Is it just me or Alec benjamin always....for some reason.....makes me cry....like the emotions in his songs and....the originality....I just made a word......but srsly tho..... I've known him for a few years and......I just have to say hope he lives in the music and makes more music for us to relate to
It's so true. Sometimes I just hate myself so much. I think bad things so much. Then us as kids, we do dumb things sometimes. We take all our problems from school, the internet, or other places out on the people we love most. Like our mothers. They will love us no matter what. If only sometimes I could love myslelf like my mom. I don't see who my mom sees when I look in the mirror. She sees a Noemi that is wonderful. Oh but what things she doesn't know about me...
I'm 18 now, just lost my mom. She was 50, still so beautiful and strong. She wasn't feeling well in her last days but it didn't seem urgent. My father was sleeping next to her... Ready to take her to the hospital in the morning, yet he wakes up to her dead body. He started screaming and I ran into the room, to find her cold already. I screamed for her to wake up... She didn't, she was long gone. Mom I love you so much may your soul rest in peace next to your beloved father whom you griefed on. Now I grief the both of you, my grandfather and my mom.
stay strong! live you're life enjoy the small things. And one day you will be together with her again. Never give up. And just know that it's not because she isn't here anymore you can't love her anymore. She still love's you! xxx
I am very sorry for you. I hope you're doing fine and I hope you stay strong. I bet your mother would be so proud of you if she could see the person you have become.
Lyrics: I can't believe you love me after all the things i've done I think i've been the devil since the day that i've turned one like when i stole your money just to buy a pack of gum i know it wasn't funny can't believe i was so dumb I blame it on my age but even now, i'm not so young i'm still stuck in my ways i cant believe what i've become somehow, you feel the same I guess that's motherly love motherly love wish I could find the piece in me to see the good things that you see It's not that easy but if I saw me through your eyes maybe I could find a way to forgive all of the lies and the stupid things I say and if I could realize that it's your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me if I saw me through your eyes your eyes through your eyes through my mother's eyes I can't believe you love me after all the things i've did like when I said I hated you when we were in Madrid like when I didn't answer you cause I was on the road but you cooked my favorite dinner for me right when I get home I blame it on my stress cause I've been feeling so high strung I'm looking for excuses and I know that isn't one somehow, you feel the same I guess that's motherly love motherly love wish I could find the piece in me to see the good things that you see it's not that easy but if I saw me through your eyes maybe I could find a way to forgive all of the lies and the stupid things I say and if I could realize that it's your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me if I saw me through your eyes your eyes through your eyes through my mother's eyes x 4 but if I saw me through your eyes maybe I could find a way to forgive all of the lies and the stupid things I say and if I could realize that it's your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me if I saw me through your eyes your eyes through your eyes through my mother's eyes
@Jasper Lewis-Boyd oh I thought in a different way. Kinda like 'poetic freedom'. Isn't that what it is called? I don't know. Grammatically it may be wrong. But when u think about it in a different, philosophical angle it makes sense. At least to me. Although I'm a nobody😂😂😂😂
@Jasper Lewis-Boyd yeah they're often making grammatical mistakes in songs,like If I was..... I know that you can say it in familiar language but it's actually grammatically not correct...
~~~~~~*~~~~~~~ I can't believe you love me after all the things i've done I think i've been the devil since the day that i've turned one like when i stole your money just to buy a pack of gum i know it wasn't funny can't believe i was so dumb I blame it on my age but even now, i'm not so young i'm still stuck in my ways i cant believe what i've become somehow, you feel the same I guess that's motherly love motherly love wish I could find the piece in me to see the good things that you see It's not that easy but if I saw me through your eyes maybe I could find a way to forgive all of the lies and the stupid things I say and if I could realize that it's your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me if I saw me through your eyes your eyes through your eyes through my mother's eyes I can't believe you love me after all the things i've did like when I said I hated you when we were in Madrid like when I didn't answer you cause I was on the road but you cooked my favorite dinner for me right when I get home I blame it on my stress cause I've been feeling so high strung I'm looking for excuses and I know that isn't one somehow, you feel the same I guess that's motherly love motherly love wish I could find the piece in me to see the good things that you see it's not that easy but if I saw me through your eyes maybe I could find a way to forgive all of the lies and the stupid things I say and if I could realize that it's your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me if I saw me through your eyes your eyes through your eyes through my mother's eyes x 4 but if I saw me through your eyes maybe I could find a way to forgive all of the lies and the stupid things I say and if I could realize that it's your blood that I bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me if I saw me through your eyes your eyes through your eyes through my mother's eyes *~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
"A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take" Cardinal Mermillod Note: Besides love, you reminded there are other problems and issues in the world Thank you, Alec!
This song made me cry..... And it's been months since I've cried. I can't tell how happy i felt crying out for every pain i feel after all this time. This might sound absurd but I'm very thankful to this song for it did something people arround me have failed to do, console me. And i can't be more greateful. *Alec Benjamin is my favourite artist from now on*
I've been holding back the pain I've had on my shoulders for a while. My mother passed away in 2018. I've had people tell me they are there if I need them. One of them even knows how it feels because they've been through it. I have a hard time expressing my feelings so I eventually found writing poems is a good way for me to express myself.
*But if I saw me through your eyes,* *Maybe I could find a way,* *To forgive all of the lies,* *And the stupid things I say...* *And if I could realize,* *That it’s your blood that I bleed,* *Maybe I could love myself,* *Like the way that you love me...* *If I saw me through your eyes,* *Your eyes,* *Through your eyes,* *My mother’s eyes.....*
Verse1: i cant believe you love me after all the things I've done. I think I've been the devil since the day that i turned one. Like when i stole your money just to buy a pack of gum. I know it wasn't funny can't believe i was so dumb. I blame it on my age, but even now I'm not so young. I'm still stuck in my ways i can't believe what I've become. Somehow you feel the same i guess its motherly love,Motherly love pre-chorus: wish i could find the peace in me. to see the good things that you see. it's not that easy... chorus: but if i saw me through your eyes. maybe i could find a way. to forgive all of the lies..and the stupid things i say. and if i could realize that's it's your blood that i bleed. maybe i could love myself,like the way that you love me. if i saw me through your eyes x3 through my mothers eyes verse 2: i can't believe you love me after all the things i did. like when i said i hated you when we were in madrid. like when i didn't answer you cuz i was on the road but you cook my favourite dinner for me right when i get home. i blame it on my stress cuz i've been feeling so headstrong. i'm looking for excuses and i know that isn't one. somehow you feel the same i guess it's motherly love. pre-chorus: wish i could find the peace in me. to see the good things that you see. it's not that easy... chorus x2 : but if i saw me through your eyes. maybe i could find a way. to forgive all of the lies..and the stupid things i say. and if i could realize that's it's your blood that i bleed. maybe i could love myself,like the way that you love me. if i saw me through your eyes x3 through my mothers eyes. x4 (i did my best hopefully its all correct?)
me and my mom have never really had the best relationship, my mom loves me but she truly does not like me as a person. i always have so many things i want to tell her and talk to her about, but she always ignores me. maybe i need to speak up but its hard with her. ive tried to hurt myself in many ways and i know my mom has dealt with that too, i want to talk to her about it and open up to her about it, but she always shuts down and never wants to talk about it. sometimes i dislike my mom, but ill always love her deep down lmao. thank you for making me cry alec, you're a god :)
Same thing with my mom. Try sending her this song as a way of opening up a line of communication. Send her a letter, text, or email explaining everything to her. She loves you, but has a hard time accepting she doesn't like your personality. If you send her something to read, she can't interrupt you, and if she doesn't read it or try to connect with you as well, then it's on her, not you. You've already tried connecting with her. You don't have to hate her or cut her out of your life completely, but if she doesn't try then you don't have to keep trying either.
This hit me so deep in my heart I can't believe it. Amazing work 💕 A good message to remind people to always appreciate their mother. Heck, not only my mom, but my dad too. Both of them for putting up with me for this long. ❤❤❤
maybe they were sobbing and missed it and ended up just not noticing yeah, i'm not even gonna blame this one on the onion ninjas. i was crying so hard i swear this man is the only one who can do that to me
I remember listening to this for the first time and of course I cried, I cried until I couldn’t breath. When my mother and I were in the car, I don’t exactly remember what we were doing but, I asked her to listen to this song and she did. My mother had been pained all her life and so I and my siblings from a situation we’ve been through but anyways, my mother heard it and as soon I heard the lyrics I cried and cried. I felt like I failed my mother, I wasn’t enough. She stopped the car and held me for a good 10 minutes. It felt like the world stopped. It was nice being held by someone, especially by your mother. I felt like she knew my doubts of not being enough. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to thank for what she’s done in my life. Thank you Alex Benjamin for making this song. It will forever be in my heart, thank you for making me and my moms relationship better and possible.
This makes me cry and wish I knew how to be nicer to my mom. I legitimately can’t. I try so hard and always do something stupid 😭💜 I love her, I hope she knows that
I just recently heard this song and started crying when he sang the lines :- "Wish I could find the piece in me to see the good things that you see..... .......Maybe I could love myself , the way that you love me...." I recently started to get over my addiction of cutting myself because when my mother saw the cuts she started crying and telling me that she loved me, and to never do it again ..... I always cry at these parts.... If anyone in the comments section could let me know of a piano or keyboard tutorial for this song .......I would be very grateful....... I just can't seem to find it...... Thank you and have a cheerful day.... :)
Lyrics: I can't believe you love me after all the things I've done, I think I've been the Devil since the day that I turned one, Like when I stole your money just to buy a pack of gum, I know it wasn't funny, can't believe I was so dumb. I blame it on my age but even now I'm not so young, I'm still stuck in my ways I can't believe what I've become, Somehow you feel the same, I guess it's motherly love, Motherly love~ Wish I could find the peace in me, To see the good things that you see, It's not that easy~ But if I saw me through your eyes, Maybe I could find a way, To forgive all of the lies, And the stupid things I say. And if I could realize, That is your blood that I bleed, Maybe I could love myself, Like the way that you love me. If I saw me through your eyes~, Your eyes~, Through your eyes~, Through my mother's eyes. I can't believe you love me after all the things I did, Like when I said I hated you and we were in Madrid, Like when I didn't answer you 'cuz I was on the road, But you cooked my favourite dinner for me right when I got home. I blame it on my stress 'cuz I've been feeling so hot strung, I'm looking for excuses and I know that isn't one, Somehow you feel the same, I guess it's motherly love, Motherly love~ Wish I could find the peace in me, To see the good things that you see, It's not that easy~ But if I saw me through your eyes, Maybe I could find a way, To forgive all of the lies, And the stupid things I say. And if could realize, That is your blood that I bleed, Maybe I could love myself, Like the way you love me. If I saw me through eyes~, Your eyes~, Through your eyes~, Through my mother's eyes. Through my mother's eyes(x3) But if I saw me through your eyes, Maybe I could find a way, To forgive all of the lies, And the stupid things I say. And if could realize, That is your blood that I bleed, Maybe I could love myself, Like the way you love me, If I saw me through eyes, Your eyes~, Through your eyes~, Through my mother's eyes. If you notice any mistakes, please inform me! Thank you!
So sad this wasn't ever released, it's my favorite song by Alec Benjamin. I remember crying while listening to this song a few years back when I was dealing with depression. It still makes me tear up to this day. Unbelievably relatable, I love my mom.
"And if I could realize that’s it’s your blood that I bleed" that line made me realize it so much things. I’m such a bad daughter...wow. Thank you for this beautiful song. You never disappoint me. Your voice is the voice of an angel. U are an angel. Thank you.
I sent this to my mom and about 10-15 minutes later she came in my room crying because of the song we haven't really had a good relationship so after she heard it we've had a descent relationship we still have our fights here and there but overall it's been pretty good thank you so much for that Alec ❤
The music I listen to when I was younger consisted with a fair amount of your songs (mostly unreleased), and I’m still baffled every time you manage to write a song that perfectly describes my feelings. 💜
This is beautiful... I think we all feel this way after so many years. We realize that when we do something wrong, our moms don't want to be angry at us, and they hurt when they do. Thank you, Alec, you helped me see this. Keep being amazing ♥
1,4k likes 1 dislike. #Respect. And that one person who clicked dislike probably clicked wrong. But hey we all make mistakes but our mother still forgives us :)
0:46 this part always makes me cry, I don’t know why but it’s something about the way he sings it mixed with the lyrics itself it just always gets to me
... I just Instantly started crying the minute I put this song on. Lately I’ve been struggling with things like this and having my life on track. It’s a lot of things. My mothers aren’t even my biological ones (I was adopted by two moms so technically I have three.) And the part where he said “That it’s your blood that I bleed, maybe I could love myself in the way that you love me..” I broke out in tears.. I never knew my Birth parents but I believe my blood is of the ones who took me in. It’s hard sometimes just like Alec said “It’s not that easy.” I just have this sense of rejection all the time; So maybe it would be better if we swapped eyes.
I do that to mine and my friends are like “eww” why do you say I love you to your mom and dad like every second but you don’t really know when you can lose them :(
Aubs Is great Some people really don’t understand what it’s like to not have a mom or dad and take it for granted. My dad was almost never in my life and now I’m scared to see him and my brother has PTSD from him. Glad that you respect your parents and tell them you love them when you have the chance ❤️
That's exactly what I tell myself, and what I want to do deep down. But there's just this serious mental and physical struggle when I try to make myself do it, or even jusy say things like stay safe. What makes it even worse is that I've noticed that I only truly struggle with expressing myself in basically anyway with family. Outside of that I could most likely easily say "love u, bye" to someone ik. Hell. Even to a stranger. It sucks, man.
I wish I had the chance to say these things to my mother before she passed in February. She drank herself to death, heavily depressed with being separated from me and my siblings. I wish I could have told her how much I truly loved her instead of pushing her out of my life. I pushed her away, and my siblings followed. She must've felt so alone, and I regret every day of my life for not changing that, or for never telling her enough how much I loved her. To the moon and back, Mom.
This song hurts so much for me, my mother was never loving or caring and I do see myself through her eyes and it hurts so much, the comments about my weight she made, my hair, my fashion sense, everything and anything to tear me down. She told me my first day of high school as I was getting ready that I was going to be bullied. I hate myself because of her, and I hate her for the pain she caused me and the neglect.
I'm sorry that she did that I hope you can overcome that. Your beautiful just the way you are. Fashion, weight, personality. That doesn't determine how beautiful you are. What makes you beautiful is inside you. What makes you, you! Your very beautiful and talented. I don't know you but I hope you have a very good life and try to overcome those hate comments and those rude things that she says bc she doesn't matter. This is your life, so be you and you can choose what you like to do/what you don't want to do. Good people will come in your way and guide you! Have a beautiful day/night/whatever it is!
It's amazing how all of alecs songs have a different meaning to everyone. I don't understand how anyone can listen to this heavenly music and hate on it.
This is so true and this song could teach many (even me) about respect, love, and forgiveness. This guy should be so much more famous-radio and much more, he's talented.He sings stories.
Wow, im late to find this gem! Either way, this is my new favourite song. Ive gone through many difficult periods in my life and the "and if I could realise that it’s your blood that I bleed" line hit me different. I have hurt myself before, it was kind of a last resort many of the times and i would always feel so bad after i was done. I remember washing everything off and patching it up afterwards and wanting to just seal it all up again. It felt like i was ruining my mothers work, the body that she literally had created was now being harmed by no one else but myself, it felt like i betrayed her in a sense because i love her so much. Your music has been a HUGE support for me Alec, and its often been a help when i didnt know how to move forwards, so i want to thank you for that❤
this song hits different, I lost my mom from cancer when I was just 4. I remember doing some terrible things, see; she had trouble walking and needed crutches and a wheelchair sometimes. I remember once I made terrible messes and she had to clean it up, I remember how well she took care of me even on Crutches. She was an amazing mom and I wish I could go back in time to not do any of that bad stuff I did. I wish I could go back and say how much I loved her and appreciated what she did for me. Writing this is making me cry, so before i start crying even more, I'm going to stop. But for those of you reading this, tell everyone in your family how much you love them, because you'll never know when you won't be able to again.
Sorry for your loss mate, you seem to be a great person and that is probably thanks to yourother ik you didn't spend much time with her but I can assure that what she taught you in those 4 years is gold, and I'm sure you can maker her happy up there by being you and spreading nice messages like this mate, you are awesome ❤️
My mom passed away when I was 11. I'm 16 now, and I've always regretted not being the child I thought she wanted. But I know she loved me no matter what, and she deserved the best that happened in her years of life. If you think your mothers don't love you the way you think they do, its true. They love you so much more than you'll ever know. They love you for you even when you feel like they don't. They always will. Relation or not, they are still yours, and you are still theirs. ❤❤❤
I have a horrible relationship with my mother. But every bit of this song reminds me of my dad, who I am so lucky to still have in my life. Thank you, Alec, for this song and allowing the public to enjoy it. I hope my dad appreciates this song as much as I do. ❤
Hearing a lot of his others songs, I always thought "he must have a good mother" just in the way he talks about women and relationships. Ah, this is genuinely so beautiful, and couldnt have come at a better time. I dont know how to show my mother I'm sorry, but I know I love her a lot and I want her to know it too
I crying tears of shock it’s been awhile since I heard this song and I cried because it’s true my mom was in an accident and this made me break down thinking what if I didn’t see her again.. this really made my chest hurt oh god😣😭
This song always makes me sad, because my mother, father and sister abandoned me, they threw me on the street with no one in the world... I'm an orphan, being alone in the world is one of the worst pains anyone can feel, and no one ever you will understand how painful it is... The silence of loneliness hurts too much I was a very kind and caring boy, as a child I told my mother every day that I loved her, I just wanted a mother's unconditional love :(
I had a breakdown and only my mom could tell what was going on and came and sat in my room, I cried my eyes out and she stayed for every second of it, for the first time I really realized what having a mom like her meant. I love you mom, you saw what I couldn't and didn't blame me for it when I chose it anyway. Happy Mothers Day Mom.
This is probably one of the most inspiring songs ever. Personally, I think that no matter how many times you mess up, they always see the good in you. I don't know how I could ever repay my parents for everything they've done for me. The fact that Alec put so many deep messages in this song is so amazing. This song is so amazing. "Maybe I could love myself, like you love me." That's one of the most beautiful quotes. It makes a mom so happy to see you grow. It's okay to make mistakes. And your mom's have been through so much, but they still love you. No matter what happens. Cherish the time you have with your mom. And don't forget that they love you no matter what.
I haven't words... I know who is Mother-she is everything. I love my mother and respect every mother of our globe. Thank you so much for this gold song!
Played this song in the car with my mom yesterday. She asked me if I always listen to this song, and I said yes. It's kinda sad when she said, "Good, because if I'm not here anymore then you can always listen to this song if you missed me."
It's so sad because I don't have a good relationship with any of my family, both distant and immediate, but this still makes me tear up because my mom's still done so many things for me through our arguments and her anger that I'm just ungrateful for.
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This is soo cool! Beautiful song. Good luck❤️❤️🌹😊
yayyy!! I'm so excited!! :)
I CANNOT WAIIIIITTTTT!!!!!
Me encanta tu voz ❤️ Saludos desde Colombia ❤️
I'm so happy this is finally getting released
Is it just me or Alec benjamin always....for some reason.....makes me cry....like the emotions in his songs and....the originality....I just made a word......but srsly tho..... I've known him for a few years and......I just have to say hope he lives in the music and makes more music for us to relate to
I completely understand you, really :')
As a friendly suggestion, originality is a word that has the same meaning as what I believe you were going for. : ) have a nice day.
He has some magic music power.... It's too beautiful! 😭
It's not just you
And his soft voice completely finishes it
A song about mother. What could be more beautiful?
Bibik the Nightcore Maker i swear to the Lord I see you everywhere uhmmm
lolaenay You just have good taste of music (same as mine) ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)
lolaenay maybe you and him/her are everywhere
A song about daddy
Mmmhmm, oh yeeeeahh daddy.
I put this on in the car and my mom cried saying "It's true".
/e dance
I- respect u
And everyone starts to dance under the stars
I literally cried thinking this is so true like she did
Yo ty for the likes guys 😔
No one:
Literally not a soul:
Me: alec was a cute baby and he still is
ja gay
you and 157 other people including me >:3
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@@Yuukimimii now 601 :)
@@nrgy9976 how the fuck is alec gay
I lost my mom for Covid in January. We used to sing this song together... I can´'t listen this without cry.....
Be strong, she is watching you and loves you ❤️👍
I'm sorry for your loss, just be strong!
🫂🫂🫂🫂❤️
she may be gone but she will never stop loving you
sorry for your loss… she is always with you
"if I could realize that it's your blood that l bleed maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me" I cried 😭💕💕that was so beautiful 💯
It's so true. Sometimes I just hate myself so much. I think bad things so much. Then us as kids, we do dumb things sometimes. We take all our problems from school, the internet, or other places out on the people we love most. Like our mothers. They will love us no matter what. If only sometimes I could love myslelf like my mom. I don't see who my mom sees when I look in the mirror. She sees a Noemi that is wonderful. Oh but what things she doesn't know about me...
i read this comment as he sang the line ;-;
@@alicecrwly same
i love this. a song not about sex or money. but about the love of a mother. what more could anyone ask for
0% sex. 0% money. 0% swearing. 100% talent.
@@pooktafyte3989 nothing wrong with swearing..
@@hiirah221 Yeah, true, but I made that comment months ago so..
U still alive ?
@@deborahlallu8934 yes?
I'm crying because I can loose my mom in actually every moment and I love her so much.
fee lelix u ok?
Hope everything is okay
Same with my dad
I hope everyone feels theirs mother love forever.
Who else is crying?
Me
*Erol Steven Yu* I'm not cRyInG ur CrYiNg
Me
Me
Erol Steven Yu Me!🙋♀️🏼im also pretty sad that they don't have this song on Spotify
I'm 18 now, just lost my mom. She was 50, still so beautiful and strong. She wasn't feeling well in her last days but it didn't seem urgent. My father was sleeping next to her... Ready to take her to the hospital in the morning, yet he wakes up to her dead body. He started screaming and I ran into the room, to find her cold already. I screamed for her to wake up... She didn't, she was long gone. Mom I love you so much may your soul rest in peace next to your beloved father whom you griefed on. Now I grief the both of you, my grandfather and my mom.
I hope you're doing okay now, it isnt easy to lose anyone, but I hope it gets a little easier to handle in time
May your mother be with our Lord looking out for you until the both of you get together again
stay strong! live you're life enjoy the small things. And one day you will be together with her again. Never give up. And just know that it's not because she isn't here anymore you can't love her anymore. She still love's you! xxx
Stay strong man it always gets better! Losing a loved one is hard I hope you feel better!
I am very sorry for you. I hope you're doing fine and I hope you stay strong. I bet your mother would be so proud of you if she could see the person you have become.
I can't believe noone else is pointing out how frickin cute baby Alec is
potato animates YES
@@Softyvibes Someone gets it-
@@Nuclearshrewcifer ikr!
@Harleen Kaur y e s
IKR HES FREAKING PRECIOUS
Lyrics:
I can't believe you love me
after all the things i've done
I think i've been the devil
since the day that i've turned one
like when i stole your money
just to buy a pack of gum
i know it wasn't funny
can't believe i was so dumb
I blame it on my age
but even now, i'm not so young
i'm still stuck in my ways
i cant believe what i've become
somehow, you feel the same
I guess that's motherly love
motherly love
wish I could find the piece in me
to see the good things that you see
It's not that easy
but if I saw me through your eyes
maybe I could find a way
to forgive all of the lies
and the stupid things I say
and if I could realize
that it's your blood that I bleed
maybe I could love myself
like the way that you love me
if I saw me through your eyes
your eyes
through your eyes
through my mother's eyes
I can't believe you love me
after all the things i've did
like when I said I hated you when we were in Madrid
like when I didn't answer you cause I was on the road
but you cooked my favorite dinner for me right when I get home
I blame it on my stress
cause I've been feeling so high strung
I'm looking for excuses
and I know that isn't one
somehow, you feel the same
I guess that's motherly love
motherly love
wish I could find the piece in me
to see the good things that you see
it's not that easy
but if I saw me through your eyes
maybe I could find a way
to forgive all of the lies
and the stupid things I say
and if I could realize
that it's your blood that I bleed
maybe I could love myself
like the way that you love me
if I saw me through your eyes
your eyes
through your eyes
through my mother's eyes x 4
but if I saw me through your eyes
maybe I could find a way
to forgive all of the lies
and the stupid things I say
and if I could realize
that it's your blood that I bleed
maybe I could love myself
like the way that you love me
if I saw me through your eyes
your eyes
through your eyes
through my mother's eyes
Thanks ❤️❤️
@Jasper Lewis-Boyd can't it be 'I did' though. It seems like he is saying that.
@Jasper Lewis-Boyd oh I thought in a different way. Kinda like 'poetic freedom'. Isn't that what it is called? I don't know. Grammatically it may be wrong. But when u think about it in a different, philosophical angle it makes sense. At least to me. Although I'm a nobody😂😂😂😂
@Jasper Lewis-Boyd yeah they're often making grammatical mistakes in songs,like If I was..... I know that you can say it in familiar language but it's actually grammatically not correct...
Thank you
~~~~~~*~~~~~~~
I can't believe you love me
after all the things i've done
I think i've been the devil
since the day that i've turned one
like when i stole your money
just to buy a pack of gum
i know it wasn't funny
can't believe i was so dumb
I blame it on my age
but even now, i'm not so young
i'm still stuck in my ways
i cant believe what i've become
somehow, you feel the same
I guess that's motherly love
motherly love
wish I could find the piece in me
to see the good things that you see
It's not that easy
but if I saw me through your eyes
maybe I could find a way
to forgive all of the lies
and the stupid things I say
and if I could realize
that it's your blood that I bleed
maybe I could love myself
like the way that you love me
if I saw me through your eyes
your eyes
through your eyes
through my mother's eyes
I can't believe you love me
after all the things i've did
like when I said I hated you when we were in Madrid
like when I didn't answer you cause I was on the road
but you cooked my favorite dinner for me right when I get home
I blame it on my stress
cause I've been feeling so high strung
I'm looking for excuses
and I know that isn't one
somehow, you feel the same
I guess that's motherly love
motherly love
wish I could find the piece in me
to see the good things that you see
it's not that easy
but if I saw me through your eyes
maybe I could find a way
to forgive all of the lies
and the stupid things I say
and if I could realize
that it's your blood that I bleed
maybe I could love myself
like the way that you love me
if I saw me through your eyes
your eyes
through your eyes
through my mother's eyes x 4
but if I saw me through your eyes
maybe I could find a way
to forgive all of the lies
and the stupid things I say
and if I could realize
that it's your blood that I bleed
maybe I could love myself
like the way that you love me
if I saw me through your eyes
your eyes
through your eyes
through my mother's eyes
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
Renae OBRIGADA
Teach me your fast ways >:{ mine took me 22 minutes
Renae thanks for this
Renae thanks ✌
Thanks ton!!! I guess it’s peace instead of piece though:)
"A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take"
Cardinal Mermillod
Note: Besides love, you reminded there are other problems and issues in the world
Thank you, Alec!
You are right broo👍
Stepmoms: (• - •) ( •- •)
This song made me cry..... And it's been months since I've cried. I can't tell how happy i felt crying out for every pain i feel after all this time. This might sound absurd but I'm very thankful to this song for it did something people arround me have failed to do, console me. And i can't be more greateful.
*Alec Benjamin is my favourite artist from now on*
I've been holding back the pain I've had on my shoulders for a while. My mother passed away in 2018. I've had people tell me they are there if I need them. One of them even knows how it feels because they've been through it. I have a hard time expressing my feelings so I eventually found writing poems is a good way for me to express myself.
he has always been my fav
@@-TheFacelessGamer- im glad you found a positive way to express yourself!
@@janegilbertson9868 Thank you!
Cutting Edge Gaming hope it’ll get easier soon, it does eventually even if the pain never goes away
❤️ *We Are Nothing Without Our Moms* ❤️
☺️BLESS EVERY MOM ON EARTH AND IN HEAVEN☺️
PREACH
My mom is everything to me
I agree but we also need Father's since sometimes Mother's arent there for their children.
@Jari SketcheZ well.... He has his Jiji and Sensei's.
@Jari’s Corner Some people don't have very good mothers, so they need their father instead.
This is way too accurate. But beautiful
How could anyone dislike this song!😲
Nadja Taylor ever heartless person
Beacuse these silly people have their phones upside down 😂
Because not everyone is lucky enough to hava a mom that loves them.
Violet Wayne 😂😂 ikr
Nadja Taylor I know
Alec's mom would be so proud of Him!!! ❤
She's alive dw
Oof
@@maeve4878 I thought dw meant dimwit
@@emmaszymonski9850 i-
@@maeve4878 oh good I almost died 😅
*But if I saw me through your eyes,*
*Maybe I could find a way,*
*To forgive all of the lies,*
*And the stupid things I say...*
*And if I could realize,*
*That it’s your blood that I bleed,*
*Maybe I could love myself,*
*Like the way that you love me...*
*If I saw me through your eyes,*
*Your eyes,*
*Through your eyes,*
*My mother’s eyes.....*
My favorite part
Your profile pic is my school account profile pic. IM DYING
Verse1:
i cant believe you love me after all the things I've done.
I think I've been the devil since the day that i turned one.
Like when i stole your money just to buy a pack of gum.
I know it wasn't funny can't believe i was so dumb.
I blame it on my age, but even now I'm not so young.
I'm still stuck in my ways i can't believe what I've become.
Somehow you feel the same i guess its motherly love,Motherly love
pre-chorus:
wish i could find the peace in me.
to see the good things that you see.
it's not that easy...
chorus:
but if i saw me through your eyes.
maybe i could find a way.
to forgive all of the lies..and the stupid things i say.
and if i could realize
that's it's your blood that i bleed.
maybe i could love myself,like the way that you love me.
if i saw me through your eyes x3
through my mothers eyes
verse 2:
i can't believe you love me after all the things i did.
like when i said i hated you when we were in madrid.
like when i didn't answer you cuz i was on the road but you cook my favourite dinner for me right when i get home.
i blame it on my stress cuz i've been feeling so headstrong.
i'm looking for excuses and i know that isn't one.
somehow you feel the same i guess it's motherly love.
pre-chorus:
wish i could find the peace in me.
to see the good things that you see.
it's not that easy...
chorus x2 :
but if i saw me through your eyes.
maybe i could find a way.
to forgive all of the lies..and the stupid things i say.
and if i could realize
that's it's your blood that i bleed.
maybe i could love myself,like the way that you love me.
if i saw me through your eyes x3
through my mothers eyes. x4
(i did my best hopefully its all correct?)
Serena Cacicia I Proof read it, it's all right. Thanks for the lyrics!
Hi
I LOVE YOU thank YOUUUUUUU
Maybe 2 words were wrong
Why do I agree with it? The "and if i could realise that it's your blood that i bleed" gave me goosebumps
This genuinely made me cry, I truly love my mom 💜
Thanks
Lore olympus...
Burning Callouses fellow webtoon reader !
me and my mom have never really had the best relationship, my mom loves me but she truly does not like me as a person. i always have so many things i want to tell her and talk to her about, but she always ignores me. maybe i need to speak up but its hard with her. ive tried to hurt myself in many ways and i know my mom has dealt with that too, i want to talk to her about it and open up to her about it, but she always shuts down and never wants to talk about it. sometimes i dislike my mom, but ill always love her deep down lmao. thank you for making me cry alec, you're a god :)
Same thing with my mom. Try sending her this song as a way of opening up a line of communication. Send her a letter, text, or email explaining everything to her. She loves you, but has a hard time accepting she doesn't like your personality. If you send her something to read, she can't interrupt you, and if she doesn't read it or try to connect with you as well, then it's on her, not you. You've already tried connecting with her. You don't have to hate her or cut her out of your life completely, but if she doesn't try then you don't have to keep trying either.
relate honestly,,,,,,,
You're not a devil in any way.Keep up the great work .We are here for you 😊
This hit me so deep in my heart I can't believe it. Amazing work 💕 A good message to remind people to always appreciate their mother. Heck, not only my mom, but my dad too. Both of them for putting up with me for this long. ❤❤❤
So true
Claudia Espinoza same
my parent never came to me so ill do the same i never met them i hate them because of it
Clearly, all those dislikes were people who were holding their devices upside down and thought it was the 'like' button. Y'all kinda silly sometimes.
maybe they were sobbing and missed it and ended up just not noticing
yeah, i'm not even gonna blame this one on the onion ninjas. i was crying so hard i swear this man is the only one who can do that to me
or they eyes were filled with tears while liking
I disliked cause my phone was upside down. (Jk I liked first then disliked and like again 😂)
They were crying so hard they saw dis-like
oh shit I was holding my device upside down D:
I remember listening to this for the first time and of course I cried, I cried until I couldn’t breath. When my mother and I were in the car, I don’t exactly remember what we were doing but, I asked her to listen to this song and she did. My mother had been pained all her life and so I and my siblings from a situation we’ve been through but anyways, my mother heard it and as soon I heard the lyrics I cried and cried. I felt like I failed my mother, I wasn’t enough. She stopped the car and held me for a good 10 minutes. It felt like the world stopped. It was nice being held by someone, especially by your mother. I felt like she knew my doubts of not being enough. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to thank for what she’s done in my life. Thank you Alex Benjamin for making this song. It will forever be in my heart, thank you for making me and my moms relationship better and possible.
Th is comment is so beautiful, it literally made me cry , cherish your mom right now that you still have her❤️❤️
but... who is Alex Benjamin? :)
@@Yuukimimii i- 99% chance they meant alec
This makes me cry and wish I knew how to be nicer to my mom. I legitimately can’t. I try so hard and always do something stupid 😭💜 I love her, I hope she knows that
Yeah same
I was feeling really down today and then I saw that Alec uploaded and he just made my whole day so much better omg
Lili same!!!
Lili me2
PERFEITO!
SADPlay. Ce e brasileir@?
Cat Feelings Sim, eu sou
Não to sabendo lidar
SADPlay. ACHEI UM BR! AAAAH
#BR estamos em todos os lugares
for all the people that disliked this can we speak
Kyle Borgman13 prolly they disliked cuz it made them cry.
If they don't like the video then they can just stop watching
Everyone has different opinions, maybe they just dislikes it naturally or maybe there's a deeper reason. We just don't know, ┐(´д｀)┌
Right! Like why!?
Trolls propably
I just recently heard this song
and started crying when he sang the lines :-
"Wish I could find the piece in me to see the good things that you see.....
.......Maybe I could love myself , the way that you love me...."
I recently started to get over my addiction of cutting myself because when my mother saw the cuts she started crying and telling me that she loved me, and to never do it again .....
I always cry at these parts....
If anyone in the comments section could let me know of a piano or keyboard tutorial for this song .......I would be very grateful.......
I just can't seem to find it......
Thank you and have a cheerful day.... :)
Be strong and get over your addiction for yourself and your mom. Wishing u the best!
I cried on the same line
Am currently hiding scars.... Am scared of her finding out.....
Absolutely incredible. :)
Ayee I know u
casey!!!
Lyrics:
I can't believe you love me after all the things I've done,
I think I've been the Devil since the day that I turned one,
Like when I stole your money just to buy a pack of gum,
I know it wasn't funny, can't believe I was so dumb.
I blame it on my age but even now I'm not so young,
I'm still stuck in my ways I can't believe what I've become,
Somehow you feel the same, I guess it's motherly love,
Motherly love~
Wish I could find the peace in me,
To see the good things that you see,
It's not that easy~
But if I saw me through your eyes,
Maybe I could find a way,
To forgive all of the lies,
And the stupid things I say.
And if I could realize,
That is your blood that I bleed,
Maybe I could love myself,
Like the way that you love me.
If I saw me through your eyes~,
Your eyes~,
Through your eyes~,
Through my mother's eyes.
I can't believe you love me after all the things I did,
Like when I said I hated you and we were in Madrid,
Like when I didn't answer you 'cuz I was on the road,
But you cooked my favourite dinner for me right when I got home.
I blame it on my stress 'cuz I've been feeling so hot strung,
I'm looking for excuses and I know that isn't one,
Somehow you feel the same, I guess it's motherly love,
Motherly love~
Wish I could find the peace in me,
To see the good things that you see,
It's not that easy~
But if I saw me through your eyes,
Maybe I could find a way,
To forgive all of the lies,
And the stupid things I say.
And if could realize,
That is your blood that I bleed,
Maybe I could love myself,
Like the way you love me.
If I saw me through eyes~,
Your eyes~,
Through your eyes~,
Through my mother's eyes.
Through my mother's eyes(x3)
But if I saw me through your eyes,
Maybe I could find a way,
To forgive all of the lies,
And the stupid things I say.
And if could realize,
That is your blood that I bleed,
Maybe I could love myself,
Like the way you love me,
If I saw me through eyes,
Your eyes~,
Through your eyes~,
Through my mother's eyes.
If you notice any mistakes, please inform me! Thank you!
Thank you ♡
Boiii record labels be sleeping on Alec like damn
ya
IKR?!
So sad this wasn't ever released, it's my favorite song by Alec Benjamin. I remember crying while listening to this song a few years back when I was dealing with depression. It still makes me tear up to this day. Unbelievably relatable, I love my mom.
"And if I could realize that’s it’s your blood that I bleed" that line made me realize it so much things. I’m such a bad daughter...wow. Thank you for this beautiful song. You never disappoint me. Your voice is the voice of an angel. U are an angel. Thank you.
You’re such a beautiful soul 😊
I legit just had a heart attack when I saw the notification 😂 good job Alec ❤️
Marissa Foster ME TOO
Marissa Foster me
Marissa Foster k same.😂
I sent this to my mom and about 10-15 minutes later she came in my room crying because of the song we haven't really had a good relationship so after she heard it we've had a descent relationship we still have our fights here and there but overall it's been pretty good thank you so much for that Alec ❤
The music I listen to when I was younger consisted with a fair amount of your songs (mostly unreleased), and I’m still baffled every time you manage to write a song that perfectly describes my feelings. 💜
This is beautiful... I think we all feel this way after so many years. We realize that when we do something wrong, our moms don't want to be angry at us, and they hurt when they do. Thank you, Alec, you helped me see this. Keep being amazing ♥
Is no one gonna talk about how freakin cute that picture of Alec is?!
🥺
I don’t think that’s him
Ten seconds in and I lov this, how in the heck do you manage to make such amazing music?!?!
1,4k likes 1 dislike. #Respect. And that one person who clicked dislike probably clicked wrong. But hey we all make mistakes but our mother still forgives us :)
its now 111 mistakes that must have been forgiven
HAHA dude your probably the reason for the 148 new dislikes btw.
😂
I started crying when the part," maybe if I could realize that its your blood I bleed". mostley the whole song made me cr y, but mostly that part.
I played this for my mum on mothers day and she cried.😭This song is absolutely beautiful.❤❤❤
clicked as fast as possible
Abbey Nicole me too
Abbey Nicole same
Same
I was crying hard and listening to worst day of my life. This makes me less sad. Thank you for always being here..
I told my mom that when I die, or when she dies, I want this song to be played at my funeral just for her.
Every song that Alec Benjamin sings has his heart in every second of it, and you can feel that. It's very powerful...
“Maybe I could love myself , like they way that you love me “
Luv this 🥺💞
0:46 this part always makes me cry, I don’t know why but it’s something about the way he sings it mixed with the lyrics itself it just always gets to me
You are just so amazing
I showed this song to my mom (her own mother committed suicide when she was in her younger teens) and she started tearing up. I love your music Alec!!
This song is so heart warming. I can always look to Alec's songs when I'me sad.❤❤
This song is one of Alec's that always get me to cry instantly, we really don't deserve mothers
Soy latina y es la primera vez que escucho una canción de Alec, este artista debería ser tan famoso como los reggaetoneros
My favorite songs by Alec Benjamin are "My Mother's Eyes" and "Knife in my Back." I hope he puts those two songs on Apple Music
“and if i could realize , that it’s you’re blood that i bleed , maybe i could love myself , like the way that you love me.”
I really wish he'd release this on Spotify 😭
... I just Instantly started crying the minute I put this song on. Lately I’ve been struggling with things like this and having my life on track. It’s a lot of things. My mothers aren’t even my biological ones (I was adopted by two moms so technically I have three.) And the part where he said “That it’s your blood that I bleed, maybe I could love myself in the way that you love me..” I broke out in tears.. I never knew my Birth parents but I believe my blood is of the ones who took me in. It’s hard sometimes just like Alec said “It’s not that easy.” I just have this sense of rejection all the time; So maybe it would be better if we swapped eyes.
I always tell my friend to say “I love you bye”
To her parents because
She could loose them any minute
I do that to mine and my friends are like “eww” why do you say I love you to your mom and dad like every second but you don’t really know when you can lose them :(
Aubs Is great Some people really don’t understand what it’s like to not have a mom or dad and take it for granted. My dad was almost never in my life and now I’m scared to see him and my brother has PTSD from him. Glad that you respect your parents and tell them you love them when you have the chance ❤️
My grandmother never liked saying "bye". She feels like "bye" is seems like it's a forever statement.
That's exactly what I tell myself, and what I want to do deep down.
But there's just this serious mental and physical struggle when I try to make myself do it, or even jusy say things like stay safe.
What makes it even worse is that I've noticed that I only truly struggle with expressing myself in basically anyway with family.
Outside of that I could most likely easily say "love u, bye" to someone ik. Hell.
Even to a stranger.
It sucks, man.
Ever since I can remember whenever my mom or dad left we would say "bye love you see you soon bye" but really fast lol
I wish I had the chance to say these things to my mother before she passed in February. She drank herself to death, heavily depressed with being separated from me and my siblings. I wish I could have told her how much I truly loved her instead of pushing her out of my life. I pushed her away, and my siblings followed. She must've felt so alone, and I regret every day of my life for not changing that, or for never telling her enough how much I loved her. To the moon and back, Mom.
my own mother and i have had a really difficult relaitonhsip...deep down i think that our mothers always know that we love them...i hope this helps
Happy mother's day to all the moms out there! i wish you all a very happy day and i hope u get all the hugs, kisses, and gifts you all deserve!
I played this during my mom's journey to the cemetery in 2019. Thank you, Alec.
To all the good sons out there, trying to standup in life and care for MoM ❤
This song hurts so much for me, my mother was never loving or caring and I do see myself through her eyes and it hurts so much, the comments about my weight she made, my hair, my fashion sense, everything and anything to tear me down. She told me my first day of high school as I was getting ready that I was going to be bullied. I hate myself because of her, and I hate her for the pain she caused me and the neglect.
❤ I wish you a good day o7
I'm sorry that she did that
I hope you can overcome that.
Your beautiful just the way you are.
Fashion, weight, personality. That doesn't determine how beautiful you are.
What makes you beautiful is inside you.
What makes you, you!
Your very beautiful and talented.
I don't know you but I hope you have a very good life and try to overcome those hate comments and those rude things that she says bc she doesn't matter. This is your life, so be you and you can choose what you like to do/what you don't want to do.
Good people will come in your way and guide you!
Have a beautiful day/night/whatever it is!
Que música linda ❤️🇧🇷
Sii
Todas as músicas dele são perfeitas, ele merecia ser mais reconhecido
Uma mais linda que a outra💙
It's amazing how all of alecs songs have a different meaning to everyone. I don't understand how anyone can listen to this heavenly music and hate on it.
This is so true and this song could teach many (even me) about respect, love, and forgiveness. This guy should be so much more famous-radio and much more, he's talented.He sings stories.
Wow, im late to find this gem! Either way, this is my new favourite song. Ive gone through many difficult periods in my life and the "and if I could realise that it’s your blood that I bleed" line hit me different. I have hurt myself before, it was kind of a last resort many of the times and i would always feel so bad after i was done. I remember washing everything off and patching it up afterwards and wanting to just seal it all up again. It felt like i was ruining my mothers work, the body that she literally had created was now being harmed by no one else but myself, it felt like i betrayed her in a sense because i love her so much. Your music has been a HUGE support for me Alec, and its often been a help when i didnt know how to move forwards, so i want to thank you for that❤
Brazil Loves you Alec ❤🇧🇷
Okays Wang?? RTTT
Yes 🇧🇷
Absolutely fantastic poetry performed in music by an absolutely fantastic talent. Love it.
this song hits different, I lost my mom from cancer when I was just 4. I remember doing some terrible things, see; she had trouble walking and needed crutches and a wheelchair sometimes. I remember once I made terrible messes and she had to clean it up, I remember how well she took care of me even on Crutches. She was an amazing mom and I wish I could go back in time to not do any of that bad stuff I did. I wish I could go back and say how much I loved her and appreciated what she did for me.
Writing this is making me cry, so before i start crying even more, I'm going to stop. But for those of you reading this, tell everyone in your family how much you love them, because you'll never know when you won't be able to again.
You're a precious soul 💗
Sorry for your loss mate, you seem to be a great person and that is probably thanks to yourother ik you didn't spend much time with her but I can assure that what she taught you in those 4 years is gold, and I'm sure you can maker her happy up there by being you and spreading nice messages like this mate, you are awesome ❤️
im so sorry, im sure if she could read your comment shed be so proud of you ❤
I can't stop the tears .
I'm full on ugly crying .
Going to go give my 2 kids a hug right now
My mom passed away when I was 11. I'm 16 now, and I've always regretted not being the child I thought she wanted. But I know she loved me no matter what, and she deserved the best that happened in her years of life.
If you think your mothers don't love you the way you think they do, its true. They love you so much more than you'll ever know. They love you for you even when you feel like they don't. They always will. Relation or not, they are still yours, and you are still theirs. ❤❤❤
Omg you need to release this song every where It’s sooo good
this is so beautiful :)
It’s my moms birthday today I’m so grateful for her
'and if I could realize that is your blood that I bleed, maybe I could love myself like the way that you love me '
I have a horrible relationship with my mother. But every bit of this song reminds me of my dad, who I am so lucky to still have in my life. Thank you, Alec, for this song and allowing the public to enjoy it. I hope my dad appreciates this song as much as I do. ❤
❤️❤️ this shows the reality of life. I love it. Ur truly an artist ❤️❤️
Hearing a lot of his others songs, I always thought "he must have a good mother" just in the way he talks about women and relationships. Ah, this is genuinely so beautiful, and couldnt have come at a better time. I dont know how to show my mother I'm sorry, but I know I love her a lot and I want her to know it too
I crying tears of shock it’s been awhile since I heard this song and I cried because it’s true my mom was in an accident and this made me break down thinking what if I didn’t see her again.. this really made my chest hurt oh god😣😭
Today is mothers day in my country and i sent this to her , thanks Alec❤❤
Can we just talk about how GORGEOUS his mom is and how ADORABLE Alec is? Because all these sappy comments are going to make me cry even more 😭💔
This song always makes me sad, because my mother, father and sister abandoned me, they threw me on the street with no one in the world... I'm an orphan, being alone in the world is one of the worst pains anyone can feel, and no one ever you will understand how painful it is... The silence of loneliness hurts too much I was a very kind and caring boy, as a child I told my mother every day that I loved her, I just wanted a mother's unconditional love :(
Aw I'm so sad for you Lucas 🥺. I hope you find people who you will love like family and they love you the same. Stay strong my friend 💙.
When i heard this the first time i cried and am convinced none of alec`s songs are bad unlike the other singers
PLS I NEED THIS ON SPOTIFY 😭😭😭😭
This is beautiful. I'm seriously crying, I've listened to this song like fifty times and I still love it.
I had a breakdown and only my mom could tell what was going on and came and sat in my room, I cried my eyes out and she stayed for every second of it, for the first time I really realized what having a mom like her meant. I love you mom, you saw what I couldn't and didn't blame me for it when I chose it anyway. Happy Mothers Day Mom.
I can't imagine a person who would possibly want to dislike this. Some people are just miserable in their life Expressing it onto others
This is probably one of the most inspiring songs ever. Personally, I think that no matter how many times you mess up, they always see the good in you. I don't know how I could ever repay my parents for everything they've done for me. The fact that Alec put so many deep messages in this song is so amazing. This song is so amazing. "Maybe I could love myself, like you love me." That's one of the most beautiful quotes. It makes a mom so happy to see you grow. It's okay to make mistakes. And your mom's have been through so much, but they still love you. No matter what happens. Cherish the time you have with your mom. And don't forget that they love you no matter what.
Eu te amo Alec❤️
Garota Rabisco braaasil 💙💙💙💙
Duda Sc
Aaaa🌸❤️
Salve ✌
I haven't words... I know who is Mother-she is everything. I love my mother and respect every mother of our globe. Thank you so much for this gold song!
Played this song in the car with my mom yesterday. She asked me if I always listen to this song, and I said yes. It's kinda sad when she said, "Good, because if I'm not here anymore then you can always listen to this song if you missed me."
It's so sad because I don't have a good relationship with any of my family, both distant and immediate, but this still makes me tear up because my mom's still done so many things for me through our arguments and her anger that I'm just ungrateful for.
same :(