I'm crying hearing this :( I remember all the memories that used to be, I just want to go back to the past because my current days are very difficult ❤️
feels like leaving a place that's full of memories that you know you'll never come back to or maybe even its kinda that feeling that everyone has moved on and not feeling welcome in the place you felt you owned
We all grow up. Eventually. And when we do, all we can do is remember the good times. Sometimes the bad. But yet, they are the times you hold dearly, no matter how much they hurt. So go and make new memories, memories you'll look back on, good or bad. Just make new ones. -Written by me (Max)
crying at the fact of how far I’ve come these past few years, it feels unreal to finally be with someone who truly makes me feel loved and gives me a reason to keep going everyday. :’)
i deadass teared up so hard listening to this thinking about my past mistakes and regrets, all of a sudden this past month and a half I kept thinking about the past and how bad i messed up from the moment I woke up it just hit me and kept me bed ridden, I ran away from all my problems instead of facing it, and all those bottled up emotions from these past 6 years just came out, all we can do is learn from the past and not dwell on it, although it hurts so very much it’s necessary for growth, the past is the past , you’ve matured and in return realized how easily you could of changed it and prevented stuff from happening or made stuff happen but just thinking of it and you’ll just be in a never ending cycle realize you can’t change the past it’s long gone although what you can do though is learn from it! instead of running from it face it acknowledged what and why happened and move on, we’re humans no one is perfect especially someone who transitions from childhood to there early teenage years, not to go into detail but it started in late of 2016-2017 i messed up a wholeeee lot i was just in my late 13’s turning 14 and just like a lot of other people I was very anxious I didn’t even know what was going on with me i didn’t tell anyone what was going on with me I was scared to talk about my feelings especially as a boy you’re told thats not what men do! and to man up maybe if some older wiser person softened up and would of 1 on 1 spoke with me I would of understood and opened up but, instead they kept on instilling fear so jt made it worse, all these increase of new hormones from puberty you don’t even know how to react it’s like a new version of yourself you’ll mess up you’ll have a shit load of anxiety you’ll get waves of depression you’ll be insecure it’s good to see mental health is finally more open and talked about, and what I’ve noticed from this recent slump that I’ve been is everyone goes through something no matter how perfect there life may seem like especially on social media (fake reality) everyone has emotions we’re humans!! just some hide it better then others, so please just treat everyone with love and spread positivity just be a person better! a little compliment can make someone’s day better and in return they can give out the same energy to other people like a blissful chain reaction, i hope everyone gets thru with what’s going on in there life i love you, life isn’t linear you win some and you will lose alot, please talk to someone that you trust realize you’re not alone nor are you the black sheep for having problems, i love you 🫶🏼❤️
i know im a stranger and i know you dont know me but!! i understand u and you seem to have grown as a person from what youre describing so i am proud of you, i hope things in ur life are generally going a little bit better or u are at the very least able to talk through everything better. the past is the past love u too 🫶
This audio feels like when you’re coming back to your hometown and it suddenly hits you that all the memories you made as a child are long gone and things will never go back to the way it was
This song reminds me of my grandma who recently passed away. November 17th 7:55 P.M when I got the news... I went to Mexico for her funeral and oh man. She didn't look like herself. This song reminds me of when she was still around. I miss her so much she was going to turn 71. Que En Paz Descanse (May she rest in peace) Silvia Galarza November 29th, 1951- November 17th 2022
this song makes me feel like I’m about to die and see all good memories of my life flashing before my eyes. I know I did it and made every dream I dreamed off come true, I’m finally free.
Bicycle bells and train beeps. They all bring us back to things we used to love in our childhood. In fact, you will live other happy moments and make beautiful and great memories at all ages, but childhood will remain of a special nature, especially from 2000 to 2013, those days when we used to enjoy the simplest things. ❤
This is really well put together from Phoebe, it really does sound like pure sorrow and grief. The small sound effects in the background, to remind you of your childhood. It's a very raw emotion to express and I've cried a lot to it. Very good stuff :')
screaming and crying and throwing up and sobbing and sliding down the wall head in my heads and punching the floor and yelling profanities and rolling around on the ground and gasping for breath its so beautiful
This feels like a goodbye. Three years passed by so fast, I've changed a tremendous amount. I've been left or I did the leaving- the memory of the people that made me into who I am today will never leave. I just wish I could experience the love of all my lost friends for the first time again. The train whistles makes me think of finally leaving my past behind, no longer letting the ignorant, painfully unserious me define my future. The young me that took everything for granted. It took so long for me to come to terms that nothing will last forever. All those people I've known are gone, living their own lives. However, I am grateful for the people I watched grow up, and decide to stick with me, I thank them so much. I bid farewell to my old friends, my old ways, and everything that is meant to stay frozen in the past. Maybe there'll be a time I can be proven wrong, and things can rewind, becoming new again.
I just can’t forget how easily replaced I’ve always been. Even my childhood’s friends left me years ago, what was actually the worst breakup of my life. I can’t deal with with the fact that they will have the life that we had always talked about, a life that I don’t want anymore though, but it’s still painful. I can’t deal with the knowledge that childhood’s is over.
to me this song sounds happy and relieved, like you just got through a terrible time in your life, and as the sun rises and everything is still you are outside looking at the clear sky and you know that it's over and the next chapter is beginning
I know I’m late, but I really want this to be played at my funeral. No matter how old the song is. I want it played, bring some memories to the loved ones that once heard me listening to it.
the end of this gives such strong coming of age movie ending vibes omg "so there we are, the end of high school. all the good, the bad, and the sometimes crazy is over. we've become adults, thrust into the unknown world that is our future. but that's okay, because i've had the greatest time of my life. in these last four years, i've made so many memories and finally figured out who i am. i'll miss this place but i know that my life will be okay, because i've got everything i need, my friends, my family, and myself. so this is really it, thank you for everything and i cant wait for what's to come. "
March 1980 Dear Dean, I was thinking about shells today. I saw a woman with a shirt that had them, and I remembered the beach, and you, and this box. I went back and read through all the letters, and for the first time, in a long time, I wasn’t sad about it - not in the same way. I’ve been so tired lately. I’m so tired of being angry, and sad, because that wasn’t the point. I’m sad because I’ll never get to tell you certain things again. I’m sad about that, but I’m not sad like I was when you left. I think I held onto that too long. I confused it with loving you, and those aren’t the same. Being sad about the things I miss isn’t loving you. It never was. Loving you was so much bigger than that. I don’t think I can stop loving you. I think it’s a part of me now, and it’s never leaving. It makes me who I am, and I used to think this crippled me, but I don’t think it does anymore. Loving you has given you back to me. I’ve missed you. The old you. You never really came home, and I understand that now, and I know it wasn’t your fault or mine or anyone’s. It was just circumstances we couldn’t avoid, but I’ve realized that just because we ended the way we did doesn’t define what we were before. To have those memories back is such a precious thing. To have that part of you back with me - it’s unimaginable. I was thinking about shells, and I was thinking about that day at the beach and I can remember sitting on the blanket looking at the water, and you asked me what I was thinking. I was thinking about how afraid I was that I was never going to love you as much as I did then. That the moment was going to get washed out, that I would never be able to experience what it was like to know that I loved you as much as I did again… I’m sorry that things didn’t work out the way we wanted them to. I’m sorry - I’m sorry we weren’t as equipped to deal with the hand we got. The fact that we didn’t get to do the little plans hurts more than the big ones, sometimes. It wouldn’t have mattered about a house or the island. Sometimes I stop myself at work and realize I’m never going to sit in Van’s noodle house with you, and I don’t know exactly - I’m so terrible at letters, Dean. I’m glad you never had to read them when you were in Vietnam, they were all so terrible and boring and wordy. I think - I think that, the point of it all, is that the moment at the beach? I had never really understood who I was until then. That’s who I am. That person, and there, right there, next to me, that was you. That’s who you are. It’s so wonderful to know that I didn’t lose you. That we were always right where we were supposed to be the whole time. This whole time I thought I’d lost you, and there you were… Memories are good that way. I can remember us, and I can keep living. I can keep going and always know right where to find you when I miss you. I miss you all the time. I want you to realize this someday. All of that about us. You don’t - you don’t have to be guilty, and I know you are, and I understand why everything happened the way it did. It just happened. We just - it just happened, Dean, and it’s alright. I’m alright. I’ll be okay. Once, you told me it didn’t seem right to say goodbye. Not really. I thought I’d have to - I thought I’d have to let go of everything I loved about you, but I don’t, and you were right, and wouldn’t you be pleased with yourself to know. The truth of it has never been clearer to me, my darling. And you are, always, my darling. Yours, Cas ... See you then.
@@miyakurin twist and shout by gabriel and standbyme on ao3. dont read it if you value your own sanity and dont want your heart ripped out and stamped on and set on fire repeatedly
This song is a reminder for me, the whole time i've flashback to the memories me and my batchmates did. All the crazy stuff, happy times and sad. I cry for my classmates, my friends and especially him. i can't handle change, we're almost graduating i can't do this anymore.
I know I'm very late, but I need to say this. I grew up in New York early in the years 2012- 2014 (Ish) when I wasn't afraid of New York. But now It's the people who make New York such a 'scary' place, you're now afraid of walking down alleyways, to walk alone at night, just walking past a group of people in a sketchy part of the city. This song reminds me of those times when I used to be able to run around in my front yard and get the daily ice cream truck without a care in the world of what could happen, damn... Where did the time go...? (I've cried reading all of these comments)
i had known this guy for 2years and over the course of the 2yrs i had developed strong feelings and everyone was fully aware including him. We began something and it was serious, the one person who understood how i felt about him was my best friend of 9yrs, that’s until she interfered. Fully aware of what they had done i kept quiet, but EVERYONE knew. A year later we’ve all moved on but as of now she states how she doesn’t regret her actions at all and if anything our friendship was worth the boy. This song was the song i relied to replay memories over and over till i finally got over it and over her stupidity
i know im gonna ball my eyes out at my graduation next year, especially thinking of all the wonderful highschool memories while listening to this song 😭😭
I commented 10 months ago with what was essentially a suicide note. Tonight I've found my way back here and I am still alive. Loudly, gloriously, vibrantly alive. I love who I once was so much. I love who I am now. I'm laying in bed listening and my fan is blowing like a night breeze and all I can think of is that I made it. Came so close to the end and I still made it. What a feeling.
This is what wanting to run away from everything and run back to everything you miss from the past all at once but you know it’s impossible to do either feels like.
I remember listening to this when i was laying on the bed with my ex and cuddling but now things are different listening to this feels so different it feels like the memories just start to fade away and it feels like im letting everything about her just go and shes fading away from my memories
Im almost done with my cancer treatment and this song makes me think of how ive gotten through my lows and the unknowing if im going to die young. But im still here :) so lets live
This song makes my heart break. I miss when my dad used to come home and I and my sisters would ride our bikes down the hill waving at him and laughing. I miss when my friends were younger and kinder and everyone got along now we are all strangers. I miss waking up early to read Harry Potter books on my bed so I could be the best reader in my class. I miss Saturday mornings when my dad would cook fried eggs and toast and we would bring breakfast in bed to my mom. I miss when my sister and I would play dolls. I miss begin the cool big sister when my sisters were toddlers. I miss ballet classes and afterwards we would get hot chocolate. I miss when my dad was home more. I miss my childhood teddies and house. But it is time to move on and look towards the future . I’m aiming to get into college soon and it breaks my heart knowing I’m not a little girl anymore. But good things are ahead and those are just memories now. I’m glad I had a nice childhood. Thank you mom and dad for an amazing childhood . I love you forever
I think when we are born we are all given a light in us. Sadly Im slowly lossing it and one day it might come. When that tiny spark vanished for good... I hope your's fine...
This song is the feeling you get when you finish a book or its series and that’s it. It’s the end. And you just sit there kinda soaking it all in, realizing that these characters are just words on a page. That they gave you the best company and that after everything, after all the adventures they took you on, it’s the end. For them, for you, for the story. There is no way to unread what you’ve read and you’ll never get the feeling you got the first time you read these lines. You can reread it but it’ll never be the same. You just have to let go. Just hold onto the book and let them go as they tell you, “anyway, don’t be a stranger.” 🥲
i sadly didn't enjoy my childhood until now i turned 16 still sad and i became quiet introvert and insecure about myself because when i was a kid i was always happy and loud i usually makes my "friends" happy but i just get bullied anyways but then now i missed it i wish o have enjoyed it but just avoid them i wish i was still happy until now.
I went to the canal and the connecting reservoir with my friends, my crush and her friends through fields and farmland during the late evening when the sky was orange and I listened to this song for a few moments while we were there and felt so at peace
I'm thinking about all the pain the pain has caused me. Broke my heart, even though my job was to protect all hearts. I didn't deserve all this, the bad words that I should die, it couldn't have been better if I burned. Sometimes I wonder why the people who feel the most and are sensitive to every living thing suffer so much? It hurts when I see someone sad, yet the world makes me cry. And I wipe the world's tears. I will continue to be kind, not losing my heart and my personality. It hurts, yet, I will remain true to my pure heart. I only wish for people who love me ... And here's what I want to say to myself: you're great, be aware. What people say and judge about you is not you. Be glad you have a unique soul. I love you just the way you are. I'm your best friend. Be true to yourself. And remember, even if people on Earth don't value you, the Earth, with all its flowers, the sky, with all its clouds, appreciates you. The night with all the stars. Be aware of love, fortunately you're here. I believe in you, keep up the good work.
“If anything happens, just know I love you”said by my oldest step sister who I don’t view as step. She was losing a lot of weight all of a sudden and struggling with mental problems. I try my best to listen to her rants and provide a listening ear to whatever she wants to talk about and always show kindness to her no matter how little the gesture is. But my heart shook when she said that. I understood what she was probably going to do next. Me and her stayed in a hug for a long time and I made sure to remind her how much I loved her and how great she was later that day desperately hoping she’d change her mind and maybe find enough value in the words I said. That maybe she would just, maybe just grasp on to those kind words and hold on a little longer. She’s gone through a lot and I am so proud of her. It hurt to hear her hinting at such a thing. My life would fall apart if the tragedy occurred. However it is weeks later and she is still here❤she held onto my words and stayed. Remember, words matter.
i think this is what it will feel like to go round my old house seeing as my dads died. the memories are plastered into the walls and his absence haunts the place, and me too.
This song makes my heart ache so bad. It aches for the death of my innocence, hope, and will to live. Every now and then I cry while I listen to this song, thinking about what could’ve been if things were different. But I guess that’s life, terrible things happen and it doesn’t always go the way we want it to be. So goodbye, to my younger self, the one who had so much life and hope. I know things aren’t the way we wanted it to be, I’m still far from reaching our dreams, but I hope you’re proud of me for still being here. That I’m still fighting when I thought life would end at 16. I’m 24 now, idk where life would take me or what I’m supposed to be doing. But I hope you’re proud of me.
Makes me reminisce on all the years my dad took me racing and how I look up to my dad and how to me he’s basically iron man And I know all the things he’s been through and how difficult his life was growing up, and that instead of turning into a nasty person and giving up he kept fighting If my dad for some reason sees this, I love you dad, your my hero and my inspiration to be better, I look up to you everyday and aspire to be like you, you and mom have given me some of the best memories a kid could ask for, I love you dad And thank you God for blessing me with such a wonderful family And dad… I won’t let you down ❤️
This song gives me some good memories from when i was younger the sound of the train bells nowing im going through a bad time in life right now me having to leave my dad beind nowing that it’s nott going to be the same without him
5th november. 11:17pm I lost all of my favourite people this year. The people who were supposed to be with me forever. Kept asking myself what was my fault. I still love them more than ever. Hope they are happy xx.
Looking at the picture of me snuggled next to my grandpa on a garden bench when I was about 2/3/4. I miss him, i have that picture of him next to my bed on my notice board so he watches over me as i sleep at uni
y’all r making me cry with these comments for some reason omf
i’ll make a better looped version soon i promise ty all sm
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Dont worry about it,everything will be fine💌
are u okay, no uploadss for 6months?
@@moi-ev3pi that’s so sweet yes i’m alright ❤️
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For some reason the train whistle is always what gets me. Maybe because it reminds me of my childhood.
Same 🤝
same
I grew up with my dad who worked on the railroad and did rail photography, It hits super hard
@@Rectore-sw5kk that sounds so cool.
to me the train whistle like represents “the end” and I start literally balling everytime I hear it
This legit sounds like if sorrow had a sound. I love it.
This is exactly how I feel❤
regret*
Precisely 💯🙏🏼
“I wish there was a way to know you’re in the good old days, before you’ve actually left them”
The solution is to make your current days your best days yet ☺️
bro...
Love the office
Andy 💀😭
A line I heard from a recent film to maybe help you out:
“Don’t live your past, live your life”
Grandma is alive,
Im playing in her garden,
I pick her pretty flowers,
She cooked me a meal,
Im 7 again,
Live is so good
Make your grandmother happy please I beg you
@@FahmiXWelt she is already in Heaven. 🥲🥺💔 it's been almost 12 years without her.
@@june8011 omg rip ur grandma, this breaks my heart
@@june8011 rest in peace your grandma. i wish i could see my grandma tho. i never met her..
lying on the bed sobbing abt the fact that im growing up and everything changes
its okay. you can’t run away from time. let it pass through you like a cool breeze. you will be okay 💗
i cry about this every night im so scared
literally, i've just started uni and i cant get over the fact im not a child anymore, and i miss it so much
@@rmh6119 this made me shed a tear
@@rmh6119 ur so precious for commenting that, thank you wow 💗
I'm crying hearing this :(
I remember all the memories that used to be, I just want to go back to the past because my current days are very difficult ❤️
i love you it’ll get better okay?
@@lilyisinlove thank you
same
I hope your current days start becoming as good as your old ones :)
i love you. can i get your Instagram?
feels like leaving a place that's full of memories that you know you'll never come back to or maybe even its kinda that feeling that everyone has moved on and not feeling welcome in the place you felt you owned
We all grow up.
Eventually.
And when we do, all we can do is remember the good times.
Sometimes the bad.
But yet, they are the times you hold dearly, no matter how much they hurt.
So go and make new memories, memories you'll look back on, good or bad.
Just make new ones.
-Written by me (Max)
this is beautiful
thank you for the reminder max :(:
@@AD-pc6kz :)
Thank you Max
wow :)
Curled up in bed crying listening to this and I don’t even know why I’m crying. This outro DOES things man
crying at the fact of how far I’ve come these past few years, it feels unreal to finally be with someone who truly makes me feel loved and gives me a reason to keep going everyday. :’)
ede sana ohrl
Fr, Jesus saved my life and I cant thank him enough for that bro
this outro is literally how high school graduation feels like
Class of 2026 here. Kinda excited to see what it feels like
i deadass teared up so hard listening to this thinking about my past mistakes and regrets, all of a sudden this past month and a half I kept thinking about the past and how bad i messed up from the moment I woke up it just hit me and kept me bed ridden, I ran away from all my problems instead of facing it, and all those bottled up emotions from these past 6 years just came out, all we can do is learn from the past and not dwell on it, although it hurts so very much it’s necessary for growth, the past is the past , you’ve matured and in return realized how easily you could of changed it and prevented stuff from happening or made stuff happen but just thinking of it and you’ll just be in a never ending cycle realize you can’t change the past it’s long gone although what you can do though is learn from it! instead of running from it face it acknowledged what and why happened and move on, we’re humans no one is perfect especially someone who transitions from childhood to there early teenage years, not to go into detail but it started in late of 2016-2017 i messed up a wholeeee lot i was just in my late 13’s turning 14 and just like a lot of other people I was very anxious I didn’t even know what was going on with me i didn’t tell anyone what was going on with me I was scared to talk about my feelings especially as a boy you’re told thats not what men do! and to man up maybe if some older wiser person softened up and would of 1 on 1 spoke with me I would of understood and opened up but, instead they kept on instilling fear so jt made it worse, all these increase of new hormones from puberty you don’t even know how to react it’s like a new version of yourself you’ll mess up you’ll have a shit load of anxiety you’ll get waves of depression you’ll be insecure it’s good to see mental health is finally more open and talked about, and what I’ve noticed from this recent slump that I’ve been is everyone goes through something no matter how perfect there life may seem like especially on social media (fake reality) everyone has emotions we’re humans!! just some hide it better then others, so please just treat everyone with love and spread positivity just be a person better! a little compliment can make someone’s day better and in return they can give out the same energy to other people like a blissful chain reaction, i hope everyone gets thru with what’s going on in there life i love you, life isn’t linear you win some and you will lose alot, please talk to someone that you trust realize you’re not alone nor are you the black sheep for having problems, i love you
🫶🏼❤️
i know im a stranger and i know you dont know me but!! i understand u and you seem to have grown as a person from what youre describing so i am proud of you, i hope things in ur life are generally going a little bit better or u are at the very least able to talk through everything better. the past is the past love u too 🫶
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i love u too stay safe always take care man
This audio feels like when you’re coming back to your hometown and it suddenly hits you that all the memories you made as a child are long gone and things will never go back to the way it was
😢😢😢😢😢 I know the feeling😢
This song reminds me of my grandma who recently passed away. November 17th 7:55 P.M when I got the news... I went to Mexico for her funeral and oh man. She didn't look like herself. This song reminds me of when she was still around. I miss her so much she was going to turn 71. Que En Paz Descanse (May she rest in peace) Silvia Galarza November 29th, 1951- November 17th 2022
I am so so sorry, may she R.I.P❤️🩹🕊
@@marykatelennon6847 I just saw this but thank you
@@ashleyanahi634 my grandma died in the same month as yours, and it is still heartbreaking
why is this so saddd lord
tengo anciedad y no paro de llorar mes estoy bolviendo loco😢
But seriously... can you imagine experiencing life without music?
impossible
this song makes me feel like I’m about to die and see all good memories of my life flashing before my eyes. I know I did it and made every dream I dreamed off come true, I’m finally free.
MAKE IT 10HRS LONG PLEASE I NEED TO HAVE THE BIGGEST CRY OF MY LIFE
just loop it sis
don´t be a stranger 💔🥺
Bicycle bells and train beeps. They all bring us back to things we used to love in our childhood. In fact, you will live other happy moments and make beautiful and great memories at all ages, but childhood will remain of a special nature, especially from 2000 to 2013, those days when we used to enjoy the simplest things. ❤
I been looking for this, thank you
you made my day saying that
i made it to the other side.. i did it.
the dark clouds drift away, i spread my wings and i take the leap.
i’m proud of you, we made it :)
This is really well put together from Phoebe, it really does sound like pure sorrow and grief. The small sound effects in the background, to remind you of your childhood. It's a very raw emotion to express and I've cried a lot to it. Very good stuff :')
screaming and crying and throwing up and sobbing and sliding down the wall head in my heads and punching the floor and yelling profanities and rolling around on the ground and gasping for breath its so beautiful
this song reminds me of the anime/manga "nana" and it always makes me so nostalgic and reminds me of the firsst time i watched it
This feels like a goodbye.
Three years passed by so fast, I've changed a tremendous amount. I've been left or I did the leaving- the memory of the people that made me into who I am today will never leave. I just wish I could experience the love of all my lost friends for the first time again. The train whistles makes me think of finally leaving my past behind, no longer letting the ignorant, painfully unserious me define my future. The young me that took everything for granted.
It took so long for me to come to terms that nothing will last forever. All those people I've known are gone, living their own lives. However, I am grateful for the people I watched grow up, and decide to stick with me, I thank them so much.
I bid farewell to my old friends, my old ways, and everything that is meant to stay frozen in the past. Maybe there'll be a time I can be proven wrong, and things can rewind, becoming new again.
just cried my soul out
this song feels like a warm hot bath and a windy snowy day at the same time, i love it
The only song that got me through my uncles death. He was a dad to me. I miss that man every day
I just can’t forget how easily replaced I’ve always been. Even my childhood’s friends left me years ago, what was actually the worst breakup of my life.
I can’t deal with with the fact that they will have the life that we had always talked about, a life that I don’t want anymore though, but it’s still painful. I can’t deal with the knowledge that childhood’s is over.
this is what it feels like on your way to the airport and saying goodbye to your family
to me this song sounds happy and relieved, like you just got through a terrible time in your life, and as the sun rises and everything is still you are outside looking at the clear sky and you know that it's over and the next chapter is beginning
This song perfectly describes the fear of growing old and losing your loved ones until the point where you end up all alone 😢
I know I’m late, but I really want this to be played at my funeral. No matter how old the song is. I want it played, bring some memories to the loved ones that once heard me listening to it.
the end of this gives such strong coming of age movie ending vibes omg
"so there we are, the end of high school. all the good, the bad, and the sometimes crazy is over. we've become adults, thrust into the unknown world that is our future. but that's okay, because i've had the greatest time of my life. in these last four years, i've made so many memories and finally figured out who i am. i'll miss this place but i know that my life will be okay, because i've got everything i need, my friends, my family, and myself. so this is really it, thank you for everything and i cant wait for what's to come. "
March 1980
Dear Dean,
I was thinking about shells today. I saw a woman with a shirt that had them, and I remembered the beach, and you, and this box. I went back and read through all the letters, and for the first time, in a long time, I wasn’t sad about it - not in the same way.
I’ve been so tired lately. I’m so tired of being angry, and sad, because that wasn’t the point. I’m sad because I’ll never get to tell you certain things again. I’m sad about that, but I’m not sad like I was when you left. I think I held onto that too long. I confused it with loving you, and those aren’t the same. Being sad about the things I miss isn’t loving you. It never was. Loving you was so much bigger than that.
I don’t think I can stop loving you. I think it’s a part of me now, and it’s never leaving. It makes me who I am, and I used to think this crippled me, but I don’t think it does anymore. Loving you has given you back to me. I’ve missed you. The old you. You never really came home, and I understand that now, and I know it wasn’t your fault or mine or anyone’s. It was just circumstances we couldn’t avoid, but I’ve realized that just because we ended the way we did doesn’t define what we were before.
To have those memories back is such a precious thing. To have that part of you back with me - it’s unimaginable. I was thinking about shells, and I was thinking about that day at the beach and I can remember sitting on the blanket looking at the water, and you asked me what I was thinking.
I was thinking about how afraid I was that I was never going to love you as much as I did then. That the moment was going to get washed out, that I would never be able to experience what it was like to know that I loved you as much as I did again…
I’m sorry that things didn’t work out the way we wanted them to. I’m sorry - I’m sorry we weren’t as equipped to deal with the hand we got. The fact that we didn’t get to do the little plans hurts more than the big ones, sometimes. It wouldn’t have mattered about a house or the island. Sometimes I stop myself at work and realize I’m never going to sit in Van’s noodle house with you, and I don’t know exactly - I’m so terrible at letters, Dean. I’m glad you never had to read them when you were in Vietnam, they were all so terrible and boring and wordy.
I think -
I think that, the point of it all, is that the moment at the beach? I had never really understood who I was until then. That’s who I am. That person, and there, right there, next to me, that was you. That’s who you are.
It’s so wonderful to know that I didn’t lose you. That we were always right where we were supposed to be the whole time. This whole time I thought I’d lost you, and there you were…
Memories are good that way. I can remember us, and I can keep living. I can keep going and always know right where to find you when I miss you.
I miss you all the time.
I want you to realize this someday. All of that about us. You don’t - you don’t have to be guilty, and I know you are, and I understand why everything happened the way it did. It just happened. We just - it just happened, Dean, and it’s alright. I’m alright.
I’ll be okay.
Once, you told me it didn’t seem right to say goodbye. Not really.
I thought I’d have to - I thought I’d have to let go of everything I loved about you, but I don’t, and you were right, and wouldn’t you be pleased with yourself to know.
The truth of it has never been clearer to me, my darling.
And you are, always, my darling.
Yours,
Cas
...
See you then.
gosh where is this from??? it tore my heart apart
@@miyakurin twist and shout by gabriel and standbyme on ao3. dont read it if you value your own sanity and dont want your heart ripped out and stamped on and set on fire repeatedly
My father passed away when this songs hits on tiktok 8 months ago. Miss you dad, i always will
I’m so sorry for your loss, I can’t imagine losing my dad :(
If I had known that I would miss those days so much, I would have enjoyed them more
I cry tears of joy hearing these sounds as my inner child gets to experience the things he dreamed of
BE KIND GUYS!!! You wouldn't want someone crying to an audio like this because of the way you act. ❤
This song is a reminder for me, the whole time i've flashback to the memories me and my batchmates did. All the crazy stuff, happy times and sad. I cry for my classmates, my friends and especially him. i can't handle change, we're almost graduating i can't do this anymore.
I know I'm very late, but I need to say this. I grew up in New York early in the years 2012- 2014 (Ish) when I wasn't afraid of New York. But now It's the people who make New York such a 'scary' place, you're now afraid of walking down alleyways, to walk alone at night, just walking past a group of people in a sketchy part of the city. This song reminds me of those times when I used to be able to run around in my front yard and get the daily ice cream truck without a care in the world of what could happen, damn... Where did the time go...? (I've cried reading all of these comments)
i had known this guy for 2years and over the course of the 2yrs i had developed strong feelings and everyone was fully aware including him. We began something and it was serious, the one person who understood how i felt about him was my best friend of 9yrs, that’s until she interfered. Fully aware of what they had done i kept quiet, but EVERYONE knew. A year later we’ve all moved on but as of now she states how she doesn’t regret her actions at all and if anything our friendship was worth the boy. This song was the song i relied to replay memories over and over till i finally got over it and over her stupidity
POV: John Pork has died
thank you for this omfg.
this song sounds like growing up
i know im gonna ball my eyes out at my graduation next year, especially thinking of all the wonderful highschool memories while listening to this song 😭😭
reminds me when i was 10 playing with my 2 friends in a field picking up stuff we shouldn't have, playing tag.. miss yall
bawling my eyes out this is my comfort song🫂🫂
Jesus Saves. ✝️♾️
"anyway don't be a stranger"
how do we just become strangers? knowing somebody's soul, and then never speaking to them again.
somehow makes it even more sad
Gojo,Geto,Nanami and Nobara are alive... everything went well, everything is okay... That Shibuya arc was just a bad dream :)
This song is making me think how one day my dog will be gone 😭 and I don’t want that to happen ☹️😕
This song makes me see my self when I grow up
Seeing myself happy and free with my family
listening to this on the last day of school!
this is sounds like heart break during autumn ❤
I commented 10 months ago with what was essentially a suicide note. Tonight I've found my way back here and I am still alive. Loudly, gloriously, vibrantly alive. I love who I once was so much. I love who I am now. I'm laying in bed listening and my fan is blowing like a night breeze and all I can think of is that I made it. Came so close to the end and I still made it. What a feeling.
we don't know each other but I'm so so proud of you
This is what wanting to run away from everything and run back to everything you miss from the past all at once but you know it’s impossible to do either feels like.
I remember listening to this when i was laying on the bed with my ex and cuddling but now things are different listening to this feels so different it feels like the memories just start to fade away and it feels like im letting everything about her just go and shes fading away from my memories
Im almost done with my cancer treatment and this song makes me think of how ive gotten through my lows and the unknowing if im going to die young. But im still here :) so lets live
i’m so proud of you for pushing through and i’m so happy to hear you’re okay!!! wishing you the very best and sending so much love
2020- the year that got me a lot of friend but now it just a memories
thank you for helping me cry again
this music❤🤧one of the most hearting
This song makes my heart break. I miss when my dad used to come home and I and my sisters would ride our bikes down the hill waving at him and laughing. I miss when my friends were younger and kinder and everyone got along now we are all strangers. I miss waking up early to read Harry Potter books on my bed so I could be the best reader in my class. I miss Saturday mornings when my dad would cook fried eggs and toast and we would bring breakfast in bed to my mom. I miss when my sister and I would play dolls. I miss begin the cool big sister when my sisters were toddlers. I miss ballet classes and afterwards we would get hot chocolate. I miss when my dad was home more. I miss my childhood teddies and house. But it is time to move on and look towards the future . I’m aiming to get into college soon and it breaks my heart knowing I’m not a little girl anymore. But good things are ahead and those are just memories now. I’m glad I had a nice childhood. Thank you mom and dad for an amazing childhood . I love you forever
I think when we are born we are all given a light in us. Sadly Im slowly lossing it and one day it might come. When that tiny spark vanished for good...
I hope your's fine...
this song bro. I wanna go back to 5th grade and all my old best friends 😕
This song is the feeling you get when you finish a book or its series and that’s it. It’s the end. And you just sit there kinda soaking it all in, realizing that these characters are just words on a page. That they gave you the best company and that after everything, after all the adventures they took you on, it’s the end. For them, for you, for the story. There is no way to unread what you’ve read and you’ll never get the feeling you got the first time you read these lines. You can reread it but it’ll never be the same. You just have to let go. Just hold onto the book and let them go as they tell you, “anyway, don’t be a stranger.” 🥲
I miss her sm .
sobbing because he doesn't want me back, but i wont give up because it's love, you have to fight for it
This song makes me think of that one friend whom I lost in the path of life, we were so close
i sadly didn't enjoy my childhood until now i turned 16 still sad and i became quiet introvert and insecure about myself because when i was a kid i was always happy and loud i usually makes my "friends" happy but i just get bullied anyways but then now i missed it i wish o have enjoyed it but just avoid them i wish i was still happy until now.
I went to the canal and the connecting reservoir with my friends, my crush and her friends through fields and farmland during the late evening when the sky was orange and I listened to this song for a few moments while we were there and felt so at peace
I just discovered this masterpiece
Love it
I'm thinking about all the pain the pain has caused me. Broke my heart, even though my job was to protect all hearts. I didn't deserve all this, the bad words that I should die, it couldn't have been better if I burned. Sometimes I wonder why the people who feel the most and are sensitive to every living thing suffer so much? It hurts when I see someone sad, yet the world makes me cry. And I wipe the world's tears. I will continue to be kind, not losing my heart and my personality. It hurts, yet, I will remain true to my pure heart. I only wish for people who love me ...
And here's what I want to say to myself: you're great, be aware. What people say and judge about you is not you. Be glad you have a unique soul. I love you just the way you are. I'm your best friend. Be true to yourself. And remember, even if people on Earth don't value you, the Earth, with all its flowers, the sky, with all its clouds, appreciates you. The night with all the stars. Be aware of love, fortunately you're here. I believe in you, keep up the good work.
“If anything happens, just know I love you”said by my oldest step sister who I don’t view as step. She was losing a lot of weight all of a sudden and struggling with mental problems. I try my best to listen to her rants and provide a listening ear to whatever she wants to talk about and always show kindness to her no matter how little the gesture is. But my heart shook when she said that. I understood what she was probably going to do next. Me and her stayed in a hug for a long time and I made sure to remind her how much I loved her and how great she was later that day desperately hoping she’d change her mind and maybe find enough value in the words I said. That maybe she would just, maybe just grasp on to those kind words and hold on a little longer. She’s gone through a lot and I am so proud of her. It hurt to hear her hinting at such a thing. My life would fall apart if the tragedy occurred. However it is weeks later and she is still here❤she held onto my words and stayed. Remember, words matter.
i think this is what it will feel like to go round my old house seeing as my dads died. the memories are plastered into the walls and his absence haunts the place, and me too.
the instrumental was crazy.. im crying :')
This song makes my heart ache so bad.
It aches for the death of my innocence, hope, and will to live. Every now and then I cry while I listen to this song, thinking about what could’ve been if things were different. But I guess that’s life, terrible things happen and it doesn’t always go the way we want it to be. So goodbye, to my younger self, the one who had so much life and hope. I know things aren’t the way we wanted it to be, I’m still far from reaching our dreams, but I hope you’re proud of me for still being here. That I’m still fighting when I thought life would end at 16.
I’m 24 now, idk where life would take me or what I’m supposed to be doing. But I hope you’re proud of me.
Satu hal yg pasti "become desperate in love"
Makes me reminisce on all the years my dad took me racing and how I look up to my dad and how to me he’s basically iron man
And I know all the things he’s been through and how difficult his life was growing up, and that instead of turning into a nasty person and giving up he kept fighting
If my dad for some reason sees this, I love you dad, your my hero and my inspiration to be better, I look up to you everyday and aspire to be like you, you and mom have given me some of the best memories a kid could ask for, I love you dad
And thank you God for blessing me with such a wonderful family
And dad… I won’t let you down ❤️
this song makes me miss my loved one. even though the distance is so bad every night its still a pain i suffer in my chest.
This song gives me some good memories from when i was younger the sound of the train bells nowing im going through a bad time in life right now me having to leave my dad beind nowing that it’s nott going to be the same without him
I just want my best friends back
it feels so scary getting old
5th november. 11:17pm
I lost all of my favourite people this year. The people who were supposed to be with me forever. Kept asking myself what was my fault. I still love them more than ever. Hope they are happy xx.
mystical, magical and nostalgic.. 😿
fluffy, maaf bgt gabisa rawat kmu dengan benar... aku kangen fluffy
I hope someday that we will meet again 🤍
FINALLY
lagi overthingking yaa
@@randisabri6956 :)
I want this loop literally my fyp
tysm a, aku seneng kenal kamu walaupun ga lama. selalu bahagia ya.
"its just an outro, why are you crying"
the outro:
Listening to this melody reminds me that in the end everything will be fine...
Looking at the picture of me snuggled next to my grandpa on a garden bench when I was about 2/3/4. I miss him, i have that picture of him next to my bed on my notice board so he watches over me as i sleep at uni
i miss him so much
congrats class of 2024💓
Here💕 :)
Jesus Christ Saves and He truly Loves you. ✝️❤️♾️🕊️
if a friend moving away or the end of the school year sounds like
One year of school left...im not ready😭
Nothing in this world is like your childhood
i love him so much, since day one.