The more I watch Mark's videos, the more I come to realize that 99 percent of the problems in this world seem to stem from childhood abuse or abandonment. Love your kids please.
Dr. Gabor Matè is one of the world’s best authorities on addiction, and his belief is that all addiction has roots in childhood trauma Maybe some people are genetically predisposed to addiction, but it’s the childhood trauma that triggers it regardless
@@GLC-1979 No, you're wrong. Drugs come later in life. They don't start off as drug addics when they're little. When they're little, things happen to them that form who they'll be as adults..then, those adults take drugs as a way to numb the pain. It all starts as fun and games when trying drugs, but quickly they become reliant on them because it takes away the trauma they received as children. Thus, it ALL STEEMS from childhood trauma
Unbelievable that a mother could ever call their children, even if they were given up, could call them parasites! And her only use for them is organ donation!? That's so messed up
Mark is finding more and more interesting humans to interview. This channel is a dream for people who are fascinated by human behaviour like I am and many others.
some people send Mark requests to be interviewed (and paid presumably). He asks they send a video and he selects the people he wants to interview for his channel.
I've heard other women talking about how they felt like they were "infected" with a "parasite" during pregnancy. It's usually a huge indicator of Postnatal depression. One of my friends suffered for the first 2yrs of giving birth. Then she went on to become one the best Mums i've ever seen.
@@survivor030406lies. like is used as a filler word and idk abt other people but as for me, pretty intelligent. Interestingly enough, i write different from how i speak. so while i can write a grammer error free, clearly precise and accurate paper, i dont verbally use half of those words on a day to day basis.
She's so obviously mentally ill, that it actually shouldn't be hard at all to feel empathy for her. I am more worried about the people in the comment section who choose to not see it, because of their believes
@@thematriarchy2075why do ppl tend to blame mental illness for everything? That is so saddening and sickening at the same time... dont get me wrong i have compasion for everybpdy who needs help, who wants help... But let us not forget about all the ppl that keep this wheel running silently, trying their ultimate best to stay sane, righteous and humble... where at the same time ppl that rob us from our energy, love and MONEY life in the best of conditions careing only about oneself not worrying about makeing this world a better place... i get so tired of all of this...
I think of fetuses that aren't able to live on their own as a type of parasite. It's what they actually are, something only able to survive, by taking things from your body. That's a parasite. But I also know babies have souls, I know they are humans, and I don't think birth is weird. And I don't love Satan. Lol. But when the abortion argument comes up, that's my position. 🤷🏼♀️
No joke. No tiny human should have to deal with this mess. And 12:51- if pregnancy is an abomination- bit*ch use birth control. Basic sex education holy sh*t
@@papaboomcertainly you don't think her using her kids for satanic purposes and taking their organs to be immortal is your definition of love? Or you defend her for that?
@@theshapeexists coming to this video and patting yourself on the back for NOT being a delusional meth-addict is also NOT an accomplishment on your part... which is my point.. all the women (or men) here who are giving themselves props by attacking this (obviously sick) person are themselves (I am guessing) not the cream of humanity (yourself included.)
This was shocking and to know that her children may hear refer to the ones she gave birth and gave life to as parasites and soulless is so sad. But I'm so glad she gave them up and I seriously hope and pray that they all are living the best life without her!
I’m sure they have no idea and will never have any idea who their real mum is. Imagine they grow up and ask, you don’t want to show them the photo of her, they probably think she’s dead
This is the best argument for abortion I’ve ever seen. Anytime there’s a debate between pro-life and pro-choice people, they should just bring Ashleigh onto the stage and let her talk.
I might of missed it but did she state she wasn't allowed to have an abortion? I believe she chose to have those children. i would assume her point of view about her children is a symptom of her current meth induced paranoia. Not sure how this is a prochoice argument or are you suggesting we decide who is unfit for motherhood and force abortions???
@karabograce6292 That totally depends on the strength of your stuff. Usually, it will last all day but if it's weak, half of the day. I never ever did meth but I know tons of people in my area that have. Meth is truly a demonic drug
@@karabograce6292 Round here for smoking we have 4 standard tiers of duration or "The Legs " . 6 mins . 6 hours . 6 days .. Or 6 feet deep . So odds are 1 in 4 to get a free ride to the morgue . Shrug * Choose wisely friend .
when they were talking about love, you could hear the curiosity in her voice when she was asking Mark about love. You can tell in that moment that she has never felt what love is. When Ashliegh asks, "would you say it's more pain than pleasure?", you could really tell she has never felt what love is. Mark is right. If you have to ask questions about love, you've never felt it. My heart hurts for her.
She's so lost. She 'loves satan' . That's for shock value. She doesn't have a sense of self worth and to get attention she says she loves saten. It's so sad. I hope her kids never try to find her.
Thank God she's not raising her "parasites". Wow. I don't think I have ever heard someone describe pregnancy in such a bizarre way. What a lost human being. 🥺
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to meth. Spent my whole life fighting meth addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Belgium. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of Dr.benfungi. Did straight shrooms in few days. Left me like a blank slate after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. Shit saved my life, all thanks to Dr.benfungi
Congrats! I'm really happy for you that your wife decided to help you. I always admire those who beat their addiction. Knowing it's possible to fix your life knowing there's people out there that have done what I thought was impossible gives me hope I will make it through as well. Those who share their experiences don't know how much it helps when you're about to give up, it gives you the strength knowing somone who actully know what it's like to go through this tell you it's possible, it's not the same somone telling you you can do it when they have no idea what it's like, but hearing somone who knows what it's like that helps a lot since you understand it firsthand and made it out gives so much hope. so thanks for sharing.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction? Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
Actually there’s one more where the girl was put into a dog crate for days and the dog… she I think also has a cross tat on her forehead. That one actually was the worst thing I’ve ever heard. You should watch that one. Clearly is always a distinction on horrible experiences and pure evil.
these are the type you read about that actually sacrifice their children to satan. remember that there are bad seeds born that way. it is in the dna. history is full of them.
@@Vivi-cq5kx maybe she was more sane at the time she got the kids. Also they could've taken those babies straight away at hospital, because of her drug use and her being unfit for a mom
If people only knew that Jesus (Buddha, Allah) are all satan. People don’t know Santa = Satan… they call him Old Saint Nick.. now go google “Old Nick” and tell me what it says. People need to realize that earth is hell.. all of your favorite celebrities throw up 666 .. the ppl who control television are called the National Academy of Television Arts & Sciences … that acronym is NATAS .. which is SATAN backwards. … this is why they get the worldly riches (root of all evil). Even NASA is Satan scrambled up.. that’s why they say “T minus”.. the T is missing and their logo has the serpent tongue. NASA literally lies about everything they say or do… don’t laugh at flat earthers.. they have the truth.. while you believe in a globe spinning and flying thru space which is total chaos.. you can literally step outside and see you’re not on a globe flying 67,000 mph.. you wouldn’t see the same stars every night if that were the case. They tell us we’re on a globe because there is no more to explore on a globe.. meanwhile they are out finding and hoarding lands and natural resources to themselves.
Comparing her children to parasites & that their bodies should be sold as body parts & that children don't have a soul...she lost me. Then saying she knows what love is...she is capable of love more than anyone else. Getting pregnant 4 times & blaming the fetus for growing inside of her for 9 months. I call BS. 😳🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🙄 Brutal interview.
Shes got a demonic creacher in her its fully taken over soul shes far gone that's not even her talking that's a demon people wont believe what I'm saying but it's clear has day light her body is there but shes not so very sad the devil can onley attracts to the weak and that's what she was 😢💔😱
Mark is unknowingly hilarious. “I don’t know if Im gonna get to the bottom of what love is in a quick conversation with a girl with an upside down cross on her forehead”😂
Oh, you mean his undertones of sarcasm & disgust? I'm gonna go out on a limb here & surmise that he's not a fan. I can't imagine why. She seems like a dream.
I love how calm Mark is no matter whats being said. I sympathized until she started talking about her children. She's calling them parasites like they chose to be. Like she didn't consciously participate in the act of conception without protection and go through an entire gestation to give birth. She's talking about children like they are a stolen vehicle at a chop shop. I hope she got a tubal ligation. When he hit her with the "is this what you would tell your 4 kids... that you have a lot of love to give?" 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
And this is exactly why we need state run mental health hospitals, but a certain group decided to take them away. We just leave the mentally ill to their own devices living on the street doing drugs, shitting on sidewalks, harming the public, but society thinks they’re doing a good thing by ignoring these people and letting them live the way they want to live. society sucks for this. They think they’re having a heart and doing the right thing when instead they’re harming the rest of society the sane people are the sick ones and are the assholes
This is by far my favorite TH-cam channel. I used to stick needles in my arm and grind for a shot every day of my life. 8 years sober with a house and kids and husband, this stuff is beyond interesting to me. Thank you for sharing and being gentle with our fellow humans. It’s completely relatable but I always wish nothing more than a sober life for these people.
Well done- so happy for you. 5 years in recovery here. I relate to you wishing sobriety for her and others here. I literally said that out loud to my partner. It seems so unobtainable while we are in active 🥹. Keep up the best life you can🥰
As some one who suffered trauma and abuse as a child at the hands of an addict parent I am forever grateful that for whatever reason I turned out ok. Knew to work it out for myself. Knew it wasn’t ok. Knew I had a choice to continue the generational pattern or change. I knew healing was the priority even as a teenager. I pray for my children that the genetics won’t overpower the example I have set them 🙏🏼
@@doneill7506 I certainly have the addict genetics. I could drink every day, for that reason I have never tried drugs and I ask those around me to be transparent about any drinking I do do and monitor me so I can be help accountable. I have a lot of rules for myself. Either never more than two follow three drinks alone, keep count when I go out, check in with my husband etc. Mental illness….i have ocd, emetophobia, anxiety, control issues. I manage everything fine these days. I spent a lot of hours in therapy and am never afraid to go back if I feel overwhelmed by anything. Life is a journey of self help and evolving. Talking to myself like I’m still a child and affording myself compassion and empathy as to why I am not ok sometimes.
The thing that really gets under my skin with this video, is you can see she has considerable comprehension of complex ideological constructs and a solid grasp on the English language far more than the average SWU interviewee. Yet her ideas about life and relationships are horrifically and disgustingly skewed to a degree that is almost terrifying. It's obvious to me that given different circumstances she could have been a scientist or an engineer or an academic but what was shown to her by life has transformed her into this stunted, damaged person. I hope she can discover a way out of her current predicament but I doubt it. I wish her well.
Ehhh this is beyond a stretch. There’s nothing complex here in regards to ideological constructs or the English language. She has made little to no points in her answers, what so ever. I’m going to have to disagree. There are endless others that have been on this channel, that I would agree with what you’re saying. This person is the furthest from that.
She's "been in therapy" for years, since a very early age... Her Mother "really loved her", but was a "tyrant" who beat her... Her mind and value system has been totally destroyed: can't think of a worse person to have been allowed to reproduce based upon her perception of the value of children! 100% devoted to herself and her love of Satan. P.S. It would be hard to imagine the total dollar amount of her therapy and legal defense costs to Society: has to be in the multiple hundreds of thousands. Concept of being a parasite is a world she should be very familiar with!
Exactly what I was thinking, she can't explain why she actually loves Satan as a spiritual figure in her life so she throws it back onto someone else to deflect the question.
My sense is that her view on kids is informed by her own experience as a kid. Someone made her believe she was a parasite and good for nothing that made her mom’s life worse than if she hadn’t birthed her. She has internalized that experience as a coping mechanism. Better to believe all children are parasites as a general rule than that it was her own unique experience. 😢
I have no sympathy for her. I sympathize with her children who didn't have a choice. I had a horrible childhood full of trauma and I would NEVER treat my children like this. It's disgusting. Her past is no excuse.
I agree. What strikes me often in these interviews is that people will say they had a good childhood, then go on to describe a horrific childhood. To them, it’s normal.
“If you asked me if I’ve been in love before, I know the answer instantly is hell yes. Cuz it takes you over. It’s like a bulldozer in your life, you’ll never forget it.” -Mark
IMO - that was crap and ML should have left his personal judgements out of it.. it was like the lowest hanging gotcha journalist moment in the history of media. "gotcha - psychopathic meth-head' - kudos.
@@lauriecalkins781I think so. She wasn't affected by the brutality of this question at all. She was unable to detect that it was a dig and she just answered it straight up. Although her answer revealed no insight, just showed her inability to detect the dig. The notion of her kids not asking permission to grow inside her.... and then to do it not once but 4 times? they didn't ask to be conceived. It was her fault they were. But that never registered with her. She knows how babies are conceived but it's their fault because she was just hoping she won't get pregnant ?
Lots of people judging,and saying I’d do this,I wouldn’t do that…. Mostly women I see. I like her style. She honest. I like that she dresses that she don’t give a f u ck. she’s had a hard time,she doing her best. The haters on here are maybe bigger sinners than this lady. People should wind there necks in. How many of you b I tches commenting would sit down and expose themselves like she is? Not many…… outing herself on this platform….
So many things she said made my jaw drop. The harvesting of organs for personnel use of immortality, was a shocking statement. I normally don't make negative comments and live and let live, but this was Way out of my cognitive box of love and understanding. Drugs or no drugs, just wowed by this, this morning. Appreciated a few of Marks comments and or questions. And I'll leave it at that...💙🌎
Agree 💯👍 I felt the EXACT same... Even about not usually thinking or posting negative but I realized at one point that I got lost in this interview 😂...
Man,organ harvesting from kids is a huuuuuuge industry, look it up. Very rich people also use cloning technology, there are wicked Cloning Centers in hidden places. Look it up. And yes s@tan controls that arena for now
Her “abuse” doesn’t drive people to be come a meth head. She’s like “I couldn’t have a boyfriend and couldn’t wear the clothes I wanted to wear. “Whaaaaaa!” Society has created the do nothings and purposely have nots. They’re fine having nothing. Go look at Seattle. Go look at L.A. with people shitting on the streets and when you offer them a job they says”nope I’m fine.” She’s one of them. The “I don’t feeeeel like doing better.” This girl is the part of the “gimme” generation. Gimme shit for free but I won’t work for it. She’s horrible.
It's sad to hear about how much she loves her mom and how sweet she was and then a couple of sentences later relays all these awful things her mom did to her. There's such a tragic dichotomy there.
“Then a couple of sentences later, relays all these awful things her mom did to her”??? She got spanked, and wasn’t allowed to wear inappropriate clothing…. Oh, the unjustness of it all…😳🙄🤦🏽♀️🤣 This girl was making some bad choices ( doing drugs at 12), and her mom tried to intervene…🤷🏽♀️ I’m soooo thankful, that she didn’t keep any of her kids, and more thankful that they’ll hopefully never be able to meet her..🙏🏾
My thoughts, too. Her mother did not want her going down a bad road. How horrific!! She should not have been able to have any more children after the first one. Disgusting that they can keep procreating after ruining one child's life.
I was spanked with wooden spoons and rods but that isn't abuse that's discipline haha. I wasn't allowed to do drugs or drink as a teen or do what I want. Confused teens do get rebellious and go the other way when they don't get their way I can attest to that but discipline and guidance aren't bad.
Saying the only reason to have children is to use them for body parts because they don't have a soul, is outright the most uncompassionate and unemphatic thing I have ever heard uttered in my entire life. And i genuinely do not believe anything will ever top it. Damn. I didnt know human beings existed with that kind of thought process.
That was wild. Hard to top, I agree. My guess is it’s a result of psych meds at a young age messing up her brain, drug use now, and the philosophy of a person who didn’t feel valued as a child and therefore still sees no value in people.
I completely agree. I think devotion to Satan in mind and on the body can invert your perspective (see her tattoos) of what is good and true in the world. Still, she has as much dignity as any one of us. Which is why I prayed for her!
I grew up in Ft. Worth. My best childhood friend and I ran into each other in Los Angeles. I was a cop and he was ruined from drugs. Sad doesn't even began to cover it.
Ar first was impressed with her literacy then i was repulsed but intrigued at the same time when she started to call babies parasites, then I felt sorry for her that she doesn't know love, I had to dig deep to feel compassion for her a few times during this interview, I hope she gets help and experiences love at some point
It’s just a form of cognitive dissonance to continue using meth. She copes that she won’t have children and she her drug use is apart of her religion It’s just addiction
Well said - by the end of this interview she really grated on my last nerve. She tried so hard to be shocking to Mark, but he's seen it all - and she ran out of story lines here, and just became silly. Hail Satan. Really? LOL.
I just keep reminding myself that she’s on meth…meth is like a hot rod shot to psychosis…then combine that with a shit off heart…then the embracing of Satan… Girl is obviously not in her right mind…I just keep reminding myself that…wow…the way she speaks about children…that she chose to have… Wow…takes my breath away…
I’ve known someone who was addicted to meth, who also had these intense thoughts that make no sense, to me. I wonder what part of the brain meth affects that creates this? Thankful for your patience Mark!
Seems so...such wild imaginative thoughts. I would like to see a scan to a meth addict's brain as compared to a normal one. I listened without judgement but towards the end, I couldn't understand what she was trying to express.
@@candy123258ur right in there brains they completed the thought but by the time it should come out they already thought of ten more thoughts so they just get lost while talking and eventually in their own minds aswell
Mark, it's amazing how you can give concise, articulate, meaningful answers in this conversation. I was repeatedly still trying to recover from what she said 30 seconds prior. My favorite quote from Ashleigh: "Okay, so this is where it gets weird...". I thought we got to "weird" in the first 90 seconds.
She'd be a great person to write a paper on what it is like to be an absolute trash can. I've never seen his interviews that made me so sick. She says she has love in her heart? Puuuuhhhhhlllleeeaaassee. She's a POS mother, and I hope she experiences horrible bad things her whole life.
@@mellio9077 I feel like ppl who like satan it could be a type of rebellion . People who were forced into Christianity etc usually face a lot of religious trauma growing up so they want to associate with something that symbolizes the opposite. Satan was Lucifer who defied gods order, instead of being a follower. That’s why he fell as an angel and became satan. And he is the only fallen angel that is always brought up , to keep people in check . And a lot of values in satanism are honestly pretty normal and understandable/good even sometimes. Just playing devils advocate here (literally lol) I am not a satanist
the best tweaker conversation ive ever heard. she has a lot on her mind. and she reminds me of one of my favorite theories and that there is a thin line between genius and insane
She's extremely intelligent and people are disgusted because her ideas aren't mainstream. What's there to be horrified about? Her children are being cared for properly. She has a right to feel how she feels about the whole thing. People are so closed minded. It's not as if she thinks of them as parasites and kept and abuses them as she was abused.
I loved it when she was asking Mark all these questions so she could get a balance of another side….i found that fascinating…..she needed me as a mom….patience and space and hugging and conversations, good and difficult.
Seeing her pause and trying to understand what falling love means... it was eye opening for me. It may explain why she sees her kids the way she does. Imagine being born to this world only knowing misery throughout your life, you wouldn't even know when you are breaking the law by just existing. Whats right or wrong for her maybe completely the opposite of what it means for us.
Some have a predisposition for psychological disorders Short term or long term use of street drugs can cause a break in the psyche and begin a torturous road of psychological issues that may cause, schizoaffective, schizophrenia , DD, BPD, Bipolar disorder ect or possibly a full-blown psychosis. Sometimes detoxing and getting on temporary mood stabilizers can help stabilize the person's chemicals in the brain but a lot of the time the post acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) can swing the addict right back into a relapse. So many slip right through the cracks alot of them can't climb their way back out.
A a devout Christian I must admit, she is completely right about one thing (unfortunately): that's the statement about how so many so called "Christians" are lacking in love for their neighbor. She's spot on. 😢
Exactly cause why would I help someone that doesn't help themselves, "they know what they're doing" "well not everyone will go to heaven you know" "I tried telling them about the Bible (as if food clothes shelter and consistent love is not an option) - this what many Christians think
I think what she said about being on hard core psychiatric drugs at a young age was really eye opening. I've always thought that I couldn't see the appeal of doing a drug you know is so dangerous and what she said makes a ton of sense.
Moments of lucidity and intelligence that pivot to obvious mental illness and long-term drug use. What a rollercoaster ride, yet feeling compassion she seeks/gets the help she needs. And topic of children. Wow.
She is in a complete delusional, psychotic state from the meth use which I’m sure is a given to anyone haha. I’ve been there, meth was my poison. I couldn’t get enough. I deteriorated in psychosis terms fairly quickly so I completely empathise with how she’s thinking. I hope she gets clean one day, those thoughts will slowly subside and normality will return (depending on many circumstances of course).My psychosis however has always been a bit worse off since my addiction and I’ve had almost 3 years clean from meth. Benzos really messed me up even more psychosis wise, I have almost a year clean off them. It’s a wild ride this addiction stuff! The longer you’re sober the better it gets, hold in there to anyone doing it tough!
Any tips for family members of a (mostly) meth addict? I have become his last connection. I cannot house him, but he stopped looking after his ex found housing post-rehab. His family would pay for any and all treatment or help if he wanted it.
I relapsed after 18 years. Badly. For 5 more years of drugs and alcohol. Ive been in my rehab now for 2 years. Once an addict, ALWAYS an addict. Be careful guys!
@@KD-rs6xx She created her image of the disgusting person she is with her words in this interview and that's how she is perceived by the commenters. Oh wow, consequences.
You respect her? For being honest? Thats like saying you respect a murderer for them saying that they brutally murdered multiple people out of cold blood.
You can tell mark was deeply pissed about her selfishness in life in general but more specifically speaking about her children as organ donors. I couldn't imagine keeping a straight face talking to these deeply selfish human beings.
I totally agree. I don’t think that Mark really hates anyone but he sounded so angry speaking to her. I’ve never seen him react to an interviewee like that. This interview was different all the way around. Wow
not the right time to be catching feelings about what a tweaker is saying. they are in psychosis and dont even know what theyre saying half the time. it may make a little sense coming out but its not an actual coherent thought. irritational to be mad about it.
She was like every child and wanted the love so well-deserved from mother & father but it doesn't sound like either came through for her. Like they say, when a hole is created in our lives, something else will come along and fill it. She's filled hers with the Prince of Trickery.
Huh??? She is the epitome of a problem child. She sounds like she could have had a damn near perfect childhood, and she brought all of her problems on herself. She was literally having a hard time thinking of any abuse. What in the living hell are you talking about? Spanked on the butt with a spoon??? Ohhhhhh nooooooo!! Couldn’t wear what she wanted to??? Ohhhhh nooooo! Alert child services!!! Started doing drugs when she was 12??? Parents fault too? What a clueless enabler, or you’re part of her generation, that is clear. Lots of people on here have terrible parents, she is not one of them. You sound ridiculous.
She couldn't give one reason why she "loved" 👹. It sounded like someone trying to rationalize a toxic/abusive partner. She almost sounded offended that he even asked.
When you've been abused as a child, you can feel a disconnect with your own body. I totally understand what she's saying about her pregnancies. Think "Alien," the movie. It's not uncommon, but people hating on this woman haven't walked in her shoes. Yes, absolutely she presents with meth psychosis, but also CPTSD. I say, there, but for the grace of God, go I.
Absolutely. I get that what she said regarding her own children is disturbing to hear but if I had to guess, the pregnancies were most likely the result of sexual assault. Cognitive dissonance regarding how they came into this world is probably a coping mechanism for her. It's also clear that this person has suffered so much abuse from childhood that even minus the effects of drugs, her ability to relate to other human beings (yes, including her own children) has been severely diminished.
I was SA as a child from age 10-13 years old, I was also in a very abusive marriage for 6 years! I have 5 kids and they are my world! I don't do drugs, I've never ever smacked my kids, never mind abused them! I've always worked, im a student now mind. So to say she has a good excuse to be the way she is, sorry that's rubbish!! And I have no family for support as my parents died! Ive pulled myself through it all!
@@Feerae8791you subjecting your children to that abusive relationship isn’t exactly the pinnacle of good or moral behavior so hop off that high horse with that
Considering all she’s been through for the last 23 years I think she said... she’s pretty well spoken and her thoughts on reproduction are really interesting... sad but poignant... but never the less, interesting. For lack of a better adjective, she’s thoughtful too. ie posing a question to the interviewer and then actively listening to his answer. She’s a Very intelligent young lady, these drugs once they grab you, are soul destroyers.
Drug addicts smell like cigarettes 🚬 cause they chain smoke until their next hit. And meth addicts ramble to where they don’t know what they are talking about 😅
I've had 3 unplanned pregnancies & being pregnant each time was very difficult for me but I love my children & would go to the end of the earth for them, calling them parasites & abominations would never cross my mind & was a bit extreme. Thank God her children were adopted ❤
I immediately heard her say how much she loved her mom - who we then hear physical and mentally abused her. 12 year olds do no just do years in treatment centers for no reason. she did right putting her kids up for adoption right away. i found her very insightful and thoughtful and hurt to the point of blocking things out that could cause her more pain. abused by a "christian" zealot- yes - pass the satan please. of course she went that direction for protection.
Yep. Satan is the ultimate rebel. If you've been traumatized by religion he becomes a symbol of freedom. Few Satanists believe in the christian myth, and that includes stories about the morning star.
Interesting to see the belief systems people develop from crystal meth use. The Nazi's heavily used crystal meth and hearing her explain her perceptions on how she see's kids, really gives insight on how a drug like this influences people/society's.
I knew about acid given in Vietnam, the watched a documentary on the Taliban been given drugs beginning with a c that made them feel invincible but did not know this about the Nazis. Meth is a horrible drug, ppl do the most messed up stuff on that drug, so glad we don't have it over here. It's seriously the drug that frightens me the most
Both sides heavily used methamphetamines and amphetamines in WW2. Nazis had belief structures rooted in gnostism and esoteric dogma similar to hers. Her genetics loaded the gun, her personality and upbringing fired the bullet. The drugs just keep reloading that gun so she stays trapped in the same cycle of hurting others and loves the chaos she brings
Mark: "What do you love about Satan?" Her thoughts: "Well, I don't actually know anything about Satanism, but I like that my tattoos make me feel edgy, and make me think that people are scared of me because it makes me feel like I look like a badass." Her answer: A whole bunch of whataboutism because she can't give a legitimate answer to an easy question.
Your trying to ignore the fact that Satanist really exists...she knows but like she said u should not ask bc u should run away not go towards. Hence freedom of choice.
@@69Fabulosity😂 nah he was right any Satanist who believes in this shit understands humans=shit and wouldn't waste their mental resources explaining such pitiful remarks as why do you love Satan 😂 ultimately even Satanists don't love Satan they just hate humanity/god which they also don't know they're just confused humans 😂 never really considered them scary maybe it's different in America where the emo kid can go buy a gun but over here even if they pulled a knife we'd kick six senses of shit out of them it they fronted their is nothing scary about depressed little boys and woman that lost their worth at such an early age they feel their entire existence has been for nothing other than their suffering even though like this woman a lot of the time it's their own fault they cause their own suffering
@@69Fabulositythat makes zero fucking sense. Most retarded comment I’ve read so far. In no way is he trying to ignore the fact that satanists exist. In fact I’m sure there are dozens of people who practice satanism that can sit down and tell you the ins and outs of their beliefs. She can’t because she probably doesn’t know the first fucking thing about it and there is literally no logical reason as to why someone would love satan.
The way she was just utterly perplexed at the mention of love, right after speaking of her children as parasites and considering the possibility of just using children to harvest organs..... absolutely insane. I hope and pray she can get off meth and get the help she needs to truly feel love for others and to be loved herself.
@@marydawson7959I totally understand why you would say that. I just personally don’t think it’s ever too late for anyone and there is hope except pedophiles and rapists.
When I was in active addiction I was so spiritual and felt I was more in tune with myself and the world so I get it. Drugs really did give me that outlet that being sober never gave me. Thankfully I discovered this after getting sober for good bc otherwise that mindset would've told me drugs were necessary like this woman. It's a hard hole to climb out of
@@lulkara22 I just gave up. Everything always seemed to fall apart quicker every time I relapsed and was able to see that my drug use was clearly the cause. It got to the point that the drugs weren’t even helping my anxiety and that was the whole reason I started using in the first place. I had people doubting me in the detox center too and I wanted to prove them wrong so badly and so I did!
When she said that her crystal meth use is used for religious purposes and is her direct connection to her Satan I was like…. Yep. Hit the nail on the head there. Welcome to chaos.
Meth is definitely the definition of chaos! I've was an addict and cook for 8 years I know first hand. Been clean for 17 years now thank the good Lord above
I am roughly the same age as this woman. In our very early teens, my childhood best friend was sent away to have electroshock therapy and be put on various medications. She was the daughter of two "functioning" alcoholics; both of whom held respectable careers. Before she was sent away, my best friend was a hilarious, creative, and intelligent girl who sometimes got into trouble, but nothing out of the ordinary. When she returned, she was completely different. I rarely talk to her now, but we have communicated via Facebook here and there. She goes on and on about conspiracies and she often talks about the abuse she experienced growing up. Now, I'm not writing this saying I sympathize with this interviewee. I am a mother and her comments about children were really difficult to hear. I just find it interesting the similarities in her childhood experience and her current frame of mind that seem to parallel that of my childhood friend.
Yeah she didn't ask to get pregnant (even tho she surely did something that caused that 😏), but the children surely didnt ask to be born either, they did not "invite" themselves in her body without asking and are surely not "parasites"... I understand drugs can make you think in a fucked up way but that is just too much...
What is something living inside you, taking from you, that's not able to live outside you? That's a parasite. People may not like it, but early stages of a fetus is exactly like a parasite, no matter what you do to get it. Don't have unprotected sex, well, don't go swimming in certain waters. I know babies have souls, and I don't think kids are clones or should be used as organ farms. But technically speaking, before they can survive outside your body, they are parasites, technically.
I was such a nihilist before I started watching these but ngl these made me love humanity again I'm not even lying. Be honest and love each other people we are all in this together
I read what other ppl said about her speech about kids while I watched the vid and still somehow was left speechless when I got to the part where she said it. Like part of me just felt cold hearing her try to explain how how children are parasites. God help her.
People are getting sidetracked with her religious beliefs, yes she has trauma, but overall I don't find her to be incoherently mentally ill. She sounds lucid, maybe a little drug addled but remarkably intelligent. It takes compassion to be able to dismiss your notions of love, childbearing, etc and understand that her life experiences have shaped her beliefs...i see a lot of hypocritical "Christians/ zealots " on here judging someone who has lived a completely different life than your own. I don't agree with her, but I empathize with whatever she has experienced that has brought her to this place..
My son took his own life February29 2023. He was bipolar, his medication never really worked for him. Because of his medication, making him feel like the walking dead. He began to smoke pot. Unfortunately, pot would cause him to become extremely psychotic. He tried to balance his medication while smoking a small amount of weed. He ended up at one point living on skid row. I really wish that someone would do a video on mental illness and the use of marijuana. My son is not the only one that this has happened to.
She's wrong In Christianity, the upsidedown cross is associated with the martyrdom of Peter the Apostle. The symbol originates from the Catholic tradition that when sentenced to death, Peter requested that his cross be upside down, as he felt unworthy of being crucified in the same manner as Jesus. Also, as someone who reads runes, they DO NOT have anything to do with Satan.
@jmventertainment7 On her forehead, on her stomach and around her neck. She wants to make sure we see it, and she doesn't regard it as a "mistake". She's a walking bill board for satan.
I was glad she said it to be honest. It meant that she'd said it before to other people or therapists and might have had a hand in her losing her kids. It would be worse that we DIDN'T hear it but she believed and could enact those beliefs without anyone knowing. I'd much prefer someone to say this so society can help them, they don't harm others, and individuals really truly know who they are dealing with.
Mark, I so love your channel! It's less about feeling appreciative of my own childhood (which was shaded with some neglect and molestation) but about understanding that the most important thing a person can do is to protect and love a child. To protect another human for the first 10 years of life (at a minimum) should be a given right to all people. I have never felt this more than watching this interview. She was not protected. Now, she feels like the children she's given birth to are parasites. That was shocking to hear! I have learned so much about my life and understanding choices and decisions I have made from these interviews. I am so grateful for the variety of people you interview. Thank you for touching so many lives, both the people you interview and the viewers, in such a positive way!
Most of these people are incredibly intelligent. I'm grateful for these videos they show to not judge a person by sight but by what is inside, its so interesting to see their theories and stories.
“Nobody asked me if a parasite could just post up in my body”… Unprotected sex resulting in not 1 BUT 4 “parasites”… Sounds like you knew full well what happens when you have unprotected sex BUT continued to do it anyway. I’m so happy those kids are far away from her.
The more I watch Mark's videos, the more I come to realize that 99 percent of the problems in this world seem to stem from childhood abuse or abandonment.
Love your kids please.
Dr. Gabor Matè is one of the world’s best authorities on addiction, and his belief is that all addiction has roots in childhood trauma
Maybe some people are genetically predisposed to addiction, but it’s the childhood trauma that triggers it regardless
No it's drugs.
@@GLC-1979
No, you're wrong. Drugs come later in life. They don't start off as drug addics when they're little. When they're little, things happen to them that form who they'll be as adults..then, those adults take drugs as a way to numb the pain. It all starts as fun and games when trying drugs, but quickly they become reliant on them because it takes away the trauma they received as children.
Thus, it ALL STEEMS from childhood trauma
@@GLC-1979drugs are a tool to try to escape trauma for many. Drugs are a symptom to the real cause.
This is very true. I worked in case management at a few prisons and almost every single inmate had a horrific childhood.
Thank god those children are in a safe place and nowhere near her
Hopefully they are. But I'm starting to think bc 2 are with her mom her mental health stems from that living situation so I doubt they will be ok
Unbelievable that a mother could ever call their children, even if they were given up, could call them parasites! And her only use for them is organ donation!? That's so messed up
she first used her mom as the pinnacle of love then we hear her creative forms of discipline
Yeah, she ought to have an iud. I'm not a meth addict but feel her
That exactly what I was thinking!! She's very mentally I'll!
Mark is finding more and more interesting humans to interview. This channel is a dream for people who are fascinated by human behaviour like I am and many others.
Not really🥱😴
Indeed
Indeed
some people send Mark requests to be interviewed (and paid presumably). He asks they send a video and he selects the people he wants to interview for his channel.
@@unknown-sx8snWhy are you here then if you find it so dull?!
I've heard other women talking about how they felt like they were "infected" with a "parasite" during pregnancy. It's usually a huge indicator of Postnatal depression.
One of my friends suffered for the first 2yrs of giving birth. Then she went on to become one the best Mums i've ever seen.
im sure she used while she was pregnant
I was very impressed by her literacy, and then I realized she is suffering psychosis. Great interview 👍
Can you explain the first sentence please?
Anyone who uses the word "like" constantly is not a highly literate person.
@@survivor030406lies. like is used as a filler word and idk abt other people but as for me, pretty intelligent. Interestingly enough, i write different from how i speak. so while i can write a grammer error free, clearly precise and accurate paper, i dont verbally use half of those words on a day to day basis.
@@survivor030406She is still well spoken, regardless of the word filler.
Yes!
Her convo about kids reveals how dangerous she is. Meth makes lost people feel intelligent.
False confidence
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Her sharing her views on her kids .. yeah I don't like her. Quit getting pregnant if you feel that way.
A morbid grotesque goblin. No other way to say it. Hell awaits them all.
@@TheCyberMantis yea she wants hell. So that's less of a punishment and more or a paradise for her.
Trauma at its worst. I had to dig deep for compassion on this one. Wow. I have never heard anyone talk about children this way.
She's so obviously mentally ill, that it actually shouldn't be hard at all to feel empathy for her. I am more worried about the people in the comment section who choose to not see it, because of their believes
@@thematriarchy2075why do ppl tend to blame mental illness for everything? That is so saddening and sickening at the same time... dont get me wrong i have compasion for everybpdy who needs help, who wants help... But let us not forget about all the ppl that keep this wheel running silently, trying their ultimate best to stay sane, righteous and humble... where at the same time ppl that rob us from our energy, love and MONEY life in the best of conditions careing only about oneself not worrying about makeing this world a better place... i get so tired of all of this...
@@thematriarchy2075❤
I think of fetuses that aren't able to live on their own as a type of parasite. It's what they actually are, something only able to survive, by taking things from your body. That's a parasite. But I also know babies have souls, I know they are humans, and I don't think birth is weird. And I don't love Satan. Lol. But when the abortion argument comes up, that's my position. 🤷🏼♀️
So glad she gave her children up for adoption. Like what Amy said I have never heard anyone talk about children the way she did.
The PATIENCE Mark has.
The biggest gift of "love" is the fact she is not influencing those poor kids any more
No joke. No tiny human should have to deal with this mess. And 12:51- if pregnancy is an abomination- bit*ch use birth control. Basic sex education holy sh*t
This must make you feel good, telling everyone else what love is. Kudos!
@@papaboomcertainly you don't think her using her kids for satanic purposes and taking their organs to be immortal is your definition of love? Or you defend her for that?
Not love but pure selfishness on her part. She puts herself first.
@@theshapeexists coming to this video and patting yourself on the back for NOT being a delusional meth-addict is also NOT an accomplishment on your part... which is my point.. all the women (or men) here who are giving themselves props by attacking this (obviously sick) person are themselves (I am guessing) not the cream of humanity (yourself included.)
This was shocking and to know that her children may hear refer to the ones she gave birth and gave life to as parasites and soulless is so sad. But I'm so glad she gave them up and I seriously hope and pray that they all are living the best life without her!
I’m sure they have no idea and will never have any idea who their real mum is. Imagine they grow up and ask, you don’t want to show them the photo of her, they probably think she’s dead
Yeah the real horror would be if those kids were still in her life.
They will grow to be great - in spite of this actual human parasite that is their bio mom 🦠
Sadly many folks that are pro abortion have this same exact feeling.
@@69Fabulosityand lots of (MOST) people who are pro-abortion don’t remotely think this way…
The "having children so Ican take their organs to be immortal" was dark
Well she does have at least 3 upside down crosses, 666, Satan representing the Devil himself soo
Seriously! That was hard to listen to 🤯
I'm struggling through it atm...I'm not sure I wanted to hear this level of selfishness.
She said parasites, not children. 🤷🏼♀️
It's called DEMON possession. She has been taken over
This is the best argument for abortion I’ve ever seen. Anytime there’s a debate between pro-life and pro-choice people, they should just bring Ashleigh onto the stage and let her talk.
Birth control should be free
Not an excuse to murder your baby
I might of missed it but did she state she wasn't allowed to have an abortion? I believe she chose to have those children. i would assume her point of view about her children is a symptom of her current meth induced paranoia. Not sure how this is a prochoice argument or are you suggesting we decide who is unfit for motherhood and force abortions???
My comment about birth control keeps getting deleted, wonder why … it should be free tho…
My comment got deleted too.
No drug will rape your soul faster than crystal meth.
Well said
If one smokes a bag when will it wear off? I mean the drug
@karabograce6292 That totally depends on the strength of your stuff. Usually, it will last all day but if it's weak, half of the day. I never ever did meth but I know tons of people in my area that have.
Meth is truly a demonic drug
@@karabograce6292 Round here for smoking we have 4 standard tiers of duration or "The Legs " . 6 mins . 6 hours . 6 days .. Or 6 feet deep . So odds are 1 in 4 to get a free ride to the morgue . Shrug * Choose wisely friend .
I thought opioids were the worst
when they were talking about love, you could hear the curiosity in her voice when she was asking Mark about love. You can tell in that moment that she has never felt what love is. When Ashliegh asks, "would you say it's more pain than pleasure?", you could really tell she has never felt what love is. Mark is right. If you have to ask questions about love, you've never felt it. My heart hurts for her.
But she says she "loves" Satan
She never felt love for her four children but she didn’t kill them so she gets some credit
She's so lost. She 'loves satan' . That's for shock value. She doesn't have a sense of self worth and to get attention she says she loves saten. It's so sad. I hope her kids never try to find her.
@@jennifers.3818point made, she's never felt love.
how can you know what love is or how to love when no one in your life has shown you.
Thank God she's not raising her "parasites". Wow. I don't think I have ever heard someone describe pregnancy in such a bizarre way. What a lost human being. 🥺
Fortunately she's not raising any of those children...
99.9%of People Are Stupid and She is Definitely One of Them As Well as Satan
Satan has her so tightly in his grasp. What she's saying doesn't even make sense. She's so blindly deceived. Awful.
@@stacylembro what…stop Stacy
Nasty comment from it ain't it. Satans helper. Eggghh
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to meth. Spent my whole life fighting meth addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Meth addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Belgium. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES sure of Dr.benfungi. Did straight shrooms in few days. Left me like a blank slate after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. Shit saved my life, all thanks to Dr.benfungi
Congrats! I'm really happy for you that your wife decided to help you. I always admire those who beat their addiction. Knowing it's possible to fix your life knowing there's people out there that have done what I thought was impossible gives me hope I will make it through as well. Those who share their experiences don't know how much it helps when you're about to give up, it gives you the strength knowing somone who actully know what it's like to go through this tell you it's possible, it's not the same somone telling you you can do it when they have no idea what it's like, but hearing somone who knows what it's like that helps a lot since you understand it firsthand and made it out gives so much hope. so thanks for sharing.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction?
Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's
something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
This video takes the channel name “Soft White Underbelly” to a whole new level.
Naw 😂
Errbody should just stop commenting now. This takes a cup 😂
Literal translation 😊
😂💩😂.... I was waiting for the stand up 360 😮
😂😂😂
Actually there’s one more where the girl was put into a dog crate for days and the dog… she I think also has a cross tat on her forehead. That one actually was the worst thing I’ve ever heard. You should watch that one. Clearly is always a distinction on horrible experiences and pure evil.
Hearing her talk about her children, this is the type of person who would sell her children for drugs or sacrifice them to be tortured. Shocking 😮
these are the type you read about that actually sacrifice their children to satan. remember that there are bad seeds born that way. it is in the dna. history is full of them.
Often it happens
no bc if she was that type of person then that would have happened instead of her putting them up for adoption, wouldn’t it?
@@Vivi-cq5kx maybe she was more sane at the time she got the kids. Also they could've taken those babies straight away at hospital, because of her drug use and her being unfit for a mom
I have never REALLY been shocked by these interviews. UNTIL THIS ONE.
I mean, yeah... 😂
As an addict, occultist and a whore i cringed massively at her🤢
I know exactly what you mean.
same
If people only knew that Jesus (Buddha, Allah) are all satan.
People don’t know Santa = Satan… they call him Old Saint Nick.. now go google “Old Nick” and tell me what it says.
People need to realize that earth is hell.. all of your favorite celebrities throw up 666 .. the ppl who control television are called the National Academy of Television Arts & Sciences … that acronym is NATAS .. which is SATAN backwards. … this is why they get the worldly riches (root of all evil).
Even NASA is Satan scrambled up.. that’s why they say “T minus”.. the T is missing and their logo has the serpent tongue. NASA literally lies about everything they say or do… don’t laugh at flat earthers.. they have the truth.. while you believe in a globe spinning and flying thru space which is total chaos.. you can literally step outside and see you’re not on a globe flying 67,000 mph.. you wouldn’t see the same stars every night if that were the case. They tell us we’re on a globe because there is no more to explore on a globe.. meanwhile they are out finding and hoarding lands and natural resources to themselves.
I’ve never heard so much word salad in my entire life… and I work in psych
Have you ever heard Meghan markle speak? 😂
Love that phrase 'word salad '
Word salad is a dumb phrase, especially for a psych worker.
@@BonnieHansen-w6l it’s an actual phrase that is used in psych. Look it up
Delusional yes. There was literally almost no word salad. Are you sure you know what that means?
Comparing her children to parasites & that their bodies should be sold as body parts & that children don't have a soul...she lost me. Then saying she knows what love is...she is capable of love more than anyone else. Getting pregnant 4 times & blaming the fetus for growing inside of her for 9 months. I call BS. 😳🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🙄 Brutal interview.
Her mind and morality are broken probably a combination of ignorance, trauma and drugs
Shes got a demonic creacher in her its fully taken over soul shes far gone that's not even her talking that's a demon people wont believe what I'm saying but it's clear has day light her body is there but shes not so very sad the devil can onley attracts to the weak and that's what she was 😢💔😱
Agreed
Hard to watch and listen!
She is a lost soul, by every definition of the term.
This is the rawest and realest channel on TH-cam no stupid dancing no fake people bragging and vlogs just legit gritty powerful interviews
Here here
Mark is unknowingly hilarious. “I don’t know if Im gonna get to the bottom of what love is in a quick conversation with a girl with an upside down cross on her forehead”😂
Weeeee
Yea I replayed that one 😂
@@newkingdom6750 Your telling me you watched it twice 'wow fare enough !
I enjoy his quick but subdued wit and humor 😂
Oh, you mean his undertones of sarcasm & disgust? I'm gonna go out on a limb here & surmise that he's not a fan. I can't imagine why. She seems like a dream.
She is extremly disturbed. Wow.
Drug psychosis
I love how calm Mark is no matter whats being said. I sympathized until she started talking about her children. She's calling them parasites like they chose to be. Like she didn't consciously participate in the act of conception without protection and go through an entire gestation to give birth. She's talking about children like they are a stolen vehicle at a chop shop. I hope she got a tubal ligation. When he hit her with the "is this what you would tell your 4 kids... that you have a lot of love to give?" 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Dictionary definition of a parasite is actually also a child
@@GrovieJoe That is 100% percent false.
Some people aren’t meant to be mothers. Least she’s honest and gave them away.
@@FallenAngel9979 I agree
@@slimdiggity9188it literally is though.
As soon as he asked her if she had children, I was like “please don’t say yes.”
Unfortunately… They all seem to say yes.
they always do, birth control takes responsibility and her priority is drugs
Seriously. I’m the most normal, boring bitch ever and have no kids. Yet the dumbest people have 3-6.
I’ve never disliked a person less than this person.
Life is weird. Some of his guests with spouses and children. How? Others can't have that no matter how they try or pray.
Drug abuse and trauma has led to some serious sociopathy in this one.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporesss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporesss
The craziest parts was not what she was saying but the fact that she is so open and nonchalant about it . That's what shows the psychosis.
Satanism is basically just worshipping nature. That's not the way she talks about it at all
She makes no sense and the words I do understand makes her very unlikeable to me.
And this is exactly why we need state run mental health hospitals, but a certain group decided to take them away. We just leave the mentally ill to their own devices living on the street doing drugs, shitting on sidewalks, harming the public, but society thinks they’re doing a good thing by ignoring these people and letting them live the way they want to live. society sucks for this. They think they’re having a heart and doing the right thing when instead they’re harming the rest of society the sane people are the sick ones and are the assholes
Dang! Thank God she gave her kids up.
Maybe she shouldnt have been having them in the first place?
Yes, we certainly don't need to clone her.
I'm actually surprised she carried them to term with that mentality she has regarding children
@@moisturisedgnome11811000%
Her innocent children aren't parasites. She is the parasite on society.
This is by far my favorite TH-cam channel. I used to stick needles in my arm and grind for a shot every day of my life. 8 years sober with a house and kids and husband, this stuff is beyond interesting to me. Thank you for sharing and being gentle with our fellow humans. It’s completely relatable but I always wish nothing more than a sober life for these people.
👍👏🖤
Congratulations on your continued sobriety. ❤
So proud of you. Hearing stories like yours gives hope for this world
Congratulations love 💕💕
Well done- so happy for you. 5 years in recovery here. I relate to you wishing sobriety for her and others here. I literally said that out loud to my partner.
It seems so unobtainable while we are in active 🥹.
Keep up the best life you can🥰
As some one who suffered trauma and abuse as a child at the hands of an addict parent I am forever grateful that for whatever reason I turned out ok. Knew to work it out for myself. Knew it wasn’t ok. Knew I had a choice to continue the generational pattern or change. I knew healing was the priority even as a teenager. I pray for my children that the genetics won’t overpower the example I have set them 🙏🏼
Damn that’s a blessing💯do you deal with any mental illness/disorder or personality disorders or did you get really lucky?
@@doneill7506 I certainly have the addict genetics. I could drink every day, for that reason I have never tried drugs and I ask those around me to be transparent about any drinking I do do and monitor me so I can be help accountable. I have a lot of rules for myself. Either never more than two follow three drinks alone, keep count when I go out, check in with my husband etc. Mental illness….i have ocd, emetophobia, anxiety, control issues. I manage everything fine these days. I spent a lot of hours in therapy and am never afraid to go back if I feel overwhelmed by anything. Life is a journey of self help and evolving. Talking to myself like I’m still a child and affording myself compassion and empathy as to why I am not ok sometimes.
The thing that really gets under my skin with this video, is you can see she has considerable comprehension of complex ideological constructs and a solid grasp on the English language far more than the average SWU interviewee. Yet her ideas about life and relationships are horrifically and disgustingly skewed to a degree that is almost terrifying. It's obvious to me that given different circumstances she could have been a scientist or an engineer or an academic but what was shown to her by life has transformed her into this stunted, damaged person. I hope she can discover a way out of her current predicament but I doubt it. I wish her well.
She can't answer simple questions though, she's all over the place. I don't see what you're talking about.
I actually see your point exactly. She has/had a beautiful mind that trauma and drugs destroyed.
Academics are self important blow hards.
Ehhh this is beyond a stretch. There’s nothing complex here in regards to ideological constructs or the English language. She has made little to no points in her answers, what so ever. I’m going to have to disagree. There are endless others that have been on this channel, that I would agree with what you’re saying. This person is the furthest from that.
She's "been in therapy" for years, since a very early age... Her Mother "really loved her", but was a "tyrant" who beat her... Her mind and value system has been totally destroyed: can't think of a worse person to have been allowed to reproduce based upon her perception of the value of children! 100% devoted to herself and her love of Satan. P.S. It would be hard to imagine the total dollar amount of her therapy and legal defense costs to Society: has to be in the multiple hundreds of thousands. Concept of being a parasite is a world she should be very familiar with!
Mark had her shook with that “why do you love Satan” question lmao I’m actually laughing out loud at her response
She went in circles around that didn’t she?
She obviously doesn't know WHY she loves Satan...
Exactly what I was thinking, she can't explain why she actually loves Satan as a spiritual figure in her life so she throws it back onto someone else to deflect the question.
Maybe she should keep her nasty legs closed if she doesn't want to have parasites. What a joke. She is nasty AF.
And even she didn’t know why lol 😂
My sense is that her view on kids is informed by her own experience as a kid. Someone made her believe she was a parasite and good for nothing that made her mom’s life worse than if she hadn’t birthed her. She has internalized that experience as a coping mechanism. Better to believe all children are parasites as a general rule than that it was her own unique experience. 😢
I thought the exact same thing. It's a very specific thing, to name a child a parasite. 🥺
My narcissistic parent kept calling me a rat or a parasite as a child and teenager. It’s so sick
I have no sympathy for her. I sympathize with her children who didn't have a choice. I had a horrible childhood full of trauma and I would NEVER treat my children like this. It's disgusting. Her past is no excuse.
I agree. What strikes me often in these interviews is that people will say they had a good childhood, then go on to describe a horrific childhood. To them, it’s normal.
Good point
“If you asked me if I’ve been in love before, I know the answer instantly is hell yes. Cuz it takes you over. It’s like a bulldozer in your life, you’ll never forget it.” -Mark
"Is that what you would tell your 4 kids? That you have so much love to give?" Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn
IMO - that was crap and ML should have left his personal judgements out of it.. it was like the lowest hanging gotcha journalist moment in the history of media. "gotcha - psychopathic meth-head' - kudos.
@@papaboomthat’s not what you say in this type of interview
@@papaboomYeah, it was a bit of a low shot but I guess we're all human. It was incredibly disturbing hearing her take on her babies.
I think he honestly was curious as to how she would answer this question.
@@lauriecalkins781I think so. She wasn't affected by the brutality of this question at all. She was unable to detect that it was a dig and she just answered it straight up. Although her answer revealed no insight, just showed her inability to detect the dig.
The notion of her kids not asking permission to grow inside her.... and then to do it not once but 4 times? they didn't ask to be conceived. It was her fault they were. But that never registered with her.
She knows how babies are conceived but it's their fault because she was just hoping she won't get pregnant ?
It's taken us a long journey to get to this point, but they've finally published the real "Soft White Underbelly" interview video.
Comment of the year, you win
Too funny!
LOOL best comment. Thank you
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Haha, good one😂
I am THANKFUL this woman isn’t caring for any children.
Using cap lock is worse than anything she’s ever done
Lots of people judging,and saying I’d do this,I wouldn’t do that…. Mostly women I see. I like her style. She honest. I like that she dresses that she don’t give a f u ck. she’s had a hard time,she doing her best. The haters on here are maybe bigger sinners than this lady. People should wind there necks in. How many of you b I tches commenting would sit down and expose themselves like she is? Not many…… outing herself on this platform….
Calling children parasitic in uterine….yikes…….they crawled up and what ?……sorry she is so very messed up…
@@terrytownsend5583yeah and she said a lot of valid things honestly.
When Mark said, “speaking of teeth what happened to yours??? “. I just about spit my coffee out.
So many things she said made my jaw drop. The harvesting of organs for personnel use of immortality, was a shocking statement. I normally don't make negative comments and live and let live, but this was Way out of my cognitive box of love and understanding. Drugs or no drugs, just wowed by this, this morning. Appreciated a few of Marks comments and or questions. And I'll leave it at that...💙🌎
Oh you have no idea how deep this well goes.
Her rantings on pregnancy for spare parts is already in practice. They are called organ farms. It's a multi billion dollar business.
This shows u that Good and Evil truly exist and folks still say theres no such thing as God 🤦🏻♀️❗️Pick wisely! Bc there is both realms.
Agree 💯👍 I felt the EXACT same... Even about not usually thinking or posting negative but I realized at one point that I got lost in this interview 😂...
Man,organ harvesting from kids is a huuuuuuge industry, look it up. Very rich people also use cloning technology, there are wicked Cloning Centers in hidden places. Look it up. And yes s@tan controls that arena for now
It makes me sad when I see people being asked if they had any abuse growing up and the person responds "What would you consider abuse" ? 😞
Certainly not being spanked with a wooden spoon or having soap put in my mouth ..
Her “abuse” doesn’t drive people to be come a meth head. She’s like “I couldn’t have a boyfriend and couldn’t wear the clothes I wanted to wear. “Whaaaaaa!” Society has created the do nothings and purposely have nots. They’re fine having nothing. Go look at Seattle. Go look at L.A. with people shitting on the streets and when you offer them a job they says”nope I’m fine.” She’s one of them. The “I don’t feeeeel like doing better.” This girl is the part of the “gimme” generation. Gimme shit for free but I won’t work for it. She’s horrible.
That’s all she could give us
She even said she blocked a lot out.
What she states is normal discipline in the 80s and 90s. Soap, belt and wooden spoon!
It's sad to hear about how much she loves her mom and how sweet she was and then a couple of sentences later relays all these awful things her mom did to her. There's such a tragic dichotomy there.
“Then a couple of sentences later, relays all these awful things her mom did to her”??? She got spanked, and wasn’t allowed to wear inappropriate clothing…. Oh, the unjustness of it all…😳🙄🤦🏽♀️🤣 This girl was making some bad choices ( doing drugs at 12), and her mom tried to intervene…🤷🏽♀️ I’m soooo thankful, that she didn’t keep any of her kids, and more thankful that they’ll hopefully never be able to meet her..🙏🏾
@@foxyroxy7189 right then calls her babies parasites when shes the actual parasite
My thoughts, too. Her mother did not want her going down a bad road. How horrific!! She should not have been able to have any more children after the first one. Disgusting that they can keep procreating after ruining one child's life.
I was spanked with wooden spoons and rods but that isn't abuse that's discipline haha. I wasn't allowed to do drugs or drink as a teen or do what I want.
Confused teens do get rebellious and go the other way when they don't get their way I can attest to that but discipline and guidance aren't bad.
@@foxyroxy7189exactly - took the words from my mouth
When the devil gets you this is how you will end up.
Yes! That’s what I was thinking
Amen.
When meth gets ahold of you.
Not exactly because there people in a suit and tie, casual wear clean cut people that are Satanist
At least her kids can watch this back one day and never regret not knowing her
My mom is mentally fucked and trust me I’ll never stop being upset that I don’t have a “normal” mom
I hope to god they don't, imagine hearing your mother say these things about you. I feel for them.
Hopefully they will never know they are related to her!
Saying the only reason to have children is to use them for body parts because they don't have a soul, is outright the most uncompassionate and unemphatic thing I have ever heard uttered in my entire life. And i genuinely do not believe anything will ever top it. Damn. I didnt know human beings existed with that kind of thought process.
That was wild. Hard to top, I agree. My guess is it’s a result of psych meds at a young age messing up her brain, drug use now, and the philosophy of a person who didn’t feel valued as a child and therefore still sees no value in people.
No, it's depraved. And we're surrounded by depravity these days.
I completely agree. I think devotion to Satan in mind and on the body can invert your perspective (see her tattoos) of what is good and true in the world. Still, she has as much dignity as any one of us. Which is why I prayed for her!
It is happening all over the world every single day. They are being used for horrific purposes. Think about all the kids that go missing.
A lot of people are that now and days..I see a lot of people joking about how useless kids are and how they "hate" kids..Thats a strong word to use
Her diatribe about children and babies is simple self reflection of how poorly she feels about herself.
I grew up in Ft. Worth. My best childhood friend and I ran into each other in Los Angeles. I was a cop and he was ruined from drugs. Sad doesn't even began to cover it.
Wow this one was tough to watch. I think this is a good example of how drugs affect you mentally. I do wish her the best.
Amen 🙌 wow wish her better 😢
What did you think about the part when she spoke about babies been aliens?
@@towerofresonance4877I think that’s the meth taking it’s toll on her brain… what do you think?
Wow..she is gone ! So glad she isn't raising those kids..they are lucky !! I just can't pity this woman.
I couldn’t even finish watching it.
Ar first was impressed with her literacy then i was repulsed but intrigued at the same time when she started to call babies parasites, then I felt sorry for her that she doesn't know love, I had to dig deep to feel compassion for her a few times during this interview, I hope she gets help and experiences love at some point
It’s just a form of cognitive dissonance to continue using meth. She copes that she won’t have children and she her drug use is apart of her religion
It’s just addiction
I hope Jesus helps her see the light, see the truth, and learn of God & get rid of all her demons
Well said - by the end of this interview she really grated on my last nerve. She tried so hard to be shocking to Mark, but he's seen it all - and she ran out of story lines here, and just became silly. Hail Satan. Really? LOL.
I just keep reminding myself that she’s on meth…meth is like a hot rod shot to psychosis…then combine that with a shit off heart…then the embracing of Satan…
Girl is obviously not in her right mind…I just keep reminding myself that…wow…the way she speaks about children…that she chose to have…
Wow…takes my breath away…
Amen@@jamieheise-connell3703
Mark, your empathy and compassion is remarkable. Truly inspirational, thank you.
Especially, those he interviews who include "like" in every sentence.
And what did that empathy and compassion solve NOTHING ITS WORTHLESS BE HONEST THESE PEOPLE NEED THE TRUTH NOT EMPATHY
@@brandondecker8407 Too many "stunning and brave" comments to these videos. As though phuqing yourself up is to be celebrated these days.
Her logic behind having children is literally so damn twisted. i can't even wrap my mind around it....
I’ve known someone who was addicted to meth, who also had these intense thoughts that make no sense, to me. I wonder what part of the brain meth affects that creates this? Thankful for your patience Mark!
Seems so...such wild imaginative thoughts. I would like to see a scan to a meth addict's brain as compared to a normal one. I listened without judgement but towards the end, I couldn't understand what she was trying to express.
@@Azulakayes I don’t think the thought gets completed outwardly, maybe in their brains it does . I’ve struggled to understand for years.
@@candy123258ur right in there brains they completed the thought but by the time it should come out they already thought of ten more thoughts so they just get lost while talking and eventually in their own minds aswell
Lack of sleep does crazy things to the brain. I gotta say that she is the fattest meth addict I've ever seen.
It affects multiple areas of the brain. Very sad
Mark, it's amazing how you can give concise, articulate, meaningful answers in this conversation.
I was repeatedly still trying to recover from what she said 30 seconds prior.
My favorite quote from Ashleigh: "Okay, so this is where it gets weird...". I thought we got to "weird" in the first 90 seconds.
She would be a great person to do a master thesis on mental illness and self medicated with drugs .
Sure. She needs an exorcist, not a psychiatrist. You're fooling yourself if you think you can figure out Satan without the help from God.
I can see it now. "Like... like... like... like..."
I’m at the beginning stages of my doctoral dissertation; you’re giving me ideas and you’re right.
She'd be a great person to write a paper on what it is like to be an absolute trash can. I've never seen his interviews that made me so sick. She says she has love in her heart? Puuuuhhhhhlllleeeaaassee. She's a POS mother, and I hope she experiences horrible bad things her whole life.
Really??!! I don't find her interesting in the slightest.
Mark, i commend you. I really don't know how you handle this kind of thing internally, but you're a stronger man than me
This was my favourite in a long time simply due to how much she got Mark to open up and share his own thoughts. Loved it.
You noticed that too?
she probably thought in her weird twisted mind that he was attracted to her. very narcisstic
“because a lot of things are disguised as love but they actually arent” SO REAL
like meth and satan.
agree. what many people call love is just attachment and fear of being alone.
@@mellio9077 I feel like ppl who like satan it could be a type of rebellion . People who were forced into Christianity etc usually face a lot of religious trauma growing up so they want to associate with something that symbolizes the opposite. Satan was Lucifer who defied gods order, instead of being a follower. That’s why he fell as an angel and became satan. And he is the only fallen angel that is always brought up , to keep people in check . And a lot of values in satanism are honestly pretty normal and understandable/good even sometimes. Just playing devils advocate here (literally lol) I am not a satanist
the best tweaker conversation ive ever heard. she has a lot on her mind. and she reminds me of one of my favorite theories and that there is a thin line between genius and insane
What about any of this was genius that she said?
She's extremely intelligent and people are disgusted because her ideas aren't mainstream. What's there to be horrified about? Her children are being cared for properly. She has a right to feel how she feels about the whole thing. People are so closed minded. It's not as if she thinks of them as parasites and kept and abuses them as she was abused.
@@jadepowell5178 I think he was referring to the latter.
Nailed it!!!
She danced on the edge of linking it together right ?! I thought the same thing , like almsot there but also whattttttt 😂
I loved it when she was asking Mark all these questions so she could get a balance of another side….i found that fascinating…..she needed me as a mom….patience and space and hugging and conversations, good and difficult.
According to her she had a good mom..she is just a messed up individual.
“What happened to your teeth?”
Goes into some crazy stories how her teeth got knocked out.
Reality: been doing crystal meth for 20 years.
Seeing her pause and trying to understand what falling love means... it was eye opening for me. It may explain why she sees her kids the way she does. Imagine being born to this world only knowing misery throughout your life, you wouldn't even know when you are breaking the law by just existing. Whats right or wrong for her maybe completely the opposite of what it means for us.
Her entire personality is just a facade to protect her psyche from becoming attached to anyone because the idea terrifies her. That or she's got ASPD
Some have a predisposition for psychological disorders Short term or long term use of street drugs can cause a break in the psyche and begin a torturous road of psychological issues that may cause, schizoaffective, schizophrenia , DD, BPD, Bipolar disorder ect or possibly a full-blown psychosis. Sometimes detoxing and getting on temporary mood stabilizers can help stabilize the person's chemicals in the brain but a lot of the time the post acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) can swing the addict right back into a relapse. So many slip right through the cracks alot of them can't climb their way back out.
This is what a strict christian upbringing gets you
i doubt she only knew misery. many of us have experienced what she went through or even more and didnt turn out this way.
A a devout Christian I must admit, she is completely right about one thing (unfortunately): that's the statement about how so many so called "Christians" are lacking in love for their neighbor. She's spot on. 😢
sometimes a person has to cut if off with another one who uses, steals, manipulates and lies - there is only so much even a 'christian' should take.
Yes!!
@GDG123ful absolutely. That is true, too.
Exactly cause why would I help someone that doesn't help themselves, "they know what they're doing" "well not everyone will go to heaven you know" "I tried telling them about the Bible (as if food clothes shelter and consistent love is not an option) - this what many Christians think
I think what she said about being on hard core psychiatric drugs at a young age was really eye opening. I've always thought that I couldn't see the appeal of doing a drug you know is so dangerous and what she said makes a ton of sense.
This is like watching a Satanic alien learning about the human condition
Ikr? "Define abuse", "define being in love"
Hahaha perfect analogy
😂😂😂Holy crap, that's a good one.
Define Satanic Alien.
Get the off this channel, you’re a disgusting human being
Moments of lucidity and intelligence that pivot to obvious mental illness and long-term drug use. What a rollercoaster ride, yet feeling compassion she seeks/gets the help she needs. And topic of children. Wow.
She is in a complete delusional, psychotic state from the meth use which I’m sure is a given to anyone haha. I’ve been there, meth was my poison. I couldn’t get enough. I deteriorated in psychosis terms fairly quickly so I completely empathise with how she’s thinking. I hope she gets clean one day, those thoughts will slowly subside and normality will return (depending on many circumstances of course).My psychosis however has always been a bit worse off since my addiction and I’ve had almost 3 years clean from meth. Benzos really messed me up even more psychosis wise, I have almost a year clean off them. It’s a wild ride this addiction stuff! The longer you’re sober the better it gets, hold in there to anyone doing it tough!
5 years here. I’m so happy for you. Well done- hi- 5 from Australia 🇦🇺
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“I don’t know if everyone was a child.” Um 😶
Any tips for family members of a (mostly) meth addict? I have become his last connection. I cannot house him, but he stopped looking after his ex found housing post-rehab. His family would pay for any and all treatment or help if he wanted it.
I relapsed after 18 years. Badly. For 5 more years of drugs and alcohol. Ive been in my rehab now for 2 years. Once an addict, ALWAYS an addict. Be careful guys!
Love your work Mark, have watched tons of interviews, but this one made my head hurt. Geeeeeze.
Purely and completely disturbing.. mental illness exasperated by drug abuse truly defines how dangerous this woman is to herself and society
Exactly
I actually respect her honesty. Most people can’t be this honest with themselves.
Yeah, I'm surprised how judgmental commenters are being.
@@KD-rs6xx She created her image of the disgusting person she is with her words in this interview and that's how she is perceived by the commenters. Oh wow, consequences.
@@KD-rs6xxwants to harvest her kids’ organs -“so judgmental”. Get over yourself, please. You are as delusional as she is
You respect her? For being honest? Thats like saying you respect a murderer for them saying that they brutally murdered multiple people out of cold blood.
@@KD-rs6xxYou are extremely lost jesus christ
You can tell mark was deeply pissed about her selfishness in life in general but more specifically speaking about her children as organ donors. I couldn't imagine keeping a straight face talking to these deeply selfish human beings.
Really?
I totally agree. I don’t think that Mark really hates anyone but he sounded so angry speaking to her. I’ve never seen him react to an interviewee like that. This interview was different all the way around. Wow
not the right time to be catching feelings about what a tweaker is saying. they are in psychosis and dont even know what theyre saying half the time. it may make a little sense coming out but its not an actual coherent thought. irritational to be mad about it.
If I was Mark I'd have NIGHTMARES after talking to this creature!@@24cyndy24
very selfish, self righteous, narcisstic.
When she said I speak from a place of ignorance IT SHOWS!
She was like every child and wanted the love so well-deserved from mother & father but it doesn't sound like either came through for her. Like they say, when a hole is created in our lives, something else will come along and fill it. She's filled hers with the Prince of Trickery.
Huh???
She is the epitome of a problem child.
She sounds like she could have had a damn near perfect childhood, and she brought all of her problems on herself. She was literally having a hard time thinking of any abuse. What in the living hell are you talking about?
Spanked on the butt with a spoon??? Ohhhhhh nooooooo!!
Couldn’t wear what she wanted to??? Ohhhhh nooooo! Alert child services!!!
Started doing drugs when she was 12??? Parents fault too?
What a clueless enabler, or you’re part of her generation, that is clear.
Lots of people on here have terrible parents, she is not one of them. You sound ridiculous.
Sad scary alot of things 😢
and METH
Well said.
She couldn't give one reason why she "loved" 👹. It sounded like someone trying to rationalize a toxic/abusive partner. She almost sounded offended that he even asked.
When you've been abused as a child, you can feel a disconnect with your own body. I totally understand what she's saying about her pregnancies. Think "Alien," the movie. It's not uncommon, but people hating on this woman haven't walked in her shoes. Yes, absolutely she presents with meth psychosis, but also CPTSD. I say, there, but for the grace of God, go I.
Absolutely. I get that what she said regarding her own children is disturbing to hear but if I had to guess, the pregnancies were most likely the result of sexual assault. Cognitive dissonance regarding how they came into this world is probably a coping mechanism for her. It's also clear that this person has suffered so much abuse from childhood that even minus the effects of drugs, her ability to relate to other human beings (yes, including her own children) has been severely diminished.
I was SA as a child from age 10-13 years old, I was also in a very abusive marriage for 6 years! I have 5 kids and they are my world! I don't do drugs, I've never ever smacked my kids, never mind abused them! I've always worked, im a student now mind. So to say she has a good excuse to be the way she is, sorry that's rubbish!! And I have no family for support as my parents died! Ive pulled myself through it all!
@@Feerae8791because everyone is the same as you right? 🙄 nice trauma dumping for attention tho
@@Feerae8791you subjecting your children to that abusive relationship isn’t exactly the pinnacle of good or moral behavior so hop off that high horse with that
@@respectvita i didnt hqve kids at the time actually, so no I didnt subject my kids to anything!!!
She talked for 40 minutes and didn’t tell us a damn thing lol
Proves you can talk a lot but not say much!
I heard her. And I listened to her in many other ways than verbally. I think she communicates loudly.
Considering all she’s been through for the last 23 years I think she said... she’s pretty well spoken and her thoughts on reproduction are really interesting... sad but poignant... but never the less, interesting. For lack of a better adjective, she’s thoughtful too. ie posing a question to the interviewer and then actively listening to his answer. She’s a Very intelligent young lady, these drugs once they grab you, are soul destroyers.
When you are blocked by dark entities you don’t feel emotions and therefore love becomes more like a tool to get what you need.
Drug addicts smell like cigarettes 🚬 cause they chain smoke until their next hit. And meth addicts ramble to where they don’t know what they are talking about 😅
I've had 3 unplanned pregnancies & being pregnant each time was very difficult for me but I love my children & would go to the end of the earth for them, calling them parasites & abominations would never cross my mind & was a bit extreme. Thank God her children were adopted ❤
I immediately heard her say how much she loved her mom - who we then hear physical and mentally abused her. 12 year olds do no just do years in treatment centers for no reason. she did right putting her kids up for adoption right away. i found her very insightful and thoughtful and hurt to the point of blocking things out that could cause her more pain. abused by a "christian" zealot- yes - pass the satan please. of course she went that direction for protection.
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Yep. Satan is the ultimate rebel. If you've been traumatized by religion he becomes a symbol of freedom. Few Satanists believe in the christian myth, and that includes stories about the morning star.
Lord JESUS IS THE BEST PROTECTION 🙏
Interesting to see the belief systems people develop from crystal meth use. The Nazi's heavily used crystal meth and hearing her explain her perceptions on how she see's kids, really gives insight on how a drug like this influences people/society's.
I knew about acid given in Vietnam, the watched a documentary on the Taliban been given drugs beginning with a c that made them feel invincible but did not know this about the Nazis. Meth is a horrible drug, ppl do the most messed up stuff on that drug, so glad we don't have it over here. It's seriously the drug that frightens me the most
Both sides heavily used methamphetamines and amphetamines in WW2. Nazis had belief structures rooted in gnostism and esoteric dogma similar to hers. Her genetics loaded the gun, her personality and upbringing fired the bullet. The drugs just keep reloading that gun so she stays trapped in the same cycle of hurting others and loves the chaos she brings
Yes sir or ma'am
Very true.
I would bet she was spiritually abused as a child too. I can tell she has blocked a lot out, plus the Meth has blocked out a lot for her too.
Mark: "What do you love about Satan?"
Her thoughts: "Well, I don't actually know anything about Satanism, but I like that my tattoos make me feel edgy, and make me think that people are scared of me because it makes me feel like I look like a badass."
Her answer: A whole bunch of whataboutism because she can't give a legitimate answer to an easy question.
She clearly loves the devil
Your trying to ignore the fact that Satanist really exists...she knows but like she said u should not ask bc u should run away not go towards. Hence freedom of choice.
@@69Fabulosity😂 nah he was right any Satanist who believes in this shit understands humans=shit and wouldn't waste their mental resources explaining such pitiful remarks as why do you love Satan 😂 ultimately even Satanists don't love Satan they just hate humanity/god which they also don't know they're just confused humans 😂 never really considered them scary maybe it's different in America where the emo kid can go buy a gun but over here even if they pulled a knife we'd kick six senses of shit out of them it they fronted their is nothing scary about depressed little boys and woman that lost their worth at such an early age they feel their entire existence has been for nothing other than their suffering even though like this woman a lot of the time it's their own fault they cause their own suffering
@@69Fabulositythat makes zero fucking sense. Most retarded comment I’ve read so far. In no way is he trying to ignore the fact that satanists exist. In fact I’m sure there are dozens of people who practice satanism that can sit down and tell you the ins and outs of their beliefs. She can’t because she probably doesn’t know the first fucking thing about it and there is literally no logical reason as to why someone would love satan.
For real lol, it's a pretty easy question to answer idk
Wow! I cannot believe this person. Absolutely wild , crazy and creepy.
The way she was just utterly perplexed at the mention of love, right after speaking of her children as parasites and considering the possibility of just using children to harvest organs..... absolutely insane. I hope and pray she can get off meth and get the help she needs to truly feel love for others and to be loved herself.
I think this chick is too far gone.....
@@marydawson7959I totally understand why you would say that. I just personally don’t think it’s ever too late for anyone and there is hope except pedophiles and rapists.
I’m shocked, saddened & hope she gets help
When I was in active addiction I was so spiritual and felt I was more in tune with myself and the world so I get it. Drugs really did give me that outlet that being sober never gave me. Thankfully I discovered this after getting sober for good bc otherwise that mindset would've told me drugs were necessary like this woman. It's a hard hole to climb out of
how did you get clean?
How did u get clean ?
I agree 100%
@@lulkara22 I just gave up. Everything always seemed to fall apart quicker every time I relapsed and was able to see that my drug use was clearly the cause. It got to the point that the drugs weren’t even helping my anxiety and that was the whole reason I started using in the first place. I had people doubting me in the detox center too and I wanted to prove them wrong so badly and so I did!
@@Morbbid3 good for you. ♥️
She’s a keeper!! The type to bring home on the holidays & meet mom.
Ya right
She is great interviewee! Amazing mind, original thinker. She considers and discusses. I wish her the best.
She’s mentally ill in the throes of psychosis. And drugs. She’s not well in any capacity.
When she said that her crystal meth use is used for religious purposes and is her direct connection to her Satan I was like…. Yep. Hit the nail on the head there. Welcome to chaos.
Also according to her the process of making meth is black magic sorcery and not chemical synthesis😂
@@rickshawredemptionShe's just playing a RPG, she's doing her lil quests.
Finding artifacts to trade with a druid , in exchange for some elixirs.
Yeah its kind of like Christians using wine as a direct link to Jesus. The only difference is that alcohol has killed far more people then meth has.
I thought the same thing!
Meth is definitely the definition of chaos! I've was an addict and cook for 8 years I know first hand. Been clean for 17 years now thank the good Lord above
I am roughly the same age as this woman. In our very early teens, my childhood best friend was sent away to have electroshock therapy and be put on various medications. She was the daughter of two "functioning" alcoholics; both of whom held respectable careers. Before she was sent away, my best friend was a hilarious, creative, and intelligent girl who sometimes got into trouble, but nothing out of the ordinary. When she returned, she was completely different. I rarely talk to her now, but we have communicated via Facebook here and there. She goes on and on about conspiracies and she often talks about the abuse she experienced growing up. Now, I'm not writing this saying I sympathize with this interviewee. I am a mother and her comments about children were really difficult to hear. I just find it interesting the similarities in her childhood experience and her current frame of mind that seem to parallel that of my childhood friend.
Yeah she didn't ask to get pregnant (even tho she surely did something that caused that 😏), but the children surely didnt ask to be born either, they did not "invite" themselves in her body without asking and are surely not "parasites"... I understand drugs can make you think in a fucked up way but that is just too much...
wonder whether they were born addicted
I'm pretty sure she is mentally deranged and sees children as clones
I hope she's using Birth Control.
Well if any of them were a product of rape, then I can kinda understand her perspective. But it’s still fucked up
What is something living inside you, taking from you, that's not able to live outside you? That's a parasite. People may not like it, but early stages of a fetus is exactly like a parasite, no matter what you do to get it. Don't have unprotected sex, well, don't go swimming in certain waters. I know babies have souls, and I don't think kids are clones or should be used as organ farms. But technically speaking, before they can survive outside your body, they are parasites, technically.
I was such a nihilist before I started watching these but ngl these made me love humanity again I'm not even lying. Be honest and love each other people we are all in this together
Agreed…I am embracing spirituality again after watching all these videos.
I read what other ppl said about her speech about kids while I watched the vid and still somehow was left speechless when I got to the part where she said it. Like part of me just felt cold hearing her try to explain how how children are parasites. God help her.
The way she got stumped when asked “What do you love about Sa*an?” Was craaaazy.
She just loves attention...
She’s his daughter
That made me laugh. Because it's an oxymoron! 😂😂 she was almost offended to even be asked.
All she had to say is he’s a liberator snd light bearer I was so disappointed
@@noonefromnowhere7945 *the Ultimate Liar/joker
People are getting sidetracked with her religious beliefs, yes she has trauma, but overall I don't find her to be incoherently mentally ill. She sounds lucid, maybe a little drug addled but remarkably intelligent. It takes compassion to be able to dismiss your notions of love, childbearing, etc and understand that her life experiences have shaped her beliefs...i see a lot of hypocritical "Christians/ zealots " on here judging someone who has lived a completely different life than your own. I don't agree with her, but I empathize with whatever she has experienced that has brought her to this place..
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My son took his own life February29 2023. He was bipolar, his medication never really worked for him. Because of his medication, making him feel like the walking dead. He began to smoke pot. Unfortunately, pot would cause him to become extremely psychotic. He tried to balance his medication while smoking a small amount of weed. He ended up at one point living on skid row.
I really wish that someone would do a video on mental illness and the use of marijuana. My son is not the only one that this has happened to.
She's wrong
In Christianity, the upsidedown cross is associated with the martyrdom of Peter the Apostle. The symbol originates from the Catholic tradition that when sentenced to death, Peter requested that his cross be upside down, as he felt unworthy of being crucified in the same manner as Jesus. Also, as someone who reads runes, they DO NOT have anything to do with Satan.
Thank you💫🧙♀️💫
and also, the cross wasn’t even originally Christian. it was pagan.
Couldn’t get past her horrible description of a baby being a parasite.
No words. Not even from a psychological perspective. Just throw the whole DSM 5 in there.
That's how a lot of white women think and that's why they're huge proponents of abortion
@@JimmyBurkeTheGentShe got every disorder known to man 😂
@jmventertainment7 On her forehead, on her stomach and around her neck. She wants to make sure we see it, and she doesn't regard it as a "mistake". She's a walking bill board for satan.
I was glad she said it to be honest.
It meant that she'd said it before to other people or therapists and might have had a hand in her losing her kids.
It would be worse that we DIDN'T hear it but she believed and could enact those beliefs without anyone knowing.
I'd much prefer someone to say this so society can help them, they don't harm others, and individuals really truly know who they are dealing with.
Mark, I so love your channel! It's less about feeling appreciative of my own childhood (which was shaded with some neglect and molestation) but about understanding that the most important thing a person can do is to protect and love a child. To protect another human for the first 10 years of life (at a minimum) should be a given right to all people. I have never felt this more than watching this interview. She was not protected. Now, she feels like the children she's given birth to are parasites. That was shocking to hear! I have learned so much about my life and understanding choices and decisions I have made from these interviews. I am so grateful for the variety of people you interview. Thank you for touching so many lives, both the people you interview and the viewers, in such a positive way!
Na, this is a classic case of a sub-insect creature that Mother Nature would rather not see contaminate the human genome.
Most of these people are incredibly intelligent. I'm grateful for these videos they show to not judge a person by sight but by what is inside, its so interesting to see their theories and stories.
I think us meth users can relate to her. You have such crazy thoughts, I’m glad I haven’t touched that stuff in 7 years.
I couldn’t help but laugh when she said “not a literal kick in the teeth” and mark said speaking of teeth tell me what happened to your teeth 😂
They gone bro 🤷♂️
He has no qualms! 😅
@@firstlast8258methamphetamine is terrible on your teeth - “meth mouth” (although in fairness all addiction causes dental issues)
that response made me bust out laughing 🤣
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My god, the first couple minutes were coherent and then she just dove off the mental cliff 😂
“Nobody asked me if a parasite could just post up in my body”…
Unprotected sex resulting in not 1 BUT 4 “parasites”… Sounds like you knew full well what happens when you have unprotected sex BUT continued to do it anyway.
I’m so happy those kids are far away from her.