I remember crying my eyes out the first time I heard this song. I ended up in a life threatening situation that left me with a bit of damage in my head at a very young age. It deeply affects me but I’m still going strong. This song is so damn beautiful.
The verse "you'd do anything to destroy the body that they rescued" makes me think this song could be about a friend who tried committing suicide. Yeah, they're saved, they're breathing, but... They're not ALIVE. Void of joy and with those... Empty eyes that have died on that day, on that road. "You're just a shell of the boy that you've been" (Also what's interesting, Nicole sings "the boy you've been" and the second voice sings "the girl you've been")
I don't talk about this often, simply because I don't know how to. But when I was a kid before my school shut down for it's last year, me and my brother were friends with a boy who would walk home with us sometimes. He was super nice, bright eyed smart kid. He had dreams and hopes and we always did a lot of " when I grow up talks". Well, one day school let's out, he was going a Lil slow so we left a Lil before him and he said he'll catch up with us inna bit. We cross the road and we're slightly down the side walk, now keep in mind the school was up on a hill, so it would be difficult to see over the bend sometimes, and because of that it was incredibly dangerous for speeding cars to not slow down when going up the hill... One bus driver didn't heed the signs saying school zone, slow down, etc. He hit that boy going 70 on a 30 mph school zone road. I didn't see it, we just heard the crash and our older friend hurried us away as the screaming started. I later heard from staff and my mom over talking, after he was hit his body was projected into the air, and his little head smashed into the concrete. It opened and his brain matter was everywhere. My principle ended up holding his head closed, and when he and the paramedics picked up his body a chunk just slushed out because almost his entire brain liquified except for a small portion of the left half and his brain stem remained intact. He also had 6 broken ribs, a broken arm, and a few fractures in his hips, but when it was all said and done none of that mattered. He was brain dead, so they decided to pull the plug after a day. He was only 8, he would've been at least 22 this year having been at least 3 years older then me. I still remember I wore a purple turtle neck sweater and black jeans to his funeral, my mom wouldn't let me look at the body. I didn't really think about it for years, and I know it's not our fault. But we couldve waited on him. If we had just waited he would've been okay and made it over that road, and down the hill again. He won't grow up now, and like. Fuck. I feel guilty? I dunno. I think about him from time to time, but I can't even remember his name. I guess I choose not to. We still have a funeral pamphlet from his funeral, tucked off in our memory box. It's difficult to look at it though
I just wanna tell you its not your fault oke? Dont blame yourself for situations you cant change youll only hurt yourself your probaly the most wonderful sweetest and cutest person on this planet and i dont want you for that dont think what if its a trap what if doesent exist try waiting for your friends now♡
I know this song might be about a car crash, but i can't help but relate to it, living with epilepsy, depression and BPD really makes me feel like.... Gone
It feels awful to be stuck in your own head, lying in bed as if you can't get up because you just want to die so bad. I'm glad I didn't die from those terrible parts of my life I'm no longer a coma baby
This reminds me of my uncle, he have severe progressive multiple sclerosis, he was completely paralysed for over 10 years, couldn’t speak and was just sitting there, doctors did everything they could to keep him alive even though it must of been absolute hell being stuck like that, all because my family refused to let him go. He died painfully in 2019 sadly, I know it’s dark but I wish my family had let him die peacefully instead of forcing him to live like that...
I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle. It's hard to let go of loved ones when you want them to get better, but sometimes it should be their choice. I still hope you were able to show them that you cared and I hope they felt that even though their last moments were painful, they're at peace. Thank you for sharing. I've had a similar experience but I still wanted to show them all my love and I just want to talk to others to hopefully put their mind at ease.
My grandpa is currently resting in a hospice bed, he’s not gonna make it through the night. he’s dying from obesity. he so drugged up on medication, I can’t even recognize him. just remembered this song from my childhood and I’m crying so hard.
i really can't determine whether this song is about an actually person in a coma or someone who is so mentally ill that their personality had changed to unrecognizable amounts
i interpret it as someone who suffered a serious wreck (bike, car, motorcycle) and went in to a coma then after they woke up they're not the person they were before
One of her friends was in a car accident and suffered brain damage so he wasn’t the same after. I guess it’s insinuating he’d rather them have not saved him then to be how he is now, damaged.
this reminds me of my relative with ms, theyre changing so much over time because of their brain dying and it hurts to see them change from the person i grew up with to who they are now. i still love them, but it hurts.
I know what this song is most likely about, a miscarriage perhaps or the loss of a child, but I've got a personal interpretation. Personally I think this song is about watching a family member or a loved one (sibling, friend, parent, etc.) slowly destroy themselves with a self destructive tendancy (drugs, self harm, eating disorders, etc.) and being unable to do anything, being completely helpless as you watch a loved one slowly slip through your fingers. Of course this is just my personal interpretation, and others are welcome, but that's what I interpret this song as.
I feel this song a lot right now. My mom is a severe alcoholic who can't accept her problem and it keeps making her sick. They saved her life so many times but she's always puking. I don't want this anymore
Makes me think of my ex, had a terrible accident ultimately resulting him to be confied to a wheelchair.. It killed him in every way & not only physically... :(
Here after my sister's passing. She suffered from diabetes and other health issues. Her sugar dropped so low she went into a coma a couple of times. But the last one she didn't make it out of💔
I noticed the background is Steven Universe- Edit: looking back in this, this does sort of relate to Steven Universe Future in a way. Someone needs to make a SuF animatic with this song
"But you would do anything to destroy the body that they rescued your sick little head so brain damaged and lying in that hospital bed" I remember when i was 17 i was anorexic and very suicidal. I was often in the school counselors office a lot. Now looking back i think it had to do with my ed and there concern for me. One day while i was in there she saw all the cuts over my hand and arm. She asked me do you want to kill yourself i started crying and said yes. So before i know it i get picked up by an ambulance and they drop me off at a hospital. While in the hospital bed i thought of this song specifically the part of the song i mentioned. And i broke down. I did not want help at all but i was suffering. After being in the hospital i was transfered to a psych ward and my life took an interesting turn. I wish no eating disorder on anyone ! Its a true nightmare.
@@covers2343 im so sorry i know the struggle i am currently going down that path in my life again after all these years anorexia is a tough battle I wish you nothing but the best and hope i really wish you recovery and a happy life you deserve it
I’m sorry for commenting so late but it’s situations like this that keep me from telling people that I’m suffering. I know that if I speak up or accidentally say the wrong thing I’ll be torn away from my home and my family and hauled off to be warehoused. I’m really scared of that so I try my best not to let anything get to my head just to spare myself from the pain. I’m sorry that you had to go through that and I hope you are doing well now.
TW// s//cide as someone who deals with suicidal thoughts more then often, I interprete this song as a parent/old person/caretaker who was taking care of their child/a younger person, and said person attempted s//cide and is now in a coma.
Tell me if I am wrong but this is about a person who has suicidal thoughts, well he didn't use to, anyway so a friend came to his house one day and he had bashed his own skull open she called the medics and he was rushed to the hospital, the doctor thought they saved them but they didn't and the empty shell is the personality that was lost..
Let me real quickly have a moment to gush about a character? This song makes me think of 2-D from Gorillaz (yes the band gorillaz, dont judge me) See in the story he has brain damage and two hyphemas and was in a coma for a couple months with Murdoc as his caretaker. Murdoc is super abusive to 2D but 2D has acute Stockholm syndrome (canon) and even though he complains and says he hates him, is miserable whenever murdoc leaves (See The Now Now). He even has an addiction to pain killers. Anyway what I'm trying to say is this song fits his character to a T and it's got me feelin some sorta way
sad boi this song is about her friend who got into a car accident and essentially died but was brought back but wasnt the same because of all the brain damage he had
Manda Lund nicole literally said it was about a car accident her best friend was in especially when she says “coma baby the cry of your bones, and your skull when it split on the road, I wish I’d find all the lonely remnants of you that left when your head cracked open” he died but was revived but hes not the same because hes got so much brain damage and he wants to die. im not interpreting that its about a car wreck i know
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I remember crying my eyes out the first time I heard this song. I ended up in a life threatening situation that left me with a bit of damage in my head at a very young age. It deeply affects me but I’m still going strong. This song is so damn beautiful.
You're a really strong and brave person, I hope you're doing well.
❤️💪
Keep fighting girl
Eva B thank you very very much 🖤🖤🖤
i almost died at birth (i had holes in my lungs)
(which left me w/ ashtma)
@@bugsinricepudding. that is so terrible, I’m sorry to hear...
The verse "you'd do anything to destroy the body that they rescued" makes me think this song could be about a friend who tried committing suicide. Yeah, they're saved, they're breathing, but... They're not ALIVE. Void of joy and with those... Empty eyes that have died on that day, on that road.
"You're just a shell of the boy that you've been"
(Also what's interesting, Nicole sings "the boy you've been" and the second voice sings "the girl you've been")
I love this version way more than the one with only her voice, I love the ending here, I really like the harmony, beautiful
I don't talk about this often, simply because I don't know how to.
But when I was a kid before my school shut down for it's last year, me and my brother were friends with a boy who would walk home with us sometimes. He was super nice, bright eyed smart kid. He had dreams and hopes and we always did a lot of " when I grow up talks". Well, one day school let's out, he was going a Lil slow so we left a Lil before him and he said he'll catch up with us inna bit. We cross the road and we're slightly down the side walk, now keep in mind the school was up on a hill, so it would be difficult to see over the bend sometimes, and because of that it was incredibly dangerous for speeding cars to not slow down when going up the hill...
One bus driver didn't heed the signs saying school zone, slow down, etc. He hit that boy going 70 on a 30 mph school zone road. I didn't see it, we just heard the crash and our older friend hurried us away as the screaming started. I later heard from staff and my mom over talking, after he was hit his body was projected into the air, and his little head smashed into the concrete. It opened and his brain matter was everywhere. My principle ended up holding his head closed, and when he and the paramedics picked up his body a chunk just slushed out because almost his entire brain liquified except for a small portion of the left half and his brain stem remained intact. He also had 6 broken ribs, a broken arm, and a few fractures in his hips, but when it was all said and done none of that mattered. He was brain dead, so they decided to pull the plug after a day.
He was only 8, he would've been at least 22 this year having been at least 3 years older then me. I still remember I wore a purple turtle neck sweater and black jeans to his funeral, my mom wouldn't let me look at the body. I didn't really think about it for years, and I know it's not our fault.
But we couldve waited on him. If we had just waited he would've been okay and made it over that road, and down the hill again. He won't grow up now, and like. Fuck. I feel guilty? I dunno. I think about him from time to time, but I can't even remember his name. I guess I choose not to. We still have a funeral pamphlet from his funeral, tucked off in our memory box. It's difficult to look at it though
I just wanna tell you its not your fault oke? Dont blame yourself for situations you cant change youll only hurt yourself your probaly the most wonderful sweetest and cutest person on this planet and i dont want you for that dont think what if its a trap what if doesent exist try waiting for your friends now♡
I know this song might be about a car crash, but i can't help but relate to it, living with epilepsy, depression and BPD really makes me feel like.... Gone
It feels awful to be stuck in your own head, lying in bed as if you can't get up because you just want to die so bad. I'm glad I didn't die from those terrible parts of my life
I'm no longer a coma baby
This reminds me of my uncle, he have severe progressive multiple sclerosis, he was completely paralysed for over 10 years, couldn’t speak and was just sitting there, doctors did everything they could to keep him alive even though it must of been absolute hell being stuck like that, all because my family refused to let him go. He died painfully in 2019 sadly, I know it’s dark but I wish my family had let him die peacefully instead of forcing him to live like that...
I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle. It's hard to let go of loved ones when you want them to get better, but sometimes it should be their choice. I still hope you were able to show them that you cared and I hope they felt that even though their last moments were painful, they're at peace.
Thank you for sharing. I've had a similar experience but I still wanted to show them all my love and I just want to talk to others to hopefully put their mind at ease.
My grandpa is currently resting in a hospice bed, he’s not gonna make it through the night. he’s dying from obesity. he so drugged up on medication, I can’t even recognize him. just remembered this song from my childhood and I’m crying so hard.
i really can't determine whether this song is about an actually person in a coma or someone who is so mentally ill that their personality had changed to unrecognizable amounts
Nyan Strike i read somewhere that they wrote the song about one of there friends who got in a really bad car crash . I might be wrong though...
This song was written while she was in a hospital bed recovering from anorexia so i think it has to do with something along those lines
i interpret it as someone who suffered a serious wreck (bike, car, motorcycle) and went in to a coma then after they woke up they're not the person they were before
@@powerfulwizard420 I believe that you are right. One of Nicole's friend did have a car accident and she wrote this song.
One of her friends was in a car accident and suffered brain damage so he wasn’t the same after. I guess it’s insinuating he’d rather them have not saved him then to be how he is now, damaged.
This song brings back so much... God.. i was feeling better...
This song is so sad and beautiful...
I like to sing this to my dying mouse to ease her pain, i dread the day we have to put her down and the last time I'd sing to her
It's been 8 months
Update?
i did the same with my bunny❤️
Same with my dog, he has two tumors. I don’t know if he will make it to next year 😢
Update please!
LOL that’s lame
This song is absolutely beautiful and reminds me of someone very dear to me , I’m glad I found this :-)
What so many people seem to forget is if you attempt and are saved, you are fixed. None of it goes away. You’re no more alive, just breathing.
this reminds me of my relative with ms, theyre changing so much over time because of their brain dying and it hurts to see them change from the person i grew up with to who they are now. i still love them, but it hurts.
love this version sm more than the released version
I love to imagine how one of my character sings this to her love, or that her love claims her voice and sings it.
I know what this song is most likely about, a miscarriage perhaps or the loss of a child, but I've got a personal interpretation. Personally I think this song is about watching a family member or a loved one (sibling, friend, parent, etc.) slowly destroy themselves with a self destructive tendancy (drugs, self harm, eating disorders, etc.) and being unable to do anything, being completely helpless as you watch a loved one slowly slip through your fingers. Of course this is just my personal interpretation, and others are welcome, but that's what I interpret this song as.
That's the idea I got from it too, currently adding this to my songs for body image and having anorexia
I feel this song a lot right now. My mom is a severe alcoholic who can't accept her problem and it keeps making her sick. They saved her life so many times but she's always puking. I don't want this anymore
i hope everything is going okay
Makes me think of my ex, had a terrible accident ultimately resulting him to be confied to a wheelchair.. It killed him in every way & not only physically... :(
Here after my sister's passing. She suffered from diabetes and other health issues. Her sugar dropped so low she went into a coma a couple of times. But the last one she didn't make it out of💔
may she rest in peace
I love it thanks
Stoned,chilling with music and i comeacross this...i like it.
Wow I feel like a coma baby from all my trauma can't remember anything, love her music
I love this song so much
I noticed the background is Steven Universe-
Edit: looking back in this, this does sort of relate to Steven Universe Future in a way. Someone needs to make a SuF animatic with this song
Mee tooooo
WAIT RLY YAAS
This is a beautiful version of this song and I can’t find it anywhere else, who’s the other artist?
EarthlingsIdeas what do you mean?
EarthlingsIdeas pretty sure nicole made this
Is it weird that this makes me think of Chase Brody?
this hits diff when u literally just recovered from a tbi
"But you would do anything to destroy the body that they rescued your sick little head so brain damaged and lying in that hospital bed"
I remember when i was 17 i was anorexic and very suicidal. I was often in the school counselors office a lot. Now looking back i think it had to do with my ed and there concern for me. One day while i was in there she saw all the cuts over my hand and arm. She asked me do you want to kill yourself i started crying and said yes. So before i know it i get picked up by an ambulance and they drop me off at a hospital. While in the hospital bed i thought of this song specifically the part of the song i mentioned. And i broke down. I did not want help at all but i was suffering. After being in the hospital i was transfered to a psych ward and my life took an interesting turn. I wish no eating disorder on anyone ! Its a true nightmare.
I know, I currently have anorexia :')
@@covers2343 im so sorry i know the struggle i am currently going down that path in my life again after all these years anorexia is a tough battle
I wish you nothing but the best and hope i really wish you recovery and a happy life you deserve it
I’m sorry for commenting so late but it’s situations like this that keep me from telling people that I’m suffering. I know that if I speak up or accidentally say the wrong thing I’ll be torn away from my home and my family and hauled off to be warehoused. I’m really scared of that so I try my best not to let anything get to my head just to spare myself from the pain. I’m sorry that you had to go through that and I hope you are doing well now.
TW// s//cide
as someone who deals with suicidal thoughts more then often, I interprete this song as a parent/old person/caretaker who was taking care of their child/a younger person, and said person attempted s//cide and is now in a coma.
Tell me if I am wrong but this is about a person who has suicidal thoughts, well he didn't use to, anyway so a friend came to his house one day and he had bashed his own skull open she called the medics and he was rushed to the hospital, the doctor thought they saved them but they didn't and the empty shell is the personality that was lost..
Luv it sis
Rowan King yo wtf my name is rowan?? lol i realise a lot of people have the same name but i never see other people with the name as me.
Im Rowan King I just lost my account DX
Let me real quickly have a moment to gush about a character?
This song makes me think of 2-D from Gorillaz (yes the band gorillaz, dont judge me)
See in the story he has brain damage and two hyphemas and was in a coma for a couple months with Murdoc as his caretaker. Murdoc is super abusive to 2D but 2D has acute Stockholm syndrome (canon) and even though he complains and says he hates him, is miserable whenever murdoc leaves (See The Now Now). He even has an addiction to pain killers.
Anyway what I'm trying to say is this song fits his character to a T and it's got me feelin some sorta way
Its me...
This sounds like a song that was kinda what happend to me…..
What is this song about?
sad boi this song is about her friend who got into a car accident and essentially died but was brought back but wasnt the same because of all the brain damage he had
Manda Lund nicole literally said it was about a car accident her best friend was in especially when she says “coma baby the cry of your bones, and your skull when it split on the road, I wish I’d find all the lonely remnants of you that left when your head cracked open” he died but was revived but hes not the same because hes got so much brain damage and he wants to die. im not interpreting that its about a car wreck i know
oh hi harry
harry jumpscare 🤯
This reminds me of FNAF for some reason
I feel like this is about Evan Afton that got crushed by fredbear
@@emmachurch248 the song was made before fnaf