tracklist -- 0:00 Pretend - Alex G 5:59 Bubble Gum - Clairo 8:55 Worldstar Money -Joji 11:02 She likes another boy - Oscar Lang 14:30 What Would I Do - Strawberry Guy 18:23 YKWIM - Yot Club 21:56 Tear Me Apart - Solya 24:20 The Blonde - TV Girl 28:04 Letting go - Duster 32:01 Inside Out - Duster 34:23 Watching Him Fade Away - Mac De Marco 36:46 love - wave to earth
"And I have come to realise that, no matter how many tries, how many things or how many hopes I put into someone, I always end up being chosen by loneliness. How hopeless is that."
At least loneliness doesnt abandon us bro... At this point I speak more with the spider of the roof than with people and I wonder if the antidepressants are even doing something.
"We weren't meant for each other. That is the truth. No matter how much we wanted it to be true that we could love, it was never a possibility. We broken, far from being fixed. I won't miss you, but I will miss the idea of you." -Made up quote from a made up story I thought of. I'll name it 'Ideal You'
This but in a relieving way, like “we weren’t meant for each other and that’s good. We were better off not trying this but I’m still glad we did.” This type of feeling and then there’s also “we aren’t meant for each other but god dammit I’d still try even if I know we’ll fail within the first hour because I just love you so much” Edit: and both feelings are in love with each other but only one wants to keep trying
I used to say "it's a shame" but now I don't talk about it anymore. So many things remind me of them,but I feel nothing. Like,it happened and that's about it.
Ykow, This playlist reminds me of when I was about 14 or so and I had been held back (I was suppose to be in 8th but was still in 7th) And there was this boy whom was in 6th (He was suppose to be in 7th) And I loved him so much, He was just perfect. We would always sneak out of class or out of lunch and hang out in the bathroom. Or sit in the back of the bus and cuddle, But One day he got sent to Juvi for some stupid thing and since then I haven't spoken to him since. I'm now 17 going on 18 and Looking back I knew it wouldn't have worked out if we did date or tried to date, We were too different. I loved him and he loved me but we would get hurt in process of expressing our love. I still miss you Antoine where ever you are, I wish you best. And I hope you still think of me once and while.
There are some days when I think I’ll be fine without you. And then there are nights like these, where I am devoid of life and everything you give me. Why do you do this to me? How did you ever survive when I did this to you? I could never deserve you, but maybe I’m worth a text. Maybe. Wouldn’t you agree?
She told me that it was never gonna work from the very beginning. We remain friends but we both are very aware that I'm still deeply hurt after all this time. Sometimes letting somebody down slowly may be the worse option, but then again it's not your fault if someone is hurt from you being as gentle as you can.
he wasn't meant to be my dad, he shouldn't have gotten married or had children at all, i mean why be a husband and a father if your just gonna traumatize them, abuse your wife, then leave your daughter to cry every night cus you aren't a dad to her anymore. i don't get why your trying now, when you should have been trying when i was 8. you've ruined ur chances at being a dad, you failed miserably at even trying.
Dear Elliott, You won’t ever find this. That does not matter. A few days ago I wrote a poem. A poem about you, how your so perfect. I wrote that poem even after finding out you didn’t like me. I was okay with that. Somewhat. October 23, I go to school and can’t help staring at you. I feel like I don’t understand boys. Because somehow I feel like you stare at me back. Maybe it’s just me. End of the day comes and I can’t help it but be curious. The saying “Curiosity killed the cat” makes so much more sense to me now. One of my friends happens to have your number, and the words “ask who likes” escapes my mouth. my error was ever saying that. She texts you and lets me know once I get home. A few months ago last school year, I had a bit of a crush for this boy in my ELA class, go figure. It didn’t go on for too long before I found out he liked my friend. It didn’t effect me much back then. Now all I feel is dispair. Fast forward to now, and my friend texts me. The memory stings me even now. Reading the screenshots I just watched as she asked you and you replied back saying “you.” I felt the water in my eyes build up in my eyes and fall, before quickly drying up. Luckily she was with someone else and didn’t feel the same way. But the feelings to me hit me like pebbles and then a boulder. Everything in me worked up. I replied jokingly by saying “it’s okay, I’ll js kill myself” but I can’t help but have part of the feeling be true. Ever since I started liking you, I started to hate myself more, feeling never enough for you. And you never noticing. But you noticed her, and I can’t help but think if I become more like her will you like me. I compared the other story earlier because it always seems like I’m never a option. Or a thought. But they pick the person that sits next to me. I feel like I’m always on the bench but never in the game. She’s a great person but I wonder what wrong with me, she never showed interest but you like her? I feel like the closets I’ll ever get to her is having the same name. And yet I can still see why you like her, after all she is my friend. But I did everything and she did nothing. Will I always be a a 2nd option? All those time you looked at me, was it just the person behind me. I feel humiliated and silly. And yet I still knew you liked her. Just was in denial. You could tell by the way you looked at her and the way you talked and texted her. But I guess only I noticed that. You say you don’t like to date short people, but yet she is shorter then you, so what wrong with me. And I’m lost in between words to be sad or mad, never to her, but you or me. This experience makes me wonder if I’m worth it, if no one buys me, even after I’m free. All I wanted was you.
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tracklist
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0:00 Pretend - Alex G
5:59 Bubble Gum - Clairo
8:55 Worldstar Money -Joji
11:02 She likes another boy - Oscar Lang
14:30 What Would I Do - Strawberry Guy
18:23 YKWIM - Yot Club
21:56 Tear Me Apart - Solya
24:20 The Blonde - TV Girl
28:04 Letting go - Duster
32:01 Inside Out - Duster
34:23 Watching Him Fade Away - Mac De Marco
36:46 love - wave to earth
"And I have come to realise that, no matter how many tries, how many things or how many hopes I put into someone, I always end up being chosen by loneliness. How hopeless is that."
At least loneliness doesnt abandon us bro... At this point I speak more with the spider of the roof than with people and I wonder if the antidepressants are even doing something.
"We weren't meant for each other. That is the truth. No matter how much we wanted it to be true that we could love, it was never a possibility. We broken, far from being fixed. I won't miss you, but I will miss the idea of you."
-Made up quote from a made up story I thought of.
I'll name it 'Ideal You'
This but in a relieving way, like “we weren’t meant for each other and that’s good. We were better off not trying this but I’m still glad we did.” This type of feeling and then there’s also “we aren’t meant for each other but god dammit I’d still try even if I know we’ll fail within the first hour because I just love you so much”
Edit: and both feelings are in love with each other but only one wants to keep trying
love this perspective!
what a beautiful meaning
I used to say "it's a shame" but now I don't talk about it anymore. So many things remind me of them,but I feel nothing. Like,it happened and that's about it.
Ykow, This playlist reminds me of when I was about 14 or so and I had been held back (I was suppose to be in 8th but was still in 7th) And there was this boy whom was in 6th (He was suppose to be in 7th) And I loved him so much, He was just perfect. We would always sneak out of class or out of lunch and hang out in the bathroom. Or sit in the back of the bus and cuddle, But One day he got sent to Juvi for some stupid thing and since then I haven't spoken to him since. I'm now 17 going on 18 and Looking back I knew it wouldn't have worked out if we did date or tried to date, We were too different. I loved him and he loved me but we would get hurt in process of expressing our love. I still miss you Antoine where ever you are, I wish you best. And I hope you still think of me once and while.
There are some days when I think I’ll be fine without you. And then there are nights like these, where I am devoid of life and everything you give me. Why do you do this to me? How did you ever survive when I did this to you? I could never deserve you, but maybe I’m worth a text. Maybe. Wouldn’t you agree?
She told me that it was never gonna work from the very beginning. We remain friends but we both are very aware that I'm still deeply hurt after all this time. Sometimes letting somebody down slowly may be the worse option, but then again it's not your fault if someone is hurt from you being as gentle as you can.
i love this!! im 100% donating to ur kofi next time i get payed
he wasn't meant to be my dad, he shouldn't have gotten married or had children at all, i mean why be a husband and a father if your just gonna traumatize them, abuse your wife, then leave your daughter to cry every night cus you aren't a dad to her anymore. i don't get why your trying now, when you should have been trying when i was 8. you've ruined ur chances at being a dad, you failed miserably at even trying.
Babe wake up semaj playlist just posted‼️‼️
i ducking love your playlists so much!!😭😭😭💓💞💞
Loving people is the most cruel thing i do to myself
where do you find these songs lol this is great
i hate you for wanting you.
Dear Elliott,
You won’t ever find this. That does not matter.
A few days ago I wrote a poem. A poem about you, how your so perfect. I wrote that poem even after finding out you didn’t like me. I was okay with that. Somewhat.
October 23, I go to school and can’t help staring at you. I feel like I don’t understand boys. Because somehow I feel like you stare at me back. Maybe it’s just me. End of the day comes and I can’t help it but be curious. The saying “Curiosity killed the cat” makes so much more sense to me now. One of my friends happens to have your number, and the words “ask who likes” escapes my mouth. my error was ever saying that. She texts you and lets me know once I get home. A few months ago last school year, I had a bit of a crush for this boy in my ELA class, go figure. It didn’t go on for too long before I found out he liked my friend. It didn’t effect me much back then. Now all I feel is dispair.
Fast forward to now, and my friend texts me. The memory stings me even now. Reading the screenshots I just watched as she asked you and you replied back saying “you.” I felt the water in my eyes build up in my eyes and fall, before quickly drying up. Luckily she was with someone else and didn’t feel the same way. But the feelings to me hit me like pebbles and then a boulder. Everything in me worked up. I replied jokingly by saying “it’s okay, I’ll js kill myself” but I can’t help but have part of the feeling be true. Ever since I started liking you, I started to hate myself more, feeling never enough for you. And you never noticing. But you noticed her, and I can’t help but think if I become more like her will you like me. I compared the other story earlier because it always seems like I’m never a option. Or a thought. But they pick the person that sits next to me. I feel like I’m always on the bench but never in the game. She’s a great person but I wonder what wrong with me, she never showed interest but you like her? I feel like the closets I’ll ever get to her is having the same name. And yet I can still see why you like her, after all she is my friend. But I did everything and she did nothing. Will I always be a a 2nd option? All those time you looked at me, was it just the person behind me. I feel humiliated and silly. And yet I still knew you liked her. Just was in denial. You could tell by the way you looked at her and the way you talked and texted her. But I guess only I noticed that. You say you don’t like to date short people, but yet she is shorter then you, so what wrong with me. And I’m lost in between words to be sad or mad, never to her, but you or me.
This experience makes me wonder if I’m worth it, if no one buys me, even after I’m free.
All I wanted was you.
i need to marry this playlist 😭
28:20
this playlist is just soo saeko and miwa [how do we relationship]
when worldstar money came on i thought it was my neighbors arguing so i turned down my music to listen😭
9:39