That is terrible! But I'm not surprised. Like you said they do whatever they can to protect their reputation not protect children from harm. It's disgusting. Then these people go on to harm more children because they were never stopped or held accountable. I wish the victims could get true justice.
@@Denycia A few years ago, i began listening to an audiobook The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by JM. It's amazing and i began asking things of my higher mind-- small at first but began seeing incredible results. Now i'm asking for justice in specific things. You're right, survivors of crimes deserve fairness, justice and equality.
I'm so sorry that happened to you, it's courageous of you to share. I hope others can hear your story and know to get away from the upci. Best wishes to you
Missed your videos. Thanks for sharing. That is almost how the abuse I had took place especially with the pastor. Your brave for sharing. Girl you deserve a seat. Never say your trauma isn't valid everyones is no matter how big or small ...also sharing your story helps others to feel brave enough. Keep up the videos I appreciate you sharing your story. I think this happens alot in the apostolic church. Sending love and light to you ❤️
Thanks for watching and being so supportive. What bothers me the most now isn't what happened to me but that everything was covered up for so many years. Someone reached out to me after this to tell me this abuse spanned multiple generations. It makes me sick to my core. And the fact that this is a problem in so many churches across many denominations. It infuriates me. These people that do this and the people that cover it up or push it under the rug are absolute monsters. Sending you love and light in return! Thank you for your support 💖
@@Denycia I agree ...I can now discuss this I took mine to the police and because it happened like 10 yrs ago they couldn't convict anyone.. it is sad that even now more ppl are going through this and it's covered up so much
@@bailygladfelter6242 that's awful. There really shouldn't be a statute of limitations on child sex abuse. Child victims don't frequently come forward because they are scared. That limitation just lets them get away with it!!!
@@Denycia yes they said here in kansas there was no statue of limitations but they had insufficient evidence they told me to fill out victims compensation and it took almost a year to get the investigation going also there were 2 others who reported on the same person as me and nothing came out of it .
Thank you for sharing. I also was born in raised in the church too, though I was only physically and mentally abused, I can only imagine how traumatic your experience has been. That organization is a cult that rather hide and victim blame than force the church goers to see the abuse of all kinds it fosters. The church is abusive emotionally, psychologically, and physically. I wish nothing but healing for you as it is a long and painful journey. You don't have to worry about the details, and understand you are not the lies the church tells you. It took me years and I am still healing. I left the UPCI when I was 15 and broke away from my family and was shunned by the church. I knew of another person dealing with it also and it is a journey worth taking. That place leaves you wounded and searching for an identity bc they took away the years as a kid to just explore who you are with no judgment, punishment, and manipulation. Many of these churches attract abusers and other terrible individuals that hurt than help. I wish things are better for you and hope those searching for answers can find peace with leaving that cult.
Oh my gosh yes to everything you said!!! The abuse, the covering up, the fostering of abuse, and how abusers are drawn into settings like that. You're so right! Going through it all is a very painful journey and your identity is lost. But I agree with you that it is SO worth it. I am so sorry for everything that you went through. You deserve better.
I'm so sorry for the abuse you suffered, as a child and as a young woman. It takes a lot of courage to share something like this. I know there are many people who can relate to this part of your story. I wish this had never happened to you. Hugs to you. ❤️
Thank you ❤ Unfortunately too many people can relate. That's what makes me so upset. What happened to me doesn't really affect me anymore. It's knowing that it happened to so many others and knowing that it was covered up and allowed to continue. It infuriates me.
You are very very strong!!! Lewd and lascivious acts are still sexual assault. I am sorry that this sick cult we were raised in made you feel ashamed for what these perpetrators did to you. Hugs to you.
Holy shit never thought I'd meet another who ran away from apostolic bullshit man I got scars from my church. I remember one time someone actually threw a baby. I remember telling my parents I was leaving and well to sum it up it was not pretty. Hope you live your life to the fullest love you and good luck. Edit:Just found out something similar happened to mom and she is still in church this shit infuriates me.
Wow! I had the same thing happen to me! I felt the same as you-I wasn’t raped, so it wasn’t that bad(?). I was told to not say anything, because he was the pastor and I was just ‘the alcoholic’s daughter’. Long story, but, I just wanted to say that a) I’m so sorry that this happened to you, b) you’re very brave, and c) thank you for these videos! Much Love! ❤️🇨🇦
I am so sorry to hear that the same thing happened to you. I am sorry you weren't listened to, believed, and taken seriously. Can't believe they would discredit you for your father's life choices. You deserved better. Thank you for watching and sharing your story with me ❤️
I was locked in the church/school basement with the preachers son, by the other kids. I was terrified and I screamed. The preachers older daughter got us out. They wanted the preachers son and I to kiss. The preacher had this weird prophecy that his son was sent from heaven to save my witch soul. That I was some sort of evil creature. I guess because I had dreams came true and just knew things they targeted me. Jokes on them. I became what they feared. 😂😂
And one more thing. I'm sorry that happened to you. My abuse was completely different from yours. I have a ton of blocked memories that are coming back slowly. I'm getting help with my therapist. There's a lot to unpack.
@@bluephoeenix oh my goodness that's insane. That prophecy stuff is so weird. I'm glad they didn't save your witch soul. I'm glad you still have that same soul 🖤
@@Denycia I'm glad they didn't save my witchy soul. I can only imagine how miserable I would be if they were successful. I heard the preachers son is still after me. Or in love with me. And he's still an asshole. I'm glad I woke up when I did.
I remember feeling the same way, that since I hadn’t been raped it wasn’t that bad and it must’ve been my fault. I have also been told that the two people who assaulted me weren’t really UPC they were just pretenders so they don’t count as abuse of the UPC.
I am so sorry that happened to you and that they just made excuses for it rather than protecting you. It's so frustrating when they claim "oh those people aren't real UPC" or "those aren't real Christians" like wtf? Yes they are! They do this to avoid taking accountability and it's sickening.
I want to say I have been moved by your life story with your videos. I don't know what to say. (Hugs 💜) It is never the fault of a person who is victimized by a predator no matter what the church says. I admit that I got something against the Apostolic religion and they are wrong in their beliefs. (I made other posts about what they did to me and my friend)
Ok.. I sent you a comment yesterday asking to speak privately with you and it was regarding this. But this was before I saw this video. I don’t know how to deal with it or how to live my life without judgement. I was told it was another rule of how we got into heaven. There’s a lot more backstory to that.. but if there’s anyway possible you would be interested or willing to have some kind of contact with me - I would so appreciate it. I have two small girls and I don’t want to keep them from having a wonderful childhood because of my past trauma and my PTSD and anxiety. They are 6 and 8 which are the ages I was and it’s really hard..
I'm proud of you for trying to work through your trauma and better yourself for your children to try and give them the best life. My email is denyciadawn@hotmail.com
Hi. Did you do drugs during this time while you made this video ? I am sorry for what you have gone through 🥺 my heart goes out to you. You are a brave & strong woman for sharing your story & we all appreciate God loves you & dont give up on your relationship with God because God is separate from the Church. You are a special person like there is a special quality that you have as a person.
UPCI Pastors are experts at covering up sexual abuse. I call the UPC skirt “easy access” in the male dominated world. Your story is unfortunately very common in the UPCI CULT.
There are really some good Apostolic Churches. I attend Rose of Sharon Apostolic Faith Church in Philadelphia PA. I’ve been here for two years, I met my saved and faithful husband here. God is truly good and blessing us to have a baby boy together. ... you may need to pray and ask God to help you with your Difficulties. And to lead and guide you to the right Apostolic Faith Church. Not all Apostolic Pentecostal Churches are bad. 😊🙏🏽
I'm glad you had a good experience. Unfortunately, I did not and I have zero interest in trying other apostolic churches for many reasons. But again, glad you had a good experience!
Thank you for sharing your story 🙏
Thanks for listening!
Thank you for your bravery and love in sharing what happened to you as a child and beyond, and i'm so sorry
That is terrible! But I'm not surprised. Like you said they do whatever they can to protect their reputation not protect children from harm. It's disgusting. Then these people go on to harm more children because they were never stopped or held accountable. I wish the victims could get true justice.
@@Denycia A few years ago, i began listening to an audiobook The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by JM. It's amazing and i began asking things of my higher mind-- small at first but began seeing incredible results.
Now i'm asking for justice in specific things. You're right, survivors of crimes deserve fairness, justice and equality.
@@lorettajoy7275 I need to check this book out! Thank you so much for the suggestion!
Thank you for speaking out!
I'm facing this now.
Exposing the the truths
I'm glad you're standing up and speaking out too!
So sorry to hear this. This is heart breaking.
@@keithparker5625 thank you. I'm much better now though so at least there is a silver lining!
Good morning.I've spent a part of this morning watching all five videos.May you continue to heal,as well as,go forward with your life.
Thank you so much for taking the time to watch and also to give me well wishes! I wish the same for you! :)
@@Denycia You're welcome.
I'm so sorry that happened to you, it's courageous of you to share. I hope others can hear your story and know to get away from the upci. Best wishes to you
Thank you. I hope so too. It's such a profoundly damaging organization. You understand that all too well. I'm glad you got out!!!
Healing takes time and It is only Jesus who can heal you from that past traumas you have. You are women of God, someone whom He love so much❤❤❤
For me personally, I found healing in years of therapy and seeing a psychiatrist.
Missed your videos. Thanks for sharing. That is almost how the abuse I had took place especially with the pastor. Your brave for sharing. Girl you deserve a seat. Never say your trauma isn't valid everyones is no matter how big or small ...also sharing your story helps others to feel brave enough. Keep up the videos I appreciate you sharing your story. I think this happens alot in the apostolic church. Sending love and light to you ❤️
Thanks for watching and being so supportive. What bothers me the most now isn't what happened to me but that everything was covered up for so many years. Someone reached out to me after this to tell me this abuse spanned multiple generations. It makes me sick to my core. And the fact that this is a problem in so many churches across many denominations. It infuriates me. These people that do this and the people that cover it up or push it under the rug are absolute monsters.
Sending you love and light in return! Thank you for your support 💖
@@Denycia I agree ...I can now discuss this I took mine to the police and because it happened like 10 yrs ago they couldn't convict anyone.. it is sad that even now more ppl are going through this and it's covered up so much
@@bailygladfelter6242 that's awful. There really shouldn't be a statute of limitations on child sex abuse. Child victims don't frequently come forward because they are scared. That limitation just lets them get away with it!!!
@@Denycia yes they said here in kansas there was no statue of limitations but they had insufficient evidence they told me to fill out victims compensation and it took almost a year to get the investigation going also there were 2 others who reported on the same person as me and nothing came out of it .
@@bailygladfelter6242 that is awful. Where is the justice? I'm so sorry. You deserved so much better.
It is such a shame that you had to go through that. That church sounds like a cult. May the Lord heal your wounds.
Thank you. I appreciate that. It's definitely a cult!
Thank you for sharing. I also was born in raised in the church too, though I was only physically and mentally abused, I can only imagine how traumatic your experience has been. That organization is a cult that rather hide and victim blame than force the church goers to see the abuse of all kinds it fosters. The church is abusive emotionally, psychologically, and physically. I wish nothing but healing for you as it is a long and painful journey. You don't have to worry about the details, and understand you are not the lies the church tells you. It took me years and I am still healing. I left the UPCI when I was 15 and broke away from my family and was shunned by the church. I knew of another person dealing with it also and it is a journey worth taking. That place leaves you wounded and searching for an identity bc they took away the years as a kid to just explore who you are with no judgment, punishment, and manipulation. Many of these churches attract abusers and other terrible individuals that hurt than help. I wish things are better for you and hope those searching for answers can find peace with leaving that cult.
Oh my gosh yes to everything you said!!! The abuse, the covering up, the fostering of abuse, and how abusers are drawn into settings like that. You're so right! Going through it all is a very painful journey and your identity is lost. But I agree with you that it is SO worth it. I am so sorry for everything that you went through. You deserve better.
I'm so sorry for the abuse you suffered, as a child and as a young woman. It takes a lot of courage to share something like this. I know there are many people who can relate to this part of your story. I wish this had never happened to you. Hugs to you. ❤️
Thank you ❤
Unfortunately too many people can relate. That's what makes me so upset. What happened to me doesn't really affect me anymore. It's knowing that it happened to so many others and knowing that it was covered up and allowed to continue. It infuriates me.
My cousin left this faith. She is concidered a "backslider". One reason she left was sexual abuse.
West Palm.
I'm glad she got outta there! I hope she is healing. So much sexual abuse occurs in these churches.
These men seem untouchable
@@melissasmith37 it's the perfect environment for abuse because they would rather cover things up so they don't look bad to the public
You are very very strong!!! Lewd and lascivious acts are still sexual assault. I am sorry that this sick cult we were raised in made you feel ashamed for what these perpetrators did to you. Hugs to you.
Thank you. That really means a lot 🥺
This type of abuse is from all walks of life though.
It's best to stay away from that abuser.
Yeah but it shouldn't be happening in the churches. It is a rampant problem.
You matter.
Thank you 🥺
Holy shit never thought I'd meet another who ran away from apostolic bullshit man I got scars from my church. I remember one time someone actually threw a baby. I remember telling my parents I was leaving and well to sum it up it was not pretty. Hope you live your life to the fullest love you and good luck. Edit:Just found out something similar happened to mom and she is still in church this shit infuriates me.
What the actual fuck!? That's insane. Glad you got out of there.
Wow! I had the same thing happen to me! I felt the same as you-I wasn’t raped, so it wasn’t that bad(?). I was told to not say anything, because he was the pastor and I was just ‘the alcoholic’s daughter’. Long story, but, I just wanted to say that a) I’m so sorry that this happened to you, b) you’re very brave, and c) thank you for these videos! Much Love! ❤️🇨🇦
I am so sorry to hear that the same thing happened to you. I am sorry you weren't listened to, believed, and taken seriously. Can't believe they would discredit you for your father's life choices. You deserved better. Thank you for watching and sharing your story with me ❤️
@@Denycia : well, you might remember how it was if you weren’t 2nd or 3rd generation UPC…. 🤦♀️
I was locked in the church/school basement with the preachers son, by the other kids. I was terrified and I screamed. The preachers older daughter got us out. They wanted the preachers son and I to kiss. The preacher had this weird prophecy that his son was sent from heaven to save my witch soul. That I was some sort of evil creature. I guess because I had dreams came true and just knew things they targeted me. Jokes on them. I became what they feared. 😂😂
And one more thing. I'm sorry that happened to you. My abuse was completely different from yours. I have a ton of blocked memories that are coming back slowly. I'm getting help with my therapist. There's a lot to unpack.
@@bluephoeenix oh my goodness that's insane. That prophecy stuff is so weird. I'm glad they didn't save your witch soul. I'm glad you still have that same soul 🖤
@@bluephoeenix thank you. Therapy is great. I'm glad you're getting help too ❤️
@@Denycia I'm glad they didn't save my witchy soul. I can only imagine how miserable I would be if they were successful. I heard the preachers son is still after me. Or in love with me. And he's still an asshole. I'm glad I woke up when I did.
@@bluephoeenix same here!!! Ugh it's so great not being stuck in that shit anymore.
I remember feeling the same way, that since I hadn’t been raped it wasn’t that bad and it must’ve been my fault. I have also been told that the two people who assaulted me weren’t really UPC they were just pretenders so they don’t count as abuse of the UPC.
I am so sorry that happened to you and that they just made excuses for it rather than protecting you. It's so frustrating when they claim "oh those people aren't real UPC" or "those aren't real Christians" like wtf? Yes they are! They do this to avoid taking accountability and it's sickening.
I want to say I have been moved by your life story with your videos. I don't know what to say. (Hugs 💜) It is never the fault of a person who is victimized by a predator no matter what the church says. I admit that I got something against the Apostolic religion and they are wrong in their beliefs. (I made other posts about what they did to me and my friend)
Thank you so much! You're absolutely right!
I am sorry for what they did to you and your friend 😔
Ok.. I sent you a comment yesterday asking to speak privately with you and it was regarding this. But this was before I saw this video. I don’t know how to deal with it or how to live my life without judgement. I was told it was another rule of how we got into heaven. There’s a lot more backstory to that.. but if there’s anyway possible you would be interested or willing to have some kind of contact with me - I would so appreciate it. I have two small girls and I don’t want to keep them from having a wonderful childhood because of my past trauma and my PTSD and anxiety. They are 6 and 8 which are the ages I was and it’s really hard..
I'm proud of you for trying to work through your trauma and better yourself for your children to try and give them the best life. My email is denyciadawn@hotmail.com
Hi. Did you do drugs during this time while you made this video ?
I am sorry for what you have gone through 🥺 my heart goes out to you. You are a brave & strong woman for sharing your story & we all appreciate God loves you & dont give up on your relationship with God because God is separate from the Church. You are a special person like there is a special quality that you have as a person.
No, I wasn't.
I appreciate that. I've definitely come a long way!!
UPCI Pastors are experts at covering up sexual abuse. I call the UPC skirt “easy access” in the male dominated world. Your story is unfortunately very common in the UPCI CULT.
It's waaaaaaay too common. Most women (and even some men) I know experienced some form of sexual abuse in the upc.
There are really some good Apostolic Churches. I attend Rose of Sharon Apostolic Faith Church in Philadelphia PA. I’ve been here for two years, I met my saved and faithful husband here. God is truly good and blessing us to have a baby boy together. ... you may need to pray and ask God to help you with your Difficulties. And to lead and guide you to the right Apostolic Faith Church. Not all Apostolic Pentecostal Churches are bad. 😊🙏🏽
I'm glad you had a good experience. Unfortunately, I did not and I have zero interest in trying other apostolic churches for many reasons. But again, glad you had a good experience!