Some of my childhood sensory-focused Autistic traits
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I get you… Water is definitely NOT *just* water. Taste, texture, temperature, etc. all affects weather or not I can drink it
Water never tastes the same If they are different brands, thats a fact, because they all have other locations and water, earth, etc etc. That's why they all taste different, some have more Minerals, some less.
@@ViviRaaawr i find even water from different taps in my house taste different
@@romaeraegan they do, because they have different water pipes and filter
I always say that drinking liquids in general is very difficult! I often choke on water, it's quite frequent. And I only rely on beverages that I can drink in big gulps... one of the reasons I can't stand drinking alcohol.
Is it weird I like drinking the water from my shower head lol
I like how you get into the topic right away from the start. Other people talk too much about other things or have long introductions and could take five to ten minutes before they get into the subject. I appreciate that you don’t do that
To be honest I usually do have pretty long-winded disclaimers but my adhd was adhd-ing this week!
Every Morning feels incredibly daunting. It's like being overstimulated from the sunlight.. from the daytime hustle and bustle, it brings so much anxiety.
I think you've nailed it - sun is overstimulating. I come alive at dusk. Love night. I think it's because it's quiet, but also the light is 100% intentional.
I’ve recently noticed being extremely anxious when I wake up. But I think it was a mix between my loud alarm, having to do homework later, the sun, and maybe even my fan buzzing. So I’ve started changing my many (many) alarms to just vibration, closing my blinds before going to bed, and setting a timer on my fan. Last night I fell asleep fast enough to where I don’t even remember falling asleep. I also woke up rather at peace instead of anxious. It was a nice change of pace 😅 hopefully it lasts
Wow! Holy moly, so I guess I am not the only one. Lol.
But actually, I don't find the sunlight in the morning to be overwhelming... I find that sunlight while I am trying to drive is extremely anxiety-inducing for me sometimes. So, I have started wearing sunglasses while driving and it helps so much! I also find sunlight to be jarring when I first exit from indoors to outdoors- particularly if the indoor setting was very dimly lit or dark.
i feel like this some days too (especially when im going through depressive episodes and spend too long inside), but i also get extremely overstimulated at night because blue lights make me anxious and absolutely detest going out at night in the city. all the lights make me wanna cry and rip my hair out lol
I love hearing you talk about stim songs - I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone else talk about it that way before! I have also always had my go-to stim songs. Sometimes I’ll put them on intentionally and listen over and over again, and other times one of those songs could just come up next on Spotify and then I end up listening to it on repeat. Most of my stim songs have meaningful lyrics, but some are just because of the beat.
Stim songs are a big one for me. To this day I will find old or new songs that I will sometimes seek out, or as soon as they queue up in my playlist I will then put them on repeat and can easily listen for an hour or more.
I smiled when you talked about sand. I was very specific about sand when I was a child. When I was around 2 and we went to the seaside for vaction I started bringing sand from the other part of the beach to where I was playing. And mom asked me where I am going and I said "to bring sand". Of course it didn't make sense to her because it was sand everywhere. But indeed, there was this kind of sand that had a different texture that was really pleasant and it was very good for building. In fact when I was older I tried to make sand into that texture so it's the best for building.
I still use music as a stim. I have hard time connection to certain emotions that grow inside me and when untreated start influecing my mood greatly. Proper music helps me process that. The hard part is finding the right kind of music mood to match whatever needs processing.
I sense negative emotions of others but in my case it makes me confused cause I don't know how to address them. That was the reason why initially I started avoiding people because their emotions were too difficult to manage. In fact I've got the tendency of trying to fix emotions of those close to me so I stop feeling them. I know now that I cannot fix anyone's emotions. But got greatly into psychology because of that (and trying to figure out myself as well). I'm starting my coaching path.
Oh god the image of Little Irene trying to make like, perfect Roman concrete while other kids are running around screaming is just... so funny and relatable lol. Sand was a huge fascination for me as a kid too!
EDIT: OH GOD THE WATER THING!!! So much water is SO NASTY and finding water that isn't is so hard, I end up drinking sports drinks most of the time instead lol
I really related to the thing about the stroller. Ever since I was a little kid I’ve been really into rollerblading and skating. The appeal for me is the feeling of the wheels going over smooth surfaces, hearing like the hum of the bearings and stuff and a lot of the time people would comment that like my form was weird because you’re supposed to bend your knees to absorb the shock but if you want to feel the reverberation, standing with straighter legs makes the sensation go further up your body and so all the time when people see me skate, they’re like oh you stand so high up it’s kind of odd but because it’s a sensory experience, it becomes subconscious
This video gives me a new appreciation for the beauty of autism. So often this is seen as a disability whilst being ignored as a neurotype. It gives you such a unique perspective and allows you to do things and help people in ways no one else knows how.
I’m AuDHD and I know exactly which of my twins has farted and what they’ve eaten. Also water DOES taste different across brands and countries and some taste downright bad and literally does taste like poison and some is sweet and delicious, not in a sugary way, just you could have a smooth drink and it fills you up so good. Alanis Morisette first album was my comfort album for at least a year, would keep listening to it every night, even now it transports me back to summer nights with the AC whirring and it calms me. This video of yours resonated with me 100% ❤
yes on the water! i grew up on softened well water, which is the closest to neutral tasting water i've ever had. and at school, i always Hated using the drinking fountain because i have always been able to taste the chemicals that are in city water, which only my dad and brother have ever understood what i meant. same thing with a lot of bottled waters. i totally agree with you about alkaline probably being the best. (other than the softened well water at home haha)
YES that's how I felt when I saw the water somalier video as well! I _loved_ the water that we had at my house as a kid but I'd end up dehydrated when we visited either of my grandparents because their water tasted like straight up pool water to me
Your comment about stores makes me wonder if the reason I always hated going with my mom to the fabric store was that she could typically only go late in the day; the lights were incredibly bright; there was nowhere to sit; the carpet was very thin, worn, and coarse; and every fabric I grabbed was either too much sensory input or I was told to not put my hands on… It’s not like I had an evil plan to be a jerk every time we went there or was an unruly child…but every time by the end of it my mom would need a quiet car ride home :\
I HATE Dasani water. It tastes like sweet plastic.
(thirst/hydration tip if you want it: add a pinch of salt to all your water. without electrolytes in the water we don't absorb as much of it so yes it can literally make you feel thirsty!)
Dasani water is the worst. It tastes so strongly of plastic that I have to dump out the water and replace it with tap water if it is the only water container available.
I really can’t remember much of my childhood and my mom is also suspected autistic so in her mind there was nothing off with any of us
THANK YOU. I have ADHD BUT I absolutely despise water most of the time. I'm always adding some kind of things to it so it's not just water (lemon, fizzy vitamins etc) and I filter my tap water. I also like it when it's cold but not freezing cold. But room temperature or warmer is almost always disgusting. I knew it, I'm not crazy 😂
Oh my gosh, you've bought back so many of my childhood memories of similar experiences - I totally relate to this! The metallic tasting water from the tap in the house I grew up in was awful, and the water felt so thin! Also, the specific feel of really fine and wet gravel under my feet at the botanic gardens where my mother would take me, and the warm wet green smell of the green houses - it used to wrap me like a blanket. I used to feel the different textures through the wheels of the pram too! I loved the ultra smooth basalt sidewalks in Adelaide, and the smooth but bumpy feel of the worn down glass tiles over the basement levels in the city. I hated sharp gravel and spongy lawn. I was so intimately connected to my world. :)
I thought it's normal to be able to smell who exactly farted. Until I discovered I'm autistic. Well. Better late than never.
I can relate to everything you talk about so much, it's kinda funny 😂
I can also taste someones plates and dishwashers and handsoaps and homes in food, I can always tell who made what!!! That's why I prefer to make food myself cause it bothers me when food tastes like someone else touched it or it was in other peoples rooms 😮
I can detect it who it too but I’ve always thought it was normal 😮 not I know it’s not as of today! 🤦🏽♀️
Do you mean like if you went to a potluck, you could tell who made what dish bc the food tasted like the homes/soaps, etc., of the people who made them?
@@Danielle-nz9tn yes, exactly! If I know the people, of course, I can exactly name the cook. If I would'nt know them (if I'd attend as a total stranger), I'd still be able to tell which dishes were made at the same house and what type of cutlery was used to make it (e.g. wooden or plastic spoons). I taste so much more than the dish itself 🙏
My problem with water and other fluids is that I simply don't get thirsty (until I'm almost dehydrated), so my mom always had to remind me to drink something.
And a good thing that they invented headphones, as I would drive everyone crazy by listening to the same song over and over again. I still do.
The same goes for the (ideal) texture of ice cream: even today I can't resist the urge to get it completely "right".
Same, but sometimes I feel like even if I am a bit thirsty, unconsciously I wait a bit longer, because of my absolute hate for water 😂
Also I use headphones with active noise cancelling. That way I can listen to things on lower volume and I don't hear as much noise around me. Additionally I have loops quiet if I want silence around me, but I use them mainly to sleep in.
I don't like Cold Stone ice cream because it is fluffy instead of creamy!
@@Catlily5 my ideal texture is somewhere in between ice cream and milkshake...
@@duikmans I just want it to be smooth and creamy. Probably that would be too wet for me.
Ooo you unlocked a memory of mine about ice cream. I used to pour chocolate syrup into vanilla ice cream and mix it into it was completely mixed together and sort of a milkshake texture. I always enjoyed eating it sooo much more than just normal ice cream. And i love ice cream so that’s saying a lot lol
the empathy for adults that r sad is fucking crazy because yea the deep sadness of it
I realate a lot to the knowing when someone is sad! All my life I've been able to sense people's mental state and it's the weirdest thing.
hello! thanks to your videos, i finally realized i might be autistic. I always thought that i was super weird, that something was wrong with me, but now i think i know why im like that, and im starting to accept that! i havent been officially diagnosed yet, but ill tell my psychiatrist on our next meeting!! thanks again, i hope youre doing well
THE FART THING GIRL SAME OMG and I could always tell whose house something came from based on smell too
For me, clothes especially pick up house smells.
Omg the thing of feeling people sads and wanting to make them smile. I prefered time on my own too, but sometimes with some people, I remember going out of my way asking stuff to the person like : "hey i know you're sad, what's happening? You can tell me". And people would open up to me or just nod and we woudl just walk and talk a little
I can relate. I did the same thing with dirt instead of sand. I performed many "experiments", I called it. I am very very sensitive to smell. I can smell medications, drugs, vitamins, and food from most people around me. I can't drink plain water. All of it taste bad but water is not supposed to have a taste, right? lol! I like the volcanic kind though. Drinking cold water is out of the question. I get tied to certain songs and must hear them hundreds of times over and over before moving on. When I do find one I really like it feels like I'm flying.
As a person who suspects I have AUdhd, the stim songs and feeling other peoples sadness really resonated for me! Music is overall a big part of my life and singing is even kind of a stim for me:) sometimes I’ll find myself singing the same verse of a song over and over again to myself because it keeps replaying in my mind, which typing it out sounds similar to echolalia? But I have a few songs that when it comes I get really excited and it feels nice in my brain and I drums along to the beat or just along to the instruments in the back(recently my stim songs have been the whole soundtrack of Epic: the musical, which has become a sort of special interest/hyperfixation the last 5 months). I particularly like songs I can belt in(musicals) cuz the feeling is coming from my chest and I can change my mouth shape or vocal folds to make it sound different:DD it’s honestly really fun! And the sadness thing, I’ve always been a really empathetic emotional person, and when I see people who are sad, or feel to me sad, I get really sad and I want them to feel better. If I don’t do something to brighten their day even a little bit, the feeling of sadness kinda keeps growing as the day goes on till I just need to check on them. it’s the same with most feelings, anger, happiness, anxiety, etc. (Except on the more positive ones I don’t really check on them, I just happily feel them be happy:) oh and now that I think about it the feeling of water does really matter to me- McDonald’s water is on top it’s just the perfect taste and thickness
You brighten up my day with your great videos. I'm on the autistic spectrum myself. I was diagnosed as a toddler.
i don't think these sound too weird at all, they all make sense to me (especially tasting people's houses in their food!)
A different but also odd water thing for me: i was obsessed with drinking *hot* water. Not scalding hot, but very very warm. I preferred it to cold water, but my parents did not like that. Now I'm an adult, so i can enjoy tea and things... but it's still not the same!
Warm water is good for your health!
@@thethoughtspot222 I've read that it is! I wish I knew that to convince my parents as an 8 year old lol
My mom said we weren't supposed to drink warm water because it picks up more lead from the pipes and carries more bacteria.
Music is still my stim. No doubt about it.
I swear after I have a new sexual partner I can taste them for days after despite brushing my teeth etc, it's like our microbiomes mingled and it's a very noticeable shift in my own taste, and it always tastes like that person.
That's so interesting! A person's body scents are very important to me. I actually get a little bored when a new person is TOO clean and doesn't smell (or taste...) like anything, or just like perfumes. Boo!
@@drasco61084 i agree lol I always joke that I want to smell their stink
@@idab6864 😂 do you also hate the prickliness of trimmed body hair?? I don't see the problem with hair. Especially all the places people put their tongues I'm like really... You're worried about the hair of all things.....
@@drasco61084 yeah I can't stand that either lol
It’s so distracting. I can sense it for a day or so after. Mouthwash, gum, brushing, none of it helps. The entire taste of my mouth will be off, I can smell it, not always pleasant.
When I was a kid my stim was kinda weird but I feel like other autistic people may relate… My mom says that before I was even 1 I would rub my ~parts~ against stuff like my car seat or stuffed animals. I would do it against anything. I’ve been doing it since before I can even remember. Obviously it wasn’t in a weird way. I was a kid. It would be used to soothe me. If I had any meltdown that’s immediately what I would go do (or sing songs to myself outside) I would also use it to help me sleep. I really hope saying this isn’t weird!!
am undiagnosed but I did this too I think im too embarrassed to say it in my autism assessment im currently doing, when I feel stressed or overstimulated thats also where I feel it even now so I think thats why I did it then. but ive tried to research connection between groinal response and autism but found nothing
I get that wanting to make someone feel seen with construction workers or road workers. Sometimes, they appreciate it and smile back. Sometimes, they scowl at me or give me the finger, and it feels like a punch in the gut.
Sooo incredibly relatable. Like all of it. Especially water and floor textures. I still hate gravel lol, and now the satisfaction comes from floor textures vs my shopping cart lol
Please do a video on how parents can help their autistic children better with sensory and other issues from your perspective.
There are too many videos from experts talking about autism and they are not autistic.
It helps to hear from the direct source.
Thanks for all you do I really like your videos.
Mom of 6 years old autistic boy and I suspect his 2 year old brother might have it also…
They both ❤water and over drink water sometimes - like to drink and spit it out too.
i love your channel, thank you so much for sharing your life and knowledge with us 💓
these videos have saved my life this year. thank you.
The water thing is SO REAL. I grew up on well water, and we could tell (I suspect my family is full of ND people, but none of us have been diagnosed and I'm finding it impossible to find resources for diagnosing as an adult now) when things went off with the water and we needed to get it fixed. We filtered for a long time, too, even with a well, purely because of the taste. City water is just disgusting, I have to force it down because it tastes, like you were phrasing it, very chemical and poisonous. Too much of a chlorinated, "city pool" taste. I have a hard time staying properly hydrated, always have.
The soothing of upset people thing is also very eerily familiar. I still feel physically sick when people cry or look upset and I try to cheer them up and reassure them as quickly as possible. But there are stories from when I was in Head Start (I'm Hard of Hearing) told to my parents by my teacher about how the other 4-year-olds were distraught and crying and I would immediately go over and wipe their eyes and pull them over to color or play with me; my teacher joked with my mom that I made her life way easier that year. 😂 This has been wielded against me so much, though, that I now feel like I have to fight this instinct. People will seem to realize I'm 'like that' and try to twist any disagreement around to make me the bad guy by crying and convincing me to soothe them and apologize.
I think this is a waaaay more stereotypical example, but SOCKS. Oh my gods, SOCKS have been the BANE of my existence my entire life. My mom would get so mad, it'd take me 10 minutes every morning to get the seams positioned juuuuust right on my toes, and as soon as I got home those suckers were getting yanked off. It wasn't until I was 5 and a friend of my grandmother's (she was called 'odd' by the other adults, but I always got on with her and I wonder now if she was ND for many reasons) showed me how to turn my socks inside out to prevent the seams from hurting so much. She was a pretty rad lady and, later in life, I drew on her example to feel more confident in wearing the clothes I prefer, that are most comfortable and attractive to me.
Oh, and the struggle with drinking water can also be interoception issues, as in not realizing you're thirsty
Thanks for sharing, it’s interesting to watch this and amazed by all.
just found your channel today... i feel like i've got friend who understands me. thank you :)
Love your videos - I finally got diagnosed with ASD last month, and your content was definitely a huge help to me ❤
Irene! Your channel is growing so much! ❤ I would love to see a video solely on fashion and sensory issues. I really struggle with finding things that don't irritate me, but that I still like the look of. Particularly if I need to get dressed up for something! Xx
Water... I can so relate 😳 ... and music, I need it everyday. I can listen to one song on repeat for hours - or a whole afternoon while doing chores.
I never really understood why, I thought it was because I really loved it and "ordinary".
Until I came accross stiming videos that include stiming via music. One of a light bulb moment for me. I'm 53 and not officialy diagnosed - well got tested a few years back because I was sure I was but, after many hours of testing, the lady said I wasn't autistic because I could look at them in the eyes when talking (was "drilled" to do it), wasn't good in geography, was fairly good at jugding emotions (had to learn for my safety when younger) had a good imagination, etc.
I let it go and thought it was only acute anxiety disorder as they mentioned. But now, back on it and I'm 200% sure I am - new info about high masking women is helping me, as well as your workbook on masking and stimmings 😊
Empathy... I feel you! (no pun intended) I am VERY empathetic and feel everyones emotions around me and from afar sometimes. Exhausting...
I am alone in this discovery journey (no help from family) but I really don't mind. It's all worth it! (For myself)
Thank you so much for everything!
STOP THE TRUCK DRIVER ONE IS SO REAL omg Irene 😭
I actually want to try to get that sand texture you were talking about lol it seems really cool. Also I relate to the wheels rolling over different textures thing but with skateboarding. There are specific types of concrete/tiles that feel so soothing to ride over.
thank you for your videos! 🍥🍥
the water thing!! I can taste the dang rust in the water fountain at my job and i hate it, but i always forget to bring my own water from home
bring my own water from home.
Another thing! I don't know if this was an autism thing, but I have always LOVED car rides, didn't matter where we were going because they were (and still are) very therapeutic for me. When I was very little I would start crying because I could tell when we were on our way home, I don't remember how I could tell, but I just could I guess.
I definitely relate to the water situation! I can easily taste the difference between the tap water in my house versus a friend's house, and the difference between brands of bottled water (Scottish, so water sourced from Highland springs or lochs versus Lowland bodies of water and English/Welsh lakes) and their tastes compared to tap water.
ITS MEEE, im the music stim child. I have so many pictures of myself as a kid just listening to music 24/7. I have to listen to my 'happy playlist' a lot of times, and I even listen to it at work since I am working at a job I dont really like.
Please could you make a series teaching us sign language? After watching one of your videos i got really encouraged to study it since i realized how i get mute when i am overwhelmed and burned out and i can not speak unless i am forcing myself to mask and it gets me even angrier. I decided to teach my sisters and brothers sign language as well it will be fun for them and it will be a huge help for me. But i am asking you to make the series rather than searching some other resource is because my brain will prefer to focus on your vids and your mind and the way you talk i am completely sure if i decided to learn somewhere wlse my brain will lose interest completely and i would do it. Thank you soo soo much for sharing your wisdom and experiences in life. Very grateful to you ❤
In elementary school I was actually hospitalized once because I had a massive kidney infection and they determined it was because I didn't drink enough water. 💀 I think I remember telling them that I would just forget to drink water and didn't notice I was thirsty.
I used to try and smooth out all the dry sand in a corner of the sandpit or a section of the beach so that it was completely flat.
I relate to almost all of these. The stroller (pram as I call it) over different surfaces is one I forgot but when you said it it was like I could feel the floor textures again. I know exactly what you mean!!
Water is really hard for me too and always has been. tap water taste like dirty metal, water in bottles taste like what melting plastic smells like and also taste like chlorine. Some taste like sharp idk
Also, i dont ever feel thirsty so i always forget to drink, which is so bad for many reasons
I get you what you mean about the water thing. Some bottled waters I hate and though some friends and family don't know, don't really visit because the taste of their water is strange and it's not their fault. And the music thing, I like listening to music with my earphones while walking around or dancing. I even pause and repeat parts of the songs over and over again. I even experience frisson with certain songs
I did the sand thing with mud and also with ice cream.
Yeah I still do the stim song thing all of the time.
I would stir my ice cream until it turned into a soft serve texture, then I could eat it.
The fart thing had me DYING LMFAOOOO OMG thank you for that
LMAOOO that first confession took me OUT 😂 Glad you're a recovered fart detective. I stan that
edit: By "took me out" I mean made me smile in the depths of a terrible breakdown. Thank you for that :)
Irene you may have missed your calling as a concrete mixer! Haha 😆 kidding of course. I’m floored (pun intended) to hear about your stroller sensory experiences!! You have a great memory.
totally relate to a lot of things you mentioned. Also here in Germany it's totally common to dislike certain water textures lol. We love our sparkling water, nothing weird about it hahah
Literally yes for all of these things!!
Ugh, water. It took me forever to get used to the water when I moved. I also use the same water bottles all the time, and we buy the same fridge filters every time. Thankfully I’m okay with the filtered water at my work lol still can’t drink tap water though!
Definitely yes for the music thing. My favorite songs are definitely stims that I play over and over. Good songs are almost a… religious experience, I guess? Or euphoria? That’s the only thing I can relate it to haha
And same for me with the empathy. I can feel peoples feelings very deeply and it became a habit to just smile at everyone. I cry constantly at every little thing and I cry at like every single movie even if I can’t relate to it, which is apparently weird?
And I super relate to the stroller thing! I don’t remember when I was in a stroller but I had a toy stroller that I absolutely loved and there were definitely floor textures I preferred!
It’s so interesting to me how so many of us have the same experiences!
In regards to the farts-I am the same way!! And the same goes for water! I have such sensitivity, I can smell if there is bacteria-it smells like “wet dog”!
And the same goes for water! I have such sensitivity, I can smell if there is bacteria-it smells like “wet dog”!
4 minutes in but my god, the sand!!!! I spent days doing this activity :3
Edit: So I watched the whole vid and recognized all the things you said, even as specifically astrying to cheer up truck drivers, and the stroller thing. 💫
I highly recommend a clearly filtered brand water filter. It takes out the weird chlorine after taste from city tap water. I always grew up with well water and have been so used to it that when we recently bought a house with city water i immediately tasted and smelt the difference. It literally smells like chlorine its gross. My husband cant even tell the difference but its so obvious to me! The water filter completely takes that weird taste away which has been great so i recommend that to anyone with the same issue. I believe they have reusable water bottles with the filter as well
You are such a genuine sweet person love your video's i have no sense you are not smell love your videos love your videos
For me it still is the different textures of pavement when riding or driving in a car. When the car goes from whatever kind to a smooth sleek new pavement I go ahhhh. I pulled my eyelashes out as a kid. I had specific movies I watched over and over and songs the same
I've only been in two places where I thought the water was palatable on its own, without something to mask the flavor.
I was diagnosed in my early 20s too. So growing up undiagnosed I was the odd ball or the black sheep in my family ..
Okay, seriously freaking out!! Every one brought memories of identical experiences, and now I can’t stop remembering more!! I had forgotten them and only remembered feeling different. I’m considering if to get assessed for ASD, and definitely fit the HSP profile. Do you believe these are all ASD related? (PS - I’m almost 60!) Just for fun, any chance it drives you crazy if someone breathes on your arms, even if it’s you, especially when trying to sleep? It’s a major sensory overload. Noticed it recently and wondering if just me. As a young child, I would lay on Grandma’s kitchen floor and draw imaginary lines around the star patterns, endlessly. Never thought it could be stimming. I loved family get-togethers but the noise and activity were too much, and I might have been using that as a way to calm? It’s all so new to me. Thanks for sharing, even though it all seemed odd - helping me feel less alone!!
The sand thing makes SOOOOO much fucking sense
Wow, super relatable especially the water topic. I hated water fountains at school.. I always told my teacher and mom that it tasted like blood. 😅 now that I am 34 years old the only water that I can get through a whole bottle of is Fiji & alkaline water. Something about the texture of those 2 make it so easy to drink. 🙌🏼 oh & I onlyyyyy drink room temperature water. I can’t take more than 1 sip of ice water
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA I love how you kicked this one off - poots are the best
While editing I thought to myself, "Is it too jarring to kick off the video immediately with farts??"
I liked it too. One reason I can’t do most therapy channels is that I feel behavior shamed. It is reassuring to be with people who don’t think that talking about farts or whatever is some kind of social transgression. I have to expend an awful lot of energy trying to modify the ways I interact that are truly problematic. It’s really important for me now to be able to not worry too much about the things I say that are odd to others but frankly not that big a deal. So thank you, Irene.
I grew up with well water, and I certainly hated city water, but who wouldn't? All that crap they put in it to make it safe to drink. I remember observing that in elementary school (city water), and I could also tell that the water got worse after a heavy rain, because there was more runoff crap in the water and they had to add more chemicals to fine it -- the city reservoir is a dammed section of a creek. This is completely normal though, right? 😉
Anyone else think that bottled water tastes like the plastic bottle it comes in?
And yeah, I don't drink enough water, though I tried harder after the kidney stone. I have concluded that I just don't perceive thirst that much. Or needing to pee.
Water from plastic water bottles often tastes like plastic but most people don't notice.
Why do I feel like you lived my childhood!! Everything you’re explaining I literally understand from the fart smells, sand thing!! I wonder why I was that one child who only would check out paper film books from library with a particular smell ? 😮❤😊
I have a water filter in my fridge and I can taste as soon as the filter needs to be changed. My fiancé can never taste the difference and it blows my mind.
My family are not educated so they refused to believe that I have autism! Even tho it was extremely obvious that I was autistic all my life I never talked or socialized always isolated never took care of myself and never ate always struggled with depression and anxiety and eating disorders couldn’t finish middle school, I’m so glad I got autism diagnosis because everything makes sense now, but my family still don’t want to believe it even tho doctors told them my family made me ashamed of my autism so I don’t speak about it
Ohhhhh man - YES.
All, of, this. (…Even Name-who-farted. 🤣😅)
Especially music as a stim, the taste and *feel* of water, and many types actually causing you to feel *more* thirsty…
and that drive to cause a person to smile in order to brighten their day.
So beautiful …. and RELATABLE.
Tap water was the worst! When I could get clean filtered water, I was much better about drinking water. I used to play with sound dampening a lot as a small child by closing my ear canals. I also liked the texture of smoothed flour, pudding, finger paints, and glue. I still like the smell of scotch tape, playdoh, crayola crayons, and post its. I did the same thing with truck drivers. I didn’t even think about connecting that with my empathetic tendencies.
I’m not diagnosed with autism but all through school i would never talk with kids I’d only talk to the adults unless it was a group project and I had to talk with the kids or I’d only speak with the older kids like I was second grade and talk to a fourth grader ( just an example)
This is fascinating to me, the aversion to drinking water and not having thirst quenched by water alone. I actually often objected to certain flavours as a child on the basis that “it tastes like poison” but couldn’t explain what I meant. I’ve recently discovered that adding unsugared electrolytes to water makes it so much easier for me to drink, and I can gulp down a whole glass without pause whereas it would take me hours to drink the same amount of plain, flat, nasty water. How I struggled to get down the 2 litres I had to drink for my pregnancy ultrasound back in the day!
I remember I caused a huge water bill in my house because in the summer, the water stayed in the pipe get rusty and warm taste, which always result in me opening the tap water until new water come out. And my mom said that month’s water bill is huge, then I stopped.
most of them, i still experience til this day
Most autistic people only lack empathy according to half of the psychological definition. According to the ordinary definition we usually don't have any problem with empathy. Most of us care about people. We often have a hard time reading people. This is called cognitive empathy in psychology. We may lack this. But if we know someone is hurting most of us care. We also might show that we care in a different way than most people do. Our hearts are usually in the right place.
I am more empathetic but not to the people I hate which is most of them
I’ve never heard of anyone else detecting the texture of water! Omg I feel seen!
Im currently gathering evidence and trying ti find out if im autistic but im finding it difficult because right when I think im leaning towards neurodivergent, i watch a video somewhere and convince myself im more neurotypical. I like dplaying with the stuff on the ground at playgrounds, I can tell certain peoples smells but its usually someone very close to me, like family, i definitely get the different tastes and textures in water but my ability to differentiate is not so refined that i stopped using fountains and stuff (though temperature definitely changes taste and texture), and Ive onky rarely had a repeat song. Ive mainly had albums or a single artist that ive put on repeat and disliked listening to anything else. Ive always been kind of okay at adjusting to things, maybe because i had to.
I am so sorry for the long rant! I just needed to put this out here.
the sand on playground one!!! i used to do this in preschool as well , rarely wanted to play with others just wanted to play with the perfect texture of sand in the kiddie tunnel 😭
yep water taste different, i hate the taste of zephyrhills 💀
Listening to the same songs over and over .. give me a choice listen to 20 songs once or my favourite song 20 times in a row and I’d choose the latter, turns out I’m not alone
Thanks for putting yourself out there and ignore the trolls block them don’t even give them a seconds thought
By the way wanted to ask my wife now refers to me as being brain damaged or mentally I’ll, I told her this is not what autism is, how do you talk to your partner about your condition ?
Me also listen to the one song decimal times in row
Wow I clicked this video just thinking it be entertaining and relatable and it turned out to be absolutely fascinating! Now I'm thinking back on the weird stuff I used to do 😋
As a kid, I liked going into stores that had like a black rubber floor and that little colored dots on them. I also always approached sad people, used to be into Christianity, and would ask to pray for them or just cheer them up. Even fellow students who had made fun of me or bullied me.
I bring water everywhere, even fine dining, bc OBVIOUSLY. :D
Shoutout to Martin the water expert!
At an interview.....
Interviewer....OmG well tell me your talents?
Candidate... Fart id technician😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
😅😂🙌🏼 I did the same with the sand it had to be PERFECT! 😂🥹
you showed the tiles 16:20 and I heard them XD.
I related to ALL OF IT 😩
OMG the fart thing! I’m cracking up and we’re only 40 seconds into a video. I thought I was the only one who could do this😭😭😭
Came across your channel recently.
I self diagnosed myself a few months ago. Probably it is Aspergers. I had had a severe depression previous autumn. In the context of the very those thoughts, we visited a psyhiatrist with my parent for the first time at the age of 24, she said it is probably aspergers, but not exactly.
When not being a child , is it possible still having some issues when it comes to study time - concentration, lack of desire, etcerera? In instance, having to learn new knowledge at work, to pass tests or something alike during taking a new degree for a diploma graduation? And I don't know how to name this trait when you form sentences with hardship, though English isn't my first language.
100% I hate drinking water because of the texture my partner cannot wrap his head around that. To me adding squash makes water smoother and nicer to drink. It's not necessarily about the taste!!
Can you do a video on overstimulation?
Yess!!omg