My sister died yesterday, and I hope that she has found peace. I hope that we will all find peace, in life or beyond. Whoever you are and wherever you live, I believe that everyone deserves their peace. Value yourself and your life
Reminds me of the small island cottage on Peaks Island in Maine that one of my dad's mentors owned growing up. My dad's mentor let our family stay there sometimes, usually at the end of the summer when he and his wife went back home. That house had an attic bedroom where I would stay. It had a window facing out and up like this. It looked out over a little isthmus that was basically two rocky beaches with a wooded path between them. At the end of the path was a small island-type area with trees and a really nice rock beach that looked out on the Atlantic Ocean. My dad and I used to love skipping rocks together out there. One time we went out there on the last day of our stay. It was a cloudy day, one of those days at the end of summer that's still warm enough, but kinda feels like fall, especially in Maine where the light starts to get dim in the afternoon because of the latitude. We were out there skipping rocks and playing together for hours. After a while I stopped, because I was sad; I knew it was our last day on the island. My dad came over to me and asked what was wrong. I started crying a little bit and I told him, "Dad, I never want to leave this place." My dad worked hard his whole life. So did my mom. About ten years later, we built a house on that island. We spent our whole summers out there for years: first clearing the land, then pitching in to help the builders to save money, then preparing the house. My dad and I laid all of the flooring through the house, tiles and hardwood. We finally finished it when I hit high school. We rented it out through most of the summer to pay it off, but we'd always go at the beginning and end of summer for a few weeks, and on weekends to turn the house around between renters. I have so many memories of that house. It became my real home when we moved out of our family home when I was a young teenager. Those were hard times. My dad would sometimes tell me the story of how I said, "Dad, I never want to leave this place." As a teenager I shrugged it off as sentimental nonsense. Now I realize that he and my mom did everything they could to make my wish come true. I got older and my life got crazy. I moved far away, first for school, then for a crazy dream and a girl who wanted to be famous. We moved to LA. My sister moved out west, too, so eventually when she had a kid, my parents decided they should move out west, too. They sold that house and bought a new house out west. It's on an island, too. It's much bigger and nicer than the house we built on Peaks Island. It sits right over the water, and looks out back east, with an incredible view of a huge mountain. It's a magnificent home. But it's not my island home. Now I look back, and I wish I had never left. I wish I had never had crazy dreams or dated a wannabe superstar. Now I have a family of my own, and I live in a normal suburb in a quoet town. It's really nice. I have a good life. But I would give anything to be able to bring my family back to Peaks Island. Deep down, I still never want to leave that place.
I am laying in my bed, it's almost midnight and i am alone with mine dreams and memories...i am tired from everything. Your channel is a hidden gem for lonely souls.
I know it's been a month since you've posted this comment but I wanted to say even if you never read this that it will be alright in the end, it's tiring to keep going but I promise it will be worth it friend. I love you and I'm very proud of you💜
It's 5am. The sun's getting brighter. I'm alone in my room, in the quiet, with naught but the music and a fan giving me a breeze. I think about the person I once was. A few years ago. Was in a toxic relationship- though neither of us were to blame, we just fed off each other and made each other insufferable. We told each other we loved one-another but... The erosion of ourselves... we just... couldn't be together. Took a few years for us to get that. We broke up, for good. Went our separate ways. I hated it, at first. Couldn't bear the idea at first. It was loneliness. Even with friends around you. It all felt lonely. But we were visceral to each other. Any situation without them was better than being with them. Despite that, it still felt terrible to be in a situation like that even if it was over. But it got better. Day by day. Week by week. Month by month. Not years, yet. Not years. But hopefully I'll be able to look back and properly- REALLY properly look back on who I was. I hope they can too. I hope they've changed, for their own sake and for others. And I hope I've changed, for my sake and for others, too. I hope I'm enjoyable to be around. I hope I make people smile. I'm so glad to have people who care around me... even if sometimes those lonely feelings still hit. I still feel somewhat directionless. Like I'm not sure what to do. Or where to go. I suppose the "correct" answer is to go to work. Go put my elbow grease in and get some money! ... But that's not fulfilling. To know I will be treated as naught but a name against a number, an asset and not a person... to know I will have to do this, day in and day out where I cannot complain or fall out of line. To oil the gears of someone's machine who doesn't even know my name, with my own blood sweat and tears? Why? For what purpose? Just so I can live? It's a hollow concept. I cannot. I cannot feasibly work for something like that. I'm broken. Which is okay, I'm fine with the label of being broken. But I don't need a job making me worse. Then, with that knowledge, there becomes only one option- I want to create. I want to make an experience for someone to enjoy. I deserve the world that much. Even if creating becomes THE job... I'll be okay with that. Because at least I'll be working for me. I'll be working because I am doing something I enjoy. And I'm making things for people, and they enjoy the things I make. And that's nice. That brings them comfort, it brings me comfort. I'm feeling lonely again. I know, I know- that's foolish. But it'll pass. The feelings do pass eventually, and I realise I'm not alone. But for now, I am alone. At least... it is a calming type of alone. But I still wish someone was there. Maybe hugging me. I'd like a hug. _My battery is getting low and it's getting dark..._ Goodnight. It's appreciated that you read this. I'll never know if you did read it or not without feedback, but, I like convincing myself I've been heard. I hope something out there brings you comfort, too.
You can make it through all this. Don’t give up. If not for anyone else, then for this random commenter on TH-cam who’s in almost the same spot. You’ve got this. One step at a time.
I have it similar. In first relationshit, it was her therapist who finished all that, in second it was she, who dissolved the relationshit. In first i felt so loved, that i kept coming despite her not doing anything good for me like some gifts or shits. I did not need all that, i only needed to be loved. If she only stopped igniting on my most harmless racist jokes and understood, that this is my way to ridicule the racism, and im the guy who felt racism a couple of times here in Poland (im Belarusian, often mistaken as Ukrainian). Jokes are my personality, I love making people's life's more fun. If only she stopped lecturing me about racism every time i make even remotely offensive joke, i would have never been ambivalent toward her. She has severe mental struggles, i often listened about her fucked up story of life. She had 20 different pills like xanax, or pregabaline, to take daily. I was happy to help her with the chores she had no mental energy to do, like the pile of 1 week old dishes, or vacuuming the floor. She wasn't a beauty, but she gave me what i did not receive from others: cuddles, love, clingy nature, and all that stuff. I kinda miss her. Her therapist told her to break up, cuz im also messed up in the head and get in the way of her treatment, cuz when she was lecturing me for too long i showed so much "dont give a fuck" energy, that she could even have a panic attack. He was right, i have an ADHD and also a lot of mental trauma from my past, also caused by parents. Second gf was opposite. She showed love in more materialistic way, and i remember that she had a kinda beautiful smile, but her face was like a brick, most of the time, not showing emotions, and her words were truth, but painful, like 61tch i know you can live without me, why the fuck are you telling me that, why you trying to jealous bait me? I hate her with my whole heart. I tried my best to be good for her, also show love in her, materialistic way. It was never enough. She decided to dissolve the relationshit, cuz even tho i lied to myself that i love her, deep down my low dopamine levels decided, that making shoe box, separator walls out of shit and sticks with my friend was more fun, than go to her and help with her back problems. My mind simply shoved this shit out of my priority system. At first i didn't want to dissolve the relationshit, but when i got enough time without her, i found out, that even coming to her apartment gave me low level panic attack. She wanted to break up and be friends. I could not be with such obnoxious creature, manipulative, lying, always demanding and not showing love. Both of them put me in depression, but first one, only mildly, second one severely, coupled with shitty working environment, that i quit my job, and was a neet for 7 months. About job, i have the same feelings. Im afraid of repetitive course of my life, that i 40h give to my job, 40 to sleep and almost nothing to myself. Im still fighting, i found a new job in the same bike repair field, with better working conditions. I don't want to be a burden on society, i even tried quitting being alive, but i was lucky enough to cause damage only to skin tissue. Im still fighting, i have my lovely plushie, for love and another toy to fulfil my other, demand. I understand that im attracted to a "not right in the head" girls and i chose to be a celibate, and not getting into the relationshit again, for at lest 2-3years. I just want to love myself, and my broken homies. I will try to work hard for my future.
@@evgenivasileuski559haha, I realized you spelled it 'relationshit' every time bec that's how badly you feel about it. jokes apart dont even think bout ending your life. Your life is important, and you need to take care of yourself. like you said, don't go into relationships for 2-3 years and focus on yourself bec that's how it works. you need to be able to handle yourself first bec if you struggle w that how are you going to handle someone w the same amount of mental baggage, if not more. Jus talk to me if u want to. I care about you even tho imma stranger. You don't seem like a bad person at all bec you do realize that your not perfect you jus need to work thru your trauma and unlearn the toxic ways you developed and ik it may take time and may be hard but one step at a time is good enough. you seem like a good person who knows the importance of showing emotion i say that bec many ppl aren't capable of that nowadays and afraid of dping so so rly if anything it's a good thing but along you also need to learn how regulate your emotions bec they can be overwhelming and ending ur life is never the answer. Alos you mentioned you are attracted to 'not okay in the head' girls but that's also bec you are not okay in the head too and i mean it in the most non-offensive way bec i can kind of relate to you too tho imma girl and never been in a relationship before lol (no im not a kid im jus entering my 20s) and I don't get into relationships by choice i also relate to the celibate part and this is all to tell you that ur not alone bec im also working thru my shit too tho it might be diff from you. More power to you to deal w life friend. Lots of love♡♡ Also you're NOT a burden on anyone so jus get that outta ur head pal.
The music at 16:15 is so beautiful and relaxing, I could listen to it in a loop for hours. Though it brings me a sad melancholy and brings tears to my eyes. Then again that is just my natural state sometimes… 🥺
I know that space must be amazing when it rains… just gentle rain dropping against the window and whenever you open your eyes you see the water trickling down the glass. Amazing.
I've been listening to this every night for sleep the past week. I think it's been giving dreams but I can't recall them. Just wish it brought back memories too.
My shell closed about 14 years ago. It's been a hard road since. I come here and similar places to try to be peaceful, but It's too late. I'm broken, but I hope anyone who reads this is doing OK, and is able to find peace and joy in their life. Best wishes to everyone!
It's been 10 days. I know it's hard to keep going and find peace in life my friend and sometimes it seems like it's too late to find happiness and peace but i promise you can still find happiness and peace even when it feels hopeless. It will get better eventually, I love you, and I'm so proud of you for making it this far💜
I have so many responsibilities and many lives relying on me, I am so tired phusically and emotionally, I appreciate this music and space go let go. It's 4 am I gotta work in 4 hours and I am so sad.
I always think about you when I listen to these... I am always here for you if you find your way to me one day, so we can drive through the night and watch the headlights passing by.
It is weird that words seem to be sad but the song sounds so calm and peaceful.. We are living in mad world but making a wish for getting better even though it’s nothing but a dream. Our dreams make us to move forward even if it is worthless. Maybe I’m the problem making myself miserable because I can’t be a good judge for myself. How hilarious that my generosity only works for strangers who don’t give a damn about me. My cruel world, I want to love, but honestly, I want to be loved.
replace ''It is weird that words seem to be sad but the song sounds so calm and peaceful.. We are living in mad world but making a wish for getting better even though it’s nothing but a dream. Our dreams make us to move forward even if it is worthless. Maybe I’m the problem making myself miserable because I can’t be a good judge for myself. How hilarious that my generosity only works for strangers who don’t give a damn about me. My cruel world, I want to love, but honestly, I want to be loved.'' with skibidi toilet
It is just how we were raised: without awareness of the other human being we get in touch with. Don't blame the people, but the system. I wish we were raised into love and comoassion.
Do you think the world was better decades ago when 80 million people died in two world wars? Think about that. 80 MILLION people. The total USA deaths in the 20 year war on terror was 7 thousand. Just think about that for a minute. Tell me if it's better or worse today.
I have seen some comments and from what I understand it is about how people vent, I don't know much English so I am using the translator to understand the messages. I know you feel sorry, sad or alone but you have to keep going as much as you can, I know you are tired but don't give up, I trust you. Live life, don't waste it. You are a very beautiful, special and friendly person, you are not a hindrance, much less a miserable person, you are a beautiful and incredible person ♡ I know it's not much to say or I'm simply making a mistake about what people are writing, I am a person who is using the translator to understand and write a consolation, I also apologize for my bad spelling But I hope this message helps those who need it, take good care of yourselves, eat something and I just hope that your sadness fades and you feel better, goodbye! ♡
Ahh this room looks so good. Just lying there watching the sky, thinking about life, refocusing myself and calmly drifting into slumber, and wake up rejuvenated ready to tackle my problems
I love these comments❤ strangers here being vulnerable for one another...it makes me feel less alone. I don't know what I'm doing...I'm 29, 4 months away from 30. I've done so much with my life, more than I thought I would have, and while I know there is more to come I feel myself slipping away from the old me into something new. I knew my old self. I knew what she did and what she wanted and who she loved. None of that applies anymore. I outgrew my friends, my toxic lovers, my idealized dreams...now I'm not sure what motivates me except a desire to be "better" even though I am so much healthier now than I have ever been as a person. I could loose some weight, but I doubt that would change my life overall too much. 20lbs never made or broke anyone. I have a good life, its just unfulfilling...and it used to be so vibrant an entire day would feel like a lifetime. I gave up what gave my life color to be mature, to grow up and move away from those toxic things that taste sweetly of poison...that type of love that kills you softly...I don't know who I am without it. This life just feels so...gray. I don't want to turn 30. Is it childish to be this scared of the unknown? I used to have the excuse of being young to not know things...what do I say now? I used to aspire to a healthy life with a good career to fund an apartment with my two cats. I have it. And there is no abusive partner to dampen it, no cheating or lying partner to ruin my happiness, not even a long lost love I wish would return and kiss things all better. I gave them all up. It was for the greater good, I know that, for my greater good. Now I live where there used to be ghosts that took the color of my world with them. I can't even remember the sound of their voices anymore...maybe the saddest thing of all, is if years can fade them so much it was never love at all anyway
This gives me hope seeomg that the older u get the more mature u become. Though ur losing ur fun side, ur pushing urself away from the bad, and im happy for u that u dont havr to deal with trashy relationships. Im only about half ur age and when im older i want to also move away from toxic people❤ wish u the best in life and hope u have a great 30th b day
Reading all the comments linked in the video, is tis great to see many others acknowledge each other in their time of need, stress, lose, or trauma. Going through my own verses of hell, all while trying to maintain composure, and stability. Losing someone close is never an easy thing, being undervalued and disregarded as a person of equal, same thing. Life is challenging, never give up though. If anyone needs an ear, I'd be delighted to listen.
Alone is *good*. Being alone brings insight (if ya let it). Solitude is freedom. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ --Diamond Dragons (book I)
It's almost 6am. All I've done is smoke and study and sit in my depression for hours. I have an exam tomorrow and I haven't finished the readings. There are too many responsibilities on me in a time like this.
I don't think I can keep doing this. I have many health problems and mental health problems, I have depression, anxiety and autism, I am tired of living sick and on pills, I just want to sleep and never wake up.
Everything will be better, just please live. If nobody cares about you, then know that at least I care even if I saw you only this one and maybe last time.
Hi sweetheart how are you doing lately, if you’re not doing well just know you’re definitely not alone. I have pots, autism and clinical depression. This might help you to know but I get some of you’re struggles please live to see another day life is so sickly beautiful (that’s how it helps for me to see it) love you, live please
Are u ok bro, just imagine that after dying u met god and god showed u that everything u wanted was going to happen in your life it was just taking time but u ended your life,how would u feel , STAY STRONG life gets hard sometimes,after my grandma died I am feeling like I am alone even if my parents are here ,I am preparing for an exam ,my parents are expecting good grades but I am getting none,I was the topper but now I am just failing,I am depressed but I am not going to give up,I will die trying,life is too , just go where it Takes u and don't ever think of dying...🙂
It's been 4 months, I hope you're still alive and going strong, I know it's hard to live in a life being medicated and feeling sick all the time as I to suffer from it aswell and I know you've heard this 1000 times but I'm gonna say it again. It's going to be okay in the end. No feeling is ever final, and i promise you to the bottom of my heart. It will get better eventually. I love you, and I'm so proud of you for making it this far💜
looking at the raining sky while resting is the best feeling you deserve, dim the light or turn it off, set this music to your ears. feel imagination and ideas surging upon your mind
It's been 4 months. I hope you're doing well and still clean, and even if not, im proud of you for how far you've come, and I believe in you wholeheartedly when I say I know you can stay clean. I've suffered with addiction before, so I know how hard it can be to go clean, but I hope you know I'm so proud of you, and it will get better eventually. I love you bud💜
3:45am, cant sleep cuz insomnia watching videos to drown sadness, and im bored :^ I feel like I'm slowly losing the ability to love It fills me with *apathy*
I understand, its 3 13am for me rn and ive been going through an insomnia epispode for a few days. Its beem ab 3 weeks since u commented this, hope ur doing better now❤
I didn't have a life back then, then I was free but had mental disorders. Now I got rid of the disorders yet I can't motivate myself to do anything. How hard I try I keep avoiding the things I need to do. I think I'm failing life and I have no one to lean on. I'm actually scared, will I be homeless? I have the opportunity right now but why can't I make it work? I'm free and it's been a year since I am mental illness free. I won't have an opportunity again, why can't I just do it? My mind is exhausted and I'm stressed
It's been 2 weeks. I know the feeling of getting better and ridding yourself of past mental issues but not having any motivation to do anything, you're scared I know but I promise in the end it's going to be okay no matter what, it sucks having to stress over the future and struggle with yourself about motivation but take comfort in this at least, no matter what it's going to get better and be okay although it may not seem so right now it will. I love you bud and I'm so so proud of you for how far you've come💜
this morning i woke up and i had the best sleep of my life, i felt cozy in my bed, it's saturday so no school, and i just felt at home. this is all until i heard the news...
Mano, depois que encontrei esse tipo de conteúdo, eu não consigo dormir sem ficar escutando. Me permite desligar da realidade. Eu acho que o mundo não é apenas isso que nós vivemos, tem algo amais. Essa sensação que eu sinto ao escutar esse tipo de musica soa tão familiar (transcende a alma).
It's 1:45 p.m. I studied for 3 hours an hour ago, and because I have to go back to finish what's left, no one has to bear my mistakes, so I have to study hard to get what I want. Bye. ❤
I’m here in my bed crying after a long day lost a friend. I knew for years… but I guess it’s a part of life.. thank you for being here while I sleep… whoever else is here you’re not alone you can also share my safe with me…
It's been a month. Hey I hope you're doing alright, I know how hard it is to lose a friend especially one you've known for years and i promise you're not alone, it's going to get better eventually no matter what. I promise you you'll be alright. I love you bud and im very proud of you💜
Being in love with someone who doesnt feel like they deserve a relationship. I confessed and they told me that, it hasn’t been long since my confession, we’re great friends but I just wish I could either stop these emotions or be with them. I keep thinking about my dead friend, they committed suicide 6-7 years ago, it’s been hard still and I miss them. I want them back to see their smile and face. Sometimes I think j see them in crowds but it’s not really them. I’ve been grieving for years and I hate it. I hate that j couldn’t save them. These two thoughts, and more just attacking me and 3:03am, after drinking a bit. I’m alone, and I’m scared.
I get that. I understand that feeling personally- the feeling of seeing a person you've lost in a crowd. I lost someone who was the most compassionate person I had ever known. I tear up even thinking about them. No matter how much time you spend with someone... it never feels like enough, right? I still think about visiting their grave. But... no. It wasn't ever your fault to begin with. Their life wasn't ever in your hands- it simply isn't your responsibility and it never was. And... to tear yourself up with "what ifs" "i could've" and everything from A to Z, and inbetween... it'll only make the pain worse. You did what you could. You gave them what comfort in their life that you could. You could tell yourself you could've visited more. Or checked in more. Or tried to do this, or that... but the truth is, you did your best. Just because you *could've* done something doesn't make you any less of a person. You're not a bad person- you could not have seen it coming in such a way. No one ever does. We carry the burden of those we've lost. We carry it, hoping we can bring the same joy to others that that person brought to you. In hopes of preserving the knowledge of them, as far as we can. We're all a little alone, and we're all scared here. In that, we share our suffering. Despite how... directionless one might feel... you're trying. And to have put your thoughts out there, that helps. As for the relationship... a response like that, that's definitely troublesome. Everyone is deserving of love. I hope they accept that for themselves in time. But for now, you can only be there for them and support them where you can.
what makes you keep going everyday if you have no purpose, nothing fulfilling in your life, no opportunities, everything you do breaks or fails no matter how hard you push, & you want to succeed but the road is getting shorter and the climb to get up the hill of life is getting steeper. What do u do to fix this and what if you were meant to just not have a meaningful life.. it's a real struggle man.. Lonely, no one genuinely seems to really be concerned, family.. etc. About you. I go see all my friends and family, if I don't I'd never see them. 1 person came to my place a year ago and since then not one person I care about ever came to my house to checkup or visit... ever. Just tired of being tired and expending the energy. Sorry this so long. Thanks for listening this one time.. I appreciate you even if you never reply, I know your there and may be struggling too.. goodnight.
My best friend shot herself a few weeks ago and now I was in the hospital. I love her. She’s the best friend could’ve ever asked for, and I blame myself for what happened
It's been a month. Hey bud, I hope you're still alive and well, I know the pain and absolute torture it's like to lose someone to that and I want to remind you it's not your fault and you aren't alone no matter how alone you feel or how much you blame yourself it's not your fault and there are people who care about you. I know you've most likely heard this before but I promise you it's going to be okay in the end, eventually it's going to get better and you will see the sun rise once again. Please just keep pushing forward, I know it may hurt sometimes and you may feel like it's hopeless but I promise it's gonna be okay. I love you bud and I'm so proud of you for making it this far💜
Every day I wonder what I'm living for, I'd give my life to someone else, because I don't do anything useful, I only drink drugs, I'm almost 19 years old, I've never heard honestly, I love you from a human being, but I still have to believe in myself, that I can do it and something will change.
Hey, the background is very beautiful, do you have a ArtStation or a Google Drive where I can download it? I'd really like to make it my wallpaper :) Btw your videos are very relaxing to watch, it makes me less stressed to do homework.
My friend group is crumbling down due to many people joining. I keep feeling left out and ignored. It was just four people doing shenanigans but the more people join, the more spaced apart I am to them. I know all of there personal issues and give them advice, but I keep silent on mine. I truly do like them but I just can’t enjoy playing games with them. I currently have 10 people in that friend group. I want my friends back.
It's been 3 months. I hope you're doing well and I'm real sorry to hear about your friend group situation. I hope it's gotten better and you're still alive and well. I love you man I'm very proud of you💜
i hope that i will once win my fight with my mental problem and my drug abuse i hope that evryone will win their own fight and if i have to loose one day i hope it will not be in vain i hope that i will help people they way i would love to help me. i geuss i am affraid to loose my will to survive in this world and i hope nobody will have to live the same thing i have to live everyone that have to fight again their own problem i pray for your win
I’ve been on an upswing lately but I still feel stagnant. I graduate school next week, I get all of things back from my ex next week as well. 3 years we spent together and she yanked everything out from under me. Our cats my house my bed. I’m ready to close this chapter of my life and move on. I think I’m just lost as to what direction to go next. I think I’m ready for a real change.
I'm sitting at my desk at night, wondering if I made the right choice breaking up with him... I miss him too much to be happy that we aren't together anymore. It's been two weeks and I feel worse than before I left him, should I try to go back? Should I let him alone and just stay "as friends"? It's too late to be thinking about this. Goodnight, everyone.
I'm scared of death. I'm still young, but idk, this feeling is getting me paranoid and I just can't accept death. I'm scared. I want to have a soul, I want to live after I die. I don't want to think about this, but I can't stop myself. I just want answers, but life its so limited. I don't wanna die.
What happens after death is you may go to heaven pls read the Bible and get closer to God it does help I was also scared of death but I got closer to God and now everything I thought about death is now gone
@@Robo311Star that's sweet, thank you very much. Life It's really confusing and hard sometimes. I am still scared with some things, but yes, still trying to stay alive ig. :(
“I’m left here alone.” Words that could represent me months ago. Sitting on the chair in my room, parents barging in like I would do something bad. My windows can’t even be opened completely, there isn’t a person that is going to sneak in, and even if I tried to leave, there is cameras every single place. “You can’t hide s-[h{}i^t from me, I’ll always find a way.” Well, if you do, that’s just controlling me. Being a nosey person. Feels like you are controlling my life in every single aspect you know. Wanna know what else is? Having cameras every where, barging into privacy, making phones not a privelage. They will steal electronics if I do some thing REALLY bad. If I do not want to do some thing, they force me by taking every electronic. This is… what type of life is this? They aren’t abusive, but… Some one answer, I do not know.
It’s just VEEEERRRYY strict parenting, but remember, there is always someone yearning to be in your place and someone that wold hate it, it’s not their fault entirely. There had to be something that has made them compelled to take those actions and possibly from there experience or the experience around them.
@@Lonely_mahoragaI mean, I guess you could say that, but they just KNOW every single thing that happens. It’s like they NEED to, and not even a WANT any more. It’s like they NEED to know every single thing about me, gathering information like I am some type of test subject, knowing like they are an omnipresential being. I don’t know, but getting stressed about it? Happened 100 times already, in the past.
@@Jouvelinir maaan idk, I'm not in your shoes rn and idk what ur parents r thinking but I'm just saying from my stand point and there rlly is nothing I could do except for reading and replying
It’s alright, man. It isn’t every day that this happens, and doesn’t happen. I was just stressed out when I was writing these, and I dunno what I was thinking to be honest, but I am in a better mood, so thx for trying to help. Better than not trying to :)
TH-cam automatically puts ads on videos with copyrighted material in them, even if the video creator tries to put no forced ads in the video (I assume some of the tracks used have been copyrighted and this is why there are ads)
Brought here because a streamer my wife listened to happened to have one of the songs from one of your videos playing in the background and I just had to show her lol
Was this originally a live stream that was just made into a video or was it originally just a really long video (if it is a live stream then where can I find it)
You are the only person that can make YOU find happiness, bc your interest, personality, and the way you think make you different, so it’s hard to give suggestions. Also remember happiness is not forever
Happiness to me always seems to be fleeting and is not reliable enough to base your life on. It is better to have a purpose greater than yourself, something that will potentially make other people happy. Do good things for people and don't expect anything in return, help someone in need, these things won't guarantee you any sense of happiness but will give you a sense of self worth greater than happiness. But who am I to say, I too yearn for happiness, it sometimes just doesn't come, sometimes for a while. But it will. 😌
My sister died yesterday, and I hope that she has found peace. I hope that we will all find peace, in life or beyond. Whoever you are and wherever you live, I believe that everyone deserves their peace. Value yourself and your life
im so sorry for your loss :( hope youre doing better
@@Chambbyy2904 Im fine, thx sweetheart
sorry for your loss....
Hope you're doing alright. I'm sure that she has moved on to a good place, wherever that may be.
I know your pain I lost my grandfather that I saw a fatherly figure last year and I still have yet to recover
These videos always have the coziest looking spaces
yup
Reminds me of the small island cottage on Peaks Island in Maine that one of my dad's mentors owned growing up. My dad's mentor let our family stay there sometimes, usually at the end of the summer when he and his wife went back home.
That house had an attic bedroom where I would stay. It had a window facing out and up like this. It looked out over a little isthmus that was basically two rocky beaches with a wooded path between them. At the end of the path was a small island-type area with trees and a really nice rock beach that looked out on the Atlantic Ocean.
My dad and I used to love skipping rocks together out there. One time we went out there on the last day of our stay. It was a cloudy day, one of those days at the end of summer that's still warm enough, but kinda feels like fall, especially in Maine where the light starts to get dim in the afternoon because of the latitude.
We were out there skipping rocks and playing together for hours. After a while I stopped, because I was sad; I knew it was our last day on the island. My dad came over to me and asked what was wrong. I started crying a little bit and I told him, "Dad, I never want to leave this place."
My dad worked hard his whole life. So did my mom. About ten years later, we built a house on that island. We spent our whole summers out there for years: first clearing the land, then pitching in to help the builders to save money, then preparing the house. My dad and I laid all of the flooring through the house, tiles and hardwood. We finally finished it when I hit high school.
We rented it out through most of the summer to pay it off, but we'd always go at the beginning and end of summer for a few weeks, and on weekends to turn the house around between renters.
I have so many memories of that house. It became my real home when we moved out of our family home when I was a young teenager. Those were hard times. My dad would sometimes tell me the story of how I said, "Dad, I never want to leave this place." As a teenager I shrugged it off as sentimental nonsense. Now I realize that he and my mom did everything they could to make my wish come true.
I got older and my life got crazy. I moved far away, first for school, then for a crazy dream and a girl who wanted to be famous. We moved to LA. My sister moved out west, too, so eventually when she had a kid, my parents decided they should move out west, too.
They sold that house and bought a new house out west. It's on an island, too. It's much bigger and nicer than the house we built on Peaks Island. It sits right over the water, and looks out back east, with an incredible view of a huge mountain. It's a magnificent home.
But it's not my island home.
Now I look back, and I wish I had never left. I wish I had never had crazy dreams or dated a wannabe superstar.
Now I have a family of my own, and I live in a normal suburb in a quoet town.
It's really nice. I have a good life. But I would give anything to be able to bring my family back to Peaks Island.
Deep down, I still never want to leave that place.
@@gilligan87 nice story bro
@@idontknowwhatisaname1219 ty
I am laying in my bed, it's almost midnight and i am alone with mine dreams and memories...i am tired from everything. Your channel is a hidden gem for lonely souls.
I know it's been a month since you've posted this comment but I wanted to say even if you never read this that it will be alright in the end, it's tiring to keep going but I promise it will be worth it friend. I love you and I'm very proud of you💜
@@user-InfrequentUploads i second this 😄
It's 5am. The sun's getting brighter. I'm alone in my room, in the quiet, with naught but the music and a fan giving me a breeze.
I think about the person I once was. A few years ago. Was in a toxic relationship- though neither of us were to blame, we just fed off each other and made each other insufferable. We told each other we loved one-another but... The erosion of ourselves... we just... couldn't be together. Took a few years for us to get that. We broke up, for good. Went our separate ways. I hated it, at first. Couldn't bear the idea at first. It was loneliness. Even with friends around you. It all felt lonely. But we were visceral to each other. Any situation without them was better than being with them.
Despite that, it still felt terrible to be in a situation like that even if it was over. But it got better. Day by day. Week by week. Month by month. Not years, yet. Not years. But hopefully I'll be able to look back and properly- REALLY properly look back on who I was. I hope they can too. I hope they've changed, for their own sake and for others. And I hope I've changed, for my sake and for others, too. I hope I'm enjoyable to be around. I hope I make people smile. I'm so glad to have people who care around me... even if sometimes those lonely feelings still hit.
I still feel somewhat directionless. Like I'm not sure what to do. Or where to go. I suppose the "correct" answer is to go to work. Go put my elbow grease in and get some money! ... But that's not fulfilling. To know I will be treated as naught but a name against a number, an asset and not a person... to know I will have to do this, day in and day out where I cannot complain or fall out of line. To oil the gears of someone's machine who doesn't even know my name, with my own blood sweat and tears? Why? For what purpose? Just so I can live? It's a hollow concept.
I cannot. I cannot feasibly work for something like that. I'm broken. Which is okay, I'm fine with the label of being broken. But I don't need a job making me worse. Then, with that knowledge, there becomes only one option- I want to create. I want to make an experience for someone to enjoy. I deserve the world that much. Even if creating becomes THE job... I'll be okay with that. Because at least I'll be working for me. I'll be working because I am doing something I enjoy. And I'm making things for people, and they enjoy the things I make. And that's nice. That brings them comfort, it brings me comfort.
I'm feeling lonely again. I know, I know- that's foolish. But it'll pass. The feelings do pass eventually, and I realise I'm not alone. But for now, I am alone. At least... it is a calming type of alone. But I still wish someone was there. Maybe hugging me. I'd like a hug.
_My battery is getting low and it's getting dark..._ Goodnight. It's appreciated that you read this. I'll never know if you did read it or not without feedback, but, I like convincing myself I've been heard. I hope something out there brings you comfort, too.
You can make it through all this. Don’t give up. If not for anyone else, then for this random commenter on TH-cam who’s in almost the same spot. You’ve got this. One step at a time.
Lame
I have it similar. In first relationshit, it was her therapist who finished all that, in second it was she, who dissolved the relationshit. In first i felt so loved, that i kept coming despite her not doing anything good for me like some gifts or shits. I did not need all that, i only needed to be loved. If she only stopped igniting on my most harmless racist jokes and understood, that this is my way to ridicule the racism, and im the guy who felt racism a couple of times here in Poland (im Belarusian, often mistaken as Ukrainian). Jokes are my personality, I love making people's life's more fun. If only she stopped lecturing me about racism every time i make even remotely offensive joke, i would have never been ambivalent toward her. She has severe mental struggles, i often listened about her fucked up story of life. She had 20 different pills like xanax, or pregabaline, to take daily. I was happy to help her with the chores she had no mental energy to do, like the pile of 1 week old dishes, or vacuuming the floor. She wasn't a beauty, but she gave me what i did not receive from others: cuddles, love, clingy nature, and all that stuff. I kinda miss her. Her therapist told her to break up, cuz im also messed up in the head and get in the way of her treatment, cuz when she was lecturing me for too long i showed so much "dont give a fuck" energy, that she could even have a panic attack. He was right, i have an ADHD and also a lot of mental trauma from my past, also caused by parents.
Second gf was opposite. She showed love in more materialistic way, and i remember that she had a kinda beautiful smile, but her face was like a brick, most of the time, not showing emotions, and her words were truth, but painful, like 61tch i know you can live without me, why the fuck are you telling me that, why you trying to jealous bait me? I hate her with my whole heart. I tried my best to be good for her, also show love in her, materialistic way. It was never enough. She decided to dissolve the relationshit, cuz even tho i lied to myself that i love her, deep down my low dopamine levels decided, that making shoe box, separator walls out of shit and sticks with my friend was more fun, than go to her and help with her back problems. My mind simply shoved this shit out of my priority system. At first i didn't want to dissolve the relationshit, but when i got enough time without her, i found out, that even coming to her apartment gave me low level panic attack. She wanted to break up and be friends. I could not be with such obnoxious creature, manipulative, lying, always demanding and not showing love.
Both of them put me in depression, but first one, only mildly, second one severely, coupled with shitty working environment, that i quit my job, and was a neet for 7 months.
About job, i have the same feelings. Im afraid of repetitive course of my life, that i 40h give to my job, 40 to sleep and almost nothing to myself. Im still fighting, i found a new job in the same bike repair field, with better working conditions. I don't want to be a burden on society, i even tried quitting being alive, but i was lucky enough to cause damage only to skin tissue.
Im still fighting, i have my lovely plushie, for love and another toy to fulfil my other, demand. I understand that im attracted to a "not right in the head" girls and i chose to be a celibate, and not getting into the relationshit again, for at lest 2-3years. I just want to love myself, and my broken homies. I will try to work hard for my future.
@@evgenivasileuski559haha, I realized you spelled it 'relationshit' every time bec that's how badly you feel about it. jokes apart dont even think bout ending your life. Your life is important, and you need to take care of yourself. like you said, don't go into relationships for 2-3 years and focus on yourself bec that's how it works. you need to be able to handle yourself first bec if you struggle w that how are you going to handle someone w the same amount of mental baggage, if not more. Jus talk to me if u want to. I care about you even tho imma stranger. You don't seem like a bad person at all bec you do realize that your not perfect you jus need to work thru your trauma and unlearn the toxic ways you developed and ik it may take time and may be hard but one step at a time is good enough. you seem like a good person who knows the importance of showing emotion i say that bec many ppl aren't capable of that nowadays and afraid of dping so so rly if anything it's a good thing but along you also need to learn how regulate your emotions bec they can be overwhelming and ending ur life is never the answer. Alos you mentioned you are attracted to 'not okay in the head' girls but that's also bec you are not okay in the head too and i mean it in the most non-offensive way bec i can kind of relate to you too tho imma girl and never been in a relationship before lol (no im not a kid im jus entering my 20s) and I don't get into relationships by choice i also relate to the celibate part and this is all to tell you that ur not alone bec im also working thru my shit too tho it might be diff from you. More power to you to deal w life friend. Lots of love♡♡
Also you're NOT a burden on anyone so jus get that outta ur head pal.
very well written
I love this type of music. It’s sad, but it provides a gentle light of hope, reassurance, and enlightenment.
The music at 16:15 is so beautiful and relaxing, I could listen to it in a loop for hours. Though it brings me a sad melancholy and brings tears to my eyes. Then again that is just my natural state sometimes… 🥺
What an incredible view to relax to. I wish my bedroom could be set up like that.
I know that space must be amazing when it rains… just gentle rain dropping against the window and whenever you open your eyes you see the water trickling down the glass. Amazing.
I've been listening to this every night for sleep the past week. I think it's been giving dreams but I can't recall them. Just wish it brought back memories too.
My shell closed about 14 years ago. It's been a hard road since. I come here and similar places to try to be peaceful, but It's too late. I'm broken, but I hope anyone who reads this is doing OK, and is able to find peace and joy in their life. Best wishes to everyone!
It's been 10 days. I know it's hard to keep going and find peace in life my friend and sometimes it seems like it's too late to find happiness and peace but i promise you can still find happiness and peace even when it feels hopeless. It will get better eventually, I love you, and I'm so proud of you for making it this far💜
@@user-InfrequentUploads Thank you for the kind words. Best wishes to you as well !
I like this vibe, I actually wish I was in that room right now
I were*
@@agustinbarquero8898 idk
I have so many responsibilities and many lives relying on me, I am so tired phusically and emotionally, I appreciate this music and space go let go. It's 4 am I gotta work in 4 hours and I am so sad.
much love to you x
Keep up the hard work! I know it can be depressing sometimes with so many responsibilities but it'll all be worth it one day
As sad as life can be at times, there are many things to be happy and grateful for. Sending rays of smiles your way! Hope you feel better !
Hope you're doing alright today, su.
Stay strong. I believe in you.
Hugs❤ Best wishes stranger, you will get through this
I always think about you when I listen to these... I am always here for you if you find your way to me one day, so we can drive through the night and watch the headlights passing by.
It's been 2 months, I hope you're doing well friend. I love you and I'm proud of you💜
A Nap here would be sensational.
i really like these soundscapes.. please never stop making them. so beautiful, like the lilt of a harp.
these videos always seem to pop up in the perfect times for their titles
It is weird that words seem to be sad but the song sounds so calm and peaceful.. We are living in mad world but making a wish for getting better even though it’s nothing but a dream. Our dreams make us to move forward even if it is worthless. Maybe I’m the problem making myself miserable because I can’t be a good judge for myself. How hilarious that my generosity only works for strangers who don’t give a damn about me. My cruel world, I want to love, but honestly, I want to be loved.
replace ''It is weird that words seem to be sad but the song sounds so calm and peaceful.. We are living in mad world but making a wish for getting better even though it’s nothing but a dream. Our dreams make us to move forward even if it is worthless. Maybe I’m the problem making myself miserable because I can’t be a good judge for myself. How hilarious that my generosity only works for strangers who don’t give a damn about me. My cruel world, I want to love, but honestly, I want to be loved.'' with skibidi toilet
It is just how we were raised: without awareness of the other human being we get in touch with. Don't blame the people, but the system. I wish we were raised into love and comoassion.
Do you think the world was better decades ago when 80 million people died in two world wars? Think about that. 80 MILLION people. The total USA deaths in the 20 year war on terror was 7 thousand. Just think about that for a minute. Tell me if it's better or worse today.
I have seen some comments and from what I understand it is about how people vent, I don't know much English so I am using the translator to understand the messages.
I know you feel sorry, sad or alone but you have to keep going as much as you can, I know you are tired but don't give up, I trust you.
Live life, don't waste it. You are a very beautiful, special and friendly person, you are not a hindrance, much less a miserable person, you are a beautiful and incredible person ♡
I know it's not much to say or I'm simply
making a mistake about what people are writing, I am a person who is using the translator to understand and write a consolation, I also apologize for my bad spelling But I hope this message helps those who need it, take good care of yourselves, eat something and I just hope that your sadness fades and you feel better, goodbye! ♡
Imagine finally finding sleep after countless hours of trying just to be woken up by an Amazon ad.
凄く落ち着きます。ありがとうございます。
You are alone, but you're not lonely. Just at peace.
These calming channels are so calming and much needed.
I've been falling asleep to these recently. So peaceful.
Добрый день. Надеюсь, это не последний комментарий, который я пишу на ютубе. Спасибо за классную и атмосферную трансляцию. Вы крутые!)
Are you ok?
Ahh this room looks so good. Just lying there watching the sky, thinking about life, refocusing myself and calmly drifting into slumber, and wake up rejuvenated ready to tackle my problems
I love these comments❤ strangers here being vulnerable for one another...it makes me feel less alone. I don't know what I'm doing...I'm 29, 4 months away from 30. I've done so much with my life, more than I thought I would have, and while I know there is more to come I feel myself slipping away from the old me into something new. I knew my old self. I knew what she did and what she wanted and who she loved. None of that applies anymore. I outgrew my friends, my toxic lovers, my idealized dreams...now I'm not sure what motivates me except a desire to be "better" even though I am so much healthier now than I have ever been as a person. I could loose some weight, but I doubt that would change my life overall too much. 20lbs never made or broke anyone. I have a good life, its just unfulfilling...and it used to be so vibrant an entire day would feel like a lifetime. I gave up what gave my life color to be mature, to grow up and move away from those toxic things that taste sweetly of poison...that type of love that kills you softly...I don't know who I am without it. This life just feels so...gray. I don't want to turn 30. Is it childish to be this scared of the unknown? I used to have the excuse of being young to not know things...what do I say now?
I used to aspire to a healthy life with a good career to fund an apartment with my two cats. I have it. And there is no abusive partner to dampen it, no cheating or lying partner to ruin my happiness, not even a long lost love I wish would return and kiss things all better. I gave them all up. It was for the greater good, I know that, for my greater good. Now I live where there used to be ghosts that took the color of my world with them. I can't even remember the sound of their voices anymore...maybe the saddest thing of all, is if years can fade them so much it was never love at all anyway
This gives me hope seeomg that the older u get the more mature u become. Though ur losing ur fun side, ur pushing urself away from the bad, and im happy for u that u dont havr to deal with trashy relationships. Im only about half ur age and when im older i want to also move away from toxic people❤ wish u the best in life and hope u have a great 30th b day
Thank you for creating these beautiful videos, they transport me into peaceful worlds
I always use this for study.Thank you......
These are so calming for some reasons even though they sound so sad,
i love this thank you!
This actually really does help a lot
I always use these videos to sleep and they help me a lot, thank you so much!
Bro these videos are cursed
@@crawkeyes2080 IM WATCHING U
Reading all the comments linked in the video, is tis great to see many others acknowledge each other in their time of need, stress, lose, or trauma.
Going through my own verses of hell, all while trying to maintain composure, and stability.
Losing someone close is never an easy thing, being undervalued and disregarded as a person of equal, same thing.
Life is challenging, never give up though.
If anyone needs an ear, I'd be delighted to listen.
Alone is *good*. Being alone brings insight (if ya let it). Solitude is freedom.
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"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
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--Diamond Dragons (book I)
I love it to be alone..it shows you that no one cares about you...
It's almost 6am. All I've done is smoke and study and sit in my depression for hours. I have an exam tomorrow and I haven't finished the readings. There are too many responsibilities on me in a time like this.
I am always by your side Mr Lawson
I always use this for study.Thank you.
I too am grateful “Help Me” ty.
Another brilliant narration! You really bring the horror to life.
just have hope in yourself, your the key to success every day👏
I don't think I can keep doing this. I have many health problems and mental health problems, I have depression, anxiety and autism, I am tired of living sick and on pills, I just want to sleep and never wake up.
no bro
Everything will be better, just please live. If nobody cares about you, then know that at least I care even if I saw you only this one and maybe last time.
Hi sweetheart how are you doing lately, if you’re not doing well just know you’re definitely not alone. I have pots, autism and clinical depression. This might help you to know but I get some of you’re struggles please live to see another day life is so sickly beautiful (that’s how it helps for me to see it) love you, live please
Are u ok bro, just imagine that after dying u met god and god showed u that everything u wanted was going to happen in your life it was just taking time but u ended your life,how would u feel , STAY STRONG
life gets hard sometimes,after my grandma died I am feeling like I am alone even if my parents are here ,I am preparing for an exam ,my parents are expecting good grades but I am getting none,I was the topper but now I am just failing,I am depressed but I am not going to give up,I will die trying,life is too , just go where it Takes u and don't ever think of dying...🙂
It's been 4 months, I hope you're still alive and going strong, I know it's hard to live in a life being medicated and feeling sick all the time as I to suffer from it aswell and I know you've heard this 1000 times but I'm gonna say it again. It's going to be okay in the end. No feeling is ever final, and i promise you to the bottom of my heart. It will get better eventually. I love you, and I'm so proud of you for making it this far💜
looking at the raining sky while resting is the best feeling you deserve, dim the light or turn it off, set this music to your ears. feel imagination and ideas surging upon your mind
I'm clean today
Checking in, hope you're still clean ❤
Proud of u
It's been 4 months. I hope you're doing well and still clean, and even if not, im proud of you for how far you've come, and I believe in you wholeheartedly when I say I know you can stay clean. I've suffered with addiction before, so I know how hard it can be to go clean, but I hope you know I'm so proud of you, and it will get better eventually. I love you bud💜
3:45am, cant sleep cuz insomnia watching videos to drown sadness, and im bored :^
I feel like I'm slowly losing the ability to love
It fills me with *apathy*
I understand, its 3 13am for me rn and ive been going through an insomnia epispode for a few days. Its beem ab 3 weeks since u commented this, hope ur doing better now❤
I didn't have a life back then, then I was free but had mental disorders. Now I got rid of the disorders yet I can't motivate myself to do anything. How hard I try I keep avoiding the things I need to do. I think I'm failing life and I have no one to lean on. I'm actually scared, will I be homeless? I have the opportunity right now but why can't I make it work? I'm free and it's been a year since I am mental illness free. I won't have an opportunity again, why can't I just do it? My mind is exhausted and I'm stressed
It's been 2 weeks. I know the feeling of getting better and ridding yourself of past mental issues but not having any motivation to do anything, you're scared I know but I promise in the end it's going to be okay no matter what, it sucks having to stress over the future and struggle with yourself about motivation but take comfort in this at least, no matter what it's going to get better and be okay although it may not seem so right now it will. I love you bud and I'm so so proud of you for how far you've come💜
this morning i woke up and i had the best sleep of my life, i felt cozy in my bed, it's saturday so no school, and i just felt at home.
this is all until i heard the news...
It's been 3 months man, I hope you're doing alright. Love you bud💜
Eu não quero mais estar aqui. Quero que minha alma deixe meu corpo com a leveza desse som.
Mano, depois que encontrei esse tipo de conteúdo, eu não consigo dormir sem ficar escutando. Me permite desligar da realidade. Eu acho que o mundo não é apenas isso que nós vivemos, tem algo amais. Essa sensação que eu sinto ao escutar esse tipo de musica soa tão familiar (transcende a alma).
procurem por Marcelo Marins e os Filhos das Estrelas e vocês terão todas as respostas que precisam e buscam...
It's 1:45 p.m. I studied for 3 hours an hour ago, and because I have to go back to finish what's left, no one has to bear my mistakes, so I have to study hard to get what I want. Bye. ❤
Many thanks for the great 🎶 I can have downtime from stress 😮 right now you're my go to favorite so keep it up 😍 🥂
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I’m here in my bed crying after a long day lost a friend. I knew for years… but I guess it’s a part of life.. thank you for being here while I sleep… whoever else is here you’re not alone you can also share my safe with me…
It's been a month. Hey I hope you're doing alright, I know how hard it is to lose a friend especially one you've known for years and i promise you're not alone, it's going to get better eventually no matter what. I promise you you'll be alright. I love you bud and im very proud of you💜
So calm...
IF I'M SAD,STRESSED, AND LONELY. I'LL PLAY THIS VIDEO.
Being in love with someone who doesnt feel like they deserve a relationship. I confessed and they told me that, it hasn’t been long since my confession, we’re great friends but I just wish I could either stop these emotions or be with them.
I keep thinking about my dead friend, they committed suicide 6-7 years ago, it’s been hard still and I miss them. I want them back to see their smile and face. Sometimes I think j see them in crowds but it’s not really them. I’ve been grieving for years and I hate it. I hate that j couldn’t save them.
These two thoughts, and more just attacking me and 3:03am, after drinking a bit.
I’m alone, and I’m scared.
I get that. I understand that feeling personally- the feeling of seeing a person you've lost in a crowd.
I lost someone who was the most compassionate person I had ever known. I tear up even thinking about them. No matter how much time you spend with someone... it never feels like enough, right? I still think about visiting their grave.
But... no. It wasn't ever your fault to begin with. Their life wasn't ever in your hands- it simply isn't your responsibility and it never was. And... to tear yourself up with "what ifs" "i could've" and everything from A to Z, and inbetween... it'll only make the pain worse. You did what you could. You gave them what comfort in their life that you could. You could tell yourself you could've visited more. Or checked in more. Or tried to do this, or that... but the truth is, you did your best. Just because you *could've* done something doesn't make you any less of a person. You're not a bad person- you could not have seen it coming in such a way. No one ever does.
We carry the burden of those we've lost. We carry it, hoping we can bring the same joy to others that that person brought to you. In hopes of preserving the knowledge of them, as far as we can.
We're all a little alone, and we're all scared here. In that, we share our suffering. Despite how... directionless one might feel... you're trying. And to have put your thoughts out there, that helps. As for the relationship... a response like that, that's definitely troublesome. Everyone is deserving of love. I hope they accept that for themselves in time. But for now, you can only be there for them and support them where you can.
in a society…Where anything you do seems to be worthless..no matter what..Now here almost 2AM wondering why am here..
Thanks for this
what makes you keep going everyday if you have no purpose, nothing fulfilling in your life, no opportunities, everything you do breaks or fails no matter how hard you push, & you want to succeed but the road is getting shorter and the climb to get up the hill of life is getting steeper. What do u do to fix this and what if you were meant to just not have a meaningful life.. it's a real struggle man..
Lonely, no one genuinely seems to really be concerned, family.. etc. About you. I go see all my friends and family, if I don't I'd never see them. 1 person came to my place a year ago and since then not one person I care about ever came to my house to checkup or visit... ever. Just tired of being tired and expending the energy. Sorry this so long. Thanks for listening this one time.. I appreciate you even if you never reply, I know your there and may be struggling too.. goodnight.
Hey man. Just a stranger on the internet, but I genuinely hope you find peace. Hang in there.
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What's the name of this one?
My best friend shot herself a few weeks ago and now I was in the hospital. I love her. She’s the best friend could’ve ever asked for, and I blame myself for what happened
It's been a month. Hey bud, I hope you're still alive and well, I know the pain and absolute torture it's like to lose someone to that and I want to remind you it's not your fault and you aren't alone no matter how alone you feel or how much you blame yourself it's not your fault and there are people who care about you. I know you've most likely heard this before but I promise you it's going to be okay in the end, eventually it's going to get better and you will see the sun rise once again. Please just keep pushing forward, I know it may hurt sometimes and you may feel like it's hopeless but I promise it's gonna be okay. I love you bud and I'm so proud of you for making it this far💜
Every day I wonder what I'm living for, I'd give my life to someone else, because I don't do anything useful, I only drink drugs, I'm almost 19 years old, I've never heard honestly, I love you from a human being, but I still have to believe in myself, that I can do it and something will change.
Hey man. Just a stranger on the internet, but I genuinely hope you find peace. Hang in there.
M I love this music, it relaxes me a lot and makes me feel good
You will never ever be alone ❤
What if I have to poo? :(
@@tritiumcatdw I'm always with you
Even when you have to poo 😈
Alone, i must be, Alone I Find my peace
Hey, the background is very beautiful, do you have a ArtStation or a Google Drive where I can download it? I'd really like to make it my wallpaper :)
Btw your videos are very relaxing to watch, it makes me less stressed to do homework.
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Get me to that never-ending peace, pronto! 🌈✌
I would want to sleep in this
Luckily we are never truly alone. We always have God watching over us and guiding us in our lives. Trust that he will guide you to better times 🙏🏼
Respectfully, shhh
Except when you don't believe in that stuff. Instead, you suffer the weight of existential isolation.
Don't forget to rest, it is important too. Let your mind ease yourself, you deserve it.
Amazing
Wow, I just heard thunder and lightning just before I opened this video! Must be some message.
I enjoy being alone honestly this would be perfect 👍 for me
My friend group is crumbling down due to many people joining. I keep feeling left out and ignored. It was just four people doing shenanigans but the more people join, the more spaced apart I am to them. I know all of there personal issues and give them advice, but I keep silent on mine. I truly do like them but I just can’t enjoy playing games with them. I currently have 10 people in that friend group. I want my friends back.
It's been 3 months. I hope you're doing well and I'm real sorry to hear about your friend group situation. I hope it's gotten better and you're still alive and well. I love you man I'm very proud of you💜
this is great
I know one day it won’t hurt like this, but right now I just want to scream, cry, drown myself in sound, and disappear.
Hi Hug help me.🫂🤗
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Will a pound it do instead?🤜🏽
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You Are Not Alone. I love you Forever and Ever
i hope that i will once win my fight with my mental problem and my drug abuse i hope that evryone will win their own fight and if i have to loose one day i hope it will not be in vain i hope that i will help people they way i would love to help me.
i geuss i am affraid to loose my will to survive in this world and i hope nobody will have to live the same thing i have to live
everyone that have to fight again their own problem i pray for your win
being so alone feels like i am a ghost, here im just bound to my body
This account seems to be the place where all we little ghosties gather. You are not alone. We are all here with you. Stay safe, be good , be kind.
I’ve been on an upswing lately but I still feel stagnant. I graduate school next week, I get all of things back from my ex next week as well. 3 years we spent together and she yanked everything out from under me. Our cats my house my bed. I’m ready to close this chapter of my life and move on. I think I’m just lost as to what direction to go next. I think I’m ready for a real change.
I'm sitting at my desk at night, wondering if I made the right choice breaking up with him... I miss him too much to be happy that we aren't together anymore. It's been two weeks and I feel worse than before I left him, should I try to go back? Should I let him alone and just stay "as friends"?
It's too late to be thinking about this.
Goodnight, everyone.
does it make you feel better or worse to know that people older than you are here too?
I'm scared of death. I'm still young, but idk, this feeling is getting me paranoid and I just can't accept death. I'm scared. I want to have a soul, I want to live after I die. I don't want to think about this, but I can't stop myself. I just want answers, but life its so limited. I don't wanna die.
What happens after death is you may go to heaven pls read the Bible and get closer to God it does help I was also scared of death but I got closer to God and now everything I thought about death is now gone
I'm glad you're still here with me.
The next leg of the journey will come. Plz don't stress it.
Sry if I'm no help..
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@@Robo311Star that's sweet, thank you very much. Life It's really confusing and hard sometimes. I am still scared with some things, but yes, still trying to stay alive ig. :(
i know right ? nothing is fair
God is your answer...
“I’m left here alone.”
Words that could represent me months ago.
Sitting on the chair in my room, parents barging in like I would do something bad. My windows can’t even be opened completely, there isn’t a person that is going to sneak in, and even if I tried to leave, there is cameras every single place.
“You can’t hide s-[h{}i^t from me, I’ll always find a way.”
Well, if you do, that’s just controlling me. Being a nosey person.
Feels like you are controlling my life in every single aspect you know.
Wanna know what else is?
Having cameras every where, barging into privacy, making phones not a privelage.
They will steal electronics if I do some thing REALLY bad.
If I do not want to do some thing, they force me by taking every electronic.
This is…
what type of life is this?
They aren’t abusive, but…
Some one answer, I do not know.
It’s just VEEEERRRYY strict parenting, but remember, there is always someone yearning to be in your place and someone that wold hate it, it’s not their fault entirely. There had to be something that has made them compelled to take those actions and possibly from there experience or the experience around them.
@@Lonely_mahoragaI mean, I guess you could say that, but they just KNOW every single thing that happens. It’s like they NEED to, and not even a WANT any more. It’s like they NEED to know every single thing about me, gathering information like I am some type of test subject, knowing like they are an omnipresential being. I don’t know, but getting stressed about it? Happened 100 times already, in the past.
@@Jouvelinir maaan idk, I'm not in your shoes rn and idk what ur parents r thinking but I'm just saying from my stand point and there rlly is nothing I could do except for reading and replying
@@Jouvelinir sorry
It’s alright, man. It isn’t every day that this happens, and doesn’t happen. I was just stressed out when I was writing these, and I dunno what I was thinking to be honest, but I am in a better mood, so thx for trying to help. Better than not trying to :)
I found genuine love but LDR is just such a burden apparently for the other person and so after being love bombed for a week plus, now I feel empty.
God bless you and your family . Jesus loves you.
So does Lucifer
lol god is fake
@@SonOfIrak I know you are thats why I can see ur comment.
What I would give up to have that room.
What I’d give up to stop wanting more
Anybody else getting mid roll ads? Is it just me or is TH-cam getting too crazy with the ads
The ads are REDICULOUS. Used to be a single 5 second skippable ad, now usually 2 or 3 15-30 second ads 🤦♂️
@AshDenArt it's unhinged. It's getting to the point where I'm considering learning to program so I can use ad blockers for mobile.
@lindsey-do-it Facts. Because nobody trying to pay for premium 😂
thy tarnished rise above the vary gods and find true peace
Why does this have ads... I was almost asleep
TH-cam automatically puts ads on videos with copyrighted material in them, even if the video creator tries to put no forced ads in the video (I assume some of the tracks used have been copyrighted and this is why there are ads)
Goodnight world
You come into this world alone and leave alone also so we are always alone😢
Twins
@@Lonely_mahoraga yes absolutely to enter but you may not leave together.
@@paulacatcatballou3907 who said that y'all leave. If you still remember them, they will stay with you
While your in this world you got family and a whole outside world dont give up we will be together as long as we can be
No you are not. We are all alone here with you. Be good, stay safe be kind.
help me……sleep through the night!
Don’t watch tv,
Don’t stress over the small things,
Don’t be me
11:11 | I always knew/
11:11 | I'd be left alone
eventually/ `×°•..:
The phthalo green hue though
I want that room
what is the name of the second song?
Brought here because a streamer my wife listened to happened to have one of the songs from one of your videos playing in the background and I just had to show her lol
Was this originally a live stream that was just made into a video or was it originally just a really long video (if it is a live stream then where can I find it)
help me……find happiness!
You are the only person that can make YOU find happiness, bc your interest, personality, and the way you think make you different, so it’s hard to give suggestions. Also remember happiness is not forever
Happiness to me always seems to be fleeting and is not reliable enough to base your life on. It is better to have a purpose greater than yourself, something that will potentially make other people happy. Do good things for people and don't expect anything in return, help someone in need, these things won't guarantee you any sense of happiness but will give you a sense of self worth greater than happiness. But who am I to say, I too yearn for happiness, it sometimes just doesn't come, sometimes for a while. But it will. 😌
i need to help myself too