I totally understand feeling broken & invisible while trying medications. Keep going. I hope your appointment goes well. I appreciate your brutal honesty. Wish I had a friend like you.
I hope that in some way you might find some comfort in my words. I want to express as best i can and to not come across as insensitive or to make light of what your family is going through. There is no way, as someone who lives with depression and severe anxiety through my life experiences, that i can even begin to understand the life you are living. I only just came across you and your daughter’s story yesterday. I just watched this last video and i felt compelled to write. You have this question about God. We all have the same questions. In reality no one really knows anything about God except through what we know from the Bible. We really just don’t know, that’s why it’s called having faith. Although to have faith in something we can’t see is very hard, you have to ask yourself this question, where would we all be without it? When you look at everything in this world, and I mean really look, you can see God in everything, it’s just easier to see the bad and not to believe. You said you would’ve made the decision to abort the pregnancy if you would’ve known that this was going to happen. We are taught that’s not God’s way, abortion is wrong no matter what, and that’s because a life has a purpose. Take a look at what you would have missed, your family looks like you have made so many wonderful memories, that otherwise may not have been made. All the time that you have spent with your little girl, when you look back, yes there will be great sadness but in turn there will be more joy. You’re not going through this experience for nothing, it just might take you a long time if ever to really understand and realize why things are the way they are because right now all you see is pain, your pain more so than her pain because that’s what i see. You are giving her everything she needs, there is nothing more greater that a parent can do for their child than what you are doing for your little girl and the time you spend with her, she seems very content. You have been given a perfect, perfect angel, literally an angel. She is a human being that will never ever do any wrong. She will live in Grace forever, and i know that doesn’t make it any easier, but ultimately what is more perfect than that? So ask yourself, what is my daughter teaching me, and maybe that is her purpose. Nothing I have written was meant to hurt, i am so sorry for the path you have been given.
This made me cry literal tears, for you and for myself (as I can completely relate) but you still occasionally made me laugh as well. Thank you for being so refreshingly honest and down to earth. On a side note, you remind me SO much of Emmy Rossum (Fiona on Shameless). Hopefully you take this as a compliment as I think she is one of the most beautiful people in the planet. You have so much on your plate. Hang in there and keep bugging your doctor. You are not irreparably broken ❤
It's only 2 medications sometimes it takes several to find the right one. Dont give up on trying. You gotta be help yourself to help others and be there for your girl!
First and for most. I’m proud of you. I don’t even know you but I’m so PROUD of you. I see you doing things such as taking care of your daughter, that I just couldn’t do. I would be a complete effing mess every day. I’m on mental medications as well / if you ever wanna talk about it reach out. I’ve been through all of this I understand. You will figure it all out. And maybe you need to leave them bitches in the rearview mirror and get a new job xo girl you are enough you are doing great and I’m one person but I’m so proud of you. 🎉
I've been a pediatric special needs nurse for 15 years. What you're feeling is completely normal. I see these so the time. You will be fine. I believe it's just God letting you know that you need to spend a much time as you can while you still have it. The numbness you're feeling is likely from the meds. Also, in a prior video I saw you speaking about diapers. The brands Cuties and Sleepovers are 2 that I love for my older kids. They're on Amazon and not expensive. I can link you up on how to get insurance to cover them. It's actually pretty simple now that I've done it a million times. You're daughter is beautiful btw:)
Your not alone it took 18 yrs for me to get on the right medications I have severe anxiety disorder ,PTSD depression, and mood disorder I was put a zoloft and Lamictal with clonazapam and of course I also have to do the work because the medicine 💊 is just a helping hand ✋️ I hope you get to the place u are comfortable in ❤️
I wish I could be there to let you talk and scream and cry and rant. He gave you that precious little girl because he knew you would love her and that you would take care of her. My little gaurdian son that I had for six years, he was my son and I was his mommy. He passed away from CF at 8 1/2. I wanted to die. I begged God to take me instead. Its not Good that did this, it is Satan. I just subscribed and just saw your short and was drawn to your life story. I miss Kayden so much. After six years I came home, I couldn't before that.y house was broken I to and destroyed and I am repairing, kind of I have mostly sat and thought. I told the Dr that I wanted miracle, he said Portia you had your miracle, you kept h healthy for 6 1/2 years and loved him and he loved you. He would tell me dozens of times a day that he loved me and dozens of times a day he would say I want another hug. I am blessed that the last two times he spoke he said Mommy I love you. When he was passing I told him how much I loved him and that I was going to be as good as I could be so that I could be with him in Heaven, A tear came from his left eye. I believe that Jesus is my Lord and Savior. God didn't do this to that beautiful little girl, Satan in his evilness and to draw people away from God did this. I know that you are thinking 'sure, F U". I understand. I will tell you this, my Kayden believed in God and Jesus. He never went to church, because of germs, he had to stay healthy, his birth mother didn't take care of him and CF took over his lower lungs and he died. He said his prayers every night. From the time he could sit up he wanted to watch Joel Ostein preach. He was drawn to Faith. For years I didn't know what faith was, and oh day I thought Portia you dumb ass, faith is another word for what you believe. Probably lots of spelling errors, it's all most 5:00 a.m., I am in pain and can't sleep. It hurts me when little ones are sick. I not perfect, far from it, but I believe and I will be praying for you and your hubby and little girl. I don't have the right words to give you the answers, I just pray that someone will, and will bring you the words to bring God to your heart, because without him I couldn't have made it when Kayden died. I want his arms around you, holding and comforting you. I know that Kayden is an Angel in Heaven able to breath and no pain. Love and prayers to you.
I grew up in what I call fundamental christian religion- picture only dressed, no money traded on Sunday. I moved out on my 18th birthday. I've now come to believe this idea of a supreme creative being is simply something humans made up. Humans seem to have a need to explain the unexplainable.
You are right it did make me think my baby spent 60 days in the nicu for nothing that I couldn't do at home and I have severe anxiety and I'm currently trying anxiety meds they just make me really tired and sleepy
I agree with you 100%! I lost my first son to SIDS at 18 years old, when he was only 7 weeks old. I was a believer until I went through this trial and after that, I had so many questions... If there was such an amazing being that is capable of any and all things and it allows these things to happen to innocent children..... I just can't.... I mean people that dont prevent one from dying when given the chance or cause serious harm to another without stopping it from happening if they have the power- are in prison, labeled as criminals and child killers buuuut this specific higher power gets a pass and everyone bows to him? Make that make sense. If someone/thing really existed that had the power to do any and all things, I believe no child would die, be sick or live with a disability and if he really exists and has such powers but puts kids through these things..... That ain't no God in my opinion, that's a POS!
Hello Tami, I ´m so sorry for what you went through. I lost a baby to SIDS also. I know the pain. But I have taken great confort in the One who could have speared His own son from suffering a horrible death, and yet didn’t because He loved us so much, we who only deserve His wrath. He too knows the pain of seeing His only Son his innocent son, die. He knows and understands your heart.
Gigi unbreakable your channel is awesome I like how you used the term mentally developed I have add and LD and emh I like how you worded it some people can be rude using those other words
Please take time for you and remember you are worth it. I want to tell you today you are a child of God and He loves you. You parents that are blessed with these precious angels who have special needs are choose for a reason! Look at yourself you are putting yourself out there...that is a strong person. You can't see the wind but it's there. Kids don't have a choice. Free will is your choice as a person to choose or not to choose God. You know what you can to try God you can call out to God you can get mad at God. God loves you!!! God is not the church! The church has been corrupted over the years and I'm so sorry that you have to see that. But as a Christian and going through some of the stuff that you went through I'm just here to tell you that I hear every word that you're saying and I feel you're hurt although I don't have a special needs child I do have a disease myself, an autoimmune disease narcolepsy and it's hard hard to live with it's hard for people to understand and some days it's hard to get out of bed it's hard to function but I do it you do it we survive. I will tell you with God it makes it a whole lot easier. You are freaking human going through the worst time of your life give yourself a break. It's ok. My challenge to you is every time you are hurting upset depressed say Jesus...do it for a week let me know how it goes. It's 4am and I watched all 34:23
Have they checked your thyroid? You are describing thyroid issues, Hashimoto autoimmune in particular. It takes months to get better after starting medicine. Please talk to Dr about it.
I just started the video, but gurrrrl!!…. You have so much natural beauty, you don’t ever need to spend hours getting ready!!! If this is how you look “not getting ready” Then you are truly blessed in the looks department. 😊 Ok. So I just finished the video. And can I just say, I feel so sad for you. You seem like such a beautiful person that loves and cares so deeply, but the anger you feel at the hand that has been dealt to you is absolutely consuming you. I grew up LDS, ya know “Mormon” I am no longer religious, but I am very spiritual. I have to be . I absolutely have to believe that something waits for us after this shit life that is better. I have not had an easy life. Some of it due to my choices, a bunch of it was not. I could talk for hours at how unfair it is. How children don’t deserve that crap that happens to them. I did let those thoughts consume me for a very long time. And I was absolutely miserable, and spoke the way you do about life, higher powers etc. But I was miserable. And something had to give and change. And now, my beliefs are what I hold on to and what keeps me sane. It’s what helps me to get up in the morning. You asked if the things you said made anyone question anything. And my answer is no. It did the opposite. It made me feel ever more grateful that I walked through the hell that you are feeling right now. That feeling of being a ghost. And came out stronger and much happier. I wish so much I could articulate it better. Because I’m definitely not one to preach or to get up on a high horse and say that people should do anything differently. I just know what happened to me. And I know where I was, and where I am now. I don’t think Jesus “saved” me. I don’t think that way at all. I think I just developed a better understanding and what I believe is a better way to live life. But what I see in this video is a beautiful woman, that has the capacity to love and care and feel soo deeply, and you and your husband have created a beautiful bubble for you sweet little girl where it seems she feels safe and loved. But you seem very very sad and very very pissed off. You deserve happiness. You deserve to feel joy. Sorry for my tangent.
Medication didn't work for me. I did find out any alcohol made my mental health worse. I meditate. Meditation got me better from serious anxiety and depression. It was hard to learn and sounds weird but it works. Can you go to a therapist? I found 'The Happiness Trap' by Russ Harris was a great self help book to teach ACT therapy it helped me. You are going through a nightmarish situation!
Tbh after watching this idk what I believe in any more 100 percent agree with you think about it all the time why does "god" put children and us through so much
Goodness beautiful. I really hope your doc upped your dose, or tried a diff med, and wrote you for a therapist as well so she can help you find the meds that work for YOU. Just like bbg, you are uniquely you. You need to find the med or meds that works for YOU as well. I needed 4 at one time in my life beautiful
You know there is a test they can run to see what meds are right for you. They did it for Miranda and everything they had her on was making her worse. She did a complete 360 after the test with different meds
Yes! It's based on genetics, you submit a buccal swab and it helps guide prescribers to the medications that will be most effective for you! Good suggestion!
I pray in Jesus name Lord touch this ladys heart soul and mind. Lord I am asking for your spirit to move in Jesus name and that you would give her a sound mind and that your love would be poured out on her and her family. Help her to see you every way she turns. Lord send people to minister to her with love and kindness. Lord Jesus you have been so good to me you turned my life around when I wanted to give up and die. Thank you Lord.
You are so loved and cared for Gigi and god loves you. You say your not atheist which means you have a glimpse of belief. Take just enough faith to pray to god not once. Do it long enough to recognize gods hand. Recognize the blessings and the good. It’s hard I know. But it is easier when you use your faith and lean on him. Don’t do this burden alone. He is there. Speak to him lean on him and take the time to recognize him. And realize he isn’t going to heal everyone we are meant to all have some sort of sickness it’s how we progress in life it’s part of having a body. God didn’t choose this for your daughter. He didn’t choose any Illness we all get he gave us a body and that’s what we agreed to in the premortal life was that we wanted a body and that means having trials and sickness and pain. The pain and sickness we get isn’t his choice. But his son Christ knows all pain and sickness and can relate and god and Christ are there for you to rely and lean on. Gigi your amazing and a strong women and so beyond loved my many. And the fact you are being open about this and real is so good because many people won’t. I’m so sorry you are struggling but you are loved by me and many others and god I hope you can recognize his hand in your life and pour your soul out to him.❤
Oh man, I've watched and held back on saying anything. I can hear your pain. You just ask two questions. "Aren't we all God's children?". The answer is No. Not at all. If he's not Lord over your life, guiding you, you pray to him, serve him.... on an urge to speak to him. Not out of a dreaded 'have to'. The verse actually says Matthew 12:30 (KJV) He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad. If you don't know him, then he's not Lord OVER your life. It's like being in the middle of a pack of wolves with no help. He states 1 Peter 5:8 (KJV) Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: We (his children) have Angels assigned to us. To help us daily. Protect us, comfort, guide....along with the Holy Spirit. It also states.... Matthew 5:45 (KJV) That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. meaning, we ALL go through 'stuff'. I've never had a child as sick as yours. I have had a 17 yr marriage - to a wonderful man, loved by everyone.... UNTIL I discovered his double life, reported Hum** Tra********, was fed arsenic for a year and a half, before I realized it was HIM. Found crossdressing videos and R*pe videos.... Fought for 5 years helping authorities ( locals, F*I, Atty General office of Alabama) until he suddenly died of a stroke last year. My whole world turned upside down because at first and some still -don't believe it all. Lonely was an understatement. BUT I prayed so hard and kept being the only one who could uncover yet more and more as it went on. I too went on Paxil. (You could have shot someone in front of me and I'd just stepped over them and kept walking, I do believe.) I had NO Emotions. God started putting a determination in me to KNOW He was there and I was protected. He MEANT for me to expose this man and he was gonna deal with him one way or the other. Recorded death threats, stalking and all. Oh Pooh, I could share for an eternity, about the love he's shown me, and I've also forgotten the second question. Maybe how can these things happen to so many innocent. I sort of addressed that already. I always wondered how I had leukemia growing up. Was an awful childhood. May have been Satan trying to take me out, because he knew my life was such a purpose as I just walked through. And I stood tall in it! He ALWAYS picked me up. Oh how I wished I could just carve off a piece of my relationship with him and give it to you. He really loves you. BUT he doesn't force himself on anyone. As I said.....like being in the wild, with a pack of wolves with no protection. The faith you can't see, the God you can't see, is also the same as Ephesians 6:12 (KJV) For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Ephesians 6:13 (KJV) Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. You notice it says IN the evil day. Not IF, or IN CASE. Satan is real. Satan hates us because man and woman was made in the image of God. Oh how I will pray for you, to hear him, feel him. So you and yours can be UNDER his protection. I would just say to Google Psalm 91. It begins with 'Those who abide under the shadow of the Almighty'..... these are the promises of who he will be to you, if you so choose to let him. God bless sweet lady. Prayers for you all.
"...I wish I could carve off a piece of my relationship with him and give it to you." That was so beautiful! I see not only your joy, but your generosity of spirit, compassion, and love for Gigi in that single sentence. I'm grateful I got to read this today! ❤❤❤❤
@@miss_whipps Well, Thank you. To me, it's not about what I've 'been' through, rather - what he's 'brought' me through. To really LET GO and WATCH him work is unbelievable - to us. I totally understand when someone hasn't yet done that and keeps battling.... a losing battle. It's awful. My heart goes out to everyone who hasn't just went belly up and said 'God, YOU walk me through this and lead me'. And then the awesome outcome takes place. I do wish I could literally share that with others, but unfortunately, we all have our own separate walk with Christ. One shot tho, and you WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. HE WILL REMOVE ALL DOUBT. Ya just have to 'Get out of the boat and keep your eyes on him - in faith.' God bless!
I totally understand feeling broken & invisible while trying medications. Keep going. I hope your appointment goes well. I appreciate your brutal honesty. Wish I had a friend like you.
I hope that in some way you might find some comfort in my words. I want to express as best i can and to not come across as insensitive or to make light of what your family is going through. There is no way, as someone who lives with depression and severe anxiety through my life experiences, that i can even begin to understand the life you are living. I only just came across you and your daughter’s story yesterday. I just watched this last video and i felt compelled to write.
You have this question about God. We all have the same questions. In reality no one really knows anything about God except through what we know from the Bible. We really just don’t know, that’s why it’s called having faith. Although to have faith in something we can’t see is very hard, you have to ask yourself this question, where would we all be without it? When you look at everything in this world, and I mean really look, you can see God in everything, it’s just easier to see the bad and not to believe.
You said you would’ve made the decision to abort the pregnancy if you would’ve known that this was going to happen. We are taught that’s not God’s way, abortion is wrong no matter what, and that’s because a life has a purpose. Take a look at what you would have missed, your family looks like you have made so many wonderful memories, that otherwise may not have been made. All the time that you have spent with your little girl, when you look back, yes there will be great sadness but in turn there will be more joy.
You’re not going through this experience for nothing, it just might take you a long time if ever to really understand and realize why things are the way they are because right now all you see is pain, your pain more so than her pain because that’s what i see.
You are giving her everything she needs, there is nothing more greater that a parent can do for their child than what you are doing for your little girl and the time you spend with her, she seems very content.
You have been given a perfect, perfect angel, literally an angel. She is a human being that will never ever do any wrong. She will live in Grace forever, and i know that doesn’t make it any easier, but ultimately what is more perfect than that?
So ask yourself, what is my daughter teaching me, and maybe that is her purpose.
Nothing I have written was meant to hurt, i am so sorry for the path you have been given.
This made me cry literal tears, for you and for myself (as I can completely relate) but you still occasionally made me laugh as well. Thank you for being so refreshingly honest and down to earth.
On a side note, you remind me SO much of Emmy Rossum (Fiona on Shameless). Hopefully you take this as a compliment as I think she is one of the most beautiful people in the planet.
You have so much on your plate. Hang in there and keep bugging your doctor. You are not irreparably broken ❤
It's only 2 medications sometimes it takes several to find the right one. Dont give up on trying. You gotta be help yourself to help others and be there for your girl!
I'm on Lexapro AND Wellbutrin AND Adderall and I still have zero motivation. 😳 Wellbutrin did make me quit smoking though!
First and for most. I’m proud of you. I don’t even know you but I’m so PROUD of you. I see you doing things such as taking care of your daughter, that I just couldn’t do. I would be a complete effing mess every day. I’m on mental medications as well / if you ever wanna talk about it reach out. I’ve been through all of this I understand. You will figure it all out. And maybe you need to leave them bitches in the rearview mirror and get a new job xo girl you are enough you are doing great and I’m one person but I’m so proud of you. 🎉
I've been a pediatric special needs nurse for 15 years. What you're feeling is completely normal. I see these so the time. You will be fine. I believe it's just God letting you know that you need to spend a much time as you can while you still have it. The numbness you're feeling is likely from the meds.
Also, in a prior video I saw you speaking about diapers. The brands Cuties and Sleepovers are 2 that I love for my older kids. They're on Amazon and not expensive. I can link you up on how to get insurance to cover them. It's actually pretty simple now that I've done it a million times.
You're daughter is beautiful btw:)
Your not alone it took 18 yrs for me to get on the right medications I have severe anxiety disorder ,PTSD depression, and mood disorder I was put a zoloft and Lamictal with clonazapam and of course I also have to do the work because the medicine 💊 is just a helping hand ✋️ I hope you get to the place u are comfortable in ❤️
I wish I could be there to let you talk and scream and cry and rant. He gave you that precious little girl because he knew you would love her and that you would take care of her. My little gaurdian son that I had for six years, he was my son and I was his mommy. He passed away from CF at 8 1/2. I wanted to die. I begged God to take me instead. Its not Good that did this, it is Satan. I just subscribed and just saw your short and was drawn to your life story. I miss Kayden so much. After six years I came home, I couldn't before that.y house was broken I to and destroyed and I am repairing, kind of I have mostly sat and thought. I told the Dr that I wanted miracle, he said Portia you had your miracle, you kept h healthy for 6 1/2 years and loved him and he loved you. He would tell me dozens of times a day that he loved me and dozens of times a day he would say I want another hug. I am blessed that the last two times he spoke he said Mommy I love you. When he was passing I told him how much I loved him and that I was going to be as good as I could be so that I could be with him in Heaven, A tear came from his left eye.
I believe that Jesus is my Lord and Savior. God didn't do this to that beautiful little girl, Satan in his evilness and to draw people away from God did this. I know that you are thinking 'sure, F U". I understand. I will tell you this, my Kayden believed in God and Jesus. He never went to church, because of germs, he had to stay healthy, his birth mother didn't take care of him and CF took over his lower lungs and he died. He said his prayers every night. From the time he could sit up he wanted to watch Joel Ostein preach. He was drawn to Faith. For years I didn't know what faith was, and oh day I thought Portia you dumb ass, faith is another word for what you believe. Probably lots of spelling errors, it's all most 5:00 a.m., I am in pain and can't sleep. It hurts me when little ones are sick. I not perfect, far from it, but I believe and I will be praying for you and your hubby and little girl. I don't have the right words to give you the answers, I just pray that someone will, and will bring you the words to bring God to your heart, because without him I couldn't have made it when Kayden died. I want his arms around you, holding and comforting you. I know that Kayden is an Angel in Heaven able to breath and no pain. Love and prayers to you.
I grew up in what I call fundamental christian religion- picture only dressed, no money traded on Sunday. I moved out on my 18th birthday. I've now come to believe this idea of a supreme creative being is simply something humans made up. Humans seem to have a need to explain the unexplainable.
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You are right it did make me think my baby spent 60 days in the nicu for nothing that I couldn't do at home and I have severe anxiety and I'm currently trying anxiety meds they just make me really tired and sleepy
I agree with you 100%! I lost my first son to SIDS at 18 years old, when he was only 7 weeks old. I was a believer until I went through this trial and after that, I had so many questions... If there was such an amazing being that is capable of any and all things and it allows these things to happen to innocent children..... I just can't.... I mean people that dont prevent one from dying when given the chance or cause serious harm to another without stopping it from happening if they have the power- are in prison, labeled as criminals and child killers buuuut this specific higher power gets a pass and everyone bows to him? Make that make sense. If someone/thing really existed that had the power to do any and all things, I believe no child would die, be sick or live with a disability and if he really exists and has such powers but puts kids through these things..... That ain't no God in my opinion, that's a POS!
Hello Tami, I ´m so sorry for what you went through. I lost a baby to SIDS also. I know the pain. But I have taken great confort in the One who could have speared His own son from suffering a horrible death, and yet didn’t because He loved us so much, we who only deserve His wrath. He too knows the pain of seeing His only Son his innocent son, die. He knows and understands your heart.
I have the same thought ❤❤❤
Gigi unbreakable your channel is awesome I like how you used the term mentally developed I have add and LD and emh I like how you worded it some people can be rude using those other words
Please take time for you and remember you are worth it. I want to tell you today you are a child of God and He loves you. You parents that are blessed with these precious angels who have special needs are choose for a reason! Look at yourself you are putting yourself out there...that is a strong person.
You can't see the wind but it's there. Kids don't have a choice. Free will is your choice as a person to choose or not to choose God. You know what you can to try God you can call out to God you can get mad at God. God loves you!!! God is not the church! The church has been corrupted over the years and I'm so sorry that you have to see that. But as a Christian and going through some of the stuff that you went through I'm just here to tell you that I hear every word that you're saying and I feel you're hurt although I don't have a special needs child I do have a disease myself, an autoimmune disease narcolepsy and it's hard hard to live with it's hard for people to understand and some days it's hard to get out of bed it's hard to function but I do it you do it we survive. I will tell you with God it makes it a whole lot easier. You are freaking human going through the worst time of your life give yourself a break. It's ok. My challenge to you is every time you are hurting upset depressed say Jesus...do it for a week let me know how it goes. It's 4am and I watched all 34:23
Have they checked your thyroid? You are describing thyroid issues, Hashimoto autoimmune in particular. It takes months to get better after starting medicine. Please talk to Dr about it.
I just started the video, but gurrrrl!!…. You have so much natural beauty, you don’t ever need to spend hours getting ready!!! If this is how you look “not getting ready”
Then you are truly blessed in the looks department. 😊
Ok. So I just finished the video. And can I just say, I feel so sad for you. You seem like such a beautiful person that loves and cares so deeply, but the anger you feel at the hand that has been dealt to you is absolutely consuming you. I grew up LDS, ya know “Mormon”
I am no longer religious, but I am very spiritual. I have to be . I absolutely have to believe that something waits for us after this shit life that is better. I have not had an easy life. Some of it due to my choices, a bunch of it was not. I could talk for hours at how unfair it is. How children don’t deserve that crap that happens to them. I did let those thoughts consume me for a very long time. And I was absolutely miserable, and spoke the way you do about life, higher powers etc. But I was miserable. And something had to give and change.
And now, my beliefs are what I hold on to and what keeps me sane. It’s what helps me to get up in the morning.
You asked if the things you said made anyone question anything. And my answer is no. It did the opposite. It made me feel ever more grateful that I walked through the hell that you are feeling right now. That feeling of being a ghost. And came out stronger and much happier.
I wish so much I could articulate it better. Because I’m definitely not one to preach or to get up on a high horse and say that people should do anything differently. I just know what happened to me. And I know where I was, and where I am now. I don’t think Jesus “saved” me. I don’t think that way at all. I think I just developed a better understanding and what I believe is a better way to live life.
But what I see in this video is a beautiful woman, that has the capacity to love and care and feel soo deeply, and you and your husband have created a beautiful bubble for you sweet little girl where it seems she feels safe and loved. But you seem very very sad and very very pissed off.
You deserve happiness. You deserve to feel joy.
Sorry for my tangent.
Medication didn't work for me. I did find out any alcohol made my mental health worse. I meditate. Meditation got me better from serious anxiety and depression. It was hard to learn and sounds weird but it works. Can you go to a therapist? I found 'The Happiness Trap' by Russ Harris was a great self help book to teach ACT therapy it helped me. You are going through a nightmarish situation!
Tbh after watching this idk what I believe in any more 100 percent agree with you think about it all the time why does "god" put children and us through so much
Goodness beautiful. I really hope your doc upped your dose, or tried a diff med, and wrote you for a therapist as well so she can help you find the meds that work for YOU. Just like bbg, you are uniquely you. You need to find the med or meds that works for YOU as well. I needed 4 at one time in my life beautiful
You are not f'd up! You are a strong mom/wife. Stop beating yourself up. Look how strong you are taking care of your child and sharing your/her story.
You know there is a test they can run to see what meds are right for you. They did it for Miranda and everything they had her on was making her worse. She did a complete 360 after the test with different meds
Yes! It's based on genetics, you submit a buccal swab and it helps guide prescribers to the medications that will be most effective for you! Good suggestion!
How are you doing now? I don’t have tik tock but I follow you on here.
I’m Christian but you got a point
Gigi I think your awesome even if you say your a weirdo I am a early riser in the morning I take buprion xl 150 for my add
These are the same things I wonder. Kids shouldn’t have to suffer. For what.
I pray in Jesus name Lord touch this ladys heart soul and mind. Lord I am asking for your spirit to move in Jesus name and that you would give her a sound mind and that your love would be poured out on her and her family. Help her to see you every way she turns. Lord send people to minister to her with love and kindness. Lord Jesus you have been so good to me you turned my life around when I wanted to give up and die. Thank you Lord.
I don't believe in anything I haven't seen myself.
You are so loved and cared for Gigi and god loves you. You say your not atheist which means you have a glimpse of belief. Take just enough faith to pray to god not once. Do it long enough to recognize gods hand. Recognize the blessings and the good. It’s hard I know. But it is easier when you use your faith and lean on him. Don’t do this burden alone. He is there. Speak to him lean on him and take the time to recognize him. And realize he isn’t going to heal everyone we are meant to all have some sort of sickness it’s how we progress in life it’s part of having a body. God didn’t choose this for your daughter. He didn’t choose any Illness we all get he gave us a body and that’s what we agreed to in the premortal life was that we wanted a body and that means having trials and sickness and pain. The pain and sickness we get isn’t his choice. But his son Christ knows all pain and sickness and can relate and god and Christ are there for you to rely and lean on. Gigi your amazing and a strong women and so beyond loved my many. And the fact you are being open about this and real is so good because many people won’t. I’m so sorry you are struggling but you are loved by me and many others and god I hope you can recognize his hand in your life and pour your soul out to him.❤
I can't deal with God preachers, each to thier own if people don't want to believe then we don't have to simple.
You are dealing with a lot on your plate its nothing to do with you being broken or not fixable
Oh man, I've watched and held back on saying anything. I can hear your pain. You just ask two questions. "Aren't we all God's children?". The answer is No. Not at all. If he's not Lord over your life, guiding you, you pray to him, serve him.... on an urge to speak to him. Not out of a dreaded 'have to'. The verse actually says Matthew 12:30 (KJV) He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad. If you don't know him, then he's not Lord OVER your life. It's like being in the middle of a pack of wolves with no help. He states 1 Peter 5:8 (KJV) Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: We (his children) have Angels assigned to us. To help us daily. Protect us, comfort, guide....along with the Holy Spirit. It also states.... Matthew 5:45 (KJV) That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. meaning, we ALL go through 'stuff'. I've never had a child as sick as yours. I have had a 17 yr marriage - to a wonderful man, loved by everyone.... UNTIL I discovered his double life, reported Hum** Tra********, was fed arsenic for a year and a half, before I realized it was HIM. Found crossdressing videos and R*pe videos.... Fought for 5 years helping authorities ( locals, F*I, Atty General office of Alabama) until he suddenly died of a stroke last year. My whole world turned upside down because at first and some still -don't believe it all. Lonely was an understatement. BUT I prayed so hard and kept being the only one who could uncover yet more and more as it went on. I too went on Paxil. (You could have shot someone in front of me and I'd just stepped over them and kept walking, I do believe.) I had NO Emotions. God started putting a determination in me to KNOW He was there and I was protected. He MEANT for me to expose this man and he was gonna deal with him one way or the other. Recorded death threats, stalking and all. Oh Pooh, I could share for an eternity, about the love he's shown me, and I've also forgotten the second question. Maybe how can these things happen to so many innocent. I sort of addressed that already. I always wondered how I had leukemia growing up. Was an awful childhood. May have been Satan trying to take me out, because he knew my life was such a purpose as I just walked through. And I stood tall in it! He ALWAYS picked me up. Oh how I wished I could just carve off a piece of my relationship with him and give it to you. He really loves you. BUT he doesn't force himself on anyone. As I said.....like being in the wild, with a pack of wolves with no protection. The faith you can't see, the God you can't see, is also the same as Ephesians 6:12 (KJV) For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Ephesians 6:13 (KJV) Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. You notice it says IN the evil day. Not IF, or IN CASE. Satan is real. Satan hates us because man and woman was made in the image of God. Oh how I will pray for you, to hear him, feel him. So you and yours can be UNDER his protection. I would just say to Google Psalm 91. It begins with 'Those who abide under the shadow of the Almighty'..... these are the promises of who he will be to you, if you so choose to let him. God bless sweet lady. Prayers for you all.
"...I wish I could carve off a piece of my relationship with him and give it to you." That was so beautiful! I see not only your joy, but your generosity of spirit, compassion, and love for Gigi in that single sentence. I'm grateful I got to read this today! ❤❤❤❤
@@miss_whipps Well, Thank you. To me, it's not about what I've 'been' through, rather - what he's 'brought' me through. To really LET GO and WATCH him work is unbelievable - to us. I totally understand when someone hasn't yet done that and keeps battling.... a losing battle. It's awful. My heart goes out to everyone who hasn't just went belly up and said 'God, YOU walk me through this and lead me'. And then the awesome outcome takes place. I do wish I could literally share that with others, but unfortunately, we all have our own separate walk with Christ. One shot tho, and you WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. HE WILL REMOVE ALL DOUBT. Ya just have to 'Get out of the boat and keep your eyes on him - in faith.' God bless!