I just got accepted into the masters program in Jewish Studies at IU Bloomington!! I've been watching your videos for months and feel so lucky and excited to start in the Fall
Super huge congrats on the award! Your passion and talent for teaching really comes through in your vlogs! I really related to this video, especially you reflecting on your breakdown. I too have a YT video of a breakdown about grad school (I think it's literally called "should I quit grad school") after SEVERE burnout 1.5 years into my program. But looking back on that person, I am in such a better place and such a different person, student, researcher, and engineer. I am so glad at this point that I stuck it out because it did get better.
I so look forward to these vlogs every week!! I love hearing about your phd journey including the day-to-day stuff and the bigger reflections. Makes me feel in community as I work on my own
I know I'm like a year late to this vlog (I follow you daily on Insta but I don't watch your vlogs in order lol). But in case you see this, I just wanted to say, thank you so much for uploading your "meltdown / breaking down" video a few years back. I completely understand why you privated it as it was obviously a very vulnerable time for you, but I'm also thankful that I was able to see it. I find that grad students tend to euphemise their feelings when they talk about getting too anxious, burnt out, doubting themselves, thinking of giving up... Like they'll say they went through it, but idk why it always seems to me that a lot of people experience those feelings in a milder way and are still able to keep it under control. When I went through moments like this in the past, I felt like I let it get to me way too much, that I was getting way too messed up over it, that I couldn't keep it together like I saw or perceived others did. And I remember seeing your video and feeling like "Oh, there are actually brilliant grad school / PhD students who do experience those emotions as strongly as I do !". At the time I felt like I failed even in the way I was dealing with it, like not only did I feel bad and lost, I also "failed" in the sense that I "let it" really damage my self-esteem. Which amounts to punishing yourself twice, right !? It fed the imposter syndrom I had at the time, the part of me that thought that if I was getting myself in such a state, then it was a sign that pursuing a reasearch master's and a PhD really wasn't for me. But seeing you go to similar mental places reassured me so much because it helped me see that other people, probably a lot actually, do go to quite dark mental spaces in high stress situations, and it's okay, and we can get over it, and it's a consequence of exterior factors like living and working conditions, as well as emotional and self-esteem wounds, rather than a sign of one's inadequacy in those spaces. Happy to say that I'm doing so much better nowadays and on my way to find funding for a PhD ☺ Forever grateful for all the people in the world who have the courage to show true vulnerability online, always helps me understand and care for myself better, as well as nourrish my empathy and understanding of humanity 🩷 (probably because I'm on the autism spectrum and sometimes struggle to understand other people's feelings if I don't witness it or hear/read a description of it 😅)
Congratulations on the award!! Teachers make or break the college experience, you should be so proud of being a great one. Not wanting it enough to go through the bullshit is such a relatable phd feeling, but the moments like those make it worth it
Congratulations. You deserve it! I learn so much from your channel and I’m in a completely different discipline to you. You should feel proud about your teaching ability 😊
Congratulations!!!!! So excited for you, what a well deserved award. It seriously feels like academia is fueled by imposter syndrome. It's normal to have all of the emotions and I am sending you the best vibes for fellowships and teaching jobs.
Congratulations, Sarah!! Your dedication to teaching and your topic shines through constantly in your vlogs. I know how easy it is to doubt ourselves in academia, but let this award be a sign that you're on the right path, despite the hardships.
I just got accepted into the masters program in Jewish Studies at IU Bloomington!! I've been watching your videos for months and feel so lucky and excited to start in the Fall
Super huge congrats on the award! Your passion and talent for teaching really comes through in your vlogs! I really related to this video, especially you reflecting on your breakdown. I too have a YT video of a breakdown about grad school (I think it's literally called "should I quit grad school") after SEVERE burnout 1.5 years into my program. But looking back on that person, I am in such a better place and such a different person, student, researcher, and engineer. I am so glad at this point that I stuck it out because it did get better.
Thank you so much 🥹 it can be tough, but it’s always so refreshing to look back and see how much we‘ve grown 😭
I so look forward to these vlogs every week!! I love hearing about your phd journey including the day-to-day stuff and the bigger reflections. Makes me feel in community as I work on my own
I know I'm like a year late to this vlog (I follow you daily on Insta but I don't watch your vlogs in order lol). But in case you see this, I just wanted to say, thank you so much for uploading your "meltdown / breaking down" video a few years back. I completely understand why you privated it as it was obviously a very vulnerable time for you, but I'm also thankful that I was able to see it. I find that grad students tend to euphemise their feelings when they talk about getting too anxious, burnt out, doubting themselves, thinking of giving up... Like they'll say they went through it, but idk why it always seems to me that a lot of people experience those feelings in a milder way and are still able to keep it under control. When I went through moments like this in the past, I felt like I let it get to me way too much, that I was getting way too messed up over it, that I couldn't keep it together like I saw or perceived others did. And I remember seeing your video and feeling like "Oh, there are actually brilliant grad school / PhD students who do experience those emotions as strongly as I do !". At the time I felt like I failed even in the way I was dealing with it, like not only did I feel bad and lost, I also "failed" in the sense that I "let it" really damage my self-esteem. Which amounts to punishing yourself twice, right !? It fed the imposter syndrom I had at the time, the part of me that thought that if I was getting myself in such a state, then it was a sign that pursuing a reasearch master's and a PhD really wasn't for me. But seeing you go to similar mental places reassured me so much because it helped me see that other people, probably a lot actually, do go to quite dark mental spaces in high stress situations, and it's okay, and we can get over it, and it's a consequence of exterior factors like living and working conditions, as well as emotional and self-esteem wounds, rather than a sign of one's inadequacy in those spaces.
Happy to say that I'm doing so much better nowadays and on my way to find funding for a PhD ☺
Forever grateful for all the people in the world who have the courage to show true vulnerability online, always helps me understand and care for myself better, as well as nourrish my empathy and understanding of humanity 🩷
(probably because I'm on the autism spectrum and sometimes struggle to understand other people's feelings if I don't witness it or hear/read a description of it 😅)
Congratulations on the award!! Teachers make or break the college experience, you should be so proud of being a great one. Not wanting it enough to go through the bullshit is such a relatable phd feeling, but the moments like those make it worth it
Thank you so much ❤🥹
Congratulations. You deserve it! I learn so much from your channel and I’m in a completely different discipline to you. You should feel proud about your teaching ability 😊
Congratulations!! 🎊🍾🎉 you’re an inspiration! Thank you for sharing your journey with us 💕
Congratulations!!!!! So excited for you, what a well deserved award. It seriously feels like academia is fueled by imposter syndrome. It's normal to have all of the emotions and I am sending you the best vibes for fellowships and teaching jobs.
so excited for you and your award, that is huge!!!
Congratulations, Sarah!! Your dedication to teaching and your topic shines through constantly in your vlogs. I know how easy it is to doubt ourselves in academia, but let this award be a sign that you're on the right path, despite the hardships.
Thank you 😭😭😭
hi sarah
Congratulations on winning the award! 🎉 your passion for teaching is so inspiring, and the award is well-deserved!
Omg thank you so much 😭
Congratulations!! Happy for you. 🎉
When are you due to submit your dissertation? 🌙💜
Congratulations, Sarah! That is amazing. Life is such a rollercoaster!
Thank you ❤❤❤
Congratulations!!! Amazing job. I love your vlogs so so much. Literally my favourite vlogger. Have a great week. xx
Omg the best compliment! 😭❤️
Congratulations, Sarah! That's so awesome
Tysm! ❤🥹
Congratulations!! So happy for you.
Thank you! ❤
Congratulations on the award!!! 🎉🎉🎉
Congrats, Sarah!! That's amazing!
Still in shock 🤭 tysm!
Congratulations Sarah! You deserve it! 💕
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Congrats again! You worked so hard on the award application! 🥳
Thank you so much! ❤
Congratulations!!
'Put on some Lo Fi Girl' - never a truer word spoken by a PhD student 😂
Truly!
Congratulations on your award!