a psychologist I'm not trying to be the annoying person who tells someone how theyre feeling but that's just how it seems to me. Shes alone in a time of need. Its heart breaking...we're all here for you
Kate Ramonie i agree so much with your comment
I believe so too this was only 5 days after her dad passed i know it's about more then plants and bugs
Nothing is wrong with you. That's how phobias work, they make you feel anxious, disgusting, like things are crawling all over and into you. I have the same thing with spiders.
and all these other people thinking im crazy or sum... like yall knew that how long ago and NOW you wana tell me to get help....
Sara K Girl, you are far from crazy.
YOU. ARE. NOT. CRAZY. Don't ever forget that.
Angela Erelle Shartiel yes ! Me too 😭😭😭
I have the same thing with holes
Hey Sara, my parents own a flower shop and my dad will most likely be able to help with this. I will ask him definitely, but most mites live on the underside of the leaves. Keep spraying the underside (and any other part that you want) with the dish soap and water and I would suggest taking the plants that aren't affected by the mites out of the room to prevent spreading. They aren't on the walls or the bed and will die if they leave the plant because the sap from inside the leaves in the only thing keeping them alive so don't worry about the spreading through your house, they can't do that or they'll die. I will ask my dad what he thinks could be the issue and how you can fix it!
Sara needs to see this comment...
Hannah Pratt like it up
Hannah Pratt Sarah see this!!!
Hannah Pratt SARA READ HEREEEEE 👆👆👆👆👆👆👆👆
Okay I talked to my dad and he said that it's either aphids or spider mites but most likely aphids. He said that at Lowes there is an insecticide called Nuprid that will kill them all even the eggs and also there is insecticide soap as well. He said they won't get on you and they won't spread to your furniture. If you need anymore help please let me know!
She's so beautiful I'm honestly so jealous tbh like supermodel goals not even kidding
oh goodness haha thank you!
Sara is the only person that could make a video about crying over bugs for almost an hour and I'd still enjoy every second of it (not enjoy your suffering but the video in general)
"An infestation my dude" 😂 me when I encounter one bug in my house.
this is raw, heartbreaking.. but real. this is real.
soph M real is so refreshing in this world of fake social media bullshit
soph M ikr that's why I love her she doesn't sugar coat and is just so down to earth not giving a crap about what people think.
We all know the phobia isn't the reason why she's crying. One of the only living connections she has with her dad are those plants. And those bugs are killings the plants. Essentially, the plants will die....just like her dad. Poor girl is trying to prevent that.
River Lane you can't say that unless you are her,honestly.
River Lane à
or she's freaked out by bugs and the stress of them being everywhere plus stress of other obvious things is making her cry ? its not always so deep and spiritual brother. you cant really make the call.
it ain't that deep
I don't think it is that deep really. I have phobia of bugs too and the episodes literally look just like this.
This honestly hurts to watch...
im crying right now from watching this cause this is exactly how i was when my fiance died. i would obsess over anything else going on in the house just so i wouldnt be dealing with the pain and i didnt sleep for weeks while having a constant panic attack. im praying for u sweetie from the bottom of my heart. god bless.
Nina Schwartz im so sorry
Nina Schwartz Im sorry
Nina Schwartz wow that's really harsh... sorry for your loss 🙏🏼
you are right... i am busy 24/7 around this place... find myself trying to clean in between the floor boards just do my mind never has a chance to drift back into reality... sometimes im unaware of it.. sometimes i make a list of things to do front and back and spend all day checking everything off... the mind is an interesting thing
+Sara K that's OK honey you do what you need to take every day as it comes 8f family and friends want to come stay please let them you need support right now what you are going through is massive and you're doing well so far but everyone needs support at some point you clearly love your dad deeply so I bet he adored you and would be incredibly proud of you. keep pushing day by day xx
You're emotional because you dont know what to do because you are alone .. im so sorry you are going through this ..
Asoossi this girl needs someone to be with. its seems she needs psychologist and teach her to fight for thia kind of situation. because if not she will be crazy! 😢
Asoossi I think she really knows why she's emotional.
Just Michele she knows she's crazy and she's been to therapy,she doesn't need more of that.
Thinking about you today, and the fact that you have helped me and so many truly appreciate what we have today. Your mother would be so proud of the impact you've had. You're gonna do amazing things, Sarah you effect people you don't even know so deeply. Wishing you the best, strength and happiness and brighter days. Thank you for teaching us what's important. You deserve so much more.
this was a beautiful comment. thank you so much.... seriously
i come back to this video every time im feeling hopeless. i sit and watch the entire thing through and it makes me feel like i can be okay, im strong enough to handle what is given to me. thank you for being raw and real, this video means so much to me.
I have never clicked on a video so fast
Carrie Blumhardt same guurll
omg same
Carrie Blumhardt omfg same
Carrie Blumhardt tbh
same here im like wow she posted so soon
Google an Entomologist in your state. I've had this situation they will tell you exactly what bugs they are. Seriously, and if they're from your state they will do it for free!!! Thumbs up so she'll see this
You have to be the REALEST person on the Internet and I LOVE it
aww thank you my love!
Sara K ❤️
I literally started sobbing at 4:07 because I just know that there is so much more to this and ughhhhhh. I've never felt so much emotion from one person.
Lady you poor thing :( I'd freak too. You've been on my mind so much since your last video and I want you to know, people are here for you! I think I remember you saying you don't use social media but I wanna just say - if you ever need to vent or talk, hit me up. Love you xxx
Melanie Murphy love your channel and kindness too ❤️
I haven't stopped thinking about her since her last video, she's been one of my favorite TH-camrs for awhile but she's been in my
Mind for quit some time.
Melanie Murphy ladies are 70 , she's a young woman. don't call her lady
lovelyxskinny nah, lady is a respectful term to call a woman. Have you not heard the expression "young lady" called to a little girl? A lady is a classy woman of any age.
Colleen Fenner i have heard young lady yeah but lady by itself is kind of a rude way of addressing someone who isnt old. maybe thats just uncommon where i live in canada idk.
"Causes eye irritation."
*comes back with googles and gloves*
I FUCKING DIED 😂
those were my dads sun glasses too hahaha i felt like that girl in the video where she has the low pony tail and she turns around and smile with her braces and sun glasses lol, you know what im talking about??
Sara K omg yeeees
lollylynful samee!😂😂
Sara K i know that girl in real life😂 I was at a halloween party with her and was like dead. love you sara❤
lollylynful I screamed
I never knew they were bugs
Now I feel dumb for touching them
Fuck me 😐
lmfao dude this cracked me up to the point I had to read it to the person next to me and I didn't even know them
Sara K hahahahah xD
I love sara soooo much wow wowowoowowow
Lottie J I SEEN YOU ON THE REPORT OF THE WEEKS VIDEOS XD
I've never felt closer to another persons pain through a video than I did watching this. Something just resonated so fucking deeply because of how raw and real you are; not just your pain, but the immense strength in your eyes and soul.
Alena Ps This is so beautifully put. 😍👌
21:34 *comes back with protective glasses and gloves*
O SHIT SHE'S ON A MISSION
but really I wish I could've helped you out :/
Why is it that every video I watch of her I end up crying in the beginning, middle, and/or ending? My heart just aches for her, and all she's been through at such a young age.
Valentina Santic she has a very contagious cry 😭
Valentina Santic i'm literally like that too... i can't watch Sara's videos without crying my ass off
Laying in bed watching this and all I feel is bugs all over my body 😩... sending you a virtual hug you did a good job 🌷
lol thank you!
I feel so bad for you, but the "two, count em', two marshmallows" part made me laugh so hard 😂😂😂
kika la chica FRRRR
it's lowkey sad because her shirt has a human hugging a cactus
me: sees one bug and has a breakdown
me after killing it: hire me y'all i'm your local bug inspector
Katie Jones lmao same
Katie Jones i
Me as fuck
so she's completely alone? 😔 I don't think I would be able to stay in an empty house like that , especially if she lived with her dad, I mean I just couldn't imagine waking up one day knowing that your dad won't be downstairs making breakfast or something..I'm sorry Sara, I really hope you have someone so you aren't alone
yee i got this!
Sara K if I send you my number will you call me please
"Oh it's a little bridge, dink dink dink dink dink" 😂😂
I CHOKED WHEN SHE CAME IN WITH THE GLOVES & THE GLASSES
kyra may lmao deadass
I'm 18 and my mom passed away from liver cancer on Sunday. I can't even begin to explain the hurt and heartbreak such a loss creates. I haven't stopped crying but at the same time I am happy she is no longer in pain and I truly believe she's in a better place. I know exactly how you feel Sara but we can't do it alone, little triggers in life are constantly going to set us off and remind us of all the pain. Don't be afraid to seek professional help.
bvlikis ❤
i'm so sorry rey to here that. i'm 18, and can't imagine the amount of pain you're going through right now. stay strong tho, friend. :)
I lost my mom to liver cancer 9 months ago today.. I wake up every day and just think "wow, another day has gone by where I'm never going to see her again." I miss her so much.. I know I need professional help but I just don't know how to go about it.. the pain somewhat immobilizes me. I still can't seem to wake up. To have been blessed with such a remarkable mom for my 20 years of life makes me grateful, and I only wish we could've spent more time with our moms.. I'm praying for you. We shouldn't have to lose amazing people so young in our lives.
you are fucking amazing I never saw a girl like you, realy im shocked, i'm not afraid of bugs but i have fear of hights and im totally understand you. we are your family!!!! we love you and just want you to be happy, we are here for everything, and we will never go away I promise you!❤❤❤❤ fam for ever😍
I loved this comment, thank you very much
"I thought I was savage but I'm not......... 21. Broom sweeping like a broom stick....21" 😂😂😂
Carolyn Watts Sarah had me cracking uppppppp.
This is real!! Realist person I've seen on you tube , I'm sorry for your loss, I lost my father in 08, sweetheart, i see the anxiety, this hits home for me ....there's nothing to be embarrassed about !
i loved this comment, thank you so so much
Lillian Flores I'm so sorry
Lillian Flores This is real! I lost my dad too, I became so antisocial and I hate myself, my confidence sucks...
+sparkly anna thank you
+Mary Jane Blondie I became that way too , both my parents were passed by the age of 24 and I didn't know what to I became numb and develop later angorphopia anxiety and depression then I was in a abusive relationship which was totally toxic , every one see it but you type of deal it's hard because losing a parent let alone both makes it harder , but through time and healing and friends I have I call family I made a safety net trust me I lost myself through those years I'm 33 now and I still feel like I needed that guidance from my parents , never lose hope or faith , believe that he is always with you , and whenever you doubt yourself tell yourself I've come this far and I'm still here
You no this actually made me cry. Not because I'm scared of bugs, which I'm not but it's because I can actually feel her pain. Not just about the bugs but what she associated with it. Like her mom and dad use to kill them for her and take care of that and now she's on her own. She has this huge ass phobia and the loss of her dad in less then a month. If I were her I would've just given up. Sara, we're here for you and we love you❤️❤️
Kaeli Boutsomsi Her parents is no more?
I'm sorry☹️
Kaeli Boutsomsi is
I feel so bad for you , I definitely understand the bug phobia . Mine is not that bad but yes people think it's a joke but I don't do bugs at all
I also love how there's just classical music in the background throughout the entire video
So relatable man. Thanks for this.
never a need to thank me
Adrienne Show hi
Sara K hi
I just found your channel recently so I don't know a lot about you. I'm not gunna be one of these fucks in the comments who tell you to stay strong. Who the fuck is gunna stay strong in your situation. Freak out, freak the hell out until you fall asleep from exhaustion. Your under sooo much stress right now and don't have anyone except these youtube commenters to give you help. In most situations we usually have people to turn too for help and an ear to listen. Get a psychologist now. Don't continue this illusion of staying strong. There's only so much you can take before you burst. You WILL be ok eventually, but you NEED a psychologist. Even if its just to talk about your problems it'll help. I hope you have some friends who can comfort you as well. Most important thing is to not feel like you need to be strong or handle this all on your own, it'll drive you insane.
Awkward Egg Account You're super right.. Or atleast she should probably go get some of her friends or professionals if they know what to do with the bugs and herself.. I feel so sorry for her..😢
Awkward Egg Account amen
Awkward Egg Account holy grail of words 🙌
Awkward Egg Account FINALLY SOMEBODY SAID IT FINALLLYYYYYYYYYY
blossominnie said what?
unless you have a bug phobia y'all can't be saying she's going crazy..
Sarah you should invite a friend over to help you with the bugs and keep you company 💓
jeneece betancourt that's what I was thinking. She needs someone that's close to her a friend or her siblings to come help her and keep her company. Poor thing I wish I lived close to her I'd come kill the bugs. She's losing her mind and I would be too.
Main thing... you said "the only thing I can't do is bugs." When in fact, you did it. You figured out a way to get rid of them. Good for you for accomplishing that.
i discovered you recently and you seem like a sweet and funny girl. like the type of person id love to be friends with. ive had breakdowns like this too, i admire your courage. wish you the best hun
thank you very much, that really means a lot to me
I hope You're been treating yourself properly, Sarah. I know it's hard but I want you to come back to a point where you can actually and fully smile without a constant pain on yourself. Please be strong. Adore you
It's Sara
Jane S. Ik :/ Autocorrection did me wrong twice up there apparently
+Isabel Cládia Santos de Carvalho it's all good 😏
Sara K I'm happy to hear that :) My best wishes and once again be the strong young woman you are!!
I just want to help you so badly. This breakdown truly shows how some people function off camera but don't have the balls to catch it all on camera.. this shit's relatable af. Fuck all the makeup hauls, beauty trends, and girls and guys that pretend to have their shit together when most of us go through episodes like this but are too embarrassed to admit. Keep your chin up Sara, you're amazing
we want REAL
YES
FR THO. i wish we could all go and visit sara and hug her forever
dude - i have a phobia of ants and this is accurate af. when she was getting goosebumps and gagging, i felt it in the pit of my stomach! i get the SAME way!
jenna same thing I'm thinking. like where are all her friends...... 😑😑😑
"Ah it's a little bridge ding ding ding ding" 😂😂ahh I love you, I have a phobia with bugs too and ahhhh I felt every moment like I was there.
I feel like she was having a nervous breakdown from her parents passing
21:20
"harmful if absorbed through skin avoid inhalation of mist causes eye irritation"
*sighs and walks away*
......
*comes back with gloves and sunglasses*
damn GUrl I thought u were gonna give up with the bugs but u are NO QUITTER keep staying strong everything will work out alright? ALL of us are here for you and you're never alone
It was funny with the gloves and such.haha didnt expect to see this. 😍
Sophie .
Idk if its messed up. But I died when she said "I didn't get to ask my dad where he put the plant oil" 😩
this is the PAIN and FEAR.
YOU ARE SO STRONG. PLEASE STAY LIKE THIS, GOD WILL HOLD YOU AND KEEP YOU.
I KNOW THAT THIS MEANS ALMOST NOTHING, THIS IS JUST ONE OF COMMENTS BUT..
I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU SARA...
AND I PRAY FOR YOU...
IF UR GONNA READ THIS COMMENT, I LOVE YOU SOO SOO MUCH....😢❤
This is beyond a fear of bugs, girl I'm actually so worried about you. I've been here before, it wasn't good. Your pain is unbearable in this video, and in most. I want to hug you.
"I thought I was savage but Im not"
*whispers*
"21"
*growns like a whale*
"Broom sweeping like a broomstick"
*whispers*
"21"
girl I just found you, and Im feeling for you so much, but I sadly find humor in this
It's amazing how she's able to be humorous at a time like this
what does she mean 21
Loran Surendran there's a well known rapper called "21 savage" I think she's making a joke around that :)
+Loran Surendran i was quoting a line from a song he wrote and his name is 21, and he has to repeat his name after every word that comes out of his mouth so thats what i was doing hahah .... i wouldnt recommend him at all lmfao, i was singing his words but it was in a joking manner
loooooool
Sara I don't mean to startle you but the bugs probably came up through that vent near that plant. So seal up that vent!! They haven't come from the plant itself but from the vent!
Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens. beautiful song to help you figure some things out during such a trying time... its ok to cry, even if your father is slapping you in spirit. he understands, and so do we. one day in 40 some odd years, you'll be the age you currently are on the inside, and you'll have had every experience in the world, from enlightening to devastating to infuriating to beautiful. few people will ever be as strong as you, and no one could ever attain the same radiance you possess, even when you cry. things are light and calm in the place where your parents, both, now rest... keep letting that aura in.
this comment was beautiful and honestly made me emotional. thank you very much
clairefruit what an awesome and true comment!!
this brought tears to my eyes
clairefruit your comment made me emotional and strong cuz my mom passed away a few months back and I was really really close to her she was my only best friend😔
It's almost like the issue is MUCH bigger than the bugs and plants.. praying for you hun ❤️
This is what i found on google.
Yes its a couple of paragraphs but I hope it helps.
Although the trumpet vine (Campsis radicans), also called trumpet creeper, is among the easiest of ornamentals to grow, bug infestations are not unheard of. The flowering vine, which grows in U.S. Department of Agriculture plant hardiness zones 4 through 9, sometimes hosts pests including scale insects, whiteflies, spider mites, planthoppers and mealybugs.
Keep the Dust Down
Trumpet vine prefers moist soil, especially in full sun. Too little water attracts most of the pests that have been reported as problems on the trumpet vine. These include spider mites, scale insects and whiteflies. Keep the trumpet vine well watered so the soil feels consistently moist. Further reduce the dusty, dry conditions that attract trumpet vine pests by keeping nearby garden beds adequately watered. Cover dirt paths and bare patches of ground with mulch.
Get Rid of Ants
After feeding on the trumpet vine, some insects, such as mealybugs, scales, planthoppers and whiteflies, excrete a substance known as honeydew. Ants are attracted to honeydew, and fight off predatory insects that might otherwise feed on the honeydew-producing bugs. Deal with ants by placing ant bait stations near trumpet vines. Ant bait stations are pre-filled with a poison the ants carry back to their nest, reducing or eliminating the ant population. Painting the lower sections of the vine with a commercial product designed to make woody plants too sticky for bugs to climb may also do the trick.
Blast Them Off
While spraying trumpet vine bugs with a ready-to-use insecticidal soap is a valid control option, even organic sprays can harm some of the beneficial insects that feed on trumpet vine pests. A safer method is to blast the bugs off the trumpet vine with jets of water from your garden hose. It's best to do this spraying in the late morning on a sunny day, so the vines have a chance to dry off before nightfall. Wet leaves overnight can encourage diseases.
Cut Them Out
In some cases, only a few sections of your trumpet vine may show the telltale "lumpy" look that indicates a scale infestation, or the cottony-looking material created by nesting planthoppers. If this is the case, prune away the parts of the vine that seem to be infested. Trumpet vine is tough and can take even severe pruning. After you've cut part of the main vine or pruned branching sections of the vine, burn or discard the infested sections. This measure ensures the bugs don't find their way back.
I'm very very sorry for your loss. I don't know you but I can tell there was no better persons hands for those plants to be in then yours. You got this. No plant bugs stand a chance.
Where are you right now? I will literally buy a ticket, fly over, and destroy these bugs for you. You need someone to do this for you while you take a nap or have froyo or something.
thechunkydunk sammme seriously ☹️😞😭💖💖💖
lmfao i would have rather been popping someones blister than what i was doing
Sara K I want to help you so bad, I am so sorry
What a kind human u are 🙏🏼💕
Sara K i would rather not ever do that....lol. Anything that involves thick bodily fluids would make me gag
I've never lost someone I care about before and I dread when the day comes. You are one amazing woman, going through all the grieving plus plowing on through this horrible phobia. You are so strong and inspirational. You can do this.
literally coming back after so many years to watch this rn bc i have my own bug situation at the moment
That's called grieving, stop commenting that she should see a psychologist or whatever. You have no idea what she's going through
Therapy can help get through grieving. I don't know why people think going to see a therapist is a bad thing. It can be a good thing.
I fill your pain literally,I lost my mom from cancer 6 months ago,lost my dad from diabetes two years ago,stay strong and pray and ask God to help u stay strong,direct u, and push u through this rough course in your life. Be strong,and appreciate your life and have faith,your parents wouldn't want u to be depressed and down ,that path is the path of destruction. Be happy,open a bible up sometime he will guide u, u and I know how quick life can be took away, you only get one life,God bless.
A psychologist can help her, to talk with her, to help her to relax.. She doesn't have to be alone to prove she's strong ! NOBODY knows she's going through, even you because it's her emotions ! So saying that if she feels like she needs help now or later, she can seek help is showing her support and explain to her that she IS NOT ALONE.
Lol damn y'all. I don't need a therapist or Someone to talk to about my problems lol, I need someone to talk to I got about 13 voices up in my head. Lol. There's a reason I'm not seeing anyone and a reason I'm not on meds anymore. If anything people telling me to go get help and get on meds is one of the biggest triggers I've ever had keep coming up in my comment section
Saying that you can see someone if you need it isn't telling that you need to see someone, there is a big different. But yea, at the end it's your decision sure.
I can't watch you being so sad..
oh boii. same! I feel quite worried for her.
oh boii it's breaking my heart that I can't physically help
oh boii I wish I could be there for her, hug her I feel like she really needs it 😢
I really hope she has a support system. She has no social medias so its hard to see how she is and she doesn't talk a lot about her personal life except for mom and dad's death and I'm just worried for her :/
I just hope her mental health is doing okay because its quite common to be in denial but I hope she has a person/fam/friend to help her through it because it's so hard to do it all on her own at such a young age.
This is so real, it's unbelievable...
"oh its a bridge dink dink dink" lmao You are so beautiful and real and your humor is great
*Sara ANYTHING you need, dm me on instagram @brookehouts, or literally anything else. I would seriously fly out to you or drive or what the fuck EVER you want*, because I want to help in any way I can. I know I can't heal any of the pain you've been through or fix anything really, but if you just want someone to come help you in any way possible I'M YOUR GIRL
urgh I feel the same way, my mama bear side wants her to be and feel happy
Brooke Houts yes she need it 😭😂
I'm laughing and crying at the same time because this was me when my dad passed and my husband left me. I would have panic attacks and anxiety attacks. Sometimes the smallest of things triggered me. Like why is there so many dishes? There shouldn't be so many dishes .. *cries*
yo but these were bugs...... like where were there so many bugs lmfao!!!! i was crying and laughing too babe dont worry
Sara K i love you tons
"an infestation, my dOOd. a GOT damn infestation."
19:40
"Where's the dude that loves to rip out my lilac bushes before they're even blooming, huh?"
"Here's a real issue for you to deal with, an infestation my dude. A GA-OWD DAMN INFESTATION."
I can feel your pain and fear here Sara, but even in this difficult time you are one of the funniest women I have ever seen
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this is so sad but her humor is amazing
You are doing a great job taking care of your self first and foremost. Put the buggy plant in a black plastic bag and seal it. take it outside.
If you have tea tree oil put some in the water bottle and spray the area where the old plant was. open a window to freeze the little beasts.
throw out the towels and for the next few days vacuum and spray regularly it shouldn't take too long to get rid of them.
Be well and remember you are way bigger than them.
this was one of the most helpful comments i have ever gotten, thank you.
J DLN honestly bless you
J DLN how did you proceed?
I hope you are well and that the bug problem is gone?
"You'd shit bricks NO You'd shit BOULDERS" Hahahhahaa
"These fumes are getting to me"
*Reads bottle- avoid inhalation and eye irritation
*Storms off
*Comes back with sunglasses on and gloves
Me.
mann, the fact that you still even put a video up is insane to me.. with everything your going through i wouldnt be able to do it. You talked about respect in one of your past videos and i just wana say i have mad respect for you woman. For keeping yourself busy literally even if its having to deal with your fear of bugs. The level of strength your on rn is amazing. Sending you love from the Bay Area girl❤ i hope you continue to find more and more coping skills, the more the better. You deserve the world babe, your real supporters including myself got you to the fullest👌
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this comment was beautiful. to me, the biggest compliment anyone can give to me is telling me they respect me. that hits me harder than any compliment on anything else ever would. i was just in the bay area not to long ago to see Russ preform, the energy there is amazing. you know no matter what i am going through i always got you too, if you ever need me or someone to talk to im always here, im be okay
your beautiful to me! I love watching your videos they make my day lol btw i love Russ too, i remember i used to listen to him on soundcloud when he wasnt big at the time, hes a great. Anyway if you need a friend just remember my name girl❤
Girl this is by far some of the REALEST SHIT I HAVE EVER WITNESSED ON TH-cam! I need you to know all of your emotions/reactions are valid, you've been through hell and back and if anybody is tryna come at you sayin your over reacting they're gonna catch these hands. Sending you tons of love💕
-M
Madalyn Sorrell , girls I might be a little late on this one, Madalyn I'm completely on the same page you are. She has shared and showed her pain and her life with all of us and for anyone to say anything negative needs my hands too. She is such a strong young girl dealing with the heaviest world now, that no one not one soul should say anything about over reacting. I don't think an Emmy is even good enough for her. Girl you will get thru anything life has to hand you, bugs and all lol. I know your not religious but my prayers and heart are with you. I would have to say you are one of the strongest woman I have seen, and I'm a nurse and I've seen a lot of people in my life. Girl, you got this.
"i thought i was savage, but i'm not. 21" LMAO HAD ME DYING
yo I tried writing this comment 5 times but I can't express how much I respect you and how much I'd help you if I could. just like every one of your subscribers.
please stay strong, you can do this, sara
and to everyone reading this going through a rough time
you can ways inbox me, if you need help or just want to rant.
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well hey 5th time is a charm!!! thank you so much it really does mean a lot to me and you know that if you need anyone to talk to I am here for you any time
Sara K 💕
When satan is testing tf out of you.
Hunter Naksh ikr I feel really bad for her
omg what ! satan is not real fuck of ! it not funny !
Yikes. This is a really insensitive comment.
I really feel for you. I am also sorry that this is affecting you emotionally. I would NEVER wish this on my worst enemy; phobia or not. Mites? IDK.
I am aware of "Superbugs" due to GMO crops and farming. You are not crazy.
You probably live within a 50 mile radius of a GMO (Government) farm. You probably live within Chemtrail area.
Those who are laughing will one day look back on the day you've posted and realize this is not a funny matter.
Can yall chill its just a comment, like i understand that you all feel for her because i do as well, but when i posted that comment i was just trying to make light of the situation i wasn't trying to be rude. You (no one in specific ) trying to tell me that im insensitive or deny anyones belief or saying that I'll look back on a comment i made and feel some type of way is irrelevant. I was trying to make her smile (even though she probably didn't see it ) and make others who can relate to her smile please do not think that I or anyone is trying to be negative for no reason cause it's the Internet everyone interpretes things in different ways.
This was the most beautiful breakdown I've ever seen. When she pulled out those gloves and glasses, I lost it. This was funny Sara, and I hope you find this funny as well one day. Things won't ever get easier, they will just be more manageable -- but I'm sure you already know that, you're a smart girl. I'm so happy I found your channel and I will forever try to keep up with you and hope that you will keep making videos because, like many subscribers on this channel, we find comfort and realness in what you provide us, and I'm not sure you really understand that. You're not stuck up, showing us fake love, you treat us as if we are someone special in your life, thats what I respect you for -- that no matter how famous you are, you give time to those who got you where you are .. unlike other youtubers. I didn't intend to make this long and sentimental, I'm sorry lmao. Just know we love you and we got your back, mama mellow
Alma Kurgas good words
Alma Kurgas awesome words friend ! and omg I chuckled at the gloves and glasses too ..
I agree! I love how she's herself with us, she cries about her fears, she tries to kill them even with tears in her eyes, but I agree when she came back with those glasses and gloves oh man DED. Laughed like an idiot hahaha I love her!
Natalie rere I'm glad I wasn't the only one
Barley starting watching your channel & I adore you already. Praying for strength in all avenues of your life. Here for you! #Blessings 💕✨
well thank you very much, I really appreciate that and thank you for taking the time to watch my videos!
You're undoubtedly the strongest and most inspirational person I've come across these past few months. I'm sending you all the existent love in the world, from the bottom of my heart. I love you so much and keep going strong.