"what's reality? don't know. when my bird was looking at my computer monitor, i thought, "that bird has no idea what he's looking at." and yet, what does the bird do? does he panic? no, he can't really panic; he just does the best he can. is he able to live in a world where he's so ignorant? well, he doesn't really have a choice. the bird is ok, even though he doesn't understand the world. you're that bird looking at the monitor, and you're thinking to yourself, "i can figure this out." maybe you have some bird ideas. maybe that's the best you can do." - terry a davis
Have you heard the saying "God works in mysterious ways" I hear Christians say it, I'm not a Christian I'm a Hindu. But if you think about it who is not stuck, everyone is stuck in something. At least he understands it, he is a genius programmer and he made us temple OS. At least he knows himself even though he was crazy. How is he worst than these people walking around with zero ability to reflect on themselves and living just as a reaction to what's happening around them I mean does anyone want to live in a world without Terry Davis as he is, however he is!
Man I love this fucking guy. I have tendencies which make me think at some point I am a hair trigger away from this life. This man motivates me to become an amazing coder. I am no where near Terry's level... but if I can be 1/100th of the coder Terry was I will be content. I love this man and feel for this man. I hope he found peace.
Hey how are you doing these days? I have schizoaffective disorder and I just want you to know I had those same fears you did all my life until I realized it had been happening all along with my reality being nothing I knew. That's when I knew I wasn't some stranger. Those tendencies in you, whatever they are and wherever they hide from you, will grow into a monster that stares at you from behind. You know who you are and you know you're not a stranger, and that feeling that you are one is the beast that whispers to you while you're not listening. It's scary, but it's not all bad. It's mostly the Sehnsucht, wistful longing, you get looking in at the world through the looking glass of apparitions that mist the Apennines. This life is larger than others and you float through the air, levitating while others only see you convulsing and foaming at the mouth. If you know you are one who walks in the clouds, feel the dew drops misting your face and face the absurdity of it. It doesn't get real, just like he said. The more you try to make it real the more it eats you, the more it was always never happening. Take care of yourself, even if it gets worse and seems hopeless. Look into autism and schizotypal personality disorder and discern whether you are in the prodromal phase of schizophrenia or whether you have a cluster A personality disorder or if you're autistic or something. But if you know you're a hair trigger away from this life, do something. Make as much progress as you can before it progresses beyond you. I'm a savant pianist and excellent writer and I know I add value to the world despite being schizophrenic, you can too. You look at Terry and think "I don't want this to happen to me" but you surely don't think he was worthless or even worth less than all the people who mocked and bullied him into this death. Don't let yourself think you're worth less for being different either. If you find yourself in this life Terry and I share, find yourself instead of trying to escape. "Think you're escaping and run into yourself. Longest way round is the shortest way home." - James Joyce
Honestly Terry’s explanation of the radio talking to him gave me a better understanding of schizophrenia than I’ve ever had before. That sounds so difficult and scary. RIP Terry
2:06 Terry noticed the internet spying on us almost a decade ago, and only now it's trendy. RIP King Terry, your "delusions" were pretty much a reality.
Fuck, man. I see myself in Terry so much. I struggle with psychosis and am also religious. The world’s just so confusing, it’s hard to figure out your place in it and your place in relation to other people, even without mental illness. I just wish someone told Terry that he was going to be ok, and that it’s ok to rely on others for help.
Of course it's okay to rely on other people. Just be patient for your moment to happen. God loves you, the world loves you, I love you. Please, don't despair.
Breaks my heart to hear this. He seemed like such a wonderful but lost soul; it's so sad he didn't get the treatment he needed. I hope I get to meet him in heaven where he'll be cured of his illness.
This one of the most emotional things i've heard.... I hope he finally found peace. R.I.P. Terry "...you know maybe one day he came up with conception...."🌹😢
I fucking hate every one of you that made fun of this guy and tortured him. From the beginning it was obvious he had serious problems. If he lived in a different country maybe he could've gotten the mental help he deserved. RIP
"mental help" you mean getting his brain fried by medicen and therapy aka some 26 yo stacy from college telling him to "just b urself lol"? I think he lived the best live he could have with what he was given. You think jesus should have been given medicen and therapy so he wouldnt babble bullshit and end up on a cross?
I found this man in a meme but the more I looked Into It the more I felt like this man was a very gifted individual, then I found out about Holy C and then about Temple OS, Jesus h christ, this man literally built everything in less then 100k lines of code, that's the equivalent of building a real temple in real life with nothing more than a hammer and wood, I never doubted that he was gods chosen programmer, rip Terry, I found you too late, but Im sure more people like me will find out about you and you will get the recognition you deserved. PS to anyone who said that Temple OS had no real-life application, that's a very simplistic view.
@@Llkc60 it does everything it set out to even if he went slightly over on the promised line count. Open source, programmable, hobbyist system. You can draw 3d objects in the os with a few lines of code. It's kind of incredible how far it surpasses its goal
Sad words indeed. btw I did not author this clip, I found it somewhere and I wanted to reshare it on TH-cam. If anyone knows the original author please let me know. Thanks!
не совсем герой, просто заблудшая душа. терри был непростым индивидуумом. кто знает, что этот мужик смог бы сделать без своей болезни. социум вокруг него недопонимал его. к сожалению, мало кто мог уже ему помочь.
@@biddy81 not exactly, but yeah, i understand that his story can make people praise him. he was more of a misunderstood guy with unfortunate circumstances
Very interesting conceptualization of schizophrenia, he is intelligent enough to put it into words: "it's the inability to come to terms with the unverifiable nature of reality", where the emerging fear of said uncertainty overwhelms the individual causing them to distort the shared reality by the neurotypical. I had also thought a lot about this topic: so what if one is a bubble and whoever blows the bubbles doesn't like one of them and pops said bubble? The schizophrenic can't stand to dwell on this concept where the neurotypical will realize that even if this absurdity is THE case, there's nothing they can do about it, and if there's nothing that can be done about it, then it makes no sense to worry about it. So there's no reason for fear, therefore the mind doesn't have to create a new individual reality where they can feel safe. (then of course the created reality cannot be kept under control so it instills even greater terror than the original thoughts that kicked off the process in the first place.)
The cause of schizophrenia is more than this said fear. I don't have schizophrenia, but there was a time in my past I was very negative, under a lot os tress, and became a nihilist. After asking too many whys, I became a kind of solipsist, and that fucked me up. I got out of that wiser, of course, and what made me abandon it is that fear you talk about, but my mind didn't create a new reality (although I had some weird experiences). Everything that you experience is created by your brain, but normally, your brain restricts its creation to a representation of external reality, unless you're dreaming. When the brain starts creating its own reality and mixing it with a dream reality, things can get really messed up
As I understand it, a big part of what we would traditionally consider intelligence (IQ) to be is pattern recognition. Terry had this to a high level obviously, but I think maybe just lacked the focus to separate the wheat from the chaff. When you have the intelligence to recognize or project even the subtlest patterns (to perceive "code" in the radio), if you don't have a strong focus, it's understandable how you could get very very lost. Very tragic when I consider the Logos to be the pattern of patterns to orient around. RIP Terry.
One of my immediate family members suffers from extreme schizophrenia. She changed from being a vegan, lean teenager who had no religion, to a god-fearing overweight Catholic meat eater. Schizophrenia sufferers latch onto religion I assume to explain and make sense of their view of reality, to change their negative sights, feelings, and sounds, into something explainable and positive. The worst part, for example Terry and my family member in question, is that they know they aren't healthy, but they refuse to change or get help. She's still around, but is she? As dark as it is to say, the person I once knew is dead forever, and from the sufferer's perspective, they're constantly battling day to day... maybe it's better if they find eternal rest? And the worst part of it all is that the world refuses to recognize schizophrenia and mental health in general as a problem. We're so busy fighting each other, fabricating lies, exaggerating minuscule problems, and hoarding money, that mental health takes a backseat, either intentionally or unintentionally.
@@leonardoribeiro9579 Trump is the easiest to understand out of any person in politics. Take, for example "We're going to build a great border wall along the U.S. Mexico border." It's clear what he is building and where it will go.
@@turborunner7859 Yeah, he's pretty casual when he talks. Not sure if that's the greatest thing for America but at least his non-israel policies are decent.
Biden is a senile puppet. Serves to further dumb down Americans and the executive branch. People are already completely brain washed by media and entertainment. Reality comes second to perpetrating the narrative and as social animals humans naturally conform. Constant bombardment all day every day in every facet of entertainment, leaves virtually no hope of anyone seeing past it. Individual though is dead.
@@trashyraccoon2615 These sorts of behavioral manifestations often tend to be an aspect of ones own self delusions, they dont neatly fit into the mind's preconstructed narrative (which is never *fully* accurate) and to consider them causes cognitive dissonance (which is not fun) so the ideas arent fully contemplated. Essentially every single human on earth has some some form of internalized dissonance that often causes fundamentally irrational and often self destructive behavior, racist/prejudiced behavior being a very commonplace example. I think terry is a good guy who was never fully able to find his way out of the delusion (and I dont just mean in the schiziophrenic sense) nobody holds "rationally acquired" prejudiced beliefs because the very act of prejudice comes about from some form of self delusion. Mainly I just feel sorry for the guy, but I do think that fundamentally he was a good man.
@@Arkimedus Very academic sounding explanation, lol! I agree it’s probably best to feel sorry for him. I’ll go ahead and blame it on religion, which encourages bigotry. He obviously was into that, and obsessed with this notion of “purity” which is a super bigoted thing that Christianity talks a lot about. That stuff is the worst and brings out the worst in people, mentally ill or not.
@@trashyraccoon2615 Too much lovecraft has permanantly altered my writing style lmao. Long response on its way. Whilst I cant deny that religion has played a major role in various acts of cruelty and foolishness throughout history, blaming this entirely upon religion is a bit of a misnomer. The thing about these sorts of behaviors is they are fundamentally engrained into human psyche, whether or not religion is present. Look at the nazis, the rawandan genocide, the cambodian killing fields, or the holodomor. These circumstances come about without the involvment of religion, these cirumstances are simply the product of humans being humans, and humans are intrinsically capable of great cruelty and hatred, an aspect of ourselves fueled by internal conflict and self delusion. Religion is a commonplace example eople use because like any system that offers an agenda that has been assigned by a "higher authority", it is easily misinterpreted and abused. In the case of the nazi regime for example, the "higher authority" is '*the great furher*', hitler himself, and undoubtably a similar phenomenon is present in most similar instances. The difficulty with religion too is that there are a lot of subtle contextual aspects to it that have been lost to history, many of which being a product of the writer's whims as opposed to being necessary for said religious framework to function. Take for example the negative outlook many religions hold towards homosexuality, why was that included? was it because one recieved a vision from "God"? was it because the writer had a personal opposition to it? or, perhaps, was it because, knowing the timeplace, even if the writer had not been opposed to the orientation, that had such statements not be included, that the religious framwork would be condemed by a king or some other force and the ideas posed by the framework lost? The way I see it, religion is a framework to be used to understand the world, it is an approximation of wisdom, but not every individual is the same and sometimes, one must use more than one framework to adequately explain the world (most are in-fact, compatible, the notion that hindu beliefs for example oppose christian ones are not really accurate). So when large groups of people begin to follow one doctrine zealously, there is no wisdom gained by these groups, they are merely following guidelines that have been preordained, guidelines that they, for the most part do not remotely understand the context of.
I think it's due to isolation. I mean obviously doing drugs alone could make it happen quicker, but I can assure if you spent a month alone not talking to anybody in person then had a single coffee and went out in public you would feel exactly what he talking about.
This is so poetic. The sad music really contributes to the guy clearly going on and on about deranged stuff, while having absolutely no clue that he's ill. He's genuinely happy, he's eager to tell you about his "aliens", and "clouds", and radio talking to him in "code", even the tiniest details. And you just look at him with sorrow, pretending to believe, asking idle questions, smiling like to a child who's telling you about vanquishing a big bad dragon in that old toolshed, and saving an imaginary princess.
@@anhta9001 I believe you because your response is a synchronicity in my life right now. I just finished watching the first episode of an Anime called Baki, the name of the episode is "Synchronicity"... What are the chances that after seeing that episode, I'd find your message to a comment I made 2 years ago about syncs and had completely forgotten about? Surely it isn't Coincidence. My question to you now is: Why are you here? 🙏
I used to have this same issue until people at a company could simply not understand the work I did. Then it was like I was in a regular reality, but shoved into a liminal space. My theory is that there are secret societies watching, but they think they are smarter than they actually are. However, to see the light, they have to leave their society and accept the raw truth from nature which is that their group will reject them at the same time they learn the real truth. I came to realize, by observing the same thing happen amongst people of supposed different types of belief systems, religious vs. technical that there is a cognitive bias which already conquered both. If you want to present truth to the world, you have to be like Ramanujan or God's face on Sinai and accept the position of a magician because people will hate the real truth as ugly, misunderstand it and crucify it. The Joker makes more sense to me than batman at this period in my life. Erie.
It is perfectly understandable that he was truly too intelligent. No jokes, straight facts: he talks about the radio speaking in a code. His brain may be so advanced at interpreting patterns in reality that he starts seeing patterns where there are none. Additionaly because of Terry's immense knowledge he could constantly recognize all and every innuendo and word as a reference to something and this is what caused him to belive that the radio is "speaking to him". It could obvously all be due to overly high self esteem, but it seems that Terry was too humble to begin with, constantly trying to copy his speaker with his manners. How do I know? Ehh, thats quite obvious isn't it?
Hehe Radio does speak in codes. Commercial breaks, news programs, same tracks rotating over and over. To an alien it must be some cult propaganda device, but for us it's normalized. Basically in medieval times Radio would be considered a demon in a box, shajtan. Yet again, medieval people would not tolatrate goverment tax of 6% (10% for church was ok for them), yet people in EU tolerate 50% gov tax and 0% church tax. Haha Radio has done its job!!!
I agree that it comes as a cost of higher intelligence, but to call a pattern nonsensical requires an external reference point. That's the only escape from absurdism as I see it. Being as Terry had that external referent (the Logos, God), I can only characterize him as having a lack of focus on the higher order pattern of reality in his faith, if we assume his belief to be consistent. I think of schizophrenia as an advanced form of ADHD, and I think Terry is maybe a perfect case study for this. Though, I think all so-called mental health definitions are innately flawed as to state what is average for the typical person is not to state what is good for an individual (Is =/= Ought), so I would simply say he has an extreme lack of focus and direction. This naturally does not take outside manipulation of one's intelligence into account.
@@jacksonbloftis yeah, you've got to be pretty distracted to not recognize a proper course of action even occasionaly. It is statistically harder to be so consistently distracted than to occasionaly behave in a more concise manner, so I reckon Terry could've been as you said. I wish I was born a little earlier, so maybe I could try to help him in some way, hell be damned I would try. On a lighter note, Terry was the one who forged the word Glowie, commonly used to refer to federal or now any sort of undercover agents who are so inept at culture they are infiltrating that they are literally "glowing" in the dark. Also the word Afroluminescent, lol.
Western philosophical dogma has been reduced to Materialism vs Idealism for the past thousand years or so. Either everything comes down to atoms and chemical reactions, or everything is an interpretation of the mind. Then along come Terry - Materials and Idealism now seem so naive when the obvious truth is neither materialism or idealism; it's Symbolism. The universe consists of solid things representing ethereal things, and ethereal things representing the physical world. Everything is, essentially, code. Terry wasn't making the third temple, he was inside it
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"what's reality? don't know. when my bird was looking at my computer monitor, i thought, "that bird has no idea what he's looking at." and yet, what does the bird do? does he panic? no, he can't really panic; he just does the best he can. is he able to live in a world where he's so ignorant? well, he doesn't really have a choice. the bird is ok, even though he doesn't understand the world. you're that bird looking at the monitor, and you're thinking to yourself, "i can figure this out." maybe you have some bird ideas. maybe that's the best you can do." - terry a davis
real ones cried to this. rest in peace, brother.
😭 🙏
Got a knot in my throat. 😭
"Same things make us laugh, make us cry." - Big Smoke
I got emotional yes
Poor dude started getting some clarity and understood something wasn't right, but was kinda stuck 😞
schizophrenia is such a horrible disease, atleast Terry doesn't have to deal with it anymore, bless his soul
Have you heard the saying "God works in mysterious ways" I hear Christians say it, I'm not a Christian I'm a Hindu. But if you think about it who is not stuck, everyone is stuck in something. At least he understands it, he is a genius programmer and he made us temple OS. At least he knows himself even though he was crazy. How is he worst than these people walking around with zero ability to reflect on themselves and living just as a reaction to what's happening around them
I mean does anyone want to live in a world without Terry Davis as he is, however he is!
One of my close friends is going through this and idk what to do
I cant imagine how many of us can relate
@@Devilnero1991 Well spoken, friend. Well spoken.
Too good for this mortal coil. Rest in peace.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :(
Why do I keep coming back here every time I feel low
"i feel like im not just some stranger" that quote fucked me up.
he was a genius and really the smartest programmer that ever lived, so sad he passed away that soon. Rest in peace brother
Man I love this fucking guy. I have tendencies which make me think at some point I am a hair trigger away from this life. This man motivates me to become an amazing coder. I am no where near Terry's level... but if I can be 1/100th of the coder Terry was I will be content. I love this man and feel for this man. I hope he found peace.
Go for it dude, r.i.p Terry
Hey how are you doing these days? I have schizoaffective disorder and I just want you to know I had those same fears you did all my life until I realized it had been happening all along with my reality being nothing I knew. That's when I knew I wasn't some stranger. Those tendencies in you, whatever they are and wherever they hide from you, will grow into a monster that stares at you from behind. You know who you are and you know you're not a stranger, and that feeling that you are one is the beast that whispers to you while you're not listening. It's scary, but it's not all bad. It's mostly the Sehnsucht, wistful longing, you get looking in at the world through the looking glass of apparitions that mist the Apennines. This life is larger than others and you float through the air, levitating while others only see you convulsing and foaming at the mouth. If you know you are one who walks in the clouds, feel the dew drops misting your face and face the absurdity of it. It doesn't get real, just like he said. The more you try to make it real the more it eats you, the more it was always never happening. Take care of yourself, even if it gets worse and seems hopeless. Look into autism and schizotypal personality disorder and discern whether you are in the prodromal phase of schizophrenia or whether you have a cluster A personality disorder or if you're autistic or something. But if you know you're a hair trigger away from this life, do something. Make as much progress as you can before it progresses beyond you. I'm a savant pianist and excellent writer and I know I add value to the world despite being schizophrenic, you can too. You look at Terry and think "I don't want this to happen to me" but you surely don't think he was worthless or even worth less than all the people who mocked and bullied him into this death. Don't let yourself think you're worth less for being different either. If you find yourself in this life Terry and I share, find yourself instead of trying to escape.
"Think you're escaping and run into yourself. Longest way round is the shortest way home." - James Joyce
I know many coders Terry lives on through. He will always exist somewhere in somebodies code
The music fits so perfectly I could cry
Rest In Peace, Terry ❤️
real respect real
Dude I love your music
@@blackbrothaRA Thank you very much for listening :)
bill jobs omg a e s t h e t i c s e x k i n g n i g g e r l i c i o u s m a n
Honestly Terry’s explanation of the radio talking to him gave me a better understanding of schizophrenia than I’ve ever had before. That sounds so difficult and scary. RIP Terry
Yeah; most suffering aren't this aware or articulate. It's a real window
Dad I miss you
2:06 Terry noticed the internet spying on us almost a decade ago, and only now it's trendy.
RIP King Terry, your "delusions" were pretty much a reality.
Coming to this from time to time remembering my dad. Thanks for this.
yes
Fuck, man.
I see myself in Terry so much. I struggle with psychosis and am also religious. The world’s just so confusing, it’s hard to figure out your place in it and your place in relation to other people, even without mental illness. I just wish someone told Terry that he was going to be ok, and that it’s ok to rely on others for help.
God help you and Heal you man
@@unkownoflife5959 Thanks, friend. I’m doing really well right now, I just need to stay that way
Of course it's okay to rely on other people. Just be patient for your moment to happen. God loves you, the world loves you, I love you. Please, don't despair.
@@mmohssin319 I appreciate that, brother, just have to keep the faith
@@periwinkle525 how's it going now, man? Hope you're well.
REST IN PEACE
Breaks my heart to hear this. He seemed like such a wonderful but lost soul; it's so sad he didn't get the treatment he needed. I hope I get to meet him in heaven where he'll be cured of his illness.
Heaven doesn’t exist bro
@@turolretar heh you SURE GOTTEM GRATATATATAT like man really NAILED HIM ONLINE (PWNED FRFR)
I hope the same but he isn't "cured". It wasn't his mind it was his cage
You were taken from this world too soon. I hope that you found peace.
RIP ❤
I would have loved to have this man as a friend.
RIP King Terry, 5 years today.
This one of the most emotional things i've heard....
I hope he finally found peace.
R.I.P. Terry
"...you know maybe one day he came up with conception...."🌹😢
hero of our times. we should band together and build gods third temple.
I fucking hate every one of you that made fun of this guy and tortured him. From the beginning it was obvious he had serious problems. If he lived in a different country maybe he could've gotten the mental help he deserved. RIP
im so sad I didn't find out about his story until after he died, I wish people were more compassionate towards people like this
"mental help" you mean getting his brain fried by medicen and therapy aka some 26 yo stacy from college telling him to "just b urself lol"? I think he lived the best live he could have with what he was given. You think jesus should have been given medicen and therapy so he wouldnt babble bullshit and end up on a cross?
@@zombiekeks5666 exactly
shut up, n
what kind of help could he have gotten in which other countries?
A beautiful soul, taken too early.
MUSIC: Winter's House, Giles Corey
I found this man in a meme but the more I looked Into It the more I felt like this man was a very gifted individual, then I found out about Holy C and then about Temple OS, Jesus h christ, this man literally built everything in less then 100k lines of code, that's the equivalent of building a real temple in real life with nothing more than a hammer and wood, I never doubted that he was gods chosen programmer, rip Terry, I found you too late, but Im sure more people like me will find out about you and you will get the recognition you deserved.
PS to anyone who said that Temple OS had no real-life application, that's a very simplistic view.
I run temple os on my iTrinity, it's a shame to miss out on it
@dedhorse5720 i agree. not liking templeOS is like saying mark zuckerberg is smarter than terry
i found him in a meme too, n now have multiple tabs of him on youtube. but he only have 1 vid in his original youtube account?
If we were all more like Terry we could all run in ring0 paradise as God intended
@@Llkc60 it does everything it set out to even if he went slightly over on the promised line count.
Open source, programmable, hobbyist system.
You can draw 3d objects in the os with a few lines of code.
It's kind of incredible how far it surpasses its goal
It's crazy how aware he is of himself and generally what's wrong.
The way you inserted the music is pretty neat. It's also still saddening to hear these words even if I've heard them a lot of times personally :(
Sad words indeed.
btw I did not author this clip, I found it somewhere and I wanted to reshare it on TH-cam. If anyone knows the original author please let me know. Thanks!
@@DavidePasca Ah, alright. Will do if I find it
@@DavidePasca th-cam.com/video/3560w_eOmmY/w-d-xo.html turns out, I think it might be this
@@Nik-dz1yc Thanks !
This breaks my heart to hear. Schizophrenia is no joke :( RIP Terry such a talented individual
'but then it starts getting strange' 🥺
This man is a Cyber Saint! I wish to paint an icon of him for my prayer corner. God bless you king terry
You were the realest programmer there was Terry. Rest in peace brother.
shine on you crazy diamond
I see so much of myself in this…
Rest in peace, Terry. I wish we could’ve chatted.
God bless Terry. He was a solid good man. A better man than most.
герой нашего времени
не совсем герой, просто заблудшая душа. терри был непростым индивидуумом. кто знает, что этот мужик смог бы сделать без своей болезни. социум вокруг него недопонимал его. к сожалению, мало кто мог уже ему помочь.
@@DomoKrch Hero
@@biddy81 not exactly, but yeah, i understand that his story can make people praise him. he was more of a misunderstood guy with unfortunate circumstances
Walking on a dream that is _your_ _majesty_ .
I wish I was able to appreciate this man when he was alive.
Terry A. Davis and Charls Carroll are the two sides of a cosmic coin we walking the path all must flip sooner or later
RIP LEGENDARY PROGRAMMER
My best friend is schizophrenic and can sound very similar to this.
You’ll be missed terry, I’ll see you on the other side space cowboy.
Very interesting conceptualization of schizophrenia, he is intelligent enough to put it into words: "it's the inability to come to terms with the unverifiable nature of reality", where the emerging fear of said uncertainty overwhelms the individual causing them to distort the shared reality by the neurotypical. I had also thought a lot about this topic: so what if one is a bubble and whoever blows the bubbles doesn't like one of them and pops said bubble? The schizophrenic can't stand to dwell on this concept where the neurotypical will realize that even if this absurdity is THE case, there's nothing they can do about it, and if there's nothing that can be done about it, then it makes no sense to worry about it. So there's no reason for fear, therefore the mind doesn't have to create a new individual reality where they can feel safe. (then of course the created reality cannot be kept under control so it instills even greater terror than the original thoughts that kicked off the process in the first place.)
The cause of schizophrenia is more than this said fear. I don't have schizophrenia, but there was a time in my past I was very negative, under a lot os tress, and became a nihilist. After asking too many whys, I became a kind of solipsist, and that fucked me up. I got out of that wiser, of course, and what made me abandon it is that fear you talk about, but my mind didn't create a new reality (although I had some weird experiences). Everything that you experience is created by your brain, but normally, your brain restricts its creation to a representation of external reality, unless you're dreaming. When the brain starts creating its own reality and mixing it with a dream reality, things can get really messed up
I always go back to Terry clips after a while.
Most of the time he makes me laugh but it's really sad at the same time.
King Terry needed more help
RIP King Terry 👑
i feel like im listening to the future of my life.
schizophrenia sucks absolute balls.
love terry, he makes me feel less like an alien.
Rest in peace, King Terry the Prophet.
So wild but sad too.
i love you terry i wish you have a good time resting
bro was just too smart.......
Thank you for this videos
As I understand it, a big part of what we would traditionally consider intelligence (IQ) to be is pattern recognition. Terry had this to a high level obviously, but I think maybe just lacked the focus to separate the wheat from the chaff. When you have the intelligence to recognize or project even the subtlest patterns (to perceive "code" in the radio), if you don't have a strong focus, it's understandable how you could get very very lost. Very tragic when I consider the Logos to be the pattern of patterns to orient around. RIP Terry.
rip king
Didn’t expect a Dan Barrett song , the lyrics fit surprisingly well.
Didnt want to cry today ... guess its too late now. 😟
same, mate.
He's with his his creator. His soul rests.
Holy crap... literally fighting tears... I might be schizophrenic.
Rest in peace Terry. We failed you.
Man why did I gotta stumble on this after eating an edible
Terry knew the truth
One of my immediate family members suffers from extreme schizophrenia. She changed from being a vegan, lean teenager who had no religion, to a god-fearing overweight Catholic meat eater. Schizophrenia sufferers latch onto religion I assume to explain and make sense of their view of reality, to change their negative sights, feelings, and sounds, into something explainable and positive. The worst part, for example Terry and my family member in question, is that they know they aren't healthy, but they refuse to change or get help. She's still around, but is she? As dark as it is to say, the person I once knew is dead forever, and from the sufferer's perspective, they're constantly battling day to day... maybe it's better if they find eternal rest?
And the worst part of it all is that the world refuses to recognize schizophrenia and mental health in general as a problem. We're so busy fighting each other, fabricating lies, exaggerating minuscule problems, and hoarding money, that mental health takes a backseat, either intentionally or unintentionally.
Rest in Peace!
Amen
The one true messiah speaks! 🙏
Take care up there bro, no more need for an o.s.
What is the purpose of the music in this video? Distracting from an otherwise interesting monologue
Still more lucid than Biden.
more lucid than biden, trump and all politicians and judges
@@leonardoribeiro9579 Trump is the easiest to understand out of any person in politics. Take, for example "We're going to build a great border wall along the U.S. Mexico border." It's clear what he is building and where it will go.
@@turborunner7859 Yeah, he's pretty casual when he talks. Not sure if that's the greatest thing for America but at least his non-israel policies are decent.
Unironically
Biden is a senile puppet. Serves to further dumb down Americans and the executive branch. People are already completely brain washed by media and entertainment. Reality comes second to perpetrating the narrative and as social animals humans naturally conform. Constant bombardment all day every day in every facet of entertainment, leaves virtually no hope of anyone seeing past it. Individual though is dead.
In a bubble and there’s cameras. That almost sounds like my job. He was onto something
The original video th-cam.com/video/5-SJKJnZ9cg/w-d-xo.html
would have been comfy without the faq band playing in the background. dont need zoomer adhd audio stimulation to focus on the words in a video.
Someone whose programming has been broken will look crazy to those who are still programmed
He seemed like a very good soul, he just wanted to create something but ended up destroying it in the process
He had this weird bigot side though. He went on tirades against gay people. Is that a good soul? That part really bothers me
@@trashyraccoon2615 These sorts of behavioral manifestations often tend to be an aspect of ones own self delusions, they dont neatly fit into the mind's preconstructed narrative (which is never *fully* accurate) and to consider them causes cognitive dissonance (which is not fun) so the ideas arent fully contemplated. Essentially every single human on earth has some some form of internalized dissonance that often causes fundamentally irrational and often self destructive behavior, racist/prejudiced behavior being a very commonplace example. I think terry is a good guy who was never fully able to find his way out of the delusion (and I dont just mean in the schiziophrenic sense) nobody holds "rationally acquired" prejudiced beliefs because the very act of prejudice comes about from some form of self delusion. Mainly I just feel sorry for the guy, but I do think that fundamentally he was a good man.
@@Arkimedus Very academic sounding explanation, lol! I agree it’s probably best to feel sorry for him. I’ll go ahead and blame it on religion, which encourages bigotry. He obviously was into that, and obsessed with this notion of “purity” which is a super bigoted thing that Christianity talks a lot about. That stuff is the worst and brings out the worst in people, mentally ill or not.
@@trashyraccoon2615 Too much lovecraft has permanantly altered my writing style lmao. Long response on its way.
Whilst I cant deny that religion has played a major role in various acts of cruelty and foolishness throughout history, blaming this entirely upon religion is a bit of a misnomer. The thing about these sorts of behaviors is they are fundamentally engrained into human psyche, whether or not religion is present. Look at the nazis, the rawandan genocide, the cambodian killing fields, or the holodomor. These circumstances come about without the involvment of religion, these cirumstances are simply the product of humans being humans, and humans are intrinsically capable of great cruelty and hatred, an aspect of ourselves fueled by internal conflict and self delusion. Religion is a commonplace example eople use because like any system that offers an agenda that has been assigned by a "higher authority", it is easily misinterpreted and abused. In the case of the nazi regime for example, the "higher authority" is '*the great furher*', hitler himself, and undoubtably a similar phenomenon is present in most similar instances. The difficulty with religion too is that there are a lot of subtle contextual aspects to it that have been lost to history, many of which being a product of the writer's whims as opposed to being necessary for said religious framework to function. Take for example the negative outlook many religions hold towards homosexuality, why was that included? was it because one recieved a vision from "God"? was it because the writer had a personal opposition to it? or, perhaps, was it because, knowing the timeplace, even if the writer had not been opposed to the orientation, that had such statements not be included, that the religious framwork would be condemed by a king or some other force and the ideas posed by the framework lost? The way I see it, religion is a framework to be used to understand the world, it is an approximation of wisdom, but not every individual is the same and sometimes, one must use more than one framework to adequately explain the world (most are in-fact, compatible, the notion that hindu beliefs for example oppose christian ones are not really accurate). So when large groups of people begin to follow one doctrine zealously, there is no wisdom gained by these groups, they are merely following guidelines that have been preordained, guidelines that they, for the most part do not remotely understand the context of.
@@trashyraccoon2615christ you're dymb. Go back to reddlt
Rest In Peace.
I think it's due to isolation. I mean obviously doing drugs alone could make it happen quicker, but I can assure if you spent a month alone not talking to anybody in person then had a single coffee and went out in public you would feel exactly what he talking about.
I live a pretty isolated life, i'm not a 10th as crazy as he is lol
Rip terry
This is so poetic. The sad music really contributes to the guy clearly going on and on about deranged stuff, while having absolutely no clue that he's ill. He's genuinely happy, he's eager to tell you about his "aliens", and "clouds", and radio talking to him in "code", even the tiniest details. And you just look at him with sorrow, pretending to believe, asking idle questions, smiling like to a child who's telling you about vanquishing a big bad dragon in that old toolshed, and saving an imaginary princess.
I’m bipolar/schizoaffective and I definitely related to a lot of what he said. If you asked me what reality is, I’d tell you that I don’t know.
why not show the footage?
I call it my anchor
Rip Terry
I heard you could walk on a cloud
Song name?
Giles Corey- Winter's House
RIP
can you believe that they removed this from g under the Stallman picture? fools.
Synchronicities...
hey, I actually experienced synchronicities once, it was almost exactly like what Terry had said in this video.
@@anhta9001 I believe you because your response is a synchronicity in my life right now. I just finished watching the first episode of an Anime called Baki, the name of the episode is "Synchronicity"...
What are the chances that after seeing that episode, I'd find your message to a comment I made 2 years ago about syncs and had completely forgotten about?
Surely it isn't Coincidence.
My question to you now is: Why are you here? 🙏
I used to have this same issue until people at a company could simply not understand the work I did. Then it was like I was in a regular reality, but shoved into a liminal space. My theory is that there are secret societies watching, but they think they are smarter than they actually are. However, to see the light, they have to leave their society and accept the raw truth from nature which is that their group will reject them at the same time they learn the real truth. I came to realize, by observing the same thing happen amongst people of supposed different types of belief systems, religious vs. technical that there is a cognitive bias which already conquered both. If you want to present truth to the world, you have to be like Ramanujan or God's face on Sinai and accept the position of a magician because people will hate the real truth as ugly, misunderstand it and crucify it. The Joker makes more sense to me than batman at this period in my life. Erie.
Have you ever heard of the term Synchronicity?
I feel like this dude hates HP Lovecraft's cat
It is perfectly understandable that he was truly too intelligent.
No jokes, straight facts: he talks about the radio speaking in a code. His brain may be so advanced at interpreting patterns in reality that he starts seeing patterns where there are none. Additionaly because of Terry's immense knowledge he could constantly recognize all and every innuendo and word as a reference to something and this is what caused him to belive that the radio is "speaking to him".
It could obvously all be due to overly high self esteem, but it seems that Terry was too humble to begin with, constantly trying to copy his speaker with his manners.
How do I know? Ehh, thats quite obvious isn't it?
Hehe Radio does speak in codes. Commercial breaks, news programs, same tracks rotating over and over. To an alien it must be some cult propaganda device, but for us it's normalized. Basically in medieval times Radio would be considered a demon in a box, shajtan. Yet again, medieval people would not tolatrate goverment tax of 6% (10% for church was ok for them), yet people in EU tolerate 50% gov tax and 0% church tax. Haha Radio has done its job!!!
I agree that it comes as a cost of higher intelligence, but to call a pattern nonsensical requires an external reference point. That's the only escape from absurdism as I see it. Being as Terry had that external referent (the Logos, God), I can only characterize him as having a lack of focus on the higher order pattern of reality in his faith, if we assume his belief to be consistent. I think of schizophrenia as an advanced form of ADHD, and I think Terry is maybe a perfect case study for this. Though, I think all so-called mental health definitions are innately flawed as to state what is average for the typical person is not to state what is good for an individual (Is =/= Ought), so I would simply say he has an extreme lack of focus and direction. This naturally does not take outside manipulation of one's intelligence into account.
@@jacksonbloftis yeah, you've got to be pretty distracted to not recognize a proper course of action even occasionaly. It is statistically harder to be so consistently distracted than to occasionaly behave in a more concise manner, so I reckon Terry could've been as you said. I wish I was born a little earlier, so maybe I could try to help him in some way, hell be damned I would try.
On a lighter note, Terry was the one who forged the word Glowie, commonly used to refer to federal or now any sort of undercover agents who are so inept at culture they are infiltrating that they are literally "glowing" in the dark.
Also the word Afroluminescent, lol.
I need to talk to YOU
profound
Terry wasn't wrong lol
i know what he means lol XD
:(
Reality is subjective Terry, maybe there were some space aliens.
That whiney music is a distracting heresy.
It’s angst, not whining. It’s appropriate.
❤🩹 thank you
Western philosophical dogma has been reduced to Materialism vs Idealism for the past thousand years or so. Either everything comes down to atoms and chemical reactions, or everything is an interpretation of the mind.
Then along come Terry - Materials and Idealism now seem so naive when the obvious truth is neither materialism or idealism; it's Symbolism. The universe consists of solid things representing ethereal things, and ethereal things representing the physical world. Everything is, essentially, code. Terry wasn't making the third temple, he was inside it
Jonathan Pageau goes into this a lot. The teleology of the symbols and the hierarchy of those purposes is where it all falls into place.
RIP