Suicide Prevention Roleplay - I don't want you to leave... - Fan Script

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  • @frostaminimations1785
    @frostaminimations1785 6 ปีที่แล้ว +377

    "I want you there with me when i finally become supreme overlord of the universe."
    Oh

  • @dripgoku7062
    @dripgoku7062 4 ปีที่แล้ว +275

    The listener's last words before death: *It's nerf or nothing*

    • @hippsthehippo9804
      @hippsthehippo9804 4 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Why tf did I laugh.

    • @TheMrmilkyway
      @TheMrmilkyway 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@hippsthehippo9804 same

    • @noggy3133
      @noggy3133 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Holy shit stop.

    • @Blazetron9
      @Blazetron9 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Funny did laugh

    • @fivezz55
      @fivezz55 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Funi

  • @shrekinino4794
    @shrekinino4794 6 ปีที่แล้ว +504

    Lowkey hurts cause noone ever gonna tell me shit like this irl lmaoooooooooof

    • @Mani-ev5uw
      @Mani-ev5uw 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      shrekinino fr

    • @SoradaServalY2K
      @SoradaServalY2K 4 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      @@Mani-ev5uw Not even Squidward's house

    • @unnamed7398
      @unnamed7398 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      lmao exactly what i was thinking

    • @jesuschrist9367
      @jesuschrist9367 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@SoradaServalY2K what Lmao

    • @guyinaroom7771
      @guyinaroom7771 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Fuck, true

  • @thatoneguynoonenotices3200
    @thatoneguynoonenotices3200 4 ปีที่แล้ว +90

    "We are all in the same game just different levels dealing with the same hell just different devils"

    • @kingmaster1075
      @kingmaster1075 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      NGL I've been stuck on level 70 for the past month, the boss is too powerful to defeat, they jacked its attack and defense a shit ton from the level before

    • @Jawsjawsjawsrg
      @Jawsjawsjawsrg 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      For every level there is another devil.

  • @famvirious
    @famvirious 6 ปีที่แล้ว +345

    My boi Seth Rogen looking out for us

    • @NoNONo979
      @NoNONo979 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Seth throwin

    • @mr.mayhem7733
      @mr.mayhem7733 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@NoNONo979 na fam Seth MOWIN

  • @BluePotatoes23
    @BluePotatoes23 5 ปีที่แล้ว +210

    Im suicidal but this video helped me thanks

    • @badgergaming6713
      @badgergaming6713 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Hey i know its been a year since you posted this but if you are still here please message me back on here because you are valued and important and just because i don't know you personally you still matter to me.

    • @badgergaming6713
      @badgergaming6713 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @Xavier Rodriguez omg yeah sorry

    • @melodymell4847
      @melodymell4847 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yoooo im suicidal to yhea kinda shitty if you ask me its been all my life and no contact isnt rlly helping rn

    • @willtheshyguy
      @willtheshyguy 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Hey, you good? I mean I know you posted this a year ago, but are you ok now? I mean. I know what it is like to be down that road and I just kinda want to make sure you are ok. I know I may just be a shyguy that you most likely have never met nor will ever meet...I just want you to know that things get better. It make take time, but I promise you it will. I hope you are alright.

    • @ohshit9386
      @ohshit9386 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Your profile picture and name give me flashbacks

  • @epicsandvich014
    @epicsandvich014 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Honestly, I generally prefer an asmr like this to one where you’re being comforted by a gf or a wife or something. Because I’ve never been in a relationship. And I most likely never will be. I can’t relate to someone loving me.
    But I’ve had friends, I’ve even had a few where I’ve had chats similar to this one. So I can relate to just a heart to heart between two friends, where one is just genuinely concerned for the other. And I’ve been on both sides of it more times than I’d care to count.
    Thanks for the audio.

  • @shadesoul4247
    @shadesoul4247 6 ปีที่แล้ว +58

    "Just one bad day"... Has someone been reading Killing Joke?

  • @DESTROYER5798
    @DESTROYER5798 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I really appreciate this one. I was in a bad state last night and even just a video like this helped me so much. I can't thank you enough for this video.

  • @Rockacroc1928
    @Rockacroc1928 7 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    Heartwarming and beautiful ❤️ Makes me wish I’d had someone as wonderful as that in my dark times

    • @aspiringjoker2883
      @aspiringjoker2883 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I don't know if you're still there my friend, but I know that your dark times have attached themselves to you, forged their chains, and I sincerely hope that someone has found you and managed to help you undo some of these chains. If not, maintain your hope, because they exist my friend, and they'll be lucky to make your acquaintance.

  • @Linksabbiegen
    @Linksabbiegen 7 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    This actually helped me..I am so thankful..thank you so much..I really needed this..

    • @mrtv-tv3ex
      @mrtv-tv3ex 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Everybody need a good slap to the back some weed and a noice friend...i have none of those

  • @Thalion124
    @Thalion124 6 ปีที่แล้ว +132

    Don't worry about me, you can't kill what's already dead inside.

    • @noggy3133
      @noggy3133 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Cringe

    • @kingmaster1075
      @kingmaster1075 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      And you also can't kill me, I have a trigger that pumps cyanide into my blood stream whenever I get caught

    • @marcellofunhouse1234
      @marcellofunhouse1234 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@noggy3133 cringe your going to lose a subscriber

  • @Jesse_Field_00
    @Jesse_Field_00 7 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Holy shit, this is sad! Great job, Vixie. This made me cry, which is very hard to do.

  • @Kickback2108
    @Kickback2108 7 ปีที่แล้ว +136

    I'm sorry, what? Concept by...Seth Rogen? O.0

    • @theawesome5871
      @theawesome5871 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Who's Seth Rogen?

    • @GingerPewbz
      @GingerPewbz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      @@theawesome5871 Actor.

    • @Sir.hydraxis
      @Sir.hydraxis 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I saw the same thing and thought the same thing.

  • @nickkurtz512
    @nickkurtz512 5 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Laughed when I saw it was by Seth Rogen. Sighed when it said about suicide prevention.

  • @maximillian1109
    @maximillian1109 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This really made me think of Life is Stange. It was that same very genuine feel to it, and I almost cried when you cried. It really felt like you were speaking to me. Thank you.^^

  • @johnh.6580
    @johnh.6580 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Ngl I actually cried during the last minute and a half of this. I don't cry.

  • @zinganeatsr4011
    @zinganeatsr4011 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Oh shoot. I remember listening to this when I was suicidal. This audio really got me in my feelings

  • @LuckyLyer
    @LuckyLyer 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Man did I enjoy listening to this everytime I was down, I hope everyone else found this as great as I did

  • @Shionodo
    @Shionodo 7 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Youve really made my day and made me feel better. Thank you vixie. Even though we don't talk, I feel as if you're there for me even through your videos. I wish I could express my gratitude somehow. Thank you vixie. I really needed this. 😔

  • @kallenshaw00
    @kallenshaw00 7 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Something tells me that you went through this before I don't know what to say but im glad you're OK. I hope you feel better.

  • @unnamed7398
    @unnamed7398 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    jokes on you, my depression has manifested for 5 years, and now its unstoppable!

    • @notaspy8944
      @notaspy8944 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Level 2 depression

  • @patricl6961
    @patricl6961 6 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Stay alive! And if everyone needs someone to talk to about stuff, please feel free to write me. Life is tough and it might seem without a reason, but it's there, so once more, Stay alive!

  • @brianwavecrest8843
    @brianwavecrest8843 7 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    I think about suicide every freaking day but the vid does help slightly, good job with it 😝

    • @CT-1255
      @CT-1255 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I do the same thing

  • @davishmayo1643
    @davishmayo1643 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    “You of all people deserve to be happy”
    Immersion broken.

  • @benedictgames
    @benedictgames 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    T-thank you...
    I-I needed it.

  • @TheJuicyBear
    @TheJuicyBear 7 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I wished this video came out a few months ago may of helped me better!!
    But still you awesome for uploading this to help people out!!!

  • @esselllay
    @esselllay 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This did really help me. Thank you.

  • @nickburton6057
    @nickburton6057 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Dude you hit the nail on the head the isolation barely sleeping or eating and getting sick all the time I just recently subscribed but your videos are an awesome escape so thank you

  • @digbybaines7813
    @digbybaines7813 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Vixie, please don't say it'll get better. It doesn't get better. It's been thirty years of waiting and working for it to get better. It doesn't. You make a choice each day to live with the pain that never ever goes away, or not. But for some of us, it never gets better and it's offering a false hope to say that it will.

  • @MrMorerice4me
    @MrMorerice4me 7 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Great video, I'm sure it's bringing comfort to those who need it.

  • @blacknight7559
    @blacknight7559 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    When I feel that nobody cares about me, the only thing I got is this asmr... And I really don't know if that is sad

  • @trollunderbridge2292
    @trollunderbridge2292 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This hits close to home for me, because I was on her side of this conversation just last night...

  • @marcusvigo2065
    @marcusvigo2065 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I wish I had someone who would be there for me when no one else would cause I am very lonely man.

  • @mrmorningstar4216
    @mrmorningstar4216 6 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    There r times where I wish I had a girl in my life like this cause there's not one day that goes by where I don't loath myself or depressed.....i have the stress of setting up my own life and shit with family and I just wish that I could find a girl who will love me for my personality and not cheat on me cause every girl I've been with used me and cheated....and that just made me sink deeper into this depressing black hole. I just want to find love and be loved

    • @Firewolf-mh9gl
      @Firewolf-mh9gl 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I know how you feel,the darkness probably already set in.
      Once it sets in it doesn't go away,live with it
      The pain doesn't go away

    • @isseihyoudou4126
      @isseihyoudou4126 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I'm the same way, my most recent ex cheated on me twice, one time with a girl, and I had no idea till she told me, when I found out I was devestated, I told her later that month (I still hadn't blocked her) that I wanted to kill myself, and guess what she said... Do it, I dont care. Hearing that nearly made me snap bc I heard something like it several years prior and bc she already knew I had massive problems with depression, I went through 2 or 3 months longer in a depressed state and I started cutting about a month or 2 in,. One day during that month I was planning on ending it all and I ended up having a mental breakdown in gym class that same day, my coach noticed my cuts, especially the giant gash on my right arm (and is still there as of writing this) and alerted my counselor, and long story short, a lotta stuff happened. That summer, I tried killing myself but failed cause the noose broke and I hit the ground and now I'm contemplating trying again

    • @rangiem2948
      @rangiem2948 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@isseihyoudou4126 I realised that what would it actually achieve if you end it all. I know what it feels like after something like that it's hard to trust a female in a relationship because of past experience people feel like they're ready for a love life but it turns out it's not worth a relationship It just leads people into a darker hole until you just feel dead Inside. The only way how to get past about being depressed is doing things that can take your mind away from everything. Like doing things you love to do that makes you feel better. I'm not really good at putting words together

  • @scottforget4977
    @scottforget4977 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Wow powerful. Your performance is better then most anime I’ve watched. Great work. :)

  • @rubyrotten
    @rubyrotten 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    God, I’m in such a dark place. These videos help

  • @Burma1
    @Burma1 7 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Really needed this video right now, thank you. Would you be able to do another suicide prevention video sometime in the future?

  • @kallenshaw00
    @kallenshaw00 7 ปีที่แล้ว +80

    Seth Rogen !!!!!!!??????

    • @taduc2989
      @taduc2989 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      yeah me too. wow

  • @plusplus7645
    @plusplus7645 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Makes me feel better about my guilt, it's the root of my psychosis and suicidal thoughts

  • @supermangarritano6636
    @supermangarritano6636 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Watched this again and feels so welcoming and inviting and It helps me try not to end my life. So god bless you so much Vixie

  • @discowing-c6v
    @discowing-c6v 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    i skipped to 1:00 and she yelled 'just do it okay?' an i was like geeze okay woman 😭😭

  • @fatimaortiz7063
    @fatimaortiz7063 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I really needed this last night.

  • @terrencetheminecraftdemon7869
    @terrencetheminecraftdemon7869 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m having a really hard time in school and in life in general this would help defiantly thankyou Vixie

  • @irljesus9396
    @irljesus9396 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    You will find happiness, whether it be in your own heart, or the heart of another. I hope that this is just a temporary stop for you and that you can move forward positively, also dont forget to take a few deep breaths every now and then.

  • @bangcan391
    @bangcan391 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    God its so relaxing, thanks for your work!

  • @RoRo-jj3nh
    @RoRo-jj3nh 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    see I was sitting here crying and appreciating the fact that I have a friend in this video cause god knows I don't have any real ones...then it ended and I'm still cured into a ball being a depressed little shit

  • @hufflepuffprefect.2037
    @hufflepuffprefect.2037 7 ปีที่แล้ว +52

    Okay do u spy on me?... not the first time u get my exact situation

  • @JusticeforPalestine__
    @JusticeforPalestine__ 7 ปีที่แล้ว

    THANK YOU FOR THIS!!! THIS HAS HELPED ME INTERNALLY

  • @InhaledTerror
    @InhaledTerror 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Im going to just leave this here.
    🏃 🚶 🅱

  • @PikminandOatchi
    @PikminandOatchi 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Stay safe guys. Just ..... please stay safe.

  • @chickenn00dlesoup74
    @chickenn00dlesoup74 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    *sob* it hurts worse when i imagine its my friend whos talking to me

  • @xaelch.official
    @xaelch.official ปีที่แล้ว

    Supreme overlord of the universe.. fuck I’m now both crying and laughing at the same time 😂

  • @CatsOfSpades
    @CatsOfSpades 7 ปีที่แล้ว

    I may not be suicidal but every time I listen to related audios like this or videos of folks talking about their position-- how bad of a place they're in, all I want is the best for them. They deserve it. I want them to keep on keeping on and make life their own. Easier said than done, I know, but... god, I just know they're way stronger than what holds them back.

  • @guyinaroom7771
    @guyinaroom7771 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    6:05 it's ok leaving is not a bad thing, a lot of people see it as one though cause of survival instincts so it makes sense
    6:35 nooooo, people always say "suicide is compulsive" but it's not, no matter how sad or successful I'll be, my philosophy and logic won't change

  • @InhaledTerror
    @InhaledTerror 5 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    HONEY WHERE'S MY SUPER SUIT

  • @donteventry6740
    @donteventry6740 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks for making me laugh at the end. 😊

  • @David-lb5py
    @David-lb5py 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Honestly I’m terrified of hugs because I’m scared that once they hug me I will start crying and won’t know how do deal with my problems alone again

  • @frostbitemelondemon2969
    @frostbitemelondemon2969 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    As someone who's ended up in a Mental Hospital for being a danger to both myself and other's, I can relate to this... I cut regularly and hide it for the fear of being judged... being left... burdening other's with my problems...

  • @GobleshTheSlime
    @GobleshTheSlime 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Oh i should run from partys more if i get movies and a shower
    I am so bad at crying people

  • @okuyasunijimura9321
    @okuyasunijimura9321 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey, I feel a lot better now. Thank you

  • @spaceperson613
    @spaceperson613 7 ปีที่แล้ว

    I wish I could put into words how much better this made me feel after tearing up than yelling into my wall

  • @DJkazinova
    @DJkazinova 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    How long does it take for things to get better? Because it has been six years and a day hasn't gone by, where I don't think about how easy it would be to let go. To surrender to that cold and comforting dark. To finally be at peace.

    • @sewshyamvs4335
      @sewshyamvs4335 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Well first off why are you deppresed

    • @rangiem2948
      @rangiem2948 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@sewshyamvs4335 you don't know that feeling do you. It's not easy people who are depressed can't let go of the past no matter how hard they try it will always crawl right back. And no it's not easy to just let it go of depression the only way how is injoying the things that depressed people can let it go when doing the things they love to do in life. And that might be going for a walk/run or a drive to a peaceful relaxing place away from the city. Or lesion to there favourite music. Cook. Play a musical instrument. Go to the gym. drawing . Movies. TV shows. Yoga. meditation. Anything that can relax and calm depressed person and

  • @ghostfoxundead7524
    @ghostfoxundead7524 7 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    When you feel used up you can always count on a friend like this

  • @grin6078
    @grin6078 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I mean Im not depressed but this helps you even if you're okay

  • @mnpstudios6777
    @mnpstudios6777 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Been awhile since I've listened to this 👌🏻

  • @kingmaster1075
    @kingmaster1075 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Who said I was planning to die I was going absolutely crazy an-........not again *not again* NOT AGAIN *NOT AGAIN I DON'T WANT TO DO IT AGAIN*

    • @kingmaster1075
      @kingmaster1075 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      *WHY IS IT HAPPENING AGAIN I THOUGHT I STOPPED IT, EVERY TIME I THINK I HAVE IT UNDER CONTROL IT COMES BACK*

  • @sobored761
    @sobored761 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I listen to these almost every night

  • @Lego_deadpool-o5u
    @Lego_deadpool-o5u ปีที่แล้ว

    A bath with an plugged in Toaster Looks really damn good rn

  • @firedrill3820
    @firedrill3820 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    6:43 that caught me off guard 😂

  • @nickkastner3841
    @nickkastner3841 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    i was gonna overdose and put on depression music and i wrote a death note but i didnt do it

  • @ryanhaddon4262
    @ryanhaddon4262 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I wish someone would say that to me.

  • @joemoma9713
    @joemoma9713 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    AYO WASN’T THIS IN THE CARL WHEEZER LOFI EP?!

  • @crazyanimegamer5667
    @crazyanimegamer5667 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    By Seth Rogen? Well I'll be!!!

  • @Sax_marineCRTR
    @Sax_marineCRTR 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Great now there are tears in my tea T-T

  • @rubyrotten
    @rubyrotten 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I cried so much listening to this.

  • @TheTsar1918
    @TheTsar1918 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hey, tried to send a regular message but my phone sucks. Just wanted to check and see if you were OK, what with these damn California fires...

  • @williammagnaye8315
    @williammagnaye8315 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This makes me wanna have a gf, but then again, they could cheat on my polygon looking ass, so might as well not try.

  • @Monster_Lover
    @Monster_Lover ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you.

  • @Dio-mx9yu
    @Dio-mx9yu 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So did you trun the shower on and leave it running the trun it off for that one part?

    • @tkts8782
      @tkts8782 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      The water bill is gonna be in another level

  • @BlueGuise9
    @BlueGuise9 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Nice script, brilliant performance.

  • @fivezz55
    @fivezz55 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thanks Seth.

  • @MinoMadness
    @MinoMadness 7 ปีที่แล้ว

    If it were not for the fact that My death would flip everyone i know's life on it's head, I would have probobly taken my own life years Ago.
    So if you ever think about comiting suicide, stop being so selfish. Your passing will cause the pain you feel and more to everyone you know.
    So stay strong. If not for you, but for the people you love.

  • @emmaparkinson3503
    @emmaparkinson3503 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you

  • @illinside
    @illinside 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just accept the pain at this point. I give some people the chance to help me, no one will take it. I bet even if I called the hotline I'd still be waiting for death.

  • @Itspapacritz
    @Itspapacritz 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    problem is alot of guys dont have that a girl to help them and for those guys viewing this comment i am sorry sincerly i hurt for you and you will be fine

  • @FourOverZero
    @FourOverZero 7 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Waifu posttttteddd

  • @hideousfive3978
    @hideousfive3978 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I can’t tell if they are dating or just really good friends

  • @alexconn7473
    @alexconn7473 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I never once have considered committing suicide but if I did this video will probably pull me right out of it

  • @joshuavaughan5899
    @joshuavaughan5899 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I really wish I had a friend like this

  • @SONIC.431
    @SONIC.431 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    RIP Kobe Bryant

  • @UltraArska666
    @UltraArska666 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you

  • @nothingmattersanymore8135
    @nothingmattersanymore8135 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Wish i had this the 3 times i tried

  • @army-unit-of-the-uk
    @army-unit-of-the-uk 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    i only clicked this cuz i was planing to end it all to day but i will keep trying and the sad thing is i have only been happy for a few weeks and now i feel even sh*ter then ever be for i can't stop drinking and staying in my home and its a nightmare that follows me ever ware but i'm trying to get help all cuz of war and that's the end of my story

  • @atomwalker7540
    @atomwalker7540 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    vixie voice sounds exactly like Fake ASMR

  • @haraldhwick
    @haraldhwick 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    We can always die later, cause we cant truly live when we die... so has anyone here truly lived?

  • @meowmeowsuga86
    @meowmeowsuga86 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Ik this is old but it made me cry😭😭😭😭

  • @tiredhuman2252
    @tiredhuman2252 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Okay tbh IF SOMEONE DID THIS TO ME I'D LOVE THEM FOREVER, f r e s h t o w e l s, t e a AAAA and also this was so GOOD-

  • @jackmortem4557
    @jackmortem4557 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Seth is a good man.

  • @twtaxe3774
    @twtaxe3774 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Some tea..what is this bloody England.