He Is a Trans Athlete in High School - It's Rough.
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A FTM (female to male) transgender athlete describes his experience with discrimination in school, his quest to be the best he can be, and his journey of self-discovery. - เกม
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Hey Azeal, thanks for taking the time out of your day to make these videos! quick question, what is this world called?
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Hey Azeal, I know Imma sound like a scumbag and all when you're trying to spread positivity around, but at 13:00 when you started saying that this was purely a culture war thing, I kinda have to speak my mind on it. I cannot speak for any lawmakers nor the general public, but saying that it is purely "fighting for the sake of transphobia" is a little rash of you to say. Yes, I do believe that the laws system is currently an utter catastrophy, but saying that and generalizing the whole section as literal transphobes is dangerous on public appeal... Might wanna be careful in the future as not to turn down a whole section of an audience by making a personal political statement... It's mainly one of the reasons why I try to maintain some knowledge on matters of politics but to mainly stay out of the whole discussion when on some form of social media...
@@Crashdip.twitch thank you.
Im not phobic of any group. But all groups need to police their own and understand that with good comes bad. Not everyone is doing whatever for the right reasons.
@@salmon2794 this world is actually a recreation of The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time in VRChat! Just look up "Ocarina of Time" in the world list :)
"You're there with your guys and you're dying. You're suffering every day together. It sounds great." is probably the best description of track I've heard.
Reminded me of my marching band and drum corps days. 😂
im in track and we literally have to suffer the cold in spring but we share blankets 💀
It's so accurate, no matter who you are, you all feel like family
navy seal training fr (except they come actually come the closest to dying)
Hey, I’m the guy in the video! Thank you guys for all your kind words and support, and if anyone has any questions I’ll be happy to answer them:)
It was lovely to have you on!!
A friend of mine is a trans guy in Texas under 18 who does track and cross country, so you mentioning that and bringing more knowledge to that is really appreciated. How has the testosterone affected your height? I know typically in cis people the average is that men are taller, so have you had a growth spurt?
I'm only 30 seconds into the video, but I was wondering what the biggest issue you've faced yet has been
@@Shadowassassin908 is your friend on testosterone? I’m just curious since the laws in Texas are so strict about that stuff with trans athletes.
But no, I did not get a growth spurt. I’ve heard that if you start T before your bone plates fuse (usually about 2 years after your first period) then you can still grow to average make height. This did not happen to me however, as I am 5’6:’)
@@UnorthodoxSkull if it makes you feel better, I'm AMAB and 5'4 at 19
As someone who was too afraid to do sports in high school this is very inspiring
I'm glad this video helped!
Sounds like to me you lack a father figure
@@juststop5768 Well YES
My father died when I was in middle school
What is that got to do with this?
@@polasamierwahsh421 AH HAAA I CALLED IT
@@juststop5768 ...what ?
considering that my younger brother ran cross country and now is a cross country coach himself (he always claimed he was middle of the pack) this was an interesting vid. i do hope you get the time you want and glad that you shared your experance.
I’ve had my first interaction with a trans person about 6ish months ago. He’s one of my coworkers and probably one of if not my favorite person to work with. He’s a great guy, funny as hell and hard working. I’ve never made it my concern on anyone’s gender or identity because it’s truly not something that has any effect on me except that I’ve met a good person and a good friend. Congrats on everything, especially considering what you’ve had to go through to get it
When u say he... do u mean like HE or he
@@juststop5768 is there a difference?
@@juststop5768 …what?
@@juststop5768 buddy what
@@thegooseguy like as in “yo this guy ik from high school said that HE was responsible for the 9/11 terror attacks on NY and that HE was working directly with Osama Bin Ladin” or as in “yo guys, my little sister thinks she’s a dude now so when u come over can u call her he”
The thing about meeting a trans person is so true, I've seen it happen irl. Senior year of high school I had a trans lesbian teacher and one of my classmates told me that before meeting that teacher she was a TERF but now she'd become an ally to the trans community
Me meeting a nonbinary person and going from making fun of the concept to pointing out how backwards my family's questions about them were.
Turns out I wasn't that binary myself😂
lmfao ya poor brainwashed potato lQ
EYYYYYYYYYY FTM GANG! I'm chronically ill so i can't be in sports like I used to be, but as an adult now I'm transitioning happily. It's rough living in a red state! I feel for this guy a lot and i know the pain of losing a fellow friend. I hope you become the athlete you wanna be!!
edit: yeah as a texas transman shits WILD. i started HRT at 20 (and honestly its been fine) but they really try to group us all together. It should really be a person by person basis.
God this is why I wish I was straight. Right and left leanings do not line up specifically with homophobia.
I grew up in a suburb north of Austin and there was a very wide range of political views even just on my street. One house would have that "in this house we believe-" sign with the rainbow text and two houses down would be a trump sign. It was kinda surreal but I mostly kept to myself and my family, who are supportive
Ayee texas ftm gang
FTM GANNGG!!!
im not from texas tho...
My family are very unsupportive of Lgbtqia+ so I’m in the closet, and will be for another few years until I can say: “Fuck you, I like guys, and I’m dating one. Deal with it.”
You're almost there dude, keep on fighting!!
I admire this guy. Since when I was a child I wanted to be a girl, which is funny because my twin sister wanted to be a boy. Anyways, I never came out and probably never will, because my family is not even remotely supportive, except for my sister probably, and they hate any minority they know. Not only did this guy had the balls (lol) to come out, but he also managed to get through something as crushingly tragic as _that_ period of depression; I mean, I went through depression too and already it's not fun. Then when I heard that his friend shot herself I was genuinely caughtoff guard and got sad. Then the transphobia, the bullying, people not taking him seriously, jesus christ. But then he somehow had the pure, raw determination and willpower to have the craziest glow-up, overcome his insecurities and get to the level he currently is at. I fuckin love people like this, if it was me, I would've never made it. Never. I mean, I got second-hand confidence from this
Dude you got me grinning from ear to ear, this just made my day. I’m so so sorry you’re stuck with an unsupportive family. Having a supportive family is really what got me through my darkest hours, as I always had a safe home to return to after school.
Hang in there, as cheesy and overused as it is, it really does get better. Eventually you’ll be old enough to make your own choices and find your own family.
(Kind of an odd coincidence, but my twin sister came out as trans a few months ago too. I’m no scientist by any means, but it does make me curious.)
I've made SO many friends just by being open minded and accepting of other peoples gender and preferences. No matter what, they are the gender they tell me they are. I once met someone who had a full beard and classically masculine features, but she introduced herself to me as female, so she is female until she directly tells me otherwise. Another great example is my old college roommate (now great friend) came to learn they are nonbionary, but when we first met they still identified as female. They had a lot of anxiety about it, but i could tell living with me was always comfortable for them. Partly I thinks its because the moment they came out to me as nonbionary thats exactly what they became to me. It took a week or so of consistent effort to completely change my habit of using their old pronouns, but I could tell it meant a lot to them. Something a simple as accepting people for people no matter what words are used to describe them is probably the easiest way to meet fantastic people, and forge lifelong friendships. I'm just sad my way of thinking is such a minority.
I'm really glad people think like this, and I'm sure it really helps people's mental health when amazing people like you do these things.
@@commandercorl1544 honestly the mentality is just how I was raised. It would be a lie to say I fully understand the various genders and preferences, but I do it least try my best. The area I grew up in didn't have anyone who was open about a gender other than male or female, so I've had to learn about it all while in college. The college I went to is huge within the lgbtq+ community, so I really wasn't exposed to those sorts of things until college. The lgbtq+ community where I grew up is practically non existent. So despite being pan I've had no one to ask about these things or to teach me them before I went off to college. Well regardless, i didn't want to be held back by my lack of knowledge on the community so I did put forth more effort into trying to understand.
thank u for being that person for ppl. as a trans person that means alot having supportive ppl around
@@kai_alex I've always been super interested in medical stuff and so hearing about all the changes my trans acquaintances go through medically is super interesting. I've talked to a few who were comfortable talking about what going through the process in order to finally get their gender was like. They were all really happy with their choices to pursue physically becoming their true gender, and hearing about the steps and procedures was really fascinating and enlightening. Btw sorry if my wording is a bit off, I'm not the best with words. All the trans people I've talked to have all described it as always being one gender internally, but another physically. And that going on hormones and getting gender reassignment surgery was just physically becoming the gender they always were. To be fair the ones I've talked to have all been on hormones and pursuing surgeries, so I haven't heard yet from the prospective of a trans person whose not as interested in undergoing such medical physical changes. I do know there are plenty who worry about hormone treatments and surgeries, and thats okay, they'll always be the gender they tell me they are regardless of physical features or where they are in their process. Sorry that was kinda long winded. Its just really important to me that people know there really are allies out there who'll put forth the effort to at least try to understand them better.
As an agender person, thank you so much for having this perspective, and thank you for being so supportive of your friends. We need more people like you in this society and I'm sure those people close to you who are trans appreciate you more than you realize
Good job on getting back on TRACK to becoming an amazing athlete! Proud of you man!
Hehe... track.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 heehee hahashahs3 Ed r I
back on track gayometry dash
as a trans man, this is relatable. it is really true, the men dont want to be around you and you dont fit in with the girls. its isolating really.
I hope he gets his 16:30s time! that would be absolutely amazing to hear about
I hope so too!
As a young trans man, he inspired me so much
I'm so glad!
So now what are you going to do?
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 to be honest I'm not sure yet, because I'm not exactly in a safe home to come out, my mom is really transphobic and my dad is a very Conservative man, considering their Divorced I don't think I want to get kicked out of my homes, but I'm getting a job soon (I'm 15 so in my state I'm of legal age to work now) so I'm hoping to make enough money to where I can afford a small apartment and start transitioning from there, obviously it's going to take a few years but my boyfriends family said that they are willing to help support me because I'm openly out as trans to them
@@Will_TheCryptid Look, I know this is tuff, but I'm so sick and tired of people saying "right leaning = transphobic." Just try and figure out if he is actually transphobic or not instead of just having a political belief.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 oh- I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend anyone, but yes he is transphobic, I've heard him say some pretty messed up things about trans people
hi, ftm ex-athlete here. until covid hit, i did downhill skiing since i could walk. then i started to enter race teams and train along with other girls, no matter what team i entered i was always looked down upon and excluded just by existing. girls always laughed at me for always being around my dad (him being a coach on one of my teams) and the guys were most likely afraid of my dad, everyone was afraid to talk to me aside from the coaches, so i never really grew up with friends my age. never really was included into a friend group anywhere i went for that matter even if it was outside racing. not only did i recognize my masculine tendencies and behavior when i was 14, but i finally fit into a small friend group on this one team (which was the most popular one in the region); as for the other girls on the team they always bit my head off and made fun of everything i did over the years bc again, one of the reasons was that i was on several other teams before joining this one. luckily, they were queer/trans friendly, as only one was straight but allied. then covid hit which was really bad for my health overall. i was always snowed in and the rich kids were attending races across the US while rubbing it in the faces of everyone else on the team while the coaches did nothing. my parents knew that racing was a burning passion but finally decided to move out where there were healthier people which was unfortunately away from the mountains which is where i tried to transition but didnt go well due to a bunch of the kids my age that lived in the neighborhood happening to be extremely rubbish which was a huge halt to my transition. in the last year, ive moved again even further but im in an amazing relationship, haircut and am finally able to bind, probably getting top in college. also surrounded by helpful, lovely, inspiring online friends and looking for another sport which will most likely be skateboarding.
sometimes life just throws shit at you as a test, and an opportunity to find the boundary to your limits.
Im glad things are looking up for you! I hope skateboarding goes well, I personally don’t have the coordination for anything like, that so I admire your skill:0
heyy hes wearing the avatar i made, stay strong friend
Oh, hell yeah! I love the Cody avatars, I used to use one of them a lot. I love the edit you made :)
I felt the same exact way during school, I wasn't accepted by anyone. You sound like a awesome athlete man, keep pushing for those goals!
ayyy ftm gang here. only difference is i HATE sports and excersize with a passion lmao
Fair lol
I feel the aspect of the beginning of the video. I have been Genderqueer for a while now, and a lot of the time I lean towards MTF (I know it's the standard in the meadia). It's... really hard to deal with the body dysphoria that comes with it, as well as the backlash. Unlike the awesome guy in this video, I do vocals and singing. Every day I have to sing baritone (for you non music nerds that the second to lowest pitch) and it really triggers my dysphoria. I gained a hint of self confidence randomly in 8th grade and went to ask the principal would I be able to change and go to the restroom in the girls rooms. She just laughed at me and told me absolutely no, called me a creep and to get out of her office immediately. I have never asked about it again, I guess I just don't belong in the women's rooms. And for anyone who is wondering, my parents are supportive, so at least I got that.
You belong in whichever bathroom you feel comfortable in. I mean that sincerely, and I am sorry for how you're being treated. I hope you can find a solution
I studied sport and exercise science at University here in England, and I can honestly say that (except at the elite level) trans-genderism in sport is basically an unknown topic.
It's such a varied and multifaceted subject that, in my opinion, nobody truly knows whether or not there are distinct advantages inherent in trans-athletes or not.
At the international level, yeah there is a distinct gap, but at the college/district level, the numbers seem to completely corroborate what this athletes is saying.
I genuinely hope more research on the subject is conclusive enough to make judgements on who competes with who as soon as possible, however, its not looking good.
There are just too many variables with each individual trans-athlete for us to come to a universal consensus about how we approach trans-genderism in sport.
This conversation was very productive and I'm glad it took place.
Thank you for your input, and your line of work sounds awesome!!
@@Azeal
Thank you, too many of my colleagues want to ban trans-athletes from participating until we know more about the topic.
Personally, I don't see how we can run conclusive tests, and really dig into the subject of trans-athletes if we don't allow them to participate.
Literally runs counter to all sense, until the numbers are conclusive, which they aren't right now, it'd be intellectually dishonest to have a strong opinion either way at the district/college level.
I think there is no point regulating anything on sub-national levels, but national and especially international/olympic levels of competition? There may be a sizable disadvantage for FtM athletes and a sizable advantage for MtF athletes (which is the point most of us "normies" get stuck on), but of course there is still data missing on that. Probably the best way to solve this would be to put people in narrow brackets of just about similar performance, leaving gender at the wayside entirely.
@AlexVardr
But even then, you'd just get the exact same gender divide we are seeing now.
I suspect the outcome would be most males dominating most females in all physical sports with slight overlap in the middle, thereby necessitating the need for gender seperation in sport again.
im so happy for you man i love this kind of stuff because im bisexual and do swim and that might not be the same but there is still a lot of discrimination it doesnt matter who you are or what part of the lgbtq+ community you are in, it is still a huge problem
@@alternax9751 Damn that was a good joke.
Umm, I'm biromantic, and I've never really even seen any part of it. Granted, I didn't exactly shout that from the rooftops, and I only really found that out about 2 years ago, but still.
Anyways, it gets much worse, as many countries have being LGBT+ as illegal. China and Russia are good examples.
@@thotslayer9914 it depends, biromanic is the romantic attraction to both or more gender. And only bi means both romantic and sexual attraction
A example, someone can be biromanic and ace (Ace= little or no sexual attraction)
@@thotslayer9914 Yeah, Engeldrache already explained it. That's pretty much what I mean. There's a difference between love and sex.
Yea u didn't need to tell me u were bi i think we all could kinda tell kid
hey azeal! I don’t comment much but you might recognize me from a far while back. It’s been so nice seeing you and your content grow and all the interesting people you’ve met and bonded with, and the channel banner definitely embodies that. Either way, keep up the good work azeal!
Thank you so much!! 💜
@@Azeal your doing amazing work out there! and remember, everyone has a story
Female to male is not where the contention is because you’re willingly choosing to partake in a harder version of the same sport (though there are debates to be had on this side as well). Male to female is where the contentions lay because there is such an obvious inherent disadvantage that it shits on the whole reason female sports was created to begin with.
especially in combat sports
Correct, which is why (as you would see if you watched the whole video) having a medical professional assess your abilities is vital to making competition fair to yourself and others.
@@LoneWandererCollin wrestling and mma currently.
Don’t forget about the Olympics, cause there are some sports not a lot but some were the best female score is the worst score in the male version
@@lightningleopard8877 a bit confused on what you mean. Do you mind elaborating? I don’t really care all much for the olympics.
god imagine how awful this comment section would have been if the person being interviewed was a trans girl.
i dont think much would be different lol
being a trans ftm/ftn and watching this video makes me feel prouder of who i am as a person and prouder of my identity :)
"Its just a normal dude right there. Look at him go. Wow, frolicking" 😂
I myself am a moderate conservative but I have no problem with anyone we are all human and i respect all people.
The fact that this might actually be a surprise to some is so damn ironic. It feels like you and I are opposites in a way. You're someone who people expect to hate the entire LGBT+ community with a passion but instead treat them well, while I am someone in the community myself while also seeing so much toxicity in it that I want to become straight so I won't be associated with some of the people here. This feels ironic, but anyways... Try not to get bullied about politics too much, okay?
based opinion
Same. I’m not a fan of touchy subjects like Transgender and the gay community, but I always tell myself that me & them are both human, and I can & should respect that.
Im a mod lib and you're hella based my guy
Love the stuff always and been through similar things, thank you for sharing these storied from others and yourself. x
Such a great video!, My best friend ,who was once my girlfriend, is a trans-girl(Boy to Girl) and she have absolutely no support from her family, it's they act like it's gonna go away with time and make me so angry, but it's great to hear/see trans-people being supported by their family, so thanks!
PS: Good luck for the race!
Hey thanks for sharing. I hope you never stop. Even if a school says there's some issues one way or another, running you can do on your own and compete on your own. Obviously there's the whole "college experience" and you probably want that to be good. But I dunno I went to college for 9 years I'm over it :p It was neat. But my fondest memories I have from sports ever are playing in leagues and competing after college. And pickup games and competitions with friends, for what it's worth. College isn't necessarily the end-all-be-all of life experiences. I swam so I know what you mean by the suffering part. Like it just hurts while youre doing it, and that's about it. But it feels amazing to be in good shape. I definitely notice when I'm not doing cardio for a few days.
Completely unrelated but i find it hilarious that the tail in Azeal's avatar is so gigantic that it's bigger than the rest of the body.
It do be fluffy
As a person who’s trans (non-binary but like very feminine and also questioning if I’m not a trans woman), I really relate to his story. The struggle with government being against us and the society being very very unwelcoming. I am glad that there are videos like these. I hope some straight cisheads will see this and it’ll open their eyes!
i think everyone should watch azeal's videos, they really teach you to treat people better
Aww thank you!
Love seeing the lgbtq rep! Helps me feel less alone❤ Thanks for another great video Azeal! And to the guy in this video, great job sticking it to the transphobes! Go be the next Usain Bolt!
Scroll through r/LGBT, or the furry community, or go on the internet during June...
Seriously, am I the only person that looks at common media and does *NOT* automatically think "They're not representing what I am in this show! I'm so alone in this world."
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 The issue is the silencing and otherization.
@@VelaiciaCreator Just stop.
Savvy, Its the ratio of hate/prejudice to support/basic acceptance. It's like 20:1, even during june. Thats not to mention it's illegal to be lgbtq in like 70 countries. So yeah, theres solid reason to feel alone sometimes. Plus, i don't go immediately assume "this doesnt support me!!", 99% of us are regular people who don't follow that dumb stereotype of freaking out like that, it's just nice to see representation, and it's absolutely reasonable to feel alone when it's literally a death penalty in many places to just exist as a human.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 There's a substantial portion of the population that is LGBTQ+ and entertainment is disproportionately cis-het white people. Not that that's just how the writing world is, those are just the ones allowed up there. It absolutely is a matter of suppression.
Love seeing trans representation, especially trans men, as they're rather under-represented compared to trans women. I myself am nonbinary, so it's also just great in general to see people with similar experiences to me getting representation.
I'm proud of him for staying strong over this rough time.
I'm proud of him too!
I don't mean to sound like a jerk, but this person is just... existing. That's not exactly the same as rep. Or who knows, I might have completely misunderstood what you said.
Okay it's probably the latter, but still.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 I think they meant representation as in this person getting a platform to talk about his experience.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 i think they meant azeal hosting him on azeals channe
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 Yeah, it was probably the latter. I more meant trans people getting to show cishet folk (of which most people who watch Azeal's channel are, at least i think) what it's like to be queer, and how it's a lot harder than many cishet folk think.
Exposure! That is the best way to help others understand transgenderism. People simply demanding change from others will just create more resistance. Hearing him making friends over time really warmed my heart and gave me hope that people can learn to tolerate different ways of life.
I would love to meet this guy, he not only seems to be an amazing athlete (running wise) but also to be very humble. I say this because people who take first place out of the thousands of runners state wide or whatever the competition district may be are people that run like 17 minute runs or 16 minute runs. So as I said before, this guy is definitely one hell of an athlete. And on top of that he has to be close to college level if not higher.
I hope to see this awesome dude at the Olympics more power to him!
Ftm here just wanna let you know In Texas it sucks my mom doesn’t accept me and I am constantly misgendered sometimes a group of kids ask a very personal questions just for a reaction from me Thanks for this video m8 it really helps seeing videos like these discussing the very unfair laws that are being passed
Context: I am from a high school where the kids who misgender me literally knew I am trans and they are NOT toddlers I'm fine with hiding myself but at school, I am very open to the point where when a teacher calls out roll I would respond in a quick pace say my preferred name as soon as they say my deadname so that when they see me they can just say my preferred name.
I am sorry you have to go through this.
keep on going dude, it'll get better eventually. It always does.
I'm sorry, what is up with you replacing random letters with symbols? Also, being called the wrong pronoun kind of doesn't mean anything... I used to call people by the wrong gender all the time as a kid, trans or otherwise it didn't matter; got to a point where I had to take a class on being able to tell the difference as a kid. Anyways, calling people by the wrong pronoun doesn't automatically indicate that the person misgendering is transphobic or shit.
Another thing, isn't it possible that those children were just curious? As a toddler, anyone suddenly changing genders probably made them think of a mythical gender-swap potion you'd see in a fairy tale.
Dude I relate so hard to the part about being cornered by people asking super personal shit. You know they’re just doing it for a reaction, but you can’t do anything about it cause then you’re being “too sensitive”, they’re just “curious” after all.
WARNING: Mentions possibly anxiety(not diagnosed so I can't just say I have anxiety or depression for certain) or just low self esteem in general. Also just really sad self loathing. If it's triggering pls don't read.
Man, the way he described his friend Blue... the way he seems to have taken the situation too, he took it fairly good, at least from what I heard, I don't want to sound too parasocial, of course.
I feel like if one of my best friends died by suicide, I would NEVER recover from it. It would absolutely fucking shatter me, specially if it was a situation like his, where it would make me feel guilty because "I didn't say, or do the right thing". I always feel like I need to treat those around me the way I want to be treated, and in theory that sounds like a very good rule to follow. And I do follow it, every single day, every single interaction, I always have it in mind. It allows you to stay humble and empathetic. But sometimes it backfires and makes you put yourself last, you end up not mattering as much as the people around you. You want them to be okay, you want them to feel good, and by extension you're supposedly helping yourself, right? What they never tell you about the golden rule is how important it is to balance it with self love. I never practiced self love, I somehow confused it with narcissism. I always thought it was complete selflessness and unconditional empathy towards everyone no matter what.
I have so much trouble accepting compliments or gifts, I feel like I don't deserve anything but the basic things I already have.
If a best friend went away in that way... I would instantly blame myself. I would never forgive myself. I know it may sound illogical to so many other people, and they simply respond with "it's objectively not your fault, you couldn't have done anything", but that doesn't change the fact that I still *feel* guilty. I know it's illogical, but that part of my brain screams so loudly, it won't shut up. I'm the most paranoid person I know, I'm supposed to be prepared for any situation ever, if I'm not prepared for that, if I can't do every single thing possible to help that person, than I've failed. My paranoia was worthless, I was useless, worthless. Someone died and I could have done something, I was close to them. Just a simple "I care about you", just keeping up with them, being more attentive. The excuses keep piling on and on, and they weigh you down so much, you feel crushed. I wish I could be more confident, I'm doing baby steps towards being better about my self esteem, but it's so hard. I just wanted to say that I'm really proud of him, he is so incredibly strong. I would completely break had that happened to me.
Testosterone is literally used as doping, so yes it'll improve your performance, however certain things don't change depending on what puberty you went through. Female bodies generally have smaller hearts and a different bone structure so unfortunately tans men will always have a disadvantage in certain sports.
Also on trans women not breaking records, they unfortunately are. That's because in general, the testosterone levels can be over 10x as high than most cis women to be allowed to compete. This also means that cis women that go over that threshold because of a condition aren't allowed to compete, and that many women are flirting with that threshold with hormones. None of this is fair, and it's because sports shouldn't be gendered but divided into classes, like you have in sumo wrestling kinda.
This this a thousand times this
I ran cross country my sophomore year of high school and loved it. However, a little while before that I realized I was trans - but at this point my dysphoria was manageable. Went through that year of cross country feeling more and more dysphoric as time past. I wanted to run again the next year but couldn't due to my dysphoria. I live in a heavily Christian, conservative part of the US and didnt think I had any hope of coming out and having an even remotely positive response. I still dont, 4 years later. So, I didn't say or do anything about my dysphoria other than just kind of avoiding it, which meant I had to avoid cross country.
Cis boys be mad that you're kicking their butts.
👏
Of course you turn this into a "I'm right and you're wrong and that's all I need to say to be right" thing.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 You did what now?
@@Bendilin I didn't do anything.
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 They're 100% correct in that assessment though.
omg, emotional, just what i needed for waking up. wow this hits hard and thats good to me, i love stories. but i do wish it could have been different on some parts of it and i agree there is alot of transphobia around.
I live in a red state too, and I worry so much for my community today but especially trans youth. Ron DeSantis in 2021, on the first day of Pride Month, signed into law a bill that bans transgender girls and women from competing on female sports teams at the high school and college level. Also, trans Medicaid recipients here are having ALL of their transition-related healthcare (surgery and hormones) revoked. That includes hormones, puberty blockers AND surgeries! Because of him, my wife's insurance won't cover ANY of her breast augmentation procedure. Not only that, he's pushing for trans youth to not receive ANY gender-affirming care. I suggest everyone read the guidelines that were released in April, its just a page long, "Treatment of Gender Dysphoria for Children and Adolescents", contradicting leading federal medical advice, it states worst of all that "social gender transition - a nonmedical process in which a person uses a name, pronouns and/or clothing that matches their gender identity - should 'not be a treatment option for children or adolescents.'", they're trying to make it illegal to be trans. And the doctors that treat us will become scared of treating us for fear of prosecution. This man is running for president. He is using us for votes built on transphobia. We are the 'civil rights issue of our time'. And I suggest anyone reading this with hate in their heart realize that we're human just like you. We want to play sports like you. Have friends like you. Our rights are being taken from us. Trans rights are human rights, and if you believe in this land of freedom and liberty you'll understand how fucked up we are treated and how bad it is and could continue to worsen if a dingus like him becomes president. One last thing, just the last 2 years, at least 130 bills have been introduced in 33 states to restrict the rights of transgender people. In 2022, over 230 anti-transgender bills were introduced in state legislatures in a coordinated national campaign to target transgender rights. Many of these bills became law. The Equality Act must be passed for not only our protection but numerous others too. We are only protected in areas of employment but not in so many other aspects. Thanks for reading. You don't have to perpetuate hate.
3:52 I knew exactly where that was going and it still hit me like a freight train, I'm so tired of seeing my sisters die. It breaks my heart hearing about other trans girls/women end their lives. I started crying as soon as I heard that. How many more of us have to die before things change? No one should have to suffer like that and have parents that don't support them
I feel the same way... it horrified me. it's actually disgusting. even though i just heard it in passing through a second hand account in a youtube video, i know that she had her own story, and i can't even imagine how much suffering she endured and what she went through. it makes me want to cry because i just think... why did she deserve to die, instead of me?! or anyone else? she didn't. she deserved a wonderful life. she deserved at least having a chance at life. but she didn't get it. i probably would have loved her if i got the chance to meet her. what disgusts me even more is that she's younger than me. i'm 17 already, and that scares me, because i don't feel 17. i don't really feel like i've grown up.
and it makes me feel bad about my own life... because sure, i have some difficulties due to being queer and gender non-conforming, but not nearly as many as she had. and i'm still here, horribly unsatisfied, lonely, mentally unhealthy, and unproductive. i'm not the person i would like to be, even though i probably have a better opportunity to do it than she did. i'm not even sure about my gender identity; i might even identify fully as a trans girl, but i'm not sure. all i know is that i want to be a feminine person, and i wish i was one of the girls (even if i still identify as a boy). but i haven't transitioned as much as i would like to. i'm too stupid to even be able to shave my body successfully.
sorry for ranting
@@cureabees9440 Don't be sorry, you just needed to vent and that's completely valid. Your thoughts are valid and you don't need to apologize for them, and I definitely know what you mean with not feeling like you've grown up. And yeah I agree she deserved a wonderful life, we all do, we shouldn't have to suffer and we all deserve love. If you want to talk more we could elsewhere like on Discord if that's ok with you, I'd love to chat with you more about those things because I get it and it's a rollercoaster
@@Clairavoya thank you... my id is cureabee(hashtag)0621
@@cureabees9440 Got it
As a genderfluid kid who can’t do sports, due to my high metabolism and skinniness and medication, I’m really happy other trans kids can play sports. It makes me so happy to see that other people exist in such an amazing beautiful practice. Sports are amazing, and you start to realize that when you can’t do that.
Amazing job, dude!
Wait, I CAN SUBMIT A STORY?? wow, that’d amazing
im the first FTM runner on my schools cross country team. its been rough but i have an amazing supportive team and an even more supportive amazing coach.
i also 100% understand the weird limbo feeling.
I had my earliest exposure to trans folks when I was in middle school. There was a decent community of queer folks at my school and several of them were transmen, agendered, gender fluid, etc. I think what they said about when you meet these people and see them as people, not political talking points, you gain a better appreciation for their cause ya know? People should get out and meet more of these people and educate themselves before trying to make laws that play with people's lives and mental well being.
As someone who is a trans female its nice to see people out there support transgender males and females and its even better that your letting there storys be heard. Thank you so much and keep up the wonderful work
Thank you, I will continue to do my best to bring awareness!
Using quarantine to your advantage way to go bro keeping yourself fit.
1:37 made me realize azeal was not sitting on the edge of a pond
‘Wow, frolicking’ has got me cracking up for some reason lmaooo
12:03 it's pretty close to that bad down in Alabama too. It's a class 3 felony for a doctor to give a trans kid healthcare, even though it's life saving in a lot of cases. The parents get in trouble too.
I can't think of anyway hormone treatment can be life saving when used for transitioning. It can give you a false sense of hope, but at the end of the day it more psychological than physiological. It SHOULD be considered a felony though cause as a child who doesn't fully understand life and what it means to transition won't just be able to turn off the effects of hormones. It will permanently alter the body it's not like taking a birth control pill and just choosing to stop one day and being fertilize the next day. You won't just get your voice back or your body back. That's why so many trans people end up suicidal, it's more complicated than just getting a prescription for hormones and it magically fixing everything. Dysphoria is a mental illness that stems from upbringing, social environment, preconceived gender stereotypes, etc. Treating Dysphoria with HRT is like treating cancer with an ice pack.
@@enixfire if the only way for someone to be happy, child or not, is to get something that's essentially harmless, I say it shouldn't be a felony to give it to them
@@user-qc1mc2ly8j HRT is more dangerous than being on an anti-depressant. Sure it might work if you get it right but it can also make things way worse and without proper psychological care you just end up taking drugs without solving the problem or end up feeling more depressed. Having been on T for over two years between the ages of 21 to 23 it was the worst decision I could have made and one that I will regret for the rest of my life. Not everyone is going to be cis passing and for people who don't it's horrible. I didn't pass and felt worse for it, I became obsessed with how I looked and isolated myself cause I didn't want to be misgendered. I only ever spoke to people through a voice changing program over discord and didn't form any real life bonds. It got so bad that I wasn't living a life, I was living to uphold and image of what I thought I had to do in order to be happy. I tried to kill myself when I thought I lost my support system after an argument with my best friend at the time. I failed thankfully, but a lot of transfolks go through what I did and a lot of them are successful tragically. I ended up discovering that I wasn't trans I just grew up with mistaken beliefs instilled into me by my conservative parents about gender, but I can't ever get what I lost back. I will always sound worse than a normal female and I will always feel self-conscious of my facial hair that grows even after having been off of T for 6 years. People talk about it ignorantly believing it's this easy fix and it's not.
@@alastor80911. No child is getting surgery what are you on about
2. Didn't know hormones were considered drug cocktails.
There's also the fact people force intersex kids to get this same treatment and that isn't illegal, bit hipocritical
i don't know if this is a good story or worthy of posting but i have one.
so lets set things straight, I was in pre-school about 3 years old and it was November at the time.
So, my class and this other class were out playing on the playground and it was getting dark so we were going to head inside. Nobody really knows what happened but I was still getting off the playground and what everyone believes is, that someone from the other class took my spot in line after their teacher counted them in their line. Like, they went in my line after the teacher counted them in theirs so the teacher thought that kid was in their line so they set off. Then my teacher counted and counted everyone but me because I was getting off the playground and they couldn't see me because it was dark and that other kid took my spot in the line. So my teacher thought everyone was there, so they left without me when I was on the playground. I think I was like climbing off the stairs saying "wait" but everyone else was talking so I guess she couldn't hear me or she thought I was talking to someone else. I was hiding in a tube with holes so I could see outside. I was outside for about 3 hours( that's what my parents said). Thank goodness I probably had a jacket because it was November and probably really cold. I was only scared because I thought I was gonna be eaten by a raccoon, but that's how dumb little 3 year old's work (lmao). Someone did come out on the playground to come and get me but they were searching inside first because they didn't think I was going to be outside.
I’m a Male to Female Transgender Sophmore in highschool and it is very annoying dealing with people staring at me when I wear bras and stuff. Also about the sports thing, I understand why because due to the fact biological males are stronger than biological females (in general) therefore it becomes shifted in their favor but eh
good luck to him. trans athletes are a hot topic right now.
But all the best to him with life
good luck indeed, he'll do great! :D
Okay this is not related but I've never seen the tail of your avatar and it look so cutee
aww thank you!! it's one of my favorite parts :>
I wish that boy the best luck and the fastest times.
hell yeah!
Hi Azeal and guest
hello
I can only run a sub 22, you’re athletic as hell, good for you man.
Everyone can improve with practice!!
@@Azeal thanks for the support.
Submitted a story hopin to come on!
I live in upstate NY, it’s pretty rural, but in my High-school there’s quite a few trans athletes, myself included. I related to so much of what he said, it is unreal lol.
Sounds like you worked your ass off to prove them all wrong. Truly inspiring, you sound like a cool dude. I hate how the most publicity women's sports has gotten in the last decade has been because MTF trans people wanted to compete. Nobody gave a fuck about women's sports till that. It was never about making sports fair it was about separating trans people from society.
The reason female sports existed to begin with was so it would be fair your whole premise is just flat wrong.
Trans people deserve to compete, but not with unfair advantages. It makes all parties involved look like dickheads.
@@Bori.1776 when the olympics has said the difference is gone after a certain time of hrt. It doesn’t matter that some random person says its unfair
People's motives for talking about it doesn't change the fact that MtFs have unfair advantages over cis athletes.
@@anentiresleeveoforeos2087 Incorrect.
This has gotta be the most controversial video made so far. And I respect that.
Also when will the "Volunteer Militant" gonna be back, bro had the best stories!
10:54 ngl i also feel like around some of my friends, ive changed them also by existing like before they werent as open-minded as they are now
Wait a second you’re on ocarina of time I recognize the farm I shouldn’t but I do
indeed! it's an almost complete recreation in VRChat :)
Gotta say that's a super good voice
As far as know a the main reason there is laws against people under 18 taking hormones is mostly to make sure it’s entirely thier discision and weren’t “convinced” by their parents or anyone else for that matter but there could always be reasons in the background
Which is bullshit. Also the age is 16.
@@VelaiciaCreator I live in texas
@@sugarpacket7251 My condolences.
Texas has a lot of weird laws but hey constitutional Carey is something I guess?
@@VelaiciaCreator That's even worse. 16 is even lower. Have you ever heard of peer-pressure?
Dudes living the protagonist role fr
Trueee
I like his voice
I do as well!
I feel that the talk of trans people is way too much into the space of almost forcing ideals rather than it just being a load of fun.
I hope you get the time your after man, keep working hard
I fucking agree. I've never wanted to just not ever bring it up so much until now. Everyone is just such an a-hole. Either they say "I have a different sexual preference to the norm, so I should get to constantly live that no matter any STD anyone talks about." Or its "NOOOOOOO! They shouldn't exist!"
@@savvythedivineyethuggable7493 People can be camp and it's all ok. Being camp and making sure you know it in a verbal sense are different. A lot of people conflate the two.
I noticed that the guest speaker didn't sound all too distressed when he talked about transphobia, and I am curious how he (and possibly other transgenders) actually feel about transphobic people. I am a little confused because as a gay asian in conservative asia, I am very scared of homophobic people because of the increasing oppression and they make me fear for my life sometimes. So I am curious if this perception is shared by others, or how does it differ, to learn about the significance of this label.
In America you are probably much less likely to be physically harmed
hey Azeal i like your VR chat avatar character thingy. also i love the content.
thank you!!
This is epic to see, especially as another trans guy in sports. Unfortunately though, I can’t be on any teams and I don’t have testosterone and all that fancy stuff cause I live in Florida which is in some cases worse than Texas (for example if I were to receive therapy that involves discussion about gender then I could be taken away from my parents because I would be “at risk of abuse”, that “abuse” being hormones). I can’t compete or be on an official team but it least I can play, sometimes.!
he's my role model now. I'll try working out, (not on t rn very sad, will go when I'll be 16 though) and yea, running seems pretty cool, i'll try that out :)
9:49
i don't know for me, i feel awkward, because i suck at rememering names and stuff, and i really suck at caring about gender......
So it takes me a lota time to change how i address people........ Because i suck at communicating, and names, and talking.....
At least transitioning sure makes an easy reminder!
I hope people do realise that it's only that though, a reminder, a helpful tip...
I am asking people who read this... Am i an as*hole? Do i not make enough efforts?
your opinions are welcome!
Trying your best for this means a lot. For a lot of people, you could be the only one addressing them properly, so try and remembering that. Practice their name and pronouns by yourself, and you’ll get better at remembering! Just make an active effort.
I still feel like people are taking things too personally. I'v pretty much gotten harassed and called a transphobe that deserves to burn in hell just because I called a fictional character a he. (also, side note, that fictional character only "came out" in one ending of their story. This just makes the accusations worse.)
I dont mean to be hateful, and i know you’ve already posted 2 videos on trans people, but could we see some trans women on some videos? I really appreciate the trans representation but i haven’t seen much or any trans women representation on this channel, but if there is, could someone send a link?
🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️ trans is beautiful, stay safe ❤️❤️❤️
I have one coming soon, thank you for vouching for representation in my community! 🏳️⚧️❤️
@@Azeal oh my god, I didn’t think you’d see this, thank you! ❤️❤️❤️
"there's no way Azeal's tail will get any fluffier"
my face when:
I am thinking about it, and for the past year, I have wanted to come out avant c'est famille, et je suis ont. But I am very closeted, I very much want to, yet I fear the results, I fear what people would think. At least I can say this anonymously online...
I feel so bad for your experience and i hope things go better as you go on your journey of transition. My whole thing is i feel like there should be a way to make everyone at least a little happy in some way. If you’re FTM or MTF, the best thing for sports would be based on resemblance. If you physically show traits over clothes of being male, then you should be on the male sports teams until surgery takes place. If you look like a female over clothes, then you should be on the female sports teams until surgery takes place. Once that shift of “boobs or no boobs” happens, it’s gonna be a lot easier for people to swallow. It may not be exactly what you want, but at least the precedent is there. There also has to be a way of protecting trans students at school. Whether you’re not allowed to come out to anyone except the principal and your closest friends, then during the summer have your surgeries, get your hair cut, and have your name changed. I don’t know. There just has to be a way to protect you from all the heartache and save the trouble of other people from being offended. Like everyone is up in arms for some reason and I don’t understand it.
Also, i wanna say that my best friend is FTM, so i do understand some of your problems. He went through the Marines too and was honorably discharged for medical reasons because they overworked him and caused psychological and emotional damage to him because they were effectively bullying him so much.
Men don't belong in women's sports I'm sorry but that's how things should be because that's reality. Male athletes are physically stronger and faster than female athletes. It's a scientific fact that no amount of surgery or hormones will reduce those advantages that men have over women in sports so there is still a major physical unfair advantage
@@mariobadia4553 please be more respectful. I understand that you might not agree with my stances, but I would appreciate it if you respected his pronouns. Your agreeing or denying of my stance is fine. Opinions are opinions and everyone is allowed to have them tho.
@@GoblinModeSosu it’s okay:) Thank you. like i said, I understand that it doesn’t sit well with some people, but that wasn’t cool haha
Just let people live their lives.. haters need to grow up..
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It's running so I wouldn't really care but a contact or combat sport I would say trans shouldn't be allowed to fight a man just on the basis that they have a biological advantage.
Unless a person says they don't want a trans person to compete on that point alone I don't think they're hating
Agreed
@@michaelwaugh6641 Demonstrably incorrect on the trans front. You should also look up HEMA tournaments, they are often mixed.
I just wanna say that big fluffy tail azeal is best azeal
i’m a transmasc dude, and I really want to start ice-skating, but i’m afraid to because i’ll get bullied.
This guy really inspired me. I hope he becomes a great athlete!! :]
(sorry if anything sounded rude, I have a lot of trouble with talking without sounding rude)
It wasn't rude at all and go for your dreams dude!!
Ice skating is one of the gayest sports so you've already got that going for you go skate your little heart out bro I believe in you
When did the huge bushy tail happen? How did the bushy tail happen? How does it look so. . . alive? What I mean is it looks you are actually controlling the tail subconsciously.
What's What's outro song?
4:50, it’s crazy to think how Covid saved some peopl
Yeah for real!
Yeah, I just tought the only one saved were gamer because you can just play during your online class (btw my english teacher is watching some of these video donc
Désolé madame je jouais a LoL pendant vos cours)
I live in Texas and I am a trans male swimmer, the Texas government doesn’t know about my transition so I’m still able to compete. Plus I am a trans kid making it harder to just live here. I hope one day people will change and just let humans have their freedom, that’s right I said humans. Everyone is a person it doesn’t matter if your cis trans or gay we’re all people and we should be treated like so, not like some sort of disease. It’s been so hard just having the Will to live here in these conditions, I’m trying so hard to not commit suicide. The only thing that’s keeping me alive is my friends and family, I have no other reason to live besides that. I’ve been bullied in school verbally and it’s tough. I had a dream recently of me being bullied by the same person that would bully me for being trans, she’s call me by my dead name and by my name over and over again. I’m lucky some of the people by her side changed for the better and used my pronouns and name. She however, didn’t change at all. She’s still a bitter, ugly person(not physically). Again, I hope some day people will change and give our human rights.
its a mental condition either way i think they should get help since their killing themselves much more than "normal" people, but guys turned girls should be destroying females in their sport.
@@stultumtransitioning is their help or finding ways to cope if they cant
*This dude is cool.*
He is indeed!
This guy gets running. He gets CC too.
Me who gets tired easily when walking a small (now dead) dog around one block.
welcome back to Azeal being based: tail 15X the size of their character model edition. on this topic, we're covering an equally based dude. (btw, your masc skills are incredible! I literally would have never known you were trans if it wasn't brought up.)
I’d be happy to race with you! I really don’t see the big deal if you lined up at a race and ran against cisgender men like me. I’d still be last like usual! 😂 Also, HOLY CRAP A SUB 20 5K?!
The funniest thing about this is you cant even argue that he has some sort of unfair advantage because hes trans. Men on average are stronger than women so really, he is working woth a disadvantage.
If my coping mechanism is humor because if it wasn't, I would be dead right now... I would have been dead last month.
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shin splints are amazing 🙃