Yup, I do sometimes get in situations where very visibly emotion is going through me, and other people make the connection that it must have something to do with either them or me, when really that is not my experience in that moment, there is just something coming through. I found that then I usually stop saying much and just starting to feel into the experience a little deeper, people around me seem to then either start talking and interacting a lot or stop talking aswell and we share some silence together, I find that uncomfortable silence is also beautiful silence, maybe especially so. Also when someone then asks me a question like "is there something wrong" or "why are you feeling this way" I usually can't really come up with anything in my head, imagining some scenario of how it came to be doesn't feel authentic to me. I guess I just really have no clue, and I also don't know where no self realization starts and ends here, actually I don't really care either. So much trust in that whatever necessary realization there might be comes at the right time, they seem to do so.
I can't believe how much hidden stuff there is , like ex girlfriends , fist fights in primary school , a glance of disappointment from a parent, all buried down there out of sight, it's remarkable.
I really haven't watched much at all lately, but this video popped up and something in me was like, ya, that one. Maybe it's because the title was so damn relatable, I don't know. 🤷🏻♀ Also, the content in this was also so relatable. I feel like I've kind of found a maximum tolerance for feeling lately. It was made quite obvious this past weekend when I was around a lot of family though. I just came up against a point where I'm like, I'm suffocating and overwhelmed, I need some space and some silence. The energy is just too much in that moment. Emotions have been intense as my story is going through so many changes. Even though the story might just be that, those emotions were and are very real.
I find this is very relevant, and I am happy I started somewhere near the beginning. It is kind of like being given a cutting and planting it, watching it take hold and grow and blossom, rather than being given a rose in full bloom.
Disorientated seems to be the word of the month for me. The mind is running around like a rat in a cage. Feels like the ground is crumbling beneath my feet. Believing in anything is losing relevance. I've heard you say this is a good place to be, but damn ... it is uncomfortable at best and terrifying at worst. I also know that is a good place as well. I guess I just need to bitch. Crap ... Take a deep breath.
I’m here as well bro, tis strange. I have no identity, desire, emotion. Things lose their rational correlation. My mind is constantly trying to imprint meaning into things but finds no genuine response. The problem is that I perceive right now is the feeling that I never cared about spiritual awakening or whatever. like ego and feeling is something I long for. Like what is beyond this? I don’t care about being one. I want to be an enjoyable little existence. I’m blank now. It’s lame.
So valuable & hadn't thought of this constant orientation - here it is clear that it's this ongoing, internal dialogue as though there is another "me" chatting away to this "me".....happens so spontaneously! 😮
Conceptually I can understand everything you point too, experientially……. I’ve had deep profound experiences on acid or mushrooms, DMT peeled everything away. But once the substance fades I become structured again.
I needed this today, i sometimes feel the bend and you wont break gets abused in the kind hearted, the self is guarded by the ego,the thorn of the rose❤
"selling water by the river" I love it, so i modified it: "Giving away free water, after purifying water from this polluted river." Something like that. Subscribed.
Hey Angelo, not sure if you talked about this before. Can you do a talk about the tension/contraction in the body during this process? I’ve had tension in the throat and also jaw/head for a while, it’s actually seemed to move from the throat to the jaw recently but it seems entirely related to emotions/fixations
It's feeling pretty ghastly ATM! Sometimes working thru trauma activations while noticing so many internal patterns going on feels like crap. At least it's progress compared with being hijacked and totally immersed in believing the experience, eh?
Its quite easy to hide things. I always find ways to hide anything I do not want to publish. Then you classify the info you research - into what is published, and what remains hidden. That way you can have a whole bunch of hidden things to enrich your private life with.
Is there anything beyond this? How can I exist in this world without any skin in the game? I don’t want to accept this. I want to play the game. I don’t even feel love for my family anymore. I feel like I’m evaporating. Ugh, I went looking for bliss and I ended up here. It’s boring and exceptionally disorientating as you said. I want ego. I’ve been clinging to whatever I have left. I guess I’ve got to let go. Let myself drown in it..
"i went looking for bliss and ended up here." ..... not only a great cogito in and of itself, but an excellent t-shirt.....("I became enlightened but I forgot to chop wood and carry water....now im freeze-dried")
All of that stuff is just happening. Even the sense that you are there or not is already just happening. Theres no way to 'get' this because its already this. Any attempt at getting this or hanging on to anything or whatnot is just whats happening, and thats that. There can be an idea of me that happens.
The marketing of consciousness always talks about the good things. The other side is the suffering that comes from expanded knowing how cruel humanity is, how deeply bad ignorance makes people. All this has to be seen and integrated so we evolve to the greater self. I'm going through this too and I often weep.
Angelo, I thought I was in deep stage realization but now things are so bad I keep considering suicide. Dealing with very difficult circumstances and intense suffering. I don’t know why I’m writing this comment. I guess it is just a cry from my heart. I know I’m “supposed” to want deeper awakenings. But I don’t. I want circumstances to be different than what they are. I’m in the pit of despair.
Ive had so many awakenings only to be covered back up with hell !!! There has never been a darker area than I'm in at this moment. Physical pain and symptoms I can't get answers for. I've never been this dark.
Dear person who wrote that . I'm at that tipping point also. This past 3 years have been the most traumatic of my 62 years . I'm actually envying and getting angry at controlling type of people. Also finding myself hating people who appear to be happy😢. I'm at that suicide point also. Disgusted with this world and it's people. You're not alone
@@josephwhitmore6535 Yeah, this is why Angelo talks about the Deep Shadow. That stuff is no joke. Totally understand everything you've written. But if you've found yourself on this channel, that is a very good sign that your story is not over. Also... you mentioned physical pain and symptoms you can't get answers for. I experienced that. For years. Doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. I eventually came across the term "kundalini awakening" and it explained everything I had experienced. It matched up with all of my symptoms. I wouldn't be surprised if your physical pain and symptoms were part of your body's rewiring process. Especially if doctors can't find anything wrong with you. Some people say they don't experience any physical or energetic symptoms during the awakening process but I have experienced A LOT.
It's not that something sees or notices, rather the one that feels like it sees and notices everything is suddenly realized to have always been an illusion.
I really love your channel and so appreciate all that you do for us. Sincerely I love you. ❤❤❤ But I can't watch your videos anymore -- I have to just listen. It's way too distracting, especially the text and fake beautiful people. Your message and delivery was so right on, and you had a solid video 'product' that reeked of authenticity. That is what I was attracted to. NOT the extra junk which I feel devalues what you are doing. Sorry, I had to tell you.
What do you mean you cant hide things from anybody? I though this is a deeply personal expierience and what your hanging on to is what you let go of not anyone else. Can you elaborate more on that?
Thanx for this talk. I asked this question on one of your short videos. I don’t think you’ve seen it the question, that is. Can there seemingly be in the apparent body when the shift or an apparent shift or awakening is going on like, intense muscle cramps that you’ve never apparently had before, twitching of facial muscles, leg cramps, lower leg tightness, headaches vertigo, there seems to be apparently, these things at play. Also, I want to add, there has been apparent crying 😢 for no reason, a fear or something, going on wanting to hold onto the apparent grown kids or the apparent grandbaby, etc.of surrender of allowing to trust into what is…. Thanx ❤🥹🎭
Great video. Thanks Angelo. Does anyone know what background track he used? I love it.
Thank you Angelo for your videos… I never understood self inquiring until you explained…
Yup, I do sometimes get in situations where very visibly emotion is going through me, and other people make the connection that it must have something to do with either them or me, when really that is not my experience in that moment, there is just something coming through.
I found that then I usually stop saying much and just starting to feel into the experience a little deeper, people around me seem to then either start talking and interacting a lot or stop talking aswell and we share some silence together, I find that uncomfortable silence is also beautiful silence, maybe especially so.
Also when someone then asks me a question like "is there something wrong" or "why are you feeling this way" I usually can't really come up with anything in my head, imagining some scenario of how it came to be doesn't feel authentic to me. I guess I just really have no clue, and I also don't know where no self realization starts and ends here, actually I don't really care either. So much trust in that whatever necessary realization there might be comes at the right time, they seem to do so.
I love the painting on the wall in this video. I wish everyone would OPEN THEIR EYE!
I can't believe how much hidden stuff there is , like ex girlfriends , fist fights in primary school , a glance of disappointment from a parent, all buried down there out of sight, it's remarkable.
@@FetterMuncher666 it is indeed! And it can all be worked through
I really haven't watched much at all lately, but this video popped up and something in me was like, ya, that one. Maybe it's because the title was so damn relatable, I don't know. 🤷🏻♀ Also, the content in this was also so relatable. I feel like I've kind of found a maximum tolerance for feeling lately. It was made quite obvious this past weekend when I was around a lot of family though. I just came up against a point where I'm like, I'm suffocating and overwhelmed, I need some space and some silence. The energy is just too much in that moment. Emotions have been intense as my story is going through so many changes. Even though the story might just be that, those emotions were and are very real.
Thanks for ever 🙏☮❤
I love this quote from Nisargadatta
“The most accurate map is yet only paper.”
So what?
@@Shrimpillawhat a weird reply
Oh I love that quote.
one from the zen tradition: "do not mistake the finger that is pointing to the moon for the moon"
@@Shrimpilla
So thoughts and concepts will only yield more thoughts and concepts
I find this is very relevant, and I am happy I started somewhere near the beginning. It is kind of like being given a cutting and planting it, watching it take hold and grow and blossom, rather than being given a rose in full bloom.
Disorientated seems to be the word of the month for me. The mind is running around like a rat in a cage. Feels like the ground is crumbling beneath my feet. Believing in anything is losing relevance. I've heard you say this is a good place to be, but damn ... it is uncomfortable at best and terrifying at worst. I also know that is a good place as well. I guess I just need to bitch.
Crap ... Take a deep breath.
I’m here as well bro, tis strange. I have no identity, desire, emotion. Things lose their rational correlation. My mind is constantly trying to imprint meaning into things but finds no genuine response. The problem is that I perceive right now is the feeling that I never cared about spiritual awakening or whatever. like ego and feeling is something I long for. Like what is beyond this? I don’t care about being one. I want to be an enjoyable little existence. I’m blank now. It’s lame.
So valuable & hadn't thought of this constant orientation - here it is clear that it's this ongoing, internal dialogue as though there is another "me" chatting away to this "me".....happens so spontaneously! 😮
Definitely relatable. My face is definitely blank as well lol
Conceptually I can understand everything you point too, experientially…….
I’ve had deep profound experiences on acid or mushrooms, DMT peeled everything away. But once the substance fades I become structured again.
leo gura could learn a lot from you.
I needed this today, i sometimes feel the bend and you wont break gets abused in the kind hearted, the self is guarded by the ego,the thorn of the rose❤
Next-level transmission is mesmerizing! Thank you, Angelo! You, Zdogg, and Krishnamurti are my go-to dudes.
Beautiful talk!
Really wonderful video, thanks!
The NIN song "right where it belongs"
Melancholy, but illuminates the first stages of awakening.
The cover by Jack 0 + Mumi is extraordinary
yep.lots of insights through Trent man.
"selling water by the river"
I love it, so i modified it:
"Giving away free water, after purifying water from this polluted river."
Something like that.
Subscribed.
Hey Angelo, not sure if you talked about this before. Can you do a talk about the tension/contraction in the body during this process? I’ve had tension in the throat and also jaw/head for a while, it’s actually seemed to move from the throat to the jaw recently but it seems entirely related to emotions/fixations
I finally thought self inquiry understood that I am not the doer.😮
*Before* you asked I was gonna say this is an extremely relatable video -- thank you 🙏
Thank you Angelo. ☺️
It's feeling pretty ghastly ATM! Sometimes working thru trauma activations while noticing so many internal patterns going on feels like crap. At least it's progress compared with being hijacked and totally immersed in believing the experience, eh?
Thank you 🙏
Its quite easy to hide things. I always find ways to hide anything I do not want to publish. Then you classify the info you research - into what is published, and what remains hidden. That way you can have a whole bunch of hidden things to enrich your private life with.
Is there anything beyond this? How can I exist in this world without any skin in the game? I don’t want to accept this. I want to play the game. I don’t even feel love for my family anymore. I feel like I’m evaporating. Ugh, I went looking for bliss and I ended up here. It’s boring and exceptionally disorientating as you said. I want ego. I’ve been clinging to whatever I have left. I guess I’ve got to let go. Let myself drown in it..
@@BorderPrince8 yes. Orienting to living truth is key. Fighting the inevitable will just become more and more painful
"i went looking for bliss and ended up here." ..... not only a great cogito in and of itself, but an excellent t-shirt.....("I became enlightened but I forgot to chop wood and carry water....now im freeze-dried")
All of that stuff is just happening. Even the sense that you are there or not is already just happening. Theres no way to 'get' this because its already this. Any attempt at getting this or hanging on to anything or whatnot is just whats happening, and thats that. There can be an idea of me that happens.
Very well said. Encouragingly truthful and wise@@drSamovar
The marketing of consciousness always talks about the good things. The other side is the suffering that comes from expanded knowing how cruel humanity is, how deeply bad ignorance makes people. All this has to be seen and integrated so we evolve to the greater self. I'm going through this too and I often weep.
Angelo, I thought I was in deep stage realization but now things are so bad I keep considering suicide. Dealing with very difficult circumstances and intense suffering. I don’t know why I’m writing this comment. I guess it is just a cry from my heart. I know I’m “supposed” to want deeper awakenings. But I don’t. I want circumstances to be different than what they are. I’m in the pit of despair.
Ive had so many awakenings only to be covered back up with hell !!! There has never been a darker area than I'm in at this moment. Physical pain and symptoms I can't get answers for. I've never been this dark.
Dear person who wrote that . I'm at that tipping point also. This past 3 years have been the most traumatic of my 62 years . I'm actually envying and getting angry at controlling type of people. Also finding myself hating people who appear to be happy😢. I'm at that suicide point also. Disgusted with this world and it's people. You're not alone
@@josephwhitmore6535 Yeah, this is why Angelo talks about the Deep Shadow. That stuff is no joke. Totally understand everything you've written. But if you've found yourself on this channel, that is a very good sign that your story is not over. Also... you mentioned physical pain and symptoms you can't get answers for. I experienced that. For years. Doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. I eventually came across the term "kundalini awakening" and it explained everything I had experienced. It matched up with all of my symptoms. I wouldn't be surprised if your physical pain and symptoms were part of your body's rewiring process. Especially if doctors can't find anything wrong with you. Some people say they don't experience any physical or energetic symptoms during the awakening process but I have experienced A LOT.
Well sayed!
It is funny how it's always right here, yet it can be hard to recognize.
What notices or sees that there is no self? (Sincere question)
It's not that something sees or notices, rather the one that feels like it sees and notices everything is suddenly realized to have always been an illusion.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thanks 🙏♥️
If realization weren’t steps I’d never have climbed the slide
I really love your channel and so appreciate all that you do for us. Sincerely I love you. ❤❤❤ But I can't watch your videos anymore -- I have to just listen. It's way too distracting, especially the text and fake beautiful people. Your message and delivery was so right on, and you had a solid video 'product' that reeked of authenticity. That is what I was attracted to. NOT the extra junk which I feel devalues what you are doing. Sorry, I had to tell you.
No worries. It is this way with any creative endeavor. Any change you make, some will love it some will hate it.
Hi, i was wondering How can i subscribe as a member to gain access to guided meditations
13:10 thought of train scene from matrix
What do you mean you cant hide things from anybody? I though this is a deeply personal expierience and what your hanging on to is what you let go of not anyone else. Can you elaborate more on that?
Meep
Maybe the uncomfortable truth is that none of you are special.
Just grains of sand in the great sands of time to be one day eventually washed away.
Thanx for this talk. I asked this question on one of your short videos. I don’t think you’ve seen it the question, that is. Can there seemingly be in the apparent body when the shift or an apparent shift or awakening is going on like, intense muscle cramps that you’ve never apparently had before, twitching of facial muscles, leg cramps, lower leg tightness, headaches vertigo, there seems to be apparently, these things at play. Also, I want to add, there has been apparent crying 😢 for no reason, a fear or something, going on wanting to hold onto the apparent grown kids or the apparent grandbaby, etc.of surrender of allowing to trust into what is…. Thanx ❤🥹🎭