Im going to send you an email Lexi because you need to hear how very accurate you are and what you've done for me. I just stumbled onto your channel a month ago when I watched your pick a card "what spirit guides are around me right now (pile 2)"... since then i have watched as you channeled the higher self of my father (pile 3), the higher self of my mother (pile 4), and now this one . You've done more to help me heal than anything has since I began this journey 8 years ago.
Thank you sister 🦁🦁 made me sad to hear you cry in pile 4. I really do appreciate you channeling that dark energy. My sister lives close to me but we don’t talk or see each other. She’s not very nice to me and we are completely different from each other. I will always remember the good times we had together. I wish it was different …but I understand now why we have to stay apart. Thank you 🙏
Pile 4: I’m not gonna go into my whole story with me and my older brother who deals with mental illness. But all I can say is that, this reading brought me to tears. I’ve felt so much guilt and felt so bad that I couldn’t help him transmute the darkness like I have. And I’ve also felt bad that I felt like I needed to separate from him and leave him behind because I would be consumed by the darkness. Lexi when you started crying it’s like I could feel him, and I remember all the times hearing and seeing him cry because of the anger and hurt. You truly brought out the energy I’ve felt from him, and embodied the energy that I’ve had to transmute my whole life. Thank you so much for the reading. You’ve lifted the feeling of me feeling like I’m a bad person for leaving him behind and that I can’t fix him and face his demons for him. Thank you
OMG, you literally described situation with my brother, same helplessness I felt around him and the fear of drowning in his darkness. I cried throughout the reading, too. I left my brother behind, but I 'm at peace. I tried everything and my conscience is clear. I'm praying for your peace of mind 🙏 and send you lots of love 💖😘
Same here. I cannot help him if he can’t help himself. He hates me for it. Looks at me with so much disgust. And can’t “trust me”. I love him, I cried in front of him and days after he made a joke out of it. I am so done because is affecting my self worth. I pray one day he can see clearly. Mom and I are starting to believe he is possessed, he changed from one day to another.
Pile 3 not spoken to my Brother in 6 years when our Mother passed, the resentment is not me, I do have more strength than him and have wanted to better myself, yes envy would resonate. He has ran away from his problems and not dealt with them, he’s 8 years older than me, but he acts immature he’s had more handouts and leeway for sure, poor me syndrome, you’re so so spot on with him Lexi. Thank you 💚 ps my narcissistic father will always make excuses for him, and my Mother wet nursed him a lot. I do see through him I have a very good intuition being a clairvoyant and healer, he’s a bit of a compulsive liar too!
Pile 4- this reading saddens me the most. The ones about the parents weren’t as tough to hear, because I already knew in my heart what was up with them. But to go through a dysfunctional childhood with someone and see them so willfully blind to it hurts me deeply. Although my brother teased and tormented me growing up I’ve always saw the light in him. But as we are getting older I see him getting bitter and isolated. Hoping this is just a shadow phase, one that I am starting to come out of. Anything I say at this point goes in one ear and out the other. I am his source of resentment and anger because I always fought back and he stayed quiet.
Pile 2 - thank you ✨ So much confirmation of how my brother views me…both of us experienced CSA and processed it differently as adults…he ended up going to prison…he continues to be very angry with me and very resentful, refusing any contact and including his children in this situation…this reading really clarified that he almost hates me for having the determination to work with my pain and my commitment to use it for the highest good. I remain optimistic that he will soften these feelings at some point so that we can speak again…thank you so much Lexi for your amazing work 💗✨💫🌟
Pile 4: my younger brother is emotionally numb and I'm highly sensitive to emotions, we have both been through heavy generational karma and although I was able to heal mine, my brother still hasn't found the courage to face his, if this isn't accurate idk what else would be, Ive often felt guilt for not being able to help my brother like I helped myself out of it, but this reading gave me so much clarity... Lexi I'm so grateful for this reading and I really really want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, I also chose the murky waters pile in mother's higher self and the tornado pile in father's higher self, I was so shocked when you talked about those piles, it's like this reading was a continuation of my mother's higher self's reading. I got to hear the words from my sibling's higher self which I didn't know I needed to hear, like... All the three readings I just stepped in with the mindset that it might be heavy, and yes I cried it all out throughout the readings, I'm so grateful for these readings and I really want to tell your that your channel is a blessing for me, I feel at home when I see your readings, your light is genuinely so pure, I love your channel, Tysm💛
Pile 3 - my brother is 10 years older and his whole life he’s been in and out of jail and struggled with addiction. We never got to be super close because of it, but now that he’s been doing better he seems to look up to me even though I’m his little sister because I kinda learned from his mistakes and did things differently than him even though we had the same upbringing. He does seem to have a little resentment but overall I know there’s still love there! Spot on love :)
Pile #3 😭 you made me cry my heart out. Every word is accurate. He's my elder brother. He's envious of everything i do coz I'm a free minded and positive, high vibe person walking on completely different path than usuals. He says things which sting so bad sometimes but somehow I can see him inside being psychic and don't react, irrespective of the pain. I indeed have faced situations which lead for my transformation! I become self aware, strong, defeating depression and now teaching others self mastery. It pains my heart when i see him coz i know who he is inside and can see the difference outside crystal clear. You gave me hope with the message that he'll grow one day. I wish for him to connect with himself. Having done myself I know how important it is to connect with yourself when you're lost. I don't really have any expectations from him anymore. I just love him. His growth is his responsibility indeed. Thank you so much for this. ❤️
Pile Four, there’s so much to it, and I was in the piles for mother and father that you referenced. I am so grateful for you bringing these messages forth, I know how hard these energies are. Thank you so so much.
Pile 4. There’s a soul sister that I’d had to separate from 2yrs ago. It’s taken me more than 18 months to deeply heal myself from all the pain that relationship had brought me in the end. Now that I’ve returned to feeling happy, lighter, more at peace & abundant again, I’m never going back to the murky waters. Moving on with joy & gratitude for everything that’s transpired! Thanks Lexi for all the gifts you’d given us here. Today’s reading is ‘the final act’ that finally closes that painful chapter in my life for good. It is now complete. Sending lots of love & light your way 🌟💖🌟💖🌟💖🙏.
Pile 1- I am grateful for the reassurance and insight :) Thank you, now I feel relieved. I didn’t realize how harsh I was being towards myself. Blame is a big thing for me
Pile 4. Thanks for the reading Lexi! Well, really resonates for the most part. My brother is my biggest karmic challenge in this life. He hurt me deeply, but all throughout childhood, even though I'm the youngest I kept wanting to save him or defend him, even though his anger created a lot of problems in the family dynamic too. I don't speak with him for a couple years now, nor with my parents.........I was gaslighted my whole life by this family........the worse thing is that no one knows what happened, and I can't easily explain it other than they abandoning me and disrepescting me many times in many forms over many years. To think they are getting away with what they've done to me boils my blood...........but even know I'm still karmically entangled with them. I really gave up on all my dreams for this family. Even not embrancing love and peace and bliss many times was a protection mechanism to protect me from them! Ugh......what a mess of a lifetime. I barely believe in goodness anymore, I have no idea what the meaning of any of this was...even though spirituality keeps saying it's all for my higehst good. Yeah right...................it does resonate that I volunteered to help the family............but how have I helped exactly? I don't like half arsed answers. Anyway, thanks again. I'll just say to anybody reading that resonantes - just because you are a loving forgiving being, doesn't mean it's always wise to love and forgive.
I soooo get u. I posted my answer as well if u wanna read it. I have no survivors guilt whatsoever, and we shouldn't cause what my sister made me go through, nobody deserves. Sending you a big hug and congrats for getting out of it.
@@blueapatite22 I don't know how out I really am to be fair. I think it means for me that my light wasn't snuffed out by the unconsciousness of my family. I did read your comment. Family problems really are core and can mess up our relating to the rest of the world, so I empathize with you. I'm not sure my brother or family are narcissists necessarilly........they are however very self-protective, carry a lot of anger. Anyway, take care. Family's are overrated, don't lose hope in other people because of them :)
Wow ❤️ Lexi I selected pile 2, I'm the older sibling, everything that you suggested is exactly right. We're completely different from one another, and yet we are so close ❤️🤗.
Pile 4 here. It sounds like there are a lot of incredibly strong people in these comments; and you, yourself, are incredibly strong. Thank you for transmuting through your own pain to give healing and empowering messages I needed. My siblings are alive, for which I'm grateful, but there is distance despite us all overcoming a highly abusive childhood. I was the one who outed my parents for what they did and we are still feeling that to today, and all of my siblings are in vastly different places with their healing. I generally bear the brunt of critique from them (I'm the youngest) and frequently have to hold my tongue so as not to bite back. Hearing your reading, however, really allowed me to tap into the gratitude and acknowledgement of their strength and continued growth. Thank you for that. (P.S. I'm an Aquarius Sun, Cancer Moon, & Leo Rising--high five for similar signs!)
#4: As with the Father and Mother readings, deeply moving; in fact I couldn't stop crying throughout. Very cathartic and you confirm yourself with these readings as a real shining light. Thank you, Lexi.
Thank you so much for this reading pile #4 I am the viewer ascending the murky water and the hardest part is leaving my siblings behind thank you for helping me it’s incredibly intense and I know you had to go through it when you dove into the mother reading and I am so grateful for you being with me in that way I could never express it in words but I know you get it I love you ❤️
I’m literally bawling at the same time starting the same time JESUS CHRIST!!!…I’ve Worked so hard and tried harder! You Are a Beautiful Medium. You Are Loved. Thank You so much! I’m going to the other side of the Pond! Thank heavens! Glorious Healing! Thank You for sharing this and going so deep…You do not have to do this or feel us but you do and I wish I could HoneyBear Hug you sooooooooooooo tight and just finish this river of tears streaming from my face! I chose 1/4 I knew exactly who! And…I am officially blown away. Again, Thank You Lexi! Thank You 🙏
Thank you, Lexi. Pile 1&3- my pile one sibling was murdered about 8 years ago and you hit a lot of what I feel I’m regards to him. I know he’s one of my guardian angels- you also said “let me spread my wings” the otter card “you’re never alone” and I know he’s helped me through my very, very dark moments. Thank you for the confirmations I got today.
Pile #4. I'm completely drained after listening. I think the entire Universe must have heard/felt my shrieking and crying.🤦♀🤷♀ Thank you very much for allowing yourself to experience that painful energy in order to help provide clarity for us, Lexi. I experienced the full brunt of it and I know how very traumatic it is. I hope you took plenty of time for self-care and rest after this reading/channeling. I'm sending so much love to you - thank you again.💖💖💖
Pile #1. Hi Lexi. My names Tori. I wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart, this reading touched me deeply. Your compassion and insight were a huge blessing to me. You really made a difference to me. You make me feel so heard and seen. Literally everything you said was accurate, I could go on for pages about how it fits me and my sisters lives. If you’re interested, you can leave me your email and I can go into more detail but I wanted to confirm some things for you that you uncannily got spot on. I’m the oldest of 5 kids. Our parents are alcoholics. I had to step up and take care of the kids. This pile was for my sister Ally, she’s 6 years younger than me. I’m a Leo Sun, Taurus rising, Leo moon and Ally is a Scorpio sun, Taurus rising, and Taurus moon. She was the only sibling who really helped me. I was suicidal at 17. I almost bought a plane ticket and left the family at 18 but I couldn’t leave because I knew it would land on her if I left. Ally went through some horrific things no child should go through because of our parents neglect and I couldn’t protect her. We had a lot of ups and downs. We recently have mended our bridges two years ago and gotten closer. I had a spiritual awakening in 2020, the year she had her first son. I’ve never wanted kids. Ally has always wanted 3 boys. She has trauma from our childhood like me and self medicates with alcohol like our parents. I went to therapy in my early twenties and have slowly been getting through to her about what our family really is like. I am extremely worried about the generational trauma that hit us hitting her kids because she decided to have them so young. Funnily enough, me and my siblings saw Narnia in 2005 in the theaters together. I love that movie and that book series since I was a kid. I’ve heavily identified with Peter (the oldest brother) ever since I was 13. This movie still makes me think of my siblings to this day. Ally has always reminded me of the oldest girl or the youngest brother depending on whether she was angry with me or working with me at the time. When the hunger games came out in 2012, she asked me to go see it with her because she saw it with her friends and she really wanted me to see it. I asked her why and she started talking about Katniss and how she was more of mother to Prim then their own mother and got choked up and stared at me. We went that weekend to see it together.
About pile #4: I was in the reading with the mirky waters, and it resonated then, the same has happened this time. My family was a horror. My family is still a horror. They threw me out to get my money, but I do not want to really get into details. I wanted to REALLY THANK YOU, I am REALLY GRATEFUL for your reading, at least I have an idea of what is going on in this horror story, for me, it did not make any sense until I saw your reading.
Pile 4- a few seconds before you said they may suffer from a mental illness, I wanted to comment that my older sister had many episodes of psychosis. It was horrible for her and my whole family. Her energy is truly :( sad that‘s all I can see. No wonder that your spirit guides wish to protect you from it. I sometimes just want to forget the heavy pain I experienced when feeling her energy Ouch, I felt shaky for a whole day after she had an outburst recently. It was intense but awakened a lot in me. Wounds got transmuted into light. I‘m still in awe by this unbelievably painful process that’s cruel and harsh to all of us. But it‘s worth it Just don’t know how she feels And I don’t wish to know it. It‘s the best for now
@@LexiTheLeo it definitely did. 🤍✨ Thank you kind soul. It happened for a reason, so it‘s somehow moving that she „took“ this illness onto her in order for us to heal. That’s what a therapist once said to me and it touched me. I‘m in awe of your gifts, never stop sharing them 🌙
Pile 1 Thank you for bringing this thru Lexi. I have so much gratitude for this message. One of my sisters and I have recently gotten back in touch. I am the oldest. I did blaze the trail. I have held space and faith for years that one day she would understand why I did what I did and perhaps even find wisdom in my doing so. She has followed my footsteps, albeit blazed her own trail in her own right. I have loved her from afar for so long and did everything I could to help her to know this until she was strong enough to find her own way out of the family trauma. She had a different view of our situation, and I definitely feel that double mission energy you speak of where she is cleaning up the residual I left behind. I had been seeing her birthday number for the previous year and now we are slowly discovering each other’s new selves, in a more mature energy, and learning about each other’s evolution. She is my half sister and I was adopted by her father. There was always a separateness projected onto us by family and this reading acknowledging us as soul family on a double mission is a blessing I wasn’t expecting. Thank you for shedding this light. It resonates to my core and has healed so much more than I anticipated or knew needed to be healed. My heart is so full. Love and blessings to you Lexi 🙏🏽💛✨✨✨
Just 4 minutes into pile 3 and have to say that so far you are spot on… separated on many levels for many reasons and since your “murky waters”reading (yes, I picked that pile) he unexpectedly passed away as a result of many years of hardcore substance abuse.
Pile 4--and, yes, I was the Murky Water family. 🦂 AND the tornado family. 🌪 We ARE spiritually far apart, but we literally live in the same house! Maybe I HAVE given up trying to save her; it's pulling ME down. But I want her to learn to save herself, too. She's NOT weak. But we can't save her. OMG yes, I've moved on spiritually, and a cousin has achieved financial freedom apart from his family! Thank you for assuaging my survivor's guilt. It's what I needed to hear. 🌸
Pile 4. From the bottom of my heart & soul, thank you for this reading. I struggle massively with guilt, and am often guilt tripped when I ascend so to say - but I know that’s because it hurts to feel left behind :/ the soul bond I have with my sister is the most precious thing I have in my life & yet we are so far apart in the 3D trying to heal our baggage. I hope we both make it out & can rekindle the beauty of our soul bond in the 3D in this lifetime. I needed this message.
Pile 4 was spot on. It was hard to hear you crying during the reading, but it really just goes to show how much of your heart and soul goes into these readings and I just want you to know that I appreciate you so much!! ❤️
I really want to cry after experiencing your tearing up in the fourth pile. My sister is not passed on, and I really hope and wish it stays that way till I die. But she is in a very dark place. You brought me peace, by showing me a way to let go. I have to believe that maybe if I let her go, she will make her own way out of our trauma. I love her, and I love the way you protected yourself while at the same time challenging yourself by channelling her energy. I wish you all the best!
Pile 1... my brother and I actually spent the day with our mom who treated me a bit worse than him in our childhood... he helps to remind me not to give up on her and he has and always will be my best friend. Loved this reading so much ❤️
pile 2! we are very different (girly and grunge like you said) but we’re not close and haven’t spoken in months :,) she’s also very reserved and doesn’t like sharing but took me in emotionally a couple of times.
#4- definitely picked the piles from the higher mother/father you’re describing here. My heart felt heavy before I even started listing. Thank you so much for these messages you’ve put out. You’ve truly helped so much in my healing ❤️🩹 🙏🦋💜
Thankyou lexi for the message pile 4, the energy hit me just as hard. Was very tearful throughout the reading. You channeled my big brother. I will remain hopeful that one day he will step into the light. XXX
I’m so excited for this one because my sister and I have had a rocky relationship since literal day 1. I love her and I remember the intermittent periods of time where we were close, and I miss those. But she has physically abused me numerous times over the years; something I could NEVER do to people I love. It’s conflicting at times. But I chose pile 2 & right away you’re on target. People always said “I would never think you guys are sisters”, she’s very grungey and quiet & im very bubbly and Venusian dominant, love fashion and looking nice … one of the things that’s caused issues between us. She’s an Aries & I’m a Capricorn.
my mother JUST throwed something onto me, and called me crazy, and then she said to me to go watch the tv with her. I just wish I could unleash all of the pain, sufference, tears and anger bottled up all of these years of ' living ' with her, cause I am exhausted.
Pile 3. Thank you Lexi, this really help bring up things I needed to heal within myself. I realized even though I work through things all the time, I still have resentment against my brother. My brother sexually abused me since I was 4 to 22. And every day was hell. He never took responsibility and through it back in my face when I was old enough and strong enough to work through it. He said, what do you want me to do? Kill myself? He has always felt entitled in his life, the middle child (you nailed it) , and the victim but he did have a better and easier life, and doesn’t take ownership of his actions of what pain he has caused others. The sexual abuse caused so much darkness, feelings of unworthiness, self hate for not being strong enough to fight back, and failure at relationships and even all aspects of my life. It took a very long time to work through and wade through the pain, darkness, and the shame but I am on the other side. Strong. So it was funny to hear that you said his higher self looks up to me, but wants what I have worked for without the work, as if he is entitled to it. I do hope he works through it for his own family and surrounding people. Thank you again Lexi for everything you do. Much love and respect to you dear
Pile 2. Interesting you were actually reading my energy! I’m the oldest, Scorpio with Leo ascendant. I love my siblings fiercely and I wish they would value family as much as I do as I feel it’s so often overlooked until it’s too late. But I have to be patient as they are still figuring things out. Will check out pile 1!
omgggg yess!!!! I was watching the video with my sister and i am the elder sibling and chose the first group while she chose the second pile!!!! and for you to say exactly that in pile two's reading....it really shocked both of us!!!! deeply resonated with both the piles!!
In Pile #1, what is the name of the deck where you pulled the Middle World-Present card that features a white horse, sun and a house? White horse is a love sign for me from another pick a card I listened to yesterday from Gossamery Tarot so I love this synchronicity. My sibling is older than me but like you said she looks to me as the older sibling and loved hearing the message not to worry about her. It's true I would have remained estranged from my mother if not for my sister who is institutionalized and am co-guardians with my mother. She tried to cut me off from my sister so I had to reconcile with my mother and do the necessary shadow work to clear out the family karma. Thank you for these messages. ❤
Well pile 3 was rough and super accurate. I am 15 years older than my sister. The whole reading is correct. I have been balling my eyes out. Thank you.
My god I cried alot.....that reading was so moving. My guides today guided me towards pile 4...and the interesting thing is that I don't have any sibling but wanted to know more about my mother's higher self. And I realised that this message was exactly the same like the one from pile 4 in the "mothers higher self " reading. I had to set clear boundaries with my mother one month ago.... She had a very harsh childhood..she never felt loved or wanted...she was most of her life unhappy and in pain. She didn't know how to deal with it...tried to find peace in spirituality..tried to heal herself...she developed all sorts of anxieties, self doubts....in younger years she never liked herself. I saw all that as a child....iam extremely sensitive and a light worker and I saw and felt her sadness ( it also came out very strongly in this reading ) . So all I automatically wanted was to bring her out there...I felt like wanting to be her guide...her healer. But she never really tried to come out of it herself. So often she would act out of aggression or anger..also towards me..cause there was just all that pain that she was carrying inside of her. She loves me alot...she needs me alot...but just wasnt able to give me that in the way I needed it. This is what I had to heal from and it was very hard. My whole family has karmic issues...and I was the only light in between of all the mess, so to say. It was a hard journey for me....I felt myself guilty for the sadness and pain of my family members...and while I did all that I often forgot myself. But yes...I always somehow managed to go through all that pain; sit in the darkness and hold up this light...and thats what iam still doing and all I want is FREEDOM . Iam the only one in my entire family till now who is in that light...except my little cousin. He is such a soul. So yes.. the relationship between my mom and me is more than easy. She often projects things in me....and eventhough I know that she loves me alot and quietly cheerleads for me to go into this endless abundance up there....at the same time she is so lost in sadness of me leaving her...and maybe also of realizing that I do all the things right that she never did....that she acts out of that energy of anger Anxiety and rebellion. That's why I had to set boundaries with her and we are right now not in contact.....still I know how painful that is for her... since she is just lost...but ofc loves me alot and always wants the best for me. I just would wish that she would come into that light with me 😔😔 that's all I ever wanted.... Now I guess...I must look after myself and walk there alone..... Thanks lexi ❤ Ps: sorry for my English iam not a native speaker
Thank you so sooo much Lexi ❤️❤️❤️❤️ resonated so much. I kept remembering the title of the reading as higher self of your brother for some reason but I understood why that was as soon as I watched pile 3. I got to know so much more about him and my relationship with him thanks to you. I feel like it is changing for the better. Love you girl 🤩🤗
Omg, just finished the reading. What a lovely message in the end. I have 3 more siblings that I would love to hear from if you ever feel called to do another like this. All of these piles resonated...pile 2 was myself. Tysm!
Pile 2 represents my sibling and pile 3 represents myself. There are good reasons as to why I am the way I am, but it's the truth that I don't take accountability for myself. The whole "they've taken away all the love and attention away" really struck a chord because our mother really didn't have the emotional resources to care about more than one child at a time. When we were young children, she lathered on praise, gifts, and attention towards her favorite and used me as a physical/emotional punching bag and scapegoat. I don't know if expressing this is a form of not taking accountability but these events have certainly led me to be numb and avoidant towards a lot. So much that I understand it's detrimental, and I'm just letting it fall into place. I really do wish I could dissolve into the abyss. Anyway, that was an emotional reading. I've definitely got a lot to think about. Thank you.
Pile two...I'm trying really hard to listen to this reading...it is very similar to his energy ...sadly my brother died last November...and it was just his birthday on the 27th... So still pretty fresh...I almost didn't click on the reading at all bc I didn't know if he even really loved me up until the year before he died. He finally started trying to connect with me...my heart is still broken... Thank you for your lovely message 💜
that was so beautiful, thank you lexi. i chose pile 1 and my eyes also started welling up. my brother and my whole family moved to another country when he was 9 and i was 17 and since then we have only intermittently been in contact, i have definitely gone through phases of cutting off my family and wanting to go alone but he does connect me to my heart chakra, i really needed to hear the message of not worrying about him and letting him find his own way and loving my life more and not worrying that he will turn into someone i can't love or that our connection will die.
Pile1 aand 2 ..The most surprising reading yet wow a very important puzzle of my life thank you; God bless and reward you with thousands in return Lexi
Pile 1: This felt like my brother speaking to me. He passed 4 years ago at age 36y. I know it had to happen when it happened. This resonated deeply, from my own perspective, it all made sense.
People never choose to do worse than they can, we always do better when we truly can. Free will and lack of free will coexist in life, free will is the reason why things go well, lack of best options is the reason why things don't go well. It is not a matter of "taking accountability" nor "victim mentality", it is a matter of internal and external dynamics being sometimes functional and sometimes dysfunctional. Taking responsibility means having the possibility to see those dynamics and also to change them for better. The spiritual community often distorts the concept of responsibility by pushing it where it doesn't exists and by virtue of such distortion guilting people that are genuinely disempowered. Survivors and those who "learned the hard way" often take pride in their own hardships, this way they do not acknowledge the wrongs (because they use it to erect themselves in superior positions) and put unhealthy expectations and further trauma on other people's shoulders. I love your readings, still in this case you've channeled a bit of this kinds of distortions when trying to explain some dynamics so I hope this comment can be of use to you just like your videos are of use to me. Thank you for your channel🌙
Pile 4: same pile as the mother murky water one you mentioned. And yes, we grew up separately. And she does seem to numb and does not acknowledge hers or my experience. Thank you for sharing your gift. 🙏❤️
Love your readings, Lexi ❤ - I am mostly here for the love readings but this caught my eye today and I listened to pile 3 in rain and thunder. It really resonated but it was a bit close to home, as one might say. They (plural) were raised to believe I was less than them - I am not sure why but adult me is quite sure it was nothing personal to me. And we have as good a situation as I can hope for now that I have stepped away (a solo journey I fear) from lesser/greater narratives. So I asked myself why did I listen as I felt the usual heartbreak, confusion and frustration but then it occurred to me that I have a recurring thing - a case in point this very morning- where I have relationships based on me being little wedge to someone else's big wedge and when it becomes clear that I do well enough and there is enough for all and nothing much is more powerful than water following its own course so need to compete.... things get ugly. And it seems to me that I need to be clearer about spending time with people who embrace that way of being rather than having attention wars. So thank you (but I am going back to what they ❤❤❤ are thinking of me. 😂) xx
Pile 3. I'm the youngest out of 4. And my sister is the oldest. This was her. We don't talk anymore, everything you read was accurate and the only part that made me tear was missing how close we used to be. It's a very damaging relationship, and it was best I parted from her. It was triggering, it was like hearing all the bs coming specifically from her all over again. I'm not at that point of forgiveness, I'm still healing in my own journey, takes time. Thanks lexi, love and light ❤
Very accurate. You’ve given me faith in our community again. A lot of wonderful readers out there, but also a lot of rubbish. Lack of dedication and education and low vibes. I really really appreciate you and your dedication, it gives me hope on my journey as a medium. ✨🔮✨
Pile 2. you mentioned kids movies. I literally started rewatching kids movies 3 days ago because I never had that healthy childhood so I hated Disney and the movies. this was my big brother. we were separated til I was 19 and found him on fb. the attitude and everything yesss. this made me reach out so thank you 🖤
Pile 4 - I feel so sad hearing this reading, hearing what my bro's higher self thinks. My bro is dealing with a mental illness, and I feel like you described exactly how I felt about him. I wish I can heal him, all of us wanted to but he's just drowning in his shadows and it's hard at the moment. I wish I can take him to the light with me and tell him that it's not impossible. You can heal. In some ways, he is a bit protective, and I see him showing it now. We were closer in our younger days, and sometimes I look back at those days and wish that we can undo what has happened. But I know it's not possible, so I do hope that he'll be able to face his own demons and overcome it in this lifetime, because me and the rest of the family, we want to spend time with him and just be a happy family again. Thanks for the reading, Lexi, and I'm sorry that this reading made you so emotional, but I'm grateful that you did it.
So good thank you! Pile 3 was my youger sister who def was royalty in a past life, a bully, entitled and still living off parents. She is funny too and we were close but dont talk now. Thanks for making it make sense and channeling for her!! Thanks so much!! 💕🙏
Pile 3, a lot accurate in this. She might really have been royalty in her past life. I genuinely hope she learns how to live as a normal person. Not because I think it's wrong not to, I just want her to be happy.
omg Pile 4: I just started the reading and already it’s resonating so much. My brother and I used to be so close but then my parents split and I went to live with my dad 5 states away from where my little brother lives with my mom. Wow. Can’t wait to listen to the rest of the reading
🤯 pile 2 yep we are chalk n cheese very diff but a lot of love and loyalty, straight away confirmed this was my pile. leo is correct. this reading was very helpful thankyou so much ✨
Pfffffff Pile 4. Lots of these final emotions have come to the surface in the last few days. I actually used the words to my self at weekend, that I embarking on a new path. I feel quite empty tbh as I’ve transmuted so many shadow aspects of myself and I’ve spent 3 weeks working through my lineage of karmic wounds and cycles, it’s been extremely draining and very hard both physically and mentally. This video come at the perfect time. I got a new crystal yesterday ( as you said in one of your videos I watched last week That once I found this particular crystal, everything would be changed ) I found a angel aura dream amethyst and I held it the whole time I watched this video. Thanks for holding that energy for us all It’s founded heavy and I felt it from you Thanks again for all your work.
wow, this was really cool...thank you so much for doing this, i know it takes alot to do these types of readings....its alot to take on, and im just really grateful, and i wanted you to know that it helped me ALOT. love u lex. ❣️✌🏼 (pile 1)
Pile 3. You are absolutely spot on, I'm 10 years older, she's an addict. I was definitely meant to see this message today after what’s happened lately. It popped up at the right time, thank you. Everything you said is spot on.
Pile 1 😭 I’m sorry for not being a better sister towards my little sister. I was coping with my inner child trauma & I was a teen when you came into this world. I’m sorry I let you down. I barely started my self-healing journey (a year ago from this summer). I truly hope I could rekindle and for I to become a worthy sister for you. 🥺❤️🩹😭❤️ I pray your teenage years are healing & bless it be. I will become a better sister for you as I heal more deeply within my soul ❤️
I don’t know why TH-cam disabled the comments. Apologies for this loves, they’ve done this before and act clueless when I ask. 💛
This topiicc?
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This makes so much sense for now? Oh my god!! ♥️♥️ love you so much thank you a lot Lexo♥️♥️
Im going to send you an email Lexi because you need to hear how very accurate you are and what you've done for me. I just stumbled onto your channel a month ago when I watched your pick a card "what spirit guides are around me right now (pile 2)"... since then i have watched as you channeled the higher self of my father (pile 3), the higher self of my mother (pile 4), and now this one . You've done more to help me heal than anything has since I began this journey 8 years ago.
Hi Lexi. Could you do a reading on "Message from my child's higher self?" I love your readings! Thank you. ❤
Thank you sister 🦁🦁 made me sad to hear you cry in pile 4. I really do appreciate you channeling that dark energy. My sister lives close to me but we don’t talk or see each other. She’s not very nice to me and we are completely different from each other. I will always remember the good times we had together. I wish it was different …but I understand now why we have to stay apart. Thank you 🙏
Pile 4: I’m not gonna go into my whole story with me and my older brother who deals with mental illness. But all I can say is that, this reading brought me to tears. I’ve felt so much guilt and felt so bad that I couldn’t help him transmute the darkness like I have. And I’ve also felt bad that I felt like I needed to separate from him and leave him behind because I would be consumed by the darkness. Lexi when you started crying it’s like I could feel him, and I remember all the times hearing and seeing him cry because of the anger and hurt. You truly brought out the energy I’ve felt from him, and embodied the energy that I’ve had to transmute my whole life. Thank you so much for the reading. You’ve lifted the feeling of me feeling like I’m a bad person for leaving him behind and that I can’t fix him and face his demons for him. Thank you
OMG, you literally described situation with my brother, same helplessness I felt around him and the fear of drowning in his darkness. I cried throughout the reading, too. I left my brother behind, but I 'm at peace. I tried everything and my conscience is clear. I'm praying for your peace of mind 🙏 and send you lots of love 💖😘
Same here. I cannot help him if he can’t help himself. He hates me for it. Looks at me with so much disgust. And can’t “trust me”. I love him, I cried in front of him and days after he made a joke out of it. I am so done because is affecting my self worth. I pray one day he can see clearly. Mom and I are starting to believe he is possessed, he changed from one day to another.
Pile 3 not spoken to my Brother in 6 years when our Mother passed, the resentment is not me, I do have more strength than him and have wanted to better myself, yes envy would resonate. He has ran away from his problems and not dealt with them, he’s 8 years older than me, but he acts immature he’s had more handouts and leeway for sure, poor me syndrome, you’re so so spot on with him Lexi. Thank you 💚 ps my narcissistic father will always make excuses for him, and my Mother wet nursed him a lot. I do see through him I have a very good intuition being a clairvoyant and healer, he’s a bit of a compulsive liar too!
Pile 4- this reading saddens me the most. The ones about the parents weren’t as tough to hear, because I already knew in my heart what was up with them. But to go through a dysfunctional childhood with someone and see them so willfully blind to it hurts me deeply. Although my brother teased and tormented me growing up I’ve always saw the light in him. But as we are getting older I see him getting bitter and isolated. Hoping this is just a shadow phase, one that I am starting to come out of. Anything I say at this point goes in one ear and out the other. I am his source of resentment and anger because I always fought back and he stayed quiet.
Pile 2 - thank you ✨ So much confirmation of how my brother views me…both of us experienced CSA and processed it differently as adults…he ended up going to prison…he continues to be very angry with me and very resentful, refusing any contact and including his children in this situation…this reading really clarified that he almost hates me for having the determination to work with my pain and my commitment to use it for the highest good. I remain optimistic that he will soften these feelings at some point so that we can speak again…thank you so much Lexi for your amazing work 💗✨💫🌟
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Pile 4: my younger brother is emotionally numb and I'm highly sensitive to emotions, we have both been through heavy generational karma and although I was able to heal mine, my brother still hasn't found the courage to face his, if this isn't accurate idk what else would be, Ive often felt guilt for not being able to help my brother like I helped myself out of it, but this reading gave me so much clarity... Lexi I'm so grateful for this reading and I really really want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, I also chose the murky waters pile in mother's higher self and the tornado pile in father's higher self, I was so shocked when you talked about those piles, it's like this reading was a continuation of my mother's higher self's reading.
I got to hear the words from my sibling's higher self which I didn't know I needed to hear, like... All the three readings I just stepped in with the mindset that it might be heavy, and yes I cried it all out throughout the readings, I'm so grateful for these readings and I really want to tell your that your channel is a blessing for me, I feel at home when I see your readings, your light is genuinely so pure, I love your channel, Tysm💛
Pile 3 - my brother is 10 years older and his whole life he’s been in and out of jail and struggled with addiction. We never got to be super close because of it, but now that he’s been doing better he seems to look up to me even though I’m his little sister because I kinda learned from his mistakes and did things differently than him even though we had the same upbringing. He does seem to have a little resentment but overall I know there’s still love there! Spot on love :)
we literally have the same life
I’m so glad you’ve been able to work on your relationship with your brother! Sending lots of love!! 💛💛💛
Same story except I'm older
Pile #3 😭 you made me cry my heart out. Every word is accurate. He's my elder brother. He's envious of everything i do coz I'm a free minded and positive, high vibe person walking on completely different path than usuals. He says things which sting so bad sometimes but somehow I can see him inside being psychic and don't react, irrespective of the pain. I indeed have faced situations which lead for my transformation! I become self aware, strong, defeating depression and now teaching others self mastery. It pains my heart when i see him coz i know who he is inside and can see the difference outside crystal clear. You gave me hope with the message that he'll grow one day. I wish for him to connect with himself. Having done myself I know how important it is to connect with yourself when you're lost. I don't really have any expectations from him anymore. I just love him. His growth is his responsibility indeed. Thank you so much for this. ❤️
Pile Four, there’s so much to it, and I was in the piles for mother and father that you referenced. I am so grateful for you bringing these messages forth, I know how hard these energies are. Thank you so so much.
Pile 1. That was me and my younger sister ❤️😭
Pile 4. There’s a soul sister that I’d had to separate from 2yrs ago. It’s taken me more than 18 months to deeply heal myself from all the pain that relationship had brought me in the end. Now that I’ve returned to feeling happy, lighter, more at peace & abundant again, I’m never going back to the murky waters. Moving on with joy & gratitude for everything that’s transpired! Thanks Lexi for all the gifts you’d given us here. Today’s reading is ‘the final act’ that finally closes that painful chapter in my life for good. It is now complete. Sending lots of love & light your way 🌟💖🌟💖🌟💖🙏.
Pile 1- I am grateful for the reassurance and insight :) Thank you, now I feel relieved. I didn’t realize how harsh I was being towards myself. Blame is a big thing for me
Pile 4. Thanks for the reading Lexi! Well, really resonates for the most part. My brother is my biggest karmic challenge in this life. He hurt me deeply, but all throughout childhood, even though I'm the youngest I kept wanting to save him or defend him, even though his anger created a lot of problems in the family dynamic too. I don't speak with him for a couple years now, nor with my parents.........I was gaslighted my whole life by this family........the worse thing is that no one knows what happened, and I can't easily explain it other than they abandoning me and disrepescting me many times in many forms over many years. To think they are getting away with what they've done to me boils my blood...........but even know I'm still karmically entangled with them.
I really gave up on all my dreams for this family. Even not embrancing love and peace and bliss many times was a protection mechanism to protect me from them! Ugh......what a mess of a lifetime. I barely believe in goodness anymore, I have no idea what the meaning of any of this was...even though spirituality keeps saying it's all for my higehst good. Yeah right...................it does resonate that I volunteered to help the family............but how have I helped exactly? I don't like half arsed answers.
Anyway, thanks again. I'll just say to anybody reading that resonantes - just because you are a loving forgiving being, doesn't mean it's always wise to love and forgive.
I soooo get u. I posted my answer as well if u wanna read it. I have no survivors guilt whatsoever, and we shouldn't cause what my sister made me go through, nobody deserves. Sending you a big hug and congrats for getting out of it.
@@blueapatite22 I don't know how out I really am to be fair. I think it means for me that my light wasn't snuffed out by the unconsciousness of my family. I did read your comment. Family problems really are core and can mess up our relating to the rest of the world, so I empathize with you. I'm not sure my brother or family are narcissists necessarilly........they are however very self-protective, carry a lot of anger.
Anyway, take care. Family's are overrated, don't lose hope in other people because of them :)
Wow ❤️ Lexi I selected pile 2, I'm the older sibling, everything that you suggested is exactly right. We're completely different from one another, and yet we are so close ❤️🤗.
Love this! So glad it resonated!! 🫂💛💛
@@LexiTheLeo Thank You so much for this, you are always so on point ❤️
Pile 4 here. It sounds like there are a lot of incredibly strong people in these comments; and you, yourself, are incredibly strong. Thank you for transmuting through your own pain to give healing and empowering messages I needed. My siblings are alive, for which I'm grateful, but there is distance despite us all overcoming a highly abusive childhood. I was the one who outed my parents for what they did and we are still feeling that to today, and all of my siblings are in vastly different places with their healing. I generally bear the brunt of critique from them (I'm the youngest) and frequently have to hold my tongue so as not to bite back. Hearing your reading, however, really allowed me to tap into the gratitude and acknowledgement of their strength and continued growth. Thank you for that.
(P.S. I'm an Aquarius Sun, Cancer Moon, & Leo Rising--high five for similar signs!)
#4: As with the Father and Mother readings, deeply moving; in fact I couldn't stop crying throughout. Very cathartic and you confirm yourself with these readings as a real shining light. Thank you, Lexi.
Pile 1...I have had moments of not wanting to be here yes! It does feel like I've taken on all the karma in the family 💔 xx
Pile 4 this has given me peace to move forward freely seriously thank you so much! 🤍
Your welcome love! 🙏🏼💛
Thank you so much for this reading pile #4 I am the viewer ascending the murky water and the hardest part is leaving my siblings behind thank you for helping me it’s incredibly intense and I know you had to go through it when you dove into the mother reading and I am so grateful for you being with me in that way I could never express it in words but I know you get it I love you ❤️
Your so welcome love! I’m so glad I’ve been able to bring clarity & comfort. Proud of you & sending lots of love!! 🫂💛💛
I’m literally bawling at the same time starting the same time JESUS CHRIST!!!…I’ve Worked so hard and tried harder! You Are a Beautiful Medium. You Are Loved. Thank You so much! I’m going to the other side of the Pond! Thank heavens! Glorious Healing! Thank You for sharing this and going so deep…You do not have to do this or feel us but you do and I wish I could HoneyBear Hug you sooooooooooooo tight and just finish this river of tears streaming from my face! I chose 1/4 I knew exactly who! And…I am officially blown away. Again, Thank You Lexi! Thank You 🙏
Thank you, Lexi. Pile 1&3- my pile one sibling was murdered about 8 years ago and you hit a lot of what I feel I’m regards to him. I know he’s one of my guardian angels- you also said “let me spread my wings” the otter card “you’re never alone” and I know he’s helped me through my very, very dark moments. Thank you for the confirmations I got today.
Pile #4. I'm completely drained after listening. I think the entire Universe must have heard/felt my shrieking and crying.🤦♀🤷♀ Thank you very much for allowing yourself to experience that painful energy in order to help provide clarity for us, Lexi. I experienced the full brunt of it and I know how very traumatic it is. I hope you took plenty of time for self-care and rest after this reading/channeling. I'm sending so much love to you - thank you again.💖💖💖
Pile #1. Hi Lexi. My names Tori. I wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart, this reading touched me deeply. Your compassion and insight were a huge blessing to me. You really made a difference to me. You make me feel so heard and seen. Literally everything you said was accurate, I could go on for pages about how it fits me and my sisters lives. If you’re interested, you can leave me your email and I can go into more detail but I wanted to confirm some things for you that you uncannily got spot on.
I’m the oldest of 5 kids. Our parents are alcoholics. I had to step up and take care of the kids. This pile was for my sister Ally, she’s 6 years younger than me. I’m a Leo Sun, Taurus rising, Leo moon and Ally is a Scorpio sun, Taurus rising, and Taurus moon. She was the only sibling who really helped me. I was suicidal at 17. I almost bought a plane ticket and left the family at 18 but I couldn’t leave because I knew it would land on her if I left.
Ally went through some horrific things no child should go through because of our parents neglect and I couldn’t protect her.
We had a lot of ups and downs. We recently have mended our bridges two years ago and gotten closer. I had a spiritual awakening in 2020, the year she had her first son. I’ve never wanted kids. Ally has always wanted 3 boys. She has trauma from our childhood like me and self medicates with alcohol like our parents. I went to therapy in my early twenties and have slowly been getting through to her about what our family really is like. I am extremely worried about the generational trauma that hit us hitting her kids because she decided to have them so young.
Funnily enough, me and my siblings saw Narnia in 2005 in the theaters together. I love that movie and that book series since I was a kid. I’ve heavily identified with Peter (the oldest brother) ever since I was 13. This movie still makes me think of my siblings to this day. Ally has always reminded me of the oldest girl or the youngest brother depending on whether she was angry with me or working with me at the time.
When the hunger games came out in 2012, she asked me to go see it with her because she saw it with her friends and she really wanted me to see it. I asked her why and she started talking about Katniss and how she was more of mother to Prim then their own mother and got choked up and stared at me.
We went that weekend to see it together.
About pile #4: I was in the reading with the mirky waters, and it resonated then, the same has happened this time.
My family was a horror. My family is still a horror. They threw me out to get my money, but I do not want to really get into details.
I wanted to REALLY THANK YOU, I am REALLY GRATEFUL for your reading, at least I have an idea of what is going on in this horror story, for me, it did not make any sense until I saw your reading.
Pile 3. My twin sister and I are Leos. You've channeled her 100%. I feel incredibly validated. Thank you!
Pile 4: I got out. My sibling can/could have as well but has chosen not to rise to the light. Regardless, I will never look back.
Pile 1 - yup. Always told me she loved me and would hug me. No one else could, only her.
Pile 4- a few seconds before you said they may suffer from a mental illness, I wanted to comment that my older sister had many episodes of psychosis. It was horrible for her and my whole family. Her energy is truly :( sad that‘s all I can see. No wonder that your spirit guides wish to protect you from it.
I sometimes just want to forget the heavy pain I experienced when feeling her energy
Ouch, I felt shaky for a whole day after she had an outburst recently. It was intense but awakened a lot in me. Wounds got transmuted into light. I‘m still in awe by this unbelievably painful process that’s cruel and harsh to all of us. But it‘s worth it
Just don’t know how she feels
And I don’t wish to know it. It‘s the best for now
I’m so sorry you had to experience this love. I hope this reading brought you some clarity, sending you so much love 🙏🏼💛
@@LexiTheLeo it definitely did. 🤍✨ Thank you kind soul. It happened for a reason, so it‘s somehow moving that she „took“ this illness onto her in order for us to heal. That’s what a therapist once said to me and it touched me. I‘m in awe of your gifts, never stop sharing them 🌙
Sending love & light 🌼💚
Pile 1 Thank you for bringing this thru Lexi. I have so much gratitude for this message. One of my sisters and I have recently gotten back in touch. I am the oldest. I did blaze the trail. I have held space and faith for years that one day she would understand why I did what I did and perhaps even find wisdom in my doing so. She has followed my footsteps, albeit blazed her own trail in her own right. I have loved her from afar for so long and did everything I could to help her to know this until she was strong enough to find her own way out of the family trauma. She had a different view of our situation, and I definitely feel that double mission energy you speak of where she is cleaning up the residual I left behind. I had been seeing her birthday number for the previous year and now we are slowly discovering each other’s new selves, in a more mature energy, and learning about each other’s evolution. She is my half sister and I was adopted by her father. There was always a separateness projected onto us by family and this reading acknowledging us as soul family on a double mission is a blessing I wasn’t expecting. Thank you for shedding this light. It resonates to my core and has healed so much more than I anticipated or knew needed to be healed. My heart is so full. Love and blessings to you Lexi 🙏🏽💛✨✨✨
Just 4 minutes into pile 3 and have to say that so far you are spot on… separated on many levels for many reasons and since your “murky waters”reading (yes, I picked that pile) he unexpectedly passed away as a result of many years of hardcore substance abuse.
Pile 4--and, yes, I was the Murky Water family. 🦂 AND the tornado family. 🌪
We ARE spiritually far apart, but we literally live in the same house! Maybe I HAVE given up trying to save her; it's pulling ME down. But I want her to learn to save herself, too. She's NOT weak. But we can't save her.
OMG yes, I've moved on spiritually, and a cousin has achieved financial freedom apart from his family!
Thank you for assuaging my survivor's guilt. It's what I needed to hear. 🌸
Pile 2 He was my ride or die. Unfortunately he passed. Awesome brother👍💚Miss You So Much💞Happy Memorial Day!!!
Pile 2: this resonated so much it made me cry. My sister and i always say we are the ying to the others yang.
Pile 1 🥺💖
Thank you Lexi 🙏💫
Thank you so much Lexi for what you do. Pile 1 was so accurate for me. I just love how you are so connected to our energies ❤❤
Pile 4. From the bottom of my heart & soul, thank you for this reading. I struggle massively with guilt, and am often guilt tripped when I ascend so to say - but I know that’s because it hurts to feel left behind :/ the soul bond I have with my sister is the most precious thing I have in my life & yet we are so far apart in the 3D trying to heal our baggage. I hope we both make it out & can rekindle the beauty of our soul bond in the 3D in this lifetime. I needed this message.
No 2. I thought there will be hate or desperate msg comes out. Well my sis has stellium 10h so... thanks for reading x
Pile 4 was spot on. It was hard to hear you crying during the reading, but it really just goes to show how much of your heart and soul goes into these readings and I just want you to know that I appreciate you so much!! ❤️
I really want to cry after experiencing your tearing up in the fourth pile. My sister is not passed on, and I really hope and wish it stays that way till I die. But she is in a very dark place. You brought me peace, by showing me a way to let go. I have to believe that maybe if I let her go, she will make her own way out of our trauma. I love her, and I love the way you protected yourself while at the same time challenging yourself by channelling her energy.
I wish you all the best!
Pile 1... my brother and I actually spent the day with our mom who treated me a bit worse than him in our childhood... he helps to remind me not to give up on her and he has and always will be my best friend. Loved this reading so much ❤️
Omg pile 1 was 100% accurate
#4 «when you win, we win” that’s very freeing! Thank you Lexi!!🙏💕✨
pile 2! we are very different (girly and grunge like you said) but we’re not close and haven’t spoken in months :,) she’s also very reserved and doesn’t like sharing but took me in emotionally a couple of times.
Pile 1 ✨🤍 thank you.
#4- definitely picked the piles from the higher mother/father you’re describing here. My heart felt heavy before I even started listing. Thank you so much for these messages you’ve put out. You’ve truly helped so much in my healing ❤️🩹 🙏🦋💜
Thankyou lexi for the message pile 4, the energy hit me just as hard. Was very tearful throughout the reading. You channeled my big brother. I will remain hopeful that one day he will step into the light. XXX
I’m so excited for this one because my sister and I have had a rocky relationship since literal day 1. I love her and I remember the intermittent periods of time where we were close, and I miss those. But she has physically abused me numerous times over the years; something I could NEVER do to people I love. It’s conflicting at times.
But I chose pile 2 & right away you’re on target. People always said “I would never think you guys are sisters”, she’s very grungey and quiet & im very bubbly and Venusian dominant, love fashion and looking nice … one of the things that’s caused issues between us. She’s an Aries & I’m a Capricorn.
my mother JUST throwed something onto me, and called me crazy, and then she said to me to go watch the tv with her. I just wish I could unleash all of the pain, sufference, tears and anger bottled up all of these years of ' living ' with her, cause I am exhausted.
I am SO GLAD som tears came up, and now are on my cheeks with a lump on my throat
Pile 3. Thank you Lexi, this really help bring up things I needed to heal within myself. I realized even though I work through things all the time, I still have resentment against my brother. My brother sexually abused me since I was 4 to 22. And every day was hell. He never took responsibility and through it back in my face when I was old enough and strong enough to work through it. He said, what do you want me to do? Kill myself?
He has always felt entitled in his life, the middle child (you nailed it) , and the victim but he did have a better and easier life, and doesn’t take ownership of his actions of what pain he has caused others. The sexual abuse caused so much darkness, feelings of unworthiness, self hate for not being strong enough to fight back, and failure at relationships and even all aspects of my life. It took a very long time to work through and wade through the pain, darkness, and the shame but I am on the other side. Strong. So it was funny to hear that you said his higher self looks up to me, but wants what I have worked for without the work, as if he is entitled to it. I do hope he works through it for his own family and surrounding people.
Thank you again Lexi for everything you do. Much love and respect to you dear
I cried so much listening to pile 1. My brother loves eminem and that was my confirmation. thank you 🤍
Pile 2. Interesting you were actually reading my energy! I’m the oldest, Scorpio with Leo ascendant. I love my siblings fiercely and I wish they would value family as much as I do as I feel it’s so often overlooked until it’s too late. But I have to be patient as they are still figuring things out. Will check out pile 1!
omgggg yess!!!! I was watching the video with my sister and i am the elder sibling and chose the first group while she chose the second pile!!!! and for you to say exactly that in pile two's reading....it really shocked both of us!!!! deeply resonated with both the piles!!
In Pile #1, what is the name of the deck where you pulled the Middle World-Present card that features a white horse, sun and a house? White horse is a love sign for me from another pick a card I listened to yesterday from Gossamery Tarot so I love this synchronicity. My sibling is older than me but like you said she looks to me as the older sibling and loved hearing the message not to worry about her. It's true I would have remained estranged from my mother if not for my sister who is institutionalized and am co-guardians with my mother. She tried to cut me off from my sister so I had to reconcile with my mother and do the necessary shadow work to clear out the family karma. Thank you for these messages. ❤
Thank you Lexi. What astrological placement would give someone a healing element or quality to their speaking or singing voice?
Pile 3.. You described everything so perfectly. I am in awe of you and your gifts. I am in tears as I write this comment.
Well pile 3 was rough and super accurate. I am 15 years older than my sister. The whole reading is correct. I have been balling my eyes out. Thank you.
Sunflowers!☀️🌻
I was excited to see this one bc the very different way we have been treated growing up has dictated my entire upbringing.
I'm so very shaken by this reading. You totally nailed the energy I've been picking up from my sibling.
#3 You are so on point. My sister middle child.
My god I cried alot.....that reading was so moving.
My guides today guided me towards pile 4...and the interesting thing is that I don't have any sibling but wanted to know more about my mother's higher self. And I realised that this message was exactly the same like the one from pile 4 in the "mothers higher self " reading.
I had to set clear boundaries with my mother one month ago....
She had a very harsh childhood..she never felt loved or wanted...she was most of her life unhappy and in pain. She didn't know how to deal with it...tried to find peace in spirituality..tried to heal herself...she developed all sorts of anxieties, self doubts....in younger years she never liked herself. I saw all that as a child....iam extremely sensitive and a light worker and I saw and felt her sadness ( it also came out very strongly in this reading ) . So all I automatically wanted was to bring her out there...I felt like wanting to be her guide...her healer.
But she never really tried to come out of it herself. So often she would act out of aggression or anger..also towards me..cause there was just all that pain that she was carrying inside of her. She loves me alot...she needs me alot...but just wasnt able to give me that in the way I needed it. This is what I had to heal from and it was very hard. My whole family has karmic issues...and I was the only light in between of all the mess, so to say. It was a hard journey for me....I felt myself guilty for the sadness and pain of my family members...and while I did all that I often forgot myself. But yes...I always somehow managed to go through all that pain; sit in the darkness and hold up this light...and thats what iam still doing and all I want is FREEDOM . Iam the only one in my entire family till now who is in that light...except my little cousin. He is such a soul.
So yes.. the relationship between my mom and me is more than easy. She often projects things in me....and eventhough I know that she loves me alot and quietly cheerleads for me to go into this endless abundance up there....at the same time she is so lost in sadness of me leaving her...and maybe also of realizing that I do all the things right that she never did....that she acts out of that energy of anger Anxiety and rebellion.
That's why I had to set boundaries with her and we are right now not in contact.....still I know how painful that is for her... since she is just lost...but ofc loves me alot and always wants the best for me.
I just would wish that she would come into that light with me 😔😔 that's all I ever wanted....
Now I guess...I must look after myself and walk there alone.....
Thanks lexi ❤
Ps: sorry for my English iam not a native speaker
Pile 3, absolutely incredible I'm blown away with the accuracy to my relationship with my sister
Thankyou ❤️
You deserve so much success and prosperity Lexi ❤ Thank you for all that you do
Thank you so sooo much Lexi ❤️❤️❤️❤️ resonated so much. I kept remembering the title of the reading as higher self of your brother for some reason but I understood why that was as soon as I watched pile 3. I got to know so much more about him and my relationship with him thanks to you. I feel like it is changing for the better. Love you girl 🤩🤗
It feels like my brother is a reflection of me I picked pile 2 and this is how I feel for him. But I love him so much like he’s my child.
Omg, just finished the reading. What a lovely message in the end. I have 3 more siblings that I would love to hear from if you ever feel called to do another like this. All of these piles resonated...pile 2 was myself. Tysm!
Pile 2… yes my mom compares us to the kardashians all of the time 😂
Pile 2 represents my sibling and pile 3 represents myself. There are good reasons as to why I am the way I am, but it's the truth that I don't take accountability for myself.
The whole "they've taken away all the love and attention away" really struck a chord because our mother really didn't have the emotional resources to care about more than one child at a time. When we were young children, she lathered on praise, gifts, and attention towards her favorite and used me as a physical/emotional punching bag and scapegoat. I don't know if expressing this is a form of not taking accountability but these events have certainly led me to be numb and avoidant towards a lot. So much that I understand it's detrimental, and I'm just letting it fall into place.
I really do wish I could dissolve into the abyss.
Anyway, that was an emotional reading. I've definitely got a lot to think about. Thank you.
sobbing hearing your reading for pile 1. thank you very much, lexi. god bless your beautiful heart ♥️
fyi, yes. i just learn that me and my brother have the same rising sign, leo.
Pile two...I'm trying really hard to listen to this reading...it is very similar to his energy ...sadly my brother died last November...and it was just his birthday on the 27th... So still pretty fresh...I almost didn't click on the reading at all bc I didn't know if he even really loved me up until the year before he died. He finally started trying to connect with me...my heart is still broken... Thank you for your lovely message 💜
Pile 3. Wow. You nailed the situation perfectly
that was so beautiful, thank you lexi. i chose pile 1 and my eyes also started welling up. my brother and my whole family moved to another country when he was 9 and i was 17 and since then we have only intermittently been in contact, i have definitely gone through phases of cutting off my family and wanting to go alone but he does connect me to my heart chakra, i really needed to hear the message of not worrying about him and letting him find his own way and loving my life more and not worrying that he will turn into someone i can't love or that our connection will die.
Pile 4 - 5/30/2022. So much healings came through from this blessed reading on the new moon. Thank you so much. ❤️✨❤️✨🌈✨
Pile 3. Resonated thank you! ❤
Pile1 aand 2 ..The most surprising reading yet wow a very important puzzle of my life thank you; God bless and reward you with thousands in return Lexi
Love u lexi!!!
Love you! 💛
Pile 1: This felt like my brother speaking to me. He passed 4 years ago at age 36y. I know it had to happen when it happened. This resonated deeply, from my own perspective, it all made sense.
People never choose to do worse than they can, we always do better when we truly can. Free will and lack of free will coexist in life, free will is the reason why things go well, lack of best options is the reason why things don't go well. It is not a matter of "taking accountability" nor "victim mentality", it is a matter of internal and external dynamics being sometimes functional and sometimes dysfunctional. Taking responsibility means having the possibility to see those dynamics and also to change them for better. The spiritual community often distorts the concept of responsibility by pushing it where it doesn't exists and by virtue of such distortion guilting people that are genuinely disempowered. Survivors and those who "learned the hard way" often take pride in their own hardships, this way they do not acknowledge the wrongs (because they use it to erect themselves in superior positions) and put unhealthy expectations and further trauma on other people's shoulders. I love your readings, still in this case you've channeled a bit of this kinds of distortions when trying to explain some dynamics so I hope this comment can be of use to you just like your videos are of use to me. Thank you for your channel🌙
Pile 3. Qualities are same. True.
Bang on
Oh my goodness your blouse is so beautiful !!
Pile 4: same pile as the mother murky water one you mentioned. And yes, we grew up separately. And she does seem to numb and does not acknowledge hers or my experience.
Thank you for sharing your gift. 🙏❤️
pile 2
interesting !!! i think the sibling here is actually me to my younger brother. a lot of this definitely describes me
Love your readings, Lexi ❤ - I am mostly here for the love readings but this caught my eye today and I listened to pile 3 in rain and thunder. It really resonated but it was a bit close to home, as one might say. They (plural) were raised to believe I was less than them - I am not sure why but adult me is quite sure it was nothing personal to me. And we have as good a situation as I can hope for now that I have stepped away (a solo journey I fear) from lesser/greater narratives. So I asked myself why did I listen as I felt the usual heartbreak, confusion and frustration but then it occurred to me that I have a recurring thing - a case in point this very morning- where I have relationships based on me being little wedge to someone else's big wedge and when it becomes clear that I do well enough and there is enough for all and nothing much is more powerful than water following its own course so need to compete.... things get ugly. And it seems to me that I need to be clearer about spending time with people who embrace that way of being rather than having attention wars. So thank you (but I am going back to what they ❤❤❤ are thinking of me. 😂) xx
Pile 3. I'm the youngest out of 4. And my sister is the oldest. This was her. We don't talk anymore, everything you read was accurate and the only part that made me tear was missing how close we used to be. It's a very damaging relationship, and it was best I parted from her. It was triggering, it was like hearing all the bs coming specifically from her all over again. I'm not at that point of forgiveness, I'm still healing in my own journey, takes time. Thanks lexi, love and light ❤
Very accurate. You’ve given me faith in our community again. A lot of wonderful readers out there, but also a lot of rubbish. Lack of dedication and education and low vibes. I really really appreciate you and your dedication, it gives me hope on my journey as a medium. ✨🔮✨
Pile 2. you mentioned kids movies. I literally started rewatching kids movies 3 days ago because I never had that healthy childhood so I hated Disney and the movies.
this was my big brother. we were separated til I was 19 and found him on fb. the attitude and everything yesss.
this made me reach out so thank you 🖤
39:26 - Scorpio Rising, Leo Sun, Taurus Sun. Nailed it again Lexi! Ngl this reading made me tear up.
Thank you Lexi! I’ve never cried on a TH-cam video, but that made me tear up a bit... Pile 1 & 2 ♥️🥰
Pile 4 - I feel so sad hearing this reading, hearing what my bro's higher self thinks. My bro is dealing with a mental illness, and I feel like you described exactly how I felt about him. I wish I can heal him, all of us wanted to but he's just drowning in his shadows and it's hard at the moment. I wish I can take him to the light with me and tell him that it's not impossible. You can heal. In some ways, he is a bit protective, and I see him showing it now. We were closer in our younger days, and sometimes I look back at those days and wish that we can undo what has happened. But I know it's not possible, so I do hope that he'll be able to face his own demons and overcome it in this lifetime, because me and the rest of the family, we want to spend time with him and just be a happy family again. Thanks for the reading, Lexi, and I'm sorry that this reading made you so emotional, but I'm grateful that you did it.
Pile 1: narnia. My brother and I had this creek and forest that we’d individually escape from our abuse 😢made me cry. Such a sign
This was very touchy for me I had to come back multiple times . You definitely gave me more clarity on my siblings . Thank you
So good thank you! Pile 3 was my youger sister who def was royalty in a past life, a bully, entitled and still living off parents. She is funny too and we were close but dont talk now. Thanks for making it make sense and channeling for her!! Thanks so much!! 💕🙏
Pile 3, a lot accurate in this. She might really have been royalty in her past life. I genuinely hope she learns how to live as a normal person. Not because I think it's wrong not to, I just want her to be happy.
omg Pile 4: I just started the reading and already it’s resonating so much. My brother and I used to be so close but then my parents split and I went to live with my dad 5 states away from where my little brother lives with my mom. Wow. Can’t wait to listen to the rest of the reading
🤯 pile 2
yep we are chalk n cheese very diff but a lot of love and loyalty, straight away confirmed this was my pile. leo is correct. this reading was very helpful thankyou so much ✨
I choose pile 4. I cry a lot, I heal a lot, too your reading. I sending a lot of love and light your way. Thanks. 😭💖🌞
Pfffffff
Pile 4.
Lots of these final emotions have come to the surface in the last few days.
I actually used the words to my self at weekend, that I embarking on a new path.
I feel quite empty tbh as I’ve transmuted so many shadow aspects of myself and I’ve spent 3 weeks working through my lineage of karmic wounds and cycles, it’s been extremely draining and very hard both physically and mentally.
This video come at the perfect time.
I got a new crystal yesterday ( as you said in one of your videos I watched last week
That once I found this particular crystal, everything would be changed ) I found a angel aura dream amethyst and I held it the whole time I watched this video.
Thanks for holding that energy for us all
It’s founded heavy and I felt it from you
Thanks again for all your work.
wow, this was really cool...thank you so much for doing this, i know it takes alot to do these types of readings....its alot to take on, and im just really grateful, and i wanted you to know that it helped me ALOT. love u lex. ❣️✌🏼 (pile 1)
Pile 3. You are absolutely spot on, I'm 10 years older, she's an addict. I was definitely meant to see this message today after what’s happened lately. It popped up at the right time, thank you. Everything you said is spot on.
Pile 1 😭 I’m sorry for not being a better sister towards my little sister. I was coping with my inner child trauma & I was a teen when you came into this world. I’m sorry I let you down. I barely started my self-healing journey (a year ago from this summer). I truly hope I could rekindle and for I to become a worthy sister for you. 🥺❤️🩹😭❤️ I pray your teenage years are healing & bless it be. I will become a better sister for you as I heal more deeply within my soul ❤️