Yeah, look I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose I swear I'm tryna get it together Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever Forget the charts, I've been focusing' on holdin' my head up Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets 'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit Runnin' from change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want change Yeah, I don't like new things Got a lot of mood swings Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative? I don't wanna hear what you think Yeah, tossin' in my sleep Every night for like two weeks Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better Can't help it, that's just me Lies, that's me avoidin' the change Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity-driven Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute I need change Yeah, that's kinda easy to say, right? But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy But I don't ever think it so I think I'm a fake liar Change It's somethin' that I know I should do I'm a little uncomfortable, to tell you the truth But to be honest with you lately, I got nothin' to lose See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room Lookin' for change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want- I need a moment of silence I don't like change, but I'll try it I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do Why are they always defiant? See, all my emotions are liars All my emotions are violent They don't want freedom to find me Mention a name and everybody riots (Change) Yeah, that's why I'm checkin' my vitals They keep on workin', but I know Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope Positive thoughts are my rivals (Change) I'm tryna be on their side though Should I feel comfortable? I don't Last year, I felt suicidal This year, I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more I'm lookin' for change I'm lookin' for (Yeah) I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for I just want, I just want change I'm lookin' for (Yeah) I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for, yeah (Ayy, ayy) I just want, I just want change Yeah, I'm lookin' for (Lookin' for) I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for (Yeah) I just want, I just want change I'm lookin' for (Ayy) I'm searchin' for change (Ayy) I'm lookin' for, yeah I just want, I just want change
How many times have we been down this road How many lies do you think we’ve told What happen to the girl I fell for Tell her I’ve been lookin for her Was I the first to make mistakes Or was it you that made me this way With all the lies you told with a straight face it’s breaking me letting go of all the things that held their grips on me With you being my first priority You turned me into a man I don't even recognize I don’t wanna take closure if I can fix tonight Don’t wanna be over if I can make it right I don't expect you to understand It's nothing less than true romance Or am I just making a mess It's for the best, it's over now It wasn't anyone's fault it didn't work out She's a good girl, just wasn't the one We wanted different things, we had a good run But she's better off and so am I It is what it is, man, it's alright I don't tell 'em how you broke my heart I just tell 'em that we grew apart It's time to move on, forget all the wrong Now that we both can see All that we say confused in our heads Left us so empty I don’t wanna take closure if I can fix tonight Don’t wanna be over if I can make it right I wanna feel alive today Feel alive today yeah Huh Yeah things been down Shits been hard, pushed around No more I’m tired of this But no body care I tell people that I’m fine It feels like I’m trickin my mind I wanna change time today Oh lord yeah hear me pray I tell people that I’m fine It feels like I’m trickin my mind I wanna change time today Oh lord yeah hear me pray Feel alive today Yeah, your down and your upset And There’s nothing to fix it And then there’s Music, you try to listen And nobody’s gotta hurt, nobody’s gotta bullshit And thats the fucking curse You think there is no cure You feel like there’s nobody that’s here Like there’s no one with open ears And try to live near, you try to be clear And when you drive, hands off the steer Yeah you don’t feel happy, or fear You feel alone and bad, you feel grey and sad But you gotta believe things won’t stay like that Shit is not fucking bland, Even if life’s that bad Yeah sometimes it’s hard to stand Yeah sometimes it’s hard to be a man I tell people that I’m fine It feels like I’m trickin my mind I wanna change time today Oh lord yeah hear me pray I tell people that I’m fine It feels like I’m trickin my mind I wanna change time today Oh lord yeah hear me pray Feel alive today
[Verse 1] Yeah, look I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose I swear I'm tryna get it together Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever Forget the charts, I've been focusing' on holdin' my head up Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets 'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit [Chorus] Runnin' from change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want change [Verse 2] Yeah, I don't like new things Got a lot of mood swings Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative? I don't wanna hear what you think Yeah, tossin' in my sleep Every night for like two weeks Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better Can't help it, that's just me Lies, that's me avoidin' the change Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity-driven Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute I need change Yeah, that's kinda easy to say, right? But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy But I don't ever think it so I think I'm a fake liar Change It's somethin' that I know I should do I'm a little uncomfortable, to tell you the truth But to be honest with you lately, I got nothin' to lose See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room [Chorus] Lookin' for change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want- [Verse 3] I need a moment of silence I don't like change, but I'll try it I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do Why are they always defiant? See, all my emotions are liars All my emotions are violent They don't want freedom to find me Mention a name and everybody riots (Change) Yeah, that's why I'm checkin' my vitals They keep on workin', but I know Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope Positive thoughts are my rivals (Change) I'm tryna be on their side though Should I feel comfortable? I don't Last year, I felt suicidal This year, I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more [Chorus] I'm lookin' for change I'm lookin' for (Yeah) I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for I just want, I just want change I'm lookin' for (Yeah) I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for, yeah (Ayy, ayy) I just want, I just want change Yeah, I'm lookin' for (Lookin' for) I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for (Yeah) I just want, I just want change I'm lookin' for (Ayy) I'm searchin' for change (Ayy) I'm lookin' for, yeah I just want, I just want change
I really wish that I could write a simple line Tryna get drunk so i can feel the beat in time Never will I sit and cry Pour another drink so I look up to the sky Tell the passed ones i love em and continue to ask god why why did ya take em, why the good ones gotta die This is the realest me but youll find I hold it all inside Last year i nearly took my own life Struggling to breathe so i couldnt find the knife I remember thinking itll be alright Ill go to a place where nobody will find and looking back, fuck that kills me inside --- etc
Yeah Okay well imma be honest with you I dont really understand this issue Its an issue? Lets work thru it like them therapist do Here grab a chair and a tissue Yeah alright listen Some days are longer then others very apparent Other days are better It tend to be harder for me to stick to goal A little errant So yeah wait dont tell my parents Why you writing this down bruh Just for evidence you told my this so i have the facts If your gonna break this contract i’ll have the last laugh From now on i’ll lie and just say I’m on track Cause I know you have this fake support system I do feel strange Idk maybe its cus i need Change yeah I get it Sometimes you just have to let it Let it go Let it roll Let it roll? Sounds stupid Your telling me to get used to it This pain It doesnt go away Doesn’t leave my head Bullet in my brai- Sorry got carried away Okay so this depression stuff Really makes your life harder A little rough Takes all your strength How can i be tough Okay i’ve had enough Give me snuff You don’t need that stuff Im not an actor Im not going according to script Hey you need to chill Sit Tell me what to do Im not gonna listen to you Dont know who i am I just know im screwed I know i’ll lose This is to much This life is way to rough Its confusing im confused and Im getting deranged please god give me some So before i go one more thing you should know I just wanna be happy Less of the sad Maybe a lil serotonin so i dont feel so bad An ounce of the dopamine Im just coping Im not an addict Okay i admit it Imma fiend I just need sum type of relief This stress builds up I can feel the heat These demons are winning I can feel the defeat But i’ll forever ask i beg i’ll even get on my knees I just need Just look for the change Look for the blame Please someone let me go from this pain
I don’t really like new friends Tell ‘em this as hard as it get Like Gettysburgs freedom da shit I got a lot trouble sleeping I’ll light my house on fire n tell feds the demons did it
Stuck in my ways, this as hard as it gets pain in my face looks like gettys burg but freedom da shit Looking for change No time to waste, breaking the statement, That’s for the banks bitch Dripping my blood on the pavement, from beating my hands in the basement Our reception will deliver but lemme tell you how I figure I stood up and faced it so why you complaining Changes reflect on my perspective and perception
Yeah, look
I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though
Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down
Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though
I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit
Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though
I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk
I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone
But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to
Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to
World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood
You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose
I swear I'm tryna get it together
Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better
I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever
Forget the charts, I've been focusing' on holdin' my head up
Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best
And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets
'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head
Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath
Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it
Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again
I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is
But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit
Runnin' from change
I'm lookin' for change
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for change
I just want, I just want change
Yeah, I don't like new things
Got a lot of mood swings
Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative?
I don't wanna hear what you think
Yeah, tossin' in my sleep
Every night for like two weeks
Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better
Can't help it, that's just me
Lies, that's me avoidin' the change
Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away
Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain
Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place
Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different
That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity-driven
Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed
Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute
I need change
Yeah, that's kinda easy to say, right?
But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life
And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy
But I don't ever think it so I think I'm a fake liar
Change
It's somethin' that I know I should do
I'm a little uncomfortable, to tell you the truth
But to be honest with you lately, I got nothin' to lose
See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room
Lookin' for change
I'm lookin' for change
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for change
I just want, I just want-
I need a moment of silence
I don't like change, but I'll try it
I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do
Why are they always defiant?
See, all my emotions are liars
All my emotions are violent
They don't want freedom to find me
Mention a name and everybody riots (Change)
Yeah, that's why I'm checkin' my vitals
They keep on workin', but I know
Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so
I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope
Positive thoughts are my rivals (Change)
I'm tryna be on their side though
Should I feel comfortable? I don't
Last year, I felt suicidal
This year, I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more
I'm lookin' for change
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for
I just want, I just want change
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for, yeah (Ayy, ayy)
I just want, I just want change
Yeah, I'm lookin' for (Lookin' for)
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
I just want, I just want change
I'm lookin' for (Ayy)
I'm searchin' for change (Ayy)
I'm lookin' for, yeah
I just want, I just want change
thanks
Imma use this for a talent show next year
All the best buddy
Good luck bro!
How'd it go?
I too would like to know how it went
you won ?
My son used this for a concert. He said thanks
I love this instrumental! ❤
using this to perform at my city mall soon
Yo do u think u could do this for I miss the days
My favorite
How many times have we been down this road
How many lies do you think we’ve told
What happen to the girl I fell for
Tell her I’ve been lookin for her
Was I the first to make mistakes
Or was it you that made me this way
With all the lies you told with a straight face it’s breaking me
letting go of all the things that held their grips on me
With you being my first priority
You turned me into a man I don't even recognize
I don’t wanna take closure if I can fix tonight
Don’t wanna be over if I can make it right
I don't expect you to understand
It's nothing less than true romance
Or am I just making a mess
It's for the best, it's over now
It wasn't anyone's fault it didn't work out
She's a good girl, just wasn't the one
We wanted different things, we had a good run
But she's better off and so am I
It is what it is, man, it's alright
I don't tell 'em how you broke my heart
I just tell 'em that we grew apart
It's time to move on, forget all the wrong
Now that we both can see
All that we say confused in our heads
Left us so empty
I don’t wanna take closure if I can fix tonight
Don’t wanna be over if I can make it right
I wanna feel alive today
Feel alive today yeah
Huh
Yeah things been down
Shits been hard, pushed around
No more I’m tired of this
But no body care
I tell people that I’m fine
It feels like I’m trickin my mind
I wanna change time today
Oh lord yeah hear me pray
I tell people that I’m fine
It feels like I’m trickin my mind
I wanna change time today
Oh lord yeah hear me pray
Feel alive today
Yeah, your down and your upset
And There’s nothing to fix it
And then there’s Music, you try to listen
And nobody’s gotta hurt, nobody’s gotta bullshit
And thats the fucking curse
You think there is no cure
You feel like there’s nobody that’s here
Like there’s no one with open ears
And try to live near, you try to be clear
And when you drive, hands off the steer
Yeah you don’t feel happy, or fear
You feel alone and bad, you feel grey and sad
But you gotta believe things won’t stay like that
Shit is not fucking bland, Even if life’s that bad
Yeah sometimes it’s hard to stand
Yeah sometimes it’s hard to be a man
I tell people that I’m fine
It feels like I’m trickin my mind
I wanna change time today
Oh lord yeah hear me pray
I tell people that I’m fine
It feels like I’m trickin my mind
I wanna change time today
Oh lord yeah hear me pray
Feel alive today
[Verse 1]
Yeah, look
I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though
Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down
Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though
I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit
Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though
I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk
I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone
But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to
Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to
World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood
You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose
I swear I'm tryna get it together
Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better
I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever
Forget the charts, I've been focusing' on holdin' my head up
Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best
And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets
'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head
Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath
Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it
Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again
I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is
But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit
[Chorus]
Runnin' from change
I'm lookin' for change
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for change
I just want, I just want change
[Verse 2]
Yeah, I don't like new things
Got a lot of mood swings
Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative?
I don't wanna hear what you think
Yeah, tossin' in my sleep
Every night for like two weeks
Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better
Can't help it, that's just me
Lies, that's me avoidin' the change
Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away
Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain
Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place
Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different
That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity-driven
Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed
Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute
I need change
Yeah, that's kinda easy to say, right?
But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life
And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy
But I don't ever think it so I think I'm a fake liar
Change
It's somethin' that I know I should do
I'm a little uncomfortable, to tell you the truth
But to be honest with you lately, I got nothin' to lose
See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room
[Chorus]
Lookin' for change
I'm lookin' for change
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for change
I just want, I just want-
[Verse 3]
I need a moment of silence
I don't like change, but I'll try it
I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do
Why are they always defiant?
See, all my emotions are liars
All my emotions are violent
They don't want freedom to find me
Mention a name and everybody riots (Change)
Yeah, that's why I'm checkin' my vitals
They keep on workin', but I know
Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so
I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope
Positive thoughts are my rivals (Change)
I'm tryna be on their side though
Should I feel comfortable? I don't
Last year, I felt suicidal
This year, I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more
[Chorus]
I'm lookin' for change
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for
I just want, I just want change
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for, yeah (Ayy, ayy)
I just want, I just want change
Yeah, I'm lookin' for (Lookin' for)
I'm searchin' for change
I'm lookin' for (Yeah)
I just want, I just want change
I'm lookin' for (Ayy)
I'm searchin' for change (Ayy)
I'm lookin' for, yeah
I just want, I just want change
Thank you TheWidom
I really wish that I could write a simple line
Tryna get drunk so i can feel the beat in time
Never will I sit and cry
Pour another drink so I look up to the sky
Tell the passed ones i love em and continue to ask god why
why did ya take em, why the good ones gotta die
This is the realest me but youll find I hold it all inside
Last year i nearly took my own life
Struggling to breathe so i couldnt find the knife
I remember thinking itll be alright
Ill go to a place where nobody will find
and looking back, fuck that kills me inside
--- etc
Just wrote some shit to this to fight my anxiety has helped so much thank you
0:16
Yeah
Okay well imma be honest with you
I dont really understand this issue
Its an issue?
Lets work thru it like them therapist do
Here grab a chair and a tissue
Yeah alright listen
Some days are longer then others very apparent
Other days are better
It tend to be harder for me to stick to goal
A little errant
So yeah wait dont tell my parents
Why you writing this down bruh
Just for evidence you told my this so i have the facts
If your gonna break this contract i’ll have the last laugh
From now on i’ll lie and just say I’m on track
Cause I know you have this fake support system
I do feel strange
Idk maybe its cus i need
Change yeah I get it
Sometimes you just have to let it
Let it go
Let it roll
Let it roll?
Sounds stupid
Your telling me to get used to it
This pain
It doesnt go away
Doesn’t leave my head
Bullet in my brai-
Sorry got carried away
Okay so this depression stuff
Really makes your life harder
A little rough
Takes all your strength
How can i be tough
Okay i’ve had enough
Give me snuff
You don’t need that stuff
Im not an actor
Im not going according to script
Hey you need to chill
Sit
Tell me what to do
Im not gonna listen to you
Dont know who i am
I just know im screwed
I know i’ll lose
This is to much
This life is way to rough
Its confusing im confused and
Im getting deranged please god give me some
So before i go one more thing you should know
I just wanna be happy
Less of the sad
Maybe a lil serotonin so i dont feel so bad
An ounce of the dopamine
Im just coping
Im not an addict
Okay i admit it
Imma fiend
I just need sum type of relief
This stress builds up
I can feel the heat
These demons are winning
I can feel the defeat
But i’ll forever ask i beg i’ll even get on my knees
I just need
Just look for the change
Look for the blame
Please someone let me go from this pain
Funny how I’m using it for a song about industrial revolution in history class
is there a way to get the 2 times he says change in the middle of the verse in there?
On when he says lies as a transition In the middle of the second part of the song
I don’t really like new friends
Tell ‘em this as hard as it get
Like Gettysburgs freedom da shit
I got a lot trouble sleeping
I’ll light my house on fire n tell feds the demons did it
Stuck in my ways, this as hard as it gets pain in my face looks like gettys burg but freedom da shit
Looking for change
No time to waste, breaking the statement,
That’s for the banks bitch
Dripping my blood on the pavement, from beating my hands in the basement
Our reception will deliver but lemme tell you how I figure
I stood up and faced it so why you complaining
Changes reflect on my perspective and perception
0:15